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Ronnie (00:01):
Saturday evening, sat
under the sky, looking at the
clouds.
It's been a glorious day,absolutely beautiful day, and
then we had a downpour literallyfive minutes, certainly cooled
the temperatures down, but itwas nice and refreshing, and I'd
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left my car windows open, so Iwent outside and decided to just
clean my car at the same time.
As you do.
I'd actually cleaned it a fewdays before but I thought, oh
I'll just give it a bit of adusting.
I can remember years and yearsago, it must have been summer
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and it absolutely poured it downand for some reason I decided to
go outside and wash my hair.
I think I'd seen an advert and Ithought I'm going to try that
and I went outside I got myshampoo and washed my hair.
For no particular reason.
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And I remember thinkingrainwater can be soft when you
wash your hair.
Your hair afterwards can bereally soft.
Anyway, I did that.
I can't remember what else Idid, but I remember doing that.
One of those mad things that youdo.
But I remember it, and it wasmany, many moons ago.
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I'm sat here thinking, I am soblessed in so many ways.
So blessed.
Even when I've struggled andthings haven't always gone in
the direction I'd hoped, butsometimes that leads you
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somewhere else or gives you timeto do what you need to do.
And sometimes that's not doanything really.
It's just be where you are, bewith those emotions, be with
those feelings, and allow themto be felt and acknowledged.
So I didn't know why I was goingto start recording, but as you
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know by now, those that know mypodcast, I start talking
sometimes and what's meant toflow flows.
I camped out with the girls lastnight, a friend, Jane went off
in a camper van.
And I'd thought about campingthe day before.
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But I didn't do it, so Ithought, I'm going to do it
tonight.
And I've slept in my car beforeand you sleep, but not like you
would normally.
But it was so funny, because Ididn't cordon the car off, so
the girls could get to the caron Toots just ignored it, as she
does.
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But Frances, oh no, she used itas a scratcher.
I woke the car rocking and notfor the normal reasons.
It was her scratching her buttagain.
So I just had to sort ofseparate them for a little while
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until morning.
It was funny.
And I felt drunk so I was sotired walking across the field
thinking, what am I doing?
But it was still fun.
I do love waking up with them.
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I used to do that quite oftenwhen I was in Hertfordshire.
I used to have my breakfast,take a little picnic, in the
morning I could have a cup oftea.
Oh, I love that.
There's something about eatingoutside and you can hear them,
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you can hear them munching awayin the night and other animals
that, around, but you're in thathalf awake, half asleep mode.
So you don't actually get out tosee what it is, but you know,
there's something out there.
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Yeah, getting back to feelingvery, very grateful, very
thankful, of, My life and thepeople around me.
Now if I wrote downcircumstances at this present
moment, you'd maybe be thinking,really?
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Okay, but our choices are ourchoices, whatever we do in life.
There always are choices, nobodyelse's, are choices, and every
choice has consequences.
It's taken me six months tosettle where I am.
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And I know this is not apermanent home, but I'm very
appreciative for where I am atthis present time.
And I have lots of good peoplearound me I have the people that
I'm staying with.
Very, very kind.
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very accommodating.
I have other friends that helpedme, times of need, and friends
that I've not actually met faceto face.
At one time, I wouldn't ask forhelp.
I would.
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dread asking for help but I'velearned over the last months,
actually, that it's okay to askfor help and not to feel guilty
when it's offered.
Because if you are offeredsomething out of kindness and
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you feel that low energy withthat, because you don't really
want to be in that position.
You're accepting it with thatfrequency, with that energy.
But if you can appreciate thatyou've opened up, you've asked
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for help, and people have gladlyobliged, then that's something
to be very grateful for.
Very grateful.
And when I look back, I think,goodness, I've been so So much
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help that you forget when youare looking at the other side.
I'm not gonna say the word, theN word, but you forget actually
there's more of the help, theoffer, the kindness than that,
that you are thinking of ormaybe focusing on at that time.
