June 8, 2025 • 40 mins
3 Steps to Breaking Free From the "Grass Is Greener" Illusion
We explore the psychology behind the "grass is greener" mentality and how to recognize when we're operating from survival mode instead of thriving in the present moment. This episode offers a raw, unscripted look at breaking free from the cycle of constantly seeking better options elsewhere.
• Recognizing the "gap" between where we are and where we want to be
• How survival mode triggers us to look for greener pastures instead of watering our own grass
• The importance of staying committed rather than jumping ship when challenges arise
• Surrendering control when we notice ourselves spiraling into survival thinking
• Controlling the "controllables" like budgeting and daily routines to create stability
• Looking for evidence of flow and beauty in our current circumstances
• Understanding that safety is an internal state, not dependent on external conditions
• Recognizing that what we already have might be exactly what we need
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
In today's episode we're going to do things a
little different, but I am goingto share with you three things
I do when being in the gap andthinking that the grass is
greener on the other side.
Welcome back to the IntuitiveMentor Mom podcast, where we
explore strategies forpracticing more self-love,
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gratitude and finding new waysto empower ourselves in this
ever-changing healing adventureof life happening for us.
I'm your host, tara Michelle.
Let's get started.
Welcome back to the show,everybody.
This is Intuitive Mentor Mom.
I am really glad to have youwith us.
I wanted to discuss being inthe gap and the grass is always
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greener.
How familiar are you withthinking the grass is always
greener?
Why today's show is going to bea little different is it is off
script, it's off the cuff.
I wanted to get on here raw andin my truth as I journey and
move through a gap and alsorecognizing things I've seen
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about myself and what'sinteresting, if you have had the
chance to listen to any of theepisodes previously, episode one
, which is actually the firstepisode I did on this podcast,
is called being in the Gap beingin the Gap of Life and, as a
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recap to me, being in the Gap ofLife is really about it's when
you have A and B, a and B, abeing the creation of something
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like saying I am creating avacation, okay, and B being the
date that you actually go on thevacation okay.
In between A and B there's agap.
There's a gap called planning,saving maybe for money, or
organizing.
There's the gap of research,all the while, all of life is
happening in between then.
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Another gap may be what Idiscussed in the gap of life in
that episode one was I was laidoff at that point and so my gap
was from the time of being laidoff to the time of the new job,
and that gap being this space ofwho am I going to be in that
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amount of time?
Because if you listen toepisode one I talked about, you
could either step into the doomand the gloom right and be in
the context of oh no, life isover.
Oh no, I'm doomed.
It's gloomy.
Oh my God, it's heavy, becausethere is that context with
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laying off or losing a job right.
Or you could be in the gap ofokay, actually that door closed,
because a whole new door isopening and it's an opportunity
for me to create somethingreally amazing.
So there's differentperspectives that we can always
look at in the gap.
Right A gap can also be I'musing these examples in between
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the time of you know your searchfor that romantic relationship
that you desire.
That's one that I've been in fora while now.
That's a gap that I've beenexploring and it's got its highs
and lows, and some days it'samazing and some days it's like
Jesus, this sucks.
But all the while, the point ofthe gap, my understanding of
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the gap, what I've come torecognize and realize, is that
the gap is where all the juicynuggets of life are.
The gap is this moment in timewhere you are maybe uncertain,
you are feeling unsettled, youmay be excited, you may be
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scared.
There's a number of ways ofbeing in the gap, because
there's this uncertainty ofwhere life is going and what
doors will open up next.
But all the while, it is yourjob maybe I'll say due diligence
to really take that time toexperience all the ways of being
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that you move through and findthe most empowering ways of
being and cultivate and masterthose spaces, but without really
experiencing.
That which you may beexperiencing could be fear or
frustration, or anger, orsadness, or whatever those
feelings are while you're in thegap.
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You know that's the contrast.
Let me see if I can.
Let me see if I can.
I'm going to.
You know, typically I like tohave notes, but I really felt I
had to get on here and justspeak rawly and openly and
truthfully.
So, without going too muchdeeper, I think you get the
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example of what I'm trying tosay.
And so currently in my life, I'min a gap, and the gap is in the
area of what would you call itI heard financial well-being.
And, for those of you new tolistening to the show, I'm an
intuitive.
I have a lot of gifts, and oneof the gifts is I get a lot of
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channeled messages and thoughtsand I have a strong connection
with God and my higher power.
And so I hear a lot of messagesand I hear and I listen to my
guidance, I listen to my innerintuition and I listen to my
guidance.
And so I hear a lot of messagesand I hear and I listen to my
guidance, I listen to my innerintuition and I listen to my
guidance.
And so you might hear menavigating these conversations
while on this show today,because I'm just getting on here
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and I'm just like we're goingto do this today.
So the gap that I've beennavigating is financial
well-being and something Inoticed in the area of my career
.
I've noticed something that Ido.
I had to call one out on myselfand when I feel pressure around
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money or finances and when Ifeel that I'm not going to
achieve the goals I set out toachieve at work, or if I feel
there's a challenge around them,how do I say it Basically?
How I say it is if I don'tthink I'm going to make the
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money that I set out to make, Iabsolutely go to a survival way
of being and that survival wayof being kicks in and it starts
to look for where the grass isgreener.
Okay, I've done that in thearea of my career over the years
.
I've also done that in the areaof real estate.
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I'm a very good real estateinvestor.
I've learned a lot over thelast.
Golly, how long have I been inthis market?
25 years, that's amazing.
I can't believe it's been thatlong.
I've played in and I can't saythat I've dabbled, but I've
played in the real estate gamefor the last 25 years and I've
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become very good at it.
I've had some big losses andI've had some really big wins,
but hindsight 2020.
Okay, that's where we're goingto go, cause this is what had me
recognize a pattern of survival, and the pattern of survival is
called.
The grass is always greener.
And I begin to look, beginlooking for the greener grass.
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I want people to check in andhear for themselves while
listening to this when have youlooked at?
The grass is greener.
And so there's this thoughtaround grass being greener.
When you see or think the grassis greener, it's because that
grass is being watered.
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If you think your grass is notgreen, you have to step back and
say ask yourself am I wateringit?
Am I fertilizing it?
Am I producing or adding moreseeds, or am I just expecting it
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to grow without really fullyputting the attention into it?
And let's say you are puttingattention into it, like I put
attention into my career.
And let's say you are puttingattention into it Like I put
attention into my career.
However, are there new ways ofattention that I can provide
that tree called career?
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Are there areas of opportunitythat I'm maybe missing because
I'm used to doing certain?
I'm used to doing things acertain way and then I have an
expectation of what that resultshould be, and when that result
doesn't show up the way I thinkit should go, I begin to look
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for where the grass is greener.
I caught myself in that recently, and I saw it not only in the
area of my career.
I saw it in the area of dating.
