113 - Call of Duty Mardi Gras 6

Guilt trips triggered by tickling and choking, reactivations, MEPS, Call of Duty Enlistment lounge, Dr. Marc pittman, Rush Limbaugh, Clintons, Ben carson, Costco membership, Near death chicken bake experience, Superbowl opening day, Watching old home movies, seeing your parents pain, watching your mom vlog, Sam Hyde show, Dominican Republic with filipinos, All-inclusive resorts, A return to antinatalism, from a Buddhist Taoist perspective, Using my ancestrydna results to prove that I'm 20% nazi, mardi gras, new orleans

Having severe moments of paranoia that I am going crazy or that I've been crazy and locked up in the hospital and that everyone in my life is a psych nurse or a doctor. Thinking about phuong. Someone who had a lot of her shit together for the first 40 years of her life and just suddenly couldn't function anymore. That her brain suddenly decided it wasn't worth running from death anymore. Like I keep thinking I'm dying and all of this is some delusion in my head, keeping me peaceful and content. the ultimate cope