November 12, 2023 • 29 mins
There comes a time when the weight of expectations and the struggle to uphold self-worth becomes a battle. I'm going to take you through some deeply personal experiences that speak to this human struggle, my disappointments, my resolve to better protect my heart, and my choice to no longer entertain anyone's toxic behavior. You'll get to hear about the lessons I've taken from these experiences and the promises I've made to myself.
In the second part of our journey, we'll explore the significance of intentionality in our relationships, and how important it is to be open to the perspectives of others. I'll share how I found strength in letting go of temporary fixes, and how placing trust in God during times of confusion led me to clarity. We'll talk about the incredible power that you can experience when you ask God for help in navigating new phases of life. Tune in if you're ready to reflect, get inspired, and understand how paramount it is to shield your heart, even as you continue to love others deeply.
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Speaker 1 (00:01):
Hey, hey, hey, it's your girl, autumn CEO and owner
of Litty, known as Lord Eye.
Thank you, hey, thank you fortuning in.
I pray the words that come outof my mouth be a blessing to you
in more ways than one.
Let me get into it.
I don't even know what I'mgoing to title this or what even
(00:31):
will come out of this podcast,but I just wanted to express my
concerns as far as how thingsare moving, how things are
shifting, how lives are foreverbeing changed, and there is let
(01:02):
me put it this way what'sconcerning to me is that people
are just moving, right.
They're moving without thinking.
I've always been a thinker.
I've always wanted to make surethat, for example, even an
argument before I speak, I'llthink about all the things that
(01:28):
have been stated to me, to firstsee if there was something that
I did in the situation to causewhatever reaction, and then to
make sure that, whatever I wasgoing to say, I said it
(01:49):
strategically, meaning I wasthinking about a person's
feelings, where they werementally giving the benefit of
the doubt that you really couldhave been hurt, disappointed,
upset, whatever.
What's amazing to me, though,is that I am learning that I can
(02:14):
no longer look at people thesame.
I can no longer look at peopleand expect them to be me.
I can't.
What I've learned recently isthat, should be honest, a person
(02:35):
doesn't even understand whatsomeone goes through once they
close their doors.
They don't Once you have thatmoment by yourself.
People really don't understandwhat you go through.
They only know and understandwhat they get from you, how you
(02:57):
treat them and how you make themfeel In whatever capacity that
they may need you, but peoplereally don't take into
consideration the otherindividual.
It's all about what I want,what I need right now and what I
feel you should be doing for me, which is fine, because there
(03:22):
is a point of where I've heard alot of people say I'm going to
be selfish, I'm going to dothese things for me.
Why are you being selfish,though?
Just doing Doing because youlove yourself enough.
It's not selfish Doing.
(03:44):
What selfish is is when youexpect a person to always show
up for you within the samecapacity that they could have
had yesterday, not understandingthat today could be different.
(04:04):
Today could be different.
My mental capacity yesterdaymight have been able to handle
your issues, somebody else'sissues, my mama's issues, my
kids' issues.
It could have been that day,but today just might not be that
(04:25):
day, and we have gotten soaccustomed and used to and
that's the selfish part of itwhen, no matter what I do, when
I need you, I need you to showup for me.
And unfortunately, let me justtell you the way.
(04:47):
Life is life and that shitdon't happen, no more.
It doesn't.
I can recall the time that, hey,you know, when you talk to
people, they put on a personathat I'm okay, I'm here, I'm
here, I'm here, but now ain'tnobody putting on that fake shit
(05:09):
.
They're not.
I'm sorry, they're just not.
I will speak for myself when Isay I'm no longer angry, I no
longer question, I'm no longerupset.
What I am is truly disappointed.
I'm disappointed in myself Ha,you thought I was going to say
(05:36):
somebody else.
No, I'm disappointed in myselfbecause I've made certain
promises to autumn that Ipersonally see Waved, I waved, I
waved certain things.
