February 19, 2025 • 53 mins
I share the highs and lows of my year-long break from podcasting, addressing the self-doubt, burnout, and technical challenges that led to my temporary exit. The importance of community, balance, and rediscovering my voice form the core of our catch-up session as I eagerly reconnect with Cuties.
• Discussing my year-long absence due to technical difficulties and burnout
• Importance of listener community and support during my hiatus
• Reflecting on family moments and finding balance through "Roses, Buds, and Thorns"
• Exploring personal growth and excitement upon returning to podcasting
• Encouraging listener engagement and feedback for future episodes
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Hey, cuties, welcome back to 5 Years Time Podcast.
Let's have our sip together.
Cheers, cutes, we just have ablack Americano.
I opened the fridge and guesswhat?
There was no cream.
I went grocery shoppingyesterday and I purposely didn't
buy cream, like the four topthings I put on my grocery list
every single week cream, yogurt,milk.
(00:21):
I'm running out of how to holdmy fingers if you're watching
the video cream, milk, yogurt,eggs.
And I took cream off because Iwas like, oh, I bought a huge
thing of cream and I was havinglattes last week, so I'm sure we
don't have.
We haven't run out, and I guesswe did.
I guess Trevor was using lotsof it anyway, so that means I
had to put milk in.
Oh, if you're watching on video, we have a visitor.
(00:43):
This is a big announcement, toocute, because it's been a long
time since we talked, butthere's so much and I'm gonna be
jumping, and I'm.
I'm trying to not jump, but Ialready am anyways.
Okay, back to my coffee.
So I have an americano withmilk, which means I did put a
little sugar in it, because whenI'm at, the only time I ever
put milk in my coffee is if I goto like a do.
Do you know where the mic is?
(01:04):
If you can hear that purr Astorthinks he's the star of the
show which is our new cat, newish we got in the summer.
Look at him, pretty boy.
When I go to like stores stores, what am I talking about?
When I go to cafes or likecoffee breakfast spots typically
breakfast spots, you know, likeclassic breakfast places where
you just get like the bottomlesscup of coffee.
(01:25):
Sometimes they don't have creamand they have milk only, and
then I always put a little sugarin it and it's so delicious, so
let's have our first siptogether.
I have cat hair everywhere,cheers, cute Tastes, like I'm at
a breakfast joint.
I love it.
I need a little table because Ihave my desk in front of me,
(01:48):
but it's so far.
We're in a new spot.
We're in a new location.
Again, I have so much to say.
I've missed you all.
I literally have been puttingoff well for a whole year, but I
knew that I was going to takethat break.
I didn't know how long it wasgoing to be, but, yes, I ghosted
you for a year.
(02:08):
What I was going to say wasI've had this plan to bring the
podcast back and I really wantedto get it back for the new year
, and then it just didn't workout.
Things kept getting pushed off.
Then I really wanted to get itback for when my last episode
was, which I think was the endof January 2024.
And so I want it to be like theexact year.
(02:31):
And then we all got sick and soI was going to record it last
night Today's Wednesday, which Itypically upload on and so I
was going to record it lastnight because that was our last.
That was my last chance beforethis Wednesday, because this
Wednesday is a moment in timeWednesday, february 19th which I
was in the Bahamas last year,and I remember actively having
(02:52):
conversations with the girlies Iwas with about the podcast and
how I was feeling so guiltybecause I hadn't uploaded for
not one week, but I think it wastwo weeks at this time and that
I was having these like debateson was I going to continue, was
I not going to continue?
And I remember like havingthese active conversations of
like contemplation anddiscussing all my inner thoughts
(03:13):
.
So I wanted it to be thisWednesday and maybe I will get
it uploaded today.
I'm going to try my hardest,because I don't even remember
how to do this, cutes.
I was setting this up and I wasgetting mucho overwhelmed and I
wanted to use a different camerabut it was not working and
Trevor so kindly left me thehouse to myself to record
because I wanted some privacy.
(03:34):
I also am recording in a newlocation, new studio Cutes.
We have been in every area ofmy house I think, and our last
one was in our extra like closetthat's in our bedroom, that
really like it's not set up as acloset, there's no like hanging
bars or anything, it's just alittle side room and I love that
area and it was so good forbeing able to record while
(03:58):
Trevor was working, because hisoffice is in the basement, we
didn't clash with each other'svoices or anything, because I
really need that silence, butbut the internet sucked up there
and so it always buffered andit was like always drama, drama,
drama, drama.
And I was like I need a newspot and I also, just in general
for myself, think I need like adesk in a proper place that I
can sit and edit and have alittle morning work sesh.
(04:23):
That's like more.
I'm working now and now I'mlogging off and I'm going into
my home life where I'm going togo record and be in the kitchen
or whatever, but like a placewhere I can like, set my stuff
to, like all my editing stuffand all my work things and
computer bits and cords andwhatever.
So now I have a new space whichis very much disorganized.
(04:44):
This might look like it's ablank slate over here, but over
here it is not.
It is boxes, it is laundry, itis cords, it is random things
here, random things there, it isthings that need to go to the
donation pile.
It's a lot of everything.
And you know what?
The best thing I can do is notfocus on needing to be perfect,
(05:05):
because, hello, life is notabout perfection and I will
never get there.
I will never be perfect.
Also, I'm not sure if I'm goingto wear these headphones the
whole time, if you're listeningvia YouTube, but I think this
first episode I am, because Ijust want to make sure that my
sound is not bad, because this Ican, this way I can hear it,
and if I do like it, then I'llget different headphones,
because I don't know if this isthe vibe, but this is the vibe
for today.
Trevor Lentz, up to me.
(05:25):
Thanks, trev.
Last night I was like I'm goingto sit down, I'm going to record
the podcast all day.
In the morning I was getting alittle nervous and it's so funny
I always get this nervousenergy before recording the
podcast, not leading up to it.
I can come up with a podcastwalks where I go on a walk and I
think through my thoughts andI'm like, okay, I feel so
inspired, I feel ready to have aconversation.
(05:48):
And then, when it comes to theactual moment of like, okay,
we're going to do this, I'm like, oh my gosh, I have nothing to
say.
Like what am I going to do?
I'm just going to sit there andbe like.
So I was getting that feeling.
And then I picked up Ro fromschool and I knew I was gonna do
it in the evening becauseTrevor was gonna go to yoga and
then that would have beenperfect.
I could have put row to bed andrecord, but then I couldn't.
(06:10):
I was so tired and I was likeI'm tired, and now I feel
overwhelmed and half the thingsaren't even set up, like my
lights and camera action aren'tset up.
I need that part.
I can, I can shoo the clutteraway, but I at least need those
things so.
So I was like, okay, I guesswe're not going to upload this
week, it's going to be next week.
And then I was this morning.
I was like maybe it's not evengoing to happen, like I was
(06:30):
talking to myself out of itagain.
When you avoid doing something,it becomes this huge, like dark
cloud over you and it feelsimpossible, even when you know
it's something that you want todo and that you've done before.
And it's not impossible.
You enjoy it, you love it.
It just feels like this bighurdle to get over.
And so then this morning Trevorsaid that he signed up for yoga
(06:51):
over lunch and he was going togo work at a coffee shop for the
morning and then he'll comeback in the afternoon.
So I have the opportunity torecord the podcast.
And I was like, okay, trev,you're pushing me and I value
that and I love that andappreciate that.
I didn't even ask him to dothat and it was like a weight
off my shoulders.
Then I sat down to geteverything set up and I was
getting overwhelmed, mainly withmy camera.
(07:13):
But honestly, it is what it is.
It's a podcast.
First, it's about the sound andthe noise, which hopefully, we
did add an extra littleconnector to our microphone so
that it can be a bit louder.
That was always a struggle Iwas having.
But sorry, I just need to getall that off my chest before we
jump into this episode.
But it's kind of all about this.
(07:35):
I didn't even write down aoutline for today's episode.
All my episodes are notscripted, they're just like
casual conversations, butusually I have the pointers.
It's like when I turn on themic.
Was I going to remember what Inormally say?
I don't even know?
If I did, did I say hey, cuties, welcome back to five years
time podcast, like I don'tremember.
But then I have to rememberwhat my outline is and I got
(07:58):
that.
We normally do what Our snackand drink of the week Okay,
catch up snack and drink of theweek are okay.
Catch up snack and drink of theweek.
What I learned this week roses,buds and thorns oh my gosh, I
totally forgot about that.
To literally write this momentand that entertainment recap Is
that the right order?
I think it is.
Let's see if we get throughthat.
What I learned this week isgoing to be very much obviously
(08:20):
not what I just learned thisweek, because we have a whole
year of things that I have beenlearning and it has been a wild,
extraordinary, so full of somany highs and just a few lows.
But, yeah, it's been a reallywhirlwind of a year and I'm
ready to share now and I'm readyto be back and I'm ready to
(08:43):
open up this audience again.
I also have met so many podcastcuties this year, which is
hilarious because I literallythink I only ever met one or two
people in real life wholistened to the podcast.
Normally they follow me onTikTok and whenever I meet
podcast people like I want tocry, I want to hug you, I want
to buy you a drink, I want tolike wherever you are, I want to
(09:06):
like be with you in the momentand have like a time because,
like you know me, like you knowme so much, it is just like we
are besties, like that is a realdeep connection to me.
And so, anyways, this year thatI haven't been podcasting, I
have ran into so many people wholisten to the podcast and I'm
like that is wild and I do get,like every week, an email saying
(09:30):
like this many people havelistened to this, this episode
was popular this week, orwhatever.
So there are still people outthere listening, which is just
like amazing, and I'm sograteful for that.
But I'm also grateful thatwe've been able to grow in this
past year and I feel I feel like, okay, people value this and I
value it.
But sometimes I get confused andmixed and I think that what I'm
(09:51):
doing is not, there's no pointand I should just stop because,
like, why am I wasting my time?
And that's not how I feel.
Like I do love the podcast, Ilove it so, so much, and then I
know that the listeners, mycuties, you love it too.
But sometimes I just like Idon't know there's like a
disconnect and I just feel likeI think it's because I'm on my
(10:12):
own and so there's no onecheerleading me along, like I'm
not saying you're notcheerleading me, but like
there's no people around mesaying like this episode was
really good because of this,like I don't have a team around
me supporting the podcast, ifthat makes sense.
I don't know how to explain it.
Like I'm trying to connect it tolike when I was at work and I
would be working on projects orwe'd be delivering things, and
it's like okay, you have yourshareholders and everyone's
(10:34):
accountable, who you'reaccountable to and they all have
feedback and people have thingsto say and you kind of can
value the direction of what it'sgoing and is it good, is it not
?
Do you need to do more of this,whatever?
And so I feel like I don't havethat and I feel like that's a
big thing.
All the time in this world offor me, of creating and being a
(10:57):
digital space creator and doingall of this is that I'm the one
that's I'm accountable to,accountable to myself, and I I
sometimes I'm not my bestcheerleader because I feel like,
okay, like, what's the pointLike, and that's like another
thing for another day.
But all of this to be said isI'm super excited to get jumped
(11:17):
into this episode and that thisweek we're really going to be
talking about where I've beenand why I left and why I left so
rudely Ghosting.
Hello, what am I?
A Gen Z?
Come on, answer the phone,don't be so anxious.
Like, tell the people whereyou're at, rude.
Okay, so let's get into thisweek's catch up.
Let me just grab a sip of Koofe, okay, what happened this week?
(11:42):
Oh, it was family day weekend,which was so much fun.
We had a four-day weekend withRo because she also had Friday
off and Thursday actually endedup being like a buses canceled,
huge snow day.
But the school stayed open andI got her to school because I
was like we're gonna have afour-day weekend.
I know she's gonna value beingat school right now and it was
technically their Valentine'sDay because the PA day fell on
(12:02):
valentine's day.
But long story short is thereweren't a lot of kids that went
to school so I believe theyended up postponing it till
monday or tuesday, whatever.
But this past weekend was lotsof fun.
Friday we had a play date withone of rose friends and it was
one of her.
It was a first time play date.
I always love first time playdates.
It's interesting to see howlike everyone connects.
It was definitely a hands onplaydates On playdates, like the
(12:25):
kids just go play and you'relike, ah, freedom.
And then some you're like, okay, what's the next activity?
I gotta think I need to be onmy toes.
Thankfully, I am actuallypretty good, especially with
school age children, at comingup with activities on my toes,
since I spent many, many, manyyears doing that for a living.
And so we made hot chocolatePlay-Doh, we made brownies, we
(12:47):
played some sort of like teaparty game.
