May 15, 2025 • 19 mins
A single decision to get dressed up and venture out instead of staying in bed has catapulted Carlos Polk into viral stardom after a chance encounter with Kai Cenat at a Met Gala after-party. What followed was a week of non-stop growth, streaming successes, and a rapidly expanding community that's changing the trajectory of his life.
"You're going to be a superstar," Kai told Carlos during their viral interaction – words that hit differently coming from someone who's achieved significant success. Since that fateful Monday night, Carlos has been streaming consistently, watching as his content spreads across Twitter, TikTok, Reddit, Facebook, and Instagram. The algorithm that so often works against creators has suddenly become his ally, bringing thousands of new followers and supporters into his world.
Behind the newfound attention lies a deeper purpose. Carlos opens up about his two sons, Malachi and Ezekiel, and his desire to create better opportunities for his brothers, sisters, and extended family. After moving back to Baltimore to be closer to family – only to discover his grandmother's cancer diagnosis and face numerous personal struggles – Carlos returned to New York with renewed determination. With no permanent place to stay, he's been surviving on graphic design work and Airbnb hopping while building his streaming presence.
The journey hasn't been without its challenges. From working at the Breakfast Club to struggling with exhaustion while maintaining high energy streams, Carlos recognizes the need to build a team to sustain this momentum. His approach reflects both pragmatism (wearing the same pants all summer to save money) and ambition (aiming for 1,000 subscribers in his first month). As he stands one day away from Twitch affiliate status, Carlos invites viewers to join him on this journey of transformation – not just for himself, but for everyone he hopes to lift up along the way. Follow @iLosWork across all platforms and catch daily streams that blend authenticity, humor, and unstoppable drive.
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
What's going on?
It's Carlos Pope.
Carlos works Stuck in Americaand this show is all about me
chasing and going after mydreams, but I don't know that
this is Stuck in America.
This is like just a ventingepisode.
I'm out and about.
You can be in a place whereyour mindset can keep you bound
and keep you down and keep youlocked in.
(00:20):
It's the perspectives thatblock you.
Now I want to get into thisweek's episode because it was
crazy.
Already it has been a crazy oneweek.
Last week I stumbled uponKassanat at the Met Gala after
party and ever since then I havebeen streaming since Tuesday,
(00:40):
and I have been streaming sinceTuesday and apparently I'm
hitting some areas.
The algorithm is for me and notagainst me.
I'm glad about that.
I was a little unhinged at theevent and that led to you know
me being shared all over theInternet Twitter, tiktok, reddit
(01:02):
, facebook, instagram andanywhere else I don't know.
But in the course of that, Istarted to build this community
and this family by beingconsistent and not stopping
right.
I feel like a lot of peoplewill be like yo, don't drop the
ball, don't drop the ball.
(01:22):
So I plan on not dropping theball right and hold on one
second.
What's going on?
This is alos work, carlos poke.
This is I'm stuck in america.
The podcast audio only whenI'll be out and about, uh, in
real life talking to people.
But today I'm really not goingto talk to anybody.
I just wanted to startrecording.
(01:44):
Or maybe if I go out tomorrowthen I'll talk to some people,
but as of now, I'm walkingthrough Brooklyn.
It's a beautiful day, it'sSaturday, and prior to this, I
did not think about streaming,but I did think about doing in
real life content.
I just didn't know that thatwas the actual subject that
people were doing.
I just didn't know that thatwas the actual subject that
(02:05):
people were doing.
So now I'm doing it.
This week has been an incredibleweek because not only did I go
viral everywhere the Kassanotvideo is probably at a million
plus views where people areseeing me.
A lot of people are saying, yo,you carried the stream.
Kassanot was bored.
He was actually about to leavebecause I didn't watch the whole
(02:25):
stream.
I watched the whole YouTubevideo where he mentioned that he
was about to leave and then,boom, here I come.
Now that's that I didn't evenknow that happened, but I ain't
gonna lie.
I felt the energy we definitelyconnected on, just on a real
level.
I guess you could say and itwasn't something that I seen
coming, neither is somethingthat I predicted On the day that
(02:47):
I decided to jump out there andnot stay in bed.
I actually had on sweatpantsthat day and I went in the house
and I dressed up as if I wasgonna be in the Met Gala.
So I already had like thatlittle bit of faith to say, yo,
I'm definitely not.
I don't know what might happen,but if I drift too comfortable,
definitely nothing is going tohappen, or at least you never
(03:09):
know.
I'm really a wild kid, I canget anything done.
So now I'm there and the afteris what I didn't predict.
I was late to the breakfast cluband while I was early to the
breakfast club, but I couldn'treally work, I was deliriously
tired.
