October 20, 2024 • 21 mins
What if you could reclaim your self-worth after experiencing profound trauma? In this powerful episode of Faith Unmuted, I share my deeply personal story of narrowly escaping an attempted rape and the shadow of unworthiness that followed me. Listen as I recount the immediate aftermath, the overwhelming need to cleanse myself of the feeling of being "dirty," and the terror of facing my attacker again at a youth convention. Through the lens of my journey, I'll explore the crucial role of supportive relationships and positive environments in helping me find the strength to push through and start healing.
Discover the transformative power of self-compassion and internalizing self-belief as I discuss how I began to love and accept myself despite the past. I'll dive into the importance of distancing yourself from negative influences and embracing your divine worth. By sharing my story, I hope to inspire you to reclaim your narrative and live a life of empowerment.
This episode challenges you to redefine what it means to be a Christian woman living in her truth, and we invite you to share your thoughts, favorite episodes, and questions as we continue this transformative journey together.
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
You are listening to Faith Unmuted.
The place where Christian womenget the opportunity to press
the button and say what theywant, how they want and exactly
how they feel.
The one place where, together,we can collectively walk through
our truths, liveunapologetically and stop hiding
.
Speaker 2 (00:38):
Yes, you are enough.
You are definitely enough.
You may say.
You know, how could you saythat you don't even know me?
I may not know you, but I knowme and at one point in my life I
felt as if I was not enough.
I wasn't worthy, you know, andI would take my past experiences
and look at it as confirmationas to why I'm not enough.
(00:59):
Or I had the words that peoplewould tell me as to why I'm not
enough.
You've been there.
Have you ever heard words likeyou think that you're this, you
think that you're that You'renobody, but this Used to hear
that quite a bit.
(01:20):
So I struggled with thinking amI enough?
You know, my husband would tellme Esther, you're enough, I
love you just the way you are.
But I didn't listen to thatbecause I thought, oh, you know,
he has no reason, but he has tolove me.
He's married to me, although inreality he doesn't have to.
(01:41):
I never shared this before, butI'll share it now.
I was almost raped.
I say almost because I had tofight for my life to get out.
(02:03):
I had to fight for not behappening to me and while he
(02:37):
wasn't successful, he almost was.
He was almost there and justyou know, just by the grace of
God, honestly, I got away.
I was able to run and get awaywith stuff halfway on, just
(03:02):
running, running for my life.
And I remember when I got home,it was really quiet.
My sister and her husbandthat's who I lived with at the
time they were youth pastors atour church and we had a youth
convention going on and Iquietly went home and I went and
(03:22):
I took a shower and I rememberjust scrubbing and scrubbing and
scrubbing and scrubbing becauseI felt so dirty and I felt why,
what did I do to deserve that?
And this is what I'm not enough, I'm not worthy.
You know, the life that this is, this is going to change my
whole life.
What do I do?
Who can I tell?
And once again, I felt as if Icouldn't tell anyone and I took
(03:50):
a shower for probably a goodhour and I got dressed and I
went to our youth convention andI sat in the very back
listening somewhat to everyonetalk.
And I'm seeing it right now andI'm just sitting there feeling
(04:13):
worthless, really Feeling that Idid something to bring it on,
to make that man attack me theway he did.
And can I tell you.
The other piece of that Is thatman that attacked me was in the
(04:39):
service and when he saw me there, you know what he said to me If
you tell anyone, they're notgoing to believe you anyway.
They're not going to believeyou Because look at you, how
(05:03):
will they believe you over me?
How will they believe you overme?
I shut down, I kept it tomyself.
I told absolutely no one.
No, wait, I did.
I had a friend and he asked me.
(05:27):
He said what's wrong?
And I said, wait, I did.
I had a friend and he asked me.
He said what's wrong?
And I said, oh, nothing.
And then he kept pushing what'swrong?
And I said something happenedand I didn't go into detail, I
just went into a little and thatwas it.
