November 24, 2023 • 21 mins
087. As we approach 2024, the Marijanel Show is ready to embrace a new theme - creativity. Reflecting on our journey so far, we've covered topics such as purpose, mentorship, journaling, and self-worth in the past year. The journey hasn't been without its challenges, and personal setbacks...like my burnout this past summer... have shaped the narrative of my show. But remember, seasons don't last forever. The future promises an exciting new chapter, and trust me, you wouldn't want to miss out on the creative evolution that's happening.
Have you ever wondered about the intertwined connections that bind different facets of my life to the Marijanel Show? Let's take a stroll down memory lane as I share my own personal story of how the first 50 episodes of "Curiosity's Apprentice" served as a memoir of sorts. But, there's been a piece I've always held back: a significant failure from my days as a children's content creator. With my recent step back into children's book publishing, I'm ready to open up that vault and inspire you to embrace your creativity without fear of failure. So, grab a cup of coffee and join me as we embark on this journey of living wholeheartedly and creatively.
00:00:00 Intro 00:00:56 Whole doesn't mean perfect 00:02:37 My Intention Word for 2024 00:03:43 Looking back through the year 00:04:49 The other part of my burnout 00:06:42 I had a stirring 00:08:48 About the Hedgehog 00:10:11 Why I started Kid's YouTube 00:13:16 Journaling Resources still happening 00:14:36 The Failure I wasn't over 00:15:53 The story I left out 00:16:44 Why I closed a vault on my creativity 00:18:06 My soul has been in rehab 00:19:32 Creating a safe space for kids 00:20:41 Closing
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Marijanel (00:00):
Hello and welcome the Marijanel the show.
This is a podcast where I talkall about living whole and
creative, and today it's goingto be a little bit different
than my typical episode, becauseit's gonna be like having
coffee with a friend, catchingup on life and catching up a
little bit on the direction ofthe Marijanel show as we quickly
(00:22):
approach the year 2024 and youall know I like to surprise you
with big things at the start ofevery year.
You woke up last year, at thestart of 2023, and I had a whole
new name for the show.
You were like what?
I was getting texts andmessages that were showing the
new graphic that I posted.
You're like what?
What happened around here?
(00:43):
Yes Marijanel the show changesand fluctuates with pretty much
what's happening in my lifeMarijanel I'm and I am living
whole and creative.
And whole doesn't mean perfect.
Whole doesn't mean I have itall together.
It means that my quest is to bea wholehearted individual and
fully, fully embracing my lifehere on planet Earth, the
(01:06):
limited time that I have, andliving creative, because that's
who I was created to be, and Ilike to let that spill out over
in all my work, including thispodcast where I encourage you
and inspire you to live the sameway, to live your story
authentically, to find out whereyour self-worth and confidence
(01:30):
is truly taking its foundation.
And now, as we begin to approachthe year 2024, I'm digging into
, like, what is my new wordgonna be?
You know, in the year 2023, myword was purpose.
In the year 2024 I want toscare you, but my word of the
year it's looking like not ahundred percent, sure, but it's
(01:51):
looking like it's gonna be theword creativity.
And before you turn off thispodcast, I want you to know that
I think I'm gonna blow the lidoff creativity for you.
I think that you're gonna findout some things about living
creative, about thinking you'renot creative.
I think you're gonna find outsome things that change your
(02:12):
perspective and actually makeyour year 2024 be a really,
really incredible year.
And yes, I do carry thatexpectation Marijanel the show
and for all the upcomingpodcast episodes and, you know,
things that we do together incommunity.
I have that expectation that itcan be really incredible and
(02:35):
it's gonna involve the wordcreativity.
So I really just want to touchon a few of the things that I
had felt very passionately aboutin 2023 that I brought forward
on the Mary Janelle show andthat might have seemed to fall
flat to you or might have seemedto be conversations that we
never entirely finished and theymight have been mysterious.
(02:57):
Okay, so I'm going to justrewind to and then journey
through the year a little bit,keeping it quick and keeping it
as interesting as I can, so that, because I know this coffee
time is a one sided conversation, I'm doing all the talking and
you're hopefully taking a walk,getting some exercising, going
(03:17):
for a drive or just sitting onyour couch or relaxing, or
something where you're just ableto really enjoy this little
recap Now in the year of 2023,in the spring, I should say I
got very passionate about for aperiod of time, about talking
about what mentorship meant tome, because I was moving more
into the mentor role and workingon some mentorship programs
(03:42):
which are I'm going to go aheadand do that which are, I'm going
to say, still in development.
