June 14, 2024 • 14 mins
It's time for season 2's first field trip to the magical library, where we engage in the ancient wisdom of bibliomancy—using texts as tools for divination. join dana, CONNIE the quantum (book) worm, and THE LIBRARIAN as the library serves up another oracular text so we can explore our relationship to cycles of life and death, beauty and tragedy, heartbreak and hope, grief and existence and non-being.
Set an intention and make space for the divine to deliver a message and meaning just for you.
~show notes~
- etel adnan, the spring flowers own & the manifestations of the voyage
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Speaker 1 (00:26):
Crying in my jacuzzi.
Oh hi, it's so good to be herewith you again for another trip
(00:46):
to the magical library to seewhat wisdom the books, the pages
, the words have for us.
Today.
It's nice, though, to sit herein the sun, outside the library,
(01:17):
just for a moment, take a nicedeep breath, remembering how
easy it is to access magic, toconnect with the divine.
And maybe, just here, before weget up and go inside you take a
moment.
Maybe there's a question inyour heart.
(01:37):
It doesn't have to be tooarticulated, don't worry about
that.
Maybe there's something thatyou want the books to answer.
It's also fine to just go in toreceive whatever message may
guide us towards our highest andbest, personally, collectively.
(01:59):
Either way, it's just right.
Oh God, it just smells so goodin here, that just sort of sour,
(02:36):
earthy, sweet smell ofparchment and the faintest hint
of mildew.
Oh God, I love it.
Ah yeah, oh, I can just feelthe tingling.
(02:57):
Hello again, welcome to thelibrary.
Oh hi, oh, my gosh, it's thelibrarian.
Hi, hello, thank you for havingus again.
We're just here to do our.
(03:18):
You know, usual bibliomancy,using the books as divination
tools.
Yes, my dear, I do know whatbibliomancy is.
That is why we're here.
No off you go that way.
(03:40):
The library told me to tell youall to head down that line.
Oh, wonderful, thank you, Ididn't know that.
The library, of course, hasagency.
Excuse me, librarian, can youhave a good reading?
(04:02):
Okay, maybe I'll just askquestions another time.
I'm sure there's like an infodesk here or something somewhere
.
Okay, this way we're headingdown this aisle Because
apparently the library wants usto go this way.
Okay, looking so many books,looking at so many books, I
(04:31):
think you're supposed to readthis one right here.
Oh, oh, my gosh, it's you, theQuantum Worm.
I was so hoping to run into youagain.
What are you doing here?
Well, I know it might be alittle on the nose, but I love a
(04:53):
good book.
I guess you could call me abookworm.
Yes, I get it.
That makes a lot of sense.
Oh, and you weren't kidding.
You really have a book for us.
Okay, normally they sort ofjust jump out at me.
Last time it like hit me in theneck in this really awkward way
.
So this is great.
I absolutely will receive a bookfrom the manifestations of the
(05:30):
voyage, page 45, almost right inthe middle of the book, under a
combination of pain, a machinegun fire, flowers disappeared.
They are in the same state ofnon-being as Emily Dickinson.
We, the dead, haveconversations in our gardens
about our lack of existence.
(05:51):
A gardener is planting blue andwhite flowers.
Some angel moved in with me toflee the cold.
Temperatures on earth arerising, but we wear upon us some
immovable frost.
Everyone carries his dying as agrowing shadow.
I left the morning paper by thecoffee cup.
The heat was 85, like the year,and I went to the window to
(06:13):
find that flowers had bloomedovernight to replace the bodies
felled in the war.
The enemy had come with fireand ruse to stamp the names of
the dead in the gardens of Yomor.
It is not because spring is toobeautiful that we'll not write
what happens in the dark.
A butterfly came to die betweentwo stones At the foot of the
(06:36):
mountain.
The mountain shed shadows overit to cover the secret of death.
The mountain shed shadows overit to cover the secret of death.
It's actually the end of thespring.
Flowers' own the last fewstanzas being in the state of
(06:59):
non-being, the dead havingconversations about their lack
of existence.
Oh yeah, they talk about it allthe time.
They're real.
Whoa, for real.
I love that.
