Ep19 | Grief, Fear & Letting Go: When the Life You Imagined Isn’t the One You’re Living (Part 1)

This was supposed to be a podcast about fear, and it is. But what we didn’t expect was how much of our fear—especially as special needs or foster moms—is really just grief in disguise.

 

In this deeply vulnerable episode, Deena & Christina share from the rawest parts of their own journeys—about what it means to grieve the life we thought our kids would have… and the life we thought we would have. They open up about image, loss, shame, protective instincts, anxiety, and the unspoken fear that keeps so many moms quietly drowning in fear of the future.

 

This isn’t a tidy how-to episode. It’s a real-life, mascara-running, Jesus-sitting-in-the-middle-of-our-junk kind of conversation. So grab a tissue, a coffee, and know that you’re not alone. You’re not crazy. And your grief is not faithlessness—it’s part of the process.

 

👂 Part 2 coming next week: “Facing Fear as a Special NeedsMom: Trusting God with the Unknown"

 

🗝️ Key Takeaways:

🩷Why fear is often just unprocessed grief

💜The pressure to make our kids look “okay” for the world

💛What it really feels like to grieve the life we imagined

🩷Learning to trust God with the life we didn’t plan

💜The power of surrender when we don’t have the answers

💛How fear can paralyze us, but peace is still possible

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