July 20, 2025 • 30 mins
In this powerful episode of Intuitive Mentor Mom, I share how a triggering moment during the Texas floods (as I'm a Texas resident), unexpectedly reopened unresolved trauma from 9/11. What followed was a deep realization about the self-limiting beliefs we carry, and how to finally release them.
If you've ever felt stuck, overwhelmed, or like you're living someone else's story, this episode will help you reconnect with your intuition and inner truth. I explore how unhealed trauma, fear-based narratives, and emotional triggers create invisible blocks that hold us back from living the life we truly deserve.
In this episode, you'll learn:
- How the recent Texas floods sparked a healing breakthrough by revealing buried PTSD and emotional trauma
- Why unresolved trauma resurfaces—and how to work with it through self-awareness
- The truth about limiting beliefs and the thin "veil" that keeps us from rewriting our stories
- How to reclaim your personal power through intuitive mindset shifts
- Why fear, procrastination, and self-doubt are rooted in false narratives
- Actionable steps to shift your energy, release emotional blocks, and call in a life of alignment
- How declaring what you truly want (and deserve) can attract opportunities you didn’t think were possible
This episode is for all those on a healing journey, and anyone ready to break generational cycles, rewrite their story, and align with a higher frequency of truth and empowerment.
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Speaker 1 (00:00):
In today's episode we are talking about snap the F
out of it.
Snap the F out of your story.
Snap the F out of your story.
And what's your story?
I don't know, but I'm going toshare with you a story that I
had that I needed to snap the Fout and, funny enough, we're
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going to get right into it rightnow.
So here we go.
Welcome back to the IntuitiveMentor Mom podcast, where we
explore strategies forpracticing more self-love,
gratitude and finding new waysto empower ourselves in this
ever-changing healing adventureof life happening for us.
I'm your host, tara Michelle.
Let's get started.
Welcome back to IntuitiveMentor Mom the podcast.
(00:47):
That's all about how life ishappening for us not to us and
who are you going to be in thematter.
So I want to welcome all of youback to the show.
Before I go into this topic ofsnap the fuck out of it.
Snap the fuck out of your storyof it.
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Snap the fuck out of your story.
Before I get into that topic, Iwant to say that how all of
this came about.
This last week was a dearfriend of mine sharing a story
that became pretty.
I want to say it was like avery viral story about the flood
, the floods here in Texas, andso first I wanna say my heart
truly goes out to every singlefamily person, anyone who's been
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impacted by this flood, thefloods we've had several and
there are no words.
There are no words.
There are no words that you cansay for the loss and the
devastation.
You know, I didn't know any ofthose people, but I'm one degree
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separation from many of themand I think if there's anything
that it can really wake you upto is how fragile life is, how
planet Earth can shake us off atany second.
And not going into any of thethoughts of the how it happened,
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it happened, it happened.
There's nothing we can do aboutthat.
It happened.
At this point, the devastationis so great that we, yes, is it
important to look at otherfactors?
Yes, but not right now.
Right now, what's important isreally getting the magnitude of
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one's life, your life, and howquickly it can end, or how
quickly a loved one of yourscould be gone.
In a second You're just goneabout your day and we often
never think about that, you know, and this happens every day, we
lose people every day.
But there's something about themagnitude of nature at that
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level the power, and all you cando is hold on for the ride.
You know, like I said, there'sno words.
It's a very sad time foreveryone involved and my heart
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goes out to every family andthat's all I can say.
That's all I'm going to say.
I feel like, I feel likeanything I would try to say,
it's it just, you can't, youcan't.
But here is what I'm going tosay, here's what I'm going to go
into, because that event, thatevent caused a dear friend of
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mine Just love this human beingso much.
He shared a story with me thattruly rocked my world.
Last Saturday I read that story.
I couldn't put it down.
And here's the funny thing Iread that story, I couldn't put
it down.
And here's the funny thing.
So him and I were texting inthe morning and I said to him
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hey, my mission this weekend isall about raising my frequency.
I'm going to raise my frequencythis weekend.
And, uh, right after that hesent me this story and my
intention was that I was goingto be in nature, you know,
because I was.
I was still feeling the sadnessof what was happening.
But he sent me the story andwhen I started reading the story
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.
I hadn't even gotten out of bedyet, started reading the story
and I broke down in tears as Iread this story and my heart
plummeted.
I read this story and my heartplummeted and the heaviness and
the rawness of the story and thereality and the realness of
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that story really cracked myheart open at a whole new level
as I read every word in thatstory, feeling everything that
all those people were feeling inthat moment.
It just it rocked me and I waspretty much on the floor
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emotionally at that point and Ieven reached out to him and I
was like what prompted you tosend that to me?
And he said maybe you needed tofeel whatever you're feeling.
And he was right, because whatthat story did was unearth some
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PTSD that I had around 9-11.
And I was in New York during9-11.
I was 20 blocks away.
