April 17, 2025 • 47 mins
What happens when life abruptly closes one door and forces you to find another path? In this refreshingly candid conversation, we're joined by musician and creative powerhouse Lexi Ryan, who shares her journey from professional modeling to emerging EDM artist following the industry slowdown during COVID.
Lexi's story isn't just about career transitions—it's about finding authentic joy and purpose when life takes unexpected turns. What makes this episode special is Lexi's wisdom about resilience. "With every door that closes, as long as you leave the door open for something else to happen, it will come," she shares—a powerful reminder that sometimes our greatest growth comes from unexpected redirections.
Listen now for an uplifting conversation about finding your flow, staying open to new possibilities, and embracing what Lexi calls "Mindful Mayhem"—being chaotically authentic, but in the most intentional way.
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Speaker 1 (00:10):
welcome back to the mindful mayhem podcast.
Speaker 2 (00:13):
Y'all it's taylor it's kayla and I don't know if
you're noticing, but we havesomeone new here.
It's lei Hi.
Speaker 1 (00:24):
Hello.
Speaker 2 (00:25):
Welcome.
Speaker 1 (00:27):
Thanks for having me guys.
This is kind of like my firsttime actually conversing with
you in real life.
Speaker 2 (00:33):
When worlds collide.
So for those that don't know,lexi is my roommate Insert
applause and Kayla's my bestfriend, so we're literally
having the best of both worldshere.
Yeah, I'm in a Virgo sandwich,y'all she isn't a Virgo sandwich
it's giving earth sandwichesare the best, are you as?
Speaker 3 (00:52):
August or September, virgo, last day of being a Virgo
, so September 22nd.
Okay, so you're Virgo, libracusp you.
I don't know what this meansfor me, but hopefully good
things, yeah, good things goodthings so, yeah, we're in an
earth sign moment today.
Speaker 2 (01:08):
Yeah, it's giving earth.
Lexi is also a musician, guyssnaps.
She has two songs officiallyout in the edm realm, performed
on stage, vibed out, living herrock star dream era.
Speaker 1 (01:23):
Yeah, and now we're just here to get to know kind of
what the journey looks like.
Speaker 3 (01:28):
Yeah, absolutely.
Speaker 1 (01:30):
So, let's go.
I want to go back actually,since this is my first time kind
of like knowing about.
I saw with last summer you hadthis big debut at North Coast
and that's kind of when I cameabout, like kind of knowing who
you were, especially beingintroduced through Taylor and
everything, and I was like howcool is it to be performing?
Well, you're not from Chicagoactually, I'm not, no okay,
(01:53):
she's a new Chicagoan.
Speaker 3 (01:55):
I, yeah, I just moved here in December with Taylor so
yeah, where are you from?
I'm from Indiana, the southside of Indianapolis.
Yes ma'am Out in the boonies.
Speaker 2 (02:07):
So she's now a big city girl though.
Speaker 3 (02:09):
I am.
This is my first time living inthe city, and what brought you
here?
Honestly, I just needed to getout of Indiana.
It was feeling like a drag forme.
I was traveling all last year.
I literally went to so manydifferent states.
I went to Mexico for the firsttime and I was just like you
know what?
I need a new vibe and I reallywanted to experience the city
(02:32):
life.
I actually used to work hereyears ago, so when I was
modeling, I was signed withagencies out here and I would
always travel here, but I nevergot to stay for very long, so I
never got like the full cityexperience.
Speaker 1 (02:45):
But I'm loving it so far.
Speaker 3 (02:45):
I think got to stay for very long so I never got
like the full city experience,but I'm loving it so far.
I think it'll be a good changefor me, especially during the
summer.
The winter has been kind of.
Speaker 1 (02:52):
Yeah, for everyone, summers are a lot better.
But OK, so you originally werea model.
I see you sometimes do modelingthings still, so what was like
the switch up from modeling tomusic?
Speaker 3 (03:05):
so I actually have always done music like I.
So I've I've been singing mywhole life.
I was in choir, um, I did allof those things I used to sing
at church, um, so I have alwaysbeen integrated in music, uh,
but I have I'd always wanted tobe a model.
When I was younger, that waslike my biggest dream ever, and
(03:27):
so when I graduated I was likeyou know what?
I'm gonna become a model and Iwent for it and I did it and it
was fun.
But COVID happened and thatreally was just the turning
point for me.
Like jobs stopped coming in, wecouldn't like go to castings
anymore in person.
It just really fell off and Iwas like I think this is my like
sign to get into something elseand I really just took a leap
(03:51):
forward and started, you know,writing a lot of music and all
of that.
And then really I started offin R&B.
So I have a couple of R&Btracks you can go listen to on
my.
Spotify.
But they're like they're reallyold but I still I love them.
Go listen to honestly on mySpotify.
But they're like they're reallyold, but I still I love them,
uh.
But yeah, I was really justwriting a lot of R&B and working
with a lot of R&B producers andother songwriters as well, and
(04:13):
then obviously I got introducedinto the EDM scene and I was
like, okay, this is this iswhere I think I belong here,
yeah.
And so I wanted to start makingmusic in EDM instead and just
had my you know first track comeout last year and it went off,
honestly for my first track.
Speaker 2 (04:33):
Valkyrie.
If you haven't heard it, lookit up.
Speaker 3 (04:36):
I love that With Lexi Ryan, who is this collaboration
with With my friends Krios andIn Orbit Dubs Okay, cool.
Speaker 2 (04:42):
Yeah, so she got to go on stage perform it live at
north coast.
Very iconic because forchicagoans that's a huge
festival.
You're in the city as well, butto be from our sister city and
have that opportunity is evenmore iconic yeah, it was so much
fun.
Speaker 3 (04:57):
I actually performed it on stage with uh creos first
cool and that was at basecountry in michigan.
Uh, creos, first cool, and thatwas at base country in michigan
, and then yeah, I likeperforming it at north coast was
insane.
Speaker 2 (05:12):
Yeah, that stage was huge it was probably a moment of
wait.
I think I belong here made you.
Did it make you feel morededicated to growing as an
artist and having moreopportunities like that?
Like it gave you a little peekinto what you felt was right?
Speaker 3 (05:26):
yeah, I really like it opened up a lot for me.
I did that was like a superlast minute decision, uh, to do
that.
My friend Orbix was the one whoasked me to perform with him at
North Coast and he made a remixof Valkyrie.
So that's we kind of like gotto work together on that and
yeah, it was really coolperforming that with him.
(05:46):
Um, and then I got to flow onstage for a little bit yeah, so
that was really fun.
Speaker 2 (05:50):
It was.
You've got a flow me in thehouse, you know okay, wait.
So I, I just like recently, I'mnot a flow b she's a new flow
me Kayla just got into the flowstart era flow start era.
Speaker 1 (06:02):
I'm more of a flow wander.
I used to glove, I used to hoop, whatever, but it's like the
flow is just something about thehands.
But yeah, I so kind of intothis whole.
I'm completely off of the rail,of the drama and everything
that goes on on in the internetbecause I'm just not on the
internet.
But I did see, like you kind ofopened up a little bit about
just like your journey ofgetting back and flow after a
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couple months of not flowing,feeling like you're disconnected
losing yourself yeah,absolutely.
Speaker 3 (06:31):
Um.
So yeah, with that just uh kindof have a falling out with like
flowing and just people withinthe flow industry and everything
and all all love, I just I feltlike it was taking a direction
somewhere I didn't vibe with,something I didn't like see
(06:52):
myself being a part of anymoreand um, yeah, no longer sharing
the same mindset and wavelengthwhen it came to decision-making.
Speaker 2 (07:00):
And it's kind of interesting that you say that,
kayla, because I run ChicagoFlow Star, so it's like to go
from leaving the scene but thenliving with someone who runs one
for the city that you're movingto.
It's been kind of fun becauseit's also re-inhabited, lexi, in
the flow scene.
Speaker 3 (07:16):
A little bit like I'll pop out to the meetups and
stuff like hang out.
Uh, I don't really on it, Idon't really flow very often but
like once, when I pick it up,like I still feel connected to
it in some way and people arelike she's a freaking wizard
when they see her at the meetups.
Speaker 2 (07:34):
It's crazy.
They're like man, you're reallygood.
I'm like, yeah, she made mostof those tutorials.
Speaker 3 (07:41):
I probably did it.
I really enjoyed that, though,like I loved making tutorials.
I love the Flow community as awhole.
I've met some incredible people.
I mean I met you, taylor.
Speaker 2 (07:51):
Yeah, that's how we met.
Speaker 3 (07:52):
Yeah, and so it really did change my life in the
best way.
It opened up so manyopportunities for me.
I'm very grateful foreverything, but everything good
has to come to an end at somepoint and that was just a
chapter closing for me, althoughit was hard, although it was
kind of crazy and a little bit,you know, negative vibes came
(08:13):
out of it.
I'm choosing to stay on thepositive side of it and just be
appreciative of everything andthen, yeah, like sometimes, I'll
pick up my flow star and belike hell.
Yeah, this is, you know, funvibing.
Speaker 2 (08:23):
I'll take a video, like once every you know, a
couple of weeks or whatever andwell, and it's cool, because it
really is one of those flowtools that, although you think
you'd put it down and forget howto use it a little bit, lexi
picks hers up and it is like shenever put it down, ever.
Oh yeah, like she can just pickit up and become full flow
demon dude, I've sat there andwatched like one of the videos
(08:47):
it's so crazy in a row and I'mlike how the fuck yeah I mean
even flowing.
Speaker 1 (08:52):
Next, to her too, because like we were at, just
like when we were at tape b, itwas so funny because there was
like a tiny little fuckingcorner yeah or a mova theater.
No one puts baby in a corner.
Nobody puts baby in a corner,but I'm like watching her and
watching everybody else and I'mlike how did you first of all
pick it up so quick?
Yeah I feel like a lot ofpeople have been like doing it
for a long time I struggled whenI first picked it up, but I
(09:14):
started before.
Speaker 3 (09:15):
There were tutorials like there were like a handful,
maybe not a lot of people weredoing it yet, and so it was just
kind of like a trial and error,like you pick it up, you kind
of like see if you can doanything with it.
And I practiced like everysingle day for like hours.
