April 28, 2025 • 22 mins
Have you ever experienced something life-changing that happened so suddenly, it felt almost supernatural? In this raw and vulnerable episode, I share the extraordinary story of how my 25-year relationship with alcohol ended literally overnight through what I can only describe as a spiritual energy clearing.
Growing up with alcoholism in my family and a heritage spanning several European cultures where drinking was deeply embedded, alcohol became my primary coping mechanism. Despite knowing it wasn't serving me, I continued this pattern for decades, occasionally quitting but always returning. Then came the night that changed everything – after attending a show featuring my former drinking idol and participating in a few games, something profound happened while I slept. I experienced what felt like an energetic purge, clearing out decades of drinking patterns from my system.
What makes this story truly remarkable isn't just the spontaneous nature of my sobriety, but the complete absence of desire or cravings that followed. The persistent pull toward alcohol – that subtle tug familiar to anyone with a vice – completely vanished. Through conversations with spiritually attuned friends and even a medium who immediately sensed this shift without prior knowledge, I've come to understand this as the completion of an energetic cycle – ascending beyond a coping mechanism I no longer needed. This experience has opened my mind to new possibilities in healing ancestral patterns and deep-seated habits, making me wonder: what other transformations are possible when we release what no longer serves us?
If you've ever struggled with breaking free from patterns that feel woven into your identity, or if you're curious about how spiritual energy work can create profound change, this episode offers a glimpse into what's possible. Have you experienced something changing dramatically without effort on your part? I'd love to hear your story and continue this conversation.
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Speaker 1 (00:01):
Medium, nicole here, welcome back to empower your
soul.
I don't even know if I want topost this, but I probably will,
because I keep trying to recorda different episode and it's
just not working and I don'tthink that's what I'm supposed
to talk about, but this has beena topic that has been in my
head probably for the last twoweeks or so, and it's a little
(00:21):
sensitive and it's a littlepersonal and I'm not sure that I
want to fully talk about thison the podcast, but I think it's
probably important to share.
So here we go.
Let's talk about my drinking.
Do I have your attention?
Yet?
Let me back it up for a minute,because this is going to be the
story to how I think I justaccidentally quit alcohol for
(00:44):
good Maybe not for good, but atleast for most of it.
But let me, let me.
Let me go there because I amsomebody who, oh God, I'm Irish,
I'm Polish, I'm German, I'mItalian, I'm French, like I am.
All of the European countriesthat have delicious beverages
Okay, everybody, deliciousalcoholic beverages and so, for
(01:09):
me, drinking has been my vice.
Okay, that's, I don't doanything else, I don't.
Drinking has been my vice, andI have been drinking since,
definitely under the age that Ishould have been drinking right,
and I have always beensurrounded by alcohol my whole
life.
My grandmother is an alcoholic,right.
My father probably also.
I love him, but also a littlebit of an alcoholic too, right,
(01:32):
and I just I'm surrounded.
I've surrounded myself withalcohol my entire life.
This is normal for me.
Have I quit before?
Yes, I have.
I have gone through stintswhere I quit alcohol for, you
know, a couple years.
So the idea of alcohol in mehas always, I'm going to say,
been very tumultuous, and Ithink my friend said it best and
(01:54):
I'm going to butcher the waythat she said it.
But when you grow up withalcoholics, you either are an
alcoholic yourself or youabstain.
And I have been like, betweenoscillating between the two and
I'm not saying that I was analcoholic but I enjoyed my
beverages.
But I've been oscillatingbetween the two for, like, since
I've had kids, probably for 10years now, because, if I'm
(02:15):
totally honest with you, I don'treally, I don't really enjoy
alcohol.
I like the way that it makes mefeel, I like the way that it
really takes the pressure off.
I can tell you that after along day in my corporate job,
you bet your ass I'd be sittingdown with a glass of, a glass of
red, and I could just literallyfeel the stress go from my body
(02:35):
.
So for I mean, I essentiallyused it as my medication.
Do I drink any other?
Do I have any other medication?
No, but I used it as a copingmechanism for what's going on in
my life and I think thatancestrally that's true with all
of my family as well we allused it as a coping mechanism
for everything, because life isnot easy here, right?
(02:56):
So it has been many years of medebating quitting, not quitting,
gonna be honest, probably acouple binge drinking
opportunities, right, likequitting.
