October 4, 2023 • 17 mins
Ever wonder why everything around us, including us, is interconnected? What if I told you it had everything to do with the omnipresent element of Carbon, symbolized in our podcast's name 'CWays Home'? Join us as we move on this riveting journey towards understanding our place in the universe and how love, perhaps the most potent emotion, is instrumental in our existence. Discover the path to inner peace and how to cultivate harmonious relationships with others while embracing differences and resolving conflict.
Tune in as we shed light on our intrinsic duality and the role of technology in our lives. We'll delve into the essence of our light and darkness and reveal how to leverage both for a more enriched experience. Drawing insights from other knowledgeable technicians and podcast resources, we'll paint a picture of a future where light and dark coexist harmoniously. Understand the power of presence and the importance of acknowledging and addressing our stress patterns to lead a balanced life. We're all in this together, let's connect, grow and ensure future generations have a beautiful world to inherit.
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Namae Ntumae (00:18):
Welcome to the CWays Home podcast.
This is your guide of the heartNamae Ntumae .
I invite you to join me on anadventure of consciousness.
In introducing the podcastseries to you, I wanted to
outline what CWays Home is about, what we're doing, how we're
(00:38):
contributing to the elevation ofconsciousness on the planet.
So today I just wanted tooutline why I'm called at this
point in my life to startsharing a podcast with you, to
open up a dialogue with you incommunity, so that we can start
to talk about the things thatmatter to you and the survival
(00:59):
of your family and our species.
How to come into rightrelationship with yourself so
that you really feel that you'reat home with yourself, not
stressed out, not traumatized,not torn apart by the conflicts
of the world.
And then how to be a home inrelationship with other people.
How to overcome differences,how to be in acceptance that
(01:23):
we're 99.9% exactly geneticallythe same and that our 0.01%
differences really areentertaining diversions from the
truth that we're all the same.
What's of great interest to meis, of course, love.
That's the thing that reallymatters in the end, in the end
(01:44):
of our lives, at the end of theday, the feeling of whether or
not.
We've loved or been loved, sothat's going to be a primary
thread in our conversations.
The biggest thing that I wantedto share with you, to just start
off with, is why I chose CWaysHome as the organization through
which our work can be shared.
(02:05):
The letter C is important.
It's the primary representationof the letter carbon, and
carbon is the element that is inall living systems on this
planet, so we're fundamentallyconnected to carbon.
The second reason we chose Cand all of the ways to come home
was consciousness and beingable to care for all creatures.
(02:29):
So consciousness is somethingthat we have all of the time.
It's simply about which stateof consciousness are you in?
Are you in a very contracted,small level of consciousness
where you might feel very youngor very powerless, or you might
feel very depressed or veryconstricted in some way?
(02:50):
And then can you expand thatconsciousness so that it then
become very alive, and haveaccess to lots of multiple
levels of consciousness andbeing able to create a sense of
connection so that you can moveand shift your consciousness at
will.
That's what I call freedombeing able to choose the level
of consciousness at which youwant to respond.
(03:12):
So has a lot of differentmodalities that we use to help
people shift consciousness.
C is also about all of the "s,caring for all creatures, being
committed to the shifts andchanges that we need to make,
doing it in community, beingable to connect and be competent
(03:33):
in our critical thinking, beingable to open up all kinds of
different ways of opening ourcreativity so that we come up
with solutions that are based onnature, that are based on love,
that are based on a sense ofconnectivity on all levels.
So Seaway's Home is alsostanding for the C being a way
(03:54):
of seeing.
So seeing through differentlevels of perception, seeing
with the visual context andbeing able to shift the way that
we look and see things.
But it's also about seeing withthe heart, seeing through
feelings, seeing through empathy, seeing through compassion.
Seeing through the heart is notlogical.
(04:15):
Seeing through the heart ismore like living in a dream
where things can shift andchange according to your level
of consciousness and your levelof perception.
There's also the C that we arecapable, natural human beings.
And what does it mean to becapable, to be able to respond
to lots of differentcircumstances in our lives, and
(04:39):
then the biggest one for us, ofcourse, is the sea of conception
and of rebirth, because everytime we shift consciousness we
undergo a rebirth process, and alot of us don't even know what
that means.