We did all this different stuffand then we just chillax the
rest of the day.
I think I'm like, what else didwe do that day?
Not much, I guess.
Friday was Valentine's Day.
In our house Valentine's Day isa boy to girl holiday, which,
like we're not trying to besexist here, I'm not doing it
because of that, it's just cute.
It's something that Trevor getsto do, like usually like
(13:10):
Christmas, I kind of take thereins, but also Trevor obviously
participates and he does mypresents.
But, like for Rosie, it's likeI'll go out and get that and do
this and whatever.
And so I feel like Valentine'sDay is like his.
It's always been, like he'ssuch a lover boy and I feel like
when he was growing up theyalways made homemade cards and
like he's always taken that intoour relationship and so, yeah,
(13:31):
trevor kind of takes overValentine's Day and spoils us.
So he made us our homemadecards and got us little
chocolates and little stuffies.
And then he made us EggsBenedict, which Trevor always
makes the bomb diggity EggsBenedict, so delicious.
I feel like we rotate betweencinnamon buns and eggs benedict.
So this year was eggs benedictand then that was just like our
(13:53):
cute little valentine's moment.
I did reserve dinner, for Iwould try to get it for friday,
but I couldn't.
I did it too late, so I did itfor a saturday, which worked out
anyways, because then we couldhave it earlier in the day
because Trevor wasn't working.
Then Saturday came along and weI feel like I literally can't
even remember what we did.
Oh my gosh, now I know Iliterally can't remember.
(14:16):
Now I know, me and Ro.
I remember Trevor woke up sotired and I was like, okay, you
just have the day to yourselfand we have dinner at whatever
time.
I think we were going at like 4pm.
I'll take Ro to the water park.
So we went to Niagara Falls andwe went to the indoor water
park and we had so much fun.
Ro did not want to do the bigslides, which, like, she would
(14:36):
like them, but she's justnervous.
After we went to Disney Worldwhich, oh, yes, cuties, a couple
weeks.
So we went to Disney World.
But after we went to DisneyWorld which, oh, yes, cuties, a
couple weeks.
So we went to Disney World.
But after we went to DisneyWorld, uh, she did every ride
and she always does all therides like, and then she gets
scared on maybe one, two,sometimes three, and then she's
like I don't like that feelingand then she just like gets in
this mindset where she's likescared of it.
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But I knew she would have likedthese water slides.
The only thing is it was like adouble, double hoop or a double
tube.
So she would have had to sit infront of me and then I would be
behind her and I told her mylegs would be there, like she
could hold on to my legs and myarms could probably have reached
her.
But if she could have been inmy lap she would have done it.
So next time hopefully.
But they had these other bodyslides that were a little bit
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smaller and she was loving thosewhich, like a year ago, she did
not like slides like that.
So I'm not stressed, but mainlythe wave pool is her favorite
attraction.
Also, it was so warm.
I was kind of like it wassnowing so much and it's kind of
like in a what is that called?
Like a terrarium where you canlike see outside.
So it was so fun because youcould like see the snow falling
(15:39):
and then you were inside in thislike warm environment.
But yeah, the second we gotinto the wave pool.
I was like I really just hopethis is like a warm wave pool,
because I can't do the beingcold right now.
And it was.
It was like it was kind of likean amateur hot tub, like it was
pretty warm.
So I was very content with that.
We just had a lovely girly dayand then we played at the arcade
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and then it was snowing so muchwe drove home very carefully
and then we got home and then wehad a couple hours to just
chill out and I think I tookshowers and whatever.
And then we went for dinner andwe went.
We always go for Valentine'sdinner at this Chinese
restaurant by us that makesthese custard bunnies for
dessert.
They're so cute.
(16:21):
They're like these little bunnydumplings that are deep fried
and filled with custard andthey're so cute and they're like
Rose favorite thing ever.
So we went there for dinner andwe always get it's like a bunch
of share plates, so we alwaysget a bunch of different things.
This year I feel like weordered so much food.
I don't even think we reallydid, but I think the things we
ordered were bigger portionsthan what I remember the
portions being, so we hadleftovers for the next day,
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which was perfectly fine.
And then Sunday what did we doSunday?
This is where I'm like um, Idon't think we did anything.
I think Trevor oh I know, weliterally did nothing, like we
just hung out and play.
Trevor went to go hang out withhis friends.
They're doing the what is itcalled Virtual golf or indoor
(17:04):
simulator, you know, when yougolf and you hit the ball at the
screen.
I don't know.
But anyways, he went and didthat with his friends and so me
and Ro just chill, laxed.
We watched movies, we playedplay-doh, we decorated.
We had a bunch of big boxes andwe made this like box fort for
Astro and we decorated it.
We cut out.
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Rose said she wanted to doicicles, but then she was like,
let's make them eggsicles.
So then they're egg shapedicicles and we use stickers and
tape and markers and just likehad a crafternoon.
Then we just chillaxed and Ithink right before bed Trev came
home as it was getting dark andthen Roe and him went out to
run around in the snow.
They're so sorry, my nose isrunning and I don't have a
(17:47):
Kleenex.
There is so much snow, I wasgonna say nose, there's so much
snow in the outside.
Like we haven't had snow likethis in a long time.
I think three winters ago therewas like a big snow.
I remember we couldn't get outof our house.
Like they don't normally plowour street now they do, I think
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with a smaller plow, but beforethey didn't normally plow us and
so it was like, oh, nobody cango anywhere.
Like we literally couldn't likeget out of your driveway
because the road was so deep insnow.
But that was only for I feellike that was like a week, so
this has been about a week too,so we'll see if it continues,
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but it's been.
We've had so much snow and it'sbeen lovely.
I always have this theory thatevery other summer is rainy and
then the other ones are hot, andthen every other winter is
snowy and then the other onesare like more mild.
So maybe we're going on thattrack still, because last winter
was so mild and this one iscold and snurry.
And then Monday was family dayand we headed off to Trevor's
(18:53):
parents and we we had got forChristmas for everyone um lego
sets to build, and then wedidn't end up getting around to
building them that day I thinkRo had fallen asleep and so
we're like, okay, we'll doanother day.
And then we got togetheranother day, but it didn't end
up getting around to buildingthem.
That day, I think Ro would fallasleep, and so we were like, ok
, we'll do another day.
And then we got togetheranother day, but it didn't work
out.
Anyways, we finally got aroundto it.
We're like, ok, we'll do ittoday.
So we all built our Legos.
Some people had cars, ro had aMoana, I think.
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Becca, we got Minecraft.
So, yeah, that had lots ofconnects, but never really lego.
Bro made hers like pretty muchherself because it was like her
age bracket and I love it.
Like the ages I feel are soaccurate, like she was so good
at it.
She just needed a little bit ofhelp like pushing some pieces
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on.
But I was like, oh, I can seewhy.
This is like a fun thing.
It is like a puzzle an easierpuzzle because there's
instructions.
Then we all went out tobogganing.
There was so much snow thatlike the tobogganing part didn't
really work out, but we had somuch fun trying to like make our
own hills like there were hillsand we were.
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We actually had the best luckon like hills that were man-made
, like they were made by thesnow blouse and parking lots.
Like making these hugemountains of excess snow.
Those ones were the best.
Made by the snow blouse andparking lots.
Like making these hugemountains of excess snow, those
ones are the best ones.
But the snow is so thick andlike no one had pre-made any
pathways for us so we had tomake them all and it was just
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like kind of a fail.
Every time we would just likeget so far and then like face
plant in the snow or it wouldjust be like the slowest crawl
down, and then every so often weget one where it was like wow,
but it was so much fun and itgot us out of the house and just
like into nature, which Ialways love.
We had it back and we had somechili and just hung out and
Trevor had this huge bucket oflego from when he was a kid that
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had, I guess, a bunch ofdifferent sets in it, but it was
all just dumped into this hugelike Rubbermaid bin and so he
was sorting it out, having thebest time of his life, and
normally he's the first one tobe like okay, I'm tired, like
let's go home, but he was likemaking us stay there forever.
I was like Trev, like it's pasteveryone's bedtime, should we
go?
(21:00):
He was like, yeah, one,technically my container, I
could have brought it to ourhouse.
And I was like, uh, I don'tthink we need that here right
now.
I could just see next.
I don't.
Our life is cluttered enoughwith what everything.
I'm looking at right now likewe don't have space for a giant
thing of lego to be spreadeverywhere, not yet, but one day
perhaps.
But yeah, that was our weekend.
It was so lovely, it was theperfect amount of chill and
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activity and I love that.
I love when you have thatbeautiful balance, because it
does really feel like theseweeks are just flying by.
And like now that Rose inschool, like kindergarten, I
just feel like the days like goby so quickly.
Like I pick her up and then allof a sudden, and then we play
for a little bit and then all ofa sudden it's like, oh, I need
to make dinner.
And then all of a sudden it'slike, okay, it's bedtime.
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Like I feel like those thattime is going by so quickly and
her school starts earlier nowthan like her preschool did.
So like I feel like ourmornings are even more like
condensed, so everything justfeels like a routine go, go, go.
And then.
So when the weekends come, Ilove that we can just like have
that good balance of going anddoing a fun activity but then
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also just coming home andrelaxing and chilling out.
Like I love that the yin andthe yang.
So let's get into.
This week I learned Okay cutes.
This week I learned I ghostedyou and we're in a bit of a
toxic relationship.
I guess I'm opening my phonebecause I did write down a few
things.
I'm not going to show you all.
(22:24):
I have like so many podcasttopics.
Every time I wanted to talk toyou I would write down a
reminders and then I would put atitle and then I would just add
so much stuff to it.
And there were so many timesthis past year where I was like
okay, I want to sit down, I'mready.
I never.
I never was until now, andthat's just how it works
sometimes.
So why did I stop podcastinguntil now?
And that's just how it workssometimes.
(22:45):
So why did I stop podcastingthis week?
We are learning why.
Why did I stop?
Where did I go?
Here's my mindset.
Let's go back a year ago.
Where was I a year ago?
A year ago I was extremelystressed every time I had to
record the podcast like.
Extremely stressed because onemy computer I feel are recorded
(23:07):
on used.
My little macbook air was 10years old and dying on its last
leg.
I wasn't even.
I was on an external hard driveconnected to that computer for
majority of everything like.
I didn't even use the actuallike hard drive of that computer
.
It could not.
It could not compute, it couldnot do it.
Everything was on this harddrive.
(23:27):
But then somehow my computer wasalways running out of storage
and it was just like it wouldshut down.
All the time I would be in themiddle of an episode, shut down,
be in the middle of episode.
No storage, no storage.
Be flashing at me.
You can't record, you can'trecord.
And it was like this isstressing me out.
Every time I would start.
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I'm an organized cutie, don'tlook in this room, but I'm an
organized cutie.
Every time I would sit downit's like, okay, I'd make sure
everything's deleted.
All my storage is empty.
Delete it from the deleted file.
Garbage bin empty.
Trash can empty.
There's enough room on myexternal hard drive Like.
I always do that.
I do that before I film myvideos on my phone, go through,
delete backup, like I do all ofthat before I start because
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there's nothing more stressfulthan running out of storage and
I've been there one too manytimes so that was always
happening.
It was like my computer couldnot anymore.
So that was the main reason.
Truly, like if my computer wasokay, probably I would have
taken a break, a shorter break,and then continued, but that
computer said no more podcastingfor you and my wallet said no
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new computer for you.
So we were kind of at acrossroads.
That was the one thing.
The two thing, honestly, like Ijumped into solo podcasting.
If you've been a longtimelistener, you know that we used
to have a co-host and I alwaysenvisioned my podcasting journey
having a co-host.
I love the vibe, the back andforth, I love riffing with
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people, I love laughing andhaving this like fun
conversation or seriousconversation where you're like
able to share and connect ondifferent things, and like all
of this.
Like I love that all and I dothink I'm able to create that as
a solo podcaster, just via youand me.
I've always wanted to do it asa duo and so when, when I
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stopped doing and I went intosolo.
Like it's a big undertakingbeing a solo podcaster in
comparison, my, my, my opinion,my, my, my, my beliefs.
I'm like, what am I trying tosay?
Obviously, it's different foreverybody, but because I've done
both, that's what I think.
I think solo is really dauntingsometimes, like to come down
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and sit for a whole hour pluswhatever, talking by yourself,
like and girl, I can yap, I am ayapper.
Ask anyone in my family.
They're like, okay, we tuneGrace out at like 10 minutes,
like we'll give her her time andthen we can go on our way.
