January 29, 2025 • 23 mins
Imagine the profound transformation that occurs when you embrace patience and self-love on a healing journey. After my own surgery for fibroids, I discovered the powerful lessons of nurturing both physical and emotional well-being and advocating for love and compassion amidst the challenges of our world. This episode offers a heartfelt reflection on the past five months, sharing the intricacies of recovery and the importance of appreciating one's body and spirit. As I prepare to re-engage in physical activity, the journey becomes more than just personal healing—it’s a call to recognize our shared humanity and strength through growth.
Reflecting on a personal timeline intertwined with global challenges, I recount how a pivotal trip to Key West helped me rediscover unity and collaboration. This episode brings forward my reflections on confronting isolationism, societal division, and the erosion of rights. Touching on the importance of honest dialogue to counteract hate, the narrative also includes a personal revelation—coming out to my family during a time of illness likely linked to the emerging COVID pandemic. As I ponder the nature of memory and healing, I invite listeners to move forward with gratitude and love, encouraging open hearts and shared understanding in facing current global issues.
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Hey, welcome back to another episode of Infinite Love
with Kate.
Two episodes left and I am donewith season five.
Where did all that time go?
Honestly, I was just off of myrecovery from my surgery, I was
back at work and, lo and behold,I was jumping right into this
podcast.
(00:21):
Did I take a couple extra weeksfor myself?
Of course I did, but how fastthis time went.
Was the recovery easy?
No, I'm still recovering, butalmost five months in, I'm
feeling ready, ready to get outthere and try.
I'm a little nervous because ithas been what?
Almost five months, maybe evenlonger, since I've done any
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running, anything, anything inthe sense of physical, physical
workout, the way I like to workout.
I mean, I'm a speed walker so Ican get anywhere from six to
10,000 steps in a day at work.
That's just at work.
So I move, I hustle and bustle,and was I moving right away
(01:02):
when I went back to work?
No, I think this wholeprocedure, this whole experience
of these fibroids, benigntumors, was a great awakening to
really get me to slow down andmove at a sloth pace.
I've never in my life at workmoved that slow.
I've never really put so mucheffort and thought into how
(01:26):
careful I was with my body andnot lifting and not bending over
quickly.
It was a whole differentexperience, I'm going to be
honest.
So here I am and it is almost16 weeks.
I usually cut off my episodes,my seasons, my weeks, and I was
sitting there and my phone wentoff.
My calendar went off, but I hadthe old schedule in, not
(01:50):
changing all the dates, becauseI honestly did not think that my
recovery of being at home for amonth would have me not even
try or attempt to do a podcast.
I had no energy.
There was nothing in me to say,oh, let's get up and do a
podcast recording.
I really thought.
I thought I was using mychildhood recovery tactics where
(02:11):
I would just get up and bounceback, not this 44-year-old no
man.
So the humor got me and I madethe ultimate decision to delay
my podcast season, which is fine.
I mean the type A in me.
To delay my podcast season,which is fine.
I mean the type A in me.
I'm not always type A, butthere is a section of me that is
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type A really panicked for asecond and then I thought about
the whole process, whatself-reflection can do for you.
You stop and you think abouteverything the details, the
messages, the underlyingmessages, peeling back the
layers of why do you think theuniverse has you going through
this?
Not because God, the universespirit, hates you, but because
there's a greater, a greatermessage, a greater lesson it's
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allowing you to alchemize thisprocess and turn it into
something beautiful for yourself.
And I did that and luckily,because of where I'm at in my
healing, in my journey, luckilybecause of where I'm at in my
healing, in my journey, in myself-awareness, my self-love,
I've really put pieces togetherto understand that this was a
timeout, pause.
Let's do things extra slow.
(03:14):
You don't have patience?
Well, I'm going to teach youpatience.
You said you wanted to learnmore patience.
Well, here it is.
It's funny how the world works.
You ask for things.
It's not that you're going tobe handed patience.
You're going to be handed thesituations that teach you
patience if you let it and I did.
I may not have liked it at first, like anything else, I'll fight
it, you know, a littlecombative with my own demons, my
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own self, but I slowly learnedthat I had to relearn my body,
relearn how to love my body andaccept it for all of its glory
of all the waking and everythingelse.
And it was different.
It was a different kind of love, because before it was my
struggle of loving my face,loving those differences.
Now it's loving everythingabout me.
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It's not just one piece at atime, it's everything, embracing
all of me, my age, everything,my vibrance.
Embracing all of me, my age,everything, my vibrance, my
levels, my energy, my love, myrespect and gratitude for myself
, for what my body gives me, andpouring into that, completely,
pouring back into my soul and myhealing and my journey
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physically.
Now Before it was mentally andemotionally and socially,
spiritually.
Now I'm doing it physically andyou see how it's just
constantly pushing me to growth,to healing.
I never saw this coming.
I mean, if you would have askedme five years ago when I began
this journey, I don't know ifthis is exactly how I could
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picture it Now.
Has this journey been easy?
