Harebrained Healing & Medical Mayhem (Ep. 7)

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A broken foot that won’t quit can turn anyone into a philosopher, a menace, or both. I’ve been in a walking boot for months, and instead of behaving, I tried to live normally: open-ocean kayaking with the bad foot on the rudder, barefoot beach hikes, top-rope climbing, and daily city miles with the dog. The X-rays say “slow but healing,” which makes for a perfect argument with myself about discipline, denial, and why pain—or the lack of it—can be such a bad compass.

We go wide and weird in the best way. There’s a detour through Guinness World Records and why it feels like a business built on stunts, a confession about Etsy art turning my apartment into a chaotic gallery, and a riff on music, glass floors, and fear—how your brain screams no while your body steps forward anyway. Then we hit the hard stuff: the ganglion cyst saga with needles that led to fainting in a doctor’s office, the most brutal eye stye “lancing” that forever changed how I feel about being awake for procedures, and the small redemption arc where a terrifying MRI contrast injection didn’t hurt at all. Along the way, I question supplements, admit to boot hacks to survive summer sweat, and try to make sense of controlled weight-bearing, healing timelines, and why I keep pushing when I should probably rest.

If you’ve ever tried to recover without losing your mind—or ignored good advice because you felt fine—you’ll hear your own voice in this. Come for the laughs and the chaos, stay for the honest takeaways on pain tolerance, trust in medicine, and finding a balanced way back to running and real movement. If this resonated, subscribe, share with a friend who’s “definitely taking it easy,” and drop your wildest recovery story in a review.

Episode Transcript

SPEAKER_00 (00:00):
And we're back.
Welcome, ladies, ladies, ladies,and gentlemen, too.
Uh but I got my priorities.
But another week's in the books,seven more days, seven more
dollars, something like that.
I guess hopefully more thanseven more.
I got bills to pay.
Um hopefully something's comingin.
Hopefully more for I guess, youknow, the y'all government
workers out there, I think.

(00:21):
The government running again, orhowever that works.
They they turn the lights backon.
I don't know.
I don't pay attention to thenews.
There ain't enough good news, sojust kind of stay vibe and I
don't know.
That's maybe not the might begood to be uh a little more of
an informed citizen, but I don'tknow.

(00:43):
Kind of it's hard to keep thevibe up, you know.
It's all trying to, you know,bring it down.
So blissful ignorant ignoranceblissful ignorance.
That's what I'm looking for.
That's the word.
But not much to know.
Still got a broken foot.
I just found out.
It's been five, wait, uh howmany months?

(01:06):
July, what we're November now?
What the hell?
How's it already almost 2026?
I don't know.
Uh okay.
July, August, December, October,November, wait, July, August,
September, October, November.
Yeah, it's pushing five monthsof a broken foot somehow.
Um, I mean, I guess I haven'tbeen treating it like it's been

(01:27):
broken, but I had anothercheckup x-ray this past week.
It is healing slowly but surely.
So your boy is cryptocking inthe boot for at least another
month.
I'm really hopeful it's not morethan that.
It might be a little bit more.
I really have no idea.
It's been so slow.
I mean, I've it's maybe a littlebit my fault because the past, I

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mean, after the first four so Ibroke it started July.
It was rough for those first fewweeks.
I mean, I really didn't changemuch.
I mean, I guess it wasn't likerunning, things like that.
Um, wasn't jumping around toomuch.
I mean, maybe my good foot, Iwould have you know hitting the
gritty on my dog, on my my rightleg, but not a broken foot.

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But otherwise, I was trying tobehave.
I had the boot like a bigwalking boot, ankle boot, Cam
boot, is that what they call it?
I don't know.
What's that even mean?
Is it is Cam an acronym or is itnamed after someone?
We got that Cam Newton boot,Superman.
Wow.
How long has it been since he'splayed?
I don't know.
Um, but I still remember when hegot absolutely smacked and you

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know, met his daddy von Millerin the Super Bowl, whatever year
that was when Peyton Manningwent out.
I remember it was kind of Imean, I don't really watch the
NFL.
I don't really watch any sportslike regularly.
Kind of did more in high school.
Kind of became like a low-keyBroncos fan.
I feel like it was just like aconglomerate of random sports,

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but it was mostly dictated by myfantasy team the first time ever
played.
I didn't even really know muchabout football, but I had like
Demarius Thomas on my team, sothen I just that was like a year
Peyton Angles going crazy.
So I just kind of you know, justrolled with that RIP to that
dude.
I was supposed to say, I don'tneed that, and that's crazy, but
I liked him a lot.
Where was my how did I getthere?

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Um I am losing track already.
Wow, we're off to a hot start,folks.
Um football, football.
How did we get talking aboutfootball?
Breaking stuff, something.
Well, maybe it'll all tie itback together at some point.
I can't keep it straight.
However, the the foot is stillbroke.

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I yeah, so I was after a month,I was hopeful.
I was like, oh, it doesn'treally hurt to do too much
anymore.
I mean, I probably pushed it alittle bit.
I was like, walk out on the sideof my foot.
And then like I like justbehaved, try to walk carefully
when it's like the first checkupafter like a month, and that was
there's a it still looked reallybroke.
Like there's a huge gap in mybones.
They were like, uh, and I'mlike, oh, that looks worse.

(03:56):
But they they told me it lookedgood, and I was like, all right,
if you say so, I was like, dang,maybe I should be in the boot.
I put it on for like a few moreweeks and then like not so much.
And the next checkup, it wasslightly more.
You know, I looked at him like,that looks kind of rough.
But next other one, you couldsee you made some progress.
Actually, wait, no, it was morethan a month after that.
I did a lot because I was onvacation too.

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I was I behaved for a few weeksbefore the boot and I was like,
okay, maybe just a few more.
But then I was like, I feel likeI didn't just do some like just
head-ass stuff, like walkinglike 10 miles on the beach
barefoot.
Santa did kind of make it alittle bit sore, not too bad.
But I was like, I'm like, okay,maybe I should take it easy, but

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still walked like quite a bit inflip-flops.
Um what else?
Oh yeah, I kayaked like a bunch.
And some like the first timeever open ocean kayaking and I'd
steered, and I didn't realizehow like much work that is on
your foot.
So I was like, steering therudders with my broken foot.
So that was maybe not thesmartest thing I've ever done.
But honestly, the the the listof not very intelligent things

(05:04):
that I've done is pretty long,so I don't even know if it's
that high ranking up there,unfortunately.
Or fortunately, you know, lotsof good lore to build.
I think so.
That's the first time I've everreally kayaked in the ocean, or
period, not really.
I don't know why I said that.
Because I'd only ever kind ofkayaked in lakes like a handful
of times.
I was kind of concerned.

(05:24):
Well, I didn't really know.
They say it's the the longestguided ocean, open ocean, oh my
goodness, kayak trip in theworld.
I don't know if that was like amarketing gimmick or that's
actually like verified if theygot Guinness over there stamping
it.
How does Guinness work?
Like, does it have any relationto the beer?

(05:45):
I don't really know.
Is it the same?
Because like, who who startedthat?
Like, we're gonna make a book.
Is there any like competitors toGuinness?
Is there like a witch.comGuinness?
Is there like is there like anatural light records or
something like that?
Miller Light, one of them, someother beer that's whatever, you
know.
You catch them up putting down,picking it up.

(06:07):
I don't know.
But because I think you have tolike just pay someone to show up
and be like, yeah, he did it.
And like some of them are justsuch weird records.
As long as you pick somethingniche enough, you can get a
Guinness World Records.
So maybe we'll get one sometimein the future.
I don't really know what.
Something real niche that we cando.
I have to think about it.

(06:28):
Brainstorm, send in your ideas,please.
Love to hear them.
I mean, but I'll get creativetoo.
I actually gotta look, see howmuch it costs.
It's probably outlandish.
Because I feel like they alwayshave them in like those
clickbaity YouTube videos wherelike we're gonna do so-and-so,
the world's largest blankyblank.
I don't know, like legitanything, just make up stuff.

(06:49):
There was like I think there'slike craziest thing.
It was like one of the I don'tknow if it's like Mr.
Beast or Mark Robert, like thegiant elephant's nut foam, devil
foam.
I don't know what it's called.
It's like you mix stuff and youget like shoot up a bunch of
foam, and it apparently it'slike kind of dangerous because
it gets hot, so they're doing itlike a swimming pool.
That's just a very randomexample.

