March 18, 2025 • 61 mins
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In this episode of Heart Light Sessions, Jenee sits down with Stephanie to explore the journey of reclaiming personal sovereignty, stepping beyond external spiritual systems, and embracing self-guided transformation. They discuss the power of integrating science and spirituality, the impact of energetic frequency, and how aligned action can help us break through fear. From the wisdom of Dr. Joe Dispenza and the Silva Method to embodying the mindset of a high-level creator, this conversation is packed with insights on how to step into your fullest potential.
About Stephanie:
Steph Lilly Smith is a highly accomplished producer, former talent agent, and performer with over two decades in the entertainment industry. She has driven digital content for major brands like Havaianas, Happy Family Organics, BlackRock Financial, and the 51st NAACP Image Awards, blending creativity with strategy to deliver exceptional results.
As Executive Producer for Sheryl Lee Ralph’s DIVAS Simply Singing, Steph led a groundbreaking 2020 televised special that raised $350,000. Her diverse career spans arts, education, and service, aligning with her holistic approach to well-being.
Through Creatricity, Steph continues to empower individuals and organizations, transforming collaboration in Hollywood and Media by connecting studios, production companies, and industry pros to bring creative visions to life.
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Jenee (00:06):
Welcome to the Heartlight Sessions, a podcast about light
working your way through darktimes.
I'm Janae Halstead.
I'm a singer-songwriter,holistic vocal coach, intuitive
guide and plant medicinefacilitator.
I'm also a survivor ofchildhood abuse, autoimmune
issues and my 30s.
I'm also a survivor ofchildhood abuse, autoimmune
issues and my 30s.
I'm on a lifelong healingjourney and, along the way, I
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want to share the ideas andteachings that rock my world.
Every week on HeartlightSessions, I call in artists,
healers and thinkers to explorewhat's helped them live and
thrive from a heart-centeredplace, because the heart, it's
where the best things happen.
If you've ever wondered how tounlock your biggest
(00:51):
breakthroughs or how to comeback from that stuff that tried
to kill you, you know the stuffI'm talking about, the stuff
that's supposed to make youstronger.
Or if you've ever wondered howto just do you straight from the
heart, you're in the rightplace.
So join me, won't you?
Let's turn on that heart light.
Hello, hello, beautiful, hello.
(01:21):
So happy to have you here.
Stephanie (01:26):
Oh, thank you for having me.
It is a pleasure always to sitwith you, so thank you.
Jenee (01:32):
I have Steph Lilly Smith here with me and she is a
powerhouse, major powerhouse inboth.
I'm going to read a little bitof her bio.
I just took a little section ofit.
She has a beautiful bio whichI'll post on the description
page A powerhouse in bothcorporate and entertainment
industries, with over a decadeas a producer, former talent
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agent, and two decades as aperformer, which I did not know
about that, so we'll have totalk about that.
She is like groundbreakingdigital content from brands like
Havianas, Happy Organics, aswell as the 51st NAACP Image
Awards.
As the executive producer forAbbott Elementary star and stage
and screen legend Cheryl Lee,Ralph's Divas Simply Singing,
(02:20):
she orchestrated a landmark 2020Televise special raising
$350,000, which is mind-blowing.
Stephanie's diverse career,spanning arts, education and
service, aligns with herholistic approach to well-being.
As the force behind Creatricity, she redefines collaboration in
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Hollywood and media, connectingstudios, production companies
and creatives to bring visionaryprojects to life.
I was like how am I gonna likeask her to explain what she does
?
Because there's just likethere's a lot of dimensions
there.
Stephanie (02:59):
I think that is um.
I don't know if you do anythingor know anything about human
design, but I'm a manifestinggenerator and so I can't help
but just have my hands in 10things at once.
I love it.
Jenee (03:16):
Yeah.
It's so nice, cause you havethe energy as a manifester.
As a generator you have thatkind of the generative energy,
but as a manifester it's likeyou know.
Stephanie (03:25):
It's a vision and you just and you move and you go
really fast, and sometimes thatcan throw people off because I
do move really fast, they'relike whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
You're like 30 steps ahead andI'm still here at step one.
Jenee (03:38):
That would be me.
Stephanie (03:39):
I'm like wait, I know this is going to work, but can
you, can you show me like yeah?
Jenee (03:47):
Yeah, yeah.
So can you tell me a little bitabout Creatricity, and are you
still um?
You have two other businesspartners with that, right, or I?
Stephanie (03:56):
have one business partner.
Yeah, um, I co-foundedCreatricity in 2020, actually
it's our five year anniversaryin 2020.
Actually it's our five-yearanniversary, um, actually it was
on like the.
We were in a leap year thatyear, so it was the 29th or the
1st of march um and it was justbefore the pandemic.
Everything was shutting down.
(04:17):
I was in new york city, um, andmy girlfriend her name is
cassandra freeman um, I don'tknow if anybody's watching the
reimagined version of FreshPrince of Bel-Air, but she's the
star on there.
Jenee (04:29):
I thought I recognized her name, yeah, wow.
Stephanie (04:33):
She's the new Viv over there and she called me out
of the blue one day.
It wasn't out of the blue, butit was out of the blue.
She called up my husband and shewas like where's your wife?
I need to speak to her.
We had met one other time at mybrother-in-law's wedding.
(04:53):
We had less than a 30 minuteconversation then, but we hadn't
spoken and that had beenprobably two years at that time.
So she reaches out.
She's like where's your wife?
I need to speak to her.
And he was like actually she'shere in the city with me.
She was like I need to speak toher.
He was like actually she's herein the city with me.
Um, she was like I need tospeak to her.
So we met up for coffee thenext day or like a day or so
later and she was like I needhelp organizing my life.
(05:15):
And I was like okay, um, so Ijust kind of took a look at like
what she had going on and I putit in a system, because I'm all
about systems and workflow.
And she was like this isincredible.
I'm actually doing an event ina few weeks.
And she knew I did events and Iwas I was working with Shirley
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Ralph at the time and she shewas like well, how do you know
I'm?
Can you help me?
And I was like yeah, I'mactually I don't have anything
going on.
I actually had been releasedfrom a job, um, and it was the
second time I had was workingwith this boss and I was really
upset and I just like I did notknow what to do.
(05:58):
Um, or he basically told methat I wasn't a good producer,
that I could stick to workingwith talent only, and he fired
me over the phone and we hadworked together for one season
and I completely shut down hisbusiness, sold all his equipment
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while he went and worked foranother company.
Business sold all his likeequipment while he went and
worked for another company.
And this was the second time hecame back to me and he was like
I'd love to work together again.
That's where I did my work withFabianas and.
BlackRock Financial.
And, anyway, he called me upout of the blue one day and he
was like yeah, so we're going tolike release you.
(06:44):
And I was like devastated.
This was the second time I hadlet this happen.
When was this?
This was in 2020.
Oh wow, this was literally likedays before Cassie called me up.
So yeah, she called me up andshe's like, can you help me with
this event that I've got goingon?
And I'm like, can you help mewith this event that I've got
going on?
And I'm like, sure, and she wasgetting together a group of
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Black actresses to just kind ofbe in the room.
And the premise was you know,we're not able to get together
in community as artists, ascreatives, when it's not an
audition, when it's not awardseason or whatever that case may
be.
So, and we also understood thatmost creatives are multi
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hyphenates.
They do multiple differentthings.
They never kind of figure outhow to get things started in
those other lanes.
So we brought in a businessstrategist and it was really
just a fun gathering.
We got together probably 50women that day, and what we
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realized after that wasultimately there was no way that
we could help everyone in thatwere grounded with educational
resources, virtual and in-personprogramming, and then our
ultimate goal will be to producecontent that is birthed from
the collaborations within ourmembership.
Jenee (08:25):
Wow, and how many people are now in it?
Stephanie (08:29):
We have 200 members and we have about 1200 that are
sitting, that are subscribed toour newsletter and that that
interact with us, engage with us, and we hit about 3000 on on
our Instagram recently.
Jenee (08:43):
So, we're, we're out there.
Congratulations, thank you,thank you so much, and do you
find that it's just Los Angelesor is it starting to span, like
New York, la and where you're at?
Stephanie (08:57):
So we've launched successfully in New York and Los
Angeles and we've had a handfulof events on both coasts over
the years.
I am looking to now launch herein Dallas this year.
So I am looking for partners tocollaborate with me here and
I'm actually just trying to getto know people here that are in
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the creative community.
So I've made a few friends andI've met a few people and I
recently went to a candle makingclass, which was really fun and
it was intimate, so there werelike only 16 people in the class
.
So I figured doing somethingsmaller like that that gives
people something to do as aneasy icebreaker to start
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conversation, um, as well asbeing creative by um, you know,
creating something that they cantake home and um also talk
about the amazing experiencethat they had.
Um, I'm thinking about doingsomething like that here.
Cool.
Jenee (09:59):
Yeah, I'm so like I'm just in admiration of you and we
were talking before a littlebit, before we hit record, and I
was saying how, just how shinyyou are lately and how blown
away I am.
(10:19):
I mean, I've always been blownaway by you.
There's just like an arrival.
That's happened in the lastyear and, um, when I get on
Instagram like you're one of thefirst people I go to to listen
to.
It's been like your content hasbeen extremely uplifting for me
and like funny.
You know that in times where Iwas feeling kind of like what am
(10:44):
I doing?
I have no idea, like half thestuff that I'm thinking is about
bringing into the world iscrazy or whatever I I look to
you as a, as kind of a guidinglight, because I've I've found
that the content always kind offits what I'm needing to hear in
my heart.
Stephanie (11:00):
You- know, amazing.
Thank you for sharing thatnumber one, and I'm really happy
that I can be a reflection toyou, because, you know, the
feeling to me is wholly mutual.
I feel like every time I seeyou, you are, you are doing
things that I've always longedto do.
You're recording, you'resinging, always, and um.
(11:23):
So I'm happy that I can bringeven a little inspiration to you
, and I hope that you know thosewho are watching and listening
as well.
Um, we'll see a little bit oflight on on both of our pages.
Jenee (11:37):
Yeah, I'm very curious about your journey in the last
year and your head space andyour your body space and and
where you've arrived and it hasbeen a um.
Stephanie (11:53):
It's been a journey we relocated to from Los Angeles
to Dallas in August of 23.
I think that's right.
It's been about a year and ahalf now, and that was a
upheaval for me.
Jenee (12:14):
And it was really really hard for me to leave the city.
I knew it was going to be hard.
