January 8, 2025 • 40 mins
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Carissa Andrews (00:07):
Welcome to Manifest Differently, the
podcast for neurodivergentthinkers and anyone looking to
approach manifestation in a waythat truly works for them.
I'm your host, carissa Andrews,here to explore the science,
energy and strategies that willhelp you create the life you
love.
Let's dive in and ManifestDifferently.
(00:33):
Welcome back to ManifestDifferently.
I'm Carissa Andrews, author,ceo of Author Revolution and the
Neurodivergent Manifestor, andyour host.
Now.
Today I'm going to be gettingpersonal.
This is only episode two ofthis brand new podcast and I'm
sharing a story of my biggestmanifestation to date, calling
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in my soulmate Colin while I wasnavigating a very unhappy
marriage and a lot of self-doubt.
So, as NeurodivergentManifestors, it's easy to
overthink and second-guess thesteps to manifestation,
especially when life is feelingmessy or overwhelming and
there's a lot of emotion goingon.
But today's story is here toshow you that manifestation
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isn't just about having it allfigured out.
It's about trusting the quantumfield to work its magic.
So, before we get started,before I dive in, I want you to
think about this affirmation,kind of hang on to it for the
week.
This is something that I thinkwill help a lot of us, even
myself included.
Right, for those of you whodon't know me a whole lot yet,
you're going to come to knowvery well, I am a double Virgo,
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so this is for me just as muchas it is for you the affirmation
to be thinking about is Irelease the need to control
every step and I trust theuniverse to guide me to what's
meant for me.
Now, let me repeat that becauseit's really powerful.
Okay, when you hear theunderlying words, the underlying
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meaning, it's really powerful.
I release the need to controlevery step and I trust the
universe to guide me to what'smeant for me.
I think oftentimes we have thisnotion of what we think we want
and we think we know betterthan the universe, we know
better than all the things thatare out there working their
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magic, and we assume that wehave to know the right timing,
the right way.
But then life starts to feelboring and it starts to feel
like there's no magic in it,where, if you can lean back and
relinquish that control, theuniverse will surprise and
delight you in ways that youcould never have seen coming.
So you don't need to knowwhat's going to happen, you just
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need to know that it's alreadyyours.
And I'm going to show you how.
I let go of my own assumptions,trusted the process and called
in my soulmate Colin from 4,000miles away, even though the odds
seemed impossible.
Yes, he was on a completelydifferent continent, all right.
But before we get into it,before we dig in, I want to get
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everyone back into their space.
Right, I want to get into ournervous system calming situation
.
So let's just take three deepbreaths together and, as you
inhale, I want you to visualizebreathing in trust.
Can you do that?
And then, as you exhale, I wantyou to release doubt and fear.
So let's do it.
And then, as you exhale, I wantyou to release doubt and fear.
So let's do it.
Inhale trust and exhale doubt.
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Inhale that trust and knowingagain and exhale control.
And one last time, inhale trustand exhale the how it's going
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to happen, all right.
So imagine for just a moment,while you're in this calm, clear
space, that your desires arefloating towards you
effortlessly.
The universe is pulling theminto your orbit, they are yours,
you can trust, and now you justsit back and allow it to happen
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.
Feels good, doesn't it Okay?
So now that we're grounded,let's dive into this story In
2011,.
It was crazy.
It was a place of really deepfrustration for me and at the
time, I was married, but itwasn't a happy marriage.
I was married at 19 years oldand we had been married for
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quite a long time.
At that point, I think we weregoing to be going on 13 years,
but I had tried everything tomake this particular
relationship work.
Like we we did all the things.
Like we moved to Duluth,minnesota, from our, like, local
town.
We ended up, you know, tryingdifferent houses, trying
different things.
We had kids, I supported himthrough his bachelor's degree.
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I mean, nothing we did seemedto shift everything.
It was just really anexhausting relationship.
And in 2007, I bought a housewith this man my ex-husband and
it was the absolute perfecthouse.
I loved everything about it.
It was just wonderful.
Like we had gone there a coupleof times.
We even kind of sort of brokein.
I mean, it wasn't breaking inbecause the doors were unlocked,
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but it was a brand new buildand we had like we sat there in
the living room and imagine whatit'd be like to live in the
house.
I felt like everything we weredoing at the time was like
synced up, we were on board.
We were like maybe this is thething that's going to finally
like start shifting us in theright direction.
And it felt right.
And we ended up getting thehouse.
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Everything kind of fell into.
And it felt right.
And we ended up getting thehouse.
Everything kind of fell intoplace.
It was fun, it was great.
But I found out very quickly,like within the first six months
, he hated the house, he didn'twant to be there.
He felt like it was tying himdown.
He felt like he couldn'tbreathe and it was suffocating
him.
And there was this weird energyto the whole thing where it was
like this thing that I felt sosecure on that, I felt so good
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about.
He felt the opposite, and everyday that he would get home from
work, it was like another dayof just being absolutely
horrible, like he was justunhappy and angry and like
resentful about everything.
So about three years went byand there was just this process
of like really kind of dealingwith his negativity and trying
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to help with it.
Nothing seemed to work, nothingwas shifting and it just it
just was not helpful.
Right, and as someone who tendsto overthink and overcommit, I
kept just trying to fix therelationship, even though my gut
was already telling me it'sprobably time to let this go,
like not just the house, becausethat felt like part of it, but
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like literally the relationship.
It didn't feel like there wasanything he wanted to do to
transition or shift or shake uphimself and I didn't want to
admit to myself that the storyI'd written for my life might
need to have a complete rewrite.
And it was like oh, all thethings.
Well, in 2010, I started writingand I started creating my new
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world.
It was like I felt this need toescape.
So that's where I first beganwriting fiction.
It was October of 2010.
I started doing this thingcalled NaNoWriMo, which is
National Novel Writing Month,wrote my very first novel during
that timeframe and because ofthat, it opened some new doors
that I didn't know I was eventrying to call in.
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So picture this right it'sFebruary now 2011.
I've already been working on myfirst novel and my mom and dad
were like you know, maybe youguys are just under a lot of
stress.
Why don't you take a vacation?
We'll watch the kids for a weekor so, and why don't you go do
something?
Go someplace you haven't beenbefore.
And so we took a vacation tripto Sedona, arizona, which was
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meant to help us reconnect,right, but deep down, I was like
I want to go here because Ifeel called to the energy of
this place, and at the time, Iwas very much into manifestation
, very much into mindset work,digging into my own stuff,
because I knew I couldn'tcontrol him, but I could control
me right.
And so this trip wasn't justabout fixing the relationship,
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at least not for me.
It was about finding clarity,like was there something there
that I could tap into Because Iknew about the energy, vortexes,
all that stuff, right?
So Sedona felt like it was anenergetic reset or it felt like
it should have been right.
And when you're surrounded bythe red rocks and all the vortex
energy, there is an element ofthis like clarity that comes
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through.
So in the resort that we werestaying at, there was a
labyrinth outside, like justlittle stones set on the ground
so you could walk the labyrinth.
And one of the days I rememberwaking up, deciding to go out
there a little bit early and dothe labyrinth right.
And it was so strange becauseit was like I was overcome by
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this need to be like okay, theuniverse, if this relationship
is over, I'm ready to release it.
Like I trust you to guide me towhat's next, I trust you to
point me in the right direction,to give me the insights, the
nudges that I need in order tomake this work for my evolution
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right.
And it wasn't about him.
It wasn't about like I can'tcontrol him, I can't fix him.
So therefore I need to break upwith him.
It wasn't like that.
It was like this very deepknowing that something about
this journey is over and Iwasn't ready to release it yet.
Does that make sense?
