Season 4 Trailer: Embracing the Inevitable

Life has a way of surprising us with unexpected twists that force us to reassess everything we once held close.  Life just threw me a curveball – my Cancer has made a surprising return, taking me into an uncertain chapter of my life, a terminal diagnosis of Stage 4 Liver Metastatic Uveal Melanoma.

I find myself grappling with the profound emotions that come with living with an incurable disease and the heart-wrenching realization that my journey has an impending end.

As I step into this new season of my life, my focus remains on finding joy amidst the chaos and continuing to connect with you through this podcast. Through these episodes, I aim to provide solace to anyone dealing with grief, no matter its form.

My hope is for this podcast to serve as a beacon of hope, a living legacy that reflects the enduring power of love.  While the frequency and content of future episodes might shift, the heart of this show remains the same.

I invite you to walk beside me on this journey, navigating  new intricacies of grief, the depths of love, the complexities of life, and the resilient beauty of the human spirit.

As always, Widow Your Way ❤️

Links to learn more about Ocular Melanoma:
A Cure in Sight
The Eye Believe Podcast
Ocular Melanoma Foundation

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Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:00):
Sadly, season three ended so much sooner than I was
expecting.
There were a few more thingsthat I really wanted to talk
about, like the differencesbetween widows and widowers, and
I really wanted to talk aboutwidow fire, but it doesn't mean
that it won't still happen.

(00:20):
It just means that it wasn'tmeant for.
Right now, unfortunately, I'mmoving into a new season of my
life that I wasn't expecting sosoon my final season, and not
just for the podcast, but for me.
I've been saying these wordsnow for three weeks and I'd like

(00:44):
to say that it gets easier, butit doesn't.
My heart still races and poundswith each word, but my tears
are slowly drying up.
Telling you, my listeners, isthe public announcement that
I've been dreading my cancer hasreturned.
I have stage four livermetastatic uveal melanoma.

(01:10):
For those of you that have beenlistening from the very
beginning, you know that I wasdiagnosed with this rare eye
cancer just six weeks after myhusband died.
There's no cure for this cancerand I knew that I was at a high
risk for it to metastasize inthe first three years.
Luckily, I made it to five,because there are many people

(01:34):
that don't even make it thislong.
So I know you have a lot ofquestions and I will answer them
all in time, but please knowthat I'm still processing this
myself.
I haven't really decided howmuch of this is going to play
out on social media, but you'lldefinitely see the most updates
there, so you can follow me onInstagram and Facebook At Love

(01:59):
is Not Dead just my husband andthe links are in the show notes.
If you want to find out moreinformation about this cancer,
you can go online tooculermelanomafoundationorg, but
in my opinion, the bestresource is acuransightorg,
which is a nonprofitorganization for patients by

(02:22):
patients.
It has the most easilydigestible information, so I
will make sure that the linksfor both of those are in the
show notes.
I've been focusing so much onthe logistics of cancer
treatments and work that Ihaven't even started to focus on

(02:43):
myself.
The thought of living with aprayer incurable cancer has me
really wanting to retreat into alittle cave where I can just
curl up and hide from the world.
Since the news, I felt like I'mfighting to live for everyone
else and I'm just waiting for alittle spark to ignite inside of

(03:05):
me that makes me want to livefor myself.
So a friend said to me forgetcancer right now.
Forget about work, think aboutyou.
Think about what's going tobring you joy and happiness.
What do you want to do with therest of your life?
I want a podcast.

(03:29):
This podcast has brought me somuch joy and has been a major
part of my grief and healingjourney.
I don't want to give up mylisteners, my community or
people that continue to inspireme.
That's a part of what keeps megoing every day and I'm going to

(03:50):
need that now more than ever.
So, with that being said,podcast will pivot a little.
One I don't know how consistentI'll be with releasing episodes
.
And two what you hear may notalways be specifically for
widows, but ultimately I wantedto help anyone who was grieving.

(04:14):
I just happened to be a widowdoing it.
I am now starting on a new griefjourney.
I am grieving the loss of myown life sooner than expected.
I am grieving the loss offinding love again, grieving the
loss of watching my parentsgrow old and die before me.

(04:37):
Grieving the loss of watchingmy son get married and have
children.
Grieving the loss of bestfriends that anyone could ever
ask for.
And grieving the loss ofwatching my two favorite humans,
the trindles, grow up.
This podcast will be my legacy.

(04:58):
I want it to be how peopleremember me.
I want it to be a place whereyou can hear my voice.
I want it to be a place whereyou can go when you're missing
me.
I want it to be a place you canheal while grieving me, and I

(05:19):
want it to be a reminder foreveryone that, no matter who you
lost, that love is not dead.