Women of the Waiting Room Takeover Guest Host LaQuita Parks

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When Ash B's soul-stirring tune "Prayed For" filled my ears, it was like a mirror to my own journey—reflecting the deep-seated yearnings for love and blessings that coursed through my life before I found my soulmate. Now, as I sit down with Laquita Parks, CEO of PayProV Publishing, we unravel the threads of personal trials, the relentless pursuit of dreams, and the silent prayers that shape us. Together, we celebrate the literary milestones achieved by my family, boasting six bestsellers, and the anticipation for what's yet to come in our shared narrative of turning pain into victory.

The heart of our conversation beats to the rhythm of self-discovery and complex human connections. With Mother's Day just around the corner, we honor the unsung heroism of mothers juggling their multifaceted identities and nurturing the burgeoning talents of their children. As I peel back the layers of my own persona—mother, wife, teacher, and friend—I reveal the intimate inner dialogues and private supplications that anchor my sense of self. We also tackle the darkness of gaslighting, the necessity for accountability in the nonprofit world, and the power of mentorship, underscoring the importance of integrity in all aspects of life.

As we round off this intimate exchange, I turn my gaze toward the horizon, eager to share the exciting projects that await. With initiatives like the Women of the Waiting Room TV Channel and upcoming book launches, the seeds of empowerment are being sown for a global impact. And in the sanctuary of waiting, I share insights on love, the potency of prayer, and the celestial choreography that we hope will lead us to the relationships we're destined for. Join us for this heartfelt exploration through the waiting room of life, where every trial is a stepping stone to triumph.

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Speaker 2 (00:13):
I?
They question when no man, thatain't no fit for me.
Do you pray, cause I pray?
You want kids.
I want a new heart.
You say follow it.
Tell me, can you send a ring?
You a king, I'm a queen.
We require certain things, andthat's what I pray for.

(00:36):
So that's what I wait for, dearGod, come when you're sinning,
I'm gon' be ready.
Dear God, you do this for me.
I won't forget it.
My heart, I've been through somuch and I just wanna feel your
love for once.
And, dear God, I hope he'shappy Already here, but if you

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see me, I know he is.
I know he will.
Dear God, that's what I prayfor.
That's what I pray for.
So that's what I wait for and Ivow to be everything you need.
Share my life with you, all theright with you, and I promise

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to support all your dreams.
But I gotta know that you weremade for me.
Do you pray, cause I pray?
You want kids, I want eight.
You were made for me.
Do you pray, cause I pray?
You want kids, I want eight.
Are you faithful?
Oh wait, tell me, can you senda ring?
You a king, I'm a queen.
We require certain things, andthat's what I pray for.
So that's what I wait for.

Speaker 1 (01:42):
That's what I pray for.
That's what I wait for for.
That's what I'm waiting for.

Speaker 2 (01:57):
Dear God, you do this for me.
I won't forget it, my heart,I've been through so much and I
just wanna feel true love foronce.
Feel true love for once.
And, dear God, I hope he'shappy, already, healed, but if
he's in me, I know he is, I knowhe will.
Dear God, dear God, that's whatI pray for, so that's what I

(02:22):
wait for.

Speaker 3 (02:50):
Yes, thank you guys so much for tuning in to listen.
Linda, today I have such anamazing guest, uh, but first I
want to shout out ash b for thatsong, pray for.
If you don't got it, go get it.
Uh, that song reaches andspeaks to my spirit and even
though, yes, I am married,happily married for eight years
now to mr Cox if y'all don'tknow his first name, but
everybody know who Mr Cox is thelove of my life, my husband, my

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best friend.
But I'm also friends to a lotof beautiful, talented, gorgeous
, amazing single women who Iknow they are deserving of a
wonderful love.
And that song right there justputs everything in perspective
when you're looking for yourmate.
So if I had have had that songback when I was making Wrong

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Choices in Me, that, along withDr Velma's series, the Catch
series, her books would havedefinitely saved me a lot of
heartache.
So I appreciate my friend Ashbyfor that song.
I have an amazing guest hosttoday who is not only the

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publisher of all 11 of myfamily's books six of them
bestsellers and we still havefive more coming that are soon
to be bestsellers she is thepublisher of two anthologies
that I have coming out combined,which is the Women of the
Waiting Room, anthology as wellas the devotional.

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She is very, very great.
I want to call her my bestfriend.
I want to call her my bonus mom.
I want to call her my sister inChrist.
I want to call her one of themost beautiful, talented and
just amazing women of God thatI've ever ever met in my life,

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and I am so blessed that she'scoming on my platform just to
show me some love.
So you guys give it up for MissLaquita Parks.
Thank you so much.
Oh, my goodness, jacqueline,you know what I need to?

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Um, I need to pay you for that.
I really need to pay you forthat.
I am so excited to be here.
Jacqueline said my name isLaquita Parks.
I am the CEO and founder ofPayProV Publishing, and PayProV
means pain, progress, victory,because I believe without pain

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there is no progress and withoutprogress there can be no
victory.
So I am so, so excited to behere.
And again I have to say,jacqueline, thank you so much
for that introduction.
I so appreciate it and Iappreciate you and your family,
and you know what I'm going tosay you are one of the hardest
working women in show business.
I have to say you got it goingon with your children and your

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husband.
You got it all together, girl.
I love it.
I love it.
One of the things that I reallyreally like about you is you
have somebody once said that Ihave the tenacity of a pit bull
on steroids, and I'm going tosay so.
Do you, especially when itcomes to those boys, making sure

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that they have what they need.
They have some of the thingsthat they want and making sure
that their talents get noticed,and I appreciate the mom that
you are.
So kudos, kudos to you, andhappy early mother's day to you
as well, and all the women thatare here listening on this
platform.
So I want to just jump right in.

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I'm excited for everything, allof the things that you're
working on, all of theaccomplishments, and I know from
a personal standpoint that itis not easy, and I know that
everything that you go throughto do the things that you need
to do and then do the thingsthat you want to do, I know it

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ain't easy.
You make it look good, girl,but you do.
You make it look good.
That's why some people take itfor granted that, oh okay, she
can do this.
She can do that because youmake it look easy.
So I want to take this momentto say congratulations.
I'm proud of all of the thingsthat you have accomplished and
the things that you are workingon, and all the doors that are
opening to you, for you and toGod.

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Be the glory.
To God be the glory.
So that's my story, girl, andI'm sticking to it.
So the first question I have foryou is who is Jacqueline?
That's my first question.
Who is Jacqueline?
Jacqueline is tough.

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Jacqueline is smart, ambitious.
Jacqueline is artistic,creative, determined, driven,
spiritual, a lover of people.
I am full of faith.

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I am full of faith.
I am worthy, I am enough.
I am loved, I am appreciated.
I am beautiful, I am bold.
I am fearless, I am fierce.

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Fearless, I am fierce.

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I am rubies, diamonds, pearls.
I am a breath of fresh air.
I am.
God sent honey to this earth.
I am me, I am phenomenal, I ama wonder woman.
I am a mom, I am a wife, I am asister, I am a friend, I am a
cousin.
I am a teacher.

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I am a friend, I am a cousin, Iam a teacher.
I am broken, I am hurt, I amfearful of God.

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But I own it, I accept it and Iam healing and I am putting in
the work to become even betterthan I was 10 minutes ago so I
can work on becoming better thanI am right now.
10 minutes from now.