I saw you?
Stephanie (12:20):
When did I see you?
Jenee (12:21):
Was it June?
Stephanie (12:23):
I think you guys saw us in august, like it was right
before you guys, right before,like at the top of the month,
and then we left towards the endof the month.
So, um, yeah, it was reallytough.
I still get emotional thinkingabout it because this it, it is
home, it is, yeah, still to me.
(12:43):
My closest and dearest friendsstill live there, and so it was
really an emotional move and yeta necessary move for our family
here, thankfully, what hasn'tbeen too much of a difficult
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transition, uh, physically, um,but emotionally and mentally it
was, um, and I definitely feltmoments of um doubt, of, like
I'm moving.
My company is, you know, set uphere and, um, you know, I was
the face here and now, like, I'min Dallas, like who's gonna
help me over there?
And one of the girls who was onour team, who was really kind
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of instrumental in strategy andhelping us operationally.
She also moved back to the EastCoast and now she's in New York
, which is really helpfulbecause my co founder lives
there when she's in New York,which is really helpful because,
uh, my co-founder lives there,um, when she's not working, but
she lives in LA when she isworking.
So, um, anyway, it was.
It took a toll on me mentally,um, and for a time I was
(14:01):
probably depressed, you know,and deeply just like, like what
is this?
I stopped meditating Like therewas no practice.
There wasn't and, interestinglyenough, before we left, we sat
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with you and did Bufo, which letme just interject for a moment.
Ladies and gentlemen, please,please, please, please.
First of all, I heard about itin the most random way.
Uh, I was watching HGTV and, um, I don't know if anyone watches
(14:47):
Slip or Flop, but ChristinaHall, I think, is her name.
I was reading a People Magazinearticle about her journey with
Bupo and, yes, and how it like,completely, just like, rocked
her, world unlocked, you know.
Yes, and how it like, completely, just like, rocked her world
(15:07):
unlocked, you know, cleared outa bunch of darkness that she was
going through and I was like itjust made me curious.
That was the first time I hadever heard of it.
Number one, and my journey withpsychedelics started in 2017,
just before I got married withCornelius, um, with ayahuasca,
(15:28):
and that was transformative forme as well.
It was like the beginning ofthe beginning of the beginning,
um.
It led me to kundalini yoga, umwow, I didn't know that because
I was deeply steeped in my inChristianity.
(15:49):
all the way up to that, like allthe way up to that point, I was
singing at church, I was deeplyinvolved and you know,
cornelius had done it three orfour times by that point, done
it three or four times by thatpoint.
Um, actually, the first weekendafter I met him he was going to
(16:10):
do his first ceremony, whichwas hilarious, because I was
like, well, what is this?
And something in me wanted tobe judgmental, uh, about it, and
I just something also said,something also said don't do
that, just observe.
And I did, and he came back andhe just was like it was.
(16:31):
It was like he knew that therewas a connection between us, but
it like a lot like completelylike locked in.
He was like you have no idea,I'm a completely different
person.
I have like completely clearedout some things.
Like I used to be an assholeLike.
So you know, that was my firstkind of like, hmm, and he was
(16:52):
like I think you should do this,I think this would be really
helpful for you.
And it took me a few years.
Um, and I was doing some pastlife work, um, with a dear
friend of mine and um, somethingcame up around my father and I
was like I'm ready, I have to dothat.
I have to do this.
(17:14):
Um, when can we go?
How soon is this happeningagain?
Um, and magically, um, we gotan email from the, from the
facilitator like three weekslater and we were in there and I
picked one of my best friendswith me.
Cornelius came, his father cameas well.
(17:35):
Yeah, Like it was.
It was amazing.
And I'm sitting there, I'mdeeply in the medicine and I
don't think I'm going to purge.
The whole ceremony is over.
People are in the kitchencoming back to life, and I go
downstairs to put my blanket andI'm like wait a second, oh.
(17:59):
I know that yeah.
Come back upstairs, um, my bestfriend's like would you like
some tea?
I was like, okay, yeah, I'lltake some tea.
She gives me a a cup of tea.
I take two sips and I go outinto the space where everybody
(18:22):
had been, you know, in ceremony,and I go to my bucket purge,
but it was as if I was screamingat the top of my lungs.
I did not feel sick, I actuallyjust felt like I was screaming
yes, like just screaming, and Ihad been dealing with at that
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time I didn't even realize I wasdealing with throat chakra
issues, a lot Completely in mythroat chakra, just because of
the way I was raised.
And like, speaking my truth wasnot that, it wasn't welcomed.
I had fear around speaking mytruth because sometimes that
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truth was different to what Iwas supposed to believe or what
I was supposed to be doing.
So fast forward 2023, and I wassitting with you and Philippe,
like I also knew it was time tosit with that medicine.
You got the call.
(19:30):
Yeah, it was like okay, nowit's time, and I want to tell
you that this experience isdifferent for everyone, but it
was so good for me.
So it was.
I feel like I felt so when Igot up the first time since, we
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did two rounds when.
I got up the first time, I waslike what is this?
But this felt like the mostbeautiful.
I was like what is this?
But this felt like the mostbeautiful like luxury was the
word that came up for me.
I just felt so like, oh, it wasjust incredible, and Janae is
(20:17):
chanting and singing throughoutthe entire ceremony and it felt
like it was hours at a time butit was probably only a few
minutes 20, 30 minutes.
Okay, um, and I remember sayingI don't have fear of the
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afterlife anymore, the fear ofknow the all.
I actually saw the all, yes,the infinity space, um, and I
was like, oh, it's so beautiful,yeah yeah beautiful in here.
Um, and also, what do you haveto worry about?
Like, it was the beginning ofthat like why am I concerned?
(21:00):
Why?
Am I worried about anything,because I'm held and I'm loved
and I'm so supported, and so youknow, all the guidance I need
is in me.
It's here already, like there isno absence.
Um, so that was my first kindof like realization when I was
getting up.
Jenee (21:20):
I loved your um.
Oh, go ahead no no, no, um.
Stephanie (21:25):
I just was so excited because I was feeling so much
anxiety about leaving Um and itgave me a way to ground my move
Um.
So I came here feeling likeit's gonna be fine, it's fine,
it's fine.
And we got here and it was fine.
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My son got into the only spotat this beautiful Montessori
school.
It's on 12 acres.
Wow, they get to go outside andbe in nature every single day.
They have goats oh my goshamazing yes, they get to take
care of and, um, there'sstudents who look like him,
(22:08):
which was a big concern for usin Los Angeles there isn't a lot
of diversity going on yeah, um,so for him to have teachers who
look like him and for him tohave classmates that look like
him.
um, and for us, we found acommunity of seven couples,
which I mean there was onecouple in his toddler class who
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introduced us to this group andyou know, we went out over the
Christmas break and the husbandsdecided they were going to do a
wife appreciation dinner for us.
Jenee (22:45):
Oh, yeah, and.
Stephanie (22:46):
I was like yes.
And yes, and thank you, andplease keep on doing that.
So we arrived at dinner andthere's roses and they gave us
journals to write, like to writeon, and they gave us these
personalized mugs that had likeour school name and the moms,
and it was just really so cute,so cute, so cute um, and also it
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was my first time being incommunity with non-creative
people all like all non-creative.
None of them do anything closeto what I do, um, and so I'm
like I don't even know how toact around y'all.
But also then talking about thethings that they love in the
industry and like looking forpeople's celebrities names that
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I'm just familiar with.
And so I'm just you know.
so it's been really beautiful, abeautiful journey and and in
that as well, like finding meagain when you become a mom,
obviously like there's a bigshift and that was a whole thing
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too, and I had gotten to areally good place before I left
Los Angeles, but coming here, itwasn't like another kind of
rebirth for me.
Um, and I would say in the lastsix months even it has gotten
stronger and stronger.
I decided I was going to do um,yes, I was doing, um, digital
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marketing and you know it was aprogram that now, don't get me
wrong the information that'swithin the program I've learned
a ton about marketing and how tobuild a brand, and all of that
kind of stuff has been veryvaluable for both my personal
brand and also for Creatricity.
But at the same time, I was notbeing authentic to me, and the
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things that I had to share andthe things that were important
to me and that and that's numberone, my spirituality, that is
how I show up as an entrepreneur, that is how I show up as a mom
, um, and so I foundaccountability partners, people
along the way that have reallysaid Stephanie, just show you,
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um.
And also, how can you embodythe version of you that already
runs a seven figure business,the version of you, thank you.
Jenee (25:32):
That's it.
That's it, cause that's whatI'm seeing.
That's what I'm seeing.
Yes, yeah, that's exactly it.
Stephanie (25:39):
It's not showing up.
That's exactly it is.
It's not showing up tentatively, like a girlfriend of mine said
to me the other day.
She was like take up space.
Yes, stop fucking around, stoptrying to hide, stop covering
yourself up.
Put your fucking makeup on andshow up, stop hiding.
And I was exactly hiding and Iwas like.
(26:02):
that thing hit me in a day likea dagger in the chest, but at
the same time it was like, oh, Ihave permission to do so.
I have so many bigpersonalities around me.
My co-founder is a star.
My husband is a star, stephanie, you are too.
Jenee (26:20):
You are.
Stephanie (26:20):
Yeah, you are too.
You are, yeah, you are too like, thank you claiming it like
claiming it it is so, ma'am likethat that was the thing that
had to get settled with withinme, and once I said no more
playing small, that's when thelight bulb clicked.
I was just like I just have toshow up and when I, if, if and
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when I can show up on aconsistent basis, feeling good
because she does seven figuresStephanie has is feeling really
good.
I can show up as her everysingle moment of every single
day and whatever I'm feeling andwhen I have contrast moments
that was a big reframe for merecently as well and when I have
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contrast moments that was a bigreframe for me recently as well
when things are not going myway, those are moments of
contrast, and that is when I getto look at the situation and
say, how am I vibrationallyincongruent with what it is that
I wanted to have happen?
Because it wasn't that thatthing didn't happen.
It was something in me.
My thinking, my feelings or myactions are not in the light, so
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I need to let's do a scan,figure out what that is and then
see how that thing is workingout for me.
What if it is already workedout?
What if the delay is, is notdenial?
What if that means that I'mjust going to be seeing it
through a different lens andit's bigger than what I could
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have ever imagined for it to bereach?
Jenee (27:51):
So yeah, Do you have a redirect like example or
anything that you do?
That's kind of a quickturnaround, or do you just kind
of like scan through your field,kind of see what what is?
