July 30, 2024 • 18 mins
it’s another trip to the magical library for some BIBLIOMANCY divination! let’s explore the transformative power of rage, drawing connections between our big (sometimes scary) feelings and the boundless potential they hold when tended to with curiosity and compassion.
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Oh boy, today I am fully feeling all the feelings.
I've got little rivulets ofsadness, sprinkle of despair, a
big scoop of rage, absolutelysome glimmers and shimmers of
hope.
One of those little like creamswirls on top of the soup and
(00:24):
make it look kind of fancy whenit's really just pureed squash.
I got one of those oftenderness.
Basically, I'm just human and Iam a crybaby, wishing she had
an escape pod.
It's one of those days and I'min a moment in my life where I'm
not drinking, I'm not evensupposed to be eating salt.
(00:49):
We left gluten, dairy, allsorts of things like by the
wayside a long time ago.
I also have to cut outchocolate all forms, even the
purest ceremonial grade cacaopurest ceremonial grade cacao
Can't do it.
I got hungry little bacteria inmy guts and so in my attempt to
(01:14):
starve them out, I am justfeeling.
Also, living here in the desert, which is beautiful but can
also be a little isolating, Iwould like an escape pod.
I really can't go to socialmedia.
That is not an escape pod.
That is a very intensereflection of our humaning
(01:38):
together right now, and while Iam so proud of the growing
anti-war movement, sometimes thenervous system just needs a
moment to recalibrate and I am,yes, privileged enough to be
able to take that moment.
And I want to take this momentwith you, because you may or may
not have an escape pod, but letme tell you that we don't need
(02:03):
an escape pod, because there ismagic, and I remember that we
can come together and whisk awayto the magical library, take a
field trip.
Yeah, in our imaginations, yeah, in our imaginations, I
(02:27):
remember that magic is alwaysavailable when we turn to it.
I remember that we all haveagency, even in urgency, even
under forms of oppression.
And so here we go, crying in myjacuzzi, crying in my jacuzzi,
(03:12):
crying in my jacuzzi.
I love the smell of magicaldust.
It's different than normal dust, it tickles in the nose and it
(03:38):
also doesn't make me sneeze.
So, in this library, back, herewe are, let us go and find the
book, the book that wants tospeak to us ow oh god, that just
(04:00):
clonked me like right in theneck.
How did they even fall on myneck?
I don't get it.
Okay, what is this?
Okay, oh, I gotcha.
Women who Run With the WolvesMyths and Stories of the Wild
(04:20):
Woman Archetype by ClarissaPincola Estes, phd.
I'm familiar with this book.
I absolutely consider it anoracular text filled with myths
and stories and then breakdownsof those myths and stories from
(04:43):
around the world, from fromthroughout time, and how we can
use them to understand ourselves.
Since it jumped out and neckedme, but we're grateful for
however, these oracular textsmake themselves known, let's
(05:04):
open.
What do we have?
Opening Page 381.
Marking territory theboundaries of rage and
forgiveness Okay, and here's thesection.
(05:25):
Rage as teacher Okay, even rawand messy emotions can be
understood as a form of lightcrackling and bursting with
energy.
Light crackling and burstingwith energy.
We can use the light of rage ina positive way in order to see
into places we cannot usuallysee.
(05:45):
A negative use of rageconcentrates destructively in
one tiny spot until, like acid,creating an ulcer, it burns a
black hole right through all thedelicate layers of the psyche.
But there is another way.
All emotion, even range,carries knowledge, insight, what
(06:05):
some call enlightenment.
Our rage can, for a time,become teacher, a thing not to
be rid of so fast, but rathersomething to climb the mountain
for, something to personify viavarious images in order to learn
from, deal with internally,then shape into something useful
in the world as a result, orelse let it go back down to dust
(06:25):
.
In a cohesive life, rage is nota standalone item.
It's a substance waiting forour transformative efforts.
The cycle of rage is like anyother cycle it rises, falls,
dies and is released as newenergy.