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That's who I am.
Wow, that was a whole lot.
That was a whole lot.
That was a whole lot.
I appreciate that.
I have to say I'm a whole lot.
Yeah, well, I did it for you.
I did it for you.
That's a whole lot, and youknow what it's.
Uh, oftentimes, when, when it'swhen people want to know who you

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are, we kind of get caught upand you have to think about well
, exactly who, exactly who am I?
Because oftentimes, especiallywhen you have a family, when you
have a spouse, when you havechildren, you get caught up into
I'm a wife, I'm a mother, butwe are so much more than that.
And it's a little different forme because I have adult

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children, but I'm still a mother.
But my life now is differentthan the way it was when my
children were your children'sages.
So you get, you know, we getcaught up in the identity of our
spouse and our children andsometimes we lose who we are.
So that was good.
I want to ask you and I don'twant to kind of throw out a

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series of just questions,questions, I do want to dialogue
some with it but what I want toknow is Tell us, tell us
something.
You know, we, we just heard whoyou are.
We just heard that that you're,you're a woman of God, your
wife, your mother, your friend,your, your creator, your, you
know all of those things thatyou're.
You're a woman of god, yourwife, your mother, your friend,
your, your creator, your, youknow all those things that you

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just listed.
We just heard all of that.
So, but now I want to know whatis it?
Who is the jacqueline that spacewho you know?

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When she's bare to the world,she doesn't, she's not, she's
not in front of the camera.
You know, the kids are, are offwith dad doing their thing, and
it's just you, with your peaceand your solace.
And, and you're just naked, andI don't mean physically naked,
but you're just, you'rejustlless, and you're just naked
, and I don't mean physicallynaked, but you're just naked.
Who are you?
I am sleep, sleep and beauty.

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I know that's right.
I'm a vision.
I am when the curtains arepulled closed and I lay.
I hurt, I'm in pain, I cry, Ibreathe, but I pray.

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I'm prayerful.
Jacqueline is on her kneespraying to God.
Jacqueline is thanking God foreverything that I'm going
through.
I thank God that I don't looklike what I'm going through.
I thank God for rescuing mefrom the life that I used to

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live and although I was neverlike on hard drugs or anything,
that's because he covered mefrom those things.
I was surrounded by thosethings for a long time in my
life and I just never had theurge to indulge.
So I thank God for the mindsetof you know what, or for having

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a parent that went through thosethings.
I was able to envision thosethings and also able to envision
that those things are not whatI wanted my life to look like.
So I steer clear.
So I thank God for taking thewill from me.
So, in those moments when Ihave that peace and I'm not just

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going to say peace, because mychildren and my husband and
those things bring me peace,being a creative working,
because by being a creative andbeing able to express myself
through art, through creativedesign, through poetry, through
writing, through digital design,through digital marketing,

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whatever it is that I do in mylife brings me peace.
So the moment that I don't havethat, I'm either praying or you
know what I'm doing I'mwatching my Real Housewives of
Atlanta reruns.
That's what I'm doing.
That's who Jacqueline is.
Jacqueline is a reality TVlover and connoisseur.

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That's who I am.
Connoisseur, that's who I am.
I love it.
I love it.
You know, when we, sometimes wego through in our private time.
I had a conversation withmyself because you know you have
to do those self-talks becauseI believe if you can believe, if
you can teach yourself tobelieve a lie, then you can

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train yourself to believe thetruth.
Okay, and we have to go throughthe process sometimes.
And in one of my self-taughtconversations, oftentimes you
tell people say you know, howare you, how are you doing?
I'm fine.
Well, even when you're not fine, because, as women and I think
sometimes men do that too thepoint where we don't really want

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to say how we feel because, oh,we don't want people to feel
like we're complaining it feelslike, you know, every time you
turn around, it's alwayssomething with me and that
person might be thinking it'salways something going on with
you.
But we're deceiving ourselvesbecause if I tell you I'm fine
and I'm not fine, then I'mtelling a lie.
Okay, so, as we go through themotions of our day-to-day lives,

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having that time is important,and I'm learning that it's
important to have that solace.
And when you're in the crevicesof your own space and you're
naked before God and you're inyour dream time or in your sleep
time, it's the time that youcan be totally transparent with

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yourself.
You know you don't have to puton anything for anybody, you
don't have to be kind, you don'thave to put on a happy face.
You can pull that mask off andyou can be who you want to be,
who you are, when you can'tquite be that person because of
the expectations.
Okay, so I really appreciatethat and I appreciate

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transparency, because we have tobe honest with ourselves if we
expect the world to see us forwho we want them to see us as.
So I like that, I really likethat.
So I'm going to ask you thisquestion, and I typically asked
most people this question andI've probably asked you this
question before.

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Think about what you're doingnow, think about the things that
you've done in your life, andI'm going to give you like 10
seconds to answer this questionbecause I don't want you to
think hard about it.
Like 10 seconds to answer thisquestion, because I don't want
you to think hard about it.
If you could do anything inthis entire world and knew that

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you would not fail at it, therewas no way that you would fail
at it.
What would it be and why Hitthe lottery?
I ain't know why.
You should know the why that'sit.
Hit the lottery, hit thelottery, hit the lottery.
Y'all didn't even have to thinktwice about it and that's now.

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I'm sticking to that answer.
You can't make me change it.
Hit the lottery.
Okay, I was looking forsomething a little deeper, but
that's good, nobody's ever saidhit the lottery.
I was looking for somethingprofound, but that, hey, that
was well, you're forcing me tomake you expound upon that.
So what would you do with thelottery, with the money that you

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win, of course, after you takecare of yourself and family,
what would you do with the moneythat would make a difference in
this world?
I would invest.
I would.
First, I would give a lot tocertain charities.
I would give it to youth girls,urban mostly, who are going

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through challenges.
I would donate to that cause.
I would donate to the boys aswell.
I would donate to the boys aswell, young boys from birth to
maybe 24.
I would donate to every causeof sickness that I'm dealing

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with.
I would donate money to helpfind cures for those things and
I would donate money to all ofthe homeless people in the world
.
Like all the people who arehomeless, but especially the
ones in America who are homelessand living under bridges and

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don't know where they're goingto eat, I would build shelters.
Living under bridges and don'tknow where they're going to eat,
I will build shelters.
I would build transitionalliving facilities.
I will find work for them.
If they're creatives, I willcreate creative spaces where
they can create their art andmaybe do art galleries for them.
That's what I would do.

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That's what I would do.
I like that purpose.
I propose for the money to beused for the homeless.
What would you do to eradicatethe homeless?
What ideas or thoughts wouldyou do?
Would you come up with?
Well, yeah, like I said, Iwould build shelters.
I would be like a part of theboard.

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I would be a part of thegrassroots.
I would be in the room wherethe money.
I want to know where it's beingspent, I would know what pot is
going into and I woulddefinitely have AP and AR looked
at very closely and if you guysdon't know what AP, ar that's,
account payable, accountreceivables I want to know who

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gets what.
I will make sure that the moneythat I'm investing, the money
that I'm donating, the grantsthat I'm providing for them, are
being spent not as salaries forpeople to go on trips to
Jamaica and Africa and all thesedifferent places, but are
actually getting put towards theactual cause.

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So that's what I would do and Iwould be hands on.
You already know me a millionon deck, because I need to know
what every dollar and I want tomake sure and then I will make
sure that the people who arereceiving those funds get
surveys and their ids and theirsignatures go on those surveys,

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because I want to know that theyare the ones that are signing
those surveys.
I, I I like that because thereare so many organizations who
they stand, they they say theystand for one.
I was listening to the news oneday and they were saying that
there are these organizationsand they're just organizations
in name only and they'reaccepting, they're not doing

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anything.
I know they're getting they'renot doing anything.
Right, they're right and I know, in these grants and they're
they're splitting it up between.
And you know, I've I've been inthe room child, so I know I've
worked with nonprofits, I'vebeen in the room, I've been on
the board, I've sat in boardmeetings and I watched the money

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get penny-pinched on all yearso they can wait until the end
of the year when they get thesebonus checks and they are the
size of a year's salaries forpeople.
So I've seen people uh writegrants and then they split the
money between the people that'sin the organization and they,

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they.
They have these fundraiserswhere they spend maybe uh, ten
or fifteen hundred dollars andthen they ask the public for
donations and go fund these tosupport the cause, when they
know that they've written grantsfor these things and they
divvied up the money and took abunch of trips all year or
bought clothes and shoes and didthese things and did not put

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that money where it was supposedto go.
So if it's my money that'sbeing put towards it, it's going
to have a leash on it.
I understand that.
You know there are.
I remember when I started mymentoring program and I was
talking to this guy and he saidhis response to me was oh, there
are, there are enough, thereare a lot of mentoring programs.

