Help Me See - Living Through Seeing

when I was a little girl, before I had any understanding that most of us never do exactly what we say we want to do, my dad told me if he ever had the chance he would 100% go to the moon. I was absolutely horrified. But even in my panic, even in my steadfast objection- I remember his eyes.

What happens when we start respecting ALL parts of ourselves- like the exact constellation we are meant to be? What happens when we stop operating from a place of insufficiency or subconscious shame and start living our lives according to our own design? Join the conversation with human design guide & business mentor Sylvia Bbela substack for this episode: https://biancaleamorra.substack.com/  More from Sylvia Bbela : https...

Is it because they are saying something I wish I could? Is it because it makes me feel something I can’t muster up for myself? Is it because I’m looking for permission to feel something I haven’t even let myself acknowledge? Why do I watch the same shows over and over and over again?

Is it because I...

 Every Christmas I'm left with the strange remorse of not having achieved this elusive feeling I yearn for. Surely I'm missing it by looking for it, but I cannot help it. It's all I've ever known. This perpetual homesickness for a feeling I've never felt . I grasp for moments like chasing bubbles. Only for it to vanish in the moment of contact… Subscribe to free visual/written podcast episodes delivered to your inbox HERE.

Photography has betrayed me. It’s given me an out under the facade of going in. It’s become an emotional to do list too long to ever conquer. Just as I brain dump my ideas and to do tasks onto a paper in an effort for relief and fake accountability, I take pictures when I’m seeing something that feels too much, thinking- I’ll feel this later. My friend asked me the other day in response to my photographic frustration- “can’t th...

“You wasted my time! You wasted my time! This is the worst day ever!” My son screams in panic after an idyllic time eating dinner on the river bank and throwing stones in the water. I found myself telling him, “I understand that you feel panic and upset that we aren’t going to get to do what you want but that doesn't have to take away from the good time you just had. It doesn't have to be a waste.” I'm laughing at my hypocrite...

Today is about the profound impact of good questions. Introspective questions. The issue is, sometimes we forget to ask ourselves (good/non self deprecating) questions. So, having someone to talk to is really important. *someone who is more concerned with listening than speaking. *someone who is more curious and expansive than lovingly trying to brace you for impact. *someone who has the ability to ask really fucking good quest...

“if one reaches the point where understanding fails, this is not a tragedy. It is simply a reminder to stop thinking and start looking. Perhaps there is nothing to figure out after all. Perhaps we only need to wake up.” -Thomas Merton

Perhaps it’s just a sliver. a nuanced change. from looking to seeing. Let yourself see beyond your eyes.

Concoctions: The anti recipe? no. after giving it thought, I realize concoctions inevitably become a recipe in its own way. (also, can being “for” something stop meaning we have to be “"anti” something else?) ((but to be honest, anti recipe was my immediate initial thought. lol)) intuitive cooking? based off a lifetime of tasting experiences, thanks to recipes (ironically). okayyyyyyyy. so what’s the difference and why do I fee...

One day, you will not be here. One day, everything and nothing will matter. One day, the pictures become painfully precious. One day, hindsight will show you the life you could have lived.

Right now, you are here.

Right now, everything and nothing matters. Right now, the pictures are painfully precious. Your hindsight is available to you now. Your life is available to you now.

Live that life now.

Whatever it is- connect t...

waking up with a racing chest. putting your brain in front of your divine inspiration/intuition. letting yourself hear what you are trying to tell yourself through the photos you take. "WAIT! I gotta get mommy a flower!" click click click. wake up. click click click. let the light in.

opens up this well of knowledge and wisdom and witnessing of yourself that can actually help you live your life more deeply.

It opens everythi...

Today is a part two of sorts. Last week's episode felt too big to just move on from and I've been burrowing myself into it ever since. I uncovered a really deep insecurity of mine: being redundant. Feeling like what I have to share and what I feel so deeply compelled to say is obvious. But isn't that what pictures are? redundant. and thank goodness.

The most important things in the world need to be repeated over and over aga...