May 20, 2025 • 52 mins
🎙️ EPISODE 137: Ego Improv
“Your ego is doing improv in your skull—and we call it truth? Nah. That’s pain with a mic.”
In this soul-shaking solo riff, Scott pulls apart the destructive improv routine running in our minds and lays out how to reclaim authorship over your inner narrative. Inspired by The Untethered Soul, this episode explores the power of simply witnessing your thoughts instead of becoming them.
Scott unpacks the idea of taking action in opposition to the mind—when it says, "You can't," you go anyway. He ties in addiction recovery, the false self, and even drops a breakdown of Jasmine’s Hero's Journey from Disney’s Aladdin. From the voice in your head to the spiritual power of disruption, this episode is a firestarter for anyone ready to drop the act and live in truth.
🔹 Learn how ego programs our reactions 🔹 The illusion of thought as identity 🔹 Why action, not analysis, leads to healing 🔹 Jasmine, Raja, and the call to a whole new world 🔹 The divine purpose in disruption
Watch your thoughts, not because they’re true—but because they aren’t you.
This one hits deep. No fluff. Just truth.
Hit play and let’s get free.
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SPEAKER_01 (00:00):
What's the eternal principle?
UNKNOWN (00:03):
That one.
SPEAKER_01 (00:05):
Which is?
Well, we call it God, but thatpersonifies it.
SPEAKER_00 (00:15):
If you had a roommate who was constantly
criticizing you, cutting youdown, reminding you of all your
mistakes, reminding you of yourtrauma, you'd kick that son of a
bitch out, wouldn't you?
In a heartbeat.
But somehow, when that voiceechoes in our skull, we call it
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truth.
We just deal with it.
That's not truth.
That's pain with a microphone.
That's your ego doing improv onyour soul.
I read The Untethered Soulrecently.
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And it talks about this concept,Michael Singer, the untethered
soul.
And he was a guy who had aspiritual experience where he
started witnessing his mindstarting to come up with things
that he should say when he wasin the living room with one of
his buddies and TV was off orthere was like a lull in
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conversation.
And his mind started...
Should we talk about theweather?
Should we talk about this?
Should I ask him how his daywas?
I wonder what, blah, blah, blah,blah, blah.
And he's like, what the hell isgoing on, right?
We all have this voice.
Michael Singer in The UntetheredSoul calls it the inner
roommate.
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If you can hear the thoughts inyour mind, if you can listen to
them, then who's doing thetalking and who's doing the
listening?
And so Singer's whole point inThe Untethered Soul is about
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stepping back in the seat ofawareness.
He says it's almost back and up.
He's a guy who had a spiritualexperience and then turned his
life over to...
experientially trying to justhave a relationship, be curious
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about, find more about thisvoice in the head, if you will.
And he put it all down in a bookfor us, right?
A book changed my life.
It changed my life.
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So the whole point is we are notour thoughts.
Our thoughts are just energyforms, okay?
We can choose to identify withwhatever thought we would like,
right?
And now it's obviously reallycute and pretty to say, but, you
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know, when you're about to go dosomething scary, And your mind's
like, we're anxious.
And then your body gets allfucking tense.
You can't just be like, oh,that's just a thought, man.
No, I'm not anxious.
I remember what Michael Singersaid in The Untethered Soul.
You know what I'm saying?
It just doesn't fucking work.
I don't know.
I've never really had thatexperience.
But nonetheless, the knowledgetends to pivot our compass just
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enough where we start to takelittle daily steps towards
unraveling the story and theidentification with the mind.
So the next time the realfearful thing happens, we're
like, oh shit, I'm not asscared.
At any rate, number one, beforeyou even consider reading the
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book, you have to be so sick andtired of your mind that you're
willing to address it in anymanner, in any manner, even if
it We replay things over andover and over and over and over
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in our head, things thathappened 20 years ago, things
that happened six months ago,things that happened a week ago.
It's like, you know, A, youknow, this dude said, hey,
Scott, you suck in high school.
And 30 years later, I'm like,fucking that guy, man.
I cannot believe, you know,Willie or whatever the shit, you
know?
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And so...
You know, then you'll respond inanger.
Your body will respond.
Your nervous system will jumpinto that moment like it's
happening again.
And so, you know, how healed arewe really from those ugly or
rough moments in our lives thatwe'd rather not remember?
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And so...
Your ego plays improv on you,and it just fills your mind up
with the stats.
As scientists, I guess it's likearound 30,000 to 50,000 thoughts
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a day, and none of them revealanything about you more than a
freckle does on the end of yournose.
They're just thoughts, right?
I have bad ones, I have goodones, but it doesn't have to
change how I move.
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So at any rate, one of the mostpowerful concepts that we can
work with is to just witness thethinking mind, letting the mind
be the mind.
Light Watkins says, Right.
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Right.
if we step back or release thisidentification, identification
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is to become, to step intosomething, right?
And so if the higher self isseated back in a level of
awareness, right, you can watchyour mind Just think.
If you really practice this, youcan anchor into the breath or
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work with the concept of, I'mlistening to my mind think.
I'm not speaking right now.
My mind is thinking, but I'malso a witness to the narration,
to the story.
And for a long time, we're noteven privy to there even being
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any type of separation.
I just am what I think.
Here's a for instance.
Scott, you're an addict.
Oh, okay.
Yeah, I'm an addict.
Here's some heroin.
Right?
And now it's like that thoughtisn't even a fucking thing
anymore.
It doesn't even say, hey, you'rean addict.
It never even says, oh, you'reuncomfortable.
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Do some drugs.
Get out of it.
Doesn't say it anymore.
Not a thing.
Gone.
Right?
So the thought life changed.
Because I stopped responding to,hey, you're an addict.
And I go, oh, yeah, I'm anaddict.
I guess I got to do drugs anddrink now, right?
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Once recovery gave me the graceto not do that, right, I no
longer became identified as Withthat fucking story, the
narration, the you're a piece ofshit, you're never going to make
it, you're a junk box, you'renever going to get sober, why
try, you're too uncomfortable,run, hide.
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And I would just go, yep, yep,yep, yep, yep, yep, yep.
And I'd be like, well, thesethoughts, these thoughts are me.
I'm wearing it.
It is what it is.
And this is how I'm just how I'mliving my life, you know.
And thank God for chainbreakers.
Thank God for expanders.
Thank God for vitalized men, youknow, vitalized men and women
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who can spot the terror ofsomebody being identified with
such a warfare state of mind,you know, and to step into that
warfare and put their armsaround you and say, hang on with
me for a little bit.
I've been there too.
I'm going to show you how to dothis, but we ain't going to
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think our way out of it.
I'm just going to get you totake action in opposition to
your mind.
And we go, well, what the helldoes that mean?
That means when your mind says,hey, you're uncomfortable, go
get high.
You don't, right?
Take action in opposition toyour mind.
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Mind says, hey, we're scared.
You definitely can't do this.
And then you're scared, and thenyou just do it anyways.
That ego, that voice of improv,it has in that moment with that
fear, right, the little nuancesit has on you, it loosens its
grip.
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It's losing the narration.
It's losing the identification,right?
It's saying, hey, we're this,don't forget.
And I'm like, I don't know.
I don't know if I want to bethat.
And it's like, who the fuck toldhim he had freedom, right?
Who told him he had a choice,right?
Who told him he had a fuckingchoice?
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So by the power of others, I wasshown how to walk out my own
power.
I was shown that I actually dohave a choice to act in
opposition to my mind.
And so my mind used to, thesethoughts used to fill my skull
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up with just doubt, doubt, poorself-worth, worry, remorse,
dread.
self-pity, dishonesty,neediness, you know, just like,
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just my skull was just, it wasjust lower self shit, you know?
And I would just be like, yeah,I'm that.
And then I would act inaccordance with that thought.
That thought opens up a feelingin the body that And then that
feeling propels the body intoaction.
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And when you take a mind andbody and you move it into action
throughout the world, youcreate.
We're little creating machines.
Whether we want to be or not, weare creating all of the time.
Not some of the times, all ofthe times.
One more time for all the times.
And we go, well, how am Icreating all the time?
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Well, I have a thought.
That kind of parallels itselfwith feeling.
I respond emotionally to thisthought, you know, you're a
piece of shit.
You're never going to make it.
Contracted, lower self, ho-hum,self-pity, eorship.
You take that guy and you lethim loose into the world.
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Now that guy is creating a worldfor you.
Now that guy is affecting yourrelationships, your intimate
relationships with yoursiblings, with your parents,
with your job, whether you'reshowing up late to work or not,
how much ambition you have.
You know, I mean, fuckingeverything, everything.
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And so we get identified withthese fucking thoughts.
