August 9, 2024 • 30 mins
How do you rebuild your life and business when everything falls apart? Join me as I share my transformative journey over the last 16 months, where the collapse of my old ways led to a profound rediscovery of self and purpose. From the chaos and uncertainty emerged clarity and growth, highlighting the importance of reclaiming personal power and authenticity. Every individual's path is unique, and through my experiences, I emphasize that there is no single right way to achieve success. Through heartfelt reflections, we explore the significant lessons learned during these challenging times and the beauty of new beginnings.
As I approach my 30th birthday, I discuss the astrological shifts influencing my growth and how I’ve integrated past lessons into a more authentic and empowered existence. We delve into the transition from maiden to mother, shedding fear and doubt to embrace a more powerful self. This episode touches on the value of genuine relationships in business, breaking traditional boundaries, and living from a place of love and inspiration. With a commitment to speaking unfiltered and owning my power, I invite you to embrace your unique potential, recognizing that true authenticity leads to infinite possibilities and meaningful connections. Join me on this journey of empowered creation and self-authenticity.
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Speaker 1 (00:02):
one of the things that I've learned to love about
myself is that I take a shortstory and I make it long.
Who else out there has to makesure that you have every single
detail of every single person'slife that's involved in the
story, so that you really getthe oomph of what I'm trying to
(00:24):
tell you, like I want you toreally feel it or is it just me?
I was sitting here and I had anextra opportunity to dive in
with you guys.
I was supposed to do a podcastrecording with another gal and
her computer started restartedand so I had all this extra
space and I and by all thisextra I have like 20 minutes.
(00:47):
So I wanted to jump in herebecause there's this message
coming through about the powerof new beginnings and to rewind
this, I used to say all the timeso careful about the words you
choose to speak into existence.
I used to say that if I had tostart my business all over again
(01:11):
, I would be in a better spotbecause I have me.
I have all the growth, I haveall the expansion, I have all
the things that I've learnedover the years.
That restarting would be easy,and I'm going to let you in on a
little secret, that it isn't aseasy as I thought it would be,
but what happened was, as Idiscussed in the previous
(01:33):
episode, was that I forgot whothe fuck I was.
In the dismantling of mybusiness, in the dismantling of
my identity, in the dismantlingof who I was to who I am now
shifting from maiden to mother,one of the things that I've
realized and found greaterclarity in is that there can be
(01:56):
aspects of the dismantling thatis for you in your personal
growth, and there can be partsof that where you forget who you
are in the mix of it, becausethere's so much falling apart,
there's so much crumbling,there's so much of the tower
card, like in tarot, where it'slike you get lost, like
(02:16):
everything's crumbling and youhave nothing to hold on to.
And that's what the last 16months have truly felt like
there was, like in this void,there was nothing to hold on to,
and it can be scary and you canforget who you are in this
space, but it's so crucialbecause it's in this space, that
(02:38):
when you do remember, when youdo realize, oh my gosh, all of
this is happening for me, andthere will be a moment where
there is clarity on why it allhappened, which is what is
happening now.
I have clarity and I needed todismantle all of the different
ways in which I was creating mybusiness from someone else, by
(03:01):
someone else, instead of theauthenticity piece of like who
am I, how do I want to run thisbusiness?
And one of the key pieces ofthis that I've recognized
recently with recording podcastswith people and being on
podcasts is that everybody doesit differently and there is no
right or wrong way to do it.
(03:21):
And so really reclaiming thatpower of I know what's best for
me, I know what's best for mybusiness, I know what's best and
really reclaiming that powerand like making decisions from
that place of power is reallyimportant.
And so when you are faced withnew beginnings, when everything
(03:42):
crumbles, everything falls awayand you're like what the fuck am
I supposed to do now?
This is the episode for you,this is the transmission for you
.
The thing that doesn't crumble,in times it'll feel like it
(04:03):
does, and in times that you may,is you, is your knowledge, is
your wisdom.
The pieces that are falling awayare the pieces that are no
longer a vibrational match forwhere you're going.
The pieces that fall away arethe old identities For me,
(04:48):
moving from maiden into mother.
The pieces that crumbled wereany area in which I was still
knight in shining armor to ridein and save the day.
Any piece of people pleasing.
Any piece of not holding andclaiming my power.
Any piece where I was unable tohold the boundary peace where I
(05:13):
was bypassing my own experience.
Any peace where my voice wasn'tstrong, where it was wavering,
where any peace where it wascomplete fear, where there was
no courage.
The maiden, like she is playful, she is charismatic, she is
magnetic, she is the life of theparty.