But I just feel like it's a lotlike emotionally, and also the
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way that I'm podcasting is likea lot of me just like trying to
connect with people throughshared experience, and so I am
sharing a lot of myself, and sothat is a lot emotionally and it
is very draining and it canfeel very raw after I upload
certain episodes or recordcertain episodes.
It's like, oh my gosh, I'vejust like shared my deepest,
darkest secrets and that's a lot.
And so I think I was justfeeling really burnt out.
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I guess Like is that?
Yeah, I think I was feelingburnt out, but also I was
feeling like uninspired and likelost, like who am I and what do
I want and where am I going?
And I kind of started the solojourney and didn't really give
myself time to like think aboutwhat, what that meant for my
future future, what I waslooking at or what my goals were
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or where the direction of thepodcast was going.
And so I just like felt like Ireally needed a reset.
And so when my computer brokedown, I was like, okay, this is
the perfect time for me to takea reset.
And then I was like, okay,what's this reset gonna look?
Like like I need a little bitof time so I can save up some
money so I can buy a newcomputer.
So I was like, okay, okay,what's this reset going to look
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like Like I need a little bit oftime so I can save up some
money so I can buy a newcomputer.
So I was like, okay, how longam I going to stop recording?
For I hadn't figured that allout.
But then the computer brokedown and then I literally
couldn't record.
And then I was like I don'tknow what to do.
And then I had a trip plannedwhere I was going to the Bahamas
for my friend's bachelorette.
And so I was like, okay, I'mjust going to take these two
weeks, because it broke down oneweek, and then I'm going to go
on vacation and then we're goingto come back and we're going to
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think about it.
And so I went on vacation and Iremember having those
conversations with people.
They were like, oh, like, how'sthe podcast going?
And I was like, oh, I actuallyhaven't podcasted.
And I was like, oh, my gosh,like I actually don't know what
I'm doing with the podcast, andlike, da, okay, I need to save
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up for a computer.
And then, as the weeks went by,I was like, what am I doing?
Am I going to announce that I'mnot bringing back the podcast?
Am I bringing back the podcast?
Am I putting on a hold for now?
I was like I don't even knowwhat I'm doing.
And then also, we have thisdaunting year in front of us.
Daunting makes it sound bad.
We had this amazing, fantasticyear planned in front of us,
starting with the Bahamas, butwhere we were going to be
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traveling so much, all ourfriends were getting married.
Actually, yeah, I only have ahandful of friends, but they
were getting married.
They all had destinationelements, bachelorettes, the
wedding, things like that.
We had all these trips planned.
And then we had Trevor was goingto Japan a couple months after
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that trip in February that I hadtaken and we were not planning
on going, me and Rosie, but hewas going to Japan and Korea for
a friend's wedding and he wasthe best man and so they were
doing like a little buddy moonwedding situation there and
Trevor was only going to go fora week or less, like he wasn't
going to go for that long, and Iwas like I don't think it's
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worth it to take Rosie that farand do that much time change for
just a little bit.
Like I, my dream destination inlife has been Korea and I felt
content with that decision, likethis isn't the time for us to
go.
Then our friend Bill I don'tknow why I have to say his name,
but our friend who is alsofriends with these, all these
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boys who are going on this tripfor this wedding.
He works remotely and much likeTrevor and but he lives in BC
and he had said to Trevor onenight like I think I think I was
maybe sitting in the room withhim I'm not listening to the
conversation, I'm not sure, buthe said to Trevor one night that
he was actually gonna go forlike a prolonged period of time
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and work remotely over there andtravel around and do like a bit
of Korea, a bit of Singapore,like just go to a bunch of
different Asian countries.
And Trevor was like, oh, thatsounds so cool, sounds so cool.
And then Trevor I feel like wejoked about it I think I, trevor
, had texted me.
I wasn't there.
Trevor had texted me and waslike, oh, like this is what
Phil's doing.
And I was like, oh, how fun.
And he's like I'm going to dothat too.
He was joking like that he wasgoing to go by himself and do
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that.
And I could because, like, Iwork for myself, 100% remote.
Rosie is in preschool, so shedoesn't have to be there.
Like we could.
If we're gonna do it, like thisis the time to do it before she
starts school, like where sheit's more frowned upon to like
take your kid out for aprolonged period of time.
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And all of a sudden we were justlike, are we gonna do this?
And was like I had been savingup to buy a computer.
I was like, or I could buy aplane ticket to Korea and go
live there for a month.
Like what, let's do it.
And so, yeah, we just were likewe're doing it.
We just like told Phil we'relike Phil, what if we come and
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we all get a place together fora month in Korea?
Like what do you think aboutthat?
I feel like that would be sofun.
It's like that would be so fun.
And Phil's like one of ourfriends, our childhood friends
from back when we were obviouslychildren.
We all met at the same place.
Well, trevor and Phil knew eachother before, but, like I met
Trevor and Phil at the sameplace like summer camp.
We haven't all been in the sameplace in a long time.
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Like, obviously, we go there tovisit and he comes here to
visit, but we all just like beenwith each other for like
prolonged period of time in along time and we're like, okay,
let's do it.
So I think that was just likeyou know what I am that helped
me to decide that this year isthe year aka this past year year
I'm talking in the mindset ofgrace a year ago.
This year is the year that I amjust saying yes and doing
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things that I have literallyalways dreamed of and never,
ever thought would be a realityand never thought in this way
would be a reality.
Like I never thought.
I didn't see my future of, likeme and Trevor and our kid, like
going and staying in anothercountry for a month and like
working and living and just likebeing one with the culture.
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Like I never thought that thatwas something that we were going
to do.
And so when it became a reality, it was like, oh my gosh, this
is wild.
So, yeah, I just was like I'mnot even going to think about
the podcast anymore because I'musing my money to do this and I
can't do the podcast without anew computer.
So that was my decision and Ijust made it.
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And I was like I'm not.
I decided not to update anyoneand I feel poorly for that.
But at the same time, like Ialso didn't know what that meant
.
Like when was I going to?
Was I going to decide thepodcast was coming back, was I
not?
I don't even know.
And I also came to this onepoint where, like I felt so
emotionally and vulnerably, likeoverwhelmed with the podcast,
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that I almost like deleted thewhole thing, because on the back
end I can delete all theepisodes, like not have them
live, and I almost did that andI'm so glad I did it.
I'm really really glad I did it.
I almost did like I literallyalmost did it and there would
have been no way to like reversethat.
So I'm so glad I did it becausepeople still listen to it and,
honestly, like I'm proud of thework that I've done and like
here I am back and even if I didcome back and had done that, I
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would have been fine with it.
But and my future is ahead ofme, so I'm just excited.
That's kind of where my mindsetwas.
So then we threw ourselves intotraveling and taking
opportunities and doing allthese like really fun and wild
things that like we wouldn'thave done if ever.
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Like I just I'm so gratefulthat we were able to do it and
that the opportunities were putin front of us and that we were
capable and financially preparedto do them and we had so much
fun.
So we spent the year traveling.
We went to Korea for a month.
We went to my friend's weddingin Curacao.
Trevor was in Mexico.
He went to somewhere in the US,I don't know where, I don't
remember.
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I want to say Chicago, but Ithink that's wrong.
We went to the Bahamas.
We had a week-long wedding here.
That was so fun.
It was my first big Indianwedding.
Me and Ro went to Cologne atthe end of the summer to go
visit my bestie and her new babyand we just had like a really
fun, amazing year.
And I feel no regrets for thedecisions that I made.
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But I do feel bad for notletting you know what was up.
But I just wasn't prepared,like I honestly, like was not
emotionally prepared to make adecision and I didn't know what
my future was looking like.
So then I wanted to bring backthe podcast.
Like I didn't want it to be awhole year, I wanted to bring
back the podcast.
And every time my littlesavings got up to the okay,
perfect, I can.
Like after we finished prettymuch in the fall, like I was
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like, okay, maybe September I'llbring back the podcast.
That's a new beginning, newstart, rose starting school,
I'll be more structured, likelet's do that.
And then it's like, oh, ourdishwasher broke, oh, our
washing machine broke.
Oh, this broke, oh, that broke.
It's like every time I wantedto press the button and buy the
computer, something broke and itwas like okay, we got to, we
got to replace that, we got todo this, we got to do that.
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It just kept going on and onand on and on and I was like, if
I don't buy a new computer bythe new year, like what am I
doing with myself?
Come on, grace, we can do this.
And then, thankfully, mac cameout with the new Mac minis,
which I always wanted a desktopcomputer, like I didn't need a
laptop, I have my iPad.
So I was happy to have adesktop computer.
Mac came out with new Mac miniswhich have whatever chip is in
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it, which is like amazing, andthey're like the best value for
computer and it's like less thana thousand dollars for the
computer and it was like amazing, yay, okay, we're buying it,
let's do it.
So I've had this computerliterally since the new year
just sitting and I finallyopened it and got ready, but it
was like all the pressure was onOkay, now I have to actually do
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the work.
Oh my gosh, that's a hard part.
So here we are.
I'm so excited to be back hereand I just feel like me taking
that space and time is going topay off in the long run, for the
better of the podcast, I feellike I have more resilience.
For me it's been reallyinteresting working on the
internet and, like virality andall this stuff, like I hate
going viral.
I really do not like it.
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I'm grateful for moments whereI have gone viral and they've
given me growth and I've beenable to find new people.
But usually I honestly, usuallythrough virality or viral
videos, like I'm not finding theright people, but usually I
honestly, usually throughvirality or viral videos, like
I'm not finding the right people.
Wrong people, wrong people,wrong people Go away, go away.
And I will say that, like, asfor business opportunities, like
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partnerships and stuff likethat, like I don't think any
viral video or viral moment hasever like made any of those
partnerships.
Like when I was going my mostviral and feeling my most like
stressed out by like the anxietythat comes with, like just like
having your videos shown to somany people, like I was not I
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was making my least amount ofmoney If anything like that did
not affect.
So I just don't really likegoing viral.
I to avoid, avoid at all costs,but like you can't, you can't
avoid it because usually it'slike you make a mistake and
someone points it out and thenyou go viral and it's annoying.
But anyways, I feel like workingon the internet is like this
really interesting space andthat's why I love the podcast,
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because it always just feelslike this, like safe spot just
for us.
I've been still vlogging onYouTube and I like vlogging as
well and I love I personallylove watching back vlogs and
like seeing what I've been up toand all of that stuff.
Like I personally love that andalso I love our like travel
vlogs and like special familymoments and things like that.
Like I love having that asmemories and being able to see
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them, whereas the podcast like Irarely listen back to a podcast
.
Obviously I listen to it whenI'm editing it and uploading it,
but like other than that, Ilike rarely ever go back to a
podcast.
So it's like this really uniquething where it's like it's a
time in my life where I'm justlike sharing this clip of it,
like this chunk of it, and I'mgiving it out and I'm hoping
that it resonates with somebodyand then I have really beautiful
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, amazing conversations withpeople via email, dms and stuff
like that, and it just feels thecat's food's coming down and he
just ran up the stairs soquickly.
It just feels like this reallylike unique thing, different
than any other form of socialmedia.
That I've done.
Is podcasting social media?
I don't know, is it?
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I think it is, because it's amedia and it's social, but I
guess you don't comment on it,but on YouTube you could comment
on it.
It just feels like this reallyinteresting place that I like
love this form and like I feltlike personally with myself,
like this past year I haven'teven just been contemplating
content creation in the sense ofpodcasting, but I've been
contemplating it in every out,in every element, and there was
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one moment this past year whereI almost just like quit and then
I spoke about it and I was ableto like decide, like okay, I'm
going to continue, and like I'mso glad that I did that and like
spoke openly about how I wasfeeling, because sometimes I
just like fester with myself andthen it's like I'm making these
decisions myself and it feelslike a lot.
When I came to the internet andI said, like I almost just
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decided, like I'm quitting orI'm continuing, what am I gonna
do?
I had so many people rally nextto me and it was like, oh my
gosh, like I know that like I'mobviously reaching out to people
when I create content, but likeit doesn't feel real, except
for those moments when I'm likeactually meeting people in real
life.
Sometimes it just feels like Idon't know this, like other
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world, like the internet is likeanother world and it's like a
different reality than thiscurrent, present moment that I'm
living in and this reality.
And so when I had actually likespoken up about how I was
feeling and had so many people,I feel like what they were
saying felt like real peoplegiving me real advice, hugs,
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like life.
Like it felt like real.
It felt it felt real to me andthat was one of the first times
where it was like oh my gosh,this is like a crossover.