And it's just like people don'trealize that that thought is
pimping them out like a$2 hoe.
You know, hey, you're sad andit's never going to be any
better.
And, you know, you should justlike, you know, walk around and
feel bad for yourself.
Oh, OK.
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You know, and then you spend twoweeks hating your life and
everyone you stumble into until,you know, some freaking crack in
the universe.
You get out of it somehow andyou're like, oh, that fucking
sucked.
I should try and not do thatagain.
And it just takes like immenseamounts of pain.
to become painstakingly aware ofthe thought life and 100%
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responsible to shoulder thatlife of it to change.
Like in this recovery book,right?
The big book, it says, ourthought life will be placed on a
much higher plane when ourthinking is cleared of wrong
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motives.
Prior to that, it says, youknow, upon awakening, we ask God
to divorce our minds ofself-pity, dishonesty, or
self-seeking motives.
If I divorce my mind of theselower vibrational BS, whatever,
right, my thought life isnaturally going to be placed on
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a much higher plane, right?
And my thinking is now clearedof wrong motives.
And now I'm going to be able torely upon the intuition or my
inner guidance system, right?
Which comes through charmfulthought.
And now I can rely on that.
Why?
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Because the energy thatdishonesty, self-seeking, and
self-pity are The energy thatthat shit robs from me, it
contracts a human to where he'sfucking ho-hum Eeyore, right?
And just forget about it, dude.
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You're now a slave to that.
We call that the bondage ofself.
The bondage of self.
Just manufacturing your ownmisery day in, day out.
Just, what are you going to dotoday?
I'm going to manufacture somemore misery for myself.
How about you?
That sounds like hell.
Yeah, it is.
Why don't you not do it?
I don't know how.
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You know what I'm saying?
Like, oh, I love it.
So anyways, I got to chill out alittle bit.
This is the power of the mind.
And, you know, it's going totake a...
radical spark of truth to hityou in between the eyes, to make
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you willing to consider thatyour story, the thoughts that
you have, which are pretty muchthe same day in and day out,
that maybe they ain't it.
Maybe they ain't clicking.
Maybe you're fucking wrong.
What if you were wrong aboutyourself?
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What if you didn't know who youwere?
What if you really didn't knowwhat you wanted?
What if you didn't know?
How would you know?
Would you be willing to givethat up?
And in order to draw aconclusion from that, you just
look at the life that you'vecreated and you say, how's it
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going?
Am I happy with the report?
You know?
How's the report?
Not good.
Would you like to change it?
Kind of.
What are you willing to do?
I guess anything.
All right.
Well, check this out.
Stop listening to your fuckingself.
Stop listening.
That's why there's mentors,right?
That's why there's mentors.
That's why there's sponsors.
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It's because there's a reasonwhy there's journeymen and
apprentice.
That's why there's...
tattoo artists and apprentice inthe shop, right?
That's why there's, you know,NFL, college, high school,
peewee, like you have to learn,like, okay.
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You could probably jump in, evenif like you're not a good
swimmer, right?
You could probably jump in theocean and figure it out and like
swim and be okay, okay?
Swimming is thinking, right?
or navigating your thought life.
And you'd probably be all right,you know.
But if somebody took the time toshow you how to swim, to show
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you the right stroke, how tobreathe in fluid movement, which
I still can't do, by the way,show you how to do the
breaststroke, I don't know, whatother one, you know, freestyle,
isn't there like a frog or someshit like that?
I don't know.
You get what I'm saying, right?
There is experts who havelearned how to leverage water
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with the God-given body andoxygen that they're given.
And as a result, they move fluidthrough the water for miles,
miles.
You throw a guy like me in therewithout that type of skill, I
almost drowned when I had toswim 400 meters for my first
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ever sprint triathlon.
It's a sprint, all right?
It's like 10-mile bike, 5K run,and then 400-meter swim.
Just in case you don't knowmeters, 400 meters is a quarter
mile.
It was literally like from thebeach out, It was like a big U
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and I started in the front andfucking finished last.
And I was coming by the dude andhe was like, you know, one of
like the lifeguards and likenext to the buoy, but he was in
like a kayak, but he was likekind of lifeguard, but like kind
of not.
He was like, I'm going to have achill day.
No one's definitely for sure.
No one's going to drown.
Right.
And then like, here comes me.
I'm like, I'm like, you know,like doggy paddling.
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Right.
And he just looked down at meand it was like one of the most
embarrassing moments.
I don't know if it was likeembarrassing.
It just, he knew how sad I waswith myself and he looked me in
the eye and let me know that.
And he was holding the paddleand he was just like, you're
almost there, bro.
And it was just like, he had nointent on helping me.
Like for sure.
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If I started to drown, he wouldhave been like, dude, you should
have fucking figured this out.
Don't come in the ocean, notknowing how to swim for a sprint
triathlon.
Your boy did it.
I did it anyways.
I almost, fuck, it was bad, allright?
I couldn't, it was bad.
So that's a guy who doesn't knowhow to swim.
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That's a guy who is completelyidentified with, hey, you're an
addict.
Hey, you know, it's never goingto work out for you.
Just give up, low self-worth,blah, blah, blah, blah, blah,
blah, blah.
All that bullshit, man.
And who the is telling you thatyou have to be that?
You are.
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If anyone else talked to me theway I used to talk to myself, I
mean, I'm not really that muchof an angry dude anymore.
I mean, I have my flare-ups, butI'd have to kill him.
I'd have to kill him, you know?
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Imagine somebody talking to yourmother, your father, your wife,
your husband, or your kids theway that you sometimes talk to
yourself.
You'd kill him.
Broad daylight, not a problem.
Easily go to jail.
You talk to my blood like that.
UNKNOWN (20:54):
No.
SPEAKER_00 (20:56):
So why do we settle for these things ourselves?
Very interesting question to sitwith.
Why on earth would I settle formyself, settle with the pain
that I would never impart onanother human being?
But why do I just put it on myown plate like I'm going to a
buffet?
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You know, if you were to meetyourself, pick a time, 10 years
ago, your teenage yourself,whatever it may be, right?
If you were to meet yourself,would you hug you or slap you
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across the head?
That's a looking in view towhere we're at with
self-forgiveness.
Why do you think that I am suchan asshole when it comes to
whining?
Boo freaking hoo.
Get over it.
Stop whining.
It's because that's all I usedto do, is whine.
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Whine.
I can't stand that.
I can't fucking stand it, right?
So that would...
That pretty much says that Ihaven't really forgiven this
past version of myself orhaven't really truly accepted
him and loved him as part of astory.
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Somebody once told me we look onthat guy like a younger brother.
He's my brother, man.
He's an idiot sometimes, buthe's growing.
That's the love, right?
I think about some of thepodcasts I've done six years
ago, and I cringe sometimes.
I cringe.
I look at him like a youngerbrother.
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It's literally all I knew andcould be in that time in life.
The same way all I am and all Ican be and speak of is where I'm
at in this current state ofconsciousness right now.
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And so five years from now, forme to be upset with the me right
now for talking about theuntethered soul in such a bad
way, such a poor way.
How could I ever be upset withmyself?
It's my experience right now.
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There's nothing I can do aboutit.
This is also the path offorgiveness for our parents,
things we've gone through askids and whatnot.
But yeah, think about this, allright?
Think about your mind, yourthought life, okay?
The thoughts you have concerningyourself.
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And we go, would you hire you?
Would you start a business withyou?
Would you let you in your hometo have family dinner with your
kids?
Would you send your daughter outon a date with the mind you have
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or vice versa?
Appallingly, the answer is no,if we're honest.
If we're really, reallywitnessing the intricacies of
our thought life and the improvthat ego is trying to play in
there, it's a sobering thought.
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It's a very sobering thought.
The goal is to get to the placewhere we would pick ourselves 10
out of 10 times.
Where you line yourself upagainst the wall with nine other
men, right?
And you get to see a preview, alittle bubble of thought life
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above each man's head, right?
And it's like, you know, shadeof red is really bad.
Yellow is like, okay, we'redoing some work.
Green is like, okay, we're doingall right, you know?
No matter the shade of green,even in all its imperfections,
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the goal is to always pickyourself.
Always be willing to pickyourself.
Because that's radicalacceptance of who I am, what I'm
thinking, how I'm speaking, andhow I'm living right now.
It's okay with me because I amgenuinely...
trying to grow and develop underthe grace of God.
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And no matter how far weprogress, we are always going to
have desires that oppose God'sgrace.
I'm always going to haveiterations of me that try to
shoot myself in the foot.
It's just, you know, I don'tknow.
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Call it whatever you want.