The next day I was recovering alittle bit, but I still wasn't
(03:29):
100% there, as well as the wholecommunity in the world saying
yo, don't fumble this, don'tdrop this, you can do this, you
got more, you could be yoursuperstar and your next up,
which?
All these things permeate mymind already.
All these things live in mymind already.
All these things live in mymind already, so it's not
something that was super crazyto me to hear, but to hear from
(03:52):
strangers was motivating To hearfrom people I didn't even know,
and I'm funny, but yo, I'mdrained.
Now it's Saturday.
I slept twice today and it'snot even six, seven o'clock.
But the number one thing Irealized is that I'm going to
need to build a team, and theteam is on the way, because one
(04:12):
consistent message I hear isthat you have to get your clips
up, you have to get enoughcontent out so that you can
boost up your streams.
Now people already want to subme and we got one more day.
After tomorrow I'll be able tobe applied for the program and I
respect everybody's grind thatthey put in, and I don't take
this for granted.
(04:32):
So I definitely don't want thisto be like a come and go or
one-hit wonder.
I can't do that.
I can't do it.
But it's very interesting whenhe said yo, you're going to be a
superstar, and I was more soobsessed with his thinking
process behind it, not the factthat he said it, because when
you hear it coming from peoplethat achieve certain levels of
success, they're looking from adifferent point of view when
(04:55):
they mention different things,and for him to mention that
really motivated me, as well asmy brothers coming in to help me
and try to advise me.
They know I'm hard-headed so Idon't listen to a lot of stuff,
but I listen to a lot.
I listen more than they think Ido.
But this week, let's talk aboutit.
Monday was crazy.
Met Gala Monday Wasn'texpecting that.
(05:16):
Tuesday out of here.
Wednesday, I don't rememberWednesday.
I don't even remember whathappened on Wednesday and then
you got Thursday and Friday,which is the end of the week now
.
Friday was definitely eventful.
It was crazy hearing Lizzo talkabout streaming and hear DDG
talk about streaming in the sameweek that I was on his podcast,
(05:37):
and I just felt like God wasjust bringing a lot of signs to
me with that.
They have a ton of guests atthe Rutgers Club Bringing a lot
of signs to me with that.
They have a ton of guests atthe records club For them to be
talking about streaming as muchas they did, and then I was on
DDG string.
All that really just meanssomething.
So I might need to hurry up andget a therapist, though, so
that my POV can be in the rightplace when it come to people,
(06:01):
but to go from being just aregular Joe to now now a lot of
people know me, randomly walkingup to me screaming oh my god,
it's kashree.
Oh, I'm saying, definitely gotmy eyes wide open, I don't even
know.
So have I been outside thisweekend?
No, do I even have the energyto be outside like that?
No, I barely got energy, bro,with me going to the breakfast
(06:24):
club, I got to edit for jess andthe high energy that's there.
After about four or fiveo'clock, bro, it feels like it's
10 o'clock at night.
So then I stream on tuesday, onwednesday, on thursday, on
friday, on saturday, I wasoutside streaming, which was
dope, but I need help.
I need help with clips, I needhelp.
So today is Saturday.
(06:46):
I'm going to stream at 7, whichis probably about an hour from
now.
I'm going to do interviews live.
I'm going to let the chat checkin with me, but I don't know,
it's stuck in America.
My perspective is big.
I'm not in no box.
I don't think about things in abox.
I think it was like Wednesdayor so.
(07:07):
On Wednesday I was walking downthe street and two dollars just
blew right in front of me.
The first one dollar blew infront of me and then, shortly
after the one dollar, anotherdollar just blew in front of me.
So I was like whoa that's, isthis a sign?
I don't know what the sign is,but I just was like whoa, is
this a sign?
I don't know what the sign is,but I just was like I'm ready
for it.
So that's cool.
But I just want to open upopportunities.
(07:29):
A lot of videographers from NewYork and from Brooklyn and from
Queens DM me to work with me.
I can't walk around with five,six videographers, but I have
some ideas of what to do withthe opportunity, with the people
to make this thing go to thenext level, even for them.
The constant on stream is alsoplaying.
(07:52):
Last night and he was goingthrough applications, he didn't
say choose anybody, he just itwasn't accept or deny was what
he.
It wasn't gonna be accept or itwasn't gonna be a deny, he was
just gonna see who right.
Hopefully I think he's going toend up picking me, but even if
he don't, again I just thinkthat we locked in.
(08:13):
I just think that I don't havehis phone number.
I don't have any of his contactinformation, which is fine.
Friday, you know, wearing thesame pants from the Met Gala.
That was my whole thing.
Like you're going to changethese pants until I meet Kyle
now, or at least for 30 days.
