August 27, 2025 • 23 mins
Have you ever found yourself caught in that strange, uncomfortable space between who you were and who you're becoming? That's exactly where I am right now—and it's teaching me more about transformation than any of my adventures ever have.
As someone who has lived through three marriages, 33 different moves, and more jobs than I can count on both hands, I've always defined myself by movement. My identity was built on being "the hippie freak of the South," constantly seeking the next big thing. So when I returned home after a disappointing chapter in Florida and found myself suddenly drawn to stability and routine, I felt lost. Was I failing? Had I given up?
The battle rages inside me daily. On one side stands Terri, whispering doubts about whether I'll ever make the impact I dream of. On the other stands Theresa Marie, the traveling ambassador of Chi, reminding me that transformation doesn't always look like massive action. Sometimes it looks like consistency in small things—like recording this podcast 98% of the time. Sometimes it looks like pausing to reclaim your yard bit by bit, clearing physical space as you clear emotional and spiritual space within.
What I'm discovering is that pathways are indeed made by walking, but walking doesn't always mean sprinting forward. Sometimes walking means standing still long enough to hear God's direction. Sometimes the bravest thing you can do is resist the urge to fill the void with another adventure before you've fully processed the last one.
If you're in that uncomfortable in-between space right now, I invite you to join me in giving yourself permission to just be. Your situation isn't permanent—it's fluid, changing moment by moment. The void isn't empty at all—it's where your next chapter is being written. Subscribe to continue this journey with me as we learn together what it truly means to be free to just be.
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
All truly great thoughts are conceived by
walking.
Yes, whether it's walking awayfrom something or walking
towards something, pathways aremade by walking.
So, on this Walking AwayWednesday, walking Away
(00:29):
Wednesday, let's talk about thepower of walking, shall we?
And I welcome you back to aWalk Away Wednesday on Free to
Just Be the podcast, empoweringhumanity to courageously step
away from old patterns andprograms and give a big old,
warm, fuzzy hug to a new way ofbeing.
And I hope this finds you inthe greatest of health, with
(00:49):
vibrant energy today, becauseyou have chosen to accept the
full responsibility for yourbody, mind and soul.
Here I'm going to try toinspire us to truly be who we
came here to be, and that startswith authenticity, transparency
and being brutally honest,first with yourself, and then
(01:15):
that ushers in freedom, and thenwe can align ourselves with our
highest potentials.
So join me, teresa, marie.
Potentials.
So join me, teresa Marie, thetraveling ambassador of Chi, on
this transformative journey torewrite our narratives and live
lives of purpose and passion.
And yes, today is a walk awayWednesday on the podcast.
(01:39):
And as I walked this morningwith the dogs, and as I drove
around this morning doing alittle door dashing, I was
thinking about?
What is it that I want to quote, unquote walk away from?
What do I want to walk awayfrom?
What do I want to talk abouttoday?
What is it that I want toconvey today?
(02:04):
And, as always, I am alwayslooking for the things that are
happening in my life, and what'sbeen happening in my life
lately is kind of a rut, um itwell, not even a rut, it's.
It's a stoppage point, it's aplace of in-between, and you can
(02:29):
tell my hesitation.
It's like what really is thisthat you're in, teresa Marie?
What are you in right now?
And I think back on where I was.
You know, part of finding outwhere I belong over these last
40 plus years is going ondifferent adventures.
(02:52):
I've been on many, many as youknow the adventure of three
different marriages, theadventure of 33 different moves,
the adventure of a list of jobsthat are longer than my arm, a
list of all sorts of differentnew things that I tried and they
(03:16):
careen towards, all the thingsI don't want to do right.
The only way to find out whereyou belong is going on
adventures.
It's trying out things that areuncomfortable, it's facing your
fears, it's trying new things,and right now I am at a place
where, when I came home, I camehome to the familiar, I came
(03:40):
home to the stable, I came hometo the stable, I came home to
predictable, I came home tothankfulness, of routine.
