49: Death & Rebirth: Return Home to God's Love: remembering the One Original Sacred Truth

This is both the final episode of Season 1 and our most important message of the entire first season.

We have been away from the show for 2 months… and during those months everything changed (again). We are coming back online returning from a major death and rebirth period that held our third, and greatest, awakening in our journey.

These months held over a thousand hours of healing, activations, initiations, purges, trainings, missions, deaths, and awakenings for us as we joined a mystery school for starseeds and light workers to learn galactic shamanism.

In this episode we share what we awakened to as part of the mission to help liberate this sacred planet, humanity, and most importantly millions of trafficked children from the complex soul prison that currently enslaves it all.

Why is this happening? What are we missing? Where is God? How do we exit this prison?

Listen in to hear the single most important thing we have learned the last 3 months - it has the power to shatter ANY delusion, false light, frequency fence, glass ceiling, or soul trap:

AND learn how you can FINALLY escape the endless trap of “seeking” and return home to God’s love.

Join us as we explore these sacred and important questions and share the past few months and where the show is heading for Season 2!

We leave you in love with this offering for contemplation: what in your life is holding you back from union with God?

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Episode Transcript

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Death and rebirth are a perfectly normal part of life.

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We can expand and step into deeper levels of embodiment and awareness and leadership
and ultimately union with God.
I've really changed my outlook on my spiritual path.
I'm no longer a spiritual seeker.
I am someone who has cleared a direct channel to God

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and I'm stepping into spiritual leadership.
Going on the seeking journey, realizing that I've strayed so far from God,
so far from the original intention of the design of who I was as a soul,
now I'm coming back to that original organic design that God had created for me.

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What was really, really being asked to be looked at was the relationship with God.
What is the image that God created of me and how can I live more in that divine alignment
so that I can really get clear on my purpose and then step into a place of service in this world?
All you have to do is ask yourself this one question.

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Is this centered around and rooted in God and actively leading my soul towards my highest timeline of union with God?
If this doesn't point me back to my individual relationship with God and my purpose on this planet,
then to some degree it is taking my energy and my attention away from that purpose.

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And until we walk a path of true embodiment and get a super clear channel with God,
everything that is taught to us is going to be distorted through the filters of the limitations of the people who are teaching.
Bring back the power to yourself.

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You are literally a spark of God.
You have that power within you.
And that's something we've always said on the show.
And now I say it with even more conviction.
You can heal yourself.
And this isn't like some woo woo miracle Jesus like,
oh I can just snap my fingers and I'm healed.
No, you can sit there in deep meditation and prayer and reverence and go into these parts of yourself

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and find them and integrate them and love them and release them to God.
Heal the God wound.
Go back and bring everything that we've learned on our spiritual journey back to God
and be able to integrate these two parts of ourselves, the masculine and the feminine,
and really coming back into divine union within ourselves to be able to have a relationship with God

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that is informed by what we've learned through spirituality,
not a relationship with God that is informed by religion.
Something that's unique, something that's different.
The way we do that is by healing ourselves,
making sure that we're using the currency of our energy and our attention and our spirituality

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for our purpose here, not for seeking, chasing around in the same circle for 10 years, getting nothing done.
Welcome home to the Loving Consciously podcast.
My name is Ameris and my name is Eric.
And if you are like us, nobody taught you how to love.
We are best friends and life partners here to vulnerably and authentically share our journey

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while exploring the sacred realms of love, consciousness, relationship, spirituality, and all that they encompass.
The intention of this show is to help you consciously relate to yourself, others, and everything else in this universe.
Together, we can embody a more intentional and fulfilling way of giving and receiving love.
Loving Consciously.

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Through eight years together, we have had the opportunity to overcome deep patterning and programming,
as well as trauma related to mental health, addiction, pregnancy loss, infidelity, and immense grief.
After six years of experiencing these challenges with no knowledge on how to heal or love each other, we separated.
After us both spiritually awakening and recommitting, we formed our Conscious Partnership

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and have spent the last two years cultivating a divine union founded on unconditional love,
devotion, and commitment to personal growth.
Thank you for joining us and doing the work alongside us as we explore this beautiful world of love and consciousness
to co-create a new world of love.
As you courageously walk this path, remember to have grace with yourself

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and know that you have both the capacity to love Consciously and the power to always choose love.
Blessed day and welcome back to the Loving Consciously podcast.
This is the final episode of season one and today we are coming back from a very long break
with our most important message to date to talk about death and rebirth, returning home to God's love.

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We have been in a profound and intense death and rebirth portal this last three months
and today we are going to update you on what that has looked like and really go deep in exploring this concept of death and rebirth.
And how magical and alchemical and impactful this can be when you consciously choose to dive into these moments.

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And we are going to be looking at the rebirth of this show because everything is changing
and we're just so excited to be here with you today.
We're so grateful. We've missed you all so much and are just really looking forward to aligning this
message and this content with the original and highest organic truth of God and of love.

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It has been such a potent time for us and I'm so grateful to be back here to share this experience,
share this new level of awareness and consciousness and deeper, deeper levels of healing that has happened over this
really intense death and rebirth cycle and so grateful to be here and excited to get into it.

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So how the heck did we get here? We had over a year of almost weekly episodes.
There was an occasional time here and there on the road where we missed a week
but for the better part of a year we were pretty much here almost every week.
We then took a one month break in that mid-November to mid-December range
because we were on our final month of our 13 month RV journey and we just needed to drop in

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and be really present with that experience. We then came back and announced that we had landed
and temporarily settled in Austin, Texas with Illuminate the Darkness with God's Love.
That episode was probably one of our best episodes to date. I really encourage you to go listen to it
if you haven't and little did we know that we were just barely scratching the surface of looking at

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the darkness and we were about to plunge into it off the deep end in the best way. We then had two
guest episodes that were previously recorded. They are both magical. One is with the Reiki Twins
and the other one is with a dear friend James from Organic Muscle. So definitely check those out
and then we took a two month break and I want to be clear this was never really our intention.