And so, like it's.
It's just been this verytumultuous thing with me and
I've always been verystandoffish about alcohol
Because I know it's not good forme, I know it's literal poison
(03:19):
for my body.
But then I have other peoplethat tell me like, oh, it's part
of Mother Earth, right, it'spart of Mother Earth, you're
drinking Mother Earth.
And I've had other people tellme like it's okay if you drink,
as long as you're drinking withhigh vibes, like you're drinking
to celebrate and you're notdrinking to cope, and so, like
it has been in my mind, thisconstant struggle okay, even
(03:40):
though on paper I'm fine, youcould tell me I needed to quit
tomorrow and I could quittomorrow.
So like not technically analcoholic, but there's
definitely something with thisnarrative with alcohol with me
personally, that's been a partof my journey and this might be
more ancestral, right, because Icome from long lines of
alcoholics, right, but what isso interesting for me and like
(04:02):
this, is the part I don't wantto talk.
I don't want to put my, mybones on display here.
You know everyone's gotskeleton in their closet and I
really don't like talking aboutthe skeletons in my closet.
I don't like being vulnerablewho does?
But I digress.
But what has been sointeresting for me is how this
literally changed in one nightfor me and it was the wildest
(04:27):
night and the most like and Ithink this is the wonder of
working with spirit is like Ican't even put into words the
experience that I went through.
But let's talk about it andI'll try to put what I can into
words about this.
Because here we go.
Here's my little infantileNicole thing.
(04:47):
This is my youth, coming outright here, when I was in my 20s
and when I first purchased thehouse that I'm currently sitting
in.
This is out in the boonies.
I'm in the middle of nowhere,there are no bars, like there's
nothing around here.
So my husband and I would woulddrink, we would watch drinking
show games and drink like that'swhat we would do.
Right, most of my 20s was spent.
(05:09):
My pre kid time was spentdrinking right like weekends
would drink nights.
I drank right like this is, Ifeel like that's normal, and
have you seen the breweries withall the without like the kid
playgrounds?
Right like drinking is like anational pastime here.
So that's how I would spend myweekends.
Out here in the sticks is thatwe would watch a drinking show
called three sheets and forthose of you that are unaware,
(05:31):
or it was not your demographicor part of your time period, I
believe it was a show on ComedyCentral and it was Zane Lamprey,
who's a comedian who wouldtravel around the world drinking
and he would drink in all thedifferent countries.
And it was.
It was fun because theycombined our love of drinking
and travel, so he would go toall these different countries,
(05:51):
learn about all these differentdrinking cultures, drink the
local beverages, learn the link,local hangover cure, and it was
just really fun.
I mean when I say we love thisshow.
We love this show, we wouldhave parties around this show.
So we would have people likebring beverages from different
countries, just like Zane did,and like celebrate, right, like,
because this was what we didwhen we were dumb and young,
(06:12):
right.
So it has been many years sinceI last watched this show, but
then I found out that ZaneLamprey was coming.
He's doing a tour right now andhe's been on a couple of other
shows.
I haven't seen them becauseI've aged out of the drinking
shows with kids, right.
But he's been on a couple ofother shows, I think on Amazon
Prime and some other ones too.
(06:33):
But he has a tour right nowwhere he's going to all of the
breweries and essentially doinglike a drinking comedy show.
And little old me, who's 40 nowI'm 40, was so fucking excited
to see my 20 year ago idol at alocal like.
(06:55):
He was 15 minutes away from me,out here in the sticks, and I
was like I have to go, I have togo.
So I called him.
The babysitter Called him mybrother in law, because he loved
that show too, and my husband,my brother in law, and I went to
this show to go see, like thisidol from when I was, you know,
young and stupid.
Now I'm just old and stupid.
From when I was, you know,young and stupid.
(07:17):
Now I'm just old and stupid.
So so I went to go to the showand I bought VIP tickets because
I'm old and I want, I want to.
It was not assigned seating, soI was like I want a good seat,
I'm gonna go pay the extra moneyfor the VIP tickets and get in
a little bit early and not haveto fight in line to get my drink
and my food and everything likethat.
