December 14, 2023 • 45 mins
Welcome back, my lovelies! Can you feel the enchantment in the air? That's right, it's the holiday season, a time of traditions, treats, and a touch of magic. Remember how Christmas felt as a child? The twinkling lights, the aroma of baking cookies, and the anticipation of Santa's visit? But somewhere along the line, we lost that magic. This episode is a journey to rediscover that lost sparkle and wrap ourselves in the warmth of those magical memories again. We'll explore our personal evolution and how we can tap into our true, authentic selves to bring back the magic of Christmas, not just for the children around us, but for our inner child as well.
But, this episode isn't just about sweet memories and yuletide nostalgia. We'll also be discussing the joys of the present, specifically, the magic of Christmas today. How can we create our traditions without succumbing to the pressure of perfection? How do we capture the simple moments and experiences that truly bring joy and gratitude? And how do we keep the magic alive, not just during the holiday season, but every single day? So, let's step into our childlike selves where magic is real, wonder is a given, and every day holds a promise of something beautiful.
From heartfelt memories to heartwarming treats, we'll be feasting on shortbread cookies and talking about Danish-baked goodies. I'll share my melt-in-your-mouth shortbread recipe, and invite you to share your own beloved recipes. Because, after all, food is an integral part of the Christmas spirit, and what better way to nurture this spirit than to create and share these delectable treats with our loved ones! So, as we embark on this magical journey together, let's not forget the essence of Christmas - love, togetherness, and a little bit of magic, all sprinkled with a dash of sweet indulgence.
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Speaker 1 (00:07):
It's the holiday season, do do, do.
What a data.
But anyway, cuties, welcomeback to 12 days of PODMAS on
five years time podcast withyour host, grace.
I am so excited that you'rehere and I am so excited about
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PODMAS, and every time I want tosay PODMAS, I want to say
Vlogmas and it's just like mymind is trying to compute.
Anyways, we're here for episodetwo.
It feels so foreign to beposting and publishing on a
Thursday, but we're here, cute,and I'm so excited.
It feels like a warm hugknowing that I get to come and
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chat with you every single day.
Also, I hope you noticed that Ihave switched up my camera
angle of it.
I think it's easier.
I'm just grabbing my water.
Yes, cutie, in my mouth thereis some water, because a true
podcaster needs a little waterto get down Any of the, any of
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the throat stickers.
I just need it to say if youare a YouTube watcher, please
let me know how you're likingthis new setup.
I feel personally myself thatfor some reason I think, oh my
gosh, clearly I am losing mymarbles with the new set up.
Anyways, what I was going tosay was I actually feel like
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when I think I think this, thisdirection of the room,
especially where this chair islike this, is the way that I'm
thinking, and so it's easier forme to look into the camera when
I'm thinking, when I place itwhere I'm thinking, and I also
just kind of like this setupbetter.
I just feel like it's kind ofgiving me cozy, wozy vibes.
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But you let me know, I alsolove this picture so much.
Who made Hello Dolly's cuties?
Who made the Hello Dolly's?
Oh my gosh, they are so good.
Do you understand what I meannow when I say like, literally,
it is the best recipe to have upyour sleeve for any situation
where you need something lastminute.
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Yes, actually, okay, in thewintertime, it's not even that
last minute.
I strongly believe you have tomake them the night before, like
your event, in the sense thatthey do need that time to set at
least 12 hours.
Like the chocolate does need tobecome firm again.
When I first made these HelloDolly's and shared a video, oh
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my gosh, the internet went wild.
I swear at least 50% of thecomments were like how are you
going to wait that long?
You can't wait that long.
I just eat them right away.
Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah,blah, blah.
I feel like a lot of the peoplehadn't made them before and
thought it was wild the idea ofwaiting.
So they didn't know.
And then I felt like the otherhalf of the people were, I don't
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know, just like have adifferent taste bud than me,
because there is a bigdifference between the taste of
a melted chocolate and a solidchocolate and I do believe that
if you have it as a meltedchocolate, it's too much, it's
so much, it's too much.
Like these are pretty decadentbars in the first place, but
like when you have it melty, oh,it's too much, you can only
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have like one bite.
But if you wait until itsolidifies and you really get
the more complexity of it, it'snot just like, oh, I'm eating a
whole bunch of chocolate rightnow, blah, blah, blah, blah,
blah, blah.
It's like I'm biting in and I'mgetting the crack of the nut
and then I'm getting that bitedown into the chocolate, into
the gooey, gooey, gooey centerof coconut and then into that
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salty and delicious grahamcracker base.
Like it's a really complex,delicious flavor when you have
it after it waits.
So yes, they are great for lastminute things, but like not
last minute in the sunset.
Oh my gosh, I got invited tosomething.
I got to run out the door in anhour More so, like, oh, this
week has been so stressful, Idon't know what I'm going to
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bring to the party on Friday orSaturday that I know I have
coming up.
Oh, I'll just throw togetherHello Dolly's before bed the
night before the party.
It'll be perfect.
Like that is what it's greatfor.
And then in the winter, yes, youcan do it the day of, because,
well, at least if you're in acold climate, because you can
just throw them outside, I guessyou could put them in the
fridge.
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I never thought to do that, butI'll just throw them outside to
sit.
Hopefully no squirrels come.
They'll cover them, but letthem sit.
I'll make them the morning of,if I have an afternoon thing,
just throw them outside, letthem sit in the cold, and that
works out.
But if you can make them thenight before, it's the best.
And then you're sleeping whilethey're waiting, while they're
cooling off, if you really can'twait to dry.
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But if you haven't made themyet, obviously you've only had a
day, but like, if you have madethem, then you could probably
be eating them now.
I really hope that you do trythem out this holiday season,
because they're really deliciousand I feel like they're a
classic for a lot of people andit's so fun how many variations
there are, like even to this day.
Anytime I go to a cafe or abakery that has a Hello Dolly, I
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instantly know that theyprobably have good baked goods
because they get the vibe I like.
But then I also am always sointrigued by how they make their
Hello Dolly's different than myfamily does.
It's always fun to see what thedifferences are.
So, yay, okay, I'm so excitedfor you to be here Today.
We are going to be talking allabout the magic of Christmas.
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Oh, the magic, right.
What is magic when we reallytruly think about it?
Magic in my eyes, like I don'tknow much about actual magic in
the sense of like, doing spellsand things like that, but like,
when I think of magic and when Iuse the word magic, it's
something that I used todescribe just like this
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incredible, this incrediblething, that like is almost
unexplainable and it just brings, it baffles me and it brings my
mind to think and wonder and itsparks something in me that is
new and almost like thisunbelievable good Like I feel
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like that's what magic is to me.
And so when I think of the magicof Christmas, I think of being
a kid and how easy it is to feelthat magic, because children
are overflowing with sparkle,like they are.
They've come into this world asballs of joy, like.
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I believe that every childcomes into this world bringing
so much goodness with them, liketruly we as adults who have
become almost jaded to the worldand to newness and to exploring
new things around us, or evenexploring old things to find new
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, I believe that kids come toshow so much goodness.
They come into this world toopen our eyes in a way that we
haven't experienced yet or sincewe were younger ourselves.
They come to bring us this newview.
It's really magical.
Exactly, kids themselves aremagic, literally.
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I know there's science behindit, but, like in my mind, think
about it.
What, how does it work?
How does a kid make?
That's a conversation foranother day.
No, but actually, like it ismagic in my mind, but everything
is shiny and it's new and it'sfilled with possibility for kids
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.
So automatically, when you havean event like Christmas or
other holidays that aresurrounded around that, it is
literally creating magic.
Think of Santa.
I feel like that is magic.
That is what that is describing, just everything.
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Like one day you wake up andsomeone has started decorating
your house and the smells ofdelicious home baking and those
rich and winter filled foodslike soups and stews and roasts
and I could really go for aroast Like, oh, we have not made
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a roast yet.
It is not officially winter yet.
We will make a roast for one ofour meals Spoiler.
But anyways, I just feel likeit's one of those things where I
think that magic is the beautyof endless possibility.
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It's something that is sosparkly.
I feel like I said that kidscome with sparkle.
That's what it is to me.
It's like a sparkle, it's likea twinkle in someone's eye.
It's when things align andeverything feels like it is as
it should be or fate has come,and I just love things like that
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.
So I feel like kids.
And when you were a kid or whenI was a kid I'm always just
speaking from my own perspective, of course, and so when I say
you, I don't necessarily meanyou, but like you get what I
mean.
Anyways, when I was a kid, itwas one of those things where
that joy and that sparkle, itjust existed, that wondering
like, oh, one of the presentsarrived, or just walking into a
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festive holiday with yourfriends and family all around,
it just felt magical, likeeverything about Christmas felt
magical.
And then I felt, I feel, as wegot older and experienced more
and more, it was like, oh,everything's kind of just like
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the same thing and it's made upand it's something that it's
created, and it's the same thingover and over again and it
loses its sparkle for somereason.
Like, I feel, like that is anexperience that a lot of us have
is that Christmas loses itssparkle.
