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Well, hey, they're friends andwelcome back to a very special Mask of
Sanity episode. For those of youhoping this would be my comeback episode complete
with the true crime story that you'veall been waiting for, well, I'm
sorry to disappoint you, but thisepisode will be absolutely nothing like that.
You see, today is a veryspecial day to me. It is October
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twenty ninth, twenty twenty one,and today is the birthday of someone I
love very much. He is sospecial and thoughtful and the best big brother
that Chase could ever ask for.He is also my oldest nephew, the
kiddo who made me an aunt sevenyears ago and completely changed my life.
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Calvin Tyler Miller. Now Calvin Abbattold me you wanted to listen to my
show so that you could hear myvoice while I'm doing my podcast. The
only problem with my show is itisn't exactly made for kids and talks about
a lot of stuff that you shouldn'tbe listening to and you should not be
having to worry about. So asa birthday give to you, I decided
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to make an episode on my showspecifically for you. So again, I
apologize to all of my regular listenersout there. I know you haven't heard
from me for a while, butthis episode really has an intended audience of
one. But feel free to listenanyway if you want. Just don't go
blasphemy on social media or feel theneed to leave some kind of negative review
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because I chose to write an episodefor literally one of the coolest kids I've
ever known instead of talking about somehorrible case. That's all I ask.
You can always just pause and moveon. Alrighty Kelby, back to you.
I thought about this for a while, talked about it with Abba,
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and we thought it would be agood idea for you as a birthday present.
And I hope you enjoyed this episode, but make sure you buckle up
because it's going to be a bumpy, happy birthday, Calvin. This is
Mask of Sanity, all right,kiddo. So when I started brainstorming for
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this episode, I wasn't completely surewhat direction I wanted it to go,
but then I realized it doesn't reallymatter. Right, You're the focus.
This is your episode, so let'sjust talk Kelby, Okay. I can
remember when your mom first called meand told me that she was going to
have you. I had moved toNew York in September twenty thirteen, and
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I think she called me in Marchsomewhere around there. March of twenty fourteen,
so I was almost done with myfirst year of acting school. I
had been in New York for lessthan a year. I was starting this
new and exciting life. But allI could think was I don't want to
be away from this kid. Ihadn't even met you yet, I hadn't
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even seen your mama's belly. AllI had was a sonogram picture that she
had I think, texted me,and it had this cute little meatball shaped
baby in it. I mean,it's not gonna lie. You kind of
looked like an alien in the sonogrampicture, but all babies kind of looked
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like aliens and sonogram pictures. Butit didn't matter, because you're my first
nephew, And in that exact momentI saw that picture, I loved you.
I was so excited for you.The whole time your mama was pregnant
with you, she and Abbot wouldsend me pictures of her belly or if
there were any sonogram pictures, justwatching you grow inside her, and then
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as it got closer and closer foryou to come out and meet all of
this. It's kind of secretly hopingthat we would either have the same birthday
since ours are only five days apart, or that you would be a Halloween
baby, because I secretly also wantedto be a Halloween baby. But you
know what, I think it workedout for the best because our birthdays are
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close. We're also both close toHalloween, so I think I think it
just works. But at the endof the day, like none of that
really mattered either, because as longas you came out healthy, that's all
any of us wanted. And sowe were all waiting and waiting and you
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know, seeing when you were gonnamake your grand appearance. And then my
birthday passed and there was no Calvie. But every day I was just waiting
for a phone call. I wouldgo into class and be checking my phone
any chance I could, just tosee if there was a text or a
call telling me that you were finallyhere and after what like forever. Granted
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I was not the one carrying you, sorry, Jillian, but it felt
it felt like we were just allso excited to meet you that it we
just wanted you here as soon aspossible, but you came out, you
were here, and you know whatthey told me first, besides how beautiful
you were and you still are,was that you basically came out and had
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to show off and do a pushup for the nurses like you were Hulk
or Thor or someone super strong withmuscles. That's how strong you were when
you were born, like like alittle baby Hulk. And honestly, all
you've done in the last seven yearsis get bigger and stronger, to the
point where I'm a little concerned forthe safety of my back when you run
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at me or when I try topick you up like you're you're You're scary
kid. You're you have a bighead and it comes running at me and
I get a little worried. Butyou can still run at me with that
big old noggin anytime you want.And you know, because I was in
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school at the time, it wasreally hard for me to come and see
you and meet you right away,So I actually didn't get to meet you
for the first time until I camehome for Thanksgiving, and the first time
I held you, I think myheart stopped for a second because I couldn't
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believe that I was an aunt,and you were so perfect, and I
had these big blue eyes and youjust kind of laid there in my arms
and looked up at me, andI was gone or completely and totally.
