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Speaker 1 (00:00):
Hello, hello, hello.
Thank you so much for joiningme.
It's your girl, Taryn Marie,and I just want to thank every
single person who's listening tothe sound of my voice for
tuning in once again to theLearn Love, live
Unapologetically podcast.
It is your girl, taryn Marie.
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I am the host and creator, andI just want to give a huge, huge
, huge shout out to all of myfollowers, all of the people who
have been rocking with me forthe past three years while I
have been putting out contentinconsistently, might I add,
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because life be life and y'alland so there was like a huge
break this time, but I am stillcommitted to the cause.
I am still committed to theprocess.
This has been one of the mosttrying things that I've ever
tried to put together or to do,and to try to keep it going has
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been very difficult, while alsotrying to manage the transitions
of life and just my situation,and so I just want to say thank
you so much, thank you to all ofthe new followers that I have
and, again, thank you toeverybody who has been holding
it down.
I'm surprised weekly, eventhough it's been probably a year
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since I have recorded anything,people just still downloading
and listening and tuning in, andso you are appreciated and you
guys have definitely motivatedme to continue going and to
realize that my voice is beingheard and that I'm making an
impact, and so thank you so much, even if you are not even
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really one that just tunes inall the time, just sharing and
liking my posts and helping meto promote, to get my podcast
and my content out throughoutthe years.
I appreciate you.
Of course, I want to say to Godbe all the glory for the things
that he has done, because if itwere not for him, I would not
still be here to be able toshare with you guys and to pour
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into you, and you know, asalways as I'm pouring into y'all
, I am pouring into myself aswell, and so we are motivating
each other and keeping eachother accountable and strong as
we continue on on this journeycalled life.
Now, since I have said all ofthat, let me get to the meat and
the potatoes of why I havedecided to come back.
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So I took a pause.
I won't say a brief pausebecause it's been like a year,
like I said, but I took a pause.
I won't say a brief pausebecause it's been like a year,
like I said, but I took a pausebecause life was just life and
y'all and I had a whole lot ofthings going on, had to relocate
a couple of times, just had togo and just do a reset, a full
reset on my life and thank Godfor parents who are loving and
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caring and encouraging.
Of course, if you know me andyou've been following for a
while, you know that mybiological father is deceased,
but I have a very loving andsupportive mother and I now have
a very loving and supportivestepfather and my sister and
just the people around me.
My whole village has just beenso loving and supportive and
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encouraging throughout this time.
A lot of the times, if youfollow me on social media, I
look like I got it all together.
I do not, and so that is wherewe come here to be completely
transparent and just be realwith ourselves.
And we're here to grow and totry to become better people,
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better individuals, continuingto increase our walk with God
and just being completelytransparent and unapologetic
with ourselves and with others.
This is where we set boundaries, this is where we keep
ourselves accountable for thoseboundaries.
This is where we are able tojust come and just lay it all
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out.
Y'all know I'm real transparent.
I try to be completelyauthentic with my content and
whenever I feel like God isleading me to talk about or
discuss a subject, then I do.
I do plan on getting moreinterviews this season because I
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know that sometimes I get tiredof hearing my own mouth.
Y'all probably get tired ofhearing my mouth, and I know
that I don't have it all.
So, of course, again, if I'mtrying to grow in the process
and also helping y'all trying togrow as well, we need to be
getting more people in that haveother experiences, different
points of views, differentexpertise, and so that is my
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goal to be able to get certaintopics discussed, but not just
coming from myself, but also,like I said, coming from people
that also have additionalexperience as well.
So y'all bear with me, continueto pray with me.
I will continue to pray with me.
I will continue to pray withyou.
Yeah, I'm just.
I'm super excited about comingback.
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This episode will be supershort.
I just wanted to come in andtap in, just, you know.
Let y'all know that I am stillalive and well, god is still
amazing.
Life been lifin', but God hasabsolutely been guiding in my
life and so, even though youknow the devil and other people
would have meant certain thingsfor my harm, god absolutely was
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able to turn those things aroundfor my good, and so for that I
will forever give him the praise, honor and the glory.
Okay, y'all know divorce is hard.
Um, y'all know divorce is hard.
Divorce is hard, divorce ishard.
It has been two months, twoyears officially, two years.
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Um, this month, which is Maythe 20th, it'll be two years
officially that I've beendivorced.
