March 30, 2025 • 42 mins
What happens when we step back and question the very nature of our reality? In this raw, unscripted episode, I take you on a journey through the concept of "the gap" – those powerful in-between spaces where we face our deepest fears and greatest opportunities for transformation.
Drawing from my current financial circumstance, I explore how this experience differs from similar situations in my past. Rather than being consumed by survival panic, I'm witnessing something more profound: an opportunity to break generational patterns of scarcity thinking. During meditation, I kept hearing "It's an illusion" – prompting me to question how we can unplug from the fearful narratives we've constructed.
This reflection extends to relationships as well. If love truly is all we need, why do we constantly push it away? From major relationship patterns to small daily rejections of affection, I examine how we create barriers to the very thing we seek most. Our cultural obsession with individualism might be creating another illusion – while self-love is essential, humans fundamentally thrive on connection.
Taking our power back means recognizing when we're caught in emotional patterns that don't serve us. For me, fear often manifests as anger, but the difference now is awareness – "This is that thing I do. I'm scared." This consciousness creates space to choose differently.
At its core, life is a heart healing adventure where we each live our own unique show. The external world reflects our inner garden, rooted in our hearts. By healing these roots through conscious awareness and love, we create a different reality – one where freedom becomes possible.
Are you ready to unplug from illusion and create the life you truly desire? Join me as we explore what it means to take our power back and step fully into love.
Looking for confirmation, guidance, or support in an area of life where you feel stuck, stagnant, or simply unclear of what to do next? Let's connect: book a complimentary Discovery Session with me, today!
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
In today's show.
It's going to go a littledifferent, it's going to be
unscripted, but some thingswe're going to talk about today
separating the illusions and howdoes one separate or unplug
from the illusion you no longerwant to take part in.
We're also going to talk aboutmeditation and what I kept
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hearing in my meditations thislast week Love.
If love is really all that oneneeds, if all it is is love, as
the Beatles say, what has somany people not be able to love,
to receive love and also topush love away?
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It's about taking our powerback.
So stay tuned.
Join me on this ride today aswe begin to ponder these
questions that I've really beenpondering this week.
Here we go.
Welcome back to the IntuitiveMentor Mom podcast, where we
explore strategies forpracticing more self-love,
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gratitude and finding new waysto empower ourselves in this
ever-changing healing adventureof life happening for us.
I'm your host, tara.
Michelle.
Let's get started.
Welcome back to the show,everybody.
Thank you again for joining andtuning in.
If you did tune in last week, Ialways forget two weeks ago,
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when we were working with MeganWempe and talking about hormones
.
That was a pretty awesome andincredible conversation and it's
funny because I've had some newthings transpire in the realm
of health and hormones, whichwe'll get into in a later
episode, because I had had somenew things transpire in the
realm of health and hormones,which we'll get into in a later
episode, because I had to dosome testing and relook at some
things, because I think thingshave gotten better and I might
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have to make some shifts in andget off of the replacement
therapy.
So we'll see, I'll keep youguys posted on that and I'll
keep you posted and tell youwhat it was that I did different
that may have caused that.
But today I want to talk aboutsome interesting things and I'm
going to just preface thisepisode with I don't really know
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what I'm going to.
I know what we're talking about, I just don't know how it's
going to come out.
And that's because I myselfhave been moving through a
different and interesting typeof gap, and I'm going to
reference episode one If youhaven't listened to episode one,
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when I talk about being in thegap and life in the gap.
I really believe that thejuiciest pieces of life occur
when we're in the gap and somemight be asking well, what does
that mean?
The gap, tara?
The gap is when you are inbetween.
I'll just use this as anexample.
Let's say you get laid off froma job, like I did back in
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January of 2024.
So the gap would be the timethat you're laid off in that
space between the time that youstart a new job, in all the
emotions, the spaces, the, theillusion that you create,
between that time you're laidoff to the time you finally land
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your next job.
So that's the gap.
So I've I'm in a new gap, adifferent gap.
I think we're always journeyingthrough gaps on various stages
of our life or various momentsof our life, whether it's gaps
between relationships, gapsbetween you know expectations of
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yourself as a parent versuswhat you're actually doing and
what you're trying to learn howto do, and the progress of doing
.
And you know you're navigatingthat with this question and I've
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been asking my higher self andGod this question If this world
is purely and solely Okay, takea step back.
Okay, take a step back.
For those of you listening tothis episode, there are going to
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be some things that I talkabout and there are going to be
some things that I share thatare going to require you to
really think outside of the boxor think outside of your
understanding of life in a fixedidea.
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Okay, when I say fixed ideathat you look at a tree, you see
a tree.
The tree is tree because we sayit's a tree and it's green
leaves with brown bark.
That's a fixed idea, okay, andwe, as the population of the
world and people, have agreedupon that.
That is what a tree is.
We've even agreed upon thatthat we call it a tree.
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Okay, that's a fixed idea.
More fixed ideas would be thatwe call the color blue the color
blue, that we call a chair achair and that a chair has a
certain physical form and itlooks like a certain way and it
has four legs and it has acushion or something to that
effect.
Some of them have three legs,but we have a fixed idea of what
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a chair looks like.
Okay, I'm asking you that arelistening, some of you that are
listening may totally resonatewith things I'll say or may feel
that things I say have likeit's not.
It's not a thing for you at all, because you too can live
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outside of fixed ways of beingand fixed ideas of our world.
Things about myself is I am aseeker.
I've been a seeker.
Since the beginning of my timethat I can remember, I have been
somebody.
This is also going to be anepisode of Raw Truth, because I
have been asking myself somevery deep questions.
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The questions may not sounddeep, but they are deep because
I really want to understand thetruth and the meaning of certain
things that keep occurring aspatterns in my life.
And when I'm looking atbreaking down patterns of my
life, I ask myself somequestions and I like to get
answers that go deeper than thesurface.
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This also goes back to the lasttwo episodes ago, when I talked
about the mind being our garden.
The bulb of that garden, theseed and the roots of that
garden, is our heart, because Ibelieve that this life we live
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is a healing adventure.
I see it now as a heart healingadventure.
That is actually how I see theworld today, that it's one big
opportunity of a heart healingadventure.
Again, follow with me and Iapologize upfront if I'm all
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over the place.
As I sat down to write the notesfor this show, I kept hearing
just get on and do it raw andlive, no notes.
And I thought oh shit, okay, Iwill listen.
So that's what I'm doing, butthe three points I want to bring
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up are the separation ofillusion what came up in my
meditation about that?