I would have been one of thepeople witnessing the first
plane, but I forgot my computerso I had to go back up to my
room and the colleague I waswith watched it room and the
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colleague I was with watched itand that four days on that
island were some of the scariestdays of my life, many of our
lives and that again was anothertraumatic, terrorizing,
catastrophic event.
Now it happened years and yearsago, right, but, and I thought
I dealt with it and I thought Iwas okay Do you know that movie
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Vice?
That movie Vice in thebeginning they have an opening
scene and not even MichaelMoore's movies have me feel the
way that opening scene did andthat opening scene, when I first
saw that movie at the theater,kind of triggered me also.
But reading that story, theplay-by-play, took me back to
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the day of 9-11.
And I can tell people theplay-by-play and when I explain
the play by play it's like I'mthere, I feel it.
But what I hadn't accessed wasthe depth of terror in my body
and the fear and the sadness andthe magnitude of which I was
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operating on top of all that tosurvive.
So, without going deep into thatstory because it's an old one,
my point in sharing today issnap the fuck out of your story.
Okay, and this may occurinsensitive, but I don't want it
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to occur insensitive.
I want you to get where I'mcoming from.
Is your life is precious?
This is it as far as we know.
Yes, I'm somebody who will talkabout past lives.
I am that girl.
I believe in it.
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But what I do know is what Idon't know.
I don't know what really willhappen when we die and if we
don't really know, except forthose who have died and come
back and even they don't reallyknow everything because they
only know to the part they gotto.
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But what I do know is that somany people, people, decide of a
fucking story that's limiting.
It's limiting you, it'sstopping you from living your
fullest life and at any point intime, your life can be over in
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a second.
Now, whether it's a splitsecond because you had a quick
split death, or you are fightingfor your life in a rushing
river with a bunch of debris init and it's dark outside, or
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you're walking some running foryour life, because two towers in
a downtown city just went up inflames and came down and
thousands of people have no ideawhat to do, and many of those
people didn't even have a second.
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Their lives were over.
And so I am saying today I had amoment where I snapped the fuck
out of my story.
Okay, so all of it triggeredfrom this event of me reading
this story, having this moment,going deep into some emotions
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that I was not aware, were stillin my body, so deep that, out
of the blue, another dear friendreached out to me and thank God
he did, because I just neededto talk through where I was
feeling and he was like, hey,just call it like it is, this is
PTSD, because I was so.
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I couldn't believe how heavy myheart was and how heavy my body
was.
And so I went about my day andI allowed myself to feel all of
those feelings, to feel all ofthose feelings.
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Then, all of a sudden, as Ifelt all those feelings, the
stories began to creep up, thestories of how my life's going
to go, the probable, predictablefuture, what will likely occur,
la, la, la.
I started going into thesestories about what I'll never
achieve, it's never going tohappen, blah, blah, blah,
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literally.
And as I saw those stories, Idon't even know what happened.
But I sat on my bed and I heardyou are going to get out of
those stories right now.
Right now, as many of you knowthose of you who've listened to
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my show, you know a lot about,you know my gifts with
clairvoyance and my ability toget these downloads.
I see things, I feel things, Ihear things.
I had a message that day andthe message was snap out of it.
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You have this life ahead of youand you get to say how it goes.
How many episodes have I beentalking about that?
I get to say how it goes.
You, listener, get to say howit goes.
You are the creator of thisworld.
You are, and this is what I'mhearing in my mind.
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And all of a sudden, as I'msitting on my bed, I could see
the thin layer of glass, thedistorted view, the illusion of
these stories, and I had theseglasses on that.
I was seeing my life throughthese glasses on that.
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I was seeing my life through,and if I kept those glasses on,
this life that I was blah, blah,blah, yeah, yeah, yeah, like,
yeah, that shit is going tohappen.
That shit is going to happenbecause you're putting it into
action.
You, miss Tara, are putting itinto action with your thoughts,
your emotion and now how youfeel in this heaviness.
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This is where you snap out ofit, because who I am is I'm
somebody who tells people allthe time.
You can go, feel that, but donot attach a story to it.
You can cry deep tears, youcould cry and have the big like
ugly cry, but don't you attach asingle story to it.
Allow it to release out of yourbody.
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So here I am, sitting on theedge of my bed and I'm hearing
all this and all of a sudden Isee this thin veil, like it's
like.
It's like a it's glass, like aplexiglass, right, but it's
thinner than that.
It's so thin that you can blowon it and the shit just shatters
.
That's how thin it is, but welive like it's 10 inches thick
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and we believe it.
We believe it.
We believe that.
We believe it.
We believe that it's not true.
None of your stories are true,not even the good ones, because
guess what?
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You can change those too.
You are the architect of yourlife.
Get that With your emotions,your feelings, your thoughts and
the energy that fuels thoseemotions and those thoughts
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become real.
In that moment I said okay, okay, okay.