I was married for nine yearsfor those that are new and um
recently went through a divorce.
This is the year number two andit has not been as hard
emotionally for me as it hasbeen dealing with the aftermath
of the divorce.
So if you've ever been divorced,you know that there's always
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like some residue that stillremains that you kind of have to
clean up as the years go by.
You know when you decide toleave or you decide to go your
separate ways in that moment,especially if you don't use
attorneys, which we did not ifyou don't use attorneys and
you're doing it on your own andyou're trying to figure it out
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the most amicable way and themost efficient way and I don't
feel like I necessarily thoughteverything through.
I definitely did not dot all myI's and cross all my T's and so
there's some residual things,some residue that was left, that
I was left to clean up, and I'mstill kind of cleaning some
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things up, mainly on thefinancial side.
So when you were married tosomebody for so long, you have a
lot of stuff together.
You have a lot of financialthings that may have been
combined or related to eachother, maybe some bills that you
really didn't think about orconsider of how you were going
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to get those to go away or tochange over whatever may have
you.
So that has been a struggle.
It's been a huge struggle andbecause we didn't use attorneys,
because we didn't necessarilygo all the way through the court
system, we kind of went theshort route keeping it out of
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court and having to pay likecourt fees and stuff like that,
additional court fees.
It just ended up being like amess.
So I'll just say, if you knowme personally which some people
do and they have reached out andyou have questions about
getting a divorce, if you havequestions about the finances,
you have questions about theprocess, if you're trying to do
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like a short-term divorce or nota short-term, but a quick
divorce where you don'tnecessarily have to involve
lawyers.
I'm that girl that can give youthe do's and the don'ts and if
you are considering getting anattorney, I would definitely
advise you to do so if you canafford one.
I live in the South, theparticular state that I am from
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when I was married was ArkansasArkansas, and there they do have
programs and there areattorneys that will handle those
civil services at, maybe like apro bono fee or whatever.
So those options are there, buty'all just do your research.
A lot of people think, when theyhear me talking about divorce
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and how hard it is, they reallythink that I'm talking about the
emotional side or, you know,missing that person or you know,
really just being sad anddepressed over the breakup.
And honestly, for me, because Ihad already made up in my mind
years before that therelationship had already ended
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and we just were likecohabitating for a while, it
wasn't as hard.
The emotional side wasn't ashard, I think.
You know, you do kind of grievea little bit.
Depending on who you are andwhat the relationship was and
how things ended, you may grievea little differently.
So initially, of course, you'regrieving that person because
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you've been with that person forso long I had been with him for
just about all of my adulthoodand so that was hard, of course,
because now the future that Ihad in mind no longer exists
Like it's completely gone, it'llnever be.
But I had to create and developnew dreams and new hopes and new
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desires and a new future.
And I had to allow God topresent that to me.
And you know, the Bible says ifwe delight ourselves in him,
then he will give us the desiresof our hearts.
Well, the delighting in him iswhere you're able to talk to him
and try to figure out okay, god, what is it that you want from
me?
And then his desires becomeyour desires.
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So I've now gotten to thatplace where I am starting to
have the desires that I knowthat God has for me, and so I'm
allowing that to flourish and tobloom and just to manifest into
my life.
And so the emotional side forme wasn't this hard into my life
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.
And so the emotional side forme wasn't this hard.
I'm not going to say I wasn'temotionally affected, let me say
that but I will say that itwasn't as hard because I really
was completely satisfied with mydecision.
I had prayed and prayed andprayed some more and I heard God
clearly tell me to leave.
And when you have heard a wordfrom God, there is absolutely no
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turning back, like there's nosecond guessing.
I feel like the only time thatmay have filtrated my mind was
when other people threw it outthere, you know the what ifs,
and I had to stop them in theirtracks, and even sometimes now I
still have to stop people intheir tracks and let them know
hey, that ship has sailed.
You know, thank God, myex-husband has found new love
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and he is happy where he is andI'm happy for them and I pray
that they live an amazing life.
But I do feel like, you know,other people felt like that it
would some kind of way come backaround and that's just not our
story, um, and so I think peoplehave to be careful with trying
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to convince others, once they'vemade their mind up, that a
chapter has ended, um, that theyneed to go ahead and let people
close that chapter, um, andthen, if it needs to reopen, let
the people that are in thatchapter reopen it themselves,
but there shouldn't be a lot ofoutside influence on if you
should rekindle something or not.