(05:48):
And for years after that I wasin a fight to prove that I'm
enough and I'm worthy, and whathappened to me that day had
nothing to do with me.
But it's hard when you're inthat fight by yourself and you
don't share and you don't talkto someone so someone could
(06:09):
really reach out and help youand to say, no, yes, you're
worthy, yes, you are enough.
Have you ever felt as if you'vebeen beat down so much that
you're just not enough?
Is that?
You have you ever felt that way?
Or so many things have happenedin your life and it's because
you're just not enough, youdidn't handle this right, you
(06:30):
didn't do this right, you woreyour shorts too short or this,
all these different things thatalmost like confirms in your
mind that, oh yeah, I'm notenough.
My school grades aren't thatgreat.
I'm suffering in school.
I'm not because I'm not enough.
My school grades aren't thatgreat.
I'm suffering in school.
I'm not because I'm not enough.
I can't, I can't do this For me.
(06:57):
I kind of did the opposite.
I drove myself into things.
I drove myself into school.
In other words, I focused onschool.
I did everything I could toprove that I was enough and I
was worthy and that whathappened to me wasn't my fault
because I am worthy, I am enough.
So I made sure that I got goodgrades in school.
I made sure I wore certaintypes of outfits that totally
(07:20):
covered me up and I just lookedlike, you know, just like a
respectable, let's say, person.
But when that happened to me, Iwas still respectable.
It wasn't like I was dressedany certain type of way.
I guess I was just dressed.
(07:57):
What I had to do to begin torealize that I'm worthy and that
I am enough and I could dowhatever I wanted to do, so to
speak, is I had to put myself inan environment that spoke life
into me.
But it didn't happen overnight.
I had to find someone that Ican trust to talk to, someone
(08:24):
who didn't really know me andcouldn't judge me.
I never said anything to myfamily because, once again, I
didn't want to disappoint myfamily.
You know, I'm the youngest, I'mthe one that primarily grew up
in the United States, and thatwas a little bit different for
my family because I'm theAmerican Good or bad, and
(08:50):
something like that should havenever happened to me.
Why did that happen?
What did you do?
And when you have a voice fromyour what's the word assailant?
Is that the word Tell you thatyou're wrong and this was your
fault and that no one's going tobelieve you.
(09:11):
You believe yourself like, yeah, what did I do?
It took years and years torelease and know that I'm enough
.
It took years of not evenreally having good relationships
(09:32):
because I could just never letmyself be free, because I was
always afraid of that one thingthat's going to come and hurt me
, that one thing that's going toknock me down further and make
me feel as if I'm not enough.
I just always felt as if I wasjust always in a fight to prove
who I am.
I don't know, honestly,everything that I did.
(10:18):
I can't tell you everythingthat I did to just really get
over that feeling, except to saythat I just really had to begin
to look at myself in the mirrorand to begin to love me just as
I am.
And even when I felt veryunlovable, I just had to begin
to talk to myself and say youare lovable, you are beautiful,
You're this, you're that.
And I had to keep speaking itto myself so I could get rid of
(10:42):
the negative voices that alwaystold me that I wasn't enough or
I think I'm this, I think I'mall that, I think I'm this and
you're this and you should bedoing this.
I had to really work on thatbecause I didn't realize until
later in life how much itaffected my whole being.
If you're in a place to whereyou're feeling as you're not
(11:10):
enough, you're feeling as ifyou're just not worthy, I want
you to do an inventory of yourlife and begin to look at those
places where you have been great, because there's some things
that have happened to you thathave that has nothing to do with
you, has everything to do withthe person.
I had to begin to look atmyself and say this is who I am.
(11:48):
I had to begin to look atmyself and say I love you,
esther.
I had to tell myself who I amso I could begin to believe it
and so it could honestly getdown in my DNA.
And it didn't take just likeboom, boom, boom.