And I think I'm realizing likein life, life loses its sparkle
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when you have a perspective likethat, like life is beautiful,
every day is truly a gift, thereis something good in every day,
even on the worst day of yourlife.
There's something there that isgoodness, because that is the
balance of life, the highs andthe lows and I feel like I'm
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sorry, I felt like I was goingto sneeze there.
I feel like I have worked hardto try and ensure that I live
life where I am searching forsparkle and every day where I'm
looking for that goodness, and Iam someone who naturally does
see the silver lining, like Ifeel like that's something
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that's within me.
I've always been pretty much anoptimist in that sense and I've
been able to find the silverlining.
But there was definitely a timein my life where I felt weighed
it down, weighed it down withthe thoughts of what is the
point, or frustrated, or I getmyself frustrated, I'm in a
frustrating mood and things justdon't seem to be working out
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and it's just like and I feellike this, this red heat inside
of me that is just like boilingover with anger and
disappointment, like Idefinitely have been there and I
still will be there, times hereand there, but definitely not
as much as I used to be.
I used to.
I used to really let the weightof the world get me down, like
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one thing on top of the otherequal to, and then on top of the
other I equaled four, and Ijust like let the bricks pile up
and I let that take me down andI try hard not to do that
anymore.
It takes a lot of work andwe've spent this past three
years on this podcast together,working through those to get to
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this point.
But yeah, so I think the magicof Christmas, now that we are
adults, is something that Ibelieve is like within us.
I do think it is.
As adults, we must open ourhearts to feeling that sparkle,
though it's like we have to letourselves be kids again, let
ourselves be whimsical andwonderful and imaginative, and
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be silly and goofy and feelthings for what they are,
without adding pressure or otherpeople's perspectives or
opinions into the matter.
Like I think, sometimes when weexperience something, our first
feeling is joy a lot of thetime, but maybe it's quickly
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covered up with other thingslike the what ifs?
Or oh, these people around me,or oh, this isn't practical
because of A, b, z, y, what elseis that?
But I feel like a lot of thetime the very first surface
feeling is joy, or is happiness,or is silliness and goofiness.
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But we have been over and overand over again told in society
that it's strange or weird to beout there, like, oh, it's so,
so, so boring when we do thingslike that, when we dim ourselves
to make other people feelcomfortable.
But like, ultimately, the onlyreason we're making other people
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feel comfortable is becausethey've been dimmed by people
that have been dimmed by peoplethat have been dimmed by people
that have been dimmed, likeeveryone has been dimmed, and I
just think that we, as adultsand humans looking for joy and
happiness and the magic ofChristmas within us, need to dig
deep to allow that sparkle out.
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And the more that we sparklelike I get comments all the time
.
I think this is such a greatperspective for me to have
because I felt like this for along time, like I am weird and
goofy and silly and I want to bethat way and I don't.
I have made people feeluncomfortable with it and they
have told me and I've feltsaddened by that.
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And then I've worked throughthat and realized, like I am
good, I am worthy and who I amin my core is acceptable and I
feel great and I can redirectmyself to connect to people who
match that energy or can vibewith that energy and feel and
accept it into their lives.
But I get this comment all thetime that says, like at the
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beginning, when I first startedwatching your videos I on TikTok
I when I first started watchingyour videos, I felt you were
too much, I felt like you weretrying too hard, I felt like you
were over the top.
I get comments like this allthe time.
That's how they started it.
And then they say but I've cometo realize over this time of
watching your videos are youpopping up on my for you page
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Like this is just who you are?
And at first they're sodispleased because they think
I'm trying too hard or theythink that I'm being something
I'm not or I don't know, likeI'm too much.
And then they come to thisrealization and I remember when
I first started getting thesecomments, like it was kind of
one of those things where I waslike is this a back end to
comment?
Like are they telling me thatI'm too much?
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But now they know that that'sjust who I am.
But no, what they're trying tosay is like we.
I felt that way.
It made me feel somethinguncomfortable.
And now I realize this is whoyou are and you're just general
in general.
Generally, you're justgenerally a fun, loving out
there person who experiences joyin a way that vibrates through
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her and comes out in fun, funkyvideos that she shares on the
internet with people and canspark joy in others.
And it's like they're sayingthat at first they didn't like
me because they perceived it assomething, but now they see me
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for who I am and inside of themit's brought them some amount of
joy and understanding.
But they pushed past somethingthat was discomforting to them,
where they felt like, oh, thatgirl should get dimmed because
she's a little bit too much.
But then they I don't know ifthey continued to watch my
videos or they popped up ontheir for you page and they were
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captivated in some way and hadwatched them longer.
But then they, it turnedsomething in them.
They reached past their comfortlevel into discomfort and they
realized like, whoa, there'speople out there who, who are
just living their authenticselves and it has nothing to do
with how other people see themor have opinions on them or
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share opinions on them orperceive them like.
They just feel the way theyfeel and are honest in that.
And that brings me a sense ofcomfort.
Now, and it's one of thosethings where it's so wild, like
that is all I've ever wanted inmy life is for for people to to,
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if they don't meet you whereyou are right away, because
that's not the person who theyare like.
You're not going to be foreveryone, of course, of course,
but I do think there's peopleout there who feel this self,
this person inside of them, thatthey've dimmed and that they
keep quiet and that they feellike they need to be more calm
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and and simple, almost and and Idon't want to say boring, but I
like that.
They need to reserve who, whatthey feel, reserve their
reaction, reserve themselvesbecause they worry what others
will think, when in reality it'slike if we can live our most
authentic selves, like we willvibe with the people we need to
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vibe with, but also you willhelp others to come out of that.
Come out of that area ofthinking where I feel like we've
all been before.
As I shared last episode, Ihave felt for so long like I
have no good value to add andthat has stopped me from sharing
or opening, or being open toconnection or being the person
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to open connection.
I've always been fearful ofbeing the person to open
connection because I feel like,I felt like I would not be, I
would not have anything to offerand I would like embarrass
myself or I would feel be madeto feel dumb or I don't know.
Like you know what I mean.
Fear, it's fear, but anyways, Ijust feel like we can all help
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each other.
So, anyways, this is a side note, but it is the real meat of the
message is that the magic ofChristmas and the magic of
youthfulness and joy, the magicof joy.
When you think of Christmas,you think of joy, like joy to
the world, but anyways, that joyis within all of us, even in
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the grinchiest of us think ofthe Grinch but like it's there.
There was a time in our lifewhen we were free, when we felt
freedom to explore and to be,and I'm so grateful to be a mom
and to have a child in my life,because that is something where
I feel every day.
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I'm reminded, even on thosedays when I feel like, oh, it's
tough, it's tough, I'm, I'mfeeling judged, I'm feeling I'm
feeling like I'm overthinkinginteractions with people or
interactions with the internet,or I'm just I'm overthinking.
I can stop and I can look at Roand we can connect and she can
be that wild, fun, rambunctioushuman in my life and bring joy
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back to me.
So I'm so glad for that.
But also before her, I havealways surrounded myself with
young, with young, young energy.
I've always worked in childcare, I've always been a camp
counselor.
I've always just had youngenergy in my life, from being a
young child to growing up,because that is energy that I
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want to keep with me.
It keeps us young, like itreally does.
That's why that career path forme was so beautiful, because
every day I would leave workfeeling this, this joy, even on
the hardest days, even on thedays that were really tough and
really difficult, and it waslike I don't want to do this job
anymore.
I don't like it.
But guess what?
The only reason I never likedit was because of the connection
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with the adults.
It was never the kids.
Even the hardest day with thekids was always the most
rewarding days, sometimes withthe parents, not much, but
anyways, I just felt like thatjoy in my life is something that
I leech onto.
That young youthfulness I neverwanted to go away.
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I don't care if people think I'mjuvenile or like oh, that's
lame or whatever.
Like grow up, I am mature.
I'm mature and I have wisewomen thoughts.
Wise woman, me.
Wise woman like no, but I do.
I'm mature woman in the sensethat I am a woman and I have
lived in my life and I have feltdeeply many different things
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and I have it.
I have my experiences and I'mopen to sharing and connecting
and having those deep andserious conversations.
But at the same time, I am aperson that understands that
life is a gift and that we haveonly today, right now, this
moment guaranteed to us, and soI'm gonna try my hardest to
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allow myself to live asauthentically as I possibly can
and feel as much joy as Ipossibly can, because we know
those highs and lows.
They come like waves.
Like waves, and those lows, ohmy gosh, when they come, they
come and you can't see.
You can't see clearly whenyou're in that dark place, you
can't see.
When you're feeling so low,when it's so dark, it's so hard
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to see the light, even though Itrain myself and I work hard to
know and to remember and to putinto place, place things that
make me certain that I know thelight comes again.
It does, it always does.
Blue skies they come again, butsometimes it can feel really
really dark and it can feelreally really alone.
So when I'm not in a place likethat, I am going to embrace that
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joy like no other, that sparkle, that magic, that creativity.
It is there for me, like I willlive off of it.
I will allow it to direct mylife and the way that I am
perceived through.
That, I hope comes off as alight for other people and for
the ones who just can't deal.