(05:57):
I waved some things that I knew, that I made a promise to me
that I would not allow anyoneelse, anyone else that came into
my life at a certain point,take advantage of certain things
(06:19):
, and one of them, and thebiggest thing, is my heart.
It's my heart, because you gotto know that the intent is
always in the beginning.
It's always a good intent.
We meet people with theintention of hoping that there's
(06:43):
going to be something out ofthis that's successful.
You don't go into friendships,relationships and different
situations assuming the worstall the time.
You don't.
It just doesn't happen.
But where I messed up is Ibroke promises to myself, and
(07:08):
I've had to, over the course ofthe last six months, apologize
to myself over and over and over.
Until now I am at the pointwhere I'm no longer renewing
(07:35):
subscriptions to anybody'sbullshit or toxic waste.
I'm not.
I'm not doing it anymore.
I'm over it.
I'm all set.
Yep, I'm all set.
It's amazing to me how you can.
I've been supportive, I'veencouraged, uplifted, I've shown
(08:02):
up in ways that I can.
What I don't do, though, isoverextend myself and make
people assume or think that Ihave the capacity or can do
certain things that I know I can.
That I don't do, but Igenuinely show up because this
(08:28):
is me.
I have a big ass heart, andsometimes having a heart can be
a blessing and a curse in thesame damn time.
It can be, because if you'renot careful, you end up
shattering it over and over andover, until it's down to the
(08:54):
point that you just stoppedfeeling.
You become numb.
You become numb.
I also realized, and I'venoticed, that you could do a
million things for people amillion and it's that one time
(09:17):
that they get brave enough tobasically tell you you ain't did
shit and ain't shit because youdidn't move the way that they
felt you should have moved, youdidn't do what they felt you
should do or you didn't say whatthey expected you to say in
(09:38):
that very moment.
So it ends up being forgeteverything else, we're going to
just focus on this one time that, let's be honest, did you think
about the other person may havesomething going on?
(09:58):
Did you think about the otherperson may have been up all
night fighting with themselvesand didn't even have anybody to
talk to?
Did you think about the timesthat that person might have
called you because they neededyou to show up for them and you
weren't available?
Did you think about, in thatvery moment, that person could
(10:27):
be fighting for their damn lifeand you just so consumed and
worried about you that youdisregard all of the good that
came before that.
So I made a conscious decisiontoday.
(10:50):
Today is now, the 12th ofNovember, I made a conscious
decision that I am fighting andI'm going to continue to fight
like hell to not change my heart, because somebody and others
(11:18):
are worthy of everything that Iam and are worthy to receive
genuine love, care and respect.
I went for years, years, years,not saying things, not
(11:43):
responding to people, no matterhow they treated me, because I
still wanted to respect theirfeelings, although they said
forget my feelings.
I got to get this off my chestand let me say this, and I would
literally suffer in silence foryears because I didn't want to
(12:12):
hurt people's feelings.
Now, what I did do is I stillhad a way of expressing myself
and getting my point across, butI was always conscious, because
respect is a big thing for me.
It's huge.
(12:36):
But now if you feel you couldcome to me and tell me
everything that you feel I mayhave done to you, then, oh, baby
, you better be ready to receivethe feedback that I'm going to
(12:58):
give you.
I'm no longer going to hurtmyself to protect others.
I am going to be free.
And if every day of my life,the rest of my life that I have
on this earth, is spending it bymyself, and it's only me and
(13:25):
God.
I will take that in a heartbeatand run and never look back,
because when I tell you at thisvery moment, my mental capacity
alone is basically exhausted.
(13:49):
It's exhausted.
It's like one of those thingswhere I'm sitting around and I'm
thinking like, are you serious,like people's actions and the
things that people have said andthe people I've tried to
(14:11):
protect, going out of my way formaking sacrifices, showing up,
and then for a person to turnright around in that instant and
basically in so many words,make you feel like you ain't
shit.
I'm awesome, because what Iknow and what God knows is that
(14:43):
my worth, I'm a very, very, very, very valuable person, very
valuable.
