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Brett Keane Talks‪ @PraiseIAMOfficial‬ ‪@ttor13‬ ‪@ProverbsGuysMinistries‬ ‪@SmokeySaintPolemics‬

Episode Transcript

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Where are you tonight? Empty streets belong Something
in the air. I can't quite let it go.

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The feeling that you're there every single night.
I look up high, trying to catch a sign that you're watching over
me, but I just can't see. Where are you tonight when I

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need you most? Where are you to die?
Are you close? Are you close?

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Hands reach to the sky, stars fall like your tears.
Time keeps passing by. Still I wait right here.

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Every breath I take, every prayer I make, Hoping you'll
appear in this world of mine. Just give me a sign.
Where are you tonight when I need you most?

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Well, hello, ladies and gentlemen.
My name is Brett Keane from GOD TV Radio.
I hope you're all having a blessed day out there.
If you enjoyed that song that you heard at the introduction
that is called Where Are You Tonight is the second track on
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You can buy that on Amazon, Spotify, my website, and

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money. And if you'd like to hear my
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All links will be in the comments.
You can also check out my newestbook, Afterlife Simulation, and

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other content and neat stuff. When I first got away from
atheism, ladies and gentlemen, Iwas struggling.
It wasn't an easy transition to go from lacking a belief in God
or believing that if there were to be a God and it happened to

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be the one of Christianity or any of these religions that
exist today. I had it set in my mind that if
something like this did exist itwould make a very difficult
universe to live in. I had a hard time with moral
arguments as well as the problemof evil, which is an issue that

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Christians as well as people of other faiths and non believers
have battled with for thousands of years since the idea that a
higher power even existed. So I was looking for people who
were knowledgeable. I was looking for people who
were intelligent. I was looking for people that

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lived up to their name, walk thewalk, talk the talk.
I connected with people like KenToven.
I connected with people like Praise.
I am. I connected with PTOR through
Bit Shoot. I connected to Proverbs
ministry. These were the type of people I
was listening to and paying attention to, as well as many

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other Christians, including Sister Sunshine and a plethora
of other religious believers that either still exist in
social media are long gone. And I learned a lot.
I absorbed a lot of information and I adopted many of the ideas
and thoughts that a lot of you did.

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But not only did I do that with praise, I am and Proverbs and
TTOR and all that. There were things in the
beginning when I first met Smokey St. he didn't always go
under that name. He used to go under Josh and
showed himself on camera. In the beginning of his YouTube

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career, he used to visit sister Sunshine's live chats and me and
sister enjoyed his company. He was a different person it
seemed back then. Very nice, very respectful, very
articulate, well read, seemed inthe Bible, and I've seen myself
for the longest time enjoying listening to the words that came

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out of his mouth. But one of the problems I had is
being a babe in Christ, transforming from atheism into
Christianity, is I failed at a gift that Christianity offers
and it's called discernment. I had a difficult time being
able to tell the bad ones from the good ones.

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I just simply wasn't able to pick it up.
And I was kind of like Donald Trump.
As long as someone was nice to me and stuff, they were my
bestest. I, I liked them.
I wanted to be friends. I wanted peace, not war, that
kind of stuff, if that makes sense.
So I followed all these people. I subscribed to them and I

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listened to them during this time.
There were some Christians out there that they went down a dark
path. They gave up their faith and
they became atheists themselves.Some of them remained calling
themselves Christian, but they didn't behave or act in any way
like that. And then it came down to I

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started seeing the Christian community fighting with each
other over theology. I've seen people saying, no, the
trinity's not the way. Yes, the Trinity's the way.
This is what it's like during tribulation.
Should we follow the commandments or should we do
like Paul? Are we under works?
Are we not under works? All right, once you're saved,

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are you always saved? And the list just kept going on
and on and on where Christians were creating more and more
obstacles, so the person had to get in order to find salvation.
I even got to the point where I looked at myself in the mirror
and I said, do I got it right? This is so confusing.
I feel like what what is happening here?

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And eventually I had to get to apoint where I didn't know who
was telling me the truth, who was right, who was wrong.
And I had to go directly to God and quit using humans as a
mediator. I said God, what is what is the
facts? What is the truth?
Because all these people have their own interpretation, all of

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them have their own stories, allof them have their own walk in
life. There was a lot of growing, a
lot of learning, and eventually I found out that my walk with
God was going to have to be strictly prohibited from other
people's walk, that it would have to be unique and

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independent all on its own. Then things got worse.
Christian community went from arguing over theology to getting
into each other's personal business.
And eventually it was found out that Josh, who was known as
Smoky St., was a pedophile and he was charged with it, actually

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went to court and he hung out with a man who wasn't taking
care of himself that had health issues that struck him down
mentally. Kenny Rhodes, a guy who has
almost the same condition as I do, bipolar manic depression.