And now I find myself wonderingwhat the heck, therese Marie,
what is going on?
You're not walking towards yourdestiny, you're not being
(04:04):
proactive.
You're not walking towards yourdestiny.
You're not being proactive,you're not taking massive action
.
And I guess I really wonderedwhat was going on, because life
is always, according to RussellBaker, walking up to us saying
come on, in, the living is fine.
(04:24):
And what do we do?
Do we jump in and go aboutliving?
No, we usually back off andtake a freaking picture and, in
a way, that's kind of where I'mat, and I think part of it is
coming out of my last four-yearchapter of life and that book
(04:46):
that I put up Because I am fullyaware that my history doesn't
define my destiny and I havelearned many, many what not to
do lessons, and so there's ahuge part of me that's like all
right, let's go.
Let's go, come on, we know wherewe're heading.
(05:08):
And that's kind of laughablebecause really the destination
is unknown.
We really don't know wherewe're going, right.
I do know that I don't want tolook back because I'm not going
that way, but as I walk this andwalking is so good for us,
whether we walk away like I did22 months ago and thought that
(05:34):
my relational life was probablygoing to be just me and God
going forward, and there weremany moments I thought that I
didn't think that my husband wasgoing to do any self-work, that
he was ever going to have adesire to transform himself,
like we all need to do in life.
(05:56):
And lo and behold, that verywalking away is what the
catalyst was for both of us togrow so much exponentially as
individuals.
And now together we are growingnot only deeper as a couple,
but I know that we will go veryfar as a couple, a power couple,
(06:19):
so to speak.
Right?
So, all of that being said,what the heck Terry?
What the heck Teresa Marie?
Because you see, that's whereI'm at.
I'm in that space between thehippie freak of the South, terry
Wilson, and Teresa Marie, thetraveling ambassador of Chi,
which, of course, is my destiny.
(06:40):
And that in-between stage, well,coming out of a big, huge
lesson, I think that there's abig part of me that I've been
avoiding.
As Sharon Crystal says, theshadow demons or our fears that
you've been avoiding will keepyou stuck in a rut, a prisoner
(07:02):
in your own life, and it's timeto break free and shine Now.
What are those fears that mightbe keeping me in the rut?
Well, I think I am afraid ofmaking yet another huge mistake,
because, you see, I believe allof us have this purpose, and
(07:25):
it's much bigger, it's huge, andtaking on a huge purpose is
scary, because we are used tomundane, predictable lives, we
are used to being in the safezone, we are used to being happy
right where we are right, andthat is something that we need
(07:46):
to do.
We do need to be happy rightwhere we're at, but the truth is
, when we're in this place ofindecisiveness or non-action, it
is kind of like being in a rut,and it's in those very rut-like
places that we are beingchallenged to expand and grow.
(08:10):
Now, right now, where I'm atgoing into my sixth week home,
have I expanded my classes?
Not yet.
Do I have a forum to do so?
Absolutely.
I have students asking me allthe time.
So what the heck is it?
What the heck is it?
Well, terry, over here on oneside of the rut is saying man,
(08:34):
you know, I've been teachingthis class for two years and you
know I still have just only ahandful of students.
What's the point?
And then Teresa Marie, on theother side of the rut, is saying
your students keep telling youwhat a fantastic teacher you are
and how it has changed yourlife.
Aren't you the person who issaying you want to make a
(08:57):
difference, you want to impactas many people on this planet?
What the heck?
Oh, yes, so there's this battle.
And sometimes we stand in themiddle and we say, ah, you know,
right now, walking the dogs inthe morning, having coffee with
my husband, being out in my yard, reclaiming my yard by little,
(09:21):
by little, clearing space and Ithink that's what I'm doing
internally too, and spirituallyand emotionally I'm still in
that clearing out of the oldspace.
And, yes, those shadow demons,those fears, are right there
looking at me and I'm lookingright back at them Because, see,
(09:44):
I know that, even though I maybe limping and I can take that
in the physical sense because,you know, ever since my knee's
been replaced, my walking and mystair climbing is kind of
limping Will I ever get fullmobility.
