Can the journey of self-discovery transform your understanding of life’s purpose? On this heartfelt episode of Infinite Love with Kate, I delve into the very essence of what it means to find and embrace your soul’s purpose. From the initial fear and uncertainty that defined my early TikTok days to the profound realization that my mission is to transform darkness into light, I share my deeply personal experiences. This episode underscores the fluid nature of purpose, illustrating how continuous growth and healing can reshape our understanding of who we are meant to be.
Imagine experiencing life with an open heart, free from judgments and superficial interactions. I invite you to explore the concepts of oneness and vulnerability, drawing from my own transformation over the past few years. We discuss the joy of stepping out of comfort zones, whether through social interactions or immersing oneself in the serene beauty of the Redwood Forest. This episode is all about peeling back the layers, engaging in meaningful conversations, and discovering those "aha" moments that lead to deeper self-awareness. Join me as we embark on this beautiful journey of inner growth and infinite love.
Episode Transcript
Hey, it's Kate.
Welcome back to another episodeof Infinite Love with Kate.
Today we're going to actuallydo part two from last week's
episode.
I was given quite a bit ofquestions.
Either people have asked methroughout my platforms or I've
been in conversation with peopleand these types of questions
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have come up, or I've actuallywatched or overheard other
people having theseconversations and the questions
resonated with me and stayedwithin my soul.
So I figured why not turn thisinto an episode of answering
these questions, not only for meto answer, but also for you to
answer?
Do a self-reflection, go withinor utilize these questions
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amongst your friends, yourfamily, your loved ones.
It's a great way to have aconversation.
If you're anything like me,there's nothing greater than
holding an in-depth conversationwith someone, really truly
getting to the core, getting toknow their soul, peeling back
the layers and not just simplytalking on a surface level At
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times.
Yeah, sure, it sounds great.
Sometimes we just need that.
Maybe our energy is low, butfor me, my soul just always
wants to know more, it wants todive deeper, it wants to get to
the root of who you truly are,what's beneath your beautiful,
because at the end of the day,we can't hide behind our filters
.
We can't hide behind the vanity.
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So who are you truly when noone is around?
Who are you?
How do you want the world tosee you?
How do you reflect who you areto others?
Does it align with who you arewithin?
This is all the stuff I've beenasking myself along this
journey, this healing journey, ajourney I've taken upon myself
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to really dive deep, go withinand do the work to find myself,
to find my way back to myself,to find love within and then see
it outwardly, feel it outwardly, align with it outwardly.
It's so different, it's soamazing how the world has
transformed, how the morein-depth I dive within self,
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within life, within healing,within spirituality, the more I
align, the more my timelinesshift, the more I shift within
and everything outwardly shifts.
I'm abundant in all areas of mylife because I'm aligned within
myself, my life, my emotions.
I'm a work in progress.
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I am perfectly imperfect.
I am not here to appease others.
Teach to learn, learn to teach.
I am me.
So let's go back to finishing upour questions, and the first
question is finishing up ourquestions.
And the first question is whatis your soul's purpose?
That one is pretty deep.
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I was asked this question inthe beginning of my TikTok
journey.
I would say that I was in thecore of doing some deep purging
of my emotions, of my healing,and I had responded to the
TikTok friend that I would getback to her, that I really
couldn't answer that questionand I didn't want to just give
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any type of answer because Icould have.
I could have easily just saidthis is my soul's purpose.
But did I believe it at thattime?
No, if anything, that questionterrified me because then I was
overthinking, oversharing, Ifelt like I was overdoing
everything.
But that was all going on in myhead.
That was my ego battling it out.
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Oh my god, what is my soul'spurpose?
Oh my god, why don't I knowthat now?
Why is this healing journey nottaking me to my soul's purpose?
Why am I doubting my soul'spurpose?
What is my soul's purpose?
Yeah, I doubting my soul'spurpose.
What is my soul's purpose?
Yeah, those were the questionsthat I was having a battle with
within myself and that was whereI was at mentally, emotionally,
physically, all of it,spiritually.
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I cannot lie or shouldn't hopethat my biggest battle was my
own self, was my own mind, wasthe mind games.