Speaker 2 (09:30):
Yeah, lexi was one of the first ambassadors, if not
the first.
No, I wasn't the first.
Speaker 3 (09:34):
One of the first I was a first of a bunch of small
bunch of people that were butlike the reason why I even
started was because I wasposting outfit videos on TikTok,
like doing uh inspired DJ looks, so then like people would
those videos.
What took me off?
Speaker 2 (09:50):
they were so cute yeah.
Speaker 3 (09:52):
I honestly that was a good, good vibe good era for me
.
Speaker 1 (09:55):
so, out of all of the inspired DJ looks, what were
your?
Your top three?
Speaker 2 (10:00):
Ooh, I saw she did a grizz one.
It was super cute.
I did do a grizz one Liketie-dye pant vibe.
Speaker 3 (10:05):
Yeah, I loved that one.
I did so many people.
Honestly, Rez was one of myfavorites Good yeah, just
because I love the red back.
Speaker 2 (10:12):
I think that's honestly where I first found you
.
It wasn't through Flowstar onmy For you page as the outfit
ones, because I would just lovewatching rave outfit videos, and
she had these sequenced videosthat were just so perfectly like
I don't even know how toexplain it.
Well, she is a stylist.
Speaker 3 (10:30):
I am a stylist Like literally.
I didn't know that I have astyling like little you know
side hustle.
Speaker 1 (10:35):
Little dibble dabble, yeah, literally me walking
around my house the other day,like when Literally me walking
around my house the other day,like when I have the money.
I need a private chef and astylist.
Speaker 2 (10:43):
Here's one.
What's crazy is that I'm also achef Dude.
Literally Yay, double whammy,double whammy.
Speaker 1 (10:50):
Okay, so she's moving in with me.
I'm moving in with you, yeahyeah, you can join Okay.
Speaker 3 (10:56):
Yeah, so I have a little like side hustle styling
business.
I style people for festivals.
I've gotten to do it likeseveral times and it's so fun.
I and I have like a shoppingaddiction.
Speaker 2 (11:07):
So so it's a way to feed it through others without
me spending money on it.
Speaker 3 (11:11):
It's really nice yeah like she's had people come up
to her at festivals wearing theoutfits that she styled yeah,
literally like such cuteinteractions, like people,
literally being like oh my god,you styled my outfit and I'm
like wait, this is the mostamazing thing ever that's so
nice yeah that's probably likejust a pat on the back, you know
yeah, it is really cool.
Speaker 1 (11:29):
Screw all the creative music stuff.
Like people are wearing yourstuff that you like put together
.
Speaker 2 (11:35):
Yeah not screw all the music, because people
listening to your tracks is alsoit's way more iconic I will say
, though, lexi is a big pantsperson, but I just want to get
both of your opinions.
What is the first thing thatyou put on to style your outfit?
Speaker 1 (11:50):
pants my pants.
Speaker 3 (11:51):
I have to pick pants first oh my pants for sure,
because I have so many pairs ofpants and I'm obsessed with
pants and my pants are normallylike, really like design
patterns or like differenttextures on them, so like I'll
pick those first.
Normally do a basic top, nowit's reversed yeah now I'm shout
(12:12):
out.
I love Taylor.
She makes the best clothes evercomes with the name.
Speaker 2 (12:17):
Taylor too the name taylor too.
Wait when did suddenly?
No, yeah, it just comes withthe name.
You know, we're naturally allcreative, so shout out you at
hippie hughes.
Yeah, dude, we gotta meet well,what about you?
you don't pick out your pantsfirst, you have um I feel like,
honestly, I'm like a in my mind,like I think of my closet.
(12:40):
I'm an internal outfit decider.
I kind of decide my wholeentire outfit in my head and
then I try it on and if onething doesn't work for how I
visioned it, then I change it.
Speaker 3 (12:49):
Oh, I do that.
Speaker 2 (12:51):
But I don't like think, oh, I need to put on
these pants and then decideafter.
Speaker 1 (12:55):
I just start with the pants, I guess my thing is like
okay, the pants are what you'rewalking around in.
So is the shirt Also just likethe tummy, the booty.
Speaker 2 (13:04):
It depends on how you're feeling that day, for
sure.
Speaker 1 (13:06):
And then it's easy to then match the shirt to that.
If you're picking out the shirtand then you're like, okay, now
what pants?
And you're like, but I like theshirt, but I have no pants to
go with it.
Speaker 3 (13:19):
I feel like it sets you up for success.
To start with your pants, yeahthat's what I'm putting.
Speaker 2 (13:21):
Do you feel like, um, doing styling videos is what
drew you into the EDM scene themost like, getting to have those
interactions through yourcontent and then, in addition,
having those interactions inreal life.
Did it draw you more into thescene or was it something that
you were already in?
Speaker 3 (13:37):
I was very heavily in the scene before I started
making those videos, but Ididn't know how to integrate
like content creation into theEDM scene.
So I was just being a festivalgoer raver and then I was like
you know what I want to makecontent?
I want to go to these festivals, you know, with companies and I
want to wear their stuff andlike all this.
And I was like how do I do that?
(13:59):
But like my own thing, and Istarted off by like sharing
music.
So I would do like um, likesongs that you need to hear,
like songs to add to your summerplaylist, and they just like
would hit, but like not thathard.
And I was like, what can I do?
And I love styling stuff and Ihave like a very crazy closet
and like intricate closet.
(14:20):
I thrift a lot, so, like all mypieces are very unique and so I
was like, okay, let me just doa video where, like, I'm styling
Like I already was doing thatwhen I would go to a festival, I
would pick the artists that I'mmost excited to see and then I
would base my outfit on them.
And so that's how I kind of wentabout, like what I would wear
to festivals or shows.
And then I was like, oh my God,like I should make a video.
Speaker 1 (14:44):
And then the first one I did popped off.
It was Ella Stream.
Speaker 3 (14:46):
And Ella Stream commented on it and I was like,
oh my God, wait, this is so fun.
And then people were like oh myGod, do this person, do this
person, do this artist?
And I was like OK, this isgoing.
Speaker 2 (14:55):
I just what year, yeah, 2022.
Tiktok was booming man tiktokwas its moment I swear, now it's
not ever since the little babyban.
Things are just.
Social media in general is justin a different tier of it's,
it's hard right now.
Well, and both of you arepretty big content creators for
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the city that we live in.
I'm still in the growingprocess, but hey, work hard,
play hard.
But you guys both are thrivingin your niches and it's super
cool to be around such creativesall the time.
Speaker 3 (15:29):
Girl you are too.
Speaker 2 (15:30):
No, I am, I am.
I'm not hating on myself, I'mjust saying, you guys are like
famous Stop.
Speaker 3 (15:38):
No, I'm joking, guys, I'm joking.
Speaker 2 (15:46):
I want to be famous, but it is cool seeing how
different like you kind of arelifestyle, fashion, and then you
are like music and fashion, andthen I'm fashion, just fashion,
rave wear.
But it is cool to have thatincorporated in all three of us
because I think we all have suchdifferent and unique styles
when it comes to going out andpicking what you wear.
But it's like nice to see itall come together absolutely.
Speaker 1 (16:06):
My style is so back and forth because I'm very like,
if you see me on a day-to-dayat sweatpants, I don't care, I
don't care, I don't.
But Kayla pulls off the like Idon't care, but I still look
good but then it's like what Iwas gonna wear wear is literally
now I shouldn't be like this,but on the way here I'm like
what are you guys wearing?
Cause I know like you guys areboth going to look cute as fuck.
(16:28):
You know like I also likethere's a specific style when
you do style.
People like certain styles lookgood on others and certain like
for somebody that wants todress more like out of the box,
more LA, more like just one ofone style ones like do you ever?
have you ever had to tellsomebody like, that style just
will not work with you, becausefor me, I can't really dress
(16:51):
like that.
I feel like I look better indressier things.
Speaker 3 (16:53):
I look better when I'm like going out to a nice
dinner, yeah, like whatever.
Speaker 1 (16:57):
But have you ever had to be like girl, like?
Speaker 3 (17:01):
no, because most people that come to me they want
me to have full creativefreedom.
Okay, so like, but I, I have awhole system like, I have a
website and everything andthere's a form you fill out so
you kind of tell me, like whatyou're comfortable wearing
already and then, if you want tolike, step outside the box a
little bit and give me creativefreedom, like I allow you to
like.
Tell me that I ask for like yourInstagram so I can go look at
(17:24):
your personal style and I get afeel for it and I, like
everybody has come back withjust like the most amazing
things to say so I yeah you fitit to the person yeah, I
definitely don't do it formyself, like when I'm looking at
somebody I'm like oh my god,they would probably love this.
Not like what.
Like?
Yeah, that's not how you styleother people.
Speaker 2 (17:42):
Stepping outside of your own head.
Yeah, that's a really coolthing.
So what is your creativeprocess when it comes to styling
fashion Like for you personally?
What do you feel like suits youthe best, and like what color
schemes?
I would say and how did youfigure that out?
Speaker 3 (17:58):
Oh, I would say color schemes definitely.
I have like olive skin, so Ilike to stay on the more like
earth tones like I really vibewith, um greens and beige and
stuff like that.
I love colors like this too,like a like muted yeah ivory um,
and also just like I, I alsotry and style best for my body
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type.
I have very long legs yeah andno torso so like I really have
to pay I really have to payattention to, like the sizing of
pants and stuff.
Most of the time they're tooshort, like without fail, um.
And then also just like, um,like whether it's high-waisted
or low-waisted, just you know,trying to figure out, like with
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the top, like what looks best ifit's cropped or if it's, you
know, just there's so manythings that go into it.
I really just am like a shot inthe dark, like I'll find one
piece and be like okay how can Ifigure this out?
The wheels are spinning andthen I'll just, like you know,
find a bunch of different thingsthat work and then I'll try.
I'll try on different thingsand not have it work like when I
go to a show or whatever.
Speaker 2 (19:06):
I will you're a layer queen.
Speaker 3 (19:09):
I love layers.
Uh, like even this now, like Ihave like a little like tank
underneath this and like I'll doa jacket over, like I don't
know.
I love layers, and same withjewelry.
I love a lot of jewelry.