Like I ain't that crazy.
But also I like the idea.
It's like a uniform.
(08:34):
Um, I'm wearing, and thisuniform is gonna be something
that I'm gonna wear for thewhole summer.
Number one I'm gonna save money.
Anybody that live in new yorkknow that clothes and food and
everything is so expensive, bro,and we gotta save that money
bro.
And if I ain't gotta buy noclothes, it still look good damn
(08:55):
, and that's what I'm gonna wearfor the whole summer.
Now they wash I'm washing theclothes now, so I ain't gotta.
I'm washing the clothes now soI don't have to wear the same
dirty clothes, which is just thepants.
That's what I'm gonna do.
Damn this shit loud.
I'm in the grocery store tryingto figure out what I might eat.
I need to buy food because I dogotta eat, um, but this week,
(09:17):
man, I can't tell you.
Charlotte ain't gonna say onthe radio carlos is gonna wear
the same clothes for the wholeweek.
No, low-key though, it is thesame money though.
Like it ain't just about kai's.
Like damn, tell me that myclothes is different.
And if y'all still look good andI look fresh, then what does it
matter?
For, like, for who do I have toplease out here when?
When you don't got no money andyou're struggling, like the
(09:40):
thing you need to be doing isworried about pleasing somebody
in real life?
Like, imagine worrying aboutpleasing somebody that's not
helping you out of yoursituation.
I'm not worried about that.
Like it don't make no sense.
Now, if somebody's like yo, I'llgive you $10,000 to start
wearing these pants, then wemight be talking about something
, but until then, I'm going torock these pants, I'm going to
(10:02):
eat some cauliflower and I'mgoing to chill.
That's just what we do.
Think about ourselves, worryabout ourselves, what we got,
the goals and ambitions that wehave.
I might need to also purchase ajuicer at this point, because
I'm spending like $10 everysingle day on juices.
You get what I'm saying.
This place is expensive, dog.
But to say that I want to thankJess Hilarious just for being
(10:23):
such an inspiration to me fromthe beginning.
Man Like thing that y'all seenon camera is how I met Jess
Hilarious.
I'm going to call her Jess forthe rest of this podcast, but me
and Jess met a long time ago,before she became who she is
today, before the comedy andbefore the stand-up.
I remember the first time whenthat happened with her with
(10:44):
Martin.
I didn't go to the show, though, I just remember that it
happened with Martin right.
So To now see her where she isnow is amazing, but also being
able to stand in the backgroundto watch her grow over the past
three years has been phenomenal.
Now, jess has always kept thesame attitude and everything,
but her life just kept advancing, and that's one of the things
(11:06):
that I want to make sure that Iwalk into, like don't this shit
get to your head, brother.
Use it as a way to escape thedownsides of life, but don't let
it get to your head too much.
You know, happens man,something smell good and um,
yeah.
So I met her the same way I metkarsa, not just out and about
(11:26):
enjoying life years ago and whenI say years ago, I mean a long
time ago just out enjoying life,and a lot of people tell you
you gotta do this and you gottado that.
No, just be yourself.
You gotta be authentic.
It's important, like you know,yo just stay in your lane,
remain yourself, that's just.
Stay in your lane.
Don't try to fit in with thesepeople.
(11:47):
They will try to hurt you.
So I'm definitely gonna stay inmy lane and stay focused and,
you know, enjoy life and makesure I see the sun in the
morning, right.
Also, friends on like this ofTwitch is amazing.
I'm glad for the beginningbecause in the beginning I get
to make these connections withpeople.
(12:08):
Shout out the Cybertruck Tay.
I don't know everybody'susername, but I remember y'all,
nia and all types of people.
Man that's been checking in withme every day on the streams
with me every day and I've beenstreaming, streaming, bro.
I don't even know how manyhours I've streamed yet.
All I know is I'm one day frombeing an affiliate and I want to
get as many subs as possible.
(12:29):
Might go the first month.
Like, let's get 1,000 subs.
Might go the first month Like,let's hit 1,000 subs.
Like, let's hit 1,000 subs, bro.
Let's go big, because I want tochange life, not just my life,
but life.
I want to see things getdifferent for my brothers, my
mother, my family, mygrandmother.
Like yo, I got so much to say,bro, so much to say.
(12:50):
Should I say it now?
Hold on, I got 10 minutes.
Should I say it now?
Hold on, I got 10 minutes.
I'll say it, yo, like twomonths ago matter of fact,
february I just decided to moveback to baltimore.
The reason why I decided to moveback to baltimore?
Because my family right.
I also have two sons, malachiand ezekiel, and it's probably
the first time putting it outthere for everybody to know.