No, have I wanted to jump shipa million times.
And now, the way the world isgoing, our world is in its dark
night of the soul and it's hard.
It's hard to process it, it'shard to balance out all these
energies, but it's necessary.
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And I think because of thephysicality of where I was.
I mean when I had thesefibroids growing on me.
I was carrying weight and painthat was taking away.
There was no room where Icouldn't breathe.
Every step was effort andenergy that I was inserting and
I realized, like now I'm ready,I'm ready to get up and I'm
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ready to do this fight and pushmyself and do the workouts and
pour back into me physically.
And while I'm doing all thatand I'm thinking about it, it's
for a greater purpose of thatbattle we have to go through now
.
With the way the world is, Iwant to keep centered, I want to
keep grounded, I want to holdnothing but love for all sides.
I'm not going to sit here andsay, choose one side.
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I say, choose humanity.
I say choose love, compassion.
I don't care if you vote red,blue, green, yellow, orange.
I'm going to say it over again.
I don't want to hear it.
I hate labels.
Stop with the labels.
When you peel all the labelsback, can you honestly stare
into that mirror and say I loveme and I love mankind?
Stop with the judgment and thehate and the division.
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Work together.
If we don't like something,then let's come together and
work together, because what'sgoing on right now isn't working
on both sides, on all sides.
We can't just say it's notworking for one side, it is not
working for all sides.
We're turning our voices intotrends.
I get the concept of what thesetrends mean.
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I get you're trying to take outthe hate, but you have to
understand that you're turningyour voice into a trend, which
is a projection, which then justexerts more hate, more judgment
, because judgment is hate Hatefor ourselves, hate for others.
Use that anger, hate and turnit into love and turn it into
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reasoning and turn it intobalance and turn it into harmony
.
I'm watching what everyone'sdoing all over the world and how
powerful is it to watch othercountries solidify, come
together, unify and take downtheir empires.
Take down the people that needto step down, and it's working
for them because everybody iscoming together as one.
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We're not removing peoplebecause we hate them, because of
their color, their race, theirgender, who they choose to marry
and love.
That's not what's hurting us.
Hate is what's hurting us.
Division is what's hurting us.
Power, greed, that's what'shurting us.
If it's that important to you,put all of you on an island and
go Go prosper, be wealthyamongst each other, pat each
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other on the back, but you'llnever thrive and survive because
you'll never have us to eat, todivide, to suffer, to control.
Do you see how that makes nosense?
It doesn't.
We are repeating history, andnot in a good way.
Everything you've read is nowgoing to repeat itself, and
that's what Sam, me and myfriend Charlie.
He wanted to come visit becausehe knows this topic is serious,
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because he picks up on myenergy, you know, and I would
say 99% of the time I don't shutit off, but I don't sit with it
, and then that 1% is reactive,is mine.
I have to take accountability ismy projections, is my triggers,
but that's the difference.
I have to take accountabilityis my projections is my triggers
, but that's the difference.
I'm here, taking accountability, but I choose to push forward,
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and I ask that all of you do too.
With love.
I'm together with love.
We aren't successful if wearen't working together.
No one man, one woman, no oneperson is above all unless we
allow that to happen.
And right now that's what we'redoing, no more, but I'm not
going to be afraid.
No, whatever's to happen has tohappen.
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We have to utilize this darkestof times to transform it into
something more beautiful If weso choose, if we stand up and
rise like the phoenix.
So who are you?
Are you going to rise or areyou going to sit, stay stagnant
in the darkness and let this beyour life?
Let this be your cycle, overand over and over, until you're
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a part of the history books forfuture generations to see.
I remember, and someone hadasked this question, and I
thought, wow, when we werechildren and we were reading
about the Holocaust, when wewere children and we were
reading about the Holocaust, howhorrifying the experience, the
reading of Anne Frank, what theydid Imagine.
Would I ever be in a situation,would I ever survive?
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And I remember tears, even then, as a little child, being very
empathetic because you can feelthat pain.
That's torture.
People were tortured and itwasn't fair, but it was hidden
because social media, televisionwas just coming out, I believe,
but it wasn't utilized, youknow, because why not sway media
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or sway them away, so nobodysees it.
Out of sight, out of mind.
So the world didn't understandwhat was going on.
Even people in that area, inthose areas, saw the smoke from
the factories, saw the ashcoming down, not realizing those
were human remains.
But Dill couldn't believe theirminds, couldn't believe that
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this was truly what washappening.
And here we are thinking, oh, Iwould never let them have, I
would never let them take me.
You know, as a child, that'swhat you want to say.
You're like, no way I wouldfight.
Well, are you fighting them?
Are we fighting?
Are we turning TikTok trendsinto our voices?
Or are we able to do more?
What are we so afraid of?
There's more of us than thereare those who hate.
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There's more love than there isof hate.
If you do the math, loveoutweighs hate.
Love is more powerfullybeautiful than hate.
So what are we going to do?
What are you going to do?