No, this was a work in progressand I still honestly work on it
(12:09):
now, maybe not as much as Iused to.
As I go through this wholejourney, there's just so much I
realize that I haven't talkedabout and I haven't really
shared because I was still likeprotecting myself.
(12:29):
There's always the fear ofjudgment.
There's always the fear ofbeing rejected.
I'll give you an example myfamily they didn't really know
that was almost raped what I didafter that and I went away to
(12:51):
college because I was a seniorin high school when this
happened.
I went away to college.
I had a friend that was rapedand so I got involved in rape
victims because I know how itfelt.
I know how it felt to not bebelieved.
Although I never shared it, myheart goes out to anyone that's
(13:18):
been raped or abused by anyonefamily member, church member,
man on the street, whatever itis Because what happens is that
you go through a whole cycle ofnot feeling enough.
You go through a whole cycle ofnot feeling enough.
You go through a whole cycle ofnot feeling worthy.
You go through a whole cycle.
(13:41):
And if you're that person, andfor whatever the reason that you
may not feel as if you areenough, I'm here to tell you
that you are enough.
You're here on this earth andI'm sure that you can look at
your life and you could do anevaluation, and there's great
things that prove to you thatyou are enough, that you are
worthy, because the one thing Ido know is that God does not
create anything that's notenough or not worthy.
(14:02):
I think that we just have toget to where we realize it
ourselves and that we can act onit, and so begin to look at
yourself in the mirror and beginto see your beauty.
One of my favorite scriptures Ihave several that I love, but it
motivates me, it encourages meevery time is that I'm made in
(14:24):
the image of God and so when Ilook in the mirror, I see God.
When you look in the mirror,you see God because you're made
in his image.
And when you see yourself, thenyou know that you are worthy,
that you are enough and there'snothing that you cannot do.
And your past is your past andyou use what has happened in
(14:47):
your past to build on it and tomove on to create a great future
.
Your past to build on it and tomove on to create a great
future.
So if you haven't started tofeel that as yet, and if you're
saying I'm still stuck there,let's talk about getting unstuck
.
Yeah, let's talk about how youcan.
(15:07):
When you hear those negativethoughts about your worthiness,
and if you're enough or notenough that you can stop and say
, wait a minute, I am enough,and begin to look at where you
are enough.
See, don't allow someone elseto define your enoughness or
(15:32):
your worthiness.
You define it.
I always like to say it'sbetween me and God.
That's really who it's between,that.
I partner with God, we partnertogether and we define my
worthiness and my enoughness andall of these other things.
And when that happens, that'swhen it's all good, all good.
(15:55):
Begin to see yourself in adifferent light.
Look at yourself, smile, moveyour hair back, see your beauty,
know that you still havesomething to offer others.
(16:15):
You're enough.
You were born enough From themoment that you were knitted in
the womb of your mother.
You were enough then.
You are not a mistake.
(16:35):
You have a purpose.
So begin to look in the mirrorand begin to see you, just like
this.
Just see you and see yourworthiness.
You begin to believe it aboutyourself first before anyone
(16:56):
else can believe it.
You believe it about yourselffirst and then make a decision
that when people are speaking toyou and they're not speaking to
you in the right tone, theright manner, they're making you
feel less than that's aconversation, that you have the
right to stop and say, no, Ican't listen to that, that's not
(17:16):
who I am.
Those are some of the things Idid.
I removed myself fromconversations, one of the places
that I places that I didn'tfeel as if I was enough.
(17:41):
And really, in some areas rightnow, I really realized that
just a couple of weeks ago thatI still, at some parts, you know
, still feel that way.
That was in ministry.
I just felt as if I wasn'tenough and, honestly, truth be
told, I feel as if I'm a failurein ministry.
I feel as if I'm a failure inministry.
Let me just say that.
It's like saying it out loudand you just get it off.
(18:04):
This is how I feel, that I'mjust not enough enough.