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Life just happened and we made a decision and a commitment that we're going to talk about a little
bit a little later in the show to really hibernate this winter and listen to our bodies and slow down,
quiet down, go within and most importantly not fall into this trap of new years, time to go,
time to get your resolutions, time to start doing the thing in the dead of winter when our souls

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and our bodies and the earth are asking us to be hibernating. Really the truth is everything's
changed in this last three months and we know and recognize and save space for the fact that we are
constantly changing and growing and bless you and bless our families and friends for sticking on this
journey with us because we just keep growing and changing and dying and being reborn and so we say

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this a lot. However this time it is definitely different. Everything has changed. We have transcended
countless glass ceilings. We have undergone extensive activations and initiations and most
importantly we have risen out of the ashes of our single greatest death and rebirth cycle of the last

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five years. I mean when I say that this has been one of the most potent energetic times of our entire
relationship I mean that. We have undergone so much healing and like you said it was never the
intention right? We went into a portal to hibernate to really go inward. It was interesting the minute

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we did that the energy just started flowing. It's like oh you're gonna pay attention great there's
a lot to show you and it was activation after activation after activation. I'll be honest I
don't think I've ever been so stretched thin as this last two months because of how much

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was being asked to look at and reevaluated in our lives because post this massive RV journey going
into hibernation and reflecting and unpacking the journey there was a lot of belief on my end
that oh you know I transcended certain things you know I don't I've healed certain aspects of myself

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great it's time to move on to the next chapter when in reality it was actually a journey of going
back into those experiences from a higher level of consciousness and being able to meet some of the
darkest parts of myself. Yeah yeah and we are going to literally reintroduce ourselves in a moment

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and we're going to walk you through the last three months of our lives and what has been going on
on the shamanism school we joined and just so many things that we have experienced and learned
because to say that we've gone through not only another spiritual awakening but a level of awakening
that up into this last few months we hadn't met anyone who had experienced some of the things

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that we were experiencing would be an understatement. Before we get into reintroducing ourselves
and going over what those last three months have looked like and the profound magic of wisdom that
we are here to share with you today of what we have learned let's talk a little bit about death
and rebirth. First of all death right death is so sacred and it is such a natural part of life

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and something beautiful I heard recently is death isn't even death death is just being reborn into
the next thing and I thought that was really beautiful and you know it's such a sacred right
of passage it's not just a physical death sometimes like leaving this physical plane
you can go through spiritual deaths you can go through emotional deaths you can go through so

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many different deaths in your life and when we can learn to honor this process and when we can learn
to welcome it and work with it and in our case feed it we really see profound rebirth and you
know we were in church yesterday a spiritual service and he was talking about this concept

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really and something powerful that he had said was your rebirth can only be as great as how great you
are willing to die how much are you willing to let go of this can be a physical object this can be a
relationship it can be a place it can be an idea a belief an attachment you know whatever it is

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energy a trauma are you willing to let go at a higher level because if you're only willing to
let go five percent then you're only going to be reborn five percent this really hit me hard when
we were sitting there listening to the sermon because it really asked me to take a look at the
last few months and see you know am i really willing to let go of some of the aspects of my life

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that i'm attached to am i willing to step even further into uncomfortability and allow myself
to grow and to change where am i still attached and still you know holding on to things that are
no longer serving me and that may have been serving me you up until this point but just can't move

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into this next phase that deep reflection is one of the most critical parts about entering the
rebirth portal because unless we are aware of the attachments that we have we can't consciously release
them kind of moving into the death experience when we start to look inward and step into this journey

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a lot of those attachments will surface a lot of the patterns that really express when we're
activated and triggered we're having emotional responses come out full force because they're
asking to be seen they're asking to be met with love and until we actually bring conscious awareness

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to those experiences we can't transcend them heal them and actually move into the next rebirth portal
yeah it's so true i was thinking about this and we were lightly talking about it when we were
preparing for this episode you know the reality is most people never change and now if you're
listening to this show as i've said before in the past i have a strong suspicion that you are not

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who i'm talking about right now you are someone who's on some form of personal development
self growth spiritual self exploration path whatever that looks like for you however for the
greater population i mean look around most people never change they have the same job and the same
routine and the same friends and the same habits and the same beliefs their entire life because

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like we said you have to be willing to go to these depths you have to be willing to face your stuff
and face the darkness plug back to that episode evolution is a part of creation everything is
growing and expanding and changing change is the only constant being open to evolution to growth

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to change is not only a constant and necessary for our survival it's really the only way forward
on any type of personal growth path and so just holding space for and remembering you know that
inner knowing that death and rebirth are a perfectly normal part of life and the more that we can get

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comfortable with that process the more that we can expand and step into deeper levels of embodiment
and awareness and leadership and ultimately union with god so i guess we can reintroduce ourselves
would you like to go first sure i have been really sitting with how i'd like to approach this because

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a part of me just wants to go into this is who i am now i think there's a beauty in really
articulating the expansion and evolution of what was present before into what's present now one of
the biggest parts of my identity for the majority of my life was architecture it was going to

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architecture school practicing architecture and to me at that phase of my life architecture was
you know designing buildings and part of this death and rebirth cycle i've been really contemplating
what my purpose is why god put me on this planet and why i have such an affinity for design and

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as many of my close friends know this last couple years i've actually stepped away from
architecture practice and have been working on design work doing graphics and logos and stuff
like that which is outside of my wheelhouse however in that experience i've gotten to work
with some really amazing people who are really stepping into their purpose and i began to realize

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that architecture is actually a language not an action and the language of creation which is god's
creation on this planet was really where my heart was being led through this experience i got to
understand architecture from a completely different lens understanding the blueprints in my own soul

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and my own purpose and being able to recognize blueprints in other people and being able to help
them achieve their life purpose and designing that from start to finish through that experience
i've begun to channel in some really amazing projects that god is asking to bring into this

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earth and i feel very blessed to be the architect of those projects for god's mission on this planet
i am a spiritual architect i am a healer and healing to me it used to be you know energy and

