February 14, 2025 • 40 mins
Through humorous anecdotes and sharp cultural critiques, this episode explores Valentine's Day, pop culture disappointments, and personal relationship insights. We touch on Grammy absurdities, navigating love, and the importance of self-care amidst life's chaos.
• Reflections on being under the weather and how it impacts experiences
• Insights into the Super Bowl and shifting perspectives on sports
• Exploring Grammy highlights and controversies surrounding Beyoncé
• Critical look at Billie Eilish's unexpected snubs
• Sharing personal relationship anecdotes and the importance of emotional reciprocity
• Review of "Heart Eyes" focusing on dark comedy and romance tropes
• Discussion on Mike Flanagan's series highlighting themes of grief and family
• Managing daily frustrations and the importance of self-care amidst chaos
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Speaker 1 (00:42):
All right people, what's up this week?
Sorry for the delay in theepisode.
I've not been feeling good.
My allergies are killing me.
You can tell by the way I soundthat I'm all congested and shit
.
So I don't have much to talkabout this week because, like I
said I've just been, myallergies are killing me and I
just got that lazy bug kickedback in me.
I am working out, though.
So, as lazy as I want to be,I'm not letting myself be that
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lazy.
So I worked out Monday, tuesdayand yesterday, because today's
Friday Happy Valentine's Day, bythe way, for all of you who
celebrate that If you don't havea love of your life happy
Galentine's Day or boys nightout.
Whatever the fuck you're goingto do, enjoy it, enjoy it, have
fun.
If you have like a wife andkids, enjoy it, enjoy it, have
fun.
Uh, if you have like a wife andkids, enjoy that too.
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Um, if you just plan to go tothe gym and be swole,
congratulations on that.
Pretty sure that the gyms mightbe empty today, who knows Cause
.
A lot of people like to pig outon holidays such as this one,
which I don't really know if youcan count that as a holiday,
because we still have to go towork.
So some people have requestedoff for what I don't know.
I was about to call out sickearlier because I was just so
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tired, was up all night, for themost part Just tired.
I don't, I don't get it, butit's fine, I'll get through it.
I get through it witheverything, let me see.
So.
The Super Bowl was last weekend.
It was pretty good.
The first time I didn'tactually hate watching football.
It's pretty intense.
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Other times I really don't payattention to that shit only
because you know, when I was inhigh school I was in the
marching band and all I used todo was really like, just chill.
Like a lot of the people I wasin the marching band with didn't
actually pay attention to thesport itself.
Like the person I was in themarching band with didn't
actually pay attention to thesport itself.
Like the person I was dating atthe time ran cross country and
he was interested in becomingthe next fucking Kurt Cobain.
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Whatever I grew his hair outand everything.
They were calling him Jesus forthe longest time.
It was the stupidest thing.
Then he cut his hair andeverybody's like, oh my God,
he's so handsome and I'm likebro, I was dating him before you
got his hair.
Anyway, that was the stupidestpart of high school for me was
being told that I'm dating Jesus.
And then you know the back andforth of on and off, on again,
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off again.
Dating for four years in highschool, with everyone watching
you, everyone judging what ayear to be alive.
High school, all four years.
It's actually where Dan and Ibecame friends.
Um, kind of fell off a littlebit, but cause of him, so cause
of him.
Anyway.
No, it's cause of me, but it'swhatever.
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Uh, so the Superbowl was good.
The whole Kendrick Lamarhalftime show was not bad.
Um, I honestly didn't want towatch it at first, cause I don't
really care about these beefspeople have.
Like these rappers have beefwith one another and we're
supposed to all stop and be likeoh my God, he said what and
that's all that's been happeningthis week.
That's all that's beenhappening this week is everybody
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is so focused on.
Oh my God, he said Drake's nameon TV and he's going to get
sued by Drake and this and that,and I'm like Drake is like a
Karen of rap these days.
Okay, it looks like he's justgoing to be mad about everything
for the rest of his life tillhe dies.
Also, speaking of things thatdon't make sense, uh, beyonce
won best country album.
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I'm going to tell you againBeyonce, at the Grammys, won,
won Best Country Album and Ithink that's the biggest farce
that happened during the Grammys.
Let me see this shit, let's see, let's see.
Yes, country Album 2025.
Un-fucking-believable Beyoncéentered the night with the most
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nominations 11 for her albumCowboy Carter, becoming the most
nominated artist in Grammyhistory, with 99 throughout her
career.
In addition to the album of theyear, she also won Best Country
Album and Best Country DuoGroup Performance.
This is insane to me.
This is insane to me.
I feel like I'm being pranked.
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There's no poss.
Oh my God.
I feel like I want to throw upbecause this, this, what is
happening?
What's going on?
Are we just doing whatever youwant?
Now I feel like Beyonce said, orJay-Z said to Beyonce hey, just
for laughs, to see how thisgoes, because you have a tribe
of people behind you, why don'tyou put out a country album and
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see what happens?
And Beyonce was like oh, jay-z,you're so stupid.
And then one day she turnedaround and she goes this ain't
country.
And we're like bitch, what?
No, no, nobody's flabbers havebeen gassed, okay, it's just.
No, I think you took it fromsomeone else who probably
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deserved it more, and I'm tiredof this whole Beyehive shit.
I don't care you could be partof it or not, I don't care.
It's just.
It's not even about who youknow, because who the fuck are
they connected to?
And if you say Illuminati to me,I swear to love the Lord, I
swear to the Lord.
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Okay, don't say it to me.
Um, dan, that means you too,cause I know you're going to
text me that shit and I'm goingto get so angry all over again
or I'm going to be like, whatare you talking about?
Because after I write, after Ido this podcast, I don't
remember shit of what I've saidabout it and I don't listen to
it.
I don't like how my own voicesounds, even though you know the
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mixing and the engineering andwhatever the sound.
Engineering sounds great, it'sjust I don't.
I don't like how I sound at theend of the day, okay, so, uh,
yeah, she, I don't.
I think there's so many otherbetter options out there.
Like Billie Eilish wonabsolutely nothing, and watching
the TikToks of her lose everycategory she was nominated in
breaks my heart a little bit,only because you know you
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couldn't feel sadder for someonewho's younger than you that has
such high hopes of something,and you just see them
disappointed and the level ofdisappointment increases with
each category that your name'sinvolved in.
It's kind of why I don't liketo play like bingo or any shit
like that.
Like you know how long I wenton a cruise when I was younger I
think it was my 21st birthdayand they had bingo as one of the
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events.
So of course I'm one of thosepeople who's made to watch
things.
Like I'm more programmed towatch things than I am to
participate, because if there'sa guarantee that I'm not going
to win, I don't want to bebothered.
So I went to the thing with mygrandmother.
I played a little bit and, uh,got close but didn't win.
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And you know that sense ofdisappointment is just something
else.
So as an adult or further alongin adulthood because at 21, I
don't really feel like you're anadult yet You're just kind of
like wading into the pool ofadulthood.
I was kind of like you knowwhat?
I don't want to feel like thisever again.
So anything I've ever done thatI've put 110% effort into that
doesn't work out.
I just fucking leave or I quitor whatever it is.
And that's true ofrelationships too, like I was
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dating this guy, and what'sfunny is is that I hate that.
I'll always remember that thisbitch said this to me because I
don't like her.
Okay, she tried to mother me atwork and I have a mother.
I don't need a work mother, Ihave one, I have my own mother.
She's alive.
So she used to give me advicethat was never asked for, never
needed, never desired, neversought her out for.
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And uh, windows, you're notgoing to restart my shit while
I'm talking, so I keep gettingthe notification to be update
your computer, update yourWindows, shut the fuck up.
So this woman that I workedwith her name is Donna.
I worked in a nursing home fora little bit back in New York
when I was recording my otherpodcast and again still have to
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figure out how to upload thoseback into iTunes If you guys are
interested iTunes, applepodcasts.
I'm an idiot.
So she said to me one day when Iwas complaining about boyfriend
woes and at this point I thinkI was like a year in with this
person and uh, I was talking toher about it and, uh, she told
me that you shouldn't datesomeone who can't, you know,
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give you like put into arelationship where you're
putting putting into it.
Like everybody has a differentwell depth of well in their body
, like you know what a well isright, you pull water from it,
whatever.
So she said you should neverdate someone whose well depth
isn't as much as yours, so youcan't be pouring out more of
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yours than he is from his.
And that always stuck with mebecause I was like what a weird
thing to say, but it's alwaysbeen true and I always followed
that.
After that, and anytime thatI've been in a relationship
where I'm like, wow, thisfucking person is just what
happened.