But the truth is I am enoughand I'm doing exactly what I'm
(18:24):
supposed to be doing in ministry.
It may not look like everybodyelse, and what I've made the
mistake in I've made the mistakein comparing myself to what
everybody else is doing, andcomparison is not good.
That's the not good at all.
I can't remember the words Iwant to say with it, but
comparison is not good.
And so I would compare myselfto everybody else, and so that
(18:49):
would derail me and that wouldmake me feel not enough, because
I saw them as more than enough,and so I stopped comparing
myself.
There's some things I would notlook at, I would not listen to,
because I had to begin to seemyself as being enough.
And that is what you have to do.
Stop comparing yourself.
(19:11):
Begin to see you, begin to seeyour beauty, begin to see what
you were created to do, what isyour passion.
Begin to do that.
Begin to see you and take yourpast.
As you look at your past, don'ttake your past as a mistake,
but take your past and say it'sbecause of what I've gone
through, it's because of thatjourney that's allowed me to be
(19:33):
who I am today.
And if you're saying toyourself, well, I'm not
everything I want to be, I'mjust not in a good place right
now, it's okay.
Begin to speak to yourself,because we all go through that,
but know that you are enough andyou get to choose what you want
to be, and you get to choosewhen you're going to make that
shift.
And I want to say don't staythere, make that shift right now
(19:56):
.
Make that shift right now.
I'm still working through theministry piece, but I'm getting
so much better and feeling ohyeah, this is it, this is enough
, I am enough, I can do this.
But I have to keep tellingmyself that every day and I have
(20:20):
people around me that speaklife into me.
I don't allow people who don'tspeak.
I don't need anybody to hump myhow do you say?
My ego.
I don't need that.
I don't need that.
But what I do need, and whatyou do need, is someone to
always believe in you and tospeak life into you.
But if you're not around anyonelike that, you be your
(20:41):
investment, you be your promoter.
You believe in yourself, you doit, you do it.
Believe in yourself, believethat you can get it done,
believe that you are enough.
And when you believe it in yourmind, it gets into your heart
and so it is you are enough.
Speaker 1 (21:04):
Wasn't that episode amazing Living unapologetically.
Faith unmuted has allowed usonce again to ask ourselves the
kind of questions that will helpus get to the next level and
live this life unapologetically.
Your next step head on over towwwesthergramcom and let me know
(21:25):
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with a friend.
I can't wait to be with younext week as we dive deeper into
redefining what it means to bea Christian woman and redefining
what it means to live in ourtruth.
You are listening to Faith Unmuted.
The place where Christian womenget the opportunity to press
the button and say what theywant, how they want and exactly
how they feel.
The one place where, together,we can collectively walk through
our truths, liveunapologetically and stop hiding
.
Speaker 2 (00:38):
Yes, you are enough.
You are definitely enough.
You may say.
You know, how could you saythat you don't even know me?
I may not know you, but I knowme and at one point in my life I
felt as if I was not enough.
I wasn't worthy, you know, andI would take my past experiences
and look at it as confirmationas to why I'm not enough.
(00:59):
Or I had the words that peoplewould tell me as to why I'm not
enough.
You've been there.
Have you ever heard words likeyou think that you're this, you
think that you're that You'renobody, but this Used to hear
that quite a bit.
(01:20):
So I struggled with thinking amI enough?
You know, my husband would tellme Esther, you're enough, I
love you just the way you are.
But I didn't listen to thatbecause I thought, oh, you know,
he has no reason, but he has tolove me.
He's married to me, although inreality he doesn't have to.
(01:41):
I never shared this before, butI'll share it now.
I was almost raped.
I say almost because I had tofight for my life to get out.
(02:03):
I had to fight for not behappening to me and while he
(02:37):
wasn't successful, he almost was.
He was almost there and justyou know, just by the grace of
God, honestly, I got away.