I just now like figured outthis really cool hack of I only
have two ear piercings and I'llliterally wear I don't have any
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in right now, but I'll wear twoearrings in one hole.
Oh, to have like two danglyearrings, so it makes you look
like you're wearing a ton that'ssmart but yeah, I love a lot of
jewelry.
I just became a gold girl.
I used to be a silver girl.
But now I'm doing mixed Like Ihave.
Speaker 1 (19:47):
Like you're olive tone.
Speaker 2 (19:48):
Well, no, we love a mixed metal moment.
Speaker 1 (19:50):
I know, the olive tone skins can usually swap back
and forth, but gold justfucking hits yeah.
Speaker 3 (19:57):
Yeah, gold does change my vibe.
Speaker 2 (19:58):
Yeah, yeah, elevated.
Yeah, gold does hit different.
It did change my vibe yeah,elevated.
Speaker 3 (20:00):
I should do that.
I used to be the moon, but nowI am the sun.
Speaker 2 (20:04):
Yeah, you should.
I, low-key, love that trend andI'm not going to lie the girls
that are like redhead momentsand they're doing, but actually
I'm Mars, I love that.
Oh, that's cute, I haven't seenthat Wait, hold on, I'm not be
the moon.
And they usually have dark hair.
They're like doing dark makeup.
They just aren't in their glowand then they'll be like.
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But then I realized I'm the sunand they're wearing color and
maybe their hair is blonde orsomething like that.
But then there's other peoplethat are like reversing it,
because they look better withthe darker features and the
light.
When there's this new onethat's elevated, that's like
actually I'm Mars and it's likeactually I'm Mars.
And it's like all the girlswith, like the deep red hair.
Right now, it's a moment, yeah,shout out all of you that can
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pull off everything, becauseI've seen a few of those as well
, which is insane, like blonde,brunette and a redhead, sheesh.
So to get back into the musicrealm of this chat, I want to
know what's your favorite genreand what kind of music are you
looking to create for yourselfwithin the next year or two?
Speaker 3 (21:05):
I listen to a lot of music.
I have a very diverse just likemusic taste.
I listen to a lot of indiemusic and alternative and rock
as well and, of course, edmm.
But really I think my vibe formaking music is gonna pretty
much stick in like EDM and thenalso indie alternative, because
(21:27):
I've been diving a little bitinto that recently, making some
indie tracks, and it's a lot offun.
It definitely gives a differentvibe, but I also still love
making you know, edm tracks andwithin EDM, like the sub genres
that I have come out withrecently were like really heavy
dubstep tracks.
But I want to dial it back alittle bit and like do more soft
(21:47):
girl stuff yeah, because Ireally I really am diverse, like
with my vocals and my writingstyle and everything, so I feel
like I can dabble a little bitin everything, um.
So, yeah, I really uh, I'mtrying to open my opportunities
a little bit more To work withdifferent kind of people and
different subgenres, so yeah.
Speaker 2 (22:07):
Do you have anything cool in the works or any artists
that you would like to ideallywork with in the next few years?
Speaker 3 (22:14):
There's like a handful of artists that I would
love to work with within the EDMscene, specifically some of my
biggest like inspirations andwho I've always wanted to make
music with, like just to name acouple like uh Iso, exo, um,
just the Gents, and then, likePeekaboo, I would love working
with uh just yeah people a lotof like trap EDM I really want
(22:37):
to dive into.
Speaker 2 (22:37):
That's like your home base of EDM realm yeah, for
those that don't know Lexi.
Speaker 1 (22:41):
I feel like trap is the thing that got a lot of
people into yeah, that was likemy shit, yeah, and I
Flostradamus and remember that
Speaker 2 (22:52):
yeah he was at it used to be a duo, but then and
now it's only one.
Speaker 3 (22:57):
Yeah, he was at Lost lands this year or this past
year and I got to see a set ohcool.
Speaker 2 (23:01):
How was it that?
Speaker 3 (23:02):
was.
It was pretty, pretty dope.
Like I love trap music, that'salways gonna be my my jam.
Speaker 1 (23:07):
Like I, I also just listen to trap music my whole
life yeah not even trap edm,specifically, but like trap
music, yeah, well no, I know,like rap trap, all the traps,
like I was big into like ASAPFerg like oh yeah, I was out
there listening like is thatactually?
Speaker 3 (23:25):
I'm like am I too young for this?
No, I really was.
I don't know who was lettingyou what am I even saying right
now?
Yeah, um like young money waslike I was listening to that
when.
I was like shouldn't have been,but you know it took me to
where I am at now so okay.
Speaker 1 (23:41):
So going just like into you feel like a lot of
artists, of course, put theiremotional expression into their
lyrics and if and in the musicindustry it's like shunned upon,
like if you're not goingthrough it, you're not producing
good content.
You know so do you kind of feelyourself when you're writing?
Do you sometimes have to putyourself in certain moments to
(24:03):
like come up with things, or isit just whatever you're going
through in the present tense?
Speaker 2 (24:08):
That's a really good question.
Or take yourself out of asituation you're in in order to
build.
Speaker 3 (24:12):
Yeah, Wow good one.
I feel like it just depends.
So, like most of the time, likethe writing process starts with
a track already being finished,like the actual beat is
finished and they just needvocals on them, and so I'll take
(24:35):
that track and I'll really justput myself into an open-minded
position of just whatever I feel, whatever emotions come to mind
, whatever words come to mind,whatever words come to mind when
I listen to it is what I'mgoing to base the track off of,
and I'm I am able to write aboutstuff that I haven't
necessarily been through.
So, like, just whateveremotions I feel like the track
channels is just like what I'mgoing to write about.
A lot of it is personalexperience too.
A lot of it's exaggerated aswell.
(24:57):
It's just like but I I'm reallygood at channeling emotion and
stuff like that, so I feel likethat's kind of like how my
process goes to writingsomething um it.
Speaker 1 (25:09):
so, yeah, it is like sometimes based off of an
experience I've had or anemotion I've felt before that I
want to channel into it yeah,because a lot of people like
I've been listening to certainartists that are like they just
want you to be like devastatedall the time, otherwise it's
like you know it's not going tohit.
Speaker 3 (25:26):
I will say, sometimes going through really rough shit
creates amazing music.
Speaker 2 (25:31):
Yeah, it does though it is an outlet.
I mean writing.
You are big on journaling, I'msure as a songwriter it could be
incorporated as well as justlike an outlet to express
Absolutely, like there'sdefinitely sometimes.
Speaker 3 (25:45):
I'll just like write lyrics in my phone Like I'll
think of something throughoutthe day, like if something
happened, I'll just, like youknow, make a quick note about it
and then I can write Like.
I've written a whole song basedoff of that before.
So, yeah, it is just one ofthose things where you like
(26:06):
channel your whatever energy,whatever vibe this the track is
giving.
Um, also like like writing withother people too which I've done
quite a bit like you you get toalso hear like their emotion
and like what they're feeling,and then you get to bounce back
and forth and like, really youknow, get to like vibe off of
each other and write you knowsomething maybe that you weren't
thinking of, and then itcreates, like this whole new
thing.
Speaker 2 (26:23):
So yeah, a beautiful blend.
So a fun thing that I don'tknow if Kayla knows this fully
about you, but Lexi, for themost part, is a sober raver as
well yeah oh, you didn't knowthat I mean.
Yeah, I mean it's in yourInstagram bio oh yeah it's kind
of hard I don't, I don't knowwhy I forgot that that was in
your bio, but I think thatthat's a really cool thing to
(26:45):
share, because not a lot ofpeople do it efficiently, and
it's just like an interestingperspective to add to the rave
scene, because a lot of peopledo go there to kind of let loose
and forget and be off the shitsin a sense.
Speaker 1 (26:59):
So well, there's a back and forth between that,
even though cause it's likepeople just simply go into the
scene because they think it'seither they found drugs before
the music and they're like oh,this is where I can go and do
drugs.
Speaker 2 (27:12):
Yeah.
Speaker 1 (27:13):
And or it's now.
I listened to the music and Igo there, and now I feel
obligated to do it.
But in a sense it's like peoplecan't even enjoy it without the
drug.
But it's like, okay, what doyou do when you go home then?
Are you listening to it in thecar or are you putting on your
alternative?
Speaker 2 (27:31):
Well, and also I think it's very interesting for
you, because you've never beenone to really do drugs in the
rave scene, I mean.
Speaker 3 (27:40):
I, I, oh, you were I slightly everyone dibble dabbles
a little bit I was.
I realized, though, that I,just like was not into it as
much as everybody else was andall my friends would do it too.
So I was just like I mean, I'll, like I did you know, dabble in
just one you know kind of thing.
And then I was.
I really was just like I don'tfucking like this yeah it's,
(28:02):
it's not me.
I would not feel like myself andI was just like you know what,
I'm just not gonna do it.
And then I've never been adrinker.
I've never really smoked, so Ijust kind of easy I was kind of
like this is just not for me andI'm gonna choose to be sober
raver and I have had the mostfun I've ever had being a sober
raver.
Speaker 2 (28:21):
But I do think it is as someone that also became a
sober raver.
For the most part, it also doesopen your eyes to just
remembering your experience, andI think that's a really cool
thing that people don't realize.
For me personally at least, Iwould go to these events and
(28:44):
then I'd come home and I'd havevideos to show that I was there,
but you kind of lose the aspectof what you're spending your
money on by going and just beinglike lit as a candlestick?
yeah, absolutely, we're not.
You like going, I don't know.
You build more core memories, Ifeel like yeah, I agree.
Speaker 1 (28:53):
Speaking of core memories off the top of your
head, what is your favorite corememory of a festival and a
serendipitous meeting that wasfrom a festival?
Speaker 3 (29:05):
I definitely think that this past forest was my
first one ever and it changed mylife.
It was the most beautifulexperience ever and it was just
so emotional being there andeverything felt so right and so
just like intertwined and it was.
It was so beautiful.
(29:26):
I was literally running intopeople that I haven't seen in
years, didn't talk to them,didn't like tell them I was
going to be there and I wouldjust run into them in the forest
and I'm like there arethousands of people here, how
did I just run into you likejust the most crazy experiences
happening there and that'shappened a couple times at
different festivals just likecrazy, like how did this happen?
moment, but specifically thefirst uh flow star meetup, that
(29:52):
was planned at forest.
