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Speaker 1 (00:02):
Is life nothing more
than a continuous retreat from
our true selves as we'rehammered into shape by special
schools and social cues?
Well, claire Oshetsky reallydescribed for us the matrix
merry-go-round, did she not?
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And Ollie Anderson quotedperfectly when he said whether
you know it or not, whether youaccept it or not, everything you
do is about the reclamation ofyour own soul.
And I want to welcome you backto Free To Just Be the podcast,
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empowering humanity tocourageously step out of old
matrix patterns and programs andgive a big old hug to not only
a new earth but a whole new wayof being.
And I hope this finds you inthe greatest of health, with
vibrant energy today, becauseyou have chosen to give full
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responsibility for your body,mind and soul.
Here I will inspire you totruly be who you came here to be
Authentic, free and alignedwith our highest potential.
Join me, teresa Marie, yourtraveling ambassador of Chi, on
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this transformative journey torewrite our narratives and live
lives of purpose and passion.
And today, if you haven'talready figured it out, today
I'm going to focus onreclamation.
Yes, it's time to reclaim ourpersonhood.
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And what does reclaim mean?
To retrieve, to take backsomething that was lost, taken
or given away.
Have you ever felt like you'rejust gone?
You're gone, gone, gone likethe beginning.
Is it nothing more thanretreating?
Because we live in this big oldmatrix world?
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Right, and it's often a wholelot more difficult to go against
that proverbial matrix flow,right?
You know it's going round andaround and around, and if you
want to step off, well, you havethe tendency of maybe spinning
out to the ground, falling andskinning your knee or what have
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you.
So what do we do?
You know, everyone is trying tosearch for their true self, but
everyone hides from otherpeople.
Some people don't even showtheir true colors, who they
really are, to anybody, not eventheir family members or their
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spouse.
Can you imagine never being whoyou truly are?
To me, that is a life not evenworth living, right?
But the reason many of us neverself-actualize is because it is
easier to play a role than itis to become our true selves,
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which is what Jeff Goins said.
You know we step outside.
I want you to think about justgo with me here an image in you
get up and you do whatever yourmorning routine is, and you step
out of your home and walk toyour car.
How many of you, as you'regoing to a job that you
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absolutely hate.
Or maybe it's a position wherethe job is okay, but the people
you work with you are justmiserable where you're at.
How many of you, as you'redriving in to that paycheck,
which is really all it is.
It's not a vocation, it's notsomething that you love, it is
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something that you are onlyabsolutely tolerating to get
that money at the end of theweek.
It's the thank God.
It's Friday job, right, andwhat do we do?
We talk ourselves up.
Well, we're not really talkingourselves up.
What we're doing is we'reputting on that mask.
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Yep, I, you know I can do this.
I'm a survivor.
I, you know, I got this.
It's just eight hours.
It'll be over before I know it.
Just put on a happy face.
That, my dear ones, is the mask, the masks of life, and whether
we know it or not, we're stillall trying to reclaim our own
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souls.
And what is reclamation?
It's the act of something goingback to a former or better
state.
Now, I don't know about you, butwhen I was in utero, when I was
not in the matrix or on themerry ground yet, it was pretty
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blissful in there.
I was floating, I was theperfect temperature.
It was pretty blissful in there.
I was floating, I was theperfect temperature, I was being
fed, I was so comfortable and,you know, absolutely full of
ease, not dis-ease.
I was floating and justeverything was relaxed and I
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absolutely loved who I wasbecause there was no stress,
there was no pushback, there wasno matrix merry-go-round in
utero that I had to experience.
And then we had to come intothe world and immediately,
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immediately, we're given anumber, aka our social security
card, and we have been banked bythe Western world, by the cabal
, by the money changers.
Right, they banked on us.
They said, oh well, this personwas born in an upper middle
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class family, so they willprobably get a degree, so
they'll make X amount of money,and this is how much money we'll
make from them.
Oh yes, welcome to the matrix.
But then you know, reclamationcan also refer to restoring land
to its original condition.
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The land that I'm referring totoday is our body, mind and soul
, our temples, our personhood,everything that we came to be
right.