Like this is not, this is oneplace and it's not necessarily
separated.
Like this isn't grace online,grace in real life.
Like it feel it felt more likeokay, I'm actually doing
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something and participating insomething and like creating
things that people value and itthat helped because, like I feel
like for a whole year I waslike feeling like I don't know
what I'm doing, I don't knowwhat I want to post, I don't
know what I like, I don't knowwhy I should share.
I feel like it doesn't matter,like there's so many other
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people who post recipe content.
There's so many other peoplewho share about their life.
There's so many other peoplewho have podcasts.
There's so many other peoplelike why should I do it?
Like I don't matter as much, andit's like that's so sad that I
thought that, but also it's justreally I was contemplating with
that, not just for podcasting,but for everything, and so I
feel like I have so much morelike clarity and direction and I
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just feel like I am myself andI could only ever live who I am,
like my truth, my authenticself, and like I love editing
and I love creating and I lovefilming and I love all this
stuff and I'm able to createincome from it, which is amazing
.
It's literally the mostflexible, fabulous job in that
sense, like for my family,makeup and lifestyle right now,
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like I'm so grateful for that.
And sure, there's times whenit's like, oh, I wish I had
coworkers and like I wish I wasin like a social environment
more often, but like at thebasis of it, I would never be
able to have this muchflexibility, match income.
It just like it's I'm sograteful, like, and I feel like
that's one thing I will alwayssay is that, like, I am just so
grateful for this.
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So once I was able to just likeput out my list of pros and cons
and like, just realize I'mputting all this pressure on
myself, like all the time I feellike not as not as much anymore
, like, but back then I wasputting so much pressure on
myself all the time I was like,oh, I need to film another video
, I should.
I'm not posting enough.
Oh, okay, I missed this day.
I missed this day.
Oh my gosh.
Also, I would feel like, okay,my videos aren't getting pushed
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in the same way they used to be.
I feel like I'm not connectingto the same audience I was
before and it's like I miss thataudience.
And then it's like, I don't know, I just felt like I was putting
way too much pressure on myselfwhere, once I let go and was
like I'm just going to put outwhat I want to put out and it's
going to meet whoever it meets,and that's that Like, that's all
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I can do.
I can't control the media form,I can't control the platform
that I'm posting on and theycan't control who I'm going to
be.
So I'm just going to be me andthen put it out there and then,
wherever it goes, it goes, andonce I like let go.
That gave me so much clarityand direction on like what I
want to share and like I justreally want to, just want to
show up and be myself and havefun and just like love, love
life alongside all the cuties,and just like participate in the
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beauty of every day has tooffer, like that's really what I
want to do and that's what Iwant all my content to reflect
is just like a girly live in herlife and try to find the joy
and sparks that are in thissometimes very much chaotic
world.
So here I am back and it's sofunny I'm at this point in the
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podcast recording right nowwhere I feel like, oh my gosh,
what have I even said?
Like does this even make sense?
Who's listening?
Why are they listening?
Do they even?
Did I just make?
Why did?
Did I even just say?
Like I always get to thataround the 40 something minute
mark.
I'm always like, what did Ieven just say?
Nobody wants to listen to this?
Like I'm just yap, yap, yapping.
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It's like Grace, don't say that, it's their decision if they
want to listen or not.
Okay, so this week I learned Ighosted you.
I was toxic, but I'm back, baby, and I'm here with a clear mind
and I'm excited to be here.
I have a blank slate behind me,these bookshelves.
I painted them.
There's nothing on them.
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I've stuck this thing herebecause there's a hole behind
the wall and I didn't want youto see it right now.
But I got my blanket on and I'msitting on a couch and I'm
chatting with my cuties and Ihave my cup of coffee, which is
cold now.
Cheers.
And now we have a cat who lovesto come around here and likes
to use these bookshelves as likea little jungle gym.
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But we can share the catanother day if you want to know
the story of the cat.
Okay, what's after what Ilearned this week?
Is it rose buds and thorns?
Okay, cuties, let's get intorosebuds and thorns.
Okay, cuties, let's get intoroses buds and thorns.
I cannot believe it's rosesbuds and thorns.
I can't believe I forgot aboutthat.
Like I didn't forget about it,like I knew that that was
something we did, but I totallywas not even thinking, going
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into this episode, like, oh, Ineed to know what my roses, buds
and thorns are Like.
I totally forgot that that was,like such a vital and important
part of this podcast.
So my rose honestly my rose isthat I am finally getting the
podcast up and back in action.
I'm a little nervous to likeexport this and get everything
back up, but I'm excited to doit and remember how to do it
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because, honestly, I just feellike once I do everything, once
it's like oh yeah, okay, I getit, I remember how to do this,
like I got this.
So I'm so excited that we'reback to podcasting.
That's my rose.
My thorn Hmm, what's my thorn?
Oh, I don't even know.
You're meeting me at a goodweek cutes.
I think my thorn is a classic.
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I have so much laundry to fold,like I think there's.
There's a huge pile right herethat needs to be washed, but
there is at least threeoverflowing baskets in the
laundry room that I just liketook out of the dry and put in
baskets but haven't folded.
So that's my thorn.
But also, maybe there'll belike a show I can watch.
Oh, too cute kitty cat, sorry,lester was looking cute.
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Watch, oh, cute kitty cat,sorry, astro was looking cute.
Maybe there'll be like a show Ican watch with it and fold.
The thing is, once it hits4.30pm it's usually when I start
making dinner and then, like inthe wintertime, like I'm done,
like once it's dark and I'mputting Rota bad, like I just
want to stay, I want to go intomy bed and watch like TikTok, or
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watch a show Like I don't wantto fold, like it's not going to
happen.
So theoretically, I would liketo fold it today, but also I
don't think I'm going to.
So that's my thought is that Ihave to do that, but there's
always tomorrow, my bud.
What am I looking forward to?
Oh, I booked a, so I'm going tomy dance classes.
Did I go to dance classes whileI was podcasting?
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I don't think I did.
So I go to dance classes everyweek.
A little boogie class, very funand my boogie teacher is doing
a Taylor Swift boogie party thisweekend and I'm so excited.
I got tickets for me and Rowieand it'll be so much fun.
We're going to do dances toTaylor Swift, I guess, and I
think there's friendshipbracelet making and all that
stuff.
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So I'm so looking forward tothat.
That'll be such a nice littleweekend treat.
So I'm really looking forwardto that.
And I haven't told Rowe becauseI literally just booked it
right before I sat down torecord this podcast.
So I'm excited to tell Rowietoo.
Okay, let's get into ourentertainment recap.
Entertainment recap cuties.
I don't even know what I'mwatching.
Oh, I watched the new summerhouse episode.
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Who is literally obsessed?
I love summer house.
Like it's like a warm hug,catching up with your friends.
But who's so obsessed with likejust everything right now?
Like, honestly, I'm kind ofover it.
I don't want to hear any moreof the he said, she said between
, like the craig Paige breakup,but like, I'm just like obsessed
with the fact that like they'vebrought it to the show and now
we have to wait like a wholeseason to like get to the part
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where they're going to talkabout it.
Just intrigued, like I'm gladthat I have we have that teaser.
So, yeah, that's where we're atwith Summer House.
I'm happy to be back watchingit.
Excited.
I start oh, I started the newblow deck season.
Blow deck Australia no, is thatwhat it's called down under?
Blow deck down under, althoughI think they're in Africa, where
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are they this year?
I don't even remember that,just started like last week or
the week before.
So there's just a coupleepisodes.
So I'm watching that.
Um, I did start southern charmand I did not like it.
I got to season four and Ithink I gave up like a couple
seasons into season four andthen I asked on Instagram, or I
said on Instagram that I waswatching it and everyone said,
honestly, if you're not lovingit, don't like, it's not my
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favorite.
I was like, ok, good, because Iwas really just watching it to
try and get like the page inCraig lore.
But now I'm like so aware ofwho Craig was for season one of
four of Southern Charm and I'mlike, okay, I don't understand
the hype.
No, so yeah, that's where I'mat with Southern Charm, didn't
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watch it.
I did watch a while ago, overChristmas break, real Housewives
of Salt Lake City.
All of it, binged, it all.
I was obsessed, obsessed,obsessed.
I caught up to the new season,watched it, amazing.
So 10 out of 10 recommend.
I did try watching RealHousewives of New York original
from the beginning, but I justcouldn't get into it.
Like I'm not there.
Love Island is currently on,I'm pretty sure they do.
They're doing the winter seasonthis year, but I'm saving it up
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so that I can watch it.
I haven't watched that at all.
I don't have enough time to dothat right now, so I'm saving
that up.
Then me and Ro have beenwatching lots of throwback
movies.
We watched Annie, like theAnnie in New York, like the new
one musical.
She loved it.
We had such a fun time watchingthat.
I went and watched Mufasa.
I'm obsessed with thesoundtrack.
The movie was okay, like it waswhatever, but the soundtrack
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I'm literally obsessed with.
Me and Ro listen to it everysingle night and like I love it.
And like I love it, I love thesong Malay Lay, obviously,
brother, like there's so manythings, but love it.
I'm trying to think what other?
Oh, we showed her this weekend.
What is it called?
I wanted to say Confessions ofa Drama Teenage Queen.
That's not it, but it is aLindsay Lohan movie.
Lindsay Lohan, lindsay Lohanmovie, what's it called?
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Come on, you got this FreakyFriday.
We watched Freaky Friday.
Such a good movie.
Ro loved it.
That was great, um, but yeah,so we've been watching lots of
like random little throwbackmovies here and there.
I was telling her Confessionsof a Teenage Drama Queen.
She might like I was trying toget her to watch High School
Musical because she was intoHannah Montana and she loves uh,
not iCarly.
What's the other one, sam andCat, which I like never watched,
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but as a kid growing up butshe's been liking Sam and Cat.
So I was like, okay, we gottaget more of that generation.
We should also try Zoe 101.
I loved Zoe 101.
I did try Lizzie McGuire movie.
She wasn't interested in that.
I think that one's a little tooold for her.
But yeah, so we've been havingfun, like because she's starting
to like that type of genre ofshow.
So we're watching all ourthrowback movies and shows,
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which, which has been nice.
But yeah, that's what I'mwatching, pretty much
entertainment.
Recap wise, what I've beenlistening to New Lumineers, New
Moni Bear I've been loving.
I'm in like this, like sadslowdown era with the music, I
guess.
But I also have some fun stuffthat I've been listening to.
But yeah, I really want to gettickets to Lumineers.
They were just here this pastweekend in niagara and I didn't
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even know that they were comingand then the resale tickets were
like I think 300 and I was like, okay, I'll just go by myself,
like because if we boughttickets in toronto, whatever, it
probably be like 150 becausethey're coming into toronto in
september probably be like 100150 each.
So if me and trevor both wantto be 300, but trevor doesn't
really care for the lumineers.
So I was like, okay, if I canfor sure buy resale, like I
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should go this Sunday becausethey're only doing, I think, one
Canadian date or two, two inToronto, and the pre-sale was
yesterday but I didn't have apre-sale code, so we'll see if
there's anything available.
I think they go on saletomorrow or in a couple I don't
remember what date is the 20something and it was just like,
should I go, should I not go,I'm gonna freak out if I don't
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get to go.
Um, I have trauma because Ididn't get to go to the the
heiress tickets, so I just havelike this, like oh, oh, I have
to see them, I love them.
I didn't end up going, which isactually better, because the
weather was so bad.
It wouldn't be good to driveTrevor's like, don't worry,
we're gonna get them, it's allgonna work out.
But like I swear my TikTok feedis like everyone getting the
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tickets or saying that theyweren't able to get tickets or
that they're stressed thatthey're not gonna be able to get
tickets.
I'm like I need tickets so Iknow the good vibes for that.
But yeah, that's what I've beenlistening to.
So it's the entertainment recapcutes.
Oh my gosh, is that everything?
Oh wait, did I sing?
Entertainment recapentertainment recap I don't
think I did.
I'll edit that over there.
I probably won't, but you canhear it now.
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Okay, cute, I think that'severything.
I got like a million messageswhile I was recording that and
got distracted at one point, soI need to respond to those.
Oh, it's also 1111.
So make a wish.
Thank you so much for listeningand coming and joining in the
fun.
This was kind of a jumpingepisode.
We went everywhere around theworld all year Like no, but even
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just like we just like.
I feel like I word vomited alot and half of it probably
didn't make sense.
But just know, I'm sorry that Ighosted you, it was for a good
cause.
I feel better now and ready andI have clarity and I'm excited
to see where the podcast goes.