That's where I met.
Speaker 2 (29:54):
Taylor, yeah, and I was at the honeycomb at the
honeycomb and who was.
Speaker 3 (29:58):
I don't even remember who was playing um.
I can see it wasn't it rightbefore the?
Speaker 2 (30:02):
who wait?
Who was it?
It was someone small.
Yeah, like very random pop-upshow.
We went because every for one.
There was gonna be a lot offloamies there, and there were a
lot of us oh yeah but it wasperfect because this was a small
artist.
Why I can't remember?
I can't remember either.
Speaker 3 (30:19):
I can't remember his name, but he even said on the
mic he was like this is my firstfestival.
Speaker 2 (30:24):
It was jam packed, everybody.
Speaker 3 (30:27):
The emotion was so intense, so insane, and
everybody was just like.
It felt like you were getting agiant hug from the whole entire
crowd.
It was so magical and all theflow me's were together and I
just saw like 10 flow stars inone area.
Everybody was so close togetherand I had gone up into the
honeycomb like where you couldlike the standing area, and I
(30:49):
was getting content and Iseriously was just sitting back
and I was like, oh, this is soamazing.
It brought tears in my eyes,like it was so emotional just
knowing that, like I was a partof something like that amazing,
and I'll never forget thatfeeling, like literally, I'll
never forget that feeling.
It was so beautiful, sodefinitely forest, yeah, yeah
that really was a magicalexperience.
Speaker 2 (31:11):
We'll have to put his at on the video so everyone can
see, because also that setstarted off pretty empty and by
the end of it.
It was jam-packed in the houselike floamies were everywhere.
Eventually, we've kind of allput our flow stars away and
we're just jumping aroundbouncing around together dubstep
was he more like it was house.
Yeah, it was kind of like a goodcombination.
(31:33):
Like she said, it was his firstreal festival set so at a big
format festival, I'm pretty sure.
So he brought an energy thatwas next level, like everyone
was just there to have fun.
It was not like a set where youcould tell people were like I
gotta get in the front, I gottabe here, like everyone was just
genuinely enjoying their timespent there it was amazing.
Speaker 1 (31:54):
The best part about forest is like you can be like
10 feet behind a tree and stillbe vibing.
You don't need to be in thecrowd to hear the music.
You don't need to be in thecrowd to have a good time Like
yeah.
Speaker 2 (32:05):
How many festivals did you go to last year, if you
even know?
Speaker 3 (32:10):
Honestly, I would have to sit there and count, but
I think it was close to like 15.
Speaker 2 (32:14):
Yeah.
Speaker 3 (32:15):
No, maybe like 13.
Speaker 2 (32:16):
Which one was your favorite?
Speaker 3 (32:19):
yeah, no, maybe like maybe like 13, which one was
your favorite?
I think my favorite one wasforest.
Oh really, yeah, um, and it wasjust because of how everything
just happened, and it was somany different things happening
to like so many weird, uh,coincidences, so many random
people that I got to meet whilebeing there.
um, I found myself just in themost bizarre situations, but
like in a good way, just likethings were just, you know, all
(32:41):
coming together and I got tomeet so many cool people and it
was just, it was amazing.
Yeah, definitely a force.
Speaker 1 (32:54):
Well, I want to tabletop and give some
inspiration and advice to ourlisteners and then kind of going
back to the first originalthing that you said about you
shifting from modeling throughCOVID, kind of being forced to
strip away from it and dive moreinto music and the EDM scene.
Now, talking and hearing aboutall of these beautiful things
that have happened, I feel likeor what is your thought process
or any advice that you can giveto people that are kind of like
(33:16):
feeling like if something getsstripped away for them or they
get fired from a job or theyhave a breakup happen, and like
feeling hopeless, like givingthem that, that spark to just
like this is for a reason likeyou don't even know is any
advice that you can give.
Speaker 3 (33:29):
I will.
I will say, like that, thatexperience for me specifically,
like trying to come to peacewith something that I wanted so
bad, which was being a model,and uh, I, I wasn't able to
really look at what washappening and I was depressed,
like it was not what I wassupposed to be doing.
I was not happy.
It was just that you know voicethat was like you worked so
(33:53):
hard for this, you've alwayswanted this.
Don't step away from it.
You have been doing this foryears and even though you don't
like it, like don't run awayfrom it because you try.
You like got here.
Finally you got what you wantedand it really was just the
universe was like I'm rippingyou out of this because you're
not supposed to be here rightnow.
There's so many other thingsthat you're supposed to be doing
(34:15):
, and that really is when I dovestraight and working on music,
like so it really was meant tolike open my life in a different
way, but just in a much betterway, where I was actually
fulfilled, actually happy.
So just know that, like thereare bigger and better things
(34:35):
coming, like with every doorthat closes, as long as you
leave the door open forsomething else to happen, it
will come.
So, and, honestly speaking tomyself right now, like I, I like
towards the end of last year,like life kind of, you know,
fell apart but also was tryingto fall into place, like things
are still trying to fall intoplace for me and I'm just
(34:56):
allowing them to happen and eventhough some of them were not so
good uh, things have been hardI am just still trying to
believe and, you know, workingon things that can possibly
happen.
I'm opening new doors formyself.
I am just still trying tobelieve and, you know, working
on things that can possiblyhappen.
I'm opening new doors formyself.
I am not big things coming sooncoming soon they're actually
like I just got reached out toyesterday, yeah, by somebody
(35:17):
that, like, I've always wantedto work with yeah, I'm really
excited to do that so it justtakes time.
Speaker 2 (35:23):
As someone that's been watching Lexi through this
process, I will say like ittakes a different kind of
strength to go through as muchas she did.
I mean part in career change,moving to a new city, finding
your placement in a place thatyou always wanted to be but are
still new to.
But then also, like throughoutthe time that has been spent of
(35:43):
her getting kind of acclimatedhere from an outside, it's nice
to see things finally fallinginto place.
Like throughout the time thathas been spent of her getting
kind of acclimated here from anoutside, it's nice to see things
finally falling into place andthe world aligning for her in
this city.
Speaker 3 (35:55):
As summer approaches, it's like we're right there.
I just need the sun.
I need the sun.
That's really what I've beenmissing for my life, 100% yeah.
Speaker 1 (36:01):
No, it really is just like as long as you can keep
the faith up and you're notmaking every single rejection or
like redirection, like the mostdevastated thing, Sit and cry
about it for a week but then getback up and figure out what
else you're going to do.
Speaker 2 (36:14):
Also heavy emphasis on it's OK to cry.
Speaker 3 (36:18):
Oh, I be crying, we be crying.
I'm crying, taylor, as you mecry, we cry, we cry, we crash
out, we crash out.
Speaker 2 (36:28):
We have a day, but then that's the biggest thing is
, although, like, lexi will havesuch like an off day, but then
she'll come back and be like,okay, but this is just my sign
for me to relock in even better.
Yeah, and so it's cool to seethat like motivation to grow as
an individual.
No matter how hard it gets,she's always OK.
I'm not happy with myself rightnow, but heavy emphasis on the
(36:52):
but I will tomorrow and I got it.
Speaker 3 (36:55):
So I will say like if you follow me on Instagram.
I have been opening up like alot lately about my recent, just
struggles and just like what?
like very minimally, not likeopening up too much because I
like I don't need to, you know,say everything, but, like with
the job change, I did open upabout that a little bit.
I've been going through a lotof skin troubles, personal
(37:16):
troubles, um, and I I justrecently put out a video just of
like talking to the girls thatare like just like me in the
sense of they're so open andgiving and loving towards
everybody else, and just likekeeping that positive
perspective even though theworld is fucked yeah like just
still deciding to wake up everyday and be positive and just try
(37:39):
your best and still love otherpeople, not turn into just like
a big menace, like it really ishard to like
keep that from happening whenthings are going wrong, and like
I have had a lot of stress puton me, like as the last couple
months, like moving to a newcity and never having done that
before, like it has beenstressful and very uncomfortable
(37:59):
.
So I I've been doing my bestbut like it's, it still is hard,
um, but I just wanted to be rawand real and open up about just
I am going through some shitright now for real and I, but
I'm still making the best of itand I still there is light at
the end of the tunnel, like I amagain.
Like things come up, like I gota cool opportunity yesterday and
(38:21):
I'm really excited to diveheadfirst into that, and I do
think that, like things, willyou know, fall into place.
But like for some reason,decided to like knock off my car
mirror two days ago and I'mlike what's up?
Speaker 1 (38:37):
so funny.
It was like I'm really about tocrash out right now so hard it
was so funny.
Speaker 2 (38:42):
No wait, lexi did yeet off her car mirror, and it
was so funny because we watchedit happen.
I was literally watching herdead in the face when it
happened.
Well, no, she was lookingbehind her like she was driving
the way she should have.
But our parking garage hasthese cement ass beams like
spaces are sometimes very skinnyand we have tandem parking, so
(39:05):
Lexi parks in front of me and Ipark behind her.
But we were just quicklyrunning into the house.
Both of us had to leave, so sheparked in the spot right next
to us, which is a tight squeeze,and we're all laughing, yapping
, having a moment and literallywas about to deliver cookies to
my friend.
Yeah, like she was doing thecutest thing made homemade
cookies, was like I'm gonna godrop them off to them because in
case they're having a bad day,like so, empath, I'm having a
(39:27):
bad day and then we're looking,we're like okay, bye, bye.
All of a sudden you hear andit's her freaking car mirror
scraping the cement, bendingfully backwards.
She's like mirror popped out.
Speaker 3 (39:49):
She's like how could I pull in, but I can't even pull
out?
Yeah, that makes no sense.
And then, parallel parking atone of my friend's house hit a
fucking car same night samenight she said blink so it was
emphasis on like lexi has thesethings happen, but then, for
instance last night, a beautifulopportunity opened up and
showed itself.
Speaker 2 (40:04):
So it's like give and take going into this festival
season.
I think that there's going tobe so many cool opportunities
that present for you, given theplate that you're being served
right now and it's giving it'sserving it's hopefully
thanksgiving dinner sweetpotatoes, sweet potatoes, the
gravy oh, don't even get mestarted like.