What and then.
Stephanie (28:07):
I had something.
I had a excuse me, a potentialjob opportunity come up recently
and it was in the educationspace um, but create like with
pets and with like.
It was using my creativity, butin a completely different way,
(28:27):
and I was really excited aboutit.
And it got to the point wherewe were starting to talk about
money and like how it was goingto come in, and it didn't go my
way and I recognized, with thehelp of some support, uh,
friends, get you some friendsthat are going to call you out,
(28:48):
get you some friends who are ona different level, who are
already doing the things thatyou want to do um, or who are
currently doing those things orwho have already done those
things, so that they can reflectthat back.
Yes, the spaces that are notcongruent with where you want to
go, and what I recognize isthat my energy around receiving
(29:10):
that amount of money waswishy-washy feeling wobbly.
Yes, yeah, um, so that wasaround, worthiness that was
around, you know, feeling thatwas around my inner child
feeling, you know, um, feelinglike it's hard to make that
amount of money without working,without working super, super
hard.
(29:30):
Yes, um, so I'd do somereframing.
So I do a lot of writing, um,that's a really helpful tool for
me, um, and something that Ireclaimed recently.
I had stopped journaling, I hadstopped writing, um, so that
was a big um thing for me.
Whenever I'm feeling shaky orlike contrast is showing up in a
(29:54):
way that's triggering me, Iasked myself number one, what is
this here for?
What does this show?
What is this showing me aboutmyself, and how can I reframe
this to see that this is for mygreater highest good?
Jenee (30:12):
That's so powerful.
And then you just kind of do afree write journaling.
Stephanie (30:17):
Free write.
Yeah, it's definitely a freewrite, and sometimes anger comes
up and we have to allow that tobe present, because that's a
real emotion and it's alsowhat's the root of the anger.
Jenee (30:38):
Why am I angry.
Stephanie (30:39):
Am I angry because I procrastinated?
Am I angry because I'm notallowing?
That's also it too.
Like can we be in a consistentspace of allowing and
receptivity and also not feelinglike we're separate from the
thing that we're calling forward, because that thing is already
(31:01):
there.
It's already there in adifferent dimension.
But also, can we collapse thattime by just showing up as if it
already is?
Yeah.
Jenee (31:14):
Yeah, it was so like going back to the Bufo session
with you and like it's still oneof my favorite, like of all the
people we've served, it's it'sone of my favorite uh sessions
because there was just this likepure surrender.
And I also like serving a mom,you know, and working with a
(31:38):
newer mom and you're already inthat, like I think we had even
said before you started likeyou're like I already know the
portal of surrender and that's abig, big aspect of that, of
that medicine is you have tosurrender because you have
absolutely no control.
And you were just like I lovethe first, like the first
(32:00):
journey.
You were like yes, and you werejust like I love the first,
like the first journey.
You were like yes, and you werejust like and it was like such
a kick, you know, it was like sofun to be in service to you and
just like this was like whatyour soul needed.
It was just a pure likerelaxation.
(32:20):
And you know, I just knew therewere like so many things coming
for you in that journey andwhen Philip and I left and we
also knew you were on the eve ofa move and I was aware of like
your, your business, and likehow that was just starting to
thrive and and you know Philipwas like, you know she is so
(32:44):
powerful and he just saw that,like he, he's very good at like,
um, seeing people and readingkind of the foundation of what's
going on with them and, um, um,he definitely has that vision
and that sight and he was likeshe's so powerful, she's just
(33:06):
like on the, she's on theprecipice of something huge, you
know.
So it's always such an honor toto be in ceremony and and
witness someone in their, intheir power and in all the
spaces and in all all the waysthat that medicine works, works
(33:27):
through people, um, and, likeyou said, not everybody has like
such an easy experience withthat medicine, you know, and and
the surrender part is so huge.
But what I love is it itcontinues to kind of unfold.
it's a you know it's intelligent, that it it continues to kind
of unfold, it's a you know, it'sintelligent that medicine and
it continues to unfold in yourlife and you feel that like
(33:50):
closeness with close, like youstart to feel that closeness
with creator and that like purelove, you know, and that that
sort of carries that can carryyou for a really long time of
just you know and knowing, likeknowing.
Without a doubt.
I am not alone, I am likebeyond loved.
(34:11):
It's so you know, it's sopowerful.
Stephanie (34:15):
It's such a beautiful .
I have recommended it to somany people.
Speaker 3 (34:21):
I was, like I'm, the only people I want you to sit
with yeah, because it just um.
Stephanie (34:26):
I was like I'm trying to figure out how to facilitate
something here because, peopleneed it and also I'm living in
Dallas, texas, so people really,really, really need it.
Jenee (34:37):
Texas is, it's a wild card.
Stephanie (34:39):
Yeah, yeah it, yeah, it's been a.
You know, we, we definitelyride down the street and see the
flags waving, and that's youknow.
I was in LA, so we didn't havewe, it's there and it's present
everywhere, but not like it ishere.
Jenee (35:02):
So and it's present everywhere, but not like it is
here.
So, and how, I want todefinitely like continue on or
talk about mindset and stuff,but I I am curious like how that
has, how have you been able tosettle into being there and in a
way that like where you feellike it's lifting you up and it
(35:26):
has mainly been about community.
Stephanie (35:30):
Yeah, and you know, I think that is something that um
and as we left LA, a lot of ourfriends there have said you
know, we miss you guys.
You guys were the hub.
You were the hub for community.
You brought everybody togetherand it's such a hard city to get
(35:51):
community, to keep community InLA, in Los Angeles, yeah.
Jenee (35:58):
Yes, yeah.
Stephanie (36:00):
An authentic community.
Yeah, yeah, um, and authenticcommunity not that's um,
superficial or anything likethat, um, and so we have
intentionally, you know, donethings.
Thankfully, we have um, mybrother-in-law, my sister-in-law
, both live here with theirpartners.
So, um, both live here withtheir partners.
(36:24):
So, um, you know, my nieces andnephew, they, they both,
they're here too.
So even my son has community umwith them, and then the school
community, and I think we'rejust trying to be intentional
about who we spend our time with, where we go.
Um, you know, this is it's, youknow, the Bible belt, so it's
(36:47):
very heavily populated with, um,you know, christian communities
and and people are lovely, Imean don't get me wrong.
There's a lot of lovely peoplehere, um, and there's also a lot
of closeted races.
So, um, I think the thing thathas helped us is our discernment
(37:08):
is high.
Yeah, we're very sure of youknow, trying, I call it trying
the spirit by the spirit.
So if I feel incongruent.
I like, I just need to get mybrakes back up and we keep to
ourselves.
We find things to do.
There's so much to do.
(37:28):
There's so many museums andstuff to do with family, and the
weather here is really onlycold for I don't know two months
, yeah, and then it's eitherreally really nice or really
really really hot, yeah, it'slike Texas is the worst.
Jenee (37:49):
Yeah, so I think Arizona is bad, but it's like it's it's
nice in comparison.
Yeah, totally Every day.
Yeah, yeah, um, yeah, it's likesomeone pouring a hot bucket of
water on you.
It's like so ridiculously hotand then on top of it.
Stephanie (38:07):
It's like it's crazy so sometimes when the the
weather says 98, it's actuallylike 115 yeah so we're inside a
lot, um, and we have a toddler,so it is being very creative
about his activities and keepinghim engaged, keeping ourselves
(38:28):
cool, um.
If we do go to a pool, it's anindoor pool, um, so yeah yeah
yeah.
Jenee (38:41):
So I want to continue on this, this topic of you coming
into this, the space of likepower, and I'm curious if you're
still like doing kundalini.
I I'm I wonder about that.
Stephanie (38:59):
Yeah, I was actually speaking to or just messaging
with someone who is part of ourworld, really?
Yes, and she has stayed, youknow, very like, steadfast, to
that path.
And we were in training at thesame time, that path and, um, we
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were in training at the sametime and while I find the breath
work to be extremely helpfulfor me, I still practice the
breath work, um, and some of theCree.
Honestly, some of the careersactually do help really move
energy and help reset thenervous system.
So.
I do find myself like let mepull out.
You know, the nervous systemreset that.
(39:49):
I really love that.
Yeah.
Jenee (39:51):
That's the only set I do.
Yeah.
That.
Stephanie (39:56):
I do still.
Yeah, yeah, so that that one'sstill um.
I sometimes will do that.
I can't do it now, Um, but themorning set.
Yeah that's a great set, um,but that's really it.
I this was part of steppinginto power and I'm I don't.
(40:20):
I would love to know if this umresonates with you too, but the
sensationalism, um and peopleworship, that was kind of going
on, still kind of going on um inand around that community
really repelled me fromcontinuing, continuing at least
(40:45):
on that path.
Um and owning my own sovereignty, yep, um and the ability to tap
into spirit and and just thesame, if not more powerful way
um was, has been reallyempowering as well.
(41:08):
To just say no, I don't.
I can achieve the same levelsand beyond.
I experienced it with Gufo.
I experienced it in daily, justbeing in my own personal
practice.
I can achieve those same levelsand breakthroughs in my own
(41:31):
self-guided ways.
I find I've done a lot of workwith Dr Joe Dispenza, his work
so amazing.
I mean, what a?
Jenee (41:42):
gift, what a gift to humanity Like.
Stephanie (41:47):
I I have done a little studying um the Silva
method, um a Silva mind controlmethod.
Jenee (41:56):
I'm doing that right now.
I'm training in that right now.
Okay, yeah, it's so, it's sointeresting yeah.
Stephanie (42:05):
Um, yeah, that's.
That's.
That's the thing that reallyhelps me understand how to do
this, how to collapse that time?
Um, yeah, so I don't.
Are you doing that through mindValley?
Yeah, okay, is that?
Oh cool it as well?
Yeah, um, corn, yeah, we did,oh cool it as well.
Yeah, um, cornelius, and I didthat as well.
And um, when you get to it, orif you've um not heard of it, I
(42:28):
have been working with visionsum six phase meditation.
It's 10 minutes long, oh coolum, I'll send it to you after
it's great.
Jenee (42:38):
That'd be great, is it?
Is that in the later part ofthe program, or is that a
different aspect of thedifferent aspects of his work,
but it's definitely like it'sseeded in that.
I would love to work with that.
Yeah, it's, it's so it's, I lovethis, the Sullivan method and
also what you're talking aboutwith Joe Dispenza, cause it just
(42:59):
like that sovereignty, it justkind of like closes the gaps on,
like, oh, okay, it's I.