Well, rebirth is a stressfulprocess being who I am and
knowing who I am and how I fitin the world, and then agreeing
(05:00):
to step into the unknown andbecome something more, to step
into a sense of myself asconnected to all life,
throughout all space and time.
That's scary.
So you need courage, you need acontainer, you need to be able
to care for, you need tounderstand what the maps are in
order to be able to do that kindof journey.
(05:20):
So rebirth, the rebirth wasencapsulated with the letter C.
So if you turn a mother verypregnant with a baby that's
about to be born, her bellylooks like a giant C, you know,
and she is the container, she isthe source of our life.
A lot of the work that we dohere CWays Ways Home is deeply
(05:42):
feminine.
We have a lot of respect forthe feminine ways of contraction
and of expansion and of careand of being able to cherish
those moments from conceptionall the way through to adulthood
.
And for a lot of us, there is alot of stress in our systems
and we don't even know what ourstress patterns are.
(06:03):
So part of our work ofconsciousness is being able to
understand the processes ofcontraction it is why
important and where contractionscome from and what decisions we
made when we were in the firstcontractions of our lives.
And those first contractionshappened, when we were being
born.
So our birthing imprint, whathappened when we first started
(06:26):
formulating that our response tostress, is extraordinarily
primal.
And because it's so primal,oftentimes we shy away from it.
It feels scary, it feels likeoh my gosh, I can't know that.
And yet we long to know that.
We need to know what our stresspatterns are so that we've got
choice, so that we've got theability to choose our emotional
(06:50):
response.
We need to know what our stresspatterns are so that we can
find out what works for us toturn the stress off.
As animal creatures, we're meantto be stressed.
We get excited with theadventure of life.
We want to dive into somethingnew.
We don't want to do boring oldstuff every day, all day long.
We need stimulation, and that'swhat stress can be.
(07:12):
But if you're being stimulatedall the time and you're under
pressure and you're gripping andyour body is clamped all the
time, you're no longer a naturalhuman being.
You're a crazy person.
You're a crazy person, like ourculture.
We get caught up in thiscorporate sense that we have to
have to more, more, more,greater, greater, greater, and
(07:34):
we get caught up in consumerism.
We get caught up and so we'rein a contracted state all the
time and our organisms don'tlike that.
We're meant to contract andwe're meant to release.
We're meant to exhale.
We're meant to suffer.
We're meant to rest.
We're meant to fe el a senseof what it's like at the bottom
(07:58):
of the breath.
So for us, the work ofconception, through those early
formative months inside of themother's womb, the incredible
processes that we go throughwhen we're being born, and then
the incredible complexity ofwhat happens to us when we come
out of our mother and we becomepart of the outside world.
(08:21):
That's an amazing and anextraordinary adventure to
understand what happened to usin altered state circumstances
and there's a freedom to begained when you know what
happens, you go into rebirthexperiences.
You experience your birth again, but you may not recognize it.
You might experience hellrealms.
You might feel like you'rebeing torn apart.
(08:43):
You might feel like you can'tbreathe.
You might feel like you'rehaving a panic attack.
You might feel like you'redying.
Well, hello folks, that is whathappens when you're being born.
But you also might feel likeyou've got the most
extraordinary level of heat andenergy in your body.
You might feel like you'reexploding.
You might feel like, oh wow, Isaw divine creatures or I had
(09:06):
conversations with the source ofcreation itself.
You might feel so altered thatyou no longer even identify as
human.
So these are the things thatcan happen when we go through a
rebirth process.
So understanding and knowingwhat consciousness is about what
happens for us as we give birthto more of ourselves, whether
(09:29):
it's through breath, or whetherit's through meditation, or
whether it's throughconversation, we can alter our
consciousness in multiple,multiple different ways.
And the reason that I'm sopassionate about all of this is
because I want to see ourchildren have a world to inhabit
.
And we are consuming the world.
We in Western culture have saida precedent that now other
(09:53):
cultures around the world, Chinaincluded, they're now emulating
what we've done, consumingeverything, acting in a way
where we believe that the worldis ours to consume, and it's not
.
This world belongs to everycreature and we cannot survive
without all of the trees.