I might not be able to give themoney and I can't do the trips
and all this stuff right now,but when that day shows up again
(15:07):
, I'm going to live my lifewithout expecting others to join
me.
I'm not going to do it anymore.
I am on a different path, andthis path is called learning to
(15:34):
cope by yourself.
Learning to cope by yourself,the.
I've called people, I've reachedout.
I've no answer.
No, nothing, no, next day, yougood Nothing.
(15:59):
So I've stopped doing it too.
I've stopped being the first toinitiate.
I stopped being the one calling, I stopped being the one
texting.
Let me see how many peoplereally text me.
Let me see how many peopledon't have my number that'll go
(16:19):
to the lengths of my inbox.
Or don't see me post on socialmedia and reach out to me and
say hey, I'm just checking onyou.
You good, the crazy party is.
I call it my social mediafamily.
We'll definitely check on me tosee there ain't no content.
(16:40):
You good, keep going, don'tgive up, don't quit.
You got this.
Greater is in.
I get all kind of all that, butthe ones that I've stood 10 toes
down for, I don't get shit.
But, lord, I thank you.
(17:04):
Lord, I thank you, lord, Ithank you that I am no longer
moved by people.
I used to just cut people offand you would never know what
(17:24):
you did to me.
I would get text and I wouldnever read them because I didn't
want to say what I really beinghonest.
I didn't want to say what Ireally felt about that
individual in that moment,whatever the situation was.
(17:45):
But now I say exactly how Ifeel, no filters and,
respectfully, if you don't likeit, leave me alone.
Leave me alone, go your way andI'll go my way, because what
(18:12):
anybody has to know is that Goddon't play about me, and if you
believe in God, like I do, hedon't play about you either.
So, as I'm sitting in this space, in this different space where
(18:32):
I thought it might have been alonely space, it's not.
It's not.
It's a cleansing space.
It's a place that I'm becomingfree.
It's a place where God isliterally showing me, faster
than I've ever experienced inlife, who people are, who people
(18:58):
really are, how they reallyfeel about me.
And guess what I'm doing?
I'm embracing it and acceptingit and moving forward.
As such, I've decided to take mylife back.
(19:21):
I am no longer going to waitfor others.
I am going to move as I want tomove.
I will do as I want to do and Iwill say whatever it is that I
(19:42):
feel like I need to say in orderfor me to be free.
I'm no longer in bondage.
I am no longer going to careabout one's feelings before I
first care about myself.
I'm not protecting anybody.
(20:05):
I am going to protect autumn.
I'm going to protect myfeelings, my heart, my thoughts,
my mental capacity before Ieven attempt to help save
someone else going forward.
I only get one life, one, andmy life has been spared.
(20:38):
Lord, I thank you so many times.
God has come through for me somany times and even at this age
and at this stage of my life, Ishould be so much further, so
much further.
But I don't regret the lessonslearned, but what I am doing,
(21:02):
it's exercising my right to moveforward Without the
distractions of others.
So those that have benefited,those have gained, those that
(21:27):
have used me, those who havetaken advantage of me, thank you
.
I want to say thank you fromthe bottom of my heart, because
I would never have gotten tothis point, to where I can
(21:49):
sincerely focus on me.
My focus, my energy, my time ison me.
I'm back to a lot of times nowbeing by myself, going out by
(22:09):
myself, treating myself tobreakfast, sitting there,
listening to my music, notbothering people looking around,
thinking no, this may beprobably one of the realest
(22:30):
podcast that I have done,speaking from my heart.
My heart is healing.
I am asking God to renew it.
(22:50):
I am asking God to help menavigate through this season of
my life, because it's a toughone.
It's a tough one, it's a toughone.
(23:11):
And then the funny thing is isthat I was so used to repeating
Certain things and and goingthrough the same thing over and
over and getting the same resultTo this is totally different.
(23:38):
I guess it is a true saying thatEverybody can't go on the
journey that he has for me.
Let me say that again for you.
Everybody can't go on thejourney that God has for you.
They can't.