People that's close to me knowthat I have sons, but the world
(13:14):
hasn't known, right, and I dothis for them.
Not only do I do it for them, Ido it for my brothers and my
sisters, because we grew uptogether but our relationships
have changed due to thesuppression of life.
So some of us have to work allthe time, we don't even get to
see each other, we miss holidays, we missed all these things.
In the back of my mind, italways is continued.
(13:36):
I constantly think in the backof my mind like yo, I want the
best for my family.
I want the best for my brothersand sisters, bro, like for.
So that that of trauma, uh,they don't have to live through
it anymore, and that's alwaysbeen at the forefront of my
brain.
Now, how much?
How much is this actually goingto help?
We don't find out, but I ain'tgoing to stop until it happens.
(13:59):
I'm not going to stop until Isee, you know, living
comfortable, my brother chasinghis dream, my nephews doing
music.
You know things that I'mlooking forward to, and you know
I'll be free in it.
We ain't got to agree oneverything, but let's say at the
(14:24):
end, we got to be free until weall free.
That's my thought process.
Um well, so a few months ago Iwent back.
I was living in new york injanuary.
I said this year can be themost successful year of my life.
I said this but if I don't getto see my family and my sons,
that's going to hurt me, so I'mjust going to go back and make
it work back home.
Soon as I got back, all hellbroke loose.
It was as if I wasn't supposedto do that and I just was like,
(14:48):
why is this so tough to do?
Right, and I tried to stick itout.
I try to do the photographything.
I try to, you know, do thething, and it was working.
But in the back of my mind Iwas like yo, you're gonna work
and become like it's only, it'sonly comfortable.
(15:08):
It's not courageous.
And I'm a courageous person.
I'm like this isn't courageous,this is not outgoing, this is
not different from what you'vebeen doing for the past couple
of years.
You know what I'm saying.
I'm like, and then I find out Igo back and me being an
investigator, I was helping mygrandmother out.
When I moved back.
I moved in with my grandmotherbecause that's always like home
(15:30):
in a way, and also like Icherish the time that me and my
grandma got to spend together.
Happy mother's day to all themothers too.
But I definitely cherish allthe time we get to spend
together.
But now that time is beingcompromised uh, because we got
to keep grinding to make it, youknow.
But grandmother actually wasn'tfeeling well.
(15:50):
So I was like all right, well,I'm gonna take you to the urgent
care.
She fought me, she, she was meout, bro.
My grandma was like yeah, youthink you can run my life and
meanwhile, in the back, man, I'mlike, I'm just trying to help
you, grandma.
So eventually she like gave inand went, but we end up.
We went from urgent care to theemergency room.
(16:10):
We got to the emergency room,they like, man, we don't even
know how you can walk right nowbecause she has so much
calcification in her knees aswell as arthritis, and they was
like we've surprised your legdidn't just snap.
But then we thought it wasCOVID related so it's like all
right, well, we're gonna checkyour lungs, not the knee.
(16:30):
But she was having swollenhands and she was having a
little hard time breathing, sothey and she recently was
exposed to covid, so theychecked.
But then they checked her lungsfor clots and they end up
finding cancer and I found thatout with my grandma and that
broke my heart.
Um, and then just kept gettingworse and worse after that, from
one thing to another, with mymom, my brothers and sisters at
(16:52):
the time pushing.
My mom has a play coming up andI was pushing to make sure that
that thing becomes verysuccessful and I believe it
still will be.
But I just couldn't stay inBaltimore any longer Because I
got to the point of depressionand being curled up in a bit,
because I'm fighting all thesedifferent battles In a place
where I believe I'm not supposedto be, and I felt like God was
(17:13):
just like squeezing me to deathto push me out and leave.
So I did.
I came back to New York.
When I came here, I didn't evenhave a place to sleep or stay.
You know I do graphic design,so I kept just flipping the
graphic design money and buyingAirbnbs.
Then, like, finally, me andJalink back up and work.
And as we're working, working,I'm just going hard.
(17:37):
I'm like, just this time I wantthis content to like really
resonate.
Let's all the numbers up.
So meanwhile, everything withjess is going to the next level.
Right, it's going crazy.
And I decided to go to the metgala weekend thing because I was
laying in bed and I'm stillthinking about my family and I'm
just like getting in that dateagain.
And I'm just like wait a minute, carlos, you can't stay like
(17:59):
this, because you came all theway to New York to to make it
again.
You can't let your emotionsrule you.
So I was like, okay, let me getup, let me go out.
I'm gonna start this podcast,the one you're listening to
right now.
That's the same night I'm at.
And now look at things.
It's just crazy, bro.
(18:19):
It's just getting really crazy.
We grew, I grew five thousandfollowers.