I felt like with kundalini Iwas always like there was a
disempowering aspect to it, eventhough I was studying a lots of
I was studying a lot of youknow a lot of other mystery
schools and esoterics To havethe pure science come in with.
(43:24):
Dr, Joe, yes.
And the SOMA method is also veryscientific because it works
with the brainwaves.
Yes, and I just think when youstart to have like, when you
(43:44):
start to have, there's an andalso there's no pedestalizing of
a person that's delivering themessage.
You know, it's like I don't getthat from dr joe, actually or
vision, even though, like, theyboth have huge platforms but
there's no, you know, or thatwas the thing about Kuli, it was
like a religion, almost in thatway.
Stephanie (44:03):
You know, I, I hear you and I understand and echo
some of those same sentiments aswell, like I don't.
I find that my approach to youknow the meditations and the
teachings that Dr Joe has andthat Vishen has, it's all about
(44:26):
just I want the information, andit makes it feel like it is
school, let's say.
And.
I'm just taking a course.
I'm understanding.
You know how my mind works andwhy you know the combination of
my thoughts, feelings andactions are doing.
I love about Dr Joe's work isthat he has you teach your peers
(44:46):
every single step of the way.
He's going to teach you aconcept and then he's going to
have you teach it to somebodyelse sitting next to you, and
that's been really helpfulbecause that brings it back to
now.
I've created a new neuralpathway because I understand it
on the cellular level as opposedto just understanding it
(45:10):
spiritually.
Because yes, of course we'retapped in, but if I can
understand the spirit, thescience behind the spirituality,
then then I'm even morepowerful, because now I can
teach it to somebody and theycan say oh, I get that, I can
implement that, I can move on,that.
I can understand that when Iget into a contrast moment, I'm
(45:34):
in imbalance and this is why andthis is why so for me.
(46:01):
Stepping away from Kundaliniwasn't stepping away from my
spirituality.
It was stepping into mysovereignty.
It was taking what works fromthat set of information and
using what works for me, I stillreally, really love the mantra.
I have had to stop listening tocertain people singing certain
mantras.
They shall remain nameless.
But I have had to stopingesting certain frequencies
because we know how strong andpowerful frequency is.
Jenee (46:24):
Oh, yeah, I love that.
That's so amazing.
Yeah, it's, it's.
Stephanie (46:31):
It makes so much sense, kind of like knowing
where you're at and yeah, we'reon the other, we're on the other
, we're on the other, the otherside, and I and I am so grateful
to some of the teachers that wehad um, may she rest in peace.
(46:52):
Yeah, um, I am super gratefulto, because that, honestly, was
a bit of opening up my eyes tomy personal sovereignty, my
business, you know, bossmentality, um, and also how much
(47:14):
energy that it takes to vibrateat that level.
Seven figure business ownershave a completely different
energy than somebody who ismaking five figures a month.
Yeah, four figures a month,yeah, um, and so even that has
been something that has shiftedfor me.
In the last, I understood it,it was seeded during that time,
(47:38):
but now it's starting to besomething that I'm embodying,
I'm understanding um in a realway.
Jenee (47:44):
So can you, could you explain um energetically what
you feel are some of thedifferences, or does it feel
like it's habits or it?
Stephanie (47:56):
is definitely speed Procrastination.
I think we all deal with thatin some measure in our life, in
our career.
Seven figure.
Stephanie does not procrastinate, she acts, she does aligned
(48:19):
action, she acts, she doesaligned action, she delegates.
She has systems in place thathelp her, like, move faster,
more efficiently, so she's notfeeling.
Even better still at this is myself-care and putting myself
(48:44):
first um, even over and above myson and him Um.
That was a big challengebecause I grew up watching my
mom put everyone first Um, andso that was just kind of my, my
rhythm, that was what I wasdoing, and so now it is just
(49:07):
taking who I was at this,raising the, literally raising
the vibration, and operate.
It's like a new operatingsystem.
So I have to remind myselfdaily because you, we have to be
reminded um, of who we are Um,and that helps with the
(49:28):
journaling, but that also helpswith just who is she and what
decision?
What decision would she makeright now?
What decision would I make asher right now?
Um.
So I think that has been thelargest shift, um, and it's been
gradual, but I would say, youknow, the last two to three
(49:53):
months it's really starting tolike I'm starting to hit a pulse
now.
Jenee (49:59):
Yeah, and how do what for you?
Um, what does aligned actionwork for you?
How do you know when somethingfeels like you've, you've hit it
and it's like, yes, this is itreally is.
Stephanie (50:16):
I mean, it's a gut check for me, Honestly.
There are things that all of ushave desires to do that we
haven't taken action on becausewe're afraid.
So fear is a big blockage.
(50:39):
So usually if I feel feararound moving, that is my
indicator that it's actually isaligned action for me.
Jenee (50:48):
I love that.
Yeah, people need to hear that.
I mean, I've been paralyzed infear over things for years.
And I just recently, and I waslike it can't be right because
I'm so afraid.
And then I just had recentlyheard someone else say maybe I
heard you say that, oh wow, andI think it was one of the things
I like saved and was like Ineed to read, I need to come
(51:11):
back to this video constantly,because I think it was you and
you said like that's where, likethe juices, like that's where
you know indicator that is.
Stephanie (51:22):
I feel like it's your indicator light.
It's like, okay, go right or goleft, but you gotta move
because if I'm feeling feararound it, you need to check
your baby.
You need to check your innerchild and see where did this
come from?
It's a place where I gotblocked as a kid.
Is this a place where I gotblocked as a kid?
Is this a place where I gotblocked in my 20s?
(51:43):
Where is it in the timeline?
How can I transmute itimmediately into some movement?
Because it means I need to gotowards that direction.
Because for me, the differencebetween fear and I don't need to
do that is you're also going toget a clear.
The difference between fear andI don't need to do that is
you're also going to get it.
You're also going to get a clearindication, a clear gut check
(52:05):
when it's not a action you willknow, yeah, that's a no, because
if it's not a hell yes,typically it's a oh, I want to
do that, but I'm afraid ofsomeone else's opinion of you of
that.
Somebody else is doing itbetter than you already that
(52:27):
it's going to look silly, thatyou're going to look.
It's a self-limiting thoughtbehind it.
So it means that you need to doit so you can clear that shit.
But a no is going to be a clearno and you're going to be like,
yeah, I knew that.
And then spirit will come backand confirm for you.
(52:48):
You'll see it.
You'll get a sign, you'll seesomething happen in your 3D that
confirms that yep, I wasn'tsupposed to do that, that was
not for me.
Or you'll hear a story about oh, that's his experience with
shitty, or this was not.
You know what it appeared to be.
Jenee (53:08):
I feel like I need a book on this.
I think you need to write thatbook.
Stephanie (53:14):
Okay, it's so powerful.
This is the kind of stuff thatjust makes my world go round
Like having these kind ofconversations.
(53:35):
I was telling you earlier aboutmy throat chakra and being, and
having been blocked there and,um, that was one of the things
obviously, as singers, we know.
um, when we're feeling blockedin our throat, it's because we
actually have something reallypowerful to say um and so, for
(53:59):
me, showing up on podcasts thisyear was a goal of mine, um,
before you even said anything,and I was like, oh my gosh, like
thank you so much for justfollowing that little intuition
um to ask me to come here.
Um, because the more I practiceuh, it's a practice for me to
(54:22):
speak to um to bring my voiceback online.
Um, and then singing is going tobe.
Singing is going to be next.
Um.
Singing gets to be next.
Um cause I.
I lived in LA for 10 years andI this was a big sadness that I
had about leaving.
(54:42):
As well, people didn't knowthat I was a singer and I and I
sang for a living.
Wow, my undergraduate degree isvocal performance.
I did not know that.
Wow.
I am a classically trainedsoprano.
I sang on cruise ships forseven years what yeah?
(55:07):
Performed for thousands ofpeople like every single week,
and when I moved to LA, like, Idid a couple of background gigs,
but I never performed soloAfter I left Ships.
I have not sung solo.
(55:28):
That's crazy, and I left Shipsin 2012.
It's time.
Jenee (55:35):
It's time.
Stephanie (55:36):
It's time.
So I'm looking forward toseeing what that gets to be so
funny.
I did one like little corporategig while I was an agent.
One of my friends called me up.
He was like I need a singertonight and I was like tonight.
He was like, yeah, you can doit.
(55:57):
Had to learn a whole new songand it was an exercise in oh, I
haven't sang, my voice is tiredand that you know.
If you don't practice, if you'renot practicing every day, your
voice, you will lose it you willlose it, you will lose the
(56:18):
brain, my um transition from myum my chest voice into my head.
Voice my break hotness that'sso common.
When you have it, you know it'slike oh I was like, oh my god,
I used to be the girl who didnot warm up and who could just
(56:38):
be like I know, and now I haveto warm up for a long time.
Jenee (56:45):
That is like a whole world I could talk about forever
.
I'm I'm like struggling with myown things around the voice and
it's it's very, very upsettingand disheartening, um, because I
went through menopause 10 yearsago and it's like catching up
with me and so I'm having a lot,of, a lot of struggles with my
voice.
But I'm finally deciding to beproactive and I'm like I hope
(57:09):
it's not too late, but I'm I'mseeing, I'm having to see
specialists, I'm there's a wholebunch of stuff that I'm having
to like take, take on right nowand dealing with the emotions
around it.
But it's like you just don'trealize, like how much you
cherish your voice until it'slike there's not the opportunity
(57:32):
to have it.
So, or you know it's not, it'snot what it was, it's changing a
lot, and you know, um, yeah,it's.
I would just say, like, go forit and go back in and, like you
know, get the support and thehelp you need you know, like
just get back into it, cause, oh, if I could like go back 10
(57:56):
years and do things a little bitdifferently.
Um, if I would have like been alittle more proactive and like
my, my daily work and mypractice and and my self care
around my voice, like, yeah,it's just adjusting.
You know it's adjusting tosomething new and that can be
(58:17):
hard, but also, like you have tolook at the, the.
It's like looking at the silverlining of how things have
changed.
Stephanie (58:26):
You know, but yeah, I just I know, um, janae, you are
.
Your voice is such a gift tothank you, and so I feel like
even whatever you're workingthrough right now on the other
side is a new clarity.
(58:47):
Thank you, and so, please bekind, thank you, my friend,
thank you.