Because when you first meetsomeone it's at an all-time high
, all right, you're alwaystrying to do and impress for
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each other and whatever andwhatever.
And then little by little itstarts to decline.
And I love how we're talkingabout this on Valentine's Day.
Isn't this so cynical?
It goes from being not reallyhappy with each other but just
like, definitely 110% going outof the way for somebody Doing
something you wouldn't have donefor your past partner, because
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you're trying to like prove pastyou that the reason the person
dumped you is incorrect.
So like, for example, say, youget dumped because you don't
communicate enough.
So you go into your nextrelationship and you're
communicating too much and thatperson dumps you because you
communicate too much.
So then you go into the nextone and you kind of like shut
the fuck up.
Like that's what it is is thatthere's always a chain of you
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thinking that you have to changeyourself.
I think that when you get to 30,though you kind of like are
like, ah well, fuck you if youdon't like me, like that's
essentially what it is when youget to your 30s, you're like,
yeah, well, if you don't fuckinglike me, then I don't fucking
know what to tell you, becausewhen I went into my relationship
with my boyfriend now I kind ofwas like he actually lets me be
myself and is not like runningin another direction.
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I do have a story, though thatkind of like makes me mad, but
it's fine, we're trying to movepast it, we're not trying to
bring it up anymore.
I don't like being ghosted,okay, and I think my boyfriend,
very early on, was trying toghost me, which is really funny
because I always bring it upevery now and then, because
sometimes it hits a soft spot,because it's like how could you
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ditch all this?
Okay, how could you not wantall this flavor?
Like not even that.
But the fact that we'd alreadybeen intimate made me laugh too.
I'm like what's the typicalbullshit?
You know you date someone oryou kind of like, just hey,
let's meet on an app and like,fuck around and this and that,
and you just like never talkagain.
Meanwhile your parts havetouched.
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And then you just walk throughlife and then one day just bump
into them like, oh hey, tryingto get like fucking milk or
cottage cheese or some shitthat's really unattractive at a
store in front of them.
Anyway, uh, yeah, parts havetouched is what a picture I'm
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thinking about.
It now makes me laugh.
Like who the fuck says thatparts of touched Anyway?
So, yeah, early on, it didn't.
It didn't start off as smooth aseverybody would like to say and
I'm not gonna lie to you aboutanything Like he and I did not
start out smooth at all, it wasnot okay.
And then, of course, you knowyou start doing that thing where
you post for attention to belike, oh, he'll look at this and
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he'll be like, oh, whathappened?
And it happened and it worked.
Trapped his ass.
No, I'm kidding, uh, I love him, he's nuts, he'll be home later
.
Um, I'm enjoying the silenceright now until his big, loud
ass gets home.
He knows, knows, he's loud,there's nothing new.
But that shit's so funny Partstouch, sorry, I just can't get
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over that.
So anyway, the Super Bowl wasfine, it was whatever.
I don't like the fact thatBeyonce won for Miss Country
album.
We're all mad over here aboutit because everybody I know well
, nobody really likes Beyonce orTaylor Swift at this point in
my family, because I'm waitingfor Taylor Swift and Travis
Kelsey to break up and I'msaying it now because she might
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date quote, unquote losersbecause of personality.
But they lost the Super Bowl.
And it's not even a spoileralert at this point.
I'm telling you because it'sbeen everywhere.
The Eagles won, okay.
And it's not even a spoileralert at this point.
I'm telling you because it'sbeen everywhere.
The Eagles won, okay, theEagles won, and it was
impressive how they stomped theshit out of the Chiefs, anyway,
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impressive.
And then, of course, I'm yellingto my boyfriend, who's in the
other room, who's in this exactcomputer room.
I'm yelling for him to hurry upso he could tell me what's
going on, because I'm justwatching dudes in tight pants
run back and forth on a field,understanding what scores mean,
just don't understand everythingelse.
So I'm like why they do that?
What dis, why they go that way.
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Now, like I'm asking questions,like I'm a baby.
I'm like, hey, can you comeback so you can teach me things?
Not that I'm ever gonna watchfootball again.
Like I back so you can teach methings.
Not that I'm ever going towatch football again.
Like I don't watch anythingother than the Super Bowl.
I don't give a fuck about thosebrackets.
Anyway, over the weekend, lastweekend, we also saw Heart Eyes,
which was really good.
It was actually one of the morerealistic slasher movies we've
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ever seen, not in violence, butjust the plain fact that two
people should be able to takeout a killer.
It's two against one.
This should not be difficult.
Math always exceedsexpectations here.
So basically it's the story ofa serial killer who likes to go
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around killing couples onValentine's Day.
Okay, just cause.
No real reason, just cause.
And uh, it's.
It's the.
The way it opened was very.
It was very like cliched.
I'm sure it's not going to getthe best ratings, but if you
have a chance to see it, youshould see it only because of
its dark humor.
Slash very light comedy.
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Slash um plays off of everyironic romance movie.
There is these two people whoare not on a date end up kissing
out in public.
They're work colleagues.
Okay, she sees her ex, who shebroke up with outside this
restaurant because they weresupposed to have like a dinner
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work thing.
And she sees her ex outsidewith his new woman.
So she pulls the work colleaguein the mail I forget their
names already.
Who cares?
The chick pulls the dude in infront of her ex and like kisses
him in public, thereby, I guess,classifying them as a couple to
whoever is watching and hardeyes is watching.
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So they get tracked the wholemovie Like they are stalked the
whole movie by this killer.
And very it's good because ofhow realistic it is.
The girl can't shoot a gun forshit, even though she tries um.
Realistic because all of asudden, every movie we're in oh
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yeah, I had training when I wasyounger and just doesn't tell
the other person until a guncomes into play.
So very good, it was very good.
If you have a chance to see it.
See it, the plot twist wasreally good and they even made a
nod to other movies, like Fastand Furious with Hobbes and Shaw
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, because that's what the policeofficers names were.
I was like, wow, that's reallyfucking clever.
And then my boyfriend taps meand he goes, hey, hobbes and
Shaw.
And I'm like, yeah, yeah, fastand Furious reference, got it,
got it.
Movie's still on.
Like, stop tapping me.
No, I just laughed because hedoesn't realize he's speaking
louder than he should be in themovies, which I love about him
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because it shows a level ofexcitement.
But it's also like, bro,there's so many other people in
this movie theater, you can justlean to me and speak directly
in my ear and I'll hear you.
Okay, moving on, I'm back on thehaunting series, hill House and
Bly Manor.
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I'm watching all the shit MikeFlanagan put out, except
Midnight Mass and that stupidMidnight Book club shit,
whatever it was.
Um, I did not like midnightmass and purely because the
ending does not justify any ofthe rest of the storytelling.
Like how do you ruin the endingof a vampire story for me?
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Like you had me.
You had me the whole time bythe bra straps.
All right, you had me by thetitty holsters and I'm watching.
I'm stuck, I'm ruining my spine,leaning forward on my couch
watching this thing like yee,watching it like Ooh, what's
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going to happen next?
And you know, just watching it,just sitting watching it, and
bullshit happened at the end.
Okay, I'm not even going todignify any of the storyline
with you, but I'm going to justsay that vampires are not angels
and stay away from crazyBible-thumping people who think
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that their life is going to beso different because they met
with a fucking vampire anyway.
So that's why I don't like that.
You can give me any story youwant.
Okay, don't fuck up the ending.
Don't give me some lacklusterending where I really don't even
know what.
I watched for seven other hours, because these episodes are all
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an hour long with miniseries.
Anyway, I'm not watching itagain.
So the saddest one out of themI'm actually watching the Fall
of the House of Usher, which Ithink was absolutely chef's kiss
, the best one of them.
The writing was extraordinary.
I don't know how Mike Flanagandoes it, not that he wrote it,
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but I'm just saying just thecreativity alone.
Carla Gugino kills everythingshe's in, everything she's in
within that series.
She plays the mom in the HillHouse the dead mom, I should say
.
She plays the narrator of BlyManor and she plays I don't know
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, I guess you could call her theGrim Reaper in the Fall of the
House of Usher.
It's just so good and she'sjust stellar and everything's
like she puts her whole bodyinto these, into these fucking
roles, like her mind or that,and I just need her to be in
more shit.
That's all I'm saying.
And yes, the mom from Spy Kids,that's what I'm talking about,
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anyway.
So Hill House was one of thesadder ones I feel, and I don't
recall ever feeling as emotionalas I did with one of the
episodes, and it has to do withthe brother, luke, who is a drug
addict, who's just been in andout of rehabs for like a decade
now.
Sorry, I just hit the mic.