Attention to the matter of ragebegins the process of
transformation In allowingoneself to be taught by one's
(06:47):
rage, thereby transforming it,disperses it.
One's energy returns to use inother areas, especially the area
of creativity.
Although some people claim theycan create out of their chronic
rage, the problem is that rageconfines access to the
collective unconscious, thatinfinite reservoir of imaginal
(07:08):
images and thoughts, so that aperson creating out of rage
tends to create the same thingover and over again, with
nothing new coming through.
Untransformed rage can become aconstant mantra about how
oppressed, hurt and tortured weare.
I appreciate that that is thelesson coming through today.
(07:30):
Bye in our bibliomancy practiceusing text as tools for
divination, or are they using us?
I mean, it jumped out andbasically bit me.
So we are perhaps not beingused by, but we are entangling
(07:53):
with, but we are entangling withbeing in relation with this
message.
You're a part of this too.
May this exploration of rageripple out.
(08:19):
What I've learned as a coach andas a human person is that we
get a lot of programming aroundrage, anger, and anger is the
emotion that shows up when aboundary has been crossed, and
sometimes that's a boundarywe've stated and it gets crossed
.
Maybe it's a boundary wehaven't stated, someone crosses
it.
Maybe we're crossing our ownboundaries.
Maybe by the time the angercomes up and we're like, oh,
that boundary has been crossedin some way, we're like, oh, I
(08:42):
didn't even realize I had thatboundary right, like it can be a
little bit of a tangle.
There's a couple layers thereto look at.
Our rage can also show up, asthere's there facets of it
perhaps can show up as sadnessor brokenheartedness or a sacred
rage.
Looking at it, not turning away, not stuffing it down, not
(09:07):
pushing it into the shadow yetagain.
And behind all that anger ispain.
Behind all that pain is unmetneeds.
We all have them.
It is something that connectsus all, this human family, and
we don't have to fix it like,yes, you'll hear me talking
(09:29):
about healing, but healing isnot fixing.
But I do believe that we can bein relationship with that anger.
We must, otherwise it's justlike a forest fire ripping
through the trees and all thelittle non-native grasses going
(09:52):
up in flame oh so quickly.
And if we invite it, if we turntowards it, if we acknowledge
it and see it, there's room tobe in relationship with it,
right To observe it, to observeit with compassion, perhaps even
in moments.
You might have to do this a fewtimes.
(10:13):
I know I do Understand why it'sthere.
You might have to do this a fewtimes.
I know I do Understand why it'sthere.
Understand if the thing that isin front of me is indeed the
thing I am truly angry about oris it something else that has
lit the fire.
I think about that movie, theWitch, and at the end, which,
(10:33):
like the movie, is devastationat the end, which, like the
movie, is devastation at the end, and the devil.
The devil in the form of thegoat.
Did the goat have a name?
I don't remember.
Speaker 2 (10:48):
I just remember he said do you want to live
deliciously?
Oh gosh.
Speaker 1 (10:53):
I just love that goat .
Of course you do, and hey,connie.
Speaker 2 (11:01):
Fancy meeting you here.
Oh hey, dana, I was justhanging with the librarian and I
thought I'd book jump out atyou and after that I decided to
eavesdrop.
You must have really come inhere with some B-B-E Big
Bibliomancy.
Speaker 1 (11:19):
Energy BBE.
I like that.
Yeah, I did.
I really felt like I needed andwanted an escape pod from the
world, but instead I got droppedthe fuck in with Women who Run
with the Wolves so by zoomingfrom the world, but instead I
got dropped the fuck in withwomen who run with the wolves.
Speaker 2 (11:40):
So by zooming all the way out, you got to look at
anger as the ancient, beautifulbeastly goddess that they are.
Speaker 1 (11:53):
Well, you got that right.
And then the young witch walksthrough the woods and sees this
fire and all of these women,older women and their pendulous
tits and long hair, justswirling, dancing around the
fire and rising, rising, rising,floating up, being in
(12:15):
relationship with that fire.