(40:29):
That is the manifestation I'mputting into the world for
Lexi's summer.
When it comes to the music, thevibes, the opportunities, just
everything.
I feel like this is going to beyour summer new city, new vibes
, big smiles and I just want toknow, like for you this summer,
our kind of say all like, whatis your goal for the summer?
Speaker 3 (40:51):
Be happy.
Speaker 2 (40:52):
Hey, that's 10 out of 10.
Be happy.
Speaker 3 (40:54):
Just like I.
Really I thrive during thesummer, the warmer months.
I am ready to be outside.
When I lived in Indiana, I wasnever outside because there was
just nothing to do.
Speaker 2 (41:04):
We got a balcony.
Speaker 3 (41:11):
I am oh, oh, my gosh, we have the most gorgeous patio
, like we're gonna have, we'regonna grill out there, yeah,
friends over and just like, havea great time.
I'm ready for it to be a like Idid all the travel, all of the
festivals I, you know, wenteverywhere last year.
I really had the mostincredible summer.
But I'm ready to settle downand actually enjoy nature, being
in a new city, meeting newpeople.
Like just I want to go to thepark and I want to read a book.
Speaker 2 (41:34):
Yeah.
Speaker 3 (41:35):
And I want to just vibe out, listen to music, I
want to hang out with my friends, I want to just like have a
great summer and just like behappy and be peaceful, like I
just want to be peaceful.
Speaker 2 (41:45):
I also want to share like kind of fun fact about Lexi
and I as roommates.
Is we low-key kind of moved intogether not really knowing each
.
Oh yeah, we met each other onceit's been so fun yeah, like it's
been the ultimate vibe, so justto share with those listeners.
Like y'all, we rock and roll itout and Lexi is really freaking
cool.
So if you haven't checked outher music, I think you're cool.
(42:09):
Oh, that's done repping theshirt.
But I think that if you guyshaven't listened to her music
yet, definitely check it out,because there's going to be so
much more coming and the best isyet to come, baby oh, that's
the other thing too.
Speaker 3 (42:22):
this summer I do want to just like dive heavy into
music, but but overall just behappy and I think that kind of
comes with it.
I do want to be writing a lotmore.
I am I used to be one of thosepeople that was just like oh,
I'll let the opportunities cometo me, because they always have
to be completely honest.
But, I do realize I do have tobe like.
You know what I?
Speaker 2 (42:43):
want this to happen.
I'm making it happen, yeah.
Speaker 3 (42:44):
Let me ask for it, even if I get rejected, whatever
, let me ask for the opportunity.
If it doesn't come, somebodyelse will give me the
opportunity.
Speaker 2 (42:51):
Yeah.
Speaker 3 (42:51):
Some other opportunity will come, another
plan will fall into place solike I really am, like I've been
reaching out to people, likewanting to work with them.
I'm like hopefully it just goeswell.
Speaker 2 (43:05):
The worst, they say, is no.
Yeah, and then maybe next timeyeah.
Speaker 1 (43:12):
I'm here to confirm that, yeah, this year is very
big with Virgo career Career,career career, career, career
career.
Through collab througheverything as long as you are
not letting yourself bedepressed for too long and
letting yourself do it for twodays and get back up and keep
going.
Yeah, you're going to have noproblem, absolutely.
(43:33):
It's written in the stars,sweetie.
Speaker 2 (43:35):
Yes, ma'am.
Speaker 1 (43:36):
Before we go, it's been so nice officially, kind of
like talking to you.
Of course I've met her here.
Speaker 2 (43:41):
Yeah, guys, Kayla is overemphasizing.
They've definitely hung out.
We've met.
Kayla is overemphasizing.
They've definitely hung out atthe house like a baby chat.
Speaker 1 (43:47):
It's very well.
Also as, as she just said, likeyou guys barely really like
moved in before.
No, and it's not it's not youknow and like that's not an
offense to either.
Speaker 2 (43:57):
No, you know, but we both did it on a whim.
Speaker 1 (44:00):
It's like, I feel it, it's like meeting someone
else's friend, you know.
Yeah, also in your house aswell.
Yeah.
Speaker 2 (44:05):
Like there's boundaries.
Speaker 1 (44:06):
Do I talk too much?
Do I?
Am I opening up too quick?
Speaker 2 (44:10):
Yeah, it's like it's scary Making friends.
Speaker 1 (44:14):
as an adult I was knowing you were going through
it a couple months ago, becauseI was too yeah.
Speaker 2 (44:18):
Well, and it's hard as an adult in general to like
make new friends, friends.
I think we all kind ofunderestimate the awkwardness
and like the oh my gosh, likewhy am I nervous?
Like I'm a 10 year old kidagain, like are they gonna like?
Speaker 3 (44:30):
me.
Am I gonna you're like?
Why did I say that yeah?
Speaker 2 (44:33):
really like it's funny now because we I'm sure we
had those moments in thebeginning where it was like
about each other, and now we'reto each other like wait, did I
just say the wrong thing?
Like oh my god, like wait, howdo I look today?
Is there something in my tooth?
And I'm like you're good,you're good now.
We're like making lemon gingershots every week, being on our
wellness shit.
It's so funny because we'vealso throughout the time because
(44:53):
, like Kayla's my best friend,who's also Virgo queen, and then
now my roommates are Virgo I'mlike, oh my gosh, the energy is
just always there, like thecomedy and everything is so in
sync and I knew it would be finebecause of you.
But it's so funny because I'mlike, oh my gosh, I just have
these two people that are likemy core people right now, but
they're so like we're all justcomedians.
Speaker 3 (45:13):
We are.
We're the funniest people onearth, like literally.
But it's so funny it will bereally really, really hard for
me to find a husband, that'sfunnier than I am.
Speaker 2 (45:28):
It's emphasis on the dark humor as well, like we all.
No, you won't are you serious?
Speaker 1 (45:30):
look at you.
They're gonna not be funnierthan you.
Speaker 2 (45:31):
You're gonna always about let me look at you.
You're always gonna be thefunniest.
I know what I look like.
Is somebody gonna match myfreak?
Speaker 1 (45:39):
but are you funnier than me?
Speaker 2 (45:42):
no, they can't be funnier than you.
That's just not possible,exactly like they can be almost
there, but it you.
Speaker 1 (45:45):
That's just not possible.
Speaker 2 (45:46):
Exactly Like they can be almost there, but it's not
going to work.
I'm going to be honest theoddball, goofball energy like
it's unmatched.
I mean same with you.
We'll just be saying the mostcrazy things and I'm like it's
the unspokenness of like noteven having to explain it.
Yeah, yeah, absolutely.
One hundred percent spokennessof, like not even having to
(46:06):
explain it.
Yeah, yeah, absolutely 100percent.
Speaker 1 (46:07):
Yeah, awesome, well, it's been so awesome getting to
know you before we go.
Do you have anything that wedidn't ask, that you feel
compelled to share?
Speaker 3 (46:14):
or anything you want to share be, happy, y'all stay
happy don't crash out and if youdo, only for a If you do do it
in the supervision of yourroommate, so that you don't
actually crash out.
Speaker 2 (46:30):
No, for real, Like crash out within reason,
tastefully, yeah, mindfullycrash out.
Speaker 3 (46:35):
Like, do your good cry, Do your good cry, and then
go get a matcha and then have abetter day.
Speaker 2 (46:42):
Yeah.
Speaker 1 (46:43):
In pure mindful mayhem fashion.
Speaker 2 (46:46):
Yeah, yeah literally be chaotic, but like tastefully,
you know.
So thank you so much, lexi, forbeing our first guest thank you
guys for having me.
Speaker 3 (46:57):
I had so much fun yeah, I love yapping.
We love a good yap that's whyyou guys are having a podcast
professionally at first.
welcome back to the mindful mayhem podcast.
Speaker 2 (00:13):
Y'all it's taylor it's kayla and I don't know if
you're noticing, but we havesomeone new here.
It's lei Hi.
Speaker 1 (00:24):
Hello.
Speaker 2 (00:25):
Welcome.
Speaker 1 (00:27):
Thanks for having me guys.
This is kind of like my firsttime actually conversing with
you in real life.
Speaker 2 (00:33):
When worlds collide.
So for those that don't know,lexi is my roommate Insert
applause and Kayla's my bestfriend, so we're literally
having the best of both worldshere.
Yeah, I'm in a Virgo sandwich,y'all she isn't a Virgo sandwich
it's giving earth sandwichesare the best, are you as?
Speaker 3 (00:52):
August or September, virgo, last day of being a Virgo
, so September 22nd.
Okay, so you're Virgo, libracusp you.
I don't know what this meansfor me, but hopefully good
things, yeah, good things goodthings so, yeah, we're in an
earth sign moment today.
Speaker 2 (01:08):
Yeah, it's giving earth.
Lexi is also a musician, guyssnaps.
She has two songs officiallyout in the edm realm, performed
on stage, vibed out, living herrock star dream era.
Speaker 1 (01:23):
Yeah, and now we're just here to get to know kind of
what the journey looks like.
Speaker 3 (01:28):
Yeah, absolutely.
Speaker 1 (01:30):
So, let's go.
I want to go back actually,since this is my first time kind
of like knowing about.
I saw with last summer you hadthis big debut at North Coast
and that's kind of when I cameabout, like kind of knowing who
you were, especially beingintroduced through Taylor and
everything, and I was like howcool is it to be performing?
Well, you're not from Chicagoactually, I'm not, no okay,
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she's a new Chicagoan.
Speaker 3 (01:55):
I, yeah, I just moved here in December with Taylor so
yeah, where are you from?
I'm from Indiana, the southside of Indianapolis.
Yes ma'am Out in the boonies.
Speaker 2 (02:07):
So she's now a big city girl though.
Speaker 3 (02:09):
I am.
This is my first time living inthe city, and what brought you
here?
Honestly, I just needed to getout of Indiana.
It was feeling like a drag forme.
I was traveling all last year.
I literally went to so manydifferent states.
I went to Mexico for the firsttime and I was just like you
know what?
I need a new vibe and I reallywanted to experience the city
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life.
