September 26, 2025 • 32 mins
hAwakening to a new level of consciousness comes with an unexpected challenge - what about the people we love who aren't awakening with us? This episode explores the complex emotions that arise when we begin to see through matrix programming while watching family and friends remain in old patterns.
The journey begins with recognizing that awakening is a one-way path. Once you've "taken the red pill," there's no returning to your former state of awareness. This irreversible expansion often creates a painful divide between our new understanding and the perspectives of those we care about most. We naturally want to pull them along with us, to show them what we've seen - but that approach rarely works and often backfires.
Theresa Marie shares personal experiences of how this manifested in her own family relationships, particularly during what she calls her "Alex Jones prepper stage" when she alienated loved ones by trying to force her awakening on them. She explores how guilt becomes a toxic companion on the spiritual path - guilt about moving forward when others aren't ready, guilt about past parenting choices, and even guilt about letting others experience the consequences of their own decisions.
The episode offers practical wisdom for navigating these challenges, including breathing techniques to move through knee-jerk reactions and ways to honor others' journeys without sacrificing your own growth. Theresa emphasizes that true sovereignty awaits on the other side of guilt, shame, and comparison - but getting there requires consistent inner work rather than focusing on changing others.
As you awaken, relationships naturally shift. Some people will exit your life temporarily or permanently while others will enter. This reshuffling isn't something to resist but to understand as part of the process. By focusing on becoming your authentic self rather than trying to control others' journeys, you create space for divine timing to work in everyone's life - including your own.
What parts of your awakening journey have been most challenging? Are you struggling with guilt about moving forward while loved ones remain in old patterns? Share your experience in the comments below and join our community of awakening souls supporting each other through transformation.
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SPEAKER_00 (00:00):
If we are finally learning that we have the right
to be ourselves, then we mustalso learn to honor that right
in others.
And that is a quote by TeresaMarie, an ambassador of God's
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Chi.
And I welcome you back to Freeto Just Be, the podcast
attempting to empower humanityto courageously step out of old
patterns and matrix programmingand leave behind childhood
traumas and false beliefs andgive a big old hug to not only
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new ways of being, but to usherin a brand new earth.
And I'm not talking a newplanet, I'm talking a new
dimension, a new vibrationalgrid.
And I hope this finds you in thegreatest health with vibrant
energy today because you havechosen, along with myself, to
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accept the full responsibilityfor our body, mind, and soul.
Here on Free to Just Be, we willtry to inspire each other to
truly be who we came here to be,authentic, free, sovereign, and
fully aligned with our highestpotentials.
So join me on thistransformative journey to
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rewrite our narratives and livelives of purpose and passion.
And right here on the front end,if I am beginning to resonate
with you, if you are on thisawakening journey along with
everyone else on the planet, andyou appreciate being inspired
and encouraged through it,please, can you please hit the
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like button and let's begin torise this information up the
algorithm staircase so thatother people can be inspired and
helped as well.
And I welcome you on thisfantastical Friday, the start of
the weekend, and um I want us toponder what happens when guilt
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drops so that we can hold honor.
Those are the thoughts in myhead today, because they have
been in my heart.
And I I want to address part ofthis incredible energetic shift
that is happening.
We are all shifting and it'sdifferent for everybody.
Um, there are commondenominators, of course.
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There are a lot of physicalsymptoms that many of us are uh
continually feeling, um, notsimultaneously, but sometimes
they are simultaneously.
And we have to learn to leaveall of our expectations at the
door.
When you take that red pill andit begins to dissolve, and you
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recognize there is no way youcan shut your eyes to what we're
in.
And we have to lose theillusions, lose all of the
programming.
And and when when we're thereand you step across that
threshold of awakening and theand the journey of awakening
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begins, the first thing that ishard to cope with is that there
is no turning back, you cannotjump back into that proverbial
box, and the more you try, themore you struggle.
That that is the first lessonbecause when you get that first
surge of OMG, what have Iallowed in my life?
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You do.
You want to run tail and youwant to go in a in a little den
and you want to curl up in aball and forget you ever saw it,
but I'm sorry, Pandora has comeout of the box, and that is
actually the best thing thatever happened to you and I is
the taking of that red pill.
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And at first, you know, some ofus really needed that spoonful
of sugar to help the medicine godown, and that's what podcasts
like Free to Just Be andEveryday Lives and Lori Ladd and
and so many others are here forum to help us kind of sugarcoat,
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well, not really sugarcoat, butmake it easier to get through,
especially those first severalmonths and and years, dare I
say, although everything hasaccelerated.
So those of you that are juststepping into this awakening,
think about how blessed you are,because some of us who began
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this 20 plus years ago are umjust now really recognizing a
lot of people that almostinstantaneously are getting
things.
Take my husband, for example.
Uh suddenly, just like Ipredicted, I knew that I knew
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that he had all this knowingnessinside, and when he finally
awakened to it, before long he'dbe football fields ahead of me
spiritually and energetically,and it is becoming more and more
true.
And this is part of what we haveto face.
And so I want to address firstoff the guilt.
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The guilt that comes from beingon an awakening journey when
many of those you love don'teven know what that is yet.
