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I am writing this so I don't forget the order of things and
so someone else can recognize the signs if they ever find the
same ground. My name is Clara Redmond, I grew
up in Salem, OR. My older sister Nora disappeared
on a hiking trip when I was 14, She was 20.
Her last text was a photo of theWilson River near a bend below a
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rock outcrop off Hwy. 6, somewhere between the Jones
Creek and Keeney Creek trail heads.
After that, nothing. Every September I come back to
Tillamook State Forest. I tell people it's foreclosure,
but it's closer to inventory. I walk the trails, check the
pull outs, read the bulletin boards and pay attention to
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anything that wasn't there before.
The forest has a public record if you know what to look for.
Reforestation signs about the Tillamook Burn.
Schoolchildren who planted seedlings in the 1950's.
The opening of the Tillamook Forest Center in 2006.
Trail mileage markers that don'tmove but wear down from boots.
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I thought history would make me feel less lost.
This year, my friends asked me not to spend Nora's 30th
birthday alone. I agreed because I didn't want
to make the same circle by myself again.
We camped just off the Wilson River Trail a few miles West of
the Jones Creek day use area. We weren't far from the water.
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You could hear it moving in the dark.
The group was Matt, who makes a joke out of anything 1st and
deals with feeling second, Dana,a medical student who carries
more first aid gear than some small clinics, Cole, quiet and
reliable, and Luis, who brought a guitar and a small bag of weed
he swore was for sleep. I planned the walk, made sure we
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were outside the riparian zones and picked a flat spot that
didn't show recent use. We cooked shrimp and rice on a
camp stove and talked about old music and how many times we'd
all promised to quit our jobs. I tried to keep the conversation
on neutral ground and away from Nora.
I failed. People who love you will always
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steer back to the thing you avoid.
Just after midnight the coyotes moved close.
Most of the time they stay in the cut blocks or across the
river. That night they came up the
slope, yipping in short bursts. We heard one weighty movement in
the brush and then nothing. I told myself it was deer.
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The air felt heavy. It is hard to define this
without sounding like superstition.
What I can say is that we kept stopping mid sentence to listen.
The river stayed steady. The wind through the furs
sounded normal. And then it didn't.
Like a hand pressed down on the whole scene.
We killed the fire to keep the smoke from sinking under the
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canopy. Everyone went to tents.
I lay awake on my pad with my headlamp off, counting breaths
and thinking about the odds thatNora had picked this trail the
day she vanished. I wasn't crying.
I was waiting for the feeling topass.
The sound under my tent started like sand shifting in a bottle.
I told myself it was root movement or a vole.
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It was not. It turned into a steady
scrubbing noise against the underside of the floor.
I sat up and placed my palm flat.
There was something pressing back.
The next push bowed the nylon. I rolled off the pad and
unzipped as fast as the teeth would allow and shouted for
Matt. By the time he got to me, the
tent floor creased inward like someone had reached up from
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below and made a fist. Dana had her headlamp on my
hands as I pulled stakes. Cole brought the camp shovel.
When the last stake came free, the body under the floor shifted
again. We grabbed the corners and
dragged the whole thing aside. The soil below was loose and
dark, almost black. Matt knelt and started digging
with both hands. He hit knuckles first.
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The hand was small and slick with mud.
He said he had it, and then we all had it, and then a forearm,
and then a shoulder. There was a woman buried there,
face turned to the side in a pocket of air.
When I cleared her mouth, the first thing she did was try to
scream, but no sound came. She took a breath that sounded
painful and said one sentence. If they know I'm alive, they'll
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come back. We got her out.
She was light in a way that mademe think of fever wards.
Mud caked her hair and packed the wrinkles of her ears.
Her nails were broken down into raw crescents.
The skin along her ribs and hipshad a pattern of faint cross
hatched scars, like old rope burns or a lattice that it
healed. Dana did the basics, airway,
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breathing, circulation. The woman was oriented but
shocky. She gave her name as Mara and
clutched at the ground whenever anyone stood up.
Dana wanted to hike her to the highway and flag a car.
It would have taken us an hour and a half dry to with someone
sick. Mara said no.
She said the word no with hard edges and shook her head so
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violently she almost fainted. They will know, she said.
I asked who. She looked toward the trees and
said nothing. We wrapped her in a space
blanket. In my coat, I held a bottle cap
of water to her lips and watchedher swallow the way you watch a
newborn, counting each motion like it might stop.
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We were careful. We put the fire out cold and
moved our food. We checked for tracks and didn't
find any new ones except ours. That should have made me feel
better. It did not.
The fire ring was old rock, but the ash inside wasn't fully
Gray. Someone had burned here very
recently and raked it smooth. The line where you expect to see
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boot edges had been brushed as if someone had used a leafy
branch to erase the boundary. Our food bags didn't hang where
we left them. They were cut down and slashed,
not torn, cut. The bananas and apples were
still there, oddly left in the dirt.
The protein bars were missing. I saw a loop of rope tossed over
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a low limb 20 yards from our tents.
At first I thought it was old line for a bear hang.
It had a small weight on the free end and a simple loop tied
at the other years of walking woods means you see a lot of
forgotten gear. This wasn't that.
Five more hung within sight all the same.
All with the same quick tie, No wind move them.
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That detail stuck with me because even on still nights,
there is always some movement. I thought I was prepared for
anything tied to my sister. I wasn't prepared for the
fragment of fabric I found caught in Mara's torn shirt.
The stitch pattern matched a coat Nora wore the winter before
she disappeared. My mother had added a repaired
patch with that same odd thread color because the original seam
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wouldn't hold. I told myself hundreds of
jackets have similar repairs. Then I felt the thread between
my fingers and knew I was lying.I did not tell anyone right
away. I stood with it in my hand and
tried to breathe until my body would accept the air.
We made a plan that satisfied noone.
We would wait for first light and move together to the highway
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with Mara. We would leave the tents and
gear if necessary, rotate, watchuntil dawn.
No one leaves the circle of the lights.
Louise sat with his guitar case closed and stared at nothing.
Cole walked the distance betweenthe river and the tents like an
animal pacing. Matt sharpened a stick to give
his hands a job. I stayed next to Mara and Dana.
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Every 15 minutes I checked Mara's pulse.
It was faster than it should have been and steady.
She would startle at nothing andscan the same part of the tree
line like there was a door there.
At 1:00 in the morning, a singlesharp whistle sounded from
uphill. It wasn't a bird.
The note was too flat and the diaphragm behind it felt human.
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10 seconds later another whistleanswered from below us, closer
to the river. 7 seconds after that, a third came from the
West. One of the worst parts of that
moment is I could hear Matt trying to decide whether to make
it into a joke and failing. We stood and faced outward
lights pointed into trunks and brush and empty spaces that
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looked like faces. Because fear makes patterns out
of gaps. A minute later, we found Luis's
boots placed neatly 50 yards away on the trail, toes pointed
toward camp, laces tied. He had been wearing them when we
started our watch. Luis came back around 2 with his
socks muddy up to the ankle bones.