I was able to run and get awaywith stuff halfway on, just
(03:02):
running, running for my life.
And I remember when I got home,it was really quiet.
My sister and her husbandthat's who I lived with at the
time they were youth pastors atour church and we had a youth
convention going on and Iquietly went home and I went and
(03:22):
I took a shower and I rememberjust scrubbing and scrubbing and
scrubbing and scrubbing becauseI felt so dirty and I felt why,
what did I do to deserve that?
And this is what I'm not enough, I'm not worthy.
You know, the life that this is, this is going to change my
whole life.
What do I do?
Who can I tell?
And once again, I felt as if Icouldn't tell anyone and I took
(03:50):
a shower for probably a goodhour and I got dressed and I
went to our youth convention andI sat in the very back
listening somewhat to everyonetalk.
And I'm seeing it right now andI'm just sitting there feeling
(04:13):
worthless, really Feeling that Idid something to bring it on,
to make that man attack me theway he did.
And can I tell you.
The other piece of that Is thatman that attacked me was in the
(04:39):
service and when he saw me there, you know what he said to me If
you tell anyone, they're notgoing to believe you anyway.
They're not going to believeyou Because look at you, how
(05:03):
will they believe you over me?
How will they believe you overme?
I shut down, I kept it tomyself.
I told absolutely no one.
No, wait, I did.
I had a friend and he asked me.
(05:27):
He said what's wrong?
And I said, wait, I did.
I had a friend and he asked me.
He said what's wrong?
And I said, oh, nothing.
And then he kept pushing what'swrong?
And I said something happenedand I didn't go into detail, I
just went into a little and thatwas it.
(05:48):
And for years after that I wasin a fight to prove that I'm
enough and I'm worthy, and whathappened to me that day had
nothing to do with me.
But it's hard when you're inthat fight by yourself and you
don't share and you don't talkto someone so someone could
(06:09):
really reach out and help youand to say, no, yes, you're
worthy, yes, you are enough.
Have you ever felt as if you'vebeen beat down so much that
you're just not enough?
Is that?
You have you ever felt that way?
Or so many things have happenedin your life and it's because
you're just not enough, youdidn't handle this right, you
(06:30):
didn't do this right, you woreyour shorts too short or this,
all these different things thatalmost like confirms in your
mind that, oh yeah, I'm notenough.
My school grades aren't thatgreat.
I'm suffering in school.
I'm not because I'm not enough.
My school grades aren't thatgreat.
I'm suffering in school.
I'm not because I'm not enough.
I can't, I can't do this For me.
(06:57):
I kind of did the opposite.
I drove myself into things.
I drove myself into school.
In other words, I focused onschool.
I did everything I could toprove that I was enough and I
was worthy and that whathappened to me wasn't my fault
because I am worthy, I am enough.
So I made sure that I got goodgrades in school.
I made sure I wore certaintypes of outfits that totally
(07:20):
covered me up and I just lookedlike, you know, just like a
respectable, let's say, person.
But when that happened to me, Iwas still respectable.
It wasn't like I was dressedany certain type of way.
I guess I was just dressed.
(07:57):
What I had to do to begin torealize that I'm worthy and that
I am enough and I could dowhatever I wanted to do, so to
speak, is I had to put myself inan environment that spoke life
into me.
But it didn't happen overnight.
I had to find someone that Ican trust to talk to, someone
(08:24):
who didn't really know me andcouldn't judge me.
I never said anything to myfamily because, once again, I
didn't want to disappoint myfamily.
You know, I'm the youngest, I'mthe one that primarily grew up
in the United States, and thatwas a little bit different for
my family because I'm theAmerican Good or bad, and
(08:50):
something like that should havenever happened to me.
Why did that happen?
What did you do?
And when you have a voice fromyour what's the word assailant?
Is that the word Tell you thatyou're wrong and this was your
fault and that no one's going tobelieve you.