And we feel guilty about that,and we want to, you know, tell
others about it, and we want todo it for them, and and the
truth is it's an inside job, andthe only ones we can help are
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ourselves.
And what Shannon Alder said isvery true.
As you awaken, you become verydifferent.
And she said that beingdifferent becomes a revolving
door in your life where securepeople enter and the insecure
exit.
Sometimes it's permanent andsometimes it's just for a
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season.
And that is one of the biggestpieces of guilt that we carry.
Oh my gosh, I I have I'vereached this understanding.
I I now understand why I alwayswas XYZ, and and now I
understand that the more I letgo of XYZ, I can be who I was
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always meant to be.
And yet there are people we lovethat are still in the
cul-de-sac, in the loop de loop,in going around the same
mountain expecting a differentresult.
And we were all there before,and we want to go in and snatch
their hand and pull them out,but that doesn't work.
And so the first guilt that youhave to let go of is feeling
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guilty that you have risen andthose that you love may not have
risen with you.
And you have to recognize thatyou are the one that has to go
forward, and it's kind of likewhat God said to Lot's wife,
don't look back, or you'll beturned into a pillar of salt.
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And in our case, in thisawakening journey, we don't want
to digress, we want to goforward.
And it's not, again, Ireiterate, it's not um an effort
towards perfection, it's justdaily progress.
Brianne Brown, who, you know,her dark night of the soul put
her in um an insane asylum as aninsane asylum.
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And it was there that sherecognized all the programs and
began to what?
Work herself out, not only ofthe insane asylum, but towards
helping millions of people onthe planet recognize likewise.
And she said that authenticityis the daily practice of letting
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go of who we think we'resupposed to be.
Well, as a dad or a mom, I'msupposed to guide and teach my
children.
Well, if your children arealready grown-ass adults, that
is no longer your job.
And unfortunately, you have tojust go through the experience
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of seeing if the way you raisedyour children was correct and
accurate and what they held onto and what they said, nope,
that's not for me.
Now, for me, as a believer inJesus Christ and a lover of God,
my creator and my divine mother,I stand on the scripture that
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tells me that if you train achild up in the way he should
go, and to me, it is we gotowards God and we grow in God.
And I believe that I laid thefoundation of that in my seven
children and as much as I couldin my grandbabies that I had
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interaction with.
And the rest is up to God, and Istand on that scripture that
when they are old they willreturn to it.
Now, are they there yet?
That's really up to them.
It's accurately none of mybusiness, and I have held on to
the guilt of that for almost mywhole life, and I've shared with
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you many times that one of thethings that really was
liberating to me was to let goof the guilt and shame of my
parenting.
I don't know if you have guiltand shame from your parenting.
What guilt and shame do youhave?
Only you know.
So, in order to embrace who weare, so Brenn Brown said
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authenticity is the dailypractice of letting go of who we
think we're supposed to be inorder to embrace who we are.
That is the awakening journey.
We are going towards the light,towards Christ consciousness,
towards who we always werebefore we came into this tent,
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this temple, this avatar, thisbody that houses our pure energy
of love and light.
So part of letting go of thatguilt is remembering,
remembering that we were them,remembering that we too at one
point in our life were socovered up and didn't realize
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that we were lied to.
We too had a pre-red pill seasonin our life.
And the truth is we have to berespectful toward others, and it
starts by remembering andrecognizing and applauding
ourselves for opening our eyesand recognizing that we've been
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lying to.
So first you have respect foryourself, and you have to
remember that they are not you,and they are not exactly where
you are, and you are not exactlywhere they are, and you might
not be where somebody twofootball fields down the pike
are either.
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So part of learning how to holdhonor for others is dropping the
guilt that the matrixprogramming, our false beliefs,
and our childhood traumacontinually wants us to hold on
to.
And it's so funny, we you know,we as human beings are
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constantly fighting to do what?
To hold on, and then we'refighting to let go.
And the truth is we don't haveto fight.
You know, um Emmett Ray said thepath of nonviolence is the path
of respect, and it is respecttowards every being.
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It is the path of awakening, theconsciousness of every being.
Now I want to go back to thatword that he used, nonviolence.
The path of nonviolence.
Now, we often equate violencewith physical violence, but I
want you to think about socialmedia for a minute and think
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about the violence that we slameach other with on a daily basis
on social media.
The judgments, the comparisons,the uh the tweets, the trolls,
the badgering, the um horriblecomments of people who would
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never have the courage to lookyou eye to eye.
We are very violent in oursociety today, especially from
an armchair armed with ourphones and our laptops and our
computers.
And we have to learn to let thatgo.
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And if that is something thatyou did, then you have to deal
with the guilt thereof thatcomes with that, because we are
not going to unite and becomepart of a Christ-conscious earth
if that's what we continue todo.
So the other aspect of guilt andshame and fear and all of those
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quote unquote symptoms of beingor attributes of being in a
controlled matrix system, orbeing controlled by our
childhood traumas or falsebeliefs that didn't come from
our true authentic self, butcame from those around us that
plug them in to our nervoussystem and planted them in our
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cells, and they have beencycling through our being ever
since they were planted beforewe were even seven years old.