I saw it in the area of mycareer, I saw it in the area of
dating, I saw it in the area ofreal estate, and I started
seeing it in a lot of areas ofmy life.
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I started seeing that I'mlooking for something better.
Why?
What's wrong with what I have?
What is it that I'm afraid ofright now?
What is it that I'm afraid ofright now?
What is it that I'm fearingright now?
When it came down to work, Iwas fearing that I wasn't going
to produce the result.
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And I can't hold all the thingsthat I have financially if I
don't, if I don't produce theresult.
And is it me not producing theresult, or is it that the
company isn't providing me theresources to produce the result?
Who is at the helm of producingthis result?
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Well, it's me, but we'll get tothat in a second.
It's me, but when I'm in thatstate of survival, I begin to
look outside.
I absolutely look outside ofmyself for either the problem or
the solution, and I saw that.
I saw it from the space of theobserver.
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Have you ever experiencedyourself as the observer, and
the observer being that you knowthat there's this soul within?
Well, you may not know, you maynot think you have a soul.
Some people think differentthings.
I believe I have a soul.
I actually saw it from theperspective of the soul watching
me.
I want to say in third person,as the observer watching the
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machinery of my mind do what itsbasic protocol of survival is
to do, because it's done it overand over and over and over
throughout the span of my life.
Now, this probably is led backto when my grandmother used to
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say you are a survivor, you'rejust like me and we are
survivors.
That's a context, that'sinteresting Survival, and what
she meant, and she always said,is you're a fighter, just like
your grandma and I am.
I'm an absolute fighter.
You know I'm a fighter in thisworld and in this life, and when
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I say I'm a fighter, it's likesomebody who survives at all
costs.
So what does survival look likeat all costs for you?
I got to see it for myself, andI go to the grass is always
greener, so let me go check outthat pasture over there.
As I began to recognize I was inthat pattern.
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I saw how I would calculate andstrategize around, starting to
look at do I sell my house?
Do I do these things?
Do I downsize?
What do I do?
What do I do?
What do I do?
What do I do?
And the only thing that I hadto go back on was what I've done
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in the past and what I knew todo.
Okay, and as I saw that I beganto play out better versions of
scenarios I've already done inthe past is when I saw the
pattern.
And then I saw the hindsight2020, and I recognized what if
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I'd never sold that very firsthouse that I bought?
And I'll give you an example thevery first house I bought was
in Los Angeles, california, in alittle cute little area called
Eagle Rock, and that was in 2000.
And nobody wanted to live inEagle Rock.
Everybody thought that's so faraway.
Oh my God, why are you movingall the way over there Like
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Verdugo Road?
Oh my God, that's forever away.
It was $136,000.
That house was oh, I'm sorry,that was the house my boyfriend
and I at the time had boughtprior to this house, before we
broke up.
But when that was in, thathouse was in Echo Park.
Yes, we bought it for 136,000.
If you can freaking believethat we broke up, he sold it for
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550,000 two years later.
But yeah, and those of you whoare familiar with these
neighborhoods I'm talking about,you're like oh my God.
So I bought my house for$163,000 in Los Angeles in 2000.
It's my very first little home,very cute, and I began to start
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being nostalgic.
I feel as if.
I feel as if in the last 90days, I've gone through a kind
of a dark night of the soul,being very nostalgic about these
things I had deep in my pastand things that I walked away
from.
I saw it in the area of romance, walked away from.
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I saw it in the area of romance.
I saw it in the area of my realestate and houses and I saw it
in the area of career.
Now, in my career it's a littledifferent, because in the three
companies that I loved deeplythe most, I was laid off and I
was laid off and, um, I was laidoff and so I had no control
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over those situations, and theywere typically actually they
were all big department layoffs.
It wasn't like I personally waslaid off, it was these big
department downsizing layoffs,and so that was just an
unfortunate situation.
But, as you can imagine, Ithrew myself into survival mode
in most of those situations.
But, as you can imagine, Ithrew myself into survival mode
in most of those situations.
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So, as I was looking back atthese moments of nostalgic
memories and thinking, well, whydid I sell that first house?
Oh, I was going through a bigbreakup.
I had all these breakdownsgoing on in my life and I went
into survival mode and I ranaway and I sold a perfectly good
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property.
Now I doubled my money, almosttripled my money, when I sold it
.
I'd only been there two years.
But then I ran away back toOakland, california, back home,
only to move right back to LA ayear later and I bought a house
in Oakland, you know, did reallywell, sold it, made money to
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buy back into LA, at which pointI had to buy a house at
$460,000.
Okay, now imagine, had I stayedat the little cute little house
that I had for $163,000.
At the little cute little housethat I had for $163,000.
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And I look back at that and nowthat house has now been
renovated, it's worth a million,I'm sure now today.
I drove by it a couple of yearsago and I was blown away.
I was like, oh my God, lookwhat they did to it.
They did some beautiful thingsto it.
But I started looking at momentslike that in my lifetime and
people might say, oh, but you'redoing the shoulda, coulda
woulda.
Yes, I was.
I was deep in the shoulda,coulda woulda.
I was deep in the shoulda,coulda woulda.
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I was feeling deep of like, ohmy God, I fucked up and I
shouldn't have done that.
Like I was in it and feeling ituntil all of a sudden, I was
like, wait a minute, whoa.
And I began to go to the placeof the grass is always greener.
I should start looking for thisnow.
I should start doing this.
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Well, maybe I should do thisand that and this and that and
this and that and this and that.
In that moment, I woke up tosomething that I know very well,
and that is stay focused, staythe course and never give up.
Ride the horse all the waythrough, complete the race.
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Whatever saying you want to say, like whatever it is stay the
course, keep going, don't getoff.
Ride it till the end, staycommitted.
I look back at moments when Ijumped ship and I have probable
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outcomes of what was possiblehad I not jumped ship.
Had I not jumped ship, had Ijust stayed the course, I would
have learned all the samelessons.
Maybe I would have learned someof those lessons sooner.
Maybe I would have more fruitsof those labors sooner who knows
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right?
Sooner who knows right.
But I can guarantee in thismoment what I saw for myself is
that going to the grass isgreener right now would not get
me where I want to sooner.
It might give me the largerpaycheck.
It might give me that temporaryrelief paycheck.
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It might give me that temporaryrelief.
But does it accomplish my endgoal and my end result?
No, it actually pushes itfurther out.
Why?
Because I would have to startall over.
I would have to start all overat a company.
I would have to build all newmomentum.
I'd have to do all these things.
If I chose to downsize and sellthis house, I would regret it, I
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guarantee you.
I would regret it Because whenI found this place that we live
in, it checked all the boxes andit was so easy, there was so
much flow when I moved into itand it just happens to be that
I'm in a gap.
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I went through a big layofflast year and I'm in a gap and
what I saw for myself is thereare three things to do for
myself and maybe this will makea difference for you too when
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being in this space and I'mgoing to go over those in a
second.