I am believing, absolutely yes,from my mouth to God's ears.
(10:08):
Am I limping a little bit aftermy last escapade, after my last
adventure in Florida?
Why, yes, I am.
And why is that?
That was a big, huge hit.
When you think that you havefound the cat's meow, you have
found your purpose.
You are careening down thatroad of purpose and all of a
(10:32):
sudden your colored glasses falloff your face and you realize
that this purpose is not reality.
It is yet another program, itis yet another ploy for greed
and for ego and it's likeanother kick in your belly.
(10:54):
You know how it is, humanity,all of my brothers and sisters,
right now, if you have just comeout of a huge kick in your
belly, whatever it is in yourlife, a biggie, you know.
And when we're in it we say thebiggie, biggie, you know.
And when we're in it we say thebiggie until the next biggie
comes along.
Right, and we begin to realizethat every path that we take,
(11:24):
it's called a path becausethey're made by walking.
My woods never would havewalking paths in them if I never
encourage my husband to walk inthe woods with me.
And it's so funny.
Now I have that physical picture, and very soon, you know, as
autumn is beginning to beushered in.
(11:44):
It was 52 degrees here inMiddle Tennessee this morning
when we walked the two snow dogsand I was thinking, oh, because
this summer girl loves the heat.
I love, love, love the heat.
52 is like winter to me, okay.
And I looked at my belovedtrees on my country road and
(12:05):
again here it is my 17th year inthis home and yet another tree
has begun the color show,because every year it seems to
be a different tree on our roadstarts to turn first.
It's as if they say, oh, lookat me, I'm the leader of the
(12:28):
pack this year.
And as we walk through life,seasons change and we're often
in these spaces of just.
It's kind of like a void.
We're not in the past, we'renot quite in the future and
we're just walking day to day.
(12:49):
And we need to remember thatwhat Eckhart Tolle said is very
true, and that is that the onlything that is ultimately real
about our journey is the stepthat we are taking at this very
moment, because that is allthere ever is.
So as I walked this morning, Ithought can you just accept that
(13:15):
right now you're in that littlevoid, that you are still able
and you are blessed and God isstill directing you, but right
now just doing mundane tasks,just taking one step in front of
the other.
Is it okay to accept thatthat's what it is?
(13:37):
Is it okay?
The hippie freak of the Southwho always was, in fact, a
former boss of mine, justrecently said well, terry always
was a rebel.
Oh, and the rebel rebel, youknow, always wanted to go on
adventures New, new, new, new.
And so maybe it's weird thatnow Teresa Marie, the ambassador
(14:02):
of Chi, is just allowingherself to be in a regular space
, not in a great adventure, andmaybe that's what feels so weird
to me.
Because, you see, I haveeverything in place.
I have students wanting me toteach and I have not pursued a
building.
We're still meeting outside andI know that at 52 degrees in
(14:24):
the morning, we're looking atmaybe six, eight weeks and I'm
going to need an inside building.
Have I pursued a building?
No, I haven't.
Why is that?
I am not sure yet, but that'swhere I'm at.
I have an incredible programthat I have been dabbling yes,
just dabbling with from TonyRobbins and Dean DeGrasio.
(14:47):
I did this program 30 years ago, I did it five years ago and I
thought two months ago that Iwas completely ready to move
forward and get my stuff outthere, my coaching, my courses.
Am I still able to do that?
Absolutely, have I started?
I've taken maybe one step andimmediately my old self oh well,
(15:12):
see, you can't do anything, youcan't complete anything, you're
never consistent.
So there it is.
Wow, as I'm literally recordingthis podcast, there's the
answer.
My old patterns are tryingdesperately, like Klingons, to
remain and I know that thislittle rut, this little void
(15:35):
that I am, is challenging me toexpand and grow.
But is it okay to just pauseright now?