Jenee (58:55):
Yes, Well, I'm so excited and maybe we can do a recap in
like you know six months or soand see how things are going and
I'm so, I'm so just excited forthis next phase, for you and
this seven figure woman that youare.
(59:18):
Welcome to you as well, thankyou.
Thank you, it's such a, such anabsolute pleasure and honor to
have you on likewise thank youfor having me.
Stephanie (59:30):
I'm honored and blessed to sit with you always
um the gift that your work isand what it means to the world
and to women everywhere.
So thank you.
Jenee (59:44):
Thank you and hopefully we'll get to come and sit with
you again.
Stephanie (59:53):
I call it a party, but yeah, totally, not everybody
calls it that.
Jenee (01:00:06):
Thank you, janine.
Yeah, have a wonderful day youtoo.
Talk to you soon.
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I'm Janae Halstead.
I'm a singer-songwriter,holistic vocal coach, intuitive
guide and plant medicinefacilitator.
I'm also a survivor ofchildhood abuse, autoimmune
issues and my 30s.
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I'm on a lifelong healingjourney and, along the way, I
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If you've ever wondered how tounlock your biggest
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So join me, won't you?
Let's turn on that heart light.
Hello, hello, beautiful, hello.
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So happy to have you here.
Stephanie (01:26):
Oh, thank you for having me.
It is a pleasure always to sitwith you, so thank you.
Jenee (01:32):
I have Steph Lilly Smith here with me and she is a
powerhouse, major powerhouse inboth.
I'm going to read a little bitof her bio.
I just took a little section ofit.
She has a beautiful bio whichI'll post on the description
page A powerhouse in bothcorporate and entertainment
industries, with over a decadeas a producer, former talent
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agent, and two decades as aperformer, which I did not know
about that, so we'll have totalk about that.
She is like groundbreakingdigital content from brands like
Havianas, Happy Organics, aswell as the 51st NAACP Image
Awards.
As the executive producer forAbbott Elementary star and stage
and screen legend Cheryl Lee,Ralph's Divas Simply Singing,
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she orchestrated a landmark 2020Televise special raising
$350,000, which is mind-blowing.
Stephanie's diverse career,spanning arts, education and
service, aligns with herholistic approach to well-being.
As the force behind Creatricity, she redefines collaboration in
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Hollywood and media, connectingstudios, production companies
and creatives to bring visionaryprojects to life.
I was like how am I gonna likeask her to explain what she does
?
Because there's just likethere's a lot of dimensions
there.
Stephanie (02:59):
I think that is um.
I don't know if you do anythingor know anything about human
design, but I'm a manifestinggenerator and so I can't help
but just have my hands in 10things at once.
I love it.
Jenee (03:16):
Yeah.
It's so nice, cause you havethe energy as a manifester.
As a generator you have thatkind of the generative energy,
but as a manifester it's likeyou know.
Stephanie (03:25):
It's a vision and you just and you move and you go
really fast, and sometimes thatcan throw people off because I
do move really fast, they'relike whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
You're like 30 steps ahead andI'm still here at step one.
Jenee (03:38):
That would be me.
Stephanie (03:39):
I'm like wait, I know this is going to work, but can
you, can you show me like yeah?
Jenee (03:47):
Yeah, yeah.
So can you tell me a little bitabout Creatricity, and are you
still um?
You have two other businesspartners with that, right, or I?
Stephanie (03:56):
have one business partner.
Yeah, um, I co-foundedCreatricity in 2020, actually
it's our five year anniversaryin 2020.
Actually it's our five-yearanniversary, um, actually it was
on like the.
We were in a leap year thatyear, so it was the 29th or the
1st of march um and it was justbefore the pandemic.
Everything was shutting down.
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I was in new york city, um, andmy girlfriend her name is
cassandra freeman um, I don'tknow if anybody's watching the
reimagined version of FreshPrince of Bel-Air, but she's the
star on there.
Jenee (04:29):
I thought I recognized her name, yeah, wow.
Stephanie (04:33):
She's the new Viv over there and she called me out
of the blue one day.
It wasn't out of the blue, butit was out of the blue.
She called up my husband and shewas like where's your wife?
I need to speak to her.
We had met one other time at mybrother-in-law's wedding.
(04:53):
We had less than a 30 minuteconversation then, but we hadn't
spoken and that had beenprobably two years at that time.
So she reaches out.
She's like where's your wife?
I need to speak to her.
And he was like actually she'shere in the city with me.
She was like I need to speak toher.
He was like actually she's herein the city with me.
Um, she was like I need tospeak to her.
So we met up for coffee thenext day or like a day or so
later and she was like I needhelp organizing my life.
(05:15):
And I was like okay, um, so Ijust kind of took a look at like
what she had going on and I putit in a system, because I'm all
about systems and workflow.
And she was like this isincredible.
I'm actually doing an event ina few weeks.
And she knew I did events and Iwas I was working with Shirley
(05:36):
Ralph at the time and she shewas like well, how do you know
I'm?
Can you help me?
And I was like yeah, I'mactually I don't have anything
going on.
I actually had been releasedfrom a job, um, and it was the
second time I had was workingwith this boss and I was really
upset and I just like I did notknow what to do.
(05:58):
Um, or he basically told methat I wasn't a good producer,
that I could stick to workingwith talent only, and he fired
me over the phone and we hadworked together for one season
and I completely shut down hisbusiness, sold all his equipment
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while he went and worked foranother company.
Business sold all his likeequipment while he went and
worked for another company.
And this was the second time hecame back to me and he was like
I'd love to work together again.
That's where I did my work withFabianas and.
BlackRock Financial.
And, anyway, he called me upout of the blue one day and he
was like yeah, so we're going tolike release you.
(06:44):
And I was like devastated.
This was the second time I hadlet this happen.
When was this?
This was in 2020.
Oh wow, this was literally likedays before Cassie called me up.
So yeah, she called me up andshe's like, can you help me with
this event that I've got goingon?
And I'm like, can you help mewith this event that I've got
going on?
And I'm like, sure, and she wasgetting together a group of
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Black actresses to just kind ofbe in the room.
And the premise was you know,we're not able to get together
in community as artists, ascreatives, when it's not an
audition, when it's not awardseason or whatever that case may
be.
So, and we also understood thatmost creatives are multi
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hyphenates.
They do multiple differentthings.
They never kind of figure outhow to get things started in
those other lanes.
So we brought in a businessstrategist and it was really
just a fun gathering.
We got together probably 50women that day, and what we
(08:04):
realized after that wasultimately there was no way that
we could help everyone in thatwere grounded with educational
resources, virtual and in-personprogramming, and then our
ultimate goal will be to producecontent that is birthed from
the collaborations within ourmembership.
Jenee (08:25):
Wow, and how many people are now in it?
Stephanie (08:29):
We have 200 members and we have about 1200 that are
sitting, that are subscribed toour newsletter and that that
interact with us, engage with us, and we hit about 3000 on on
our Instagram recently.
Jenee (08:43):
So, we're, we're out there.
Congratulations, thank you,thank you so much, and do you
find that it's just Los Angelesor is it starting to span, like
New York, la and where you're at?
Stephanie (08:57):
So we've launched successfully in New York and Los
Angeles and we've had a handfulof events on both coasts over
the years.
I am looking to now launch herein Dallas this year.
So I am looking for partners tocollaborate with me here and
I'm actually just trying to getto know people here that are in
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the creative community.
So I've made a few friends andI've met a few people and I
recently went to a candle makingclass, which was really fun and
it was intimate, so there werelike only 16 people in the class
.
So I figured doing somethingsmaller like that that gives
people something to do as aneasy icebreaker to start
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conversation, um, as well asbeing creative by um, you know,
creating something that they cantake home and um also talk
about the amazing experiencethat they had.
Um, I'm thinking about doingsomething like that here.
Cool.
Jenee (09:59):
Yeah, I'm so like I'm just in admiration of you and we
were talking before a littlebit, before we hit record, and I
was saying how, just how shinyyou are lately and how blown
away I am.
(10:19):
I mean, I've always been blownaway by you.
There's just like an arrival.
That's happened in the lastyear and, um, when I get on
Instagram like you're one of thefirst people I go to to listen
to.
It's been like your content hasbeen extremely uplifting for me
and like funny.
You know that in times where Iwas feeling kind of like what am
(10:44):
I doing?
I have no idea, like half thestuff that I'm thinking is about
bringing into the world iscrazy or whatever I I look to
you as a, as kind of a guidinglight, because I've I've found
that the content always kind offits what I'm needing to hear in
my heart.
Stephanie (11:00):
You- know, amazing.
Thank you for sharing thatnumber one, and I'm really happy
that I can be a reflection toyou, because, you know, the
feeling to me is wholly mutual.
I feel like every time I seeyou, you are, you are doing
things that I've always longedto do.
You're recording, you'resinging, always, and um.
(11:23):
So I'm happy that I can bringeven a little inspiration to you
, and I hope that you know thosewho are watching and listening
as well.
Um, we'll see a little bit oflight on on both of our pages.
Jenee (11:37):
Yeah, I'm very curious about your journey in the last
year and your head space andyour your body space and and
where you've arrived and it hasbeen a um.
Stephanie (11:53):
It's been a journey we relocated to from Los Angeles
to Dallas in August of 23.
I think that's right.
It's been about a year and ahalf now, and that was a
upheaval for me.
Jenee (12:14):
And it was really really hard for me to leave the city.
I knew it was going to be hard.
I saw you?
Stephanie (12:20):
When did I see you?
Jenee (12:21):
Was it June?
Stephanie (12:23):
I think you guys saw us in august, like it was right
before you guys, right before,like at the top of the month,
and then we left towards the endof the month.
So, um, yeah, it was reallytough.
I still get emotional thinkingabout it because this it, it is
home, it is, yeah, still to me.
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My closest and dearest friendsstill live there, and so it was
really an emotional move and yeta necessary move for our family
here, thankfully, what hasn'tbeen too much of a difficult
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transition, uh, physically, um,but emotionally and mentally it
was, um, and I definitely feltmoments of um doubt, of, like
I'm moving.
My company is, you know, set uphere and, um, you know, I was
the face here and now, like, I'min Dallas, like who's gonna
help me over there?
And one of the girls who was onour team, who was really kind
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of instrumental in strategy andhelping us operationally.
She also moved back to the EastCoast and now she's in New York
, which is really helpfulbecause my co founder lives
there when she's in New York,which is really helpful because,
uh, my co-founder lives there,um, when she's not working, but
she lives in LA when she isworking.