Now, to some degree, I'mexercising those, those dreams
and ideas, but not all the way.
And what became clear to me asI moved through, like being
really passionate aboutmentorship and sharing a lot
about, like my insights with youall.
And then, moving into thejournaling space, where I have
(04:06):
really shared with you mypassion for journaling.
I invested in the beginnings ofa journaling resource this
summer, did a lot of filming,which is still in production,
and was like kind of ready tolaunch this thing Meanwhile.
Okay, so we got those piecesand then meanwhile, I shared
(04:26):
with you an episode where I wastotally burnt out because I had
a really intense beginning ofthe summer.
In June, my son got married andwe had like tons of family
visit and I like over exertedmyself with like work and
wedding and everything andpretty much found myself in bed
and I did an episode sharingwith you all the different like
ways that I began to like nursemyself out of burnout.
(04:49):
And then meanwhile, while thatwas happening, I was also I had
previously been working reallyhard at losing the 15 pounds
that I gained in 2022.
I was on Weight Watchers andgoing to the gym and remember
the whole drama of like mymother of the groom dress didn't
zip up.
Well, I found that.
(05:10):
Well, first of all littleupdate I'm no longer on Weight
Watchers.
I am doing some intermittentfasting way way, way more
suitable for my lifestylecurrently, but in the gym I hurt
my shoulder and that shoulderinjury overlapped with the
burnout and so I was burnt outand I was hurting, not sleeping,
and I'm not telling you thisfor a woe is me.
(05:32):
I'm telling you the or a pityparty.
I'm telling you this because Iwant you to know, in the
backstory of everything that Iwas feeling passionate about
doing in my life and businessand creative world, I was
experiencing setback aftersetback after setback, which is
why you began to hear me speakdifferently, where I began to
(05:54):
come forward with shows aboutbeing in the current season,
about fostering your dreams evenwhen you don't see them coming
to fruition, and how to takecare of yourself.
And you heard an entirelydifferent message come forward,
because in the beginning of theyear I came forward strong and I
(06:16):
was like in a really strongseason in my life, and then I
went through these hardships andkind of needed to readjust and
come forward saying, hey, youguys were in this together and
sometimes it's really hard, butthere's seasons and seasons
don't last forever.
And that's what was going on inthe backstory of my message
development.
(06:36):
But meanwhile there wassomething else going on.
There was this stirring,stirring, stirring inside of me
where I felt like, even though Iwas harnessing all of this
great content messages aboutpurpose, destiny, mentorship,
being accountable, growingforward, finding our big dreams
(07:02):
and this is all great stuff Iwas having a personal setback in
the fact that I didn't feellike I was really really
releasing my full potential theMarijanel Show.
And that's when you heard mecome forward with an episode
(07:22):
where I shared like I need tostart talking about my
creativity here, and I didn'teven know what that meant.
I didn't know if it meant thatI'd share parts of myself as an
artist.
I didn't know if it would meanthat I would develop a
creativity teaching of some sort, like share my philosophies.
I just really didn't know.
I just knew that that piece ofmy life was really missing.
(07:44):
And then I shared with you myGod-sized dream.
I was encouraging you to findyour GSD, which is God-sized
dream.
It's got like a big, hairy,audacious goal or something so
humongous that you can't evenimagine how you're going to fit
it in or do it all in yourlifetime.
And I shared with you.
(08:05):
I'm going to call it aGod-sized dream.
I'm going to say it's theGod-sized dream of my life, but
it's one of them, and it's whereI revealed what seems
insignificant, what seems to besomething little.
It was a little hedgehog puppetthat I had a friend
commissioned to create for me onmy birthday, the year of 2021.
(08:26):
That hedgehog puppet is a 3Drendering, essentially, of an
illustration that I createdcalled Missy May Hedgehog, and
she started out as cards andillustrations that were part of
my business, really, and she waspopular and I saw this world
(08:47):
coming to life for her and I sawhow much joy she brought, not
only to kids but to people, andI was like this little character
needs to come to life.
And that's when that wholestory I'm not going to recap
that story right now, but thatwhole story where I was in a
business group and they wantedus to write down our big dreams,
and I didn't have any bigdreams for my business, but I
(09:07):
did have a big dream for MissyMay Hedgehog.