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If you don't keep up with bipolar manic depression, if you
don't stay in front of it, it can turn into a really, really
serious problem. My mother had it and it
eventually ended up in her committing suicide.
It's a it's a problem that causes you to devalue yourself.

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It allows rage, anger, hopelessness, everything that a
Christian is not. It'll tear you apart emotionally
and mentally. It can cause you to be your
worst enemy and destroy everything around you.
And that's exactly what Kenny Rhodes did.

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Kenny Rhodes ended up losing a high paying job at a Christian
organization where people used to listen to him and supposedly,
according to Christians today, he is now homeless.
Kenny Rhodes spent instead of spending his time trying to sow
seeds and help people and support people and emphasize,

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empathize with people and identify, he decided to use his
platform to attack, attack, attack.
And he justified it because he said people don't agree with my
friends and criticize my friends.
So therefore I'm going to beat people up.
I'm going to say nasty things. And the hell with what God

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thinks about it was his attitude.
This road ruined his entire life.
And then, of course, there's Josh.
Josh made a decision a long timeago, while he was going to
college, that he wanted to screwan underage girl in a motel

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room. Instead of taking accountability
for it and saying that he was a stupid young man who made a
terrible mistake and would neverdo that again, he decided to lie
about his identity. He pretended to not be the guy
in the mug shot. He lied for over a year saying
that that wasn't him, that they got the wrong person.

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They're framing an innocent man is what he said.
I recall that he deliberately attacked me repeatedly, even
though I had told him respectfully and politely before
I found out he was a pedophile and still looked up to him as
one of the people that might be able to help educate me
biblically and all this. I told him some of the views

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that I was looking into, that some of the philosophy I
adopted. Instead of patiently and
politely enduring this and taking me in and trying to teach
me a different way of doing things, instead he decided to
make stream after stream trying to humiliate me and embarrass
me. I'd already told him in private

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that I have my own personal problems, I have my own issues,
and I'm trying to figure out my way, trying to figure out the
best way to serve God. He knowing all this, he took
everything that I told him and basically rammed it directly up
my ass. And that's what he did.
Since then, Josh has had relationships with homosexuals.

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He has made streams where he makes homosexuality out to be a
joke because he knows that he actually entertained it and
experienced it. And a majority of you out there
know that I'm not one of these like super strict Christians.
Although I know biblically it's wrong that homosexuality is

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considered an abomination to God, I don't slam it down
homosexuals throats. I don't tell them how they ought
to live. I assume that they already know
what God thinks about it and what the Bible says.
I'm not one of these people where I feel like I got to beat
people over the head with the Bible repeatedly.
You've been told once. You've probably been told by

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everybody else. You don't need to be reminded
daily. You are basically the master of
your own destiny. You're going to pull your own
strings and you're either going to lead yourself to God or
straight to hell. No need for me to assist you in
that process. So before knowing that Josh was
a pedophile, he had done everything he possibly could to

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RIP me down, tear me down, try to harm me in my faith because I
was a new believer. I was trying to find my tracks.
I was always honest about that. To me, going from atheism to
Christianity was not a simple move, especially since I had a

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lot on the line. Reputation, ego, obviously the
position of being an authority, a mouthpiece.
People looked up to me. People respected me as a non
believer back when I was an atheist.
Giving that all up meant that I was going to lose a lot of

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friends. It meant I was going to lose a
lot of time. It meant that I was going to
have to look back on everything I ever said or ever did and say
that I was wrong and accept accountability and then try to
live a completely different lifestyle and philosophy than I

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ever could. One of the most difficult,
challenging lifestyles I've ever.
The lifestyle of trying to be a Christian, trying to serve God
and trying to make altruistic sacrifices and such when I
already had this very little to give in the 1st place.
I still gave it all. I got praise.

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I am was one of those Christianswhere even though he was going
to battle back and forth, not wanting to, not desiring to, but
it's got to the point where it happened so much that now it's
become a natural mode for him. But before he tried everything
he could to be friendly with Smokey, Smokey decided he wanted

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to smash a whole lot of Christians out there because
they found out what he was. They found out that he was a
criminal, and he turned on a lotof people who would have given
the shirt off of their back for him.
You know, I obviously wasn't theonly one.

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For some reason, Smokey went postal and started attacking
everyone in every direction. Anyone that criticized him was
considered an enemy for life, a foe that needed to, a corpse
that needed to be buried. There was no way to rationalize
or have any kind of logical discussion.