And then when I had to leavethat weekend to drive back to New York,
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I remember sitting on the couch holdingyou, and I just got so
sad that I wasn't going to seeyou until I came home for Christmas.
And I just started crying so hard, like like I almost felt like Aquaman
kind of played a mean trick onAunt Mel and just had the ocean pour
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out of her eyeballs every time Ihad to say goodbye to you, because
that's what it felt like. Itfelt like my whole world was just falling
apart. And every time I hadto say goodbye to you, probably for
a solid year, that's what wouldhappen. I would get really upset,
I would start crying. Sometimes Iwould make it to my car before I
cried, but not always. Andwhen I finally calmed down, all I
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could think was, how on eartham I going to make it to the
next time that I can come homeand see you. And it's gotten easier
to say goodbye as in, Imean, I don't break down into a
blubbering, crying mess anymore, butI still hate it. I still get
sad, and it's nearly impossible forme to describe just how much I love
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you and Chase and Elizabeth. It'sinsane, Like my heart hurts when I
think about how much I would rathersee you guys than what I'm doing right
now. And I'm sure everybody cantell you. Anytime I came to visit,
I was just like where the babies. I just wanted to see you,
And then once Elizabeth and Chase camealong, all I wanted to see
were you three and hold you andCalvin, Sir. I didn't even mind
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changing your stinky diapers. That's howmuch I love you. I even used
to let you squeeze and hold mynose when I would give you a bottle,
to the point that I didn't mindgetting a giant scratch on the side
of my nose from those sharp littlebaby claws, because as long as you
were happy, I was happy.And I think I still have a scar
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on one side of my nose fromthat, But it doesn't matter. Do
you remember the first movie that weever watched together as then I watched it
while I was watching you, andyou slept in my arms. It's a
funny one. We watched Frozen,and anytime someone talks about it, mentions
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it it's on TV, anything likethat. You're the first thing that comes
to mind. That's our movie.We watched Frozy. You slept through most
of it, but I enjoyed itanyway. I just I hope you have
the best birthday. You were sucha cool kid. You're thoughtful, you
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were funny. Some of the thingsyou've said over the years have stopped me
dead in my tracks and burst outlapping you. You insisted that I watched
thor Ragnarok, even though I resisted, and I was like, nah,
I don't want to watch this,Mela, but you're like mel it's Annie
that turns out it is one ofthe funniest movies I've ever seen. So
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I need to just listen to youclearly. And you know, watching you
run around when you were little,helping ab a vacuum, you're the funniest
kid. You love to vacuum,playing with your own toy vacuum, the
little push moower thing that I gotyou for one of your birthdays, you
would just run around like an excitedpuppy. Your tongue was kind of hanging
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out of your head. And there'sjust so many moments over the last seven
years that I am so grateful tohave, and they're because of you.
You're the one who told me thatI was wonder Woman. I had to
be wonder Woman, and that issomething that I have latched onto for dear
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life ever since, to the pointwhere I am going to keep my hair
long and dark and you know,all that fun stuff until I'm much older
and grayer, and then maybe I'lltransition into some kind of like, I
don't know, lighter purple. Butfor now, the hair is going to
be long and dark like wonder Woman, or it'll be an eighty year old
wonder Woman. Maybe I won't even, you know, do a lighter color.
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I'll just be like eighty year eightyyears old with long, dark hair.
I think you could do it.We'll just we'll form our own justice
league. And you know what,one of my favorite things is when you
have a birthday party, or achase has a birthday party or something,
and Abba has video chatted me intothe party and you take her phone and
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we just kind of hang out onthe phone and talk or take silly pictures
or use the face filter things tothe point where ABBA has to go,
why do I have four hundred andthirty seven pictures of Calvin's nostrils on my
phone? And you know, it'sa cute nose. I'm a big fan.