(23:59):
And at this point in my life Iguess he said, oh, I'm not going
to allow it, I'm gonna flush itquick, quick, y'all.
And it's happening Second bysecond, day over day, minute by
(24:22):
minute.
I am in a pod.
I am in a pod and certainthings, because what I am is a
good person.
My intentions is never to hurtanyone purposely.
But I also know that becauseI've been taken advantage of,
(24:52):
disrespected, discarded, myfeelings don't matter, even when
I respond back and I say what Ifeel.
I think it's a point now thatindividuals just don't know how
to come back, and I'm okay withthat.
(25:14):
I want everybody to live and bewell, because I got one life,
y'all.
We get one shot at this and weout here acting like we got a
million damn lives.
We got one life and then it'sover until we get to the next
(25:37):
phase of life.
But here on earth we only gotone chance.
So, as I'm encouraging myself, Iwon't be selfish to encourage
you as well.
Do what's best for you withoutregret.
(25:59):
Do whatever it is that makesyou happy.
Laugh on purpose.
Be intentional with your time.
Let go of temporary situations.
(26:20):
Let go of things that only willfix it temporarily.
Say what you feel and mean whatyou say.
But I also want to remind yoube okay now.
(26:41):
Be okay and be open to receivewhat the other person may have
to say in return.
In this season, in this verymoment, I just have to trust God
(27:01):
with everything that I have,because I am in a space that is
feeling like an unknownterritory, almost to the point
that I'm like I don't know thatI'm welcome here because I'm so
(27:24):
used to the same cycles.
So I no longer make excuses,I'm no longer being apologetic,
but I am going to liveunapologetically, going forward.
I wish everyone the best.
(27:48):
I hope this message finds youat a place that you're confused,
you're lonely, you're notunderstanding why, how you got
here.
This is really like a purgingseason.
(28:09):
God ain't playing, he isapplying pressure.
He's applying pressure to someof us those that get it get it
and those that don't.
I'm going to be honest.
I pray this time that you justget it and you don't have to go
(28:31):
through all these lessons thatI've had to go through lately.
But I will say this One of myfavorite scriptures is Proverbs
3-4-7.
(28:53):
Listen to the Lord with all yourheart, don't lean into your own
understanding, and all yourways acknowledge him, and he
will direct your path.
With that being said, I am done.
I am done ranting.
You can find me on all themajor platforms Spotify, apple,
(29:20):
amazon Music, fm, heart Radio onmy every major platform.
Be blessed y'all.
This is a new season and if youknow anything like me, ask God
daily, second by seconds.
(29:43):
Lord, help me to navigate inthis season.
Litty Lord, I thank you.
Hey, hey, hey, it's your girl, autumn CEO and owner
of Litty, known as Lord Eye.
Thank you, hey, thank you fortuning in.
I pray the words that come outof my mouth be a blessing to you
in more ways than one.
Let me get into it.
I don't even know what I'mgoing to title this or what even
(00:31):
will come out of this podcast,but I just wanted to express my
concerns as far as how thingsare moving, how things are
shifting, how lives are foreverbeing changed, and there is let
(01:02):
me put it this way what'sconcerning to me is that people
are just moving, right.
They're moving without thinking.
I've always been a thinker.
I've always wanted to make surethat, for example, even an
argument before I speak, I'llthink about all the things that
(01:28):
have been stated to me, to firstsee if there was something that
I did in the situation to causewhatever reaction, and then to
make sure that, whatever I wasgoing to say, I said it
(01:49):
strategically, meaning I wasthinking about a person's
feelings, where they werementally giving the benefit of
the doubt that you really couldhave been hurt, disappointed,
upset, whatever.
What's amazing to me, though,is that I am learning that I can
(02:14):
no longer look at people thesame.
I can no longer look at peopleand expect them to be me.
I can't.
What I've learned recently isthat, should be honest, a person
(02:35):
doesn't even understand whatsomeone goes through once they
close their doors.
They don't Once you have thatmoment by yourself.
People really don't understandwhat you go through.