So, um, anyway, it was.
It took a toll on me mentally,um, and for a time I was
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probably depressed, you know,and deeply just like, like what
is this?
I stopped meditating Like therewas no practice.
There wasn't and, interestinglyenough, before we left, we sat
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with you and did Bufo, which letme just interject for a moment.
Ladies and gentlemen, please,please, please, please.
First of all, I heard about itin the most random way.
Uh, I was watching HGTV and, um, I don't know if anyone watches
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Slip or Flop, but ChristinaHall, I think, is her name.
I was reading a People Magazinearticle about her journey with
Bupo and, yes, and how it like,completely, just like, rocked
her, world unlocked, you know.
Yes, and how it like, completely, just like, rocked her world
(15:07):
unlocked, you know, cleared outa bunch of darkness that she was
going through and I was like itjust made me curious.
That was the first time I hadever heard of it.
Number one, and my journey withpsychedelics started in 2017,
just before I got married withCornelius, um, with ayahuasca,
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and that was transformative forme as well.
It was like the beginning ofthe beginning of the beginning,
um.
It led me to kundalini yoga, umwow, I didn't know that because
I was deeply steeped in my inChristianity.
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all the way up to that, like allthe way up to that point, I was
singing at church, I was deeplyinvolved and you know,
cornelius had done it three orfour times by that point, done
it three or four times by thatpoint.
Um, actually, the first weekendafter I met him he was going to
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do his first ceremony, whichwas hilarious, because I was
like, well, what is this?
And something in me wanted tobe judgmental, uh, about it, and
I just something also said,something also said don't do
that, just observe.
And I did, and he came back andhe just was like it was.
(16:31):
It was like he knew that therewas a connection between us, but
it like a lot like completelylike locked in.
He was like you have no idea,I'm a completely different
person.
I have like completely clearedout some things.
Like I used to be an assholeLike.
So you know, that was my firstkind of like, hmm, and he was
(16:52):
like I think you should do this,I think this would be really
helpful for you.
And it took me a few years.
Um, and I was doing some pastlife work, um, with a dear
friend of mine and um, somethingcame up around my father and I
was like I'm ready, I have to dothat.
I have to do this.
(17:14):
Um, when can we go?
How soon is this happeningagain?
Um, and magically, um, we gotan email from the, from the
facilitator like three weekslater and we were in there and I
picked one of my best friendswith me.
Cornelius came, his father cameas well.
(17:35):
Yeah, Like it was.
It was amazing.
And I'm sitting there, I'mdeeply in the medicine and I
don't think I'm going to purge.
The whole ceremony is over.
People are in the kitchencoming back to life, and I go
downstairs to put my blanket andI'm like wait a second, oh.
(17:59):
I know that yeah.
Come back upstairs, um, my bestfriend's like would you like
some tea?
I was like, okay, yeah, I'lltake some tea.
She gives me a a cup of tea.
I take two sips and I go outinto the space where everybody
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had been, you know, in ceremony,and I go to my bucket purge,
but it was as if I was screamingat the top of my lungs.
I did not feel sick, I actuallyjust felt like I was screaming
yes, like just screaming, and Ihad been dealing with at that
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time I didn't even realize I wasdealing with throat chakra
issues, a lot Completely in mythroat chakra, just because of
the way I was raised.
And like, speaking my truth wasnot that, it wasn't welcomed.
I had fear around speaking mytruth because sometimes that
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truth was different to what Iwas supposed to believe or what
I was supposed to be doing.
So fast forward 2023, and I wassitting with you and Philippe,
like I also knew it was time tosit with that medicine.
You got the call.
(19:30):
Yeah, it was like okay, nowit's time, and I want to tell
you that this experience isdifferent for everyone, but it
was so good for me.
So it was.
I feel like I felt so when Igot up the first time since, we
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did two rounds when.
I got up the first time, I waslike what is this?
But this felt like the mostbeautiful.
I was like what is this?
But this felt like the mostbeautiful like luxury was the
word that came up for me.
I just felt so like, oh, it wasjust incredible, and Janae is
(20:17):
chanting and singing throughoutthe entire ceremony and it felt
like it was hours at a time butit was probably only a few
minutes 20, 30 minutes.
Okay, um, and I remember sayingI don't have fear of the
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afterlife anymore, the fear ofknow the all.
I actually saw the all, yes,the infinity space, um, and I
was like, oh, it's so beautiful,yeah yeah beautiful in here.
Um, and also, what do you haveto worry about?
Like, it was the beginning ofthat like why am I concerned?
(21:00):
Why?
Am I worried about anything,because I'm held and I'm loved
and I'm so supported, and so youknow, all the guidance I need
is in me.
It's here already, like there isno absence.
Um, so that was my first kindof like realization when I was
getting up.
Jenee (21:20):
I loved your um.
Oh, go ahead no no, no, um.
Stephanie (21:25):
I just was so excited because I was feeling so much
anxiety about leaving Um and itgave me a way to ground my move
Um.
So I came here feeling likeit's gonna be fine, it's fine,
it's fine.
And we got here and it was fine.
(21:46):
My son got into the only spotat this beautiful Montessori
school.
It's on 12 acres.
Wow, they get to go outside andbe in nature every single day.
They have goats oh my goshamazing yes, they get to take
care of and, um, there'sstudents who look like him,
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which was a big concern for usin Los Angeles there isn't a lot
of diversity going on yeah, um,so for him to have teachers who
look like him and for him tohave classmates that look like
him.
um, and for us, we found acommunity of seven couples,
which I mean there was onecouple in his toddler class who
(22:32):
introduced us to this group andyou know, we went out over the
Christmas break and the husbandsdecided they were going to do a
wife appreciation dinner for us.
Jenee (22:45):
Oh, yeah, and.
Stephanie (22:46):
I was like yes.
And yes, and thank you, andplease keep on doing that.
So we arrived at dinner andthere's roses and they gave us
journals to write, like to writeon, and they gave us these
personalized mugs that had likeour school name and the moms,
and it was just really so cute,so cute, so cute um, and also it
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was my first time being incommunity with non-creative
people all like all non-creative.
None of them do anything closeto what I do, um, and so I'm
like I don't even know how toact around y'all.
But also then talking about thethings that they love in the
industry and like looking forpeople's celebrities names that
(23:31):
I'm just familiar with.
And so I'm just you know.
so it's been really beautiful, abeautiful journey and and in
that as well, like finding meagain when you become a mom,
obviously like there's a bigshift and that was a whole thing
(23:53):
too, and I had gotten to areally good place before I left
Los Angeles, but coming here, itwasn't like another kind of
rebirth for me.
Um, and I would say in the lastsix months even it has gotten
stronger and stronger.
I decided I was going to do um,yes, I was doing, um, digital
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marketing and you know it was aprogram that now, don't get me
wrong the information that'swithin the program I've learned
a ton about marketing and how tobuild a brand, and all of that
kind of stuff has been veryvaluable for both my personal
brand and also for Creatricity.
But at the same time, I was notbeing authentic to me, and the
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things that I had to share andthe things that were important
to me and that and that's numberone, my spirituality, that is
how I show up as an entrepreneur, that is how I show up as a mom
, um, and so I foundaccountability partners, people
along the way that have reallysaid Stephanie, just show you,
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um.
And also, how can you embodythe version of you that already
runs a seven figure business,the version of you, thank you.
Jenee (25:32):
That's it.
That's it, cause that's whatI'm seeing.
That's what I'm seeing.
Yes, yeah, that's exactly it.
Stephanie (25:39):
It's not showing up.
That's exactly it is.
It's not showing up tentatively, like a girlfriend of mine said
to me the other day.
She was like take up space.
Yes, stop fucking around, stoptrying to hide, stop covering
yourself up.
Put your fucking makeup on andshow up, stop hiding.
And I was exactly hiding and Iwas like.
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that thing hit me in a day likea dagger in the chest, but at
the same time it was like, oh, Ihave permission to do so.
I have so many bigpersonalities around me.
My co-founder is a star.
My husband is a star, stephanie, you are too.
Jenee (26:20):
You are.
Stephanie (26:20):
Yeah, you are too.
You are, yeah, you are too like, thank you claiming it like
claiming it it is so, ma'am likethat that was the thing that
had to get settled with withinme, and once I said no more
playing small, that's when thelight bulb clicked.
I was just like I just have toshow up and when I, if, if and
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when I can show up on aconsistent basis, feeling good
because she does seven figuresStephanie has is feeling really
good.
I can show up as her everysingle moment of every single
day and whatever I'm feeling andwhen I have contrast moments
that was a big reframe for merecently as well and when I have
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contrast moments that was a bigreframe for me recently as well
when things are not going myway, those are moments of
contrast, and that is when I getto look at the situation and
say, how am I vibrationallyincongruent with what it is that
I wanted to have happen?
Because it wasn't that thatthing didn't happen.
It was something in me.
My thinking, my feelings or myactions are not in the light, so
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I need to let's do a scan,figure out what that is and then
see how that thing is workingout for me.
What if it is already workedout?
What if the delay is, is notdenial?
What if that means that I'mjust going to be seeing it
through a different lens andit's bigger than what I could
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have ever imagined for it to bereach?
Jenee (27:51):
So yeah, Do you have a redirect like example or
anything that you do?
That's kind of a quickturnaround, or do you just kind
of like scan through your field,kind of see what what is?
What and then.
Stephanie (28:07):
I had something.
I had a excuse me, a potentialjob opportunity come up recently
and it was in the educationspace um, but create like with
pets and with like.
It was using my creativity, butin a completely different way,
(28:27):
and I was really excited aboutit.
And it got to the point wherewe were starting to talk about
money and like how it was goingto come in, and it didn't go my
way and I recognized, with thehelp of some support, uh,
friends, get you some friendsthat are going to call you out,
(28:48):
get you some friends who are ona different level, who are
already doing the things thatyou want to do um, or who are
currently doing those things orwho have already done those
things, so that they can reflectthat back.
Yes, the spaces that are notcongruent with where you want to
go, and what I recognize isthat my energy around receiving
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that amount of money waswishy-washy feeling wobbly.
Yes, yeah, um, so that wasaround, worthiness that was
around, you know, feeling thatwas around my inner child
feeling, you know, um, feelinglike it's hard to make that
amount of money without working,without working super, super
hard.
(29:30):
Yes, um, so I'd do somereframing.
So I do a lot of writing, um,that's a really helpful tool for
me, um, and something that Ireclaimed recently.