(07:10):
I mean, there's not a realreason I brought that up.
But they just like all thevideos, and they just have some
guy in a tie sitting in the backcorner and like holding the
paper at the end, like, goodjob.
So, how much does it cost to getthere?
Uh call me.
I'm asking for a friend.
My best friend.
That's who that's who.
No shame in that.

(07:31):
Um but yeah, I don't reallyknow.
Like, how's that I'm verycurious now about that.
It's like a business.
How does that like is there likesome is there like a Guinness
HQ?
Do they got like some museum ofall the craziest things?
Because is Ripley separate fromGuinness?
I'm trying to think back when Iwas a kid and I was like the

(07:53):
Guinness book.
Like, oh my goodness, these areworld legends.
And now like I've never actuallyseen a Guinness.
Do they still make the books?
I do remember those like hype tosee them at like the the book
fair.
That was actually, I rememberthose, those went crazy.
Book fair as well.
I like I just want the thesensation of that again.

(08:14):
I don't even know if there's anymodern day equivalent in my life
of what I'd be hyped for likethe book fair.
So like there's somethingshopping.
I do like to shop.
I do like um just gotta likestash my money away in like a
savings account.
Otherwise, I tend to just buylike just the shit I don't need.
But at least trying to well, Idon't know.

(08:36):
Well, I do have a lot of junk.
I've recently got into buyingtoo many just like random Etsy
paintings.
I do like art and paintings,it's not just kind of cool.
Like actual stuff is kind ofexpensive, but there's some cool
stuff on Etsy that is likerelatively affordable.
Also stuff that's plentyexpensive, but I feel like my
walls of my apartment have justlike kind of like exploded with
just like random like things Ifound on Etsy and just bought.

(08:58):
But now it's like after like thesummer of like doing that too
much, I think partially wasinfluenced by me just pent up at
home, just hanging out with mybroken foot, bum foot, didn't
know what to do, and I was like,I spent way too much time just
shopping on my laptop on thecouch.
But now I got a pretty colorfulapartment.
I do like it.
Although there's some parts ofit where I got like too many

(09:19):
paintings, and I'm like, okay, Igotta back off it's getting a
little cluttered.
It's like looking like a littlebit of a crackhouse art gallery.
Like parts of it I'm I'm happywith.
I'm like, okay, this isbalanced.
Good good amount, not too crazy,but then there's like some like
here's like my closet where showyou have solid paintings, but
I'm like, this was maybe alittle bit much, but I fuck with
it, you know.
Can't complain.

(09:40):
I like it, you know, feels likeit feels like the swag cave, the
the Mojo Dojo Casa House fromthe Barty movie.
Probably one of the best partsof that movie.
It was a good movie.
I mean, I can't hear the movie.
Although actually, my favoritepart at the end was at or was at
the end of like the the canon Iam a can I am cannot hoodie.

(10:02):
I I found that part hilariouswhen I was watching that.
I do remember the girls I waswatching with at that time, they
were like found as soinspirational.
I don't I don't entirely knowwhy.
I didn't didn't quite resonatewith me.
I mean, I like I mean, I know itwas more for the the shoddies
out there and I understand, butI feel like uh it wasn't

(10:22):
anything profound in that movie.
I mean, as long as like you aresomewhat like have any sort of
like I guess empathy, you know.
They're saying like kind ofthere's like the one whatever
the main Barbie rant justtalking about how hard it is to
be a shoddy, but like I feellike I was like, I mean, yeah,

(10:43):
tricks out, but it's hard to beeveryone, you know.
It's rough out there, shoddiesand fetalists, you know.
Everyone got their battles, butI found that part hilarious, and
they were like, that was whatyou took away from it.
And I'm like, hell yeah.
And then I was so hyped when youcould actually buy the IMKNF
hoodies, although I didn't getone from my my little sister for

(11:03):
my birthday or something, and Iwas I was pretty gassed up when
I got that.
I'm like, oh, you didn't.
No way.
I've gotten less guessed sincewhen I've seen the clientele who
are wearing those IMKNF hoodiesaround.
Um maybe that's maybe there'smore motivation for me to start
rocking it more, you know.
Maybe we'll in one of the nextepisodes rock the IMKNF hoodie,

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you know, really set the newstage, be the finest shit to
wear that.
I mean, I would be, even ifeveryone wore it.
So I guess I don't know what I'mworried about.
But if you know, you know, Imean I feel like I've seen some
kind of like kind of, you know.
I'd say it's like similarclientele to those fuzzy cookie
uh monster uh sweatpants, youknow?

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Hot Cheeto type beat.
Anywho.
That's kind of how the hell didI get there?
I I'm like really off the rails,you know.
We're going machete in thejungle and seeing where the hell
we end up.
That would be kind of fun.
Just drop me a fan of themachete, let's see how far I
get.

(12:06):
I'm definitely gonna die after awhile.
I feel like there's some thingswhere people say they could
survive, but like I feel like ifyou've been like anywhere in
wilderness, you're like, okay,never mind.
I feel like I've been on hikesand looking at the mountains,
I'm like, wow, all that isbeautiful, but that's also all
death, or like, you know, it'sjust that cliff.
And like I mentioned, like someof the places, like there's some

(12:28):
like forests and like the thePNW, like Oregon, Washington.
They're beautiful.
But when you see how thick thosetrees are, I'm like, if you're
in the middle of that, how thehell do you know what direction
it is, what day it is, what timeof year it is.
Okay, that time of year, I don'tknow.
That's that's maybe one likefarm, maybe maybe it's confusing
at times.
Maybe they got some hot springsin there that keep you toasty.

(12:51):
But Amazon, yeah, that thing isso big.
I try to saw some joke about it.
I don't know.
I forgot about it.
It's some funny meme about likethe warehouse in the jungle.
That's irrelevant at this point.
But you maybe find maybe there'ssome like ancient runes, you
know.

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Go for a little temple run typebeat, that would be cool.
Wow, what a game, temple run.
I still remember that back inthe day, like trying to like get
the high scores of like someglitches where it's like swiped
enough times.
Or like I don't remember how itworked.
But then it would just be likethe straight track, and you can
just route the score and belike, I'll just try to like
leave.
I was like playing out like aniPad at this point.

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I think this was before before Ieven had like a phone at this
yeah, at this time, I don'tthink I did.
So just like an iPad, like thebig screen, and then I was like,
have it plugged in and try tolike leave it running all night.
And I I feel like it eventuallytimed out and I was like pissed.
I'm like, what?
I even left it plugged in.
Maybe we lost power.
I feel like that did happenonce.
But I think I like kept trying.

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I don't I don't I really don'tremember.
I don't know.
I'm remembering this.
It's like the OG subway surfers.
Now I kind of want to play that.
Because I feel like that waslike popular, and then I feel
like it had like a resurgencewhen I was like at the end of
high school, like 2017.
I don't know.
We used to have like a mandatoryreading time.

(14:15):
I don't know what time of daythis was.
Wow, high school vibes, weird.
Yeah, like just hold up like abook, um, and then just be like
playing Subway Surfers.
So that was like the originalbrain rot before Subway Surfers
like was just plastered on everyvideo on stuff for you, just
like mind mindlessly watchingthat.
It was like that was the start.

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I should have known that youknow civilization was doomed
from that point when I'm like ona book at like 16 years old,
like not actually reading, butplaying Subway Surfers.
That was the crack, you know.
Ronald Reagan's gonna declarewar on Subway Surfers.
Was he the guy who declared likewar on drugs?
I don't know.
I feel like I always see clipsof that in like the Narcos
movies or like different likewhatever video game cutscenes or

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something like that.
Actually, no, I don't know aboutvideo games, I don't think they
talk about that.
Speaking of that, the Call ofDuty Black Ops 7 came out.
That's pretty I well I haven'tlike played that much.
I played like a total of likefive games.
I always like get the new Callof Duty, end up trying to, you
know, relive the oldquickscoping days, get diamond
snipers, and then like don'tplay with it that much.