Is it okay for me, however longmy body, mind and soul feels
the need to just be, to not makeany major plans, to not do the
(15:57):
three-step forward, two-stepback?
How about I just accept thatright now I am in a space
between adventures and lo andbehold, that space of no
adventure for me.
Who always wants to adventure?
I am one impetuous woman whichhas got me into a lot of
(16:18):
predicaments where I've learnedlots of what not to do right.
So for me, a challenge and agrowth expansion would be to sit
outside of an adventure andknow that it's going to be okay
To tell myself, oh, you know, asmy old tapes, my old patterns
(16:39):
are screaming at me you'relimping, you're limping, you're
never.
No, I'm still walking, dude, doyou see me?
I walked the dogs this morning,still walking, dude, do you see
me?
I walked the dogs this morning.
I walk three times a day againnow.
Oh, I'm still walking, and eachtime I walk I am making a
pathway.
It just might not be time yetfor me to enter into the next
(17:06):
adventure.
And you know, it's so funny.
It's so funny.
I think it's Adam or something.
Holmes, am.
Holmes said this.
He says so what does stuck mean?
It means I should make some bigdecisions, I should do some
(17:31):
enormous thing.
Oh, buddy, am I feeling this?
And right now I can't doanything.
Right now I can't stand my life.
I can't change it.
Now, that's how I feel, butthat is not the truth.
I'm very aware of that right isnot the truth?
I'm very aware of that right,but that's what's screaming at
me make a decision, go forward,you know.
(18:00):
Take a sprint, massive action,come on, you can do this.
This is what I'm hearing in myhead and I know I need to make a
decision to get my timemanagement better and I've asked
my husband to help me.
And what does my dear husbandsay?
He points to his chest, he patshis chest and he said I can
encourage you, babe, but thatself-discipline comes from right
(18:21):
here.
And I'm like oh, I love thisman and he exasperates me at the
same time.
Why?
Because I wanted him to give mea plan.
I wanted him to to say X, y, z,1, 2, 3, this is how you do it.
And guess what?
To find out where you belong,you have to do it, you have to
(18:42):
go on the adventure, you have togo on the solo flight, right?
So to finish, am Holmes' littleconversation in his own head
well, I should do somethingenormous, and I can't do
anything.
I can't stand my life and Ican't change it.
And it says well, maybe it'snot an enormous thing.
(19:02):
He says, maybe you have to dojust one small little ditty
thing and then another smalllittle ditty thing.
So right now, as I'm talkinginto this microphone, I'm doing
actually a very huge thing.
I am consistently recording justabout every day.
(19:25):
I am about 98% consistent on mypodcast.
Woo-hoo, yes, I'm patting myback here and there will come a
time.
There will come a time where itwill be sprint time, because
here is the truth Nobody'ssituation is ever permanent.
(19:45):
It's what you make it, becauselife isn't a solid, it's fluid.
It changes moment by moment,and one moment you might feel
like you're in the void, and onemoment you might feel like
you're on the fast track to anew way of being and everything
(20:06):
in between.
And then, of course, I have toremember what Rumi said Stop
acting so small, teresa, marie,for you are the universe in a
static motion.
Am I there today?
Am I following my bliss?
Well, currently, my bliss,literally, is Right now.
(20:28):
All I can think about is notwanting to do anything but go
out in my backyard and work onanother project.
That's all I can think about.
That, to me right now, is blissNow.
Is that my purpose?
No, my purpose is to make thegreatest impact on the greatest
amount of people while I am hereon the planet, on the greatest
(20:54):
amount of people while I am hereon the planet, and that purpose
for me is to be fulfilledthrough my gifts of
communication.
I know this, do I know?
How?
Do I know when?
No, I don't.
So each day, I walk away fromthings that do not serve me
anymore, like beating myself upbecause I'm not walking fast
enough, in my opinion, toexpansion, to my destiny.