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And I said, ok, you know, oh,you know there are that.
And mentoring programs?
And I said, okay, you know.
Oh, you know there are that.
And he was just kind ofbrushing me off there are a lot
of mentoring programs.
So I said, well, then answerthis question for me.
I said if there are a lot of orenough mentoring programs, then
one or two things is theproblem.
Either there either thementoring programs that we have
are not sufficient, or we don'thave enough mentoring programs

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to meet the needs of theindividuals.
So mentoring programs have to.
First of all, you have to know,just like you know.
People say it takes a wholevillage to raise a child, and it
does.
I agree with that.
But you have to know who's inthe village.
Okay, everybody in the villagecan't raise a child.
They can't help raise a child,can't be near the child.
So you have to know who's inthe village.
Okay, everybody in the villagecan't raise the child.
They can't help raise the child, can't be near the child.

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So you have to know who's inthe village.
So we have to be good stewardsof our money.
So that's a good thing.
And then the people who arereceiving, they also.
We also have to teach them howto fish.
So because if they, if theykeep coming back and we keep
giving them the fish and neverteach them the skills they need,
then we're just going to keepthrowing money after money after

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money.
So I like that whole processand I do agree.
When I worked with a corporateorganization, I worked with
community affairs and I had anopportunity to see a lot of
things, just like you.
And I had an opportunity to seea lot of things just like you,

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and I had to, you know.
So it even taught me when thereare people on the streets who
are you know how.
You see people on the streetwith signs or they have kids out
on the street, which Iabsolutely hate.
I don't like that.
They have kids on the street orthey're doing this fundraiser
for this fundraiser.
For that.
I have to research and knowwhere my money is going going.
Just because you're standingout on the street with a sign
does not mean my money goes intothat boot or bucket, and a lot
of times that money never makesit to where it's supposed to go.

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Absolutely so I, I like that.
I like that.
So, jacqueline, moving rightalong, moving right along, girl,
what is what you know?
We talk, we talk all the timeand there are some things that
burn your britches like.
There are some things that getmy goat.
I mean they, they thank you inyour words they take you to the

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moon, take me to the moon andgrind my ears, grind your gears
for me, burn my butt.
I'm like what kind of cackle,knuckle, bull janker is this?
What are some of the things?
What's?
What's one thing, what's thethe, the thing that just grinds
your gears and sends you to themoon and back in a in a shake of

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a in a shake of a of a tail.
What is that thing?
That?
That is just a total dealbreaker for you.
Um, gas lighters.
And so for the people in theback who don't know what a gas

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lighter is, what is that?
Gaslighters is someone who isthe villain and plays the victim
to divert the attention back tothe victim.
Um, they never takeaccountability for anything.
They pull at your heartstringsand make it seem even though

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they are wrong.
They have a twisted way to makeyou feel like the villain.
Um, they make you feel ashamedfor wanting to be respected.
They make you feel bad for foraddressing a problem or

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addressing the issue if it hurtsyou.
Someone who victim blames andsomeone who basically just is a
sociopath in their own right onright.
They, they don't takeaccountability and they don't

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care how their actions affectsthe other person.
That's what a gas lighter is.
Okay, I dropped this girl,listen, and I, I can name, I can
name some girl in my own family.
Okay, if y'all listen, I ain'tlying.
I ain't lying because listenfor the real.

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The real real of it is I lovemy family, don't get me wrong,
but if I had to choose them, ifI had to choose some of them as
family, if I had to do it allover again and then say, okay,
you know what, choose these ones.
There's some of y'all thatwon't make it, amen.
I'm just saying, I'm justsaying so, I, I, I like that.
Well, you know, I like it inthe sense of I understand what

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you're saying.
There are, there are people whothere are people who, by the
time they get through with you,it's like okay, now wait, we
were talking because you werethe problem.
Now how we?
How?
Now I'm the problem.
A vampire, energy suckers,energy energy suckers.
Just drain all you.
By the time you get done, seewhat a gas lighter will do for

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the people in the back who maynot know.
You'll come to them and say youknow, just like I'm talking to
you right now, you know whatlaquita?
Uh, I can't even address you.
I'm gonna say you know whatshawley?
You know, I don't appreciatethe way that you handled this,
or you handled me in thissituation.
You made me feel like this, youmade me feel like that Right,

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people today are so used tothrowing shade, subliminal
messages, messages.
Let me find a meme or a taglinethat I could use, that I could
express how I feel withoutaddressing the person directly.

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Like we don't have telephonesno more.
Like we don't have textmessages, like we can't call
this person and tell this personhow we feel, no more, because
we don't really want to addressthe problem.
We just want to be popular orwe just want to be the person
known to throw the best shade.
Now, I ain't going to lie.
I think I'm the queen, I thinkI can stand in the ring with

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anybody when it comes to shade.
But one thing about JacquelineCox, one thing about Jacqueline
Sharmeese Smith Cox is that I'vebeen doing this from birth.
I have been raised by countryblack women from the South.
Okay, I have never been afraidto address anybody head on.

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So if anybody tell you I'll sayanything behind their back and
then tell them to their facefirst they are flat out, laugh.
They'll fat face on, laugh.
Okay, I have always told peoplehow I felt.
I never held nothing back.
I've never been the person toshoot somebody and smile in

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their face.
No, you're going to know fromme first.
And smiling, they say no,you're going to know from me
first.
And then after that I'd belying if I did not say I did not
tell the world how you did me,absolutely I did.
I got to warn the universe onwho, not they look, go at your
own risk.
Now I'm not saying don't be,you know, but watch out.

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That's all I'm going to say,because this was done to me.
Yes, I will do that.
And I'm not saying that it'sright or wrong.
I'm just saying, right now, inthe stage of my life where I am,
I'm going to warn the people.
I'm going to warn the peopleDanger, danger, danger will rob

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you, danger will rob you.
Go left Yellow tape.
You know what?
I appreciate that you said thatI I the one thing that I
appreciate that you said um wasin the stage that I am in my
life, because those stageschange now.
It does not mean that.
It does not mean that agaslighter won't still be a

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gaslighter.
It doesn't mean that abackbiter or a cheat won't still
be a backbiter or a cheat.
But as women of God whoproclaim Christianity, we have a
loving God and that loving Godforgives.
So if we know that God forgives, we know that God has the power

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to change people.
So we know that people dochange.
However, when we changeourselves too, we grow from
where we are today, where I am,where you are now.
I'm not there in that spacebecause that was almost 20 years
ago.
So between us, girl, I'm agingmyself.

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That's why we call Mama Queda.
So as you grow those things,how you feel about a certain
thing changes.
However, hurt still means hurt,lies still mean lies, deceit
still mean deceit, all thosethings.

(31:49):
So you still have to be awareand be careful of those people
around you, and you have to.
What did my grandma used to saytrust but verify and you don't

(32:10):
get it.
I used to say you don't get.
I have a good friend of mineactually, who said you get two
good times after you.
After those two good times,then I'm going to show you my
crazy.
And she said I said you don'tgive them one time.
She said I give them two goodtimes, which means the first
time might be OK, that was anaccident, the second time maybe
no, that be no, no, no, no, no.
That was something you did onpurpose.
So we have to make sure that weprotect ourselves and I love

(32:33):
that.
You said the queen of shade.
You know, that's a newterminology at first, and I'm
I'm um, you know, jacqueline,you know, I don't know some
terminology so I'm like, okay,that mean.
So when some and you said thatbefore, mama Queen, you were
throwing shade and I was like,no, what do you mean?
I wasn't throwing shade.
But sometimes when you say whatyou say, you know people take

(32:54):
it as shade and it isn't shade.
Sometimes it can be, but youknow when somebody is throwing,
when somebody is beingunderhanded and nasty to you.
You know that's never my case.
You know what, mama quita?
I have always grown up aroundwomen that were older than me
and they always schooled me.

