April 9, 2025 • 28 mins
Spiritual growth often arrives in unexpected moments of clarity that hit with such force they can only be described as "F*** You Moments"—epiphanies that change everything and can't be ignored. These moments are sources of transformational awareness that arrive when we're challenged to move beyond data-driven decision making into trusting our intuition.
• F*** You Moments are spiritual mic drops or puzzle pieces coming together that provide unexpected clarity
• Data and logical decision-making aren't always reliable guides for our spiritual journey
• Spirit often communicates through other people, conversations, and seemingly random interactions
• "A lot of people are the butterfly that want to go back into being the caterpillar" - we can't return to old ways after transformation
• Decisions that are in alignment with your highest good often come with a profound sense of calm
• Major life transitions (buying a home, becoming a parent, career shifts) often carry the same energetic signature
• Being vulnerable and authentic (like revealing spiritual work on LinkedIn) can be terrifying but necessary
• Pay attention to your body's reactions—the energetic imprint may be similar to past transformative moments
I'll be asking about your F*** You Moments in my Wednesday community posts because these moments are successes, progress, and energy imprints from spirit telling you you're on the right path.
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Hello there, welcome back.
To empower your soul.
I am here to talk about thefuck you moments that are so
important to your life.
Yep, I said it.
I said I'm here to talk aboutthe fuck you moments.
These have been happening overand over and over again for me
and if I were to say it withoutan expletive, which is not my
favorite way to say things ifI'm honest with you, these are
(00:21):
moments of spiritual mic drops,moments of epiphanies, moments
of realization, and it's almostlike these puzzle pieces coming
together is kind of theenergetic imprint of these fuck
you moments and these have beenhappening so much with me.
And so and I think it's onpurpose, because it's by design,
(00:45):
because I listen when I sayfuck you now, and I think they
know that, so they just keepbringing me more and more fuck
you moments.
Let's talk about it, let'sbreak it down and I'm hoping
spirit will back me up, becauseI didn't prep for this.
This is totally on the fly forme, this episode, so I wanted to
kind of talk about fuck youmoment.
(01:06):
So what I have been finding isthat I have been asking and
asking for the answers, andmaybe this is, mrs White, where
we're supposed to go with this,because I have been asking my
team for answers and answers andanswers about me, my path, my
journey, where should I be?
I've had lots of no notbragging, because it's not easy
(01:26):
but I've had lots of businessopportunities that have been
coming my way lately and I'mstruggling to know what to say
yes to and what to say no to,because a lot of these don't
have a clear outcome, a lot ofthem don't have a guaranteed
return on investment and a lotof them, honest to God, feel
like a gamble.
And I know that I'm at thispoint right now where spirit is
really fucking challenging meand trying to get me out of my
(01:49):
left brain, my logical ways ofmaking decisions using data,
using, you know, obvious answersand really pushing me into my I
want to say, right brain, but Idon't even know if it's my
right brain my intuitiveinformation and feeling what the
(02:11):
answer should be, and it is souncomfortable for me because I
usually make decisions based ondata.
No word of a lie.
I look, I'm going to say it.
I look at my social media dataengagement, views, likes,
comments and I like go throughthat and I try to identify.
(02:35):
What are the trends, what dopeople like, what do people not
like?
And then I try to make videosbased on what?
Where is the biggest engagement?
Because obviously y'all like itso.
So I mean I could just hitrecord and and be intuitive with
my social stuff.
But let's be honest here.
This is a business.
Every single video takes time.
It's fucking exhausting thoseof you that do social media you
(02:58):
know and so I can't take agamble on my energy.
So I use data to help me figureout what's the right energy
that people want to hear about.
Right, what do people, whattopics, what, what goes where
like, what are the best types offormats, platforms, etc.
Because if I'm going to spendthis energy, I want the biggest
bang for my buck, and this ishow I operate.
(03:19):
I operate in the space of datato make decisions, and as I'm
saying this, I'm seeing spiritlaugh out loud in my head and it
feels like everything is a 180,because not everything that's
data is going to produce theoutcomes that I want.
And it's this old dumb saying.
I say dumb because it makes meangry.
(03:39):
It's a great saying, though,like past performance does not
indicate future success.
Fuck you, that's what I'mtalking about.
Those are the fuck you moments.
So we're doing it live on airright now.
These are the fuck you momentswhere I have a realization that
hits me so hard that I literallysay to the person talking to me
(04:03):
usually to myself most of thetime and I just go fuck you.
And this has been happeningover and over and over again.
So it's these moments ofneeding to bring in answers to
my problems, questions.
I'm sitting there meditatingabout talking to spirit, about
(04:24):
what's my direction, what shouldI do here, give me information.
I don't understand this.
And then it all fucking comestogether in a fuck you moment.
And usually that fuck you momenthappens like this me talking
out loud on the podcast.
It might happen through otherpeople talking about the same
thing, feeling thank God for mycircle, everybody, thank God for
my witches.
Carly, who I'm going to have onthe podcast in a little bit,
(04:46):
like there's so many of you,april Claire, like there's so
many of you that I'm activelyengaged with that give me these
spiritual downloads and thesefuck you moments all the time.