And all of a sudden Iremembered I have this singing
bowl.
I have a singing bowl that wasgifted to me like 20 years ago.
And where does it sit?
It sits on a shelf in my livingroom behind the shelf door.
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And I heard get that damnsinging bowl right now.
And I went and got that singingbowl and I started banging and
like making the thing sing.
Okay, because what I knew isthat my cells needed a frequency
upgrade in that moment and Ialso knew that I needed to clear
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myself out.
I also knew that I needed tohonor all those feelings that
came up that day and I needed tohonor the fact that I had not
felt them in years and I hadpushed them down, and I needed
to honor all those who are stilllosing lives from those floods.
I needed to honor all of that.
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And I also knew that I wantedto be very present to how
fragile our lives can be, howquickly it can be over.
And here I am wallowing in astory instead of living my life
to its fullest.
Why?
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Because I can.
Does it mean I still might bumpup against limiting beliefs or
I'm never going to?
Yes, I might bump up againstthem.
I'm human.
But here's what I'll say.
I had this moment and shift ofholy shit.
I'm not going to keep thinkingthese thoughts.
I'm not going to keep thinkingthese thoughts because I know
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when I think certain thoughts, Ithen see those results.
I know that I've watched itplay out multiple times in my
life when I've had fear about mycareer or a job and I started
getting scared.
I promise you, those fears camereal every damn time, every
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damn time.
And so what I did that night?
I sat on my bed and I had astraight conversation with God
and I said you know what, god?
Here is what I deserve.
I deserve X, I deserve X, Ideserve X, x, x and I will not
have it any other way.
This is what I say I'm gonna do, this is what I want to do and
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this is why.
Because I deserve it and I amdone with any of that other
stuff.
I'm done with it.
It's over.
I'm not going to repeat thatcycle.
I spoke in this direct tone thatI'm having right now and I said
various things in that tone toGod, and then I clanged more on
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my singing bowl, I played withmy cards, I cleared my energy
and then I went to bed, playedwith my cards, I cleared my
energy, and then I went to bedand I did work for my son, for
myself, for our house, and I waslike this is over.
These stories that I'm playingwith, which are ridiculous,
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they're done.
I'm ready for the upgrade.
God, and only I can say that,because the door is wide open,
I'm the one who closes it withmy thoughts, feelings or
emotions.
So the next morning wild I'mlike a really miraculous thing
occurred because I asked for itand I reconnected with somebody
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in a really great way and we hada beautiful conversation.
And then this new side hustlethat I'm doing called sold
spaces where I'm aligning energyand homes and frequencies for
realtors all of a sudden cameabout and I got clients that day
All these things I began to askand declare and say that I
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deserved, started opening upThings that I was like oh well,
I don't have the time or it'snot going to happen for me, and
isn't that funny.
People probably listen to thisand be like you think like that.
Yes, because I'm human, we allhave our things and that's one
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of my things.
I struggle with my own stories,like the rest of us, but I just
said no more, I'm not going todo that story anymore.
Let me create a new one andthen I'll bump up against
whatever challenges are in thatnew story, because there's going
to be challenges.
And so what I did that weekend?
Actually all this week I'vebeen talking to people, I've
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been working on this new sidehustle.
I've been pushing to createmore in my current career.
I am rebranding this podcast.
I don't want to share it yet.
I'm super excited about it.
But I'm rebranding it because Ireally want that name to speak
to the truth of who I am.
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And it isn't that I'm not anintuitive mentor mom.
I am a mom.
I am intuitive.
I do mentor a lot of people myfriends, family, people I care
about and happy to supportanybody who is looking for some
support.
But it's more than that,because who I am is more than
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that.
Just like you, who you are ismore than what you see.
And I will say this I don't knowwhere my life will go at this
point, but I will say this I amnot going to continue to repeat
the things I've been repeatingand I'm now getting very crystal
clear in seeing patterns in mylife and seeing them so clearly
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that I'm like oh yes, that's whythis is happening.
This is a pattern from seven oreight years ago and I'm just
repeating the cycle.
It just looks a little prettierthis time.
And I'm just repeating thecycle.
It just looks a little prettierthis time.
So what are the choices I'mgoing to make?
Who will I be and do I need tokeep repeating this cycle, or
would I like to explore andexperience a new one?
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I'd like that new one, thankyou, and I'd like it to be an
upgrade, and I'd like it to bewho I say I really am, who I am
at my truth and my core, and Iwould like to remind myself that
I can have anything I desirebecause I deserve it.
And that is what I want you tohear.
I want you to hear that youlistener, whoever you are out
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there, that is who you are foryou, you get to say those very
things to yourself because youdeserve it.
You deserve everything, youdesire Everything.
It is there and yours for thehaving and receiving, and only
we ourselves, with our monkeyminds, get in the way of that
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receiving.
And in that moment, when I madethat declaration to God, I
literally saw that veil open.