But the state of non-being andthe shift of time from the frost
to when we plant the flowers,that moment of transition when
(07:21):
just the right temperature, justthe right environmental
circumstances occur to movethings maybe from a state of
non-being into being, or youknow how I feel about that,
we're always in some state ofbeing.
But the things that bloom inour consciousness, whether it's
(07:42):
in our minds, whether it's inthe media, we're consuming what
shows up in our scrolling, whatarises to replace the body is
felled in war and, in a way, howso much conspires to cover up
what happens in the dark, tocover the secret of death, and
how welcome that can feel whenit all feels like so much, too
(08:08):
much.
And this part, it is not becausespring is too beautiful that
we'll not write what happens inthe dark.
There's something here aboutholding both, both and.
Can we hold?
Can we learn to hold the beautyof the spring and not let it
overwrite the death and thedarkness and the shadow, the
(08:32):
names of the dead?
Can we allow them to existtogether?
I think this is a capacity thatwe are continuing to learn and
can just keep getting better at.
We don't have to trade one forthe other, and there's something
about acknowledging the naturalcycles of life and death.
(08:53):
So also how to honor thesenatural cycles of life and death
, while also not becomingambivalent about these cycles,
especially when there isviolence, when there is war, to
not bypass or to tell a lie, totell untrue stories, that the
(09:18):
death that we see around us inplaces we'll never visit, of
people we'll never meet, thatit's just passing, that it's
just a thing that happens, thatit's just a cycle, I think, to
ask questions about the flowersthat may be planted in their
place, if those flowers arebeing used to cover something up
(09:40):
.
It's our job to ask questions,to stay curious, to be
courageous.
From a collective perspective,a global perspective, we can
look at this guidance, thisdivination, as a reminder to pay
(10:00):
attention to the cycles, to newcycles, to maybe the people we
look to, people we follow, maybeeven our own community, our own
friends, our own family reallycould be any of the ways that we
(10:21):
are influenced by ourrelationships, by our
relationships, personal andextra personal.
To be curious, to examine, tobe critical, to bring our
critical thinking and ourcritical feeling, our resonance,
our attention, our preciousgenerous attention to what may
(10:46):
be trying to get smoothed over,trying to just move on from or
not deal with discomfort,difficult realities, pain or
violence.
We don't have to turn towardsit every single second of the
day.
I mean, some people don't haveany real choice about that,
(11:08):
given where they live or wherethey're trying to live.
And, on a personal note, arethere things about your life,
maybe, that are in the shadow orthat feel difficult or
uncomfortable, that are askingto be seen right now, that are
asking for attention?
Are you trying to just plantflowers over them?
Attention?
(11:32):
Are you trying to just plantflowers over them?
Just paste a happy sticker orput something beautiful and
pleasant over it so you don'thave to look?
We all do this sometimes.
There's nothing wrong with it.
There's no judgment here.
There's no judgment from thisguidance, from this divination.
This is just an invitation foryou to look, to notice, to
notice what you have perhaps notwanted to look at, the names
(11:57):
you've not wanted to read, andto turn towards it, to turn
towards yourself, the part ofyou desiring to give it some
space, to give it some time, togive it some compassionate
attention.
Thank you, etel Adnan,lebanese-american poet and
(12:22):
essayist and artist.
She passed in 2021.
Artist.
She passed in 2021.
Thank you so much to thisbeautiful library for always
delivering what we need, what weneed to hear and feel when we
(12:42):
need to hear it and feel it.
Thank you to the librarian forletting us come in and
bibliomance.
And thank you.
Quantum worm.
Bookworm, quantum bookworm, isthat what I should call you, or
do you have another name?
Feel free to call me ConnieConnie.
(13:04):
Connie, the quantum worm,exactly.
Thanks for being right in thisexact moment, in this exact
place, to hand us this copy ofAtel Adnan's work so that we
could divine together Cool beans.
(13:24):
I mean, let's do it againsometime.
Absolutely.
I'm a huge Ed Till Adnan fan.
I will see you here next time.
Same worm time, same wormchannel.
Yeah, same worm time, same wormchannel.
(13:46):
Bye guys.
Same worm time, same wormchannel.
Bye guys.
If you enjoyed what we did heretoday, go over to wherever it
(14:13):
is that you are listening tothis podcast and give us a
rating as many stars Five asyour heart desires.
Five stars though Theme musicand other musical bits by the
very talented Kat Otteson.