He said he had gone to pee and then got turned around.
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There is a tone people make whenthey know they have to lie to
get back inside a circle. He had that tone.
Dana checked his pupils. They were normal.
He wouldn't look at Mara. I smelled kerosene on him even
before I bent close. He said it was from camp fuel
and lifted his hands like that explained why soil was pushed
deep under his nails. We put him between Matt and Cole
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and told him to sleep. No one slept.
At first light, we found three shallow depressions under the
Moss behind where my tent had been.
They were the width of a body and less than three feet deep,
each with fresh leaves layered on the bottom.
Later, I would think they lookedlike cradles for something
adults don't talk about. At the time, I focused on the
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practical. The soil was damp, but not newly
turned. The edges were clean, not clawed
out. Beside the third depression, I
found a thin line of chain half buried in mud.
When I pulled it free, a small charm came with it, the kind of
cheap letter charm you buy in a gas station rack.
It was a capital N. The backing was rusted so badly
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it flaked in my fingers. The second I saw it, I knew I
was done making bargains with fear.
I said we weren't leaving. I said whoever put Mara in the
dirt did it in a place they could return to without being
noticed. I said if we didn't follow their
path now, we never would. Matt told me I was thinking like
a person who needed the story toend a certain way.
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He wasn't wrong. Dana looked at Mara's wrists and
then at the depressions and saidwe had an obligation to do more
than run. Mara didn't remember faces.
She remembered hands. She remembered being dragged and
then lifted and then kept still by a board across her hips.
She remembered the smell of fuel.
She remembered hearing practicedmovements above her.
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Not clumsy or frantic like they've done it before, she
said. She pointed downhill toward a
place where the Alder thins and the ground firms.
Up there, she said, they take you that way.
We move slow and careful. Without talking.
I marked our path with small torn bits of orange tape from my
first aid kit whenever we changedirection.
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We kept Mara in the middle and checked behind us.
More than a head. About half a mile from camp, the
ground leveled into a flat with older stumps and younger growth.
In the center of the flat sat anarrangement of Timbers that at
first looked like salvage from an old bridge.
When we got closer we saw they were lids.
Rough cut boards nailed across shallow pits.
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Some had stones stacked on them,a few had been staked through
with rebar. The pits were long enough for
bodies, short enough that you'd have to bend your knees.
I put my ear to the nearest board and heard nothing.
Then to the next and heard a scrape from below.
Not a voice, not knocking. The steady scratch of nails on
wood. It is important to be honest
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here. We did not turn into heroes.
We did not pry up lids and carrystrangers out in our arms like a
news story. Matt stepped back until he hit
coal. Dana reached for the rebar and
then took her hand away. Mara wrapped her arms around her
torso like she was trying to hold herself closed.
I looked at all the boards at once and felt my mind stretched
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thin. The whistle came again, this
time from the trees to our left.Very close.
Five shapes moved out of the understory like they had been
waiting for the queue. They wore canvas and old jackets
patched with cloth I recognized from flea markets and farm
sales. Their faces were covered with
masks made from burlap and leather scraps stitched with
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symbols that meant nothing to meexcept the time it takes to make
them. They carried tools, shovels, a
length of rope with a loop already tied, a post hole
digger, a pry bar. None of them ran.
They just came on like they werewalking to work.
We back toward the far edge of the flat.
One of the figures cut across toblock.
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Two more separated to flank us. The person in the center stepped
toward Dana and reached for her without hurry.
Matt hit that one with the stickhe'd sharpened.
The sound it made against the shoulder was dull.
The person stumbled, then grabbed the stick and pulled it
out of his hands so fast I lost track of it.
Cole tackled the one on the leftand they went down and brush
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hard enough to break branches. I dragged Mara toward the far
side while Dana tried to pull Matt back in the middle of it
all. I had the stupid thought that we
had no idea how many more were in the trees.
I don't know where the idea camefrom except the smell on Luis's
hands. Fuel means fire.
We carried a small canister in my pack to start wet wood.
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I pulled it out and unscrewed the cap and poured a line across
the two closest lids and then sloshed a trail onto the brush
back. I said to Dana back.
The lighter took on the 4th flick.
When the flame ran across the board.
The sound from beneath changed. I will not describe that sound.
The second lid took. The flames climbed into dead
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grass and then into a punky log.Heat pushed the masked people
away a few yards. It didn't make them run.
It made them turn our way and take us seriously.
Fire is a tool and a threat in this forest.
The Tillamook Burn started in 1933 and burned over and over
for almost 20 years. The replanting took decades.
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There are signs everywhere aboutit.
How quickly heat can ladder intocrowns, how fast wind can turn
an ember into a line that runs amile.
I knew if I kept feeding the flame, we would be building more
than a distraction. I also knew it was the only
thing that changed the math. The nearest masked person
stepped in and swung the pry barat Matt.
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The bar hit him across the back and he folded.
Cole got to his feet with a mouth full of blood and charged
the same person. Dana grabbed one end of the rope
and looped it around the person's ankle and yanked.
It was clumsy, but it worked. The person hit the ground hard.
The mask shifted sideways and I saw enough of a face to know
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this wasn't a ghost story. It was a man in his 50s with a
white scar across his chin and amissing molar.
He looked at me like I had interrupted a job.
The fire popped and one of the lids split.
The heat washed across our backs. 2 masked figures moved to
stamp at the flames with wet burlap.
I took Mara's hand and pulled her toward the far trees.
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Dana got mad under the arms and dragged him.
Cole covered. We made it 20 yards before the
person with the pry bar got up again and came on with real
speed. I turned to throw the empty fuel
can and saw the patch on their mask, brown cloth with a slanted
line of blue thread down the center.
I knew it from the coat in my mother's hall closet.
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Norah's jacket patched the winter before she left home.
For a second I lost the ability to move.
The person with the mask steppedtoward me like he recognized
that drop in voltage. Cole hit him in the side and
they went down together. I grabbed the pry bar off the
ground and swung it in a straight arc.
The bar connected with a forearm.
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The masked person exhaled in a short burst and went still.
I didn't wait to see if he wouldget back up.
We left the flat while the fire climbed the brush.
It was controlled enough not to ladder into the crowns and for
once the damp air worked in our favor.
The masked people did not followus into the thicker stand.
They focused on the lids and theflames, and I understood too
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late that we were choosing whichlives to save by leaving the
fire where it was. We moved downslope toward the
river and found the trail in a cut between Salal and Swordfern.
It felt like stepping onto a road after being lost in a
field. We kept moving.
Luis was gone. I don't know when he broke away.
I only know I didn't see him again.