(05:34):
Those aspects I'm taking withme, those aspects of like loving
the play, of being curious, ofexploration, of exploring who I
am, of another level in themother, but like all of those
aspects of me that were fear,that were doubt, that didn't
(05:55):
claim her power, that chapter isclosed.
Those pieces fell away so thatI could step into the space of
mother.
And here, when I'm recordingthis, in a few days, it's my
30th birthday.
So by the time this reachesyour ears, I will be 30.
And I truly feel so, like,astrologically, a lot of shit's
(06:20):
going on for me as I move intothis next space.
It's not leaving all of itbehind, but it's taking the
pieces that I choose.
It's taking the wisdom.
It's taking the wisdom from thelessons and being able to
(06:42):
incorporate that into myexistence, being able to
incorporate that into myexistence, being able to
incorporate that into my, beingbeing able to truly code that
within my existence.
So, moving forward, I createfrom a new reality, I create
from a new space, I create froma new being.
I create from a space that ismore expanded, that her voice is
heard, that her voice, that sheis fully expressed, that she no
(07:07):
longer lives in the space offear and creates from the space
of fear and creates thispalatable from the space that
people are going to perceivewell and trying to control all
those pieces, but rather from aplace of true wisdom, the space
of true connection, the space oftrue power and really the space
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of true authenticity.
Because it's no longer aboutfitting in.
It's about finding the placesthat allow you to thrive.
I'm going to say that a milliontimes to you guys.
It is no longer about fittingin.
(07:49):
It is about creating andcurating and generating,
magnetizing the spaces in whichyou thrive.
We don't want to sit at tableswhere, when we get up.
We are the topic ofconversation, the topic of
gossip.
That doesn't feel good.
(08:10):
They're rejecting you for whoyou are.
We are not available for thatin this next season, in this
next chapter, and so, with thisnew beginning, I'm bringing this
power of recognizing.
I am fucking incredible.
I love to serve.
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I have a heart of fucking gold.
I am magnetic.
I am powerful.
I am love.
I lead myself with my heart.
I wear my heart on my sleeve.
Chances are, if you haven'theard me cry, you're going to
hear me cry If you exist withinmy world long enough.
(08:55):
I am sensitive, I care, I caredeeply.
I do things differently than alot of people.
I trigger a lot of people.
I advocate, I advocate for your, your dreams.
I will speak to your dreamsinstead of your fear.
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I will speak to your potentialinstead of your.
The story of limitation andthat's hard for people and
that's part of what I'm leavingin the maiden is like.
Is the aspect of like speakingto the fear, validating so that
I don't step on any toes andbringing forward the space of
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like, recognizing and holdingspace for what people are
available, for having theemotional maturity of knowing
what they are available for andspeaking to their potential.
Speaking to their potential,asking them, inviting them to
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step up.
And so, with this new beginning,it's like the crumble can be
really hard.
You can experience so muchfucking fear, so much fear, and
there are an infinite amount ofpossibilities out there for you
when you're living authentically, when you're living in
alignment with you key piecebeing you, nobody fucking else
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when you are livingauthentically, living for you
and serving from that place.
Because I think, equally, youneed both pieces.
You it's not just like theWhitney show.
I am main character, energy andI will own that and I will
embody that and I I won't feelshame about that and there is so
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much value and so much purposeand share in serving other
people and it's and like I knowthat that's one of the pieces
that I'm like.
And it's, and like I know thatthat's one of the pieces that
I'm like when I talk with myhusband, I'm like, how do I
teach soul to really honorhimself and have a heart of
service?
The best way to teach isthrough example, obviously, and
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so that is the example I'mleading with.
But like there's also thisadded pressure of like there's
so much ooey gooey magic inserving people Like I get so
much from it and like it is forme too, but like to truly honor
and serve people.
I love it and so being able totake both of those forward and
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speaking with power, speakingwith purpose, speaking with
power, speaking with purpose,speaking authentically, speaking
unfiltered.
It's no longer about can theytake what I'm speaking Like?
What if it's too much?
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What if I'm too much?
I'm willing to be too much, I'mwilling to speak over people's
heads, and that's the piecethat's coming into this next
chapter too, is that I'm goingto speak fully expressed and
those that hear me will hear me,and those that don't don't.
And what else is possible?
What other miracles are wegoing to experience?
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The incredible connectionswe're going to experience?
Because I am living unfiltered,I am living unapologetically, I
am living in my full expression.
My authentically expansive, big, quick.
That's been one within themaiden was like.
It was this from the space oflike, the wounded service, where
(12:37):
I was like I don't want toleave anybody behind, my wounded
inner child of like I don'twant to abandon anybody, I don't
want to leave anybody behind, Idon't want to be too quick, I
don't want to.