But that surrender turned out tobe a huge turning point for me,
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because letting go of thecontrol is really difficult.
It's really difficult for meand I think it's very difficult
for those of us who overthink.
Neurodivergence often have thislike pattern and we like things
to be a certain way, and whensomething shifts, especially on
that kind of monumental scale,it can really mess with our
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heads.
But that trip taught me thatsometimes surrendering is really
the most powerful thing we cando, because it stops the
momentum of all of the energiesthat we've built up surrounding
who we believe we are are.
And you know, if you listen toJoe Dispenza at all and you've
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read Breaking the Habit of beingYourself, you know that if you
need change in your life, ifyou're being called to make
change, sometimes that meansrelinquishing the personality
that you're holding on to, andthat personality that I had was
definitely one tied to him.
I mean, I was, like I said, 19years old when I married him.
I was 17 when I met him, sothere's this level of like.
I grew up with this man, andnow I'm 32, 33 years old, and I
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didn't know what life would looklike without that, especially
my adult life, because when Imoved out at 18, I moved in with
him, so it was like this wholeshake up of like everything I
thought I knew about myself.
So what was interesting then,though, was I had that you know
that conversation with theuniverse.
I came back from Sedona feelingmuch more calm and kind of just
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relaxed about the situation.
Not a whole lot changed, I'll behonest, in our like day-to-day
life for a little while, but byMay just a few months later I
met Colin, so my now husband.
I met him on Twitter, of allplaces.
We were talking about our firstbooks.
I was talking about Pandamas,he was talking about his first
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book, and we just found that wehad a lot in common, not only
because we were talking aboutfirst books.
We're trying to figure out howto self-publish.
Are we going to self-publish,like all the things?
I actually met him.
I'm a graphic designer in apast life as well, and so, for
me, I was noticing he wasstruggling with his cover and he
asked, like the Twitterverse,for some help.
I happened to know what he waslooking at or what he was
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missing, helped him out withthat and that's kind of how the
conversation all started.
Now he lived in England, guys.
He lived in Northampton,england.
I live in Minnesota, likecentral Minnesota, brainerd at
the time, and that's 4,000 milesaway, okay, and it felt like
the universe was laughing at me,saying you wanted your soulmate
right, here you go.
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But only in retrospect becauseat the time I had no idea.
At the time I was just like, ohsure, I can totally help you
with this thing.
Of course, you know, oh, we'redoing all this stuff right.
But what's really interestingabout that process was the more
that we talked and the more thatwe got to know each other just
as you know, writing, friendsand understanding, like the
things that are interesting tous.
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The more that we understood howsimilar we are, how similarly
we think, the more that weunderstood how similar we are,
how similarly we think what isimportant to us as individuals
and how our partners at the timewere not fulfilling those
things.
Because he was in a similarsituation he wasn't married, but
he did have a partner foralmost as long as I had my
husband right, so it was thesimilar kind of vibe where it
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was.
We just knew that this was over,but we didn't know how to make
it like commit to it, does thatmake sense?
And it was such a muddy, murkything at the time.
I remember thinking like I'veonly just committed to myself
internally, I haven't made anymoves on the outside, I haven't
done anything external, but theuniverse was just like you've
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decided though, and if you knowme and how I teach,
manifestation I always talkabout like your decision is step
one, and internally it hadclicked.
It had clicked to the point oflike I knew I was done.
I knew it was time to look forsomething else, and not
relationship wise, but like lookfor something else, as in my
goal of life.
Like my identity is is what Iwas looking for and how I wanted
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to change and how I wanted tofeel if I were in another
relationship.
Like my identity is what I waslooking for and how I wanted to
change and how I wanted to feelif I were in another
relationship.
Like I was doing all thatprocess that I teach where it
was.
Like you got to feel thefeelings of being that person,
you have to let go of the personthat you once were, and it all
starts with that decision.
And so it's just kind of crazybecause once we started talking,
once we started realizing howsimilar we are and I kid you,
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not, guys like we've done theClifton strengths together.
We share seven out of the top10 in in almost the exact same
order.
It's it's pretty wild, but, um,we are.
We are very much in sync.
And as everything was comingtogether, it was like how could
this even work?
Like, am I crazy to think thatI can leave my marriage and leap
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into something so unknown?
Like I don't really know thisguy, I've only been talking to
him online, like.
But the crazy thing is, themore that we started talking,
the more we started to dig indeeper.
Like we were asking moreprofound questions.
We were digging into like moreinteresting things about, like
how we would be, how we wouldshow up, like if, if someone was
sick, how would you treat them?
Like we were asking questionsthat I don't know that we
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typically even ask people thatwe're dating like in face to
face, right.
So by September I knew it wasover with my husband and there
was just something reallypowerful in the energy there,
like my birthday is September3rd and so it was like I knew I
needed to make a decision,because I was feeling like I was
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being pulled into separateworlds.
On one hand, it was like my oldlife, the old way of being, my
old relationship, and then, onthe other hand, it was this new
energy of like what would it belike to actually have a
relationship where you felt seen, where you felt heard, where
the other person shared the samekind of moral compass and
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wanted to, you know, sharethemselves in the same type of
way?
Like what would that look like?
So by that September, I hadseparated from my husband with
the intent to divorce him and Ialmost didn't choose it.
Like there was that precipicemoment where I had to, you know,
I had to really decide again isthis the right decision?
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And I almost didn't make thedecision, I almost stayed.
I remember talking to my bestfriend, thinking like who am I
to do this?
Like, am I crazy here?
And she was like Carissa, youknow you've, we've been friends.
She and I have been friendssince eighth grade.
And she was like Carissa, youknow you've, we've been friends.
She and I have been friendssince eighth grade and she was
like you know, you're not happy,he's not happy.
You've known that for a longtime and you won't know what
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this other relationship could beunless you give it a chance and
maybe it won't work.
Maybe it's just your precipiceto like get out of the way so
that new stuff can come in.
Maybe it's just that first step.
And so it was like I don't know.
I was like I was so back andforth On one hand I really
wanted to do it and the otherhand I was scared.
And so I had sent an email toColin and said you know, I'm not
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quite sure that we should keeptalking so much because we're, I
feel like I'm really close toyou and I'm not as close to my
husband, and I don't know ifthis is the right place to go or
right, right thing to doanymore.
And he actually called.
We had never had like aface-to-face call at this point,
like we we had onlycommunicated through text.
He called me on Skype back inthe day when Skype was actually
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a thing I don't even know ifSkype is still a thing, but it
was then and he actually calledme and it was kind of wild
because I remember going oh myGod, like what.
So we had a conversationface-to-face for the first time
and he told me how he wasfeeling, how he was wanting
things to go.
You know that he would respectmy decision, but like he didn't
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want this to be the end of itand what he could foresee for
the future as well.
Right, and so it was.
It was from that point forward,hearing my best friend's words
in my ear and then hearing whatColin was saying, that I was
like okay, we're, we're going to, we're going to see what
happens.
So from that point things movedvery fast.
It was super crazy becauseSeptember was when I made the
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decision to to separate and getdivorced.
I ended up starting to likework on my parents' second house
it was actually where I grew upso that I could move out doing
all the things by December 2ndthat same year.
A couple months later, colinhad come from England with the
intent to just visit to see,like, could this work in person?
And three months later I wasdivorced and married to him and
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he never left Like he was.
It was the wildest whirlwind Ihave ever seen, like I have
never manifested something sopowerfully where every domino
fell in place like that.
Now it's been 13 years, we'restill married.
It's still amazing.
It's just been wild to lookback.
Now it's been 13 years, we'restill married.
It's still amazing.
It's just been wild to lookback.
Now it's not to say thateverything was hunky-dory.