(33:15):
Even now, today, I surround,like I put up a status today.
That said, when you surroundyourself with champions, they
will spar with you until youbecome a heavyweight champion
yourself.
And I feel like I surroundmyself with champions in all

(33:37):
aspects of my life.
I've done this and I don't knowif it's a survival mechanism
that I use or if God put thesepeople in my life.
I'm banking on God puttingthese people in my life.
These are my legion of angelsthat he keeps For that pearl
they're making you that pearl.

Speaker 2 (33:53):
They're busting me.
You can't become a pearlwithout yes, you can't become a
pearl, and you're right Wait.

Speaker 3 (34:00):
Tyson had to spar with the best of them.
Absolutely he had to spar withthe best of them.
Rocky had to spar with Creed,spar with the best of them.
Rocky had to spar with creed,with the best of them, to become
the best, to beat that russianman, like he had to really get
out there look creed.
He had to go fight all thosepeople to become the best.
What did you just say?
What did you just say that thatwas key.

(34:21):
What did you just say?
He had to get out there.
And that's the problem somepeople, some people don't want
to get out there.
So so you can say and it'sgrowth, I and I, I agree, jack,
when I've been there, I have Ihave had and I have some.
You know, most of my friends areolder than me and I have had
some people to come and they,they will tell you some stuff

(34:43):
and at first it'd be like, okay,that hurt my feelings, but they
are saying it in love and yougotta always consider the source
.
But I've I've had some thatI've had to go back and say you
know what?
I don't, I, I didn't like Imean, I'm talking about days and
weeks where I'm marinating oversomething and my feelings hurt
and I'm like, okay, I can'tbelieve she said that to me, or
I can't believe she did that tome.

(35:04):
And then I have to, I, you know, I go back and and I'm like
okay, I'm not gonna say nothingto that person, no more.
But then in me is it's agnawing that says okay, you know
what, this person has alwaysbeen kind and always been this
and that.
And then when I go back to thatperson, say, you know, you hurt
my feelings and it's like howdid I hurt your feelings?
What did I?
do and I said well, you saidsuch and such and you said

(35:27):
something about this and that.
And she was like, oh no, that'snot what I meant.
I'm sorry, that is not what Imeant.
And giving them a chance toexplain, but the same people
they will.
When you say sparring,absolutely, because they will

(35:54):
come back and they will be likelisten, you have, once you go
through the ring so much, thenyou begin to trust them because
you know who they are.
And then I find myself seekingtheir advice, because the Bible
says what the older women teachthe younger women and we have to
get in there.
And that's the problem.
So many people already knoweverything and they don't want
to get in there and they don'twant to get smart.
So in order to come out thatpearl because you're a pearl,
because you're, you're, you're adiamond in the rough somebody

(36:15):
said so in order to be a diamonda diamond ain't a diamond, just
it ain't born a diamond, honey,it has to go through some
things.
And then, once you get thatdiamond, what you have to do,
you have to, you have to shineit when you get that.
When you get that diamond, whatyou have to do, you have to
shine it.
When you get that silver, thatreal silver, it gets dull
sometimes and you got to whatyou got to shine it.
You got to make that diamondsparkle.

(36:37):
And then, when you get thempearls you know you got some
pearls because it's been throughsome things.
Why do you think it's soexpensive?
If they were cheap, everybodywould have a set, everybody
would have real diamonds.
But you have to get in there,and you're absolutely right.
They got in there.
What did they do?
They got beat up and they losta couple of rounds, but they

(36:58):
came back and after they cameback they lost some more rounds,
but they came back.
And when they came back, whatdid they do?
Did they win?
Yes, they won big.
They didn't just win, they wonit all, and that's the thing.
So, as, as we go through and Iand I can, I can appreciate
growth.
I can appreciate growth.

(37:19):
I can appreciate, um, I canappreciate somebody saying you
know what?
Uh, um, you know I, I was wrong.
I can appreciate somebodysaying you know, laquita, this
is how, this is how what you didmade me feel and all the time
we've had those talks before,exactly, absolutely the point
I'm making.
The point I'm making is we'vehad those talks before.

(37:43):
I've had that talk with everysingle last one of y'all, every
single last one of my crew.
I got on the phone and I said Idon't like how you made me feel
when you said this.
You know, because my feelingscan hurt real easy, even though
I come off as strong and toughmy feelings.
You know, I got feelings likeeverybody else and a lot of

(38:03):
people don't really respect thatpart of me Because they feel
like I'm so tough.
I should be able to just takewhatever they throw, and that's
not always the case, and so youknow, when I bring it to you,
it's not what you say, it's howyou say it.
It's not you get what I'msaying.
I can appreciate somebody whowould say, you know what?

(38:25):
No, that's not how I reallywanted you to feel.
I didn't mean it in that aspect.
But I pay attention to tone, Ipay attention to body language
and then I use discernment.
I'm a true woman of God.
Whether people want to believeit or not, that's what they
thought and they ain't gotnothing to do with me.

(38:45):
What they think don't make meeat.
God gives me things, and whenhe gives me things and he put it
in my spirit, my discernmentshows me who's for me and who's
not for me, and I'm sorry.
One thing that I've always said,my daddy always taught me, is

(39:11):
two things actually.
One thing you never lose afriend.
That's one thing.
You never lose a friend, nomatter what you've been through
in your life.
You never lose a friend,because a friend can't be lost.
You could tell a friend how youfeel, they could tell you how

(39:31):
you, how they feel about you,and y'all can.
Y'all can give each other somespace or whatever, but you will
always have that friend becausethey are a friend.
And another thing my daddyalways taught me watch the
person that always keep a smileon their face, because Chucky,
gremlins, jigsaw Pennywise, fatFreddy and Thighs or whatever it

(39:56):
is, they all wore smiles.
So everything that wear a smileain't good and everything that
don't wear a smile ain't bad.
So we have to be helpful andmindful that everybody is
walking around like they.
Oh yeah, you, my sis, hey, sis,hey, this don't call me sis.
Uh-uh.
That's a, that's a red flag forme, that's a trauma word,

(40:19):
that's a trigger you know why amI?
saying uh-uh, nope, nope, nope.
And you know what, and and youknow what, I, I, everybody has
their, everybody has their ownway of coping, their own way of
viewing everybody.
Does you have to respecteverybody's opinion?

(40:39):
Hey, my, my sister said I, Irespect your, I, I respect your
right to be wrong.
I was like what?
So everybody has their own wayof how they cope, how they deal.
I call them isms.
What their isms are, it doesnot make it wrong.
It does not make your feelingsand your thoughts wrong.

(41:03):
You just have to know everybodyand, just like you said, you
don't lose a friend andsometimes people have to
understand.
I talked to a lady it was justlast week and she and I hadn't
seen each other in a long timeand we started talking.
She called me and we talked forlike two hours like we had just

(41:26):
, we had been seeing each otherevery single day and she said
you know, and we've had, we'vehad our disagreements, we have
agreed to disagree.
You know, we've had ourdisagreements.
She's gotten very upset with me, I've gotten very upset with
her and at the end of the day,you know, it's like hey, I love
you, this is.
You know, if I hurt yourfeelings.

(41:47):
I apologize, that was not myintent and that's the thing that
we receive from each other, andit can be five years, it can be
a year.
We still pick up the friendshipwhere we left off, because life
happens.
So, I agree, you don't lose afriend At the same time you do
outgrow people, lose a friend atthe same time.

(42:12):
You do outgrow people andsometimes there I truly believe
in there are people that comeinto your life for a reason.
There are people that come intoyour life for a season.
There are people that come intoyour life for a lifetime.
I truly agree with that,because sometimes people think
well, people that you know, yourfamily, comes into your life
for a lifetime, not necessarilybecause, keep in mind, the
family that we were born withthat's not necessarily the

(42:33):
people that's going to stay withus for the lifetime, because we
didn't choose those people.
You know what I'm saying.
We didn't choose them.
Your children, that's yourlifetime.
Your spouse should be yourlifetime Friends.
There are some friends that arelifetime, but there are also
friends or people who come intoyour life to grow you and once

(42:54):
they grow you in a certainsituation, then you can check
that box off, honey.
And it's like okay, you knowwhat one thing I learned,
jacqueline and I see that withyou is to be a sponge uh, I've
not known you.
You would think we've knowneach other for a million years.
I've not known you for amillion years, but in the short
time that I've known you, I'veseen a lot with you.