(21:16):
And yet life is always walkingup to us saying come on in, the
living is fine, but for today,maybe I want to take a picture
and I can walk away from thatself-condemnation and know that
soon, and very soon, my destinywill continue to unfold, even as
(21:40):
it's unfolding right now, asI'm pausing to take some
pictures, pausing to see andponder and consider, and only
moving when God tells me to move.
And that is walking, maybe notthe way I think I should be
walking, but every step ismovement.
(22:02):
So, if you've had a big oldblow and you're in recoup mode,
maybe it's best to not ventureinto an adventure just yet.
Maybe you just need to step offon the sidelines for a little
bit, like Teresa Maria's done,and gear up.
Because see, this wholeevolution, transformation
(22:26):
process, oh buddy, it can bequite exhausting and it can
really feel like your whole lifeis being sucked out of you.
And how do we continue?
Well, we allow ourselves recouptime.
We allow ourselves plenty oftime to just be.
Are you free to just be today?
(22:48):
Well, I hope.
Wherever you are in the process, that for you it will be an
absolutely wonder-filledWednesday.
Until next time, peace out.
All truly great thoughts are conceived by
walking.
Yes, whether it's walking awayfrom something or walking
towards something, pathways aremade by walking.
So, on this Walking AwayWednesday, walking Away
(00:29):
Wednesday, let's talk about thepower of walking, shall we?
And I welcome you back to aWalk Away Wednesday on Free to
Just Be the podcast, empoweringhumanity to courageously step
away from old patterns andprograms and give a big old,
warm, fuzzy hug to a new way ofbeing.
And I hope this finds you inthe greatest of health, with
(00:49):
vibrant energy today, becauseyou have chosen to accept the
full responsibility for yourbody, mind and soul.
Here I'm going to try toinspire us to truly be who we
came here to be, and that startswith authenticity, transparency
and being brutally honest,first with yourself, and then
(01:15):
that ushers in freedom, and thenwe can align ourselves with our
highest potentials.
So join me, teresa, marie.
Potentials.
So join me, teresa Marie, thetraveling ambassador of Chi, on
this transformative journey torewrite our narratives and live
lives of purpose and passion.
And yes, today is a walk awayWednesday on the podcast.
(01:39):
And as I walked this morningwith the dogs, and as I drove
around this morning doing alittle door dashing, I was
thinking about?
What is it that I want to quote, unquote walk away from?
What do I want to walk awayfrom?
What do I want to talk abouttoday?
What is it that I want toconvey today?
(02:04):
And, as always, I am alwayslooking for the things that are
happening in my life, and what'sbeen happening in my life
lately is kind of a rut, um itwell, not even a rut, it's.
It's a stoppage point, it's aplace of in-between, and you can
(02:29):
tell my hesitation.
It's like what really is thisthat you're in, teresa Marie?
What are you in right now?
And I think back on where I was.
You know, part of finding outwhere I belong over these last
40 plus years is going ondifferent adventures.
(02:52):
I've been on many, many as youknow the adventure of three
different marriages, theadventure of 33 different moves,
the adventure of a list of jobsthat are longer than my arm, a
list of all sorts of differentnew things that I tried and they
(03:16):
careen towards, all the thingsI don't want to do right.
The only way to find out whereyou belong is going on
adventures.
It's trying out things that areuncomfortable, it's facing your
fears, it's trying new things,and right now I am at a place
where, when I came home, I camehome to the familiar, I came
(03:40):
home to the stable, I came hometo the stable, I came home to
predictable, I came home tothankfulness, of routine.
And now I find myself wonderingwhat the heck, therese Marie,
what is going on?
You're not walking towards yourdestiny, you're not being
(04:04):
proactive.
You're not walking towards yourdestiny.
You're not being proactive,you're not taking massive action
.
And I guess I really wonderedwhat was going on, because life
is always, according to RussellBaker, walking up to us saying
come on, in, the living is fine.
(04:24):
And what do we do?
Do we jump in and go aboutliving?