That ends, that's gone, it'slike no, I'm going to run
fucking fast and I believe thatyou can keep up.
There's no more viewing peoplelike they can't keep up.
(12:58):
There's no more viewing peopleas they.
They don't have the, the gonads, the conas for that.
It's like no, I believe that Ibelieve in you, I'm betting on
you, I believe in you and I'mbetting on you and I'm going to
be fast and I'm going to bequick and I'm going to create
and I'm going to change and I'mgoing to evolve, and it's all
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going to be so rapid you can'twrap your mind around it.
It's all nonlinear and I'mwilling to step out of the
linear, to be in the nonlinear,and willing to step in the space
of the infinite possibilities,into the quantum field, and
create and generate from thespace, unapologetically.
And you're all welcome to danceand fly and soar and create and
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generate with me.
That's the piece Like, let'sall do it together In this next
chapter, like the.
What I'm leaning into is is likemore connection, more
connection with myself, moreconnection with those around me,
more presence, more presencefor me, more presence with you,
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more presence in the presentmoment, like more stillness.
And so the foundation isdifferent, the reason why it
needed to crumble was becausewe're creating from a new
foundation.
We're leaving the bullshitstories, we're leaving the
limitations, we're leaving thelack, we're leaving the life is
happening to me in the past andwe're creating from the present
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moment, which the foundation is.
I am made for miracles.
The foundation is I am made formiracles.
I am made for expansion.
I am so highly supported andfavored by the universe.
Everything I create andgenerate comes back to me
tenfold.
Everything I do for anotherperson comes back to me tenfold.
I am circulating energy.
I'm circulating money, I'mcirculating love.
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I'm circulating every form ofcurrency that you could possibly
fucking imagine, includingpresence, including connection,
including whatever else you wantto plug in there.
I am circulating that.
That is my power, and I amcreating this new beginning from
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a foundation that is so strong,that is so aligned with who I
am, that is so authentic, thatis so unapologetic.
At a risk of like repeatingmyself over and over and over, I
want you to hear me and while Iwant you to hear me, I'm also
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not attached to that and I thinkthat's a huge piece that all of
us could hear a few times.
Is that what if you began tospeak with love, be fully
expressed, be the embodiment ofwho you are, be the embodiment
of your authentic self and, as abyproduct, it moved people.
As a byproduct, it helpedpeople, it inspired people, it
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created and generated all thethings that you could ever
fucking imagine and dream of.
And be detached from the peoplethat reject you.
And be detached from the peoplethat can't hear you.
And be detached from the peoplethat reject you.
And be detached from the peoplethat can't hear you.
And be detached from the placesit doesn't land, because the
focus is on where it's growing.
The focus is not on thegraveyard.
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The focus is on the flowers.
The focus is on the space thatthese seeds are being planted
and these flowers are bloomingin this beautiful space of
growth and evolution andexpansion.
And you're going to water thoseareas, you're going to focus on
those areas.
That's the power of a newbeginning.
So, when we make it through thecrumble, which can feel like
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surviving, let me tell you, whenwe move through the grief and
we actually allow ourselves tofully experience it, there's so
much freaking gold, like we aredripping in gold on the other
side.
What if you allowed the crumbleso you could allow yourself to
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see the gold.
It's like you have to have therain to have the rainbow, to
have the pot of gold.
Allow yourself to feel thegrief, stop avoiding the emotion
, stop avoiding this pain, stopavoiding the things that want to
move through you and stopliving in it, stop allowing it
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to spiral out of control andallow yourself to be sucked in
that spiral and to continue toswim into that spiral.
What if, instead, you were likewait, I am the creator, you
know?
What's coming to mind is ifyou've seen Divergent the series
, if you haven't, I highlyrecommend it.
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When she's doing the testing,it's like she can come back to
the point of like, oh, I'm beingtested, like this is within my
mind, I get to create this.
She's in.
So she dives in the into apuddle at one point to escape
whatever is in front of her, toget out of that situation.
And they're like how'd you dothat?
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And it's like it comes down toher realizing like she's the
creator of that reality.
These are all her worst fears,but it's created within her mind
.
And so if we take that into ourlife, we take that context and
we apply it in front of us, whatwe will find is that sorry, my
(18:35):
mic is I have to fix my mic andwe apply it to our life, we
begin to implement that.
What we will find is that thatis so relatable within the real
life, like it's not just out ofa movie, like we are the creator
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.
When we, when we realize, holyshit, I am the one creating all
of the shit, like I am the onemaking the shit sandwiches that
I'm eating, by plugging intothis energy, by putting this
energy out, by coding this intomy reality, what we find is that
we get to change thatinstantaneously, any moment we
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get to change that.