I had conditioned myself tolearn how to protect myself
protect myself of being my owndemise.
So at that time I wasn't ready.
I wasn't ready for suchquestions and I also wasn't
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ready to lie.
I mean, you could tell that thework was taking place, it was
transpiring, and I wasn'taligned with the former self.
That would lie or would mask ananswer just to have an answer.
So I was honest and said Iwould come back to her and this
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is years later.
Here we are.
I mean, I began TikTok inOctober of 2021, and I probably
got asked that question in thesummer of 2022.
So maybe about nine monthslater, 10 months into doing some
work, and here I am, 2024, andnow just answering what is my
soul's purpose?
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Well, my soul's purpose is aplethora of things.
It's not just defined as thisis it?
I don't believe in that.
I believe that my journey andmy purpose will always change
because of growth.
But I do believe and I do alignand I do acknowledge that my
soul's purpose is transmutingdarkness into light.
It's knowing that you have thecapabilities, the strength, the
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outlook to go with it, to dothat inner work, do the shadow
work and to take that victimmentality, that darkness and
love it, embrace it and acceptit for what it was, for the
purpose it had in that time, andthen simply let go.
No longer attach yourself tothat notion that I have to be
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the victim of my story.
Rather, I can now be thewarrior, the goddess, the king,
the queen whomever you are,however you identify, that can
be your new title and you get totake back your life and you get
to utilize your light throughyour darkness.
You see, my darkness is not anegative.
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Once I learned how to embraceand accept what its purpose was
and understand what its purposewas, then I got it.
Then it was the aha moment, anddid it take some time?
Well, yeah, think about it.
2024, I'm finally answering aquestion that took place in 2022
, so a little over two years agotook me it took me that long to
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find an alignment.
But was I striving to figurethat out in the beginning?
Yes, because someone asked me aquestion.
Then I hyper obsessed about it.
Which were all my insecurities?
Right, those were all my innerwounds coming to the surface,
and then I realized, let it allgo, I don't have to have that
answer because I refuse to givean answer, that's just any
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simple answer.
I refuse to give you a surfacelevel response.
So here I am, over two yearslater, and my soul's purpose is
transmutation of darkness intolight.
It's of sharing my story, myhealing, sharing my voice.
It's accepting and embracingall of me, self-love, pushing
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for self-love through all of us,not just us in our 30s and our
40s and our 50s saying I want totake my life back, but
identifying that for our youngeryouth, for our children, and
bringing forth that energy sothey don't have to take with
them our trauma.
It's breaking all generationalcurses and saying the buck stops
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here, it's done no more.
It's diving deep within my souland then sharing these gifts
with everyone.
And I even think my soul'spurpose is to trigger people.
Honestly, I don't care for thatpart of my gift, but I'm
learning to embrace that as thestory goes, as my life goes, as
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my triggers come to surface, Iacknowledge them and I embrace
them.
Do I get excited that they'rehere?
No, but am I okay when I'mtriggered?
Most definitely.
Could I have said that fouryears here?
No, but am I okay when I'mtriggered?
Most definitely.
Could I have said that fouryears ago?
Absolutely not, absolutely not.
I am using my voice more so nowthan I've ever done before.
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I am speaking up and I'm anadvocate.
I'm not triggered andresponding.
I am using my voice as anadvocate for self, for others,
for the experience that I'm inin that present moment.
That's my soul's purpose and Ilove it and I'm grateful for it
and I'm grateful that it's stillcontinuing to change.
I hold no expectations.
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I don't hold my breath whilewaiting for answers.
I just continue to live and bepresent in the moment.
So next question is how wouldyou like people to experience
you?
How would I like people toexperience me?
I would love people to see mefrom all avenues.
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You can tell, when you'rearound me and you're close to me
, that you know me.
You know all the layers thereare to me, because I won't
sugarcoat it, I won't hide it,I'll take accountability.
I can honestly say if I bringin people that have been around
me, especially the past coupleyears, that have known me
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forever and but have really seena difference in a
transformation in the lastcouple years, they're going to
probably say that I've changed.
