July 19, 2024 • 19 mins
Interludes are short segments between regular episodes with no editing but WITH leather creaking. It's a chance to hear a little more about what's going on in my life. This one is about my experience with my new Evotion chastity device. Here is what my podcast host's AI says about this episode:
Ever wondered what it's like to commit to a life of chastity, especially in the sweltering heat of Florida? Join me as I recount my deeply personal and transformative journey with the custom Evotion Orion chastity device. We'll explore the meticulous decision-making process that led me to this unique device, highlighting its innovative frenum capture feature that offers security without requiring a PA piercing. From the precise measuring steps to my initial excitement and challenges, you'll get a raw and unedited look into my experiences, including the practicalities of self-locking and coping with physical discomforts like underball burning.
Discover how chastity has become a source of emotional safety for me, especially after negative dating experiences. I'll share my thoughts on the profound sense of security and unexpected pleasures—even at the gym—that wearing the device provides. Despite dealing with the Florida heat and isolation, I remain curious about a long-term commitment to chastity and the emotional solace it offers. Listen in as I discuss my lubrication routine, the secure fit of my device, and my ongoing efforts to adapt to this new lifestyle. Your support and interest mean the world to me, and I look forward to keeping you updated on this intimate journey.
Ask Edge! Go to https://www.speakpipe.com/LTHREDGE to leave ask a question or leave feedback. Find Edge's other content on Instagram and Twitter. Also visit his archive of educational videos, Tchick-Tchick.
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Welcome to Full Cow, a podcast about leather kink and
BDSM.
My name is Edge, my pronounsare he, him, and I'm your host.
And this is another interlude,the episode between episodes,
offered raw and unedited, butwith langlets, leather creaking.
I don't know, my langlets isn'tvery creaky today, sorry people
(00:21):
, but I am wearing it.
And in this interlude I wantedto give everyone an update on my
chastity journey andspecifically, my experiences
with my custom Evotion Orionchastity device.
Now, this is not an actualreview.
I don't like the kind ofimplications of having a
(00:46):
platform that's so large andtalking about a small business,
right?
So this isn't meant to help youmake decisions about devotion
as much as it is aboutreflecting on your own journeys
in chastity or decision-makingprocesses you might use should
you ever get a custom device.
To give you a bit of a recap,I've been interested in Chassity
(01:06):
for a long, long time and I'vestruggled often to find a device
that would work, and recentlyI've been able to make some
changes, shall we say.
That suddenly opened up newdoors for me, and I did quite a
bit of research.
Now the apogee of luxury forcustom ball capture devices is
(01:28):
Steelworks, and it's expensive,but I wasn't as concerned about
the money so much as I felt likethat represented a level of
commitment to Chastity that Ididn't know I could meet Like.
You've got to be really seriousabout chastity when you get a
Steelworks device.
(01:49):
And I found Evotion First of all.
I think it is the mostbrilliant name for chastity
device company ever.
Not only does it kind of evokeevolution, as though this is the
evolution of a ball capturedevice, but brilliantly, it is
devotion without the D.
So it's about showing someonedevotion by taking away the D,
(02:13):
and that is just sheer genius.
What I liked about the Evotion,or Orion device in part, was
the price.
It was a good price point forsomething custom that I wanted.
And then what I also liked isthat it had as a standard option
a frenum capture so I couldsecure my penis inside the cage
(02:39):
through my frenum piercing andthat would prevent any pullout.
I've always, you know, you canpull out of most ball capture
devices unless most standardanti-pullout options require a
PA piercing.
But if you don't have a PApiercing and if you just have a
standard device, I mean you canjust pull your cock out of the
cage and do your business andstuff it back in, and that
(03:02):
defeats the purpose for a lot ofreasons.
I wanted something reallysecure and I wasn't about to get
another piercing to do that,although it wouldn't be the
first time I modified my bodyfor my fetishes.
But I decided to go with this,in part because of the frenum
capture, and I spent quite a bitof time measuring because I've
now decided my new metaphor forthe penis.