We get to change thatinstantaneously, any moment we
get to change that.
We get to change that.
So, if you're ready for change,if you're ready for new
beginnings, maybe you're in thecrumble.
I see you.
I see you, the crumble is hard.
All of these cords that arebeing severed, all of these
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cords that are being severed,all of these pieces in which no
longer serve us, all thesepieces of operating that we're
operating from someone else'spoints of views and perspective,
all need to fall away so thatyou can emerge and you can build
from a new foundation.
And you may feel, because, likeI feel and I and we are all
mirrors for one another theremay be this feeling of like I've
already fucking done this, likeI've already faced crumble,
maybe two or three, like why isthis fucking happening again?
For me it's like I felt Iexperienced a crumble in my
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early twenties.
I experienced a crumble in myteens.
I experienced a crumble in myearly twenties like two or three
, literally two or three in myearly twenties and then here at
the end of my thirties, I'mexperiencing like the biggest
crumble of my life and like itfeels like a cellular level
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crumble, like it.
It is a bigger crumble thatI've ever experienced in my life
.
But those set me up for this,even if in the moment I forgot,
even if in the moment I'm likewhy the hell is this happening
to me?
And I forget that I'm divinelysupported and I forget that I am
the creator and I forget thatI'm divinely supported and I
forget that I am the creator andI forget that I can change
things instantaneously.
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All of that needed to be sheddedShedded is that a word?
I needed to shed all of that.
I needed to release all of that.
I needed to find clarity andrecognize and have awareness
around those patterns.
Where was I functioning from mymother's money mindset, her
relationship with money?
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Where was I functioning fromher relationship with fear?
Where was I functioning from myfather's ability to communicate
or lack of ability tocommunicate my grandmother's
point of view on life?
Like an old partner, a like oldteacher, put in anybody that
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you want.
Where was I functioning fromanywhere other than me, an old
mentor, an old business coach, ateacher?
As this is how it has to happen,this is how it has to be
created.
We're moving into a paradigmand a reality that you can
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create from any point of view,from any place, from like in any
way.
It just has to be authentic andin alignment with you.
It has to be authentic, it hasto be in alignment of you and
you can create any, anything andeverything.
And that's where I say I dobusiness completely differently.
I leave a heart led businessand it feels so nourishing and
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it's a place of service and it'sa place of like support and
it's a place of like callingpeople up and it's a place of
relationship.
Do you know how many teacherstold me that it is unethical to
have relationships with clients,to have friendships with
clients?
How many people said you can'thave relationships with people
that you're in business with?
I have relationships with allof them, intimate relationships.
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I know more about them and theyknow more about me, and there's
vulnerability on both sides andzero shame.
And that's how I do business.
Business to me is personal.
Business to me is heart-led.
Business to me is aboutembodiment.
It's about a space of beinglike.
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It comes from a space of being.
For others, it may be a logicalplace that it comes from.
For others, it's all cognitive.
For others, it may be this likevery strategic.
There's lots of structure,there's lots of like.
That's how they function For me.
I function from being activated.
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I function from love.
I function from being activated.
I function from love.
I function from being inspired.
I function from a place of like, truly making my life a living
prayer.
That's where I function from,that's where I create from,
that's where I generate magic.
So it's not about where or howor like the nitty-gritty details
(24:00):
.
What it's about is livingauthentically and creating from
a space that is of you.
And so, in this new beginning,from this place of power,
because nobody, nothing can evertake your wisdom, can ever take
your joy can ever take yourwisdom, can ever take your joy,
can ever take your love withoutyour permission.
No one can take your powerwithout your permission.
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Knowing that, weave that intothis next reality, weave that
into that next timeline, weavethat into this next chapter.
No one gets to take you, no onegets to dictate your response.
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What dictates your responseversus reaction is whether or
not you've dealt with the trauma, dealt with the triggers, dealt
with the shame and the shitthat has been underneath and
truly like.
For me, it feels like thatchapter is closed, while I still
believe that there will beshame and guilt and resentment
(25:08):
and fear and worry and doubt andlike all of those things in
this next chapter.
Like that, I will walkalongside and there'll be more
layers of that.
Sure, but I am choosing thecodes, I'm choosing the
frequency, I'm choosing what Iam putting out, I am choosing
how I respond as a consciouscreator.
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And that's for me, moving fromthe maiden, taking those lessons
into the mother and curatingand creating from a space that
feels so nourishing to me.
That is an extension of me,that I shine through that
archetype, I shine through thatidentity.
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It's not a one size fits all,it's actually you put it on and
it looks different on everyperson.
Motherhood looks different.