But I still carry with me thehumor, the banter, the witty
banter.
There are many sides to me andmany beautiful facets that not
everyone gets to experience allthe time.
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Do I change?
When I'm around differentpeople?
I might get quiet, but it'sjust who I am and it's how I
observe, it's how I listen, it'show I feel and understand
people's energy.
So how I would like people toexperience me is simply by
getting to know me, versusjudging me by my looks, because
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I know that happens and Iguarantee it's all in protection
for me.
But there are times that Iwould love to get to know people
that end up walking away andit's probably because of fear or
maybe ignorance I don't knowthat part.
But there are those moments Icatch myself saying, man, I wish
that person wouldn't have feltso apprehensive to speak up.
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You know to chat, but thenagain I can't judge because
sometimes I'm quiet.
So maybe I need to speak up too.
I need to mirror thatreflection right back, and
that's something I'm literallyhaving this inner lesson going
on right now as I'm doing thispodcast.
So I'm writing this mental notedown in my head saying OK, kate
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, you just said it out loud.
So rather than just constantlybeing quiet around new people,
maybe that's your next goal tostep up your game to put
yourself out there, and I havefound myself.
Obviously, when I travel, I havedefinitely put myself out there
speaking up for myself, notmumbling or whispering when I
need help.
I've definitely built thatskill within me and I've seen
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growth because now I feelconfident in asking for help.
I don't feel weak or less thanor too vulnerable.
I'm okay with my vulnerability.
I actually have now learned toembrace my vulnerability, that I
am a very open and vulnerableperson and I used to get judged
for there or feel like I was toosensitive for it, but now I
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just I love it because I feellike it's one of my superpowers.
So there are growth, but maybemore so now in the present, in
my comfort zones of areas ofwhen I'm going out grocery store
, restaurant is being more vocal, saying hi to strangers,
especially if I feel energeticreception from them.
So I just took a mental noteand you got to witness live,
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right here on the spot, of mehaving a moment, an inner moment
.
Again, I've said this over mypodcast experience that this
platform for me, now this youcould have something totally
different for you.
Utilize your gifts, utilizeyour newer gifts and put
yourself out there, because bydoing so, you're going to
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experience learning and growthand healing, and I can't say
that enough, that I am grateful,beyond grateful, for having a
friend that really pushed meforward, that literally
slingshotted me forward into mycreativity, to which I didn't
even know was there, and, bythis beautiful counterpart doing
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so, she opened a door for me.
I did all the work behind thescenes, but she was the
encouragement behind the scenes,she was that little nudge that
I needed in my life and I amforever, forever, forever
grateful for this beautiful,beautiful friend of mine.
So, with that being said, let'sgo back to the question how
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would I like people toexperience me?
Just experience me with openarms, with an open mind, with an
open soul.
Be honest, be vulnerable.
Honesty is key.
Don't shy away from honesty,because I'm going to feel that
and I want you just to be honest, because whatever I share or
don't share, or whateverquestions you have, or maybe
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whatever boundaries you wouldlike to set, I would like to
know, I would like to learn andthat's kind of where I'm at on
this path is learning people'ssouls.
Understanding 3D in itself, butlearning the depths of people's
souls and their purposes.
Our purposes together, ourpurposes apart.
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We're all intertwined andtogether we are one.
All right.
Next question question if Icould spend today doing whatever
I desire?
What would it be if I couldspend today doing whatever I
desire?
What would it be?
I desire to either be traveling, exotic safari, rainforest give
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me all that, but obviously I'mgoing to stick to nature.
I would love to be in theRedwood Forest in California.
I would love to be hiking, andnot just one or two hour hiking,
I'm talking hiking.
Hiking the trails, hiking theoffbeat paths, walking the
rivers and the Grand Canyon, thered rocks.
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If I could be doing one thingright now, that would be it
being near water, near trees,camping, or in a cabin in the
woods, amongst nature and water,in the woods, amongst nature
and water.
That's oof.
That's exactly what I would bedoing right now.
And guess what?
I'm there One of my lifetimes.
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I'm already there.
So it's okay.