Well, long story short, this iswhere all began to accumulate
and I saw that I needed to bringpieces of my life together here
.
I needed to not be beingdisjointed where I was
expressing over here this wayand expressing over there that
(09:28):
way, which in best businesspractices having a niche, having
a really clear message.
Those things are reallyimportant.
But in the context of themarriage and health show, I was
like I could do whatever I wanthere, because my whole, entire
drive is to live whole andcreative, but to not just do
that for myself, to encourageyou to do that, and the best way
(09:49):
to do that is to demonstratebeing whole and creative.
And so I was challenging myselfcan you bring all these pieces
together?
Marijanel and shine I've talkedabout the place of shine, where
your voice is the clearest andthe strongest.
And I have an aspect of my lifewhich is in children's content,
(10:10):
creation in children'sentertainment.
That is an entire facet ofmyself that I've never even
truly talked about here on theMary Janelle show.
And don't worry, I'm not goingto dive in.
It's not going to become like ashow about how to make a kid's
show or something like that.
But all this to say that I'veknown and challenged myself that
(10:31):
I have to bring pieces ofmyself together here.
And how am I going to do that?
Well, in just a minute I'mgoing to share with you my first
step that I'm going to take inJanuary here on the show.
But before that, I want torewind.
And now for those of you whoare new on board to the Mary
Janelle show and you haven'tlistened to like all my episodes
which I don't expect you to,but I'll do a little quick recap
(10:54):
.
But those of you who've beenhere through the whole journey,
you're going to know exactlywhat I mean.
But my first 50 episodes of thisshow was called Curiosity's
Apprentice and it was a memoircast of my life.
So I had had the, the dream topodcast.
For about six years I'd beenfostering this little seed of an
idea, but I didn't actuallyknow what to make my podcast
(11:17):
about, because I do have so manydiverse interests in anything
arts or entertainment, really inthe realm of talent, you could
pretty much name anything andMary Janelle could have a
podcast about it.
And so I was like what do Iactually make my podcast about
and what am I going to focus on?
Well, something that I've beenvery near and dear to my heart
(11:37):
for many years was to write amemoir.
But I felt really stuck writingthe memoir and I thought, hey,
what would happen if I began tospeak out slivers of my story on
an audio show and share thesebits of myself and be able to
take the transcripts and use thetranscripts to create my memoir
, which is still a plan inprogress.
(11:58):
But that's how, at the inNovember if we were right, two
years ago, in November 2021, Ibegan to record the episodes of
Curiosity's Apprentice and Ipublished them in the new year
of 2022.
You all pretty much woke up andI had a podcast.
People were like what?
(12:19):
And at the time it was an audiopodcast.
It was before I went on toYouTube and my whole first 50
episodes were about the storiesof my life, but I left out one
big story.
The reason that I know for surethat I left out a story that
maybe could eventually beincluded in that collection is
(12:39):
because last year at this timeso rewind, one year ago when I
was considering rebranding tothe Marijanel show, pivoting my
message to be more like, to pickout the pieces of my life story
and talk about more of like, myheartbeat and my message on the
show, which is living, wholeand creative, I began to ask
(13:03):
myself, like, have you trulyfinished this series?
Like, are you done?
Is there anything else in there?
Marijanel, and you all know I'man avid journaler, I've taken
you on the journaling journeyand I do have journaling
resources coming up, but I wasjournaling this, getting out the
answers, and the answer waslike yes, there is one really
(13:25):
big story of my life that I hadintentionally but kind of non
intentionally little bit of bothleft out of that collection and
that was a huge failure I hadexperienced in my twenties,
related to being a children'scontent creator.
At the time I was asinger-songwriter and I
(13:46):
developed an entire really coolmusical curriculum and I had had
a series of CDs it was like wayback in the CDs day that went
national through departmentstores and I had a few really
big rubs with, like thecorporate world, that this
little organic soul, this little20-something-year-old who had a
(14:07):
two-year-old who was just likethis little mom making music.
She just wasn't ready for thecorporate sting of like people
not paying huge invoices andlike big demands in contracts
and I got very, very overwhelmed.
In a nutshell Now I haven'ttold you the whole story because
(14:29):
someday I do want to tell youthe whole story, but in a
nutshell, I experienced thisfailure related to all of these
precious gifts I had poured outinto the world and I literally
took them and locked them all ina vault, along with the talent
that particularly was attachedto that experience, and I locked
(14:51):
that vault and I moved forward.