So thank you for being aconduit from spirit.
So I want you to pay attention.
I want you to pay attentionbecause not all of the
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information is going to come inthrough the way that we want
expected to.
So I think that's like what I'mlearning, right, because I
expected to come in through data.
I can measure, analyze andpredict what the future is.
Thanks for that that.
I can't do that anymore.
It will come in throughmeditation, automatic journaling
.
It'll come in through thisfeeling of I need to do this,
(05:27):
but literally right now I'mgoing to play it in my mind and
I'm not going to talk about whatI'm going to talk about because
I don't know if I'm going to dothis or not.
But I've been presented with areally awesome business idea and
I've been mulling it over andI'm just like I see the pluses,
I see the minuses.
I'm not sure where to go.
This is probably going to be apretty big investment in terms
(05:51):
of my time and my money.
I don't know what the ROI isgoing to be.
Even if there is an ROI, Imight go negative on this thing
and so, like I can't use databecause I've never done this
before, there is no data to makethis decision and when I tap
into my gut, feel my intuition,or when I ask spirit for signs,
they're all over the fuckingplace.
I asked them to show me aspecific number and I was like
(06:13):
could you please show me?
I'm getting boxed right now.
Could you please show me thisspecific number?
But what happens is they showme everything but that exact
number.
Like they'll show me one numberoff.
They'll put the numbers on alicense plate together, okay,
(06:35):
but there's a whole bunch ofletters and other numbers in
between them.
So I'm like what the?
So there's no clear directionor guidance from spirit when I'm
fucking asking for it, right,but then I'll get in a
one-on-one chat with dear Carly,who you're going to meet, and
she fucking lays it out for meand I'm just like damn it, fuck
(06:56):
you Carly, damn it, fuck youCarly.
And so I think this is where Idon't know what to do with this,
other than just tell you to payattention for the moments that
you're like oh my god, did youjust say that that's exactly the
advice and perspective I havebeen looking for?
(07:17):
Do you know what she said on a?
I hope you don't mind, carly,I'm chatting about you today.
Hopefully your ears are ringing.
No, that was literally hervoxing me right now.
So her ears are ringing whileI'm doing this.
But she literally said and Iwas like you got to trademark
this, this is brilliant.
In the middle of a coaching call, she's just like a lot of
people are the butterfly thatwant to go back into being the
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caterpillar.
I was like, oh my God, fuck you, that is such a yes, that's
exactly what I'm trying to do.
I'm trying to take my new selfand shove it into the old,
familiar patterns and beliefsand expectations that I had.
And it's not.
I can't go back.
I can't undo the wings, I can'tundo the cocoon, so I have to
(07:59):
invent a new way forward, and Idon't know what that way forward
is decision making yet.
But right now they're giving methese fuck you moments so that I
can, I can get that perspective, so I can get these downloads,
because the momentum doesn'tstop right, needing to make
these decisions don't stop.
And I don't know about you, butthis year they are coming at me
(08:20):
hot and heavy, like they arecoming at me so fast, and these
decisions have to be made inlike a week, a week and a half's
worth of time, and I'm like Idon't even have enough time to
sit in, like, digest thisbecause, like, as I speak, I
have two kids home today, right,like I have kids that are sick.
I have sports coming right, andso there's just this really
(08:44):
interesting dynamic of needingto make these fast decisions and
not getting any fucking helpmaking these decisions.
Woe is me.
First world problems over here,ever, I know, I know, but we
all have our things right.
I'm not going to minimize myproblems because I feel like
(09:07):
it's very similar to what you'reall going through and it's just
, it's so hard to make some ofthese decisions that are coming
at us so fast and making surewe're we're doing it with the
right quality and time andfeedback.
And maybe that's the lesson isthat these decisions that are
coming at me, at us, they're notfinal.
If we say no to this, somethingelse will come along, and then
(09:29):
I just love.
I love the perspective thatCarly and my metaphysical
friends give me.
They're like every decision youmake is not the wrong decision
and I'm like, oh, fuck you,every decision I make is the
right decision.
I should just write a book offuck yous.
Maybe I need to do that.
(09:52):
It's just like what?
And maybe after this I'll do acommunity post and just say what
was your fuck you moment thisweek, right, um, another good
one, for example, that I've beenfacing is um, uh, I'm going to
go there, I'm going toconsolidate the spirits telling
(10:13):
me it's a two for this, this one.
So I I felt the need to post onLinkedIn that I talked to the
dead and for those of you thathave been in the corporate world
, you know the vibe and energythat exists on LinkedIn like I'm
going to trash it.
And so I'm sorry if you're anactive LinkedIn member that you
(10:35):
thoroughly love this platform,but it's complete shit.
It's full of toxic people thatare trying to elbow their way
essentially up the food chain tothe next job, the next rotation
, the next promotion andessentially it's like this very
toxic networking platform forprofessionals generally in the
(10:55):
corporate space.
And it's so interesting to mebecause there have been people
in my life that I love dearlythat are like I think I'm going
to go on LinkedIn and I was likeyou might want to rethink that,
unless the energy of thatplatform has changed, I realized
there's a lot of really coolbusiness professionals on there.
