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August 9, 2024 51 mins
After her divorce, Lorraine sought advice from a shaman, who encouraged her to let others take the lead. She started taking dance classes and began dating her partner, who eventually revealed himself to be a manipulative and controlling narcissist, drawing her into a cycle of escalating abuse.

**This episode contains graphic depictions of sexual assault, racism, and mental, emotional, and physical abuse. Listener discretion is advised.**

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(01:58) about lorraine
(02:51) lorraine’s story
(47:10) questions & answers
(49:34) closing thoughts
(50:37) charity & organizations
(51:07) submit your story
(51:17) disclaimer

quotes

“I decided to take therapy sessions from a shaman. And she said to Lorraine, you have problems being led.” - Lorraine
“I always already checking off all the boxes of how could I be the helper in this the Savior in this relationship?” - Lorraine
“...she said, it took me eight years to get my life back together after what he did to me. And she said, This man will break you down until you are absolutely nothing.” - Lorraine
“I would often lock myself in rooms to get away from him because sometimes things became violent…” - Lorraine
“...the Police officer flips open his gun, puts his hand on his gun and says to me, are you resisting arrest? And that's when it hit me. I'm like, Oh my God. I am a black English speaking woman in a French speaking province. I am fucked.” - Lorraine
“We keep our head up and we walk strong and we believe in God. And we believe in higher power, and we believe in kindness, and that's what's kept me through.” - Lorraine

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Music (CC BY 4.0):
Lost Place Atmospheres 002 & 003 by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)

Other Music and Sound Effects by Alex Wit, Yevhenii Kovalenko, Samuel Kamau, Cybercutie, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay

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