It's like sisterhood of thetraveling pants, the four girls
that wore the pants.
They all look different in them, they all fit them differently,
they all, they all accentuateddifferent things or different
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things, expressed Like.
That is the magic yourdifferences, your uniqueness,
your authenticity.
I love you.
I see you in the struggle, Isee you in the space of the
crumble.
I see you, and there's so muchfucking magic on the other side
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if you allow the crumble, if youlean into the crumble, knowing
with the pure belief that all ofthis is happening for your
greater good.
one of the things that I've learned to love about
myself is that I take a shortstory and I make it long.
Who else out there has to makesure that you have every single
detail of every single person'slife that's involved in the
story, so that you really getthe oomph of what I'm trying to
(00:24):
tell you, like I want you toreally feel it or is it just me?
I was sitting here and I had anextra opportunity to dive in
with you guys.
I was supposed to do a podcastrecording with another gal and
her computer started restartedand so I had all this extra
space and I and by all thisextra I have like 20 minutes.
(00:47):
So I wanted to jump in herebecause there's this message
coming through about the powerof new beginnings and to rewind
this, I used to say all the timeso careful about the words you
choose to speak into existence.
I used to say that if I had tostart my business all over again
(01:11):
, I would be in a better spotbecause I have me.
I have all the growth, I haveall the expansion, I have all
the things that I've learnedover the years.
That restarting would be easy,and I'm going to let you in on a
little secret, that it isn't aseasy as I thought it would be,
but what happened was, as Idiscussed in the previous
(01:33):
episode, was that I forgot whothe fuck I was.
In the dismantling of mybusiness, in the dismantling of
my identity, in the dismantlingof who I was to who I am now
shifting from maiden to mother,one of the things that I've
realized and found greaterclarity in is that there can be
(01:56):
aspects of the dismantling thatis for you in your personal
growth, and there can be partsof that where you forget who you
are in the mix of it, becausethere's so much falling apart,
there's so much crumbling,there's so much of the tower
card, like in tarot, where it'slike you get lost, like
(02:16):
everything's crumbling and youhave nothing to hold on to.
And that's what the last 16months have truly felt like
there was, like in this void,there was nothing to hold on to,
and it can be scary and you canforget who you are in this
space, but it's so crucialbecause it's in this space, that
(02:38):
when you do remember, when youdo realize, oh my gosh, all of
this is happening for me, andthere will be a moment where
there is clarity on why it allhappened, which is what is
happening now.
I have clarity and I needed todismantle all of the different
ways in which I was creating mybusiness from someone else, by
(03:01):
someone else, instead of theauthenticity piece of like who
am I, how do I want to run thisbusiness?
And one of the key pieces ofthis that I've recognized
recently with recording podcastswith people and being on
podcasts is that everybody doesit differently and there is no
right or wrong way to do it.
(03:21):
And so really reclaiming thatpower of I know what's best for
me, I know what's best for mybusiness, I know what's best and
really reclaiming that powerand like making decisions from
that place of power is reallyimportant.
And so when you are faced withnew beginnings, when everything
(03:42):
crumbles, everything falls awayand you're like what the fuck am
I supposed to do now?
This is the episode for you,this is the transmission for you
.
The thing that doesn't crumble,in times it'll feel like it
(04:03):
does, and in times that you may,is you, is your knowledge, is
your wisdom.
The pieces that are falling awayare the pieces that are no
longer a vibrational match forwhere you're going.
The pieces that fall away arethe old identities For me,
(04:48):
moving from maiden into mother.
The pieces that crumbled wereany area in which I was still
knight in shining armor to ridein and save the day.
Any piece of people pleasing.
Any piece of not holding andclaiming my power.
Any piece where I was unable tohold the boundary peace where I
(05:13):
was bypassing my own experience.
Any peace where my voice wasn'tstrong, where it was wavering,
where any peace where it wascomplete fear, where there was
no courage.
The maiden, like she is playful, she is charismatic, she is
magnetic, she is the life of theparty.
(05:34):
Those aspects I'm taking withme, those aspects of like loving
the play, of being curious, ofexploration, of exploring who I
am, of another level in themother, but like all of those
aspects of me that were fear,that were doubt, that didn't
(05:55):
claim her power, that chapter isclosed.
Those pieces fell away so thatI could step into the space of
mother.
And here, when I'm recordingthis, in a few days, it's my
30th birthday.
So by the time this reachesyour ears, I will be 30.
And I truly feel so, like,astrologically, a lot of shit's
(06:20):
going on for me as I move intothis next space.
It's not leaving all of itbehind, but it's taking the
pieces that I choose.
It's taking the wisdom.