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reiki and how can we move some trauma in the body and now it's so much deeper because i've met myself
on an even deeper level i am a conscious parent in their preconception phase of really calling in
the souls of our children i am stepping into a divine masculine role in this conscious partnership

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and i've really changed my outlook on my spiritual path i'm no longer a spiritual seeker i am someone
who has cleared a direct channel to god and i'm stepping into spiritual leadership and taking
that mantle and living in purpose that's a little bit about my journey amris would you like to introduce

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yourself i mean i don't even know how to go after that i we didn't share i mean i shared a little
bit but you didn't share what you were gonna say i just need to give that space for a second to
marinate my body and process because you just so beautifully described a journey i've been
watching unfold for the last three months of it was your greatest attachment you know i'm an

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architect i'm an architect that's all i am i'm an architect that's what i'm here to do it has to be
architecture and to watch this profound awakening and realization of how much bigger that word is
and what that means spiritually and consciously to be an architect of love and of organic creation

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and of god's mission and not just i'm an architect that designs buildings in the 3d earth plane has
been really beautiful and you've never said these words to me so forgive me y'all for being a little
tongue-tied but you know saying like i'm no longer a spiritual seeker i have a direct channel to god
and i'm in that alignment and relationship and resonance with father mother god is really beautiful

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so thank you for bringing that in and dropping that nugget on me unexpectedly i'm all tongue-tied now
you know for me who something that i've been really deeply contemplating this last few months
is actually my name because if you don't know or if you do my birth name was amanda and i changed

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my name to aris over a year ago at this point we're coming up on a year and a half and as i've
really sunken into that and i've reached a point in my personal and just technical journey where i
kind of have to make a decision if i'm legally making this official now that we have an address
and we have a home state we're not moving every few days i've been really playing with these names

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and identity right and like what does that even mean for me and so you know i'm still going by
amorous but that's been a big contemplation in my mind these last few months has been around my name
and most importantly it doesn't matter which name i use and it doesn't matter what people call me it
matters that i have a healed relationship with all of these parts of myself and that's what's come of

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that for me has been integrating the parts and pieces of amanda and of who i was before going
on this journey and not resisting or judging or outcasting them and so really for me the last
three months has just been this massive journey of parts work of bringing back all of these parts
and pieces and integrating them and loving them you know i am a minister and i've spent about a year

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and a half since i was called to ministry really working on my relationship with healing that word
and i have fully stepped into that and claimed it i have never been more proud and honored
to be anything in this world outside of god's child than to be a minister i carry that deep in my heart

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and deep in my soul it is one of my greatest passions is to speak and be a vessel for god's
highest love and truth to come into this world to be a guardian of grace is something i was recently
activated in i am currently undergoing really profound initiations and activations and trainings

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around being an oracle and stepping into that divine feminine role and what that means and what
that has meant in many lifetimes before this one i am a shaman and have been going through really
profound activations and awakenings around my ancestors and what it means to be a shaman i

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know for me i heard that word and i had a very earthly view of it and over this last few months
it's really expanded to be cosmic to be spiritual to be galactic if you will you know shamanism
exists in many dimensions and many planes and many layers and so i'm really playing with this
and exploring what does that word mean to me and really seeing this kind of medicine woman-esque

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energy come out in me and that's been really beautiful i am a grid worker and have fully
stepped into that mission and that role just this last week and we'll get more into what that means
later if you're not familiar with that term i am a conscious mother and one of the things that i hold

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closest to my heart today is preparing my mind body and soul for bringing in the highly evolved souls
that are my children and i am the other half of this divine union of this conscious partnership
and you know our views of that have evolved as well and so a lot has changed and moved and activated

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this last few months and it really hasn't been anything new it's just once again been willing
to die and move into these moments of purge and of feeling the darkness and of facing these parts
of ourself and then remembering oh yeah i've always been a shaman i've always been an architect

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i've always been a minister and really we all are all these things in some ways and so it's just been
this returning home to god's love returning home to my soul and incarnating more of my soul into my
body i am watching my human self if you will slowly integrate and make space for my soul you know they

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say highest self i don't personally love that expression because it makes it seem like it's
somewhere else and it's one that i used to use right we're going to talk about this as well later
in this content about the new age and about frequency fences but what your highest self is
is it's your soul and it's not higher and it's not somewhere way up there right and it's asking to
come in and be incarnated and so at its core this last three months has really been this journey of

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bringing these parts of my soul back in it's not becoming anything it's unbecoming all of the unhealed
and unintegrated parts of my human self and remembering the angelic star seed that i am and
the beautiful woman and child of god that i'm honored and grateful and blessed to be able to be

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that's really beautiful thank you for sharing you know it's been a really great honor to be on this
side of the fence kind of watching you through your journey as you've watched me through mine
as you've really begun to reintegrate the parts of yourself that you kind of pushed down and
pushed away as part of the spiritual journey and it's interesting i'm watching this kind of come

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full circle because this has really just been a journey of expansion you know since we left on
this rv journey dying to our old selves going on this searching and seeking mission and part of
that experience was okay we need to create distance from the old self to be able to really

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really open ourselves up to what's out there let's seek let's let's try it all out because we
certainly did we tried everything from the spiritual space to the sovereignty space to our own
personal journeys like it was wild west for a while there and through that experience and having

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the sampler of life of what's out there it became really clear that what was really really being
asked to be looked at was the relationship with god and having that original connection because for me
when i went on this death journey one of the first things to go was my relationship with god

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growing up catholic i had a very interesting relationship with god growing up in religion
and so it was it wasn't mine it was a relationship that was told to me and so it was the first thing
on the chopping block when i went through the suffering that we went through and it's only

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fitting to have that be kind of that last piece to be reintegrated into the into this experience
and to really create a sense of wholeness you use the word remembering right this has been a journey
of remembering who we are of kind of going on the seeking journey realizing that i've strayed so far

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from god so far from the original intention of the design of who i was as a soul and now i'm coming
back to that original organic design that god had created for me that i came down here to live
and you were talking about parts work and you think about the etymology of the word remembering