And if love is all we reallyneed, what is it that has people
push it away?
And more so I'm asking myself,because I'm looking at patterns
and then looking at how we takethat power back.
How we take power back sogetting back to the illusion and
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this illusion that we live,personal gardening to my mind,
tending to my mind and listeningto my heart and really asking
if the situations I have createdthat are in my life right now.
I have a situation in myfinancial house, I have a
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situation in my romantic andlove house and I have a
situation in my health house.
Those situations are neithernegative or positive.
They simply are where I'm at ineach of those areas of my life.
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Each of these situations havebeen interesting to move through
, and the most prevalent oneright now will be finances.
That's maybe the one that I canreally look at when, going back
to episode one and when I talkedabout the gap and when I talked
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about what I had to do with myfinances and what I chose to do,
I then eventually got a job,which I thought was going to be
the really great job and itturned out that that job didn't
quite go the way I had hoped and, as a result, at the end of
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last year I had to move toanother job because keeping that
job would not have been the wayI had hoped fiscally, and
things that were totally out ofmy control and things that were
not honest and things that were,I'm just gonna say, not in
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integrity, and so I had to makean executive decision for myself
to make a move again.
I feel really good about themove I've made.
Of course, I had a coupleopportunities.
Of course, at moments in time,I've gone back to the shoulda,
coulda, woulda, shoulda, coulda,woulda.
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Did I choose the right one?
Did I choose the right one?
And that, I believe, is when wecatch ourselves in a pitfall.
And why I'm going to say thatis because in this illusion and
I talked about this in severalother episodes which I wish I
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could remember what thoseepisodes were, several other
episodes which I wish I couldremember what those episodes
were.
So in episode 22 is where Ireally talk about that heart,
brain, garden, mind andunderstanding, and then also,
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going back to gosh, I'm tryingto remember what episodes it was
.
It was that whole series ofplaying on the court of life and
I did a number of differentepisodes, I want to say between
episode 13 and episode 15, andthen episode 12, where we're
talking about redefining yourreality or the illusion of life.
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So I want to get back to thisthing called the illusion of
life and I've been.
Let me just get to the point,because I can go in a lot of
story and I don't want to getall caught up in the weeds and
in the story today.
I want to stay focused on themeat of this conversation and
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the questions that keep comingup this week when sitting with
looking at my situationfinancially, the gap that I'm in
where I see the end result, Isee the light at the end of the
tunnel, but I'm absolutelyhaving to travel through that
gap and looking at who am Igoing to be as I travel through
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this very narrow, squeezed ingap.
And that's like the finances.
Right, we're squeezing them inbecause I have been used to a
certain level of income and thattransition last year really
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shrunk that.
That, whatever the amount was,you know what I, what I'd been
making, whatever the amount was,you know what I'd been making,
and now I'm back on rebuildingand getting back to that place
and to go beyond that place, butright now, it's about squeezing
in Now, in this particular gap.
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The thing that's been differentand something else to share
about my past is I have lost ahouse to foreclosure over 10
years ago.
That was during the 08 crash inCalifornia.
I'm not in that situation thistime at all.
However, the gap that I'm in isbringing the lifestyle in which
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we were living, all the otherthings that I don't want to say.
They were excess, but they'reexcess today and having to
squeeze all that back in.
And has there been fear?
Absolutely, has there been thisspace of unknown?
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Yes, but there was somethingdifferent about the fear this
time, and the fear has not beenlike I don't feel I'm going to
lose anything, like I don't feellike we're not going to lose
the house.
We're not.
It's not that type ofexperience.
The experience this time feelslike because I began to ask
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myself am I in a pattern?
Am I in a pattern?
Oh shit, I might be in apattern.
Is this a pattern?
And when I would meditate and Iwould sit still and I would
empty my mind, I would literallyhear, like it was coming from
my left ear, a whisper.
It's an illusion.
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It's an illusion.
That's the whisper that I wouldhear, and when I would hear
that I would just tune into.
It's an illusion.
Okay, if it's an illusion, howdo I unplug from that illusion?
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How do I separate myself fromthat illusion that I created in
the space of fear?
I also began to look at whatpart of my garden, my heart, my
mind, is housing this pattern.
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Okay, I'm still in thatquandary.
I don't have the answers, Idon't know.
But what I do know today andtake this on for yourself in any
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area of your life what I doknow today is that the fear
wasn't like that survival fearof, oh my God, oh my God, I'm
going to lose everything, andthose have been the fears in the
past.
It wasn't like that.
It's different.
It's like and it's because Itrust in God, I know God's got
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me, I know that we are safe, Iknow that nothing's happening, I
know that if I had to, I'lljust sell my house, like I know.
But we're not there.
I have a great job.
I have a great job, amazing job, and I'm grateful, so grateful,
and I'm having fun, like Iactually love the product that I
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sell because it makes adifference in the world and I
believe in it and it's importantand everybody should actually
do what I offer, this test thatI offer.
I can't put my finger on what'sdifferent about it, because
there's definitely been stress,but there was something about
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we're going to take you back tothis space and we're going to
watch.
I don't want to say we're goingto watch you, we're going to
see how you navigate this spacethis time.
Okay, because the truth is Ireally want to unplug from
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pattern and paradigm lineages ofpoverty, thinking of scarcity,
thinking all of these thingswrapped up in lineage and
paradigms from both sides of myfamily.
And the idea was for me, that'snot mine, that's not mine to
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take on, that's not mine to bear.
What is mine and who am I andwho will I be to really step
into?
Who I am and that is this placethat I feel I am in my life
right now is who am I and whowill I be to step into?
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Who I am Right?
Just try that on for yourself.
Anybody listening is.
The other piece I want to throwin here is all of the eclipse
energy that we're moving through.
It is all to clear out thatwhich no longer serves you.
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It is all to clear out all ofthe unlooked at baggage that
either you haven't looked at orit's been a long time since you
looked at, or you've looked at anumber of times, but you keep
holding on to it.
This time in our life, I justheard paradoxically, but this
time in our life is the time toremove all of that baggage.
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You have to leave it at thegate, because where we're about
to go, there's no place for thatbaggage.
And so the places where I'm at,both financially, which you
know, I love it.
A friend of mine said we havekingdom wealth, and my son and I
absolutely have kingdom wealth,and maybe I'll do a whole
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episode just on that so peopleunderstand what that means.
If you haven't heard that, Ihad never heard of it, but it
makes so much sense.
I have kingdom wealth where?
Where wealth comes to me indifferent ways.
You know where?
I got to go to a concert lastweek on free tickets because my
neighbor used to be roommateswith one of the with the bass
player of the band.