I actually used to work hereyears ago, so when I was
modeling, I was signed withagencies out here and I would
always travel here, but I nevergot to stay for very long, so I
never got like the full cityexperience.
Speaker 1 (02:45):
But I'm loving it so far.
Speaker 3 (02:45):
I think got to stay for very long so I never got
like the full city experience,but I'm loving it so far.
I think it'll be a good changefor me, especially during the
summer.
The winter has been kind of.
Speaker 1 (02:52):
Yeah, for everyone, summers are a lot better.
But OK, so you originally werea model.
I see you sometimes do modelingthings still, so what was like
the switch up from modeling tomusic?
Speaker 3 (03:05):
so I actually have always done music like I.
So I've I've been singing mywhole life.
I was in choir, um, I did allof those things I used to sing
at church, um, so I have alwaysbeen integrated in music, uh,
but I have I'd always wanted tobe a model.
When I was younger, that waslike my biggest dream ever, and
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so when I graduated I was likeyou know what?
I'm gonna become a model and Iwent for it and I did it and it
was fun.
But COVID happened and thatreally was just the turning
point for me.
Like jobs stopped coming in, wecouldn't like go to castings
anymore in person.
It just really fell off and Iwas like I think this is my like
sign to get into something elseand I really just took a leap
(03:51):
forward and started, you know,writing a lot of music and all
of that.
And then really I started offin R&B.
So I have a couple of R&Btracks you can go listen to on
my.
Spotify.
But they're like they're reallyold but I still I love them.
Go listen to honestly on mySpotify.
But they're like they're reallyold, but I still I love them,
uh.
But yeah, I was really justwriting a lot of R&B and working
with a lot of R&B producers andother songwriters as well, and
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then obviously I got introducedinto the EDM scene and I was
like, okay, this is this iswhere I think I belong here,
yeah.
And so I wanted to start makingmusic in EDM instead and just
had my you know first track comeout last year and it went off,
honestly for my first track.
Speaker 2 (04:33):
Valkyrie.
If you haven't heard it, lookit up.
Speaker 3 (04:36):
I love that With Lexi Ryan, who is this collaboration
with With my friends Krios andIn Orbit Dubs Okay, cool.
Speaker 2 (04:42):
Yeah, so she got to go on stage perform it live at
north coast.
Very iconic because forchicagoans that's a huge
festival.
You're in the city as well, butto be from our sister city and
have that opportunity is evenmore iconic yeah, it was so much
fun.
Speaker 3 (04:57):
I actually performed it on stage with uh creos first
cool and that was at basecountry in michigan.
Uh, creos, first cool, and thatwas at base country in michigan
, and then yeah, I likeperforming it at north coast was
insane.
Speaker 2 (05:12):
Yeah, that stage was huge it was probably a moment of
wait.
I think I belong here made you.
Did it make you feel morededicated to growing as an
artist and having moreopportunities like that?
Like it gave you a little peekinto what you felt was right?
Speaker 3 (05:26):
yeah, I really like it opened up a lot for me.
I did that was like a superlast minute decision, uh, to do
that.
My friend Orbix was the one whoasked me to perform with him at
North Coast and he made a remixof Valkyrie.
So that's we kind of like gotto work together on that and
yeah, it was really coolperforming that with him.
(05:46):
Um, and then I got to flow onstage for a little bit yeah, so
that was really fun.
Speaker 2 (05:50):
It was.
You've got a flow me in thehouse, you know okay, wait.
So I, I just like recently, I'mnot a flow b she's a new flow
me Kayla just got into the flowstart era flow start era.
Speaker 1 (06:02):
I'm more of a flow wander.
I used to glove, I used to hoop, whatever, but it's like the
flow is just something about thehands.
But yeah, I so kind of intothis whole.
I'm completely off of the rail,of the drama and everything
that goes on on in the internetbecause I'm just not on the
internet.
But I did see, like you kind ofopened up a little bit about
just like your journey ofgetting back and flow after a
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couple months of not flowing,feeling like you're disconnected
losing yourself yeah,absolutely.
Speaker 3 (06:31):
Um.
So yeah, with that just uh kindof have a falling out with like
flowing and just people withinthe flow industry and everything
and all all love, I just I feltlike it was taking a direction
somewhere I didn't vibe with,something I didn't like see
(06:52):
myself being a part of anymoreand um, yeah, no longer sharing
the same mindset and wavelengthwhen it came to decision-making.
Speaker 2 (07:00):
And it's kind of interesting that you say that,
kayla, because I run ChicagoFlow Star, so it's like to go
from leaving the scene but thenliving with someone who runs one
for the city that you're movingto.
It's been kind of fun becauseit's also re-inhabited, lexi, in
the flow scene.
Speaker 3 (07:16):
A little bit like I'll pop out to the meetups and
stuff like hang out.
Uh, I don't really on it, Idon't really flow very often but
like once, when I pick it up,like I still feel connected to
it in some way and people arelike she's a freaking wizard
when they see her at the meetups.
Speaker 2 (07:34):
It's crazy.
They're like man, you're reallygood.
I'm like, yeah, she made mostof those tutorials.
Speaker 3 (07:41):
I probably did it.
I really enjoyed that, though,like I loved making tutorials.
I love the Flow community as awhole.
I've met some incredible people.
I mean I met you, taylor.
Speaker 2 (07:51):
Yeah, that's how we met.
Speaker 3 (07:52):
Yeah, and so it really did change my life in the
best way.
It opened up so manyopportunities for me.
I'm very grateful foreverything, but everything good
has to come to an end at somepoint and that was just a
chapter closing for me, althoughit was hard, although it was
kind of crazy and a little bit,you know, negative vibes came
(08:13):
out of it.
I'm choosing to stay on thepositive side of it and just be
appreciative of everything andthen, yeah, like sometimes, I'll
pick up my flow star and belike hell.
Yeah, this is, you know, funvibing.
Speaker 2 (08:23):
I'll take a video, like once every you know, a
couple of weeks or whatever andwell, and it's cool, because it
really is one of those flowtools that, although you think
you'd put it down and forget howto use it a little bit, lexi
picks hers up and it is like shenever put it down, ever.
Oh yeah, like she can just pickit up and become full flow
demon dude, I've sat there andwatched like one of the videos
(08:47):
it's so crazy in a row and I'mlike how the fuck yeah I mean
even flowing.
Speaker 1 (08:52):
Next, to her too, because like we were at, just
like when we were at tape b, itwas so funny because there was
like a tiny little fuckingcorner yeah or a mova theater.
No one puts baby in a corner.
Nobody puts baby in a corner,but I'm like watching her and
watching everybody else and I'mlike how did you first of all
pick it up so quick?
Yeah I feel like a lot ofpeople have been like doing it
for a long time I struggled whenI first picked it up, but I
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started before.
Speaker 3 (09:15):
There were tutorials like there were like a handful,
maybe not a lot of people weredoing it yet, and so it was just
kind of like a trial and error,like you pick it up, you kind
of like see if you can doanything with it.
And I practiced like everysingle day for like hours.
Speaker 2 (09:30):
Yeah, lexi was one of the first ambassadors, if not
the first.
No, I wasn't the first.
Speaker 3 (09:34):
One of the first I was a first of a bunch of small
bunch of people that were butlike the reason why I even
started was because I wasposting outfit videos on TikTok,
like doing uh inspired DJ looks, so then like people would
those videos.
What took me off?
Speaker 2 (09:50):
they were so cute yeah.
Speaker 3 (09:52):
I honestly that was a good, good vibe good era for me
.
Speaker 1 (09:55):
so, out of all of the inspired DJ looks, what were
your?
Your top three?
Speaker 2 (10:00):
Ooh, I saw she did a grizz one.
It was super cute.
I did do a grizz one Liketie-dye pant vibe.
Speaker 3 (10:05):
Yeah, I loved that one.
I did so many people.
Honestly, Rez was one of myfavorites Good yeah, just
because I love the red back.
Speaker 2 (10:12):
I think that's honestly where I first found you
.
It wasn't through Flowstar onmy For you page as the outfit
ones, because I would just lovewatching rave outfit videos, and
she had these sequenced videosthat were just so perfectly like
I don't even know how toexplain it.
Well, she is a stylist.
Speaker 3 (10:30):
I am a stylist Like literally.
I didn't know that I have astyling like little you know
side hustle.
Speaker 1 (10:35):
Little dibble dabble, yeah, literally me walking
around my house the other day,like when Literally me walking
around my house the other day,like when I have the money.
I need a private chef and astylist.
Speaker 2 (10:43):
Here's one.
What's crazy is that I'm also achef Dude.
Literally Yay, double whammy,double whammy.
Speaker 1 (10:50):
Okay, so she's moving in with me.
I'm moving in with you, yeahyeah, you can join Okay.
Speaker 3 (10:56):
Yeah, so I have a little like side hustle styling
business.
I style people for festivals.
I've gotten to do it likeseveral times and it's so fun.
I and I have like a shoppingaddiction.
Speaker 2 (11:07):
So so it's a way to feed it through others without
me spending money on it.
Speaker 3 (11:11):
It's really nice yeah like she's had people come up
to her at festivals wearing theoutfits that she styled yeah,
literally like such cuteinteractions, like people,
literally being like oh my god,you styled my outfit and I'm
like wait, this is the mostamazing thing ever that's so
nice yeah that's probably likejust a pat on the back, you know
yeah, it is really cool.
Speaker 1 (11:29):
Screw all the creative music stuff.
Like people are wearing yourstuff that you like put together
.
Speaker 2 (11:35):
Yeah not screw all the music, because people
listening to your tracks is alsoit's way more iconic I will say
, though, lexi is a big pantsperson, but I just want to get
both of your opinions.
What is the first thing thatyou put on to style your outfit?
Speaker 1 (11:50):
pants my pants.
Speaker 3 (11:51):
I have to pick pants first oh my pants for sure,
because I have so many pairs ofpants and I'm obsessed with
pants and my pants are normallylike, really like design
patterns or like differenttextures on them, so like I'll
pick those first.
Normally do a basic top, nowit's reversed yeah now I'm shout
(12:12):
out.
I love Taylor.
She makes the best clothes evercomes with the name.
Speaker 2 (12:17):
Taylor too the name taylor too.