It was like it just moved outof the way and I, if I could
describe it, it was like.
It was like.
It was like things were more,more.
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What do you call that?
I don't know.
It was brighter.
What do they call that Spectravision?
What was that called on the TVwhen color came?
I don't know, but everythingwas in even brighter, more
intense color and it felt lightand it felt a little freer.
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And if there's anything I willsay that's different about who I
am today is I'm not lettingthose stories get in the way and
stop me and allow me toprocrastinate, and that's what I
would do.
I would procrastinate and, yes,I have to fight with the phone,
meaning I have to fight againsttechnology and its desire to
have me doom scroll.
I have to fight againsttechnology and its desire to,
you know, have me doom scroll.
Right, that's always a constantbattle, but what shifted in me
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is that I stopped being afraidto speak truth.
I stopped being afraid to trynew things.
I stopped being afraid.
What's there to be afraid of?
What are you afraid of Falseevents appearing real?
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What are you afraid of?
That you're not doing, or thatyou're not saying, or who you're
not being for either?
A friend, a family member, yourcoworkers?
What is it that you trulydesire?
That you say you want, thatyou're not willing to?
Because I don't know.
You're afraid to speak up.
They might say no.
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Who cares if they say no,whatever it is that stops you.
You're not a good fit, or maybeyou don't think they'd choose
you or whatever.
Whatever it is, blah, blah,blah, blah, blah, blah, you know
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.
So today I guess I'm going toshare this like it's just a
little ass kicking day Get thefuck out of your story, shatter
it, break it, destroy it,dissolve it, kick it down.
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Kick it down.
Imagine you're kicking thisglass like it really is, like as
thin as fucking paper.
So if you kicked it, the thingwould shatter, kick it down.
Who will you be today for you?
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You, you only have one lifethat we're aware of.
This is it?
It can be washed away inseconds, literally.
So that's my message today.
I actually had so much going onthis week and I was like, oh,
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I'm just going to repurpose apodcast.
You know I don't not manypeople are listening, they're
not going to care.
Blah, blah, blah.
Like that was what was in myhead and I thought to myself
girl, you have so much to share.
No, just get on there, youdon't need to write anything out
.
Get on and speak from yourheart, speak from your truth and
create the episode.
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And hey, by the way, the topicis like snap the fuck out of
your story.
Had a great conversation withtwo of my friends this week and
we all snapped the fuck out ofour stories and we just got real
and, oh my God, all thesethings opened up for each one of
us just got real.
And oh my God, all these thingsopened up for each one of us.
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Each one of us had all of thesethings open up, which was
amazing, and we snapped out ofour story.
Just snap out of it.
I don't care how heavy yourstory is.
If you want to hold onto it.
You want to keep carrying it.
You want to keep suffering itand suffering.
Go for it.
Let me know when you're done.
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Let me know when you're donesuffering, because you know what
.
If you want to continue tosuffer, all I will say is
there's more for you to learn inthe suffering.
That's it.
And you know what.
I'll let you suffer, go for it,enjoy yourself, call me when
you're done.
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You want to live?
Kick the fucking story down.
It's done and create a new one,upgrade that one, have a
different outcome.
That's what I did with mine.
I had a different outcome.
At the end of the story I waslike, no, not that one.
I want this outcome because Ideserve that outcome and with
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this situation.
I want this outcome because Ideserve that outcome.
I deserve it.
Took me 53 years, 54 yearshowever old I am, I don't know
54.
Took me 54 years to figure thatout, that I deserve it, and to
have conviction that I deserveit at that level, and I want you
to do the same because youdeserve it.
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So go, live the life youdeserve.
Be the amazing man or womanthat you are.
Crush the shit out of things,beat your chest, wail into a
pillow or wail out to the worldwhatever you got to do, but
stand tall and be who you reallyare, because you are amazing
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and we can't be without you,because if we could, you
wouldn't be here and you're hereand we need you.
And right now, my dog islicking my arm and they're
making lots of noise and I'm sosorry.
Okay, that's enough of me beingon the little pedestal, but
that is what happened this week.
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I thought it was important toshare.
Snap the F out of your story.
I want to hear what you got outof this, what you heard, where
you're at.
Again, my heart goes out to allof those.
This devastation of you knowwhat?
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Any devastation around theplanet?
Yes, the flooding is intenseand it has been horrific here,
but there are things happeningall over the world right now and
my heart goes out to humanity.
My heart goes out to humanityand I pray that we all continue
to look inward and to continueto love and to release all these
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limiting beliefs, all theselimiting stories I also talked
about.
You know how language is sodamn limiting.
Language just locks you in abox.
Get out beyond the words andget into the space of love and
feel deeply, feel it, experienceit, express it, because this is
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it.
You only have one life thatwe're aware of, so live it to
your fullest.
I love you.
Thank you so much for tuning inthis week.