You can't deal, but maybeyou'll be the person who feels
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uncomfortable at the beginning,allows yourself to enter that on
comfy space and thenunderstands and can help
yourself to feel moreauthentically true to who you
are.
So the magic of Christmas, itis within us, it is truly within
us and it is only up to us todecide what Christmas means.
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And I think that this is one ofthose things that I've seen
conversations go around like oh,it's always put on the mom to
make Christmas beautiful, likethis for kids, whatever, but
like ultimately, like sure, oneperson in your household can
create Christmas magic, but whois she creating Christmas magic
for?
She's creating it for herfamily, which in return, would
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create it for herself, I wouldthink in this scenario.
But I think when we get tobecome adults, before you're a
mom, before you have anotherfamily, whatever the situation
is, or whether you are a mom andyou feel like you're the only
person making Christmas magichappen, like you got to switch
the perspective there because,like, for yourself, okay, this,
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I just need to make a sign outhere, like I think that all
parties of the family, adultsshould make Christmas magic
happen for the children.
Like that I do believe that, ofcourse, like I'm not saying
it's just the woman or just theman or woman, man, woman, woman,
man, whatever your makeup islike I'm not saying anything
like that.
Like I think everyone should,all adults in the family, should
be equal parties, of course.
Like equal in the sense ofequity debating on, like you
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know what I mean.
If you don't know about equity,you can look it up.
But like, yes, but I do thinkthat, like, if we as adults move
into like I remember movinginto my adult life and Christmas
is becoming so different, likewhat, all of a sudden, you're
like, oh, you know whatChristmas Day actually sucks.
Hmm, does Christmas suck?
I'm confused.
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Like is Christmas really lonely?
Is Christmas feel like it's notthe same as it was when you
were a kid?
But like I do think that likethat does happen.
Like yes, of course I dobelieve that, but I do think
that, like, if you focus in andhave a mental switch there, it's
like, wait, christmas isdifferent from what it was,
because it's almost like you'retrying to recreate something
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that was, whereas we are nowmoving into something that can
be.
It's new, it's exciting, and Ithink that Christmas is made up
of sadness.
We will have an episode allabout the Christmas blues and
Christmas sadness and feelinglonely at Christmas because,
honestly, like, I kind of likethat feeling sometimes, like I'm
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someone who embraces everythingand I do love a good sad
Christmas song and I do like toget into my feels and have a
moment, but then I also do lovea Christmas joy moment too, of
course.
But yeah, I think the magic ofChristmas is within each of us
and we are in charge of ourlives.
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We're in charge of our feelingsand we can create our own magic
.
And that doesn't even have tobe by buying things or by being
extravagant or by having planswith other people, nothing like
that.
It could even just be going fora walk and noticing oh, is it
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starting to snow?
What does that smell?
Is someone having a fire intheir house?
How joyful is that?
Like, just those little thingslike that are going and walking
by a body of water, listening tothe waves, being appreciative
of the understanding and theknowledge that you have in your
life, to know that standing bythe waves is the most beautiful
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thing you possibly can ever do.
Is that?
Just me, like I love to be bybodies of water, but there is so
much simplicity.
That is magic.
That is the magic.
The magic is in those things.
It's coming home and smellingyour house.
Is someone cooking?
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It's noticing those littlethings, like that is the true
magic.
It's taking the warm laundry Metalking about laundry, I think
it's magic cuties.
You know how much I don't likeleaving laundry, but it truly is
.
It's taking the laundry out ofthe dryer and folding it and
smelling it Like it's the newpiece of laundry that you've
never smelled before.
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Embracing it Like that is a hug.
Like seriously, this issomething that's actually helped
me to like.
Like laundry is appreciatingthat little moment of laundry
where you take it out and youfold this warm sweater and you
breathe it in and you let it outand you feel joy in that and
you feel you feel blessed andyou feel grateful for this clean
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piece of clothing that you have.
Like that is literally themagic of Christmas.
And, of course, giving beingable to give a smile, going to
your community fridge Guys, ifyou don't have a community
fridge, you probably do in yourneighborhood.
You got to look it up.
It's changed my life Going toyour community fridge dropping
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stuff off, finding something tovolunteer in, gifting something
that a neighbor had oncementioned to you at one point in
the year, and remembering andgiving it to them.
Oh, a little bag of tea, alittle roll of film, some recipe
cards, nothing extravagant buttaking note of something that
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somebody had mentioned,remembering it or seeing
something in a store and beinglike I remember.
I really get stressed out aboutgift giving, scheduled gift
giving, like I'm not good atthat.
I'm really bad at scheduledgift giving.
It stresses me out.
I also don't like it.
I don't like having to get agift because you wanted to get
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me a gift or because you feellike you had to get me a gift.
I really like to be intentionalwith that stuff and I feel like
my favorite type of gift givingis when I find something and it
just reminds me and so either Ibuy it and I remember to say
for Christmas, or usually I justbuy it and give it to you right
away.
But anyways, the magic is there,it's all there, and a lot of it
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is in our mindset.
A lot of it is in ourselves.
A lot of it is the way that weapproach our days, and
especially the day of Christmas.
I feel like it comes off of alot of dopamine.
Is that what it's called Like,when you have so many highs?
Because, like, I feel like theChristmas season is like high
after high, like you're seeingfamily, you're seeing friends,
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you're experiencing the iceskating, the hot chocolate, the
anticipation, the build up toChristmas, and then Christmas
comes and it's almost like, oh,it's all done, and then we're
entering the darkness of winter,like I think that's a lot that
plays into that.
Like that will come down.
So if you can practice findingmagic in those little things
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every day, you can continue tofind that magic on Christmas day
, on the day after Boxing Day,here and into the winter,
because beauty is everywhere andmagic is all around us.
And it's not just the magic ofChristmas, it's the magic of
life, it's the magic of the gift, of giving to others Our gifts,
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our personal gifts that we'vebeen gifted with.
Like for me, I believe that Ihave the gift of sharing food.
I believe that I have the giftof sharing conversation.
I'm learning to be moreconfident in sharing that
conversation, or at least beingmore confident in sharing with
others in real life that I havegood value to add.
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So I really think the magic ofChristmas is within us and I
hope that if you feel likeyou've lost that sparkle or that
this year is feeling differentfrom years past, or that you're
trying to recreate somethingthat you used to know, that you
have the ability to touch intoyour childlike self and you also
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have that ability to lookforward and create something
beautiful for you and for yourlife, moving forward and where
you are, and that it's notalways about recreation.
I think a lot of people reallylove the idea of tradition.
So do I.
I think traditions arebeautiful.
I think they stressed me out assoon as I became a mom, because
I didn't implement anything.
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I still haven't, I don't evenknow if we have a tradition, and
I remember feeling a lot ofstress about that, but they
become natural traditions.
I don't think traditions haveto be decided upon and
thoughtfully done right at thebeginning, like I think that
traditions can become a naturalthing and it doesn't have to
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happen.
They can come in at any pointin your life and so like if this
year there's something that allof a sudden it's like, oh, we
did that last year and then weend up doing it next year.
It's like, okay, this isperhaps a tradition, or maybe
this year Rosie will mentionsomething that she would like to
create as a tradition, like Ithink that it's a thoughtful
process that the whole familycan work together, or you
yourself, if it's somethingyou're implementing.
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But all of that being said, likeI used to feel a lot of
pressure on me to be like, oh,no, I need.
In so many settings as like anew mom, like, oh, I got to do
this, I got to do this.
I didn't do anything.
I remember the second I waspregnant.
Like even through pregnancy, Iwas like, oh, I didn't take
monthly pregnancy photos, Ididn't do this, I didn't.
I didn't do a baby walk, Ididn't like.
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It's like I felt like I wasletting myself down from the get
go.
But who was myself?
That was none of my, that wasnone of my wants.
Sometimes I think we get cloudedwith, like, what the media
wants us to want or what peopleare other people's families are
doing or wanting, but like wecan decide that for ourselves
and it doesn't need to be.
It's not do it all the firstChristmas or never do it.
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You have lots of time to decidewhat you want to do, like it's
not be all or be none.
That's never how it is, it'salways.
Maybe I did it this year, maybeI didn't do it this year,
whatever, but like You've gottime.
Anyways, the magic andChristmas of Christmas is within
us.
Okay, I know, I know sometimesit can feel hard and sometimes
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it can feel overwhelming, butyou just have to start a little
bit at a time, even just puttingon Christmas music, like
sometimes I'm just like don'twant to do it, and then I put on
a Christmas song and the thingis there's so much different
Christmas music.
Like there's the sad stuff, thehappy stuff, the dance stuff,
the dub dub step.
Have you listened to thedubstep Christmas?
We used to do that with thekids all the time when I did
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before and after school.
It was so fun.
So if you haven't listened todubstep Christmas and you aren't
really vibing with Christmasmusic yet, like try that out.
Like seriously, it gets youinto some sort of move.
But I think, like, and I thinklike really filling your house
or your space with a beautifulsmell of food, like that,
personally, is just like thebiggest memory for me, like
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smells and the way that when youwalk through the door it smells
like something.