No, we usually back off andtake a freaking picture and, in
a way, that's kind of where I'mat, and I think part of it is
coming out of my last four-yearchapter of life and that book
(04:46):
that I put up Because I am fullyaware that my history doesn't
define my destiny and I havelearned many, many what not to
do lessons, and so there's ahuge part of me that's like all
right, let's go.
Let's go, come on, we know wherewe're heading.
(05:08):
And that's kind of laughablebecause really the destination
is unknown.
We really don't know wherewe're going, right.
I do know that I don't want tolook back because I'm not going
that way, but as I walk this andwalking is so good for us,
whether we walk away like I did22 months ago and thought that
(05:34):
my relational life was probablygoing to be just me and God
going forward, and there weremany moments I thought that I
didn't think that my husband wasgoing to do any self-work, that
he was ever going to have adesire to transform himself,
like we all need to do in life.
(05:56):
And lo and behold, that verywalking away is what the
catalyst was for both of us togrow so much exponentially as
individuals.
And now together we are growingnot only deeper as a couple,
but I know that we will go veryfar as a couple, a power couple,
(06:19):
so to speak.
Right?
So, all of that being said,what the heck Terry?
What the heck Teresa Marie?
Because you see, that's whereI'm at.
I'm in that space between thehippie freak of the South, terry
Wilson, and Teresa Marie, thetraveling ambassador of Chi,
which, of course, is my destiny.
(06:40):
And that in-between stage, well,coming out of a big, huge
lesson, I think that there's abig part of me that I've been
avoiding.
As Sharon Crystal says, theshadow demons or our fears that
you've been avoiding will keepyou stuck in a rut, a prisoner
(07:02):
in your own life, and it's timeto break free and shine Now.
What are those fears that mightbe keeping me in the rut?
Well, I think I am afraid ofmaking yet another huge mistake,
because, you see, I believe allof us have this purpose, and
(07:25):
it's much bigger, it's huge, andtaking on a huge purpose is
scary, because we are used tomundane, predictable lives, we
are used to being in the safezone, we are used to being happy
right where we are right, andthat is something that we need
(07:46):
to do.
We do need to be happy rightwhere we're at, but the truth is
, when we're in this place ofindecisiveness or non-action, it
is kind of like being in a rut,and it's in those very rut-like
places that we are beingchallenged to expand and grow.
(08:10):
Now, right now, where I'm atgoing into my sixth week home,
have I expanded my classes?
Not yet.
Do I have a forum to do so?
Absolutely.
I have students asking me allthe time.
So what the heck is it?
What the heck is it?
Well, terry, over here on oneside of the rut is saying man,
(08:34):
you know, I've been teachingthis class for two years and you
know I still have just only ahandful of students.
What's the point?
And then Teresa Marie, on theother side of the rut, is saying
your students keep telling youwhat a fantastic teacher you are
and how it has changed yourlife.
Aren't you the person who issaying you want to make a
(08:57):
difference, you want to impactas many people on this planet?
What the heck?
Oh, yes, so there's this battle.
And sometimes we stand in themiddle and we say, ah, you know,
right now, walking the dogs inthe morning, having coffee with
my husband, being out in my yard, reclaiming my yard by little,
(09:21):
by little, clearing space and Ithink that's what I'm doing
internally too, and spirituallyand emotionally I'm still in
that clearing out of the oldspace.
And, yes, those shadow demons,those fears, are right there
looking at me and I'm lookingright back at them Because, see,
(09:44):
I know that, even though I maybe limping and I can take that
in the physical sense because,you know, ever since my knee's
been replaced, my walking and mystair climbing is kind of
limping Will I ever get fullmobility.
I am believing, absolutely yes,from my mouth to God's ears.
(10:08):
Am I limping a little bit aftermy last escapade, after my last
adventure in Florida?
Why, yes, I am.
And why is that?
That was a big, huge hit.
When you think that you havefound the cat's meow, you have
found your purpose.
You are careening down thatroad of purpose and all of a
(10:32):
sudden your colored glasses falloff your face and you realize
that this purpose is not reality.
It is yet another program, itis yet another ploy for greed
and for ego and it's likeanother kick in your belly.