It wasn't burning down thewhole forest, but it was burning
and they were in relationshipto it and they were in
relationship with each otherwith it.
I mean that's a whole otherthing, like how we be in
relationship with rage incommunity, what I mean.
(12:36):
I think we're learning some ofthat too.
It is not comfortable, it willnot be, at least not the whole
way, but the benefits oflearning how to be in
relationship with this emotion,to allow it to move and deliver
(12:57):
the information, the creativityto be taught by it and to let it
be like any other cycle, which,as humans I don't think we're
so great with cycles of emotionswe kind of like when something
feels good and we grab onto itand strangle it to death, and
when something feels bad, we tryto stuff it down.
So we have got work to do Metoo.
(13:20):
Thank you, clarissa PiccoliEstes, thank you Women who Run
With the Wolves, thank you toall of the myths and stories and
the wild woman archetype, andthank you to this little copy of
this book that knew I needed it.
(13:40):
Perhaps knew you needed it,that we together needed this
reminder.
The truth is that we risk actingout our emotions unconsciously
when we're unwilling to feelthem, and anger gets a shitty
(14:01):
rap as being some low vibe,negative emotion, which is
garbage, because all emotionshave information for us.
They all serve a purpose.
Yes, there's room to write ourrelationships with all of them,
and we over focus on joy in ourculture.
The over culture is like no, no, joy, joy, joy.
(14:22):
It's all about pleasure andpleasing.
Important, but so is anger andit's powerful and it's often
wielded violently andirresponsibly and quite
ungracefully by those attemptingto maintain power over.
If you turn towards youremotions, towards anger, get
(14:46):
curious with it.
There might be some inner workyou need to do around it.
But if you give it some space,some spaciousness, spaciousness
begets intimacy.
But if you give it some spaceand some care, some compassion
for it, for the part of you thatwields it, that uses it, the
(15:09):
part of you that is scared of itwe all have those parts.
If you turn towards it, maybeit will allow for something else
to exist, a new relationship.
There is agency.
You have it, anger has it.
You and anger have it.
Maybe anger needs you toexpress it.
(15:29):
Maybe there's something youneed from it.
It can be like algae and fungi.
Sometimes, when they cometogether, they can't do all the
things that they need to do, andso they make lichen.
Maybe you and Anger need tomake lichen, or you know your
(15:49):
version of Anger lichen.
Speaker 2 (15:56):
Oh, I love that.
I thought you might.
Speaker 1 (15:58):
Connie, I really thought you might.
Let's be in relationship withit.
Let's gather around the fire ofit.
It's okay if it's a small fire.
Size doesn't matter, it's howyou use it.
Let's let it.
(16:19):
Size doesn't matter, it's howyou use it.
Speaker 2 (16:30):
But let it lift you up where you can see all the
things that you can't see fromthe ground, when you're too
scared to look.
That's right.
Have courage, little ones.
What'd you call them again?
Speaker 1 (16:35):
Dana.
Oh, these are the crybabies,all right.
Speaker 2 (16:40):
Have courage, crybabies, go ride.
I'll show you.
Get out there and make someanger.
Like them, make new beings thathave never existed before.
The world needs them right now?
Speaker 1 (16:55):
Sure does, connie, sure does.
Thank you all for joining metoday in this sacred place, this
liminal place, the magicallibrary between the layers of
our realities.
Let's look around, make sure wedidn't leave anything.
(17:20):
Let's head on out and back intoour days.
Wherever we are, we take therage oracle with you Crying in
(17:58):
my jacuzzi.
If you enjoyed what we did heretoday, go over to wherever it
is that you are listening tothis podcast and give us a
rating.
As many stars Five as yourheart desires.
Five stars though.
(18:20):
Theme music and other musicalbits by the very talented Kat
Otteson, sound design andediting by the effervescent Rose
Blakelock.
Thank you, thank you.
Thank you so much for beinghere.