So like definitely definitelycooking something, just
something, even the HelloDolly's or that brings us to
this day, day to recipe of theday, and today we are making
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Scottish shortbread.
Now I am a shortbread.
Like I love shortbread.
Literally it's just butter andsugar.
Like I am literally obsessedwith shortbread.
It's so good, but I'm so picky,so picky about my shortbread.
Like we had the worst shortbreadever this year at the Royal
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Interfair.
It was like a free sample thatthey were handing out.
It was so, so gross.
I don't even know how theycategorized it in a shortbread
like first of all, even removethe name of shortbread.
Just as it as a cookie was notgood.
It was not good.
It literally just tasted like Idon't know.
It was way too chewy.
It tasted like so sweet, it'stoo sugary.
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No butter, I could not tastethe butter.
If I do not taste butter in theshortbread, then it's not
shortbread, but anyways, it justlike reminds me like how picky
I am when it comes to shortbread, because even last year we got
these cookie boxes that werelike everyone had donated to
different cookies and it's.
I love how everyone has adifferent recipe and everyone
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loves different stuff and what Ilike is not might not be what
you like and what you like mightnot be what I like, but like I
love a buttery good, like itmelts in your mouth, also has a
little bit of a crisp to it, butit like, it's almost like it
just like.
It's not even like it's a melt,it's like it disintegrates.
I know that's probably the samething, but I'm trying to like
you can feel it going away.
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It's like a crumble, almost.
It's like a crumble,disintegrate, melt into your
mouth, like I am so picky withmy shortbread and these boxes we
got, these cookie boxes hadlike they were, so they were all
different, like recipes thathad made cookies and then they
were all like put into thecookie boxes.
It was for a fundraiser and sothey were like donated and then
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you bought them and so lots ofpeople had made shortbread.
So there was like six differenttypes of shortbreads and that's
when you can really tell likewhen you have six all at once,
you can really tell which onesare your favorite and which ones
are you good or like.
I could live without that, andso I feel like ever since last
year, I went on this like in,like I was trying to figure out
the perfect cookie recipe andI've gone through or perfect
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shortbread recipe and I've gonethrough so many and I think I
found the perfect ones.
Not my recipe, I found itonline, but like it is literally
so good and I would love foryou to try it.
And shortbread is so easy aswell.
Like shortbread is another soeasy, it's like three
ingredients, it's super simpleand it's so delicious.
And like, honestly, it's likestress free to for cookie wise,
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because you kind of just likeyou can get as fancy as you want
with it, but literally all I dois like pat it all down and
then like chop it up or whateveryou can use around cookie
cutter or whatever you canliterally do anything.
So it's delicious, but yeah,we're having shortbread.
Oh, my gosh, I love shortbread.
So if you love shortbread, gohead over to tick tock and
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Instagram and I am going to putit on YouTube to.
I just want to make it asaccessible as possible.
So wherever you listen to arecipe like, oh, it's so good
and I sure, but anotherdelicious thing, like all
cookies are I keep saying thisbut like you can freeze them and
just like defrost them when youwant them, but so so good.
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I also have these reallydelicious cookies from the
Danish bakehouse this year thatsomeone had brought to.
I don't know what we werehosting maybe it was Trevor's
birthday, because I feel like itwas right before we went to
Italy, because I froze them and,yeah, I think it was Trevor's
birthday.
We had like a little pool partyfor Trevor and one of his
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friends, be or was it a poolparty, but I think the pool was
open.
Anyways, we had a like backyardbarbecue for Trevor and his
friend, because their birthdaysare really close to each other,
and someone had brought bakedgoods from the Danish bakehouse
and one of them were these oh mygosh, if they were these.
Like it was just like a buttercookie but it was like a twist,
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it had been piped and it was acircle and it was like it wasn't
shortbread but it was like inthat realm because it was piped,
so it was clearly like athinner batter.
It was so good and they werejust so buttery and I froze them
and because I was like I can'teven imagine not enjoying these,
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and so I froze them and thenwhen we got home from Italy, it
was like every day I was eatingone of these with my coffee in
the morning, because we had likesix of them and they were so
good and I'd love to learn howto make those.
But, on that note, I've heardthat like Danish baking, I never
even put these two thingstogether.
I've seen the Danish bakehousebut I didn't like I don't know
much about.
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What is that?
Sweden?
This is embarrassing.
No, it's not great.
You're allowed to experimentand talk out loud.
Danish, oh no, copenhagen.
Danish country, denmark, denmark, okay, why did I think Sweden?
Anyways, obviously Sweden isSwedish, duh sorry.
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Danish is Denmark and thenDutch is I want to say Amsterdam
, but that's part of a biggercountry.
If you were Dutch, where youfrom?
The Netherlands, okay, but Ifeel like it has multiple names
the Netherlands, what is anothername for the Netherlands?
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What is another name?
Amsterdam?
No, amps, what is another namefor the Netherlands?
Because Trevor is Dutch.
I feel like I should know morethings about this.
Okay, the Netherlands consistsof 12 provinces, but many
Holland.
Holland, I knew it.
I, okay, I knew the wordbecause I used to always say
hollish, but you're Dutch ifyou're from Holland.
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But people use Holland whentalking about the Netherlands,
but Netherlands is like okay,the higher, you would call it
the Netherlands, 12 provinces gotogether, but Danish is Denmark
got it and I think Copenhagenis in Denmark.
This is so random, but we'relearning.
I think they're all like closeto each other.
Anyways, apparently Copenhagenis like yes, copenhagen, but
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apparently Denmark is likeliterally the most mind blowing
place when it comes to bakedgoods and I like me to go and
try it out because, like in mymind I guess like France is like
pastries.
I've only been to France onceand I went to Paris when I was
for like literally like three orfour days, like we flew all the
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way there just for three orfour days and flew back with my
family friend who is like aroundmy mom's age and she was
visiting her niece or somefamily person who was going to
school there and she wanted acompanion.
Like she was like I don't wantto go by myself, so I was like
I'll go with you.
I was on break from school andit was so wild.
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We like Did so much stuff insuch a little amount of time and
it was great, but like the foodwas unbelievable, like every
single meal.
I could not wait for the nextmeal and every single bakery you
walked into like I guess it yes, it was patisserie, so I guess
it was more like pastries andbreads and stuff like that but
Apparently Denmark has like themost amazing baked goods and now
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I just like really need to goto Denmark, even though I just
learned what Denmark was.
Thanks for being here, andthat's what I mean.
Like a conversation like thatwhere I would speak about like
oh, danish, and then where'sthat?
And then I say Sweden, likethat would make me feel so red
in the face if I was to do thatin Like a new setting with
people that I didn't trust,where it's like why you're just,
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how do how do people learn?
You learn by havingConversations, you learn by
looking things up, you learn bydoing research.
But like if you never ask thequestion or put yourself in the
place where you get to learn,like you don't need to enter a
conversation.
Knowing everything literallywill never know everything.
I think we need to work betteron making people feel less
insecure in those situations.
So Everything's kind of playingit together in 12 days of
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Christmas.
I'm kind of happy about that.
Anyways, cuties, we are makingShortbread today.
I'm so excited.
Go check it out.
Save the recipe for if you needany recipe for Just yourself
Christmas Day, a holiday, orlike a party you're going to, or
if you're doing like a cookieexchange.
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My mom used to be, and I thinkit was either.
My mom one was in a book clubwhen I was growing up and she
was in I don't think they calleda cards club, but she also had
people where I feel like everymonth they got together and
played cards, or maybe I'mpretty sure it was once a month,
or maybe it was once a week,but it was other people's houses
and it was our house once amonth.
I'm not sure, but that's prettyfun.
Like I was actually thinkingabout that, like what's
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something I can implement in mylife that would like be kind of
an open ending.
Drop-in my house or get peopleinterested into cards could be
fun.
I never even thought about that.
They played something I have noidea how to play, like Rummy or
something like that Might notbeen Rummy, it might have been.
There's another one.
Honestly, I don't know manycard games but I can learn.
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But, oh my gosh, that would beso fun.
Maybe that's something I wantto take into the new year with
me.
I'm working on, like trying toset my what do I want to take
into the new year with me?
Maybe it's gonna be a monthlycard game when you get to have
apps and nibbly bits and playcards and catch up with the
ladies so desperate housewives,oh, I love it.
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Okay, don't let me forget that.
But anyways, there was a reasonI was telling that story so they
would play cards.
I Don't know why I was tellingthat story.
Can you remind me?
Let's do a little backtrack.
So we were talking about cards.
We were talking about book club, we were talking about making
cookies.
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Maybe I was saying you can makethe cookies for your book club.
Are your cards nice?
I really don't know.
Anyways, if you're looking for ashortbread recipe, go check it
out.
And also, if you have any likereally antique, like family
Shortbread recipes, like I,would absolutely love it,
because I am like on a mission.
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There's this one shortbreadcookie I've had by this lady who
, like I, have never crossedpaths with again and it was the
most amazing shortbread cookiein my entire life and it's like
I'm trying to recreate that andI haven't perfected it yet, like
I'm getting close but I haven'tperfected yet.