I don't see that space becauseI don't see that small business
people like people that areactively trying to grow their
(11:19):
business and do better.
They're not on LinkedIn right,like check your target
demographic, because the peoplethat I have engaged on LinkedIn
have all been in corporateAmerica.
They have all been people thatare essentially it's like I'm
sorry I'm saying it, god justforgive me everybody it's a
cesspool of people who are justtrying to fucking survive the
(11:41):
corporate world and find theirnext job, because we all know
their layoffs are alwaysimminent in that space and so
keeping in touch with yournetwork is a survival mechanism
for us financially.
On LinkedIn, headhunters, akarecruiters, use LinkedIn to
headhunt you to the next job.
I know I've been recruited toevery job I've ever been in
(12:01):
right, and 99% of them I thinkno, yeah, 99% of them, with the
exception of my consulting hasall been through LinkedIn
headhunters that have come inand asked me to come over to
their company right, always beenrecruited out.
So for me to post on LinkedInthat I talked to the dead is
(12:23):
essentially my death sentencefor finding another job in
corporate America.
I mean and honest to God,that's what it felt like and why
the fuck would I do that Right?
Besides, I keep getting thesecalls from spirit from other
readers to post it, to post whatI do to be more authentic in
(12:49):
what I do and show up andtruthful in who I am and what I
do.
And so I fucking ignored thatshit so hard I did.
I was like fuck you, no, I'mnot doing that.
There was a different type offuck you Um, but I was like
absolutely not Um.
So maybe it's like fuck youversus fuck me.
I don't know, maybe there's adifference there.
(13:10):
Anyway, I digress, I give allthe fucks, apparently.
So there's so many expletives.
Welcome to my energy.
Everybody.
This is authentic me showing up, but I keep getting these hits
to do it and I'm like absolutelynot.
And then, and then someone at myprevious job who knows what I
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do, gave me as a referral to aformer staff member hers, you
know who you are, hello girl.
To a former staff member ofhers, you know who you are,
hello girl.
And she showed up and she'slike I worked, I worked with you
at this company and I was likemotherfucker, I like I didn't
work with her directly, but hername looked really familiar and
I couldn't place it.
And then I was like there, itis Fine.
(13:54):
And then it was just like theunveiling of the curtain and
just showing me that there's somany people out there on
LinkedIn and I got the thumbs upfrom my Mac right now there's
so many people out there onLinkedIn that need the healing
and need the hope, and so, butthey don't.
I'm not quite sure.
I haven't pieced it alltogether and I'll fully admit
(14:16):
this, but there was some needfor me to be on there and give
transparency to who I am andwhat I do, because my integrity
is top notched in my corporatejob.
I mean not to not to humblebrag, but I'm one of the best at
what I do in my job, right?
Which is why I've never had toreally apply for a job.
Have I had to interview?
(14:37):
Yeah, okay, kinda.
I say kinda because everyoneI've interviewed with I've
probably worked at one point oranother, except for my very
first job.
So I just felt called to post,and so I use the wonders of
Claude AI because I don't knowwhat the fuck I'm going to type,
(14:58):
right?
So I was like, okay, well, thisis my situation and it and it
spit out a very lovely post.
So I 100% admit that I clottedthat shit and I posted it, and I
proceeded to have heart fuckingpalpitations.
I don't know where this isgoing.
We're gonna get there.
Heart palpitations the entirenext day, the day after panic
(15:20):
attacks.
I had an event that night, likeit wasn't good.
My mental health was not goodfor a couple days there, and
what was so interesting aboutposting that is, in the most
vulnerable sense of the word isthat it was the same exact
energy I felt when I felt like Ihad to cut off my family.
(15:41):
It was this odd feeling ofknowing I needed to do it when I
posted it and I hit post, thisnervousness, but also the sense
of calm, like I, this is whatI'm supposed to be doing,
because calm for me is always myindicator that I did the right
(16:02):
thing.
Because choices shouldn't feelthere's my answer fuck you about
one of these decisions, aboutwhat I should do.
Calm is always my indicatorthat I've made the right choice,
because decisions should notfeel crazy, should not be heart
palpitations, the rightalignment.
Decisions always feel calm forme afterwards, to the point
(16:24):
where, um, I, just as an example, I'm going sub, exam, sub.
I'm going way down the rabbithole here.
As an example, when I found mylake lake I say lake house, but
it's like a camp, it's 600square feet.
It's down like a fucking cliff.
So, like, this is not aglamorous camp, but it's exactly
what we wanted and my husbandand I had been looking and
(16:45):
saving and saving, and savingand looking for like a lake camp
, lake house for probably 15years, and I'm not exaggerating,
I'm pretty sure it was 15 years.
We had been looking and saving,and looking and saving and we
got to this house and it was inthe middle of COVID and it was
on the market.
Literally one day and I calledmy best friend, my best friend
(17:08):
who's a real estate agent, andI'm like, can you, you need to
show us this house today.
And he said, okay, no problem.
So he, he literally showed usthe house that day.
It went on the market.
We put in the offer that nightbut before.
So we put in the offer causeit's the perfect little, like
it's the littlest camp was builtin 1945.
It's got like.
It's so cute.