And it is up to us to discoverthe ways that are going to allow
them to come to the surface andthen discover ways to navigate
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through that because we have nochoice now.
The light is coming so rapid andso fast and so bright that every
day, whatever it is, you don'twant to look at.
I want you to stop and pause andthink for a minute, my dear dear
brothers and sisters inHumanityville.
What are the things in your liferight now that annoy the crap
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out of you?
Write it down.
What are the things that happenin your life on the daily
relationally that causeknee-jerk reactions?
Write them down.
What situations keep coming ininto your life over and over and
over again?
And you think to yourself, whydoes this keep happening?
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I feel like I keep doing thesame thing over and over again.
Hello, humanity, those are yourclues that you are having
reflected back to you over andover again the very aspects of
your life that the Holy Spiritof God, that possibly your
divine mother through nature,through the atmosphere, through
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songs, however God can reachyou, He will use the Divine
Mother, the universe, everythingaround you that He created to
get your attention.
So as this is happening, wefight to hold on to what we've
known all our lives.
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We do it this way.
My dad was always frugal, I'mgonna be frugal.
Don't throw that paper towelaway.
Put the foil in the drawer.
Do you understand what I'msaying?
And maybe your true andauthentic self knows that those
items would be best recycled,and then you find other ways to
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incorporate into your lifethings that you want to use.
Instead of holding on, we fightto hold on to the old, and then
when we finally recognize thatwe have to let go, we fight to
let go, and it's a dance.
A little bit forward, threesteps back.
So if we have the right to beourselves, now that's the other
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aspect that happens in thisawakening journey.
First, we want to throw it outto everybody else, and then we
want to, you know, back up ourrude, violent reactions to
people by saying, I'm I'mallowed to be who I am.
You can't stop me for being I'mjust being authentic.
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Well, if being authentic becomesan act of verbal violence
against somebody, then maybe youneed to pull your authenticity
back a little bit until youlearn how to utilize it.
What do you say?
Because if we're guilting orshaming or instilling fear in
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another, we are denyingourselves of our true selves
because on the other side of allthat ugly qualities of life and
attributes of life and matrixattributes and symptoms is the
true self.
So if we are coming out thegates and then we're feeling bad
that others aren't coming outthe gates with us, and then
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we're pounding people withviolence in our reactions, in
our words, in our post, and inour, well, you know, you should
be doing it this way.
We need to put our shoulds away.
We have no business withshoulds.
Take it from somebody thatalienated almost everybody in
her family.
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When I went through, you know,what really it was the crowning
um uh the the straw that brokethe camel's back for most people
in my family, my children andand their spouses, was when I
went through my Alex Jones umprepper stage of nine or ten
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years, when I was down therabbit hole and making myself
sick with fear and worry and andI need to prepare, I need to
prepare, and and expectations ofdoomsday coming, and I was
shoving it down people'sthroats, and they suddenly began
saying things like, you know,this is what you always do.
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You something lights you up, andthen you want everybody to do
it.
Well, mom, we don't want to dothat anymore.
And that's a hard smack in theface, right?
But they were right.
We as a collective have nobusiness doing anything other
than honoring and respectingeach other wherever we are in
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this awakening process.
And if we are pushing all ofthat matrix crap back out from
us, trying to get rid of us butby rid of it by pushing it
towards others, we are part ofthe problem still.
And guess what?
We are not a threat to thematrix.
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The matrix is cheering us onsaying, yes, yes, give them more
guilt, give them more fear, tellthem that they're bad, compare
yourself with them.
And they laugh and know you'renot a threat to their system at
all.
But if we recognize that ourtrue sovereignty and our true
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freedom and our true self awaitson the other side of the guilt
and the shame and the fear andthe comparison, and we finally
recognize that that's where weneed to stay.
We need to work on ourselves andforget about everybody else.
And this enters the other stageof guilt.
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You know, going back to whatShannon Alder says, what happens
when we feel guilty becausepeople are suffering the
consequences of their ownactions?
This has cropped up in my lifein the last couple of months.
Cause and effect.
I mentioned earlier in the weekin an earlier episode that there
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are people in my life that tookthe vaccination in 2001.
Some of the people I know thatdid that are not on the planet
anymore.
Some of them are beginning toexperience serious health
ramifications and don'trecognize that it's part of that
poison that they put in theirbody.
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Is it my job to point that outto them?
No, it is not.
And there is guilt from a lot ofus that have to step back and
especially parents.
You feel guilty for just lettingyour kids be.
Maybe you were at the stagewhere my kids were.
Their awakening has begun, andthey're like, we're stepping
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back.
We we need to step away from ourtoxic family for a while.
And don't think I'm alone inthis, folks.
Right now, with everythingshifting so much, dare I say
there's not one single toxicfamily on the planet right now.
Because everything is shifting.
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All old ways of being are beingcrushed and deleted and
demolished, and new, new, new iscoming in, and it's freaking
everybody out, and it's causingall of us to have those
knee-jeric reactions.
For example, I'll give youanother uh uh example uh in real
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time of what this false guiltlooks like.
Um there's somebody in mycommunity who is very
like-minded like me, and thething that this individual likes
to do is make homeopathicremedies, elderberry syrup and
natural soaps and and all ofthose things.