We're talking about restoringit to its original condition or
making it suitable for new use.
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Now we may not be able to goback and redo our past, but we
can certainly make our futuremore suitable for better use,
can't we?
And reclamation also refers tothe recovery of useful materials
from waste products.
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Well, of course, that's theenvironmental version of the
definition, but let's go theretalking about our personhood.
Have you ever come out of anincredible dark night of the
soul, a tunnel you thought youwere never going to come out of,
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and everything fell apart.
An aspect of your lifeabsolutely unraveled, and it
ended up.
You learned some very usefullessons, useful material from
what looked like a wasteland.
Right, so we can applyreclamation to the personal
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reclamation that I'm speakingabout.
And what does Google say is thedefinition of personal
reclamation?
It's the process orre-evaluation and re-authoring
of your life story to what Toalign with your own values and
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truth.
It involves actively choosingyour path and reclaiming
ownership of your life, oftenafter a period of focusing on
others or external pressures.
That is the matrix, theexternal pressures is the matrix
wheel that goes round andaround that we feel like we're
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the hamster in the cage, rightand right now, literally, it's
becoming more and more prevalentand more and more obvious that
the main motivation ofHumanityville is literally the
title of this podcast.
Humanity is literally wantingto be free to just be.
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We want to be our true selves.
We want to pursue our dreamswithout restriction, to truly
live what we could actually callpersonal freedom.
We want to live in personalfreedom.
But man oh man, reclamation canbe big or little, and I'm going
to use a couple of personalexamples of stupid choices that
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I made, decisions that I made tofollow the matrix again right
over the last year or so, soright before, for an example,
right before I went to Florida I, you know, I was, I was
convincing myself.
Now, this is, this is hindsightlearning, but hindsight's 2020,
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right?
So every lesson is a lesson.
So don't discount things thatyou learn on the other side of
coming out of whatever it isthat you're coming out of.
Okay, so lessons can be learnedthrough the good and the bad
and everything in between, andone of the things that I did was
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I let go or I justifiedsomething that I had been doing
for like 12 or 13 years and I'vespoken about it numerous times
in earlier episodes and that isjust loving who I was becoming
in my 50s and observing andactually enjoying and being
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intrigued with thisquote-unquote aging process, and
I've shared many times about.
You know, I don't care that theworld is dying their hair.
I really I've earned every oneof those gray hairs and I think
my gray hair is beautiful.
And before I left for Florida,my hair was about down to my
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derriere, to my boudet, and somewild hair.
And I'll tell you what the wildhair is called.
It's called insecurity, it'scalled comparison, it's called
oh, and it just dawned on me,compare is sin.
So if sin the definition of sinis literally missing the mark,
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then comparing yourself, teresaMarie, to other people your age
who quote unquote look a lotyounger.
And why do they look younger?
Because they are continuing todye their hair and put their
makeup masks on and do all theMatrix merry-go-round things.
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Well, it was easy for me topoint my finger and judge people
when I wasn't out in the Matrixworld.
But you see, before I went toFlorida, I got to thinking well,
it's a brand new life and I'mgoing into a brand new way of
being and I'm going to help openthis wellness center and you
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know, I wonder what I would looklike with my medium brown hair
again.
Oh, it'd be a nice change.
So here it comes, here comesthe admittal and then the
reclamation.
I literally cut 13 inches ofhair from my head and my hair is
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now just down to my shoulders,and I dyed it.
Well, I had somebody dye it.
And the first time I hadsomebody dye it I did another
foolish thing.
I said oh, I've heard such goodthings about you and you know
what.
They were all true.
This particular individual wasabsolutely fantastical at color
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and highlights and all thingshair.
So as I sat in this person'schair, you know, and was asked
well, what do you want to do?
Well, I am tired of the gray.
First mistake and I just needsomething different.
Second mistake what I neededneed something different.
Second mistake what I neededwas to be more authentic, not to
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go into the seat of comparisonand become like everybody else.
But you know I digress.
So then the person that wasgoing to quote, unquote,
transform me said well, I thinkit would look really good,
platinum.