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He's been in and out of rehabfor like a decade.
It doesn't seem to stick well,and all of this trauma that this
family has gone through has todo with Hill House.
It all stems from where theygrew up.
So then it goes back in timeand you find out that the
parents are house flippers.
They take the houses, theyimprove them and they sell them
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and they move on to the nextthing.
So Hill House was to be theirlast project for their forever
house.
So that's the end game Fix HillHouse, get out of there,
whatever.
But they don't know that thehouse has a sinister background.
They don't know that.
They just know that this is areally old house, like centuries
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old at this point, and thatthey just don't know what's
behind it all the ghosts and allthe stories and everything.
And the housekeepers come withthe house because of, you know,
previous ownership.
That was just the standard thatthe housekeepers came with it
and that's it, the scene withthe.
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So, luke, obviously he's seen alot of things growing up in that
house and it follows him intoadulthood.
And obviously his mom havingcommitted suicide is another
thing that takes a toll on him.
And drugs is like his onlysalvation, I guess, because he
doesn't have to think about whathappened to him as a kid, which
is just being haunted by ghostsand the memory of his mother,
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who he'll never meet.
So he discusses how you know,he didn't think that he could
make it 90 days sober, which isprobably the longest he's ever
been sober.
And you just see what happensto him.
They start with his littlespeech of him acknowledging his
90 day sobriety, and then theycut that off and then they show
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what happened as like a littlemini story not a, not a
flashback of anything he's done,but the fact that you know it's
not even a flashback anythinghe's done, but the fact that you
know it's not even a flashbackbecause he did all of this shit.
After that, um, they cut off hisspeech because it's very
important to show what happenswhich is basically a girl he
befriends in the rehab centerdecides to leave and just leaves
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without warning and um set andleaves a note behind that says
don't follow me.
So what does he do?
He follows her, basically, butif you leave a place like that,
you can't come back because theyit makes it seem like you're
not taking your recovery processseriously and they have more
beds to offer other people.
So they fill up beds reallyquickly because it's a popular
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place to be and, uh, or thatfacility was popular.
So you see him leave, try andgo get her and, um, a situation
goes from bad to worse because,like throughout the episode, and
it's just so painful to watchbecause he's trying to do the
right thing by this person toget her back in there, get her
clean.
She leaves, uh, essentiallybecause she can't deal with it
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anymore and she ends up goingout and getting drugs.
And he says, and he tries to gether a room, like he tries to
get her someplace, to come downand try and get her back into
the program, and while all thisis happening he doesn't know
that his twin sister is dead.
So he's feeling like the twinsympathy or twin empathy,
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whatever it is.
When one twin feels whateverthe other twin is feeling.
He's feeling all the stuff thatshe felt, I guess, like her
neck hurts.
His neck hurts because shefucking hung herself and snapped
her neck, so he has neck pain.
He said his body feels cold,like his arms and legs feel cold
, and it's basically becauseshe's dead.
So, and obviously your bodytemp drops when you die because
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she's dead.
So and obviously your, yourbody temp drops when you die
because you're not regulatinganything within yourself,
obviously and no, I'm not amedical person, so that's just
you know, based off of what Isaw and, um, he's, he tries to
go get her back.
He fucking she's, she gets theslip on him in an alleyway
because she said she's going totake her hit.
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That she took and then she'llbe like we'll go.
After that we'll go.
He then ends up getting notturned around or anything.
But he lost her.
He doesn't know where she isnow.
So, of course, at that point,it's just him now and he's
walking around and he's walkingaround all night by himself
looking for her and he getsjumped.
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And these's walking around andhe's walking around all night by
himself looking for her and hegets jumped and they, these
people, beat him pretty bad.
They take his shoes, hisjackets, and now he's just
walking around in socks.
What the fuck is this?
Okay, um, there's a building.
Management makes no sense.
Sorry, I was looking at anotification I got.
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So he's walking back and forthand he's seeing the tall man
from his childhood which is oneof the ghosts in the house that
wore the top hat, and he'scounting down.
And he's walking back and forthand back and forth and he's
telling the story of how, whenhe was younger, he's walking
back and forth and back andforth and he's telling the story
of how, when he was younger, hedidn't understand what.
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He didn't understand what deathmeant.
So he always thought that hismom was coming back.
So when he was living with hisaunt he always used to look
outside because there was carsthat would drive by and he said
that he thought that one daythat his mom would get out of
the car.
And he said that he thoughtthat one day that his mom would
get out of the car, his momwould get out of the car and he
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would see her again and shewould be fine and everything
would be better.
And obviously that neverhappened for him.
So that just kind of like brokemy heart, because you went from
seeing him be in such a goodplace at the start of him
telling his sobriety story tohim being found walking back and
forth with no jacket, justsocks, pants, t-shirt and just
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all beat up in the face,whatever.
And uh, he, he had called thebefore he was pacing back and
forth.
He had called the facility andwas like, please, I'll sleep on
the floor.
He's like, just please, I needa bed.
He's like I couldn't find her,I couldn't save her, I couldn't
fix it.
So the lady, the person runningthe rehab, goes where are you,
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we'll come get you.
And his brother shows up andI'm like, thank God, it just
made me feel so good for thebrother to actually show up.
His older brother, stevenStephen, shows up and picks him
up with the woman who's runningthe facility and he tells him
that you know, uh, stephen tellsLuke that you know their, their
sister Nellie, died and he saidhow did it happen?
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And he goes it was by suicide.
And Luke goes no, it wasn't.
But, like the, the whole thingof the episode is where it
starts at a high point and itshows the decline of one person
in one day for actions that he'staken to help someone else.
And it just made me sad because, as a person who lost their
parent very young, I can, youknow, empathize with that.
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Like I feel that, like youalways think, like I never met
him, so I have no idea, but I'mtold I have his laugh, I have
his facial features, I have theshoulders, the wide shoulders he
had, and it's just being toldall that shit and not actually
having seen or dealt or heard itor anything like that, I
wouldn't even be able to tellyou what he sounded like other
than videos I've seen like homemovies.
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So, being that I never,actually, whenever I've had the
opportunity to watch this show,I've never had the opportunity
to watch it alone.
So there's always been someonearound and I've never felt
comfortable about crying next tosomebody, unless it's something
so devastating that I can'thold it in, like when Glenn died
on the Walking Dead.
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That shit devastated me and mymother and it doesn't matter how
many times I've seen it, it'sjust the saddest thing ever.
So it was that part that got me, and I forget what the other
one, oh yeah, so that part gotme.
And the last line, that the thatthe father says to Steve,
steven, the dad says to Steven,which is basically you know,
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being your dad was the best partof my life, my whole life.
And I was like, damn, dude,they trying to kill me with this
shit.
And like, even now, like I'mfeeling the lump in the throat,
yet before you start crying, I'mlike, bro, he goes, all of this
is yours now.
Because he, Steven, finallyrealizes what he's.
What he's been seeing ormissing his whole life was that
ghosts fucking exist.
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Because the whole series startsout with Steven being a skeptic
and not believing that there'sghosts anywhere.
So, um, he, he's gone his wholelife not believing it, but he
writes other people's storiesabout it.
So he'll go write a short story, like a book of short stories
about this.
But he's not a believer, sonone of it is actually any of
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his.
And he wrote the book aboutHill House and kind of tore his
family apart because it was noneof his experiences, so he has
no actual idea of what happenedthe night his mother died.
He wrote it based off of whathis siblings experienced and all
of his siblings resented himfor that, for writing that book.
But he got so much money off ofit he like kind of secretly
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gave it to siblings.
But all in all, very good.
That first, that first one, blyManor, was kind of.
The only time I ever felt sadwatching Bly Manor was when the
housekeeper, hannah Gross,realizes that she died.
Because it's the same premise.
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Basically you die on theproperty, you become a ghost
there.
The story itself is crazy.
But the only part that actuallygot me upset was when they go
through the entire thing becauseher, her Owen, the guy that she
actually likes, that's the cookthere and sometimes the valet,
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um, he, uh, he was like in lovewith her a little bit.
Like they had this secretflirtation thing that everybody
saw but nobody talked about.
And um, sorry I have to click alittle bit for my job.
Sorry I have to click a littlebit for my job, but um she, they
like loved each other but justnever said it out loud.
And um he's.
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They keep spiraling back todifferent things that have
happened with her in hersubconscious, um, or what's left
of it, which is different partsof her life, that happened that
changed her, or differentmilestones in her life that are
important, such as when shemeets Owen, when she finds out
her husband's with some otherwoman, when her bosses or her
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female boss tells her she couldlive a blind manner because, you
know, sell your house and justlive here.