I know I can't just sit by andlet these next four years go
unscathed, quietly, just living.
I won't ever be submissive toyou, to anyone who feels,
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because I'm a woman or I'm partof the LGBTQ crowd.
That's my, my life, my choice,my family, my community.
But I am open to allcommunities.
I don't sit by a label.
I endured all those labels allmy life to not get to this place
right here in 2025 and thenwatch the world separate and
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divide by more labels extremists, right, left, democrat,
republican, like I said, up downinside out, I don't care.
Peel back those layers, peelback the labels, remove them and
tell me who are you.
Do you have a heart, a soul?
Do you speak with compassionand kindness, or do you project
with fear, with anxiety, with,with judgment, with hate, with
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rhetoric?
It's time you takeaccountability.
It's time you stand in front ofthat mirror and ask yourself is
it because you're afraid weshouldn't have our rights taken
away from us?
We are a democracy, this is theland of the free, yet does
anyone feel so free?
We're taking children away fromtheir families, plucking them
out of schools.
They're not free.
They're children about to betraumatized for life,
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unbeknownst to them wherethey're going to go.
We're allowing people in powerto turn a blind eye to the
crimes, to the hate, to the sextrafficking.
We're pardoning criminals.
We're removing migrant workers.
Well, now, who's taking care ofall the crops?
You think you've opened up jobs, but ask yourselves are you, as
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Republicans, going to placeyour children, your family
members, into those farms, intothose positions to work?
Unfortunately, this has become asociety of content, creation,
technology, innovation, usingtheir voices, their ideas in
meticulous ways.
I can't say I'm here, all forit.
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Everyone should be workingsomewhere along the line and you
shouldn't be expecting to makeall your money off of going
viral, because that doesn'talways work and it also places
you into a position of what'smore important the person laying
on the street that just gotbeaten up, the fact that you
have your phone out videotapingit.
That's not viral, that's notlove, that's not respect, that's
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insecurities of your own.
We have to step away from thatand stop fixating on that.
We have to make a change in allareas of our lives.
All over the world, we're goingto keep running into more
problems, bigger problems, if wedon't stand up and use our
voice and say enough is enough.
I don't want to become a partof a country that's about to go
into World War III.
That's not what I signed up for.
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That's not who I voted for.
Never in my life have I everthought that this country was in
a position where we're standingalone.
We're putting ourselves outthere as alone.
I mean the ego is so big thatwe think we're that powerful
that our own allies don't evenwant to work with us anymore.
No one sees a problem with us.
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All it takes is one click andthe United States will see more
detriment than ever, than everbefore with Pearl Harbor or 9-11
.
And I don't wish that, I don'tdesire that.
I know the world doesn't wantthat.
So let's come together, let'sstart making a change.
Let's start helping our fellowman.
Let's start helping the peoplethat have lost so much in North
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Carolina, south Carolina,tennessee, all those areas that
were flooded, mudslides, hit bythe hurricane, the devastation,
california, now San Diego, la.
Let's help each other.
More progress gets made when wework together, when we put down
this greed and this power.
If that's all you need, again,shake yourself.
Put yourself with the rest ofyour buddies that make you happy
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, put yourself in your ownlittle bubble, do it.
But we're not robots.
We're not here to be controlled.
It's not going to work for you,I guarantee it.
Nobody's going to abide by that.
Freedom of speech, theConstitution, our rights.
If you want this to be a man'sworld, you're going to be lonely
.
You want us to have more babies?
Then be honest at least and sayyou want us to have more white
babies.
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That's what you want, becauseyour rhetoric is hate, is
division, is discrimination.
You've already removed women'srights, so it doesn't even make
sense.
How do you want more babies,when women can't even have their
babies, without going through A, b, c, d, e, f, t, h, I, j, k,
l, m, n, op.
Make it make sense, please, andmake it make sense with
compassion, because I have notime to be gaslit, manipulated,
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lied to, forced upon, yelled at.
I don't, I don't, I'll sitthere, I'll listen, then I'll
walk away.
After I've spoken my piece,I'll walk away.
I don't normally like talkingabout politics because I'm going
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to try to sway away from it,because the purpose of my
episode really was the fact thatfive years ago was the first
case of COVID.
The pandemic was just in itsawakening.
It was, I remember, because Ihad, I'm assuming.
I can't say I had it, but I hadbeen severely ill for three
weeks coming off of Christmasbreak and I remember I couldn't
breathe.
My chest was beyond heavy, facewas swollen sinuses.
I felt very fatigued.
But the only reason I keptgoing was my other coach was, I
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believe she just had a baby.
She was still on maternityleave.
She had a baby in the fall.
She was on maternity leave andwe were going down state for
Special Olympics and so I had to.
In my mind, I kept tellingmyself you just got to do this,
you got to do this, you got togo.
You know, you got to get itgoing.
And I was just like go, go, go.
But I mean, I barely remembereven teaching.
I just remember gasping for air, like just praying.