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The bedrooms are big enough tofit a bed, it's so it was
unfinished, the floors wereplywood, there was no trim, like
it was.
It was a man's camp.
There was a fishing camp, forsure.
And then they accepted ouroffer, just to just to prove the
point.
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Do you know what I felt after 15years of looking for a camp?
I'm fucking crying right nowbecause this energy is so strong
.
I felt calm.
I was like, well, this is it.
It was like shrug of theshoulders that's our camp, and
that was that, and it was done.
And there was no excitement,elation.
(18:12):
It was don't mind me trying notto sob.
It was this feeling, and Idon't know why this is getting
me Out of everything I've saidI'm going to laugh, I'm going to
cry, I'm going to say fuck.
Way too many times I'm probablygoing to be censored the
podcast after this.
But it was the sense of I foundit.
I've been searching and I foundit and it's fine and it's like
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that part of my soul that I'vebeen looking for.
It's what it felt like.
It felt like I found a part ofmy soul and like, and it just
like, put it right in the ribs,it's right where it belongs.
And now I know I'll never, everget rid of that house, like I
know that house is going to bepassed down through the
generations.
I'm emotional, everybody.
(18:56):
How many of your otherpodcasters cry.
Is it just me?
Is it just me?
Tears rolling down my face overhere on YouTube.
My eyes are all red now, butthat's what decisions that are
in alignment with me feel like.
They feel calm, they feel likethey belong.
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When my son was born, I was like, oh, I've been waiting for him.
When my daughter and this isbefore the metaphysical shit,
all of this is before themetaphysical shit when my
daughter was born, I was likewe're done, go schedule your
snip, snip, we done, we done,like.
I was like she's the one I waswaiting for.
I knew my son was coming, she'sthe one I was waiting for.
Her name literally means wishedfor.
And I was like we're done,we're not, we're not having any.
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Go get the snipper, we're done.
And so it's just this weirdsense of calm that comes over me
when the right decisions aremade.
So if I bring it back up, letme go dig myself out from this,
this energetic hole that I'm inright now.
I don't even know where thehell this came from.
Oh, hang on, they're.
(20:03):
They're rewinding it in mybrain right now.
So when I talk about okay, whenI talk about, like, having to
make the decision to cut off myfamily, I felt the sense of calm
and I was like this is theright decision.
When I posted this on LinkedIn,I felt the sense of calm and I'm
like, okay, this is the rightdecision.
It doesn't mean it didn't havepanic attacks the next day, but
it was this, this feeling oflike closing a loop, which is
(20:24):
where I think the panic kind ofcame from.
And this like energetic, likebitch slap came from, is just
this panic attack of holy shit,I really just did that, did I
just undo?
Did I?
Did I just like crucify myselfin terms of my social network,
like am I never, ever going toget a job there?
Like, what if I?
What if this mediumship thingfucking doesn't pan out?
(20:46):
Do I?
I?
I've now burned those bridges,but sometimes bridges need to be
burned, and so having this sameit's so interesting to me
because having the sameenergetic impact across two very
I'm going to say likehistorically and I've reconciled
(21:08):
with my family, right, we'regood, we're good now.
But I needed to go through itfor me to be me, for me to find
my path and be who I am today.
You wouldn't, I wouldn't behere if I didn't do that.
So almost being stuck in thatsame energetic energy again was
so fucking traumatic but also soreflective for me as to this is
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a turning point.
There is no going back.
This is the path they need tobe on, and so that having that
second like energeticfingerprint come again and
having it come with peace, andthen panic attacks and then it
upset stomach and I'm going tobe honest with you like
digestion issues for likeseveral days afterwards, like
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that was my fucking moment ofthis, is exactly what I needed
to do and I don't have to likeit in the moment, but I have to
trust that it's going to bringme where I'm supposed to bring
me, and so I so.
Okay, thank God, spirits on myside, otherwise I don't know
what I would talk about or whereall these things would go, or
if they'd even make sense, and,god forbid, I try to actually
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plan an episode that'll neverhappen anymore.
But what I want to say is payattention to the fuck you
moments.
Pay attention to your, thepeople around you, the words
people are giving you.
Pay attention to spiritualdownloads and spiritual signs.
Pay attention to stories yousee right.
Pay attention to likeeverything that comes your way,
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and if you end up saying fuckyou, that's for you, that's a,
that's a big mic drop, but alsopay attention to the energetic
imprints, right?
Are you feeling the same exactway that you felt when you made
another similar decision?
That is your own intuition,body's way of saying like fuck
you to you too, because you arerevisiting energy and you're
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probably going to have a similarprocess.
It's going to be like, andhopefully that's positive, right
, but it's it.
But it's.
For me, it was positive.
It didn't feel positive, butbut that energetic impact
imprint was telling me I madethe right decision and just wait
to see, just wait, just wait.
You can't go back becauseyou're not supposed to go back.
Just wait and see what happens.
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So pay attention to all theselike fuck you moments, because
they are moments of fucking gold.
They are moments of gold and Icatch myself saying fuck you
over and over and over again,and so these are the things that
make me realize I'm on theright path, and a lot of these
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moments are things I end uphealing and then sharing with my
clients as well.
So more to come.