But I also want to just say youknow, it was really a big aha
for me to see myself in action,in the state of survival, and
not see it from this place ofknowing that I'm in survival
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mode.
That's a different thing whenyou know you're in survival mode
.
It's a different thing when yousee it from the observer, when
the observer is literallywatching the machinery, the body
and the being in action I don'tknow how else to explain it.
As I'm the observer, it's like.
It's like being in your body inthe third person.
It's almost like an outer bodyexperience and you're like oh
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shit, when you think about that,like we're an avatar.
Okay, like I was having anavatar moment.
Okay, that's what it was like.
It was like holy fuck, look atmy avatar, just go into town.
Let me take control of that,please.
And that's the first thing I'mgonna tell you of the three
things that I do and that youcan do when you're in, that
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moment of the grass is alwaysgreener, because, I promise you,
it may look green but that'sbecause somebody is over there
watering it, and then that Ishould bring that back because
we have to water where we're at.
I have an amazing friend, kindyMalat, who you can go back to.
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I believe it's episode 16,maybe 15, a couple different
episodes.
Back there, her and I talkedand spoke on the podcast.
We were talking about healthand fitness because she was my
trainer for a while and she'samazing.
She's a nurse, she's acertified trainer, she's
fantastic and I encourage you tolook her up if you are in need
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of a great trainer.
She's amazing.
One of the things she alwayssays, and I was reminded by one
of my best friends that she saysthis and I was like, oh shit,
oh yeah, control thecontrollables.
Now, before you control thecontrollables.
So actually I said this in, Isaid this in the wrong, I said
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this in the wrong order.
Again, I told you I'm like offthe cuff tonight or today, the
first thing you have to do issurrender.
You first have to surrender.
You have to surrender to thesurvival and you have to stop
and recognize that you're in themode of survival.
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You're not thriving, you'resurviving.
You're operating from theamygdala, you're operating from
instinct.
You're operating from fight orflight, you're operating from
cortisol spikes, you'reoperating from.
You know there is no rootedthought.
It's not coming from your core,your root, your I shouldn't
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even say your root.
It's not coming from your heart.
It actually is coming from theroot chakra, because it's coming
from the survival mode, butyou're not coming from your
heart, which I see.
The heart is the root of thebrain.
Tannicle garden Remember I'vesaid that that our mind is this
beautiful garden and the root ofthat is the heart.
But you're not in that spacewhen you're in survival mode not
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at all.
So the first step is surrender.
What surrender looks like for meis I literally lay down on my
floor and I just allow the earthor the ground to absorb me, and
sometimes I'll just startcrying because it's like I'm
just giving up and saying okay,god, I hand this over to you
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because this is God's will, notmine.
And when I'm over there drivingthe ship, you know, trying to
drive it into the ground.
It's going to go my way.
It's going to go this way.
It's going to happen.
Now, when I do that shit, Ijust get on these bumpy roads
and I'm like you know what I'msaying Like riding my little
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clunker down the road, boppingand bumping and like crashing
into rocks and shit.
Okay so, if that gives you anexample, but that's what it's
like when I'm steering from thestate of survival, so surrender.
Then you look at controllingthose controllables.
Thank you, kendi, for alwayslike reminding me at controlling
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those controllables.
Thank you, kendi, for alwaysreminding me.
Control those controllables.
What does that look like For me?
I hate it.
It's a fucking budget.
God, I hate budgeting.
How many out there hatebudgeting?
Please raise your hand.
You can raise your hand down inthe comments.
I hate budgeting.
Or put budgeting and then I'llknow that you're with me there.
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Budgeting, that's a control,controllable.
I can control that.
And when I don't control that,I don't manage that.
Things get out of whack.
Same with my health and fitness.
Control the controllables.
If I don't manage my food andlog my food, then I might see a
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different outcome and then I'mgonna be like what's the matter?
Well, because I'm notcontrolling the controllables.
That's number two.
Control your controllables.
Surrender is number one.
And number three look for theevidence of flow.
So I had a bunch of beautifulevidence of flow this week and,
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honestly, I had one of the mostproductive weeks I've had in a
very long time and I'mnavigating big situations in my
life, both from the area ofcareer, um, from the area of
finances, from the area ofparenting.
I have big things on my plateright now, none that are like
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it's nothing bad, it's just life.
Life is lifing, life is lookinglike it's life when it's
happening.
But it's that space of lookingfor the evidence of where you're
in flow and what I recognizedthis week.
Not only did I have some reallyincredible wins around calls and
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productivity and things thatwere happening, but I also saw
nature at its wildest and bestthis week.
I had a hummingbird come to mywindow.
I had a roadrunner in thebackyard.
I had the owls and the hawksflying back and forth on my
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property.
I had the sun shining on myskin.
I had beetles mating cicadasvisiting.
There was all this robust naturehappening all around me and
allowing me to witness it in somany beautiful ways.
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It in so many beautiful ways,in ways where I look down and
this plant is like, blooming andbursting, with its fluffy white
seeds coming off and blowing inthe wind.
I mean absolute beauty,magnificence, you know, and you
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can miss it.
You know, I saw this beautifulcardinal taking a bath in my
bird feeder right outside mywindow at work not at work in my
office.
As I was working, I clicked onmy phone and started recording
her, because she was in therejust cleaning and the water
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spraying off.
And as I'm recording her, themale comes up and feeds her
while she's taking a bath andgives her a little bug, puts it
in her mouth and flies away.
And I'm thinking that isamazing.
That's amazing Like that'snature, that's God loving me in
this moment, that's beautyhappening all around me and it
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really had me feel andexperience being in flow,
because what I chose was tosurrender to the process and to
surrender to all that I have.
Surrender to this amazing jobthat I have that I actually
truly enjoy, surrender to thisbeautiful house that I love and
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cherish and God shows me everyday like I would be so sad if I
had downsized to get out of thishouse for a temporary feeling
of safety.
Safety is within.
Okay, can I just say that thereis nothing outside of you that
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is going to have you feel safe.
Safety is within.
Safety is an inside job, andthen it's strengthening yourself
to trusting, knowing andbelieving that you are safe and
all is well.
All is well and you are safe atall times.
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You really are.
Now.
Are there circumstances in theworld that may have us
experience not being safeAbsolutely, and will things
happen Absolutely?
That can happen, but at the endof the day, god has you, you
are safe and all is well.
It really is that and trustingand knowing and believing in
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that.
So, as I said, the three thingsthat you can do when you are in
that state of survival, thinkingthe grass is always greener,
being in the gap of your life orgaps of life is you can just
take a moment, you can pause andyou want to surrender.
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Let go, let God Put the armordown, put the wheel down, take
your hands off of it it's goingto be okay and then control the
controllables and, from there,look for the evidence of life
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loving you, look for theevidence of flow, look for the
evidence of all the goodnessthat's around you.