But for all of you, where wouldyou be If you could be doing one
thing right now that you desire?
What would you be doing?
Is it surfing?
Is it traveling?
Is it cozied up next to a firereading a book?
Is it sitting with a loved onecatching up?
Is it exploring?
Is it going to that restaurantthat you've always been wanting
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to go but just still haven'tdone it yet?
What would you do?
What is it your soul desiresright here, right now?
And then I want you to askyourself why aren't you?
Why haven't you yet?
And hopefully it's not becauseof lack, but rather it's because
of timing, and that you trustin divine timing and that you
don't want to rush the process,whatever it may be.
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Maybe that's the goal you setfor yourself after listening to
this episode.
Write it down in journal and sayI am doing XYZ right here,
right now.
Put that out into the universe,manifest it, make plans for it,
make it yours Because you'reworthy of it.
Aren't we all?
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Aren't we all worthy of justbeing happy and not waiting
around for happiness to comefind us?
Because, guess what?
That's not how it works.
You got to put yourself outthere, as do I.
If you want to see the changes,then you have to become part of
the change.
Hold no expectations.
Therefore, you're no longerdisappointed, but rather excited
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for what does come, becausewhen we hold on to that thought,
that attachment, and it doesn'tcome in specifically the way we
desire, then we're justdisappointed or we are just not
even present for it, we don'teven see it or acknowledge it to
be grateful for it.
Don't become that.
I was that person.
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Don't let that be you.
Be present and be grateful forwhatever does come, because the
universe isn't always going togive us exactly what we desire
in that exact energy that wevisualize, and we have to be
ready and grateful because we'represent and open to receiving
it.
That is the key.
All right, so let's move on tothe next question, and that one
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is what is your most joyous andmeaningful activity?
And right away I would probablysay, you know being out in
nature.
But it goes a little deeperthan that, and that is to feel
oneness within as well as around, which is probably why I want
to say nature, because I alwaysfeel at one with self as well as
energy and nature.
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So that is my answer, thenOneness what is my joyous
activity is when I feel wholewithin and nature.
So that is my answer.
Then Oneness, what is my joyousactivity is when I feel whole
within and without.
And the funniest thing aboutthat is, as I was going through,
my answer, it was 1111, whichis oneness, which is wholeness
within.
So universe is validating myresponse, and now we're going to
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move on to the next question iswhat do you hold sacred in your
life?
And there was several responsesthat I've heard people share,
which I'll give a coupleexamples is having a life plan
or feeling oneness?
And that's a beautiful response, because we were just talking
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about oneness and what thatfeels like to hold alignment,
having routines and rituals, andI definitely could correlate
with that, as I do have my ownpractices throughout my days and
weeks and months and years.
But my answer was love,intimacy and connections within
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relationships, and when I sayintimacy, most people think you
know the word sex, but it hasnothing to do with that.
Intimate moments are sharedamongst all who you feel aligned
with, and that you couldnavigate a deeper level with.
That's what I love and holdsacred is intimate moments
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shared, and whether that'swithin my own self in a moment,
while on my traveling journeys,I shared intimate moments,
whether they were with strangersor within a place, a time, a
moment.
I woke up early one day andcaught a sunrise above the ocean
, and that was intimate, thatwas peaceful, that was my zen in
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deep reflection, and I carry onamazing, amazing relationships
with friends and they'reintimate.
We have intimate moments wherewe're able to just truly peel
back layers and be ourselves inthose moments.
And sometimes that can be scaryfor people.
I know in the beginning it wasfor me because you have to be
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vulnerable and you have toexpose parts of yourself that
you were unaware they were there.
But if you find the rightpeople who do trigger you but
also hold space for you andshare this energy with you that
you're protected, then it ismore deep and more intimate and
more meaningful to have thatbond that isn't like any other
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friendship.
And my last question this one,okay, this one kind of coincides
with the values.
But I loved this question as itwas a part of a test.
And I'm going to share theresponses because, again, not so
black and white and you canfind yourself wanting to check
off each box, but you can onlypick one, which then makes you
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overthink.