I look forward to playing withyou more in my jacuzzi.
That sounded dirtier than Imeant it, but you know what I
(18:41):
mean.
Oh boy, today I am fully feeling all the feelings.
I've got little rivulets ofsadness, sprinkle of despair, a
big scoop of rage, absolutelysome glimmers and shimmers of
hope.
One of those little like creamswirls on top of the soup and
(00:24):
make it look kind of fancy whenit's really just pureed squash.
I got one of those oftenderness.
Basically, I'm just human and Iam a crybaby, wishing she had
an escape pod.
It's one of those days and I'min a moment in my life where I'm
not drinking, I'm not evensupposed to be eating salt.
(00:49):
We left gluten, dairy, allsorts of things like by the
wayside a long time ago.
I also have to cut outchocolate all forms, even the
purest ceremonial grade cacaopurest ceremonial grade cacao
Can't do it.
I got hungry little bacteria inmy guts and so in my attempt to
(01:14):
starve them out, I am justfeeling.
Also, living here in the desert, which is beautiful but can
also be a little isolating, Iwould like an escape pod.
I really can't go to socialmedia.
That is not an escape pod.
That is a very intensereflection of our humaning
(01:38):
together right now, and while Iam so proud of the growing
anti-war movement, sometimes thenervous system just needs a
moment to recalibrate and I am,yes, privileged enough to be
able to take that moment.
And I want to take this momentwith you, because you may or may
not have an escape pod, but letme tell you that we don't need
(02:03):
an escape pod, because there ismagic, and I remember that we
can come together and whisk awayto the magical library, take a
field trip.
Yeah, in our imaginations, yeah, in our imaginations, I
(02:27):
remember that magic is alwaysavailable when we turn to it.
I remember that we all haveagency, even in urgency, even
under forms of oppression.
And so here we go, crying in myjacuzzi, crying in my jacuzzi,
(03:12):
crying in my jacuzzi.
I love the smell of magicaldust.
It's different than normal dust, it tickles in the nose and it
(03:38):
also doesn't make me sneeze.
So, in this library, back, herewe are, let us go and find the
book, the book that wants tospeak to us ow oh god, that just
(04:00):
clonked me like right in theneck.
How did they even fall on myneck?
I don't get it.
Okay, what is this?
Okay, oh, I gotcha.
Women who Run With the WolvesMyths and Stories of the Wild
(04:20):
Woman Archetype by ClarissaPincola Estes, phd.
I'm familiar with this book.
I absolutely consider it anoracular text filled with myths
and stories and then breakdownsof those myths and stories from
(04:43):
around the world, from fromthroughout time, and how we can
use them to understand ourselves.
Since it jumped out and neckedme, but we're grateful for
however, these oracular textsmake themselves known, let's
(05:04):
open.
What do we have?
Opening Page 381.
Marking territory theboundaries of rage and
forgiveness Okay, and here's thesection.
(05:25):
Rage as teacher Okay, even rawand messy emotions can be
understood as a form of lightcrackling and bursting with
energy.
Light crackling and burstingwith energy.
We can use the light of rage ina positive way in order to see
into places we cannot usuallysee.
(05:45):
A negative use of rageconcentrates destructively in
one tiny spot until, like acid,creating an ulcer, it burns a
black hole right through all thedelicate layers of the psyche.
But there is another way.
All emotion, even range,carries knowledge, insight, what
(06:05):
some call enlightenment.
Our rage can, for a time,become teacher, a thing not to
be rid of so fast, but rathersomething to climb the mountain
for, something to personify viavarious images in order to learn
from, deal with internally,then shape into something useful
in the world as a result, orelse let it go back down to dust
(06:25):
.
In a cohesive life, rage is nota standalone item.
It's a substance waiting forour transformative efforts.
The cycle of rage is like anyother cycle it rises, falls,
dies and is released as newenergy.
Attention to the matter of ragebegins the process of
transformation In allowingoneself to be taught by one's
(06:47):
rage, thereby transforming it,disperses it.