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it's literally to bring members back right we're remembering you think if you're putting an arm back
on a body you're remembering that member of the body and this experience has been much of reintegrating
these fragmented parts of our souls to be able to get a clear picture of who it is that i am

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who i'm meant to be what is the image that god created of me and how can i live more in that
divine alignment so that i can really get clear on my purpose and then step into a place of service
in this world that right there well now that we have talked a little bit about death and rebirth

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and reintroduced ourselves let's talk about the last couple of months and most importantly this
is probably the most important section of this episode is what did we learn because a lot of
this information might be new to you and so i just want to bring an invitation into this sacred
container bring some grace bring some compassion it's okay if any of this is new or doesn't make

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sense you know just stick with us because it's been a lot for us to integrate as well so how
we got to this place december we landed in austin and right when we landed in austin actually i
think it was like the day after we started with a online community slash mystery school it is a

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galactic shamanism school it's called the earth star academy and we started with a grid work mission
and then we went really deep into the curriculum of the school we've actually done about 50% of the
curriculum in just a couple of months and then we went into our winter hibernation so we're in
austin we have these two months of just wildly profound inner work unlike anything i've ever

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done before i mean we're talking about essentially learning about the soul prison and trap that is
this planet and how this planet is both trapped right now and run by a satanic pedophilic ring
if you will and i know that's a lot that's a lot to hear and take in it sounds really intense and

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it is that's that's the reality it is intense and we've always known that deep down in our souls
we've always known that but over this last six six to nine months child trafficking has become
really present on our hearts it's been entering our fields a lot we've been doing a lot of exposure
to this field and this reality of this planet and again the levels to which you're willing to go

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into the darkness is the levels to which it will be revealed to you and the levels to which you can
hold the light and so that's what we've been doing and we did something really cool in january that
was probably one of the biggest credits to how we made it to this place and that was we did not
leave our house for an entire month for anything but essentials so if it wasn't gym groceries gas

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we didn't leave we didn't see anyone we didn't go to any events nothing and we didn't spend one
penny out of our budget on anything no eating out no spending no crystals no nothing we stayed
inside for 31 days only leaving a few times a week for groceries and things like that and that

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honestly i don't know that i mean other than being in prison i don't know that i've ever done
something like that in my life and it was also really cold in austin and actually even snowed so
it was nice to just be inside you realize when you do this how much we go out and expose ourselves
to the energy of the world the collective i mean even going to the grocery store we are energetic

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spiritual beings and so we're walking around picking up all of this debris if you will energetic
debris right and so when you close your container that deeply for that amount of time it really
brings clarity y'all and so if you have the opportunity in any way to do that i would really

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encourage it because it was really profound for us then we moved into kind of like the end of
january and it was very interesting because two really key things happened number one we had been
getting calls to sunset our business graceful shark design studio for a long time i know for me it was
like a year at least and just like we've talked about in the past was selling our house where we

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were getting that calling for a year and not listening to that cost us almost six figures of profit
we ignored this calling we were attached we were attached because it was a tribute to our daughter
that we had lost and we just weren't listening and we sat down and we made that decision and it was
really beautiful because as soon as we did immediately like within minutes in your meditation

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right after god gave you the new name of the new business and not only is it now a god aligned
business it still has a version of our daughter's name in it and it is much more sacred and so we
made this decision which was kind of like this last piece i really do feel like this was this last
thing we were holding on to and then as soon as we made that decision god was like okay you need to

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go home and do some family healing i was much more resistant to this i was like we should just like
fly back for seven days in the end we ended up driving our entire house back home to arizona
where we are from for the entire month of february and it's been really interesting because you know
they say like you want to know how enlightened you are like go home right go go home go see your

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family and that could not be more true this was a very very difficult and challenging month i hadn't
i hadn't seen some of my family since 2023 and i saw them several times in just a few weeks
we spent almost 21 days straight with your family and there was a lot of really deep and vulnerable

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conversations and something that we were reflecting on getting ready for this call was that the last
time we went home which was december of 2023 so a little over a year ago while we were on our spiritual
journeys i wouldn't say we were inauthentic we definitely were not fully embodying our truth
and we made a lot of sacrifices in things like our diet and our beliefs and kind of biting our tongue

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and not really honoring our truth and honoring our relationship with god and all of these things
and so this time coming back was a really beautiful opportunity to come back and be embodied and
honor ourselves and honor our truth and our relationship with god and introduce this in
nada i need to shove this down your throat and wake you up kind of a way but in uh this is my

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truth and the love that i've come to know and i want to share this with you yeah it's been a really
really potent time most of that experience was spent in deep emotional what's the word for that
that just expression just turmoil retribution feels pretty good just like really bawling our eyes out

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and going and integrating these parts of our inner children and parts of ourselves in this
relationship that we're still holding resentment yeah i mean it somatic releases of energy entity
clearings revisiting addictions from a completely different lens and actually purging out the energetic

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attachments within my body that were still craving those experiences i appreciate that you brought
a deeper call for vulnerability to this because you know we hadn't gotten into that yet but yes it was
i i don't think we were supposed to be around people or in public i mean we literally sent out
a message and posted a message and canceled everything and everyone for a month and disappeared

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because it was it was it was really um dark and powerful you know there were many nights where
we were up very late and just doing something called lucidity training it's where you slowly
expose yourself and your nervous system to truth to the reality of the darkness of this world
so that you can handle it so that when you're faced with it and more importantly when you go out to

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do something about it you're not destroyed and shocked and so you're kind of slowly drip feeding
yourself i remember like at its peak when i remember when we first woke up which was about five years
ago it was right at the start of the quote unquote pandemic early 2020 and just being like wait a

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minute you're locking me in my house like that that was a switch so it's been five years and then
i remember kind of our second massive awakening so that was like our matrix awakening our spiritual
awakening really took off about three years ago and it was with that rabbit hole series and it was
with really waking up to oh my gosh this system and this matrix is an entire lie i'm a slave in