Look for the evidence thatyou're healthy and well.
Look for the evidence of yourchildren's smiles and laughter
and the joy in their life.
Look for the evidence of allthe magical and amazing things
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that you have accomplished.
Look for the evidence it'sright in front of you and we
don't give ourselves enoughcredit.
I don't give myself enoughcredit.
I often just go into survivalmode.
I hit it on full throttle and Ifucking take off and I'm like
I'm going to take care of shitright now.
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Sometimes you just got to letgo and trust and know that in
that flow you're actually goingto create more momentum and more
good things are going to comefaster.
That's what we're so afraid of.
We are so afraid of the outcomenever occurring.
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We're so afraid of the outcomebeing out of reach.
We're so afraid that theoutcome is way out there, when,
in fact, if we just let go andallow the boat to go downstream,
you will reach the end.
Or the gold, or the pot of gold, whatever it is, it's coming.
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The pot of gold, whatever it is, it's coming.
It's going to be there in amoment, faster than you know.
But we really get caught up Ishould say I get caught up in
that cycle of survival andthinking that that outcome that
I'm wanting right now isn'thappening.
It's not happening.
Okay, what do I have to do tomake it happen?
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How am I going to keep allthese plates spinning?
How am I going to keepeverything?
You know, how am I going tokeep it all going when really
it's all going?
It's all going already, it'sall going.
But you know where that comesfrom, is you?
We talk about financial peace.
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Everybody has a number in mindwhere they feel safe in their
bank account.
Right, when there's a certainnumber in your bank account, if
it doesn't go down past thatnumber, you're good, you're
floating.
But when it goes past aparticular number, some people
that number can be 500,000.
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Some people that number couldbe 10 million.
Some people could have thatnumber of a thousand.
Some people can have the numberof 500.
You may be good, like whenyou're checking accounts at 500,
you're like I'm good.
Some of us are like, oh hell,if it goes past a certain number
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, oh shit is not good, I am notgood.
No, no, no, no, no, no.
Say you don't have youremergency fund, or say your 401k
isn't where you want it to be,or all the things I mean.
That's what it is for me, likemy emergency fund isn't where I
want it to be, my 401k isn'twhere I want it to be, my
emergency fund isn't where Iwant it to be, my 401k isn't
where I want it to be, mysavings isn't where I want it to
be, and those things cause aliteral state of panic in my gut
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and then, which then sends mybrain to survival mode, because
in those moments, I'm notcontrolling the controllables.
I'm caught up in the idea andthe thoughts, the illusion of
things not working the way Iwant them to.
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It's an illusion.
Okay, I want to leave everybodywith that.
I know today, you know, thisepisode wasn't like I didn't
follow notes, I didn't do allthose things, I just got on here
to speak and it's really beencoming up a lot for me.
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Around this area of the grassis always greener and I'm in a
state of survival and for thefirst time in my life, I think
I've decided that I'm going tocontinue watering these trees
right here.
I'm going to water this grassright here because it's
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beautiful and I'm missing.
I'm missing the beauty of it bythinking there's something else
out there.
There isn't, and maybe there is.
Maybe there is something better, but what's wrong with what I
have?
What?
What is it that I could dodifferent to create and plant
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new seeds and all I know with,like the area of my career.
It's a simple thing.
It takes time to rebuild aterritory, and that's what the
sales rep and I are doing.
We're rebuilding a territory.
It takes time to do that, andwhen it takes time to do that,
there's a gap, and that's thegap we're in.
We're both in.
Our entire company is in, ourentire team is in it.
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And rather than stay the courseand be on the team, being the
team player crushing it, my mindis over there like hey, go
check this other thing out.
No, be there.
Be there with the team, be onthe team.
Fucking.
Play like your fucking lifesurvives, like your life depends
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on it.
Play your heart out, smack theball so far out of the field.
Just crack it with the bat overand over and over, and
sometimes you're not going tomake it out of the field.
So then you just fucking getback up there and you have the
pitcher pitch that ball and youcrack it and just like I used to
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in one of the episodes I wastalking about basketball being,
like you know, a great metaphorfor the court of life Cause I
also see it like a basketballgame and you play your ass off,
you play your ass off and youjust keep shooting balls and you
keep shooting, becauseeventually you're going to shoot
and it's going to make it, andit's going to make it, and it's
going to make it.
And that's where I'm at, and Ibelieve that there's something
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really beautiful on the otherside of this.
I believe that there'ssomething really like everything
I truly desire and want isgoing to happen, and I have to
trust that.
I know that it always does.
God delivers.
Sometimes I don't wait aroundfor God's time.
I'm like, fuck that, it's mytime.
Excuse my language.
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I think it's just the state I'min.
I'm like it's been a big week,it's been a long week, it's been
a bit of a stressful week, andthis is where I'm at.
So I want to say thank you toall that have listened this long
to my rant about the grass isalways greener.
I hope that some of the thingsI've shared have either shifted
a perspective for you or shakensome things loose for you.
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I also invite you to leave acomment below.
If you have questions, leave acomment.
You have comments orsuggestions?
Leave a comment.
If any of this resonated foryou or you feel somebody could
use like a little bit of thissupport, please share my episode
or my show.
It really helps it grow and Iwant to say thank you to all of
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you who continue to support me,to follow me.
I'm so beyond grateful.
I also want to let you know inthe month of July I am going to
be launching a heart healingworkshop.
Dates to be determined, it is asingle date.
It will be a 90 minute workshop.
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We're going to move and shiftand remove blocks that are in
your heart.
So back to what I was talkingabout, with your mind being the
garden and the root and the seedbeing the heart and this
illusion that we call life rightand you want your illusion of
life to look differently, youhave to tend to the garden in
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your mind and that garden, itsseed, is the heart.
So we are going to do someheart healing.
We're going to do some heartcleaning.
We're going to remove blocks,energy blocks, we're going to
remove trauma.
We're going to remove and shakethings out and we're going to
reconnect you, realign you towhat the design of your mind is
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in terms of what you desire.
Okay, so that is what we willbe creating.
I encourage you to keep an eyeout.
I will start posting the linksdown below with a date and time.
I won't be in the show notesthis week, but it will.
It will start in the followingshow notes.
I will let you know and it'llalso be on my website
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TaraMichellecom and that's M-Y.
It's Tara, m-y, c-h-e-l-l-ecom.
So yeah, I'm excited to beworking with any of those who
want to experience some reallyfun and cool energy work.
I will be working with a groupof you on a group call,
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one-on-one, individually withinthe group call.
It will be a live call.
We will work together.
We will talk one-on-one Ishouldn't say one-on-one, but
we'll talk amongst the group.
I'll be able to provide somecoaching, but then also we will
be doing some rewiring andrealigning on all of our hearts.
So that is coming up in July.