We breathe in their oxygen andwe breathe out their carbon
(10:17):
dioxide.
We live together.
We cannot keep heating theoceans.
It will kill us.
It's already changing ourweather patterns in
extraordinarily profound waysthat it's going to take years to
come back into a homeostaticrelationship with the land and
with us.
(10:38):
So we in Western culture have aresponsibility.
We messed up the atmosphere,we've messed up the oceans,
we've messed up the world.
We've done this, and a lot ofus feel paralyzed with guilt and
shame that we've contributed tothis and we feel like we are
responsible.
But we are in a system ofcorporate culture that has told
(11:02):
us that this is what we shoulddeserve, this is what we need,
this is what we should want,this is what it means to be a
successful human being, andwe're now at a juncture where we
get to make a different choice.
And so I'm not working at acorporate level, I'm not working
at a world environmental level,I'm not looking to change world
systems of governance.
What I'm looking at is onehuman heart.
(11:25):
One human heart that can make adifferent choice.
And what does it mean for youto make that choice?
So that's one of the thingsthat we're going to be exploring
over the course of this podcast.
So where does hope lie?
Where does hope lie inside ofyou?
Where is your personal hope?
What do you hope for?
(11:46):
What do you dream for?
How do you make your dreamscome real?
How do you deal with collectivehope?
How do you create collectivehope?
Well, my answer to that isalways love.
Love and hope go hand in hand,and when we lose hope, there is
(12:06):
often a sense that we've lostlove as well.
So a big part of ourinvestigations, our
conversations, everything thatwe're going to be exploring
together, including theinteresting topics I hope you'll
send to me, will be about love.
Love it's at the core of all ofthat I'm going to be talking
about, because I firmly believe,from my experience and from
(12:30):
working with people for 30 yearsnow, that love is the most
transformative power on theplanet and that love is
universal.
So we'll be exploring all ofthe different kinds of love that
I've discovered so far, and I'mby no means an expert on this.
We'll be talking about why lovefails and why we fail love.
(12:53):
We'll be discussing andexploring deep and intimate
processes where we can learn tolove more together, that I'll
learn about love from you andthat you'll learn about love
from me.
We'll explore all of thedifferent kinds of love sexual
love, parenting love, love ofnature, love of concepts, love
(13:15):
of compassion, love of devotionall of these different ways of
loving.
We'll learn a lot aboutself-care and what it means to
love oneself and to figure outwho is the self that needs
self-care.
You know, is it the child inyou that needs to be cared for,
the wounded child?
Is it you as a man or a womanor a human being right now that
(13:37):
needs to be cared for?
Is it your future self thatneeds to be cared for?
Is it your soul that needs tobe cared for?
Who needs to be cared for?
We all need a lot, lot morecare in our lives.
So I figure that consciousnessshifts and changes when we make
the choice to care, when weagree to be a competent,
(13:59):
compassionate, committed humanbeing.
So in the course of this podcast, we'll also explore a lot of
technology.
What is the latestneurobiological information that
we can turn into practices thatwe can apply with our lives and
share with our children?
What can we do in the way ofchanging the way that we breathe
(14:21):
or help ourselves to relax orlearn how to sleep?
I love gathering resources thatare available from other people
, from other technicians, fromother podcasts, and bring them
to you and give them to youthrough the lens of love of what
I figure out works, you know,because we're getting swapped by
(14:42):
so much information these days.
So what works?
I try out everything on myselffirst before I share it with you
.
I often try it out on thepeople that I'm teaching or
training and then, if it reallyworks, then we'll share it.
So most of what we'll do onthis podcast is learn and
inquire together.
So let me know what you'reinterested in For me being able
(15:07):
to create a world where yourchildren and your grandchildren
can still have a world to livein, that is not a dystopian
miasma of pain and suffering anddecay, that incorporates beauty
, that has life, that has agenerosity and a level of
artistic freedom where we cancreate beauty together.
(15:28):
We'll still need both, not justone, not just the other.
So how do we resolve duality?
How do we do that?
You know we need to have thecapacity to embrace the darkness
within us so that we know whatthe choices are in that space
and make different choices.
But we also need to understandand experience ecstasy, profound
(15:53):
levels of beauty, wonder andawe, and we need those spaces
because they nourish our spiritand our soul.