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And I have watched her journey,and she opened a store, and she
just announced this week thatshe's left her matrix job for
good in order to finally befull-time at what she wants to
do.
And what was Teresa Marie?
Oh, I am an ambassador of chi.
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Oh, am I?
Well, my knee-jerk reaction.
Now, granted, it wasn't aroundanybody, nobody knows, but I am
telling on myself right nowbecause I am so proud of my
community uh member, Nikki, whohas grown so much and has got to
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the place where she is fullyloose and making an income in
her vocation, what she's calledhere to do.
And my first reaction wascompletely, I completely turned
green.
And I I wanted to look at and Ilooked at her sites and and this
is this is how I was ininternally this, can you feel
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it?
This is how I was feeling.
Well, good for her, you know.
I'm so happy for her, you know,great, you know.
When's it my turn?
Ooh, well, what is that?
What kind of guilt is that?
Guilt is nothing more than beingangry at yourself, really.
And you turning it in.
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And that's what I was doing.
Well, I haven't gone as fast asas she did, but you know what?
I am not on her path.
I am on my own individual path,and I have done things that she
hasn't done.
And we should be grateful.
We should be giving glory to Godfor all of it.
And I do.
I'm so proud of Nikki Quinlanbecause she has arrived into her
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vocation, and I wish her nothingbut good.
But my knee-jerk reaction wasjealousy and and inward anger
pointing my fingers back at mebecause I haven't jumped ahead
into the things that I know thatare already still latent in me.
And it's coming, but it's comingin God's time and when I feel
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like He's telling me to pull thetrigger.
So we have to let go of thecomparisons and all of that and
remind ourselves that when welet go, something magical
happens, and we give God room tomove and work in our lives, and
by the way, in the lives ofothers.
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When we stop thinking that wehave to be somebody else's Holy
Spirit, then the Holy Spirit canwork in their lives.
So as we are in this incredibleprocess of massive change, and
we realize that our true selfawaits on the other side of all
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that we have to let go of.
Maybe this weekend we can ponderjust learning how to breathe
ourselves through the letting goprocess and learning, you know,
maybe on our days off, we canlearn and just learn to sit and
just breathe through a knee-jerkreaction or two.
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Because that's what I did when Ireacted to my dear friend's
announcement.
And within a couple of minutes,I was praising God for her
progress.
But I had to breathe myselfthrough.
What was I doing?
I was recalling that emotions,especially volatile emotions
that rise up real quick, likeboom, there it is, thoughts,
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attitudes are not who I am.
I am love and light, and all ofthat latter mess, the anger, the
comparison, the jealousy, thoseare not me, and they're just
energy.
And the energy just needs tosimply move in and through our
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body.
And when we learn how tobreathe, when those moments come
up, take a big breath throughyour nose and let it out your
mouth.
And when you begin to practicethat, you notice how your body
just relaxes, and that allowsthe energy to just go through
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your body.
Some things that you may haveheld on to all your life may
take five, ten minutes, a coupleof hours.
Some of them are so stuck, itmay take a couple of days, it
may take rounds and rounds androunds of learning how to
breathe, and as it comes up, letit go.
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And as it comes up, let it go.
And as we learn how to do that,then we can recognize as we see
somebody having a knee-jerkreaction towards us, we can have
instant recall and give thehonor and respect to that person
and back up, send love and lightout to them, and quell whatever
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the um contrast, the the um themeeting of the mind, so to
speak, the clash of the titans,by simply saying, Wow, I really
do appreciate you sharing theway you see things, and I'm
gonna think about that.
And then you stop speaking.
And the more we learn how to dothese things, the more our true
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self will arise, and the easierit will be to let go instead of
holding on to the things that donot serve us.
So in closing, as the weekendcomes upon us, recognize that we
must learn to respect and honorthe complications of others'
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lives, because our lives arejust as complicated.
And we don't need to pick ateach other, we don't need to
poke the bear, we don't need topush and push and push because
our egos need to be stroked, weneed to know that our children
love us, we need to know thatthey want to be in our lives so
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that we reach out and we reachout and we reach out.
And I'm speaking to the choirhere.
It is very hard to not keeptexting or not keep leaving
voicemails, or not have the ideain the back of my head every day
to get a card and send it in themail.
And instead I have to rememberthey're asking for space.
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Am I giving it?
Do I trust the old adage thatabsence creates more fondness?
Can I let go of even thatexpectation?
Can I let go of the possibilitythat maybe they will choose to
never want to have arelationship with me?
Can I deal with that?
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These are the hard questionsthat we have to ask.
To ask each other humanity.
But the truth is, the only onethat we can help become true and
authentic is us.
And if you ever think about it,if we just took a season,
however long that takes, tobecome our true and authentic
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self, don't you think that wouldjust magnetically bring back the
people who want and are supposedto be in our lives?
I know this is hard, but this iswhat the word talked about
mothers against daughters,fathers against sons, husbands
against wives.
It's a hard, hard path thatwe're walking right now.
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But in a world of upheaval, justlike we talked about the last
episode, we have to break theold sod to reveal the rich soil.