(43:17):
I've seen a lot of growth, I'veseen the pain, I've seen pain
from hurt and I've seen thephysical pain.
I've seen a mother rally behindyour children, and I don't mean
just some fly-by-night rallying, you know what I'm saying.
I mean use you as an example.
You know I'm all about thestory, jacqueline.

(43:41):
You know that I am all aboutthe story.
And when there are people whohave children, I'm like, hey,
you have children, you got tobook.
The whole family have children.
I'm like, hey, you havechildren, you got to book the
whole family.
Hey, I know a family, the wholefamily.
They are published authors.
And it's not like OK, well, wewrote a book, let's check that
out.
No, they are published authors.
And the mom, the mom is a beast.
I was having that conversationin Alabama the other day, was

(44:03):
having that conversation inAlabama the other day.
The mom is a beast.
So I see that with you and wehave to realize too that people
are not where we are.
We have to take people forwhere they are and take steps
back and say, okay, you knowwhat this is made to?
Grow me, lord, let me learnwhat I need to learn and let me

(44:25):
move on.
Because typically and tell meif you agree or disagree,
jacqueline typically, when youget in situations or you meet
people and they grow you, yournext level is elevated.
It's to the next level.
It's to the next level, amillion percent.
You want a whole nother levelspiritually, emotionally, even

(44:48):
sometimes financially.
When people grow you, even ifit's intentional or
unintentional, god will blessyou, depending on if you pass.
I'm always passing the test,whether I want to or not.
Once I feel like I'm notpassing the test, I reach out to

(45:09):
my heavyweights and y'all whipme back into shape.
So I know that all the anger,all the hurt, all the pain,
everything that I feel peoplemay have done to me, I pour that
into my craft, I pour it intomy kids, I pour all that energy

(45:32):
I put into something else and itblooms.
It blooms.
So what they say, the enemy, uh.
That, what, what the enemy uhthinks is going to be for your
doom, it ends up being for yourdeliverance.
You know what they takeAbsolutely.

(45:54):
What you meant for evil, godmeant for good, that's right.
What the enemy meant to be,your doom, what meant to be your
demise, god takes that and heturns it into your deliverance.
He turns it into.
He puts you, you know, up onthat mountaintop that they were
trying to say hey, you follow me, you stay under me, because

(46:17):
people love to see you.
When they feel like you arebeneath them, then it's okay.
But the moment you want toelevate yourself or you, god is
placing you somewhere you didn'teven know you was going to be,
didn't know the door was goingto open.

Speaker 2 (46:33):
I didn't even know it was a door.

Speaker 3 (46:35):
Didn't even know it was a door.
It was like the door that wason Beetlejuice, when they drew
the door on the wall.
You didn't even know that thedoor was going to happen and I
draw that knob on that door andwatch me open it.
You didn't even know that itwas inside of you.
But you know, all I can do yougrow, it's to grow you.

(46:56):
All I can do is not be Lot'swife.
Okay, don't look back.
Don't look back, becausethey're going to try to distract
you.
Those same people are going totry to do whatever they can to
get your attention.
They will shout it from therooftop, they will go on the
biggest platform and run a smearcampaign.

(47:19):
And you know what I've learnedto do in those instances
Definitely not what I would havedid a year ago, which is
retaliate.
I've learned to think in my mindI do not care.
I was going to say, jacqueline,what do I say, jacqueline?
What do I say all the time, Ido not care about what somebody

(47:45):
else thinks about you.
It's not your business, you isnot your business.
That's their own insecuritiesthat they're trying to project
on you.
I could care less about whatsomebody have going on and
thoughts that they like,especially about me, because one
thing for certain and twothings for sure the first thing
that's for certain is if theytalking about you.

(48:07):
That's because if they talkingabout themselves.
Nobody care.
Nobody care enough to listen.
The second thing is whateverthey thinking is not going to
elevate me to my next leveltheir thoughts about me and that
goes for anybody who listen youhave to think about the source,
think about the audience, whothey are, who they are that's

(48:27):
talking and the audience that'slistening.
If you're looking at them andthey got that much time and
energy to be placing on what yougot going on in your life and
how they planning on, how theygoing to take you down, baby,
that's where they energy goingWhile they doing that.
That's what I'm doing Moving upon the ladder.
What else you need from me, god?

(48:47):
I'm just constantly moving.
Every time they looking at me,I'm completing Moving up on the
ladder.
What else you need from me, god?
I'm just constantly moving.
Every time they looking at me,I'm completing another goal, I'm
getting something elseaccomplished.
I'm doing something to elevateme, and not just me, because
some people be so focused onself they don't care their kids
are reaching milestones.
They're not even there for.
They are too busy, focused onself and sabotaging somebody

(49:10):
else.
And that's not me.
If I'm moving, so is my family,so is my husband, so are my
kids, so are my support systemthat's around me.
I'm going to do what I can inthis life because we don't know
if we're going to be here 10minutes from now and guess what,
whenever, my last 10 minutes isup here on this earth liquidity

(49:31):
.
When I get to them, gates, andgod say, what did you do with
what I gave you, I'm gonna say Ileft no crumbs.
My oil is dry, my well is dry.
God, I did every.
Every time you plant somethingin my spirit, even the stuff
that you didn't.
I youtube university andfigured it out.
It ain't nothing that you gaveme that I did not use.

(49:53):
I didn't waste time.
I didn't waste time.
I didn't not put my kids inposition where they're going to
make it.
I did not miss any milestonesin their life because I'm so
focused on what I got going onwith me.
It's one thing to say okay andI'm using this term, but it's

(50:15):
been won out to the ground.
I did say yes to myself, right?
But in saying yes to me, do notmean shutting my kids out, does
not mean shutting my husbandout, does not mean shutting my
family out to the point whereevery single thing in my life
has to be only devoted to me.
That's selfishness.
Now, what we can do is say yesto ourselves so we can remain

(50:38):
healthy, you know, keep ourmental state in order.
Absolutely Exactly right.
You got to say yes to yousometimes, so that you can be
equipped to take care of them.
Because if you're not, butdon't neglect them Exactly.
It's a fine line between that.
Okay, well, girl, you're justgoing to take over my show.

(50:59):
Oh, I'm sorry, girl, you got metalking about some caring baby.
You're going to take over myshow.

Speaker 2 (51:07):
But no, that's good, that's good, that's good very
passionate about.

Speaker 3 (51:12):
Yes, you are and I.
I love that and they and itshows um, what is some.
One of my, one of my friendsfrom high school I'm in this
high school group sent um,posted this today when you
operate in your gift, you don'thave to be at the head of the
table, for whenever, whereveryou sit or stand, the table and
the room will shift.
I love that.

(51:36):
I love that because it justsays it doesn't matter as long
as you're operating in your gift.
Wherever you are, wherever yousit, that's the head of the
table.
Wherever you stand, that's thefront of the line.
Whatever door you go out,that's the main entrance.
Main entrance.

(52:00):
And you know I've talked aboutthis before.
When I first startedPay-Per-View Publishing, I tried
to.
You know, there are so manypublishers.
It's just like there's a burgerjoint on every corner.
You got Burger King, mcdonald's, wendy's, you know Cookout, you
got all these burger jointsright Sonic's all of them
selling burgers, and so there isjust like publishing.
There are publishers all overthe place and everybody has

(52:23):
their own way of doing things,and so do I, and I wanted to.
I talked to this lady.
I met this lady.
She was a publisher and I waslike, oh, you know, I wanted to
talk to her and she shut me down.
She was like, oh, you know, shewas doing something.
I said, oh, I'd like to be apart of that.
Was before, that was doingcollaboration.