(03:24):
The penis is a lot like theNorse god and or Marvel Universe
character Loki.
It is a bit of a trickster, itis a shapeshifter, it can be
just a tiny bit malicious.
You can never quite trust it.
So I measured my penisrepeatedly over several days to
(03:44):
get sort of the most accuratemeasurements possible, and that
included tossing outmeasurements that just seemed
out of line because perhaps Iwas a little too messant that
day, and that included sort ofslowly evolving towards a
consensus of what my measurementsizes were.
So I sent all that off toEvotion.
It is 3D printed but sort ofhand finished, so I knew it was
(04:08):
going to be a while.
I chose the option withsecurity screws because I think
screws are so much hotter thanlocks.
Because I hate to reveal thissecret.
You know what?
I'm not going to reveal it.
Let's just say I went with thesecurity screws instead of the
locks and I waited, and I thinkan interlude or two ago when I
(04:29):
was talking about my milkingmachine, I must've shared a
little bit also about devotion.
The device finally arrived and Iput it on.
I'm making air quotes right nowbecause I have a picture of me
like with this huge hard penisand this tiny little shaft piece
because I was so excited to getit.
Let me start by saying I'm areal fan of the aesthetic
(04:52):
quality of the design.
You can choose the differentpatterns I went with I think
it's called Axiom, it's likethese little triangle looking
things and it's an open designwhich helps aeration a little
bit.
But it's three pieces there'sthe base ring, there's a shaft
piece and then there's a pieceto cover the glands.
(05:13):
I think it's a brilliant designbecause the balls on the
straight barbell on my frenumjust kind of slot in at the top
of that shaft piece and thenwhen the glands piece is
attached those balls are trappedand therefore my penis is
trapped inside of the device.
And I got two different glandscovers One is more open, one is
(05:38):
quote, unquote, full coverageand aesthetically I just loved
it.
The security screws are great,the design of it is great.
So I managed to put it on airquotes and immediately went to
go buy some cigars becausethat's what one does when you're
testing out a new chassisdevice.
And probably within a half hourI was starting to experience
(05:59):
some underball burning, which isnot a good sign.
And I managed to buy cigars andcome back home and then I just
didn't.
I'm like this isn't going towork.
So you know, at first I thoughtthe problem is that there's a
slight curve back at the bottomof the ring.
It's a slight anatomical designto match the curve of the
(06:22):
crotch.
And I thought, you know, Ispecifically kind of twisted my
penis, twisted the cage a littlebit so I could tuck, tuck to
the right, I tucked to the right, and when I did that I must've
made the ring smaller becauseI'd lost that little extra space
given by that little bit ofcurve.
And at first I thought maybethat's the problem.
(06:43):
And I contacted the people atdevotion.
I asked, for their experienceswere like what do you think is
going on?
And and.
And I said you know, maybe Ishould just give it a couple of
days and then try it withperfectly aligned straight, and
they said that was a good idea.
Did that?
I think I got close to 12 hoursbefore it was too painful.
(07:03):
And then I had a contactevotion again and after a little
bit of back and forth werealized that one of the parts
was really not up to spec andthat probably was the issue.
So they went back to theirmagic 3d printers and hand
finishing and sent me a newshaft piece and I here's the
(07:26):
good news Currently, I've spent10, 24, 10, 30, no wait, what
day is today?
Today's Monday, it's Sunday 10,30, 24, 26.
I have just spent 29 hourslocked.
(07:46):
It's the second time I've donemore than 24 hours hours locked.
It's the second time I've donemore than 24 hours.
And even once I got the newpiece, I was still as you should
with any chassis device.
You should go slowly, so Iwould wear it for a little bit.
I did some test runs.
One of the big test runs wasleg day at the gym with my
trainer, because that's a stresstest.
I knew my crotch area would notget a bigger workout at the gym
(08:10):
than with my trainer doing legday.
So once I made it through thereI knew it was secure, I knew it
was comfortable.