So we're exploring duality.
And how do we do that dance?
How do we connect to the lightand the dark to stand in the
potent power of the center, ofpresence?
So take a breath and feel forthis moment that love is a
(16:19):
possibility, that love is a hope, that love is right here
between us.
Even if I don't know you, evenif I can't see you, you can be
touched by love right now.
If you want to find out more,come to CWays H ome.
(16:48):
I look forward to being withyou, thank you.
Welcome to the CWays Home podcast.
This is your guide of the heartNamae Ntumae .
I invite you to join me on anadventure of consciousness.
In introducing the podcastseries to you, I wanted to
outline what CWays Home is about, what we're doing, how we're
(00:38):
contributing to the elevation ofconsciousness on the planet.
So today I just wanted tooutline why I'm called at this
point in my life to startsharing a podcast with you, to
open up a dialogue with you incommunity, so that we can start
to talk about the things thatmatter to you and the survival
(00:59):
of your family and our species.
How to come into rightrelationship with yourself so
that you really feel that you'reat home with yourself, not
stressed out, not traumatized,not torn apart by the conflicts
of the world.
And then how to be a home inrelationship with other people.
How to overcome differences,how to be in acceptance that
(01:23):
we're 99.9% exactly geneticallythe same and that our 0.01%
differences really areentertaining diversions from the
truth that we're all the same.
What's of great interest to meis, of course, love.
That's the thing that reallymatters in the end, in the end
(01:44):
of our lives, at the end of theday, the feeling of whether or
not.
We've loved or been loved, sothat's going to be a primary
thread in our conversations.
The biggest thing that I wantedto share with you, to just start
off with, is why I chose CWaysHome as the organization through
which our work can be shared.
(02:05):
The letter C is important.
It's the primary representationof the letter carbon, and
carbon is the element that is inall living systems on this
planet, so we're fundamentallyconnected to carbon.
The second reason we chose Cand all of the ways to come home
was consciousness and beingable to care for all creatures.
(02:29):
So consciousness is somethingthat we have all of the time.
It's simply about which stateof consciousness are you in?
Are you in a very contracted,small level of consciousness
where you might feel very youngor very powerless, or you might
feel very depressed or veryconstricted in some way?
(02:50):
And then can you expand thatconsciousness so that it then
become very alive, and haveaccess to lots of multiple
levels of consciousness andbeing able to create a sense of
connection so that you can moveand shift your consciousness at
will.
That's what I call freedombeing able to choose the level
of consciousness at which youwant to respond.
(03:12):
So has a lot of differentmodalities that we use to help
people shift consciousness.
C is also about all of the "s,caring for all creatures, being
committed to the shifts andchanges that we need to make,
doing it in community, beingable to connect and be competent
(03:33):
in our critical thinking, beingable to open up all kinds of
different ways of opening ourcreativity so that we come up
with solutions that are based onnature, that are based on love,
that are based on a sense ofconnectivity on all levels.
So Seaway's Home is alsostanding for the C being a way
(03:54):
of seeing.
So seeing through differentlevels of perception, seeing
with the visual context andbeing able to shift the way that
we look and see things.
But it's also about seeing withthe heart, seeing through
feelings, seeing through empathy, seeing through compassion.
Seeing through the heart is notlogical.
(04:15):
Seeing through the heart ismore like living in a dream
where things can shift andchange according to your level
of consciousness and your levelof perception.
There's also the C that we arecapable, natural human beings.
And what does it mean to becapable, to be able to respond
to lots of differentcircumstances in our lives, and
(04:39):
then the biggest one for us, ofcourse, is the sea of conception
and of rebirth, because everytime we shift consciousness we
undergo a rebirth process, and alot of us don't even know what
that means.
Well, rebirth is a stressfulprocess being who I am and
knowing who I am and how I fitin the world, and then agreeing
(05:00):
to step into the unknown andbecome something more, to step
into a sense of myself asconnected to all life,
throughout all space and time.
That's scary.
So you need courage, you need acontainer, you need to be able
to care for, you need tounderstand what the maps are in
order to be able to do that kindof journey.
(05:20):
So rebirth, the rebirth wasencapsulated with the letter C.