I won free tickets to anotherconcert just this week and it's
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a big, huge festival, so I getto go to that Like this is that
kingdom wealth, where it's notabout it's not about having all
the money in the world right,it's about who you be, what you
give back, are you open toreceive?
So I feel I can go down thistangent and just keep going on
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and on, but I'm going to put apin on that area of life.
The other area was romanticrelationships and really having
to like in this last coupleyears I have been really digging
deep to let go of lineages ofabuse, lineages of not being
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enough, not being smart enough,not being pretty enough, blah,
blah, blah, blah, blah, blah,blah.
A lot of that is not mine.
A lot of that is baggage thatI've brought in from my mother
and my grandmother and whoeverelse had those awful thoughts
about themselves.
And this life for me has beenabout overcoming self-worth.
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I keep asking my higher self ifGod.
Okay, here's another piece.
I'm reading a book.
Okay, I'm going to drop this in.
I'm currently listening to abook on Audible called Voices of
the Confederation.
This book I've known about foryears in the realm of hypnosis
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and past life regression.
I'm all about theseconversations with off planet
beings that channel through.
Okay, so that's what this bookis about.
It's about an off planet groupchanneling through these
individuals in the seventies andthe recordings that they came
back with, and then theypublished a book.
There's also another bookcalled the Law of One, the Book
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of Ra.
Some of you may or may not knowthat, but those are out there
and I have been intuitivelycalled to listen to those.
I'll say not again, but now,because a couple of the books
I've owned for more than 10years they've just been sitting
there, but the time was now tolisten to them now.
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So there is this idea.
Now, again, I want you to takeoff your fixed way of thinking.
But there's this idea that whenGod created life and creation
here, it was never intended thatwe have dark energy, negativity
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.
When God created creation here,god gave us free will, which is
not common in other aspects ofuniverses and other universes
and other planets, but here wehave free will.
God never intended that thisfree will turn into a virus
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that's the easiest way I can sayit and that once that virus
kept rolling.
And when I say virus, we'retalking about the thoughts in
the mind, and this is where theillusion comes in.
So, as they explain it in thebook, is that the illusion of
life was these thoughts.
Right?
The idea was to have right.
The idea was to have free will.
The idea was to have beautifullove and light and to create
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this beautiful world, thisutopian world, all from the
space and creation of love.
However, when you have freewill, you have the ability to
have thoughts outside of love,and here's where the illusion
comes from.
Those thoughts can be thoughtsof greed, or thoughts of hate,
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or thoughts of rage, or thoughtsof anger, whatever it is,
thoughts of fear, thoughts ofparanoia.
Right, because the brain ispowerful.
It's a powerful mechanism, it'sa powerful machine, even though
the heart as I mentioned inthat episode a couple weeks back
or two episodes back the heartis your hard drive, it's where
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everything is coming from, andthen it speaks to the brain.
The brain then goes back to theheart, but the heart is
actually producing more of thatconversation.
It has emotions, it hasfeelings, it has memories
emotions and feelings are thesame has memories, it has
thought and it talks to thebrain.
So imagine this is all what if?
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Scenario.
Okay, this is all what if.
For those of you who enjoythinking outside of a fixed
reality.
What if you see these twoindividuals way back when, right
or whenever, or a fewindividuals on the planet, and
they begin to have thesethoughts?
Because this mechanism andmachinery is powerful and next
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thing, you know that thoughtbegets another thought begets
another thought begets anotherthought.
Now, what do our thoughts create?
They create our reality.
So imagine years, millennia,hundreds of thousands of years
of this stinking thinking hasnow constructed this illusion
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amongst the illusion of love.
Okay, now, here we are, 2025.
How many decades have we gonein the constructs of these
illusions?
Have we gone in the constructsof these illusions Decades?
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I'm only in my fifth decade,middle of my fifth decade, and
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I'm living inside of not only myillusions, but all the
illusions that we as acollective have created.
Now follow me, please.
What I have been asking is howdo I unplug if it's just an
illusion?
No-transcript?
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I mean, isn't that all there isto this world?
But we live like we don't havepower to these illusions.
We live like we're shackled bythem and I'm going to say we are
not.
I am going to say I am not, andevery day, rather than looking
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for the evidence of thatillusion that you wish not to
have, like the one I currentlyhave been walking through with
finances.
I created that in my fear, notthe only one.
There are numbers of us fearingfinancial situations in this
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country right now because ofthings that we are not in
control of, honestly.
But we are in control onanother level, and that is that
we don't have to plug into thestory they keep pushing upon us.
To plug into the story theykeep pushing upon us, the
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practice is creating a story youdesire and then not getting
hung up on those triggeredemotions and feelings that are
the opposite of it.
I really don't know where I'mheaded with all of this today,
but I thank you for continuingto join me in this conversation.
And I was told in my intuitivespace to I was meditating get on
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here and just talk, because theother piece is if love is all
that is needed, if love is allthere is.
The next question I began to askmyself in the area of romantic
relationships is when did Istart pushing love away?
If who I am is all love, whendid I begin to push love away?
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And I've had a lot of work todo to recognize and be open to
and be ready for love to come in.
And I've had to see where Ihave pushed love away, at the
minutest, like the minutestmoment, like minutia, you know,
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like, oh, that was me pushinglove away, even to the point of
my dogs, like when my dogs arelike, oh, we just want to love
all over you, and I'm like God,not right now.
That's me pushing love awayEven to the point of my dogs,
like when my dogs are like, oh,we just want to love all over
you and I'm like God, not rightnow.
That's me pushing love away, notto say you don't need your
space sometimes, okay, but theseare questions, real life
questions that I've been askingmyself and that I invite you to
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explore for yourself, especiallyin a world I woke up to this
recently, in a world where weare creating an illusion called
you don't need the narcissist oryou don't need him or you don't
need her, you only needyourself.
Yeah, but we also are partneredbeings.
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We thrive on connection andconnection and communication.
So all of this stuff that's allover social media about
narcissism and psychosis, and beone, be with yourself, be with
yourself, be with yourself, bewith yourself, be with yourself.
I get it Absolutely, be withyourself, go inward and reflect,
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but that doesn't mean that youjust say fuck you to all that
over there, to those people thatmay care about you, or do you
care about them.
By the way, I'm not saying gorun back into the abusive
situation.
What I'm trying to say is whatI'm seeing is it's easy to get
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caught in the illusion, called.
I don't even know what to callit.