So we went a little bit earlyand part of the VIP experience
was essentially 30 minutes ofdrinking games with Zane Lamprey
(07:38):
, which, like again, like littleme was so excited for like,
when I say little me, like 20year old me, was so excited for
this that I get to drink with myidol that I watched drink on
the screen for so long.
Is this ridiculous?
Is this episode ridiculous?
Yet?
But I would watch him and whenI got there it was so cool, like
(08:00):
it was like going back in time.
But actually I have to rewindbecause the entire night felt
oddly, felt oddly like 20 yearsago.
So when I tapped into before Igot to the show, after the kids
got picked up, spirit was likego to this restaurant in town
for dinner.
And I'm like, okay, and I couldsee in my head I was going to
(08:21):
be sitting like in the bar area.
And I'm like, okay, cool, Ilike went, went online, checked
reservations.
There weren't any reservations.
I was like, all right, we'lljust go and wing it.
(08:56):
And of course, when we gotthere, we sat in the seat, the
seat that we first sat in it,the same exact restaurant when
we bought this house almost 20years ago.
Not, not even, not even a wordof lie.
This is like a 20 year cycle.
So so they sit us in the room atthe first.
I can remember the first thingI ever ate there was.
It was a butternut squashgnocchi with a but with a butter
sage sauce.
Like I can tell you exactlywhat I ordered that night and
I'm pretty sure the same fuckingthing was on the menu that
night.
And so they sat us down and itwas the same seat that I sat in
20 years ago and it was like thesame thing on the menu.
(09:16):
I didn't order it.
It wasn't very good.
I'm going to be honest with you, but I but it was just felt so
strange to be like there's somany fucking parallels to old me
and old me, old us right now,and so that was kind of weird.
And then we went to the show andagain we started the night
(09:38):
doing drinking games with mydrinking idol, right.
So, like, I got called outtwice in the 30 minutes to chug
a beer with him.
So, yeah, I, yes, I'm a champ,I'm good at chugging my beers.
So I chugged my beer with ZaneLamprey, which was really fun.
And then I was in a flip cupgame because no one else would
volunteer.
And he pointed at me and he'slike, how about you?
(10:03):
And I was like, okay, sure, Idon't mind.
And so I got kind of pickedtwice to participate in a
drinking game with had that hadlike 30 people there.
There were 30 people there.
Why was I picked twice?
So, um, so that's how the nightwent right, and it was
hilarious.
We had a really good time.
Um, I didn't drink too muchbecause I was driving, right, so
it's like I drank at thebeginning, but then I, you know,
I I didn't.
(10:24):
I think I had two beers therelike two beers.
And then I drove home and wehad we like put the show on for
like old time's sake, and I hadanother beer.
So you're talking about threebeers over the course of the
night like totally normal.
Okay, I know it's probably alittle more than most people
drink, but for me it's not bad,that's, that's not bad.
(10:45):
So so I see I'm I'm fearingjudgment.
Do you hear that in my voice?
I'm fearing your judgment.
I'm fearing what are you goingto think about me?
But that's not the point of thestory.
The point of the story is thefact that when I went to bed, I
(11:07):
had this, this energy after Iwent to bed, that this was the
end of an, this was the end of acycle.
And I can't even put into wordswhat that felt like, because
all night long, all night tillthe very morning when I woke up
with a hangover which doesn'tmake sense because I had three
beers, not for me, not for me.
I can easily do six, let's justput it that way without a
(11:30):
hangover.
So three, we're going to getthere in a second.
But I went all night, half inand out of sleep all night,
feeling this was the end of mydrinking all night and I can't
even explain the energy to you.
I can't explain it to youbecause I just all night long,
it was like I was clearing outenergy from drinking from 20, 30
(11:51):
years of drinking.
Energy from drinking from 20,30 years of drinking Like um,
not really 30, but clearing outthis energy of of drinking and
needing alcohol and needing todrink and like clearing out this
desire.
And so all night long, while Iwas sleeping, while I was half
awake, I could feel this energymoving out of me and when I woke
up the next morning that energywas gone and I couldn't feel
(12:14):
the lift, the energetically.
When I was like in my 3d state,I couldn't feel that transitory
feeling anymore because it felttransitory.
All night long I felt like thismoving, this clearing out of
energy.
But then when I woke up, I had amassive fucking hangover, which
, again, not typical for me andI wasn't.