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I could catch my breath andwould go straight home and go
right to bed, get back up and Iswear I don't know why, but we
were having practice all thetime and I just knew I had to
keep going.
And then we went on a familyvacation to the Keys, key West.
It was the best thing for mybody because I hit that warmth,
I hit that sun and that vitaminD, everything Like.
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I went from my deathbed to likeno, and it was fabulous.
The trip was fabulous.
I finally came out to my mom onthis trip five years ago.
That was the last person toreally come out to within my
family.
And then I just came out to theworld because I realized that I
was coming out to people one ata time.
There's too many that I justdidn't really want to tell the
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story over and over, so I postedit.
But anyways, that's the point.
I reflected.
It literally felt like whattimeline am I on Like a time
warp, because I know that sincethen, every year, for five years
, we've, I wouldn't say,celebrated, but we reflected
upon.
Okay, a year ago, oh my God,covid happened Two years ago,
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three years ago, blah, blah,blah.
And I was doing that, but Ihave no recollection of it.
It's the weirdest thing toshare, because I have a great
memory.
I remember all my reflections.
I remember based on emotion andI can remember doing the
talking.
I can remember sharing on apodcast.
I can remember making TikTokvideos, but it almost looks like
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I'm looking at myself, but it'sgetting further and further and
further away.
It's so bizarre and it'sbeautiful, beautifully bizarre.
And as I'm staring at myself andI'm reflecting and I'm like
years ago, oh, in my mind lately, and I was just telling a
friend, I was like, hey, theuniverse has got me doing some
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kind of reflection in a veryunique way.
And this happened right beforeI just realized it was five
years for COVID and they're likewell, what do you mean?
I'm like, I'm talking thebiggest moment, the toughest
moment, the most impactfulmoment of all of this journey,
of all of this healing in thelast five years, the people, the
places, the timelines, theemotions, whether it was a high
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or very low, have all come intoplay at the same time.
It's like looking back, it'slike looking at like a magic
ball and it's swirling right,swirling and swirling and all
those vibrations of staring atthem, and I know you're probably
thinking what are you talkingabout.
So imagine closing your eyesand just imagining all the
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different moments in your lifein the last five years.
And if you can't go that farback, take the last year.
Take all the significant, mostimpactful moments, whether you
thought, oh my God, this is thegreatest, and you felt that
alive feeling, that surge, thatadrenaline.
Or the moments that, oh my God,how am I ever going to get
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through this?
I can't.
I wish I was Blah, blah, blah.
There's moments that you findyourself on your knees, praying
to God or to whomever asking forhelp, asking for assistance to
get you off your knees or getyou out of bed, because you are
broken, because you are grieving.
Take all those moments and youdon't feel them the way you
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would if you process it momentby moment, right, yet you're
feeling them in a verynonchalant.
It's so hard to depict likewhat that feeling is.
It's like you're brand new isthe best way to explain it.
But yet you know you've enduredall this.
You know you've experienced allthis and you know you felt it
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all and you remember all thosefeelings.
But within you, you're lookingoutside like a fishbowl, you're
looking in and you're looking atit from a brand new perspective
.
Shift timeline is the best way Ican share this, because if I
was looking at it from a woundedarea then my emotions would
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pour out, those feelings wouldcome right there to the surface.
And it's beautiful because Icould still cry don't get me
wrong to a great commercial.
But when I'm talking about thismoment five years flashing back
, yet flashing forward, andwatching it do slow motion, yet
in a very fast-paced moviescript it's wild.
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It's so wild, it's surreal andI so wild.
It's surreal and I'm gratefulthat I get this opportunity to
feel and understand thisreflection, because it's like I
put that last piece in a puzzleand I could see all of it for
the first time.
And I didn't know what thatvisual looked like when I first
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talked about puzzles and slowlybeginning that healing journey
and slowly putting one piece inat a time of my life, as I was
breaking it apart, as I wasfeeling it, as I was sitting
with it, as I was enduring allthe feelings, not just one or
two, but all of them Hate, pain,sadness, bitterness, ugliness,
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hole shutdown.
Every feeling I had to own atsome point in my life.
Every feeling, good and bad, Ihad to embrace with love, with
gratitude, with self-reflectionthat I am allowed to feel those
things.
I am okay.
I won't ever reject myself.
If the world rejects me, thatis God telling me.
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I am protecting you and, damnstraight, I'm okay.
If God pulls somebody out of mylife, it's for that moment of
protection.
It hurts and I love themforever.
I am okay.
Which then takes me on to thenext part of my journey.
I won't go into it until nextseason, but it's what I left you
with last episode when I sharedmy guest spot with Laura
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Flowers on Rediscovering you.
If you listened, you definitelywent over to her episode and
you heard.
If you didn't listen, then Ihighly recommend you going over
to Apple Podcasts, rediscoveringyou, episode 15 with Kate
Gutierrez, and listen all theway till the end, because she
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asked a very important question.
So what's next on your healingjourney?
And I give it.
And I'm not going to give it toyou, because I really do desire
for all to take that next move,if you so choose.