It's taking the wisdom from thelessons and being able to
(06:42):
incorporate that into myexistence, being able to
incorporate that into myexistence, being able to
incorporate that into my, beingbeing able to truly code that
within my existence.
So, moving forward, I createfrom a new reality, I create
from a new space, I create froma new being.
I create from a space that ismore expanded, that her voice is
heard, that her voice, that sheis fully expressed, that she no
(07:07):
longer lives in the space offear and creates from the space
of fear and creates thispalatable from the space that
people are going to perceivewell and trying to control all
those pieces, but rather from aplace of true wisdom, the space
of true connection, the space oftrue power and really the space
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of true authenticity.
Because it's no longer aboutfitting in.
It's about finding the placesthat allow you to thrive.
I'm going to say that a milliontimes to you guys.
It is no longer about fittingin.
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It is about creating andcurating and generating,
magnetizing the spaces in whichyou thrive.
We don't want to sit at tableswhere, when we get up.
We are the topic ofconversation, the topic of
gossip.
That doesn't feel good.
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They're rejecting you for whoyou are.
We are not available for thatin this next season, in this
next chapter, and so, with thisnew beginning, I'm bringing this
power of recognizing.
I am fucking incredible.
I love to serve.
(08:32):
I have a heart of fucking gold.
I am magnetic.
I am powerful.
I am love.
I lead myself with my heart.
I wear my heart on my sleeve.
Chances are, if you haven'theard me cry, you're going to
hear me cry If you exist withinmy world long enough.
(08:55):
I am sensitive, I care, I caredeeply.
I do things differently than alot of people.
I trigger a lot of people.
I advocate, I advocate for your, your dreams.
I will speak to your dreamsinstead of your fear.
(09:16):
I will speak to your potentialinstead of your.
The story of limitation andthat's hard for people and
that's part of what I'm leavingin the maiden is like.
Is the aspect of like speakingto the fear, validating so that
I don't step on any toes andbringing forward the space of
(09:39):
like, recognizing and holdingspace for what people are
available, for having theemotional maturity of knowing
what they are available for andspeaking to their potential.
Speaking to their potential,asking them, inviting them to
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step up.
And so, with this new beginning,it's like the crumble can be
really hard.
You can experience so muchfucking fear, so much fear, and
there are an infinite amount ofpossibilities out there for you
when you're living authentically, when you're living in
alignment with you key piecebeing you, nobody fucking else
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when you are livingauthentically, living for you
and serving from that place.
Because I think, equally, youneed both pieces.
You it's not just like theWhitney show.
I am main character, energy andI will own that and I will
embody that and I I won't feelshame about that and there is so
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much value and so much purposeand share in serving other
people and it's and like I knowthat that's one of the pieces
that I'm like.
And it's, and like I know thatthat's one of the pieces that
I'm like when I talk with myhusband, I'm like, how do I
teach soul to really honorhimself and have a heart of
service?
The best way to teach isthrough example, obviously, and
(11:04):
so that is the example I'mleading with.
But like there's also thisadded pressure of like there's
so much ooey gooey magic inserving people Like I get so
much from it and like it is forme too, but like to truly honor
and serve people.
I love it and so being able totake both of those forward and
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speaking with power, speakingwith purpose, speaking with
power, speaking with purpose,speaking authentically, speaking
unfiltered.
It's no longer about can theytake what I'm speaking Like?
What if it's too much?
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What if I'm too much?
I'm willing to be too much, I'mwilling to speak over people's
heads, and that's the piecethat's coming into this next
chapter too, is that I'm goingto speak fully expressed and
those that hear me will hear me,and those that don't don't.
And what else is possible?
What other miracles are wegoing to experience?
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The incredible connectionswe're going to experience?
Because I am living unfiltered,I am living unapologetically, I
am living in my full expression.
My authentically expansive, big, quick.
That's been one within themaiden was like.
It was this from the space oflike, the wounded service, where
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I was like I don't want toleave anybody behind, my wounded
inner child of like I don'twant to abandon anybody, I don't
want to leave anybody behind, Idon't want to be too quick, I
don't want to.
That ends, that's gone, it'slike no, I'm going to run
fucking fast and I believe thatyou can keep up.
There's no more viewing peoplelike they can't keep up.
(12:58):
There's no more viewing peopleas they.
They don't have the, the gonads, the conas for that.
It's like no, I believe that Ibelieve in you, I'm betting on
you, I believe in you and I'mbetting on you and I'm going to
be fast and I'm going to bequick and I'm going to create
and I'm going to change and I'mgoing to evolve, and it's all
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going to be so rapid you can'twrap your mind around it.