Let me know what types ofthings you enjoy, don't enjoy,
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like what's your favorite partof the podcast?
What's something you'd love tohave in the podcast that maybe
isn't part of it?
Let me know.
Okay, cuties, I love you.
I hope the audio is good.
That always scares me.
Sometimes it doesn't end upbeing good, but I've been
listening this whole timethrough my headphones and it
sounds okay.
I'm wishing you love, hugs andeverything in between.
Oh my gosh, I can't believe.
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I just Thank you.
Hey, cuties, welcome back to 5 Years Time Podcast.
Let's have our sip together.
Cheers, cutes, we just have ablack Americano.
I opened the fridge and guesswhat?
There was no cream.
I went grocery shoppingyesterday and I purposely didn't
buy cream, like the four topthings I put on my grocery list
every single week cream, yogurt,milk.
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I'm running out of how to holdmy fingers if you're watching
the video cream, milk, yogurt,eggs.
And I took cream off because Iwas like, oh, I bought a huge
thing of cream and I was havinglattes last week, so I'm sure we
don't have.
We haven't run out, and I guesswe did.
I guess Trevor was using lotsof it anyway, so that means I
had to put milk in.
Oh, if you're watching on video, we have a visitor.
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This is a big announcement, toocute, because it's been a long
time since we talked, butthere's so much and I'm gonna be
jumping, and I'm.
I'm trying to not jump, but Ialready am anyways.
Okay, back to my coffee.
So I have an americano withmilk, which means I did put a
little sugar in it, because whenI'm at, the only time I ever
put milk in my coffee is if I goto like a do.
Do you know where the mic is?
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If you can hear that purr Astorthinks he's the star of the
show which is our new cat, newish we got in the summer.
Look at him, pretty boy.
When I go to like stores stores, what am I talking about?
When I go to cafes or likecoffee breakfast spots typically
breakfast spots, you know, likeclassic breakfast places where
you just get like the bottomlesscup of coffee.
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Sometimes they don't have creamand they have milk only, and
then I always put a little sugarin it and it's so delicious, so
let's have our first siptogether.
I have cat hair everywhere,cheers, cute Tastes, like I'm at
a breakfast joint.
I love it.
I need a little table because Ihave my desk in front of me,
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but it's so far.
We're in a new spot.
We're in a new location.
Again, I have so much to say.
I've missed you all.
I literally have been puttingoff well for a whole year, but I
knew that I was going to takethat break.
I didn't know how long it wasgoing to be, but, yes, I ghosted
you for a year.
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What I was going to say wasI've had this plan to bring the
podcast back and I really wantedto get it back for the new year
, and then it just didn't workout.
Things kept getting pushed off.
Then I really wanted to get itback for when my last episode
was, which I think was the endof January 2024.
And so I want it to be like theexact year.
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And then we all got sick and soI was going to record it last
night Today's Wednesday, which Itypically upload on and so I
was going to record it lastnight because that was our last.
That was my last chance beforethis Wednesday, because this
Wednesday is a moment in timeWednesday, february 19th which I
was in the Bahamas last year,and I remember actively having
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conversations with the girlies Iwas with about the podcast and
how I was feeling so guiltybecause I hadn't uploaded for
not one week, but I think it wastwo weeks at this time and that
I was having these like debateson was I going to continue, was
I not going to continue?
And I remember like havingthese active conversations of
like contemplation anddiscussing all my inner thoughts
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.
So I wanted it to be thisWednesday and maybe I will get
it uploaded today.
I'm going to try my hardest,because I don't even remember
how to do this, cutes.
I was setting this up and I wasgetting mucho overwhelmed and I
wanted to use a different camerabut it was not working and
Trevor so kindly left me thehouse to myself to record
because I wanted some privacy.
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I also am recording in a newlocation, new studio Cutes.
We have been in every area ofmy house I think, and our last
one was in our extra like closetthat's in our bedroom, that
really like it's not set up as acloset, there's no like hanging
bars or anything, it's just alittle side room and I love that
area and it was so good forbeing able to record while
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Trevor was working, because hisoffice is in the basement, we
didn't clash with each other'svoices or anything, because I
really need that silence, butbut the internet sucked up there
and so it always buffered andit was like always drama, drama,
drama, drama.
And I was like I need a newspot and I also, just in general
for myself, think I need like adesk in a proper place that I
can sit and edit and have alittle morning work sesh.
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That's like more.
I'm working now and now I'mlogging off and I'm going into
my home life where I'm going togo record and be in the kitchen
or whatever, but like a placewhere I can like, set my stuff
to, like all my editing stuffand all my work things and
computer bits and cords andwhatever.
So now I have a new space whichis very much disorganized.
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This might look like it's ablank slate over here, but over
here it is not.
It is boxes, it is laundry, itis cords, it is random things
here, random things there, it isthings that need to go to the
donation pile.
It's a lot of everything.
And you know what?
The best thing I can do is notfocus on needing to be perfect,
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because, hello, life is notabout perfection and I will
never get there.
I will never be perfect.
Also, I'm not sure if I'm goingto wear these headphones the
whole time, if you're listeningvia YouTube, but I think this
first episode I am, because Ijust want to make sure that my
sound is not bad, because this Ican, this way I can hear it,
and if I do like it, then I'llget different headphones,
because I don't know if this isthe vibe, but this is the vibe
for today.
Trevor Lentz, up to me.
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Thanks, trev.
Last night I was like I'm goingto sit down, I'm going to record
the podcast all day.
In the morning I was getting alittle nervous and it's so funny
I always get this nervousenergy before recording the
podcast, not leading up to it.
I can come up with a podcastwalks where I go on a walk and I
think through my thoughts andI'm like, okay, I feel so
inspired, I feel ready to have aconversation.
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And then, when it comes to theactual moment of like, okay,
we're going to do this, I'm like, oh my gosh, I have nothing to
say.
Like what am I going to do?
I'm just going to sit there andbe like.
So I was getting that feeling.
And then I picked up Ro fromschool and I knew I was gonna do
it in the evening becauseTrevor was gonna go to yoga and
then that would have beenperfect.
I could have put row to bed andrecord, but then I couldn't.
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I was so tired and I was likeI'm tired, and now I feel
overwhelmed and half the thingsaren't even set up, like my
lights and camera action aren'tset up.
I need that part.
I can, I can shoo the clutteraway, but I at least need those
things so.
So I was like, okay, I guesswe're not going to upload this
week, it's going to be next week.
And then I was this morning.
I was like maybe it's not evengoing to happen, like I was
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talking to myself out of itagain.
When you avoid doing something,it becomes this huge, like dark
cloud over you and it feelsimpossible, even when you know
it's something that you want todo and that you've done before.
And it's not impossible.
You enjoy it, you love it.
It just feels like this bighurdle to get over.
And so then this morning Trevorsaid that he signed up for yoga
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over lunch and he was going togo work at a coffee shop for the
morning and then he'll comeback in the afternoon.
So I have the opportunity torecord the podcast.
And I was like, okay, trev,you're pushing me and I value
that and I love that andappreciate that.
I didn't even ask him to dothat and it was like a weight
off my shoulders.
Then I sat down to geteverything set up and I was
getting overwhelmed, mainly withmy camera.
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But honestly, it is what it is.
It's a podcast.
First, it's about the sound andthe noise, which hopefully, we
did add an extra littleconnector to our microphone so
that it can be a bit louder.
That was always a struggle Iwas having.
But sorry, I just need to getall that off my chest before we
jump into this episode.
But it's kind of all about this.
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I didn't even write down aoutline for today's episode.
All my episodes are notscripted, they're just like
casual conversations, butusually I have the pointers.
It's like when I turn on themic.
Was I going to remember what Inormally say?
I don't even know?
If I did, did I say hey, cuties, welcome back to five years
time podcast, like I don'tremember.
But then I have to rememberwhat my outline is and I got
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that.
We normally do what Our snackand drink of the week Okay,
catch up snack and drink of theweek are okay.
Catch up snack and drink of theweek.
What I learned this week roses,buds and thorns oh my gosh, I
totally forgot about that.
To literally write this momentand that entertainment recap Is
that the right order?
I think it is.
Let's see if we get throughthat.
What I learned this week isgoing to be very much obviously
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not what I just learned thisweek, because we have a whole
year of things that I have beenlearning and it has been a wild,
extraordinary, so full of somany highs and just a few lows.
But, yeah, it's been a reallywhirlwind of a year and I'm
ready to share now and I'm readyto be back and I'm ready to
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open up this audience again.
I also have met so many podcastcuties this year, which is
hilarious because I literallythink I only ever met one or two
people in real life wholistened to the podcast.
Normally they follow me onTikTok and whenever I meet
podcast people like I want tocry, I want to hug you, I want
to buy you a drink, I want tolike wherever you are, I want to
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like be with you in the momentand have like a time because,
like you know me, like you knowme so much, it is just like we
are besties, like that is a realdeep connection to me.
And so, anyways, this year thatI haven't been podcasting, I
have ran into so many people wholisten to the podcast and I'm
like that is wild and I do get,like every week, an email saying
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like this many people havelistened to this, this episode
was popular this week, orwhatever.
So there are still people outthere listening, which is just
like amazing, and I'm sograteful for that.
But I'm also grateful thatwe've been able to grow in this
past year and I feel I feel like, okay, people value this and I
value it.
But sometimes I get confused andmixed and I think that what I'm
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doing is not, there's no pointand I should just stop because,
like, why am I wasting my time?
And that's not how I feel.
Like I do love the podcast, Ilove it so, so much, and then I
know that the listeners, mycuties, you love it too.
But sometimes I just like Idon't know there's like a
disconnect and I just feel likeI think it's because I'm on my
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own and so there's no onecheerleading me along, like I'm
not saying you're notcheerleading me, but like
there's no people around mesaying like this episode was
really good because of this,like I don't have a team around
me supporting the podcast, ifthat makes sense.
I don't know how to explain it.
Like I'm trying to connect it tolike when I was at work and I
would be working on projects orwe'd be delivering things, and
it's like okay, you have yourshareholders and everyone's
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accountable, who you'reaccountable to and they all have
feedback and people have thingsto say and you kind of can
value the direction of what it'sgoing and is it good, is it not
?
Do you need to do more of this,whatever?
And so I feel like I don't havethat and I feel like that's a
big thing.
All the time in this world offor me, of creating and being a
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digital space creator and doingall of this is that I'm the one
that's I'm accountable to,accountable to myself, and I I
sometimes I'm not my bestcheerleader because I feel like,
okay, like, what's the pointLike, and that's like another
thing for another day.
But all of this to be said isI'm super excited to get jumped
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into this episode and that thisweek we're really going to be
talking about where I've beenand why I left and why I left so
rudely Ghosting.
Hello, what am I?
A Gen Z?
Come on, answer the phone,don't be so anxious.
Like, tell the people whereyou're at, rude.
Okay, so let's get into thisweek's catch up.
Let me just grab a sip of Koofe, okay, what happened this week?
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Oh, it was family day weekend,which was so much fun.
We had a four-day weekend withRo because she also had Friday
off and Thursday actually endedup being like a buses canceled,
huge snow day.
But the school stayed open andI got her to school because I
was like we're gonna have afour-day weekend.
I know she's gonna value beingat school right now and it was
technically their Valentine'sDay because the PA day fell on
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valentine's day.
But long story short is thereweren't a lot of kids that went
to school so I believe theyended up postponing it till
monday or tuesday, whatever.
But this past weekend was lotsof fun.
Friday we had a play date withone of rose friends and it was
one of her.
It was a first time play date.
I always love first time playdates.
It's interesting to see howlike everyone connects.
It was definitely a hands onplaydates On playdates, like the
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kids just go play and you'relike, ah, freedom.
And then some you're like, okay, what's the next activity?
I gotta think I need to be onmy toes.
Thankfully, I am actuallypretty good, especially with
school age children, at comingup with activities on my toes,
since I spent many, many, manyyears doing that for a living.
And so we made hot chocolatePlay-Doh, we made brownies, we
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played some sort of like teaparty game.
We did all this different stuffand then we just chillax the
rest of the day.
I think I'm like, what else didwe do that day?
Not much, I guess.
Friday was Valentine's Day.
In our house Valentine's Day isa boy to girl holiday, which,
like we're not trying to besexist here, I'm not doing it
because of that, it's just cute.
It's something that Trevor getsto do, like usually like
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Christmas, I kind of take thereins, but also Trevor obviously
participates and he does mypresents.
But, like for Rosie, it's likeI'll go out and get that and do
this and whatever.
