Death of a Mother: Grief, Alchemy, and Rising from the Ashes

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In this episode, I finally name what has been living in the background of everything: my mother’s death, and the grief that took me under. I share how losing her shattered the life I thought I was living, and how that rupture rippled into this podcast: why I went quiet and what it has meant to be reshaped by grief instead of trying to outrun it.

Inside this episode, I talk about:

• The story of my mother’s death and the immediate aftermath
• How grief hijacked my body, my nervous system, and my creativity
• The guilt and shame of disappearing from the mic 
• Grief as an alchemical process: what has burned away, and what remains
• The slow, messy rising-from-the-ashes 
• The blooming and integration

This is a tender, honest conversation about love, loss, and the parts of us that die with our parents, and the strange, sacred work of rebuilding a self after that.

If you’ve ever gone offline during a season of grief, or felt like you were “failing” at being visible while your heart was breaking, I hope this episode feels like permission and companionship.

Thank you for still being here with me in the fire and the rebirth. 

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Resources:

The Prophet (Free E-Book): https://www.kahlilgibran.com/images/The%20Prophet%20Ebook%20by%20Kahlil%20Gibran.pdf

"The Wild Edge of Sorrow" by Francis Weller:

https://www.francisweller.net/books.html

All There Is Podcast with Anderson Cooper

https://www.cnn.com/all-there-is-anderson-cooper

"The Smell of Rain on Dust" by Martin Prechtel

https://www.marcusbooks.com/book/9781583949399

"Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents" by Lindsay C. Gibson 

https://www.newharbinger.com/9781626251700/adult-children-of-emotionally-immature-parents/?srsltid=AfmBOopHG-jOeUKWgRzHFNwLOlKLuXUErO32UvwcPpIizJvMG-Sw45iN

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