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Obviously there was a lot ofextinction, burst, things that
happened in the aftermath ofthat.
Like you know, once the divorcewent through, my ex-husband
started seeing another woman andshe started I don't even know
putting ideas in his head.
So for a while he was verycombative with us.
There was a lot of issues whenit came to, like parenting time
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and all the things.
My own parents had some issueslike viewing me differently.
They weren't quite sure aboutColin.
They didn't understand what Isaw in Colin, which was kind of
ironic because it's the samestuff that I had issues with
them about.
Like they couldn't see me andhe's a reflection of me, right?
And so the things that theycouldn't see in him were things
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that they couldn't see in me,and so it was very interesting.
Like for a while we had toseparate, go our separate ways
and just kind of be estranged,and then we ended up having our
son and everything kind ofreconciled and it was fine.
But there was that period ofimplosion where the old life had
to fall away.
And I think it's reallyimportant when I look back and
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not just about that, but othermanifestations that I've had,
whenever I have felt likeeverything is falling the fuck
apart and I don't know what ishappening when I'm trying to
manifest something or I thoughtI manifested the thing that I
wanted and it's still fallingapart.
There's a level there that youhave to understand that you're
calling in something even biggerand either you haven't let go
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of the identity or the how orthe why or the what or the way
it's going to come in, or it'sstill in process of shifting
around, like you have to let goof those things in order to step
into the new right.
So now this year, it's reallykind of interesting because I
felt the echoes of that sameexperience.
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I have been running a companycalled Author Revolution since
2019.
I've been teaching authorssince 2017 on how to become
indie authors, how to publish,how to manifest, but deep down,
it's like I knew there wassomething that was niggling at
me, like there was time torelease parts of that, to step
into something bigger, and Ididn't know what that looked
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like.
And this past year around, orlike 2024, around May, I started
feeling the pressure again,like the pressure where I felt
like I was in two differentworlds and I needed to make a
decision and I needed to let goof all of the different things
that I was trying to put myselfunder.
But that fear of letting go, ofnot knowing how things are
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going to unfold, it felt sofamiliar and because it was like
it was back then, in its ownway, I knew that the universe
was guiding me to what's next.
It was guiding me towards,nudging me towards something new
.
But it's so hard for usneurodivergence when we are
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locked into something right.
Like Colin, he is alsoneurodivergent and probably
autistic and ADHD as well, andso he, when he makes a decision
on something, it's verydifficult for him to change his
mind.
So like, if let's say, it'sdinner, like something as simple
as dinner, like he's set hismind on we're going to have, you
know, steak and baked potatoand veg or something Right, and
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we find out that there's nobaked potatoes.
Like there is a moment whereit's very difficult to switch
gears, like there's almost this,like dang it.
Ah, that is not what was in myhead.
And now, when I teachmanifestation, there's an
element to that right when, ifthere's something that isn't
there, an element that's notthere for our manifestation, we
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know we want it, we know we getit and we know we deserve it.
You have a pivotal moment,right, you have there's
resistance there, but it's not ablock.
If, unless you make it be ablock Like we could have gone
down to the grocery store inthis example, right, and got a
baked potato Like the grocerystore is five minutes away, it's
not that big of a deal.
Or we could have just decidedto have French fries, or we
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could have decided to do rice,like there's also, or not have
anything at all, but we couldstill enjoy our dinner.
Now, when I teach, I use aspaghetti example often, like
when you're having amanifestation, you want
spaghetti and you realize thatthere's no spaghetti noodles.
You have the same choice, right, you could go to the grocery
store and get your noodles.
You could do different noodles.
Maybe you have macaroni, ormaybe you go to the restaurant
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down the road and have spaghettiat their place, or you choose
to do something altogether.
There's always choices whenyou're manifesting.
But if you are locked in whichis step two in manifestation,
the way I teach it when you'relocked in on the thing that you
want, you're gonna do whateverit takes to get it.
So, for instance, withmanifestation for
neurodivergence, it's so coolbecause when we lock in oh, we
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are locked in baby.
But we get a little bit loopyif resistance or something
throws us off the track.
So when that potato is notthere, when those noodles aren't
there, either we wobble andfeel off kilter or we have to
shift our vision.
And so it's very, veryimportant that when you know you
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want something, you get to haveit.
It's yours.
But sometimes maybe you have togo around in a different way
than you were anticipating, orsometimes it will be given to
you in a different way thanyou're anticipating, right?
So if you're like me and you'reneurodivergent, you might
resonate with the fear that I'mkind of relaying here about
letting go or overlay, analyzingall of these steps.
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Maybe you're holding on tosomething Is it a job, a
relationship, or even an oldversion of yourself, because it
feels safer than trusting theunknown?
So I want you to ask yourselfthese questions.
I think they're really powerfuland they'll help you to uncover
more about where it is thatyou're trying to go for 2025.
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Okay, so what if here'squestion number one what if
letting go is the very thingthat creates space for your
desires to show up?
Now, when we have like acontainer let's just say like a
container for something whetherit be your personality, for
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money, for abundance, for loveand it's already filled up with
ideas, knowledge, pastexperiences that are
counterintuitive to the thingthat we're trying to call in,
where's the space for it to go?
It can't flow into it.
Right?
We have to let go of some ofthese things to make more room,
and so, again, that question iswhat if letting go is the very
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thing that creates space foryour desires to show up?
Have you thought about that?
And what can you let go oftoday?
Is there anything that you needto kind of loosen the grips on?
So, question number two whatwould happen if you stopped
trying to figure out the how andjust trusted that the universe
has your back?
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That's kind of the stage I'm inright now, like I don't know
what Manifest Differentlypodcast is going to do.
I don't know whatNeuroDivergent Manifestor as a
brand is going to do.
Yet, like I have no courses forit, I have no true lead magnets
for it.
Yet I have a meditation thatI'm going to be putting on my
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website soon for Phoenix Energy,because it's 2025.
I feel like we are going tovibe into a new version of
ourselves.
We are releasing the old,starting the new.
So if you are interested in thatfree meditation, go over to
manifestdifferentlycom and justcheck it out.
It should be on the homepage bythe time you hear this, but I
have nothing else yet.
The podcast, the sub stack,this website is all I have.
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Everything else is still overat authorrevolutionorg.
It's all over atcarissaandrewscom.
It's like that.
All of that I have alreadycreated is elsewhere, and so I'm
just trusting that this is thenew direction, because it feels
more aligned, it feels moreexpansive, it feels more genuine
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to who I have become over theyears.
I feel like I am cracking opena new container for
relationships in this space, forunderstanding who I am, for
learning more about the natureof reality and consciousness and
manifestation, and it justfeels I don't even know how to
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describe it it feels moreexpansive.
It just that must be the wordfor it.
So what would happen if youstopped trying to figure out the
how and just trusted that theuniverse has your back?
Whatever it is you'remanifesting, because when we,
when we know that the answer isyes and we're manifesting
something, it's not always goingto come to you in a way that
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you imagine.
Like I would have had no idea Iwas going to meet the love of
my life on Twitter back in theday, like, or that he'd be from
England.
Like I had no propensity foranything English, like the
biggest thing that I had aboutEngland at the time was that I
loved Harry Potter.
Like I wasn't one of those kidsthat was like oh my gosh, the
British guys and their accentsare the best.
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I wasn't.
That wasn't me, I was not evenlike, not even me.
And so sometimes the universejust goes oh here's this cool
way that it's going to comeabout and you wanted it, and so
let me give it to you, and Ithink it's more fun that way.
We have such pattern recognitionminds that good luck freaking,
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surprising us, good luckbringing us something that we
don't already see coming.
The universe can, though.
The universe absolutelyfreaking can, and I think that's
what's so wild.