But I know that it is a damnreal part of my life okay and so
as long as I bring that pain tothe altar as long as I bring
that ego up to the altar and I'mwilling to sacrifice this and
say show me a new way to thinkhere I'm not going to experience
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much different result and solike for me right my one of my
you know, thorns of my thoughtlife is lack of self-belief or
self-worth in terms of like, youknow, Scott, you can't do it.
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You can't do that.
You know, you can't do that.
That's dope.
That's awesome.
That's awesome.
That would be so sick.
But like, that ain't, you can'thave that.
You know, that's not, that's notit.
And it's like, where's that?
And who the fuck's saying that?
And where did it come from?
And most importantly, do I haveto listen?
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Now, I'm not certain I can justbe like, never mind, I can.
I can.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Who said you can?
I did.
Okay, I can.
For me, it's more like, again,taking action in opposition to
the mind.
So the mind goes, you can't.
And I go, maybe, but I'm goingto do it anyways.
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and just move forward.
You know, I went and had thehonor to go speak at Ole Miss.
Now I had to speak to a roomfull of, it was probably, I
don't know, I think it was like200 people.
But the point is, like, collegeathletes, like, you know,
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top-tier athletes, right?
I'm not going up there to do arecovery talk or a talk on
addiction, right?
So it's like a whole differentcrowd, whole different ballgame,
like, you know, cameras, vlog,like all this stuff.
Something I never did before,right?
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But what has changed with me isI no longer just say okay to the
you-can't-do-it identification,right?
I'm not fucking willing anymore.
I'm not willing.
And that's not because I'm justlike, you know.
The only reason why that is isbecause I've experienced enough
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pain from the guy who says,you're right, I can't.
I've done that song and dancefor far too long.
I want to see what happens whenI don't listen to that.
I think it was Gandhi who said,whether you think you can or you
think you can't, you're right.
That wraps everything up rightthere.
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Whether you think you can or youthink you can't, you're right.
And there's this act as ifprinciple.
Shout out Matt Durso.
He told me it's a therapist,actually.
It's a psychotherapy, I don'tknow, tool or whatever, but it's
act as if.
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You can, and then you will findyourself doing, right?
Act as if you can, and you willsooner or later find that you
are doing the thing.
And so you step into that.
So that whole fake it till youmake it thing, it's real because
you're not really faking it.
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You think you're faking itbecause you're so used to the I
can't voice.
So when you step out as thoughyou can, you feel like a fake.
But that's your ego sayingyou're an imposter.
Get back to not doing it.
Get back to hiding.
Get back to the contracted,lower self.
Give up.
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Stop doing that.
Stop trying.
The whole fake it till you makeit, that thing is real.
It's just like act as if youcould.
Act as if you could stay sober.
Act as if maybe you wanted to goto a 12-step meeting.
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Act as if maybe something goodwas going to come from you
calling your sponsor and askingfor help.
All these things, they're out ofthe ordinary actions and
thoughts and behaviors.
These are all out of theordinary.
So of course it's going to feellike I'm a fake person.
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Of course, my ego is going tosay, you're an imposter.
You're an imposter.
Light Watkins also says thateveryone who's...
I'm sorry, I might botch this alittle bit, but he basically
says that if you have impostersyndrome...
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That's evidence that you'reliving on the edge of your
comfort zone.
So it's a good thing.
Right.
But when the ego is not tryingto grab at you, you're an
imposter.
This is too much.
Give up whatever.
Right.
You're not fit for this job.
She's too good for you.
He doesn't love you.
You know, fill in the blank.
UNKNOWN (31:31):
Right.
SPEAKER_00 (31:33):
Usually I'm landing in a big, comfy, reclining, lazy
boy, and I'm just nestling inthere for hibernation.
Because I ain't doing shit, youknow?
And, you know, the verdict ofthe ages is that God loves us so
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much that there's always, alwaysgoing to be plenty enough fear
to walk through and discomfortto wade through.
And, you know, baptized in firetype shit, you know?
That's, you know, I mean,listen, man, like, you may have
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a cracked vase, right?
Right?
But when we weave all thatstuff, when we build it up, now
it's got stories.
Now it's a mosaic piece.
Now it's got something to say.
So I think that God is found inthe gutter.
I think that you don't just getbaptized in water.
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I think the baptism is in firebefore you even get to the
water.
It's the fire that makes me dipinto the water.
And, you know, it's a beautifulthing, man.
It's a beautiful thing.
But I think one of the biggestthings that we need to consider
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and let go of is that somethingisn't going right.
If I'm struggling or if I'm in aseason of pain or sadness or
worry, like that's where thefucking grit is.
That's the stuff, you know?
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That's the G shit, man.
That's what makes you a badass.
That's what makes you resilientis you know you're about it.
You know you can be really,really uncomfortable because
you've been baptized in fire.
And now you can just dancearound this stuff.
There are no problems.
There are no problems.
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There's minor setbacks.
That's all I have in my lifetoday.
Minor setbacks.
Now, I understand that life canbe pretty gnarly, and the chaos
of life shows up, and there'svery gnarly things that happen,
like cancer and grief and loss,and I'm not saying that, oh,
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those are minor, that's not whatI'm saying.
What I'm saying is that when yougo through this baptism of fire,
you have a deeper understandingof This rhythm of God that you
have no say over.
That his ways are higher thanour ways, just as the heavens
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are higher than the earth.
His ways, his thoughts arehigher than my thoughts.
It's just the way it is.
So you know your role.
You know what I mean?
Know your role, jabroni.
And God is Dwayne Johnson inthat metaphor.
And you just realize, yourealize like, It's the people's
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champ.
God is the people's champ, youknow?
And life's going to do whateverlife does.
Why?
Because number one, it doesn'towe you anything.
Number two, life was here waybefore you, and it's going to be
here way after you're gone.
So your resistance to life oryou wishing it would be
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different or that this didn'thappen or this should happen is
silly.
It's silly.
It makes no sense.
You know, it's like athree-year-old getting mad that
it's raining out.
You would just kind of laugh.
Oh my God, the three-year-old,look at him.
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He's all, oh, he's upset becauseit's raining.
He just doesn't get it yet.
He just doesn't get it yet.
For us to be, I'm not sayingthat, you know, We can't be
disconcerted about the drama oflife.
All I'm saying is, who am I tosay the way people should be and
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should not be?
Who am I to say the way lifeshould be and shouldn't be?
It's been doing it way before Iwas even here.
Life's been life and people havebeen people.
So who am I to judge it?
Or say that it should be thisrather than that, or rather be
this.
It just doesn't land right withme.
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So Singer talks about in TheUntethered Soul, he mentions
like the more you just let lifebe life, the more you'll get the
opportunity to see that in thedrama of life, life itself is
really good at taking care ofus.
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We just have to learn how to letlife do that for us.
But the more we cling and resistand wish and want and demand and
expect and bend and twist tohave our own way, our own voice,
narration, whatever it may be,I'm not letting life do what
life has been designed to do,which is evolve in the rhythm of
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growth.
Nature only ever supportsgrowth.
Evolution.
Evolution is growth.
Non-stagnant.
I beg you to read The UntetheredSoul.
It will frustrate you, for sure.
For sure.
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Because it puts onus on you.
It puts onus on you.
And that's why the 12 steps areso gangster, because...
You know, people are like, oh, Iwant to get sober.
Yeah, la, la, la, la, la.
I'm willing to do anything ittakes.
You know, and all the 12 stepsreally do is they just point
back at you.
They're like, oh, yeah?
Yeah, you want to?
All right, let's see what yougot, homeboy.
And then just be like, well, Ididn't know.
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I thought we were going to,like, go get stuff.
We're not going to get stuff?
I heard we're going to getstuff.
We're going to get sobriety.
Not the fucking way it's writtenout in my book.
UNKNOWN (38:06):
Yeah.
SPEAKER_00 (38:07):
So anyways, you know, I'm going to circle back
to, I don't know where I was inthe beginning, but I'm trying to
get back there, is, you know,this spark of truth.
If truth is truth, right, we gagon it.
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It doesn't go down easy.
It will frustrate.
That's why, like, I was talkingto somebody earlier, and he was–
he sent me a screenshot of, youknow, a text with a text with
mom.
And it was like, you know, mombeing mom and the frustrated
son, if you will, you're nevergoing to change, blah, blah,
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blah, all that, the same oldstory.
And so, you know, I was, I wastalking to him.
I was like, yeah, yeah.
Well, so like, of course, right?
Like, of course.
And it was like, why, why willshe never be able to hear me?
I shouldn't say never, but whyis she right now incapable of
hearing the truth?
And, you know, the truth.
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And he was like, because thenshe'll have to do the work.
And I was like, fucking right.