In the meantime, thank you toall of you stuck around
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listening to this show today.
I hope that you have abeautiful rest of your weekend.
I look forward to seeing you onthe next episode and see you in
two weeks.
Thank you for coming on thishealing adventure today.
If you're starting to see howeverything is falling into place
for you, consider rating theshow and sharing it with one of
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your friends.
Keep that spirit alive and joinme next week.
Same place, same time.
Have a great week.
In today's episode we're going to do things a
little different, but I am goingto share with you three things
I do when being in the gap andthinking that the grass is
greener on the other side.
Welcome back to the IntuitiveMentor Mom podcast, where we
explore strategies forpracticing more self-love,
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gratitude and finding new waysto empower ourselves in this
ever-changing healing adventureof life happening for us.
I'm your host, tara Michelle.
Let's get started.
Welcome back to the show,everybody.
This is Intuitive Mentor Mom.
I am really glad to have youwith us.
I wanted to discuss being inthe gap and the grass is always
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greener.
How familiar are you withthinking the grass is always
greener?
Why today's show is going to bea little different is it is off
script, it's off the cuff.
I wanted to get on here raw andin my truth as I journey and
move through a gap and alsorecognizing things I've seen
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about myself and what'sinteresting, if you have had the
chance to listen to any of theepisodes previously, episode one
, which is actually the firstepisode I did on this podcast,
is called being in the Gap beingin the Gap of Life and, as a
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recap to me, being in the Gap ofLife is really about it's when
you have A and B, a and B, abeing the creation of something
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like saying I am creating avacation, okay, and B being the
date that you actually go on thevacation okay.
In between A and B there's agap.
There's a gap called planning,saving maybe for money, or
organizing.
There's the gap of research,all the while, all of life is
happening in between then.
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Another gap may be what Idiscussed in the gap of life in
that episode one was I was laidoff at that point and so my gap
was from the time of being laidoff to the time of the new job,
and that gap being this space ofwho am I going to be in that
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amount of time?
Because if you listen toepisode one I talked about, you
could either step into the doomand the gloom right and be in
the context of oh no, life isover.
Oh no, I'm doomed.
It's gloomy.
Oh my God, it's heavy, becausethere is that context with
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laying off or losing a job right.
Or you could be in the gap ofokay, actually that door closed,
because a whole new door isopening and it's an opportunity
for me to create somethingreally amazing.
So there's differentperspectives that we can always
look at in the gap.
Right A gap can also be I'musing these examples in between
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the time of you know your searchfor that romantic relationship
that you desire.
That's one that I've been in fora while now.
That's a gap that I've beenexploring and it's got its highs
and lows, and some days it'samazing and some days it's like
Jesus, this sucks.
But all the while, the point ofthe gap, my understanding of
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the gap, what I've come torecognize and realize, is that
the gap is where all the juicynuggets of life are.
The gap is this moment in timewhere you are maybe uncertain,
you are feeling unsettled, youmay be excited, you may be
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scared.
There's a number of ways ofbeing in the gap, because
there's this uncertainty ofwhere life is going and what
doors will open up next.
But all the while, it is yourjob maybe I'll say due diligence
to really take that time toexperience all the ways of being
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that you move through and findthe most empowering ways of
being and cultivate and masterthose spaces, but without really
experiencing.
That which you may beexperiencing could be fear or
frustration, or anger, orsadness, or whatever those
feelings are while you're in thegap.
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You know that's the contrast.
Let me see if I can.
Let me see if I can.
I'm going to.
You know, typically I like tohave notes, but I really felt I
had to get on here and justspeak rawly and openly and
truthfully.
So, without going too muchdeeper, I think you get the
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example of what I'm trying tosay.
And so currently in my life, I'min a gap, and the gap is in the
area of what would you call itI heard financial well-being.
And, for those of you new tolistening to the show, I'm an
intuitive.
I have a lot of gifts, and oneof the gifts is I get a lot of
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channeled messages and thoughtsand I have a strong connection
with God and my higher power.
And so I hear a lot of messagesand I hear and I listen to my
guidance, I listen to my innerintuition and I listen to my
guidance.
And so I hear a lot of messagesand I hear and I listen to my
guidance, I listen to my innerintuition and I listen to my
guidance.
And so you might hear menavigating these conversations
while on this show today,because I'm just getting on here
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and I'm just like we're goingto do this today.
So the gap that I've beennavigating is financial
well-being and something Inoticed in the area of my career
.
I've noticed something that Ido.
I had to call one out on myselfand when I feel pressure around
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money or finances and when Ifeel that I'm not going to
achieve the goals I set out toachieve at work, or if I feel
there's a challenge around them,how do I say it Basically?
How I say it is if I don'tthink I'm going to make the
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money that I set out to make, Iabsolutely go to a survival way
of being and that survival wayof being kicks in and it starts
to look for where the grass isgreener.
Okay, I've done that in thearea of my career over the years
.
I've also done that in the areaof real estate.
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I'm a very good real estateinvestor.
I've learned a lot over thelast.
Golly, how long have I been inthis market?
25 years, that's amazing.
I can't believe it's been thatlong.
I've played in and I can't saythat I've dabbled, but I've
played in the real estate gamefor the last 25 years and I've
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become very good at it.
I've had some big losses andI've had some really big wins,
but hindsight 2020.
Okay, that's where we're goingto go, cause this is what had me
recognize a pattern of survival, and the pattern of survival is
called.
The grass is always greener.
And I begin to look, beginlooking for the greener grass.
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I want people to check in andhear for themselves while
listening to this when have youlooked at?
The grass is greener.
And so there's this thoughtaround grass being greener.
When you see or think the grassis greener, it's because that
grass is being watered.
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If you think your grass is notgreen, you have to step back and
say ask yourself am I wateringit?
Am I fertilizing it?
Am I producing or adding moreseeds, or am I just expecting it
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to grow without really fullyputting the attention into it?
And let's say you are puttingattention into it, like I put
attention into my career.
And let's say you are puttingattention into it Like I put
attention into my career.
However, are there new ways ofattention that I can provide
that tree called career?
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Are there areas of opportunitythat I'm maybe missing because
I'm used to doing certain?
I'm used to doing things acertain way and then I have an
expectation of what that resultshould be, and when that result
doesn't show up the way I thinkit should go, I begin to look
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for where the grass is greener.
I caught myself in that recently, and I saw it not only in the
area of my career.
I saw it in the area of dating.
I saw it in the area of mycareer, I saw it in the area of
dating, I saw it in the area ofreal estate, and I started
seeing it in a lot of areas ofmy life.
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I started seeing that I'mlooking for something better.
Why?
What's wrong with what I have?
What is it that I'm afraid ofright now?
What is it that I'm afraid ofright now?
What is it that I'm fearingright now?
When it came down to work, Iwas fearing that I wasn't going
to produce the result.