Right, and this is how I didn'toverthink, this is how I
utilized my intuition.
So response one was truth.
And again the question was whatis your highest virtue?
I am a big believer of truth.
If you don't have truth, thenwhat do you have amongst other
people?
It's null and void.
It doesn't exist.
It's very surface level andit's pretend, make believe, it's
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fake until you make it, and Idon't desire that in my life.
When you can't fully be honestor don't know how to, I can hold
space for that if youunderstand that.
That in my life, when you can'tfully be honest or don't know
how to, I can hold space forthat if you understand that.
That's your trauma, that'sseeping through.
But if you're in denial of allof it, I just can't be around it
and I choose that for myself,for my healing, for my energy
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and for my space.
The next response was beauty,and how I looked at that.
Was beauty within, beautyaround, or is it beauty that is
your vanity, surface level, andI always like to go beneath the
surface or ask others what'sbeneath your beautiful?
Because without that, do youstill align?
Or is it?
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Your beauty is only exterior,but when someone gets to know
you within, it doesn't match up.
Loyalty, are you devoted?
Do you have a vision?
Are you sincere?
All great, I mean these are allgreat, right, you want to pick
every single one.
Understanding, abstractthinking, planning and
flexibility.
I love this.
I mean right away, immediately.
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This wasn't one of my.
This would not be my highestvirtue.
It's a part of my everyday life, but it wasn't something I felt
vibrated through me and said,ooh, this is my response.
Strength, courage, power,independence all amazing things
and something in my healingjourney that I realized I had,
that I didn't have to shamemyself for, I didn't have to
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pretend anymore, I didn't haveto lie that I was so strong
because in those moments Iwasn't, and that's okay, that I
was weak but acknowledging andtaking accountability for the
fact that I was lying all mylife pretending I was strong
when really I wasn't.
I was hurting and I was livingin trauma.
So now that I know my strengthand now that I know I have it,
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it's a beautiful thing.
The next response was order,self-reliance, courage,
transformation, practicality.
Well, I could definitely sayyes to this because of the
courage it took to dive deepwithin and do the shadow work.
At any given moment, I couldhave said I'm done, I want to go
back to my old ways, go back todrinking, go back to that not
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caring or pretending or fakinguntil I make it, but I wouldn't
survive that.
I know that within my soul Iwould not survive any further
and that's even scarier.
Therefore, doing the work andfeeling this love for myself,
I'll never not stop.
And the last response was love,faith, compassion and calmness.
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So, immediately, I'm a love.
I love love in all forms,unconditional love, and it's
because I love thyself and Ithink that's the greatest love
you can give and receive is thelove for yourself, true, divine
love.
So this is obviously myresponse.
But it wasn't just because Isaw the word love and I said
that's mine is obviously myresponse.
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But it wasn't just because Isaw the word love and I said
that's mine.
Obviously my brain wanted to goback to clicking them all,
checking every single box, butit says to only pick one.
And rather than perseverate andfeel the anxiety of being
overwhelmed by having to choose,I sat quietly and listened of
what my body, my intuition, mysoul desired and immediately
that was the highest virtue forme is love, faith, compassion
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and calmness.
And again, that doesn't mean myother virtues don't exist, they
do.
But the question did ask whatis your highest virtue?
And it's because of the love Ifound for myself that I choose
that response.
So here we are, peeling back thelayers on part two of infinite
love getting to know oneself,getting to know me, me sharing
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with all of you what it is I dowhen I'm approached with
conversations like these.
I love them, I love navigatingthrough them.
I love that I can respond nowfrom a greater perspective than
I could have four years ago, 10years ago, 20 years ago.
I love that I acknowledge somethings I need to push myself on
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during this entire episode.
I love that you got toexperience me acknowledging that
moment, acknowledging that ahamoment.
So I hope you asked yourselfthe same questions.
I hope you were able to followalong and have a conversation
with yourself, or take thesequestions and bring them to your
loved ones, to people whom youdesire to peel back layers with.
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And again, until next week,thank you, thank you, thank you
for sitting with me and joiningme on another beautiful episode
of Infinite Love with Kate.
Have an amazing day.
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