I had stopped journaling, I hadstopped writing, um, so that
was a big um thing for me.
Whenever I'm feeling shaky orlike contrast is showing up in a
(29:54):
way that's triggering me, Iasked myself number one, what is
this here for?
What does this show?
What is this showing me aboutmyself, and how can I reframe
this to see that this is for mygreater highest good?
Jenee (30:12):
That's so powerful.
And then you just kind of do afree write journaling.
Stephanie (30:17):
Free write.
Yeah, it's definitely a freewrite, and sometimes anger comes
up and we have to allow that tobe present, because that's a
real emotion and it's alsowhat's the root of the anger.
Jenee (30:38):
Why am I angry.
Stephanie (30:39):
Am I angry because I procrastinated?
Am I angry because I'm notallowing?
That's also it too.
Like can we be in a consistentspace of allowing and
receptivity and also not feelinglike we're separate from the
thing that we're calling forward, because that thing is already
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there.
It's already there in adifferent dimension.
But also, can we collapse thattime by just showing up as if it
already is?
Yeah.
Jenee (31:14):
Yeah, it was so like going back to the Bufo session
with you and like it's still oneof my favorite, like of all the
people we've served, it's it'sone of my favorite uh sessions
because there was just this likepure surrender.
And I also like serving a mom,you know, and working with a
(31:38):
newer mom and you're already inthat, like I think we had even
said before you started likeyou're like I already know the
portal of surrender and that's abig, big aspect of that, of
that medicine is you have tosurrender because you have
absolutely no control.
And you were just like I lovethe first, like the first
(32:00):
journey.
You were like yes, and you werejust like I love the first,
like the first journey.
You were like yes, and you werejust like and it was like such
a kick, you know, it was like sofun to be in service to you and
just like this was like whatyour soul needed.
It was just a pure likerelaxation.
(32:20):
And you know, I just knew therewere like so many things coming
for you in that journey andwhen Philip and I left and we
also knew you were on the eve ofa move and I was aware of like
your, your business, and likehow that was just starting to
thrive and and you know Philipwas like, you know she is so
(32:44):
powerful and he just saw that,like he, he's very good at like,
um, seeing people and readingkind of the foundation of what's
going on with them and, um, um,he definitely has that vision
and that sight and he was likeshe's so powerful, she's just
(33:06):
like on the, she's on theprecipice of something huge, you
know.
So it's always such an honor toto be in ceremony and and
witness someone in their, intheir power and in all the
spaces and in all all the waysthat that medicine works, works
(33:27):
through people, um, and, likeyou said, not everybody has like
such an easy experience withthat medicine, you know, and and
the surrender part is so huge.
But what I love is it itcontinues to kind of unfold.
it's a you know it's intelligent, that it it continues to kind
of unfold, it's a you know, it'sintelligent that medicine and
it continues to unfold in yourlife and you feel that like
(33:50):
closeness with close, like youstart to feel that closeness
with creator and that like purelove, you know, and that that
sort of carries that can carryyou for a really long time of
just you know and knowing, likeknowing.
Without a doubt.
I am not alone, I am likebeyond loved.
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It's so you know, it's sopowerful.
Stephanie (34:15):
It's such a beautiful .
I have recommended it to somany people.
Speaker 3 (34:21):
I was, like I'm, the only people I want you to sit
with yeah, because it just um.
Stephanie (34:26):
I was like I'm trying to figure out how to facilitate
something here because, peopleneed it and also I'm living in
Dallas, texas, so people really,really, really need it.
Jenee (34:37):
Texas is, it's a wild card.
Stephanie (34:39):
Yeah, yeah it, yeah, it's been a.
You know, we, we definitelyride down the street and see the
flags waving, and that's youknow.
I was in LA, so we didn't havewe, it's there and it's present
everywhere, but not like it ishere.
Jenee (35:02):
So and it's present everywhere, but not like it is
here.
So, and how, I want todefinitely like continue on or
talk about mindset and stuff,but I I am curious like how that
has, how have you been able tosettle into being there and in a
way that like where you feellike it's lifting you up and it
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has mainly been about community.
Stephanie (35:30):
Yeah, and you know, I think that is something that um
and as we left LA, a lot of ourfriends there have said you
know, we miss you guys.
You guys were the hub.
You were the hub for community.
You brought everybody togetherand it's such a hard city to get
(35:51):
community, to keep community InLA, in Los Angeles, yeah.
Jenee (35:58):
Yes, yeah.
Stephanie (36:00):
An authentic community.
Yeah, yeah, um, and authenticcommunity not that's um,
superficial or anything likethat, um, and so we have
intentionally, you know, donethings.
Thankfully, we have um, mybrother-in-law, my sister-in-law
, both live here with theirpartners.
So, um, both live here withtheir partners.
(36:24):
So, um, you know, my nieces andnephew, they, they both,
they're here too.
So even my son has community umwith them, and then the school
community, and I think we'rejust trying to be intentional
about who we spend our time with, where we go.
Um, you know, this is it's, youknow, the Bible belt, so it's
(36:47):
very heavily populated with, um,you know, christian communities
and and people are lovely, Imean don't get me wrong.
There's a lot of lovely peoplehere, um, and there's also a lot
of closeted races.
So, um, I think the thing thathas helped us is our discernment
(37:08):
is high.
Yeah, we're very sure of youknow, trying, I call it trying
the spirit by the spirit.
So if I feel incongruent.
I like, I just need to get mybrakes back up and we keep to
ourselves.
We find things to do.
There's so much to do.
(37:28):
There's so many museums andstuff to do with family, and the
weather here is really onlycold for I don't know two months
, yeah, and then it's eitherreally really nice or really
really really hot, yeah, it'slike Texas is the worst.
Jenee (37:49):
Yeah, so I think Arizona is bad, but it's like it's it's
nice in comparison.
Yeah, totally Every day.
Yeah, yeah, um, yeah, it's likesomeone pouring a hot bucket of
water on you.
It's like so ridiculously hotand then on top of it.
Stephanie (38:07):
It's like it's crazy so sometimes when the the
weather says 98, it's actuallylike 115 yeah so we're inside a
lot, um, and we have a toddler,so it is being very creative
about his activities and keepinghim engaged, keeping ourselves
(38:28):
cool, um.
If we do go to a pool, it's anindoor pool, um, so yeah yeah
yeah.
Jenee (38:41):
So I want to continue on this, this topic of you coming
into this, the space of likepower, and I'm curious if you're
still like doing kundalini.
I I'm I wonder about that.
Stephanie (38:59):
Yeah, I was actually speaking to or just messaging
with someone who is part of ourworld, really?
Yes, and she has stayed, youknow, very like, steadfast, to
that path.
And we were in training at thesame time, that path and, um, we
(39:25):
were in training at the sametime and while I find the breath
work to be extremely helpfulfor me, I still practice the
breath work, um, and some of theCree.
Honestly, some of the careersactually do help really move
energy and help reset thenervous system.
So.
I do find myself like let mepull out.
You know, the nervous systemreset that.
(39:49):
I really love that.
Yeah.
Jenee (39:51):
That's the only set I do.
Yeah.
That.
Stephanie (39:56):
I do still.
Yeah, yeah, so that that one'sstill um.
I sometimes will do that.
I can't do it now, Um, but themorning set.
Yeah that's a great set, um,but that's really it.
I this was part of steppinginto power and I'm I don't.
(40:20):
I would love to know if this umresonates with you too, but the
sensationalism, um and peopleworship, that was kind of going
on, still kind of going on um inand around that community
really repelled me fromcontinuing, continuing at least
(40:45):
on that path.
Um and owning my own sovereignty, yep, um and the ability to tap
into spirit and and just thesame, if not more powerful way
um was, has been reallyempowering as well.
(41:08):
To just say no, I don't.
I can achieve the same levelsand beyond.
I experienced it with Gufo.
I experienced it in daily, justbeing in my own personal
practice.
I can achieve those same levelsand breakthroughs in my own
(41:31):
self-guided ways.
I find I've done a lot of workwith Dr Joe Dispenza, his work
so amazing.
I mean, what a?
Jenee (41:42):
gift, what a gift to humanity Like.
Stephanie (41:47):
I I have done a little studying um the Silva
method, um a Silva mind controlmethod.
Jenee (41:56):
I'm doing that right now.
I'm training in that right now.
Okay, yeah, it's so, it's sointeresting yeah.
Stephanie (42:05):
Um, yeah, that's.
That's.
That's the thing that reallyhelps me understand how to do
this, how to collapse that time?
Um, yeah, so I don't.
Are you doing that through mindValley?
Yeah, okay, is that?
Oh cool it as well?
Yeah, um, corn, yeah, we did,oh cool it as well.
Yeah, um, cornelius, and I didthat as well.
And um, when you get to it, orif you've um not heard of it, I
(42:28):
have been working with visionsum six phase meditation.
It's 10 minutes long, oh coolum, I'll send it to you after
it's great.
Jenee (42:38):
That'd be great, is it?
Is that in the later part ofthe program, or is that a
different aspect of thedifferent aspects of his work,
but it's definitely like it'sseeded in that.
I would love to work with that.
Yeah, it's, it's so it's, I lovethis, the Sullivan method and
also what you're talking aboutwith Joe Dispenza, cause it just
(42:59):
like that sovereignty, it justkind of like closes the gaps on,
like, oh, okay, it's I.
I felt like with kundalini Iwas always like there was a
disempowering aspect to it, eventhough I was studying a lots of
I was studying a lot of youknow a lot of other mystery
schools and esoterics To havethe pure science come in with.
(43:24):
Dr, Joe, yes.
And the SOMA method is also veryscientific because it works
with the brainwaves.
Yes, and I just think when youstart to have like, when you
(43:44):
start to have, there's an andalso there's no pedestalizing of
a person that's delivering themessage.
You know, it's like I don't getthat from dr joe, actually or
vision, even though, like, theyboth have huge platforms but
there's no, you know, or thatwas the thing about Kuli, it was
like a religion, almost in thatway.
Stephanie (44:03):
You know, I, I hear you and I understand and echo
some of those same sentiments aswell, like I don't.
I find that my approach to youknow the meditations and the
teachings that Dr Joe has andthat Vishen has, it's all about
(44:26):
just I want the information, andit makes it feel like it is
school, let's say.
And.
I'm just taking a course.
I'm understanding.
You know how my mind works andwhy you know the combination of
my thoughts, feelings andactions are doing.
I love about Dr Joe's work isthat he has you teach your peers
(44:46):
every single step of the way.