I've been trying to figure outwhat this is, and I think it is
a symptom and a product of theGen Xers of the world, because
we, many of us, had reallyabusive you know situations.
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We had crazy physical abuse,mental abuse, emotional abuse.
You know, the Gen Zs, the GenYs or whatever the hell, the
beta group.
Whatever these kids are today,it's different, like whatever.
When they're in their fifties,they're going to be dealing with
a different social constructthat they're going to see all
over their web or however we'recommunicating then of what they
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have to overcome, and Iguarantee it's probably going to
be something aroundcommunication, because they're
going to have to removethemselves from staring at a
screen and actually be withpeople.
So that might be their thingthat they have to overcome.
But our thing here right now isall this shit on narcissism and
how you need to just be withyourself.
Well, great, but we're socialbeings, so be careful of the
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illusion that you prescribe to.
I think that you can heal a lotof yourself in what's being
said out there, but it doesn'tmean totally.
It's not all or nothing.
Okay, it's everything inmoderation, because, at the end
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of the day, we have to bringlove back, and the truth is you
can't love another until youlove yourself.
And, yes, we have to find lovewithin ourselves.
I feel like I'm on such atangent, but these are questions
I've been really deeply askingbecause I am committed to
healing my heart in thisadventure, in this journey
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called life, and I want to givewhatever I gain or learn back to
somebody else who might betraveling deeply where I have
been already.
But it won't occur unless we'reasking the questions.
So how do we create thatillusion that we desire, if this
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is a dream world, if this is ameta world, If this is a matrix,
and how do we stop runninginside of the collective's idea
of the fixed ways of being thataren't making a difference for
you, me or the collective?
Those of us have to wake up,unplug and plug into creating
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love in our world.
It starts with us, it healswithin us and then it seeps out
to those around us and that istaking your power back.
I don't know the answers totaking the power back, but I can
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say how I choose to take mypower back is recognize, when
I'm caught up in those emotionsor those fears or those, those,
those ways of being that aren'tmaking a difference for those
around me, that aren't making adifference for those around me,
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that when I can recognize thatI'm there and I can catch it and
say, ooh, there I am, then Ican pull back and I can plug in
and recreate.
And a perfect example is and Italked about this in the episode
of the Single Parent Heavy whenI get scared, I get mad.
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When I am in a deep, eternalfear not eternal internal fear,
like it's a primal fear I'llstart looking around and like,
find things to be pissed offabout.
And I was in that state lastweekend.
I was in that state lastweekend like so in that state
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and, you know, got in my son'sface a couple times and then I
had to go back and say, dude,I'm so sorry, I am in primal
fear right now, just deep fear,and it's all coming out.
But the cool thing was was thatI saw it, and I saw it almost
in an instant.
Within an hour or less I saw it.
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I was like, oh, this is thatthing I do.
This is that thing I do.
This is the pattern I have.
This is that thing I do.
This is the pattern I have.
Okay, okay, I'm scared.
Why am I scared?
Why Nothing's happening.
The fridge is full, thecloset's full of clothes for
both him and I, my son and I,the house is paid for not paid
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for but everything's paid.
So what are you really fearing?
The illusion.
What is the illusion, tara, andwhat can you do about it?
Can you pull back on yourbudget and cut things off?
Can you stop doing certainthings that you love to do for a
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little while?
Can you?
What can you do?
And so why are you in fear?
I hope that whatever I haveshared today about the illusion,
about bringing love becausereally, at the end of the day,
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it is all about love, becausereally, at the end of the day,
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it is all about love and thentaking your power back, I hope
that something healing adventure.
In life.
There are times and days whereit is not perfect for me, where
I have all the human emotions,and the only thing different
that I can say about who I amtoday versus who I was 20 years
ago, 10 years ago, 30 years ago,is that what I'm experiencing
right now is more trusting Godthan I've ever experienced in my
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life and knowing that it's allgoing to work out.
Here's bigger things I'mthinking about, like my
retirement.
I have to buy a car for my kidssoon, college that's all big
shit I got to think about.
It all costs money, right, andpeople would say, oh, let him
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buy his car, sure, but I'm goingto help him if he needs help,
whatever.
But those are the big thingsthat are in my future that I'm
like, oh shit, oh shit, oh shit.
And then I have to remindmyself why are you, oh shitting?
Just be in the now moment,because right now is all you
have.
You're not even in those placesyet.
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Yet we hand over our power, ourenergy, our love, our time to
those crazy illusions that havebeen constructed in this world
that say you gotta have it allfigured out right now.
Have it all figured out rightnow, and kudos to those who have
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figured it all out right now.
And then there's some of us whowe figure our shit out along
the way and that's okay, because, I'll say this, everyone is
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here to have their own humanexperience.
Whoever is listening to thisshow, it is your show.
Right now, I'm living the Tarashow, my son's living his show,
my friend is living her show, myother friend, he's living his
show.
Whatever your name is, that'slistening to it, it's that show.
The Sally show, the Joe show,the Bob show, whoever Sally Mae
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show, it's your show, it's yourstage and it's okay to live it.
However you choose, Free ofjudgment, free of fear, free of
constraints, like really havingthe freedom to be who you truly
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are and love every aspect ofyour life.
And that, if you don't, if youdon't love it, you have to look
in the mirror.
You cannot look outside,because the outside, if you
remember what I said, if theoutside is looking a certain way
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, it's purely a reflection ofthe garden in your mind, and
that garden is rooted and seededfrom the heart and you have to
do your heart healing adventureand it's not easy.
So I'm going to leave you allwith that today.
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That was a lot what the hellLike.
I hope that made a differenceand thank you for listening.
I'm excited because I'm going tobring my son onto the show.
We're going to have an episodepretty soon here and we're just
going to talk about some lifethings and talk about what it is
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for him and I to be the singlemom and be the kid of a single
parent household and share someviews and perspectives from his
side of the wall and my side ofthe wall, or his side of the
room and my side of the room,and also you know what we've
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learned from it and how we'vegrown the way we do.
I mean, he's young, he has awhole life ahead of him, but
he's such a wise soul and Ican't wait to share him with the
world.
I already share him with theworld every day.
He goes out into the world andhe's just a magnificent soul.
But to share him on my showbecause he's a special dude, so
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I hope to bring him on the nextepisode.
But we will continue thisjourney of healing our hearts
and really looking at theillusions of life and unplugging
from them to create that whichyou desire, and I really invite
those of you who want to go on aheart healing adventure, please
reach out to me.
Uh, set up time?
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We can have our uh consult callup time.
We can have our consult call.