(15:21):
Was it it was just Black Ops 6,yeah.
I don't know, I lose track.
I'm you know, old head on notkeeping up with the times.
But yeah, no, it was BO6, yeah,no, it was BO6, so PO7 is BO8
next year.
What's the rotation like?
Because I remember we used towait like every like three years
to get a new try art game.
I haven't actually played thezombies, that was what I was

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always most hyped about for thetry art games, all the zombies
modes.
BO3 definitely peaked.
BO4 was pretty good.
I didn't like that, I didn'tplay till after.
I don't know.
I mean, it probably is likemaybe still pale as a
comparison, but it was prettyfun.
I played like the 9 map a lot,but like at least a year or two
after it was like hot.

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I think it was one that was likeway different, but looked kind
of fun was the Infinite Warfare.
But this is so long ago now.
It makes me feel so old.
I mean, even the fact that likeGTA 5 came out in like 2013.
Yeah, that's like 13 years ago.
I still like remember that cameout, and I was like hyped to get

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it.
Especially like the one year Iplayed soccer.
That was absolutely trash.
I mean, I never really did it,but um that was that was a
highlight of it, you know, justplaying GTA with the gang from
the soccer team.
Although we had barely had itwas like a scrap together soccer
team.
I think we had enough for enoughpeople on the field.

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I don't think we had more.
And I was a chunky little monkeyat that point, and I was like
dying playing midfield to thepoint.
I was probably in the middle,and just kept running back and
forth.
Oh my goodness, I'm throwingshit.
I'd be the bling, be flinging,bling fling.
Um, that was rough, but GDA Foxcame out that point.
I don't know, I'm reallyrambling today.

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But the like three or four gamesof BO7 I played were kind of
fun.
I don't I did like BO6, I justdidn't really have time to play
it.
Oh also I've been playingthere's like The Simpsons Fort,
the Fortnite Simpsons.
That has been actually kind ofentertaining.
It's like a smaller map, butsome funky stuff.
I've never actually seen TheSimpsons, I don't think.
I mean, like I've seen it, likethe you know, people and the

(17:35):
memes of like homework going tothe bush, but I don't think I've
ever watched an episode of it.
Is that something that stillruns?
I just found out that they'restill making Grayson Gray's
Anatomy, is that how it is?
So that may start a book.
Or does there I feel likethere's like an anatomy book
called Grey's Anatomy?
I'm not sure about that.
But is The Simpsons stillrunning?
Because I feel like some thingsare because is Family Guy?

(17:58):
I actually don't know.
I'm not that I'm cultured insome ways.
Not in television, to be honest.
Didn't watch much of that.
I feel like I just never didgrowing up.
I mean, occasionally I watchedon like streaming shows, but as
a child, I didn't even think Iwatched many cartoons.
I was just a fiend.
I was uh an animal planetgoblin.

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I used to love these shows.
There was like it was like thetop ten animals of like any
categories, like the mostpoisonous or most dangerous.
I'd be always like be hyped up,like yelling at the TV.
That was like my Super Bowl whenI was getting a number one of
like the deadliest animal andshow me a tiger.
I was gassed.
That was gassed.
That was that was that was myshit back in the day.

(18:41):
But oh my goodness, I am I don'tI don't know where I started or
where I'm came from, where I'mgoing.
Call me Cottonai Joe.
Who is that about?
I'd love to meet Cottonai Joe.
Where did you come from?
Where did you go?
Where did you come from,Cottonai Joe?
One of the hype songs.
I remember playing playinghockey in the the good old days,

(19:04):
the yonder years, the Is that aphrase?
I feel like there's some tryingto think of some phrases for you
know the past.
Looking back with therose-colored glasses, although
it wasn't really bad.
I don't know why I'm sayingthat.
I feel like that applies as badif you say rose-colored glasses.
But if you're looking atsomething rosy with rose-colored

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glasses, even better.
Extra rosy, extra, extra vibes.
Though I feel like for lots ofsports stuff, they should just
blast music more during it.
Because I do remember when I wasa little playing hockey and it
was like on like the face-offsand they're like blasting.
Okay, Captain Joe.
I mean, that was fun.
It wasn't as hype of one, likelike Thunderstruck or Crazy

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Train.
Although I feel like Crazy Trainis just like so hype in the
beginning of it.
The main part of the song isn'tas hype.
I mean it's still a good song.
But like, you know, it's likekind of like an EDM song where
like the bass drops, it buildsup to that, and then it's kind
of like fine, you know.
That's what I was maybe that'swhy I like EDM.
Oh, it's it's not just like kindof blue balls on me with the

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build-up.
It doesn't go hard after thebeat.
Not the dub steppy stuff.
I don't really, I mean, I don'tmind it, but I like more like
the faster EDM stuff that's alittle bit more, you know,
crackhead beat.
I like to run to that or drive.
Although it's bad driving,because I feel like it's very
unless I'm on cruise control,that maybe helps.

(20:27):
Because I think when I'm likelistening to that and I'm in the
car, gravity somehow just gets alittle bit stronger and pulls my
foot down on the gas a littlebit harder.
And I don't know what happens,but I swear it happens.
Um, and if anyone knows how Ican, you know, argue that in
court, that'd be very helpful.
Um for no particular reason.
But I'm sure it's a real uhphysical phenomenon.

(20:49):
It happens every time, and Idon't I don't know what to do
about it.
But officer, I swear thegravitational field, space-time
is bending extra hard when umDioros coming on.
I don't wait, I don't think it'show you say is it de Oro.
I don't know.
I think it is something like theguy is like Latino, so it's
probably like so I mean of gold.
I don't know.

(21:09):
I'm so rusty on my Spanish, I'mrusty on lots of stuff.
If only I had like a Rosettastone in my tongue.
Get a kidney or Rosetta stone,kidney stone.
What is a like how does a kidneystone work?
Do you just piss that out?
That looks just rough.
That is one medical issue that Idon't want to have.
I've had well, I've not reallyhad anything.

(21:30):
I'm just thinking of my footstuff recently.
My not nothing uh freaky for youfoot fiends out there.
I don't get that either, but gooff gang.
My broken my broken bones, mybroken metatarsals, my messed up
mediatars.
Actually, nothing though.
Your feet bones look real long.

(21:51):
I'm like, what the heck?
Whose whose monkey toes arethat?
That ain't me, but it is.
Hopefully the only anothermonth.
But yeah, I mean I've not beenbehaving.
I think that's where I wasinitially starting at.
We've been all over the place.
But I've done a lot, you know.
I did I did like a 20 milespartially around the the uh

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island of in Hawaii.
That was pretty fun.
It wasn't a nice day forkayaking, but I mean still
kayaking in the open ocean is alittle bit hard and like kind of
stomping on these like rudderpedals with a broken foot.
It's probably not good for it.
Also, scuba diving or the scubadiving.
Well, I mean, I feel like thethe flipping in the paddle is or
flippers, like swimming aroundin those, probably not great for

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your foot.
I don't actually know though,like if some motions are worse
for that bone, because like Ibroke it like rolling it onto
it, and like is like this partof it of my foot then just like
snapped or some tendon orligament, I always forget
tendon.
Wait.
I think I was like mapped backto ACL because I think your ACL

(22:55):
is bone to bone.
So is that ligament is a tendonmuscle to bone?
I don't know.
Doctors in the chat, correct meif I'm wrong.
I don't have that muchconfidence in there.
I feel like I just like build uplike random associations in my
memory.
I don't know how neurons andsynapses and all that stuff
works, but it's like if I gotlike weird things of how I

(23:15):
remember things sometimes, andI'm like, I always remember
based off of this.
Which I'm just gonna go off thatcoding of things, but I don't
know.
Like I don't inherently knowthat ligaments are bone to bone
or not.
I'll Google it right now.
We'll see.
Real time.
We're doing research live on thelive on the air.

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Well, this isn't live.
That'd be crazy doing this live.
I mean, actually, there's nobarriers to that.
Because I don't even do any, youknow.
You're getting it raw.
No editing.
That's too much work.
Okay, wait, wait.
Yes, ligamenta.
A short band of tough flexiblefibrous connective issue which

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connects two bones.
We did it.
Bone to bone, ligament.
But I don't actually like knowligament, bone to bone.
I just know like ligament.
And then I'm like, oh, your ACL.
And then I'm like, that makes methink bone to bone.
But I don't actually know whatyour ACL connects to.
Is it your femur and your tibiatibia?
Is it it's not tibula, it'stibia and fibula.

