Embrace It All!

That last two months have brought more changes to our family, and with it all the emotions of feeling joy and sorrow at the same time have been overwhelming.  My heart has been heavy and I haven’t been able to put into words all that I am thinking and feeling.  I am going to try, in this episode, to walk you through  all  I discovered as I held on and fought against these new changes and what it took to let go of the fight.    

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I have learned and experienced over the last 22 months the many ways that grief manifests itself in me.  I knew that anger could be one way, but up until December of 2024 I hadn't experienced it.  Then it it.  In this episode I briefly share my epxerience with the overwhelming anger that flooded my body and mind for three months.  

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It's been a while, I know.  But I am back!  Today I will briefly explain part of my journey over the last few months and one way that helped me climb out of my own  discouragment and worry spiral.   And it all has to do with understanding my "why" for everything I do.  

There is so much we can discover when we are still and ask oursleves "why".  The key is to ask "why" 5 times.  When you can answer...

In this episode I briefly share how EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization Reprocessing) Therapy helped to unlock not only the trauma from Jessica's death, but trauma from years before.  I will explain what it is designed to do and my own experience with it.  

If you are experiencing any type of trauma, I highly recommend finding a therapist who is trained in EMDR therapy.  The results can change your life!

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It's been awhile, I know. Over the last month, my emotions were quite heavy overall.   I have felt the pain and sadness of Jessica's absence more than I thought I would. And it confused me.   Afterall, it has already been a year and half since her death.  Shouldn't I be feeling better by now?

The truth is, I continue to feel the waves of sadness and pain.  It comes and goes, but last month it came and stayed...

Shortly after Jessica died, I started to travel down the road regret.  suddenly I found  myself  in the state of “ wish I would have and wish I could have”.    I wish I would have told her I loved her more often.  I wished I would have not gotten so angry over petty things when she was growing up.  I wish I would have stopped her from hiking that day.  I wish I would have celebrated her more on her last birthday.  I wished I would ...

Shortly after Jessica's death, a friend of mine shared with me that there is a high percentage of marriages that don't survive after the death of a child.  Although shocked at first that she would share this with me so soon after Jessica's passing, it gave Dave and I a chance to discuss our commitment to each other, and how we were going to make a conscious effort to turn toward each other during the most difficult t...

For the past several weeks I have been going through pictures and trying to organize them. 

Each picture created a memory and gave me a chance to reflect on how our family has evolved and grown over the years.  The experiences captured in these pictures not only tell a story, but they also create feelings of love that have deepened over time through shared experiences.  

Usually, the way we process the experiences in our lives is wha...

Over that last three months a lot has happened with our family.  So many wonderful and hard experiences at the same time.  And in the middle of all of it,  my faith and trust in God and my Savior was stretched more than it has ever been.    
In today's episode I will share this personal experience with you and how I am learning that faith and trust in God, and surrending my will to His is hard.  And it is an every day proc...

I am learning that after experiencing a traumatic event, your mind is constantly on high alert, just waiting for the next traumatic thing to happen.  This is quite normal, but it is not easy to go through.  In this short episode I will share an experience that is helping me to put it all into better perspective.  

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This month was filled with celebrations, and also many "firsts".  During the first year after a loved one dies, you experience the holidays and celebrations for the first time without them, and it can be so painful.  I've struggled a lot this month, and my tears flow daily.  But as I have reflected on the memories each "first" presented, I'm seeing  the miracles we've experienced along the way.  <...

Over the last 8 months I am learning what it means to become resilient.  Some people think that resiliency means that you brush off your challenges, pull up your boot straps, and move on.  But as I continue on this journey, I am coming to understand that resiliency is definitely not that at all.  On today's episode I will share what I am learning  about becoming resilient and how it has helped me.  

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There will be times in our lives when we receive strong impressions.  Sometimes those impressions make sense, but more often than not, at least in my life, they don't.  Today I will share one such impression with you and why I am so grateful that I followed it even though at the time it didn't make complete sense.

I will also share with you what I learned from feeling angry.  I am realizing that anger is a natura...

It's a new year.  In the past I would be excited for the new year, making long lists of resolutions and goals for myself.  But this is year is different.   Honestly, the thought of making any type of resolution or goal for this upcoming year seemed to be too much and I decided I was just going to let this year happen and push through.   But a couple of things brought me to me knees, so to speak, and helped me to figure out wha...