And I was thinking to myselfplatinum.
Well, I've never been blondeand I never wanted to be blonde.
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But then I said the foolhardywords well, I trust you, just do
what you think is best.
Just do what you think is best.
Error number three so I put theway I look into somebody else's
hands and can you see the setup.
I ended up saying, oh yeah,well, it's going to take some
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getting used to, yeah, it's realdifferent.
Yeah, I think I'm really goingto love it To go out in the car
and think, oh my God, what did Ijust do?
I felt like I looked older.
I didn't like it at all, but Iquote unquote dealt with it for
about two months and then I gotto Florida and then the peer
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pressure started.
I can remember some of thepeople I worked with regarding
another individual I work with,saying things like well, what
are we going to do about her andthe way she looks?
We're going to have to have herdo something with her hair, put
it up or do something.
And I'm thinking to myself thatis so rude and and that is so
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judgmental and that is so petty.
But did I open my mouth indefense?
Well, I did.
I said well, I think thisperson is beautiful, just the
way they are.
And you know, of course,nothing was heard about that.
But in my own little head, inmy mind, between my ears, what I
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was hearing was oh, buddy, Ineed to do something too,
because I am not cutting themustard here.
I need to what Conform?
We don't want to conformhumanity, we want to transform.
We don't want to become likeeverybody else.
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We want to become our beautiful, unique, authentic selves.
Right.
But as the story continues, thistime I thought I am not going
to pay somebody to color my haira way I don't want, I'm going
to go pick out the color myself.
Way I don't want, I'm going togo pick out the color myself.
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So I went to a local Walgreensand spent like $14 on a medium
brown hair color and I took ithome to my little retreat in
Florida and I put it on my head.
And as I put it on my head, Iwas thinking well, why is this
like?
And as I put it on my head, Iwas thinking well, why is this
like white?
It's almost like completelywhite.
You know, usually dye, when youput it on your hair, it starts
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to turn dark, like the color youwant.
But as I continued to put thiscolor on my hair, it got lighter
and lighter, and lighter and Ithought what the heck?
And I looked at the color andthe color said medium brown.
And guess what, what was insidethe box was not medium brown
folks, and when I get out of theshower I look like a freaking
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albino.
Okay, it was like I had nocolor on my head.
My hair was almost completelytranslucent white.
I could see my scalp through itand I was like, oh my God, what
in the heck did I just do?
So I put on a hat and I wentback to Walgreens and I bought
yet another color, droppedanother 14 or 15 bucks and came
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home with a darker shade andcame out with a very unnatural
looking brown color.
And then for the next threemonths my hair felt like
absolute crap.
And I might also add that inthe big city of Jacksonville,
florida, the water is soincredibly bad.
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Jacksonville has some of theworst city water ever.
I had done so much damage to myhair.
My beautiful hair that hadn'thad color, that was back to its
purity, that felt so good, thathad life and body to it, was now
stripped, was now crispy, wasnow so damaged that I could wash
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my hair and, after it dried, Icould literally lift up a
section of it and it would juststay straight out of my head.
That's how incredibly crunchyand bad my hair was.
Oh, buddy, yep.
So what is Therese Marie doingnow?
So what is Therese Marie doingnow?
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Six weeks out from returningfrom Florida and of blonde, from
all the sun that I've been inthis whole summer, and then it's
got shades of my natural mediumbrown and my gray all coming
back in all at once.
And I'm going to tell you whatmy reclamation is.
I do not give a flying F whatanybody thinks about what's
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going on on my head.
I'm not wearing a hat, I'm notcovering it up.
I am reclaiming my natural haircolor which, by the way, it's
getting real gray, and I feel somuch better about myself
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because I don't care if I don'tlook like every other
64-year-old woman that is toofreaking scared.
Yeah, I'm calling you to thecarpet If you don't think you
want to age and you think thatyou have to stay forever young,
well, I am forever young on thecarpet.
If you don't think you want toage and you think that you have
to stay forever young, well, Iam forever young on the inside
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and my body is doing itsmetamorphosis the way it
naturally occurs, and I am goingto let it.