And so I feel like Valentine'sDay is like his.
It's always been, like he'ssuch a lover boy and I feel like
when he was growing up theyalways made homemade cards and
like he's always taken that intoour relationship and so, yeah,
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trevor kind of takes overValentine's Day and spoils us.
So he made us our homemadecards and got us little
chocolates and little stuffies.
And then he made us EggsBenedict, which Trevor always
makes the bomb diggity EggsBenedict, so delicious.
I feel like we rotate betweencinnamon buns and eggs benedict.
So this year was eggs benedictand then that was just like our
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cute little valentine's moment.
I did reserve dinner, for Iwould try to get it for friday,
but I couldn't.
I did it too late, so I did itfor a saturday, which worked out
anyways, because then we couldhave it earlier in the day
because Trevor wasn't working.
Then Saturday came along and weI feel like I literally can't
even remember what we did.
Oh my gosh, now I know Iliterally can't remember.
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Now I know, me and Ro.
I remember Trevor woke up sotired and I was like, okay, you
just have the day to yourselfand we have dinner at whatever
time.
I think we were going at like 4pm.
I'll take Ro to the water park.
So we went to Niagara Falls andwe went to the indoor water
park and we had so much fun.
Ro did not want to do the bigslides, which, like, she would
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like them, but she's justnervous.
After we went to Disney Worldwhich, oh, yes, cuties, a couple
weeks.
So we went to Disney World.
But after we went to DisneyWorld which, oh, yes, cuties, a
couple weeks.
So we went to Disney World.
But after we went to DisneyWorld, uh, she did every ride
and she always does all therides like, and then she gets
scared on maybe one, two,sometimes three, and then she's
like I don't like that feelingand then she just like gets in
this mindset where she's likescared of it.
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But I knew she would have likedthese water slides.
The only thing is it was like adouble, double hoop or a double
tube.
So she would have had to sit infront of me and then I would be
behind her and I told her mylegs would be there, like she
could hold on to my legs and myarms could probably have reached
her.
But if she could have been inmy lap she would have done it.
So next time hopefully.
But they had these other bodyslides that were a little bit
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smaller and she was loving thosewhich, like a year ago, she did
not like slides like that.
So I'm not stressed, but mainlythe wave pool is her favorite
attraction.
Also, it was so warm.
I was kind of like it wassnowing so much and it's kind of
like in a what is that called?
Like a terrarium where you canlike see outside.
So it was so fun because youcould like see the snow falling
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and then you were inside in thislike warm environment.
But yeah, the second we gotinto the wave pool.
I was like I really just hopethis is like a warm wave pool,
because I can't do the beingcold right now.
And it was.
It was like it was kind of likean amateur hot tub, like it was
pretty warm.
So I was very content with that.
We just had a lovely girly dayand then we played at the arcade
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and then it was snowing so muchwe drove home very carefully
and then we got home and then wehad a couple hours to just
chill out and I think I tookshowers and whatever.
And then we went for dinner andwe went.
We always go for Valentine'sdinner at this Chinese
restaurant by us that makesthese custard bunnies for
dessert.
They're so cute.
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They're like these little bunnydumplings that are deep fried
and filled with custard andthey're so cute and they're like
Rose favorite thing ever.
So we went there for dinner andwe always get it's like a bunch
of share plates, so we alwaysget a bunch of different things.
This year I feel like weordered so much food.
I don't even think we reallydid, but I think the things we
ordered were bigger portionsthan what I remember the
portions being, so we hadleftovers for the next day,
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which was perfectly fine.
And then Sunday what did we doSunday?
This is where I'm like um, Idon't think we did anything.
I think Trevor oh I know, weliterally did nothing, like we
just hung out and play.
Trevor went to go hang out withhis friends.
They're doing the what is itcalled Virtual golf or indoor
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simulator, you know, when yougolf and you hit the ball at the
screen.
I don't know.
But anyways, he went and didthat with his friends and so me
and Ro just chill, laxed.
We watched movies, we playedplay-doh, we decorated.
We had a bunch of big boxes andwe made this like box fort for
Astro and we decorated it.
We cut out.
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Rose said she wanted to doicicles, but then she was like,
let's make them eggsicles.
So then they're egg shapedicicles and we use stickers and
tape and markers and just likehad a crafternoon.
Then we just chillaxed and Ithink right before bed Trev came
home as it was getting dark andthen Roe and him went out to
run around in the snow.
They're so sorry, my nose isrunning and I don't have a
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Kleenex.
There is so much snow, I wasgonna say nose, there's so much
snow in the outside.
Like we haven't had snow likethis in a long time.
I think three winters ago therewas like a big snow.
I remember we couldn't get outof our house.
Like they don't normally plowour street now they do, I think
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with a smaller plow, but beforethey didn't normally plow us and
so it was like, oh, nobody cango anywhere.
Like we literally couldn't likeget out of your driveway
because the road was so deep insnow.
But that was only for I feellike that was like a week, so
this has been about a week too,so we'll see if it continues,
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but it's been.
We've had so much snow and it'sbeen lovely.
I always have this theory thatevery other summer is rainy and
then the other ones are hot, andthen every other winter is
snowy and then the other onesare like more mild.
So maybe we're going on thattrack still, because last winter
was so mild and this one iscold and snurry.
And then Monday was family dayand we headed off to Trevor's
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parents and we we had got forChristmas for everyone um lego
sets to build, and then wedidn't end up getting around to
building them that day I thinkRo had fallen asleep and so
we're like, okay, we'll doanother day.
And then we got togetheranother day, but it didn't end
up getting around to buildingthem.
That day, I think Ro would fallasleep, and so we were like, ok
, we'll do another day.
And then we got togetheranother day, but it didn't work
out.
Anyways, we finally got aroundto it.
We're like, ok, we'll do ittoday.
So we all built our Legos.
Some people had cars, ro had aMoana, I think.
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Becca, we got Minecraft.
So, yeah, that had lots ofconnects, but never really lego.
Bro made hers like pretty muchherself because it was like her
age bracket and I love it.
Like the ages I feel are soaccurate, like she was so good
at it.
She just needed a little bit ofhelp like pushing some pieces
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on.
But I was like, oh, I can seewhy.
This is like a fun thing.
It is like a puzzle an easierpuzzle because there's
instructions.
Then we all went out tobogganing.
There was so much snow thatlike the tobogganing part didn't
really work out, but we had somuch fun trying to like make our
own hills like there were hillsand we were.
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We actually had the best luckon like hills that were man-made
, like they were made by thesnow blouse and parking lots.
Like making these hugemountains of excess snow.
Those ones were the best.
Made by the snow blouse andparking lots.
Like making these hugemountains of excess snow, those
ones are the best ones.
But the snow is so thick andlike no one had pre-made any
pathways for us so we had tomake them all and it was just
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like kind of a fail.
Every time we would just likeget so far and then like face
plant in the snow or it wouldjust be like the slowest crawl
down, and then every so often weget one where it was like wow,
but it was so much fun and itgot us out of the house and just
like into nature, which Ialways love.
We had it back and we had somechili and just hung out and
Trevor had this huge bucket oflego from when he was a kid that
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had, I guess, a bunch ofdifferent sets in it, but it was
all just dumped into this hugelike Rubbermaid bin and so he
was sorting it out, having thebest time of his life, and
normally he's the first one tobe like okay, I'm tired, like
let's go home, but he was likemaking us stay there forever.
I was like Trev, like it's pasteveryone's bedtime, should we
go?
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He was like, yeah, one,technically my container, I
could have brought it to ourhouse.
And I was like, uh, I don'tthink we need that here right
now.
I could just see next.
I don't.
Our life is cluttered enoughwith what everything.
I'm looking at right now likewe don't have space for a giant
thing of lego to be spreadeverywhere, not yet, but one day
perhaps.
But yeah, that was our weekend.
It was so lovely, it was theperfect amount of chill and
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activity and I love that.
I love when you have thatbeautiful balance, because it
does really feel like theseweeks are just flying by.
And like now that Rose inschool, like kindergarten, I
just feel like the days like goby so quickly.
Like I pick her up and then allof a sudden, and then we play
for a little bit and then all ofa sudden it's like, oh, I need
to make dinner.
And then all of a sudden it'slike, okay, it's bedtime.
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Like I feel like those thattime is going by so quickly and
her school starts earlier nowthan like her preschool did.
So like I feel like ourmornings are even more like
condensed, so everything justfeels like a routine go, go, go.
And then.
So when the weekends come, Ilove that we can just like have
that good balance of going anddoing a fun activity but then
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also just coming home andrelaxing and chilling out.
Like I love that the yin andthe yang.
So let's get into.
This week I learned Okay cutes.
This week I learned I ghostedyou and we're in a bit of a
toxic relationship.
I guess I'm opening my phonebecause I did write down a few
things.
I'm not going to show you all.
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I have like so many podcasttopics.
Every time I wanted to talk toyou I would write down a
reminders and then I would put atitle and then I would just add
so much stuff to it.
And there were so many timesthis past year where I was like
okay, I want to sit down, I'mready.
I never.
I never was until now, andthat's just how it works
sometimes.
So why did I stop podcastinguntil now?
And that's just how it workssometimes.
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So why did I stop podcastingthis week?
We are learning why.
Why did I stop?
Where did I go?
Here's my mindset.
Let's go back a year ago.
Where was I a year ago?
A year ago I was extremelystressed every time I had to
record the podcast like.
Extremely stressed because onemy computer I feel are recorded
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on used.
My little macbook air was 10years old and dying on its last
leg.
I wasn't even.
I was on an external hard driveconnected to that computer for
majority of everything like.
I didn't even use the actuallike hard drive of that computer
.
It could not.
It could not compute, it couldnot do it.
Everything was on this harddrive.
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But then somehow my computer wasalways running out of storage
and it was just like it wouldshut down.
All the time I would be in themiddle of an episode, shut down,
be in the middle of episode.
No storage, no storage.
Be flashing at me.
You can't record, you can'trecord.
And it was like this isstressing me out.
Every time I would start.
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I'm an organized cutie, don'tlook in this room, but I'm an
organized cutie.
Every time I would sit downit's like, okay, I'd make sure
everything's deleted.
All my storage is empty.
Delete it from the deleted file.
Garbage bin empty.
Trash can empty.
There's enough room on myexternal hard drive Like.
I always do that.
I do that before I film myvideos on my phone, go through,
delete backup, like I do all ofthat before I start because
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there's nothing more stressfulthan running out of storage and
I've been there one too manytimes so that was always
happening.
It was like my computer couldnot anymore.
So that was the main reason.
Truly, like if my computer wasokay, probably I would have
taken a break, a shorter break,and then continued, but that
computer said no more podcastingfor you and my wallet said no
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new computer for you.
So we were kind of at acrossroads.
That was the one thing.
The two thing, honestly, like Ijumped into solo podcasting.
If you've been a longtimelistener, you know that we used
to have a co-host and I alwaysenvisioned my podcasting journey
having a co-host.
I love the vibe, the back andforth, I love riffing with
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people, I love laughing andhaving this like fun
conversation or seriousconversation where you're like
able to share and connect ondifferent things, and like all
of this.
Like I love that all and I dothink I'm able to create that as
a solo podcaster, just via youand me.
I've always wanted to do it asa duo and so when, when I
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stopped doing and I went intosolo.
Like it's a big undertakingbeing a solo podcaster in
comparison, my, my, my opinion,my, my, my, my beliefs.
I'm like, what am I trying tosay?
Obviously, it's different foreverybody, but because I've done
both, that's what I think.
I think solo is really dauntingsometimes, like to come down
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and sit for a whole hour pluswhatever, talking by yourself,
like and girl, I can yap, I am ayapper.
Ask anyone in my family.
They're like, okay, we tuneGrace out at like 10 minutes,
like we'll give her her time andthen we can go on our way.
But I just feel like it's a lotlike emotionally, and also the
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way that I'm podcasting is likea lot of me just like trying to
connect with people throughshared experience, and so I am
sharing a lot of myself, and sothat is a lot emotionally and it
is very draining and it canfeel very raw after I upload
certain episodes or recordcertain episodes.
It's like, oh my gosh, I'vejust like shared my deepest,
darkest secrets and that's a lot.
And so I think I was justfeeling really burnt out.
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I guess Like is that?
Yeah, I think I was feelingburnt out, but also I was
feeling like uninspired and likelost, like who am I and what do
I want and where am I going?
And I kind of started the solojourney and didn't really give
myself time to like think aboutwhat, what that meant for my
future future, what I waslooking at or what my goals were
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or where the direction of thepodcast was going.