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When I returned after all this time of taking a break from
YouTube, I'd actually consideredgoing in and trying to talk to
him and actually forgive him forthe things he did to me.
I considered that. Instead, I found myself in his
text chat and I discovered that he had gotten married to a a

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young woman who claims that she actually spent time in my live
rooms in the past. And I simply found myself
congratulating them. And it wasn't long before a
Smokey and Will started droppingmockery towards me and insulting
me. Like, you know, a day didn't

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pass, like time didn't even movefor them.
It was like they were trying on one hand to be friendly and
nice, but on the other hand, they apparently kept a lot of
clips where they used to mock mestill in their database to
insult me. And it was sad.

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It was like, well, OK, I had hoped that I could just let
bygones be bygones. I was hoping that I could just
simply say whatever. But then it even got worse.
Smokey attacked my friend TTOR simply because my friend is a
young Earther TTOR. Although he comes off like a

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very optimistic, good person, TTOR has got a lot of his own
personal stress and aggravation he has to go through.
It's just that he doesn't botherwasting his time talking about
it publicly because he knows a lot of people on social media
doesn't care. He's the type of guy that has
this philosophy that if you got problems and issues and you're

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going to have to take care of ityourself.
And he's done really well for himself, but he was minding his
own business. Smokey comes over, starts hating
on him simply because he believes the Earth is some
amount of years that don't agreewith his view of it.
I'm not a young earther myself, ladies and gentlemen.

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That's still one of those thingsthat I haven't got around to
going through. I've listened to Kent Tobin
countless times and other Youtubers, other friends of mine
who are young earthers, and I haven't been able to get around
to it. But the point is, I don't feel
at all any kind of desire to attack them and argue with them.

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I've always been more than happyto have an open discussion about
things that other Christians maynot believe the same way I do.
Always willing to have an open discussion, but I don't want to
argue with someone or make them feel like they're being
interrogated because I'm not their judge, I'm not their, I'm

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not God. I can tell them that I have an
interest in why they have the perspective they do, but there's
absolutely no reason in my heartwhere I need to battle someone
to the death over Scripture. The whole idea is that we're all
in the same boat and we need to paddle together towards God, not

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toss people off into the ocean or water and all this.
Unless of course, they fit the context of this Bible passage
that I have sitting up on the screen.
You know, when I read this versea while back, I was not aware of
something. I always assumed that the verse

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was talking about just children.I always thought it would meant
that if you hurt children or youcause children to stumble or you
cause children to sin, that God would prefer you to just tie
some, you know, tie a rope around your neck and jump into
the sea and none of that passes.Does it say that Jesus is

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forgiving people who hurt children?
But there was something else that I noticed too.
It wasn't just talking about little kids and kids that are
undeveloped or ignorant or don'tknow any better.
It's also talking about people who are babes in Christ.
If someone comes along and and messes with a person who's just

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trying to find God and trying todevelop as a Christian,
transform into a, you know, get rid of the, the dead and become
the living. It's just as bad as causing the
child to stumble because you're what's happening is if you
traumatize a child or someone who's trying to find their

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faith, then you may be the very person who puts your foot on
their head and pushes them directly into the flames.
You may have destroyed their life.
How do you explain that when youget to Judgement Day and you're
standing before God, that you abused people, that you hurt
people, especially those who arebabes in Christ or children,

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physical, biological children? I don't think that you can ask
God to let that pass, especiallyif what you did caused or
determined someone's direction down the dark Rd.

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I don't know So I believe that I've learned something new.
I I've always liked to hold on to the idea that God is
forgiving of all things. Well I like to believe that.
But now I realize after looking at the Bible and and scratching

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through the surface, I realize at this point I have evolved
from a babe in Christ to someonewho is actually able to
minister, someone who can teach.I have consumed knowledge and
information and at this point I see it as their my discernment

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skills have become more powerful.
They've become more sharp as they were not in the beginning
whenever I spent time with some of you people out there.
To me, there are some Christiansout there where you're still
making mistakes and you're stillsometimes finding yourself in

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your flesh, but there's still hope for you.
There's still light. Yes, you've called some names.
Yes, you've jumped into the mud with the pigs, but you still
believe in God, you still love God, and you still want to
serve. You're having a moment that's
bad right now. You're having an issue where the

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community is fighting each other, but they're still good in
you. You haven't become a a
completely bad person, but Josh,you are the same person that
you've always been. You have become evil.
You've become dark and you don'tcare who you hurt.
You don't care how old they are.You don't care who's listening.