(10:54):
You know how it is, humanity,all of my brothers and sisters,
right now, if you have just comeout of a huge kick in your
belly, whatever it is in yourlife, a biggie, you know.
And when we're in it we say thebiggie, biggie, you know.
And when we're in it we say thebiggie until the next biggie
comes along.
Right, and we begin to realizethat every path that we take,
(11:24):
it's called a path becausethey're made by walking.
My woods never would havewalking paths in them if I never
encourage my husband to walk inthe woods with me.
And it's so funny.
Now I have that physical picture, and very soon, you know, as
autumn is beginning to beushered in.
(11:44):
It was 52 degrees here inMiddle Tennessee this morning
when we walked the two snow dogsand I was thinking, oh, because
this summer girl loves the heat.
I love, love, love the heat.
52 is like winter to me, okay.
And I looked at my belovedtrees on my country road and
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again here it is my 17th year inthis home and yet another tree
has begun the color show,because every year it seems to
be a different tree on our roadstarts to turn first.
It's as if they say, oh, lookat me, I'm the leader of the
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pack this year.
And as we walk through life,seasons change and we're often
in these spaces of just.
It's kind of like a void.
We're not in the past, we'renot quite in the future and
we're just walking day to day.
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And we need to remember thatwhat Eckhart Tolle said is very
true, and that is that the onlything that is ultimately real
about our journey is the stepthat we are taking at this very
moment, because that is allthere ever is.
So as I walked this morning, Ithought can you just accept that
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right now you're in that littlevoid, that you are still able
and you are blessed and God isstill directing you, but right
now just doing mundane tasks,just taking one step in front of
the other.
Is it okay to accept thatthat's what it is?
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Is it okay?
The hippie freak of the Southwho always was, in fact, a
former boss of mine, justrecently said well, terry always
was a rebel.
Oh, and the rebel rebel, youknow, always wanted to go on
adventures New, new, new, new.
And so maybe it's weird thatnow Teresa Marie, the ambassador
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of Chi, is just allowingherself to be in a regular space
, not in a great adventure, andmaybe that's what feels so weird
to me.
Because, you see, I haveeverything in place.
I have students wanting me toteach and I have not pursued a
building.
We're still meeting outside andI know that at 52 degrees in
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the morning, we're looking atmaybe six, eight weeks and I'm
going to need an inside building.
Have I pursued a building?
No, I haven't.
Why is that?
I am not sure yet, but that'swhere I'm at.
I have an incredible programthat I have been dabbling yes,
just dabbling with from TonyRobbins and Dean DeGrasio.
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I did this program 30 years ago, I did it five years ago and I
thought two months ago that Iwas completely ready to move
forward and get my stuff outthere, my coaching, my courses.
Am I still able to do that?
Absolutely, have I started?
I've taken maybe one step andimmediately my old self oh well,
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see, you can't do anything, youcan't complete anything, you're
never consistent.
So there it is.
Wow, as I'm literally recordingthis podcast, there's the
answer.
My old patterns are tryingdesperately, like Klingons, to
remain and I know that thislittle rut, this little void
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that I am, is challenging me toexpand and grow.
But is it okay to just pauseright now?
Is it okay for me, however longmy body, mind and soul feels
the need to just be, to not makeany major plans, to not do the
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three-step forward, two-stepback?
How about I just accept thatright now I am in a space
between adventures and lo andbehold, that space of no
adventure for me.
Who always wants to adventure?
I am one impetuous woman whichhas got me into a lot of
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predicaments where I've learnedlots of what not to do right.
So for me, a challenge and agrowth expansion would be to sit
outside of an adventure andknow that it's going to be okay
To tell myself, oh, you know, asmy old tapes, my old patterns
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are screaming at me you'relimping, you're limping, you're
never.
No, I'm still walking, dude, doyou see me?
I walked the dogs this morning,still walking, dude, do you see
me?
I walked the dogs this morning.
I walk three times a day againnow.