They only know and understandwhat they get from you, how you
(02:57):
treat them and how you make themfeel In whatever capacity that
they may need you, but peoplereally don't take into
consideration the otherindividual.
It's all about what I want,what I need right now and what I
feel you should be doing for me, which is fine, because there
(03:22):
is a point of where I've heard alot of people say I'm going to
be selfish, I'm going to dothese things for me.
Why are you being selfish,though?
Just doing Doing because youlove yourself enough.
It's not selfish Doing.
(03:44):
What selfish is is when youexpect a person to always show
up for you within the samecapacity that they could have
had yesterday, not understandingthat today could be different.
(04:04):
Today could be different.
My mental capacity yesterdaymight have been able to handle
your issues, somebody else'sissues, my mama's issues, my
kids' issues.
It could have been that day,but today just might not be that
(04:25):
day, and we have gotten soaccustomed and used to and
that's the selfish part of itwhen, no matter what I do, when
I need you, I need you to showup for me.
And unfortunately, let me justtell you the way.
(04:47):
Life is life and that shitdon't happen, no more.
It doesn't.
I can recall the time that, hey,you know, when you talk to
people, they put on a personathat I'm okay, I'm here, I'm
here, I'm here, but now ain'tnobody putting on that fake shit
(05:09):
.
They're not.
I'm sorry, they're just not.
I will speak for myself when Isay I'm no longer angry, I no
longer question, I'm no longerupset.
What I am is truly disappointed.
I'm disappointed in myself Ha,you thought I was going to say
(05:36):
somebody else.
No, I'm disappointed in myselfbecause I've made certain
promises to autumn that Ipersonally see Waved, I waved, I
waved certain things.
(05:57):
I waved some things that I knew, that I made a promise to me
that I would not allow anyoneelse, anyone else that came into
my life at a certain point,take advantage of certain things
(06:19):
, and one of them, and thebiggest thing, is my heart.
It's my heart, because you gotto know that the intent is
always in the beginning.
It's always a good intent.
We meet people with theintention of hoping that there's
(06:43):
going to be something out ofthis that's successful.
You don't go into friendships,relationships and different
situations assuming the worstall the time.
You don't.
It just doesn't happen.
But where I messed up is Ibroke promises to myself, and
(07:08):
I've had to, over the course ofthe last six months, apologize
to myself over and over and over.
Until now I am at the pointwhere I'm no longer renewing
(07:35):
subscriptions to anybody'sbullshit or toxic waste.
I'm not.
I'm not doing it anymore.
I'm over it.
I'm all set.
Yep, I'm all set.
It's amazing to me how you can.
I've been supportive, I'veencouraged, uplifted, I've shown
(08:02):
up in ways that I can.
What I don't do, though, isoverextend myself and make
people assume or think that Ihave the capacity or can do
certain things that I know I can.
That I don't do, but Igenuinely show up because this
(08:28):
is me.
I have a big ass heart, andsometimes having a heart can be
a blessing and a curse in thesame damn time.
It can be, because if you'renot careful, you end up
shattering it over and over andover, until it's down to the
(08:54):
point that you just stoppedfeeling.
You become numb.
You become numb.
I also realized, and I'venoticed, that you could do a
million things for people amillion and it's that one time
(09:17):
that they get brave enough tobasically tell you you ain't did
shit and ain't shit because youdidn't move the way that they
felt you should have moved, youdidn't do what they felt you
should do or you didn't say whatthey expected you to say in
(09:38):
that very moment.
So it ends up being forgeteverything else, we're going to
just focus on this one time that, let's be honest, did you think
about the other person may havesomething going on?
(09:58):
Did you think about the otherperson may have been up all
night fighting with themselvesand didn't even have anybody to
talk to?
Did you think about the timesthat that person might have
called you because they neededyou to show up for them and you
weren't available?
Did you think about, in thatvery moment, that person could
(10:27):
be fighting for their damn lifeand you just so consumed and
worried about you that youdisregard all of the good that
came before that.
So I made a conscious decisiontoday.