So if you have like an old orlike beloved shortbread cookie
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recipe that you would like toshare with me, I would
absolutely love that, and Ialready kind of described what
kind of shortbread cookie I love.
You know I'm passionate aboutthe foods.
These are the things I couldtalk about all day long, but
thank you so much for coming today two of 12 days of I always
want to say vlogmas, of Podmas.
I am so grateful for all of you.
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Share this episode with afriend.
Let somebody know in your lifethat we are doing our podmas,
because I would love to bringsome new cuties into the podcast
community.
You know we have so muchgrowing to do and I do believe
that there's more people in thisworld who would vibe with this
community.
I love you all so much.
I'm sending you hugs, I'msending you kisses and I'm
sending you Christmas magic.
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Wow, wow, wow.
It lives within you.
It's the holiday season, do do, do.
What a data.
But anyway, cuties, welcomeback to 12 days of PODMAS on
five years time podcast withyour host, grace.
I am so excited that you'rehere and I am so excited about
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PODMAS, and every time I want tosay PODMAS, I want to say
Vlogmas and it's just like mymind is trying to compute.
Anyways, we're here for episodetwo.
It feels so foreign to beposting and publishing on a
Thursday, but we're here, cute,and I'm so excited.
It feels like a warm hugknowing that I get to come and
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chat with you every single day.
Also, I hope you noticed that Ihave switched up my camera
angle of it.
I think it's easier.
I'm just grabbing my water.
Yes, cutie, in my mouth thereis some water, because a true
podcaster needs a little waterto get down Any of the, any of
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the throat stickers.
I just need it to say if youare a YouTube watcher, please
let me know how you're likingthis new setup.
I feel personally myself thatfor some reason I think, oh my
gosh, clearly I am losing mymarbles with the new set up.
Anyways, what I was going tosay was I actually feel like
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when I think I think this, thisdirection of the room,
especially where this chair islike this, is the way that I'm
thinking, and so it's easier forme to look into the camera when
I'm thinking, when I place itwhere I'm thinking, and I also
just kind of like this setupbetter.
I just feel like it's kind ofgiving me cozy, wozy vibes.
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But you let me know, I alsolove this picture so much.
Who made Hello Dolly's cuties?
Who made the Hello Dolly's?
Oh my gosh, they are so good.
Do you understand what I meannow when I say like, literally,
it is the best recipe to have upyour sleeve for any situation
where you need something lastminute.
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Yes, actually, okay, in thewintertime, it's not even that
last minute.
I strongly believe you have tomake them the night before, like
your event, in the sense thatthey do need that time to set at
least 12 hours.
Like the chocolate does need tobecome firm again.
When I first made these HelloDolly's and shared a video, oh
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my gosh, the internet went wild.
I swear at least 50% of thecomments were like how are you
going to wait that long?
You can't wait that long.
I just eat them right away.
Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah,blah, blah.
I feel like a lot of the peoplehadn't made them before and
thought it was wild the idea ofwaiting.
So they didn't know.
And then I felt like the otherhalf of the people were, I don't
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know, just like have adifferent taste bud than me,
because there is a bigdifference between the taste of
a melted chocolate and a solidchocolate and I do believe that
if you have it as a meltedchocolate, it's too much, it's
so much, it's too much.
Like these are pretty decadentbars in the first place, but
like when you have it melty, oh,it's too much, you can only
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have like one bite.
But if you wait until itsolidifies and you really get
the more complexity of it, it'snot just like, oh, I'm eating a
whole bunch of chocolate rightnow, blah, blah, blah, blah,
blah, blah.
It's like I'm biting in and I'mgetting the crack of the nut
and then I'm getting that bitedown into the chocolate, into
the gooey, gooey, gooey centerof coconut and then into that
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salty and delicious grahamcracker base.
Like it's a really complex,delicious flavor when you have
it after it waits.
So yes, they are great for lastminute things, but like not
last minute in the sunset.
Oh my gosh, I got invited tosomething.
I got to run out the door in anhour More so, like, oh, this
week has been so stressful, Idon't know what I'm going to
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bring to the party on Friday orSaturday that I know I have
coming up.
Oh, I'll just throw togetherHello Dolly's before bed the
night before the party.
It'll be perfect.
Like that is what it's greatfor.
And then in the winter, yes, youcan do it the day of, because,
well, at least if you're in acold climate, because you can
just throw them outside, I guessyou could put them in the
fridge.
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I never thought to do that, butI'll just throw them outside to
sit.
Hopefully no squirrels come.
They'll cover them, but letthem sit.
I'll make them the morning of,if I have an afternoon thing,
just throw them outside, letthem sit in the cold, and that
works out.
But if you can make them thenight before, it's the best.
And then you're sleeping whilethey're waiting, while they're
cooling off, if you really can'twait to dry.
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But if you haven't made themyet, obviously you've only had a
day, but like, if you have madethem, then you could probably
be eating them now.
I really hope that you do trythem out this holiday season,
because they're really deliciousand I feel like they're a
classic for a lot of people andit's so fun how many variations
there are, like even to this day.
Anytime I go to a cafe or abakery that has a Hello Dolly, I
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instantly know that theyprobably have good baked goods
because they get the vibe I like.
But then I also am always sointrigued by how they make their
Hello Dolly's different than myfamily does.
It's always fun to see what thedifferences are.
So, yay, okay, I'm so excitedfor you to be here Today.
We are going to be talking allabout the magic of Christmas.
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Oh, the magic, right.
What is magic when we reallytruly think about it?
Magic in my eyes, like I don'tknow much about actual magic in
the sense of like, doing spellsand things like that, but like,
when I think of magic and when Iuse the word magic, it's
something that I used todescribe just like this
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incredible, this incrediblething, that like is almost
unexplainable and it just brings, it baffles me and it brings my
mind to think and wonder and itsparks something in me that is
new and almost like thisunbelievable good Like I feel
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like that's what magic is to me.
And so when I think of the magicof Christmas, I think of being
a kid and how easy it is to feelthat magic, because children
are overflowing with sparkle,like they are.
They've come into this world asballs of joy, like.
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I believe that every childcomes into this world bringing
so much goodness with them, liketruly we as adults who have
become almost jaded to the worldand to newness and to exploring
new things around us, or evenexploring old things to find new
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, I believe that kids come toshow so much goodness.
They come into this world toopen our eyes in a way that we
haven't experienced yet or sincewe were younger ourselves.
They come to bring us this newview.
It's really magical.
Exactly, kids themselves aremagic, literally.
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I know there's science behindit, but, like in my mind, think
about it.
What, how does it work?
How does a kid make?
That's a conversation foranother day.
No, but actually, like it ismagic in my mind, but everything
is shiny and it's new and it'sfilled with possibility for kids
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.
So automatically, when you havean event like Christmas or
other holidays that aresurrounded around that, it is
literally creating magic.
Think of Santa.
I feel like that is magic.
That is what that is describing, just everything.
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Like one day you wake up andsomeone has started decorating
your house and the smells ofdelicious home baking and those
rich and winter filled foodslike soups and stews and roasts
and I could really go for aroast Like, oh, we have not made
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a roast yet.
It is not officially winter yet.
We will make a roast for one ofour meals Spoiler.
But anyways, I just feel likeit's one of those things where I
think that magic is the beautyof endless possibility.
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It's something that is sosparkly.
I feel like I said that kidscome with sparkle.
That's what it is to me.
It's like a sparkle, it's likea twinkle in someone's eye.
It's when things align andeverything feels like it is as
it should be or fate has come,and I just love things like that
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.
So I feel like kids.
And when you were a kid or whenI was a kid I'm always just
speaking from my own perspective, of course, and so when I say
you, I don't necessarily meanyou, but like you get what I
mean.
Anyways, when I was a kid, itwas one of those things where
that joy and that sparkle, itjust existed, that wondering
like, oh, one of the presentsarrived, or just walking into a
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festive holiday with yourfriends and family all around,
it just felt magical, likeeverything about Christmas felt
magical.
And then I felt, I feel, as wegot older and experienced more
and more, it was like, oh,everything's kind of just like
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the same thing and it's made upand it's something that it's
created, and it's the same thingover and over again and it
loses its sparkle for somereason.
Like, I feel, like that is anexperience that a lot of us have
is that Christmas loses itssparkle.
And I think I'm realizing likein life, life loses its sparkle
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when you have a perspective likethat, like life is beautiful,
every day is truly a gift, thereis something good in every day,
even on the worst day of yourlife.
There's something there that isgoodness, because that is the
balance of life, the highs andthe lows and I feel like I'm
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sorry, I felt like I was goingto sneeze there.
I feel like I have worked hardto try and ensure that I live
life where I am searching forsparkle and every day where I'm
looking for that goodness, and Iam someone who naturally does
see the silver lining, like Ifeel like that's something
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that's within me.
I've always been pretty much anoptimist in that sense and I've
been able to find the silverlining.
But there was definitely a timein my life where I felt weighed
it down, weighed it down withthe thoughts of what is the
point, or frustrated, or I getmyself frustrated, I'm in a
frustrating mood and things justdon't seem to be working out
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and it's just like and I feellike this, this red heat inside
of me that is just like boilingover with anger and
disappointment, like Idefinitely have been there and I
still will be there, times hereand there, but definitely not
as much as I used to be.