Oh, I'm still walking, and eachtime I walk I am making a
pathway.
It just might not be time yetfor me to enter into the next
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adventure.
And you know, it's so funny.
It's so funny.
I think it's Adam or something.
Holmes, am.
Holmes said this.
He says so what does stuck mean?
It means I should make some bigdecisions, I should do some
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enormous thing.
Oh, buddy, am I feeling this?
And right now I can't doanything.
Right now I can't stand my life.
I can't change it.
Now, that's how I feel, butthat is not the truth.
I'm very aware of that right isnot the truth?
I'm very aware of that right,but that's what's screaming at
me make a decision, go forward,you know.
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Take a sprint, massive action,come on, you can do this.
This is what I'm hearing in myhead and I know I need to make a
decision to get my timemanagement better and I've asked
my husband to help me.
And what does my dear husbandsay?
He points to his chest, he patshis chest and he said I can
encourage you, babe, but thatself-discipline comes from right
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here.
And I'm like oh, I love thisman and he exasperates me at the
same time.
Why?
Because I wanted him to give mea plan.
I wanted him to to say X, y, z,1, 2, 3, this is how you do it.
And guess what?
To find out where you belong,you have to do it, you have to
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go on the adventure, you have togo on the solo flight, right?
So to finish, am Holmes' littleconversation in his own head
well, I should do somethingenormous, and I can't do
anything.
I can't stand my life and Ican't change it.
And it says well, maybe it'snot an enormous thing.
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He says, maybe you have to dojust one small little ditty
thing and then another smalllittle ditty thing.
So right now, as I'm talkinginto this microphone, I'm doing
actually a very huge thing.
I am consistently recording justabout every day.
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I am about 98% consistent on mypodcast.
Woo-hoo, yes, I'm patting myback here and there will come a
time.
There will come a time where itwill be sprint time, because
here is the truth Nobody'ssituation is ever permanent.
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It's what you make it, becauselife isn't a solid, it's fluid.
It changes moment by moment,and one moment you might feel
like you're in the void, and onemoment you might feel like
you're on the fast track to anew way of being and everything
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in between.
And then, of course, I have toremember what Rumi said Stop
acting so small, teresa, marie,for you are the universe in a
static motion.
Am I there today?
Am I following my bliss?
Well, currently, my bliss,literally, is Right now.
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All I can think about is notwanting to do anything but go
out in my backyard and work onanother project.
That's all I can think about.
That, to me right now, is blissNow.
Is that my purpose?
No, my purpose is to make thegreatest impact on the greatest
amount of people while I am hereon the planet, on the greatest
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amount of people while I am hereon the planet, and that purpose
for me is to be fulfilledthrough my gifts of
communication.
I know this, do I know?
How?
Do I know when?
No, I don't.
So each day, I walk away fromthings that do not serve me
anymore, like beating myself upbecause I'm not walking fast
enough, in my opinion, toexpansion, to my destiny.
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And yet life is always walkingup to us saying come on in, the
living is fine, but for today,maybe I want to take a picture
and I can walk away from thatself-condemnation and know that
soon, and very soon, my destinywill continue to unfold, even as
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it's unfolding right now, asI'm pausing to take some
pictures, pausing to see andponder and consider, and only
moving when God tells me to move.
And that is walking, maybe notthe way I think I should be
walking, but every step ismovement.
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So, if you've had a big oldblow and you're in recoup mode,
maybe it's best to not ventureinto an adventure just yet.
Maybe you just need to step offon the sidelines for a little
bit, like Teresa Maria's done,and gear up.
Because see, this wholeevolution, transformation
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process, oh buddy, it can bequite exhausting and it can
really feel like your whole lifeis being sucked out of you.
And how do we continue?
Well, we allow ourselves recouptime.
We allow ourselves plenty oftime to just be.
Are you free to just be today?
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Well, I hope.
Wherever you are in the process, that for you it will be an
absolutely wonder-filledWednesday.
Until next time, peace out.
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