(12:34):
I was so like energetically lowand, like you know, it felt
like a really, really badhangover and I couldn't recover.
All day long I couldn't recoverand it was so interesting to me
because it was like it feltlike I was like rebounding from
the flu.
That's, that's the only way Ican really describe it.
I wasn't like um, but it wasall inside, let's put it that
(12:58):
way.
There were no, there was nooutward symptoms, let's put it
that way but it was just like anenergetic clear out in every
sense of the word, because Iit's like it came out through my
pores, it came out everywhereand I, again, like I said, I'm
having trouble putting this intowords, but the hangover was so
much more worse than it shouldhave been.
(13:19):
I spent all night feeling likethis energy was leaving me and
in my head, saying you're donewith this, you're done with this
, you're done with this.
And then me waking up the nextday, like every other hangover,
being like, oh that sucked, Iguess I'll have some toast and
(13:39):
some coffee this morning, right,and after that was processed
and I don't think it was ahangover, does do you?
I don't think I feel like thiswas like the energetic rebound
of clearing out all that energy.
And it wasn't that.
It was an actual hangover, itwas like an energetic hangover.
From removing all of that.
And do you know what?
What's happened since?
I feel zero desire to drinkalcohol, like zero fucking
(13:59):
desire.
Like when I say zero desire, Imean there's no pull anymore,
there's no tie anymore, those ofyou that like drink or do other
vices, you know like there'sthat constant pull, that
constant tug to want to do that,want to do that.
And it's not that I can't sayno to it, but there is that
constant tug.
Right, that tug is gone, likecompletely shut out, gone.
(14:24):
How, what, what the fuckhappened?
I'm just like it's just likewhat, like I don't even know,
like I'm just like it's justlike what, like I don't even
know, like I'm trying todescribe what I'm doing on the
camera, but it's like washingyour hands of it and it's gone.
And this must be what it's likeon the other side when you
transition into the spirit world, because it's like as soon as
(14:48):
that energy hangover was done, Iwent up right and it's just
like.
Now I'm above it and I'mlooking down like I'm not doing
that again.
It was the clearing out ofenergy that no longer served me,
that was not good for me andwho I am.
So that was weird.
And it's been two weeks andI've had, for someone who's been
(15:11):
drinking for God how long 25years, like literally 25 years,
on and off.
You know a couple, a couple ofquits here and there, but it was
painful quit.
It was not an easy quit, it wasa holy shit.
This is the worst thing ever.
But I know I have to do withthis kind of quit.
But for someone like me that isliterally ingrained in my, but
(15:35):
for someone like me that isliterally ingrained in my
ancestors, in my DNA, right Likefor it to be gone overnight.
What else can you do?
Spirit, let's do this.
I don't know, it's crazy, it'scrazy.
So you know I haven't reallysaid it to anybody.
You know I told my husband I'mdone, I'm done drinking.
I told my friend I'm donedrinking and I like every like
(15:56):
people hear me say it all thetime.
So they're like, okay, cool,that's fine.
So no one's really thinkinganything of it.
And then I told my friendRachel, the good witch in the
Northeast, and she's like yeah,that was the end of your cycle,
you're done, you don't.
You don't need it anymore.
You've ascended above it.
You don't need that copingmechanism anymore because you
(16:17):
know how to cope now.
So you don't need it.
So that was very validating.
And then last night at mymediumship practice circle, at
the mediumship mastermind, I waspracticing with um, with a
woman there I'm not going toname names because I don't like
doing that, but she, sheessentially called it out and
she's like what happened withthe drinking?
And I said, oh, I quit.
(16:38):
And she's like, don't test it.
But she immediately picked upon the energy of me quitting
alcohol, or me, I'm gonna saylike liking wine a little bit
too much, and I and she keptlike dancing around it and then
I finally told her I'm like Iquit it.
I said I can't even describe itbut I quit it and I'm pretty
(16:59):
sure this is for good.
Like I think this is done now.
And she's like your ancestors,they're telling you don't, don't
test it.
And I was like, oh, what doesthat mean?
Now I kind of I don't want totest it just to see what, but I
won't.
But isn't that interesting how,like it was validated,
additionally after the fact,with someone who doesn't know my
story at all.
So, yeah, that is my storyabout how I think I quit alcohol
(17:23):
in one day.
And now I'm wondering what elseI can do.
