Falling Into Holes: A Memoir

This is a warning. This story may be triggering to some listeners. It contains themes that may be difficult to listen to. It tells a rollercoaster story of overcoming mental illness, addiction, and trauma. It is intended to empower, educate, and inspire hope. It is meant to be listened to from beginning to end, starting at Episode 1.

Episodes

Between The Lines

February 4, 2025 • 49 mins

I was just having fun. It was no big deal.

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Sweetener

August 20, 2024 • 58 mins

"Don't be yourself. Don't take that wrong, okay? But don't be yourself. Be who they want you to be." And I did.

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Dearest

February 22, 2023 • 37 mins

There's no stronger bond in this world than that of a mother and her child. Sometimes that bond is made of love. Sometimes that bond is made of steel.

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Hurt.

February 15, 2023 • 41 mins

The pain wakes you up. The pain calms you down. The pain is ever-present in your life.

So you might as well learn to like it.

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Shut Up and Let Me Grieve

January 31, 2023 • 46 mins

What do you do when you lose someone? What do you say when a loved one loses someone? How do you deal with the overwhelm of grief? Shut Up and Let Me Grieve explores the reality of the experience of grieving and the shockwave that every death leaves in its wake through original poetry and prose.

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Breakdown Journal

September 14, 2022 • 47 mins

In the summer of 2020, I attempted to end my life. Two days later, I checked myself into a psychiatric facility. On the first day, they gave me a blank composition notebook. This is what I wrote.

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Not me.

September 6, 2022 • 39 mins

If I speak it, it becomes real. If I speak it, it isn’t festering inside me, eating away at my soul. If I speak it, I hold the power over it. The truth needs air. The truth needs to be heard.

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9/10

September 6, 2022 • 41 mins

Decades ago, psychologists conducted the ACE Study on adverse childhood experiences. Every trauma you experienced gives you one ACE point. My ACE score is a nine out of ten. My body keeps the score.

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Holly

September 6, 2022 • 35 mins

She wore fairy wings, jelly shoes, and eyeliner out to her hairline. I knew instantly that we would be best friends. I chose her. This is the story of Holly.

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Hunger

September 6, 2022 • 39 mins

Sixteen years with an eating disorder. Sixteen years dreading every meal, calculating calories, weighing in, measuring myself by my BMI. This is the story of my battle with bulimia, with my childhood trauma, and with myself.

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Somewhere Around The Middle

September 6, 2022 • 54 mins

This is my truth - and the truth is ugly. It is a rollercoaster journey through trauma, mental illness, and addiction. The contents of this story is triggering and may be difficult for some to listen to. Please feel free to walk away for yourself at any time.

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Falling Into Holes: A Memoir (Trailer)

August 18, 2022 • 54 secs

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