What if we made it a live-inposition?
Just live here.
What if we made it a live inposition?
Like things like that.
And when things worked out forher in a positive way.
But every time she kept comingback to her, interviewing Owen
as the chef, to like get a feelfor him and just be like hey, if
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you're going to be a cook here,here's the kids ages.
They're picky, they're notpicky.
This is what this one's like.
This is like cause it's about.
Oh, it's Miles and Flora arethe two kids, so she's basically
prepping him on what he wouldbe doing, like you'd be running
the entire kitchen because wedon't have anybody else here.
And I see you have, you know,reading his resume out to him.
And, uh, he's trying to get herto focus because she's like, oh
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my God, we're doing this again.
He goes, I guess so, and shewas like, why is this happening?
And he goes because you need tosee.
And she keeps seeing thissymbol, like this crack in the
wall, everywhere she goes andevery in every like dream
sequence, quote unquote, thatcomes their way and that's all.
It is An episode of rotatingthrough dream sequences to us
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anyway, to the audience ofeverything she's done, which is
interviewing Owen, staying atthe manor, having conversations
with Rebecca, who was thelive-in au pair at the time, and
he's like I need you to focus,like I really need you, like we
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can't keep doing this, like youhave to do something.
He's like you can't just stayhere and be safe.
You're not that selfish.
Like go help them.
They need your help Becausecrazy shit is happening in the
real world.
And she still has theopportunity to help them while
she can, and even though she'slike a ghost, but she's like a
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ghost, but she's like a ghostwho can touch things.
So I think that's weird and ithappens so early on in the
episode.
That's the other thing.
And just to be walking aroundand not knowing, and then the
whole episode, you just hear herreminding herself of who she is
, what year it is, how old thekids are and such and such,
because she doesn't want hermemories to fade.
And I was like Jesus Christ,bro, break my heart a little
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harder, why don't you?
But yeah, that episode gets meevery time because I'm like, oh
fuck, here it is Every time Isee it and she was just a good
person and she didn't deserve todie the way she did and it was
crazy.
Like it wasn't even like afreak accident, it was just like
push and that was it.
But blind manners, okay,doesn't compare to Hill house.
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Well, neither of them comparedto follow the house.
Usher, I can't wait to see whatthe next one's going to be, to
be honest with you, um, anyway,um.
Oh, one more thing before I go,because I said it was going to
be short today, because I don'thave much, uh why?
I've noticed a lot of thingswhile driving lately and I feel
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like I've calmed down a lot withdriving because I'm not going
to be the dickhead who blocks aturning lane for no reason,
because I have somewhere to go.
If I'm stuck in traffic, I'mstuck in traffic and I'm not
going to make anybody else stuck, okay.
So riddle me this.
You're driving, you come to aturn lane, like an oncoming turn
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lane, so like if I'm going eastand west is coming towards me
and there's a turn lane from thewest side, am I going to
fucking block that turning lane,so the people back up the other
side as well, or am I going tobe polite as fuck and realize
we're all stuck in the samepredicament and fucking just let
people have the space to maketheir turn so at least they can
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go?
What am I going to do?
Everybody knows me, thatlistens to this knows that I'm
just going to keep the space forthem because I'm not an asshole
.
Keep the space for them becauseI'm not an asshole, okay, I
don't understand how you thinkthat it is okay to block that
lane.
I've seen so many people do thatthis week and I want to get out
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of my car and like thrownickels at their car Nickels and
just be like hi, what the fuckare you doing at 730 in the
morning?
We're all trying to getsomewhere.
Let this.
What the fuck are you doing at7.30 in the morning?
We're all trying to getsomewhere.
Let this person go the fuckhome.
You don't know if they're afirst responder for shit.
You don't know if they're EMTfirefighter.
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You don't know what the fuck'sgoing on.
Let these people go home.
Or let these people go gettheir donut from Dunkin' Donuts.
Let people enjoy life.
I swear to God, the day where Idon't have to go into an office
and see motherfuckers drivingthis stupidly is the day that I
happily cry on this fuckingpodcast because I just don't get
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it.
Like, people are so road rageyand I thought I was the worst.
It is so much worse in Florida.
Just let people drive.
Anyway, I just don't.
I just don't get it.
Today I have a lot of prep workto do on myself.
Yesterday I went to Europeanwax center and then I got a
pedicure, and today, yes, apedicure.
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And today I'm going to wax myeyebrows and get myself a
haircut and I'm already tiredthinking about it.
But I wanted to make sure thatI at least talk to you guys,
because you are my creativity.
You are my way out.
You're my way out of having anine to five and being bored all
the time.
I legitimately almost went backto sleep.
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Sometimes when I work from home,I can't get out of bed
immediately, like I'll go grabmy laptop and stuff, but there's
no other place I would ratherbe than laying in my bed, like
just sitting in there, not likejust sitting in there relaxing
whatever, like I just I can'tjust ultimately get up and sit
at a desk unless I'm going intothe office, which I have to
start doing because it's justgetting bad and I don't want to
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be on any list from corporatesaying that hey, keep an eye on
her, why isn't she coming intothe office when she needs to be?
And it's like becausemotherfuckers cough in there.
Motherfuckers cough in thereand don't know how to stay home.
Okay, and I'm tired of it.
Stop going into the office.
If you're sneezing and coughing, I don't care if it's allergies
.
We went through COVID and nowwe just eye everybody.
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And, yes, everybody is me.
I side eye everybody.
Oh, and, by the way, for thefucking girl who called me
aggressive with my client onWednesday, fuck you, how about
that?
You don't even know whataggressive is.
You don't know what aggressiveis.
If you think that the tone Itook with my clients is
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aggressive.
I am very fucking professionalat work.
Like I even told my manageryesterday and she was like, oh,
I need to hear this because sheknows I'm not aggressive If I
I'm like joking around, tryingto be funny.
I even told her I was likemaybe my side ping she didn't
find appropriate, but I was likeI was not fucking insinuating
that the client is lazy.
Like in no way, shape or formdid I say anything crazy.
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She told me on on Wednesday tonot not my manager, but the
project manager of this clienttold me to you know, let's take
it easy on them because they hadCOVID, the flu, etc.
And I'm like that's fine.
I'm just genuinely asking wherethey're at with this project on
their end, because I've heardnothing for almost a month and
you've had all the documentationI gave you before y'all got
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sick.
So I just want to know wherestuff is, because everybody is
saying that it's nobody's job todo this and they're all
pointing fingers and someoneneeds to sort it out before I
fucking either put this shit ondelayed or I just put this shit
as bad business becauseeveryone's fucking lying to me.
So make up your mind.
She said I was like I wasn'ttrying to sound aggressive, I'm
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just genuinely curious wherethey're at with the project.
And she goes oh, it's comingoff a tad aggressive.
I'm like okay, all right.
I was like okay, I was likenoted, I'll pull it back.
Pull it back, bitch.
I fell so far back.
I was silent the rest of themeeting because I don't have
nothing to say to bitches likethat.
I really don't.
I thought it was so funnyAggressive.
I use aggressive tones on herebecause I can and have no
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overhead, all right.
I don't use aggressive tones atwork because I don't want to be
talked to, reprimanded,disciplined, none of it.
The less people talk to me, thebetter.
That's why I always like toskate under the fucking rug here
.
That's why I always like toskate under the fucking rug here
Like I don't.
I don't want to be on the radar, I want to be so far under it
that nobody finds me.
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Okay, I just want to do my workand go home Like bitch.
If I can't be friends with youor talk to you, then you know
what.
Then we really don't need tosay shit at all, because she's a
project manager.
She's gonna be on my ass if Ihaven't done what I need to do
and I just I'm not dealing withit.
Okay, if you want to be stupidabout your job, that's fine.
Don't pull me down withstupidity, please.
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That's not my, that's not mydeal anyway.
So that's it for me.
I'm sorry it was so short, it'sjust.
I didn't have much and you canobviously hear I'm not feeling
too good my throat, anyway, mythroat and my nose, and I'm
really tired and I could have.
So went back to sleep thismorning because I was laying
down with my laptop in front ofme and I, like, laid down on my
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side, my eyes closed and I said,oh fuck.
So then I got up and I was likeNope, nope, nope, nope, we're
up, we're up, we're up, andthat's it.
I am going out to dinnertonight.
It'll be fantastic.
Hopefully my stomach cheers up,because I had a bad stomach
morning, night and eveningyesterday.
So love you guys.
Thank you so much for takingthe time out to listen to this
loony shit and I will catch youall next week On time, I promise
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.
On time.
Bye, love you, bye.
All right people, what's up this week?