But before that, what it's doingis it will threaten mom's whole
story.
It's going to threaten the wholething.
It's going to be like, guesswhat?
Right.
It's just going to rip out thefoundation.
(39:34):
Right?
And nobody likes to look downand be like, the foundation?
I laid brick on sand?
What the hell am I thinking?
Your whole house is threatenednow.
You thought you were living in afucking palace.
It turns out it was a shack withdilapidated floors.
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Who wants that?
No one's ego wants that.
Before we're even willing tolike, oh, I would have to do the
work.
No, no, no.
Before that even, it willdisrupt everything I think I
know for sure.
I think it was Mark Twain thatsays, it ain't the things that
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you don't know that'll kill you.
It's the things that you knowabsolutely for certain that are
killing you, right?
What do you say to aknow-it-all?
Not much.
You know, it's like, what do yousay to a no-no?
Not much.
You know so damn much.
Keep talking, man.
I'll just fucking listen, Iguess.
Yeah, keep going.
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What else do you know?
You want the mic?
Should I give?
You know, he's like, there's notreally much.
You're just talking.
Story, story, story, story.
So the gift is the disruption.
The gift is the disruption, man.
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Is realizing that there's improvgoing on in your skull.
And then not being okay withthat.
You can try to blot that out.
Right?
The consciousness of that.
Blot, blot, blot, blot, blot.
Doesn't exist.
Doesn't exist.
You're an alcoholic and you cannever drink safely ever again.
Blot, blot.
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It doesn't exist.
Blot, blot, blot, blot, blot.
Like...
Like...
Like girls trying to cover up apimple with a cover-up.
No, no, I'm not an alcoholic.
Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah,blah, blah.
It's like, yo, we can see thatshit.
We can see that pimple.
And more importantly, you knowit's fucking there.
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You know that thing is there,right?
Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah,blah, blah.
You know?
No, dude.
Come on, man.
Life's too short for that shit.
You're an alcoholic.
You know what I mean?
Stop drinking, dude.
This is how you're going to doit.
But anyways, you have to bedisrupted.
In the Vedic worldview, there'sthree stages, pillars, functions
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of life, and there's threeoperators of life.
There's the creation operator,the maintenance operator, and
then the destruction operator.
Disruption.
There's just as much love in thecreation and the maintenance as
there is in the destruction.
Each have its own purpose.
And what's the purpose?
For it to support you in yourevolution, your growing.
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The next season of your lifecan't take this version with it.
So what's got to happen?
It has to disrupt your wholegame.
Here it comes.
UNKNOWN (42:47):
Fuck.
SPEAKER_00 (42:48):
But I don't want...
No.
No, no, no.
But how about...
Stop.
What if I just...
Enough.
Stop, bro.
But what if I...
Zip it, right?
www.zipit.com Sorry about that.
Like, for instance, I'm a big,big hero's journey, big, big,
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big, big, big Joseph Campbell,Disney movie guy, and Aladdin is
one of my favorite movies,right?
So...
We'll play on the role ofJasmine here for a second,
right?
Jasmine is a princess oppressedby old school theology or old
school perspective andimpression of man.
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You're pretty.
You're to sit there and lookpretty.
You're to be seen and not heard.
You're only to speak when spokento, and you damn sure ain't
never going to leave the palaceand the walls of the palace.
of the kingdom.
You ain't ever going to leave.
Right?
And that's all, of course,that's all she wants to do.
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Now, each animal in Aladdin andmultiple Disney movies have,
excuse me, each characters inall these Disney movies all have
animals as like sidekicks andthey're all kind of
representations of their innernature.
So, Jasmine had Raja, which wasthe tiger, right?
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And every time Jafar would talksideways out of pocket to her
and say some slick shit, shecould never speak up for herself
because she was programmed,right?
She had that identificationwith, I'm just a woman.
I'm lower on the totem pole.
I'm here to look pretty, nevertalk, blah, blah, blah, right?
And so Raja, the tiger, was arepresentation of her inner
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voice that she needed to learnhow to use.
And that was her story.
That was the disruption that sheneeded.
And so every time Jafar wouldtalk sideways, Raja would roar,
right?
And then here comes this, youknow, poor street rat dude,
Aladdin, trying to, you know,whatever, you know, bring her on
the magic carpet for a ride.
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And...
she's not ready for it.
Because again, the programmingsays, well, you have to marry a
prince, he's got to be this,he's got to be that.
And all of a sudden, she findsout that Aladdin isn't who he
said he was.
That the programming wasn'treal.
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And that she was actually tofind love in the place that she
didn't think it was to exist,which was the Opposite
representation of how she lived,a poor, no good street rat, that
type of programming.
But see, Aladdin at this pointhad come to disrupt her norm by
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the magic carpet, right?
And so one night, Jasmine getson the magic carpet with
Aladdin.
A magic carpet is arepresentation of the spark of
truth and its ability to raiseus up a level in consciousness
over the kingdom of our normalprogramming, right?
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And then they go out into asong, a whole new world, right?
I'm not even going to do it.
I was going to sing it, but I'mnot going to do it.
But see, that's what she wantedwas a whole new world.
because the programmed Jasminewas dying to, you know, there
was this inner voice dying tobreak free through the
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programming.
And finally, to the end of themovie, her tiger Raja gets
struck by Jafar.
Raja can no longer speak or roarfor Jasmine.
Jafar says some slick shit toJasmine, and then she finally
uses her voice, right?
She was scared to death.
in a fight for her life, in abattle, right?
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And now she became Raja.
And it was like, no, Jafar,blah, blah, blah, blah, blah,
right?
And that's her overcoming.
That's her raising up in a levelof consciousness that came to
find her, that came to disruptthe programming.
Excuse me.
Every one of us has and lives inthose moments all of the time.
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All of the time.
So I believe, you know.
Five years from now, I'llprobably look back and just be
like, oh, my God, I can'tbelieve I thought that, dude.
What an idiot.
And, you know, I hope I do.
I hope I do because that means,like, that means that I'm
growing, you know.
And I think that to a certaindegree we want to become
hypocrites to ourselves becausethat means that our awareness,
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our consciousness is expanding,if you will.
So, you know.
Let life disrupt you.
Let it disrupt you.
And when the disruption happens,have the courage to sit back,
relax and release the shoulders,right?
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Relax and release and just watchyour mind think.
Watch it think and be fearfuland tell you that you're angry
and annoyed and pissed off.
Just watch it.
Because then the considerationis who's doing the watching?
Who is the witnessing?
Right?
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And that's where the whole goalof life is to try to live from
that place.
So meditation is our practice inorder to drop into that place of
no thought, get saturated, inthat beingness, in that bliss
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consciousness, in that kingdomof heaven, whatever you want to
call it.
So when we establish ourself inthat being, and then we go out
into the world to performaction, over time, year by year,
we become much more identifiedwith that beingness without the
I in the story, and we have...
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a much better reservoir ofadaptation energy to give to the
world and the people in it.
And now I let that guy loose inlife.
He's going to create some goodshit.
He's not Eeyore, right?
He's not, oh, self-pity, wah,wah, wah, wah, wah, wah, wah,
boo frickin' who, right?
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He's like, dude, I'm okay.
Damn, I'm okay, you know?
There's another quote.
Singer says in The UntetheredSoul, and I'm paraphrasing, but
it goes something like this.
He says, he goes, everythingwill be okay once everything is
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okay with you.
Only then will everything turnout to be okay.
So it's like me lettingeverything in my life, where I'm
at right now, Be okay.
Only then will I find okaynesswithin me in order to create an
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okay life.
Like, there's no problems,right?
Like, I'm not okay because ABCDEneeds to change.
He's not doing this.
She said this.
I can't have her.
I want this job.
I don't get enough money.
What if this happens?
What if this doesn't happen?
Oh, my God.
Fill in the blank.
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Not okay.
Once you just let go andsurrender and let life be life
and know your role, jabroni,find your okayness here.
Because if I'm upset witheverything that's going on in my
life and I'm the onecontributing to it, that there's
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no rhythm in that.
It's divided against itself.
It doesn't make any sense.
So the first recognition is torealize that my life is
Everything in my life is thefruit of my own doing.
Stop complaining.
That's number one.
Number two is I need to let lifebe life.
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I'm not going to fix everythinglike that.
The man that I am, caught up inthis worry and fear and
neediness and worry andself-pity, that guy's not fixing
shit.
He's not fixing anything.
Why?
Because he's clogged up.
His conduit isn't open.
There's no truth.
There's no beingness flowingthrough him.
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He might as well be walkingaround blindfolded.
So the first step is to stepback away from the inner
turmoil.
Renew the inner world.
Learn how to become okay inside.
