It Was Just a Normal Childhood… Wasn’t It? For All Adults With Childhood Trauma

This episode isn’t just healing—it’s cultural critique, political advocacy, and nervous system literacy woven together.

In a landscape where "healing" is often watered down into Instagram platitudes or spiritual bypassing, this episode reclaims trauma work as justice work.

What if going home never felt safe?

In this raw, unedited, and deeply embodied episode of Exiled and Rising, Ana Mael revisits her viral piece “Walk Back Home” and reflects on the haunting truth of what it means to be an adult carrying unresolved childhood trauma—especially when the home you were raised in eroded your safety, your voice, and your sense of self step by step.

This is not a healing episode in the polished sense.
This is a truth-telling episode.
A reckoning with the body.
A ritual of witnessing what was never named.

Ana takes you into the somatic landscape of the child who didn’t grow up in their family—but shrank down in order to survive it.

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In This Episode, You’ll Learn:

• What it means to shrink down in childhood instead of growing up

• The nervous system symptoms of covert trauma and emotional neglect

• Why your dread of going home was not drama—it was wisdom

• The long-term impact of invisible abuse, subtle disconnect, and ritualized betrayal

• How the walk from school or work to “home” can trigger collapse, shame, or vigilance—decades later

• Why your healing starts with truth, not forgiveness

• How to recognize children who are shrinking, and how to respond

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Who This Episode Is For

• Adults with unresolved childhood emotional abuse or neglect

• Survivors of covert trauma or passive-aggressive family dynamics

• Those who feel guilt or dread around visiting family or going “home”

• People struggling with chronic fawning, self-abandonment, or shame

• Therapists, teachers, coaches, and caregivers who want to better support trauma survivors and children

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Ana’s Core Message in This Episode

“You didn’t grow up in your family. You shrank down. That shrinking happened at the soul level, the emotional level, the body level. And that’s the trauma we don’t talk about.”

This episode doesn’t offer you a ten-step healing plan.
It offers you something more sacred: a place to stop minimizing what happened.
To feel what your body has always known.
To begin—slowly, gently—walking back to yourself.

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Mentioned in This Episode

• The original reading of Walk Back Home (now page 93 in Ana's book)

• The difference between covert and overt abuse

• A breakdown of somatic survival cues: posture collapse, dread, breath-holding, body shame

• The concept of "ritual betrayal" as a daily trauma for children

• Introduction to Ana’s mini-course on projected shame and somatic restoration

• Private community access and deeper resources for trauma-informed healing

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