And sometimes we just have torejoice at the opportunity to
plant seeds and then trust thatunder the ground, in the quiet,
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in the absence of communicationor visits, that something is
happening beneath the surface inthe people we love's lives.
And they are beginning theirawakening process or continuing
at whatever level they're on,and they will eventually find
their true authentic self aswell.
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So in closing, Deepak Chakrasaid, In the process of letting
go, you will lose many thingsfrom the past, but you will find
yourself.
And the final quote I'll leaveyou with this weekend is my own
quote.
The quote lady who loves to openthe show with quotes, leaves you
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with this quote by Teresa Marie,an ambassador of God's Chi.
If, humanity, we are finallylearning that we have the right
to be ourselves, then we mustalso learn to honor that right
in others.
Have yourself a gloriousweekend, and I love you,
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humanity.
Peace.
If we are finally learning that we have the right
to be ourselves, then we mustalso learn to honor that right
in others.
And that is a quote by TeresaMarie, an ambassador of God's
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Chi.
And I welcome you back to Freeto Just Be, the podcast
attempting to empower humanityto courageously step out of old
patterns and matrix programmingand leave behind childhood
traumas and false beliefs andgive a big old hug to not only
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new ways of being, but to usherin a brand new earth.
And I'm not talking a newplanet, I'm talking a new
dimension, a new vibrationalgrid.
And I hope this finds you in thegreatest health with vibrant
energy today because you havechosen, along with myself, to
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accept the full responsibilityfor our body, mind, and soul.
Here on Free to Just Be, we willtry to inspire each other to
truly be who we came here to be,authentic, free, sovereign, and
fully aligned with our highestpotentials.
So join me on thistransformative journey to
(01:33):
rewrite our narratives and livelives of purpose and passion.
And right here on the front end,if I am beginning to resonate
with you, if you are on thisawakening journey along with
everyone else on the planet, andyou appreciate being inspired
and encouraged through it,please, can you please hit the
(01:57):
like button and let's begin torise this information up the
algorithm staircase so thatother people can be inspired and
helped as well.
And I welcome you on thisfantastical Friday, the start of
the weekend, and um I want us toponder what happens when guilt
(02:21):
drops so that we can hold honor.
Those are the thoughts in myhead today, because they have
been in my heart.
And I I want to address part ofthis incredible energetic shift
that is happening.
We are all shifting and it'sdifferent for everybody.
Um, there are commondenominators, of course.
(02:44):
There are a lot of physicalsymptoms that many of us are uh
continually feeling, um, notsimultaneously, but sometimes
they are simultaneously.
And we have to learn to leaveall of our expectations at the
door.
When you take that red pill andit begins to dissolve, and you
(03:05):
recognize there is no way youcan shut your eyes to what we're
in.
And we have to lose theillusions, lose all of the
programming.
And and when when we're thereand you step across that
threshold of awakening and theand the journey of awakening
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begins, the first thing that ishard to cope with is that there
is no turning back, you cannotjump back into that proverbial
box, and the more you try, themore you struggle.
That that is the first lessonbecause when you get that first
surge of OMG, what have Iallowed in my life?
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You do.
You want to run tail and youwant to go in a in a little den
and you want to curl up in aball and forget you ever saw it,
but I'm sorry, Pandora has comeout of the box, and that is
actually the best thing thatever happened to you and I is
the taking of that red pill.
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And at first, you know, some ofus really needed that spoonful
of sugar to help the medicine godown, and that's what podcasts
like Free to Just Be andEveryday Lives and Lori Ladd and
and so many others are here forum to help us kind of sugarcoat,
(04:35):
well, not really sugarcoat, butmake it easier to get through,
especially those first severalmonths and and years, dare I
say, although everything hasaccelerated.
So those of you that are juststepping into this awakening,
think about how blessed you are,because some of us who began
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this 20 plus years ago are umjust now really recognizing a
lot of people that almostinstantaneously are getting
things.
Take my husband, for example.
Uh suddenly, just like Ipredicted, I knew that I knew
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that he had all this knowingnessinside, and when he finally
awakened to it, before long he'dbe football fields ahead of me
spiritually and energetically,and it is becoming more and more
true.
And this is part of what we haveto face.
And so I want to address firstoff the guilt.
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The guilt that comes from beingon an awakening journey when
many of those you love don'teven know what that is yet.
And we feel guilty about that,and we want to, you know, tell
others about it, and we want todo it for them, and and the
truth is it's an inside job, andthe only ones we can help are
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ourselves.
And what Shannon Alder said isvery true.
As you awaken, you become verydifferent.
And she said that beingdifferent becomes a revolving
door in your life where securepeople enter and the insecure
exit.
Sometimes it's permanent andsometimes it's just for a
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season.
And that is one of the biggestpieces of guilt that we carry.
Oh my gosh, I I have I'vereached this understanding.
I I now understand why I alwayswas XYZ, and and now I
understand that the more I letgo of XYZ, I can be who I was
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always meant to be.
And yet there are people we lovethat are still in the
cul-de-sac, in the loop de loop,in going around the same
mountain expecting a differentresult.
And we were all there before,and we want to go in and snatch
their hand and pull them out,but that doesn't work.
And so the first guilt that youhave to let go of is feeling
(07:12):
guilty that you have risen andthose that you love may not have
risen with you.