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We reached Hwy. 6 after sunrise,near the pull out for the
Tillamook Forest Center. A couple in a Subaru saw the
blood on Matt's shirt and stopped.
Without asking questions. They called 911.
The deputy listened to our storyand looked at the burns on the
back of my hands and wrote our names down.
He asked how much we'd had to drink.
He asked if we knew our attacker.
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He asked if we were sure about the location.
A forest officer came and talkedto the deputy in parking lot
voices. An ambulance took Matt and Dana
and Mara to the hospital in Tillamook.
My hands shook so hard I couldn't sign the initial
statement without resting the clipboard on the hood. 2
detectives met us later that day.
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A search team went out. They found old digs at a spur
off the trail and evidence of recent soil disturbance, but no
usable prints. Rain moved in that afternoon and
flattened the scene. The burns were visible but
contained. The deputies talked about
transient camps and illegal dumps.
And I understand liability enough to know you cannot write,
organize burial ground in a report without a career change.
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They asked if we could have misheard the whistles.
I told them I have heard enough wildlife in this forest to know
the difference. They nodded.
Like people who have to nod whenthey don't have a box for what
you are saying. Mara gave a statement through
tears and pauses. She remembered being picked up
near a highway turn out two nights before.
She remembered a smell like colddirt and fuel.
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She remembered the way her own breathing sounded under a board.
The hospital kept her overnight.Dana had a concussion and
bruised ribs. Matt had a fracture in his
forearm and deep contusions along his back.
Cole had stitches along his scalp.
I had burns across both palms. That made every daily task and
negotiation for a week. Luis's family filed a missing
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person report two days later. The deputy called me once to say
there were no updates. I went back to my mother's house
in Salem and sat with Nora's jacket on my lap.
The patch on the sleeve had the same blue thread I saw on the
mask. I don't know if it means what I
think it means. I only know that fabric doesn't
travel by itself. Someone carried that cloth from
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a closet to the woods or peeled it off her after she was gone.
I kept wondering why our food was slashed while the bananas
and apples were left, the high calorie bars taken, the clean
things left to rot. Systems reveal themselves and
what they ignore. A week later I drove back to the
Wilson River and parked at the same day used lot.
Where we started, I did not stepinto the trees.
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I stood on the shoulder of the highway with the engine off and
listened. Cars passed every few minutes
and then the sound settled back into the quiet.
You learn to trust out there. I could smell the river and damp
Duff and a faint trace of smoke that was probably someone's
breakfast fire. I didn't hear whistles.
I didn't hear coyotes. I did hear faint and persistent,
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a scratch under the roots besidethe first switch back down from
the lot. It wasn't wind.
It was not an animal I could name.
It was a human pattern against asurface.
I used to think the worst thing was not knowing.
I have changed my mind. The worst thing is understanding
the pattern and realizing it hasbeen there longer than your
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search and will be there after you stop.
This is the ending I can live with.
We got Mara out, Dana and Matt healed.
Cole checks in on me even when Idon't reply.
I filed everything I could with people who have to write things
down. I have stopped telling myself
I'm going to find Nora alive. That is not giving up.
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It is choosing to count the lives.
We can still move from under boards to open air.
If you hike the Wilson River Trail and you see tidy lines
where the ground shouldn't be tidy, or you find rope loops
where there is no reason for rope, or you smell fuel where
there is no Lantern, leave. If you hear a single whistle,
and then another, and then a third from a new direction, do
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not wait to see who is comfortable enough to stand in
the open. Get to the highway.
Call it in anyway. The forest keeps good records,
but we have to add to them. I won't go back down to the
flat. I don't need to.
I know exactly where it is. I know what it costs to walk
away, and I know what it gave meback.
Which is the right to stop walking in circles and let my
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sister be part of this place's history instead of my unfinished
map? My dad lives in Otley, West
Yorkshire, a few minutes drive from Chevin Forest Park.
During the lockdown years, he adopted a Labrador mix named
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Willow. I barely saw her those first two
years and when restrictions eased, she treated me like a
stranger, pacing, whining, not taking food from my hand.
On my next visit I offered to take her out alone and do the
simplest thing you can do with anervous dog.
Keep the route familiar, keep the commands consistent and
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finish before dark. We chose the path that runs off
E Chevin Rd. along the lower edge of the forest, a loop I
knew from childhood. It is well used by dog walkers
and runners. The plan was basic, let her off
the lead in the open stretches, call her back often and clip the
lead before we reach the road again.
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Chevin Forest has history stamped all over it.
Old quarry scars break the slope.
Dry stone walls run in crooked lines that once marked fields.
There's a viewpoint called Surprise View, where you can see
the Wharf Valley and the rooftops of Otley.
I grew up with school trips up there.
The place never felt spooky to me.
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It was just where people went towalk, sweat, talk and go home
tired. We set out in late afternoon.
The track was damp from rain thenight before.
Willow pulled for the 1st 100 yards, then settled.
I let her off in a straight sight line section and started a
routine. Every time she drifted more than
10 or 15 meters ahead, I used the same call, Her name in a
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steady tone, my voice even, no shouting.
Each return earned a pat and a soft, good girl.
After 20 minutes she began checking back on her own.
For the first time since meetingher, she stopped pacing.
Around me a runner passed. 2 cyclists went by then nothing.
Most people were heading home tobeat the early dusk.
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The light dropped faster under the trees.
I turned us back with time to spare, planning to reach the
road while we still had a clearview.
The wind died down. You could hear small things, a
Blackbird moving in the bracken,the faint Hwy. noise from the a
road below. My boots in the wet grit.
About 200 yards from the end of the track, I called Willow in to
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clip the lead. She came straight away, head
low, tail loose. I crouched, got the metal clip
lined up, and heard a noise in the trees to my right.
Not a scurry, a single measured shift of weight on ground.
Willow stiffened. I got the clip on.
I looked directly where the sound came from.
Nothing moved. The trees were set back a little
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from the verge. There, bracken and saplings
filled the gap. My first thought was another
Walker taking a shortcut off thepath.
I said hello, out of habit more than anything.
No answer. Willow leaned hard toward the
trees. I held the lead and said her
name once in the same tone I've been using all walk, more to
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keep her focused on me than to call her in.
That was when I heard it. From the same patch of trees
came my voice, calling her name the same way I had said it for
the past hour. The pitch, the rhythm, the
slight pause I put in before thelast syllable.
I could have been listening to aphone recording of myself.
It was not loud. It was accurate.
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I did not move at first. I looked into the trees and
tried to build a normal explanation.
Someone had heard me and was playing around a ventriloquist
trick across the bracken. Maybe a kid, but there hadn't
been anyone behind me for at least half an hour.
I would have seen them on that straight stretch.
Willow trembled against my leg and tugged forward, not barking,
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just pulling. Like a dog that hears its owner
in the next room. I said.