And then I slowly built up towearing it eight hours, wearing
it 12 hours, wearing it all day.
And then the big leap.
And the first couple of times Icould not wear it all night,
because you know what this is,what it's designed to do.
(08:31):
You're sleeping pretty dreams,dreams of leather boys and
boyfriends, dream, dream, dream.
And then you wake up inexcruciating pain because
somewhere during the night yourbody has to pee and it and and
your body's like well, I don'twant to wake him up to pee, I'll
just give him a hard penis andthat'll block that off and he
(08:51):
can wait till morning.
And your body doesn't quiterealize that's no longer an
option.
It doesn't realize that atfirst.
So the first couple of nights Itried to do an overnight.
It was like, oh my God, it wastoo much.
I took it off around 4 am.
Then I had a stroke of genius,which is sort of you know what?
(09:12):
Maybe if I start by not puttingit on in the morning, wearing
it all day and then trying tosleep, what if I put it on
before bed?
And I did that, and I did it onthe weekend, so if my sleep was
disturbed I wouldn't upset mydaily schedule, and I did wake
up a few times, but I did makeit through the night and that
was the first 24 hour run I did.
I think that was from Friday 11pm to Saturday.
(09:34):
I actually lasted until Sunday,actually about 4 am.
I did about 29 hours.
That was the trick.
I took it off for a little bitof a break and put it on Sunday
morning at 1030 and it's stillon.
So this means this is a workabledevice, because once you can
(09:56):
make 24 hours locked in anychassis device, then you're
golden, because staying lockedis simply a matter of repeating
that 24 hours every day.
Excuse me, I'm a little froggytoday.
That 24 hours every day Excuseme, I'm a little froggy today.
It's a matter of repeating that24 hours every day, going
forward infinitely until you'redone right.
(10:18):
So the next big step whichwe'll see how I feel today, but
the next big step is to staylocked for a couple days just to
kind of see whether or not thebody figures out.
Oh, oh, we can't save thepee-pee till the morning with a
hard penis.
We're going to have to wake himvery quickly the moment we know
that we need to pee and get himto go pee.
(10:38):
Let's see how long it takes mybrain to figure that out.
I'm also curious about whetheror not I can reduce a little
blood flow, like right now mypenis, because it's so custom
fit, my penis is kind ofpressing into that triangular
shaped pattern and I'm a littleconcerned about semi-permanent
imprints of these triangles onmy cock.
(11:01):
So I'm trying to test what acouple of days will look like.
And then I'm golden.
I haven't decided how long a runI'm going to do.
I haven't decided if I'm goingto do a run anytime soon.
I don't operate with a keyholder.
I don't have and I'm notopposed to that.
That person would have to beboyfriend and partner.
(11:24):
I think I'm not just going tohave a key holder.
To have a key holder but itwould be kind of one of the
elements of intimacy in ourrelationship.
And that's unlikely anytimesoon based on my horrible dating
experience.
So I don't know that I'm goingto do a long run.
If I do, it will be self-lockedand we'll see.
(11:45):
I'm not in a super horny sexualmood.
I'm kind of really more in amood of isolation because it is
so fucking hot in Florida.
I don't want to go out, I don'twant to get together with
people, I don't want to doanything but sit in air
conditioning.
So I've been doing a lot, a lotof that.
So I'm not especially horny ortuned into my sexual energy, so
(12:09):
I don't know that I'm supermotivated like, oh my God, I got
to lock right now.
But I am curious.
I'm certainly curious and atsome point I'll do a big, long
run with this device.
I've been lubricating in themorning and at night and then
probably once during that,probably about three times a day
, and I've just been using asilicone lube.
(12:30):
And what I've started doing isthere are these tiny little
plastic transfer pipettes.
It's the kind of thing that gotquite popular for dessert shots
, like it'd be stuck in adessert with strawberry syrup or
something.
So it's just a little plastictube with a bulb on the end and
I've been sucking up somesilicone lube and what I like
(12:50):
about it is that it really letsme get that tip into some of the
crevices, not just underneathmy balls but also that area
underneath the cage where thebase of my cock meets the ball,
so I'm able to lubricate moreareas.