(09:11):
You believe yourself like, yeah, what did I do?
It took years and years torelease and know that I'm enough
.
It took years of not evenreally having good relationships
(09:32):
because I could just never letmyself be free, because I was
always afraid of that one thingthat's going to come and hurt me
, that one thing that's going toknock me down further and make
me feel as if I'm not enough.
I just always felt as if I wasjust always in a fight to prove
who I am.
I don't know, honestly,everything that I did.
(10:18):
I can't tell you everythingthat I did to just really get
over that feeling, except to saythat I just really had to begin
to look at myself in the mirrorand to begin to love me just as
I am.
And even when I felt veryunlovable, I just had to begin
to talk to myself and say youare lovable, you are beautiful,
You're this, you're that.
And I had to keep speaking itto myself so I could get rid of
(10:42):
the negative voices that alwaystold me that I wasn't enough or
I think I'm this, I think I'mall that, I think I'm this and
you're this and you should bedoing this.
I had to really work on thatbecause I didn't realize until
later in life how much itaffected my whole being.
If you're in a place to whereyou're feeling as you're not
(11:10):
enough, you're feeling as ifyou're just not worthy, I want
you to do an inventory of yourlife and begin to look at those
places where you have been great, because there's some things
that have happened to you thathave that has nothing to do with
you, has everything to do withthe person.
I had to begin to look atmyself and say this is who I am.
(11:48):
I had to begin to look atmyself and say I love you,
esther.
I had to tell myself who I amso I could begin to believe it
and so it could honestly getdown in my DNA.
And it didn't take just likeboom, boom, boom.
No, this was a work in progressand I still honestly work on it
(12:09):
now, maybe not as much as Iused to.
As I go through this wholejourney, there's just so much I
realize that I haven't talkedabout and I haven't really
shared because I was still likeprotecting myself.
(12:29):
There's always the fear ofjudgment.
There's always the fear ofbeing rejected.
I'll give you an example myfamily they didn't really know
that was almost raped what I didafter that and I went away to
(12:51):
college because I was a seniorin high school when this
happened.
I went away to college.
I had a friend that was rapedand so I got involved in rape
victims because I know how itfelt.
I know how it felt to not bebelieved.
Although I never shared it, myheart goes out to anyone that's
(13:18):
been raped or abused by anyonefamily member, church member,
man on the street, whatever itis Because what happens is that
you go through a whole cycle ofnot feeling enough.
You go through a whole cycle ofnot feeling enough.
You go through a whole cycle ofnot feeling worthy.
You go through a whole cycle.
(13:41):
And if you're that person, andfor whatever the reason that you
may not feel as if you areenough, I'm here to tell you
that you are enough.
You're here on this earth andI'm sure that you can look at
your life and you could do anevaluation, and there's great
things that prove to you thatyou are enough, that you are
worthy, because the one thing Ido know is that God does not
create anything that's notenough or not worthy.
(14:02):
I think that we just have toget to where we realize it
ourselves and that we can act onit, and so begin to look at
yourself in the mirror and beginto see your beauty.
One of my favorite scriptures Ihave several that I love, but it
motivates me, it encourages meevery time is that I'm made in
(14:24):
the image of God and so when Ilook in the mirror, I see God.
When you look in the mirror,you see God because you're made
in his image.
And when you see yourself, thenyou know that you are worthy,
that you are enough and there'snothing that you cannot do.
And your past is your past andyou use what has happened in
(14:47):
your past to build on it and tomove on to create a great future
.
Your past to build on it and tomove on to create a great
future.
So if you haven't started tofeel that as yet, and if you're
saying I'm still stuck there,let's talk about getting unstuck
.
Yeah, let's talk about how youcan.
(15:07):
When you hear those negativethoughts about your worthiness,
and if you're enough or notenough that you can stop and say
, wait a minute, I am enough,and begin to look at where you
are enough.
See, don't allow someone elseto define your enoughness or
(15:32):
your worthiness.