Who's there? In a firm voice.
No reply. I kept my eyes on the exact
spot. I don't know how long I stood
like that. Long enough to feel my legs
start to shake. Then, closer than before.
The same voice called Willow's name again, identical to mine.
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It hit me in a way I didn't expect.
It wasn't just someone speaking the name, it was someone who had
listened carefully enough to copy how I'd been saying it all
afternoon. I hadn't been loud.
I hadn't varied it. Whoever was there had either
been near us for some time or had moved with us without sound.
Willow lunged. I yanked her back and started
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walking fast toward the road, half dragging her, keeping my
shoulders square to the tree line so I didn't lose sight of
it. I kept waiting for a person to
step out. No one did.
I heard a branch break off a head to my left, one clean
report, like a heavy foot on Deadwood.
My first thought was that whoever was there had cut across
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the slope to meet us further down.
The third call came from behind me on the path I just walked.
Same tone, same measured call, as if I had turned around and
spoken it myself. I had not heard anyone pass us.
There was nowhere obvious to cutacross the ditch and come up
behind without noise. Willow whined and tried to pull
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backward toward the sound. I picked her up.
She is not a small dog. I got my arms under her chest
and ran the last stretch with myhead forward, the lead dragging
in the handle, knocking my knee with each stride.
The road showed through the trees like a dark ribbon with
spaced streetlights. I kept running until my feet hit
tarmac. I put Willow down and scanned
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the verge and the gap we'd just left.
Cars went past every minute or so.
A couple walked on the far pavement with shopping bags.
Nothing moved in the tree line. I stood there until my breathing
steadied and then walked us the rest of the way to my dad's,
cutting across familiar streets where the houses are close and
the hedges are cut flat. I told him what happened.
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He listened without interrupting.
When I finished, he said I was not the first person to say
they'd heard something off on that stretch at dusk.
Over the years, people in town had talked about strange callers
in the Chauvin, never in a crowd, always when it was quiet.
He reminded me of a neighbor whohad lost a spaniel up there
about 10 years ago. They had searched for days.
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No collar turned up, no body. The family eventually put a
small notice up at the cafe by the car park asking people to
keep an eye out. There was nothing to do with
that information except put it next to what had just happened
and let the 2 facts sit together.
That night Willow slept downstairs.
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I stayed in my old room. I didn't hear anything through
the windows. The next day I called the
non-emergency number and logged what I'd experienced.
The person on the phone was polite and told me to avoid the
area after dark. I also sent a note to the local
council Ranger service through their contact form.
I don't know if it helps anyone,but it felt like the correct
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step. We didn't walk that route again.
For the rest of my visit. I took Willow along the river
path by the Wharf where you always see other people.
We built a routine. She stopped pacing when I
entered a room. By the time I left, she would
sit next to me without being asked.
That was the point of the whole exercise and we achieved it.
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I have tried to settle on a practical explanation.
A person could have been in the trees copying me as a joke or
for a reason I don't understand.Sound moves oddly and uneven
ground, especially near a quarryface.
And what I thought was behind memight have been bounce.
All of that is possible. What I cannot file away is the
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accuracy. Not just the name, the exact way
I say it when I want Willow to come in used three times from
three positions without a singlerustle I could place on the
path. I'm writing this because I would
tell anyone walking the Chauvin Near East Shevin Rd. in late
afternoon to keep their dog close and get back to the road
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before the light goes. I am not trying to sell a
mystery. I am putting down what happened
so I don't have to keep replaying it in my head.
I left with my dog safe and a clear decision.
I won't take that track again. Some places are fine in daylight
and different at the edge of it.You don't have to prove anything
to anyone, you just have to get home.
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I'd wanted the Lost Coast Trail for years because everyone said
it was the quietest stretch of California you could still walk.
No crowds, no switchbacks with agift shop at the top.
Just beach and fog and Bluffs where the road gave up a long
time ago. I'm not new to backpacking, but
I'm not a hero either. My friends Mark and Jason and I
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picked late September, printed tide tables, packed too many
tortillas and drove N until the pavement ran out.
At Matol Beach, we knew the routine time.
The headlands respect the surf stash.
Food high, leave no trace. I figured our biggest worries
would be sore feet in a bad night's sleep.
I was wrong. What I remember most now isn't
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the miles or the sea lions or the cold Creek crossings.
It's the way another person can become the whole world when
there's nowhere else to go. Day one felt like a beach walk
with a grudge. Sand gave way to cobbles that
rolled under every step. The fog came and went in sheets.
We saw no one. After the lighthouse faded
behind us, a few sets of old prints in the wet sand told us
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people had been out here recently, but the tide had
already erased most of it. It felt clean.
We fell into a pace. I LED through the firm sand near
the water. Jason pointed out the tide lines
and kelp piles and Mark joked about how this would be 1 long
calf workout. We made Cooski Creek before
dinner and camped above the rackline, tucking our tents into a
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pocket of driftwood that looked wind friendly.
I strung the food up with a clumsy pulley and we cooked
fast, trying not to smell like aburger stand to everything with
a nose. After dark, the ocean noise
pressed in every time a wave crashed, the driftwood cracked
against itself a little and shifted.
I told myself that's all it was.The first odd thing was small
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barefoot prints behind us that weren't ours.
We'd left camp with the tide dropping, trying to make the
next headland before the water pinned us.
A fresh set of long, wide printsappeared in the firm sand where
we knew nobody had passed us. No tread pattern, just the full
shape of a foot. They drifted in and out where
the last wash of water smoothed everything.
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We stopped and looked up the beach.
Nothing. The day stayed Gray and flat and
quiet. When we hit a rocky section and
had to pick our way around a point, I checked again.
Still there. I said it out loud, because
silence was the uncomfortable part.
Someone's out here barefoot. Mark shrugged and said maybe
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they liked it that way. Jason said it didn't make sense
with how cold the water was. We kept walking.
Big Flat is where we had our first face to face.
We picked a spot near the streamso we wouldn't have to haul
water. It's a wide open place where the
trees sit back and you can see for a long way in both
directions. We were rinsing socks and trying
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to get sand out of tent zippers when Mark froze.
I looked up and there he was, a tall man standing at the edge of
the driftwood line like he'd just unfolded out of it,
barefoot, pants rolled to mid shin, shirt that might have been
a long sleeve once in his hands,a long piece of rebar with the
end ground into a point. He didn't say anything, and he
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didn't wave. He didn't even seem out of
breath, like he'd been there thewhole time and only decided to
be seen. We called out the usual stuff.
Hey man, you good? And do you need water?
Because that's what you do. He stared.
After a minute he stepped backward and vanished into the
wood like he had a door we couldn't see.
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That night I found our bare hangrope cut halfway through.
It wasn't frayed, it was sliced.I showed the guys and we tied a
knot above the cut and move the food.