Choose and listen, if you sochoose, with gratitude and with
love.
I am Kate.
This is Infinite Love with Kate, and I thank all of you for
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listening, for being here for mefor this journey, but most of
all for allowing me to speakabout what's going on in our
world.
As much as I'm not a politicalperson that wants to get very
political, I thank you forallowing me to share, as I have
no problem listening andlearning and putting it all
together, but what I desire mostis coming together.
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Thank you for your time, thankyou for your love.
Stay blessed always.
Hey, welcome back to another episode of Infinite Love
with Kate.
Two episodes left and I am donewith season five.
Where did all that time go?
Honestly, I was just off of myrecovery from my surgery, I was
back at work and, lo and behold,I was jumping right into this
podcast.
(00:21):
Did I take a couple extra weeksfor myself?
Of course I did, but how fastthis time went.
Was the recovery easy?
No, I'm still recovering, butalmost five months in, I'm
feeling ready, ready to get outthere and try.
I'm a little nervous because ithas been what?
Almost five months, maybe evenlonger, since I've done any
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running, anything, anything inthe sense of physical, physical
workout, the way I like to workout.
I mean, I'm a speed walker so Ican get anywhere from six to
10,000 steps in a day at work.
That's just at work.
So I move, I hustle and bustle,and was I moving right away
(01:02):
when I went back to work?
No, I think this wholeprocedure, this whole experience
of these fibroids, benigntumors, was a great awakening to
really get me to slow down andmove at a sloth pace.
I've never in my life at workmoved that slow.
I've never really put so mucheffort and thought into how
(01:26):
careful I was with my body andnot lifting and not bending over
quickly.
It was a whole differentexperience, I'm going to be
honest.
So here I am and it is almost16 weeks.
I usually cut off my episodes,my seasons, my weeks, and I was
sitting there and my phone wentoff.
My calendar went off, but I hadthe old schedule in, not
(01:50):
changing all the dates, becauseI honestly did not think that my
recovery of being at home for amonth would have me not even
try or attempt to do a podcast.
I had no energy.
There was nothing in me to say,oh, let's get up and do a
podcast recording.
I really thought.
I thought I was using mychildhood recovery tactics where
(02:11):
I would just get up and bounceback, not this 44-year-old no
man.
So the humor got me and I madethe ultimate decision to delay
my podcast season, which is fine.
I mean the type A in me.
To delay my podcast season,which is fine.
I mean the type A in me.
I'm not always type A, butthere is a section of me that is
(02:32):
type A really panicked for asecond and then I thought about
the whole process, whatself-reflection can do for you.
You stop and you think abouteverything the details, the
messages, the underlyingmessages, peeling back the
layers of why do you think theuniverse has you going through
this?
Not because God, the universespirit, hates you, but because
there's a greater, a greatermessage, a greater lesson it's
(02:53):
allowing you to alchemize thisprocess and turn it into
something beautiful for yourself.
And I did that and luckily,because of where I'm at in my
healing, in my journey, luckilybecause of where I'm at in my
healing, in my journey, in myself-awareness, my self-love,
I've really put pieces togetherto understand that this was a
timeout, pause.
Let's do things extra slow.
(03:14):
You don't have patience?
Well, I'm going to teach youpatience.
You said you wanted to learnmore patience.
Well, here it is.
It's funny how the world works.
You ask for things.
It's not that you're going tobe handed patience.
You're going to be handed thesituations that teach you
patience if you let it and I did.
I may not have liked it at first, like anything else, I'll fight
it, you know, a littlecombative with my own demons, my
(03:36):
own self, but I slowly learnedthat I had to relearn my body,
relearn how to love my body andaccept it for all of its glory
of all the waking and everythingelse.
And it was different.
It was a different kind of love, because before it was my
struggle of loving my face,loving those differences.
Now it's loving everythingabout me.
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It's not just one piece at atime, it's everything, embracing
all of me, my age, everything,my vibrance.
Embracing all of me, my age,everything, my vibrance, my
levels, my energy, my love, myrespect and gratitude for myself
, for what my body gives me, andpouring into that, completely,
pouring back into my soul and myhealing and my journey
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physically.
Now Before it was mentally andemotionally and socially,
spiritually.
Now I'm doing it physically andyou see how it's just
constantly pushing me to growth,to healing.
I never saw this coming.
I mean, if you would have askedme five years ago when I began
this journey, I don't know ifthis is exactly how I could
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picture it Now.
Has this journey been easy?
No, have I wanted to jump shipa million times.
And now, the way the world isgoing, our world is in its dark
night of the soul and it's hard.
It's hard to process it, it'shard to balance out all these
energies, but it's necessary.
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And I think because of thephysicality of where I was.
I mean when I had thesefibroids growing on me.
I was carrying weight and painthat was taking away.
There was no room where Icouldn't breathe.
Every step was effort andenergy that I was inserting and
I realized, like now I'm ready,I'm ready to get up and I'm
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ready to do this fight and pushmyself and do the workouts and
pour back into me physically.