What else can we do?
Can I help you clear out yourtoxic energy and things?
No, I'm gonna know this isgoing to be my test Now, now
that I know it's possiblebecause I think that's the first
thing with this work is youneed to know that it's possible,
right Now that I have beenthrough it and I know that it's
possible to literally resolveaddictions overnight like this.
(17:51):
Now I got to test it.
Anyone want to be my testsubject?
Just seriously.
So, yeah, I'm going to leave itthere.
But yeah, that's my wild andcrazy story about how I'm pretty
sure I quit alcohol within 24hours.
No, within overnight, isn'tthat wild?
All right, if you heard thispodcast, that means I posted it,
and if you heard it, pleaseknow that this was excruciating
(18:14):
to talk about and like gothrough and talk about.
So if you have feedback on this, I would love to hear it to
make sure that you're stillfollowing me.
All right, take care everybody.
Have a wonderful day.
Medium, nicole here, welcome back to empower your
soul.
I don't even know if I want topost this, but I probably will,
because I keep trying to recorda different episode and it's
just not working and I don'tthink that's what I'm supposed
to talk about, but this has beena topic that has been in my
head probably for the last twoweeks or so, and it's a little
(00:21):
sensitive and it's a littlepersonal and I'm not sure that I
want to fully talk about thison the podcast, but I think it's
probably important to share.
So here we go.
Let's talk about my drinking.
Do I have your attention?
Yet?
Let me back it up for a minute,because this is going to be the
story to how I think I justaccidentally quit alcohol for
(00:44):
good Maybe not for good, but atleast for most of it.
But let me, let me.
Let me go there because I amsomebody who, oh God, I'm Irish,
I'm Polish, I'm German, I'mItalian, I'm French, like I am.
All of the European countriesthat have delicious beverages
Okay, everybody, deliciousalcoholic beverages and so, for
(01:09):
me, drinking has been my vice.
Okay, that's, I don't doanything else, I don't.
Drinking has been my vice, andI have been drinking since,
definitely under the age that Ishould have been drinking right,
and I have always beensurrounded by alcohol my whole
life.
My grandmother is an alcoholic,right.
My father probably also.
I love him, but also a littlebit of an alcoholic too, right,
(01:32):
and I just I'm surrounded.
I've surrounded myself withalcohol my entire life.
This is normal for me.
Have I quit before?
Yes, I have.
I have gone through stintswhere I quit alcohol for, you
know, a couple years.
So the idea of alcohol in mehas always, I'm going to say,
been very tumultuous, and Ithink my friend said it best and
(01:54):
I'm going to butcher the waythat she said it.
But when you grow up withalcoholics, you either are an
alcoholic yourself or youabstain.
And I have been like, betweenoscillating between the two and
I'm not saying that I was analcoholic but I enjoyed my
beverages.
But I've been oscillatingbetween the two for, like, since
I've had kids, probably for 10years now, because, if I'm
(02:15):
totally honest with you, I don'treally, I don't really enjoy
alcohol.
I like the way that it makes mefeel, I like the way that it
really takes the pressure off.
I can tell you that after along day in my corporate job,
you bet your ass I'd be sittingdown with a glass of, a glass of
red, and I could just literallyfeel the stress go from my body
(02:35):
.
So for I mean, I essentiallyused it as my medication.
Do I drink any other?
Do I have any other medication?
No, but I used it as a copingmechanism for what's going on in
my life and I think thatancestrally that's true with all
of my family as well we allused it as a coping mechanism
for everything, because life isnot easy here, right?
(02:56):
So it has been many years of medebating quitting, not quitting,
gonna be honest, probably acouple binge drinking
opportunities, right, likequitting.
And so, like it's.
It's just been this verytumultuous thing with me and
I've always been verystandoffish about alcohol
Because I know it's not good forme, I know it's literal poison
(03:19):
for my body.
But then I have other peoplethat tell me like, oh, it's part
of Mother Earth, right, it'spart of Mother Earth, you're
drinking Mother Earth.
And I've had other people tellme like it's okay if you drink,
as long as you're drinking withhigh vibes, like you're drinking
to celebrate and you're notdrinking to cope, and so, like
it has been in my mind, thisconstant struggle okay, even
(03:40):
though on paper I'm fine, youcould tell me I needed to quit
tomorrow and I could quittomorrow.