We talked about packing up and hiking in the dark, but the tide
was wrong and the headlands ahead would be worse at night.
We agreed to do shifts. Sometime after midnight.
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I heard a thump near where our bags were hoisted and I saw a
figure climb a log, reach up andyank.
I yelled. He dropped and turned fast, head
down, shoulders forward, and rushed me with that spear like a
sprinter starting late. My body did the math for me.
I grabbed A trekking pole and held it across both hands like a
bar. Mark came out swinging his own
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pole. Jason pulled the pepper spray
and caught the guy in the face. The sound he made wasn't
mystical or animal or anything people love to say after the
fact. It was a regular human scream
with rage cranked all the way up.
He stumbled backward, eyes closed, and then sidestepped
behind a stack of driftwood and was gone.
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We stood there shaking, with thespray blowing back into our
mouths and eyes. I tasted metal for an hour.
We didn't sleep. Morning comes fast when you
never leave alert mode. We packed like a drill team and
moved. The plan was simple.
Make miles. Keep daylight.
Don't stop long enough to be easy.
Every time we looked back, we scanned the wood line.
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Sometimes I saw nothing. Sometimes I saw a shape that
could have been a log. Until it wasn't.
Once I watched a shadow move along with us for 100 yards and
then stop. When we stopped, we started
eating without cooking tortillaswith cold peanut butter and a
handful of jerky. No stove, no steam, nothing that
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would carry a smell or make us sit still at Shipman Creek.
The beach looked like a place someone had been playing with
time. Our old Prince circled.
Stacks of driftwood balanced on stones, a stick figure scratched
into a log with a rock. Simple lines, long arms, no
message that meant anything, which somehow made it worse.
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We pushed into the evening without a real camp, telling
ourselves we'd stop as soon as we hit a stretch with easy sight
lines. The tide had its own opinion and
we had to get above a narrow section before the water came
in. Past that, we gave up and
pitched fast in the first spot that wasn't a wind tunnel.
We strung the food high again and set the bear spray by our
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pads. It didn't matter, he came back.
I heard the shuffle and the scrape of something hard on a
log when he stepped into the edge of our headlamp beams.
His eyes were red and watering from last night, and he'd
smeared something dark across his face like it would help.
Up close. He looked strong and underfed at
the same time. He didn't talk, he didn't
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bargain. He moved.
Mark caught a forearm with his pole and got a long scratch from
the rebar for it. Jason sprayed again, and I
jabbed for the hips like a fencing coach on autopilot.
The man dropped to a knee, then sprang sideways and disappeared
between two huge logs. I don't remember breathing.
For the next minute. We kept it together by staying
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dumb and simple. Forward water when we had to,
cold food when the beach curved.One of us watched the curve and
one watched the wood line. The idea of turning back felt
like choosing to lose. The only good thought we could
stick to was Shelter Cove. It was still a long way.
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My legs were cramping and Mark'sarm looked like a cat had tried
to climb him. We didn't say the obvious, which
was that we were being hunted, because that word felt like it
would make it true in a way we couldn't take.
Back. Near Miller Flat, the coast
finally opened wide and we saw acommercial boat off the shore, a
dark shape, moving slow. Jason said.
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If we can get their attention, that's our ride.
We dropped our packs in a clean spot on the sand and started
flashing our headlamps in the worst, neediest rhythm you can
imagine. No code, just panic with
batteries. At first, nothing happened.
The boat kept its line like we were just another piece of the
horizon. We kept flashing anyway, and
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shouting, even though we knew they couldn't hear us.
The boat paused. It turned.
It started creeping in for the first time all day.
I felt something like relief start to happen in my chest.
I didn't see him come out of thewood.
I heard the run and then I saw the line he was taking to cut us
off from the water. He covered ground like he knew
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exactly how many steps it would take.
We grabbed what we had in our hands, 2 poles, 1 can of spray,
and ran for the edge of the surf.
I threw my pole like a javelin. It hit him, not hard but enough
to steal a step. Jason waved his arms at the boat
like he was landing a plane. The fisherman at the bow had a
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skiff on a line and was already pointing it at us, reading the
scene without knowing the story.We crashed into the first wave,
boots filling and the skiff shoved through to us.
Hands grabbed us by pack straps and jackets and pulled.
I looked back and saw the man stop where the logs turned to
bare sand. He held the spear like he just
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remembered he had it. He didn't come into the water.
He stood there while the boat swung around, his face flat and
unreadable behind the streaks ofwhatever he'd smeared on it.
I realized then I'd never heard his voice outside of the
screaming. They dropped us at Shelter Cove
like 3 soaked seals and asked the questions anyone would.
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We told them what we could between sheikhs.
Someone called it in. A Ranger met us.
Sorry, wrong word for you, but that's who it was and took a
report. People searched.
We handed over what we had. The cut rope, the scratch on
Mark's arm. Our story.
They told us maybe he was a hermit, or someone slipping
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through the cracks. Maybe he lived off fish and
driftwood, knew the tides betterthan we did, worked on boats
sometimes, slept in places nobody goes.
They didn't find him. They found prints that washed
out with the next tide and a fewpiles of balanced wood that
meant nothing on paper. Our packs stayed where we left
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them until the ocean decided otherwise.
I've thought about that trip more than is healthy.
Not in a myth way. Not in a monster on the coast
way. In a way that admits we stepped
into a place where the rules aredifferent because the people are
scarce. Out there, one person gets to be
the only thing that matters. For Miles.
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He didn't talk because he didn'thave to.
He had the home field and we were just passing through
carrying food. I still hike, just not there.
When I see driftwood stacked in a nice little shelter on a
beach, I give it a wide berth. I don't assume empty places are
safe places. And to the tall man with the
rebar spear who stepped out of the wood and made three days
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feel like a year, let's not meet.
I go into the Dolly Sods Wilderness when I need a reset.
I live in Pittsburgh and make the drive in three hours of
traffic cooperates. I've hiked there enough to know
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the trails and how quickly the weather flips on the plateau.
Dolly Sods is high for this partof the Appalachians, barons,
bogs and exposed rock where red spruce grow low and crooked and
the wind never seems to settle. I'd read the usual bits of
history, the wartime artillery practice on the ridges, and the
occasional warnings about unexploded shells that still
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turn up. The place has rules you learn by
paying attention. Carry extra dry socks, stay on
wood planks in the bogs, and plan on having fewer people
around than you think. I started from the Bare Rocks
trailhead early on a Friday to avoid weekend traffic on the
trails. It was late September.
The heath balds were already turning color, mountain Laurel
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dulling to bronze, blueberry shrubs red along the edges.
Sphagnum Moss held water like a sponge under every step.
Ravens circled in the updrafts coming over the Ridge Crest.
