21: lovelustfear | jaimee | there’s nothing scary about him

After a traumatic childhood, Jaimee yearned for peace and stability. She found temporary solace in a long-term marriage, but when it ended, she was drawn to a charismatic and charming man. However, beneath his appealing exterior lay a dark reality. As the relationship unfolded, it spiraled into psychological control, emotional and physical abuse. Caught in a dangerous and toxic situation, Jaimee soon found herself in a battle for her life.
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(01:34) about jaimee
(02:45) jaimee’s story
(01:04:30) questions & answers
(01:14:57) closing thoughts
(01:16:14) charity & organizations
(01:16:44) submit your story
(01:16:55) disclaimer
** This episode contains explicit content, including descriptions of sexual assault, physical and emotional abuse. Please listen with caution.**
quotes
“I was in an extremely vulnerable place…I was in a real crossroads in life. My marriage was breaking down. I was very alone. I was lacking this love, lacking attention, lacking validation.” - Jaimee
“…he was so hot and cold, so he would be super charismatic and flirty and then all of a sudden would kind of shift and become quite offhand or even slightly rude.” - Jaimee
“He called me so many names that night and I was just so taken aback. It's the first time I'd ever seen this side. I was a bitch. I was a slut.” - Jaimee
“I was just an absolute mess inside and out. My body was shutting down. I shook all day. I shook all day constantly. I had anxiety attacks constantly.” - Jaimee
“…and he locked the car doors and he drove off away from my driveway. And he said, I fooled you. I tricked you.” - Jaimee 
“I really thought that he said to me, I'll fucking kill you. I'm gonna fucking kill you. And I thought, okay, I really am gonna die here.” - Jaimee 
“That's seriously, one of the biggest things I've learned is you just, you can't, you can't outrun your trauma. It will catch you at, at some point, unless you, you face it and you deal with it.” - Jaimee 
topics | #DysfunctionalFamily #AbusiveRelationship #ChildhoodTrauma
#CopingMechanisms #ToxicRelationships #Manipulation
#LoveBombing #EmotionalAbuse #Control #AssaultSurvivor
#Isolation #MentalHealthMatters #LeavingAbuse #TraumaHealing
#SurvivorStory #HealingJourney #SupportSurvivors #EndAbuse
#YouAreNotAlone #Resilience
music | sounds
Lost Place Atmospheres 002  & Just Deep 1 by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
Other Music and Sound Effects by: Alex Wit, cybercutie, Samuel Kamau, Syouki Takahashi, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, AlesiaDavina, and UNIVERSFIELD from Pixabay
stay aware | follow | share (jaimee)
National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788 
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/
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