I want to hear about your fuckyou moments.
I'm going to add this to my I'mjust writing it down my my
Wednesdays, one of my Wednesdaycommunity posts, because I want
to hear what are your fuck youmoments?
I'm desperate to hear this.
(24:05):
I think it's going to beamazing.
Um, tell me about them, becausefuck you moments are successes,
they are progress.
They are fucking energyImprints from spirit telling you
you're on the right fuckingpath.
Screw signs.
I don't want signs andsynchronicities anymore.
I'm asking for fuck you moments, and you should too.
Hello there, welcome back.
To empower your soul.
I am here to talk about thefuck you moments that are so
important to your life.
Yep, I said it.
I said I'm here to talk aboutthe fuck you moments.
These have been happening overand over and over again for me
and if I were to say it withoutan expletive, which is not my
favorite way to say things ifI'm honest with you, these are
(00:21):
moments of spiritual mic drops,moments of epiphanies, moments
of realization, and it's almostlike these puzzle pieces coming
together is kind of theenergetic imprint of these fuck
you moments and these have beenhappening so much with me.
And so and I think it's onpurpose, because it's by design,
(00:45):
because I listen when I sayfuck you now, and I think they
know that, so they just keepbringing me more and more fuck
you moments.
Let's talk about it, let'sbreak it down and I'm hoping
spirit will back me up, becauseI didn't prep for this.
This is totally on the fly forme, this episode, so I wanted to
kind of talk about fuck youmoment.
(01:06):
So what I have been finding isthat I have been asking and
asking for the answers, andmaybe this is, mrs White, where
we're supposed to go with this,because I have been asking my
team for answers and answers andanswers about me, my path, my
journey, where should I be?
I've had lots of no notbragging, because it's not easy
(01:26):
but I've had lots of businessopportunities that have been
coming my way lately and I'mstruggling to know what to say
yes to and what to say no to,because a lot of these don't
have a clear outcome, a lot ofthem don't have a guaranteed
return on investment and a lotof them, honest to God, feel
like a gamble.
And I know that I'm at thispoint right now where spirit is
really fucking challenging meand trying to get me out of my
(01:49):
left brain, my logical ways ofmaking decisions using data,
using, you know, obvious answersand really pushing me into my I
want to say, right brain, but Idon't even know if it's my
right brain my intuitiveinformation and feeling what the
(02:11):
answer should be, and it is souncomfortable for me because I
usually make decisions based ondata.
No word of a lie.
I look, I'm going to say it.
I look at my social media dataengagement, views, likes,
comments and I like go throughthat and I try to identify.
(02:35):
What are the trends, what dopeople like, what do people not
like?
And then I try to make videosbased on what?
Where is the biggest engagement?
Because obviously y'all like itso.
So I mean I could just hitrecord and and be intuitive with
my social stuff.
But let's be honest here.
This is a business.
Every single video takes time.
It's fucking exhausting thoseof you that do social media you
(02:58):
know and so I can't take agamble on my energy.
So I use data to help me figureout what's the right energy
that people want to hear about.
Right, what do people, whattopics, what, what goes where
like, what are the best types offormats, platforms, etc.
Because if I'm going to spendthis energy, I want the biggest
bang for my buck, and this ishow I operate.
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I operate in the space of datato make decisions, and as I'm
saying this, I'm seeing spiritlaugh out loud in my head and it
feels like everything is a 180,because not everything that's
data is going to produce theoutcomes that I want.
And it's this old dumb saying.
I say dumb because it makes meangry.
(03:39):
It's a great saying, though,like past performance does not
indicate future success.
Fuck you, that's what I'mtalking about.
Those are the fuck you moments.
So we're doing it live on airright now.
These are the fuck you momentswhere I have a realization that
hits me so hard that I literallysay to the person talking to me
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usually to myself most of thetime and I just go fuck you.
And this has been happeningover and over and over again.
So it's these moments ofneeding to bring in answers to
my problems, questions.
I'm sitting there meditatingabout talking to spirit, about
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what's my direction, what shouldI do here, give me information.
I don't understand this.
And then it all fucking comestogether in a fuck you moment.
And usually that fuck you momenthappens like this me talking
out loud on the podcast.
It might happen through otherpeople talking about the same
thing, feeling thank God for mycircle, everybody, thank God for
my witches.
Carly, who I'm going to have onthe podcast in a little bit,
(04:46):
like there's so many of you,april Claire, like there's so
many of you that I'm activelyengaged with that give me these
spiritual downloads and thesefuck you moments all the time.
So thank you for being aconduit from spirit.
So I want you to pay attention.
I want you to pay attentionbecause not all of the
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information is going to come inthrough the way that we want
expected to.
So I think that's like what I'mlearning, right, because I
expected to come in through data.
I can measure, analyze andpredict what the future is.
Thanks for that that.
I can't do that anymore.
It will come in throughmeditation, automatic journaling
.
It'll come in through thisfeeling of I need to do this,
(05:27):
but literally right now I'mgoing to play it in my mind and
I'm not going to talk about whatI'm going to talk about because
I don't know if I'm going to dothis or not.
But I've been presented with areally awesome business idea and
I've been mulling it over andI'm just like I see the pluses,
I see the minuses.