Now it's also nice that it'snot as critical for me to
(13:12):
lubricate inside the actual cagebecause nothing's going
anywhere.
My frenum piercing holds mywhole penis kind of in place.
That also means this is not adevice, if you like chastity for
shrinkage to nubbing right Likea lot of men.
I know a lot.
I certainly know men who enjoyTash City because over time your
(13:33):
cock will shrink and they havethis fantasy of having a nub,
just a nub.
This is not the device for you,because my cock should not
shrink because of the frenumretention.
On the plus side, one of theother things I love about this
device is I can pee standing upbecause my urethra is never,
(13:55):
ever out of alignment with thehole because the phantom
piercing means it's notsquirming around.
It also has a fairly largeopening on the front.
I will say, and that's good andbad, because if I'm just even
the tiniest bit too mess-in, alittle tip of my glands will
poke out through the top of thecage and rub against any fabric
(14:17):
I happen to be wearing, and itis not a neurotic feeling.
So that's my experience withthe Evotions so far.
I want to do probably at least48 hours at this point, get a
couple nights sleep in.
I slept horribly last night.
I woke up I think every singlehour having to pee, and that
(14:40):
means woke up every hour in pain.
I have been exhausted today,but the things we do in
commitment to our fetishjourneys right I so I'm going to
try another 24 hours.
I'm going to try to make it atleast till tomorrow afternoon, I
guess, given my work schedule,or maybe I'll bring the key to
work.
But I just cannot necessarilyafford utter lack of sleep all
(15:08):
of this week.
So we'll see how that goes.
I'm hoping the sleep getsbetter.
I do have an opportunity at theend of the month where I won't
have.
I'll have a better opportunitythe last week of this month, I
will say, to do multiple nightslocked and see whether or not my
sleep issues resolve.
Overall, I'm a satisfiedcustomer.
(15:28):
For the money I paid, I think Igot something that is really
really well fitted to my penisand really secure.
This is the first time I feltlike, okay, I am really in
chastity.
There's no way of getting outof this device.
My balls absolutely will notfit between the ring and the
(15:50):
cage and I cannot pull my penisout of the cage without ripping
out my piercing and that's notgoing to be fun.
So it's the first time I feltfully secure and that is kind of
a beautiful feeling.
And you know what I lovechastity, because it feels good.
But there's also for me, as thissingle person who's had
(16:12):
horrible experiences dating.
It also makes me feel safe.
It utterly makes me feel safe.
It's like, well, you know, I'mlocked up so I don't have to
worry about men, I don't have toworry about dating, because
it's not like I can do anything,I'm just locked and that's the
way it is.
So it's a kind of emotionalcomfort for me.
Right now there's a little bitof physical pleasure.
(16:33):
There's still quite a bit ofsoreness If I sit for a while.
The way my balls and the ringinteract is not happy.
So I'm not experiencing thephysical pleasure of chastity
per se, not extensively,although I'll say at the gym,
when I'm all sweaty, everythingjust slides around down there
(16:53):
perfectly.
So that is actually beautifullymotivating because it gets me
to the gym even more, whichmakes me work out harder to get
that delicious slippy, slideyfeeling down there.
But right now there's a littlebit of physical discomfort, but
the emotional comfort at themoment is really significant and
yeah, that's it.
So I mean, some of the things Ihope you take away is sort of um
(17:16):
, decision making or thinkingand exploring custom chastity
options, but, uh, as always,also moving into a new device
slowly, not just locking it onand having someone leave with
the key, but doing a couplehours at a time and and doing
some milestones, like going tothe gym or going to work and all
(17:38):
that, and then trying to makethe leap to sleeping, which is
always the big one, and then thedimensions of pleasure that
come with chastity.
That it's not always about, andfor me it's not at all about
orgasm denial because I will atany moment stick a vibrator on
this cage and shoot.