I'm excited to be working witha guest this weekend or I guess
I don't want to say she's aguest to the show, she's a
listener.
She reached out to me and I wasso ecstatic to hear from her,
because you know I'm here tohelp however I can with the
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energy gifts that I can supportyou with, and I do believe that
the more we heal our hearts, thelighter and the freer life will
become, and it will become notonly for the collective but for
you first and foremost, becauseit is about you.
So thank you to all that arelistening.
I wish you all a blessed andamazing week and until next time
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, our next show two weeks fromtoday.
I'll see you then.
Have a blessed day.
Thanks and take care.
Thank you for coming on thishealing adventure today.
If you're starting to see howeverything is falling into place
for you, consider rating theshow and sharing it with one of
your friends.
Keep that spirit alive and joinme next week.
Same place, same time.
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Have a great week.
In today's show.
It's going to go a littledifferent, it's going to be
unscripted, but some thingswe're going to talk about today
separating the illusions and howdoes one separate or unplug
from the illusion you no longerwant to take part in.
We're also going to talk aboutmeditation and what I kept
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hearing in my meditations thislast week Love.
If love is really all that oneneeds, if all it is is love, as
the Beatles say, what has somany people not be able to love,
to receive love and also topush love away?
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It's about taking our powerback.
So stay tuned.
Join me on this ride today aswe begin to ponder these
questions that I've really beenpondering this week.
Here we go.
Welcome back to the IntuitiveMentor Mom podcast, where we
explore strategies forpracticing more self-love,
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gratitude and finding new waysto empower ourselves in this
ever-changing healing adventureof life happening for us.
I'm your host, tara.
Michelle.
Let's get started.
Welcome back to the show,everybody.
Thank you again for joining andtuning in.
If you did tune in last week, Ialways forget two weeks ago,
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when we were working with MeganWempe and talking about hormones
.
That was a pretty awesome andincredible conversation and it's
funny because I've had some newthings transpire in the realm
of health and hormones, whichwe'll get into in a later
episode, because I had had somenew things transpire in the
realm of health and hormones,which we'll get into in a later
episode, because I had to dosome testing and relook at some
things, because I think thingshave gotten better and I might
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have to make some shifts in andget off of the replacement
therapy.
So we'll see, I'll keep youguys posted on that and I'll
keep you posted and tell youwhat it was that I did different
that may have caused that.
But today I want to talk aboutsome interesting things and I'm
going to just preface thisepisode with I don't really know
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what I'm going to.
I know what we're talking about, I just don't know how it's
going to come out.
And that's because I myselfhave been moving through a
different and interesting typeof gap, and I'm going to
reference episode one If youhaven't listened to episode one,
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when I talk about being in thegap and life in the gap.
I really believe that thejuiciest pieces of life occur
when we're in the gap and somemight be asking well, what does
that mean?
The gap, tara?
The gap is when you are inbetween.
I'll just use this as anexample.
Let's say you get laid off froma job, like I did back in
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January of 2024.
So the gap would be the timethat you're laid off in that
space between the time that youstart a new job, in all the
emotions, the spaces, the, theillusion that you create,
between that time you're laidoff to the time you finally land
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your next job.
So that's the gap.
So I've I'm in a new gap, adifferent gap.
I think we're always journeyingthrough gaps on various stages
of our life or various momentsof our life, whether it's gaps
between relationships, gapsbetween you know expectations of
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yourself as a parent versuswhat you're actually doing and
what you're trying to learn howto do, and the progress of doing
.
And you know you're navigatingthat with this question and I've
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been asking my higher self andGod this question If this world
is purely and solely Okay, takea step back.
Okay, take a step back.
For those of you listening tothis episode, there are going to
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be some things that I talkabout and there are going to be
some things that I share thatare going to require you to
really think outside of the boxor think outside of your
understanding of life in a fixedidea.
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Okay, when I say fixed ideathat you look at a tree, you see
a tree.
The tree is tree because we sayit's a tree and it's green
leaves with brown bark.
That's a fixed idea, okay, andwe, as the population of the
world and people, have agreedupon that.
That is what a tree is.
We've even agreed upon thatthat we call it a tree.
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Okay, that's a fixed idea.
More fixed ideas would be thatwe call the color blue the color
blue, that we call a chair achair and that a chair has a
certain physical form and itlooks like a certain way and it
has four legs and it has acushion or something to that
effect.
Some of them have three legs,but we have a fixed idea of what
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a chair looks like.
Okay, I'm asking you that arelistening, some of you that are
listening may totally resonatewith things I'll say or may feel
that things I say have likeit's not.
It's not a thing for you at all, because you too can live
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outside of fixed ways of beingand fixed ideas of our world.
Things about myself is I am aseeker.
I've been a seeker.
Since the beginning of my timethat I can remember, I have been
somebody.
This is also going to be anepisode of Raw Truth, because I
have been asking myself somevery deep questions.
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The questions may not sounddeep, but they are deep because
I really want to understand thetruth and the meaning of certain
things that keep occurring aspatterns in my life.
And when I'm looking atbreaking down patterns of my
life, I ask myself somequestions and I like to get
answers that go deeper than thesurface.
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This also goes back to the lasttwo episodes ago, when I talked
about the mind being our garden.
The bulb of that garden, theseed and the roots of that
garden, is our heart, because Ibelieve that this life we live
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is a healing adventure.
I see it now as a heart healingadventure.
That is actually how I see theworld today, that it's one big
opportunity of a heart healingadventure.
Again, follow with me and Iapologize upfront if I'm all
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over the place.
As I sat down to write the notesfor this show, I kept hearing
just get on and do it raw andlive, no notes.
And I thought oh shit, okay, Iwill listen.
So that's what I'm doing, butthe three points I want to bring
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up are the separation ofillusion what came up in my
meditation about that?
And if love is all we reallyneed, what is it that has people
push it away?
And more so I'm asking myself,because I'm looking at patterns
and then looking at how we takethat power back.
How we take power back sogetting back to the illusion and
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this illusion that we live,personal gardening to my mind,
tending to my mind and listeningto my heart and really asking
if the situations I have createdthat are in my life right now.
I have a situation in myfinancial house, I have a
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situation in my romantic andlove house and I have a
situation in my health house.
Those situations are neithernegative or positive.
They simply are where I'm at ineach of those areas of my life.
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Each of these situations havebeen interesting to move through
, and the most prevalent oneright now will be finances.