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the system and i had no idea and i remember that night and sitting on our couch and looking each
other dead in the face in horror in silence in tears and just looking at each other and being like
do we need to commit ourselves like have we actually gone crazy how can we be waking up the only thing
i can equate this to because it's so beautifully done right is the matrix movie when they wake up

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and and neopoles the tube out of his mouth i mean that is exactly what it felt like that happened
again so this is our third awakening i mean you're constantly going through like mini
awakenings but at their peaks this is the third one and this awakening was realizing that we thought
we had woken up and we thought that we were spiritual and we thought that we were conscious and

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realizing that the new age spiritual space is also a frequency fence and if you don't know what a
frequency fence is it is essentially a block you can look at this literally physically
energetically whatever works in your brain it's not important however you can make sense of it
but it is basically something that is blocking a higher the higher truth a lot of things that can

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be frequency fences are things like you're the creator of your own reality or you know you're
the creator manifestation abundance a lot of these new age concepts and you know we absolutely got
stuck there for a little bit and that's okay it's perfectly valid we learned a lot right it's all
research it's all activations and so as we join this school and we start learning about this we

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realize oh my gosh we're waking up again if you can imagine 12 let's just say 12 dimensions right
before we woke up you know for up to the third dimension the matrix right we woke up to the
world and we're like oh my gosh what's going on like our our government is tyrannical and we have
no freedom we're debt slaves we don't actually own anything I didn't sign up for this I can't leave

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god forbid I question it then I'm labeled a terrorist and so that was that first awakening
and then the second awakening let's say you know seven eight ninety number doesn't matter it's not
important was the spiritual awakening and we're like oh my gosh I'm awake I'm spiritual like I've
seen the light right and we spent a couple of years there and this last three months it's been

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waking up to the 12d and there is no other way to say it friends than waking up to god and we have
always had god in our hearts it's god we talk about god in the show but this has been a much deeper
and much more profound awareness and awakening to the highest original eternal organic creation

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and truth and love that is father mother god and that's a whole other thing that we're not going
to get into in this episode but we are going to have content coming on that around the divine mother
and father mother god and how that has been completely distorted and so essentially in this
school we've been learning about this and coming to this realization that we're leaving the new age

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and we are leaving these frequency fences and we are leaving these soul traps we have been
liberated and that's not to say that we know everything and we're enlightened and trust me
not even close but we do have awareness of that highest truth now and we have transcended a lot of
these new age and spiritual fences and traps and really just again being death and reborn into

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returning home to god's love and to this highest and original truth it has been a wild journey guys
it's it's been really intense and just to reiterate you know this frequency fences in
terminology that's much more common that could be it's very similar to a glass ceiling it can

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appear like oh i've awakened and i've gotten to this other side and you know the human condition is
always going to be you know deep at its core that's rooted in love is to be of service it's to help
our brothers and sisters and so there's many parts on this journey where i found myself you know i'll

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go through a massive awakening come to a great epiphany or realization and my gut reaction is to
go out and share it with everybody that i can anybody who'll listen and what i've come to
understand through this last awakening and really contemplating everything that i've learned over

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the last couple years is that we don't really know and until we walk a path of true embodiment
and get a super clear channel with god the creator the source of everything

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everything that is taught to us is going to be distorted through the filters of the limitations
of the people who are teaching and that's not to say that everybody out there in the spiritual
space or the new age is a malicious person trying to capture people's souls or indoctrinate people

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or whatever it may be there is that in sectors however what i've come to understand it's a lot
of people who get to a certain point of the journey and then stop and focus all of their energy and
all of their attention on teaching and helping others get to that point that's beautiful and

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honorable and if we don't continue on our journey and continue following where god is leading us
we can get stuck in the limitations of those who came before us those of us who are really walking
a journey of liberating this planet being of service and really stepping into our purpose

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that's always going to be an individual journey there's a lot of wisdom there's a lot of beauty
out there that can be shared however ultimately it's going to be a personal journey you know
manifestation is a really great example of one of these glass ceilings when we entered the spiritual

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space i was taught you know manifest your reality right your thoughts create your reality you can
call in whatever you want your god you're the creator right when we step into that frame of
consciousness and work to manifest specific things in our life are we living in divine alignment

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or are we from a spiritual space trying to assert control over this reality to make it to be more
based on our preference and what we want and what we think is best or is there an opportunity
to yes practice manifestation open ourselves up to the possibility of holding greater wealth

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or a new partnership or whatever it may be but then surrendering the timing of that
and the experience of that to divine will rather than being in control of it these are some of
the types of things that it's like it's so close to truth that it can feel like truth and it's so

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easy to get caught into these things and then lose the actual thing that's important which is
a super clear healthy relationship with god it's all god spoiler alert that's all you need to know
right there and you know i was working on the newsletter for this episode if you're not signed

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up for our newsletter you can go to our website at the bottom of every page you can sign up there
and i was pondering this question it quite literally we had many sleepless nights woke
me up in the middle of the night with this literally ringing in my ears because that's
something new this last few months was this contemplation of how do you come back three

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months later and say i was trapped and i look back you know on some of our content and i cringe a
little bit because i see the glass ceilings and frequency fences in it and i see where we were
stuck in some of those spiritual and new age traps if you will i don't know any other word to use

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just to give y'all a picture i actually added this up because i really wanted to know
in the last three months and again we are blessed we are blessed to have this opportunity
we also did an extensive amount of work and financial planning and sacrifice to be able
to have this opportunity this wasn't just gifted to us however we are blessed to have the opportunity

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to be in a season of full-time healing that's coming to an end it's been a beautiful two years
but in the last three months we have done over a thousand hours a thousand hours of healing
coursework activations purges trainings awakenings deaths contemplation meditation prayer

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crying i mean when you really think about that most people don't do that in their entire lifetime
let alone in three months and so we've we've gone really deep and through that in the newsletter i
wrote you know we're coming back from this to share what we confidently know through both the
prophecy and providence given to us by god to be the most important message we could ever possibly