Every other week, sundaymornings at seven o'clock, I'm
here.
I don't know what we're talkingabout.
Next week, like I said, I'mgetting ready to rebrand, so
we'll see.
I've got a lot of platesspinning at the moment, as I
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always do, but I want to thankall of you, each and every one
of you that continues to supportthis show.
I love you and I thank you, andI'll see you guys on the next
show.
Have a great week.
Have a great week, thanks.
Thank you for coming on thishealing adventure.
Today, if you're starting tosee how everything is falling
into place for you, considerrating the show and sharing it
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with one of your friends.
Keep that spirit alive and joinme next week.
Same place, same time.
Have a great week.
In today's episode we are talking about snap the F
out of it.
Snap the F out of your story.
Snap the F out of your story.
And what's your story?
I don't know, but I'm going toshare with you a story that I
had that I needed to snap the Fout and, funny enough, we're
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going to get right into it rightnow.
So here we go.
Welcome back to the IntuitiveMentor Mom podcast, where we
explore strategies forpracticing more self-love,
gratitude and finding new waysto empower ourselves in this
ever-changing healing adventureof life happening for us.
I'm your host, tara Michelle.
Let's get started.
Welcome back to IntuitiveMentor Mom the podcast.
(00:47):
That's all about how life ishappening for us not to us and
who are you going to be in thematter.
So I want to welcome all of youback to the show.
Before I go into this topic ofsnap the fuck out of it.
Snap the fuck out of your storyof it.
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Snap the fuck out of your story.
Before I get into that topic, Iwant to say that how all of
this came about.
This last week was a dearfriend of mine sharing a story
that became pretty.
I want to say it was like avery viral story about the flood
, the floods here in Texas, andso first I wanna say my heart
truly goes out to every singlefamily person, anyone who's been
(01:34):
impacted by this flood, thefloods we've had several and
there are no words.
There are no words.
There are no words that you cansay for the loss and the
devastation.
You know, I didn't know any ofthose people, but I'm one degree
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separation from many of themand I think if there's anything
that it can really wake you upto is how fragile life is, how
planet Earth can shake us off atany second.
And not going into any of thethoughts of the how it happened,
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it happened, it happened.
There's nothing we can do aboutthat.
It happened.
At this point, the devastationis so great that we, yes, is it
important to look at otherfactors?
Yes, but not right now.
Right now, what's important isreally getting the magnitude of
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one's life, your life, and howquickly it can end, or how
quickly a loved one of yourscould be gone.
In a second You're just goneabout your day and we often
never think about that, you know, and this happens every day, we
lose people every day.
But there's something about themagnitude of nature at that
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level the power, and all you cando is hold on for the ride.
You know, like I said, there'sno words.
It's a very sad time foreveryone involved and my heart
(03:27):
goes out to every family andthat's all I can say.
That's all I'm going to say.
I feel like, I feel likeanything I would try to say,
it's it just, you can't, youcan't.
But here is what I'm going tosay, here's what I'm going to go
into, because that event, thatevent caused a dear friend of
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mine Just love this human beingso much.
He shared a story with me thattruly rocked my world.
Last Saturday I read that story.
I couldn't put it down.
And here's the funny thing Iread that story, I couldn't put
it down.
And here's the funny thing.
So him and I were texting inthe morning and I said to him
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hey, my mission this weekend isall about raising my frequency.
I'm going to raise my frequencythis weekend.
And, uh, right after that hesent me this story and my
intention was that I was goingto be in nature, you know,
because I was.
I was still feeling the sadnessof what was happening.
But he sent me the story andwhen I started reading the story
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.
I hadn't even gotten out of bedyet, started reading the story
and I broke down in tears as Iread this story and my heart
plummeted.
I read this story and my heartplummeted and the heaviness and
the rawness of the story and thereality and the realness of
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that story really cracked myheart open at a whole new level
as I read every word in thatstory, feeling everything that
all those people were feeling inthat moment.
It just it rocked me and I waspretty much on the floor
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emotionally at that point and Ieven reached out to him and I
was like what prompted you tosend that to me?
And he said maybe you needed tofeel whatever you're feeling.
And he was right, because whatthat story did was unearth some
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PTSD that I had around 9-11.
And I was in New York during9-11.
I was 20 blocks away.
I would have been one of thepeople witnessing the first
plane, but I forgot my computerso I had to go back up to my
room and the colleague I waswith watched it room and the
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colleague I was with watched itand that four days on that
island were some of the scariestdays of my life, many of our
lives and that again was anothertraumatic, terrorizing,
catastrophic event.
Now it happened years and yearsago, right, but, and I thought
I dealt with it and I thought Iwas okay Do you know that movie
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Vice?
That movie Vice in thebeginning they have an opening
scene and not even MichaelMoore's movies have me feel the
way that opening scene did andthat opening scene, when I first
saw that movie at the theater,kind of triggered me also.