The plan was simple. Take bare rocks trail to Raven
Ridge, angle toward Dobbin Gradefor water and find a campsite on
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higher ground where the wind would keep the bugs down to
nights. Back to the car Sunday.
By mid afternoon I was several miles in and hadn't seen anyone
since the parking lot. Visibility on the meadows is
long. You can see a person's backpack
moving on the horizon from half a mile away.
I saw nobody, which was what I wanted.
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When I stopped to pick a spot near a spring fed seep,
something caught my eye. Across the slope a tent sat
tucked against a brush line, lowand irregular with a weather
faded camouflage fabric. It didn't look new.
The Ridge there had no good windbreak, no shelter.
That placement didn't make senseto me.
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I watched it for a full minute. No movement, no smoke, no shoes
set outside, no gear hung to dry.
I set my own tent on a small shoulder of rock above the
spring. The wind had a bite to it.
I boiled water, ate a meal, and decided to top off my bottles
before the light dropped. The Creek was a narrow channel,
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choked with Alder and grass. While I crouched to pump water,
I heard what I first mapped ontothe usual sounds.
Brush shifting, maybe a deer stepping through zedge.
Then I heard the sound again, closer to my tent than to me.
It was careful walking, not heavy, not running.
I closed the valve, stood up andlistened.
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Nothing. The wind pressed through the
heath. A Jay called once and went
quiet. When I climbed back to camp, my
backpack was unzipped and laid on its side.
The cook kit was out on the ground.
The bag of trail mix was open but not spilled.
Nothing was missing as far as I could tell on my sleeping bag.
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Centered on the body of the bag lay a rabbit.
The rabbit's throat had been cutwith a blade.
Whoever did it had placed the animal, not tossed it, and had
set its four feet together like it was meant to be looked at.
It had been killed minutes earlier.
The fur around the neck was still wet and warm.
I didn't say anything out loud. I picked it up carefully and set
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it in the grass away from camp, then wiped the sleeping bag with
a spare bandana. I scanned circles around my site
until I found a single boot print in a patch of wet Moss,
Vibram style, small size. The print came in from the
direction of the tent I had seenearlier and angled away toward
the spruce thicket above me. There were no other clear
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tracks. The ground in Dolly Sods is a
mix of rock root and springy vegetation that erases
footprints fast. I built a small fire for light,
more than heat, using dead branches I'd carried up from
below the tree line earlier. The wind gusted over the Ridge.
The flame threw a tight ring of orange on the grass.
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I kept my headlamp off to save the battery and to keep my eyes
adjusted to the dark around the edge of the light.
The shrubs moved when the wind hit them and settled when the
wind let go. I tried to read.
I couldn't focus. When I looked up, there was a
man standing just beyond the fire light in the direction of
the seep. He was thin enough that his
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clothes hung loose on him. He stood with his head tilted to
one side, far enough that it looked like something was wrong
with his neck. He didn't shift.
His weight didn't lift. A hand didn't speak.
I held my breath and didn't move.
I made my voice steady when I said I didn't want trouble and
that I'd leave in the morning. The man did not respond.
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I picked up my headlamp, slowly clicked it on, and in the time
it took to bring the beam to hisface, I lost him.
The light fell across Alder stems and zedge.
The spot where he had stood showed flattened grass.
Nothing else. I did not sleep much.
The fire dropped to coals by midnight.
I kept the headlamp on low and the trekking pole next to me.
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Once or twice I heard light steps on rock.
At 3:00 in the morning, I sat upbecause I heard two distinct
breaths close to my tent wall. The kind you make after climbing
a hill. The shallow kind when you're
trying to be quiet. I held my breath and waited.
It didn't repeat. At 4 something touched one of
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the guy lines, enough to make the fabric drum.
I said calmly that the wind was going to pick up at sunrise and
that he should leave. No answer.
When first light pushed up the Ridge I got out to check the
area. The rabbit was gone.
A dark stain remained on the sleeping bag.
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In the mud near the fire ring I found 2 boot prints I hadn't
left, same tread as the one fromthe evening.
He had stood between my tent andthe fire while I was inside.
I packed fast. I didn't make coffee.
I put food and trash in my pack and kept the trekking pole in my
hand. When I crossed the Meadow toward
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the junction with Raven Ridge Trail, a person moved between
spruce clusters above me, headedin the same general direction.
I stopped, they stopped. I walked again.
I didn't get a good look, only the sense of a thin frame, dark
clothing, and that head tilted off center.
The route across Raven Ridge is open and exposed.
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It was the wrong place to be if I wanted to break a line of
sight. I stayed on the tread where the
rock kept me from sinking into the bogs.
At a low point where the trail cut near a seep, I saw something
off to the right that made me step over to look.
There was a lean to frame of cutbranches that had been patched
with pieces of polytarp under it.
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Someone had arranged a platform of sticks to stay up off the wet
ground. The bones of small animals,
squirrels, a grouse and several rabbits were piled in a shallow
depression and stained the Moss around it.
A pair of torn jeans lay there, crusted in mud.
Next to the lean to was a shallow hole with blackened
stones and a coffee can full of muddy water.
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No sleeping bag, no stove, no food wrappers, nothing that
looked new. It had the feel of a spot that
gets used and abandoned and usedagain when needed.
I didn't linger. When I looked back at the Ridge
behind me, the man was visible at the edge of the spruce line,
watching from above. He was closer than he had been.
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That moved the problem from a vague worry to a practical one.
I was alone, several miles from the car and being followed by a
person who had cut an animal's throat and placed it in my tent.
I changed my pace to test his behavior, walked fast for 5
minutes, slowed, stopped at a clear vantage to listen.
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He matched it. No approach, no call out, not
even a fake cough to make contact.
Just steady pressure. The wind shifted around noon and
brought cooler air from the West.
I ate while walking to conserve time.
At a junction marked by a woodenpost and a cluster of low
spruce. I dropped onto a rock to retie a
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boot lace. When I stood up, he was in the
open, about 60 yards up slope, thin, maybe early 40s beard
stubble that had gone past. Neat dirt, like old paint on the
cheeks. He wore a dark jacket zipped to
the throat and pants that had been patched at the knees with
duct tape. He stood straight, but his head
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stayed tipped like a habitual posture.
I raised the trekking pole so itwas visible and said I was
leaving and didn't want contact.He kept watching.
It felt like he was waiting for something to happen that I
couldn't see. I walked away.
First the trail dropped into a shallow drainage, then climbed a
set of rocky steps where small oaks held on between boulders.
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My breathing went ragged at the top.
I looked back. He had moved to the bottom of
the steps and was staring up. There was no expression I could
map onto it. He didn't look angry or excited,
just fixed on the sight line. By mid afternoon I made the turn
toward the lot. The trail ran the spine of a
narrow Ridge, then fell through scattered spruce and mountain
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ash toward the gravel Rd. The footing became worse, loose
rock and collapsed rootwads. I chose speed over care and
almost rolled my ankle three times.