Sorry for the delay in theepisode.
I've not been feeling good.
My allergies are killing me.
You can tell by the way I soundthat I'm all congested and shit
.
So I don't have much to talkabout this week because, like I
said I've just been, myallergies are killing me and I
just got that lazy bug kickedback in me.
I am working out, though.
So, as lazy as I want to be,I'm not letting myself be that
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lazy.
So I worked out Monday, tuesdayand yesterday, because today's
Friday Happy Valentine's Day, bythe way, for all of you who
celebrate that If you don't havea love of your life happy
Galentine's Day or boys nightout.
Whatever the fuck you're goingto do, enjoy it, enjoy it, have
fun.
If you have like a wife andkids, enjoy it, enjoy it, have
fun.
Uh, if you have like a wife andkids, enjoy that too.
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Um, if you just plan to go tothe gym and be swole,
congratulations on that.
Pretty sure that the gyms mightbe empty today, who knows Cause
.
A lot of people like to pig outon holidays such as this one,
which I don't really know if youcan count that as a holiday,
because we still have to go towork.
So some people have requestedoff for what I don't know.
I was about to call out sickearlier because I was just so
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tired, was up all night, for themost part Just tired.
I don't, I don't get it, butit's fine, I'll get through it.
I get through it witheverything, let me see.
So.
The Super Bowl was last weekend.
It was pretty good.
The first time I didn'tactually hate watching football.
It's pretty intense.
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Other times I really don't payattention to that shit only
because you know, when I was inhigh school I was in the
marching band and all I used todo was really like, just chill.
Like a lot of the people I wasin the marching band with didn't
actually pay attention to thesport itself.
Like the person I was in themarching band with didn't
actually pay attention to thesport itself.
Like the person I was dating atthe time ran cross country and
he was interested in becomingthe next fucking Kurt Cobain.
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Whatever I grew his hair outand everything.
They were calling him Jesus forthe longest time.
It was the stupidest thing.
Then he cut his hair andeverybody's like, oh my God,
he's so handsome and I'm likebro, I was dating him before you
got his hair.
Anyway, that was the stupidestpart of high school for me was
being told that I'm dating Jesus.
And then you know the back andforth of on and off, on again,
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off again.
Dating for four years in highschool, with everyone watching
you, everyone judging what ayear to be alive.
High school, all four years.
It's actually where Dan and Ibecame friends.
Um, kind of fell off a littlebit, but cause of him, so cause
of him.
Anyway.
No, it's cause of me, but it'swhatever.
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Uh, so the Superbowl was good.
The whole Kendrick Lamarhalftime show was not bad.
Um, I honestly didn't want towatch it at first, cause I don't
really care about these beefspeople have.
Like these rappers have beefwith one another and we're
supposed to all stop and be likeoh my God, he said what and
that's all that's been happeningthis week.
That's all that's beenhappening this week is everybody
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is so focused on.
Oh my God, he said Drake's nameon TV and he's going to get
sued by Drake and this and that,and I'm like Drake is like a
Karen of rap these days.
Okay, it looks like he's justgoing to be mad about everything
for the rest of his life tillhe dies.
Also, speaking of things thatdon't make sense, uh, beyonce
won best country album.
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I'm going to tell you againBeyonce, at the Grammys, won,
won Best Country Album and Ithink that's the biggest farce
that happened during the Grammys.
Let me see this shit, let's see, let's see.
Yes, country Album 2025.
Un-fucking-believable Beyoncéentered the night with the most
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nominations 11 for her albumCowboy Carter, becoming the most
nominated artist in Grammyhistory, with 99 throughout her
career.
In addition to the album of theyear, she also won Best Country
Album and Best Country DuoGroup Performance.
This is insane to me.
This is insane to me.
I feel like I'm being pranked.
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There's no poss.
Oh my God.
I feel like I want to throw upbecause this, this, what is
happening?
What's going on?
Are we just doing whatever youwant?
Now I feel like Beyonce said, orJay-Z said to Beyonce hey, just
for laughs, to see how thisgoes, because you have a tribe
of people behind you, why don'tyou put out a country album and
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see what happens?
And Beyonce was like oh, jay-z,you're so stupid.
And then one day she turnedaround and she goes this ain't
country.
And we're like bitch, what?
No, no, nobody's flabbers havebeen gassed, okay, it's just.
No, I think you took it fromsomeone else who probably
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deserved it more, and I'm tiredof this whole Beyehive shit.
I don't care you could be partof it or not, I don't care.
It's just.
It's not even about who youknow, because who the fuck are
they connected to?
And if you say Illuminati to me,I swear to love the Lord, I
swear to the Lord.
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Okay, don't say it to me.
Um, dan, that means you too,cause I know you're going to
text me that shit and I'm goingto get so angry all over again
or I'm going to be like, whatare you talking about?
Because after I write, after Ido this podcast, I don't
remember shit of what I've saidabout it and I don't listen to
it.
I don't like how my own voicesounds, even though you know the
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mixing and the engineering andwhatever the sound.
Engineering sounds great, it'sjust I don't.
I don't like how I sound at theend of the day, okay, so, uh,
yeah, she, I don't.
I think there's so many otherbetter options out there.
Like Billie Eilish wonabsolutely nothing, and watching
the TikToks of her lose everycategory she was nominated in
breaks my heart a little bit,only because you know you
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couldn't feel sadder for someonewho's younger than you that has
such high hopes of something,and you just see them
disappointed and the level ofdisappointment increases with
each category that your name'sinvolved in.
It's kind of why I don't liketo play like bingo or any shit
like that.
Like you know how long I wenton a cruise when I was younger I
think it was my 21st birthdayand they had bingo as one of the
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events.
So of course I'm one of thosepeople who's made to watch
things.
Like I'm more programmed towatch things than I am to
participate, because if there'sa guarantee that I'm not going
to win, I don't want to bebothered.
So I went to the thing with mygrandmother.
I played a little bit and, uh,got close but didn't win.
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And you know that sense ofdisappointment is just something
else.
So as an adult or further alongin adulthood because at 21, I
don't really feel like you're anadult yet You're just kind of
like wading into the pool ofadulthood.
I was kind of like you knowwhat?
I don't want to feel like thisever again.
So anything I've ever done thatI've put 110% effort into that
doesn't work out.
I just fucking leave or I quitor whatever it is.
And that's true ofrelationships too, like I was
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dating this guy, and what'sfunny is is that I hate that.
I'll always remember that thisbitch said this to me because I
don't like her.
Okay, she tried to mother me atwork and I have a mother.
I don't need a work mother, Ihave one, I have my own mother.
She's alive.
So she used to give me advicethat was never asked for, never
needed, never desired, neversought her out for.
(07:59):
And uh, windows, you're notgoing to restart my shit while
I'm talking, so I keep gettingthe notification to be update
your computer, update yourWindows, shut the fuck up.
So this woman that I workedwith her name is Donna.
I worked in a nursing home fora little bit back in New York
when I was recording my otherpodcast and again still have to
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figure out how to upload thoseback into iTunes If you guys are
interested iTunes, applepodcasts.
I'm an idiot.
So she said to me one day when Iwas complaining about boyfriend
woes and at this point I thinkI was like a year in with this
person and uh, I was talking toher about it and, uh, she told
me that you shouldn't datesomeone who can't, you know,
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give you like put into arelationship where you're
putting putting into it.
Like everybody has a differentwell depth of well in their body
, like you know what a well isright, you pull water from it,
whatever.
So she said you should neverdate someone whose well depth
isn't as much as yours, so youcan't be pouring out more of
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yours than he is from his.
And that always stuck with mebecause I was like what a weird
thing to say, but it's alwaysbeen true and I always followed
that.
After that, and anytime thatI've been in a relationship
where I'm like, wow, thisfucking person is just what
happened.
Because when you first meetsomeone it's at an all-time high
, all right, you're alwaystrying to do and impress for
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each other and whatever andwhatever.
And then little by little itstarts to decline.
And I love how we're talkingabout this on Valentine's Day.
Isn't this so cynical?
It goes from being not reallyhappy with each other but just
like, definitely 110% going outof the way for somebody Doing
something you wouldn't have donefor your past partner, because
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you're trying to like prove pastyou that the reason the person
dumped you is incorrect.
So like, for example, say, youget dumped because you don't
communicate enough.
So you go into your nextrelationship and you're
communicating too much and thatperson dumps you because you
communicate too much.
So then you go into the nextone and you kind of like shut
the fuck up.
Like that's what it is is thatthere's always a chain of you
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thinking that you have to changeyourself.