That's maybe the one that I canreally look at when, going back
to episode one and when I talkedabout the gap and when I talked
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about what I had to do with myfinances and what I chose to do,
I then eventually got a job,which I thought was going to be
the really great job and itturned out that that job didn't
quite go the way I had hoped and, as a result, at the end of
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last year I had to move toanother job because keeping that
job would not have been the wayI had hoped fiscally, and
things that were totally out ofmy control and things that were
not honest and things that were,I'm just gonna say, not in
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integrity, and so I had to makean executive decision for myself
to make a move again.
I feel really good about themove I've made.
Of course, I had a coupleopportunities.
Of course, at moments in time,I've gone back to the shoulda,
coulda, woulda, shoulda, coulda,woulda.
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Did I choose the right one?
Did I choose the right one?
And that, I believe, is when wecatch ourselves in a pitfall.
And why I'm going to say thatis because in this illusion and
I talked about this in severalother episodes which I wish I
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could remember what thoseepisodes were, several other
episodes which I wish I couldremember what those episodes
were.
So in episode 22 is where Ireally talk about that heart,
brain, garden, mind andunderstanding, and then also,
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going back to gosh, I'm tryingto remember what episodes it was
.
It was that whole series ofplaying on the court of life and
I did a number of differentepisodes, I want to say between
episode 13 and episode 15, andthen episode 12, where we're
talking about redefining yourreality or the illusion of life.
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So I want to get back to thisthing called the illusion of
life and I've been.
Let me just get to the point,because I can go in a lot of
story and I don't want to getall caught up in the weeds and
in the story today.
I want to stay focused on themeat of this conversation and
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the questions that keep comingup this week when sitting with
looking at my situationfinancially, the gap that I'm in
where I see the end result, Isee the light at the end of the
tunnel, but I'm absolutelyhaving to travel through that
gap and looking at who am Igoing to be as I travel through
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this very narrow, squeezed ingap.
And that's like the finances.
Right, we're squeezing them inbecause I have been used to a
certain level of income and thattransition last year really
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shrunk that.
That, whatever the amount was,you know what I, what I'd been
making, whatever the amount was,you know what I'd been making,
and now I'm back on rebuildingand getting back to that place
and to go beyond that place, butright now, it's about squeezing
in Now, in this particular gap.
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The thing that's been differentand something else to share
about my past is I have lost ahouse to foreclosure over 10
years ago.
That was during the 08 crash inCalifornia.
I'm not in that situation thistime at all.
However, the gap that I'm in isbringing the lifestyle in which
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we were living, all the otherthings that I don't want to say.
They were excess, but they'reexcess today and having to
squeeze all that back in.
And has there been fear?
Absolutely, has there been thisspace of unknown?
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Yes, but there was somethingdifferent about the fear this
time, and the fear has not beenlike I don't feel I'm going to
lose anything, like I don't feellike we're not going to lose
the house.
We're not.
It's not that type ofexperience.
The experience this time feelslike because I began to ask
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myself am I in a pattern?
Am I in a pattern?
Oh shit, I might be in apattern.
Is this a pattern?
And when I would meditate and Iwould sit still and I would
empty my mind, I would literallyhear, like it was coming from
my left ear, a whisper.
It's an illusion.
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It's an illusion.
That's the whisper that I wouldhear, and when I would hear
that I would just tune into.
It's an illusion.
Okay, if it's an illusion, howdo I unplug from that illusion?
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How do I separate myself fromthat illusion that I created in
the space of fear?
I also began to look at whatpart of my garden, my heart, my
mind, is housing this pattern.
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Okay, I'm still in thatquandary.
I don't have the answers, Idon't know.
But what I do know today andtake this on for yourself in any
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area of your life what I doknow today is that the fear
wasn't like that survival fearof, oh my God, oh my God, I'm
going to lose everything, andthose have been the fears in the
past.
It wasn't like that.
It's different.
It's like and it's because Itrust in God, I know God's got
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me, I know that we are safe, Iknow that nothing's happening, I
know that if I had to, I'lljust sell my house, like I know.
But we're not there.
I have a great job.
I have a great job, amazing job, and I'm grateful, so grateful,
and I'm having fun, like Iactually love the product that I
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sell because it makes adifference in the world and I
believe in it and it's importantand everybody should actually
do what I offer, this test thatI offer.
I can't put my finger on what'sdifferent about it, because
there's definitely been stress,but there was something about
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we're going to take you back tothis space and we're going to
watch.
I don't want to say we're goingto watch you, we're going to
see how you navigate this spacethis time.
Okay, because the truth is Ireally want to unplug from
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pattern and paradigm lineages ofpoverty, thinking of scarcity,
thinking all of these thingswrapped up in lineage and
paradigms from both sides of myfamily.
And the idea was for me, that'snot mine, that's not mine to
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take on, that's not mine to bear.
What is mine and who am I andwho will I be to really step
into?
Who I am and that is this placethat I feel I am in my life
right now is who am I and whowill I be to step into?
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Who I am Right?
Just try that on for yourself.
Anybody listening is.
The other piece I want to throwin here is all of the eclipse
energy that we're moving through.
It is all to clear out thatwhich no longer serves you.
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It is all to clear out all ofthe unlooked at baggage that
either you haven't looked at orit's been a long time since you
looked at, or you've looked at anumber of times, but you keep
holding on to it.
This time in our life, I justheard paradoxically, but this
time in our life is the time toremove all of that baggage.
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You have to leave it at thegate, because where we're about
to go, there's no place for thatbaggage.
And so the places where I'm at,both financially, which you
know, I love it.
A friend of mine said we havekingdom wealth, and my son and I
absolutely have kingdom wealth,and maybe I'll do a whole
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episode just on that so peopleunderstand what that means.
If you haven't heard that, Ihad never heard of it, but it
makes so much sense.
I have kingdom wealth where?
Where wealth comes to me indifferent ways.
You know where?
I got to go to a concert lastweek on free tickets because my
neighbor used to be roommateswith one of the with the bass
player of the band.
I won free tickets to anotherconcert just this week and it's
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a big, huge festival, so I getto go to that Like this is that
kingdom wealth, where it's notabout it's not about having all
the money in the world right,it's about who you be, what you
give back, are you open toreceive?
So I feel I can go down thistangent and just keep going on
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and on, but I'm going to put apin on that area of life.
The other area was romanticrelationships and really having
to like in this last coupleyears I have been really digging
deep to let go of lineages ofabuse, lineages of not being
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enough, not being smart enough,not being pretty enough, blah,
blah, blah, blah, blah, blah,blah.
A lot of that is not mine.
A lot of that is baggage thatI've brought in from my mother
and my grandmother and whoeverelse had those awful thoughts
about themselves.