I used to.
I used to really let the weightof the world get me down, like
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one thing on top of the otherequal to, and then on top of the
other I equaled four, and Ijust like let the bricks pile up
and I let that take me down andI try hard not to do that
anymore.
It takes a lot of work andwe've spent this past three
years on this podcast together,working through those to get to
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this point.
But yeah, so I think the magicof Christmas, now that we are
adults, is something that Ibelieve is like within us.
I do think it is.
As adults, we must open ourhearts to feeling that sparkle,
though it's like we have to letourselves be kids again, let
ourselves be whimsical andwonderful and imaginative, and
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be silly and goofy and feelthings for what they are,
without adding pressure or otherpeople's perspectives or
opinions into the matter.
Like I think, sometimes when weexperience something, our first
feeling is joy a lot of thetime, but maybe it's quickly
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covered up with other thingslike the what ifs?
Or oh, these people around me,or oh, this isn't practical
because of A, b, z, y, what elseis that?
But I feel like a lot of thetime the very first surface
feeling is joy, or is happiness,or is silliness and goofiness.
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But we have been over and overand over again told in society
that it's strange or weird to beout there, like, oh, it's so,
so, so boring when we do thingslike that, when we dim ourselves
to make other people feelcomfortable.
But like, ultimately, the onlyreason we're making other people
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feel comfortable is becausethey've been dimmed by people
that have been dimmed by peoplethat have been dimmed by people
that have been dimmed, likeeveryone has been dimmed, and I
just think that we, as adultsand humans looking for joy and
happiness and the magic ofChristmas within us, need to dig
deep to allow that sparkle out.
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And the more that we sparklelike I get comments all the time
.
I think this is such a greatperspective for me to have
because I felt like this for along time, like I am weird and
goofy and silly and I want to bethat way and I don't.
I have made people feeluncomfortable with it and they
have told me and I've feltsaddened by that.
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And then I've worked throughthat and realized, like I am
good, I am worthy and who I amin my core is acceptable and I
feel great and I can redirectmyself to connect to people who
match that energy or can vibewith that energy and feel and
accept it into their lives.
But I get this comment all thetime that says, like at the
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beginning, when I first startedwatching your videos I on TikTok
I when I first started watchingyour videos, I felt you were
too much, I felt like you weretrying too hard, I felt like you
were over the top.
I get comments like this allthe time.
That's how they started it.
And then they say but I've cometo realize over this time of
watching your videos are youpopping up on my for you page
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Like this is just who you are?
And at first they're sodispleased because they think
I'm trying too hard or theythink that I'm being something
I'm not or I don't know, likeI'm too much.
And then they come to thisrealization and I remember when
I first started getting thesecomments, like it was kind of
one of those things where I waslike is this a back end to
comment?
Like are they telling me thatI'm too much?
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But now they know that that'sjust who I am.
But no, what they're trying tosay is like we.
I felt that way.
It made me feel somethinguncomfortable.
And now I realize this is whoyou are and you're just general
in general.
Generally, you're justgenerally a fun, loving out
there person who experiences joyin a way that vibrates through
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her and comes out in fun, funkyvideos that she shares on the
internet with people and canspark joy in others.
And it's like they're sayingthat at first they didn't like
me because they perceived it assomething, but now they see me
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for who I am and inside of themit's brought them some amount of
joy and understanding.
But they pushed past somethingthat was discomforting to them,
where they felt like, oh, thatgirl should get dimmed because
she's a little bit too much.
But then they I don't know ifthey continued to watch my
videos or they popped up ontheir for you page and they were
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captivated in some way and hadwatched them longer.
But then they, it turnedsomething in them.
They reached past their comfortlevel into discomfort and they
realized like, whoa, there'speople out there who, who are
just living their authenticselves and it has nothing to do
with how other people see themor have opinions on them or
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share opinions on them orperceive them like.
They just feel the way theyfeel and are honest in that.
And that brings me a sense ofcomfort.
Now, and it's one of thosethings where it's so wild, like
that is all I've ever wanted inmy life is for for people to to,
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if they don't meet you whereyou are right away, because
that's not the person who theyare like.
You're not going to be foreveryone, of course, of course,
but I do think there's peopleout there who feel this self,
this person inside of them, thatthey've dimmed and that they
keep quiet and that they feellike they need to be more calm
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and and simple, almost and and Idon't want to say boring, but I
like that.
They need to reserve who, whatthey feel, reserve their
reaction, reserve themselvesbecause they worry what others
will think, when in reality it'slike if we can live our most
authentic selves, like we willvibe with the people we need to
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vibe with, but also you willhelp others to come out of that.
Come out of that area ofthinking where I feel like we've
all been before.
As I shared last episode, Ihave felt for so long like I
have no good value to add andthat has stopped me from sharing
or opening, or being open toconnection or being the person
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to open connection.
I've always been fearful ofbeing the person to open
connection because I feel like,I felt like I would not be, I
would not have anything to offerand I would like embarrass
myself or I would feel be madeto feel dumb or I don't know.
Like you know what I mean.
Fear, it's fear, but anyways, Ijust feel like we can all help
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each other.
So, anyways, this is a side note, but it is the real meat of the
message is that the magic ofChristmas and the magic of
youthfulness and joy, the magicof joy.
When you think of Christmas,you think of joy, like joy to
the world, but anyways, that joyis within all of us, even in
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the grinchiest of us think ofthe Grinch but like it's there.
There was a time in our lifewhen we were free, when we felt
freedom to explore and to be,and I'm so grateful to be a mom
and to have a child in my life,because that is something where
I feel every day.
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I'm reminded, even on thosedays when I feel like, oh, it's
tough, it's tough, I'm, I'mfeeling judged, I'm feeling I'm
feeling like I'm overthinkinginteractions with people or
interactions with the internet,or I'm just I'm overthinking.
I can stop and I can look at Roand we can connect and she can
be that wild, fun, rambunctioushuman in my life and bring joy
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back to me.
So I'm so glad for that.
But also before her, I havealways surrounded myself with
young, with young, young energy.
I've always worked in childcare, I've always been a camp
counselor.
I've always just had youngenergy in my life, from being a
young child to growing up,because that is energy that I
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want to keep with me.
It keeps us young, like itreally does.
That's why that career path forme was so beautiful, because
every day I would leave workfeeling this, this joy, even on
the hardest days, even on thedays that were really tough and
really difficult, and it waslike I don't want to do this job
anymore.
I don't like it.
But guess what?
The only reason I never likedit was because of the connection
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with the adults.
It was never the kids.
Even the hardest day with thekids was always the most
rewarding days, sometimes withthe parents, not much, but
anyways, I just felt like thatjoy in my life is something that
I leech onto.
That young youthfulness I neverwanted to go away.
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I don't care if people think I'mjuvenile or like oh, that's
lame or whatever.
Like grow up, I am mature.
I'm mature and I have wisewomen thoughts.
Wise woman, me.
Wise woman like no, but I do.
I'm mature woman in the sensethat I am a woman and I have
lived in my life and I have feltdeeply many different things
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and I have it.
I have my experiences and I'mopen to sharing and connecting
and having those deep andserious conversations.
But at the same time, I am aperson that understands that
life is a gift and that we haveonly today, right now, this
moment guaranteed to us, and soI'm gonna try my hardest to
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allow myself to live asauthentically as I possibly can
and feel as much joy as Ipossibly can, because we know
those highs and lows.
They come like waves.
Like waves, and those lows, ohmy gosh, when they come, they
come and you can't see.
You can't see clearly whenyou're in that dark place, you
can't see.
When you're feeling so low,when it's so dark, it's so hard
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to see the light, even though Itrain myself and I work hard to
know and to remember and to putinto place, place things that
make me certain that I know thelight comes again.
It does, it always does.
Blue skies they come again, butsometimes it can feel really
really dark and it can feelreally really alone.
So when I'm not in a place likethat, I am going to embrace that
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joy like no other, that sparkle, that magic, that creativity.
It is there for me, like I willlive off of it.
I will allow it to direct mylife and the way that I am
perceived through.
That, I hope comes off as alight for other people and for
the ones who just can't deal.
You can't deal, but maybeyou'll be the person who feels
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uncomfortable at the beginning,allows yourself to enter that on
comfy space and thenunderstands and can help
yourself to feel moreauthentically true to who you
are.
So the magic of Christmas, itis within us, it is truly within
us and it is only up to us todecide what Christmas means.
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And I think that this is one ofthose things that I've seen
conversations go around like oh,it's always put on the mom to
make Christmas beautiful, likethis for kids, whatever, but
like ultimately, like sure, oneperson in your household can
create Christmas magic, but whois she creating Christmas magic
for?
She's creating it for herfamily, which in return, would
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create it for herself, I wouldthink in this scenario.
But I think when we get tobecome adults, before you're a
mom, before you have anotherfamily, whatever the situation
is, or whether you are a mom andyou feel like you're the only
person making Christmas magichappen, like you got to switch
the perspective there because,like, for yourself, okay, this,
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I just need to make a sign outhere, like I think that all
parties of the family, adultsshould make Christmas magic
happen for the children.