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share with you all and that's two part it's number one but yes earth and humanity are trapped in a
complex soul prison that is inundating everything here everything that we see and experience
with things designed to spiritually abuse and suppress your soul and your ascension and keep

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you from reaching this truth that we have started reaching and uncovering this last few months most
importantly in that it's that the new age and disclosure and spiritual spaces are the sneakiest
because they give you 80 to 90 percent of the quote-unquote truth but they invert it just enough
to keep you off the highest timeline to keep you away from god is really what it is and something

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that i've really come to be thinking about a lot and i'd go into it more in the newsletter it's like
think about it for just a moment you spend years i'm just gonna read this off spiritual teachers
programs videos reels books retreats plant medicine meditation prayer podcast crystals yoga qigong
acupuncture therapy detoxes channeling devices supplements grounding hypnosis readings tarot

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herbalism school astrology sound therapy reiki events breathwork hot and cold therapy inner
child work ancestral healing chanting mantras gene keys human design sovereignty ecstatic dance
ceremonies communities documentaries grid work you probably resonated with a large majority of the
things i just said and i didn't even scratch the surface you spend years doing those things some

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people have been in this space for 10 15 20 years and yet you're still not free right like i don't
know maybe it's just me but i don't really think that our beautiful beloved benevolent all knowing
omnipotent omnipresent graceful merciful father mother god would design a system to keep us chasing

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our tails for endless amounts of years using every modality under the sun and never reaching god
and so i started to ask myself why is this happening what is missing here and it's really
really simple all you have to do is ask yourself this one question and when the beautiful founder

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of this earth star canopy her name is z said this it immediately shattered 90 percent of the frequency
fences for me it was like an instantaneous spontaneous wrecking ball of an awakening that
shot me in the most beautiful and painful way from 8d to 12d in one second and that question is

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is this insert blank it can be any of those things i just named your favorite person you listen to
your favorite podcast your favorite book your favorite whatever it is it doesn't matter every
single thing you do in every single day a food a thought a person a place a job everything ask
yourself is this centered around and rooted in god and actively leading my soul towards my highest

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timeline of union with god that's it that's it right there folks that's all you have to do that's
all you have to ask and i'm here to tell you if not it's not in alignment with the highest original
christed organic living truth doesn't mean it's bad it doesn't mean it's wrong it just means it

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exists somewhere in the 1d to 11d range right because it wouldn't be at the 12d level because
anything at the 12d level is god that's all there is it's all god and so if it's not rooted in god
talking about god pushing you more towards god then it's it's not at that 12d level and i'm
here to tell you when i started asking this question that was challenging and i'll let you

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share your experience with it but i really had to go back and look at some of the people that i
admired most some of the programs i did some of the things i did and they all served a purpose
and that was beautiful and from this awareness i look back on my life this last few years and i get
emotional and i talk about this in the newsletter too because i see all of the my friends and i see

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the spiritual space as a whole the new age space and how trapped they all are and they think they're
free and they think that they've seen the light right and i see the absence of god and i see in
myself how i got on here and i was like you're the creator of your reality and manifestation
and abundance and look at all this fun stuff and i see all of the places in myself where god was

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lacking that right there if there's anything else you take home from this episode is use that question
ask yourself every day if something comes into your awareness is this in alignment with the highest
level right and it doesn't mean that everything in your life has to be there it's just being aware
where does this exist where is the frequency fence where are the limitations of this spiritual teacher

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where are the limitations of this tool it's only going to get me so far if it's not pushing me
towards god and really inward towards myself and towards my soul then there's going to be a limitation
you nailed it right there if this doesn't point me back to my individual relationship with god

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and my purpose on this planet then to some degree it is taking my energy and my attention
away from that purpose and that has been the biggest activation for me in this experience
you know when i said earlier i've shifted from being a spiritual seeker to being a leader in

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spirituality what i meant in that experience isn't teaching people it isn't going out and preaching
here's everything that i've learned it's living from a place of embodiment it's getting right
with myself figuring out who i am figuring out my relationship with god and figuring out my

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purpose and then living that because as we've said over and over and over again on this podcast each
one of you is a unique puzzle piece to this grand design of life we each hold a key that is not only
unique and special but that is integral to creating heaven on earth and i truly believe

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that we have the capacity as humans on this planet to create heaven on earth what we've witnessed
for a very long time on this planet has been nothing short of the hell design and we are moving
through the ascension process from hell back to heaven that's what i mean when i say returning

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to god's original design it's the garden of eden it's literally heaven on earth in integrity with
all that is and we have our free will to construct that and the only way that we're going to be able
to do that is by activating that piece within ourselves that brings that brick to the table

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the way we do that is by healing ourselves and making sure that we're using the currency
of our energy and our attention and our spirituality for our purpose here not for seeking spiritual
bliss or peace or living a life of renouncing everything of this world but to really be

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conscious and aware of where things fall in the spectrum and when we do that we can then meet those
things where they're at and adjust the level of energy and attention that we put into those things
rather than chasing around in the same circle for 10 years getting nothing done the most important

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thing is living in our purpose i'll admit i love an ecstatic dance next just as much as the next guy
because dance is one of the ways that i commune with god and that doesn't mean that i need to go
to an ecstatic dance every weekend it means honoring myself honoring my body knowing when and how to

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use certain medicines and modalities to help get in right alignment with myself and with god
because the reality is we're humans our bodies have needs they need to be fed they need to be
cared for our spirits have needs and so make sure that you're caring for those needs to the end of

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being in right relationship with god and living in your purpose not making those needs your purpose
the reality is what i've come to realize this last three months is the only thing that we need
is me god prayer and meditation those are the only four things that we need on a spiritual

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growth path you see so much like people are like oh i'm gonna go and and us two included in the past
i'm gonna go do this medicine ceremony and i'm gonna purchase trauma and i need to like find
enlightenment right where's the god in that like what if the only reason you took any form of medicine
cannabis included was to commune with god right what if you went to the ecstatic dance to commune