Sound design and editing by theeffervescent Rose Blakelock.
(14:34):
Thank you, thank you.
Thank you so much for beinghere.
I look forward to playing withyou more in my jacuzzi.
That sounded dirtier than Imeant it, but you know what I
mean.
Crying in my jacuzzi.
Oh hi, it's so good to be herewith you again for another trip
(00:46):
to the magical library to seewhat wisdom the books, the pages
, the words have for us.
Today.
It's nice, though, to sit herein the sun, outside the library,
(01:17):
just for a moment, take a nicedeep breath, remembering how
easy it is to access magic, toconnect with the divine.
And maybe, just here, before weget up and go inside you take a
moment.
Maybe there's a question inyour heart.
(01:37):
It doesn't have to be tooarticulated, don't worry about
that.
Maybe there's something thatyou want the books to answer.
It's also fine to just go in toreceive whatever message may
guide us towards our highest andbest, personally, collectively.
(01:59):
Either way, it's just right.
Oh God, it just smells so goodin here, that just sort of sour,
(02:36):
earthy, sweet smell ofparchment and the faintest hint
of mildew.
Oh God, I love it.
Ah yeah, oh, I can just feelthe tingling.
(02:57):
Hello again, welcome to thelibrary.
Oh hi, oh, my gosh, it's thelibrarian.
Hi, hello, thank you for havingus again.
We're just here to do our.
(03:18):
You know, usual bibliomancy,using the books as divination
tools.
Yes, my dear, I do know whatbibliomancy is.
That is why we're here.
No off you go that way.
(03:40):
The library told me to tell youall to head down that line.
Oh, wonderful, thank you, Ididn't know that.
The library, of course, hasagency.
Excuse me, librarian, can youhave a good reading?
(04:02):
Okay, maybe I'll just askquestions another time.
I'm sure there's like an infodesk here or something somewhere
.
Okay, this way we're headingdown this aisle Because
apparently the library wants usto go this way.
Okay, looking so many books,looking at so many books, I
(04:31):
think you're supposed to readthis one right here.
Oh, oh, my gosh, it's you, theQuantum Worm.
I was so hoping to run into youagain.
What are you doing here?
Well, I know it might be alittle on the nose, but I love a
(04:53):
good book.
I guess you could call me abookworm.
Yes, I get it.
That makes a lot of sense.
Oh, and you weren't kidding.
You really have a book for us.
Okay, normally they sort ofjust jump out at me.
Last time it like hit me in theneck in this really awkward way
.
So this is great.
I absolutely will receive a bookfrom the manifestations of the
(05:30):
voyage, page 45, almost right inthe middle of the book, under a
combination of pain, a machinegun fire, flowers disappeared.
They are in the same state ofnon-being as Emily Dickinson.
We, the dead, haveconversations in our gardens
about our lack of existence.
(05:51):
A gardener is planting blue andwhite flowers.
Some angel moved in with me toflee the cold.
Temperatures on earth arerising, but we wear upon us some
immovable frost.
Everyone carries his dying as agrowing shadow.
I left the morning paper by thecoffee cup.
The heat was 85, like the year,and I went to the window to
(06:13):
find that flowers had bloomedovernight to replace the bodies
felled in the war.
The enemy had come with fireand ruse to stamp the names of
the dead in the gardens of Yomor.
It is not because spring is toobeautiful that we'll not write
what happens in the dark.
A butterfly came to die betweentwo stones At the foot of the
(06:36):
mountain.
The mountain shed shadows overit to cover the secret of death.
The mountain shed shadows overit to cover the secret of death.
It's actually the end of thespring.
Flowers' own the last fewstanzas being in the state of
(06:59):
non-being, the dead havingconversations about their lack
of existence.
Oh yeah, they talk about it allthe time.
They're real.
Whoa, for real.
I love that.
But the state of non-being andthe shift of time from the frost
to when we plant the flowers,that moment of transition when
(07:21):
just the right temperature, justthe right environmental
circumstances occur to movethings maybe from a state of
non-being into being, or youknow how I feel about that,
we're always in some state ofbeing.