Like that I do believe that, ofcourse, like I'm not saying
it's just the woman or just theman or woman, man, woman, woman,
man, whatever your makeup islike I'm not saying anything
like that.
Like I think everyone should,all adults in the family, should
be equal parties, of course.
Like equal in the sense ofequity debating on, like you
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know what I mean.
If you don't know about equity,you can look it up.
But like, yes, but I do thinkthat, like, if we as adults move
into like I remember movinginto my adult life and Christmas
is becoming so different, likewhat, all of a sudden, you're
like, oh, you know whatChristmas Day actually sucks.
Hmm, does Christmas suck?
I'm confused.
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Like is Christmas really lonely?
Is Christmas feel like it's notthe same as it was when you
were a kid?
But like I do think that likethat does happen.
Like yes, of course I dobelieve that, but I do think
that, like, if you focus in andhave a mental switch there, it's
like, wait, christmas isdifferent from what it was,
because it's almost like you'retrying to recreate something
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that was, whereas we are nowmoving into something that can
be.
It's new, it's exciting, and Ithink that Christmas is made up
of sadness.
We will have an episode allabout the Christmas blues and
Christmas sadness and feelinglonely at Christmas because,
honestly, like, I kind of likethat feeling sometimes, like I'm
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someone who embraces everythingand I do love a good sad
Christmas song and I do like toget into my feels and have a
moment, but then I also do lovea Christmas joy moment too, of
course.
But yeah, I think the magic ofChristmas is within each of us
and we are in charge of ourlives.
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We're in charge of our feelingsand we can create our own magic
.
And that doesn't even have tobe by buying things or by being
extravagant or by having planswith other people, nothing like
that.
It could even just be going fora walk and noticing oh, is it
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starting to snow?
What does that smell?
Is someone having a fire intheir house?
How joyful is that?
Like, just those little thingslike that are going and walking
by a body of water, listening tothe waves, being appreciative
of the understanding and theknowledge that you have in your
life, to know that standing bythe waves is the most beautiful
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thing you possibly can ever do.
Is that?
Just me, like I love to be bybodies of water, but there is so
much simplicity.
That is magic.
That is the magic.
The magic is in those things.
It's coming home and smellingyour house.
Is someone cooking?
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It's noticing those littlethings, like that is the true
magic.
It's taking the warm laundry Metalking about laundry, I think
it's magic cuties.
You know how much I don't likeleaving laundry, but it truly is
.
It's taking the laundry out ofthe dryer and folding it and
smelling it Like it's the newpiece of laundry that you've
never smelled before.
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Embracing it Like that is a hug.
Like seriously, this issomething that's actually helped
me to like.
Like laundry is appreciatingthat little moment of laundry
where you take it out and youfold this warm sweater and you
breathe it in and you let it outand you feel joy in that and
you feel you feel blessed andyou feel grateful for this clean
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piece of clothing that you have.
Like that is literally themagic of Christmas.
And, of course, giving beingable to give a smile, going to
your community fridge Guys, ifyou don't have a community
fridge, you probably do in yourneighborhood.
You got to look it up.
It's changed my life Going toyour community fridge dropping
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stuff off, finding something tovolunteer in, gifting something
that a neighbor had oncementioned to you at one point in
the year, and remembering andgiving it to them.
Oh, a little bag of tea, alittle roll of film, some recipe
cards, nothing extravagant buttaking note of something that
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somebody had mentioned,remembering it or seeing
something in a store and beinglike I remember.
I really get stressed out aboutgift giving, scheduled gift
giving, like I'm not good atthat.
I'm really bad at scheduledgift giving.
It stresses me out.
I also don't like it.
I don't like having to get agift because you wanted to get
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me a gift or because you feellike you had to get me a gift.
I really like to be intentionalwith that stuff and I feel like
my favorite type of gift givingis when I find something and it
just reminds me and so either Ibuy it and I remember to say
for Christmas, or usually I justbuy it and give it to you right
away.
But anyways, the magic is there,it's all there, and a lot of it
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is in our mindset.
A lot of it is in ourselves.
A lot of it is the way that weapproach our days, and
especially the day of Christmas.
I feel like it comes off of alot of dopamine.
Is that what it's called Like,when you have so many highs?
Because, like, I feel like theChristmas season is like high
after high, like you're seeingfamily, you're seeing friends,
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you're experiencing the iceskating, the hot chocolate, the
anticipation, the build up toChristmas, and then Christmas
comes and it's almost like, oh,it's all done, and then we're
entering the darkness of winter,like I think that's a lot that
plays into that.
Like that will come down.
So if you can practice findingmagic in those little things
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every day, you can continue tofind that magic on Christmas day
, on the day after Boxing Day,here and into the winter,
because beauty is everywhere andmagic is all around us.
And it's not just the magic ofChristmas, it's the magic of
life, it's the magic of the gift, of giving to others Our gifts,
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our personal gifts that we'vebeen gifted with.
Like for me, I believe that Ihave the gift of sharing food.
I believe that I have the giftof sharing conversation.
I'm learning to be moreconfident in sharing that
conversation, or at least beingmore confident in sharing with
others in real life that I havegood value to add.
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So I really think the magic ofChristmas is within us and I
hope that if you feel likeyou've lost that sparkle or that
this year is feeling differentfrom years past, or that you're
trying to recreate somethingthat you used to know, that you
have the ability to touch intoyour childlike self and you also
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have that ability to lookforward and create something
beautiful for you and for yourlife, moving forward and where
you are, and that it's notalways about recreation.
I think a lot of people reallylove the idea of tradition.
So do I.
I think traditions arebeautiful.
I think they stressed me out assoon as I became a mom, because
I didn't implement anything.
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I still haven't, I don't evenknow if we have a tradition, and
I remember feeling a lot ofstress about that, but they
become natural traditions.
I don't think traditions haveto be decided upon and
thoughtfully done right at thebeginning, like I think that
traditions can become a naturalthing and it doesn't have to
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happen.
They can come in at any pointin your life and so like if this
year there's something that allof a sudden it's like, oh, we
did that last year and then weend up doing it next year.
It's like, okay, this isperhaps a tradition, or maybe
this year Rosie will mentionsomething that she would like to
create as a tradition, like Ithink that it's a thoughtful
process that the whole familycan work together, or you
yourself, if it's somethingyou're implementing.
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But all of that being said, likeI used to feel a lot of
pressure on me to be like, oh,no, I need.
In so many settings as like anew mom, like, oh, I got to do
this, I got to do this.
I didn't do anything.
I remember the second I waspregnant.
Like even through pregnancy, Iwas like, oh, I didn't take
monthly pregnancy photos, Ididn't do this, I didn't.
I didn't do a baby walk, Ididn't like.
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It's like I felt like I wasletting myself down from the get
go.
But who was myself?
That was none of my, that wasnone of my wants.
Sometimes I think we get cloudedwith, like, what the media
wants us to want or what peopleare other people's families are
doing or wanting, but like wecan decide that for ourselves
and it doesn't need to be.
It's not do it all the firstChristmas or never do it.
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You have lots of time to decidewhat you want to do, like it's
not be all or be none.
That's never how it is, it'salways.
Maybe I did it this year, maybeI didn't do it this year,
whatever, but like You've gottime.
Anyways, the magic andChristmas of Christmas is within
us.
Okay, I know, I know sometimesit can feel hard and sometimes
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it can feel overwhelming, butyou just have to start a little
bit at a time, even just puttingon Christmas music, like
sometimes I'm just like don'twant to do it, and then I put on
a Christmas song and the thingis there's so much different
Christmas music.
Like there's the sad stuff, thehappy stuff, the dance stuff,
the dub dub step.
Have you listened to thedubstep Christmas?
We used to do that with thekids all the time when I did
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before and after school.
It was so fun.
So if you haven't listened todubstep Christmas and you aren't
really vibing with Christmasmusic yet, like try that out.
Like seriously, it gets youinto some sort of move.
But I think, like, and I thinklike really filling your house
or your space with a beautifulsmell of food, like that,
personally, is just like thebiggest memory for me, like
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smells and the way that when youwalk through the door it smells
like something.
So like definitely definitelycooking something, just
something, even the HelloDolly's or that brings us to
this day, day to recipe of theday, and today we are making
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Scottish shortbread.
Now I am a shortbread.
Like I love shortbread.
Literally it's just butter andsugar.
Like I am literally obsessedwith shortbread.
It's so good, but I'm so picky,so picky about my shortbread.
Like we had the worst shortbreadever this year at the Royal
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Interfair.
It was like a free sample thatthey were handing out.
It was so, so gross.
I don't even know how theycategorized it in a shortbread
like first of all, even removethe name of shortbread.
Just as it as a cookie was notgood.
It was not good.
It literally just tasted like Idon't know.
It was way too chewy.
It tasted like so sweet, it'stoo sugary.
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No butter, I could not tastethe butter.
If I do not taste butter in theshortbread, then it's not
shortbread, but anyways, it justlike reminds me like how picky
I am when it comes to shortbread, because even last year we got
these cookie boxes that werelike everyone had donated to
different cookies and it's.