So if you turn a mother verypregnant with a baby that's
about to be born, her bellylooks like a giant C, you know,
and she is the container, she isthe source of our life.
A lot of the work that we dohere CWays Ways Home is deeply
(05:42):
feminine.
We have a lot of respect forthe feminine ways of contraction
and of expansion and of careand of being able to cherish
those moments from conceptionall the way through to adulthood
.
And for a lot of us, there is alot of stress in our systems
and we don't even know what ourstress patterns are.
(06:03):
So part of our work ofconsciousness is being able to
understand the processes ofcontraction it is why
important and where contractionscome from and what decisions we
made when we were in the firstcontractions of our lives.
And those first contractionshappened, when we were being
born.
So our birthing imprint, whathappened when we first started
(06:26):
formulating that our response tostress, is extraordinarily
primal.
And because it's so primal,oftentimes we shy away from it.
It feels scary, it feels likeoh my gosh, I can't know that.
And yet we long to know that.
We need to know what our stresspatterns are so that we've got
choice, so that we've got theability to choose our emotional
(06:50):
response.
We need to know what our stresspatterns are so that we can
find out what works for us toturn the stress off.
As animal creatures, we're meantto be stressed.
We get excited with theadventure of life.
We want to dive into somethingnew.
We don't want to do boring oldstuff every day, all day long.
We need stimulation, and that'swhat stress can be.
(07:12):
But if you're being stimulatedall the time and you're under
pressure and you're gripping andyour body is clamped all the
time, you're no longer a naturalhuman being.
You're a crazy person.
You're a crazy person, like ourculture.
We get caught up in thiscorporate sense that we have to
have to more, more, more,greater, greater, greater, and
(07:34):
we get caught up in consumerism.
We get caught up and so we'rein a contracted state all the
time and our organisms don'tlike that.
We're meant to contract andwe're meant to release.
We're meant to exhale.
We're meant to suffer.
We're meant to rest.
We're meant to fe el a senseof what it's like at the bottom
(07:58):
of the breath.
So for us, the work ofconception, through those early
formative months inside of themother's womb, the incredible
processes that we go throughwhen we're being born, and then
the incredible complexity ofwhat happens to us when we come
out of our mother and we becomepart of the outside world.
(08:21):
That's an amazing and anextraordinary adventure to
understand what happened to usin altered state circumstances
and there's a freedom to begained when you know what
happens, you go into rebirthexperiences.
You experience your birth again, but you may not recognize it.
You might experience hellrealms.
You might feel like you'rebeing torn apart.
(08:43):
You might feel like you can'tbreathe.
You might feel like you'rehaving a panic attack.
You might feel like you'redying.
Well, hello folks, that is whathappens when you're being born.
But you also might feel likeyou've got the most
extraordinary level of heat andenergy in your body.
You might feel like you'reexploding.
You might feel like, oh wow, Isaw divine creatures or I had
(09:06):
conversations with the source ofcreation itself.
You might feel so altered thatyou no longer even identify as
human.
So these are the things thatcan happen when we go through a
rebirth process.
So understanding and knowingwhat consciousness is about what
happens for us as we give birthto more of ourselves, whether
(09:29):
it's through breath, or whetherit's through meditation, or
whether it's throughconversation, we can alter our
consciousness in multiple,multiple different ways.
And the reason that I'm sopassionate about all of this is
because I want to see ourchildren have a world to inhabit
.
And we are consuming the world.
We in Western culture have saida precedent that now other
(09:53):
cultures around the world, Chinaincluded, they're now emulating
what we've done, consumingeverything, acting in a way
where we believe that the worldis ours to consume, and it's not
.
This world belongs to everycreature and we cannot survive
without all of the trees.
We breathe in their oxygen andwe breathe out their carbon
(10:17):
dioxide.
We live together.
We cannot keep heating theoceans.
It will kill us.
It's already changing ourweather patterns in
extraordinarily profound waysthat it's going to take years to
come back into a homeostaticrelationship with the land and
with us.
(10:38):
So we in Western culture have aresponsibility.
We messed up the atmosphere,we've messed up the oceans,
we've messed up the world.