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And I can't hold all the thingsthat I have financially if I
don't, if I don't produce theresult.
And is it me not producing theresult, or is it that the
company isn't providing me theresources to produce the result?
Who is at the helm of producingthis result?
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Well, it's me, but we'll get tothat in a second.
It's me, but when I'm in thatstate of survival, I begin to
look outside.
I absolutely look outside ofmyself for either the problem or
the solution, and I saw that.
I saw it from the space of theobserver.
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Have you ever experiencedyourself as the observer, and
the observer being that you knowthat there's this soul within?
Well, you may not know, you maynot think you have a soul.
Some people think differentthings.
I believe I have a soul.
I actually saw it from theperspective of the soul watching
me.
I want to say in third person,as the observer watching the
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machinery of my mind do what itsbasic protocol of survival is
to do, because it's done it overand over and over and over
throughout the span of my life.
Now, this probably is led backto when my grandmother used to
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say you are a survivor, you'rejust like me and we are
survivors.
That's a context, that'sinteresting Survival, and what
she meant, and she always said,is you're a fighter, just like
your grandma and I am.
I'm an absolute fighter.
You know I'm a fighter in thisworld and in this life, and when
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I say I'm a fighter, it's likesomebody who survives at all
costs.
So what does survival look likeat all costs for you?
I got to see it for myself, andI go to the grass is always
greener, so let me go check outthat pasture over there.
As I began to recognize I was inthat pattern.
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I saw how I would calculate andstrategize around, starting to
look at do I sell my house?
Do I do these things?
Do I downsize?
What do I do?
What do I do?
What do I do?
What do I do?
And the only thing that I hadto go back on was what I've done
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in the past and what I knew todo.
Okay, and as I saw that I beganto play out better versions of
scenarios I've already done inthe past is when I saw the
pattern.
And then I saw the hindsight2020, and I recognized what if
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I'd never sold that very firsthouse that I bought?
And I'll give you an example thevery first house I bought was
in Los Angeles, california, in alittle cute little area called
Eagle Rock, and that was in 2000.
And nobody wanted to live inEagle Rock.
Everybody thought that's so faraway.
Oh my God, why are you movingall the way over there Like
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Verdugo Road?
Oh my God, that's forever away.
It was $136,000.
That house was oh, I'm sorry,that was the house my boyfriend
and I at the time had boughtprior to this house, before we
broke up.
But when that was in, thathouse was in Echo Park.
Yes, we bought it for 136,000.
If you can freaking believethat we broke up, he sold it for
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550,000 two years later.
But yeah, and those of you whoare familiar with these
neighborhoods I'm talking about,you're like oh my God.
So I bought my house for$163,000 in Los Angeles in 2000.
It's my very first little home,very cute, and I began to start
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being nostalgic.
I feel as if.
I feel as if in the last 90days, I've gone through a kind
of a dark night of the soul,being very nostalgic about these
things I had deep in my pastand things that I walked away
from.
I saw it in the area of romance, walked away from.
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I saw it in the area of romance.
I saw it in the area of my realestate and houses and I saw it
in the area of career.
Now, in my career it's a littledifferent, because in the three
companies that I loved deeplythe most, I was laid off and I
was laid off and, um, I was laidoff and so I had no control
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over those situations, and theywere typically actually they
were all big department layoffs.
It wasn't like I personally waslaid off, it was these big
department downsizing layoffs,and so that was just an
unfortunate situation.
But, as you can imagine, Ithrew myself into survival mode
in most of those situations.
But, as you can imagine, Ithrew myself into survival mode
in most of those situations.
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So, as I was looking back atthese moments of nostalgic
memories and thinking, well, whydid I sell that first house?
Oh, I was going through a bigbreakup.
I had all these breakdownsgoing on in my life and I went
into survival mode and I ranaway and I sold a perfectly good
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property.
Now I doubled my money, almosttripled my money, when I sold it
.
I'd only been there two years.
But then I ran away back toOakland, california, back home,
only to move right back to LA ayear later and I bought a house
in Oakland, you know, did reallywell, sold it, made money to
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buy back into LA, at which pointI had to buy a house at
$460,000.
Okay, now imagine, had I stayedat the little cute little house
that I had for $163,000.
At the little cute little housethat I had for $163,000.
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And I look back at that and nowthat house has now been
renovated, it's worth a million,I'm sure now today.
I drove by it a couple of yearsago and I was blown away.
I was like, oh my God, lookwhat they did to it.
They did some beautiful thingsto it.
But I started looking at momentslike that in my lifetime and
people might say, oh, but you'redoing the shoulda, coulda
woulda.
Yes, I was.
I was deep in the shoulda,coulda woulda.
I was deep in the shoulda,coulda woulda.
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I was feeling deep of like, ohmy God, I fucked up and I
shouldn't have done that.
Like I was in it and feeling ituntil all of a sudden, I was
like, wait a minute, whoa.
And I began to go to the placeof the grass is always greener.
I should start looking for thisnow.
I should start doing this.
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Well, maybe I should do thisand that and this and that and
this and that and this and that.
In that moment, I woke up tosomething that I know very well,
and that is stay focused, staythe course and never give up.
Ride the horse all the waythrough, complete the race.
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Whatever saying you want to say, like whatever it is stay the
course, keep going, don't getoff.
Ride it till the end, staycommitted.
I look back at moments when Ijumped ship and I have probable
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outcomes of what was possiblehad I not jumped ship.
Had I not jumped ship, had Ijust stayed the course, I would
have learned all the samelessons.
Maybe I would have learned someof those lessons sooner.
Maybe I would have more fruitsof those labors sooner who knows
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right?
Sooner who knows right.
But I can guarantee in thismoment what I saw for myself is
that going to the grass isgreener right now would not get
me where I want to sooner.
It might give me the largerpaycheck.
It might give me that temporaryrelief paycheck.
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It might give me that temporaryrelief.
But does it accomplish my endgoal and my end result?
No, it actually pushes itfurther out.
Why?
Because I would have to startall over.
I would have to start all overat a company.
I would have to build all newmomentum.
I'd have to do all these things.
If I chose to downsize and sellthis house, I would regret it, I
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guarantee you.
I would regret it Because whenI found this place that we live
in, it checked all the boxes andit was so easy, there was so
much flow when I moved into itand it just happens to be that
I'm in a gap.
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I went through a big layofflast year and I'm in a gap and
what I saw for myself is thereare three things to do for
myself and maybe this will makea difference for you too when
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being in this space and I'mgoing to go over those in a
second.
But I also want to just say youknow, it was really a big aha
for me to see myself in action,in the state of survival, and
not see it from this place ofknowing that I'm in survival
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mode.
That's a different thing whenyou know you're in survival mode
.
It's a different thing when yousee it from the observer, when
the observer is literallywatching the machinery, the body
and the being in action I don'tknow how else to explain it.