But the things that bloom inour consciousness, whether it's
(07:42):
in our minds, whether it's inthe media, we're consuming what
shows up in our scrolling, whatarises to replace the body is
felled in war and, in a way, howso much conspires to cover up
what happens in the dark, tocover the secret of death, and
how welcome that can feel whenit all feels like so much, too
(08:08):
much.
And this part, it is not becausespring is too beautiful that
we'll not write what happens inthe dark.
There's something here aboutholding both, both and.
Can we hold?
Can we learn to hold the beautyof the spring and not let it
overwrite the death and thedarkness and the shadow, the
(08:32):
names of the dead?
Can we allow them to existtogether?
I think this is a capacity thatwe are continuing to learn and
can just keep getting better at.
We don't have to trade one forthe other, and there's something
about acknowledging the naturalcycles of life and death.
(08:53):
So also how to honor thesenatural cycles of life and death
, while also not becomingambivalent about these cycles,
especially when there isviolence, when there is war, to
not bypass or to tell a lie, totell untrue stories, that the
(09:18):
death that we see around us inplaces we'll never visit, of
people we'll never meet, thatit's just passing, that it's
just a thing that happens, thatit's just a cycle, I think, to
ask questions about the flowersthat may be planted in their
place, if those flowers arebeing used to cover something up
(09:40):
.
It's our job to ask questions,to stay curious, to be
courageous.
From a collective perspective,a global perspective, we can
look at this guidance, thisdivination, as a reminder to pay
(10:00):
attention to the cycles, to newcycles, to maybe the people we
look to, people we follow, maybeeven our own community, our own
friends, our own family reallycould be any of the ways that we
(10:21):
are influenced by ourrelationships, by our
relationships, personal andextra personal.
To be curious, to examine, tobe critical, to bring our
critical thinking and ourcritical feeling, our resonance,
our attention, our preciousgenerous attention to what may
(10:46):
be trying to get smoothed over,trying to just move on from or
not deal with discomfort,difficult realities, pain or
violence.
We don't have to turn towardsit every single second of the
day.
I mean, some people don't haveany real choice about that,
(11:08):
given where they live or wherethey're trying to live.
And, on a personal note, arethere things about your life,
maybe, that are in the shadow orthat feel difficult or
uncomfortable, that are askingto be seen right now, that are
asking for attention?
Are you trying to just plantflowers over them?
Attention?
(11:32):
Are you trying to just plantflowers over them?
Just paste a happy sticker orput something beautiful and
pleasant over it so you don'thave to look?
We all do this sometimes.
There's nothing wrong with it.
There's no judgment here.
There's no judgment from thisguidance, from this divination.
This is just an invitation foryou to look, to notice, to
notice what you have perhaps notwanted to look at, the names
(11:57):
you've not wanted to read, andto turn towards it, to turn
towards yourself, the part ofyou desiring to give it some
space, to give it some time, togive it some compassionate
attention.
Thank you, etel Adnan,lebanese-american poet and
(12:22):
essayist and artist.
She passed in 2021.
Artist.
She passed in 2021.
Thank you so much to thisbeautiful library for always
delivering what we need, what weneed to hear and feel when we
(12:42):
need to hear it and feel it.
Thank you to the librarian forletting us come in and
bibliomance.
And thank you.
Quantum worm.
Bookworm, quantum bookworm, isthat what I should call you, or
do you have another name?
Feel free to call me ConnieConnie.
(13:04):
Connie, the quantum worm,exactly.
Thanks for being right in thisexact moment, in this exact
place, to hand us this copy ofAtel Adnan's work so that we
could divine together Cool beans.
(13:24):
I mean, let's do it againsometime.
Absolutely.
I'm a huge Ed Till Adnan fan.
I will see you here next time.
Same worm time, same wormchannel.
Yeah, same worm time, same wormchannel.
(13:46):
Bye guys.
Same worm time, same wormchannel.
Bye guys.
If you enjoyed what we did heretoday, go over to wherever it
(14:13):
is that you are listening tothis podcast and give us a
rating as many stars Five asyour heart desires.
Five stars though Theme musicand other musical bits by the
very talented Kat Otteson.
Sound design and editing by theeffervescent Rose Blakelock.
(14:34):
Thank you, thank you.
Thank you so much for beinghere.
I look forward to playing withyou more in my jacuzzi.
That sounded dirtier than Imeant it, but you know what I
mean.
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