And you have to recognize thatyou are the one that has to go
forward, and it's kind of likewhat God said to Lot's wife,
don't look back, or you'll beturned into a pillar of salt.
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And in our case, in thisawakening journey, we don't want
to digress, we want to goforward.
And it's not, again, Ireiterate, it's not um an effort
towards perfection, it's justdaily progress.
Brianne Brown, who, you know,her dark night of the soul put
her in um an insane asylum as aninsane asylum.
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And it was there that sherecognized all the programs and
began to what?
Work herself out, not only ofthe insane asylum, but towards
helping millions of people onthe planet recognize likewise.
And she said that authenticityis the daily practice of letting
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go of who we think we'resupposed to be.
Well, as a dad or a mom, I'msupposed to guide and teach my
children.
Well, if your children arealready grown-ass adults, that
is no longer your job.
And unfortunately, you have tojust go through the experience
(08:42):
of seeing if the way you raisedyour children was correct and
accurate and what they held onto and what they said, nope,
that's not for me.
Now, for me, as a believer inJesus Christ and a lover of God,
my creator and my divine mother,I stand on the scripture that
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tells me that if you train achild up in the way he should
go, and to me, it is we gotowards God and we grow in God.
And I believe that I laid thefoundation of that in my seven
children and as much as I couldin my grandbabies that I had
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interaction with.
And the rest is up to God, and Istand on that scripture that
when they are old they willreturn to it.
Now, are they there yet?
That's really up to them.
It's accurately none of mybusiness, and I have held on to
the guilt of that for almost mywhole life, and I've shared with
(09:47):
you many times that one of thethings that really was
liberating to me was to let goof the guilt and shame of my
parenting.
I don't know if you have guiltand shame from your parenting.
What guilt and shame do youhave?
Only you know.
So, in order to embrace who weare, so Brenn Brown said
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authenticity is the dailypractice of letting go of who we
think we're supposed to be inorder to embrace who we are.
That is the awakening journey.
We are going towards the light,towards Christ consciousness,
towards who we always werebefore we came into this tent,
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this temple, this avatar, thisbody that houses our pure energy
of love and light.
So part of letting go of thatguilt is remembering,
remembering that we were them,remembering that we too at one
point in our life were socovered up and didn't realize
(10:56):
that we were lied to.
We too had a pre-red pill seasonin our life.
And the truth is we have to berespectful toward others, and it
starts by remembering andrecognizing and applauding
ourselves for opening our eyesand recognizing that we've been
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lying to.
So first you have respect foryourself, and you have to
remember that they are not you,and they are not exactly where
you are, and you are not exactlywhere they are, and you might
not be where somebody twofootball fields down the pike
are either.
(11:39):
So part of learning how to holdhonor for others is dropping the
guilt that the matrixprogramming, our false beliefs,
and our childhood traumacontinually wants us to hold on
to.
And it's so funny, we you know,we as human beings are
(12:01):
constantly fighting to do what?
To hold on, and then we'refighting to let go.
And the truth is we don't haveto fight.
You know, um Emmett Ray said thepath of nonviolence is the path
of respect, and it is respecttowards every being.
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It is the path of awakening, theconsciousness of every being.
Now I want to go back to thatword that he used, nonviolence.
The path of nonviolence.
Now, we often equate violencewith physical violence, but I
want you to think about socialmedia for a minute and think
(12:44):
about the violence that we slameach other with on a daily basis
on social media.
The judgments, the comparisons,the uh the tweets, the trolls,
the badgering, the um horriblecomments of people who would
(13:06):
never have the courage to lookyou eye to eye.
We are very violent in oursociety today, especially from
an armchair armed with ourphones and our laptops and our
computers.
And we have to learn to let thatgo.
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And if that is something thatyou did, then you have to deal
with the guilt thereof thatcomes with that, because we are
not going to unite and becomepart of a Christ-conscious earth
if that's what we continue todo.
So the other aspect of guilt andshame and fear and all of those
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quote unquote symptoms of beingor attributes of being in a
controlled matrix system, orbeing controlled by our
childhood traumas or falsebeliefs that didn't come from
our true authentic self, butcame from those around us that
plug them in to our nervoussystem and planted them in our
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cells, and they have beencycling through our being ever
since they were planted beforewe were even seven years old.
And it is up to us to discoverthe ways that are going to allow
them to come to the surface andthen discover ways to navigate
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through that because we have nochoice now.
The light is coming so rapid andso fast and so bright that every
day, whatever it is, you don'twant to look at.
I want you to stop and pause andthink for a minute, my dear dear
brothers and sisters inHumanityville.
What are the things in your liferight now that annoy the crap
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out of you?
Write it down.
What are the things that happenin your life on the daily
relationally that causeknee-jerk reactions?
Write them down.
What situations keep coming ininto your life over and over and
over again?
And you think to yourself, whydoes this keep happening?
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I feel like I keep doing thesame thing over and over again.
Hello, humanity, those are yourclues that you are having
reflected back to you over andover again the very aspects of
your life that the Holy Spiritof God, that possibly your
divine mother through nature,through the atmosphere, through
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songs, however God can reachyou, He will use the Divine
Mother, the universe, everythingaround you that He created to
get your attention.