Wait when did suddenly?
No, yeah, it just comes withthe name.
You know, we're naturally allcreative, so shout out you at
hippie hughes.
Yeah, dude, we gotta meet well,what about you?
you don't pick out your pantsfirst, you have um I feel like,
honestly, I'm like a in my mind,like I think of my closet.
(12:40):
I'm an internal outfit decider.
I kind of decide my wholeentire outfit in my head and
then I try it on and if onething doesn't work for how I
visioned it, then I change it.
Speaker 3 (12:49):
Oh, I do that.
Speaker 2 (12:51):
But I don't like think, oh, I need to put on
these pants and then decideafter.
Speaker 1 (12:55):
I just start with the pants, I guess my thing is like
okay, the pants are what you'rewalking around in.
So is the shirt Also just likethe tummy, the booty.
Speaker 2 (13:04):
It depends on how you're feeling that day, for
sure.
Speaker 1 (13:06):
And then it's easy to then match the shirt to that.
If you're picking out the shirtand then you're like, okay, now
what pants?
And you're like, but I like theshirt, but I have no pants to
go with it.
Speaker 3 (13:19):
I feel like it sets you up for success.
To start with your pants, yeahthat's what I'm putting.
Speaker 2 (13:21):
Do you feel like, um, doing styling videos is what
drew you into the EDM scene themost like, getting to have those
interactions through yourcontent and then, in addition,
having those interactions inreal life.
Did it draw you more into thescene or was it something that
you were already in?
Speaker 3 (13:37):
I was very heavily in the scene before I started
making those videos, but Ididn't know how to integrate
like content creation into theEDM scene.
So I was just being a festivalgoer raver and then I was like
you know what I want to makecontent?
I want to go to these festivals, you know, with companies and I
want to wear their stuff andlike all this.
And I was like how do I do that?
(13:59):
But like my own thing, and Istarted off by like sharing
music.
So I would do like um, likesongs that you need to hear,
like songs to add to your summerplaylist, and they just like
would hit, but like not thathard.
And I was like, what can I do?
And I love styling stuff and Ihave like a very crazy closet
and like intricate closet.
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I thrift a lot, so, like all mypieces are very unique and so I
was like, okay, let me just doa video where, like, I'm styling
Like I already was doing thatwhen I would go to a festival, I
would pick the artists that I'mmost excited to see and then I
would base my outfit on them.
And so that's how I kind of wentabout, like what I would wear
to festivals or shows.
And then I was like, oh my God,like I should make a video.
Speaker 1 (14:44):
And then the first one I did popped off.
It was Ella Stream.
Speaker 3 (14:46):
And Ella Stream commented on it and I was like,
oh my God, wait, this is so fun.
And then people were like oh myGod, do this person, do this
person, do this artist?
And I was like OK, this isgoing.
Speaker 2 (14:55):
I just what year, yeah, 2022.
Tiktok was booming man tiktokwas its moment I swear, now it's
not ever since the little babyban.
Things are just.
Social media in general is justin a different tier of it's,
it's hard right now.
Well, and both of you arepretty big content creators for
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the city that we live in.
I'm still in the growingprocess, but hey, work hard,
play hard.
But you guys both are thrivingin your niches and it's super
cool to be around such creativesall the time.
Speaker 3 (15:29):
Girl you are too.
Speaker 2 (15:30):
No, I am, I am.
I'm not hating on myself, I'mjust saying, you guys are like
famous Stop.
Speaker 3 (15:38):
No, I'm joking, guys, I'm joking.
Speaker 2 (15:46):
I want to be famous, but it is cool seeing how
different like you kind of arelifestyle, fashion, and then you
are like music and fashion, andthen I'm fashion, just fashion,
rave wear.
But it is cool to have thatincorporated in all three of us
because I think we all have suchdifferent and unique styles
when it comes to going out andpicking what you wear.
But it's like nice to see itall come together absolutely.
Speaker 1 (16:06):
My style is so back and forth because I'm very like,
if you see me on a day-to-dayat sweatpants, I don't care, I
don't care, I don't.
But Kayla pulls off the like Idon't care, but I still look
good but then it's like what Iwas gonna wear wear is literally
now I shouldn't be like this,but on the way here I'm like
what are you guys wearing?
Cause I know like you guys areboth going to look cute as fuck.
(16:28):
You know like I also likethere's a specific style when
you do style.
People like certain styles lookgood on others and certain like
for somebody that wants todress more like out of the box,
more LA, more like just one ofone style ones like do you ever?
have you ever had to tellsomebody like, that style just
will not work with you, becausefor me, I can't really dress
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like that.
I feel like I look better indressier things.
Speaker 3 (16:53):
I look better when I'm like going out to a nice
dinner, yeah, like whatever.
Speaker 1 (16:57):
But have you ever had to be like girl, like?
Speaker 3 (17:01):
no, because most people that come to me they want
me to have full creativefreedom.
Okay, so like, but I, I have awhole system like, I have a
website and everything andthere's a form you fill out so
you kind of tell me, like whatyou're comfortable wearing
already and then, if you want tolike, step outside the box a
little bit and give me creativefreedom, like I allow you to
like.
Tell me that I ask for like yourInstagram so I can go look at
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your personal style and I get afeel for it and I, like
everybody has come back withjust like the most amazing
things to say so I yeah you fitit to the person yeah, I
definitely don't do it formyself, like when I'm looking at
somebody I'm like oh my god,they would probably love this.
Not like what.
Like?
Yeah, that's not how you styleother people.
Speaker 2 (17:42):
Stepping outside of your own head.
Yeah, that's a really coolthing.
So what is your creativeprocess when it comes to styling
fashion Like for you personally?
What do you feel like suits youthe best, and like what color
schemes?
I would say and how did youfigure that out?
Speaker 3 (17:58):
Oh, I would say color schemes definitely.
I have like olive skin, so Ilike to stay on the more like
earth tones like I really vibewith, um greens and beige and
stuff like that.
I love colors like this too,like a like muted yeah ivory um,
and also just like I, I alsotry and style best for my body
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type.
I have very long legs yeah andno torso so like I really have
to pay I really have to payattention to, like the sizing of
pants and stuff.
Most of the time they're tooshort, like without fail, um.
And then also just like, um,like whether it's high-waisted
or low-waisted, just you know,trying to figure out, like with
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the top, like what looks best ifit's cropped or if it's, you
know, just there's so manythings that go into it.
I really just am like a shot inthe dark, like I'll find one
piece and be like okay how can Ifigure this out?
The wheels are spinning andthen I'll just, like you know,
find a bunch of different thingsthat work and then I'll try.
I'll try on different thingsand not have it work like when I
go to a show or whatever.
Speaker 2 (19:06):
I will you're a layer queen.
Speaker 3 (19:09):
I love layers.
Uh, like even this now, like Ihave like a little like tank
underneath this and like I'll doa jacket over, like I don't
know.
I love layers, and same withjewelry.
I love a lot of jewelry.
I just now like figured outthis really cool hack of I only
have two ear piercings and I'llliterally wear I don't have any
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in right now, but I'll wear twoearrings in one hole.
Oh, to have like two danglyearrings, so it makes you look
like you're wearing a ton that'ssmart but yeah, I love a lot of
jewelry.
I just became a gold girl.
I used to be a silver girl.
But now I'm doing mixed Like Ihave.
Speaker 1 (19:47):
Like you're olive tone.
Speaker 2 (19:48):
Well, no, we love a mixed metal moment.
Speaker 1 (19:50):
I know, the olive tone skins can usually swap back
and forth, but gold justfucking hits yeah.
Speaker 3 (19:57):
Yeah, gold does change my vibe.
Speaker 2 (19:58):
Yeah, yeah, elevated.
Yeah, gold does hit different.
It did change my vibe yeah,elevated.
Speaker 3 (20:00):
I should do that.
I used to be the moon, but nowI am the sun.
Speaker 2 (20:04):
Yeah, you should.
I, low-key, love that trend andI'm not going to lie the girls
that are like redhead momentsand they're doing, but actually
I'm Mars, I love that.
Oh, that's cute, I haven't seenthat Wait, hold on, I'm not be
the moon.
And they usually have dark hair.
They're like doing dark makeup.
They just aren't in their glowand then they'll be like.
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But then I realized I'm the sunand they're wearing color and
maybe their hair is blonde orsomething like that.
But then there's other peoplethat are like reversing it,
because they look better withthe darker features and the
light.
When there's this new onethat's elevated, that's like
actually I'm Mars and it's likeactually I'm Mars.
And it's like all the girlswith, like the deep red hair.
Right now, it's a moment, yeah,shout out all of you that can
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pull off everything, becauseI've seen a few of those as well
, which is insane, like blonde,brunette and a redhead, sheesh.
So to get back into the musicrealm of this chat, I want to
know what's your favorite genreand what kind of music are you
looking to create for yourselfwithin the next year or two?
Speaker 3 (21:05):
I listen to a lot of music.
I have a very diverse just likemusic taste.
I listen to a lot of indiemusic and alternative and rock
as well and, of course, edmm.
But really I think my vibe formaking music is gonna pretty
much stick in like EDM and thenalso indie alternative, because
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I've been diving a little bitinto that recently, making some
indie tracks, and it's a lot offun.
It definitely gives a differentvibe, but I also still love
making you know, edm tracks andwithin EDM, like the sub genres
that I have come out withrecently were like really heavy
dubstep tracks.
But I want to dial it back alittle bit and like do more soft
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girl stuff yeah, because Ireally I really am diverse, like
with my vocals and my writingstyle and everything, so I feel
like I can dabble a little bitin everything, um.
So, yeah, I really uh, I'mtrying to open my opportunities
a little bit more To work withdifferent kind of people and
different subgenres, so yeah.
Speaker 2 (22:07):
Do you have anything cool in the works or any artists
that you would like to ideallywork with in the next few years?
Speaker 3 (22:14):
There's like a handful of artists that I would
love to work with within the EDMscene, specifically some of my
biggest like inspirations andwho I've always wanted to make
music with, like just to name acouple like uh Iso, exo, um,
just the Gents, and then, likePeekaboo, I would love working
with uh just yeah people a lotof like trap EDM I really want
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to dive into.