Well, maybe, maybe fourthousand followers.
I'm at twenty five K.
I put in the work on thestreams.
I'm learning at the same time.
So that page is going crazy andI got a math 16 on there and my
goal is to really like let'sget affiliate, let's get a
(18:40):
thousand.
After we get a thousand, let'sget 2000.
It just keep growing so that Ican change life.
It changed other people likevideographers, photographers,
graphic designers, people in thecreative world, singers,
rappers, instrumentalistseverybody that I can touch.
But I also got to save me.
Thank you for checking in withme and make sure you like,
(19:00):
follow and subscribe everywhereI am it's I Los Work on
Instagram, tiktok, twitch,twitter, whatever X and let's go
Catch me on the streams.
We're going to be updatingthings in real time on Sunday.
Today is Well.
Next time you hear from me,it'll be something new.
Thank you, peace out.
What's going on?
It's Carlos Pope.
Carlos works Stuck in Americaand this show is all about me
chasing and going after mydreams, but I don't know that
this is Stuck in America.
This is like just a ventingepisode.
I'm out and about.
You can be in a place whereyour mindset can keep you bound
and keep you down and keep youlocked in.
(00:20):
It's the perspectives thatblock you.
Now I want to get into thisweek's episode because it was
crazy.
Already it has been a crazy oneweek.
Last week I stumbled uponKassanat at the Met Gala after
party and ever since then I havebeen streaming since Tuesday,
(00:40):
and I have been streaming sinceTuesday and apparently I'm
hitting some areas.
The algorithm is for me and notagainst me.
I'm glad about that.
I was a little unhinged at theevent and that led to you know
me being shared all over theInternet Twitter, tiktok, reddit
(01:02):
, facebook, instagram andanywhere else I don't know.
But in the course of that, Istarted to build this community
and this family by beingconsistent and not stopping
right.
I feel like a lot of peoplewill be like yo, don't drop the
ball, don't drop the ball.
(01:22):
So I plan on not dropping theball right and hold on one
second.
What's going on?
This is alos work, carlos poke.
This is I'm stuck in america.
The podcast audio only whenI'll be out and about, uh, in
real life talking to people.
But today I'm really not goingto talk to anybody.
I just wanted to startrecording.
(01:44):
Or maybe if I go out tomorrowthen I'll talk to some people,
but as of now, I'm walkingthrough Brooklyn.
It's a beautiful day, it'sSaturday, and prior to this, I
did not think about streaming,but I did think about doing in
real life content.
I just didn't know that thatwas the actual subject that
people were doing.
I just didn't know that thatwas the actual subject that
(02:05):
people were doing.
So now I'm doing it.
This week has been an incredibleweek because not only did I go
viral everywhere the Kassanotvideo is probably at a million
plus views where people areseeing me.
A lot of people are saying, yo,you carried the stream.
Kassanot was bored.
He was actually about to leavebecause I didn't watch the whole
(02:25):
stream.
I watched the whole YouTubevideo where he mentioned that he
was about to leave and then,boom, here I come.
Now that's that I didn't evenknow that happened, but I ain't
gonna lie.
I felt the energy we definitelyconnected on, just on a real
level.
I guess you could say and itwasn't something that I seen
coming, neither is somethingthat I predicted On the day that
(02:47):
I decided to jump out there andnot stay in bed.
I actually had on sweatpantsthat day and I went in the house
and I dressed up as if I wasgonna be in the Met Gala.
So I already had like thatlittle bit of faith to say, yo,
I'm definitely not.
I don't know what might happen,but if I drift too comfortable,
definitely nothing is going tohappen, or at least you never
(03:09):
know.
I'm really a wild kid, I canget anything done.
So now I'm there and the afteris what I didn't predict.
I was late to the breakfast cluband while I was early to the
breakfast club, but I couldn'treally work, I was deliriously
tired.
The next day I was recovering alittle bit, but I still wasn't
(03:29):
100% there, as well as the wholecommunity in the world saying
yo, don't fumble this, don'tdrop this, you can do this, you
got more, you could be yoursuperstar and your next up,
which?
All these things permeate mymind already.
All these things live in mymind already.
All these things live in mymind already, so it's not
something that was super crazyto me to hear, but to hear from
(03:52):
strangers was motivating To hearfrom people I didn't even know,
and I'm funny, but yo, I'mdrained.
Now it's Saturday.
I slept twice today and it'snot even six, seven o'clock.
But the number one thing Irealized is that I'm going to
need to build a team, and theteam is on the way, because one
(04:12):
consistent message I hear isthat you have to get your clips
up, you have to get enoughcontent out so that you can
boost up your streams.
Now people already want to subme and we got one more day.