When we release and relinquishthat need to control it.
Whatever it is that we'remanifesting, and just let it
come in whatever way it's meantto, you get to sit back and go
holy, holy crap.
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I did not anticipate thatwhatsoever For me.
Right now, the biggest thingthat I'm manifesting is locking
into, like my higher vibrationof purpose, like I want my
purpose to feel expansive, whichthis is already feeling.
So it's great.
I feel like I'm in the rightplace.
I want to feel more authentic.
I want to feel like what I domakes a difference in the world,
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and I also want to becompensated for that difference.
I want to be compensated.
Well, I know that what I offer,what I teach, is elevating the
community.
It's going to elevate you.
It already is.
Whatever you've listened to, ifyou've made it this far in this
podcast episode, you've alreadybeen touched by something that
has sparked a seed or liketwinkled something in your eyes,
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like there's something herethat has made you go huh.
I never thought about that, andthat's what this is all about
for me, and I know that it'sworthy of abundance in this
world, and you should too.
Your gifts are the same,whatever it is you're
manifesting.
Whatever it is that you'retrying to pull in, it's yours.
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You just have to acknowledgeand accept that that's what you
get to have.
Your desires are divineguidance of what you get to
receive, and if you don't evenbelieve in divine guidance, it
could be a different version ofyourself and a different
timeline, or a different versionof yourself in the future.
That already knows you have it,so of course you want it Like
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there's an element of us in thisquantum field that knows we get
to have anything we want.
We just have to get out of ourown way, all right.
So to me, manifestingdifferently is about working
with your brain and nervoussystem, not against it.
It's about trusting that we getto be guided, that we get to
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have what we want, that it'sokay if letting go feels hard
sometimes.
That's why surrender is apractice, not a one-time event.
So even if your desires feelimpossible right now, like
falling in love with someone 4000 miles away, just know that
the universe is not bound bylogic.
It's not bound by the laws thatwe have given the universe like
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it has its own laws.
It's bound by your beliefs,though, of what's possible.
So what do you want to believeinstead, if there's something
that's keeping you stuck, whatcan you believe that would be
more empowering?
What if you could just shift itjust a little bit to allow you
to bring it in?
So I want to give you threereally practical steps for
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manifesting differently thisweek and I want them to help you
as you go forward this week, asyou think about your
manifestations and try to pullthings in.
Okay, so, step one, surrenderwith intention.
Can you do that?
So I want you to take one areaof your life where you're
holding on too tightly For mefor a very long time that was
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money and just say this right, Irelease this to the universe.
I trust you to guide me towhat's meant for me and then
journal about how this feels,because I think it's really
powerful to relinquish thatcontrol we have in one of my
author revolution courses.
This thing where we have theuniverse is your PA.
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So when there's things on yourplate as an author and it's too
much for you, you write themdown on the PA side and you hand
it over to the universe, whichthe universe is your PA, okay,
and you allow the universe tohandle it.
And it's so powerful because itlifts that off and it gives you
the relief that you're seeking.
And it's so powerful because itlifts that off and it gives you
the relief that you're seeking,and so many of us when we are
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manifesting anything.
Honestly, what we're lookingfor is relief, and so just
journal on it.
Think about how that's going tofeel, okay.
So, step one surrender withintention.
Take that area of your life andsay I release this to the
universe.
I trust you to guide me towhat's meant for me.
Okay.
Now step two stop trying topredict the how.
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Okay, focus on the what you cando and the why, perhaps, but
not the how.
Like.
Focus on how you're wanting tofeel if you have it.
Focus on how you're wanting toimpact, perhaps, but not the how
it arrives.
For example, instead ofworrying about how your soulmate
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will appear, focus on how youwant to feel in the relationship
.
Okay, does that make sense?
Because that was really what Iwas doing when I was doing that
labyrinth.
It was all about, like, I wantto feel connected, I want to
feel seen, I want to feel heard,I want to feel like, um, I am
like the person that they reallysee and want to be with in all
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the ways like that.
That was kind of the vibe whereit was not my reality at the
time.
Okay, so think about how you're, what you're trying to call in
and how you're trying to feel.
And then, step three, look forthe synchronicities.
The universe speaks to us insigns, so pay attention to the
small nudges, like repeatednumbers or names or even a
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random Twitter conversation thatcould change your life.
Okay, that is really key,because sometimes you just don't
know what that random Twitterconversation is going to be.
I mean, I know that Twitter isnot a thing and I wouldn't touch
X with a barge pole, but youget what I'm saying.
Like it could be odd blue skyfor all I know.
Like it could be anywhere butjust know that the universe is
going to send you signs and soif you're looking for them,
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you're actually training yourreticular activating system in
your brain to notice more ofthem.
And when you do that, you'relike tapping into this quantum
field of possibilities andpotential, instead of collapsing
the wave down to a particle andassuming that everything is as
it appears.
We don't want that.
When we're manifesting our life, we want to expand back out
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into this wave function and ifyou don't know what I'm talking
about, it's quantum physics.
We'll talk more about it onthis podcast.
But just know that, like whenyou expand outward into this
potential, where anything goes,you will see it, you will see
the possibilities, you will seethe synchronicities and you are
training your physiology in yourbrain, your neurology in your
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brain, the chemicals in yourbody and brain to notice it and
then to give you those signs andsignals that make you feel good
because you have found it Okay.
So this week I want you topractice letting go, letting go
of one of the assumptions that'sholding you back.
Remember to journal about whathappens as you release control.
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That's holding you back.
Remember to journal about whathappens as you release control
and you might just see theuniverse work its magic.
Now, for me, when I do this, Itend to see, like signs in the
shape of hearts, like I will seein nature, hearts everywhere I
go.
Like it'll be a cloud that's aheart.
It'll be a shadow on the groundthat looks like a heart.
It'll be a leaf in the shape ofa heart, or a hole in a leaf in
the shape of a heart.
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Like I've I've seen.
I've seen hearts and like allsorts of things in ways that
like it wouldn't even make senseto have a heart there.
But I see them and so I knowI'm on the right track when I
start seeing those hearts, right, and the universe just lets you
know it's nudging you in theright direction.
So today, just as a reminder, Ishared how trusting the
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universe, letting go of anunhappy marriage and believing
in the impossible led me to mysoulmate and ultimately to a
life beyond whatever I couldhave imagined.
Like I would not haveenvisioned my life now at all.
Like being a, an internationalbest-selling author, having
three different pen names,teaching authors on platforms.
Like teaching you manifestation.
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Never In a million years Iwould never have thought it.
But here I am.
So remember, manifestation isn'tabout controlling the process.
It's about trusting.
What's meant for you is alreadyyours, like it's already there.
You just need to be open enoughto call it in and to drop any
of the assumptions that keep itaway from you.
So what's one thing you'reready to let go of?
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Share it with me on socialmedia today, or journal about it
for yourself.
Just dig in a little bit andsee what you're letting go.
Last year, for me, wasdefinitely the year of letting
go.
I had a bracelet that said letgo as my word of the year.
This year it's limitless.
So when you shed things, whenyou let go, there's so much more
that's coming up.
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So next week, we'll be divinginto how your nervous system
impacts your ability to manifest, and I'll be giving you some
practical tools to align yourenergy.
It's going to be a really funone, and one that might be a
little eye-opening for you ifyou didn't even know that your
nervous system could be kind ofgetting in your way.
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So you don't want to miss it.
Now one more closingaffirmation that I want to give
you.
I trust the universe to guideme to what's mine in ways that
are greater than I could everimagine.
All right, there you have it.
Remember manifesting isn'tabout doing the things the way
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everyone else does.
It's about trusting yourself,working with your unique energy
and allowing the magic to unfoldin its own way.