Once I'm okay inside, thatguy...
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Once I'm living in okayness, nowI'm bringing and breathing
okayness into everything I do.
And then all of a sudden,everything kind of becomes okay.
I know it sounds really simpleand cute and pretty to say,
definitely hard in the taking.
But, you know, how's it going?
How's it going?
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What do you got to lose byreally, really trying this out?
More importantly, what do yougot to gain?
That's everything.
SPEAKER_01 (52:25):
what's the eternal principle that one which is well
we call it god but thatpersonifies it so
What's the eternal principle?
UNKNOWN (00:03):
That one.
SPEAKER_01 (00:05):
Which is?
Well, we call it God, but thatpersonifies it.
SPEAKER_00 (00:15):
If you had a roommate who was constantly
criticizing you, cutting youdown, reminding you of all your
mistakes, reminding you of yourtrauma, you'd kick that son of a
bitch out, wouldn't you?
In a heartbeat.
But somehow, when that voiceechoes in our skull, we call it
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truth.
We just deal with it.
That's not truth.
That's pain with a microphone.
That's your ego doing improv onyour soul.
I read The Untethered Soulrecently.
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And it talks about this concept,Michael Singer, the untethered
soul.
And he was a guy who had aspiritual experience where he
started witnessing his mindstarting to come up with things
that he should say when he wasin the living room with one of
his buddies and TV was off orthere was like a lull in
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conversation.
And his mind started...
Should we talk about theweather?
Should we talk about this?
Should I ask him how his daywas?
I wonder what, blah, blah, blah,blah, blah.
And he's like, what the hell isgoing on, right?
We all have this voice.
Michael Singer in The UntetheredSoul calls it the inner
roommate.
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If you can hear the thoughts inyour mind, if you can listen to
them, then who's doing thetalking and who's doing the
listening?
And so Singer's whole point inThe Untethered Soul is about
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stepping back in the seat ofawareness.
He says it's almost back and up.
He's a guy who had a spiritualexperience and then turned his
life over to...
experientially trying to justhave a relationship, be curious
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about, find more about thisvoice in the head, if you will.
And he put it all down in a bookfor us, right?
A book changed my life.
It changed my life.
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So the whole point is we are notour thoughts.
Our thoughts are just energyforms, okay?
We can choose to identify withwhatever thought we would like,
right?
And now it's obviously reallycute and pretty to say, but, you
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know, when you're about to go dosomething scary, And your mind's
like, we're anxious.
And then your body gets allfucking tense.
You can't just be like, oh,that's just a thought, man.
No, I'm not anxious.
I remember what Michael Singersaid in The Untethered Soul.
You know what I'm saying?
It just doesn't fucking work.
I don't know.
I've never really had thatexperience.
But nonetheless, the knowledgetends to pivot our compass just
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enough where we start to takelittle daily steps towards
unraveling the story and theidentification with the mind.
So the next time the realfearful thing happens, we're
like, oh shit, I'm not asscared.
At any rate, number one, beforeyou even consider reading the
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book, you have to be so sick andtired of your mind that you're
willing to address it in anymanner, in any manner, even if
it We replay things over andover and over and over and over
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in our head, things thathappened 20 years ago, things
that happened six months ago,things that happened a week ago.
It's like, you know, A, youknow, this dude said, hey,
Scott, you suck in high school.
And 30 years later, I'm like,fucking that guy, man.
I cannot believe, you know,Willie or whatever the shit, you
know?
(04:51):
And so...
You know, then you'll respond inanger.
Your body will respond.
Your nervous system will jumpinto that moment like it's
happening again.
And so, you know, how healed arewe really from those ugly or
rough moments in our lives thatwe'd rather not remember?
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And so...
Your ego plays improv on you,and it just fills your mind up
with the stats.
As scientists, I guess it's likearound 30,000 to 50,000 thoughts
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a day, and none of them revealanything about you more than a
freckle does on the end of yournose.
They're just thoughts, right?
I have bad ones, I have goodones, but it doesn't have to
change how I move.
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So at any rate, one of the mostpowerful concepts that we can
work with is to just witness thethinking mind, letting the mind
be the mind.
Light Watkins says, Right.
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Right.
if we step back or release thisidentification, identification
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is to become, to step intosomething, right?
And so if the higher self isseated back in a level of
awareness, right, you can watchyour mind Just think.
If you really practice this, youcan anchor into the breath or
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work with the concept of, I'mlistening to my mind think.
I'm not speaking right now.
My mind is thinking, but I'malso a witness to the narration,
to the story.
And for a long time, we're noteven privy to there even being
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any type of separation.
I just am what I think.
Here's a for instance.
Scott, you're an addict.
Oh, okay.
Yeah, I'm an addict.
Here's some heroin.
Right?
And now it's like that thoughtisn't even a fucking thing
anymore.
It doesn't even say, hey, you'rean addict.
It never even says, oh, you'reuncomfortable.
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Do some drugs.
Get out of it.
Doesn't say it anymore.
Not a thing.
Gone.
Right?
So the thought life changed.
Because I stopped responding to,hey, you're an addict.
And I go, oh, yeah, I'm anaddict.
I guess I got to do drugs anddrink now, right?
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Once recovery gave me the graceto not do that, right, I no
longer became identified as Withthat fucking story, the
narration, the you're a piece ofshit, you're never going to make
it, you're a junk box, you'renever going to get sober, why
try, you're too uncomfortable,run, hide.
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And I would just go, yep, yep,yep, yep, yep, yep, yep.
And I'd be like, well, thesethoughts, these thoughts are me.
I'm wearing it.
It is what it is.
And this is how I'm just how I'mliving my life, you know.
And thank God for chainbreakers.
Thank God for expanders.
Thank God for vitalized men, youknow, vitalized men and women
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who can spot the terror ofsomebody being identified with
such a warfare state of mind,you know, and to step into that
warfare and put their armsaround you and say, hang on with
me for a little bit.
I've been there too.
I'm going to show you how to dothis, but we ain't going to
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think our way out of it.
I'm just going to get you totake action in opposition to
your mind.
And we go, well, what the helldoes that mean?
That means when your mind says,hey, you're uncomfortable, go
get high.
You don't, right?
Take action in opposition toyour mind.
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Mind says, hey, we're scared.
You definitely can't do this.
And then you're scared, and thenyou just do it anyways.
That ego, that voice of improv,it has in that moment with that
fear, right, the little nuancesit has on you, it loosens its
grip.
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It's losing the narration.
It's losing the identification,right?
It's saying, hey, we're this,don't forget.
And I'm like, I don't know.
I don't know if I want to bethat.
And it's like, who the fuck toldhim he had freedom, right?
Who told him he had a choice,right?
Who told him he had a fuckingchoice?
(10:23):
So by the power of others, I wasshown how to walk out my own
power.
I was shown that I actually dohave a choice to act in
opposition to my mind.
And so my mind used to, thesethoughts used to fill my skull
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up with just doubt, doubt, poorself-worth, worry, remorse,
dread.
self-pity, dishonesty,neediness, you know, just like,
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just my skull was just, it wasjust lower self shit, you know?
And I would just be like, yeah,I'm that.
And then I would act inaccordance with that thought.
That thought opens up a feelingin the body that And then that
feeling propels the body intoaction.
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And when you take a mind andbody and you move it into action
throughout the world, youcreate.
We're little creating machines.
Whether we want to be or not, weare creating all of the time.
Not some of the times, all ofthe times.
One more time for all the times.
And we go, well, how am Icreating all the time?
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Well, I have a thought.
That kind of parallels itselfwith feeling.
I respond emotionally to thisthought, you know, you're a
piece of shit.
You're never going to make it.
Contracted, lower self, ho-hum,self-pity, eorship.
You take that guy and you lethim loose into the world.
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Now that guy is creating a worldfor you.
Now that guy is affecting yourrelationships, your intimate
relationships with yoursiblings, with your parents,
with your job, whether you'reshowing up late to work or not,
how much ambition you have.
You know, I mean, fuckingeverything, everything.
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And so we get identified withthese fucking thoughts.
And it's just like people don'trealize that that thought is
pimping them out like a$2 hoe.
You know, hey, you're sad andit's never going to be any
better.
And, you know, you should justlike, you know, walk around and
feel bad for yourself.
Oh, OK.
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You know, and then you spend twoweeks hating your life and
everyone you stumble into until,you know, some freaking crack in
the universe.
You get out of it somehow andyou're like, oh, that fucking
sucked.
I should try and not do thatagain.
And it just takes like immenseamounts of pain.
to become painstakingly aware ofthe thought life and 100%
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responsible to shoulder thatlife of it to change.
Like in this recovery book,right?