(10:50):
Today is now, the 12th ofNovember, I made a conscious
decision that I am fighting andI'm going to continue to fight
like hell to not change my heart, because somebody and others
(11:18):
are worthy of everything that Iam and are worthy to receive
genuine love, care and respect.
I went for years, years, years,not saying things, not
(11:43):
responding to people, no matterhow they treated me, because I
still wanted to respect theirfeelings, although they said
forget my feelings.
I got to get this off my chestand let me say this, and I would
literally suffer in silence foryears because I didn't want to
(12:12):
hurt people's feelings.
Now, what I did do is I stillhad a way of expressing myself
and getting my point across, butI was always conscious, because
respect is a big thing for me.
It's huge.
(12:36):
But now if you feel you couldcome to me and tell me
everything that you feel I mayhave done to you, then, oh, baby
, you better be ready to receivethe feedback that I'm going to
(12:58):
give you.
I'm no longer going to hurtmyself to protect others.
I am going to be free.
And if every day of my life,the rest of my life that I have
on this earth, is spending it bymyself, and it's only me and
(13:25):
God.
I will take that in a heartbeatand run and never look back,
because when I tell you at thisvery moment, my mental capacity
alone is basically exhausted.
(13:49):
It's exhausted.
It's like one of those thingswhere I'm sitting around and I'm
thinking like, are you serious,like people's actions and the
things that people have said andthe people I've tried to
(14:11):
protect, going out of my way formaking sacrifices, showing up,
and then for a person to turnright around in that instant and
basically in so many words,make you feel like you ain't
shit.
I'm awesome, because what Iknow and what God knows is that
(14:43):
my worth, I'm a very, very, very, very valuable person, very
valuable.
I might not be able to give themoney and I can't do the trips
and all this stuff right now,but when that day shows up again
(15:07):
, I'm going to live my lifewithout expecting others to join
me.
I'm not going to do it anymore.
I am on a different path, andthis path is called learning to
(15:34):
cope by yourself.
Learning to cope by yourself,the.
I've called people, I've reachedout.
I've no answer.
No, nothing, no, next day, yougood Nothing.
(15:59):
So I've stopped doing it too.
I've stopped being the first toinitiate.
I stopped being the one calling, I stopped being the one
texting.
Let me see how many peoplereally text me.
Let me see how many peopledon't have my number that'll go
(16:19):
to the lengths of my inbox.
Or don't see me post on socialmedia and reach out to me and
say hey, I'm just checking onyou.
You good, the crazy party is.
I call it my social mediafamily.
We'll definitely check on me tosee there ain't no content.
(16:40):
You good, keep going, don'tgive up, don't quit.
You got this.
Greater is in.
I get all kind of all that, butthe ones that I've stood 10 toes
down for, I don't get shit.
But, lord, I thank you.
(17:04):
Lord, I thank you, lord, Ithank you that I am no longer
moved by people.
I used to just cut people offand you would never know what
(17:24):
you did to me.
I would get text and I wouldnever read them because I didn't
want to say what I really beinghonest.
I didn't want to say what Ireally felt about that
individual in that moment,whatever the situation was.
(17:45):
But now I say exactly how Ifeel, no filters and,
respectfully, if you don't likeit, leave me alone.
Leave me alone, go your way andI'll go my way, because what
(18:12):
anybody has to know is that Goddon't play about me, and if you
believe in God, like I do, hedon't play about you either.
So, as I'm sitting in this space, in this different space where
(18:32):
I thought it might have been alonely space, it's not.
It's not.
It's a cleansing space.
It's a place that I'm becomingfree.
It's a place where God isliterally showing me, faster
than I've ever experienced inlife, who people are, who people
(18:58):
really are, how they reallyfeel about me.
And guess what I'm doing?
I'm embracing it and acceptingit and moving forward.
As such, I've decided to take mylife back.
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I am no longer going to waitfor others.
I am going to move as I want tomove.
I will do as I want to do and Iwill say whatever it is that I
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feel like I need to say in orderfor me to be free.