(52:43):
It's like I want to be a partof that and I said wow.
I said, well, you know, how doyou?
Just kind of ask the questionwell, how do you do this or how
do you do that?
And basically kind of pickingher brain, not trying to get any
proprietary information, butbasic information, because I had
already researched, like, well,how do you do it?

(53:03):
And she, she point blank andsaid listen, I can't, you know,
you can't be a part of myplatform, you can't be a guest
on my platform, you can't.
You went out again laquita, amI here?
I here, I'm sorry, we're, we're, we're competitors.
And I was like what?
And so she was like, oh, Ican't, I can't help you.

(53:23):
And I said, how, at that time,you know, it kind of hurt a
little bit.
And I was like, wow, and so I'mlike I.
And then there were, there were,you know, people were having,
um, you know, podcast shows andthis.
And I would say, hey, peoplewere having podcast shows and
this, and I would say, hey, I'dlike to be on your show, I'd
like to be.
And it's like I got the whiteflag saying here I am, use me,

(53:44):
here I am, I'd like to be a part.
And after getting told no orbeing overlooked for whatever
reasons, I said you know what,never again.
So, jacqueline, the one thingthat you know about me is that I
don't care to be on everybody'severything.
That does not move me, and so,instead of me getting upset

(54:05):
about somebody else's platform,I created my own table, I
created my own stuff, and thennow I invite people to mine and
I'm okay with that.
And the funny thing is some ofthose same people I've never had
to invite them, but they followme and say, hey, oh, I see what

(54:26):
you're doing, I see.
And so now they're like, oh,wow, because those are the same
people that said, oh, you knowwhat?
You're not going to, you're notgoing to, you're not going to
have business, you're going tohave to, you're not going to get
clients, you're going to haveto do this, you're going to have
to do that, you're going tohave to do that.
And I said to one lady.
I said, okay, so here we are.
I saw this lady in person, metthis lady in person about three

(54:47):
months ago at an event and shesaid, and I was like, oh wow, I
remember having, we're supposedto have meetings with this lady
and she didn't show up.
She scheduled a meeting, didn'tshow up.
And I told her, I said you knowwhat, my time is just as
valuable as your time.
But because she didn't see meas somebody, she just saw me as

(55:10):
okay, she's just a littlepublisher.
She just knew.
And here we are, 100 plusclients later.
And now it it's like you know,oh, can you?
You know, I like to talk to you.
Well, I'm not interested,because if that's how you do the
little guy, then I don't trustthat you're going to treat me

(55:31):
any better.
But it's not real.
So I love that you are creatingyour own way.
You're, you know, hey, you'rekicking doors in.
You're going in like the SWATand kicking in the door.
You don't have to knock.
You know SWAT, the SWAT team,they knock, knock, knock and

(55:51):
then they kick the door in.
They don't even wait for you toanswer.
So you're going in like SWATand I like that.
Let's.
Let's shift gears a little bitand let's talk about.
Let's talk about the women, thewomen of the waiting room.
So this is your, this is yourfirst solo anthology project,

(56:15):
and what was what was the what?
What was the motivation behindthe?
Where did the title come from?
The women of the waiting roomsurgery for your soul.
Where did that title come from?
What was the significance ofthat title?
Well, you know, um, the waitingroom has always been in my heart

(56:36):
.
It's been in my spirit, it'sbeen something that God laid in
my spirit years ago, and ifanybody who follows me on social
media knows that, I've beenspeaking about waiting in this
waiting season in your waitingroom, and I've defined what that
means to me.
I even came out with waitingroom affirmations.

(56:56):
I even came out with waitingroom affirmations.
The podcast Listen Linda had asegment called the Waiting Room,
where I would have women ofcolor specifically, who would
come on with their books,businesses or brands and I would
dive deep into who they are andhelp them to release, how God

(57:19):
has delivered them from theirwaiting room.
Or, if they were in theirwaiting season, what does that
feel like?
How do you want God tointervene and, kind of deliver
you from that?
Um.
So this has always beensomething that's been talked
about and it's been in my spiritfor a while now.
So when the anthology when Godplaced the anthology on my heart

(57:42):
to do, I rejected it at firstbecause I had been in one and
although the message was a verygreat message, it was not a
great experience for me and Isaid I would never do another
anthology again.

(58:02):
Well, guess what?
God downloaded it in me and itwas on my nerves.
I was tap dancing like GregoryHines on my nerves until I said,
okay, well, let me talk toLaquita about it.
So when I talked to you aboutit, it was late.
We was on the phone and we wasthinking of because I said I

(58:24):
said the first thing I don'twant to do is micromanage
anybody that's in this anthology.
I want it to be smooth sailing.
I don't want.
I want to create something thatactually is therapy to help me
to get over the trauma that Iexperienced before, but I also

(58:45):
want it to be a blessing topeople as well.
God put this in my spirit to doto show people that he is real
and that he actually is who hesays he is and he will do what
he says he will do.
That bible is absolutely 100what it is, um and it.

(59:08):
Whatever you manifest, and you,you do it in jesus name and
keep your faith in god and hewill provide for you, and I am a
sole representation of that.
And so when I brought the ideato you, you were 100% on board

(59:30):
with me about it.
I thought you was going to shitit down, child, because it
wasn't just too long that we youknow.
And so you were 100% on board.
We sat and we talked about itand I said, well, I want it to
be kind of like a reader'sdigest.
So I was like just like kickingsoup for the soul.
And then we sat and we thoughtabout it and we strategized and

(59:53):
then we came up with surgery forthe soul, because we want it to
be something that's considereda healing place.
So if you think about a waitingroom, the first thing you think
about is the doctor's office,the waiting room, the hospital,
the emergency room.
So when you think about thosetype of things, you also think
about surgery.
So what are you getting workedon?

(01:00:13):
You're getting your spiritworked on.
You're getting your inside,your mind, worked on, your body
worked on your soul, worked onby God, and so that's how we
came up with this title of theWaiting Room.
Well, you know what?
I have had my own season ofwaiting and I'm still there, and

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oftentimes, you know, thewaiting is one thing, it's what
you do while you're waiting.
And I think this book is sopowerful.
I to read everybody's rawthoughts on their subject and I

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have just been like wow, justblown away.
And as I'm reading them, it'sencouraging me because we all
have our own walks.
No matter how strong we try tobe, we still have to have that
covering, we still have to havea shoulder to cry on, we still

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have to have somebody to kind ofstroke our back and stroke our
face and say it's okay, it'sgoing to be all right.
And so, with the stories forthe surgery for your soul,
having read all of our entries,it's like wow, wow, wow.
I absolutely love them.

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And I know that it's a gamechanger, because there are so
many people that get discouragedwhile waiting and give up in
the process of waiting and theynever make it on the other side
of through of waiting, and theynever make it on the other side
of through.
And it doesn't mean that onceyou go through this period of
waiting that there's not goingto be another period of waiting.
There will always be a periodof waiting, but you have to know

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how to wait.
If you wait beaten and torn andbroken, then when you get to
the next one you're not going toeven know the other one is
finished.
You're not going to even knowthat you have a break in between
the waiting so that you canrecoup and recover.
So I absolutely love thesubmissions that I've read.
Now tell us about the devotional.

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Honey, that's a whole notherballgame.
The devotional is so phenomenal.
Um, I thought the waiting room,uh, the anthology, had my jaw
dropped.
Um, but the devotional is madeup of 33 women.

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Um, seven of them are theoriginal.
I call us the Fab Seven.
The Fab Seven of the anthologyhave come up with a devotional
and that came about.
Actually, dr Velma, who's one ofthe Fab Seven of the anthology,
she called me and she said youshould do a devotional and I

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said no, I ain't.
I'm not doing it.
I'm not dealing with all them,different women and all spirits.
I'm not gonna do it because,although I love people, I love
interacting with people on acondition where you know I'm
just I'm gonna be honest withyou, I'm not that great in a
group with a bunch of differentpeople.