The big book, it says, ourthought life will be placed on a
much higher plane when ourthinking is cleared of wrong
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motives.
Prior to that, it says, youknow, upon awakening, we ask God
to divorce our minds ofself-pity, dishonesty, or
self-seeking motives.
If I divorce my mind of theselower vibrational BS, whatever,
right, my thought life isnaturally going to be placed on
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a much higher plane, right?
And my thinking is now clearedof wrong motives.
And now I'm going to be able torely upon the intuition or my
inner guidance system, right?
Which comes through charmfulthought.
And now I can rely on that.
Why?
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Because the energy thatdishonesty, self-seeking, and
self-pity are The energy thatthat shit robs from me, it
contracts a human to where he'sfucking ho-hum Eeyore, right?
And just forget about it, dude.
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You're now a slave to that.
We call that the bondage ofself.
The bondage of self.
Just manufacturing your ownmisery day in, day out.
Just, what are you going to dotoday?
I'm going to manufacture somemore misery for myself.
How about you?
That sounds like hell.
Yeah, it is.
Why don't you not do it?
I don't know how.
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You know what I'm saying?
Like, oh, I love it.
So anyways, I got to chill out alittle bit.
This is the power of the mind.
And, you know, it's going totake a...
radical spark of truth to hityou in between the eyes, to make
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you willing to consider thatyour story, the thoughts that
you have, which are pretty muchthe same day in and day out,
that maybe they ain't it.
Maybe they ain't clicking.
Maybe you're fucking wrong.
What if you were wrong aboutyourself?
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What if you didn't know who youwere?
What if you really didn't knowwhat you wanted?
What if you didn't know?
How would you know?
Would you be willing to givethat up?
And in order to draw aconclusion from that, you just
look at the life that you'vecreated and you say, how's it
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going?
Am I happy with the report?
You know?
How's the report?
Not good.
Would you like to change it?
Kind of.
What are you willing to do?
I guess anything.
All right.
Well, check this out.
Stop listening to your fuckingself.
Stop listening.
That's why there's mentors,right?
That's why there's mentors.
That's why there's sponsors.
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It's because there's a reasonwhy there's journeymen and
apprentice.
That's why there's...
tattoo artists and apprentice inthe shop, right?
That's why there's, you know,NFL, college, high school,
peewee, like you have to learn,like, okay.
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You could probably jump in, evenif like you're not a good
swimmer, right?
You could probably jump in theocean and figure it out and like
swim and be okay, okay?
Swimming is thinking, right?
or navigating your thought life.
And you'd probably be all right,you know.
But if somebody took the time toshow you how to swim, to show
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you the right stroke, how tobreathe in fluid movement, which
I still can't do, by the way,show you how to do the
breaststroke, I don't know, whatother one, you know, freestyle,
isn't there like a frog or someshit like that?
I don't know.
You get what I'm saying, right?
There is experts who havelearned how to leverage water
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with the God-given body andoxygen that they're given.
And as a result, they move fluidthrough the water for miles,
miles.
You throw a guy like me in therewithout that type of skill, I
almost drowned when I had toswim 400 meters for my first
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ever sprint triathlon.
It's a sprint, all right?
It's like 10-mile bike, 5K run,and then 400-meter swim.
Just in case you don't knowmeters, 400 meters is a quarter
mile.
It was literally like from thebeach out, It was like a big U
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and I started in the front andfucking finished last.
And I was coming by the dude andhe was like, you know, one of
like the lifeguards and likenext to the buoy, but he was in
like a kayak, but he was likekind of lifeguard, but like kind
of not.
He was like, I'm going to have achill day.
No one's definitely for sure.
No one's going to drown.
Right.
And then like, here comes me.
I'm like, I'm like, you know,like doggy paddling.
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Right.
And he just looked down at meand it was like one of the most
embarrassing moments.
I don't know if it was likeembarrassing.
It just, he knew how sad I waswith myself and he looked me in
the eye and let me know that.
And he was holding the paddleand he was just like, you're
almost there, bro.
And it was just like, he had nointent on helping me.
Like for sure.
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If I started to drown, he wouldhave been like, dude, you should
have fucking figured this out.
Don't come in the ocean, notknowing how to swim for a sprint
triathlon.
Your boy did it.
I did it anyways.
I almost, fuck, it was bad, allright?
I couldn't, it was bad.
So that's a guy who doesn't knowhow to swim.
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That's a guy who is completelyidentified with, hey, you're an
addict.
Hey, you know, it's never goingto work out for you.
Just give up, low self-worth,blah, blah, blah, blah, blah,
blah, blah.
All that bullshit, man.
And who the is telling you thatyou have to be that?
You are.
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If anyone else talked to me theway I used to talk to myself, I
mean, I'm not really that muchof an angry dude anymore.
I mean, I have my flare-ups, butI'd have to kill him.
I'd have to kill him, you know?
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Imagine somebody talking to yourmother, your father, your wife,
your husband, or your kids theway that you sometimes talk to
yourself.
You'd kill him.
Broad daylight, not a problem.
Easily go to jail.
You talk to my blood like that.
UNKNOWN (20:54):
No.
SPEAKER_00 (20:56):
So why do we settle for these things ourselves?
Very interesting question to sitwith.
Why on earth would I settle formyself, settle with the pain
that I would never impart onanother human being?
But why do I just put it on myown plate like I'm going to a
buffet?
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You know, if you were to meetyourself, pick a time, 10 years
ago, your teenage yourself,whatever it may be, right?
If you were to meet yourself,would you hug you or slap you
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across the head?
That's a looking in view towhere we're at with
self-forgiveness.
Why do you think that I am suchan asshole when it comes to
whining?
Boo freaking hoo.
Get over it.
Stop whining.
It's because that's all I usedto do, is whine.
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Whine.
I can't stand that.
I can't fucking stand it, right?
So that would...
That pretty much says that Ihaven't really forgiven this
past version of myself orhaven't really truly accepted
him and loved him as part of astory.
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Somebody once told me we look onthat guy like a younger brother.
He's my brother, man.
He's an idiot sometimes, buthe's growing.
That's the love, right?
I think about some of thepodcasts I've done six years
ago, and I cringe sometimes.
I cringe.
I look at him like a youngerbrother.
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It's literally all I knew andcould be in that time in life.
The same way all I am and all Ican be and speak of is where I'm
at in this current state ofconsciousness right now.
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And so five years from now, forme to be upset with the me right
now for talking about theuntethered soul in such a bad
way, such a poor way.
How could I ever be upset withmyself?
It's my experience right now.
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There's nothing I can do aboutit.
This is also the path offorgiveness for our parents,
things we've gone through askids and whatnot.
But yeah, think about this, allright?
Think about your mind, yourthought life, okay?
The thoughts you have concerningyourself.
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And we go, would you hire you?
Would you start a business withyou?
Would you let you in your hometo have family dinner with your
kids?
Would you send your daughter outon a date with the mind you have
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or vice versa?
Appallingly, the answer is no,if we're honest.
If we're really, reallywitnessing the intricacies of
our thought life and the improvthat ego is trying to play in
there, it's a sobering thought.
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It's a very sobering thought.
The goal is to get to the placewhere we would pick ourselves 10
out of 10 times.
Where you line yourself upagainst the wall with nine other
men, right?
And you get to see a preview, alittle bubble of thought life
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above each man's head, right?
And it's like, you know, shadeof red is really bad.
Yellow is like, okay, we'redoing some work.
Green is like, okay, we're doingall right, you know?
No matter the shade of green,even in all its imperfections,
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the goal is to always pickyourself.
Always be willing to pickyourself.
Because that's radicalacceptance of who I am, what I'm
thinking, how I'm speaking, andhow I'm living right now.
It's okay with me because I amgenuinely...
trying to grow and develop underthe grace of God.
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And no matter how far weprogress, we are always going to
have desires that oppose God'sgrace.
I'm always going to haveiterations of me that try to
shoot myself in the foot.
It's just, you know, I don'tknow.
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Call it whatever you want.
But I know that it is a damnreal part of my life okay and so
as long as I bring that pain tothe altar as long as I bring
that ego up to the altar and I'mwilling to sacrifice this and
say show me a new way to thinkhere I'm not going to experience
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much different result and solike for me right my one of my
you know, thorns of my thoughtlife is lack of self-belief or
self-worth in terms of like, youknow, Scott, you can't do it.
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You can't do that.
You know, you can't do that.
That's dope.
That's awesome.
That's awesome.
That would be so sick.
But like, that ain't, you can'thave that.
You know, that's not, that's notit.
And it's like, where's that?
And who the fuck's saying that?
And where did it come from?
And most importantly, do I haveto listen?