I'm not sure where to go.
This is probably going to be apretty big investment in terms
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of my time and my money.
I don't know what the ROI isgoing to be.
Even if there is an ROI, Imight go negative on this thing
and so, like I can't use databecause I've never done this
before, there is no data to makethis decision and when I tap
into my gut, feel my intuition,or when I ask spirit for signs,
they're all over the fuckingplace.
I asked them to show me aspecific number and I was like
(06:13):
could you please show me?
I'm getting boxed right now.
Could you please show me thisspecific number?
But what happens is they showme everything but that exact
number.
Like they'll show me one numberoff.
They'll put the numbers on alicense plate together, okay,
(06:35):
but there's a whole bunch ofletters and other numbers in
between them.
So I'm like what the?
So there's no clear directionor guidance from spirit when I'm
fucking asking for it, right,but then I'll get in a
one-on-one chat with dear Carly,who you're going to meet, and
she fucking lays it out for meand I'm just like damn it, fuck
(06:56):
you Carly, damn it, fuck youCarly.
And so I think this is where Idon't know what to do with this,
other than just tell you to payattention for the moments that
you're like oh my god, did youjust say that that's exactly the
advice and perspective I havebeen looking for?
(07:17):
Do you know what she said on a?
I hope you don't mind, carly,I'm chatting about you today.
Hopefully your ears are ringing.
No, that was literally hervoxing me right now.
So her ears are ringing whileI'm doing this.
But she literally said and Iwas like you got to trademark
this, this is brilliant.
In the middle of a coaching call, she's just like a lot of
people are the butterfly thatwant to go back into being the
(07:37):
caterpillar.
I was like, oh my God, fuck you, that is such a yes, that's
exactly what I'm trying to do.
I'm trying to take my new selfand shove it into the old,
familiar patterns and beliefsand expectations that I had.
And it's not.
I can't go back.
I can't undo the wings, I can'tundo the cocoon, so I have to
(07:59):
invent a new way forward, and Idon't know what that way forward
is decision making yet.
But right now they're giving methese fuck you moments so that I
can, I can get that perspective, so I can get these downloads,
because the momentum doesn'tstop right, needing to make
these decisions don't stop.
And I don't know about you, butthis year they are coming at me
(08:20):
hot and heavy, like they arecoming at me so fast, and these
decisions have to be made inlike a week, a week and a half's
worth of time, and I'm like Idon't even have enough time to
sit in, like, digest thisbecause, like, as I speak, I
have two kids home today, right,like I have kids that are sick.
I have sports coming right, andso there's just this really
(08:44):
interesting dynamic of needingto make these fast decisions and
not getting any fucking helpmaking these decisions.
Woe is me.
First world problems over here,ever, I know, I know, but we
all have our things right.
I'm not going to minimize myproblems because I feel like
(09:07):
it's very similar to what you'reall going through and it's just
, it's so hard to make some ofthese decisions that are coming
at us so fast and making surewe're we're doing it with the
right quality and time andfeedback.
And maybe that's the lesson isthat these decisions that are
coming at me, at us, they're notfinal.
If we say no to this, somethingelse will come along, and then
(09:29):
I just love.
I love the perspective thatCarly and my metaphysical
friends give me.
They're like every decision youmake is not the wrong decision
and I'm like, oh, fuck you,every decision I make is the
right decision.
I should just write a book offuck yous.
Maybe I need to do that.
(09:52):
It's just like what?
And maybe after this I'll do acommunity post and just say what
was your fuck you moment thisweek, right, um, another good
one, for example, that I've beenfacing is um, uh, I'm going to
go there, I'm going toconsolidate the spirits telling
(10:13):
me it's a two for this, this one.
So I I felt the need to post onLinkedIn that I talked to the
dead and for those of you thathave been in the corporate world
, you know the vibe and energythat exists on LinkedIn like I'm
going to trash it.
And so I'm sorry if you're anactive LinkedIn member that you
(10:35):
thoroughly love this platform,but it's complete shit.
It's full of toxic people thatare trying to elbow their way
essentially up the food chain tothe next job, the next rotation
, the next promotion andessentially it's like this very
toxic networking platform forprofessionals generally in the
(10:55):
corporate space.
And it's so interesting to mebecause there have been people
in my life that I love dearlythat are like I think I'm going
to go on LinkedIn and I was likeyou might want to rethink that,
unless the energy of thatplatform has changed, I realized
there's a lot of really coolbusiness professionals on there.
I don't see that space becauseI don't see that small business
people like people that areactively trying to grow their
(11:19):
business and do better.
They're not on LinkedIn right,like check your target
demographic, because the peoplethat I have engaged on LinkedIn
have all been in corporateAmerica.
They have all been people thatare essentially it's like I'm
sorry I'm saying it, god justforgive me everybody it's a
cesspool of people who are justtrying to fucking survive the
(11:41):
corporate world and find theirnext job, because we all know
their layoffs are alwaysimminent in that space and so
keeping in touch with yournetwork is a survival mechanism
for us financially.
On LinkedIn, headhunters, akarecruiters, use LinkedIn to
headhunt you to the next job.