After tomorrow I'll be able tobe applied for the program and I
respect everybody's grind thatthey put in, and I don't take
this for granted.
(04:32):
So I definitely don't want thisto be like a come and go or
one-hit wonder.
I can't do that.
I can't do it.
But it's very interesting whenhe said yo, you're going to be a
superstar, and I was more soobsessed with his thinking
process behind it, not the factthat he said it, because when
you hear it coming from peoplethat achieve certain levels of
success, they're looking from adifferent point of view when
(04:55):
they mention different things,and for him to mention that
really motivated me, as well asmy brothers coming in to help me
and try to advise me.
They know I'm hard-headed so Idon't listen to a lot of stuff,
but I listen to a lot.
I listen more than they think Ido.
But this week, let's talk aboutit.
Monday was crazy.
Met Gala Monday Wasn'texpecting that.
(05:16):
Tuesday out of here.
Wednesday, I don't rememberWednesday.
I don't even remember whathappened on Wednesday and then
you got Thursday and Friday,which is the end of the week now
.
Friday was definitely eventful.
It was crazy hearing Lizzo talkabout streaming and hear DDG
talk about streaming in the sameweek that I was on his podcast,
(05:37):
and I just felt like God wasjust bringing a lot of signs to
me with that.
They have a ton of guests atthe Rutgers Club Bringing a lot
of signs to me with that.
They have a ton of guests atthe records club For them to be
talking about streaming as muchas they did, and then I was on
DDG string.
All that really just meanssomething.
So I might need to hurry up andget a therapist, though, so
that my POV can be in the rightplace when it come to people,
(06:01):
but to go from being just aregular Joe to now now a lot of
people know me, randomly walkingup to me screaming oh my god,
it's kashree.
Oh, I'm saying, definitely gotmy eyes wide open, I don't even
know.
So have I been outside thisweekend?
No, do I even have the energyto be outside like that?
No, I barely got energy, bro,with me going to the breakfast
(06:24):
club, I got to edit for jess andthe high energy that's there.
After about four or fiveo'clock, bro, it feels like it's
10 o'clock at night.
So then I stream on tuesday, onwednesday, on thursday, on
friday, on saturday, I wasoutside streaming, which was
dope, but I need help.
I need help with clips, I needhelp.
So today is Saturday.
(06:46):
I'm going to stream at 7, whichis probably about an hour from
now.
I'm going to do interviews live.
I'm going to let the chat checkin with me, but I don't know,
it's stuck in America.
My perspective is big.
I'm not in no box.
I don't think about things in abox.
I think it was like Wednesdayor so.
(07:07):
On Wednesday I was walking downthe street and two dollars just
blew right in front of me.
The first one dollar blew infront of me and then, shortly
after the one dollar, anotherdollar just blew in front of me.
So I was like whoa that's, isthis a sign?
I don't know what the sign is,but I just was like whoa, is
this a sign?
I don't know what the sign is,but I just was like I'm ready
for it.
So that's cool.
But I just want to open upopportunities.
(07:29):
A lot of videographers from NewYork and from Brooklyn and from
Queens DM me to work with me.
I can't walk around with five,six videographers, but I have
some ideas of what to do withthe opportunity, with the people
to make this thing go to thenext level, even for them.
The constant on stream is alsoplaying.
(07:52):
Last night and he was goingthrough applications, he didn't
say choose anybody, he just itwasn't accept or deny was what
he.
It wasn't gonna be accept or itwasn't gonna be a deny, he was
just gonna see who right.
Hopefully I think he's going toend up picking me, but even if
he don't, again I just thinkthat we locked in.
(08:13):
I just think that I don't havehis phone number.
I don't have any of his contactinformation, which is fine.
Friday, you know, wearing thesame pants from the Met Gala.
That was my whole thing.
Like you're going to changethese pants until I meet Kyle
now, or at least for 30 days.
Like I ain't that crazy.
But also I like the idea.
It's like a uniform.
(08:34):
Um, I'm wearing, and thisuniform is gonna be something
that I'm gonna wear for thewhole summer.
Number one I'm gonna save money.
Anybody that live in new yorkknow that clothes and food and
everything is so expensive, bro,and we gotta save that money
bro.
And if I ain't gotta buy noclothes, it still look good damn
(08:55):
, and that's what I'm gonna wearfor the whole summer.
Now they wash I'm washing theclothes now, so I ain't gotta.
I'm washing the clothes now soI don't have to wear the same
dirty clothes, which is just thepants.
That's what I'm gonna do.
Damn this shit loud.
I'm in the grocery store tryingto figure out what I might eat.
I need to buy food because I dogotta eat, um, but this week,
(09:17):
man, I can't tell you.