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But sometimes when you're inthat moment, that's what you
see, that's what you feel.
Now, it doesn't mean to say it'snot happening, it's not there,
but I do know, hand on heart,that if you give it so much
attention, that's exactly whatyou get back, magnified, more of
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what you do not wish in yourlife.
So the old saying.
Appreciate what you have, evenif it's small.
It really does make adifference, really, because it's
like each step.
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If you think of it as the wholebig thing, it's quite mind
blowing.
But if you take it one step at atime and deal with what is
happening on that day, or atthat moment Just that moment,
and then try and take your mindoff it, do something else.
Because your mind's very cleverat keeping you in that place.
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Distract it, whatever it is.
The more you do of that, themore you'll notice how quickly
things change.
Now, sometimes they might notchange as quick as you'd like,
because maybe that's the wayit's meant to be.
It's meant to be running thatcourse.
You're meant to feel that depth.
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You're meant to experience that,and you're meant to allow it to
flow through your body, so thatit can be changed.
It can be let go of.
It can be transmuted into adifferent kind of energy.
Because energy never goes, it'salways there, but it does
change.
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So I'm sat in a chair, watchingthe girls.
As the sun It's not going downquite yet, but there's clouds.
And even the dark clouds arevery beautiful because they give
contrast to the trees and theland.
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So just be appreciative of whatyou have.
Be thankful, be grateful.
And my wish one day is that Iwill be in a position, no, I
shall be in a position, Changethe word to return the favor
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many times over when calledupon.
Sometimes it's an exchange ofenergy.
So years ago when I did myReiki, I did my first degree,
second degree, and my master's.
I never say I'm a master Reikibecause I don't practice it in
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the way that it was intended.
And I didn't actually do it forthat reason.
www.
mooji.
org I did my first degree andsecond degree for me, to open me
up more.
And, maybe it was the intentionand thought of that that
actually did that, rather thanthe actual Reiki.
Who knows?
But it doesn't really matter.
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It's the fact that that's whathappened.
And then I did my masters.
I don't know why I did that, butI did.
But I knew I wasn't going to useit to practice.
For me personally, that's notthe reason I did those modules.
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I did actually start, I think,to do it with people.
I thought, well, I've spent allthis money.
You know, maybe I should dothat.
And it was the maybe word.
But I knew it wasn't in my heartto do it.
And I got some leaflets and Itook them around and I have done
people and I do do people.
But it's friends and family.
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When I used to fly, I, um,sometimes used to work with
passengers.
If he was nervous, I alwaysasked permission.
I used to say, would you mind ifI just put my hands on your
shoulders?
And that was lovely to see theresponse.
That was really nice.
The intention of helpingsomebody, to feel a bit more at
ease was lovely.
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But it didn't go anywhere.
And that's because my heartwasn't in it.
It wasn't really what I wantedto do.
So even if you do things thatyou think, oh, this is
spiritual, you know, this iswhat I should be doing.
If your heart's not in it,you'll only get the percentage
that you put in.
So if you only give 50%, that'swhat you'll get back.
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But if you are passionate aboutit, and you really want to do
this, you will get that back.
So remember that.
It's that passion for whateverit is you choose to do that
brings that same force back toyou.
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But I digress then, I was tryingto explain.
So, an exchange of energy.
So Reiki, think it's in one ofthe books it's not about going
out and curing people becausethat's not what you do anyway.
Nobody cures anybody.
You just facilitate and allowthem to see their own potential
and their own healing process.
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Anything you do, it's theindividual that are working on
themselves, whether they realizethat or not.
But it was an exchange ofenergy.
So if I went to give some Reikior anything to a person, they
don't have to give me that back,that same amount of energy, but
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to pass it on.
And that was the theunderstanding, I think, if I
remember rightly, of Reiki, aslong as that energy is passed on
to somebody else in whateverform.