Now, it didn't mean I didn'tmake music, it didn't mean I
didn't work in the arts.
I've done all of that and I'vesucceeded at all of that in
various ways.
But what there was was this sortof like shutdown in the
woundedness of that experiencewhere I didn't let myself ever
(15:13):
fully go back into children'scontent creation, and it is an
area of my life that I really,really shined.
So this past autumn as you know, because I talk about it all
the time on the show I'vereleased a children's book and I
illustrated an author tochildren's book called Weight,
darling Weight.
You'll find it on Amazon, thelinks are below.
It's adorable, it's wonderful.
(15:34):
But it also unlocked my vault,so to speak.
Like I felt it like somethinginside me literally cracked open
and I was like peering insideat my past and realizing.
Number one there was a reason Ileft that story out of
Curiosity's Apprentice because Iwas only 99.99% healed.
(16:02):
I needed to heal a little bitmore and the healing had to do
with re-acknowledging thattalent and using it again, which
has happened now and it's beenamazing.
And then the other thing that Isaw when peering into the vault
was like, wow, if I actuallybegin to unpack this, who knows
what my future will look like,because now that I've built and
(16:26):
experienced so many talents inlike other realms than what I
had when I closed that vaultback in my 20s, if I merge it
all together, it's just going tobe like this.
I don't know.
I just saw puzzle pieces of mylife coming together.
It's been huge.
It's been pivotal for me.
(16:46):
It's been also very hard toexplain on the Marijanel show,
because you this year, in 2023,you've seen me having puzzle
pieces everywhere, like I havethis mentorship piece and this
journaling piece and this I'mpassionate about.
You finding your purpose piece,and then creativity, intuition,
faith and growing yourself inthe foundation of love in order
(17:08):
to know yourself worth.
Like have all of thesecomponents and you're like whoa
ping pong ball.
This Marijanel is all over theplace.
But I'm not.
I'm not.
I'm very clear that all ofthese pieces make sense and the
pieces that I've been leavingout because I didn't want to
acknowledge have been creativityand the passion of raising up
(17:33):
our next generation, ourchildren, in and using
creativity as a tool to do soreally.
And so all this to say that I'vebeen bringing together pieces
of my life over the last littlewhile.
So you know you might have leftoff with me thinking, okay,
this girl's totally burnt out.
I have been.
I have had the shoulder injurythat I'm nursing and been in
(17:55):
sort of a rehab state likeliterally only walking around
the block and lifting these tinylittle weights to like
rehabilitate my shoulder, and mysoul has been in rehab at the
same time.
It's like my whole life kind ofwent like from burnout mode
into this beautiful kind ofsacred rehab space where I've
been just like regenerating andin this new rebirth I've been
(18:23):
seeing so much clearer thingsand pieces that I need to bring
out to the world in my lifetime,which is all going to sort of
make sense in 2024 with the newepisodes of the show, starting
with creativity.
So, as I shared with you in lastpodcast about the God size
dream and Missy May Hedgehog, Iknow that it's tempting
(18:43):
sometimes, when we have a bigdream, to just let it be that
and it is okay.
I've said multiple times, it'sokay to just let a dream be a
dream.
But I've known that in order tolike, reactivate and regenerate
these pieces of myself.
I had to take some action, andthe best way to start taking
action really is in little steps.
But I had to sit down and getreally real with, like, what are
(19:06):
the little steps that I couldtake here that make sense to
move towards a big dream?
And so I did something because,you all know, Marijanel's
always got something on the go.
I started a children's YouTubechannel called MJ and Missy May,
and MJ and Missy May is me, mj,with my hedgehog puppet, missy
(19:28):
May Hedgehog, and we arecreating a safe space online for
children to learn, grow,explore their imagination and
really just have fun with MJ andMissy May.
And I don't know all of it yet.
I don't know everything that MJand Missy May are going to
discover together, but I didtake the step to do this, and so
(19:51):
if you have little ones in yourlife, if you know someone who
does, please go, hop off thisYouTube channel, find the other
one, follow along that journey.
But all of that to say that Ihad these, all of these pieces
come together.
I was really challenged to takeaction steps and I'm also
really challenged to pulltogether the bigness and the
(20:13):
fullness that I'm feeling in mylife right now into the Mary
Janelle show to make an impactfor you, to demonstrate, to
encourage, to inspire you tolive your fullest, your whole
and creative, full life.