I'm going to let it naturallygo back to gray.
I am not going to go back intothe matrix program that says
anti-aging anything I'm notputting.
Well, I've never put theanti-aging creams on my wrinkles
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.
I've earned every one of thoselittle star wrinkles around my
eyes and the crinkle on myforehead because I never wear
sunscreen or hats in the sun,right?
What other personal reclamationdo I have going on currently?
Well, the other example I wantto share is the reclamation of
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my yards, my flower beds, myvegetable gardens, my berry
bushes beds, my vegetablegardens, my berry bushes.
Well, in the last two yearssince I've been gone, you know,
when I left my gardens inTennessee, I had just planted,
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oh I don't know 12 to 14different varieties of grapes
and berries and goji andelderberry.
And, bless my husband's heart,in his transformation process,
especially the first year, hecould barely, you know, just
stay in his own routine becausehe was going through his dark
night of the soul and the lastthing Roger was going to do was
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to keep the gardens up.
So guess what Teresa Marie isgetting to do now and I must say
it is the biggest delight ofevery day that I get to do it
and that is the reclamation.
I am reclaiming every flower bed, I am reclaiming my property.
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And another good example wouldbe about three years ago, there
was a section of our yard thatwe cleared like eight feet out
right.
I even put up a wireclothesline between two trees to
have an additional outdoorclothesline.
Because I don't know about you,I absolutely love clothes,
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especially bedding sheets andblankets that smell so good
being hung out on the line.
Well, in three years, guess whoreclaimed that eight feet of
Woods?
You got it the woods.
The woods not only grew back,but they grew back even thicker
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in the area that we cleared.
So why am I even sharing all ofthis?
Because we need to actuallybegin to reclaim ourselves.
In order to realize our trueselves, we have to be willing to
live without being dependent onthe opinion of others, which is
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a quote by Bruce Lee.
Now I literally made an errorchoice.
I turned back toward the matrixbecause I was comparing myself
with other women who, forwhatever reason they have, did
not have the courage to becomewho they were becoming Older,
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wiser, with gray hair on theirhead.
Some of these women can't leavetheir house without having
their eyebrows drawn on ormakeup on, and, oh buddy, they
are not going to take a picture.
I can remember one of themsaying to me Miss Terry, we're
taking pictures.
Go, put your lipstick on To thewoman who's never worn lipstick
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in her life, I think maybe Itried it on a couple of times
and thought, oh, no way, I'm notdoing this, you know, it just
gets caked on your lip.
No, I'm not doing it, but I did.
I succumbed.
I justified my choice of goingback onto that matrix
merry-go-round.
Oh, and let me just tell onmyself further.
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During that same time periodthat I quote unquote dyed my
hair and you know, the firsttime it was brown.
Oh, it looks so good.
And I got so many complimentsand, oh, you look so much
younger.
Oh, and all of it's just BS,folks.
It's just BS Because I'm still64 years old.
You know, most 64-year-oldsdon't have their natural hair
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coloring anymore.
So what is the big deal really,when you think about it?
But during that same timeperiod I thought oh, you know,
we're getting ready for thisgrand opening, I'm going to get
my nails done and I've alwayswanted French tips.
Now, I thought French tips werejust they painted the white on
the top of your nails.
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I had no idea, when I asked forFrench tips, what they were
doing.
They're dipping my hands inthis stuff and I'm like you know
, oh, this is interesting.
So this is how you get Frenchtips.
Oh yes, some of you people thatyou know every three weeks go
get your nails done, knowexactly what was happening.
Well, I was getting acrylicsput on my nails.
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I had no freaking clue.
Oh, and they look so pretty.
And I stared down at them and Ithought, oh, wow, look, I have
arrived.
I man, I just look so culturedand I look so you know, so much
more put together this way.
And people don't have any clue.
And you know, I haven't had myhands in dirt in so long.
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So, oh, these nails will.
They will last about threeweeks.
Two and a half weeks in, thisacrylic stuff started cracking
and crackling.
And that's when I discoveredthat it wasn't just regular nail
polish.