That's what it means tomanifest differently.
Welcome to Manifest Differently, the
podcast for neurodivergentthinkers and anyone looking to
approach manifestation in a waythat truly works for them.
I'm your host, carissa Andrews,here to explore the science,
energy and strategies that willhelp you create the life you
love.
Let's dive in and ManifestDifferently.
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Welcome back to ManifestDifferently.
I'm Carissa Andrews, author,ceo of Author Revolution and the
Neurodivergent Manifestor, andyour host.
Now.
Today I'm going to be gettingpersonal.
This is only episode two ofthis brand new podcast and I'm
sharing a story of my biggestmanifestation to date, calling
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in my soulmate Colin while I wasnavigating a very unhappy
marriage and a lot of self-doubt.
So, as NeurodivergentManifestors, it's easy to
overthink and second-guess thesteps to manifestation,
especially when life is feelingmessy or overwhelming and
there's a lot of emotion goingon.
But today's story is here toshow you that manifestation
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isn't just about having it allfigured out.
It's about trusting the quantumfield to work its magic.
So, before we get started,before I dive in, I want you to
think about this affirmation,kind of hang on to it for the
week.
This is something that I thinkwill help a lot of us, even
myself included.
Right, for those of you whodon't know me a whole lot yet,
you're going to come to knowvery well, I am a double Virgo,
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so this is for me just as muchas it is for you the affirmation
to be thinking about is Irelease the need to control
every step and I trust theuniverse to guide me to what's
meant for me.
Now, let me repeat that becauseit's really powerful.
Okay, when you hear theunderlying words, the underlying
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meaning, it's really powerful.
I release the need to controlevery step and I trust the
universe to guide me to what'smeant for me.
I think oftentimes we have thisnotion of what we think we want
and we think we know betterthan the universe, we know
better than all the things thatare out there working their
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magic, and we assume that wehave to know the right timing,
the right way.
But then life starts to feelboring and it starts to feel
like there's no magic in it,where, if you can lean back and
relinquish that control, theuniverse will surprise and
delight you in ways that youcould never have seen coming.
So you don't need to knowwhat's going to happen, you just
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need to know that it's alreadyyours.
And I'm going to show you how.
I let go of my own assumptions,trusted the process and called
in my soulmate Colin from 4,000miles away, even though the odds
seemed impossible.
Yes, he was on a completelydifferent continent, all right.
But before we get into it,before we dig in, I want to get
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everyone back into their space.
Right, I want to get into ournervous system calming situation
.
So let's just take three deepbreaths together and, as you
inhale, I want you to visualizebreathing in trust.
Can you do that?
And then, as you exhale, I wantyou to release doubt and fear.
So let's do it.
And then, as you exhale, I wantyou to release doubt and fear.
So let's do it.
Inhale trust and exhale doubt.
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Inhale that trust and knowingagain and exhale control.
And one last time, inhale trustand exhale the how it's going
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to happen, all right.
So imagine for just a moment,while you're in this calm, clear
space, that your desires arefloating towards you
effortlessly.
The universe is pulling theminto your orbit, they are yours,
you can trust, and now you justsit back and allow it to happen
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.
Feels good, doesn't it Okay?
So now that we're grounded,let's dive into this story In
2011,.
It was crazy.
It was a place of really deepfrustration for me and at the
time, I was married, but itwasn't a happy marriage.
I was married at 19 years oldand we had been married for
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quite a long time.
At that point, I think we weregoing to be going on 13 years,
but I had tried everything tomake this particular
relationship work.
Like we we did all the things.
Like we moved to Duluth,minnesota, from our, like, local
town.
We ended up, you know, tryingdifferent houses, trying
different things.
We had kids, I supported himthrough his bachelor's degree.
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I mean, nothing we did seemedto shift everything.
It was just really anexhausting relationship.
And in 2007, I bought a housewith this man my ex-husband and
it was the absolute perfecthouse.
I loved everything about it.
It was just wonderful.
Like we had gone there a coupleof times.
We even kind of sort of brokein.
I mean, it wasn't breaking inbecause the doors were unlocked,
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but it was a brand new buildand we had like we sat there in
the living room and imagine whatit'd be like to live in the
house.
I felt like everything we weredoing at the time was like
synced up, we were on board.
We were like maybe this is thething that's going to finally
like start shifting us in theright direction.
And it felt right.
And we ended up getting thehouse.
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Everything kind of fell into.
And it felt right.
And we ended up getting thehouse.
Everything kind of fell intoplace.
It was fun, it was great.
But I found out very quickly,like within the first six months
, he hated the house, he didn'twant to be there.
He felt like it was tying himdown.
He felt like he couldn'tbreathe and it was suffocating
him.
And there was this weird energyto the whole thing where it was
like this thing that I felt sosecure on that, I felt so good
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about.
He felt the opposite, and everyday that he would get home from
work, it was like another dayof just being absolutely
horrible, like he was justunhappy and angry and like
resentful about everything.
So about three years went byand there was just this process
of like really kind of dealingwith his negativity and trying
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to help with it.
Nothing seemed to work, nothingwas shifting and it just it
just was not helpful.
Right, and as someone who tendsto overthink and overcommit, I
kept just trying to fix therelationship, even though my gut
was already telling me it'sprobably time to let this go,
like not just the house, becausethat felt like part of it, but
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like literally the relationship.
It didn't feel like there wasanything he wanted to do to
transition or shift or shake uphimself and I didn't want to
admit to myself that the storyI'd written for my life might
need to have a complete rewrite.
And it was like oh, all thethings.
Well, in 2010, I started writingand I started creating my new
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world.
It was like I felt this need toescape.
So that's where I first beganwriting fiction.
It was October of 2010.
I started doing this thingcalled NaNoWriMo, which is
National Novel Writing Month,wrote my very first novel during
that timeframe and because ofthat, it opened some new doors
that I didn't know I was eventrying to call in.
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So picture this right it'sFebruary now 2011.
I've already been working on myfirst novel and my mom and dad
were like you know, maybe youguys are just under a lot of
stress.
Why don't you take a vacation?
We'll watch the kids for a weekor so, and why don't you go do
something?
Go someplace you haven't beenbefore.
And so we took a vacation tripto Sedona, arizona, which was
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meant to help us reconnect,right, but deep down, I was like
I want to go here because Ifeel called to the energy of
this place, and at the time, Iwas very much into manifestation
, very much into mindset work,digging into my own stuff,
because I knew I couldn'tcontrol him, but I could control
me right.
And so this trip wasn't justabout fixing the relationship,
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at least not for me.
It was about finding clarity,like was there something there
that I could tap into Because Iknew about the energy, vortexes,
all that stuff, right?
So Sedona felt like it was anenergetic reset or it felt like
it should have been right.
And when you're surrounded bythe red rocks and all the vortex
energy, there is an element ofthis like clarity that comes
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through.
So in the resort that we werestaying at, there was a
labyrinth outside, like justlittle stones set on the ground
so you could walk the labyrinth.
And one of the days I rememberwaking up, deciding to go out
there a little bit early and dothe labyrinth right.
And it was so strange becauseit was like I was overcome by
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this need to be like okay, theuniverse, if this relationship
is over, I'm ready to release it.
Like I trust you to guide me towhat's next, I trust you to
point me in the right direction,to give me the insights, the
nudges that I need in order tomake this work for my evolution
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right.
And it wasn't about him.
It wasn't about like I can'tcontrol him, I can't fix him.
So therefore I need to break upwith him.
It wasn't like that.
It was like this very deepknowing that something about
this journey is over and Iwasn't ready to release it yet.
Does that make sense?
But that surrender turned out tobe a huge turning point for me,
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because letting go of thecontrol is really difficult.