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I think.
Yes.
Tibia and fibula.
Such a weird name.
Who named that?
Why don't you name it like leftshin, right shin, or do they
twist around each other?
Anywho.
I did also start, I mean, thefirst climbing I've ever done,
really, other than if you countclimbing a rock wall over like

(24:44):
the town pool when I was achild, like in the in like the
deeper pool by the diving floorsand like a rock like climb up.
I did do that once, maybe liketen years ago.
I guess that was a lifeguardthere.
I think they had it, so Iprobably did a time or two
there.
It's not that good in it.
But in my another addition to mybroken foot shenanigans, I did

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take some like climbing class.
It was like the top rope or isthat we call it?
I think.
I don't know.
I don't I don't know theclimbing terms.
Um I'm you know, I'm noob at thepoint.
At this point, yes, top ropewhere you gotta like lay down
and bring the rope up.
Although that is, I mean, I amlike jamming my foot onto the
wall to like climb up.

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However, I think it's betterthan bouldering, which is so if
you don't know, which I didn'tuntil like some minutes ago.
I mean I kind of knew.
But bouldering is just likewhere you're like climbing like
the shallow walls are kind ofreally like steep and not high
up, and you just fall off onlike to the the cushioned floor.
Do they have any like trampolineclimbing gyms?

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That'd be kind of sick.
Jump down, although I coulddefinitely see things going
wrong, but like get like a jumpstart, that would be someone
needs to start one of thosetrampoline climbing gym, or I
guess bulls running gym.
But like in the top rope,someone just lowers you down,
you just kind of like slidedown.
Although the first time I'll sayit, it was like took a minute to

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like put the trust in like theperson bringing you down.
It's kind of like have you everbeen to any of those like uh
observation decks?
Is that the word?
And the skyscrapers where theygot like the the lookouts and
they have like the glass floorthings.
If you've ever been that, Ithink I went on one of them.
The only time I've been on theglass floor one, there's maybe
been others, but the one thatI'm thinking of is Chicago.

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What are the buildings' names?
Is it the Sears Tower or did itget like bought out?
Is it now Willis?
Yeah.
Sears isn't a thing anymore.
I don't think that like went outof business or bankrupt.
I don't really know.
Because like bankruptcy doesn'talways like mean that's like
you're done.
It's sometimes just like abusiness thing that you like
file someone so somethinghappens.

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I don't I don't know where youcount as that.
But yeah, because like somethings go bankrupt and then like
you still see it around.
So I don't know how that works.
Because yeah, I feel like SpiritAirline just went bankrupt or
something, but it's like there'sdifferent ones.
There's like chapter 11, is thatone of the chapters?
Is there 11 different ones?

(27:16):
I don't know.
I don't know what it all means,but I remember cedars used to be
a thing.
But I don't think that tower iscalled Sears anymore.
I still remember though, I thinkI'm pretty sure, yeah, there was
like a cedars in my town growingup when I was little in the
mall, or Jenny Clittle Mall.
I'm pretty sure my dad met alawnmower there and like drove
it home from the mall on theroad, like a riding lawnmower,

(27:37):
like one of those tractor ones.
He was just whipping that shiton the road home.
It was not fast.
Although we only we didn't livefar.
But that was kind of, you know,they'll move on a lawnmower on
the road.
Can you get a DWI on alawnmower?
What things can you get a DWIon?
Like what is is there some likeillegal mode of transportation
when you're drunk?
Like I would assume bike.

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Like what do people do?
Is there like any loopholes?
Like could you do it on a horse?
That doesn't sound wise.
Ladies and gentlemen, just get aride.
Um, don't do dumb stuff.
But I just I'm just curious,asking for legal reasons.
Nothing nothing practical.
I'm just curious what the theletter of the law is, as they
say.

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Oh, wow.
Okay, I do remember where I camefrom.
So I was comparing lettingyourself let go and just be like
trust the person, like let slidethe rope down gently to bring
you back to the floor.
Um when top rope climbing, youclimb all the way up, and then
you yell something, take, thenlower, yeah.

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I think so.
And then you just like let go ofthe wall, and then they just
like let the rope down and youjust slide.
But like the first few times,like the totally letting go of
the wall, it was like uh likeevery muscle's like fighting
that you do not want to.
It just feels very unnatural.
The same way that at thoseobservations, like stepping onto
the the clear, like plexiglassfloors, like you gotta like it's

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like I don't know, there's somelike wild animal in you that's
like don't do it, dumbass, andyou're like fighting it, just
like put your foot on it, likefuck you, we're not gonna fall
through.
And it's I don't know, someweird mental gymnastics going
on, evolution fighting, youknow, to live, but you gotta
override that because you know,executive decision, like I think
this will hold hold up.

(29:26):
So I did do that also on thebroken foot, inclined a few
times in this, but I've kind oftried to limit it because like
my foot is still broken, so I'vebeen behaving more.
I mean, the past whole month Ihad been returned to like the
boot walking uh full time inthat every time I go out.
Although I'm still probablywalking.

(29:48):
Yeah, I'm probably five miles aday ish walking around City
commuting and walking my dog.
I would say this is probably aroughly accurate estimate.
I mean at least several.
I find there's days where it'sprobably could be more.
Like I don't think that is anexaggeration.
But I feel I don't I don't knowif that I don't know what he

(30:11):
hurts it.
I mean, I think when I was youknow trying to be on max copia
mode, I was like reading it andlike, oh, there's like, you
know, some controlled weightbearing can help speed up bone
healing.
But there's if if there's alimit, I've probably crossed it.
Or maybe, maybe my bone wouldjust be totally cooked if I had
not been, you know, wild and outand vibing out and you know in

(30:34):
the world.
Maybe just if I would just beencouch potato, I would have even
a more fucked up foot.
So think about it how you will.
You know, it's I got I don'tknow.
It's not really Schrodinger,it's Schrodinger's foot.
Schrdinger, yes.
That's how you say it.
How did it even come up withthat?

(30:55):
Who why did he like how did hecome up with the analogy of the
cat in the box?
For I mean, it's I I guess it isuh well no, it's still a weird
analogy of like something couldbe two things at once.
Like who how did he jump tothere's a cat in a box, it could
be dead or it could be alive?
Like why could you just say itcould be like a black cat or an

(31:15):
orange cat or something?
Like is he if he just watchedthe movie seven?
What's in the box?
Um but uh yeah, I don't think Idon't think Brad Pitt was, you
know, around it.
I mean I guess I feel like thereis some like because like some
of them is like that wasn'tactually that long ago.
We'll see.

(31:36):
We'll see more research live,you know.
We need a uh pr some liveresearch technician to get these
answers up, but it always kindof shocks me when I like see
some science thing and then likerealize what happened, or even
just historical stuff ingeneral.
I'm like, oh that's not thatlong ago.
Like the fact that like I'vebeen alive for like 10% of the

(31:58):
history of the US-ish or like myparents over like 20% is like
wild.
Like I feel like I just assumeit's like thousands of years,
but like I guess in like thescheme of things, like 1776,
yeah, it's gonna be 250.
That's like not that long, Iguess.

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But I guess there's youngercountries too, which seems extra
crazy.
Like, how's that work?
Does that make people like moreor less patriotic?
They're like, oh we we on thatnew way we're like you don't
even know what to do.
Okay, yeah, he died in 1961.
Mr.
Irwin Irvine Irvin.

(32:41):
I don't know.
He's Austrian.
Do they speak do they speakGerman and Austria?
I think.
Or is there Austrian?
I don't know.
I don't I don't know.
I know I've never heard ofAustrian, but like I don't
really know.
But I think there's like I feellike there's anything of like
Russian and Ukrainian.
I'd like I feel like I hadn'theard of Ukrainian as a

(33:02):
language, but I'm pretty surethey do have their own language.
But I think they also speakRussian or something like that.
I'm gonna keep Googling thesethings because I'll go on and
on.
I'm gonna keep going around.
But I mean the moral of thestory is we're just trying to
grind out some bone healing.
Is there any like bone steroidsI can get to get some buff ass

(33:22):
bones real quick, you know,shoot them up and just get some
adamantium.
Where do I get that that CaptainAmerica or no the the Wolverine
juice, that's what I want, orDeadpool.
The Deadpool and Wolverine getthe same sort of stuff?
I don't actually know.
I'm not I'm not into the thecomic lore, but dang, I need I
need a whole panel of advisorson everything.