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with god to allow god to flow and move through your body and to feel the movement of this sacred
vessel you were given you may not have been taught how to heal without all of those things we think
we use generally think that we need that ridiculous list of modalities that i listed off
that we need those to heal i need acupuncture and i need plant medicine and i need you know cold

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plunge i need i need all these things right it's it's just the space is inundated it's just like
the next new supplement the next new frequency the next new device the next new whatever it is
because we don't know how to heal ourselves and that is what this school is and that is what we've
been learning this last three months is how do we heal our bodies and our light bodies through

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literally nothing other than intention awareness prayer and meditation and god and go in there and
do that ourselves and bring back our empowerment bring back the power to yourself you are literally
a spark of god you have that power within you and that's something we've always said on the show

(59:03):
and now i say it with even more conviction you can heal yourself this isn't like some
woo woo miracle jesus like oh i can just like snap my fingers and i'm healed no you can sit there
in deep meditation and prayer and reverence and go into these parts of yourself and find them and
integrate them and love them and release them to god and it's just it's beautiful and it's profound

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and so moving forward on this show you're going to see a new loving consciously you're going to see
a mission and a vision that is centered around the highest original christed organic timeline of god
and of god's mission you are going to see us continue to champion love and consciousness from

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a greater awareness and a greater embodiment and with a lot more intention and it is all
going to be centered and rooted in god we are getting a new logo and a refreshed intro and
something that has plagued us is not only how do we come back and i hope we've done that justice
today for you all and you've enjoyed this but how do we address an unfortunate thorn in our side

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which is some of our content from the past you know we have come into the show and we have always
been 100 authentic and vulnerable that is the truth and i stand on that and i'm really proud of
both of us for the unbelievable authenticity and vulnerability we've brought and in that we look back

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at some of our content and we're like oof we've learned some uncomfortable truths about astrology
for example about the divine mother about sacred sexuality and these concepts and how they are
very distorted in this spiritual space and so we're going to do two things we're either going to
remove old episodes that we just can't let that message be out there anymore and we'll keep the

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placeholder for them up and just put a message in their place to say hey we took this episode down
here's the reason why you can catch it redone on season two or we're going to go to episodes that
are kind of in that gray area and put a disclaimer at the beginning of the episode that says hey a
lot's changed since then this may not reflect our current views if you're going to listen to this we

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ask you to please also listen to the 2.0 version and so that's going to be a lot of our work this
next coming month is really reorganizing reintegrating and recreating some of this content we are just
really excited to continue moving forward and we have a couple of really exciting new episodes but
i wanted to give you a chance to share anything that you have on this rebrand and pun intended but

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rebirth of loving consciously yeah i mean it's really exciting and there's obviously a little bit
of fear around it and how to navigate rebranding and revisiting some of these episodes that no
longer resonate with truth as we've grown and we've evolved you know something that i've been

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contemplating with amorous here has been kind of the gap between the spiritual space and religion
and religion because both of which hold some degree of truth you know religion you see a lot
of really beautiful devotion and some incredible relationship with god and you go to spirituality

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and you see some incredible truths that have been hidden away from religion around meditation
and self healing and original medicine and some of these modalities that are incredibly important
and in that space there's not a lot of god in fact there's a lot of trauma around god

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because many of the those who have found the spiritual space came from religious trauma
and part of the work that we've been doing and that we're asking you to do alongside of us
is to heal the god wound is to go back and bring everything that we've learned on our spiritual

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journey back to god and be able to integrate these two parts of ourselves the masculine and the feminine
and really coming back into divine union within ourselves to be able to have a relationship with
god that is informed by what we've learned through spirituality in the truths that we've experienced

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there not a relationship with god that is informed by religion something that's unique something
that's different a dear friend of ours told us a while ago god is asking to be reborn on this
planet and i've really come to understand what he meant by that god is asking to be reborn

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that doesn't mean going back to religion that doesn't mean spending all of our time and all of our
energy trying to uncover the truths about scripture and all of these other frequency
fences that can capture our energy in our attention what we're being asked to do is be in
right relationship with ourselves so that we can ask who god is now and how god wants to be represented

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on this earth now as we all transcend into a frequency of love and heaven on earth
what does that look like because i don't really know i'm still figuring out myself and the more
that we can all get on this train of paving this pathway of light down from heaven into this earth

(01:05:03):
the more it will crystallize the more truths will get revealed because we each hold a piece of the
puzzle and for me this podcast is going to be sharing my piece as authentically and as loving
as i can in the hope that it activates something within you and helps guide you back to yourself

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and your own relationship with god so that you can find your own truth and you can spread that
and help people find their own it's beautiful well we did it we're back that's what we've
been doing this last three months it has been so intense i've never been more tired in my entire

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existence as a soul i feel that might be a little dramatic but honestly y'all i'm wiped and the only
thing we didn't get to touch on before we close it out here with some really exciting announcements
is this grid work mission that we did recently and you know if you're not familiar with grid work
i suppose if i had to delineate down to a very simple explanation when you work with your energy

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field your aura whatever you want to call it the earth has one as well right you can call it the
grid the matrix there's so many words and i can't even stress more how much not getting hung up on
the word you know is important it's it's just don't get hung up on the word but the earth's grids are

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in need of some love i was really trying to find uh the best way to say that um
um yeah in need of some love and so grid work is really just as a conscious spiritual being using
your intention your energy your skills whatever they may be to usually through meditation go in

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and do grid work right it's very simple and there was over 200 of us i think there was like 225
plus of us all over the world that were guided by z in this Cygnus gateway mission and i won't go
into that because it's a whole other episode and it's very sacred and it's very intense and i have

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not finished integrating and unpacking that experience i can tell you we did some really
profound work and we made some really massive shifts that undoubtedly were scientifically i
feel shown in the collective in the coming days and so it was really profound and impactful but
you know coming out of that mission the level of exhaustion and gratitude and reverence and

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overwhelm and beauty and grace that has been this past week i mean we have done almost nothing and
this is not in a way i've done nothing before i mean i just literally my gas tank has been so
empty and so you know i'm just so grateful to have the chance to come on here today and to have the
capacity and the energy and the drive to create this episode for you all because loving consciously