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Um, I can take you one-on-one,maybe five or six at a time, but
33 and I'm at the head.
I've done it before in my joband I'm good at what I do, but
it's draining for me and mehaving lupus and you know,
dealing with you know thyroidcancer and these things.

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You know it starts to to wearand tear on me in a physical and
it starts to.
You can start to see it and soI have to be careful, and I had,
and through this process I didhave to learn boundaries and I
did have to learn that my phonecan go off at a certain time.

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But with this devotional, thesewomen have opened up and been so
transparent with theirtestimonies.
It is mind-blowing.
It's one of the best decisionsI've ever made.
I don't take for granted.
I don't regret any part of thisprocess, of the devotional.

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I have read every submissionand I have been blown away with.
The ladies in this group rangingfrom 30 to 80, have been truly

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inspirational to me as thevessel of this project, to read
some of the stories and see whatGod has done for them has been
just a blessing, and I know it'sbeing a blessing to me right
now, on days where I am notalways okay, on days that I have

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second-guessed myself as aleader because I'm the youngest
out of everybody.
In the devotional and theanthology I'm the youngest and I
second-guess myself sometimeswhere I'm like I'm only 35.
Um, all of these women areolder than me.
Who am I to lead them?
And god tells me well, jesuswas 33 and he led a nation and

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he still lead nations, evenafter he has transcended to
heaven.
His word is still truth and histruth is still light.
And if he is my son and you aremy daughter, why can't you do
the same?
So ageism is real and reverseageism is real, and so I don't

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look at my age anymore.
As of today, I don't look at theexperience that somebody else
may have over me or differentthings like that, because when
people older than me are sayingyou know what?
I trust you with my story, Itrust you to lead me, that means

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the world to me.
And those are saying who areyou?
You're too young, you can'tlead me.
But then, in their same breath,they're saying that they're
reading the word of God andthey're following Jesus.
Take to account how old he was.
That's all I'm going to say.
And of course, jesus is who heis.

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But Jesus is God's son, justlike I'm his daughter.
And I'm not saying that I'mJesus.
But you know he said walk likeme, talk like me.
You know, if God did it for me,he could do it for you.
So I have every right to feelthat I'm just as important and

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I'm not going to let nobody makeme feel no less.
I feel that I have every rightGod gave it to me to help these
women get their stories outthere and I feel like that's
what I'm led to do.
That's God.
Don't call to qualify, hequalifies to call.
So some people as they may feellike I'm not worthy enough to

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lead a group of women, but thosesame group of women are
trusting me.
So that means a lot to me and Iappreciate all the women in the
devotional and the anthologyfor trusting me.
I've only been a writer for apublished writer for a little
over a year, been a writer for apublished writer for a little

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over a year, and these womenhave been doing it for decades
and they still trust me to helpguide them in in this journey
and I'm not gonna, I'm not gonnaquit.
Wow, you know what I?
You said a mouthful.
I appreciate that, that youknow.
I with a devotional, some of thestories because you need
amazing.
God is so amazing that hedesigned us in a perfect way.

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He designed us fearfully andwonderfully made, and to the
point where I can't look at youand tell what you've been
through, what you're goingthrough, what you're about to go
through, and neither can youlook at me and tell either.
Now we can look at some peoplewhen they are abusing their
bodies with illegal substances.
You can kind of look at some ofthem.

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Some of them you can't, but youknow.
When they're out there, outthere, you can tell.
But when there is, when thereare some of these sicknesses,
what you know you and I bothhave lupus and I suffer from
some conductive tissue diseasesyou cannot tell.
You certainly can't tell bylooking at our content and you
definitely can't tell by lookingat the individual what they go
through.
When I read through thedevotionals and I had to stop

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with some of them, jacqueline,you probably had to do the same,
because we don't know most ofthe people in this devotional.
You don't know them personally.
These are people who saw theadvertisement and they wanted to
be a part of it and theyreached out and they came from
social media or referrals.
So these are not people.

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Some of them we know personally, but not all of them.
But you can't look at them andlook at what they've been
through when you read theirstories.
I read some of the stories and Ihad to stop and I just had to
look.
You know, I had to go to someprofiles, honestly, and I was
like wait, what a minute.
This, oh, I could not imagine.
There are some stories,jacqueline, where some of the

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people have gone through some ofthe same things that we've gone
through and then, in the midstof it, dealing with pregnancies
and dealing with abuse whilebeing pregnant, while going
through debilitating conditions,it blew my mind.
So we never know what the otherperson is going through.

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But this devotional, you know,my whole thing is there's always
somebody waiting on the otherend of your story so they can
get healing from their stories.
There is no doubt in my mind,jacqueline, that people are
going to get healing from thesetwo devotionals.
They are going to touch lives.
You know, there's that song ifI can help somebody as I travel

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along, then my living shall notbe in vain.
Well, I believe that this book,these two anthologies, is gonna
do that plus song, that plus alittle, and I'm just super
excited about it.
And I'm blessed and honored tobe a part, not only as a
contributor but also as apublisher, on both of the

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projects.
And when I tell you it'shealing for the soul, it really
has blessed my soul, becausethere were some days, as I was
going through them, when Iwasn't feeling that great, you
know, in my emotions, and when Iread that all I could do was
say thank, you know, in my in myemotions, and when I read that
all I could do was say thank you, lord, because it was a
blessing.
And the blessing was that thesepeople are writing from where

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they were.
You know, this is what I usedto go through, this is what I've
gone through and it is such ablessing.
So kudos to you and I am superexcited for this journey.
So, what's next for Jacquelineas we start to wrap up, girl,
what is next?

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What's on the horizon forJacqueline?
Yeah, what's next for me?
Oh God got so much stuff goingon.
Should I give you the list,child?
Okay, so give it to me, okay.
So we got the women of thewaiting room journal.

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We have the flashcards that arecoming out, but we also have
the women of the waiting roomchannel, which will be televised
on the women win network tvnetwork, on roku and amazon fire
tv.
That's in over 100 millionhomes worldwide.

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We have, and that's debuting atthe end of June, maybe early
July.
I have a battle of the hosts.
So if you would like to becomea TV host, I am doing a battle.
I'm only picking five so youcan send your submissions to me,
inbox me, jacqueline Cox, onFacebook, and I will give you

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more information about how youcan become a host.
If you want to be an advertiser, if you want to be a sponsor
meaning if you want your book,business or brand advertised on
the Women of the Waiting Roomchannel, see me to become a
sponsor.
Or just have your book traileror your business reel or

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something played as a commercialon the channel.
That is available as well.
What else do I have coming upthe Chain Breaking Experience
Summit.
I'm doing that on the 17th andthe 18th of May.
My children are coming here onSunday, on the 12th, and they're

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doing a Mother's Day special.
Jaden and Marvis will be thehost on Listen Linda Mother's
Day Soiree and they will beplaying music for you guys, they
will be taking song requests,they will be reciting poetry for

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you guys and they will just begiving you guys a good time in
honor of mother's day.
We have made that actually atradition because they did the
same thing last year.
Um, what else do I have comingup?
I have coming up in June.
I will be doing.
I will be in the JuneteenthPoetry Slam for Black Org and

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Heavy Talk Media.
They will be doing a three-dayvirtual summit and I have been
chosen to be a poetry slam.
What is it?
Not a contestant but, um, apoetry slam speaker.
So I will be doing for you guys.

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Absolutely.
Thank you so much.
I'm I'm so super excited aboutthat.
Um, I'm also attending anauthor summit the first week of
june.
Um, and we have the book launch.
The book launch will take placethe first week of June and it
will be the debut of the womenOf the waiting room channel.

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So it will be live On Roku TVand Amazon Fire TV and it will
be streaming On all platforms aswell.
But if you've got Roku TV,you'll be able to go on there
and hit it and it will come onthe TV for you and you will be
tuned in with me and all sixwomen of the waiting room.

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We will be on there doing thebook launch.
So I got a lot going.
There's so much more than that,but I think I'm gonna end it
there because there may be a lotfor people to take in right now
.
But my trust me when I say myclip is not empty.
But god, I thank god.
He's the head of my life.
I give him all the glory.
I have so so much more thanthat coming up.