(33:43):
So I can, you know, keep up, getall the get all the details
straight, make sure we're not umspreading misinformation.
I like to meet Mr.
Information.
Bad joke, bad joke.
Anyways, um but it's not so badat the end of the day.
I mean it doesn't hurt, ithasn't hurt in a long time.

(34:03):
That's why it's been so hard tobehave with this foot.
It's it's I mean, I guess Ihaven't like done anything
crazy.
Some things feel like a littlebit achier, but I'm also not
convinced that it's the spotthat's broken because my foot
prior to breaking it was prettysore, like all the tendons and
stuff.
I think that was from running,maybe a little bit too much, too
quick.

(34:23):
So lame makes me feel old a lot.
It was making like me get sorebecause I did like way dumber
stuff when I was not that muchyounger and could get away with
it.
But arthritis is getting out ofthe milking game.
Back in my day, I used to beable to go uphill to school over

(34:44):
the Himalayas.
And not feel a goddamn thing,but today I walk up half a
flight of stairs and I need anescalator, one of those old
person, like how do those thingswork though?
I feel like I used to see adswhere you could get like your
own personal escalator for yourscooter and your your like

(35:04):
staircase at home.
That's kind of gangster.
But like get halfway up, I'mlike, I need I need Gretches
sometimes.
So I don't know what I gotta do.
I gotta get some sort of superserum to get things going up.
But yeah, it's not like it'sjust annoying that I can't do as
much as I want, or I shouldn't.
Still do plenty.
But I would like to run moresoon.

(35:25):
I'm going a little crazy.
I didn't get a bike, or it's mydad's.
I mean I copped it, but it'dbeen actually sitting on the
shelf for legit 20 years in thegarage.
I still had the stickers andcardboard like that.
That bike has gone nowhere, so Igotta put some miles on that.
I do need I feel like I shouldget some like repair kit or
something.
I don't know much about bikes atall, other than that, they just

(35:46):
hurt the shit out of my asshole.
Like that is some serious tainttrauma.
Like I biked a little bit, likemaybe like a 10-mile ride, and
after that, my Gucci was gonefor weeks.
That was that was that was thatwas rough fight.
I did recently find out there'sa thing called like biker shorts
where it's got some padding inyour ass.
So I maybe got figuring thatout, and maybe you gotta like

(36:06):
lean forward, and that like putsless pressure.
So we're still learning theropes.
I eventually tried it out, butwhen I got more time, that might
be a good outlet.
However, I've had like muchworse medical things to deal
with, or much more painful ones.
One is I used to have this uhganglion cyst on my my wrist, my

(36:31):
kind of tiny wrist, but youknow, it looks looks a little
better uh with you knowsomething on it.
That's actually one thing that'sbeen hard with climbing.
Like I got like small wrists andlike kind of weak as a grip
strength.
So I climb a few times and likemy whole arm are like or like
the whole forearms just feellike they're about to explode
entirely.
I can't grab anything.
I feel like I got like my handskind of feel like when you like

(36:54):
sleep and your whole arm goeslike or that you sleep on it
wrong and like you wake up andyou like punch yourself because
your whole arm is numb.
It's kind of like how they feel.
Like it maybe not exactly likethat.
If it felt like that totally,it'd be probably not gonna be
healthy, but like there's someweird like pressure on them
afterwards, and I'm like, Ican't like grab stuff very well.
I need to I need to get on thoselike gripper things and just do

(37:15):
that all day to get some likebuff fingers and forearms.
I don't I don't know how tobuild that stuff up, so I gotta
get that up, you know, grindthat and my my bones.
Two things I need to work on.
But I got this like it'd be likethis bump that was like on my
wrist, like a little egg undermy skin.
That I don't know how old thatwas when it came up, and it did
kind of hurt.

(37:36):
Like I think I even have to dolike push-ups and stuff when I
was like little for hockey, andit kind of hurt like putting
pressure on it.
Uh, and so eventually I went tothe doctor after a while, like
my parents took me.
And I guess what it is, it'slike some in the joint, there's
maybe some membrane, somethinggets weird, and like the fluid
in the joint leaks out, and youget this like sack of like joint

(37:56):
fluid just sitting there.
And I mean it's not really likea problem, but it can be kind of
a problem.
But so what they did to like tryto take care of it, especially
they just take like a needle andjust stab it a bunch, and then
like shoot it with some steroidor something, not like the the
buff steroid, not like thebodybuilder one, just some other

(38:19):
chemical called steroid.
I don't really know.
And I think they just stab it awhole bunch of times and hope it
gets really like scarred up andwon't fill back up.
So I did that, didn't feelgreat.
It's like I just stabbing yourdamn wrist with like a needle.
Uh I mean it went away, it hurt,but then it went away for like

(38:40):
maybe a few months, but then itcame back, and then it went back
and it's like, okay, well, we'lldo it again, but this time he
used a bigger needle.
That shit really hurt.
And I still remember I was like,I swore he was gonna get like my
wrist, like because I like hadmy wrist like off to the side on
like the counter, and he's justthere like stabbing it.
And I was like, I don't think Iwas maybe 15 at the time.

(39:03):
Uh something like that.
And he I was uh my mom was therewatching it too.
I don't know how I feel likethat's gonna be rough to see.
Maybe she wasn't watching thatpart of it, but it hurt bad.
And I think I think I was justlike locked in and just like
trying not to like the problemwas I stopped breathing, and he
finally finished.
So this is a bitch, like Iwasn't breathing, but I was

(39:26):
there that whole time, and thenhe like he's like, Okay, we're
all done.
And then I like started to move,and then things just went black,
and and then I I woke up, cameto my head was sore as hell.
I was like, what just happened?
I'm like, although I think oneof the first things like I kind
of quickly processed, I'm like,oh, I just passed out.
I'm like, huh.
I always wondered what that waslike, and I think I said that

(39:47):
out loud, so I think they gotkind of a kick out of it.
But I guess when I like slumpedout, I like planted my feet and
then I like went back.
And you know, if you've everbeen in a doctor's office that
got those like racks of likebrochures on different things,
so it was like one that wasbehind like my head of like all
sorts of those differentdiseases, but a plastic kind of
like holders of them, and thatthat bitch was shattered.

(40:09):
I slammed my head into that, Iguess, at some point when I was
blacked out.
I think your your body justfreaks out trying to get some
air, which I had not been doingbecause I was just like, oh,
this hurts.
I'm just getting my hand justshanks to shit.
I feel like I'm in the UKwalking down the street looking
for my crumpets, and uh took atook a stroll down the wrong
alley.

(40:29):
But I unfortunately did not uhmiss any of the actual shanking
of my wrist.
It was just after I moved, andthen I just kind of remember
this like got dark, it kind oflike tunnel vision, and then
kind of came to with the doctorand my mom in my face and think
she was freaking out.
But luckily he was there to youknow tell her she's gonna be
cool.
He just got to wake back up andhad a little bit of sore head

(40:54):
because I just destroyed,obliterated this magazine rack
when I was out.
So that wasn't that fun.
And the kicker was didn't work,came back a few months later.
And then eventually after that,they decided or they discussed
like surgery as an option.
So I'm like, shit, I'll trythat.
It's like put me out.
I don't like they do use somesort of like numbing medicine,

(41:16):
but on the second time they didthe shanking of my wrist, it was
like a bigger needle, and Ithink he was trying to do it
more.
There we bet the numbingmedicine, maybe it helped, but
not enough.
So I was like, Yeah, put me out.
And like it was a fever later,probably that I got the surgery,
at least one or two.
But that was a whole notherordeal.

(41:37):
I mean, it wasn't that bad, thatwas a much better thing.
Although, so I go get to thishospital, like whatever, check
in and like him sitting in thepatient room.
I don't really know what theplaces are called, kind of just
waiting out, hanging around,chilling on my phone.
And then this Jason Statham likelooking motherfucker comes in.
I mean, it was like somerelative of him, because he was

(42:01):
some like bald, stubbly guy,British accent, but very
serious.
He was the anesthesiologist, andhe basically comes in and he's
just maybe said a fusion orthings, he's like, Okay, I just
want you to know that if youstop breathing, we'll get a tube
in and we're gonna make surethat you make it, okay?
Or I he wasn't talking likethat.
He had like whatever, Britishaccent, very like dead pain

(42:22):
serious.
I'm like, what the fuck am Isigning up for?
I thought I was just gettinglike a little slice on my wrist,
or what is this?
What do you mean you'll put atube and you're gonna make sure
I make it?
I was like, it was not on mymind that I wasn't gonna make it
out of this.
What the hell?
So I was a little bit rattled atthat.
I'm like, what the fuck wasthat?
But then it was didn't getbetter because then the surgeon
actually came in.
He's like a younger Asian guy.