He's going to teach you aconcept and then he's going to
have you teach it to somebodyelse sitting next to you, and
that's been really helpfulbecause that brings it back to
now.
I've created a new neuralpathway because I understand it
on the cellular level as opposedto just understanding it
(45:10):
spiritually.
Because yes, of course we'retapped in, but if I can
understand the spirit, thescience behind the spirituality,
then then I'm even morepowerful, because now I can
teach it to somebody and theycan say oh, I get that, I can
implement that, I can move on,that.
I can understand that when Iget into a contrast moment, I'm
(45:34):
in imbalance and this is why andthis is why so for me.
(46:01):
Stepping away from Kundaliniwasn't stepping away from my
spirituality.
It was stepping into mysovereignty.
It was taking what works fromthat set of information and
using what works for me, I stillreally, really love the mantra.
I have had to stop listening tocertain people singing certain
mantras.
They shall remain nameless.
But I have had to stopingesting certain frequencies
because we know how strong andpowerful frequency is.
Jenee (46:24):
Oh, yeah, I love that.
That's so amazing.
Yeah, it's, it's.
Stephanie (46:31):
It makes so much sense, kind of like knowing
where you're at and yeah, we'reon the other, we're on the other
, we're on the other, the otherside, and I and I am so grateful
to some of the teachers that wehad um, may she rest in peace.
(46:52):
Yeah, um, I am super gratefulto, because that, honestly, was
a bit of opening up my eyes tomy personal sovereignty, my
business, you know, bossmentality, um, and also how much
(47:14):
energy that it takes to vibrateat that level.
Seven figure business ownershave a completely different
energy than somebody who ismaking five figures a month.
Yeah, four figures a month,yeah, um, and so even that has
been something that has shiftedfor me.
In the last, I understood it,it was seeded during that time,
(47:38):
but now it's starting to besomething that I'm embodying,
I'm understanding um in a realway.
Jenee (47:44):
So can you, could you explain um energetically what
you feel are some of thedifferences, or does it feel
like it's habits or it?
Stephanie (47:56):
is definitely speed Procrastination.
I think we all deal with thatin some measure in our life, in
our career.
Seven figure.
Stephanie does not procrastinate, she acts, she does aligned
(48:19):
action, she acts, she doesaligned action, she delegates.
She has systems in place thathelp her, like, move faster,
more efficiently, so she's notfeeling.
Even better still at this is myself-care and putting myself
(48:44):
first um, even over and above myson and him Um.
That was a big challengebecause I grew up watching my
mom put everyone first Um, andso that was just kind of my, my
rhythm, that was what I wasdoing, and so now it is just
(49:07):
taking who I was at this,raising the, literally raising
the vibration, and operate.
It's like a new operatingsystem.
So I have to remind myselfdaily because you, we have to be
reminded um, of who we are Um,and that helps with the
(49:28):
journaling, but that also helpswith just who is she and what
decision?
What decision would she makeright now?
What decision would I make asher right now?
Um.
So I think that has been thelargest shift, um, and it's been
gradual, but I would say, youknow, the last two to three
(49:53):
months it's really starting tolike I'm starting to hit a pulse
now.
Jenee (49:59):
Yeah, and how do what for you?
Um, what does aligned actionwork for you?
How do you know when somethingfeels like you've, you've hit it
and it's like, yes, this is itreally is.
Stephanie (50:16):
I mean, it's a gut check for me, Honestly.
There are things that all of ushave desires to do that we
haven't taken action on becausewe're afraid.
So fear is a big blockage.
(50:39):
So usually if I feel feararound moving, that is my
indicator that it's actually isaligned action for me.
Jenee (50:48):
I love that.
Yeah, people need to hear that.
I mean, I've been paralyzed infear over things for years.
And I just recently, and I waslike it can't be right because
I'm so afraid.
And then I just had recentlyheard someone else say maybe I
heard you say that, oh wow, andI think it was one of the things
I like saved and was like Ineed to read, I need to come
(51:11):
back to this video constantly,because I think it was you and
you said like that's where, likethe juices, like that's where
you know indicator that is.
Stephanie (51:22):
I feel like it's your indicator light.
It's like, okay, go right or goleft, but you gotta move
because if I'm feeling feararound it, you need to check
your baby.
You need to check your innerchild and see where did this
come from?
It's a place where I gotblocked as a kid.
Is this a place where I gotblocked as a kid?
Is this a place where I gotblocked in my 20s?
(51:43):
Where is it in the timeline?
How can I transmute itimmediately into some movement?
Because it means I need to gotowards that direction.
Because for me, the differencebetween fear and I don't need to
do that is you're also going toget a clear.
The difference between fear andI don't need to do that is
you're also going to get it.
You're also going to get a clearindication, a clear gut check
(52:05):
when it's not a action you willknow, yeah, that's a no, because
if it's not a hell yes,typically it's a oh, I want to
do that, but I'm afraid ofsomeone else's opinion of you of
that.
Somebody else is doing itbetter than you already that
(52:27):
it's going to look silly, thatyou're going to look.
It's a self-limiting thoughtbehind it.
So it means that you need to doit so you can clear that shit.
But a no is going to be a clearno and you're going to be like,
yeah, I knew that.
And then spirit will come backand confirm for you.
(52:48):
You'll see it.
You'll get a sign, you'll seesomething happen in your 3D that
confirms that yep, I wasn'tsupposed to do that, that was
not for me.
Or you'll hear a story about oh, that's his experience with
shitty, or this was not.
You know what it appeared to be.
Jenee (53:08):
I feel like I need a book on this.
I think you need to write thatbook.
Stephanie (53:14):
Okay, it's so powerful.
This is the kind of stuff thatjust makes my world go round
Like having these kind ofconversations.
(53:35):
I was telling you earlier aboutmy throat chakra and being, and
having been blocked there and,um, that was one of the things
obviously, as singers, we know.
um, when we're feeling blockedin our throat, it's because we
actually have something reallypowerful to say um and so, for
(53:59):
me, showing up on podcasts thisyear was a goal of mine, um,
before you even said anything,and I was like, oh my gosh, like
thank you so much for justfollowing that little intuition
um to ask me to come here.
Um, because the more I practiceuh, it's a practice for me to
(54:22):
speak to um to bring my voiceback online.
Um, and then singing is going tobe.
Singing is going to be next.
Um.
Singing gets to be next.
Um cause I.
I lived in LA for 10 years andI this was a big sadness that I
had about leaving.
(54:42):
As well, people didn't knowthat I was a singer and I and I
sang for a living.
Wow, my undergraduate degree isvocal performance.
I did not know that.
Wow.
I am a classically trainedsoprano.
I sang on cruise ships forseven years what yeah?
(55:07):
Performed for thousands ofpeople like every single week,
and when I moved to LA, like, Idid a couple of background gigs,
but I never performed soloAfter I left Ships.
I have not sung solo.
(55:28):
That's crazy, and I left Shipsin 2012.
It's time.
Jenee (55:35):
It's time.
Stephanie (55:36):
It's time.
So I'm looking forward toseeing what that gets to be so
funny.
I did one like little corporategig while I was an agent.
One of my friends called me up.
He was like I need a singertonight and I was like tonight.
He was like, yeah, you can doit.
(55:57):
Had to learn a whole new songand it was an exercise in oh, I
haven't sang, my voice is tiredand that you know.
If you don't practice, if you'renot practicing every day, your
voice, you will lose it you willlose it, you will lose the
(56:18):
brain, my um transition from myum my chest voice into my head.
Voice my break hotness that'sso common.
When you have it, you know it'slike oh I was like, oh my god,
I used to be the girl who didnot warm up and who could just
(56:38):
be like I know, and now I haveto warm up for a long time.
Jenee (56:45):
That is like a whole world I could talk about forever
.
I'm I'm like struggling with myown things around the voice and
it's it's very, very upsettingand disheartening, um, because I
went through menopause 10 yearsago and it's like catching up
with me and so I'm having a lot,of, a lot of struggles with my
voice.
But I'm finally deciding to beproactive and I'm like I hope
(57:09):
it's not too late, but I'm I'mseeing, I'm having to see
specialists, I'm there's a wholebunch of stuff that I'm having
to like take, take on right nowand dealing with the emotions
around it.
But it's like you just don'trealize, like how much you
cherish your voice until it'slike there's not the opportunity
(57:32):
to have it.
So, or you know it's not, it'snot what it was, it's changing a
lot, and you know, um, yeah,it's.
I would just say, like, go forit and go back in and, like you
know, get the support and thehelp you need you know, like
just get back into it, cause, oh, if I could like go back 10
(57:56):
years and do things a little bitdifferently.
Um, if I would have like been alittle more proactive and like
my, my daily work and mypractice and and my self care
around my voice, like, yeah,it's just adjusting.
You know it's adjusting tosomething new and that can be
(58:17):
hard, but also, like you have tolook at the, the.
It's like looking at the silverlining of how things have
changed.
Stephanie (58:26):
You know, but yeah, I just I know, um, janae, you are
.
Your voice is such a gift tothank you, and so I feel like
even whatever you're workingthrough right now on the other
side is a new clarity.
(58:47):
Thank you, and so, please bekind, thank you, my friend,
thank you.
Jenee (58:55):
Yes, Well, I'm so excited and maybe we can do a recap in
like you know six months or soand see how things are going and
I'm so, I'm so just excited forthis next phase, for you and
this seven figure woman that youare.
(59:18):
Welcome to you as well, thankyou.
Thank you, it's such a, such anabsolute pleasure and honor to
have you on likewise thank youfor having me.
Stephanie (59:30):
I'm honored and blessed to sit with you always
um the gift that your work isand what it means to the world
and to women everywhere.
So thank you.
Jenee (59:44):
Thank you and hopefully we'll get to come and sit with
you again.
Stephanie (59:53):
I call it a party, but yeah, totally, not everybody
calls it that.
Jenee (01:00:06):
Thank you, janine.
Yeah, have a wonderful day youtoo.
Talk to you soon.
The Heartlight Sessions podcastis executive produced and
hosted by me, janae Halstead.
It's edited, mixed and masteredby me too.
And that theme song you hear,it's called Heartlight.
And yep, you guessed it, it'sfrom my record Disposable Love.
Got questions about a certainhealing modality or about
(01:00:32):
heart-centered healing, or maybeyou just need some advice on
life, love or creativity.
Send it my way, email me atletters at heartlightpodcastcom.
Until next time, I'm JanaeHalstead, and thanks for
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