So like not technically analcoholic, but there's
definitely something with thisnarrative with alcohol with me
personally, that's been a partof my journey and this might be
more ancestral, right, because Icome from long lines of
alcoholics, right, but what isso interesting for me and like
(04:02):
this, is the part I don't wantto talk.
I don't want to put my, mybones on display here.
You know everyone's gotskeleton in their closet and I
really don't like talking aboutthe skeletons in my closet.
I don't like being vulnerablewho does?
But I digress.
But what has been sointeresting for me is how this
literally changed in one nightfor me and it was the wildest
(04:27):
night and the most like and Ithink this is the wonder of
working with spirit is like Ican't even put into words the
experience that I went through.
But let's talk about it andI'll try to put what I can into
words about this.
Because here we go.
Here's my little infantileNicole thing.
(04:47):
This is my youth, coming outright here, when I was in my 20s
and when I first purchased thehouse that I'm currently sitting
in.
This is out in the boonies.
I'm in the middle of nowhere,there are no bars, like there's
nothing around here.
So my husband and I would woulddrink, we would watch drinking
show games and drink like that'swhat we would do.
Right, most of my 20s was spent.
(05:09):
My pre kid time was spentdrinking right like weekends
would drink nights.
I drank right like this is, Ifeel like that's normal, and
have you seen the breweries withall the without like the kid
playgrounds?
Right like drinking is like anational pastime here.
So that's how I would spend myweekends.
Out here in the sticks is thatwe would watch a drinking show
called three sheets and forthose of you that are unaware,
(05:31):
or it was not your demographicor part of your time period, I
believe it was a show on ComedyCentral and it was Zane Lamprey,
who's a comedian who wouldtravel around the world drinking
and he would drink in all thedifferent countries.
And it was.
It was fun because theycombined our love of drinking
and travel, so he would go toall these different countries,
(05:51):
learn about all these differentdrinking cultures, drink the
local beverages, learn the link,local hangover cure, and it was
just really fun.
I mean when I say we love thisshow.
We love this show, we wouldhave parties around this show.
So we would have people likebring beverages from different
countries, just like Zane did,and like celebrate, right, like,
because this was what we didwhen we were dumb and young,
(06:12):
right.
So it has been many years sinceI last watched this show, but
then I found out that ZaneLamprey was coming.
He's doing a tour right now andhe's been on a couple of other
shows.
I haven't seen them becauseI've aged out of the drinking
shows with kids, right.
But he's been on a couple ofother shows, I think on Amazon
Prime and some other ones too.
(06:33):
But he has a tour right nowwhere he's going to all of the
breweries and essentially doinglike a drinking comedy show.
And little old me, who's 40 nowI'm 40, was so fucking excited
to see my 20 year ago idol at alocal like.
(06:55):
He was 15 minutes away from me,out here in the sticks, and I
was like I have to go, I have togo.
So I called him.
The babysitter Called him mybrother in law, because he loved
that show too, and my husband,my brother in law, and I went to
this show to go see, like thisidol from when I was, you know,
young and stupid.
Now I'm just old and stupid.
From when I was, you know,young and stupid.
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Now I'm just old and stupid.
So so I went to go to the showand I bought VIP tickets because
I'm old and I want, I want to.
It was not assigned seating, soI was like I want a good seat,
I'm gonna go pay the extra moneyfor the VIP tickets and get in
a little bit early and not haveto fight in line to get my drink
and my food and everything likethat.
So we went a little bit earlyand part of the VIP experience
was essentially 30 minutes ofdrinking games with Zane Lamprey
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, which, like again, like littleme was so excited for like,
when I say little me, like 20year old me, was so excited for
this that I get to drink with myidol that I watched drink on
the screen for so long.
Is this ridiculous?
Is this episode ridiculous?
Yet?
But I would watch him and whenI got there it was so cool, like
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it was like going back in time.
But actually I have to rewindbecause the entire night felt
oddly, felt oddly like 20 yearsago.
So when I tapped into before Igot to the show, after the kids
got picked up, spirit was likego to this restaurant in town
for dinner.
And I'm like, okay, and I couldsee in my head I was going to
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be sitting like in the bar area.
And I'm like, okay, cool, Ilike went, went online, checked
reservations.