And so that's a little bit ofan update recap for you here on
(20:35):
the Marijanel show what's beengoing on behind the scenes, what
2023 is meant to me and what wethink we can see coming up in
2024, starting off with somereally really thought provoking
creativity and, of course, lotsof entertainment from me and my
wild God size dreams.
My new YouTube channel and thefact that I really, really,
(20:56):
really want to support parentsin parents and caregivers in
raising creative kids.
That's something I've beenthinking a lot about.
There's a lot.
There's a lot to unpack fromthat vault and someday I'll tell
you that full story.
Thank you for being here on theshow with me.
You know all my links are beloweverything I mentioned.
(21:17):
As much as I can, I try to linkit all below and you can follow
along my journey that way.
I don't know if you've been tomy website, Marijanel.
com, but I got a blog there, gota lot going on my Instagram at
Marijanel.
You can also support the showthrough the Buy Me a coffee link
.
So much to say at the end.
Hit subscribe like thenotification bell.
Thanks for joining me everyone.
(21:37):
Until next time, live whole andcreative.
Hello and welcome the Marijanel the show.
This is a podcast where I talkall about living whole and
creative, and today it's goingto be a little bit different
than my typical episode, becauseit's gonna be like having
coffee with a friend, catchingup on life and catching up a
little bit on the direction ofthe Marijanel show as we quickly
(00:22):
approach the year 2024 and youall know I like to surprise you
with big things at the start ofevery year.
You woke up last year, at thestart of 2023, and I had a whole
new name for the show.
You were like what?
I was getting texts andmessages that were showing the
new graphic that I posted.
You're like what?
What happened around here?
(00:43):
Yes Marijanel the show changesand fluctuates with pretty much
what's happening in my lifeMarijanel I'm and I am living
whole and creative.
And whole doesn't mean perfect.
Whole doesn't mean I have itall together.
It means that my quest is to bea wholehearted individual and
fully, fully embracing my lifehere on planet Earth, the
(01:06):
limited time that I have, andliving creative, because that's
who I was created to be, and Ilike to let that spill out over
in all my work, including thispodcast where I encourage you
and inspire you to live the sameway, to live your story
authentically, to find out whereyour self-worth and confidence
(01:30):
is truly taking its foundation.
And now, as we begin to approachthe year 2024, I'm digging into
, like, what is my new wordgonna be?
You know, in the year 2023, myword was purpose.
In the year 2024 I want toscare you, but my word of the
year it's looking like not ahundred percent, sure, but it's
(01:51):
looking like it's gonna be theword creativity.
And before you turn off thispodcast, I want you to know that
I think I'm gonna blow the lidoff creativity for you.
I think that you're gonna findout some things about living
creative, about thinking you'renot creative.
I think you're gonna find outsome things that change your
(02:12):
perspective and actually makeyour year 2024 be a really,
really incredible year.
And yes, I do carry thatexpectation Marijanel the show
and for all the upcomingpodcast episodes and, you know,
things that we do together incommunity.
I have that expectation that itcan be really incredible and
(02:35):
it's gonna involve the wordcreativity.
So I really just want to touchon a few of the things that I
had felt very passionately aboutin 2023 that I brought forward
on the Mary Janelle show andthat might have seemed to fall
flat to you or might have seemedto be conversations that we
never entirely finished and theymight have been mysterious.
(02:57):
Okay, so I'm going to justrewind to and then journey
through the year a little bit,keeping it quick and keeping it
as interesting as I can, so that, because I know this coffee
time is a one sided conversation, I'm doing all the talking and
you're hopefully taking a walk,getting some exercising, going
(03:17):
for a drive or just sitting onyour couch or relaxing, or
something where you're just ableto really enjoy this little
recap Now in the year of 2023,in the spring, I should say I
got very passionate about for aperiod of time, about talking
about what mentorship meant tome, because I was moving more
into the mentor role and workingon some mentorship programs
(03:42):
which are I'm going to go aheadand do that which are, I'm going
to say, still in development.
Now, to some degree, I'mexercising those, those dreams
and ideas, but not all the way.
And what became clear to me asI moved through, like being
really passionate aboutmentorship and sharing a lot
about, like my insights with youall.
And then, moving into thejournaling space, where I have
(04:06):
really shared with you mypassion for journaling.
I invested in the beginnings ofa journaling resource this
summer, did a lot of filming,which is still in production,
and was like kind of ready tolaunch this thing Meanwhile.