But reading that story, theplay-by-play, took me back to
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the day of 9-11.
And I can tell people theplay-by-play and when I explain
the play by play it's like I'mthere, I feel it.
But what I hadn't accessed wasthe depth of terror in my body
and the fear and the sadness andthe magnitude of which I was
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operating on top of all that tosurvive.
So, without going deep into thatstory because it's an old one,
my point in sharing today issnap the fuck out of your story.
Okay, and this may occurinsensitive, but I don't want it
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to occur insensitive.
I want you to get where I'mcoming from.
Is your life is precious?
This is it as far as we know.
Yes, I'm somebody who will talkabout past lives.
I am that girl.
I believe in it.
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But what I do know is what Idon't know.
I don't know what really willhappen when we die and if we
don't really know, except forthose who have died and come
back and even they don't reallyknow everything because they
only know to the part they gotto.
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But what I do know is that somany people, people, decide of a
fucking story that's limiting.
It's limiting you, it'sstopping you from living your
fullest life and at any point intime, your life can be over in
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a second.
Now, whether it's a splitsecond because you had a quick
split death, or you are fightingfor your life in a rushing
river with a bunch of debris init and it's dark outside, or
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you're walking some running foryour life, because two towers in
a downtown city just went up inflames and came down and
thousands of people have no ideawhat to do, and many of those
people didn't even have a second.
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Their lives were over.
And so I am saying today I had amoment where I snapped the fuck
out of my story.
Okay, so all of it triggeredfrom this event of me reading
this story, having this moment,going deep into some emotions
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that I was not aware, were stillin my body, so deep that, out
of the blue, another dear friendreached out to me and thank God
he did, because I just neededto talk through where I was
feeling and he was like, hey,just call it like it is, this is
PTSD, because I was so.
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I couldn't believe how heavy myheart was and how heavy my body
was.
And so I went about my day andI allowed myself to feel all of
those feelings, to feel all ofthose feelings.
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Then, all of a sudden, as Ifelt all those feelings, the
stories began to creep up, thestories of how my life's going
to go, the probable, predictablefuture, what will likely occur,
la, la, la.
I started going into thesestories about what I'll never
achieve, it's never going tohappen, blah, blah, blah,
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literally.
And as I saw those stories, Idon't even know what happened.
But I sat on my bed and I heardyou are going to get out of
those stories right now.
Right now, as many of you knowthose of you who've listened to
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my show, you know a lot about,you know my gifts with
clairvoyance and my ability toget these downloads.
I see things, I feel things, Ihear things.
I had a message that day andthe message was snap out of it.
(12:02):
You have this life ahead of youand you get to say how it goes.
How many episodes have I beentalking about that?
I get to say how it goes.
You, listener, get to say howit goes.
You are the creator of thisworld.
You are, and this is what I'mhearing in my mind.
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And all of a sudden, as I'msitting on my bed, I could see
the thin layer of glass, thedistorted view, the illusion of
these stories, and I had theseglasses on that.
I was seeing my life throughthese glasses on that.
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I was seeing my life through,and if I kept those glasses on,
this life that I was blah, blah,blah, yeah, yeah, yeah, like,
yeah, that shit is going tohappen.
That shit is going to happenbecause you're putting it into
action.
You, miss Tara, are putting itinto action with your thoughts,
your emotion and now how youfeel in this heaviness.
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This is where you snap out ofit, because who I am is I'm
somebody who tells people allthe time.
You can go, feel that, but donot attach a story to it.
You can cry deep tears, youcould cry and have the big like
ugly cry, but don't you attach asingle story to it.
Allow it to release out of yourbody.
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So here I am, sitting on theedge of my bed and I'm hearing
all this and all of a sudden Isee this thin veil, like it's
like.
It's like a it's glass, like aplexiglass, right, but it's
thinner than that.
It's so thin that you can blowon it and the shit just shatters
.
That's how thin it is, but welive like it's 10 inches thick
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and we believe it.
We believe it.
We believe that.
We believe it.
We believe that it's not true.
None of your stories are true,not even the good ones, because
guess what?
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You can change those too.
You are the architect of yourlife.
Get that With your emotions,your feelings, your thoughts and
the energy that fuels thoseemotions and those thoughts
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become real.
In that moment I said okay, okay, okay.
And all of a sudden Iremembered I have this singing
bowl.
I have a singing bowl that wasgifted to me like 20 years ago.
And where does it sit?
It sits on a shelf in my livingroom behind the shelf door.
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And I heard get that damnsinging bowl right now.
And I went and got that singingbowl and I started banging and
like making the thing sing.
Okay, because what I knew isthat my cells needed a frequency
upgrade in that moment and Ialso knew that I needed to clear
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myself out.
I also knew that I needed tohonor all those feelings that
came up that day and I needed tohonor the fact that I had not
felt them in years and I hadpushed them down, and I needed
to honor all those who are stilllosing lives from those floods.