(17:58):
It's not about that, or it'sabout that a little bit just
because I'm curious, but it'sreally more about how good it
feels and at this stage in mylife it is about how safe it
makes me feel.
That's a good feeling.
So I hope you enjoy my littlechastity journey story.
(18:18):
I hope it gives you some insightinto your own journey or
decisions around chastity ornon-chastity, and I'm grateful
for all of you who generouslyevery month open your ears for
me and give me your attentionand your time and space in your
world, and I'm grateful for thepeople who let me know in person
(18:40):
and through DMs and throughemails and through Ask Edge
questions.
I'm grateful to all of you wholet me know that this podcast
means something.
So I wish you an absolutelybeautiful and blessed leather
journey.
I'm recording this Monday, july15th, at 3.40.
And perhaps in a futureinterlude, maybe in August, I'll
(19:02):
give you an update on mychastity journey.
Until then, be well.
Welcome to Full Cow, a podcast about leather kink and
BDSM.
My name is Edge, my pronounsare he, him, and I'm your host.
And this is another interlude,the episode between episodes,
offered raw and unedited, butwith langlets, leather creaking.
I don't know, my langlets isn'tvery creaky today, sorry people
(00:21):
, but I am wearing it.
And in this interlude I wantedto give everyone an update on my
chastity journey andspecifically, my experiences
with my custom Evotion Orionchastity device.
Now, this is not an actualreview.
I don't like the kind ofimplications of having a
(00:46):
platform that's so large andtalking about a small business,
right?
So this isn't meant to help youmake decisions about devotion
as much as it is aboutreflecting on your own journeys
in chastity or decision-makingprocesses you might use should
you ever get a custom device.
To give you a bit of a recap,I've been interested in Chassity
(01:06):
for a long, long time and I'vestruggled often to find a device
that would work, and recentlyI've been able to make some
changes, shall we say.
That suddenly opened up newdoors for me, and I did quite a
bit of research.
Now the apogee of luxury forcustom ball capture devices is
(01:28):
Steelworks, and it's expensive,but I wasn't as concerned about
the money so much as I felt likethat represented a level of
commitment to Chastity that Ididn't know I could meet Like.
You've got to be really seriousabout chastity when you get a
Steelworks device.
(01:49):
And I found Evotion First of all.
I think it is the mostbrilliant name for chastity
device company ever.
Not only does it kind of evokeevolution, as though this is the
evolution of a ball capturedevice, but brilliantly, it is
devotion without the D.
So it's about showing someonedevotion by taking away the D,
(02:13):
and that is just sheer genius.
What I liked about the Evotion,or Orion device in part, was
the price.
It was a good price point forsomething custom that I wanted.
And then what I also liked isthat it had as a standard option
a frenum capture so I couldsecure my penis inside the cage
(02:39):
through my frenum piercing andthat would prevent any pullout.
I've always, you know, you canpull out of most ball capture
devices unless most standardanti-pullout options require a
PA piercing.
But if you don't have a PApiercing and if you just have a
standard device, I mean you canjust pull your cock out of the
cage and do your business andstuff it back in, and that
(03:02):
defeats the purpose for a lot ofreasons.
I wanted something reallysecure and I wasn't about to get
another piercing to do that,although it wouldn't be the
first time I modified my bodyfor my fetishes.
But I decided to go with this,in part because of the frenum
capture, and I spent quite a bitof time measuring because I've
now decided my new metaphor forthe penis.
(03:24):
The penis is a lot like theNorse god and or Marvel Universe
character Loki.
It is a bit of a trickster, itis a shapeshifter, it can be
just a tiny bit malicious.
You can never quite trust it.
So I measured my penisrepeatedly over several days to
(03:44):
get sort of the most accuratemeasurements possible, and that
included tossing outmeasurements that just seemed
out of line because perhaps Iwas a little too messant that
day, and that included sort ofslowly evolving towards a
consensus of what my measurementsizes were.
So I sent all that off toEvotion.
It is 3D printed but sort ofhand finished, so I knew it was
(04:08):
going to be a while.