It was layer upon layer of thisacrylic crap, this poison that
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I allowed somebody to put on myfingernails, and by the time it
was all picked off, my nailswere destroyed.
I mean, my nails were in suchbad shape that as they would
grow, they would curl up andthen the nail would just break
off up, and then the nail wouldjust break off.
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Four, almost five months later,my nails are back, and I do
have to say that the redemption,the reclamation of my nails has
been even better than my hair,because, you know, my hair still
has probably another three tosix months before it'll
completely be back to itsoriginal color, which is
whatever color that my makeup isin the process of giving me
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right Now, I don't know.
By the time it's over, I mightbe completely gray.
You might not see any brown onmy hair, and that's the way it's
going to be, you know.
And my nails, though, my nails,wow, they are harder.
Can you hear me tapping on that?
They are harder than they'veever been and my nails are so
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long and they stay long, so much, shaped, beautifully,
reclamation my true self.
So if our main motivation,living Bill, is truly to be free
to just be who we are, then ifwe want to live without
restriction, if we really trulywant to be living in personal
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freedom, then what we need to dois have courage enough to stand
by ourselves, have courageenough to not be dependent on
the opinion of others, because,you know, in the big picture,
nobody really gives a rip whatwe do.
If we think for a second thatanybody is at their house saying
, oh my God, did you see theirnails?
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Did you see her hair?
Omg, I can't believe.
Well, you know what?
Let me take that back, becausethere are people that do that.
There are people that judge andpoint and ridicule and gossip,
and those are the people thatare not willing to turn around
and face their own stuff.
But that's not you and I.
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You and I are like what BrenBrown says.
You and I are willing to riskventuring into the wilderness.
And what does the wildernesslook like?
Sometimes it looks like you'rethe only one in your friend
group that is not dying theirhair.
The wilderness looks like youhave decided that dirt under
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your nails is a good look foryou and F the other people who
think that they need to go gettheir nails done.
You have decided that wildernessmeans that you may be becoming
yourself all by yourself.
And that is very much whathappens when you finally eat
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that bitter red pill and youbegin to wake up to the fact
that you have been programmedand lied to your whole life and
now you're finally willing.
You don't care what it takes,you don't care who is going to
gossip about you.
You don't care about anythingto do with the matrix, mary
Grant.
All you care about is livingyour authentic self.
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You are so tired of putting onmask after mask, whatever it is
for you.
Maybe it's not dying your hair,maybe it is something
completely different, maybe it'scontinuing to go out after work
on a Friday with your workpeople when you don't want to
drink any.
And you finally decided youknow what.
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This is not doing anything formy life.
And if I have to lose thisgroup of friends on a Friday
night, if they're going to dogme because I don't want to drink
, that is my choice.
So those of us that are willingto risk venturing into the
wilderness or even becoming yourown wilderness oh yeah, baby.
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How many of you out therelistening to Free To Just Be
have been in the feel positionin the last month?
How many of you have hadincredible racing thoughts
between your ears and you thinkthat you're the only one?
How many of you feel like, ohmy God, I stopped the world, I
want to get off.
Guess what Every one of us inHumanityville, at one time or
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another, has is, or will feelthat way.
And guess what?
The best part about BreanneBrown's quote is that we feel
the deepest connection to ourtrue self, and that is what
matters most.
And the way we get there isbeing willing to venture into
that wilderness, being willing,in whatever way, shape or form
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it is, to get ourselves off thatmatrix merry-go-round.
That is where true freedom lies, and even William Shakespeare,
way back in the day, had itright when he quoted this above
all else to thine own matrix,merry-go-round, be true.
Oh hell no, to thine own selfbe true.
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You, my dearest brother orsister in humanity-ville, you
can literally get yourself offthat matrix merry-go-round and
become more and more authentic.
You can reclaim your hair, youcan reclaim the yard of your
life, you can reclaim whateverit is that you allowed or had
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ripped from you, or what youchose to give to the matrix.
You can take it all back andyou can self-actualize because
you've discovered that you canno longer play with the masks on
.