There weren't any reservations.
I was like, all right, we'lljust go and wing it.
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And of course, when we gotthere, we sat in the seat, the
seat that we first sat in it,the same exact restaurant when
we bought this house almost 20years ago.
Not, not even, not even a wordof lie.
This is like a 20 year cycle.
So so they sit us in the room atthe first.
I can remember the first thingI ever ate there was.
It was a butternut squashgnocchi with a but with a butter
sage sauce.
Like I can tell you exactlywhat I ordered that night and
I'm pretty sure the same fuckingthing was on the menu that
night.
And so they sat us down and itwas the same seat that I sat in
20 years ago and it was like thesame thing on the menu.
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I didn't order it.
It wasn't very good.
I'm going to be honest with you, but I but it was just felt so
strange to be like there's somany fucking parallels to old me
and old me, old us right now,and so that was kind of weird.
And then we went to the show andagain we started the night
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doing drinking games with mydrinking idol, right.
So, like, I got called outtwice in the 30 minutes to chug
a beer with him.
So, yeah, I, yes, I'm a champ,I'm good at chugging my beers.
So I chugged my beer with ZaneLamprey, which was really fun.
And then I was in a flip cupgame because no one else would
volunteer.
And he pointed at me and he'slike, how about you?
(10:03):
And I was like, okay, sure, Idon't mind.
And so I got kind of pickedtwice to participate in a
drinking game with had that hadlike 30 people there.
There were 30 people there.
Why was I picked twice?
So, um, so that's how the nightwent right, and it was
hilarious.
We had a really good time.
Um, I didn't drink too muchbecause I was driving, right, so
it's like I drank at thebeginning, but then I, you know,
I I didn't.
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I think I had two beers therelike two beers.
And then I drove home and wehad we like put the show on for
like old time's sake, and I hadanother beer.
So you're talking about threebeers over the course of the
night like totally normal.
Okay, I know it's probably alittle more than most people
drink, but for me it's not bad,that's, that's not bad.
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So so I see I'm I'm fearingjudgment.
Do you hear that in my voice?
I'm fearing your judgment.
I'm fearing what are you goingto think about me?
But that's not the point of thestory.
The point of the story is thefact that when I went to bed, I
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had this, this energy after Iwent to bed, that this was the
end of an, this was the end of acycle.
And I can't even put into wordswhat that felt like, because
all night long, all night tillthe very morning when I woke up
with a hangover which doesn'tmake sense because I had three
beers, not for me, not for me.
I can easily do six, let's justput it that way without a
(11:30):
hangover.
So three, we're going to getthere in a second.
But I went all night, half inand out of sleep all night,
feeling this was the end of mydrinking all night and I can't
even explain the energy to you.
I can't explain it to youbecause I just all night long,
it was like I was clearing outenergy from drinking from 20, 30
(11:51):
years of drinking.
Energy from drinking from 20,30 years of drinking Like um,
not really 30, but clearing outthis energy of of drinking and
needing alcohol and needing todrink and like clearing out this
desire.
And so all night long, while Iwas sleeping, while I was half
awake, I could feel this energymoving out of me and when I woke
up the next morning that energywas gone and I couldn't feel
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the lift, the energetically.
When I was like in my 3d state,I couldn't feel that transitory
feeling anymore because it felttransitory.
All night long I felt like thismoving, this clearing out of
energy.
But then when I woke up, I had amassive fucking hangover, which
, again, not typical for me andI wasn't.
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I was so like energetically lowand, like you know, it felt
like a really, really badhangover and I couldn't recover.
All day long I couldn't recoverand it was so interesting to me
because it was like it feltlike I was like rebounding from
the flu.
That's, that's the only way Ican really describe it.
I wasn't like um, but it wasall inside, let's put it that
(12:58):
way.
There were no, there was nooutward symptoms, let's put it
that way but it was just like anenergetic clear out in every
sense of the word, because Iit's like it came out through my
pores, it came out everywhereand I, again, like I said, I'm
having trouble putting this intowords, but the hangover was so
much more worse than it shouldhave been.
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I spent all night feeling likethis energy was leaving me and
in my head, saying you're donewith this, you're done with this
, you're done with this.