We've done this, and a lot ofus feel paralyzed with guilt and
shame that we've contributed tothis and we feel like we are
responsible.
But we are in a system ofcorporate culture that has told
(11:02):
us that this is what we shoulddeserve, this is what we need,
this is what we should want,this is what it means to be a
successful human being, andwe're now at a juncture where we
get to make a different choice.
And so I'm not working at acorporate level, I'm not working
at a world environmental level,I'm not looking to change world
systems of governance.
What I'm looking at is onehuman heart.
(11:25):
One human heart that can make adifferent choice.
And what does it mean for youto make that choice?
So that's one of the thingsthat we're going to be exploring
over the course of this podcast.
So where does hope lie?
Where does hope lie inside ofyou?
Where is your personal hope?
What do you hope for?
(11:46):
What do you dream for?
How do you make your dreamscome real?
How do you deal with collectivehope?
How do you create collectivehope?
Well, my answer to that isalways love.
Love and hope go hand in hand,and when we lose hope, there is
(12:06):
often a sense that we've lostlove as well.
So a big part of ourinvestigations, our
conversations, everything thatwe're going to be exploring
together, including theinteresting topics I hope you'll
send to me, will be about love.
Love it's at the core of all ofthat I'm going to be talking
about, because I firmly believe,from my experience and from
(12:30):
working with people for 30 yearsnow, that love is the most
transformative power on theplanet and that love is
universal.
So we'll be exploring all ofthe different kinds of love that
I've discovered so far, and I'mby no means an expert on this.
We'll be talking about why lovefails and why we fail love.
(12:53):
We'll be discussing andexploring deep and intimate
processes where we can learn tolove more together, that I'll
learn about love from you andthat you'll learn about love
from me.
We'll explore all of thedifferent kinds of love sexual
love, parenting love, love ofnature, love of concepts, love
(13:15):
of compassion, love of devotionall of these different ways of
loving.
We'll learn a lot aboutself-care and what it means to
love oneself and to figure outwho is the self that needs
self-care.
You know, is it the child inyou that needs to be cared for,
the wounded child?
Is it you as a man or a womanor a human being right now that
(13:37):
needs to be cared for?
Is it your future self thatneeds to be cared for?
Is it your soul that needs tobe cared for?
Who needs to be cared for?
We all need a lot, lot morecare in our lives.
So I figure that consciousnessshifts and changes when we make
the choice to care, when weagree to be a competent,
(13:59):
compassionate, committed humanbeing.
So in the course of this podcast, we'll also explore a lot of
technology.
What is the latestneurobiological information that
we can turn into practices thatwe can apply with our lives and
share with our children?
What can we do in the way ofchanging the way that we breathe
(14:21):
or help ourselves to relax orlearn how to sleep?
I love gathering resources thatare available from other people
, from other technicians, fromother podcasts, and bring them
to you and give them to youthrough the lens of love of what
I figure out works, you know,because we're getting swapped by
(14:42):
so much information these days.
So what works?
I try out everything on myselffirst before I share it with you
.
I often try it out on thepeople that I'm teaching or
training and then, if it reallyworks, then we'll share it.
So most of what we'll do onthis podcast is learn and
inquire together.
So let me know what you'reinterested in For me being able
(15:07):
to create a world where yourchildren and your grandchildren
can still have a world to livein, that is not a dystopian
miasma of pain and suffering anddecay, that incorporates beauty
, that has life, that has agenerosity and a level of
artistic freedom where we cancreate beauty together.
(15:28):
We'll still need both, not justone, not just the other.
So how do we resolve duality?
How do we do that?
You know we need to have thecapacity to embrace the darkness
within us so that we know whatthe choices are in that space
and make different choices.
But we also need to understandand experience ecstasy, profound
(15:53):
levels of beauty, wonder andawe, and we need those spaces
because they nourish our spiritand our soul.
So we're exploring duality.
And how do we do that dance?
How do we connect to the lightand the dark to stand in the
potent power of the center, ofpresence?
So take a breath and feel forthis moment that love is a
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possibility, that love is a hope, that love is right here
between us.
Even if I don't know you, evenif I can't see you, you can be
touched by love right now.
If you want to find out more,come to CWays H ome.
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I look forward to being withyou, thank you.
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