I think that when you get to 30,though you kind of like are
like, ah well, fuck you if youdon't like me, like that's
essentially what it is when youget to your 30s, you're like,
yeah, well, if you don't fuckinglike me, then I don't fucking
know what to tell you, becausewhen I went into my relationship
with my boyfriend now I kind ofwas like he actually lets me be
myself and is not like runningin another direction.
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I do have a story, though thatkind of like makes me mad, but
it's fine, we're trying to movepast it, we're not trying to
bring it up anymore.
I don't like being ghosted,okay, and I think my boyfriend,
very early on, was trying toghost me, which is really funny
because I always bring it upevery now and then, because
sometimes it hits a soft spot,because it's like how could you
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ditch all this?
Okay, how could you not wantall this flavor?
Like not even that.
But the fact that we'd alreadybeen intimate made me laugh too.
I'm like what's the typicalbullshit?
You know you date someone oryou kind of like, just hey,
let's meet on an app and like,fuck around and this and that,
and you just like never talkagain.
Meanwhile your parts havetouched.
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And then you just walk throughlife and then one day just bump
into them like, oh hey, tryingto get like fucking milk or
cottage cheese or some shitthat's really unattractive at a
store in front of them.
Anyway, uh, yeah, parts havetouched is what a picture I'm
(11:44):
thinking about.
It now makes me laugh.
Like who the fuck says thatparts of touched Anyway?
So, yeah, early on, it didn't.
It didn't start off as smooth aseverybody would like to say and
I'm not gonna lie to you aboutanything Like he and I did not
start out smooth at all, it wasnot okay.
And then, of course, you knowyou start doing that thing where
you post for attention to belike, oh, he'll look at this and
(12:06):
he'll be like, oh, whathappened?
And it happened and it worked.
Trapped his ass.
No, I'm kidding, uh, I love him, he's nuts, he'll be home later
.
Um, I'm enjoying the silenceright now until his big, loud
ass gets home.
He knows, knows, he's loud,there's nothing new.
But that shit's so funny Partstouch, sorry, I just can't get
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over that.
So anyway, the Super Bowl wasfine, it was whatever.
I don't like the fact thatBeyonce won for Miss Country
album.
We're all mad over here aboutit because everybody I know well
, nobody really likes Beyonce orTaylor Swift at this point in
my family, because I'm waitingfor Taylor Swift and Travis
Kelsey to break up and I'msaying it now because she might
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date quote, unquote losersbecause of personality.
But they lost the Super Bowl.
And it's not even a spoileralert at this point.
I'm telling you because it'sbeen everywhere.
The Eagles won, okay.
And it's not even a spoileralert at this point.
I'm telling you because it'sbeen everywhere.
The Eagles won, okay, theEagles won, and it was
impressive how they stomped theshit out of the Chiefs, anyway,
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impressive.
And then, of course, I'm yellingto my boyfriend, who's in the
other room, who's in this exactcomputer room.
I'm yelling for him to hurry upso he could tell me what's
going on, because I'm justwatching dudes in tight pants
run back and forth on a field,understanding what scores mean,
just don't understand everythingelse.
So I'm like why they do that?
What dis, why they go that way.
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Now, like I'm asking questions,like I'm a baby.
I'm like, hey, can you comeback so you can teach me things?
Not that I'm ever gonna watchfootball again.
Like I back so you can teach methings.
Not that I'm ever going towatch football again.
Like I don't watch anythingother than the Super Bowl.
I don't give a fuck about thosebrackets.
Anyway, over the weekend, lastweekend, we also saw Heart Eyes,
which was really good.
It was actually one of the morerealistic slasher movies we've
(14:01):
ever seen, not in violence, butjust the plain fact that two
people should be able to takeout a killer.
It's two against one.
This should not be difficult.
Math always exceedsexpectations here.
So basically it's the story ofa serial killer who likes to go
(14:23):
around killing couples onValentine's Day.
Okay, just cause.
No real reason, just cause.
And uh, it's.
It's the.
The way it opened was very.
It was very like cliched.
I'm sure it's not going to getthe best ratings, but if you
have a chance to see it, youshould see it only because of
its dark humor.
Slash very light comedy.
(14:45):
Slash um plays off of everyironic romance movie.
There is these two people whoare not on a date end up kissing
out in public.
They're work colleagues.
Okay, she sees her ex, who shebroke up with outside this
restaurant because they weresupposed to have like a dinner
(15:05):
work thing.
And she sees her ex outsidewith his new woman.
So she pulls the work colleaguein the mail I forget their
names already.
Who cares?
The chick pulls the dude in infront of her ex and like kisses
him in public, thereby, I guess,classifying them as a couple to
whoever is watching and hardeyes is watching.
(15:26):
So they get tracked the wholemovie Like they are stalked the
whole movie by this killer.
And very it's good because ofhow realistic it is.
The girl can't shoot a gun forshit, even though she tries um.
Realistic because all of asudden, every movie we're in oh
(15:47):
yeah, I had training when I wasyounger and just doesn't tell
the other person until a guncomes into play.
So very good, it was very good.
If you have a chance to see it.
See it, the plot twist wasreally good and they even made a
nod to other movies, like Fastand Furious with Hobbes and Shaw
(16:08):
, because that's what the policeofficers names were.
I was like, wow, that's reallyfucking clever.
And then my boyfriend taps meand he goes, hey, hobbes and
Shaw.
And I'm like, yeah, yeah, fastand Furious reference, got it,
got it.
Movie's still on.
Like, stop tapping me.
No, I just laughed because hedoesn't realize he's speaking
louder than he should be in themovies, which I love about him
(16:28):
because it shows a level ofexcitement.
But it's also like, bro,there's so many other people in
this movie theater, you can justlean to me and speak directly
in my ear and I'll hear you.
Okay, moving on, I'm back on thehaunting series, hill House and
Bly Manor.
(16:49):
I'm watching all the shit MikeFlanagan put out, except
Midnight Mass and that stupidMidnight Book club shit,
whatever it was.
Um, I did not like midnightmass and purely because the
ending does not justify any ofthe rest of the storytelling.
Like how do you ruin the endingof a vampire story for me?
(17:11):
Like you had me.
You had me the whole time bythe bra straps.
All right, you had me by thetitty holsters and I'm watching.
I'm stuck, I'm ruining my spine,leaning forward on my couch
watching this thing like yee,watching it like Ooh, what's
(17:32):
going to happen next?
And you know, just watching it,just sitting watching it, and
bullshit happened at the end.
Okay, I'm not even going todignify any of the storyline
with you, but I'm going to justsay that vampires are not angels
and stay away from crazyBible-thumping people who think
(17:53):
that their life is going to beso different because they met
with a fucking vampire anyway.
So that's why I don't like that.
You can give me any story youwant.
Okay, don't fuck up the ending.
Don't give me some lacklusterending where I really don't even
know what.
I watched for seven other hours, because these episodes are all
(18:15):
an hour long with miniseries.
Anyway, I'm not watching itagain.
So the saddest one out of themI'm actually watching the Fall
of the House of Usher, which Ithink was absolutely chef's kiss
, the best one of them.
The writing was extraordinary.
I don't know how Mike Flanagandoes it, not that he wrote it,
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but I'm just saying just thecreativity alone.
Carla Gugino kills everythingshe's in, everything she's in
within that series.
She plays the mom in the HillHouse the dead mom, I should say
.
She plays the narrator of BlyManor and she plays I don't know
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, I guess you could call her theGrim Reaper in the Fall of the
House of Usher.
It's just so good and she'sjust stellar and everything's
like she puts her whole bodyinto these, into these fucking
roles, like her mind or that,and I just need her to be in
more shit.
That's all I'm saying.
And yes, the mom from Spy Kids,that's what I'm talking about,
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anyway.
So Hill House was one of thesadder ones I feel, and I don't
recall ever feeling as emotionalas I did with one of the
episodes, and it has to do withthe brother, luke, who is a drug
addict, who's just been in andout of rehabs for like a decade
now.
Sorry, I just hit the mic.
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He's been in and out of rehabfor like a decade.
It doesn't seem to stick well,and all of this trauma that this
family has gone through has todo with Hill House.
It all stems from where theygrew up.
So then it goes back in timeand you find out that the
parents are house flippers.
They take the houses, theyimprove them and they sell them
(20:01):
and they move on to the nextthing.
So Hill House was to be theirlast project for their forever
house.
So that's the end game Fix HillHouse, get out of there,
whatever.
But they don't know that thehouse has a sinister background.
They don't know that.
They just know that this is areally old house, like centuries
(20:23):
old at this point, and thatthey just don't know what's
behind it all the ghosts and allthe stories and everything.