(42:42):
He's like, Oh yeah, well, you'llbe in and out in just a few
minutes.
I'm like, okay, that was I'mglad you came second, because I
I don't know when that guy wason.
I was like, I I just heard thewonder like, do I do I need to
write a will?
Do I need to make sure myaffairs are in order before I do
this?
Do I really need this?
You know, how many how manypeople have not walked out of
this thing?
But it was a quick thing, Ithink.

(43:03):
I mean, they they put me out andit was a much better experience.
It was kind of kind of fungetting knocked out.
I mean, not fun, but it's likemuch it is kind of weird when
you like you kind of rememberlike they start to wheelie
somewhere and you've just goneand you wake up somewhere else.
It's much I would take thatover, yeah, no, I just want to

(43:23):
be knocked out, which I'll getinto from other stuff.
I think of the time after thatwas I guess beginning the only
other time I've been like putunder or anesthesized is put
under.
Yeah, I think some of this putdown is when they, you know,
pull the plug, knock you out, orpick you out like uh at the vet.
Euthanasia stuffy.

(43:44):
Uh wisdom peeps though.
And that was pretty quick.
I was glad.
I think I had on my wisdompeeps, like grew they grew in
and I had room for them, but thedentist was just like they're
normally like shitty teeth andnormally have all sorts of
problems.
Like that animal isn't good.
So they just said you shouldjust it's probably easier if you
just pull them now.
I'm like, all right, if you putme under, and they did, although

(44:05):
they came in, so I don't thinkthey I think they just pulled
them.
I think some people like willhave them like buried and they
have to cut them out, so thatsounds kind of rough, but
luckily didn't have that.
Just kind of like got to thedentist, sat in the chair, and
then they did something, and Ijust like woke up and on the car
back home.
I don't think I did anything toocrazy.
Although those like people thatjust wake up from wisdom's teeth

(44:27):
surgery videos, those are prettyfunny.
I don't think I did anything toomemorable, actually though,
until later.
I like just wanted to go laydown, so I was like crashed on
the couch.
My mom was like shook me awaybecause she got ice cream and
she wanted me to eat something.
I was like, I really wasn'thungry at that point, I just
wanted to sleep.
And my expectation my whole facewas still numb because they do
like a bunch of numbing to you,and she wanted me to eat this

(44:47):
milkshake to have something.
I'm like, okay, fine.
And I still remember like it wasprobably pretty pathetic
looking, but they were gettingcrack out of it.
They're pretty entertainedbecause I was trying to eat this
like this melted milkshake, butI could not feel anything in my
mouth.
So I was like trying to like Iscoop it up and I like couldn't
feel if it was in my mouth.
So I think the first few months,like I put it in my mouth, but

(45:08):
then it just fell out like Iit's bizarre eating with your
whole face numb.
And it's like you I don't evenknow.
It's like you can't reallydescribe it because you just
don't feel anything.
Like I just like put it in mymouth and then I looked down and
then it just all fell out, butit's like I wasn't aware of it
because I couldn't feel it.
I think I eventually you know Iwas hard to figure out how to

(45:30):
move my parts without feelingthem.
I just took a minute to get usedto, but I was like not feeling
it.
The Rio one where I was pissed,I guess there was also somewhat
ice cream related to notactually.
But I got these uh styes on myeye, which I think is like you
get I have like if you have likeyour tear ducts or something

(45:51):
like that, you have some ducksin your eyes and they get
plugged.
Uh you can not get I don't know,you get these nasty things
called styes.
Like it was just I think it wasmy senior year of high school,
yeah.
Like one day, I kind of likenoticed like one of my I think I
got it in both of my eyes at thesame time, so I don't know what
I did to do it.

(46:12):
I feel like I had to have donesomething that triggered this
because I got them in two eyesat once and it happened since.
I feel like there's somethingthat happened.
But like my my eyelids were likegetting like puffy and like
swollen.
I didn't know what's happening,and it kind of kept going over a
few days.
Like it happened one day, andit's like whatever.
And the next time I'm like, it'sstill there, and it's like it
may be worse.
And after like three or fourdays, my eyes looked so fucked

(46:35):
up.
Like my my lids were like justso puffy.
I looked like I kind of lookedlike you know, pro boxers looked
like Rocky and you know RockyBalbo and his phone when his
eyes were all fucked up, butlike not in a cool way.
Like not a cool version of it,didn't look like tough, it just
looked like maybe more like Iwas having an allergic reaction.

(46:56):
And it was kind of like tenderbecause they're pretty like like
sensitive and just swollen, andthen eventually like went to the
doctor and like just check itout, and they're like, oh yeah,
we can just do like a quicklancing to drain it out, and
like I was like, okay, yeah,that'd be like relief.
Because it'd been kind of it'dbeen a week at least at this

(47:16):
point, and it didn't feel great,and I probably I feel like
people were looking at me prettyfunny because I had these like
weird puffy ass eyes, and Idon't know.
Not not a good time, but I waslike, okay, I was kind of
relieved.
Like, okay, yeah, finally we'regonna get it taken care of.
No, I I despite howuncomfortable they were, would
not have opted into this if hadI known what it was.

(47:38):
I mean it didn't work, so Ican't complain, but this
procedure, I don't know whatdumbass called it a Lance thing,
because you know, Lance thing, Ithink of you know, people
jousting like their lances onthat and they like poke
something, it'll drain it.
That's kind of all I assume thatyou can like poke my eyelid and
you know, squish it out.
You know, those pimple poppervideos, is that still a thing?

(48:00):
I remember that used to be allthe rage.
My sister would watch those andlike they'd pop these nasty
pimples that are really swollen.
I mean it's kind of satisfying,I will admit, but also kind of
disgusting as hell.
I suppose it was mean somethinglike that, although my eyes
weren't like that massive withmy eyelids.
However, no, it was it was uh Istill have like PTSD from this.

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Um anyways, I was like, so I waslike, yeah, oh yeah, yeah,
sounds good.
And she's like, yeah, we'll justdo a quick glance thing and then
get you taken care of.
I'm like, okay, sick.
So we start walking over to thewhatever procedure room from the
just like general eye checkuproom, and I was like, okay, like
okay, it'll be good to get thisover with.
And then like I sit down in thischair, um, and she's like, okay,

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we're gonna do this the numbing,which I was like not pumped for
to get a needle in my eyelid, orall of them, because they were
all fucked up.
And I got through that, likeeach of them, I mean, like
getting a needle in your eyedoes not feel good.
Um, and I mean, even theinjection of the Nova Canic is
kind of like like hot at first.

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It's not it's not great.
But they did Trixie snoring.
I don't know if that's gonna bepicked up on the mic, but it's
iconic.
Um so I was like, I was reallynervous for that part of it.
I was like, I just gotta getthrough this like Novocaine in
my eye.
This was one of like the many uhmiscalculations that I made.