I chose the option withsecurity screws because I think
screws are so much hotter thanlocks.
Because I hate to reveal thissecret.
You know what?
I'm not going to reveal it.
Let's just say I went with thesecurity screws instead of the
locks and I waited, and I thinkan interlude or two ago when I
(04:29):
was talking about my milkingmachine, I must've shared a
little bit also about devotion.
The device finally arrived and Iput it on.
I'm making air quotes right nowbecause I have a picture of me
like with this huge hard penisand this tiny little shaft piece
because I was so excited to getit.
Let me start by saying I'm areal fan of the aesthetic
(04:52):
quality of the design.
You can choose the differentpatterns I went with I think
it's called Axiom, it's likethese little triangle looking
things and it's an open designwhich helps aeration a little
bit.
But it's three pieces there'sthe base ring, there's a shaft
piece and then there's a pieceto cover the glands.
(05:13):
I think it's a brilliant designbecause the balls on the
straight barbell on my frenumjust kind of slot in at the top
of that shaft piece and thenwhen the glands piece is
attached those balls are trappedand therefore my penis is
trapped inside of the device.
And I got two different glandscovers One is more open, one is
(05:38):
quote, unquote, full coverageand aesthetically I just loved
it.
The security screws are great,the design of it is great.
So I managed to put it on airquotes and immediately went to
go buy some cigars becausethat's what one does when you're
testing out a new chassisdevice.
And probably within a half hourI was starting to experience
(05:59):
some underball burning, which isnot a good sign.
And I managed to buy cigars andcome back home and then I just
didn't.
I'm like this isn't going towork.
So you know, at first I thoughtthe problem is that there's a
slight curve back at the bottomof the ring.
It's a slight anatomical designto match the curve of the
(06:22):
crotch.
And I thought, you know, Ispecifically kind of twisted my
penis, twisted the cage a littlebit so I could tuck, tuck to
the right, I tucked to the right, and when I did that I must've
made the ring smaller becauseI'd lost that little extra space
given by that little bit ofcurve.
And at first I thought maybethat's the problem.
(06:43):
And I contacted the people atdevotion.
I asked, for their experienceswere like what do you think is
going on?
And and.
And I said you know, maybe Ishould just give it a couple of
days and then try it withperfectly aligned straight, and
they said that was a good idea.
Did that?
I think I got close to 12 hoursbefore it was too painful.
(07:03):
And then I had a contactevotion again and after a little
bit of back and forth werealized that one of the parts
was really not up to spec andthat probably was the issue.
So they went back to theirmagic 3d printers and hand
finishing and sent me a newshaft piece and I here's the
(07:26):
good news Currently, I've spent10, 24, 10, 30, no wait, what
day is today?
Today's Monday, it's Sunday 10,30, 24, 26.
I have just spent 29 hourslocked.
(07:46):
It's the second time I've donemore than 24 hours hours locked.
It's the second time I've donemore than 24 hours.
And even once I got the newpiece, I was still as you should
with any chassis device.
You should go slowly, so Iwould wear it for a little bit.
I did some test runs.
One of the big test runs wasleg day at the gym with my
trainer, because that's a stresstest.
I knew my crotch area would notget a bigger workout at the gym
(08:10):
than with my trainer doing legday.
So once I made it through thereI knew it was secure, I knew it
was comfortable.
And then I slowly built up towearing it eight hours, wearing
it 12 hours, wearing it all day.
And then the big leap.
And the first couple of times Icould not wear it all night,
because you know what this is,what it's designed to do.
(08:31):
You're sleeping pretty dreams,dreams of leather boys and
boyfriends, dream, dream, dream.
And then you wake up inexcruciating pain because
somewhere during the night yourbody has to pee and it and and
your body's like well, I don'twant to wake him up to pee, I'll
just give him a hard penis andthat'll block that off and he
(08:51):
can wait till morning.
And your body doesn't quiterealize that's no longer an
option.
It doesn't realize that atfirst.