I know I've been recruited toevery job I've ever been in
(12:01):
right, and 99% of them I thinkno, yeah, 99% of them, with the
exception of my consulting hasall been through LinkedIn
headhunters that have come inand asked me to come over to
their company right, always beenrecruited out.
So for me to post on LinkedInthat I talked to the dead is
(12:23):
essentially my death sentencefor finding another job in
corporate America.
I mean and honest to God,that's what it felt like and why
the fuck would I do that Right?
Besides, I keep getting thesecalls from spirit from other
readers to post it, to post whatI do to be more authentic in
(12:49):
what I do and show up andtruthful in who I am and what I
do.
And so I fucking ignored thatshit so hard I did.
I was like fuck you, no, I'mnot doing that.
There was a different type offuck you Um, but I was like
absolutely not Um.
So maybe it's like fuck youversus fuck me.
I don't know, maybe there's adifference there.
(13:10):
Anyway, I digress, I give allthe fucks, apparently.
So there's so many expletives.
Welcome to my energy.
Everybody.
This is authentic me showing up, but I keep getting these hits
to do it and I'm like absolutelynot.
And then, and then someone at myprevious job who knows what I
(13:32):
do, gave me as a referral to aformer staff member hers, you
know who you are, hello girl.
To a former staff member ofhers, you know who you are,
hello girl.
And she showed up and she'slike I worked, I worked with you
at this company and I was likemotherfucker, I like I didn't
work with her directly, but hername looked really familiar and
I couldn't place it.
And then I was like there, itis Fine.
(13:54):
And then it was just like theunveiling of the curtain and
just showing me that there's somany people out there on
LinkedIn and I got the thumbs upfrom my Mac right now there's
so many people out there onLinkedIn that need the healing
and need the hope, and so, butthey don't.
I'm not quite sure.
I haven't pieced it alltogether and I'll fully admit
(14:16):
this, but there was some needfor me to be on there and give
transparency to who I am andwhat I do, because my integrity
is top notched in my corporatejob.
I mean not to not to humblebrag, but I'm one of the best at
what I do in my job, right?
Which is why I've never had toreally apply for a job.
Have I had to interview?
(14:37):
Yeah, okay, kinda.
I say kinda because everyoneI've interviewed with I've
probably worked at one point oranother, except for my very
first job.
So I just felt called to post,and so I use the wonders of
Claude AI because I don't knowwhat the fuck I'm going to type,
(14:58):
right?
So I was like, okay, well, thisis my situation and it and it
spit out a very lovely post.
So I 100% admit that I clottedthat shit and I posted it, and I
proceeded to have heart fuckingpalpitations.
I don't know where this isgoing.
We're gonna get there.
Heart palpitations the entirenext day, the day after panic
(15:20):
attacks.
I had an event that night, likeit wasn't good.
My mental health was not goodfor a couple days there, and
what was so interesting aboutposting that is, in the most
vulnerable sense of the word isthat it was the same exact
energy I felt when I felt like Ihad to cut off my family.
(15:41):
It was this odd feeling ofknowing I needed to do it when I
posted it and I hit post, thisnervousness, but also the sense
of calm, like I, this is whatI'm supposed to be doing,
because calm for me is always myindicator that I did the right
(16:02):
thing.
Because choices shouldn't feelthere's my answer fuck you about
one of these decisions, aboutwhat I should do.
Calm is always my indicatorthat I've made the right choice,
because decisions should notfeel crazy, should not be heart
palpitations, the rightalignment.
Decisions always feel calm forme afterwards, to the point
(16:24):
where, um, I, just as an example, I'm going sub, exam, sub.
I'm going way down the rabbithole here.
As an example, when I found mylake lake I say lake house, but
it's like a camp, it's 600square feet.
It's down like a fucking cliff.
So, like, this is not aglamorous camp, but it's exactly
what we wanted and my husbandand I had been looking and
(16:45):
saving and saving, and savingand looking for like a lake camp
, lake house for probably 15years, and I'm not exaggerating,
I'm pretty sure it was 15 years.
We had been looking and saving,and looking and saving and we
got to this house and it was inthe middle of COVID and it was
on the market.
Literally one day and I calledmy best friend, my best friend
(17:08):
who's a real estate agent, andI'm like, can you, you need to
show us this house today.
And he said, okay, no problem.
So he, he literally showed usthe house that day.
It went on the market.
We put in the offer that nightbut before.
So we put in the offer causeit's the perfect little, like
it's the littlest camp was builtin 1945.
It's got like.
It's so cute.
(17:28):
The bedrooms are big enough tofit a bed, it's so it was
unfinished, the floors wereplywood, there was no trim, like
it was.
It was a man's camp.
There was a fishing camp, forsure.
And then they accepted ouroffer, just to just to prove the
point.
(17:49):
Do you know what I felt after 15years of looking for a camp?
I'm fucking crying right nowbecause this energy is so strong
.
I felt calm.
I was like, well, this is it.
It was like shrug of theshoulders that's our camp, and
that was that, and it was done.
And there was no excitement,elation.
(18:12):
It was don't mind me trying notto sob.