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My husband has some thingscoming up, some anthologies with
pay pro be um coming up, and somy family has a lot going on.
We busy, we booked, and busy,booked and busy.
Well, girl, listen, that'llmake me tired.
I couldn't get it all down.
I appreciate that is a lot, butyou know what to god be the

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glory when we, when we walk inour gifts, god continues to
bless us, and I'm a firmbeliever as long as we are doing
it for his glory and not ourown glory.
It's just going to continue andcontinue to prosper.
It's going to always prosper.
Um, I, I love that there arelessons and there are blessings.

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If you can't, my whole thing isalways well, what's the?
You know, in everything we dothere's a lesson and there's a
blessing.
So what's the lesson in this?
What's the blessing in this?
So we always have to be becognizant on why we're doing
what we're doing, and you knowwhen I'm I'm super excited for
all these projects and I'm superexcited for the family.

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Yes, we have two things comingup with Mr Cox the War Within,
as well as Our Journey from Boysto Men.
I am super excited.
His stories are amazing, asalways.
They always have heart, alwayshave heart.
So, miss Jacqueline, I want tosay thank you so much for

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allowing me to take over yourshow as a guest host today.
It has been a plump, pleasingpleasure, better than a triple
deck of peanut butter and jellysandwich.
And listen, if you guys arethinking about writing your
story, if you have written it,if you got it sitting somewhere
and you've never published it,or you have a story but you

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don't know how to get started,let me encourage you to write
your story.
Tell your story, publish yourstory, because 100% of everybody
living in debt has a story andthere's somebody out there
waiting for your story becausethey don't know that they can
get to the other side of throughjust like you have.

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So if there's anything I canhelp you with, please feel free
to reach out to me atpayprovipublishingcom that's
P-A-P-R-O-V-I publishingcom, andlisten.
If all else fails, you canGoogle me.
I'm on all things social mediaFacebook, instagram, x, twitter.

(01:18:29):
I'm even on what's the onethey're trying to block now
TikTok and LinkedIn.
So if there, if and if all elsefails, you can ask.
You can, uh, also hit, listenlinda up.
She know how to find me and Iwant to leave you guys with this
.

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Um, a lot of times you knowpeople will say oh, you know,
they just she doing it just toput herself on a pedestal.
I want to be very clear.
I ask God for this.
I ask God to put me if I wantto, anytime I do anything, I do
it to the best of my ability.
There's no reason to startsomething and stay small.

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The point of this anthology, thepoint of this devotional, the
point of this movement, is toreach as many people as possible
.
When I started out and you letthem know, laquita, because you
was there, you was in the groupI said I want to reach people
globally.
I want this thing to reachpeople globally and I want to be

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on a global platform when I doit.
And since then my platform isalready.
Melissa Leonard has alreadybeen on 14 and is listening now
14 countries and 40 platforms,countries and 40 platforms.

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But god has taken that andgiven me the blessing of
starting my own tv channel sothis message can reach even more
people globally.
So this is not by doing this isall god, and god put me in this
position so I can reach people,so we can reach people, so we
can reach people.
So you me, your story, my story, everybody in the anthology
story, everybody in thedevotional story can reach

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millions of people.
Don't write a book if you don'twant the world to be reached.
Don't say that you want totouch lives but you only want to
touch those in your community.
Don't think small.
Maybe god is not doingsomething that you want him to
do, because he it is not.
It's not big enough.

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You're not reaching big enoughfor him.
You're not.
God is royal.
Everything that he does?
He does royally okay, and sosome your dream may be too small
.
That's probably the reason whythat door is not opening for you
, because you're not thinkingbig enough.
You got to think up like god,walk in the room like god sent
you, and that's what I am doing.

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So when people say, oh, she'sjust trying to be popular, um,
I've been popular before.
Social media, baby, I was, Iwas popping.
Okay, I've been popular.
That's not nothing new.
But what I'm doing now is I'mtrying to take who I am, because
I will never change who I am.
But what I'm doing, I'm takingwho I am and I am trying to go

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out, not physically, becauseobviously right now I cannot do
that, but virtually go out intothe world and bring people to
God, and I'm going to do that byany means necessary.
So when I say global impact,that's exactly what the women in
the waiting room is about.
It's about global impact.

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It's not about money or fame orbeing able to go here and go
there and say, oh, we went hereand we did that.
Well, when you did that, howmany people did you touch?
How many lives did you change?
How many people bought thatbook or how many books did you
donate?
What did you do?
Yourself on a hamster wheel,going nowhere, fast, spending

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money?
No, roi.
No return on investment?
No, uh, no.
No.
Contributions to the communityno, nothing except I went, I
spoke, I did this, I did thatand no lives were saved, no
people were touched.
All you did was just go out,eat, have a good time and that
was it.
And you wasted all that moneyand all that time, but nobody.

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You didn't change your life.
You can do more by reachingpeople with your voice, with
your words, with your impact,with your tenacity, with your
faith in God, and them seeingwith their eyes what God is
doing for you, instead ofscreaming at them all day,

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talking about you, motivatingthem, actually encourage them.
Speak to them where they canhear you, where they can see you
, where they can read about you.
Read what you have went through, be who you claim you are and
if you can't be that, fake ituntil you make it.

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And, like Laquita said, that'smy story and I'm sticking to it
all.
Right now, it's been a pleasingpleasure, better than a triple
dick of peanut butter and jellysandwich.
That's my story and I'msticking to it.
You guys have a wonderful night, laquita.

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You already told them wherethey can reach you.
You guys, y'all know where tofind me.
Y'all know where I'm at.
Y'all know where I'm at.
I got a new blog that's up rightnow that speaks on modern day
women empowerment groups versusmen.
Girls.
You can find that on Listen.

(01:24:18):
Linda Speaks on Patheos.
You can check out my newwebsite,
listenlindapresents1.com whereyou can find all things Listen
Linda, all things Young SafeLeaders.
Well, not all things PayProV,but all the books that are on
there are PayProV.
Published.
Amen, our paper will bepublished, amen, um, and if you,

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if you don't want to follow me,you can follow my children.
Young safe leaders dot myshopifycom.
Go on facebook.
They are young safe leaders,all one word.
They will be happy to acceptyour friend request.
They need some new friendsy'all, because they they coming
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So if you got some kids ages 13, I mean 7 to 13, send them on
over to my kids page becausethey're taking all my friends

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y'all and y'all.
Have a good night on that note,and God bless you all.
Good night everybody.

Speaker 2 (01:25:34):
I love you that I prayed for.
Not wishing with no man.
That wasn't made for me.
See, this love we have Gotta betailored.
Ain't wishing with no man.
That ain't no fit for me.
Do you pray, cause I pray?
You want kids.
I want eight.
Are you faithful?
Oh wait, tell me, can you senda ring?

(01:25:54):
You a king, I'm a queen.
We require certain things, andthat's what I pray for.
So that's what I wait for.
Dear god, I'm gonna be ready.
Dear god, you do this for me.
I won't forget it.
I know he will.
Dear God, that's what I prayfor, so that's what I wait for,

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and I vow to be everything youneed.
Share my life with you, on theright, with you, and I promise
to support all your dreams, butI gotta know that you were made
for me.
Do you pray, cause I pray?
You want kids I won't name.
Are you faithful?
Always tell me.
Can you stand and reign you?

(01:26:54):
Okay, I'm a queen.
Me requires certain things, andthat's what I pray for.
So that's what I wait for.

Speaker 1 (01:27:06):
That's what I pray for.
That's what I wait for.
Dear God, I'm your sinner.
That's what I pray for.
That's what I wait for, dearGod.

Speaker 2 (01:27:17):
I're sending me.
I won't regret it.
Dear God, you do this for me.
I won't forget it.
My heart has been through somuch and I just want to feel
your love for once.
Feel your love for once and,dear God, I hope he's happy
Already here with you.
I know he is.
I know he will.

(01:27:38):
Dear God, dear God, that's whatI pray for.
So that's what I wait for.