So the first couple of nights Itried to do an overnight.
It was like, oh my God, it wastoo much.
I took it off around 4 am.
Then I had a stroke of genius,which is sort of you know what?
(09:12):
Maybe if I start by not puttingit on in the morning, wearing
it all day and then trying tosleep, what if I put it on
before bed?
And I did that, and I did it onthe weekend, so if my sleep was
disturbed I wouldn't upset mydaily schedule, and I did wake
up a few times, but I did makeit through the night and that
was the first 24 hour run I did.
I think that was from Friday 11pm to Saturday.
(09:34):
I actually lasted until Sunday,actually about 4 am.
I did about 29 hours.
That was the trick.
I took it off for a little bitof a break and put it on Sunday
morning at 1030 and it's stillon.
So this means this is a workabledevice, because once you can
(09:56):
make 24 hours locked in anychassis device, then you're
golden, because staying lockedis simply a matter of repeating
that 24 hours every day.
Excuse me, I'm a little froggytoday.
That 24 hours every day Excuseme, I'm a little froggy today.
It's a matter of repeating that24 hours every day, going
forward infinitely until you'redone right.
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So the next big step whichwe'll see how I feel today, but
the next big step is to staylocked for a couple days just to
kind of see whether or not thebody figures out.
Oh, oh, we can't save thepee-pee till the morning with a
hard penis.
We're going to have to wake himvery quickly the moment we know
that we need to pee and get himto go pee.
(10:38):
Let's see how long it takes mybrain to figure that out.
I'm also curious about whetheror not I can reduce a little
blood flow, like right now mypenis, because it's so custom
fit, my penis is kind ofpressing into that triangular
shaped pattern and I'm a littleconcerned about semi-permanent
imprints of these triangles onmy cock.
(11:01):
So I'm trying to test what acouple of days will look like.
And then I'm golden.
I haven't decided how long a runI'm going to do.
I haven't decided if I'm goingto do a run anytime soon.
I don't operate with a keyholder.
I don't have and I'm notopposed to that.
That person would have to beboyfriend and partner.
(11:24):
I think I'm not just going tohave a key holder.
To have a key holder but itwould be kind of one of the
elements of intimacy in ourrelationship.
And that's unlikely anytimesoon based on my horrible dating
experience.
So I don't know that I'm goingto do a long run.
If I do, it will be self-lockedand we'll see.
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I'm not in a super horny sexualmood.
I'm kind of really more in amood of isolation because it is
so fucking hot in Florida.
I don't want to go out, I don'twant to get together with
people, I don't want to doanything but sit in air
conditioning.
So I've been doing a lot, a lotof that.
So I'm not especially horny ortuned into my sexual energy, so
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I don't know that I'm supermotivated like, oh my God, I got
to lock right now.
But I am curious.
I'm certainly curious and atsome point I'll do a big, long
run with this device.
I've been lubricating in themorning and at night and then
probably once during that,probably about three times a day
, and I've just been using asilicone lube.
(12:30):
And what I've started doing isthere are these tiny little
plastic transfer pipettes.
It's the kind of thing that gotquite popular for dessert shots
, like it'd be stuck in adessert with strawberry syrup or
something.
So it's just a little plastictube with a bulb on the end and
I've been sucking up somesilicone lube and what I like
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about it is that it really letsme get that tip into some of the
crevices, not just underneathmy balls but also that area
underneath the cage where thebase of my cock meets the ball,
so I'm able to lubricate moreareas.
Now it's also nice that it'snot as critical for me to
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lubricate inside the actual cagebecause nothing's going
anywhere.
My frenum piercing holds mywhole penis kind of in place.
That also means this is not adevice, if you like chastity for
shrinkage to nubbing right Likea lot of men.
I know a lot.
I certainly know men who enjoyTash City because over time your
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cock will shrink and they havethis fantasy of having a nub,
just a nub.
This is not the device for you,because my cock should not
shrink because of the frenumretention.