And the housekeepers come withthe house because of, you know,
previous ownership.
That was just the standard thatthe housekeepers came with it
and that's it, the scene withthe.
(20:45):
So, luke, obviously he's seen alot of things growing up in that
house and it follows him intoadulthood.
And obviously his mom havingcommitted suicide is another
thing that takes a toll on him.
And drugs is like his onlysalvation, I guess, because he
doesn't have to think about whathappened to him as a kid, which
is just being haunted by ghostsand the memory of his mother,
(21:07):
who he'll never meet.
So he discusses how you know,he didn't think that he could
make it 90 days sober, which isprobably the longest he's ever
been sober.
And you just see what happensto him.
They start with his littlespeech of him acknowledging his
90 day sobriety, and then theycut that off and then they show
(21:29):
what happened as like a littlemini story not a, not a
flashback of anything he's done,but the fact that you know it's
not even a flashback anythinghe's done, but the fact that you
know it's not even a flashbackbecause he did all of this shit.
After that, um, they cut off hisspeech because it's very
important to show what happenswhich is basically a girl he
befriends in the rehab centerdecides to leave and just leaves
(21:50):
without warning and um set andleaves a note behind that says
don't follow me.
So what does he do?
He follows her, basically, butif you leave a place like that,
you can't come back because theyit makes it seem like you're
not taking your recovery processseriously and they have more
beds to offer other people.
So they fill up beds reallyquickly because it's a popular
(22:10):
place to be and, uh, or thatfacility was popular.
So you see him leave, try andgo get her and, um, a situation
goes from bad to worse because,like throughout the episode, and
it's just so painful to watchbecause he's trying to do the
right thing by this person toget her back in there, get her
clean.
She leaves, uh, essentiallybecause she can't deal with it
(22:32):
anymore and she ends up goingout and getting drugs.
And he says, and he tries to gether a room, like he tries to
get her someplace, to come downand try and get her back into
the program, and while all thisis happening he doesn't know
that his twin sister is dead.
So he's feeling like the twinsympathy or twin empathy,
(22:55):
whatever it is.
When one twin feels whateverthe other twin is feeling.
He's feeling all the stuff thatshe felt, I guess, like her
neck hurts.
His neck hurts because shefucking hung herself and snapped
her neck, so he has neck pain.
He said his body feels cold,like his arms and legs feel cold
, and it's basically becauseshe's dead.
So, and obviously your bodytemp drops when you die because
(23:16):
she's dead.
So and obviously your, yourbody temp drops when you die
because you're not regulatinganything within yourself,
obviously and no, I'm not amedical person, so that's just
you know, based off of what Isaw and, um, he's, he tries to
go get her back.
He fucking she's, she gets theslip on him in an alleyway
because she said she's going totake her hit.
(23:36):
That she took and then she'llbe like we'll go.
After that we'll go.
He then ends up getting notturned around or anything.
But he lost her.
He doesn't know where she isnow.
So, of course, at that point,it's just him now and he's
walking around and he's walkingaround all night by himself
looking for her and he getsjumped.
(23:58):
And these's walking around andhe's walking around all night by
himself looking for her and hegets jumped and they, these
people, beat him pretty bad.
They take his shoes, hisjackets, and now he's just
walking around in socks.
What the fuck is this?
Okay, um, there's a building.
Management makes no sense.
Sorry, I was looking at anotification I got.
(24:19):
So he's walking back and forthand he's seeing the tall man
from his childhood which is oneof the ghosts in the house that
wore the top hat, and he'scounting down.
And he's walking back and forthand back and forth and he's
telling the story of how, whenhe was younger, he's walking
back and forth and back andforth and he's telling the story
of how, when he was younger, hedidn't understand what.
(24:39):
He didn't understand what deathmeant.
So he always thought that hismom was coming back.
So when he was living with hisaunt he always used to look
outside because there was carsthat would drive by and he said
that he thought that one daythat his mom would get out of
the car.
And he said that he thoughtthat one day that his mom would
get out of the car, his momwould get out of the car and he
(25:00):
would see her again and shewould be fine and everything
would be better.
And obviously that neverhappened for him.
So that just kind of like brokemy heart, because you went from
seeing him be in such a goodplace at the start of him
telling his sobriety story tohim being found walking back and
forth with no jacket, justsocks, pants, t-shirt and just
(25:21):
all beat up in the face,whatever.
And uh, he, he had called thebefore he was pacing back and
forth.
He had called the facility andwas like, please, I'll sleep on
the floor.
He's like, just please, I needa bed.
He's like I couldn't find her,I couldn't save her, I couldn't
fix it.
So the lady, the person runningthe rehab, goes where are you,
(25:46):
we'll come get you.
And his brother shows up andI'm like, thank God, it just
made me feel so good for thebrother to actually show up.
His older brother, stevenStephen, shows up and picks him
up with the woman who's runningthe facility and he tells him
that you know, uh, stephen tellsLuke that you know their, their
sister Nellie, died and he saidhow did it happen?
(26:09):
And he goes it was by suicide.
And Luke goes no, it wasn't.
But, like the, the whole thingof the episode is where it
starts at a high point and itshows the decline of one person
in one day for actions that he'staken to help someone else.
And it just made me sad because, as a person who lost their
parent very young, I can, youknow, empathize with that.
(26:29):
Like I feel that, like youalways think, like I never met
him, so I have no idea, but I'mtold I have his laugh, I have
his facial features, I have theshoulders, the wide shoulders he
had, and it's just being toldall that shit and not actually
having seen or dealt or heard itor anything like that, I
wouldn't even be able to tellyou what he sounded like other
than videos I've seen like homemovies.
(26:50):
So, being that I never,actually, whenever I've had the
opportunity to watch this show,I've never had the opportunity
to watch it alone.
So there's always been someonearound and I've never felt
comfortable about crying next tosomebody, unless it's something
so devastating that I can'thold it in, like when Glenn died
on the Walking Dead.
(27:11):
That shit devastated me and mymother and it doesn't matter how
many times I've seen it, it'sjust the saddest thing ever.
So it was that part that got me, and I forget what the other
one, oh yeah, so that part gotme.
And the last line, that the thatthe father says to Steve,
steven, the dad says to Steven,which is basically you know,
(27:35):
being your dad was the best partof my life, my whole life.
And I was like, damn, dude,they trying to kill me with this
shit.
And like, even now, like I'mfeeling the lump in the throat,
yet before you start crying, I'mlike, bro, he goes, all of this
is yours now.
Because he, Steven, finallyrealizes what he's.
What he's been seeing ormissing his whole life was that
ghosts fucking exist.
(27:56):
Because the whole series startsout with Steven being a skeptic
and not believing that there'sghosts anywhere.
So, um, he, he's gone his wholelife not believing it, but he
writes other people's storiesabout it.
So he'll go write a short story, like a book of short stories
about this.
But he's not a believer, sonone of it is actually any of
(28:21):
his.
And he wrote the book aboutHill House and kind of tore his
family apart because it was noneof his experiences, so he has
no actual idea of what happenedthe night his mother died.
He wrote it based off of whathis siblings experienced and all
of his siblings resented himfor that, for writing that book.
But he got so much money off ofit he like kind of secretly
(28:42):
gave it to siblings.
But all in all, very good.
That first, that first one, blyManor, was kind of.
The only time I ever felt sadwatching Bly Manor was when the
housekeeper, hannah Gross,realizes that she died.
Because it's the same premise.
(29:04):
Basically you die on theproperty, you become a ghost
there.
The story itself is crazy.
But the only part that actuallygot me upset was when they go
through the entire thing becauseher, her Owen, the guy that she
actually likes, that's the cookthere and sometimes the valet,
(29:26):
um, he, uh, he was like in lovewith her a little bit.
Like they had this secretflirtation thing that everybody
saw but nobody talked about.
And um, sorry I have to click alittle bit for my job.
Sorry I have to click a littlebit for my job, but um she, they
like loved each other but justnever said it out loud.
And um he's.
(29:46):
They keep spiraling back todifferent things that have
happened with her in hersubconscious, um, or what's left
of it, which is different partsof her life, that happened that
changed her, or differentmilestones in her life that are
important, such as when shemeets Owen, when she finds out
her husband's with some otherwoman, when her bosses or her
(30:10):
female boss tells her she couldlive a blind manner because, you
know, sell your house and justlive here.
What if we made it a live-inposition?
Just live here.
What if we made it a live inposition?
Like things like that.
And when things worked out forher in a positive way.
But every time she kept comingback to her, interviewing Owen
as the chef, to like get a feelfor him and just be like hey, if
(30:34):
you're going to be a cook here,here's the kids ages.