Okay, so we got those piecesand then meanwhile, I shared
(04:26):
with you an episode where I wastotally burnt out because I had
a really intense beginning ofthe summer.
In June, my son got married andwe had like tons of family
visit and I like over exertedmyself with like work and
wedding and everything andpretty much found myself in bed
and I did an episode sharingwith you all the different like
ways that I began to like nursemyself out of burnout.
(04:49):
And then meanwhile, while thatwas happening, I was also I had
previously been working reallyhard at losing the 15 pounds
that I gained in 2022.
I was on Weight Watchers andgoing to the gym and remember
the whole drama of like mymother of the groom dress didn't
zip up.
Well, I found that.
(05:10):
Well, first of all littleupdate I'm no longer on Weight
Watchers.
I am doing some intermittentfasting way way, way more
suitable for my lifestylecurrently, but in the gym I hurt
my shoulder and that shoulderinjury overlapped with the
burnout and so I was burnt outand I was hurting, not sleeping,
and I'm not telling you thisfor a woe is me.
(05:32):
I'm telling you the or a pityparty.
I'm telling you this because Iwant you to know, in the
backstory of everything that Iwas feeling passionate about
doing in my life and businessand creative world, I was
experiencing setback aftersetback after setback, which is
why you began to hear me speakdifferently, where I began to
(05:54):
come forward with shows aboutbeing in the current season,
about fostering your dreams evenwhen you don't see them coming
to fruition, and how to takecare of yourself.
And you heard an entirelydifferent message come forward,
because in the beginning of theyear I came forward strong and I
(06:16):
was like in a really strongseason in my life, and then I
went through these hardships andkind of needed to readjust and
come forward saying, hey, youguys were in this together and
sometimes it's really hard, butthere's seasons and seasons
don't last forever.
And that's what was going on inthe backstory of my message
development.
(06:36):
But meanwhile there wassomething else going on.
There was this stirring,stirring, stirring inside of me
where I felt like, even though Iwas harnessing all of this
great content messages aboutpurpose, destiny, mentorship,
being accountable, growingforward, finding our big dreams
(07:02):
and this is all great stuff Iwas having a personal setback in
the fact that I didn't feellike I was really really
releasing my full potential theMarijanel Show.
And that's when you heard mecome forward with an episode
(07:22):
where I shared like I need tostart talking about my
creativity here, and I didn'teven know what that meant.
I didn't know if it meant thatI'd share parts of myself as an
artist.
I didn't know if it would meanthat I would develop a
creativity teaching of some sort, like share my philosophies.
I just really didn't know.
I just knew that that piece ofmy life was really missing.
(07:44):
And then I shared with you myGod-sized dream.
I was encouraging you to findyour GSD, which is God-sized
dream.
It's got like a big, hairy,audacious goal or something so
humongous that you can't evenimagine how you're going to fit
it in or do it all in yourlifetime.
And I shared with you.
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I'm going to call it aGod-sized dream.
I'm going to say it's theGod-sized dream of my life, but
it's one of them, and it's whereI revealed what seems
insignificant, what seems to besomething little.
It was a little hedgehog puppetthat I had a friend
commissioned to create for me onmy birthday, the year of 2021.
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That hedgehog puppet is a 3Drendering, essentially, of an
illustration that I createdcalled Missy May Hedgehog, and
she started out as cards andillustrations that were part of
my business, really, and she waspopular and I saw this world
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coming to life for her and I sawhow much joy she brought, not
only to kids but to people, andI was like this little character
needs to come to life.
And that's when that wholestory I'm not going to recap
that story right now, but thatwhole story where I was in a
business group and they wantedus to write down our big dreams,
and I didn't have any bigdreams for my business, but I
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did have a big dream for MissyMay Hedgehog.
Well, long story short, this iswhere all began to accumulate
and I saw that I needed to bringpieces of my life together here
.
I needed to not be beingdisjointed where I was
expressing over here this wayand expressing over there that
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way, which in best businesspractices having a niche, having
a really clear message.
Those things are reallyimportant.
But in the context of themarriage and health show, I was
like I could do whatever I wanthere, because my whole, entire
drive is to live whole andcreative, but to not just do
that for myself, to encourageyou to do that, and the best way
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to do that is to demonstratebeing whole and creative.
And so I was challenging myselfcan you bring all these pieces
together?
Marijanel and shine I've talkedabout the place of shine, where
your voice is the clearest andthe strongest.