I love how everyone has adifferent recipe and everyone
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loves different stuff and what Ilike is not might not be what
you like and what you like mightnot be what I like, but like I
love a buttery good, like itmelts in your mouth, also has a
little bit of a crisp to it, butit like, it's almost like it
just like.
It's not even like it's a melt,it's like it disintegrates.
I know that's probably the samething, but I'm trying to like
you can feel it going away.
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It's like a crumble, almost.
It's like a crumble,disintegrate, melt into your
mouth, like I am so picky withmy shortbread and these boxes we
got, these cookie boxes hadlike they were, so they were all
different, like recipes thathad made cookies and then they
were all like put into thecookie boxes.
It was for a fundraiser and sothey were like donated and then
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you bought them and so lots ofpeople had made shortbread.
So there was like six differenttypes of shortbreads and that's
when you can really tell likewhen you have six all at once,
you can really tell which onesare your favorite and which ones
are you good or like.
I could live without that, andso I feel like ever since last
year, I went on this like in,like I was trying to figure out
the perfect cookie recipe andI've gone through or perfect
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shortbread recipe and I've gonethrough so many and I think I
found the perfect ones.
Not my recipe, I found itonline, but like it is literally
so good and I would love foryou to try it.
And shortbread is so easy aswell.
Like shortbread is another soeasy, it's like three
ingredients, it's super simpleand it's so delicious.
And like, honestly, it's likestress free to for cookie wise,
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because you kind of just likeyou can get as fancy as you want
with it, but literally all I dois like pat it all down and
then like chop it up or whateveryou can use around cookie
cutter or whatever you canliterally do anything.
So it's delicious, but yeah,we're having shortbread.
Oh, my gosh, I love shortbread.
So if you love shortbread, gohead over to tick tock and
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Instagram and I am going to putit on YouTube to.
I just want to make it asaccessible as possible.
So wherever you listen to arecipe like, oh, it's so good
and I sure, but anotherdelicious thing, like all
cookies are I keep saying thisbut like you can freeze them and
just like defrost them when youwant them, but so so good.
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I also have these reallydelicious cookies from the
Danish bakehouse this year thatsomeone had brought to.
I don't know what we werehosting maybe it was Trevor's
birthday, because I feel like itwas right before we went to
Italy, because I froze them and,yeah, I think it was Trevor's
birthday.
We had like a little pool partyfor Trevor and one of his
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friends, be or was it a poolparty, but I think the pool was
open.
Anyways, we had a like backyardbarbecue for Trevor and his
friend, because their birthdaysare really close to each other,
and someone had brought bakedgoods from the Danish bakehouse
and one of them were these oh mygosh, if they were these.
Like it was just like a buttercookie but it was like a twist,
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it had been piped and it was acircle and it was like it wasn't
shortbread but it was like inthat realm because it was piped,
so it was clearly like athinner batter.
It was so good and they werejust so buttery and I froze them
and because I was like I can'teven imagine not enjoying these,
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and so I froze them and thenwhen we got home from Italy, it
was like every day I was eatingone of these with my coffee in
the morning, because we had likesix of them and they were so
good and I'd love to learn howto make those.
But, on that note, I've heardthat like Danish baking, I never
even put these two thingstogether.
I've seen the Danish bakehousebut I didn't like I don't know
much about.
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What is that?
Sweden?
This is embarrassing.
No, it's not great.
You're allowed to experimentand talk out loud.
Danish, oh no, copenhagen.
Danish country, denmark, denmark, okay, why did I think Sweden?
Anyways, obviously Sweden isSwedish, duh sorry.
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Danish is Denmark and thenDutch is I want to say Amsterdam
, but that's part of a biggercountry.
If you were Dutch, where youfrom?
The Netherlands, okay, but Ifeel like it has multiple names
the Netherlands, what is anothername for the Netherlands?
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What is another name?
Amsterdam?
No, amps, what is another namefor the Netherlands?
Because Trevor is Dutch.
I feel like I should know morethings about this.
Okay, the Netherlands consistsof 12 provinces, but many
Holland.
Holland, I knew it.
I, okay, I knew the wordbecause I used to always say
hollish, but you're Dutch ifyou're from Holland.
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But people use Holland whentalking about the Netherlands,
but Netherlands is like okay,the higher, you would call it
the Netherlands, 12 provinces gotogether, but Danish is Denmark
got it and I think Copenhagenis in Denmark.
This is so random, but we'relearning.
I think they're all like closeto each other.
Anyways, apparently Copenhagenis like yes, copenhagen, but
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apparently Denmark is likeliterally the most mind blowing
place when it comes to bakedgoods and I like me to go and
try it out because, like in mymind I guess like France is like
pastries.
I've only been to France onceand I went to Paris when I was
for like literally like three orfour days, like we flew all the
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way there just for three orfour days and flew back with my
family friend who is like aroundmy mom's age and she was
visiting her niece or somefamily person who was going to
school there and she wanted acompanion.
Like she was like I don't wantto go by myself, so I was like
I'll go with you.
I was on break from school andit was so wild.
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We like Did so much stuff insuch a little amount of time and
it was great, but like the foodwas unbelievable, like every
single meal.
I could not wait for the nextmeal and every single bakery you
walked into like I guess it yes, it was patisserie, so I guess
it was more like pastries andbreads and stuff like that but
Apparently Denmark has like themost amazing baked goods and now
(41:43):
I just like really need to goto Denmark, even though I just
learned what Denmark was.
Thanks for being here, andthat's what I mean.
Like a conversation like thatwhere I would speak about like
oh, danish, and then where'sthat?
And then I say Sweden, likethat would make me feel so red
in the face if I was to do thatin Like a new setting with
people that I didn't trust,where it's like why you're just,
(42:05):
how do how do people learn?
You learn by havingConversations, you learn by
looking things up, you learn bydoing research.
But like if you never ask thequestion or put yourself in the
place where you get to learn,like you don't need to enter a
conversation.
Knowing everything literallywill never know everything.
I think we need to work betteron making people feel less
insecure in those situations.
So Everything's kind of playingit together in 12 days of
(42:27):
Christmas.
I'm kind of happy about that.
Anyways, cuties, we are makingShortbread today.
I'm so excited.
Go check it out.
Save the recipe for if you needany recipe for Just yourself
Christmas Day, a holiday, orlike a party you're going to, or
if you're doing like a cookieexchange.
(42:47):
My mom used to be, and I thinkit was either.
My mom one was in a book clubwhen I was growing up and she
was in I don't think they calleda cards club, but she also had
people where I feel like everymonth they got together and
played cards, or maybe I'mpretty sure it was once a month,
or maybe it was once a week,but it was other people's houses
and it was our house once amonth.
I'm not sure, but that's prettyfun.
Like I was actually thinkingabout that, like what's
(43:09):
something I can implement in mylife that would like be kind of
an open ending.
Drop-in my house or get peopleinterested into cards could be
fun.
I never even thought about that.
They played something I have noidea how to play, like Rummy or
something like that Might notbeen Rummy, it might have been.
There's another one.
Honestly, I don't know manycard games but I can learn.
(43:30):
But, oh my gosh, that would beso fun.
Maybe that's something I wantto take into the new year with
me.
I'm working on, like trying toset my what do I want to take
into the new year with me?
Maybe it's gonna be a monthlycard game when you get to have
apps and nibbly bits and playcards and catch up with the
ladies so desperate housewives,oh, I love it.
(43:50):
Okay, don't let me forget that.
But anyways, there was a reasonI was telling that story so they
would play cards.
I Don't know why I was tellingthat story.
Can you remind me?
Let's do a little backtrack.
So we were talking about cards.
We were talking about book club, we were talking about making
cookies.
(44:10):
Maybe I was saying you can makethe cookies for your book club.
Are your cards nice?
I really don't know.
Anyways, if you're looking for ashortbread recipe, go check it
out.
And also, if you have any likereally antique, like family
Shortbread recipes, like I,would absolutely love it,
because I am like on a mission.
(44:31):
There's this one shortbreadcookie I've had by this lady who
, like I, have never crossedpaths with again and it was the
most amazing shortbread cookiein my entire life and it's like
I'm trying to recreate that andI haven't perfected it yet, like
I'm getting close but I haven'tperfected yet.
So if you have like an old orlike beloved shortbread cookie
(44:51):
recipe that you would like toshare with me, I would
absolutely love that, and Ialready kind of described what
kind of shortbread cookie I love.
You know I'm passionate aboutthe foods.
These are the things I couldtalk about all day long, but
thank you so much for coming today two of 12 days of I always
want to say vlogmas, of Podmas.
I am so grateful for all of you.
(45:13):
Share this episode with afriend.
Let somebody know in your lifethat we are doing our podmas,
because I would love to bringsome new cuties into the podcast
community.
You know we have so muchgrowing to do and I do believe
that there's more people in thisworld who would vibe with this
community.
I love you all so much.
I'm sending you hugs, I'msending you kisses and I'm
sending you Christmas magic.
(45:34):
Wow, wow, wow.
It lives within you.
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