One's energy returns to use inother areas, especially the area
of creativity.
Although some people claim theycan create out of their chronic
rage, the problem is that rageconfines access to the
collective unconscious, thatinfinite reservoir of imaginal
(07:08):
images and thoughts, so that aperson creating out of rage
tends to create the same thingover and over again, with
nothing new coming through.
Untransformed rage can become aconstant mantra about how
oppressed, hurt and tortured weare.
I appreciate that that is thelesson coming through today.
(07:30):
Bye in our bibliomancy practiceusing text as tools for
divination, or are they using us?
I mean, it jumped out andbasically bit me.
So we are perhaps not beingused by, but we are entangling
(07:53):
with, but we are entangling withbeing in relation with this
message.
You're a part of this too.
May this exploration of rageripple out.
(08:19):
What I've learned as a coach andas a human person is that we
get a lot of programming aroundrage, anger, and anger is the
emotion that shows up when aboundary has been crossed, and
sometimes that's a boundarywe've stated and it gets crossed
.
Maybe it's a boundary wehaven't stated, someone crosses
it.
Maybe we're crossing our ownboundaries.
Maybe by the time the angercomes up and we're like, oh,
that boundary has been crossedin some way, we're like, oh, I
(08:42):
didn't even realize I had thatboundary right, like it can be a
little bit of a tangle.
There's a couple layers thereto look at.
Our rage can also show up, asthere's there facets of it
perhaps can show up as sadnessor brokenheartedness or a sacred
rage.
Looking at it, not turning away, not stuffing it down, not
(09:07):
pushing it into the shadow yetagain.
And behind all that anger ispain.
Behind all that pain is unmetneeds.
We all have them.
It is something that connectsus all, this human family, and
we don't have to fix it like,yes, you'll hear me talking
(09:29):
about healing, but healing isnot fixing.
But I do believe that we can bein relationship with that anger.
We must, otherwise it's justlike a forest fire ripping
through the trees and all thelittle non-native grasses going
(09:52):
up in flame oh so quickly.
And if we invite it, if we turntowards it, if we acknowledge
it and see it, there's room tobe in relationship with it,
right To observe it, to observeit with compassion, perhaps even
in moments.
You might have to do this a fewtimes.
(10:13):
I know I do Understand why it'sthere.
You might have to do this a fewtimes.
I know I do Understand why it'sthere.
Understand if the thing that isin front of me is indeed the
thing I am truly angry about oris it something else that has
lit the fire.
I think about that movie, theWitch, and at the end, which,
(10:33):
like the movie, is devastationat the end, which, like the
movie, is devastation at the end, and the devil.
The devil in the form of thegoat.
Did the goat have a name?
I don't remember.
Speaker 2 (10:48):
I just remember he said do you want to live
deliciously?
Oh gosh.
Speaker 1 (10:53):
I just love that goat .
Of course you do, and hey,connie.
Speaker 2 (11:01):
Fancy meeting you here.
Oh hey, dana, I was justhanging with the librarian and I
thought I'd book jump out atyou and after that I decided to
eavesdrop.
You must have really come inhere with some B-B-E Big
Bibliomancy.
Speaker 1 (11:19):
Energy BBE.
I like that.
Yeah, I did.
I really felt like I needed andwanted an escape pod from the
world, but instead I got droppedthe fuck in with Women who Run
with the Wolves so by zoomingfrom the world, but instead I
got dropped the fuck in withwomen who run with the wolves.
Speaker 2 (11:40):
So by zooming all the way out, you got to look at
anger as the ancient, beautifulbeastly goddess that they are.
Speaker 1 (11:53):
Well, you got that right.
And then the young witch walksthrough the woods and sees this
fire and all of these women,older women and their pendulous
tits and long hair, justswirling, dancing around the
fire and rising, rising, rising,floating up, being in
(12:15):
relationship with that fire.
It wasn't burning down thewhole forest, but it was burning
and they were in relationshipto it and they were in
relationship with each otherwith it.