And this life for me has beenabout overcoming self-worth.
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I keep asking my higher self ifGod.
Okay, here's another piece.
I'm reading a book.
Okay, I'm going to drop this in.
I'm currently listening to abook on Audible called Voices of
the Confederation.
This book I've known about foryears in the realm of hypnosis
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and past life regression.
I'm all about theseconversations with off planet
beings that channel through.
Okay, so that's what this bookis about.
It's about an off planet groupchanneling through these
individuals in the seventies andthe recordings that they came
back with, and then theypublished a book.
There's also another bookcalled the Law of One, the Book
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of Ra.
Some of you may or may not knowthat, but those are out there
and I have been intuitivelycalled to listen to those.
I'll say not again, but now,because a couple of the books
I've owned for more than 10years they've just been sitting
there, but the time was now tolisten to them now.
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So there is this idea.
Now, again, I want you to takeoff your fixed way of thinking.
But there's this idea that whenGod created life and creation
here, it was never intended thatwe have dark energy, negativity
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.
When God created creation here,god gave us free will, which is
not common in other aspects ofuniverses and other universes
and other planets, but here wehave free will.
God never intended that thisfree will turn into a virus
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that's the easiest way I can sayit and that once that virus
kept rolling.
And when I say virus, we'retalking about the thoughts in
the mind, and this is where theillusion comes in.
So, as they explain it in thebook, is that the illusion of
life was these thoughts.
Right?
The idea was to have right.
The idea was to have free will.
The idea was to have beautifullove and light and to create
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this beautiful world, thisutopian world, all from the
space and creation of love.
However, when you have freewill, you have the ability to
have thoughts outside of love,and here's where the illusion
comes from.
Those thoughts can be thoughtsof greed, or thoughts of hate,
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or thoughts of rage, or thoughtsof anger, whatever it is,
thoughts of fear, thoughts ofparanoia.
Right, because the brain ispowerful.
It's a powerful mechanism, it'sa powerful machine, even though
the heart as I mentioned inthat episode a couple weeks back
or two episodes back the heartis your hard drive, it's where
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everything is coming from, andthen it speaks to the brain.
The brain then goes back to theheart, but the heart is
actually producing more of thatconversation.
It has emotions, it hasfeelings, it has memories
emotions and feelings are thesame has memories, it has
thought and it talks to thebrain.
So imagine this is all what if?
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Scenario.
Okay, this is all what if.
For those of you who enjoythinking outside of a fixed
reality.
What if you see these twoindividuals way back when, right
or whenever, or a fewindividuals on the planet, and
they begin to have thesethoughts?
Because this mechanism andmachinery is powerful and next
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thing, you know that thoughtbegets another thought begets
another thought begets anotherthought.
Now, what do our thoughts create?
They create our reality.
So imagine years, millennia,hundreds of thousands of years
of this stinking thinking hasnow constructed this illusion
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amongst the illusion of love.
Okay, now, here we are, 2025.
How many decades have we gonein the constructs of these
illusions?
Have we gone in the constructsof these illusions Decades?
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I'm only in my fifth decade,middle of my fifth decade, and
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I'm living inside of not only myillusions, but all the
illusions that we as acollective have created.
Now follow me, please.
What I have been asking is howdo I unplug if it's just an
illusion?
No-transcript?
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I mean, isn't that all there isto this world?
But we live like we don't havepower to these illusions.
We live like we're shackled bythem and I'm going to say we are
not.
I am going to say I am not, andevery day, rather than looking
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for the evidence of thatillusion that you wish not to
have, like the one I currentlyhave been walking through with
finances.
I created that in my fear, notthe only one.
There are numbers of us fearingfinancial situations in this
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country right now because ofthings that we are not in
control of, honestly.
But we are in control onanother level, and that is that
we don't have to plug into thestory they keep pushing upon us.
To plug into the story theykeep pushing upon us, the
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practice is creating a story youdesire and then not getting
hung up on those triggeredemotions and feelings that are
the opposite of it.
I really don't know where I'mheaded with all of this today,
but I thank you for continuingto join me in this conversation.
And I was told in my intuitivespace to I was meditating get on
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here and just talk, because theother piece is if love is all
that is needed, if love is allthere is.
The next question I began to askmyself in the area of romantic
relationships is when did Istart pushing love away?
If who I am is all love, whendid I begin to push love away?
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And I've had a lot of work todo to recognize and be open to
and be ready for love to come in.
And I've had to see where Ihave pushed love away, at the
minutest, like the minutestmoment, like minutia, you know,
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like, oh, that was me pushinglove away, even to the point of
my dogs, like when my dogs arelike, oh, we just want to love
all over you, and I'm like God,not right now.
That's me pushing love awayEven to the point of my dogs,
like when my dogs are like, oh,we just want to love all over
you and I'm like God, not rightnow.
That's me pushing love away, notto say you don't need your
space sometimes, okay, but theseare questions, real life
questions that I've been askingmyself and that I invite you to
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explore for yourself, especiallyin a world I woke up to this
recently, in a world where weare creating an illusion called
you don't need the narcissist oryou don't need him or you don't
need her, you only needyourself.
Yeah, but we also are partneredbeings.
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We thrive on connection andconnection and communication.
So all of this stuff that's allover social media about
narcissism and psychosis, and beone, be with yourself, be with
yourself, be with yourself, bewith yourself, be with yourself.
I get it Absolutely, be withyourself, go inward and reflect,
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but that doesn't mean that youjust say fuck you to all that
over there, to those people thatmay care about you, or do you
care about them.
By the way, I'm not saying gorun back into the abusive
situation.
What I'm trying to say is whatI'm seeing is it's easy to get
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caught in the illusion, called.
I don't even know what to callit.
I've been trying to figure outwhat this is, and I think it is
a symptom and a product of theGen Xers of the world, because
we, many of us, had reallyabusive you know situations.
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We had crazy physical abuse,mental abuse, emotional abuse.
You know, the Gen Zs, the GenYs or whatever the hell, the
beta group.
Whatever these kids are today,it's different, like whatever.
When they're in their fifties,they're going to be dealing with
a different social constructthat they're going to see all
over their web or however we'recommunicating then of what they
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have to overcome, and Iguarantee it's probably going to
be something aroundcommunication, because they're
going to have to removethemselves from staring at a
screen and actually be withpeople.
So that might be their thingthat they have to overcome.
But our thing here right now isall this shit on narcissism and
how you need to just be withyourself.
Well, great, but we're socialbeings, so be careful of the
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illusion that you prescribe to.