On the plus side, one of theother things I love about this
device is I can pee standing upbecause my urethra is never,
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ever out of alignment with thehole because the phantom
piercing means it's notsquirming around.
It also has a fairly largeopening on the front.
I will say, and that's good andbad, because if I'm just even
the tiniest bit too mess-in, alittle tip of my glands will
poke out through the top of thecage and rub against any fabric
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I happen to be wearing, and itis not a neurotic feeling.
So that's my experience withthe Evotions so far.
I want to do probably at least48 hours at this point, get a
couple nights sleep in.
I slept horribly last night.
I woke up I think every singlehour having to pee, and that
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means woke up every hour in pain.
I have been exhausted today,but the things we do in
commitment to our fetishjourneys right I so I'm going to
try another 24 hours.
I'm going to try to make it atleast till tomorrow afternoon, I
guess, given my work schedule,or maybe I'll bring the key to
work.
But I just cannot necessarilyafford utter lack of sleep all
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of this week.
So we'll see how that goes.
I'm hoping the sleep getsbetter.
I do have an opportunity at theend of the month where I won't
have.
I'll have a better opportunitythe last week of this month, I
will say, to do multiple nightslocked and see whether or not my
sleep issues resolve.
Overall, I'm a satisfiedcustomer.
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For the money I paid, I think Igot something that is really
really well fitted to my penisand really secure.
This is the first time I feltlike, okay, I am really in
chastity.
There's no way of getting outof this device.
My balls absolutely will notfit between the ring and the
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cage and I cannot pull my penisout of the cage without ripping
out my piercing and that's notgoing to be fun.
So it's the first time I feltfully secure and that is kind of
a beautiful feeling.
And you know what I lovechastity, because it feels good.
But there's also for me, as thissingle person who's had
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horrible experiences dating.
It also makes me feel safe.
It utterly makes me feel safe.
It's like, well, you know, I'mlocked up so I don't have to
worry about men, I don't have toworry about dating, because
it's not like I can do anything,I'm just locked and that's the
way it is.
So it's a kind of emotionalcomfort for me.
Right now there's a little bitof physical pleasure.
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There's still quite a bit ofsoreness If I sit for a while.
The way my balls and the ringinteract is not happy.
So I'm not experiencing thephysical pleasure of chastity
per se, not extensively,although I'll say at the gym,
when I'm all sweaty, everythingjust slides around down there
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perfectly.
So that is actually beautifullymotivating because it gets me
to the gym even more, whichmakes me work out harder to get
that delicious slippy, slideyfeeling down there.
But right now there's a littlebit of physical discomfort, but
the emotional comfort at themoment is really significant and
yeah, that's it.
So I mean, some of the things Ihope you take away is sort of um
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, decision making or thinkingand exploring custom chastity
options, but, uh, as always,also moving into a new device
slowly, not just locking it onand having someone leave with
the key, but doing a couplehours at a time and and doing
some milestones, like going tothe gym or going to work and all
(17:38):
that, and then trying to makethe leap to sleeping, which is
always the big one, and then thedimensions of pleasure that
come with chastity.
That it's not always about, andfor me it's not at all about
orgasm denial because I will atany moment stick a vibrator on
this cage and shoot.
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It's not about that, or it'sabout that a little bit just
because I'm curious, but it'sreally more about how good it
feels and at this stage in mylife it is about how safe it
makes me feel.
That's a good feeling.
So I hope you enjoy my littlechastity journey story.
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I hope it gives you some insightinto your own journey or
decisions around chastity ornon-chastity, and I'm grateful
for all of you who generouslyevery month open your ears for
me and give me your attentionand your time and space in your
world, and I'm grateful for thepeople who let me know in person
(18:40):
and through DMs and throughemails and through Ask Edge
questions.
I'm grateful to all of you wholet me know that this podcast
means something.
So I wish you an absolutelybeautiful and blessed leather
journey.
I'm recording this Monday, july15th, at 3.40.
And perhaps in a futureinterlude, maybe in August, I'll
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give you an update on mychastity journey.
Until then, be well.
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