And I have an aspect of my lifewhich is in children's content,
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creation in children'sentertainment.
That is an entire facet ofmyself that I've never even
truly talked about here on theMary Janelle show.
And don't worry, I'm not goingto dive in.
It's not going to become like ashow about how to make a kid's
show or something like that.
But all this to say that I'veknown and challenged myself that
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I have to bring pieces ofmyself together here.
And how am I going to do that?
Well, in just a minute I'mgoing to share with you my first
step that I'm going to take inJanuary here on the show.
But before that, I want torewind.
And now for those of you whoare new on board to the Mary
Janelle show and you haven'tlistened to like all my episodes
which I don't expect you to,but I'll do a little quick recap
(10:54):
.
But those of you who've beenhere through the whole journey,
you're going to know exactlywhat I mean.
But my first 50 episodes of thisshow was called Curiosity's
Apprentice and it was a memoircast of my life.
So I had had the, the dream topodcast.
For about six years I'd beenfostering this little seed of an
idea, but I didn't actuallyknow what to make my podcast
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about, because I do have so manydiverse interests in anything
arts or entertainment, really inthe realm of talent, you could
pretty much name anything andMary Janelle could have a
podcast about it.
And so I was like what do Iactually make my podcast about
and what am I going to focus on?
Well, something that I've beenvery near and dear to my heart
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for many years was to write amemoir.
But I felt really stuck writingthe memoir and I thought, hey,
what would happen if I began tospeak out slivers of my story on
an audio show and share thesebits of myself and be able to
take the transcripts and use thetranscripts to create my memoir
, which is still a plan inprogress.
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But that's how, at the inNovember if we were right, two
years ago, in November 2021, Ibegan to record the episodes of
Curiosity's Apprentice and Ipublished them in the new year
of 2022.
You all pretty much woke up andI had a podcast.
People were like what?
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And at the time it was an audiopodcast.
It was before I went on toYouTube and my whole first 50
episodes were about the storiesof my life, but I left out one
big story.
The reason that I know for surethat I left out a story that
maybe could eventually beincluded in that collection is
(12:39):
because last year at this timeso rewind, one year ago when I
was considering rebranding tothe Marijanel show, pivoting my
message to be more like, to pickout the pieces of my life story
and talk about more of like, myheartbeat and my message on the
show, which is living, wholeand creative, I began to ask
(13:03):
myself, like, have you trulyfinished this series?
Like, are you done?
Is there anything else in there?
Marijanel, and you all know I'man avid journaler, I've taken
you on the journaling journeyand I do have journaling
resources coming up, but I wasjournaling this, getting out the
answers, and the answer waslike yes, there is one really
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big story of my life that I hadintentionally but kind of non
intentionally little bit of bothleft out of that collection and
that was a huge failure I hadexperienced in my twenties,
related to being a children'scontent creator.
At the time I was asinger-songwriter and I
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developed an entire really coolmusical curriculum and I had had
a series of CDs it was like wayback in the CDs day that went
national through departmentstores and I had a few really
big rubs with, like thecorporate world, that this
little organic soul, this little20-something-year-old who had a
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two-year-old who was just likethis little mom making music.
She just wasn't ready for thecorporate sting of like people
not paying huge invoices andlike big demands in contracts
and I got very, very overwhelmed.
In a nutshell Now I haven'ttold you the whole story because
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someday I do want to tell youthe whole story, but in a
nutshell, I experienced thisfailure related to all of these
precious gifts I had poured outinto the world and I literally
took them and locked them all ina vault, along with the talent
that particularly was attachedto that experience, and I locked
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that vault and I moved forward.
Now, it didn't mean I didn'tmake music, it didn't mean I
didn't work in the arts.
I've done all of that and I'vesucceeded at all of that in
various ways.
But what there was was this sortof like shutdown in the
woundedness of that experiencewhere I didn't let myself ever
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fully go back into children'scontent creation, and it is an
area of my life that I really,really shined.
So this past autumn as you know, because I talk about it all
the time on the show I'vereleased a children's book and I
illustrated an author tochildren's book called Weight,
darling Weight.
You'll find it on Amazon, thelinks are below.
It's adorable, it's wonderful.
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But it also unlocked my vault,so to speak.
Like I felt it like somethinginside me literally cracked open
and I was like peering insideat my past and realizing.
Number one there was a reason Ileft that story out of
Curiosity's Apprentice because Iwas only 99.99% healed.