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I was like, these Novocaineshots.
I was kind of nervous, but okay,we gotta get through that, and
then it'll be smooth smoothsailing from there once I get
the Novocaine in, which I guessI also thought the second time I
got that cyst stabbing done.
So I was maybe a little bit.
My my uh distrust in doctors wasbudding, or in terms not

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distrust in them in general, buttheir uh descriptions of the
pain that I was about to enduredefinitely started to take a
hit.
And this is where it all went toshit.
Um so I got those.
I mean, yeah, I was like, didn'tfeel good getting the needle in
each one.
I'm like, oh fuck, that hurts,then burn.
I'm like, okay, that one's donenext to one, and then then it's

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gonna you know, drain it out,and I'll be new man when we walk
out.
That part is right, I was a newman, but not for the better.
From there, she comes.
I mean, it's also weird becauselike you don't want to really
look at this stuff, but when itsays your eye, like you like
what the hell are you gonna do?
You can't like unplug your eye,turn it off.
But I think I was just trying toroll my eyes in the back of my

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head to like, I don't know, likeI was giving someone crazy
sloppy or something like that.
But so I got the needles in myeye, and then she takes out it's
like legitimately like a little,like you know, those like bear
trap clamp, but it's kind oflike a ring or like a semicircle
that that makes one of theclamps up.
It's like one of those on astick, and she just like bites
it onto my eyelid, and then likewhich that alone, the clamping

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of that, that hurt pretty bad.
Then she like twists my eyelidand flips it like inside out.
That that hurt alone like quitea bit, even after the Nova came.
And I'm like, oh wow.
I was like, maybe this is justpart of it.
I was like, that it, but thatwasn't it really hadn't even
begun.
That was just like holding opento get it ready for the terror

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that was about to happen.
So she gets this like a beartrap on my eyelid, and then like
flips out inside out and justholding it there, and then she
starts pulling out scalpels, andyeah, I don't even know.
It was it was it was rough fromthat.
She just basically my eyelid islike in this bear trap, flipped
around and held there, and thenshe just starts slicing into my

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eye my eyelid or like these likewhatever styles that are kind of
like built up stuff in there.
She like sliced it open, andit's not even sliced and squish.
She's like digging in it withscalpels, and uh that was that
was a long road of it wasactually like 20 minutes for
this whole procedure, like 20minutes of like a scalpel

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digging in your like irritatedeyelids.
It was it was it was reallyrough.
I was sitting the whole time andlike if you've ever seen like
the tetanus people where they'relike all like because tetanus,
all your muscles are likecontract at once, so like the
stronger ones win, like yourtriceps in your back, so you're
like the people like just arelike that, and they just

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eventually suffocate.
But I was like in that positionon the chair, like only my heels
and my elbows were like touchingthe ground of the chair.
My whole like back and ass wasup in the air because I was like
arched with this knife in myeye.
She was just digging aroundtrying to clean it up.
I don't I don't know how the howI don't know what she's doing.

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I like I think I did a good jobof not looking at it, like, but
like my eyes were just likerolling all the way back.
And she was trying.
My mom was also there.
I don't know how she watchedthis.
That sounded it was like someSaw movie type thing.
Like it had to be horrendous.
I don't I don't know how youcould sit there.
And I think she was worriedabout me passing out or
something, so she's trying totell the doctor, and the doctor

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was trying to talk to me whileshe got this knife in my eye.
Um, and then she was trying tolike ask me things about like my
favorite ice cream flavor.
And mind you, I'm not like achild, like I was like 18 at
this point, and like in extremepain, and she's like trying to
ask me this shit, and I was justso pissed off.
I'm like, don't fucking talk tome.
And I was like, I mean Ianswered, but I was like, I was

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fuming inside, like comparableto the amount of pain I was in.
Like, and I was screaming prettybad, and she's like, uh, do you
want more Novocaine?
And I was like, Hell yes.
And I was like, okay, maybethat'll be better.
But like, even then she juststabbed another needle in, and
that just hurt more, and then itdidn't even make the pain like

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any less.
And she tried it one more time,and I'm like, okay, no, don't
more, just get it fucking overwith.
Because I think sometimes maybeif things are like too
irritated, the the Novocaine orlidocaine, I don't know what the
difference is on those two,doesn't actually like do much
blocking of the pain.
And I think that's where my eyeswere at.
Because I was like, no, don'tdon't give me more.

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Is that's just another needle interms of added to I don't know
how many you got in my eye rightnow, and it doesn't make the
pain any better, so just keep Idon't know, keep digging your
digging in my eye twin, not mybutt.
And yep, did one, had to do theother, and it was I don't know.

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That was actually that wasprobably that I don't know if uh
it maybe was I'm not sure.
It's up there with when I had towalk like two miles home on my
broken foot right afterwards.
I feel like that is like alittle bit more like traumatic.
At least like walking home, youhave like a little bit more

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agency.
This time just like beingtortured.
So it's that was like that one'sprobably mentally worse, maybe
not physically.
And I was supposed to like runat a track meet that day.
Um luckily it was one where Igot canceled for some thunder.
I feel like I still had to golike to the meet, like take a
bus ride there, and then justwait for the storms and then go

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home.
So I had to ride that, but I wasgonna have to run because like
like I was saying, I was not onthe chair.
I was just like arched up on itthe whole time, and my whole
like back and like butt cheekswere sore walking out of it.
I was the I just was like awreck.
I was like, everything hurt.
My whole body because I was justlike so like tensed up in the

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chair for like 20 minutes.
Like it was doing some likecrazy plank exercise for 20
minutes, and it's not like itwas like some easy thing because
it was like tense so hard, butthe pain of my muscles burning
was nothing compared to like theknife in my eye, so I don't even
think I realized how storm Iwas, and then I just had these
like bloody eyes, like the theyweren't puffy from like stuff

(55:56):
built up in them, but they werelike I don't know, still rough
looking, and then I was justlooking at these like occasional
like tears of blood.
I guess that part looked maybe alittle more tough, a little more
gangster, you know, had the juststraight blood tears, but I was
I was mentally broken.
I was like some broke horsestallion that they brought out.
I was I I don't know, I wasgoing through it.

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And from there I was like, putme under for everything.
I do not want to be awake whenyou touch me with anything boy
any police.
And I'm yeah, I don't I'm likenow just like super skeptical.
I'm like some like corneredanimal and they talk about stuff
with the doctor, and I'm like,put me out, chief.
I'm just gonna swam my hell onthe wall and knock me out if you

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want to do it, and then I'mdown.
I yeah.
Other than like tattoos, I don'treally want to I wouldn't
because I have those like reallyexpensive like ganga tattoos.
Is that one of the guys wherethey like will like put you out
and have like a whole team oflike artists just tattoo the
shit out of your body?
I don't know if you wait for it.
But like my tattoos, I mean theyhurt, but they haven't been that

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bad.
Not compared to the medicalstuff, and maybe it's because
they got more fine-line stuffand not the really heavy colour
where they gotta use like thebig needles that really hurt.
So maybe that's part of it.
But I was like, I don't need itfor that.
But most other things, I'm like,yeah, uh, I'll take it, just
please put me out.
I don't want it.
Anything painful if I had to gettooth pulled, put me out.

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At least I don't I can't gettingone pulled when you're conscious
sounds rough.
I remember I was kind ofterrified of it because my
sister, little sister had tolike get a bunch pulled because
she had some like jaw problemwhere like they managed to like
fix it with like braces andstuff and pulling teeth, but
otherwise she would have had tolike get her jaw like broke and
rewired up.

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But thankfully they avoided thatbecause they like fixed all this
stuff early.
But she had braces for like damnyeah, like 10 years.
Maybe that's maybe anexaggeration, but it was a long
time.
But I remember when we're goingto those like little family
dentists, and the first time Iwas sitting in the uh the
waiting room while her mom wentback.
I was just playing with whateveror reading, I don't even know

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what I was doing.
But I just like heard thesescreams in the background, like
faintly through the walls.
And I think because of that,like the next time she went
there, she mentioned that theyhad like a bunch of
soundproofing in the damn walls.
So I don't know.
I was like pretty sure I waslike, is that is that her?
Is that screaming that I hear?

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And she came out in rough shape.
So I don't I don't want to bethat.
I mean, that was pretty littletoo, so it's maybe not that bad.
But just always been not tookeen on getting anything done
where I'm conscious.
I think though, even with thosetattoos, I feel like there's

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some where like a guy recentlydied.
So I'm curious how that actuallyworks.
Do they have like legit doctorson staff, or do they just got
someone like blow dart in youwith ketamine and they all get
to buzz in?
Because yeah, I don't know.
I mean, I think I don't think itwas like they did something
necessarily wrong, but I meanthey maybe did.
But I think there's just likerisks of being put under and

(59:06):
like it was maybe someone had aheart attack or something.
And I don't I don't know.
Can you just like do you needlike special actual doctors to
knock you out?
I guess the dentist does, but isthat is there like dentists like
a like medical school, I guess.
Because don't you have like fouryears in the residency and
things like that?

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I don't know.
No, I'm just yeah, a little bita little bit skittish.
I did have a better experiencerecently.
I was I was very skepticalbecause this has all been post.
So it really hasn't it it didn'trestore some of my trust in some
things, but I did break myfemur.

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Well, I didn't break it, but Igot like a stress fracture and
maybe tort labrum from runningtoo much, and like finally went
into the doctor and was gonnaget the MRI, but as part of the
MRI, they need to like injectyour hip joint with all sorts of
like.
Dye to like look at it in theMRI.
I don't actually know like whatthe dye is.
Is it contrast?
I feel like I hear that word.