I mean that's a whole otherthing, like how we be in
relationship with rage incommunity, what I mean.
(12:36):
I think we're learning some ofthat too.
It is not comfortable, it willnot be, at least not the whole
way, but the benefits oflearning how to be in
relationship with this emotion,to allow it to move and deliver
(12:57):
the information, the creativityto be taught by it and to let it
be like any other cycle, which,as humans I don't think we're
so great with cycles of emotionswe kind of like when something
feels good and we grab onto itand strangle it to death, and
when something feels bad, we tryto stuff it down.
So we have got work to do Metoo.
(13:20):
Thank you, clarissa PiccoliEstes, thank you Women who Run
With the Wolves, thank you toall of the myths and stories and
the wild woman archetype, andthank you to this little copy of
this book that knew I needed it.
(13:40):
Perhaps knew you needed it,that we together needed this
reminder.
The truth is that we risk actingout our emotions unconsciously
when we're unwilling to feelthem, and anger gets a shitty
(14:01):
rap as being some low vibe,negative emotion, which is
garbage, because all emotionshave information for us.
They all serve a purpose.
Yes, there's room to write ourrelationships with all of them,
and we over focus on joy in ourculture.
The over culture is like no, no, joy, joy, joy.
(14:22):
It's all about pleasure andpleasing.
Important, but so is anger andit's powerful and it's often
wielded violently andirresponsibly and quite
ungracefully by those attemptingto maintain power over.
If you turn towards youremotions, towards anger, get
(14:46):
curious with it.
There might be some inner workyou need to do around it.
But if you give it some space,some spaciousness, spaciousness
begets intimacy.
But if you give it some spaceand some care, some compassion
for it, for the part of you thatwields it, that uses it, the
(15:09):
part of you that is scared of itwe all have those parts.
If you turn towards it, maybeit will allow for something else
to exist, a new relationship.
There is agency.
You have it, anger has it.
You and anger have it.
Maybe anger needs you toexpress it.
(15:29):
Maybe there's something youneed from it.
It can be like algae and fungi.
Sometimes, when they cometogether, they can't do all the
things that they need to do, andso they make lichen.
Maybe you and Anger need tomake lichen, or you know your
(15:49):
version of Anger lichen.
Speaker 2 (15:56):
Oh, I love that.
I thought you might.
Speaker 1 (15:58):
Connie, I really thought you might.
Let's be in relationship withit.
Let's gather around the fire ofit.
It's okay if it's a small fire.
Size doesn't matter, it's howyou use it.
Let's let it.
(16:19):
Size doesn't matter, it's howyou use it.
Speaker 2 (16:30):
But let it lift you up where you can see all the
things that you can't see fromthe ground, when you're too
scared to look.
That's right.
Have courage, little ones.
What'd you call them again?
Speaker 1 (16:35):
Dana.
Oh, these are the crybabies,all right.
Speaker 2 (16:40):
Have courage, crybabies, go ride.
I'll show you.
Get out there and make someanger.
Like them, make new beings thathave never existed before.
The world needs them right now?
Speaker 1 (16:55):
Sure does, connie, sure does.
Thank you all for joining metoday in this sacred place, this
liminal place, the magicallibrary between the layers of
our realities.
Let's look around, make sure wedidn't leave anything.
(17:20):
Let's head on out and back intoour days.
Wherever we are, we take therage oracle with you Crying in
(17:58):
my jacuzzi.
If you enjoyed what we did heretoday, go over to wherever it
is that you are listening tothis podcast and give us a
rating.
As many stars Five as yourheart desires.
Five stars though.
(18:20):
Theme music and other musicalbits by the very talented Kat
Otteson, sound design andediting by the effervescent Rose
Blakelock.
Thank you, thank you.
Thank you so much for beinghere.
I look forward to playing withyou more in my jacuzzi.
That sounded dirtier than Imeant it, but you know what I
(18:41):
mean.
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