And so I just like felt like Ireally needed a reset.
And so when my computer brokedown, I was like, okay, this is
the perfect time for me to takea reset.
And then I was like, okay,what's this reset gonna look?
Like like I need a little bitof time so I can save up some
money so I can buy a newcomputer.
So I was like, okay, okay,what's this reset going to look
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like Like I need a little bit oftime so I can save up some
money so I can buy a newcomputer.
So I was like, okay, how longam I going to stop recording?
For I hadn't figured that allout.
But then the computer brokedown and then I literally
couldn't record.
And then I was like I don'tknow what to do.
And then I had a trip plannedwhere I was going to the Bahamas
for my friend's bachelorette.
And so I was like, okay, I'mjust going to take these two
weeks, because it broke down oneweek, and then I'm going to go
on vacation and then we're goingto come back and we're going to
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think about it.
And so I went on vacation and Iremember having those
conversations with people.
They were like, oh, like, how'sthe podcast going?
And I was like, oh, I actuallyhaven't podcasted.
And I was like, oh, my gosh,like I actually don't know what
I'm doing with the podcast, andlike, da, okay, I need to save
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up for a computer.
And then, as the weeks went by,I was like, what am I doing?
Am I going to announce that I'mnot bringing back the podcast?
Am I bringing back the podcast?
Am I putting on a hold for now?
I was like I don't even knowwhat I'm doing.
And then also, we have thisdaunting year in front of us.
Daunting makes it sound bad.
We had this amazing, fantasticyear planned in front of us,
starting with the Bahamas, butwhere we were going to be
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traveling so much, all ourfriends were getting married.
Actually, yeah, I only have ahandful of friends, but they
were getting married.
They all had destinationelements, bachelorettes, the
wedding, things like that.
We had all these trips planned.
And then we had Trevor was goingto Japan a couple months after
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that trip in February that I hadtaken and we were not planning
on going, me and Rosie, but hewas going to Japan and Korea for
a friend's wedding and he wasthe best man and so they were
doing like a little buddy moonwedding situation there and
Trevor was only going to go fora week or less, like he wasn't
going to go for that long, and Iwas like I don't think it's
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worth it to take Rosie that farand do that much time change for
just a little bit.
Like I, my dream destination inlife has been Korea and I felt
content with that decision, likethis isn't the time for us to
go.
Then our friend Bill I don'tknow why I have to say his name,
but our friend who is alsofriends with these, all these
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boys who are going on this tripfor this wedding.
He works remotely and much likeTrevor and but he lives in BC
and he had said to Trevor onenight like I think I think I was
maybe sitting in the room withhim I'm not listening to the
conversation, I'm not sure, buthe said to Trevor one night that
he was actually gonna go forlike a prolonged period of time
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and work remotely over there andtravel around and do like a bit
of Korea, a bit of Singapore,like just go to a bunch of
different Asian countries.
And Trevor was like, oh, thatsounds so cool, sounds so cool.
And then Trevor I feel like wejoked about it I think I, trevor
, had texted me.
I wasn't there.
Trevor had texted me and waslike, oh, like this is what
Phil's doing.
And I was like, oh, how fun.
And he's like I'm going to dothat too.
He was joking like that he wasgoing to go by himself and do
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that.
And I could because, like, Iwork for myself, 100% remote.
Rosie is in preschool, so shedoesn't have to be there.
Like we could.
If we're gonna do it, like thisis the time to do it before she
starts school, like where sheit's more frowned upon to like
take your kid out for aprolonged period of time.
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And all of a sudden we were justlike, are we gonna do this?
And was like I had been savingup to buy a computer.
I was like, or I could buy aplane ticket to Korea and go
live there for a month.
Like what, let's do it.
And so, yeah, we just were likewe're doing it.
We just like told Phil we'relike Phil, what if we come and
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we all get a place together fora month in Korea?
Like what do you think aboutthat?
I feel like that would be sofun.
It's like that would be so fun.
And Phil's like one of ourfriends, our childhood friends
from back when we were obviouslychildren.
We all met at the same place.
Well, trevor and Phil knew eachother before, but, like I met
Trevor and Phil at the sameplace like summer camp.
We haven't all been in the sameplace in a long time.
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Like, obviously, we go there tovisit and he comes here to
visit, but we all just like beenwith each other for like
prolonged period of time in along time and we're like, okay,
let's do it.
So I think that was just likeyou know what I am that helped
me to decide that this year isthe year aka this past year year
I'm talking in the mindset ofgrace a year ago.
This year is the year that I amjust saying yes and doing
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things that I have literallyalways dreamed of and never,
ever thought would be a realityand never thought in this way
would be a reality.
Like I never thought.
I didn't see my future of, likeme and Trevor and our kid, like
going and staying in anothercountry for a month and like
working and living and just likebeing one with the culture.
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Like I never thought that thatwas something that we were going
to do.
And so when it became a reality, it was like, oh my gosh, this
is wild.
So, yeah, I just was like I'mnot even going to think about
the podcast anymore because I'musing my money to do this and I
can't do the podcast without anew computer.
So that was my decision and Ijust made it.
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And I was like I'm not.
I decided not to update anyoneand I feel poorly for that.
But at the same time, like Ialso didn't know what that meant
.
Like when was I going to?
Was I going to decide thepodcast was coming back, was I
not?
I don't even know.
And I also came to this onepoint where, like I felt so
emotionally and vulnerably, likeoverwhelmed with the podcast,
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that I almost like deleted thewhole thing, because on the back
end I can delete all theepisodes, like not have them
live, and I almost did that andI'm so glad I did it.
I'm really really glad I did it.
I almost did like I literallyalmost did it and there would
have been no way to like reversethat.
So I'm so glad I did it becausepeople still listen to it and,
honestly, like I'm proud of thework that I've done and like
here I am back and even if I didcome back and had done that, I
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would have been fine with it.
But and my future is ahead ofme, so I'm just excited.
That's kind of where my mindsetwas.
So then we threw ourselves intotraveling and taking
opportunities and doing allthese like really fun and wild
things that like we wouldn'thave done if ever.
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Like I just I'm so gratefulthat we were able to do it and
that the opportunities were putin front of us and that we were
capable and financially preparedto do them and we had so much
fun.
So we spent the year traveling.
We went to Korea for a month.
We went to my friend's weddingin Curacao.
Trevor was in Mexico.
He went to somewhere in the US,I don't know where, I don't
remember.
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I want to say Chicago, but Ithink that's wrong.
We went to the Bahamas.
We had a week-long wedding here.
That was so fun.
It was my first big Indianwedding.
Me and Ro went to Cologne atthe end of the summer to go
visit my bestie and her new babyand we just had like a really
fun, amazing year.
And I feel no regrets for thedecisions that I made.
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But I do feel bad for notletting you know what was up.
But I just wasn't prepared,like I honestly, like was not
emotionally prepared to make adecision and I didn't know what
my future was looking like.
So then I wanted to bring backthe podcast.
Like I didn't want it to be awhole year, I wanted to bring
back the podcast.
And every time my littlesavings got up to the okay,
perfect, I can.
Like after we finished prettymuch in the fall, like I was
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like, okay, maybe September I'llbring back the podcast.
That's a new beginning, newstart, rose starting school,
I'll be more structured, likelet's do that.
And then it's like, oh, ourdishwasher broke, oh, our
washing machine broke.
Oh, this broke, oh, that broke.
It's like every time I wantedto press the button and buy the
computer, something broke and itwas like okay, we got to, we
got to replace that, we got todo this, we got to do that.
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It just kept going on and onand on and on and I was like, if
I don't buy a new computer bythe new year, like what am I
doing with myself?
Come on, grace, we can do this.
And then, thankfully, mac cameout with the new Mac minis,
which I always wanted a desktopcomputer, like I didn't need a
laptop, I have my iPad.
So I was happy to have adesktop computer.
Mac came out with new Mac miniswhich have whatever chip is in
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it, which is like amazing, andthey're like the best value for
computer and it's like less thana thousand dollars for the
computer and it was like amazing, yay, okay, we're buying it,
let's do it.
So I've had this computerliterally since the new year
just sitting and I finallyopened it and got ready, but it
was like all the pressure was onOkay, now I have to actually do
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the work.
Oh my gosh, that's a hard part.
So here we are.
I'm so excited to be back hereand I just feel like me taking
that space and time is going topay off in the long run, for the
better of the podcast, I feellike I have more resilience.
For me it's been reallyinteresting working on the
internet and, like virality andall this stuff, like I hate
going viral.
I really do not like it.
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I'm grateful for moments whereI have gone viral and they've
given me growth and I've beenable to find new people.
But usually I honestly, usuallythrough virality or viral
videos, like I'm not finding theright people, but usually I
honestly, usually throughvirality or viral videos, like
I'm not finding the right people.
Wrong people, wrong people,wrong people Go away, go away.
And I will say that, like, asfor business opportunities, like
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partnerships and stuff likethat, like I don't think any
viral video or viral moment hasever like made any of those
partnerships.
Like when I was going my mostviral and feeling my most like
stressed out by like the anxietythat comes with, like just like
having your videos shown to somany people, like I was not I
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was making my least amount ofmoney If anything like that did
not affect.
So I just don't really likegoing viral.
I to avoid, avoid at all costs,but like you can't, you can't
avoid it because usually it'slike you make a mistake and
someone points it out and thenyou go viral and it's annoying.
But anyways, I feel like workingon the internet is like this
really interesting space andthat's why I love the podcast,
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because it always just feelslike this, like safe spot just
for us.
I've been still vlogging onYouTube and I like vlogging as
well and I love I personallylove watching back vlogs and
like seeing what I've been up toand all of that stuff.
Like I personally love that andalso I love our like travel
vlogs and like special familymoments and things like that.
Like I love having that asmemories and being able to see
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them, whereas the podcast like Irarely listen back to a podcast
.
Obviously I listen to it whenI'm editing it and uploading it,
but like other than that, Ilike rarely ever go back to a
podcast.
So it's like this really uniquething where it's like it's a
time in my life where I'm justlike sharing this clip of it,
like this chunk of it, and I'mgiving it out and I'm hoping
that it resonates with somebodyand then I have really beautiful
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, amazing conversations withpeople via email, dms and stuff
like that, and it just feels thecat's food's coming down and he
just ran up the stairs soquickly.
It just feels like this reallylike unique thing, different
than any other form of socialmedia.
That I've done.
Is podcasting social media?
I don't know, is it?
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I think it is, because it's amedia and it's social, but I
guess you don't comment on it,but on YouTube you could comment
on it.
It just feels like this reallyinteresting place that I like
love this form and like I feltlike personally with myself,
like this past year I haven'teven just been contemplating
content creation in the sense ofpodcasting, but I've been
contemplating it in every out,in every element, and there was
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one moment this past year whereI almost just like quit and then
I spoke about it and I was ableto like decide, like okay, I'm
going to continue, and like I'mso glad that I did that and like
spoke openly about how I wasfeeling, because sometimes I
just like fester with myself andthen it's like I'm making these
decisions myself and it feelslike a lot.
When I came to the internet andI said, like I almost just
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decided, like I'm quitting orI'm continuing, what am I gonna
do?
I had so many people rally nextto me and it was like, oh my
gosh, like I know that like I'mobviously reaching out to people
when I create content, but likeit doesn't feel real, except
for those moments when I'm likeactually meeting people in real
life.
Sometimes it just feels like Idon't know this, like other
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world, like the internet is likeanother world and it's like a
different reality than thiscurrent, present moment that I'm
living in and this reality.
And so when I had actually likespoken up about how I was
feeling and had so many people,I feel like what they were
saying felt like real peoplegiving me real advice, hugs,
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like life.
Like it felt like real.
It felt it felt real to me andthat was one of the first times
where it was like oh my gosh,this is like a crossover.
Like this is not, this is oneplace and it's not necessarily
separated.
Like this isn't grace online,grace in real life.
Like it feel it felt more likeokay, I'm actually doing
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something and participating insomething and like creating
things that people value and itthat helped because, like I feel
like for a whole year I waslike feeling like I don't know
what I'm doing, I don't knowwhat I want to post, I don't
know what I like, I don't knowwhy I should share.
I feel like it doesn't matter,like there's so many other
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people who post recipe content.
There's so many other peoplewho share about their life.
There's so many other peoplewho have podcasts.
There's so many other peoplelike why should I do it?