They're picky, they're notpicky.
This is what this one's like.
This is like cause it's about.
Oh, it's Miles and Flora arethe two kids, so she's basically
prepping him on what he wouldbe doing, like you'd be running
the entire kitchen because wedon't have anybody else here.
And I see you have, you know,reading his resume out to him.
And, uh, he's trying to get herto focus because she's like, oh
(30:59):
my God, we're doing this again.
He goes, I guess so, and shewas like, why is this happening?
And he goes because you need tosee.
And she keeps seeing thissymbol, like this crack in the
wall, everywhere she goes andevery in every like dream
sequence, quote unquote, thatcomes their way and that's all.
It is An episode of rotatingthrough dream sequences to us
(31:20):
anyway, to the audience ofeverything she's done, which is
interviewing Owen, staying atthe manor, having conversations
with Rebecca, who was thelive-in au pair at the time, and
he's like I need you to focus,like I really need you, like we
(31:40):
can't keep doing this, like youhave to do something.
He's like you can't just stayhere and be safe.
You're not that selfish.
Like go help them.
They need your help Becausecrazy shit is happening in the
real world.
And she still has theopportunity to help them while
she can, and even though she'slike a ghost, but she's like a
(32:00):
ghost, but she's like a ghostwho can touch things.
So I think that's weird and ithappens so early on in the
episode.
That's the other thing.
And just to be walking aroundand not knowing, and then the
whole episode, you just hear herreminding herself of who she is
, what year it is, how old thekids are and such and such,
because she doesn't want hermemories to fade.
And I was like Jesus Christ,bro, break my heart a little
(32:24):
harder, why don't you?
But yeah, that episode gets meevery time because I'm like, oh
fuck, here it is Every time Isee it and she was just a good
person and she didn't deserve todie the way she did and it was
crazy.
Like it wasn't even like afreak accident, it was just like
push and that was it.
But blind manners, okay,doesn't compare to Hill house.
(32:46):
Well, neither of them comparedto follow the house.
Usher, I can't wait to see whatthe next one's going to be, to
be honest with you, um, anyway,um.
Oh, one more thing before I go,because I said it was going to
be short today, because I don'thave much, uh why?
I've noticed a lot of thingswhile driving lately and I feel
(33:07):
like I've calmed down a lot withdriving because I'm not going
to be the dickhead who blocks aturning lane for no reason,
because I have somewhere to go.
If I'm stuck in traffic, I'mstuck in traffic and I'm not
going to make anybody else stuck, okay.
So riddle me this.
You're driving, you come to aturn lane, like an oncoming turn
(33:28):
lane, so like if I'm going eastand west is coming towards me
and there's a turn lane from thewest side, am I going to
fucking block that turning lane,so the people back up the other
side as well, or am I going tobe polite as fuck and realize
we're all stuck in the samepredicament and fucking just let
people have the space to maketheir turn so at least they can
(33:48):
go?
What am I going to do?
Everybody knows me, thatlistens to this knows that I'm
just going to keep the space forthem because I'm not an asshole
.
Keep the space for them becauseI'm not an asshole, okay, I
don't understand how you thinkthat it is okay to block that
lane.
I've seen so many people do thatthis week and I want to get out
(34:09):
of my car and like thrownickels at their car Nickels and
just be like hi, what the fuckare you doing at 730 in the
morning?
We're all trying to getsomewhere.
Let this.
What the fuck are you doing at7.30 in the morning?
We're all trying to getsomewhere.
Let this person go the fuckhome.
You don't know if they're afirst responder for shit.
You don't know if they're EMTfirefighter.
(34:30):
You don't know what the fuck'sgoing on.
Let these people go home.
Or let these people go gettheir donut from Dunkin' Donuts.
Let people enjoy life.
I swear to God, the day where Idon't have to go into an office
and see motherfuckers drivingthis stupidly is the day that I
happily cry on this fuckingpodcast because I just don't get
(34:52):
it.
Like, people are so road rageyand I thought I was the worst.
It is so much worse in Florida.
Just let people drive.
Anyway, I just don't.
I just don't get it.
Today I have a lot of prep workto do on myself.
Yesterday I went to Europeanwax center and then I got a
pedicure, and today, yes, apedicure.
(35:14):
And today I'm going to wax myeyebrows and get myself a
haircut and I'm already tiredthinking about it.
But I wanted to make sure thatI at least talk to you guys,
because you are my creativity.
You are my way out.
You're my way out of having anine to five and being bored all
the time.
I legitimately almost went backto sleep.
(35:36):
Sometimes when I work from home,I can't get out of bed
immediately, like I'll go grabmy laptop and stuff, but there's
no other place I would ratherbe than laying in my bed, like
just sitting in there, not likejust sitting in there relaxing
whatever, like I just I can'tjust ultimately get up and sit
at a desk unless I'm going intothe office, which I have to
start doing because it's justgetting bad and I don't want to
(35:59):
be on any list from corporatesaying that hey, keep an eye on
her, why isn't she coming intothe office when she needs to be?
And it's like becausemotherfuckers cough in there.
Motherfuckers cough in thereand don't know how to stay home.
Okay, and I'm tired of it.
Stop going into the office.
If you're sneezing and coughing, I don't care if it's allergies
.
We went through COVID and nowwe just eye everybody.
(36:19):
And, yes, everybody is me.
I side eye everybody.
Oh, and, by the way, for thefucking girl who called me
aggressive with my client onWednesday, fuck you, how about
that?
You don't even know whataggressive is.
You don't know what aggressiveis.
If you think that the tone Itook with my clients is
(36:40):
aggressive.
I am very fucking professionalat work.
Like I even told my manageryesterday and she was like, oh,
I need to hear this because sheknows I'm not aggressive If I
I'm like joking around, tryingto be funny.
I even told her I was likemaybe my side ping she didn't
find appropriate, but I was likeI was not fucking insinuating
that the client is lazy.
Like in no way, shape or formdid I say anything crazy.
(37:03):
She told me on on Wednesday tonot not my manager, but the
project manager of this clienttold me to you know, let's take
it easy on them because they hadCOVID, the flu, etc.
And I'm like that's fine.
I'm just genuinely asking wherethey're at with this project on
their end, because I've heardnothing for almost a month and
you've had all the documentationI gave you before y'all got
(37:24):
sick.
So I just want to know wherestuff is, because everybody is
saying that it's nobody's job todo this and they're all
pointing fingers and someoneneeds to sort it out before I
fucking either put this shit ondelayed or I just put this shit
as bad business becauseeveryone's fucking lying to me.
So make up your mind.
She said I was like I wasn'ttrying to sound aggressive, I'm
(37:44):
just genuinely curious wherethey're at with the project.
And she goes oh, it's comingoff a tad aggressive.
I'm like okay, all right.
I was like okay, I was likenoted, I'll pull it back.
Pull it back, bitch.
I fell so far back.
I was silent the rest of themeeting because I don't have
nothing to say to bitches likethat.
I really don't.
I thought it was so funnyAggressive.
I use aggressive tones on herebecause I can and have no
(38:06):
overhead, all right.
I don't use aggressive tones atwork because I don't want to be
talked to, reprimanded,disciplined, none of it.
The less people talk to me, thebetter.
That's why I always like toskate under the fucking rug here
.
That's why I always like toskate under the fucking rug here
Like I don't.
I don't want to be on the radar, I want to be so far under it
that nobody finds me.
(38:26):
Okay, I just want to do my workand go home Like bitch.
If I can't be friends with youor talk to you, then you know
what.
Then we really don't need tosay shit at all, because she's a
project manager.
She's gonna be on my ass if Ihaven't done what I need to do
and I just I'm not dealing withit.
Okay, if you want to be stupidabout your job, that's fine.
Don't pull me down withstupidity, please.
(38:47):
That's not my, that's not mydeal anyway.
So that's it for me.
I'm sorry it was so short, it'sjust.
I didn't have much and you canobviously hear I'm not feeling
too good my throat, anyway, mythroat and my nose, and I'm
really tired and I could have.
So went back to sleep thismorning because I was laying
down with my laptop in front ofme and I, like, laid down on my
(39:10):
side, my eyes closed and I said,oh fuck.
So then I got up and I was likeNope, nope, nope, nope, we're
up, we're up, we're up, andthat's it.
I am going out to dinnertonight.
It'll be fantastic.
Hopefully my stomach cheers up,because I had a bad stomach
morning, night and eveningyesterday.
So love you guys.
Thank you so much for takingthe time out to listen to this
loony shit and I will catch youall next week On time, I promise
(39:34):
.
On time.
Bye, love you, bye.
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