And then me waking up the nextday, like every other hangover,
being like, oh that sucked, Iguess I'll have some toast and
(13:39):
some coffee this morning, right,and after that was processed
and I don't think it was ahangover, does do you?
I don't think I feel like thiswas like the energetic rebound
of clearing out all that energy.
And it wasn't that.
It was an actual hangover, itwas like an energetic hangover.
From removing all of that.
And do you know what?
What's happened since?
I feel zero desire to drinkalcohol, like zero fucking
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desire.
Like when I say zero desire, Imean there's no pull anymore,
there's no tie anymore, those ofyou that like drink or do other
vices, you know like there'sthat constant pull, that
constant tug to want to do that,want to do that.
And it's not that I can't sayno to it, but there is that
constant tug.
Right, that tug is gone, likecompletely shut out, gone.
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How, what, what the fuckhappened?
I'm just like it's just likewhat, like I don't even know,
like I'm just like it's justlike what, like I don't even
know, like I'm trying todescribe what I'm doing on the
camera, but it's like washingyour hands of it and it's gone.
And this must be what it's likeon the other side when you
transition into the spirit world, because it's like as soon as
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that energy hangover was done, Iwent up right and it's just
like.
Now I'm above it and I'mlooking down like I'm not doing
that again.
It was the clearing out ofenergy that no longer served me,
that was not good for me andwho I am.
So that was weird.
And it's been two weeks andI've had, for someone who's been
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drinking for God how long 25years, like literally 25 years,
on and off.
You know a couple, a couple ofquits here and there, but it was
painful quit.
It was not an easy quit, it wasa holy shit.
This is the worst thing ever.
But I know I have to do withthis kind of quit.
But for someone like me that isliterally ingrained in my, but
(15:35):
for someone like me that isliterally ingrained in my
ancestors, in my DNA, right Likefor it to be gone overnight.
What else can you do?
Spirit, let's do this.
I don't know, it's crazy, it'scrazy.
So you know I haven't reallysaid it to anybody.
You know I told my husband I'mdone, I'm done drinking.
I told my friend I'm donedrinking and I like every like
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people hear me say it all thetime.
So they're like, okay, cool,that's fine.
So no one's really thinkinganything of it.
And then I told my friendRachel, the good witch in the
Northeast, and she's like yeah,that was the end of your cycle,
you're done, you don't.
You don't need it anymore.
You've ascended above it.
You don't need that copingmechanism anymore because you
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know how to cope now.
So you don't need it.
So that was very validating.
And then last night at mymediumship practice circle, at
the mediumship mastermind, I waspracticing with um, with a
woman there I'm not going toname names because I don't like
doing that, but she, sheessentially called it out and
she's like what happened withthe drinking?
And I said, oh, I quit.
(16:38):
And she's like, don't test it.
But she immediately picked upon the energy of me quitting
alcohol, or me, I'm gonna saylike liking wine a little bit
too much, and I and she keptlike dancing around it and then
I finally told her I'm like Iquit it.
I said I can't even describe itbut I quit it and I'm pretty
(16:59):
sure this is for good.
Like I think this is done now.
And she's like your ancestors,they're telling you don't, don't
test it.
And I was like, oh, what doesthat mean?
Now I kind of I don't want totest it just to see what, but I
won't.
But isn't that interesting how,like it was validated,
additionally after the fact,with someone who doesn't know my
story at all.
So, yeah, that is my storyabout how I think I quit alcohol
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in one day.
And now I'm wondering what elseI can do.
What else can we do?
Can I help you clear out yourtoxic energy and things?
No, I'm gonna know this isgoing to be my test Now, now
that I know it's possiblebecause I think that's the first
thing with this work is youneed to know that it's possible,
right Now that I have beenthrough it and I know that it's
possible to literally resolveaddictions overnight like this.
(17:51):
Now I got to test it.
Anyone want to be my testsubject?
Just seriously.
So, yeah, I'm going to leave itthere.
But yeah, that's my wild andcrazy story about how I'm pretty
sure I quit alcohol within 24hours.
No, within overnight, isn'tthat wild?
All right, if you heard thispodcast, that means I posted it,
and if you heard it, pleaseknow that this was excruciating
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to talk about and like gothrough and talk about.
So if you have feedback on this, I would love to hear it to
make sure that you're stillfollowing me.
All right, take care everybody.
Have a wonderful day.
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