You define it.
I always like to say it'sbetween me and God.
That's really who it's between,that.
I partner with God, we partnertogether and we define my
worthiness and my enoughness andall of these other things.
And when that happens, that'swhen it's all good, all good.
(15:55):
Begin to see yourself in adifferent light.
Look at yourself, smile, moveyour hair back, see your beauty,
know that you still havesomething to offer others.
(16:15):
You're enough.
You were born enough From themoment that you were knitted in
the womb of your mother.
You were enough then.
You are not a mistake.
(16:35):
You have a purpose.
So begin to look in the mirrorand begin to see you, just like
this.
Just see you and see yourworthiness.
You begin to believe it aboutyourself first before anyone
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else can believe it.
You believe it about yourselffirst and then make a decision
that when people are speaking toyou and they're not speaking to
you in the right tone, theright manner, they're making you
feel less than that's aconversation, that you have the
right to stop and say, no, Ican't listen to that, that's not
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who I am.
Those are some of the things Idid.
I removed myself fromconversations, one of the places
that I places that I didn'tfeel as if I was enough.
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And really, in some areas rightnow, I really realized that
just a couple of weeks ago thatI still, at some parts, you know
, still feel that way.
That was in ministry.
I just felt as if I wasn'tenough and, honestly, truth be
told, I feel as if I'm a failurein ministry.
I feel as if I'm a failure inministry.
Let me just say that.
It's like saying it out loudand you just get it off.
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This is how I feel, that I'mjust not enough enough.
But the truth is I am enoughand I'm doing exactly what I'm
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supposed to be doing in ministry.
It may not look like everybodyelse, and what I've made the
mistake in I've made the mistakein comparing myself to what
everybody else is doing, andcomparison is not good.
That's the not good at all.
I can't remember the words Iwant to say with it, but
comparison is not good.
And so I would compare myselfto everybody else, and so that
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would derail me and that wouldmake me feel not enough, because
I saw them as more than enough,and so I stopped comparing
myself.
There's some things I would notlook at, I would not listen to,
because I had to begin to seemyself as being enough.
And that is what you have to do.
Stop comparing yourself.
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Begin to see you, begin to seeyour beauty, begin to see what
you were created to do, what isyour passion.
Begin to do that.
Begin to see you and take yourpast.
As you look at your past, don'ttake your past as a mistake,
but take your past and say it'sbecause of what I've gone
through, it's because of thatjourney that's allowed me to be
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who I am today.
And if you're saying toyourself, well, I'm not
everything I want to be, I'mjust not in a good place right
now, it's okay.
Begin to speak to yourself,because we all go through that,
but know that you are enough andyou get to choose what you want
to be, and you get to choosewhen you're going to make that
shift.
And I want to say don't staythere, make that shift right now
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.
Make that shift right now.
I'm still working through theministry piece, but I'm getting
so much better and feeling ohyeah, this is it, this is enough
, I am enough, I can do this.
But I have to keep tellingmyself that every day and I have
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people around me that speaklife into me.
I don't allow people who don'tspeak.
I don't need anybody to hump myhow do you say?
My ego.
I don't need that.
I don't need that.
But what I do need, and whatyou do need, is someone to
always believe in you and tospeak life into you.
But if you're not around anyonelike that, you be your
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investment, you be your promoter.
You believe in yourself, you doit, you do it.
Believe in yourself, believethat you can get it done,
believe that you are enough.
And when you believe it in yourmind, it gets into your heart
and so it is you are enough.
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Wasn't that episode amazing Living unapologetically.
Faith unmuted has allowed usonce again to ask ourselves the
kind of questions that will helpus get to the next level and
live this life unapologetically.
Your next step head on over towwwesthergramcom and let me know
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I can't wait to be with younext week as we dive deeper into
redefining what it means to bea Christian woman and redefining
what it means to live in ourtruth.
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