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Now, I'm not certain I can justbe like, never mind, I can.
I can.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Who said you can?
I did.
Okay, I can.
For me, it's more like, again,taking action in opposition to
the mind.
So the mind goes, you can't.
And I go, maybe, but I'm goingto do it anyways.
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and just move forward.
You know, I went and had thehonor to go speak at Ole Miss.
Now I had to speak to a roomfull of, it was probably, I
don't know, I think it was like200 people.
But the point is, like, collegeathletes, like, you know,
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top-tier athletes, right?
I'm not going up there to do arecovery talk or a talk on
addiction, right?
So it's like a whole differentcrowd, whole different ballgame,
like, you know, cameras, vlog,like all this stuff.
Something I never did before,right?
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But what has changed with me isI no longer just say okay to the
you-can't-do-it identification,right?
I'm not fucking willing anymore.
I'm not willing.
And that's not because I'm justlike, you know.
The only reason why that is isbecause I've experienced enough
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pain from the guy who says,you're right, I can't.
I've done that song and dancefor far too long.
I want to see what happens whenI don't listen to that.
I think it was Gandhi who said,whether you think you can or you
think you can't, you're right.
That wraps everything up rightthere.
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Whether you think you can or youthink you can't, you're right.
And there's this act as ifprinciple.
Shout out Matt Durso.
He told me it's a therapist,actually.
It's a psychotherapy, I don'tknow, tool or whatever, but it's
act as if.
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You can, and then you will findyourself doing, right?
Act as if you can, and you willsooner or later find that you
are doing the thing.
And so you step into that.
So that whole fake it till youmake it thing, it's real because
you're not really faking it.
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You think you're faking itbecause you're so used to the I
can't voice.
So when you step out as thoughyou can, you feel like a fake.
But that's your ego sayingyou're an imposter.
Get back to not doing it.
Get back to hiding.
Get back to the contracted,lower self.
Give up.
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Stop doing that.
Stop trying.
The whole fake it till you makeit, that thing is real.
It's just like act as if youcould.
Act as if you could stay sober.
Act as if maybe you wanted to goto a 12-step meeting.
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Act as if maybe something goodwas going to come from you
calling your sponsor and askingfor help.
All these things, they're out ofthe ordinary actions and
thoughts and behaviors.
These are all out of theordinary.
So of course it's going to feellike I'm a fake person.
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Of course, my ego is going tosay, you're an imposter.
You're an imposter.
Light Watkins also says thateveryone who's...
I'm sorry, I might botch this alittle bit, but he basically
says that if you have impostersyndrome...
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That's evidence that you'reliving on the edge of your
comfort zone.
So it's a good thing.
Right.
But when the ego is not tryingto grab at you, you're an
imposter.
This is too much.
Give up whatever.
Right.
You're not fit for this job.
She's too good for you.
He doesn't love you.
You know, fill in the blank.
UNKNOWN (31:31):
Right.
SPEAKER_00 (31:33):
Usually I'm landing in a big, comfy, reclining, lazy
boy, and I'm just nestling inthere for hibernation.
Because I ain't doing shit, youknow?
And, you know, the verdict ofthe ages is that God loves us so
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much that there's always, alwaysgoing to be plenty enough fear
to walk through and discomfortto wade through.
And, you know, baptized in firetype shit, you know?
That's, you know, I mean,listen, man, like, you may have
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a cracked vase, right?
Right?
But when we weave all thatstuff, when we build it up, now
it's got stories.
Now it's a mosaic piece.
Now it's got something to say.
So I think that God is found inthe gutter.
I think that you don't just getbaptized in water.
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I think the baptism is in firebefore you even get to the
water.
It's the fire that makes me dipinto the water.
And, you know, it's a beautifulthing, man.
It's a beautiful thing.
But I think one of the biggestthings that we need to consider
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and let go of is that somethingisn't going right.
If I'm struggling or if I'm in aseason of pain or sadness or
worry, like that's where thefucking grit is.
That's the stuff, you know?
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That's the G shit, man.
That's what makes you a badass.
That's what makes you resilientis you know you're about it.
You know you can be really,really uncomfortable because
you've been baptized in fire.
And now you can just dancearound this stuff.
There are no problems.
There are no problems.
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There's minor setbacks.
That's all I have in my lifetoday.
Minor setbacks.
Now, I understand that life canbe pretty gnarly, and the chaos
of life shows up, and there'svery gnarly things that happen,
like cancer and grief and loss,and I'm not saying that, oh,
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those are minor, that's not whatI'm saying.
What I'm saying is that when yougo through this baptism of fire,
you have a deeper understandingof This rhythm of God that you
have no say over.
That his ways are higher thanour ways, just as the heavens
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are higher than the earth.
His ways, his thoughts arehigher than my thoughts.
It's just the way it is.
So you know your role.
You know what I mean?
Know your role, jabroni.
And God is Dwayne Johnson inthat metaphor.
And you just realize, yourealize like, It's the people's
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champ.
God is the people's champ, youknow?
And life's going to do whateverlife does.
Why?
Because number one, it doesn'towe you anything.
Number two, life was here waybefore you, and it's going to be
here way after you're gone.
So your resistance to life oryou wishing it would be
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different or that this didn'thappen or this should happen is
silly.
It's silly.
It makes no sense.
You know, it's like athree-year-old getting mad that
it's raining out.
You would just kind of laugh.
Oh my God, the three-year-old,look at him.
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He's all, oh, he's upset becauseit's raining.
He just doesn't get it yet.
He just doesn't get it yet.
For us to be, I'm not sayingthat, you know, We can't be
disconcerted about the drama oflife.
All I'm saying is, who am I tosay the way people should be and
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should not be?
Who am I to say the way lifeshould be and shouldn't be?
It's been doing it way before Iwas even here.
Life's been life and people havebeen people.
So who am I to judge it?
Or say that it should be thisrather than that, or rather be
this.
It just doesn't land right withme.
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So Singer talks about in TheUntethered Soul, he mentions
like the more you just let lifebe life, the more you'll get the
opportunity to see that in thedrama of life, life itself is
really good at taking care ofus.
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We just have to learn how to letlife do that for us.
But the more we cling and resistand wish and want and demand and
expect and bend and twist tohave our own way, our own voice,
narration, whatever it may be,I'm not letting life do what
life has been designed to do,which is evolve in the rhythm of
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growth.
Nature only ever supportsgrowth.
Evolution.
Evolution is growth.
Non-stagnant.
I beg you to read The UntetheredSoul.
It will frustrate you, for sure.
For sure.
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Because it puts onus on you.
It puts onus on you.
And that's why the 12 steps areso gangster, because...
You know, people are like, oh, Iwant to get sober.
Yeah, la, la, la, la, la.
I'm willing to do anything ittakes.
You know, and all the 12 stepsreally do is they just point
back at you.
They're like, oh, yeah?
Yeah, you want to?
All right, let's see what yougot, homeboy.
And then just be like, well, Ididn't know.
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I thought we were going to,like, go get stuff.
We're not going to get stuff?
I heard we're going to getstuff.
We're going to get sobriety.
Not the fucking way it's writtenout in my book.
UNKNOWN (38:06):
Yeah.
SPEAKER_00 (38:07):
So anyways, you know, I'm going to circle back
to, I don't know where I was inthe beginning, but I'm trying to
get back there, is, you know,this spark of truth.
If truth is truth, right, we gagon it.
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It doesn't go down easy.
It will frustrate.
That's why, like, I was talkingto somebody earlier, and he was–
he sent me a screenshot of, youknow, a text with a text with
mom.
And it was like, you know, mombeing mom and the frustrated
son, if you will, you're nevergoing to change, blah, blah,
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blah, all that, the same oldstory.
And so, you know, I was, I wastalking to him.
I was like, yeah, yeah.
Well, so like, of course, right?
Like, of course.
And it was like, why, why willshe never be able to hear me?
I shouldn't say never, but whyis she right now incapable of
hearing the truth?
And, you know, the truth.
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And he was like, because thenshe'll have to do the work.
And I was like, fucking right.
But before that, what it's doingis it will threaten mom's whole
story.
It's going to threaten the wholething.
It's going to be like, guesswhat?
Right.
It's just going to rip out thefoundation.
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Right?
And nobody likes to look downand be like, the foundation?
I laid brick on sand?
What the hell am I thinking?
Your whole house is threatenednow.
You thought you were living in afucking palace.
It turns out it was a shack withdilapidated floors.
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Who wants that?
No one's ego wants that.
Before we're even willing tolike, oh, I would have to do the
work.
No, no, no.
Before that even, it willdisrupt everything I think I
know for sure.