It's all nonlinear and I'mwilling to step out of the
linear, to be in the nonlinear,and willing to step in the space
of the infinite possibilities,into the quantum field, and
create and generate from thespace, unapologetically.
And you're all welcome to danceand fly and soar and create and
(13:44):
generate with me.
That's the piece Like, let'sall do it together In this next
chapter, like the.
What I'm leaning into is is likemore connection, more
connection with myself, moreconnection with those around me,
more presence, more presencefor me, more presence with you,
(14:06):
more presence in the presentmoment, like more stillness.
And so the foundation isdifferent, the reason why it
needed to crumble was becausewe're creating from a new
foundation.
We're leaving the bullshitstories, we're leaving the
limitations, we're leaving thelack, we're leaving the life is
happening to me in the past andwe're creating from the present
(14:28):
moment, which the foundation is.
I am made for miracles.
The foundation is I am made formiracles.
I am made for expansion.
I am so highly supported andfavored by the universe.
Everything I create andgenerate comes back to me
tenfold.
Everything I do for anotherperson comes back to me tenfold.
I am circulating energy.
I'm circulating money, I'mcirculating love.
(14:51):
I'm circulating every form ofcurrency that you could possibly
fucking imagine, includingpresence, including connection,
including whatever else you wantto plug in there.
I am circulating that.
That is my power, and I amcreating this new beginning from
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a foundation that is so strong,that is so aligned with who I
am, that is so authentic, thatis so unapologetic.
At a risk of like repeatingmyself over and over and over, I
want you to hear me and while Iwant you to hear me, I'm also
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not attached to that and I thinkthat's a huge piece that all of
us could hear a few times.
Is that what if you began tospeak with love, be fully
expressed, be the embodiment ofwho you are, be the embodiment
of your authentic self and, as abyproduct, it moved people.
As a byproduct, it helpedpeople, it inspired people, it
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created and generated all thethings that you could ever
fucking imagine and dream of.
And be detached from the peoplethat reject you.
And be detached from the peoplethat can't hear you.
And be detached from the peoplethat reject you.
And be detached from the peoplethat can't hear you.
And be detached from the placesit doesn't land, because the
focus is on where it's growing.
The focus is not on thegraveyard.
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The focus is on the flowers.
The focus is on the space thatthese seeds are being planted
and these flowers are bloomingin this beautiful space of
growth and evolution andexpansion.
And you're going to water thoseareas, you're going to focus on
those areas.
That's the power of a newbeginning.
So, when we make it through thecrumble, which can feel like
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surviving, let me tell you, whenwe move through the grief and
we actually allow ourselves tofully experience it, there's so
much freaking gold, like we aredripping in gold on the other
side.
What if you allowed the crumbleso you could allow yourself to
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see the gold.
It's like you have to have therain to have the rainbow, to
have the pot of gold.
Allow yourself to feel thegrief, stop avoiding the emotion
, stop avoiding this pain, stopavoiding the things that want to
move through you and stopliving in it, stop allowing it
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to spiral out of control andallow yourself to be sucked in
that spiral and to continue toswim into that spiral.
What if, instead, you were likewait, I am the creator, you
know?
What's coming to mind is ifyou've seen Divergent the series
, if you haven't, I highlyrecommend it.
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When she's doing the testing,it's like she can come back to
the point of like, oh, I'm beingtested, like this is within my
mind, I get to create this.
She's in.
So she dives in the into apuddle at one point to escape
whatever is in front of her, toget out of that situation.
And they're like how'd you dothat?
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And it's like it comes down toher realizing like she's the
creator of that reality.
These are all her worst fears,but it's created within her mind
.
And so if we take that into ourlife, we take that context and
we apply it in front of us, whatwe will find is that sorry, my
(18:35):
mic is I have to fix my mic andwe apply it to our life, we
begin to implement that.
What we will find is that thatis so relatable within the real
life, like it's not just out ofa movie, like we are the creator
(18:56):
.
When we, when we realize, holyshit, I am the one creating all
of the shit, like I am the onemaking the shit sandwiches that
I'm eating, by plugging intothis energy, by putting this
energy out, by coding this intomy reality, what we find is that
we get to change thatinstantaneously, any moment we
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get to change that.
We get to change thatinstantaneously, any moment we
get to change that.
We get to change that.
So, if you're ready for change,if you're ready for new
beginnings, maybe you're in thecrumble.
I see you.
I see you, the crumble is hard.
All of these cords that arebeing severed, all of these
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cords that are being severed,all of these pieces in which no
longer serve us, all thesepieces of operating that we're
operating from someone else'spoints of views and perspective,
all need to fall away so thatyou can emerge and you can build
from a new foundation.