And while I'm doing all thatand I'm thinking about it, it's
for a greater purpose of thatbattle we have to go through now
.
With the way the world is, Iwant to keep centered, I want to
keep grounded, I want to holdnothing but love for all sides.
I'm not going to sit here andsay, choose one side.
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I say, choose humanity.
I say choose love, compassion.
I don't care if you vote red,blue, green, yellow, orange.
I'm going to say it over again.
I don't want to hear it.
I hate labels.
Stop with the labels.
When you peel all the labelsback, can you honestly stare
into that mirror and say I loveme and I love mankind?
Stop with the judgment and thehate and the division.
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Work together.
If we don't like something,then let's come together and
work together, because what'sgoing on right now isn't working
on both sides, on all sides.
We can't just say it's notworking for one side, it is not
working for all sides.
We're turning our voices intotrends.
I get the concept of what thesetrends mean.
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I get you're trying to take outthe hate, but you have to
understand that you're turningyour voice into a trend, which
is a projection, which then justexerts more hate, more judgment
, because judgment is hate Hatefor ourselves, hate for others.
Use that anger, hate and turnit into love and turn it into
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reasoning and turn it intobalance and turn it into harmony
.
I'm watching what everyone'sdoing all over the world and how
powerful is it to watch othercountries solidify, come
together, unify and take downtheir empires.
Take down the people that needto step down, and it's working
for them because everybody iscoming together as one.
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We're not removing peoplebecause we hate them, because of
their color, their race, theirgender, who they choose to marry
and love.
That's not what's hurting us.
Hate is what's hurting us.
Division is what's hurting us.
Power, greed, that's what'shurting us.
If it's that important to you,put all of you on an island and
go Go prosper, be wealthyamongst each other, pat each
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other on the back, but you'llnever thrive and survive because
you'll never have us to eat, todivide, to suffer, to control.
Do you see how that makes nosense?
It doesn't.
We are repeating history, andnot in a good way.
Everything you've read is nowgoing to repeat itself, and
that's what Sam, me and myfriend Charlie.
He wanted to come visit becausehe knows this topic is serious,
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because he picks up on myenergy, you know, and I would
say 99% of the time I don't shutit off, but I don't sit with it
, and then that 1% is reactive,is mine.
I have to take accountability ismy projections, is my triggers,
but that's the difference.
I have to take accountabilityis my projections is my triggers
, but that's the difference.
I'm here, taking accountability, but I choose to push forward,
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and I ask that all of you do too.
With love.
I'm together with love.
We aren't successful if wearen't working together.
No one man, one woman, no oneperson is above all unless we
allow that to happen.
And right now that's what we'redoing, no more, but I'm not
going to be afraid.
No, whatever's to happen has tohappen.
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We have to utilize this darkestof times to transform it into
something more beautiful If weso choose, if we stand up and
rise like the phoenix.
So who are you?
Are you going to rise or areyou going to sit, stay stagnant
in the darkness and let this beyour life?
Let this be your cycle, overand over and over, until you're
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a part of the history books forfuture generations to see.
I remember, and someone hadasked this question, and I
thought, wow, when we werechildren and we were reading
about the Holocaust, when wewere children and we were
reading about the Holocaust, howhorrifying the experience, the
reading of Anne Frank, what theydid Imagine.
Would I ever be in a situation,would I ever survive?
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And I remember tears, even then, as a little child, being very
empathetic because you can feelthat pain.
That's torture.
People were tortured and itwasn't fair, but it was hidden
because social media, televisionwas just coming out, I believe,
but it wasn't utilized, youknow, because why not sway media
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or sway them away, so nobodysees it.
Out of sight, out of mind.
So the world didn't understandwhat was going on.
Even people in that area, inthose areas, saw the smoke from
the factories, saw the ashcoming down, not realizing those
were human remains.
But Dill couldn't believe theirminds, couldn't believe that
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this was truly what washappening.
And here we are thinking, oh, Iwould never let them have, I
would never let them take me.
You know, as a child, that'swhat you want to say.
You're like, no way I wouldfight.
Well, are you fighting them?
Are we fighting?
Are we turning TikTok trendsinto our voices?
Or are we able to do more?
What are we so afraid of?
There's more of us than thereare those who hate.
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There's more love than there isof hate.
If you do the math, loveoutweighs hate.
Love is more powerfullybeautiful than hate.
So what are we going to do?
What are you going to do?
I know I can't just sit by andlet these next four years go
unscathed, quietly, just living.
I won't ever be submissive toyou, to anyone who feels,
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because I'm a woman or I'm partof the LGBTQ crowd.
That's my, my life, my choice,my family, my community.
But I am open to allcommunities.
I don't sit by a label.
I endured all those labels allmy life to not get to this place
right here in 2025 and thenwatch the world separate and
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divide by more labels extremists, right, left, democrat,
republican, like I said, up downinside out, I don't care.