I heard him twice without seeinghim, a foot sliding on grit.
Behind me, a branch knocked against another branch on one
straight section. I risked a full look back and
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saw him crouched in the middle of the trail like he was resting
on the balls of his feet. He didn't look tired.
When the trees thinned and the road cut came into view through
the brush, my legs surged. I ran the last 100 yards.
There were three cars in the lot, including mine.
I threw my pack in the back seatwithout packing it right and got
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into the driver's seat with the keys already in my hand.
When I looked up, he was at the tree line, same distance as the
night before, same tilt to the head.
He did not step into the open. He did not try the lot.
I turned the engine over, lockedthe doors and pulled out.
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Gravel hit the undercarriage. I didn't look back for long.
In the rear view. He got smaller between the
spruce trunks, and then the roadcurved him out of sight.
I kept the windows up until I hit the highway.
I stopped at a gas station in Davis and only then realized my
hands were shaking. I washed them and changed shirts
in the restroom, then drove the rest of the way home with the
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radio off. For two days, I didn't tell
anyone. I didn't want to make a report
based on impressions and the kind of details people discount.
Tilted head quiet following animal on a sleeping bag.
On the third day, an article showed up in a regional feed.
The Tucker County Sheriff's Office had asked for help
locating a man wanted for assault and suspected of hiding
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in the high country east of Davis and Thomas.
The picture was from earlier in the year, not recent, but the
shape of the face matched. The article mentioned camps
found off trail in the Dolly Sods North area and asked hikers
to avoid solo travel until the person was located.
They listed bare rocks and the Northern Ridges by name.
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I called the number and gave them what I had.
They asked for times, distances,where I'd seen the tent, where
I'd found the lean to. I told them about the rabbit in
the boot prints. They asked if any words were
exchanged. I said no.
They said they would send a patrol up the road and notify
Forest Service law enforcement. I don't know what came of it.
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I didn't see a follow up articleabout an arrest.
I'm writing this in the way I'd want to read it if I were
planning a weekend up there. Dolly Sods is not a haunted
place. It's a place where weather moves
fast and where you carry your own weight.
It's also a place big enough forsomeone to live out of sight for
a long time. If you go tell someone your
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route, keep your food and tools in reach at night.
If you see a camp that looks wrong, don't investigate.
If a person follows you at a steady distance and never
speaks, treat that as a problem,even if they never crossed the
last 40 yards. I keep a single image from that
trip when I think about going back.
It's not the rabbit or the lean to, it's the way the man's head
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stayed tipped while he watched me, as if that posture was the
only thing holding him up. There was nothing theatrical
about it, It was just how he was.
I left when I still had options.I think that mattered.
I plan to go back to Dolly Sods in daylight with a partner, and
I'll still love the open meadows, the bog Laurel around
the pools, and the way the Ravens ride the air at bare
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rocks. But when the wind presses across
the ridges and the shrubs move, I'll remember that someone used
that motion to close ground without a sound.
And I'll keep moving. I grew up in Duluth and learned
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to paddle before I learned to drive.
The Boundary Waters Canoe Area Wilderness was never a mystery
to me. It was a system.
Lakes with names I knew by heart.
Portages measured in rods, weather patterns that punished
impatience. Late October is the line most
locals won't cross. Campsites are empty, nights drop
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below freezing, and the wind cantrap you on the wrong shore for
days. My friend Caleb wanted one more
trip before winter. He was newer to this and liked
the test of it. We put in out of Ely with a plan
to run E toward Knife Lake, swing through a chain of small
lakes and be back before the first real snow.
It was a clean plan until the wind changed.
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The first two days went fine. We moved in steady pushes,
aiming for sheltered coves. When the afternoon gusts rose
the third day, the wind came straight down Knife Lake and
stayed there. Whitecaps marched at us like
rows of sharp teeth. We waited it out on a small
island, just a patch of rock with a tight stand of spruce and
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cedar. We rationed what we had and
watched the thermometer slide. I've always said the Boundary
Waters punishes optimism. We ran low on food.
By Day 5, the wind wore us down in a way that had nothing to do
with miles. We turned quiet.
Hunger has a way of making you careful with words.
The smell showed up first. It wasn't the sour wet of leaf
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piles or a fish left on a rock. It was the thick, sweet rod of
meat that had gone wrong. It came in on gusts and then
vanished. Caleb said a deer must have died
in the brush. That's common winter kills here.
I tried to agree. What bothered me wasn't the
smell alone, but the way it seemed to move with us there one
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hour gone, the next back again when the wind shifted.
When the lake finally calmed, wemoved.
Knife Lake is long and narrow, with steep tree lined banks and
water dark as tea from tannins. We skirted the southern shore
and cut into a Portage, a narrowpath with exposed roots, slick
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from old rain. Midway through I heard branches
snap off to our right. Not a twig under a grouse, thick
wood, wet and heavy. The footfalls that followed had
a dragging sound. Moose will do that on mud.
But these steps had a pattern I could not sort.
Too irregular for A4 legged animal, too heavy for a person.
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We stopped. The woods went still.
I told myself it was nothing andkept going.
You keep going because you're too far from help for anything
else to make sense. We took a Cove site on Knife
that evening. 1/2 circle of rockwith a flat tent pad and a cedar
at the edge of camp. The light drained fast.
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I went for wood and found the first sign.
The cedar had deep gouges raked down the trunk, higher than my
head. Each groove ended in a sharp
point, not the blunt tear you see from a black bear.
A person could have cut them with a tool, but there were
curls of fresh bark at the base,as if something had driven hard
into it and dragged down. I called Caleb over.
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He said bear anyway. I let it go because arguing in
the cold wastes heat. We ate thin granola split in
half, jerky chewed too long to trick our stomachs.
The wind fell away after dark, and sound carried across the
lake like an open hallway. Something broke the quiet around
midnight. It started low, then turned into
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a ragged howl I could not place.Wolves have a clean rise and
fall. Coyotes have a yipping chorus.
Loons are their own thing entirely.
This was none of those. It sounded strained, as if the
throat making it didn't fit the noise coming out.
It ran along the far shore and then stopped like a switch had
been thrown. We listened to nothing for 10
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minutes that felt like an hour. The fire burned down.
We crawled into the tent at first light.
I went to the water for the foodbag.
The rope was on the ground in torn threads, the bag shredded.
Something had worked at the knotand the fabric, not with teeth
like a raccoon or a bear's single RIP, but with repeated
pulling and scraping. 50 feet down the shore, half in the
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water, was what looked like a deer rib cage, opened like a
book. The marrow was gone.
The edges of bone were polished smooth, not gnawed in the rough
way I'd seen in winter kills. Caleb went quiet.
We both stared at the mud near the carcass.