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I'm not really sure how itworks.
Because like the MRI is justlike a magnetic field and like I
think it has to do with thewater and things will like show
up different on it when you doit.
But I don't know what the thedye exactly does.
Is it like some magnetic thingsthat show up different?

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Oh, I think it's maybe actuallyI think I don't know why.
I think it's like somethingwhere I mean it shows up
different, but I think it's likewill like leak somewhere if they
do it, and you have like sometorn things that might like leak
through.
So I think that's maybe why theydo it.
I don't actually know.
I'm kind of making stuff up, butI'm I think that might be right.

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I'm not a doctor though.
Maybe someday.
Who knows?
Who knows where we'll be.
Time will tell.
Place your beds now.
Maybe we'll do it all.
That'd be fun.
I don't know what the hell Iwant to do.
I'm still figuring that out.
But getting we've been staying alittle bit more on track, but I
don't know.

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As part of that, I saw they hadthese giant needles to like do
that.
Because I guess they gotta getkind of like deep in your hip in
the right spot to like actuallyget it there for it to show up
well.
And I saw those needles, and I'mlike, what the fuck?
That was like the mostintimidating thing I've ever
seen because they're like long,like thick needles.
And they did the first numbingshot, and I'm like, okay, that's

(01:01:33):
you know, that's just the firstbullshit poke.
That's that's the you know, thethe the warm-up pain before the
hell you're about to justmedieval torture me with.
Although I will say it wasactually pretty fine.
Second thing didn't really hurtat all.
I didn't really feel anything,so I was I was pleasantly

(01:01:54):
surprised.
I was preparing for the worst.
I was like, here we go again.
Oh shit.
Here we go again.
And I was like, well, my hip hasbeen hurting for months.
I guess we're just gonna alittle bit more pain to see what
happened, we'll ride it out.
But I was I was like, wait, uhit's done.
I'm not like a stuck pig.

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Is that a phrase?
I think so.
I don't know what that means.
Does that have to do with likeuh is it like an arrow?
Is that what it means to be likestuck if you shoot something?
I don't know.
I think that means I feel likethere's lots of things that I
think about if I like actuallystop and like, what the hell
does that mean?
It's like what the hell?
It makes me feel better thoughwhen I like learn language

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stuff.
Or when I've taken otherlanguage classes and I read
something, I'm like, how do Ilike how might I learn this?
How do people like become likefluent in multiple languages
like and learn all these wordsand things, but then I like
think a little bit more aboutEnglish stuff, and I'm like, I
don't know what half that stuffmeans, so it makes me feel
better about like a foreignlanguage.
I'm like, oh, I think I maybeunderstand more of the words in

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this foreign thing than I dowhen I'm reading some English
stuff, and I'm like, what doesthat even mean?
So I guess when they're likealways like, oh, it's all just
figured out from context.
I guess I guess that's what yougotta do, because we do that in
English, and more than Irealized, I'm like, I don't
actually know what that means,you know.
I'm just out herephotosynthesizing.
That would be cool to be able todo.

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Definitely wouldn't, you know,be nice to just go recharge
outside, not need to sleep, justphotosynthesize stay in the sun
enough.
Buy a buy a grow light, liveunder that.
Or just plug in.
Sleeping is kinda I mean, youknow, sleeping feels good, but
if I didn't need to do it,that'd be kind of sick.
A whole nother day to live.

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Well, maybe not a whole notherday.
Another half a day.
Less than that, honestly.
Like I guess it's half a day ifI'm saying, assuming I'm up for
sixteen hours and sleep eight,but uh I mean some maybe the
weekends I sleep eight, I justsleep it in the for too long.
Sometimes more.

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Well, if only society didn'thave schedule, I could just son
zonk out and wake up when I wakeup and get to the grind, but you
know, I guess the there's a setperiodicity to the spin of Earth
on its axis and orbit around thesun, so us little humans, you
know, we s we synced up, welocked in like that, we got

(01:04:29):
locked in together like girls inheat or I mean that periods.
Why do we call it heat for dogsbut not for girls?
It sounds kind of I don't know.
I guess it's it sounds maybecool, but also weird.

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Like, yo, that's heat.
That put a whole different wholedifferent perspective to it.
Yeah.
That's I think that's as far aslike I got on medical things to
talk about and hopefully nothingelse soon.
I don't I haven't really I don'tI mean I think there's like a
potential on my foot bone breakthat sometimes depending on

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where exactly the break is, theyneed to actually like drill
those bones together for them toactually heal together.
So maybe that's part of whymine's been so slow.
It is actually healing together,so um it's not necessary, but
maybe it's just on the verge,which is kind of hard to
actually heal, and that's kindof why it's been really taking
less time, and not at all to dowith the fact that I've still

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been abusing my foot, but itdoesn't hurt.
So, what's that mean?
You know, it's pain like tellingyou slow down, or telling you
don't be a bitch, but it hasn'tbeen there, so it's been hard to
not chill out.
I have been taking all mycalcium pills, those Costco
Kirkland adult gummies bringingme back to the Flintstone

(01:05:58):
vitamin days.
Although those days neverexisted.
I just said that I had neveractually took Flintstone
vitamins.
My mom would always like readall these articles about
vitamins in general, how they'reall kind of scams, because
they're not actually likeregulated and like so they don't
have to like get all this stufftested by like the FDA, like

(01:06:19):
some things.
Although I think there are somemore now.
I mean, nothing is likerequired.
Like I don't know how the lawswork about the like supplements
got like less regulation, butthere are some brands that are
tested more than others.
I think Kirkland maybe is.
Also, there's like this Thornstuff that I kind of sometimes
use.
Although that's like moreexpensive, and I'm like, you

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know, I'm trying to ball on abudget, but I guess maybe I got
budget bones because of it.
Although I wouldn't take thosefor a while with this.
So they didn't they didn't giveme instant bone healing, so deal
with that what you will.
Um, this is not a a paidendorsement or whatever they
gotta say, or and that's not aslander of their product.

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I don't know.
Maybe I'd have disintegration ofmy bones without them.
I don't know.
The world might never know.
We're just out here trying totake one less step at a time
until this thing is healed upand we're failing miserably.
We're still out doing lines.
But I am wearing the boot, I'mI'm behaving that way.
It's kind of it's better nowthat it's getting cooler and

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it's winter.
Wearing that in the summer ishorrible.
My my like whole ankle will belike sweaty as hell and kind of
stink, it smelled kind of foul.
I had like this like ace bandagerep that gave me like the first
time I went to the doctor, andlike some like foam pads that
came with the boot because likemy shin would get just blistered
to hell from walking all thetime in it.

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So it's probably it's probablythey probably don't want it to
be too comfortable as adeterrent to keep you from
walking as much as I was.
But I like had this bandage wrapall these like foam pads to my
leg so it'd like take the thebite off, like the straps
digging in to my shin whilewalking.
And even after like a week, thatstuff would get so sweaty and
wet and stinky and just foul.

(01:08:06):
I feel like there's some newmutant radioactive bacteria
probably grown on there.
I eventually did recently throwthat out because I bought some I
don't know what it is.
It's like some like shincompression wrap that just
velcro's around.
It like it's got some weird,like it's not like a level piece
of like fabric.
It's like almost like it's gotlike a a boob bra cup, and I
guess got some weird out pouch,but I just like fold it up and

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just strap it around my uh shinin the boot and it just velcro,
so that's way easier than thethe ace wrap where I have to
like keep wrapping all up andaround because it's so thin.
This is a lot of thicker, so Ijust can just do like one little
pass through and then I'm done.
So I'm really hoping that we'llbe in there with that soon, and
then we can you know get torunning again and full speed on

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the shin and again.
I guess there's not too muchfurther to go to get back to
full speed in terms of what I'dbe doing, and mainly just
running.
And I can, you know, really youknow hit some crazy dance moves
when I'm wild and out at like 3a.m.
with my dog.
And she's just looking at me asI just actually look like a 7
Eleven crackhead.
But hopefully those days comesooner than later.

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And with that, I think this hasbeen another complete episode.
Thank you for listening to thethis beautiful rant.
I I really appreciate y'alltuning in, and we'll catch you
next time.
Peace, peace.