So as this is happening, wefight to hold on to what we've
known all our lives.
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We do it this way.
My dad was always frugal, I'mgonna be frugal.
Don't throw that paper towelaway.
Put the foil in the drawer.
Do you understand what I'msaying?
And maybe your true andauthentic self knows that those
items would be best recycled,and then you find other ways to
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incorporate into your lifethings that you want to use.
Instead of holding on, we fightto hold on to the old, and then
when we finally recognize thatwe have to let go, we fight to
let go, and it's a dance.
A little bit forward, threesteps back.
So if we have the right to beourselves, now that's the other
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aspect that happens in thisawakening journey.
First, we want to throw it outto everybody else, and then we
want to, you know, back up ourrude, violent reactions to
people by saying, I'm I'mallowed to be who I am.
You can't stop me for being I'mjust being authentic.
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Well, if being authentic becomesan act of verbal violence
against somebody, then maybe youneed to pull your authenticity
back a little bit until youlearn how to utilize it.
What do you say?
Because if we're guilting orshaming or instilling fear in
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another, we are denyingourselves of our true selves
because on the other side of allthat ugly qualities of life and
attributes of life and matrixattributes and symptoms is the
true self.
So if we are coming out thegates and then we're feeling bad
that others aren't coming outthe gates with us, and then
(18:08):
we're pounding people withviolence in our reactions, in
our words, in our post, and inour, well, you know, you should
be doing it this way.
We need to put our shoulds away.
We have no business withshoulds.
Take it from somebody thatalienated almost everybody in
her family.
(18:29):
When I went through, you know,what really it was the crowning
um uh the the straw that brokethe camel's back for most people
in my family, my children andand their spouses, was when I
went through my Alex Jones umprepper stage of nine or ten
(18:50):
years, when I was down therabbit hole and making myself
sick with fear and worry and andI need to prepare, I need to
prepare, and and expectations ofdoomsday coming, and I was
shoving it down people'sthroats, and they suddenly began
saying things like, you know,this is what you always do.
(19:11):
You something lights you up, andthen you want everybody to do
it.
Well, mom, we don't want to dothat anymore.
And that's a hard smack in theface, right?
But they were right.
We as a collective have nobusiness doing anything other
than honoring and respectingeach other wherever we are in
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this awakening process.
And if we are pushing all ofthat matrix crap back out from
us, trying to get rid of us butby rid of it by pushing it
towards others, we are part ofthe problem still.
And guess what?
We are not a threat to thematrix.
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The matrix is cheering us onsaying, yes, yes, give them more
guilt, give them more fear, tellthem that they're bad, compare
yourself with them.
And they laugh and know you'renot a threat to their system at
all.
But if we recognize that ourtrue sovereignty and our true
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freedom and our true self awaitson the other side of the guilt
and the shame and the fear andthe comparison, and we finally
recognize that that's where weneed to stay.
We need to work on ourselves andforget about everybody else.
And this enters the other stageof guilt.
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You know, going back to whatShannon Alder says, what happens
when we feel guilty becausepeople are suffering the
consequences of their ownactions?
This has cropped up in my lifein the last couple of months.
Cause and effect.
I mentioned earlier in the weekin an earlier episode that there
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are people in my life that tookthe vaccination in 2001.
Some of the people I know thatdid that are not on the planet
anymore.
Some of them are beginning toexperience serious health
ramifications and don'trecognize that it's part of that
poison that they put in theirbody.
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Is it my job to point that outto them?
No, it is not.
And there is guilt from a lot ofus that have to step back and
especially parents.
You feel guilty for just lettingyour kids be.
Maybe you were at the stagewhere my kids were.
Their awakening has begun, andthey're like, we're stepping
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back.
We we need to step away from ourtoxic family for a while.
And don't think I'm alone inthis, folks.
Right now, with everythingshifting so much, dare I say
there's not one single toxicfamily on the planet right now.
Because everything is shifting.
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All old ways of being are beingcrushed and deleted and
demolished, and new, new, new iscoming in, and it's freaking
everybody out, and it's causingall of us to have those
knee-jeric reactions.
For example, I'll give youanother uh uh example uh in real
(22:22):
time of what this false guiltlooks like.
Um there's somebody in mycommunity who is very
like-minded like me, and thething that this individual likes
to do is make homeopathicremedies, elderberry syrup and
natural soaps and and all ofthose things.
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And I have watched her journey,and she opened a store, and she
just announced this week thatshe's left her matrix job for
good in order to finally befull-time at what she wants to
do.
And what was Teresa Marie?
Oh, I am an ambassador of chi.
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Oh, am I?
Well, my knee-jerk reaction.
Now, granted, it wasn't aroundanybody, nobody knows, but I am
telling on myself right nowbecause I am so proud of my
community uh member, Nikki, whohas grown so much and has got to
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the place where she is fullyloose and making an income in
her vocation, what she's calledhere to do.
And my first reaction wascompletely, I completely turned
green.
And I I wanted to look at and Ilooked at her sites and and this
is this is how I was ininternally this, can you feel
(23:48):
it?
This is how I was feeling.
Well, good for her, you know.