There were prints, but not the kind I'd been trained to read.
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They were longer than my boot and narrow at the front.
Each had points that had sunk deep, as if claws had gone in at
an angle. The weight looked wrong.
The spacing suggested A2 legged step, then a drop to something
like a lunge. I tried to make it match a black
bear moving strange and wet ground.
The longer I looked, the less itmatched anything.
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I knew we should have left then.We said we would, but the wind
on the open water had kicked up again.
Not the worst of the week, but enough to make a long crossing
risky when you're weak and shaky.
We made the call to lay low, conserve strength, and shoot the
miles at dawn if the lake turnedglass.
That decision is the one that sits in my chest when I try to
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sleep. We kept a bigger fire going that
evening. There's a rule here.
Fire makes sense of the dark. We talked softly about anything
except the smell and the tracks.Around dusk it came again, the
thick rot stronger now. Riding a gust from our right.
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We both turned at the same time.Nothing moved between the trees.
The feeling of being watched isn't a sixth sense, it's 100
small inputs, Hair shifting on your arm, breath that isn't
yours rolling past your face, the body reading a pattern it
can't name. Caleb set his paddle next to his
sleeping bag like a club. I did the same.
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The attack didn't start like one.
It started with a single dry crack from the tree line, then
the sound of weight hitting dirt.
The tent wall flexed inward. The pole next to my head snapped
under a force that felt like a shoulder.
The smell of rot flooded the fabric.
I heard Caleb swear and scramble.
My hands went to the zipper and stuck because the nylon had
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tension on it from the collapse.I cut a slit with my knife and
pulled through. There are images from that
minute that won't leave me. The thing that came through the
gap in the tent moved partly upright and partly on hands that
were too long. The frame was built wrong.
Long ribs visible under Gray skin, pulled tight patches torn
open to show bone. The head was angled forward,
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like a person who had forced themselves up after too long on
the ground. The mouth was open too wide.
Teeth were there, but not in a neat row.
The eyes were not shining like stories say.
They were dull and deep, set, asif light had trouble reaching
them. It covered the distance between
the tent and the fire in two quick, jerky motions, then
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checked itself like it had to relearn a step.
I swung the paddle and hit alongthe shoulder blade.
The impact sounded like wood on a hollow log.
It didn't stop it. The thing made a sound that
started human and then broke into something else, like a
voice grinding through a damagedinstrument.
Caleb was already hauling the canoe, half dragging it, half
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throwing it, the bow scraping rock and throwing sparks.
The creature lunged. I jammed the paddle between its
arms like a bar. The smell was so strong my
throat closed. It was cold out, but heat rolled
off its body and surges as if whatever ran it was burning
through fuel fast. We got the canoe to the water in
pieces. Movements that were not clean or
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skilled, just driven. The stern snagged on a rock.
I felt weight hit the hull. The canoe tilted hard and filled
with a slab of black water. I shoved off with my knee and a
hand on Caleb's shoulder. He swung his paddle at the shape
reaching for the stern and connected.
The canoe lurched free. We threw ugly strokes into the
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lake, not matching sides, not counting, just moving.
The fog drifted in and cut the shore away behind us.
I heard it along the rocks, footfalls and then a slide, and
then nothing, and then a scream.The sound felt close, even when
it wasn't. We kept paddling until the
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muscles in my forearms flickeredlike wires about to go dark.
I don't know how long we stayed on the water.
Time shrinks down when you are doing only one thing.
We hit a rock studded shore somewhere down lake.
Not a campsite, just a place we could pull the canoe above the
waterline and fall down. The cold worked into us from the
ground up. We made a small fire with damp
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wood and shook and tried not to talk.
The lake was a wall. The woods were a wall.
We sat between them like a bad equation.
You can't balance at first light.
We went back for the packs we'd left.
The tent was torn in two. The cedar had new gouges deeper
than before, the wood bright where it had been opened.
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The deer remains were gone. What stayed was a black stain in
the dirt, with flies that shouldhave been dead by this time of
year. The prints at the edge of camp
were clearer in the morning cold.
Some showed the long narrow shape again, with claw points
buried deep. Others were just churn mud
driven down by weight. I looked for anything I could
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label Bare pad, moose dew claw, wolf nail.
I found nothing that held up to the standards I had learned from
old guides on Snow Bank and Knife and Saganaga.
We packed in silence. When we pushed off, the canoe
felt heavier than the day before, like our bodies had lost
ground overnight. We set our course W hugging the
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shore breaks, ready to pull out if the wind came up.
It didn't. The lake lay flat like a sheet
of dark glass. We covered miles we had earned
in fear and in hunger. Only once that day did we hear
anything from the trees, a single branch breaking far off
the water. We didn't stop to check.
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There is a point where curiosityis stripped away and what
remains is transit. It took two days to reach the
take out near Ely. We ate little and moved slow.
The first burger we bought in town sat heavy and tasted wrong
for the first five bites. That is not a metaphor for
trauma. It is what hunger and bad air do
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to your body. Friends asked how the trip was.
We said cold, windy, beautiful. That was true, it just wasn't
the whole thing. There is history behind the word
for what we saw that night. The stories from Anishinabe and
other First Peoples in this region are not campfire
entertainment. They describe a thing born from
hunger and broken judgement in the hard months.
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In the early 20th century there were documented cases of
so-called Wendigo psychosis in northern communities.
Men who believed they had becomesomething that eats to fill a
hole that never closes. Anthropologists have argued over
the term for decades. I am not going to argue it here.
I am going to tell you the factsI can stand behind.
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We were wind bound for days on Knife Lake.
We found clod trees higher and deeper than I have ever seen.
We found a rib cage split and cleaned in a way that did not
match scavengers. We saw tracks with A2 legged
rhythm and claw points sunk likechisels.
Something tore our tent, moved in a way a person cannot and
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chased us to the water with a smell I can still taste if I
think too hard about it. I have paddled a lot of miles
since then, but not back there. A part of me is ashamed of that.
Knife Lake is beautiful and teaches good lessons to people
who go in humble. But humility is not the same as
denial. There are things in those woods
that are older than the trail map and less concerned with our
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rules. They don't need our belief.
They need only a cold night, a quiet shore, and a mistake.
I am writing this now because I woke at 3:00 in the morning and
could not close my eyes again. If you read this and think I
layered some local myth over a rough trip, I won't try to
convince you otherwise. I don't want this story to do
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anything except put a hand on your shoulder and slow you down
when you're tempted to squeeze one more night out of late
October. Check the wind.
Count your food twice. Don't camp where the smell turns
your stomach. And if you hear that broken
howl, move along the shore. Don't wait to see what shape it
wears. I said out loud in the parking
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lot in Ely that I would never goback to Knife in October.
Years later, I have kept that promise.
Some vows are not about fear. They are about respect.