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I needed to heal a little bitmore and the healing had to do
with re-acknowledging thattalent and using it again, which
has happened now and it's beenamazing.
And then the other thing that Isaw when peering into the vault
was like, wow, if I actuallybegin to unpack this, who knows
what my future will look like,because now that I've built and
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experienced so many talents inlike other realms than what I
had when I closed that vaultback in my 20s, if I merge it
all together, it's just going tobe like this.
I don't know.
I just saw puzzle pieces of mylife coming together.
It's been huge.
It's been pivotal for me.
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It's been also very hard toexplain on the Marijanel show,
because you this year, in 2023,you've seen me having puzzle
pieces everywhere, like I havethis mentorship piece and this
journaling piece and this I'mpassionate about.
You finding your purpose piece,and then creativity, intuition,
faith and growing yourself inthe foundation of love in order
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to know yourself worth.
Like have all of thesecomponents and you're like whoa
ping pong ball.
This Marijanel is all over theplace.
But I'm not.
I'm not.
I'm very clear that all ofthese pieces make sense and the
pieces that I've been leavingout because I didn't want to
acknowledge have been creativityand the passion of raising up
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our next generation, ourchildren, in and using
creativity as a tool to do soreally.
And so all this to say that I'vebeen bringing together pieces
of my life over the last littlewhile.
So you know you might have leftoff with me thinking, okay,
this girl's totally burnt out.
I have been.
I have had the shoulder injurythat I'm nursing and been in
(17:55):
sort of a rehab state likeliterally only walking around
the block and lifting these tinylittle weights to like
rehabilitate my shoulder, and mysoul has been in rehab at the
same time.
It's like my whole life kind ofwent like from burnout mode
into this beautiful kind ofsacred rehab space where I've
been just like regenerating andin this new rebirth I've been
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seeing so much clearer thingsand pieces that I need to bring
out to the world in my lifetime,which is all going to sort of
make sense in 2024 with the newepisodes of the show, starting
with creativity.
So, as I shared with you in lastpodcast about the God size
dream and Missy May Hedgehog, Iknow that it's tempting
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sometimes, when we have a bigdream, to just let it be that
and it is okay.
I've said multiple times, it'sokay to just let a dream be a
dream.
But I've known that in order tolike, reactivate and regenerate
these pieces of myself.
I had to take some action, andthe best way to start taking
action really is in little steps.
But I had to sit down and getreally real with, like, what are
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the little steps that I couldtake here that make sense to
move towards a big dream?
And so I did something because,you all know, Marijanel's
always got something on the go.
I started a children's YouTubechannel called MJ and Missy May,
and MJ and Missy May is me, mj,with my hedgehog puppet, missy
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May Hedgehog, and we arecreating a safe space online for
children to learn, grow,explore their imagination and
really just have fun with MJ andMissy May.
And I don't know all of it yet.
I don't know everything that MJand Missy May are going to
discover together, but I didtake the step to do this, and so
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if you have little ones in yourlife, if you know someone who
does, please go, hop off thisYouTube channel, find the other
one, follow along that journey.
But all of that to say that Ihad these, all of these pieces
come together.
I was really challenged to takeaction steps and I'm also
really challenged to pulltogether the bigness and the
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fullness that I'm feeling in mylife right now into the Mary
Janelle show to make an impactfor you, to demonstrate, to
encourage, to inspire you tolive your fullest, your whole
and creative, full life.
And so that's a little bit ofan update recap for you here on
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the Marijanel show what's beengoing on behind the scenes, what
2023 is meant to me and what wethink we can see coming up in
2024, starting off with somereally really thought provoking
creativity and, of course, lotsof entertainment from me and my
wild God size dreams.
My new YouTube channel and thefact that I really, really,
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really want to support parentsin parents and caregivers in
raising creative kids.
That's something I've beenthinking a lot about.
There's a lot.
There's a lot to unpack fromthat vault and someday I'll tell
you that full story.
Thank you for being here on theshow with me.
You know all my links are beloweverything I mentioned.
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As much as I can, I try to linkit all below and you can follow
along my journey that way.
I don't know if you've been tomy website, Marijanel.
com, but I got a blog there, gota lot going on my Instagram at
Marijanel.
You can also support the showthrough the Buy Me a coffee link
.
So much to say at the end.
Hit subscribe like thenotification bell.
Thanks for joining me everyone.
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Until next time, live whole andcreative.
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