It was this feeling, and Idon't know why this is getting
me Out of everything I've saidI'm going to laugh, I'm going to
cry, I'm going to say fuck.
Way too many times I'm probablygoing to be censored the
podcast after this.
But it was the sense of I foundit.
I've been searching and I foundit and it's fine and it's like
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that part of my soul that I'vebeen looking for.
It's what it felt like.
It felt like I found a part ofmy soul and like, and it just
like, put it right in the ribs,it's right where it belongs.
And now I know I'll never, everget rid of that house, like I
know that house is going to bepassed down through the
generations.
I'm emotional, everybody.
(18:56):
How many of your otherpodcasters cry.
Is it just me?
Is it just me?
Tears rolling down my face overhere on YouTube.
My eyes are all red now, butthat's what decisions that are
in alignment with me feel like.
They feel calm, they feel likethey belong.
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When my son was born, I was like, oh, I've been waiting for him.
When my daughter and this isbefore the metaphysical shit,
all of this is before themetaphysical shit when my
daughter was born, I was likewe're done, go schedule your
snip, snip, we done, we done,like.
I was like she's the one I waswaiting for.
I knew my son was coming, she'sthe one I was waiting for.
Her name literally means wishedfor.
And I was like we're done,we're not, we're not having any.
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Go get the snipper, we're done.
And so it's just this weirdsense of calm that comes over me
when the right decisions aremade.
So if I bring it back up, letme go dig myself out from this,
this energetic hole that I'm inright now.
I don't even know where thehell this came from.
Oh, hang on, they're.
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They're rewinding it in mybrain right now.
So when I talk about okay, whenI talk about, like, having to
make the decision to cut off myfamily, I felt the sense of calm
and I was like this is theright decision.
When I posted this on LinkedIn,I felt the sense of calm and I'm
like, okay, this is the rightdecision.
It doesn't mean it didn't havepanic attacks the next day, but
it was this, this feeling oflike closing a loop, which is
(20:24):
where I think the panic kind ofcame from.
And this like energetic, likebitch slap came from, is just
this panic attack of holy shit,I really just did that, did I
just undo?
Did I?
Did I just like crucify myselfin terms of my social network,
like am I never, ever going toget a job there?
Like, what if I?
What if this mediumship thingfucking doesn't pan out?
(20:46):
Do I?
I?
I've now burned those bridges,but sometimes bridges need to be
burned, and so having this sameit's so interesting to me
because having the sameenergetic impact across two very
I'm going to say likehistorically and I've reconciled
(21:08):
with my family, right, we'regood, we're good now.
But I needed to go through itfor me to be me, for me to find
my path and be who I am today.
You wouldn't, I wouldn't behere if I didn't do that.
So almost being stuck in thatsame energetic energy again was
so fucking traumatic but also soreflective for me as to this is
(21:31):
a turning point.
There is no going back.
This is the path they need tobe on, and so that having that
second like energeticfingerprint come again and
having it come with peace, andthen panic attacks and then it
upset stomach and I'm going tobe honest with you like
digestion issues for likeseveral days afterwards, like
(21:53):
that was my fucking moment ofthis, is exactly what I needed
to do and I don't have to likeit in the moment, but I have to
trust that it's going to bringme where I'm supposed to bring
me, and so I so.
Okay, thank God, spirits on myside, otherwise I don't know
what I would talk about or whereall these things would go, or
if they'd even make sense, and,god forbid, I try to actually
(22:15):
plan an episode that'll neverhappen anymore.
But what I want to say is payattention to the fuck you
moments.
Pay attention to your, thepeople around you, the words
people are giving you.
Pay attention to spiritualdownloads and spiritual signs.
Pay attention to stories yousee right.
Pay attention to likeeverything that comes your way,
(22:37):
and if you end up saying fuckyou, that's for you, that's a,
that's a big mic drop, but alsopay attention to the energetic
imprints, right?
Are you feeling the same exactway that you felt when you made
another similar decision?
That is your own intuition,body's way of saying like fuck
you to you too, because you arerevisiting energy and you're
(23:02):
probably going to have a similarprocess.
It's going to be like, andhopefully that's positive, right
, but it's it.
But it's.
For me, it was positive.
It didn't feel positive, butbut that energetic impact
imprint was telling me I madethe right decision and just wait
to see, just wait, just wait.
You can't go back becauseyou're not supposed to go back.
Just wait and see what happens.
(23:22):
So pay attention to all theselike fuck you moments, because
they are moments of fucking gold.
They are moments of gold and Icatch myself saying fuck you
over and over and over again,and so these are the things that
make me realize I'm on theright path, and a lot of these
(23:44):
moments are things I end uphealing and then sharing with my
clients as well.
So more to come.
I want to hear about your fuckyou moments.
I'm going to add this to my I'mjust writing it down my my
Wednesdays, one of my Wednesdaycommunity posts, because I want
to hear what are your fuck youmoments?
I'm desperate to hear this.
(24:05):
I think it's going to beamazing.
Um, tell me about them, becausefuck you moments are successes,
they are progress.
They are fucking energyImprints from spirit telling you
you're on the right fuckingpath.
Screw signs.
I don't want signs andsynchronicities anymore.
I'm asking for fuck you moments, and you should too.
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