Everybody loves your nose, so butfour hundred seven pictures is kind of
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a lot, so maybe we candelete some of those, but it's just
fun. That's the kind of stuffthat I look forward to when I don't
get to actually be there in personwith you. It is just like hanging
out on the phone talking about sillystuff. You ask me questions, wanting
to see my cat, you know, funny stuff like that. And you
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know, even if you have amoment and you're behaving like a little stinker,
because let's be honest, you dowe all do. We all have
our moments, you're still fun tobe around. I have to try really
hard not to laugh at you whenyou're doing something that you know you're not
supposed to be doing, because you'rejust so stink and cute. And there
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aren't many people on this planet thatI'm willing to put up with when they
act like a stinker. So ifthat doesn't prove how much I love being
your aunt, then I don't knowwhat to tell you. But also just
be good like I know you are. You know I have eyes in the
back of my head. They sleepthere, you know, at a commission
when I'm not with you. Butwhen I come back into town, those
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eyes in the back of my headstill work. You know what I'm talking
about. I'm actually watching you rightnow. You know, ask Abba?
Isn't that right? Abba? MOkay, then, Calvin, I am
so lucky to be your aunt.Nothing in this world makes me happier than
you, Chase and Elizabeth and gettingto be your aunt. Except maybe pizza.
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But I'll share with you. Ipromise. I'm just kidding. I
would never share my pizza with you. There's no way your big mood should
go get your own slice. Whodo you think I am? No way
kidding. I would buy you yourown pizza. I'll buy you a birthday
pizza the next time I'm home.I'll even splurt for extra toppings. That's
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love, kiddo. Any who,I hope you have an amazing birthday.
I hope you get cool stuff.I hope you get to do something fun
hanging out with Chase and your momand everybody else, and I can't wait
to see you. It will probablynot be until Christmas, but we're going
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to have some fun next time Icome home. I promise you that.
Okay, friends, thank you somuch for joining me, and if you
stuck around through this, then Iappreciate you. But like I said this,
this episode had one audience and oneaudience only, and that was my
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nephew Calvin. He apparently likes theidea that I have a podcast and they
can listen to my voice over theiHeartRadio on my mom's TV in her house
in Pennsylvania. But as we allknow, my episodes are not kid friendly,
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either through content or my commentary orboth. So I made a special
episode for him, and I hopehe loved it. I hope he enjoyed
it, and hopefully I will beback with you all soon. I have
some episodes that I have already donein collaboration with a few other shows that
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I need to schedule and get outto you, so I'm working on that.
But in the meantime, if youhave case, suggestions, thoughts,
feedback anything like that, if youhave ideas for the kind of direction you'd
like the show to go, becauseI'm also toying with that, trying to
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figure out a way to balance theheavy sad parts of what I cover with
a little more levity, because let'sbe honest, to listen to really heavy,
really depressing, really sad and horriblethings all the time, it's not
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good for our mental health. Andthat's part of the reason why I took
a break, because it was justweighing too heavily on my mind and I
needed just a clean break for awhile to get myself back into a place
where I felt happy and I feltgood and I actually wanted to work on
my show and I'm still working onthat, but if you have any suggestions
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in the meantime, I definitely wantto bring back my Beyond the Mask episodes
because I think that's fun doing ahorror movie and then the inspiration behind them.
So if you have anything like that, feel free to shoot me an
email at Mask of Sanity the Podcastat gmail dot com, or you can
shoot me a message through either myInstagram at Mask of Sanity the Podcast or
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my Twitter at Mask Sanity Pod.And if I don't see it right away
or if I don't respond for somereason, I'm not ignoring you. I
just tend to not live my lifeon social media because again, I don't
think that's healthy. So I promiseyou that I will look at it.
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It may just not be right away, but again, thank you for your
patients. While I'm working some thingsout with my show, it will be
back. It may not be backin the same frequency that it was on
a weekly basis, but there willbe shows. I'm trying to do better
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at finding a good work life balance, so I hope that you all can
appreciate that and understand where I'm comingfrom. But again, thank you all
so much for your support. Thankyou so much for listening. Happy birthday,
Calvin if you're still listening, anduntil next time, stay safe, friendsh