It's really difficult for meand I think it's very difficult
for those of us who overthink.
Neurodivergence often have thislike pattern and we like things
to be a certain way, and whensomething shifts, especially on
that kind of monumental scale,it can really mess with our
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heads.
But that trip taught me thatsometimes surrendering is really
the most powerful thing we cando, because it stops the
momentum of all of the energiesthat we've built up surrounding
who we believe we are are.
And you know, if you listen toJoe Dispenza at all and you've
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read Breaking the Habit of beingYourself, you know that if you
need change in your life, ifyou're being called to make
change, sometimes that meansrelinquishing the personality
that you're holding on to, andthat personality that I had was
definitely one tied to him.
I mean, I was, like I said, 19years old when I married him.
I was 17 when I met him, sothere's this level of like.
I grew up with this man, andnow I'm 32, 33 years old, and I
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didn't know what life would looklike without that, especially
my adult life, because when Imoved out at 18, I moved in with
him, so it was like this wholeshake up of like everything I
thought I knew about myself.
So what was interesting then,though, was I had that you know
that conversation with theuniverse.
I came back from Sedona feelingmuch more calm and kind of just
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relaxed about the situation.
Not a whole lot changed, I'll behonest, in our like day-to-day
life for a little while, but byMay just a few months later I
met Colin, so my now husband.
I met him on Twitter, of allplaces.
We were talking about our firstbooks.
I was talking about Pandamas,he was talking about his first
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book, and we just found that wehad a lot in common, not only
because we were talking aboutfirst books.
We're trying to figure out howto self-publish.
Are we going to self-publish,like all the things?
I actually met him.
I'm a graphic designer in apast life as well, and so, for
me, I was noticing he wasstruggling with his cover and he
asked, like the Twitterverse,for some help.
I happened to know what he waslooking at or what he was
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missing, helped him out withthat and that's kind of how the
conversation all started.
Now he lived in England, guys.
He lived in Northampton,england.
I live in Minnesota, likecentral Minnesota, brainerd at
the time, and that's 4,000 milesaway, okay, and it felt like
the universe was laughing at me,saying you wanted your soulmate
right, here you go.
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But only in retrospect becauseat the time I had no idea.
At the time I was just like, ohsure, I can totally help you
with this thing.
Of course, you know, oh, we'redoing all this stuff right.
But what's really interestingabout that process was the more
that we talked and the more thatwe got to know each other just
as you know, writing, friendsand understanding, like the
things that are interesting tous.
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The more that we understood howsimilar we are, how similarly
we think, the more that weunderstood how similar we are,
how similarly we think what isimportant to us as individuals
and how our partners at the timewere not fulfilling those
things.
Because he was in a similarsituation he wasn't married, but
he did have a partner foralmost as long as I had my
husband right, so it was thesimilar kind of vibe where it
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was.
We just knew that this was over,but we didn't know how to make
it like commit to it, does thatmake sense?
And it was such a muddy, murkything at the time.
I remember thinking like I'veonly just committed to myself
internally, I haven't made anymoves on the outside, I haven't
done anything external, but theuniverse was just like you've
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decided though, and if you knowme and how I teach,
manifestation I always talkabout like your decision is step
one, and internally it hadclicked.
It had clicked to the point oflike I knew I was done.
I knew it was time to look forsomething else, and not
relationship wise, but like lookfor something else, as in my
goal of life.
Like my identity is is what Iwas looking for and how I wanted
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to change and how I wanted tofeel if I were in another
relationship.
Like my identity is what I waslooking for and how I wanted to
change and how I wanted to feelif I were in another
relationship.
Like I was doing all thatprocess that I teach where it
was.
Like you got to feel thefeelings of being that person,
you have to let go of the personthat you once were, and it all
starts with that decision.
And so it's just kind of crazybecause once we started talking,
once we started realizing howsimilar we are and I kid you,
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not, guys like we've done theClifton strengths together.
We share seven out of the top10 in in almost the exact same
order.
It's it's pretty wild, but, um,we are.
We are very much in sync.
And as everything was comingtogether, it was like how could
this even work?
Like, am I crazy to think thatI can leave my marriage and leap
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into something so unknown?
Like I don't really know thisguy, I've only been talking to
him online, like.
But the crazy thing is, themore that we started talking,
the more we started to dig indeeper.
Like we were asking moreprofound questions.
We were digging into like moreinteresting things about, like
how we would be, how we wouldshow up, like if, if someone was
sick, how would you treat them?
Like we were asking questionsthat I don't know that we
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typically even ask people thatwe're dating like in face to
face, right.
So by September I knew it wasover with my husband and there
was just something reallypowerful in the energy there,
like my birthday is September3rd and so it was like I knew I
needed to make a decision,because I was feeling like I was
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being pulled into separateworlds.
On one hand, it was like my oldlife, the old way of being, my
old relationship, and then, onthe other hand, it was this new
energy of like what would it belike to actually have a
relationship where you felt seen, where you felt heard, where
the other person shared the samekind of moral compass and
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wanted to, you know, sharethemselves in the same type of
way?
Like what would that look like?
So by that September, I hadseparated from my husband with
the intent to divorce him and Ialmost didn't choose it.
Like there was that precipicemoment where I had to, you know,
I had to really decide again isthis the right decision?
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And I almost didn't make thedecision, I almost stayed.
I remember talking to my bestfriend, thinking like who am I
to do this?
Like, am I crazy here?
And she was like Carissa, youknow you've, we've been friends.
She and I have been friendssince eighth grade.
And she was like Carissa, youknow you've, we've been friends.
She and I have been friendssince eighth grade and she was
like you know, you're not happy,he's not happy.
You've known that for a longtime and you won't know what
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this other relationship could beunless you give it a chance and
maybe it won't work.
Maybe it's just your precipiceto like get out of the way so
that new stuff can come in.
Maybe it's just that first step.
And so it was like I don't know.
I was like I was so back andforth On one hand I really
wanted to do it and the otherhand I was scared.
And so I had sent an email toColin and said you know, I'm not
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quite sure that we should keeptalking so much because we're, I
feel like I'm really close toyou and I'm not as close to my
husband, and I don't know ifthis is the right place to go or
right, right thing to doanymore.
And he actually called.
We had never had like aface-to-face call at this point,
like we we had onlycommunicated through text.
He called me on Skype back inthe day when Skype was actually
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a thing I don't even know ifSkype is still a thing, but it
was then and he actually calledme and it was kind of wild
because I remember going oh myGod, like what.
So we had a conversationface-to-face for the first time
and he told me how he wasfeeling, how he was wanting
things to go.
You know that he would respectmy decision, but like he didn't
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want this to be the end of itand what he could foresee for
the future as well.
Right, and so it was.
It was from that point forward,hearing my best friend's words
in my ear and then hearing whatColin was saying, that I was
like okay, we're, we're going to, we're going to see what
happens.
So from that point things movedvery fast.
It was super crazy becauseSeptember was when I made the
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decision to to separate and getdivorced.
I ended up starting to likework on my parents' second house
it was actually where I grew upso that I could move out doing
all the things by December 2ndthat same year.
A couple months later, colinhad come from England with the
intent to just visit to see,like, could this work in person?
And three months later I wasdivorced and married to him and
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he never left Like he was.
It was the wildest whirlwind Ihave ever seen, like I have
never manifested something sopowerfully where every domino
fell in place like that.
Now it's been 13 years, we'restill married.
It's still amazing.
It's just been wild to lookback.
Now it's been 13 years, we'restill married.
It's still amazing.
It's just been wild to lookback.
Now it's not to say thateverything was hunky-dory.
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Obviously there was a lot ofextinction, burst, things that
happened in the aftermath ofthat.