I'm so happy for her, you know,great, you know.
When's it my turn?
Ooh, well, what is that?
What kind of guilt is that?
Guilt is nothing more than beingangry at yourself, really.
And you turning it in.
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And that's what I was doing.
Well, I haven't gone as fast asas she did, but you know what?
I am not on her path.
I am on my own individual path,and I have done things that she
hasn't done.
And we should be grateful.
We should be giving glory to Godfor all of it.
And I do.
I'm so proud of Nikki Quinlanbecause she has arrived into her
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vocation, and I wish her nothingbut good.
But my knee-jerk reaction wasjealousy and and inward anger
pointing my fingers back at mebecause I haven't jumped ahead
into the things that I know thatare already still latent in me.
And it's coming, but it's comingin God's time and when I feel
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like He's telling me to pull thetrigger.
So we have to let go of thecomparisons and all of that and
remind ourselves that when welet go, something magical
happens, and we give God room tomove and work in our lives, and
by the way, in the lives ofothers.
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When we stop thinking that wehave to be somebody else's Holy
Spirit, then the Holy Spirit canwork in their lives.
So as we are in this incredibleprocess of massive change, and
we realize that our true selfawaits on the other side of all
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that we have to let go of.
Maybe this weekend we can ponderjust learning how to breathe
ourselves through the letting goprocess and learning, you know,
maybe on our days off, we canlearn and just learn to sit and
just breathe through a knee-jerkreaction or two.
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Because that's what I did when Ireacted to my dear friend's
announcement.
And within a couple of minutes,I was praising God for her
progress.
But I had to breathe myselfthrough.
What was I doing?
I was recalling that emotions,especially volatile emotions
that rise up real quick, likeboom, there it is, thoughts,
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attitudes are not who I am.
I am love and light, and all ofthat latter mess, the anger, the
comparison, the jealousy, thoseare not me, and they're just
energy.
And the energy just needs tosimply move in and through our
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body.
And when we learn how tobreathe, when those moments come
up, take a big breath throughyour nose and let it out your
mouth.
And when you begin to practicethat, you notice how your body
just relaxes, and that allowsthe energy to just go through
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your body.
Some things that you may haveheld on to all your life may
take five, ten minutes, a coupleof hours.
Some of them are so stuck, itmay take a couple of days, it
may take rounds and rounds androunds of learning how to
breathe, and as it comes up, letit go.
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And as it comes up, let it go.
And as we learn how to do that,then we can recognize as we see
somebody having a knee-jerkreaction towards us, we can have
instant recall and give thehonor and respect to that person
and back up, send love and lightout to them, and quell whatever
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the um contrast, the the um themeeting of the mind, so to
speak, the clash of the titans,by simply saying, Wow, I really
do appreciate you sharing theway you see things, and I'm
gonna think about that.
And then you stop speaking.
And the more we learn how to dothese things, the more our true
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self will arise, and the easierit will be to let go instead of
holding on to the things that donot serve us.
So in closing, as the weekendcomes upon us, recognize that we
must learn to respect and honorthe complications of others'
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lives, because our lives arejust as complicated.
And we don't need to pick ateach other, we don't need to
poke the bear, we don't need topush and push and push because
our egos need to be stroked, weneed to know that our children
love us, we need to know thatthey want to be in our lives so
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that we reach out and we reachout and we reach out.
And I'm speaking to the choirhere.
It is very hard to not keeptexting or not keep leaving
voicemails, or not have the ideain the back of my head every day
to get a card and send it in themail.
And instead I have to rememberthey're asking for space.
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Am I giving it?
Do I trust the old adage thatabsence creates more fondness?
Can I let go of even thatexpectation?
Can I let go of the possibilitythat maybe they will choose to
never want to have arelationship with me?
Can I deal with that?
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These are the hard questionsthat we have to ask.
To ask each other humanity.
But the truth is, the only onethat we can help become true and
authentic is us.
And if you ever think about it,if we just took a season,
however long that takes, tobecome our true and authentic
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self, don't you think that wouldjust magnetically bring back the
people who want and are supposedto be in our lives?
I know this is hard, but this iswhat the word talked about
mothers against daughters,fathers against sons, husbands
against wives.
It's a hard, hard path thatwe're walking right now.
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But in a world of upheaval, justlike we talked about the last
episode, we have to break theold sod to reveal the rich soil.
And sometimes we just have torejoice at the opportunity to
plant seeds and then trust thatunder the ground, in the quiet,
(31:02):
in the absence of communicationor visits, that something is
happening beneath the surface inthe people we love's lives.
And they are beginning theirawakening process or continuing
at whatever level they're on,and they will eventually find
their true authentic self aswell.
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So in closing, Deepak Chakrasaid, In the process of letting
go, you will lose many thingsfrom the past, but you will find
yourself.
And the final quote I'll leaveyou with this weekend is my own
quote.
The quote lady who loves to openthe show with quotes, leaves you
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with this quote by Teresa Marie,an ambassador of God's Chi.
If, humanity, we are finallylearning that we have the right
to be ourselves, then we mustalso learn to honor that right
in others.
Have yourself a gloriousweekend, and I love you,
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humanity.
Peace.
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