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I think you know nobody reallyknows the full story outside of
the people that lived inhousehold, and so of course,
you're coming in blindly tryingto encourage somebody to go back
into a situation and you don'tknow if it would be detrimental
for them or not.
So I say all that to say youknow, just let people make their
decisions and you can supportthem without trying to encourage
them only to go back.
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There's multiple ways tosupport them and we can
definitely discuss that atanother time.
But yeah, so a lot of peoplefelt like my issues the last two
years were solely emotionalbecause of the relationship that
I lost, and it wasn't.
It was mainly learning how tofunction just as a single person
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again.
Learning now that you are onone income.
That's been a huge thing for me.
Learning how to rebudget,learning how to just manage my
money better, learning how toask for help, because I didn't.
I never had to do that before Idid it.
When it came to finances, I wasalways the person lending, I
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was always the person helping,and now I'm the person that
needs the help, and so that wasa huge thing for me, but I thank
God that I have a beautifulvillage who has always been able
to just step in and support,even when I couldn't say the
words I need help.
They just knew it and theywould just help, and so I'm
thankful for that and I'mgrateful to God for that.
And so, yeah, I need help.
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They just knew it and theywould just, they would just help
, and so I'm thankful for thatand I'm grateful to God for that
.
And so, um, yeah, I'm back andI'm so excited to be back.
Um, the devil did not want me todo this.
So many different roadblocks,I'm telling y'all so many
different roadblocks came my wayin trying to record and trying
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to just get this back out.
It's not clean, it is notedited, it is not.
There's no frou-frou-ness.
Like I'm not.
I'm just going to put it outthere authentically, the way
that I'm doing it now, and soyou're going to hear some just
not cleanness.
You know it's authentically meand I'm trying to do it the way
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that I speak about beingunapologetic and just doing
things and going after what youwant.
I feel like if I don't put itout, it'll never come back out,
and so I apologize, if you know,you guys are used to me having
it a little more professional,but I promise you I'm coming
back and I'm coming backstronger.
And so, if y'all just bear withme, continue to ride for me.
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I promise you I will ride fory'all and I will continue to try
to get you the best contentthat we can and we can continue
to grow together and I'm justI'm excited.
So I am going to start creatingsome social media pages that
are separate from my personalpage, just because I want.
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I'm very intentional aboutmaking sure that this group that
we have created about beingable to learn, love and live
ourselves unapologetically thatwe have that support system and
that there is a place for you tocome and be authentically
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yourself.
So I will definitely be postingthose pages and that way you
can come and just see when newcontent is coming out and you
can be able to stay and um be uh, uh.
You'll be able to keep up withwhat is going on, um, with the
podcast and possibly a littlebit more about me, um.
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So I thank you guys so much foryour support.
Again, I love you, love you,love you, um, and I will see you
guys later.
Please do not forget to learnlove and live unapologetically.
Before we leave, I do want toleave you guys with a word of
prayer, because we aredefinitely trying to continue to
grow in his word and we cannotever leave out of his presence
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without speaking to him firstand just being thankful.
And so, god, we come to youright now.
Just thank you for all yourmany blessings, oh God, we thank
you for being able to have aplatform where we can be our
true selves, where we can growand we can learn together,
learning how to serve you more,learning how to be loving and
walking your life, father God,and allowing others to be able
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to see you inside of us, fatherGod, but also knowing that we
can be authentically ourselvesand not have to pretend or be a
makeup of what we thinkChristianity looks like.
And so, god, we thank you rightnow, father God, for continuing
to be with us, covering us,keeping our minds, keeping us
healthy, lord, god, keeping ourfamilies going, lord.
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And so, each and every day, weask that you would continue to
just lay your hands on us,father God.
Continue to grow us, continue tofill us, father God, with your
love and your power, helping usto be able to use that same
power to heal and deliver others, speaking life into them
everywhere we go.
Help us to be a shining light,father God, that brights up the
rooms, lord God, and so, god, wethank you again for this
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opportunity.
I ask that you would touchevery listener, father God.
Touch every person, father God,that is listening to the sound
of my voice.
And so, god, I thank you and Ilove you.
We give you all the glory andall the praise.
In Jesus' name, I pray, amen.
I love you guys.
Peace, peace.