I needed to honor all of that.
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And I also knew that I wantedto be very present to how
fragile our lives can be, howquickly it can be over.
And here I am wallowing in astory instead of living my life
to its fullest.
Why?
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Because I can.
Does it mean I still might bumpup against limiting beliefs or
I'm never going to?
Yes, I might bump up againstthem.
I'm human.
But here's what I'll say.
I had this moment and shift ofholy shit.
I'm not going to keep thinkingthese thoughts.
I'm not going to keep thinkingthese thoughts because I know
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when I think certain thoughts, Ithen see those results.
I know that I've watched itplay out multiple times in my
life when I've had fear about mycareer or a job and I started
getting scared.
I promise you, those fears camereal every damn time, every
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damn time.
And so what I did that night?
I sat on my bed and I had astraight conversation with God
and I said you know what, god?
Here is what I deserve.
I deserve X, I deserve X, Ideserve X, x, x and I will not
have it any other way.
This is what I say I'm gonna do, this is what I want to do and
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this is why.
Because I deserve it and I amdone with any of that other
stuff.
I'm done with it.
It's over.
I'm not going to repeat thatcycle.
I spoke in this direct tone thatI'm having right now and I said
various things in that tone toGod, and then I clanged more on
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my singing bowl, I played withmy cards, I cleared my energy
and then I went to bed, playedwith my cards, I cleared my
energy, and then I went to bedand I did work for my son, for
myself, for our house, and I waslike this is over.
These stories that I'm playingwith, which are ridiculous,
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they're done.
I'm ready for the upgrade.
God, and only I can say that,because the door is wide open,
I'm the one who closes it withmy thoughts, feelings or
emotions.
So the next morning wild I'mlike a really miraculous thing
occurred because I asked for itand I reconnected with somebody
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in a really great way and we hada beautiful conversation.
And then this new side hustlethat I'm doing called sold
spaces where I'm aligning energyand homes and frequencies for
realtors all of a sudden cameabout and I got clients that day
All these things I began to askand declare and say that I
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deserved, started opening upThings that I was like oh well,
I don't have the time or it'snot going to happen for me, and
isn't that funny.
People probably listen to thisand be like you think like that.
Yes, because I'm human, we allhave our things and that's one
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of my things.
I struggle with my own stories,like the rest of us, but I just
said no more, I'm not going todo that story anymore.
Let me create a new one andthen I'll bump up against
whatever challenges are in thatnew story, because there's going
to be challenges.
And so what I did that weekend?
Actually all this week I'vebeen talking to people, I've
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been working on this new sidehustle.
I've been pushing to createmore in my current career.
I am rebranding this podcast.
I don't want to share it yet.
I'm super excited about it.
But I'm rebranding it because Ireally want that name to speak
to the truth of who I am.
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And it isn't that I'm not anintuitive mentor mom.
I am a mom.
I am intuitive.
I do mentor a lot of people myfriends, family, people I care
about and happy to supportanybody who is looking for some
support.
But it's more than that,because who I am is more than
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that.
Just like you, who you are ismore than what you see.
And I will say this I don't knowwhere my life will go at this
point, but I will say this I amnot going to continue to repeat
the things I've been repeatingand I'm now getting very crystal
clear in seeing patterns in mylife and seeing them so clearly
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that I'm like oh yes, that's whythis is happening.
This is a pattern from seven oreight years ago and I'm just
repeating the cycle.
It just looks a little prettierthis time.
And I'm just repeating thecycle.
It just looks a little prettierthis time.
So what are the choices I'mgoing to make?
Who will I be and do I need tokeep repeating this cycle, or
would I like to explore andexperience a new one?
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I'd like that new one, thankyou, and I'd like it to be an
upgrade, and I'd like it to bewho I say I really am, who I am
at my truth and my core, and Iwould like to remind myself that
I can have anything I desirebecause I deserve it.
And that is what I want you tohear.
I want you to hear that youlistener, whoever you are out
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there, that is who you are foryou, you get to say those very
things to yourself because youdeserve it.
You deserve everything, youdesire Everything.
It is there and yours for thehaving and receiving, and only
we ourselves, with our monkeyminds, get in the way of that
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receiving.
And in that moment, when I madethat declaration to God, I
literally saw that veil open.
It was like it just moved outof the way and I, if I could
describe it, it was like.
It was like.
It was like things were more,more.
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What do you call that?
I don't know.
It was brighter.
What do they call that Spectravision?
What was that called on the TVwhen color came?
I don't know, but everythingwas in even brighter, more
intense color and it felt lightand it felt a little freer.
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And if there's anything I willsay that's different about who I
am today is I'm not lettingthose stories get in the way and
stop me and allow me toprocrastinate, and that's what I
would do.
I would procrastinate and, yes,I have to fight with the phone,
meaning I have to fight againsttechnology and its desire to
have me doom scroll.