I think that you can heal a lotof yourself in what's being
said out there, but it doesn'tmean totally.
It's not all or nothing.
Okay, it's everything inmoderation, because, at the end
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of the day, we have to bringlove back, and the truth is you
can't love another until youlove yourself.
And, yes, we have to find lovewithin ourselves.
I feel like I'm on such atangent, but these are questions
I've been really deeply askingbecause I am committed to
healing my heart in thisadventure, in this journey
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called life, and I want to givewhatever I gain or learn back to
somebody else who might betraveling deeply where I have
been already.
But it won't occur unless we'reasking the questions.
So how do we create thatillusion that we desire, if this
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is a dream world, if this is ameta world, If this is a matrix,
and how do we stop runninginside of the collective's idea
of the fixed ways of being thataren't making a difference for
you, me or the collective?
Those of us have to wake up,unplug and plug into creating
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love in our world.
It starts with us, it healswithin us and then it seeps out
to those around us and that istaking your power back.
I don't know the answers totaking the power back, but I can
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say how I choose to take mypower back is recognize, when
I'm caught up in those emotionsor those fears or those, those,
those ways of being that aren'tmaking a difference for those
around me, that aren't making adifference for those around me,
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that when I can recognize thatI'm there and I can catch it and
say, ooh, there I am, then Ican pull back and I can plug in
and recreate.
And a perfect example is and Italked about this in the episode
of the Single Parent Heavy whenI get scared, I get mad.
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When I am in a deep, eternalfear not eternal internal fear,
like it's a primal fear I'llstart looking around and like,
find things to be pissed offabout.
And I was in that state lastweekend.
I was in that state lastweekend like so in that state
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and, you know, got in my son'sface a couple times and then I
had to go back and say, dude,I'm so sorry, I am in primal
fear right now, just deep fear,and it's all coming out.
But the cool thing was was thatI saw it, and I saw it almost
in an instant.
Within an hour or less I saw it.
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I was like, oh, this is thatthing I do.
This is that thing I do.
This is the pattern I have.
This is that thing I do.
This is the pattern I have.
Okay, okay, I'm scared.
Why am I scared?
Why Nothing's happening.
The fridge is full, thecloset's full of clothes for
both him and I, my son and I,the house is paid for not paid
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for but everything's paid.
So what are you really fearing?
The illusion.
What is the illusion, tara, andwhat can you do about it?
Can you pull back on yourbudget and cut things off?
Can you stop doing certainthings that you love to do for a
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little while?
Can you?
What can you do?
And so why are you in fear?
I hope that whatever I haveshared today about the illusion,
about bringing love becausereally, at the end of the day,
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it is all about love, becausereally, at the end of the day,
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it is all about love and thentaking your power back, I hope
that something healing adventure.
In life.
There are times and days whereit is not perfect for me, where
I have all the human emotions,and the only thing different
that I can say about who I amtoday versus who I was 20 years
ago, 10 years ago, 30 years ago,is that what I'm experiencing
right now is more trusting Godthan I've ever experienced in my
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life and knowing that it's allgoing to work out.
Here's bigger things I'mthinking about, like my
retirement.
I have to buy a car for my kidssoon, college that's all big
shit I got to think about.
It all costs money, right, andpeople would say, oh, let him
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buy his car, sure, but I'm goingto help him if he needs help,
whatever.
But those are the big thingsthat are in my future that I'm
like, oh shit, oh shit, oh shit.
And then I have to remindmyself why are you, oh shitting?
Just be in the now moment,because right now is all you
have.
You're not even in those placesyet.
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Yet we hand over our power, ourenergy, our love, our time to
those crazy illusions that havebeen constructed in this world
that say you gotta have it allfigured out right now.
Have it all figured out rightnow, and kudos to those who have
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figured it all out right now.
And then there's some of us whowe figure our shit out along
the way and that's okay, because, I'll say this, everyone is
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here to have their own humanexperience.
Whoever is listening to thisshow, it is your show.
Right now, I'm living the Tarashow, my son's living his show,
my friend is living her show, myother friend, he's living his
show.
Whatever your name is, that'slistening to it, it's that show.
The Sally show, the Joe show,the Bob show, whoever Sally Mae
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show, it's your show, it's yourstage and it's okay to live it.
However you choose, Free ofjudgment, free of fear, free of
constraints, like really havingthe freedom to be who you truly
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are and love every aspect ofyour life.
And that, if you don't, if youdon't love it, you have to look
in the mirror.
You cannot look outside,because the outside, if you
remember what I said, if theoutside is looking a certain way
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, it's purely a reflection ofthe garden in your mind, and
that garden is rooted and seededfrom the heart and you have to
do your heart healing adventureand it's not easy.
So I'm going to leave you allwith that today.
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That was a lot what the hellLike.
I hope that made a differenceand thank you for listening.
I'm excited because I'm going tobring my son onto the show.
We're going to have an episodepretty soon here and we're just
going to talk about some lifethings and talk about what it is
(40:34):
for him and I to be the singlemom and be the kid of a single
parent household and share someviews and perspectives from his
side of the wall and my side ofthe wall, or his side of the
room and my side of the room,and also you know what we've
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learned from it and how we'vegrown the way we do.
I mean, he's young, he has awhole life ahead of him, but
he's such a wise soul and Ican't wait to share him with the
world.
I already share him with theworld every day.
He goes out into the world andhe's just a magnificent soul.
But to share him on my showbecause he's a special dude, so
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I hope to bring him on the nextepisode.
But we will continue thisjourney of healing our hearts
and really looking at theillusions of life and unplugging
from them to create that whichyou desire, and I really invite
those of you who want to go on aheart healing adventure, please
reach out to me.
Uh, set up time?
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We can have our uh consult callup time.
We can have our consult call.
I'm excited to be working witha guest this weekend or I guess
I don't want to say she's aguest to the show, she's a
listener.
She reached out to me and I wasso ecstatic to hear from her,
because you know I'm here tohelp however I can with the
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energy gifts that I can supportyou with, and I do believe that
the more we heal our hearts, thelighter and the freer life will
become, and it will become notonly for the collective but for
you first and foremost, becauseit is about you.
So thank you to all that arelistening.
I wish you all a blessed andamazing week and until next time
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, our next show two weeks fromtoday.
I'll see you then.
Have a blessed day.
Thanks and take care.
Thank you for coming on thishealing adventure today.
If you're starting to see howeverything is falling into place
for you, consider rating theshow and sharing it with one of
your friends.
Keep that spirit alive and joinme next week.
Same place, same time.
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Have a great week.
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