Peel back those layers, peelback the labels, remove them and
tell me who are you.
Do you have a heart, a soul?
Do you speak with compassionand kindness, or do you project
with fear, with anxiety, with,with judgment, with hate, with
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rhetoric?
It's time you takeaccountability.
It's time you stand in front ofthat mirror and ask yourself is
it because you're afraid weshouldn't have our rights taken
away from us?
We are a democracy, this is theland of the free, yet does
anyone feel so free?
We're taking children away fromtheir families, plucking them
out of schools.
They're not free.
They're children about to betraumatized for life,
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unbeknownst to them wherethey're going to go.
We're allowing people in powerto turn a blind eye to the
crimes, to the hate, to the sextrafficking.
We're pardoning criminals.
We're removing migrant workers.
Well, now, who's taking care ofall the crops?
You think you've opened up jobs, but ask yourselves are you, as
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Republicans, going to placeyour children, your family
members, into those farms, intothose positions to work?
Unfortunately, this has become asociety of content, creation,
technology, innovation, usingtheir voices, their ideas in
meticulous ways.
I can't say I'm here, all forit.
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Everyone should be workingsomewhere along the line and you
shouldn't be expecting to makeall your money off of going
viral, because that doesn'talways work and it also places
you into a position of what'smore important the person laying
on the street that just gotbeaten up, the fact that you
have your phone out videotapingit.
That's not viral, that's notlove, that's not respect, that's
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insecurities of your own.
We have to step away from thatand stop fixating on that.
We have to make a change in allareas of our lives.
All over the world, we're goingto keep running into more
problems, bigger problems, if wedon't stand up and use our
voice and say enough is enough.
I don't want to become a partof a country that's about to go
into World War III.
That's not what I signed up for.
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That's not who I voted for.
Never in my life have I everthought that this country was in
a position where we're standingalone.
We're putting ourselves outthere as alone.
I mean the ego is so big thatwe think we're that powerful
that our own allies don't evenwant to work with us anymore.
No one sees a problem with us.
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All it takes is one click andthe United States will see more
detriment than ever, than everbefore with Pearl Harbor or 9-11
.
And I don't wish that, I don'tdesire that.
I know the world doesn't wantthat.
So let's come together, let'sstart making a change.
Let's start helping our fellowman.
Let's start helping the peoplethat have lost so much in North
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Carolina, south Carolina,tennessee, all those areas that
were flooded, mudslides, hit bythe hurricane, the devastation,
california, now San Diego, la.
Let's help each other.
More progress gets made when wework together, when we put down
this greed and this power.
If that's all you need, again,shake yourself.
Put yourself with the rest ofyour buddies that make you happy
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, put yourself in your ownlittle bubble, do it.
But we're not robots.
We're not here to be controlled.
It's not going to work for you,I guarantee it.
Nobody's going to abide by that.
Freedom of speech, theConstitution, our rights.
If you want this to be a man'sworld, you're going to be lonely
.
You want us to have more babies?
Then be honest at least and sayyou want us to have more white
babies.
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That's what you want, becauseyour rhetoric is hate, is
division, is discrimination.
You've already removed women'srights, so it doesn't even make
sense.
How do you want more babies,when women can't even have their
babies, without going through A, b, c, d, e, f, t, h, I, j, k,
l, m, n, op.
Make it make sense, please, andmake it make sense with
compassion, because I have notime to be gaslit, manipulated,
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lied to, forced upon, yelled at.
I don't, I don't, I'll sitthere, I'll listen, then I'll
walk away.
After I've spoken my piece,I'll walk away.
I don't normally like talkingabout politics because I'm going
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to try to sway away from it,because the purpose of my
episode really was the fact thatfive years ago was the first
case of COVID.
The pandemic was just in itsawakening.
It was, I remember, because Ihad, I'm assuming.
I can't say I had it, but I hadbeen severely ill for three
weeks coming off of Christmasbreak and I remember I couldn't
breathe.
My chest was beyond heavy, facewas swollen sinuses.
I felt very fatigued.
But the only reason I keptgoing was my other coach was, I
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believe she just had a baby.
She was still on maternityleave.
She had a baby in the fall.
She was on maternity leave andwe were going down state for
Special Olympics and so I had to.
In my mind, I kept tellingmyself you just got to do this,
you got to do this, you got togo.
You know, you got to get itgoing.
And I was just like go, go, go.
But I mean, I barely remembereven teaching.
I just remember gasping for air, like just praying.
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I could catch my breath andwould go straight home and go
right to bed, get back up and Iswear I don't know why, but we
were having practice all thetime and I just knew I had to
keep going.
And then we went on a familyvacation to the Keys, key West.
It was the best thing for mybody because I hit that warmth,
I hit that sun and that vitaminD, everything Like.
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I went from my deathbed to likeno, and it was fabulous.
The trip was fabulous.
I finally came out to my mom onthis trip five years ago.
That was the last person toreally come out to within my
family.
And then I just came out to theworld because I realized that I
was coming out to people one ata time.