And you may feel, because, likeI feel and I and we are all
mirrors for one another theremay be this feeling of like I've
already fucking done this, likeI've already faced crumble,
maybe two or three, like why isthis fucking happening again?
For me it's like I felt Iexperienced a crumble in my
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early twenties.
I experienced a crumble in myteens.
I experienced a crumble in myearly twenties like two or three
, literally two or three in myearly twenties and then here at
the end of my thirties, I'mexperiencing like the biggest
crumble of my life and like itfeels like a cellular level
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crumble, like it.
It is a bigger crumble thatI've ever experienced in my life
.
But those set me up for this,even if in the moment I forgot,
even if in the moment I'm likewhy the hell is this happening
to me?
And I forget that I'm divinelysupported and I forget that I am
the creator and I forget thatI'm divinely supported and I
forget that I am the creator andI forget that I can change
things instantaneously.
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All of that needed to be sheddedShedded is that a word?
I needed to shed all of that.
I needed to release all of that.
I needed to find clarity andrecognize and have awareness
around those patterns.
Where was I functioning from mymother's money mindset, her
relationship with money?
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Where was I functioning fromher relationship with fear?
Where was I functioning from myfather's ability to communicate
or lack of ability tocommunicate my grandmother's
point of view on life?
Like an old partner, a like oldteacher, put in anybody that
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you want.
Where was I functioning fromanywhere other than me, an old
mentor, an old business coach, ateacher?
As this is how it has to happen,this is how it has to be
created.
We're moving into a paradigmand a reality that you can
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create from any point of view,from any place, from like in any
way.
It just has to be authentic andin alignment with you.
It has to be authentic, it hasto be in alignment of you and
you can create any, anything andeverything.
And that's where I say I dobusiness completely differently.
I leave a heart led businessand it feels so nourishing and
(22:31):
it's a place of service and it'sa place of like support and
it's a place of like callingpeople up and it's a place of
relationship.
Do you know how many teacherstold me that it is unethical to
have relationships with clients,to have friendships with
clients?
How many people said you can'thave relationships with people
that you're in business with?
I have relationships with allof them, intimate relationships.
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I know more about them and theyknow more about me, and there's
vulnerability on both sides andzero shame.
And that's how I do business.
Business to me is personal.
Business to me is heart-led.
Business to me is aboutembodiment.
It's about a space of beinglike.
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It comes from a space of being.
For others, it may be a logicalplace that it comes from.
For others, it's all cognitive.
For others, it may be this likevery strategic.
There's lots of structure,there's lots of like.
That's how they function For me.
I function from being activated.
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I function from love.
I function from being activated.
I function from love.
I function from being inspired.
I function from a place of like, truly making my life a living
prayer.
That's where I function from,that's where I create from,
that's where I generate magic.
So it's not about where or howor like the nitty-gritty details
(24:00):
.
What it's about is livingauthentically and creating from
a space that is of you.
And so, in this new beginning,from this place of power,
because nobody, nothing can evertake your wisdom, can ever take
your joy can ever take yourwisdom, can ever take your joy,
can ever take your love withoutyour permission.
No one can take your powerwithout your permission.
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Knowing that, weave that intothis next reality, weave that
into that next timeline, weavethat into this next chapter.
No one gets to take you, no onegets to dictate your response.
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What dictates your responseversus reaction is whether or
not you've dealt with the trauma, dealt with the triggers, dealt
with the shame and the shitthat has been underneath and
truly like.
For me, it feels like thatchapter is closed, while I still
believe that there will beshame and guilt and resentment
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and fear and worry and doubt andlike all of those things in
this next chapter.
Like that, I will walkalongside and there'll be more
layers of that.
Sure, but I am choosing thecodes, I'm choosing the
frequency, I'm choosing what Iam putting out, I am choosing
how I respond as a consciouscreator.
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And that's for me, moving fromthe maiden, taking those lessons
into the mother and curatingand creating from a space that
feels so nourishing to me.
That is an extension of me,that I shine through that
archetype, I shine through thatidentity.
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It's not a one size fits all,it's actually you put it on and
it looks different on everyperson.
Motherhood looks different.
It's like sisterhood of thetraveling pants, the four girls
that wore the pants.
They all look different in them, they all fit them differently,
they all, they all accentuateddifferent things or different
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things, expressed Like.
That is the magic yourdifferences, your uniqueness,
your authenticity.
I love you.
I see you in the struggle, Isee you in the space of the
crumble.
I see you, and there's so muchfucking magic on the other side
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if you allow the crumble, if youlean into the crumble, knowing
with the pure belief that all ofthis is happening for your
greater good.
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