I'm no longer in bondage.
I am no longer going to careabout one's feelings before I
first care about myself.
I'm not protecting anybody.
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I am going to protect autumn.
I'm going to protect myfeelings, my heart, my thoughts,
my mental capacity before Ieven attempt to help save
someone else going forward.
I only get one life, one, andmy life has been spared.
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Lord, I thank you so many times.
God has come through for me somany times and even at this age
and at this stage of my life, Ishould be so much further, so
much further.
But I don't regret the lessonslearned, but what I am doing,
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it's exercising my right to moveforward Without the
distractions of others.
So those that have benefited,those have gained, those that
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have used me, those who havetaken advantage of me, thank you
.
I want to say thank you fromthe bottom of my heart, because
I would never have gotten tothis point, to where I can
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sincerely focus on me.
My focus, my energy, my time ison me.
I'm back to a lot of times nowbeing by myself, going out by
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myself, treating myself tobreakfast, sitting there,
listening to my music, notbothering people looking around,
thinking no, this may beprobably one of the realest
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podcast that I have done,speaking from my heart.
My heart is healing.
I am asking God to renew it.
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I am asking God to help menavigate through this season of
my life, because it's a toughone.
It's a tough one, it's a toughone.
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And then the funny thing is isthat I was so used to repeating
Certain things and and goingthrough the same thing over and
over and getting the same resultTo this is totally different.
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I guess it is a true saying thatEverybody can't go on the
journey that he has for me.
Let me say that again for you.
Everybody can't go on thejourney that God has for you.
They can't.
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And at this point in my life Iguess he said, oh, I'm not going
to allow it, I'm gonna flush itquick, quick, y'all.
And it's happening Second bysecond, day over day, minute by
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minute.
I am in a pod.
I am in a pod and certainthings, because what I am is a
good person.
My intentions is never to hurtanyone purposely.
But I also know that becauseI've been taken advantage of,
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disrespected, discarded, myfeelings don't matter, even when
I respond back and I say what Ifeel.
I think it's a point now thatindividuals just don't know how
to come back, and I'm okay withthat.
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I want everybody to live and bewell, because I got one life,
y'all.
We get one shot at this and weout here acting like we got a
million damn lives.
We got one life and then it'sover until we get to the next
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phase of life.
But here on earth we only gotone chance.
So, as I'm encouraging myself, Iwon't be selfish to encourage
you as well.
Do what's best for you withoutregret.
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Do whatever it is that makesyou happy.
Laugh on purpose.
Be intentional with your time.
Let go of temporary situations.
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Let go of things that only willfix it temporarily.
Say what you feel and mean whatyou say.
But I also want to remind yoube okay now.
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Be okay and be open to receivewhat the other person may have
to say in return.
In this season, in this verymoment, I just have to trust God
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with everything that I have,because I am in a space that is
feeling like an unknownterritory, almost to the point
that I'm like I don't know thatI'm welcome here because I'm so
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used to the same cycles.
So I no longer make excuses,I'm no longer being apologetic,
but I am going to liveunapologetically, going forward.
I wish everyone the best.
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I hope this message finds youat a place that you're confused,
you're lonely, you're notunderstanding why, how you got
here.
This is really like a purgingseason.
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God ain't playing, he isapplying pressure.
He's applying pressure to someof us those that get it get it
and those that don't.
I'm going to be honest.
I pray this time that you justget it and you don't have to go
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through all these lessons thatI've had to go through lately.
But I will say this One of myfavorite scriptures is Proverbs
3-4-7.
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Listen to the Lord with all yourheart, don't lean into your own
understanding, and all yourways acknowledge him, and he
will direct your path.
With that being said, I am done.
I am done ranting.
You can find me on all themajor platforms Spotify, apple,
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amazon Music, fm, heart Radio onmy every major platform.
Be blessed y'all.
This is a new season and if youknow anything like me, ask God
daily, second by seconds.
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Lord, help me to navigate inthis season.
Litty Lord, I thank you.
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