Charlotte ain't gonna say onthe radio carlos is gonna wear
the same clothes for the wholeweek.
No, low-key though, it is thesame money though.
Like it ain't just about kai's.
Like damn, tell me that myclothes is different.
And if y'all still look good andI look fresh, then what does it
matter?
For, like, for who do I have toplease out here when?
When you don't got no money andyou're struggling, like the
(09:40):
thing you need to be doing isworried about pleasing somebody
in real life?
Like, imagine worrying aboutpleasing somebody that's not
helping you out of yoursituation.
I'm not worried about that.
Like it don't make no sense.
Now, if somebody's like yo, I'llgive you $10,000 to start
wearing these pants, then wemight be talking about something
, but until then, I'm going torock these pants, I'm going to
(10:02):
eat some cauliflower and I'mgoing to chill.
That's just what we do.
Think about ourselves, worryabout ourselves, what we got,
the goals and ambitions that wehave.
I might need to also purchase ajuicer at this point, because
I'm spending like $10 everysingle day on juices.
You get what I'm saying.
This place is expensive, dog.
But to say that I want to thankJess Hilarious just for being
(10:23):
such an inspiration to me fromthe beginning.
Man Like thing that y'all seenon camera is how I met Jess
Hilarious.
I'm going to call her Jess forthe rest of this podcast, but me
and Jess met a long time ago,before she became who she is
today, before the comedy andbefore the stand-up.
I remember the first time whenthat happened with her with
(10:44):
Martin.
I didn't go to the show, though, I just remember that it
happened with Martin right.
So To now see her where she isnow is amazing, but also being
able to stand in the backgroundto watch her grow over the past
three years has been phenomenal.
Now, jess has always kept thesame attitude and everything,
but her life just kept advancing, and that's one of the things
(11:06):
that I want to make sure that Iwalk into, like don't this shit
get to your head, brother.
Use it as a way to escape thedownsides of life, but don't let
it get to your head too much.
You know, happens man,something smell good and um,
yeah.
So I met her the same way I metkarsa, not just out and about
(11:26):
enjoying life years ago and whenI say years ago, I mean a long
time ago just out enjoying life,and a lot of people tell you
you gotta do this and you gottado that.
No, just be yourself.
You gotta be authentic.
It's important, like you know,yo just stay in your lane,
remain yourself, that's just.
Stay in your lane.
Don't try to fit in with thesepeople.
(11:47):
They will try to hurt you.
So I'm definitely gonna stay inmy lane and stay focused and,
you know, enjoy life and makesure I see the sun in the
morning, right.
Also, friends on like this ofTwitch is amazing.
I'm glad for the beginningbecause in the beginning I get
to make these connections withpeople.
(12:08):
Shout out the Cybertruck Tay.
I don't know everybody'susername, but I remember y'all,
nia and all types of people.
Man that's been checking in withme every day on the streams
with me every day and I've beenstreaming, streaming, bro.
I don't even know how manyhours I've streamed yet.
All I know is I'm one day frombeing an affiliate and I want to
get as many subs as possible.
(12:29):
Might go the first month.
Like, let's get 1,000 subs.
Might go the first month Like,let's hit 1,000 subs.
Like, let's hit 1,000 subs, bro.
Let's go big, because I want tochange life, not just my life,
but life.
I want to see things getdifferent for my brothers, my
mother, my family, mygrandmother.
Like yo, I got so much to say,bro, so much to say.
(12:50):
Should I say it now?
Hold on, I got 10 minutes.
Should I say it now?
Hold on, I got 10 minutes.
I'll say it, yo, like twomonths ago matter of fact,
february I just decided to moveback to baltimore.
The reason why I decided to moveback to baltimore?
Because my family right.
I also have two sons, malachiand ezekiel, and it's probably
the first time putting it outthere for everybody to know.
People that's close to me knowthat I have sons, but the world
(13:14):
hasn't known, right, and I dothis for them.
Not only do I do it for them, Ido it for my brothers and my
sisters, because we grew uptogether but our relationships
have changed due to thesuppression of life.
So some of us have to work allthe time, we don't even get to
see each other, we miss holidays, we missed all these things.
In the back of my mind, italways is continued.
(13:36):
I constantly think in the backof my mind like yo, I want the
best for my family.
I want the best for my brothersand sisters, bro, like for.
So that that of trauma, uh,they don't have to live through
it anymore, and that's alwaysbeen at the forefront of my
brain.
Now, how much?
How much is this actually goingto help?
We don't find out, but I ain'tgoing to stop until it happens.
(13:59):
I'm not going to stop until Isee, you know, living
comfortable, my brother chasinghis dream, my nephews doing
music.