There's too many that I justdidn't really want to tell the
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story over and over, so I postedit.
But anyways, that's the point.
I reflected.
It literally felt like whattimeline am I on Like a time
warp, because I know that sincethen, every year, for five years
, we've, I wouldn't say,celebrated, but we reflected
upon.
Okay, a year ago, oh my God,covid happened Two years ago,
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three years ago, blah, blah,blah.
And I was doing that, but Ihave no recollection of it.
It's the weirdest thing toshare, because I have a great
memory.
I remember all my reflections.
I remember based on emotion andI can remember doing the
talking.
I can remember sharing on apodcast.
I can remember making TikTokvideos, but it almost looks like
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I'm looking at myself, but it'sgetting further and further and
further away.
It's so bizarre and it'sbeautiful, beautifully bizarre.
And as I'm staring at myself andI'm reflecting and I'm like
years ago, oh, in my mind lately, and I was just telling a
friend, I was like, hey, theuniverse has got me doing some
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kind of reflection in a veryunique way.
And this happened right beforeI just realized it was five
years for COVID and they're likewell, what do you mean?
I'm like, I'm talking thebiggest moment, the toughest
moment, the most impactfulmoment of all of this journey,
of all of this healing in thelast five years, the people, the
places, the timelines, theemotions, whether it was a high
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or very low, have all come intoplay at the same time.
It's like looking back, it'slike looking at like a magic
ball and it's swirling right,swirling and swirling and all
those vibrations of staring atthem, and I know you're probably
thinking what are you talkingabout.
So imagine closing your eyesand just imagining all the
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different moments in your lifein the last five years.
And if you can't go that farback, take the last year.
Take all the significant, mostimpactful moments, whether you
thought, oh my God, this is thegreatest, and you felt that
alive feeling, that surge, thatadrenaline.
Or the moments that, oh my God,how am I ever going to get
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through this?
I can't.
I wish I was Blah, blah, blah.
There's moments that you findyourself on your knees, praying
to God or to whomever asking forhelp, asking for assistance to
get you off your knees or getyou out of bed, because you are
broken, because you are grieving.
Take all those moments and youdon't feel them the way you
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would if you process it momentby moment, right, yet you're
feeling them in a verynonchalant.
It's so hard to depict likewhat that feeling is.
It's like you're brand new isthe best way to explain it.
But yet you know you've enduredall this.
You know you've experienced allthis and you know you felt it
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all and you remember all thosefeelings.
But within you, you're lookingoutside like a fishbowl, you're
looking in and you're looking atit from a brand new perspective
.
Shift timeline is the best way Ican share this, because if I
was looking at it from a woundedarea then my emotions would
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pour out, those feelings wouldcome right there to the surface.
And it's beautiful because Icould still cry don't get me
wrong to a great commercial.
But when I'm talking about thismoment five years flashing back
, yet flashing forward, andwatching it do slow motion, yet
in a very fast-paced moviescript it's wild.
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It's so wild, it's surreal andI so wild.
It's surreal and I'm gratefulthat I get this opportunity to
feel and understand thisreflection, because it's like I
put that last piece in a puzzleand I could see all of it for
the first time.
And I didn't know what thatvisual looked like when I first
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talked about puzzles and slowlybeginning that healing journey
and slowly putting one piece inat a time of my life, as I was
breaking it apart, as I wasfeeling it, as I was sitting
with it, as I was enduring allthe feelings, not just one or
two, but all of them Hate, pain,sadness, bitterness, ugliness,
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hole shutdown.
Every feeling I had to own atsome point in my life.
Every feeling, good and bad, Ihad to embrace with love, with
gratitude, with self-reflectionthat I am allowed to feel those
things.
I am okay.
I won't ever reject myself.
If the world rejects me, thatis God telling me.
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I am protecting you and, damnstraight, I'm okay.
If God pulls somebody out of mylife, it's for that moment of
protection.
It hurts and I love themforever.
I am okay.
Which then takes me on to thenext part of my journey.
I won't go into it until nextseason, but it's what I left you
with last episode when I sharedmy guest spot with Laura
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Flowers on Rediscovering you.
If you listened, you definitelywent over to her episode and
you heard.
If you didn't listen, then Ihighly recommend you going over
to Apple Podcasts, rediscoveringyou, episode 15 with Kate
Gutierrez, and listen all theway till the end, because she
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asked a very important question.
So what's next on your healingjourney?
And I give it.
And I'm not going to give it toyou, because I really do desire
for all to take that next move,if you so choose.
Choose and listen, if you sochoose, with gratitude and with
love.
I am Kate.
This is Infinite Love with Kate, and I thank all of you for
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listening, for being here for mefor this journey, but most of
all for allowing me to speakabout what's going on in our
world.
As much as I'm not a politicalperson that wants to get very
political, I thank you forallowing me to share, as I have
no problem listening andlearning and putting it all
together, but what I desire mostis coming together.
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Thank you for your time, thankyou for your love.
Stay blessed always.
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