So will you embrace the calmtoday, will you embrace the
silence that we woke up andheard our true selves for the
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first time?
Can you, today, think aboutwhat it is that you have done to
give yourself away to thematrix?
What part of the matrix is notyour true, authentic self.
Because ours is a battle.
It's not for power, it's notfor wealth.
It is a battle for personalfreedom, for the reclamation of
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our human personalities, and wecan do this.
Self-awareness helps you tounderstand who you are, who
you're pretending to be.
It'll help you understand dothey just love you, or is it the
mask that you put on every daythat they love?
Is it time for you to honoryour authentic self?
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Is it time for you to reclaimyour soul?
Because from a young age, manyof us learn to put others' needs
above our own, suppress our ownfeelings, even change parts of
who we are, just to feelaccepted.
That is one of the biggestprograms on the Matrix
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merry-go-round.
You will not be accepted ifyou're your authentic self.
What an incredible lie.
That is.
So, on this Tuesday evening,express yourself tonight
unapologetically, considerliterally reclaiming yourself,
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whatever that looks like for you, whatever that looks like for
you the reclamation.
It's up to you, and you and Ican come back home and be free
to just be who we are when werecognize that the denial of our
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true selves is the ultimateproblem.
That's why we have the itch wecan't scratch, that's why we are
frustrated.
That's why it is better to beyourself, even if it means being
alone.
It's better to embrace thatsolitude rather than losing your
identity in a crowd that reallydoesn't care who you are anyway
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.
And remember, authenticity isnothing more than a collection
of choices that we get to makeevery single day.
It's about the choice to showup as we really are.
The choice to be honest,brutally honest, with nobody but
ourselves.
The choice to be seen as who wereally are.
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Don't fall back into that trapof the matrix that says, oh,
wearing a mask is the best wayto show our true selves, because
that way everybody's the sameand we won't offend anybody.
The soul behind the eyes thatis the bridge between the past
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you and the you.
You want to be, the authenticyou you want to be.
Can you walk over that bridge?
Can you come back in to the youyou've always wanted to be?
Because the privilege of alifetime, said Joseph Campbell,
is being who you are.
Can you acknowledge and acceptall of your emotions for the
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insights they provide?
Can you find your true self?
Oh, my goodness, the courage ittakes to be ourselves.
And if we do that, we will findourselves in wave after wave of
change and we will find our truenorth, our true direction,
because humanity, life, beginsat the end of our comfort zones
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and all this time we werefinding ourselves.
We didn't even know we werelost.
So if you're feeling that itch,if you're feeling that
frustration, if you drive homeand just think I can't wait to
take this bra off, I can't waitto take these work boots off, I
can't wait.
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Why can't you wait?
Because you can't wait to getoff of that matrix
merry-go-round and go into yourown quote-unquote safe space.
To be yourself and Ralph WaldoEmerson said it great, he said
to be yourself in a world thatis constantly trying to make you
something else is the greatestaccomplishment.
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So today, humanity, what willyou reclaim?
What one little iota today canyou put your guard down and
invite in that's truly you,instead of spending most of your
energy trying to hide your trueself and control what the world
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?
You know, that's what we do.
We hide ourselves and we try tocontrol the world on the
outside, the externals, so thatwe'll feel better when it's the
reverse.
We need to go inside and letour true selves out, because
then it won't matter what'sgoing on in the external world
because we're going to feel sogood about ourselves.
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Yeah, and I'm going to closewith Swami Dehan Gittin's quote,
who said an individual who isrooted in his inner self is
always, always blissful.
So ponder, see this reclamationepisode and ask yourself the
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question am I frustrated or am Iblissful?
Am I truly my authentic self oram I pleasing everybody else?
Am I walking away from thematrix or am I still clinging to
the opinion of others?
And I love you, humanity, and Ihope you will choose to
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recognize that pain is anopportunity to resurrect our
true selves.
And so, as you step away fromthe matrix and head into a
quote-unquote wilderness, remindyourself that this is an
opportunity.
You may be by yourself, but youmight become a little bit more
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authentic, a little bit more youPeace out.