Like you know, once the divorcewent through, my ex-husband
started seeing another woman andshe started I don't even know
putting ideas in his head.
So for a while he was verycombative with us.
There was a lot of issues whenit came to, like parenting time
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and all the things.
My own parents had some issueslike viewing me differently.
They weren't quite sure aboutColin.
They didn't understand what Isaw in Colin, which was kind of
ironic because it's the samestuff that I had issues with
them about.
Like they couldn't see me andhe's a reflection of me, right?
And so the things that theycouldn't see in him were things
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that they couldn't see in me,and so it was very interesting.
Like for a while we had toseparate, go our separate ways
and just kind of be estranged,and then we ended up having our
son and everything kind ofreconciled and it was fine.
But there was that period ofimplosion where the old life had
to fall away.
And I think it's reallyimportant when I look back and
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not just about that, but othermanifestations that I've had,
whenever I have felt likeeverything is falling the fuck
apart and I don't know what ishappening when I'm trying to
manifest something or I thoughtI manifested the thing that I
wanted and it's still fallingapart.
There's a level there that youhave to understand that you're
calling in something even biggerand either you haven't let go
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of the identity or the how orthe why or the what or the way
it's going to come in, or it'sstill in process of shifting
around, like you have to let goof those things in order to step
into the new right.
So now this year, it's reallykind of interesting because I
felt the echoes of that sameexperience.
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I have been running a companycalled Author Revolution since
2019.
I've been teaching authorssince 2017 on how to become
indie authors, how to publish,how to manifest, but deep down,
it's like I knew there wassomething that was niggling at
me, like there was time torelease parts of that, to step
into something bigger, and Ididn't know what that looked
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like.
And this past year around, orlike 2024, around May, I started
feeling the pressure again,like the pressure where I felt
like I was in two differentworlds and I needed to make a
decision and I needed to let goof all of the different things
that I was trying to put myselfunder.
But that fear of letting go, ofnot knowing how things are
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going to unfold, it felt sofamiliar and because it was like
it was back then, in its ownway, I knew that the universe
was guiding me to what's next.
It was guiding me towards,nudging me towards something new
.
But it's so hard for usneurodivergence when we are
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locked into something right.
Like Colin, he is alsoneurodivergent and probably
autistic and ADHD as well, andso he, when he makes a decision
on something, it's verydifficult for him to change his
mind.
So like, if let's say, it'sdinner, like something as simple
as dinner, like he's set hismind on we're going to have, you
know, steak and baked potatoand veg or something Right, and
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we find out that there's nobaked potatoes.
Like there is a moment whereit's very difficult to switch
gears, like there's almost this,like dang it.
Ah, that is not what was in myhead.
And now, when I teachmanifestation, there's an
element to that right when, ifthere's something that isn't
there, an element that's notthere for our manifestation, we
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know we want it, we know we getit and we know we deserve it.
You have a pivotal moment,right, you have there's
resistance there, but it's not ablock.
If, unless you make it be ablock Like we could have gone
down to the grocery store inthis example, right, and got a
baked potato Like the grocerystore is five minutes away, it's
not that big of a deal.
Or we could have just decidedto have French fries, or we
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could have decided to do rice,like there's also, or not have
anything at all, but we couldstill enjoy our dinner.
Now, when I teach, I use aspaghetti example often, like
when you're having amanifestation, you want
spaghetti and you realize thatthere's no spaghetti noodles.
You have the same choice, right, you could go to the grocery
store and get your noodles.
You could do different noodles.
Maybe you have macaroni, ormaybe you go to the restaurant
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down the road and have spaghettiat their place, or you choose
to do something altogether.
There's always choices whenyou're manifesting.
But if you are locked in whichis step two in manifestation,
the way I teach it when you'relocked in on the thing that you
want, you're gonna do whateverit takes to get it.
So, for instance, withmanifestation for
neurodivergence, it's so coolbecause when we lock in oh, we
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are locked in baby.
But we get a little bit loopyif resistance or something
throws us off the track.
So when that potato is notthere, when those noodles aren't
there, either we wobble andfeel off kilter or we have to
shift our vision.
And so it's very, veryimportant that when you know you
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want something, you get to haveit.
It's yours.
But sometimes maybe you have togo around in a different way
than you were anticipating, orsometimes it will be given to
you in a different way thanyou're anticipating, right?
So if you're like me and you'reneurodivergent, you might
resonate with the fear that I'mkind of relaying here about
letting go or overlay, analyzingall of these steps.
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Maybe you're holding on tosomething Is it a job, a
relationship, or even an oldversion of yourself, because it
feels safer than trusting theunknown?
So I want you to ask yourselfthese questions.
I think they're really powerfuland they'll help you to uncover
more about where it is thatyou're trying to go for 2025.
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Okay, so what if here'squestion number one what if
letting go is the very thingthat creates space for your
desires to show up?
Now, when we have like acontainer let's just say like a
container for something whetherit be your personality, for
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money, for abundance, for loveand it's already filled up with
ideas, knowledge, pastexperiences that are
counterintuitive to the thingthat we're trying to call in,
where's the space for it to go?
It can't flow into it.
Right?
We have to let go of some ofthese things to make more room,
and so, again, that question iswhat if letting go is the very
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thing that creates space foryour desires to show up?
Have you thought about that?
And what can you let go oftoday?
Is there anything that you needto kind of loosen the grips on?
So, question number two whatwould happen if you stopped
trying to figure out the how andjust trusted that the universe
has your back?
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That's kind of the stage I'm inright now, like I don't know
what Manifest Differentlypodcast is going to do.
I don't know whatNeuroDivergent Manifestor as a
brand is going to do.
Yet, like I have no courses forit, I have no true lead magnets
for it.
Yet I have a meditation thatI'm going to be putting on my
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website soon for Phoenix Energy,because it's 2025.
I feel like we are going tovibe into a new version of
ourselves.
We are releasing the old,starting the new.
So if you are interested in thatfree meditation, go over to
manifestdifferentlycom and justcheck it out.
It should be on the homepage bythe time you hear this, but I
have nothing else yet.
The podcast, the sub stack,this website is all I have.
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Everything else is still overat authorrevolutionorg.
It's all over atcarissaandrewscom.
It's like that.
All of that I have alreadycreated is elsewhere, and so I'm
just trusting that this is thenew direction, because it feels
more aligned, it feels moreexpansive, it feels more genuine
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to who I have become over theyears.
I feel like I am cracking opena new container for
relationships in this space, forunderstanding who I am, for
learning more about the natureof reality and consciousness and
manifestation, and it justfeels I don't even know how to
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describe it it feels moreexpansive.
It just that must be the wordfor it.
So what would happen if youstopped trying to figure out the
how and just trusted that theuniverse has your back?
Whatever it is you'remanifesting, because when we,
when we know that the answer isyes and we're manifesting
something, it's not always goingto come to you in a way that
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you imagine.
Like I would have had no idea Iwas going to meet the love of
my life on Twitter back in theday, like, or that he'd be from
England.
Like I had no propensity foranything English, like the
biggest thing that I had aboutEngland at the time was that I
loved Harry Potter.
Like I wasn't one of those kidsthat was like oh my gosh, the
British guys and their accentsare the best.
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I wasn't.
That wasn't me, I was not evenlike, not even me.
And so sometimes the universejust goes oh here's this cool
way that it's going to comeabout and you wanted it, and so
let me give it to you, and Ithink it's more fun that way.
We have such pattern recognitionminds that good luck freaking,
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surprising us, good luckbringing us something that we
don't already see coming.
The universe can, though.
The universe absolutelyfreaking can, and I think that's
what's so wild.
When we release and relinquishthat need to control it.