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You Attack, Attack and ain't nobody mean or praise.
I am TTOR or Proverbs. None of us are claiming to be
perfect. We're not claiming to be
wonderful. But what we are not doing is
we're not pedophiles, we're not criminals, and we're not

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deliberately or intentionally trying to cause anybody to fall.
That's where you are. It's almost as if you get some
kind of sexual orgasm off of trying to destroy other people.
You don't care who they are, what they are.
And some people might actually admire that.
Oh, he'll attack anybody, he'll fight anybody, he'll destroy

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anybody. He'll try to ruin anybody that
he possibly can. Some people like that kind of
attitude. They like the bad boy thing.
I don't. I'm not wanting to be around
that kind of nonsense. If I wanted that, I would have
remained a Christian. Not a Christian, but an atheist.
And just continue to dwell in darkness with the rest of the

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lost. I'm looking for something better
in my life. I'm looking to be a better
person. I'm looking to be a person who
wants to be accountable. A person that takes
responsibility and then moves forward from it for better
things, greener grass, that kindof thing.

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Ladies and gentlemen, I'm going to fail.
I'm going to make mistakes. Sometimes I'm going to think
wrong things, sometimes I'm going to say wrong things.
But I would never do it deliberately or intentionally.
I'm always willing to learn, I'malways open minded and I always
have a open heart. But I do believe there are some

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things that are not redeemable, things that simply can't be
forgiven. And what I'm saying, Josh, is
that I, I have no desire whatsoever to forgive you and my
heart and my mind and my soul. I think what you've done is
devastating. And I think that you have
tainted a lot of people's walk with God.

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I think that you have caused anddirected people to a very, very
bad place for them. And I think that it's going to
cause physical and emotional andspiritual destruction for many
out there. I mean, look at Kenny Rhodes.
You could have supported him. You could have encouraged him to

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do the right thing. Instead, you encouraged him to
be vicious and nasty. You could have told him to go to
a doctor, seek therapy, get on medication.
That way he didn't start callingpeople on the phone and
threatening to harm them and violence and all this.
You had to have known that eventually your own friend would

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end up in no man's land. But she did nothing.
Even though you considered him one of the greatest friends
ever, and he stood up for you. He was loyal.
What were you though? You did nothing.
You let him fall. So here's what's going to happen

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now. I don't want to be involved in
your nonsense. There is an overabundance of
Christians out there who they absolutely despise you, and
they're going to probably spend the rest of their time on social
media exposing you repeatedly. I don't want to be a part of

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that game. I got so many other things on
the table, so many other things on my plate, and I feel like
you've already been thoroughly destroyed like a demon that has
been exposed to the light. I don't want to spend all of my
existence dealing with you or any of these other bastards out
here on the Internet who are terrible like yourself, worse,

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or even a little less. I just want to work on my music,
my books, my life, be positive for my family, learn as much as
I can, continue to be the student, and learn and
strengthen my relationship with God.
This is where I'm at. I want to be able to do live

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shows and I want to have good discussions with atheists and
religious people. I don't want to allow myself to
be in a position where I'm attacking, attacking, attacking,
or fighting people. I want to be able to sow seeds.
I want to actually serve God andnot just talk about it.

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There's a lot of times where I don't feel like I was actually
sowing anything. I was just Yep, Yep, Yep, Yep,
Yep. And what's the difference
between that and a sadity? This is called accountability.
You hold yourself responsible for what you've done, and you
try to learn from it and move forward.
That's what I'm doing. And I don't know if there's any

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hope for you whatsoever at this point.
I don't think that there is. I can't find one single reason
in my creative, imaginative mindwhy anybody should forgive you
or give you any opportunities orchance.
You know, that's, that's that TTOR is one of the nicest, most

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kindest people there is. Proverbs guy.
He's one of the nicest, most chill, open minded people teach
you are the type of guy that if you just talk to him and discuss
with them, he'll be more than happy to spend hours with you
hanging out and and having good conversations.
He doesn't have a spiteful mean bone in his body, but he's also

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the type of man who doesn't doesn't allow people to kick
dust in his face. He's not going to let you kick
dirt in his face. So choices, that's really what
it comes down to, folks. Choices.

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And Josh, before you get all pissed off and angry and think
that the world's against you andyou didn't do anything wrong
kind of thing, you keep in mind that not one of these people
wouldn't you first you did this.You attacked every single one of
these people. You initiated war with TTOR.

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You initiated war with praise. I was there.
You've went off on Beckel. You went off on every Christian
out there. And maybe the reason why you
attacked all these people is because it made you angry that
they had the kind of respect that they had in the community

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is where you felt like the only way you could get popular was by
destroying other people. Maybe it's jealousy.
Maybe it's envy. Maybe you realize that just
being able to spew out some Bible verses every once in a
while and argue simply isn't enough to work out right with

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God or people. There's something wrong with
you. Maybe one day you'll fix it.
But they say you can't teach a dog new tricks.
Old dog at least. So people, let this be a lesson

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to you. You know, make your bed, sleep
in it kind of deal. Empty streets below something in

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the.