Like I don't matter as much, andit's like that's so sad that I
thought that, but also it's justreally I was contemplating with
that, not just for podcasting,but for everything, and so I
feel like I have so much morelike clarity and direction and I
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just feel like I am myself andI could only ever live who I am,
like my truth, my authenticself, and like I love editing
and I love creating and I lovefilming and I love all this
stuff and I'm able to createincome from it, which is amazing
.
It's literally the mostflexible, fabulous job in that
sense, like for my family,makeup and lifestyle right now,
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like I'm so grateful for that.
And sure, there's times whenit's like, oh, I wish I had
coworkers and like I wish I wasin like a social environment
more often, but like at thebasis of it, I would never be
able to have this muchflexibility, match income.
It just like it's I'm sograteful, like, and I feel like
that's one thing I will alwayssay is that, like, I am just so
grateful for this.
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So once I was able to just likeput out my list of pros and cons
and like, just realize I'mputting all this pressure on
myself, like all the time I feellike not as not as much anymore
, like, but back then I wasputting so much pressure on
myself all the time I was like,oh, I need to film another video
, I should.
I'm not posting enough.
Oh, okay, I missed this day.
I missed this day.
Oh my gosh.
Also, I would feel like, okay,my videos aren't getting pushed
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in the same way they used to be.
I feel like I'm not connectingto the same audience I was
before and it's like I miss thataudience.
And then it's like, I don't know, I just felt like I was putting
way too much pressure on myselfwhere, once I let go and was
like I'm just going to put outwhat I want to put out and it's
going to meet whoever it meets,and that's that Like, that's all
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I can do.
I can't control the media form,I can't control the platform
that I'm posting on and theycan't control who I'm going to
be.
So I'm just going to be me andthen put it out there and then,
wherever it goes, it goes, andonce I like let go.
That gave me so much clarityand direction on like what I
want to share and like I justreally want to, just want to
show up and be myself and havefun and just like love, love
life alongside all the cuties,and just like participate in the
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beauty of every day has tooffer, like that's really what I
want to do and that's what Iwant all my content to reflect
is just like a girly live in herlife and try to find the joy
and sparks that are in thissometimes very much chaotic
world.
So here I am back and it's sofunny I'm at this point in the
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podcast recording right nowwhere I feel like, oh my gosh,
what have I even said?
Like does this even make sense?
Who's listening?
Why are they listening?
Do they even?
Did I just make?
Why did?
Did I even just say?
Like I always get to thataround the 40 something minute
mark.
I'm always like, what did Ieven just say?
Nobody wants to listen to this?
Like I'm just yap, yap, yapping.
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It's like Grace, don't say that, it's their decision if they
want to listen or not.
Okay, so this week I learned Ighosted you.
I was toxic, but I'm back, baby, and I'm here with a clear mind
and I'm excited to be here.
I have a blank slate behind me,these bookshelves.
I painted them.
There's nothing on them.
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I've stuck this thing herebecause there's a hole behind
the wall and I didn't want youto see it right now.
But I got my blanket on and I'msitting on a couch and I'm
chatting with my cuties and Ihave my cup of coffee, which is
cold now.
Cheers.
And now we have a cat who lovesto come around here and likes
to use these bookshelves as likea little jungle gym.
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But we can share the catanother day if you want to know
the story of the cat.
Okay, what's after what Ilearned this week?
Is it rose buds and thorns?
Okay, cuties, let's get intorosebuds and thorns.
Okay, cuties, let's get intoroses buds and thorns.
I cannot believe it's rosesbuds and thorns.
I can't believe I forgot aboutthat.
Like I didn't forget about it,like I knew that that was
something we did, but I totallywas not even thinking, going
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into this episode, like, oh, Ineed to know what my roses, buds
and thorns are Like.
I totally forgot that that was,like such a vital and important
part of this podcast.
So my rose honestly my rose isthat I am finally getting the
podcast up and back in action.
I'm a little nervous to likeexport this and get everything
back up, but I'm excited to doit and remember how to do it
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because, honestly, I just feellike once I do everything, once
it's like oh yeah, okay, I getit, I remember how to do this,
like I got this.
So I'm so excited that we'reback to podcasting.
That's my rose.
My thorn Hmm, what's my thorn?
Oh, I don't even know.
You're meeting me at a goodweek cutes.
I think my thorn is a classic.
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I have so much laundry to fold,like I think there's.
There's a huge pile right herethat needs to be washed, but
there is at least threeoverflowing baskets in the
laundry room that I just liketook out of the dry and put in
baskets but haven't folded.
So that's my thorn.
But also, maybe there'll belike a show I can watch.
Oh, too cute kitty cat, sorry,lester was looking cute.
(45:22):
Watch, oh, cute kitty cat,sorry, astro was looking cute.
Maybe there'll be like a show Ican watch with it and fold.
The thing is, once it hits4.30pm it's usually when I start
making dinner and then, like inthe wintertime, like I'm done,
like once it's dark and I'mputting Rota bad, like I just
want to stay, I want to go intomy bed and watch like TikTok, or
(45:43):
watch a show Like I don't wantto fold, like it's not going to
happen.
So theoretically, I would liketo fold it today, but also I
don't think I'm going to.
So that's my thought is that Ihave to do that, but there's
always tomorrow, my bud.
What am I looking forward to?
Oh, I booked a, so I'm going tomy dance classes.
Did I go to dance classes whileI was podcasting?
(46:05):
I don't think I did.
So I go to dance classes everyweek.
A little boogie class, very funand my boogie teacher is doing
a Taylor Swift boogie party thisweekend and I'm so excited.
I got tickets for me and Rowieand it'll be so much fun.
We're going to do dances toTaylor Swift, I guess, and I
think there's friendshipbracelet making and all that
stuff.
(46:25):
So I'm so looking forward tothat.
That'll be such a nice littleweekend treat.
So I'm really looking forwardto that.
And I haven't told Rowe becauseI literally just booked it
right before I sat down torecord this podcast.
So I'm excited to tell Rowietoo.
Okay, let's get into ourentertainment recap.
Entertainment recap cuties.
I don't even know what I'mwatching.
Oh, I watched the new summerhouse episode.
(46:47):
Who is literally obsessed?
I love summer house.
Like it's like a warm hug,catching up with your friends.
But who's so obsessed with likejust everything right now?
Like, honestly, I'm kind ofover it.
I don't want to hear any moreof the he said, she said between
, like the craig Paige breakup,but like, I'm just like obsessed
with the fact that like they'vebrought it to the show and now
we have to wait like a wholeseason to like get to the part
(47:10):
where they're going to talkabout it.
Just intrigued, like I'm gladthat I have we have that teaser.
So, yeah, that's where we're atwith Summer House.
I'm happy to be back watchingit.
Excited.
I start oh, I started the newblow deck season.
Blow deck Australia no, is thatwhat it's called down under?
Blow deck down under, althoughI think they're in Africa, where
(47:30):
are they this year?
I don't even remember that,just started like last week or
the week before.
So there's just a coupleepisodes.
So I'm watching that.
Um, I did start southern charmand I did not like it.
I got to season four and Ithink I gave up like a couple
seasons into season four andthen I asked on Instagram, or I
said on Instagram that I waswatching it and everyone said,
honestly, if you're not lovingit, don't like, it's not my
(47:50):
favorite.
I was like, ok, good, because Iwas really just watching it to
try and get like the page inCraig lore.
But now I'm like so aware ofwho Craig was for season one of
four of Southern Charm and I'mlike, okay, I don't understand
the hype.
No, so yeah, that's where I'mat with Southern Charm, didn't
(48:10):
watch it.
I did watch a while ago, overChristmas break, real Housewives
of Salt Lake City.
All of it, binged, it all.
I was obsessed, obsessed,obsessed.
I caught up to the new season,watched it, amazing.
So 10 out of 10 recommend.
I did try watching RealHousewives of New York original
from the beginning, but I justcouldn't get into it.
Like I'm not there.
Love Island is currently on,I'm pretty sure they do.
They're doing the winter seasonthis year, but I'm saving it up
(48:33):
so that I can watch it.
I haven't watched that at all.
I don't have enough time to dothat right now, so I'm saving
that up.
Then me and Ro have beenwatching lots of throwback
movies.
We watched Annie, like theAnnie in New York, like the new
one musical.
She loved it.
We had such a fun time watchingthat.
I went and watched Mufasa.
I'm obsessed with thesoundtrack.
The movie was okay, like it waswhatever, but the soundtrack
(48:54):
I'm literally obsessed with.
Me and Ro listen to it everysingle night and like I love it.
And like I love it, I love thesong Malay Lay, obviously,
brother, like there's so manythings, but love it.
I'm trying to think what other?
Oh, we showed her this weekend.
What is it called?
I wanted to say Confessions ofa Drama Teenage Queen.
That's not it, but it is aLindsay Lohan movie.
Lindsay Lohan, lindsay Lohanmovie, what's it called?
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Come on, you got this FreakyFriday.
We watched Freaky Friday.
Such a good movie.
Ro loved it.
That was great, um, but yeah,so we've been watching lots of
like random little throwbackmovies here and there.
I was telling her Confessionsof a Teenage Drama Queen.
She might like I was trying toget her to watch High School
Musical because she was intoHannah Montana and she loves uh,
not iCarly.
What's the other one, sam andCat, which I like never watched,
(49:39):
but as a kid growing up butshe's been liking Sam and Cat.
So I was like, okay, we gottaget more of that generation.
We should also try Zoe 101.
I loved Zoe 101.
I did try Lizzie McGuire movie.
She wasn't interested in that.
I think that one's a little tooold for her.
But yeah, so we've been havingfun, like because she's starting
to like that type of genre ofshow.
So we're watching all ourthrowback movies and shows,
(50:00):
which, which has been nice.
But yeah, that's what I'mwatching, pretty much
entertainment.
Recap wise, what I've beenlistening to New Lumineers, New
Moni Bear I've been loving.
I'm in like this, like sadslowdown era with the music, I
guess.
But I also have some fun stuffthat I've been listening to.
But yeah, I really want to gettickets to Lumineers.
They were just here this pastweekend in niagara and I didn't
(50:21):
even know that they were comingand then the resale tickets were
like I think 300 and I was like, okay, I'll just go by myself,
like because if we boughttickets in toronto, whatever, it
probably be like 150 becausethey're coming into toronto in
september probably be like 100150 each.
So if me and trevor both wantto be 300, but trevor doesn't
really care for the lumineers.
So I was like, okay, if I canfor sure buy resale, like I
(50:43):
should go this Sunday becausethey're only doing, I think, one
Canadian date or two, two inToronto, and the pre-sale was
yesterday but I didn't have apre-sale code, so we'll see if
there's anything available.
I think they go on saletomorrow or in a couple I don't
remember what date is the 20something and it was just like,
should I go, should I not go,I'm gonna freak out if I don't
(51:04):
get to go.
Um, I have trauma because Ididn't get to go to the the
heiress tickets, so I just havelike this, like oh, oh, I have
to see them, I love them.
I didn't end up going, which isactually better, because the
weather was so bad.
It wouldn't be good to driveTrevor's like, don't worry,
we're gonna get them, it's allgonna work out.
But like I swear my TikTok feedis like everyone getting the
(51:25):
tickets or saying that theyweren't able to get tickets or
that they're stressed thatthey're not gonna be able to get
tickets.
I'm like I need tickets so Iknow the good vibes for that.
But yeah, that's what I've beenlistening to.
So it's the entertainment recapcutes.
Oh my gosh, is that everything?
Oh wait, did I sing?
Entertainment recapentertainment recap I don't
think I did.
I'll edit that over there.
I probably won't, but you canhear it now.
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Okay, cute, I think that'severything.
I got like a million messageswhile I was recording that and
got distracted at one point, soI need to respond to those.
Oh, it's also 1111.
So make a wish.
Thank you so much for listeningand coming and joining in the
fun.
This was kind of a jumpingepisode.
We went everywhere around theworld all year Like no, but even
(52:08):
just like we just like.
I feel like I word vomited alot and half of it probably
didn't make sense.
But just know, I'm sorry that Ighosted you, it was for a good
cause.
I feel better now and ready andI have clarity and I'm excited
to see where the podcast goes.
Let me know what types ofthings you enjoy, don't enjoy,
(52:30):
like what's your favorite partof the podcast?
What's something you'd love tohave in the podcast that maybe
isn't part of it?
Let me know.
Okay, cuties, I love you.
I hope the audio is good.
That always scares me.
Sometimes it doesn't end upbeing good, but I've been
listening this whole timethrough my headphones and it
sounds okay.
I'm wishing you love, hugs andeverything in between.
Oh my gosh, I can't believe.
(52:51):
I just Thank you.
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