As I'm the observer, it's like.
It's like being in your body inthe third person.
It's almost like an outer bodyexperience and you're like oh
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shit, when you think about that,like we're an avatar.
Okay, like I was having anavatar moment.
Okay, that's what it was like.
It was like holy fuck, look atmy avatar, just go into town.
Let me take control of that,please.
And that's the first thing I'mgonna tell you of the three
things that I do and that youcan do when you're in, that
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moment of the grass is alwaysgreener, because, I promise you,
it may look green but that'sbecause somebody is over there
watering it, and then that Ishould bring that back because
we have to water where we're at.
I have an amazing friend, kindyMalat, who you can go back to.
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I believe it's episode 16,maybe 15, a couple different
episodes.
Back there, her and I talkedand spoke on the podcast.
We were talking about healthand fitness because she was my
trainer for a while and she'samazing.
She's a nurse, she's acertified trainer, she's
fantastic and I encourage you tolook her up if you are in need
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of a great trainer.
She's amazing.
One of the things she alwayssays, and I was reminded by one
of my best friends that she saysthis and I was like, oh shit,
oh yeah, control thecontrollables.
Now, before you control thecontrollables.
So actually I said this in, Isaid this in the wrong, I said
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this in the wrong order.
Again, I told you I'm like offthe cuff tonight or today, the
first thing you have to do issurrender.
You first have to surrender.
You have to surrender to thesurvival and you have to stop
and recognize that you're in themode of survival.
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You're not thriving, you'resurviving.
You're operating from theamygdala, you're operating from
instinct.
You're operating from fight orflight, you're operating from
cortisol spikes, you'reoperating from.
You know there is no rootedthought.
It's not coming from your core,your root, your I shouldn't
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even say your root.
It's not coming from your heart.
It actually is coming from theroot chakra, because it's coming
from the survival mode, butyou're not coming from your
heart, which I see.
The heart is the root of thebrain.
Tannicle garden Remember I'vesaid that that our mind is this
beautiful garden and the root ofthat is the heart.
But you're not in that spacewhen you're in survival mode not
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at all.
So the first step is surrender.
What surrender looks like for meis I literally lay down on my
floor and I just allow the earthor the ground to absorb me, and
sometimes I'll just startcrying because it's like I'm
just giving up and saying okay,god, I hand this over to you
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because this is God's will, notmine.
And when I'm over there drivingthe ship, you know, trying to
drive it into the ground.
It's going to go my way.
It's going to go this way.
It's going to happen.
Now, when I do that shit, Ijust get on these bumpy roads
and I'm like you know what I'msaying Like riding my little
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clunker down the road, boppingand bumping and like crashing
into rocks and shit.
Okay so, if that gives you anexample, but that's what it's
like when I'm steering from thestate of survival, so surrender.
Then you look at controllingthose controllables.
Thank you, kendi, for alwayslike reminding me at controlling
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those controllables.
Thank you, kendi, for alwaysreminding me.
Control those controllables.
What does that look like For me?
I hate it.
It's a fucking budget.
God, I hate budgeting.
How many out there hatebudgeting?
Please raise your hand.
You can raise your hand down inthe comments.
I hate budgeting.
Or put budgeting and then I'llknow that you're with me there.
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Budgeting, that's a control,controllable.
I can control that.
And when I don't control that,I don't manage that.
Things get out of whack.
Same with my health and fitness.
Control the controllables.
If I don't manage my food andlog my food, then I might see a
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different outcome and then I'mgonna be like what's the matter?
Well, because I'm notcontrolling the controllables.
That's number two.
Control your controllables.
Surrender is number one.
And number three look for theevidence of flow.
So I had a bunch of beautifulevidence of flow this week and,
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honestly, I had one of the mostproductive weeks I've had in a
very long time and I'mnavigating big situations in my
life, both from the area ofcareer, um, from the area of
finances, from the area ofparenting.
I have big things on my plateright now, none that are like
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it's nothing bad, it's just life.
Life is lifing, life is lookinglike it's life when it's
happening.
But it's that space of lookingfor the evidence of where you're
in flow and what I recognizedthis week.
Not only did I have some reallyincredible wins around calls and
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productivity and things thatwere happening, but I also saw
nature at its wildest and bestthis week.
I had a hummingbird come to mywindow.
I had a roadrunner in thebackyard.
I had the owls and the hawksflying back and forth on my
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property.
I had the sun shining on myskin.
I had beetles mating cicadasvisiting.
There was all this robust naturehappening all around me and
allowing me to witness it in somany beautiful ways.
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It in so many beautiful ways,in ways where I look down and
this plant is like, blooming andbursting, with its fluffy white
seeds coming off and blowing inthe wind.
I mean absolute beauty,magnificence, you know, and you
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can miss it.
You know, I saw this beautifulcardinal taking a bath in my
bird feeder right outside mywindow at work not at work in my
office.
As I was working, I clicked onmy phone and started recording
her, because she was in therejust cleaning and the water
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spraying off.
And as I'm recording her, themale comes up and feeds her
while she's taking a bath andgives her a little bug, puts it
in her mouth and flies away.
And I'm thinking that isamazing.
That's amazing Like that'snature, that's God loving me in
this moment, that's beautyhappening all around me and it
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really had me feel andexperience being in flow,
because what I chose was tosurrender to the process and to
surrender to all that I have.
Surrender to this amazing jobthat I have that I actually
truly enjoy, surrender to thisbeautiful house that I love and
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cherish and God shows me everyday like I would be so sad if I
had downsized to get out of thishouse for a temporary feeling
of safety.
Safety is within.
Okay, can I just say that thereis nothing outside of you that
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is going to have you feel safe.
Safety is within.
Safety is an inside job, andthen it's strengthening yourself
to trusting, knowing andbelieving that you are safe and
all is well.
All is well and you are safe atall times.
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You really are.
Now.
Are there circumstances in theworld that may have us
experience not being safeAbsolutely, and will things
happen Absolutely?
That can happen, but at the endof the day, god has you, you
are safe and all is well.
It really is that and trustingand knowing and believing in
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that.
So, as I said, the three thingsthat you can do when you are in
that state of survival, thinkingthe grass is always greener,
being in the gap of your life orgaps of life is you can just
take a moment, you can pause andyou want to surrender.
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Let go, let God Put the armordown, put the wheel down, take
your hands off of it it's goingto be okay and then control the
controllables and, from there,look for the evidence of life
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loving you, look for theevidence of flow, look for the
evidence of all the goodnessthat's around you.
Look for the evidence thatyou're healthy and well.
Look for the evidence of yourchildren's smiles and laughter
and the joy in their life.
Look for the evidence of allthe magical and amazing things
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that you have accomplished.
Look for the evidence it'sright in front of you and we
don't give ourselves enoughcredit.
I don't give myself enoughcredit.
I often just go into survivalmode.