I have to fight againsttechnology and its desire to,
you know, have me doom scroll.
Right, that's always a constantbattle, but what shifted in me
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is that I stopped being afraidto speak truth.
I stopped being afraid to trynew things.
I stopped being afraid.
What's there to be afraid of?
What are you afraid of Falseevents appearing real?
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What are you afraid of?
That you're not doing, or thatyou're not saying, or who you're
not being for either?
A friend, a family member, yourcoworkers?
What is it that you trulydesire?
That you say you want, thatyou're not willing to?
Because I don't know.
You're afraid to speak up.
They might say no.
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Who cares if they say no,whatever it is that stops you.
You're not a good fit, or maybeyou don't think they'd choose
you or whatever.
Whatever it is, blah, blah,blah, blah, blah, blah, you know
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.
So today I guess I'm going toshare this like it's just a
little ass kicking day Get thefuck out of your story, shatter
it, break it, destroy it,dissolve it, kick it down.
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Kick it down.
Imagine you're kicking thisglass like it really is, like as
thin as fucking paper.
So if you kicked it, the thingwould shatter, kick it down.
Who will you be today for you?
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You, you only have one lifethat we're aware of.
This is it?
It can be washed away inseconds, literally.
So that's my message today.
I actually had so much going onthis week and I was like, oh,
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I'm just going to repurpose apodcast.
You know I don't not manypeople are listening, they're
not going to care.
Blah, blah, blah.
Like that was what was in myhead and I thought to myself
girl, you have so much to share.
No, just get on there, youdon't need to write anything out
.
Get on and speak from yourheart, speak from your truth and
create the episode.
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And hey, by the way, the topicis like snap the fuck out of
your story.
Had a great conversation withtwo of my friends this week and
we all snapped the fuck out ofour stories and we just got real
and, oh my God, all thesethings opened up for each one of
us just got real.
And oh my God, all these thingsopened up for each one of us.
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Each one of us had all of thesethings open up, which was
amazing, and we snapped out ofour story.
Just snap out of it.
I don't care how heavy yourstory is.
If you want to hold onto it.
You want to keep carrying it.
You want to keep suffering itand suffering.
Go for it.
Let me know when you're done.
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Let me know when you're donesuffering, because you know what
.
If you want to continue tosuffer, all I will say is
there's more for you to learn inthe suffering.
That's it.
And you know what.
I'll let you suffer, go for it,enjoy yourself, call me when
you're done.
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You want to live?
Kick the fucking story down.
It's done and create a new one,upgrade that one, have a
different outcome.
That's what I did with mine.
I had a different outcome.
At the end of the story I waslike, no, not that one.
I want this outcome because Ideserve that outcome and with
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this situation.
I want this outcome because Ideserve that outcome.
I deserve it.
Took me 53 years, 54 yearshowever old I am, I don't know
54.
Took me 54 years to figure thatout, that I deserve it, and to
have conviction that I deserveit at that level, and I want you
to do the same because youdeserve it.
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So go, live the life youdeserve.
Be the amazing man or womanthat you are.
Crush the shit out of things,beat your chest, wail into a
pillow or wail out to the worldwhatever you got to do, but
stand tall and be who you reallyare, because you are amazing
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and we can't be without you,because if we could, you
wouldn't be here and you're hereand we need you.
And right now, my dog islicking my arm and they're
making lots of noise and I'm sosorry.
Okay, that's enough of me beingon the little pedestal, but
that is what happened this week.
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I thought it was important toshare.
Snap the F out of your story.
I want to hear what you got outof this, what you heard, where
you're at.
Again, my heart goes out to allof those.
This devastation of you knowwhat?
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Any devastation around theplanet?
Yes, the flooding is intenseand it has been horrific here,
but there are things happeningall over the world right now and
my heart goes out to humanity.
My heart goes out to humanityand I pray that we all continue
to look inward and to continueto love and to release all these
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limiting beliefs, all theselimiting stories I also talked
about.
You know how language is sodamn limiting.
Language just locks you in abox.
Get out beyond the words andget into the space of love and
feel deeply, feel it, experienceit, express it, because this is
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it.
You only have one life thatwe're aware of, so live it to
your fullest.
I love you.
Thank you so much for tuning inthis week.
Every other week, sundaymornings at seven o'clock, I'm
here.
I don't know what we're talkingabout.
Next week, like I said, I'mgetting ready to rebrand, so
we'll see.
I've got a lot of platesspinning at the moment, as I
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always do, but I want to thankall of you, each and every one
of you that continues to supportthis show.
I love you and I thank you, andI'll see you guys on the next
show.
Have a great week.
Have a great week, thanks.
Thank you for coming on thishealing adventure.
Today, if you're starting tosee how everything is falling
into place for you, considerrating the show and sharing it
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with one of your friends.
Keep that spirit alive and joinme next week.
Same place, same time.
Have a great week.
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