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always has been a gift from god literally a gift from god in meditation and you know something i
really played around with close to my heart was renaming it to loving god consciously and that's
to be informed we're still you know exploring that and it's still on my heart but really at its core

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that is what we're doing here right like loving consciously we always say yourself and everyone
and everything in creation at its core isn't that all god it's all god everything is god
i want to be careful there because that is another common frequency fence is like everything is god
not necessarily and this is the type of content you'll be seeing from us but what i'm talking about

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is you know loving everything else is really just loving god and loving all of these infinite magical
beautiful fractals that is our beloved divine holy sacred mother father god thank you for listening
thank you for whatever parts of this episode that you're going to take home and hold dear to your

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heart and continue to do work around and without further ado we can get into our announcements here
so first and foremost we have a new website and it's going to keep growing and it's going to keep
evolving but we spent several days really pouring our hearts into this website and so we invite you
to check it out loving consciously dot com we added in our story page we added a resources page

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page and most importantly which plays into our second announcement is we added a partners page
we have two new partners of the show we are so so excited to be partnered with star seed fuel
and organic muscle star seed fuel is a company that makes organic supplements for the highest

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functioning of your body we're talking about things like turmeric and different detox supports you
know copper silver a lot of different things and power immunity is one of their core products that
we are partnered with which is an all-natural homeopathic immune support unlike anything we've
ever seen organic muscle is an organic supplement company that has some of the highest quality

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products i've used in terms of protein powders pre-workout tonkot alley and other products that
are there to support your physical body as you ascend and as you work on really maintaining
your physical health these products are all natural they integrate well into the body i've

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tried a lot of protein powders and this is one that actually integrates into my body post workout
and a pre-workout that doesn't leave you all jittery it gives you energy it gives you focus
and a supplement that helps increase male testosterone as well and really regulate you into your

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masculine frame if any of those things resonate with you check out organic muscle because they
are an incredible company and if you go to our website lovingconsciously.com and click on partners
or go to lovingconsciously.com slash partners you will find both of these and more information as
well as discount codes to get savings on your purchases and we also have linked the episodes

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because we have interviewed the founders of both of these companies on this show so you can find
episode 39 the cosmic force of love with drew and then you can find episode 47 cultivating healthy
and organic love with james and so we're so excited to be partnered with them for us organic is
non-optional we definitely still feel that way more so than ever and so to have organic supplements

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and organic workout supplements it's really important you know what you put in the sacred
body vessel is of the utmost importance and so check them out they are both beautiful beings
they are both rooted in god and rooted in truth and sharing this mission with us we love these
synergistic partnerships where we can support brands that are in alignment with that so to close

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us out here we wanted to share a little bit of some upcoming episodes so welcome to season two
of the loving consciously podcast this episode will be the last episode of season one and when
we come back in approximately two maximum four weeks you know we really want to be honest with
our bandwidth we are currently still in Arizona we leave in a couple of days to start our one and a

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half almost two week trek back to Austin and so you know we got to focus on traveling and
getting settled and rebranding with the new logo and the new intro and going back through all 49
of these episodes and tape figuring out what are we taking down what are we adding disclaimers on
what are we redoing so when we come back and we've really sorted all that out no later than April

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1st four weeks from today when this airs we will be bringing you new content and as we've said
it's going to be god aligned it's going to be our deepest and highest mission to ensure that we are
bringing a voice to all sides of the coin for example something I mentioned earlier was astrology
so something we've been learning about this last few months is called true sky astrology

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which is a whole other rabbit hole in and of itself but you know you have this like western
astrology eastern astrology and this is something completely different it's the actual position
of the stars and come to find out western astrology does not use the actual position of the stars
and so we've done episodes on astrology before and we didn't have that awareness and so that would

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be an example of bringing content to revisit from a higher level of awareness some of these old
subjects that we talked about but a couple of episodes that you're going to see right at the
start of season two are finding god on an RV exodus we are finally bringing you that episode
I'm so excited for this one we are going to talk about that 13 month journey and how we

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literally let go of everything sold everything dismantled our entire lives hit the road and
saw the entire united states of america what did we learn what did we see and most importantly
how did we find god in that because that spoiler alert is exactly what that journey was another

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episode we're really excited to bring you all is loving god consciously we have done loving
cannabis consciously loving different things consciously and it dawned on us we haven't
done loving god consciously what does that look like what does conscious love towards father mother
god look like we're going to talk about divine union and most importantly mother father god the

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divine mother that is something that is very heavy on our hearts and we're really excited to bring
you because while we did an episode about that it is loaded with a lot of glass ceilings and
we just didn't have the awareness about the divine mother and really divine union that we have today
and so these are the type of things that you're going to see us talk about we're going to talk

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about prophecy and ministry and frequency fences and yes we're going to get a little bit deeper
into this healing work of how do you do this how do you remove these attachments and implants and
programs running in your subconscious running in your light body running in your body that are
preventing you from experiencing the highest level of god i can't wait i can't wait to go on this

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journey of season two with you all to be settled to be bringing video finally when we come on this
new season and to just really start taking this podcast to the next level because we had a lot
of beauty in season one a lot of beautiful guests a lot of beautiful testimonies testimonials

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endless testimonials about people saying how this impacted and changed their lives and if that's
what we can do when we were unknowingly in some frequency fences and didn't have this highest
and most organic direct connection to god as you said we were still seeking and now we have that
connection and we are working every day to clear that line and be channels for that highest organic

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truth and so i cannot wait to see what god has in store for season two it's an honor to be back
here with all of you thank you thank you thank you for listening we love you so much and
take a deep breath with me we're about to embark on a really powerful next chapter

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and part of that experience is going to be our own death and rebirth and guiding you through
that experience as well don't forget that it is never too late to return home to god's love
when we do we get to bring all of the knowledge all the experiences all the pain and suffering

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and alchemize that into fuel for our next chapter and so as we step into this next rebirth welcome
to loving consciously season two