I hit it on full throttle and Ifucking take off and I'm like
I'm going to take care of shitright now.
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Sometimes you just got to letgo and trust and know that in
that flow you're actually goingto create more momentum and more
good things are going to comefaster.
That's what we're so afraid of.
We are so afraid of the outcomenever occurring.
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We're so afraid of the outcomebeing out of reach.
We're so afraid that theoutcome is way out there, when,
in fact, if we just let go andallow the boat to go downstream,
you will reach the end.
Or the gold, or the pot of gold, whatever it is, it's coming.
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The pot of gold, whatever it is, it's coming.
It's going to be there in amoment, faster than you know.
But we really get caught up Ishould say I get caught up in
that cycle of survival andthinking that that outcome that
I'm wanting right now isn'thappening.
It's not happening.
Okay, what do I have to do tomake it happen?
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How am I going to keep allthese plates spinning?
How am I going to keepeverything?
You know, how am I going tokeep it all going when really
it's all going?
It's all going already, it'sall going.
But you know where that comesfrom, is you?
We talk about financial peace.
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Everybody has a number in mindwhere they feel safe in their
bank account.
Right, when there's a certainnumber in your bank account, if
it doesn't go down past thatnumber, you're good, you're
floating.
But when it goes past aparticular number, some people
that number can be 500,000.
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Some people that number couldbe 10 million.
Some people could have thatnumber of a thousand.
Some people can have the numberof 500.
You may be good, like whenyou're checking accounts at 500,
you're like I'm good.
Some of us are like, oh hell,if it goes past a certain number
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, oh shit is not good, I am notgood.
No, no, no, no, no, no.
Say you don't have youremergency fund, or say your 401k
isn't where you want it to be,or all the things I mean.
That's what it is for me, likemy emergency fund isn't where I
want it to be, my 401k isn'twhere I want it to be, my
emergency fund isn't where Iwant it to be, my 401k isn't
where I want it to be, mysavings isn't where I want it to
be, and those things cause aliteral state of panic in my gut
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and then, which then sends mybrain to survival mode, because
in those moments, I'm notcontrolling the controllables.
I'm caught up in the idea andthe thoughts, the illusion of
things not working the way Iwant them to.
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It's an illusion.
Okay, I want to leave everybodywith that.
I know today, you know, thisepisode wasn't like I didn't
follow notes, I didn't do allthose things, I just got on here
to speak and it's really beencoming up a lot for me.
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Around this area of the grassis always greener and I'm in a
state of survival and for thefirst time in my life, I think
I've decided that I'm going tocontinue watering these trees
right here.
I'm going to water this grassright here because it's
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beautiful and I'm missing.
I'm missing the beauty of it bythinking there's something else
out there.
There isn't, and maybe there is.
Maybe there is something better, but what's wrong with what I
have?
What?
What is it that I could dodifferent to create and plant
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new seeds and all I know with,like the area of my career.
It's a simple thing.
It takes time to rebuild aterritory, and that's what the
sales rep and I are doing.
We're rebuilding a territory.
It takes time to do that, andwhen it takes time to do that,
there's a gap, and that's thegap we're in.
We're both in.
Our entire company is in, ourentire team is in it.
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And rather than stay the courseand be on the team, being the
team player crushing it, my mindis over there like hey, go
check this other thing out.
No, be there.
Be there with the team, be onthe team.
Fucking.
Play like your fucking lifesurvives, like your life depends
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on it.
Play your heart out, smack theball so far out of the field.
Just crack it with the bat overand over and over, and
sometimes you're not going tomake it out of the field.
So then you just fucking getback up there and you have the
pitcher pitch that ball and youcrack it and just like I used to
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in one of the episodes I wastalking about basketball being,
like you know, a great metaphorfor the court of life Cause I
also see it like a basketballgame and you play your ass off,
you play your ass off and youjust keep shooting balls and you
keep shooting, becauseeventually you're going to shoot
and it's going to make it, andit's going to make it, and it's
going to make it.
And that's where I'm at, and Ibelieve that there's something
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really beautiful on the otherside of this.
I believe that there'ssomething really like everything
I truly desire and want isgoing to happen, and I have to
trust that.
I know that it always does.
God delivers.
Sometimes I don't wait aroundfor God's time.
I'm like, fuck that, it's mytime.
Excuse my language.
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I think it's just the state I'min.
I'm like it's been a big week,it's been a long week, it's been
a bit of a stressful week, andthis is where I'm at.
So I want to say thank you toall that have listened this long
to my rant about the grass isalways greener.
I hope that some of the thingsI've shared have either shifted
a perspective for you or shakensome things loose for you.
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I also invite you to leave acomment below.
If you have questions, leave acomment.
You have comments orsuggestions?
Leave a comment.
If any of this resonated foryou or you feel somebody could
use like a little bit of thissupport, please share my episode
or my show.
It really helps it grow and Iwant to say thank you to all of
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you who continue to support me,to follow me.
I'm so beyond grateful.
I also want to let you know inthe month of July I am going to
be launching a heart healingworkshop.
Dates to be determined, it is asingle date.
It will be a 90 minute workshop.
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We're going to move and shiftand remove blocks that are in
your heart.
So back to what I was talkingabout, with your mind being the
garden and the root and the seedbeing the heart and this
illusion that we call life rightand you want your illusion of
life to look differently, youhave to tend to the garden in
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your mind and that garden, itsseed, is the heart.
So we are going to do someheart healing.
We're going to do some heartcleaning.
We're going to remove blocks,energy blocks, we're going to
remove trauma.
We're going to remove and shakethings out and we're going to
reconnect you, realign you towhat the design of your mind is
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in terms of what you desire.
Okay, so that is what we willbe creating.
I encourage you to keep an eyeout.
I will start posting the linksdown below with a date and time.
I won't be in the show notesthis week, but it will.
It will start in the followingshow notes.
I will let you know and it'llalso be on my website
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TaraMichellecom and that's M-Y.
It's Tara, m-y, c-h-e-l-l-ecom.
So yeah, I'm excited to beworking with any of those who
want to experience some reallyfun and cool energy work.
I will be working with a groupof you on a group call,
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one-on-one, individually withinthe group call.
It will be a live call.
We will work together.
We will talk one-on-one Ishouldn't say one-on-one, but
we'll talk amongst the group.
I'll be able to provide somecoaching, but then also we will
be doing some rewiring andrealigning on all of our hearts.
So that is coming up in July.
In the meantime, thank you toall of you stuck around
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listening to this show today.
I hope that you have abeautiful rest of your weekend.
I look forward to seeing you onthe next episode and see you in
two weeks.
Thank you for coming on thishealing adventure today.
If you're starting to see howeverything is falling into place
for you, consider rating theshow and sharing it with one of
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your friends.
Keep that spirit alive and joinme next week.
Same place, same time.
Have a great week.
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