Whatever it is that we'remanifesting, and just let it
come in whatever way it's meantto, you get to sit back and go
holy, holy crap.
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I did not anticipate thatwhatsoever For me.
Right now, the biggest thingthat I'm manifesting is locking
into, like my higher vibrationof purpose, like I want my
purpose to feel expansive, whichthis is already feeling.
So it's great.
I feel like I'm in the rightplace.
I want to feel more authentic.
I want to feel like what I domakes a difference in the world,
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and I also want to becompensated for that difference.
I want to be compensated.
Well, I know that what I offer,what I teach, is elevating the
community.
It's going to elevate you.
It already is.
Whatever you've listened to, ifyou've made it this far in this
podcast episode, you've alreadybeen touched by something that
has sparked a seed or liketwinkled something in your eyes,
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like there's something herethat has made you go huh.
I never thought about that, andthat's what this is all about
for me, and I know that it'sworthy of abundance in this
world, and you should too.
Your gifts are the same,whatever it is you're
manifesting.
Whatever it is that you'retrying to pull in, it's yours.
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You just have to acknowledgeand accept that that's what you
get to have.
Your desires are divineguidance of what you get to
receive, and if you don't evenbelieve in divine guidance, it
could be a different version ofyourself and a different
timeline, or a different versionof yourself in the future.
That already knows you have it,so of course you want it Like
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there's an element of us in thisquantum field that knows we get
to have anything we want.
We just have to get out of ourown way, all right.
So to me, manifestingdifferently is about working
with your brain and nervoussystem, not against it.
It's about trusting that we getto be guided, that we get to
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have what we want, that it'sokay if letting go feels hard
sometimes.
That's why surrender is apractice, not a one-time event.
So even if your desires feelimpossible right now, like
falling in love with someone 4000 miles away, just know that
the universe is not bound bylogic.
It's not bound by the laws thatwe have given the universe like
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it has its own laws.
It's bound by your beliefs,though, of what's possible.
So what do you want to believeinstead, if there's something
that's keeping you stuck, whatcan you believe that would be
more empowering?
What if you could just shift itjust a little bit to allow you
to bring it in?
So I want to give you threereally practical steps for
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manifesting differently thisweek and I want them to help you
as you go forward this week, asyou think about your
manifestations and try to pullthings in.
Okay, so, step one, surrenderwith intention.
Can you do that?
So I want you to take one areaof your life where you're
holding on too tightly For mefor a very long time that was
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money and just say this right, Irelease this to the universe.
I trust you to guide me towhat's meant for me and then
journal about how this feels,because I think it's really
powerful to relinquish thatcontrol we have in one of my
author revolution courses.
This thing where we have theuniverse is your PA.
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So when there's things on yourplate as an author and it's too
much for you, you write themdown on the PA side and you hand
it over to the universe, whichthe universe is your PA, okay,
and you allow the universe tohandle it.
And it's so powerful because itlifts that off and it gives you
the relief that you're seeking.
And it's so powerful because itlifts that off and it gives you
the relief that you're seeking,and so many of us when we are
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manifesting anything.
Honestly, what we're lookingfor is relief, and so just
journal on it.
Think about how that's going tofeel, okay.
So, step one surrender withintention.
Take that area of your life andsay I release this to the
universe.
I trust you to guide me towhat's meant for me.
Okay.
Now step two stop trying topredict the how.
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Okay, focus on the what you cando and the why, perhaps, but
not the how.
Like.
Focus on how you're wanting tofeel if you have it.
Focus on how you're wanting toimpact, perhaps, but not the how
it arrives.
For example, instead ofworrying about how your soulmate
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will appear, focus on how youwant to feel in the relationship
.
Okay, does that make sense?
Because that was really what Iwas doing when I was doing that
labyrinth.
It was all about, like, I wantto feel connected, I want to
feel seen, I want to feel heard,I want to feel like, um, I am
like the person that they reallysee and want to be with in all
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the ways like that.
That was kind of the vibe whereit was not my reality at the
time.
Okay, so think about how you're, what you're trying to call in
and how you're trying to feel.
And then, step three, look forthe synchronicities.
The universe speaks to us insigns, so pay attention to the
small nudges, like repeatednumbers or names or even a
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random Twitter conversation thatcould change your life.
Okay, that is really key,because sometimes you just don't
know what that random Twitterconversation is going to be.
I mean, I know that Twitter isnot a thing and I wouldn't touch
X with a barge pole, but youget what I'm saying.
Like it could be odd blue skyfor all I know.
Like it could be anywhere butjust know that the universe is
going to send you signs and soif you're looking for them,
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you're actually training yourreticular activating system in
your brain to notice more ofthem.
And when you do that, you'relike tapping into this quantum
field of possibilities andpotential, instead of collapsing
the wave down to a particle andassuming that everything is as
it appears.
We don't want that.
When we're manifesting our life, we want to expand back out
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into this wave function and ifyou don't know what I'm talking
about, it's quantum physics.
We'll talk more about it onthis podcast.
But just know that, like whenyou expand outward into this
potential, where anything goes,you will see it, you will see
the possibilities, you will seethe synchronicities and you are
training your physiology in yourbrain, your neurology in your
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brain, the chemicals in yourbody and brain to notice it and
then to give you those signs andsignals that make you feel good
because you have found it Okay.
So this week I want you topractice letting go, letting go
of one of the assumptions that'sholding you back.
Remember to journal about whathappens as you release control.
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That's holding you back.
Remember to journal about whathappens as you release control
and you might just see theuniverse work its magic.
Now, for me, when I do this, Itend to see, like signs in the
shape of hearts, like I will seein nature, hearts everywhere I
go.
Like it'll be a cloud that's aheart.
It'll be a shadow on the groundthat looks like a heart.
It'll be a leaf in the shape ofa heart, or a hole in a leaf in
the shape of a heart.
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Like I've I've seen.
I've seen hearts and like allsorts of things in ways that
like it wouldn't even make senseto have a heart there.
But I see them and so I knowI'm on the right track when I
start seeing those hearts, right, and the universe just lets you
know it's nudging you in theright direction.
So today, just as a reminder, Ishared how trusting the
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universe, letting go of anunhappy marriage and believing
in the impossible led me to mysoulmate and ultimately to a
life beyond whatever I couldhave imagined.
Like I would not haveenvisioned my life now at all.
Like being a, an internationalbest-selling author, having
three different pen names,teaching authors on platforms.
Like teaching you manifestation.
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Never In a million years Iwould never have thought it.
But here I am.
So remember, manifestation isn'tabout controlling the process.
It's about trusting.
What's meant for you is alreadyyours, like it's already there.
You just need to be open enoughto call it in and to drop any
of the assumptions that keep itaway from you.
So what's one thing you'reready to let go of?
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Share it with me on socialmedia today, or journal about it
for yourself.
Just dig in a little bit andsee what you're letting go.
Last year, for me, wasdefinitely the year of letting
go.
I had a bracelet that said letgo as my word of the year.
This year it's limitless.
So when you shed things, whenyou let go, there's so much more
that's coming up.
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So next week, we'll be divinginto how your nervous system
impacts your ability to manifest, and I'll be giving you some
practical tools to align yourenergy.
It's going to be a really funone, and one that might be a
little eye-opening for you ifyou didn't even know that your
nervous system could be kind ofgetting in your way.
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So you don't want to miss it.
Now one more closingaffirmation that I want to give
you.
I trust the universe to guideme to what's mine in ways that
are greater than I could everimagine.
All right, there you have it.
Remember manifesting isn'tabout doing the things the way
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everyone else does.
It's about trusting yourself,working with your unique energy
and allowing the magic to unfoldin its own way.
That's what it means tomanifest differently.
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