It's an exchange.
So don't do something to expectit back to you, to boomerang
back to you.
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It will, but not necessarilyfrom the same person.
Whatever you give out comesback, but not always from the
same source, same person, sameavenue.
If that makes sense.
We all have our own divinehealing ability.
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All of us.
But if you're not aware or youdon't believe that you can
change or help yourself and yougo to somebody and they make you
feel better, then that's lovely,that's lovely.
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But remember, you are the one,your soul, your energy, your
life force knows what you need.
And I think when you open up tosomebody helping you, you're
saying, I'm allowing, but whatyou're doing really is you're
allowing yourself.
To help you, even if it comesfrom or through another person,
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another way.
I don't know why I'm talkingabout this.
I had no idea what I was goingto be talking about.
So once again, for anybody thatworks with Reiki, that's not, To
belittle, that's not theintention, But for me, it was
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always about me, connecting tome, giving myself permission.
to heal.
This is many years ago now, andI remember doing my first degree
and second degree, I went topractice on friends that was
fun.
That was fun yeah that's a wholenother podcast.
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Yeah, that was fun, thereaction.
Hmm.
Yeah, that's definitely anotherpodcast.
So I started off by saying thateven when things don't appear to
be where you want to be or whereyour life is heading, try and
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take whatever you can, rememberall the positive, nice comments,
Smiles you get from a stranger,from friends, or a hug, or a cup
of coffee, or a conversation.
Remember those, and write alist, which is what I heard,
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actually, on a podcast.
I thought, yeah, because you getso programmed into looking at
the other side.
When you start to write thingsdown, you think actually, I've
had so much help, even from theunseen.
Like driving my car something'shappened.
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I've been in a perfect locationto be safe and not just on one
occasion even at the time it'slike holy SHIT and Sometimes
I've had head in hand sobbingthinking I can't take any more
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But at the same time, I know Iwas so lucky So lucky.
Yeah So, I hope this resonateswith somebody and if it doesn't,
it doesn't matter.
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We all have our journeys, we allhave Our moments and sometimes
it can feel like nobodyunderstands where you are but
then why would they and whyshould they?
Because they're on theirjourney.
It might seem that they haveeverything but sometimes you
realize actually they don't.
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They might have lots of things,but maybe they haven't got
things that you've got.
Maybe they're afraid.
Maybe they have worries that youhave no idea about.
But then why should you?
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Sometimes I think, because I'mon my own, it's just me, my
choices.
And whatever happens, it affectsme.
But actually it doesn't, becausethere's always people around
you.
Trying to help you, trying toguide you.
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With the best intentions.
But your true guidance is alwaysyours.
And when you know and feel that,and know which is your true
guidance, even when your head issaying, you don't want to be
doing that.
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Let's stay here, it's safe.
You know that that's the time toreally listen.
Because your guidance alwaysmakes sure you are safe.
And you're doing what you needto do to move forward.
So on that note, I do hope youhave a lovely, lovely day,
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evening, wherever you are in theworld.
And know that you are neveralone.
Even if you feel that you are.
And I don't, by the way I lovemy own company.
I love being with people.
I am sociable, but I love towithdraw.
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I love that.
But then through that I havegrown and I can listen to
myself.
And the only person I argue withis myself.
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So on that note, I'm definitelygoing to go.
Have a lovely weekend.
Be kind to yourself.
Allow yourself to feel what youneed to feel, but don't linger
in that place.
Just allow it to pass through.
That's all it's doing, passingthrough.
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It's like electricity.
It's a charge.
It comes up and it has to go.
Otherwise, it stores in yoursystem.
Ready for the next trigger, nextemotional outburst.
And then that's what happens.
It comes out with everythingelse.
The lid is off the can.
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So just be kind, be gentle, bepatient, and know that you are
so special.
And you are perfect as you are,absolutely perfect.
From my heart to yours, bye fornow.