I think it was Mark Twain thatsays, it ain't the things that
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you don't know that'll kill you.
It's the things that you knowabsolutely for certain that are
killing you, right?
What do you say to aknow-it-all?
Not much.
You know, it's like, what do yousay to a no-no?
Not much.
You know so damn much.
Keep talking, man.
I'll just fucking listen, Iguess.
Yeah, keep going.
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What else do you know?
You want the mic?
Should I give?
You know, he's like, there's notreally much.
You're just talking.
Story, story, story, story.
So the gift is the disruption.
The gift is the disruption, man.
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Is realizing that there's improvgoing on in your skull.
And then not being okay withthat.
You can try to blot that out.
Right?
The consciousness of that.
Blot, blot, blot, blot, blot.
Doesn't exist.
Doesn't exist.
You're an alcoholic and you cannever drink safely ever again.
Blot, blot.
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It doesn't exist.
Blot, blot, blot, blot, blot.
Like...
Like...
Like girls trying to cover up apimple with a cover-up.
No, no, I'm not an alcoholic.
Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah,blah, blah.
It's like, yo, we can see thatshit.
We can see that pimple.
And more importantly, you knowit's fucking there.
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You know that thing is there,right?
Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah,blah, blah.
You know?
No, dude.
Come on, man.
Life's too short for that shit.
You're an alcoholic.
You know what I mean?
Stop drinking, dude.
This is how you're going to doit.
But anyways, you have to bedisrupted.
In the Vedic worldview, there'sthree stages, pillars, functions
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of life, and there's threeoperators of life.
There's the creation operator,the maintenance operator, and
then the destruction operator.
Disruption.
There's just as much love in thecreation and the maintenance as
there is in the destruction.
Each have its own purpose.
And what's the purpose?
For it to support you in yourevolution, your growing.
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The next season of your lifecan't take this version with it.
So what's got to happen?
It has to disrupt your wholegame.
Here it comes.
UNKNOWN (42:47):
Fuck.
SPEAKER_00 (42:48):
But I don't want...
No.
No, no, no.
But how about...
Stop.
What if I just...
Enough.
Stop, bro.
But what if I...
Zip it, right?
www.zipit.com Sorry about that.
Like, for instance, I'm a big,big hero's journey, big, big,
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big, big, big Joseph Campbell,Disney movie guy, and Aladdin is
one of my favorite movies,right?
So...
We'll play on the role ofJasmine here for a second,
right?
Jasmine is a princess oppressedby old school theology or old
school perspective andimpression of man.
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You're pretty.
You're to sit there and lookpretty.
You're to be seen and not heard.
You're only to speak when spokento, and you damn sure ain't
never going to leave the palaceand the walls of the palace.
of the kingdom.
You ain't ever going to leave.
Right?
And that's all, of course,that's all she wants to do.
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Now, each animal in Aladdin andmultiple Disney movies have,
excuse me, each characters inall these Disney movies all have
animals as like sidekicks andthey're all kind of
representations of their innernature.
So, Jasmine had Raja, which wasthe tiger, right?
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And every time Jafar would talksideways out of pocket to her
and say some slick shit, shecould never speak up for herself
because she was programmed,right?
She had that identificationwith, I'm just a woman.
I'm lower on the totem pole.
I'm here to look pretty, nevertalk, blah, blah, blah, right?
And so Raja, the tiger, was arepresentation of her inner
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voice that she needed to learnhow to use.
And that was her story.
That was the disruption that sheneeded.
And so every time Jafar wouldtalk sideways, Raja would roar,
right?
And then here comes this, youknow, poor street rat dude,
Aladdin, trying to, you know,whatever, you know, bring her on
the magic carpet for a ride.
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And...
she's not ready for it.
Because again, the programmingsays, well, you have to marry a
prince, he's got to be this,he's got to be that.
And all of a sudden, she findsout that Aladdin isn't who he
said he was.
That the programming wasn'treal.
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And that she was actually tofind love in the place that she
didn't think it was to exist,which was the Opposite
representation of how she lived,a poor, no good street rat, that
type of programming.
But see, Aladdin at this pointhad come to disrupt her norm by
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the magic carpet, right?
And so one night, Jasmine getson the magic carpet with
Aladdin.
A magic carpet is arepresentation of the spark of
truth and its ability to raiseus up a level in consciousness
over the kingdom of our normalprogramming, right?
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And then they go out into asong, a whole new world, right?
I'm not even going to do it.
I was going to sing it, but I'mnot going to do it.
But see, that's what she wantedwas a whole new world.
because the programmed Jasminewas dying to, you know, there
was this inner voice dying tobreak free through the
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programming.
And finally, to the end of themovie, her tiger Raja gets
struck by Jafar.
Raja can no longer speak or roarfor Jasmine.
Jafar says some slick shit toJasmine, and then she finally
uses her voice, right?
She was scared to death.
in a fight for her life, in abattle, right?
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And now she became Raja.
And it was like, no, Jafar,blah, blah, blah, blah, blah,
right?
And that's her overcoming.
That's her raising up in a levelof consciousness that came to
find her, that came to disruptthe programming.
Excuse me.
Every one of us has and lives inthose moments all of the time.
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All of the time.
So I believe, you know.
Five years from now, I'llprobably look back and just be
like, oh, my God, I can'tbelieve I thought that, dude.
What an idiot.
And, you know, I hope I do.
I hope I do because that means,like, that means that I'm
growing, you know.
And I think that to a certaindegree we want to become
hypocrites to ourselves becausethat means that our awareness,
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our consciousness is expanding,if you will.
So, you know.
Let life disrupt you.
Let it disrupt you.
And when the disruption happens,have the courage to sit back,
relax and release the shoulders,right?
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Relax and release and just watchyour mind think.
Watch it think and be fearfuland tell you that you're angry
and annoyed and pissed off.
Just watch it.
Because then the considerationis who's doing the watching?
Who is the witnessing?
Right?
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And that's where the whole goalof life is to try to live from
that place.
So meditation is our practice inorder to drop into that place of
no thought, get saturated, inthat beingness, in that bliss
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consciousness, in that kingdomof heaven, whatever you want to
call it.
So when we establish ourself inthat being, and then we go out
into the world to performaction, over time, year by year,
we become much more identifiedwith that beingness without the
I in the story, and we have...
(49:01):
a much better reservoir ofadaptation energy to give to the
world and the people in it.
And now I let that guy loose inlife.
He's going to create some goodshit.
He's not Eeyore, right?
He's not, oh, self-pity, wah,wah, wah, wah, wah, wah, wah,
boo frickin' who, right?
(49:21):
He's like, dude, I'm okay.
Damn, I'm okay, you know?
There's another quote.
Singer says in The UntetheredSoul, and I'm paraphrasing, but
it goes something like this.
He says, he goes, everythingwill be okay once everything is
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okay with you.
Only then will everything turnout to be okay.
So it's like me lettingeverything in my life, where I'm
at right now, Be okay.
Only then will I find okaynesswithin me in order to create an
(50:08):
okay life.
Like, there's no problems,right?
Like, I'm not okay because ABCDEneeds to change.
He's not doing this.
She said this.
I can't have her.
I want this job.
I don't get enough money.
What if this happens?
What if this doesn't happen?
Oh, my God.
Fill in the blank.
(50:28):
Not okay.
Once you just let go andsurrender and let life be life
and know your role, jabroni,find your okayness here.
Because if I'm upset witheverything that's going on in my
life and I'm the onecontributing to it, that there's
(50:49):
no rhythm in that.
It's divided against itself.
It doesn't make any sense.
So the first recognition is torealize that my life is
Everything in my life is thefruit of my own doing.
Stop complaining.
That's number one.
Number two is I need to let lifebe life.
(51:12):
I'm not going to fix everythinglike that.
The man that I am, caught up inthis worry and fear and
neediness and worry andself-pity, that guy's not fixing
shit.
He's not fixing anything.
Why?
Because he's clogged up.
His conduit isn't open.
There's no truth.
There's no beingness flowingthrough him.
(51:33):
He might as well be walkingaround blindfolded.
So the first step is to stepback away from the inner
turmoil.
Renew the inner world.
Learn how to become okay inside.
Once I'm okay inside, thatguy...
(51:56):
Once I'm living in okayness, nowI'm bringing and breathing
okayness into everything I do.
And then all of a sudden,everything kind of becomes okay.
I know it sounds really simpleand cute and pretty to say,
definitely hard in the taking.
But, you know, how's it going?
How's it going?
(52:16):
What do you got to lose byreally, really trying this out?
More importantly, what do yougot to gain?
That's everything.
SPEAKER_01 (52:25):
what's the eternal principle that one which is well
we call it god but thatpersonifies it so
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