You know things that I'mlooking forward to, and you know
I'll be free in it.
We ain't got to agree oneverything, but let's say at the
(14:24):
end, we got to be free until weall free.
That's my thought process.
Um well, so a few months ago Iwent back.
I was living in new york injanuary.
I said this year can be themost successful year of my life.
I said this but if I don't getto see my family and my sons,
that's going to hurt me, so I'mjust going to go back and make
it work back home.
Soon as I got back, all hellbroke loose.
It was as if I wasn't supposedto do that and I just was like,
(14:48):
why is this so tough to do?
Right, and I tried to stick itout.
I try to do the photographything.
I try to, you know, do thething, and it was working.
But in the back of my mind Iwas like yo, you're gonna work
and become like it's only, it'sonly comfortable.
(15:08):
It's not courageous.
And I'm a courageous person.
I'm like this isn't courageous,this is not outgoing, this is
not different from what you'vebeen doing for the past couple
of years.
You know what I'm saying.
I'm like, and then I find out Igo back and me being an
investigator, I was helping mygrandmother out.
When I moved back.
I moved in with my grandmotherbecause that's always like home
(15:30):
in a way, and also like Icherish the time that me and my
grandma got to spend together.
Happy mother's day to all themothers too.
But I definitely cherish allthe time we get to spend
together.
But now that time is beingcompromised uh, because we got
to keep grinding to make it, youknow.
But grandmother actually wasn'tfeeling well.
(15:50):
So I was like all right, well,I'm gonna take you to the urgent
care.
She fought me, she, she was meout, bro.
My grandma was like yeah, youthink you can run my life and
meanwhile, in the back, man, I'mlike, I'm just trying to help
you, grandma.
So eventually she like gave inand went, but we end up.
We went from urgent care to theemergency room.
(16:10):
We got to the emergency room,they like, man, we don't even
know how you can walk right nowbecause she has so much
calcification in her knees aswell as arthritis, and they was
like we've surprised your legdidn't just snap.
But then we thought it wasCOVID related so it's like all
right, well, we're gonna checkyour lungs, not the knee.
(16:30):
But she was having swollenhands and she was having a
little hard time breathing, sothey and she recently was
exposed to covid, so theychecked.
But then they checked her lungsfor clots and they end up
finding cancer and I found thatout with my grandma and that
broke my heart.
Um, and then just kept gettingworse and worse after that, from
one thing to another, with mymom, my brothers and sisters at
(16:52):
the time pushing.
My mom has a play coming up andI was pushing to make sure that
that thing becomes verysuccessful and I believe it
still will be.
But I just couldn't stay inBaltimore any longer Because I
got to the point of depressionand being curled up in a bit,
because I'm fighting all thesedifferent battles In a place
where I believe I'm not supposedto be, and I felt like God was
(17:13):
just like squeezing me to deathto push me out and leave.
So I did.
I came back to New York.
When I came here, I didn't evenhave a place to sleep or stay.
You know I do graphic design,so I kept just flipping the
graphic design money and buyingAirbnbs.
Then, like, finally, me andJalink back up and work.
And as we're working, working,I'm just going hard.
(17:37):
I'm like, just this time I wantthis content to like really
resonate.
Let's all the numbers up.
So meanwhile, everything withjess is going to the next level.
Right, it's going crazy.
And I decided to go to the metgala weekend thing because I was
laying in bed and I'm stillthinking about my family and I'm
just like getting in that dateagain.
And I'm just like wait a minute, carlos, you can't stay like
(17:59):
this, because you came all theway to New York to to make it
again.
You can't let your emotionsrule you.
So I was like, okay, let me getup, let me go out.
I'm gonna start this podcast,the one you're listening to
right now.
That's the same night I'm at.
And now look at things.
It's just crazy, bro.
(18:19):
It's just getting really crazy.
We grew, I grew five thousandfollowers.
Well, maybe, maybe fourthousand followers.
I'm at twenty five K.
I put in the work on thestreams.
I'm learning at the same time.
So that page is going crazy andI got a math 16 on there and my
goal is to really like let'sget affiliate, let's get a
(18:40):
thousand.
After we get a thousand, let'sget 2000.
It just keep growing so that Ican change life.
It changed other people likevideographers, photographers,
graphic designers, people in thecreative world, singers,
rappers, instrumentalistseverybody that I can touch.
But I also got to save me.
Thank you for checking in withme and make sure you like,
(19:00):
follow and subscribe everywhereI am it's I Los Work on
Instagram, tiktok, twitch,twitter, whatever X and let's go
Catch me on the streams.
We're going to be updatingthings in real time on Sunday.
Today is Well.
Next time you hear from me,it'll be something new.
Thank you, peace out.
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