Speaker 2 (22:37):
That's like your home base of EDM realm yeah, for
those that don't know Lexi.
Speaker 1 (22:41):
I feel like trap is the thing that got a lot of
people into yeah, that was likemy shit, yeah, and I
Flostradamus and remember that
Speaker 2 (22:52):
yeah he was at it used to be a duo, but then and
now it's only one.
Speaker 3 (22:57):
Yeah, he was at Lost lands this year or this past
year and I got to see a set ohcool.
Speaker 2 (23:01):
How was it that?
Speaker 3 (23:02):
was.
It was pretty, pretty dope.
Like I love trap music, that'salways gonna be my my jam.
Speaker 1 (23:07):
Like I, I also just listen to trap music my whole
life yeah not even trap edm,specifically, but like trap
music, yeah, well no, I know,like rap trap, all the traps,
like I was big into like ASAPFerg like oh yeah, I was out
there listening like is thatactually?
Speaker 3 (23:25):
I'm like am I too young for this?
No, I really was.
I don't know who was lettingyou what am I even saying right
now?
Yeah, um like young money waslike I was listening to that
when.
I was like shouldn't have been,but you know it took me to
where I am at now so okay.
Speaker 1 (23:41):
So going just like into you feel like a lot of
artists, of course, put theiremotional expression into their
lyrics and if and in the musicindustry it's like shunned upon,
like if you're not goingthrough it, you're not producing
good content.
You know so do you kind of feelyourself when you're writing?
Do you sometimes have to putyourself in certain moments to
(24:03):
like come up with things, or isit just whatever you're going
through in the present tense?
Speaker 2 (24:08):
That's a really good question.
Or take yourself out of asituation you're in in order to
build.
Speaker 3 (24:12):
Yeah, Wow good one.
I feel like it just depends.
So, like most of the time, likethe writing process starts with
a track already being finished,like the actual beat is
finished and they just needvocals on them, and so I'll take
(24:35):
that track and I'll really justput myself into an open-minded
position of just whatever I feel, whatever emotions come to mind
, whatever words come to mind,whatever words come to mind when
I listen to it is what I'mgoing to base the track off of,
and I'm I am able to write aboutstuff that I haven't
necessarily been through.
So, like, just whateveremotions I feel like the track
channels is just like what I'mgoing to write about.
A lot of it is personalexperience too.
A lot of it's exaggerated aswell.
(24:57):
It's just like but I I'm reallygood at channeling emotion and
stuff like that, so I feel likethat's kind of like how my
process goes to writingsomething um it.
Speaker 1 (25:09):
so, yeah, it is like sometimes based off of an
experience I've had or anemotion I've felt before that I
want to channel into it yeah,because a lot of people like
I've been listening to certainartists that are like they just
want you to be like devastatedall the time, otherwise it's
like you know it's not going tohit.
Speaker 3 (25:26):
I will say, sometimes going through really rough shit
creates amazing music.
Speaker 2 (25:31):
Yeah, it does though it is an outlet.
I mean writing.
You are big on journaling, I'msure as a songwriter it could be
incorporated as well as justlike an outlet to express
Absolutely, like there'sdefinitely sometimes.
Speaker 3 (25:45):
I'll just like write lyrics in my phone Like I'll
think of something throughoutthe day, like if something
happened, I'll just, like youknow, make a quick note about it
and then I can write Like.
I've written a whole song basedoff of that before.
So, yeah, it is just one ofthose things where you like
(26:06):
channel your whatever energy,whatever vibe this the track is
giving.
Um, also like like writing withother people too which I've done
quite a bit like you you get toalso hear like their emotion
and like what they're feeling,and then you get to bounce back
and forth and like, really youknow, get to like vibe off of
each other and write you knowsomething maybe that you weren't
thinking of, and then itcreates, like this whole new
thing.
Speaker 2 (26:23):
So yeah, a beautiful blend.
So a fun thing that I don'tknow if Kayla knows this fully
about you, but Lexi, for themost part, is a sober raver as
well yeah oh, you didn't knowthat I mean.
Yeah, I mean it's in yourInstagram bio oh yeah it's kind
of hard I don't, I don't knowwhy I forgot that that was in
your bio, but I think thatthat's a really cool thing to
(26:45):
share, because not a lot ofpeople do it efficiently, and
it's just like an interestingperspective to add to the rave
scene, because a lot of peopledo go there to kind of let loose
and forget and be off the shitsin a sense.
Speaker 1 (26:59):
So well, there's a back and forth between that,
even though cause it's likepeople just simply go into the
scene because they think it'seither they found drugs before
the music and they're like oh,this is where I can go and do
drugs.
Speaker 2 (27:12):
Yeah.
Speaker 1 (27:13):
And or it's now.
I listened to the music and Igo there, and now I feel
obligated to do it.
But in a sense it's like peoplecan't even enjoy it without the
drug.
But it's like, okay, what doyou do when you go home then?
Are you listening to it in thecar or are you putting on your
alternative?
Speaker 2 (27:31):
Well, and also I think it's very interesting for
you, because you've never beenone to really do drugs in the
rave scene, I mean.
Speaker 3 (27:40):
I, I, oh, you were I slightly everyone dibble dabbles
a little bit I was.
I realized, though, that I,just like was not into it as
much as everybody else was andall my friends would do it too.
So I was just like I mean, I'll, like I did you know, dabble in
just one you know kind of thing.
And then I was.
I really was just like I don'tfucking like this yeah it's,
(28:02):
it's not me.
I would not feel like myself andI was just like you know what,
I'm just not gonna do it.
And then I've never been adrinker.
I've never really smoked, so Ijust kind of easy I was kind of
like this is just not for me andI'm gonna choose to be sober
raver and I have had the mostfun I've ever had being a sober
raver.
Speaker 2 (28:21):
But I do think it is as someone that also became a
sober raver.
For the most part, it also doesopen your eyes to just
remembering your experience, andI think that's a really cool
thing that people don't realize.
For me personally at least, Iwould go to these events and
(28:44):
then I'd come home and I'd havevideos to show that I was there,
but you kind of lose the aspectof what you're spending your
money on by going and just beinglike lit as a candlestick?
yeah, absolutely, we're not.
You like going, I don't know.
You build more core memories, Ifeel like yeah, I agree.
Speaker 1 (28:53):
Speaking of core memories off the top of your
head, what is your favorite corememory of a festival and a
serendipitous meeting that wasfrom a festival?
Speaker 3 (29:05):
I definitely think that this past forest was my
first one ever and it changed mylife.
It was the most beautifulexperience ever and it was just
so emotional being there andeverything felt so right and so
just like intertwined and it was.
It was so beautiful.
(29:26):
I was literally running intopeople that I haven't seen in
years, didn't talk to them,didn't like tell them I was
going to be there and I wouldjust run into them in the forest
and I'm like there arethousands of people here, how
did I just run into you likejust the most crazy experiences
happening there and that'shappened a couple times at
different festivals just likecrazy, like how did this happen?
moment, but specifically thefirst uh flow star meetup, that
(29:52):
was planned at forest.
That's where I met.
Speaker 2 (29:54):
Taylor, yeah, and I was at the honeycomb at the
honeycomb and who was.
Speaker 3 (29:58):
I don't even remember who was playing um.
I can see it wasn't it rightbefore the?
Speaker 2 (30:02):
who wait?
Who was it?
It was someone small.
Yeah, like very random pop-upshow.
We went because every for one.
There was gonna be a lot offloamies there, and there were a
lot of us oh yeah but it wasperfect because this was a small
artist.
Why I can't remember?
I can't remember either.
Speaker 3 (30:19):
I can't remember his name, but he even said on the
mic he was like this is my firstfestival.
Speaker 2 (30:24):
It was jam packed, everybody.
Speaker 3 (30:27):
The emotion was so intense, so insane, and
everybody was just like.
It felt like you were getting agiant hug from the whole entire
crowd.
It was so magical and all theflow me's were together and I
just saw like 10 flow stars inone area.
Everybody was so close togetherand I had gone up into the
honeycomb like where you couldlike the standing area, and I
(30:49):
was getting content and Iseriously was just sitting back
and I was like, oh, this is soamazing.
It brought tears in my eyes,like it was so emotional just
knowing that, like I was a partof something like that amazing,
and I'll never forget thatfeeling, like literally, I'll
never forget that feeling.
It was so beautiful, sodefinitely forest, yeah, yeah
that really was a magicalexperience.
Speaker 2 (31:11):
We'll have to put his at on the video so everyone can
see, because also that setstarted off pretty empty and by
the end of it.
It was jam-packed in the houselike floamies were everywhere.
Eventually, we've kind of allput our flow stars away and
we're just jumping aroundbouncing around together dubstep
was he more like it was house.
Yeah, it was kind of like a goodcombination.
(31:33):
Like she said, it was his firstreal festival set so at a big
format festival, I'm pretty sure.
So he brought an energy thatwas next level, like everyone
was just there to have fun.
It was not like a set where youcould tell people were like I
gotta get in the front, I gottabe here, like everyone was just
genuinely enjoying their timespent there it was amazing.
Speaker 1 (31:54):
The best part about forest is like you can be like
10 feet behind a tree and stillbe vibing.
You don't need to be in thecrowd to hear the music.
You don't need to be in thecrowd to have a good time Like
yeah.
Speaker 2 (32:05):
How many festivals did you go to last year, if you
even know?
Speaker 3 (32:10):
Honestly, I would have to sit there and count, but
I think it was close to like 15.
Speaker 2 (32:14):
Yeah.
Speaker 3 (32:15):
No, maybe like 13.
Speaker 2 (32:16):
Which one was your favorite?
Speaker 3 (32:19):
yeah, no, maybe like maybe like 13, which one was
your favorite?
I think my favorite one wasforest.
Oh really, yeah, um, and it wasjust because of how everything
just happened, and it was somany different things happening
to like so many weird, uh,coincidences, so many random
people that I got to meet whilebeing there.
um, I found myself just in themost bizarre situations, but
like in a good way, just likethings were just, you know, all
(32:41):
coming together and I got tomeet so many cool people and it
was just, it was amazing.
Yeah, definitely a force.
Speaker 1 (32:54):
Well, I want to tabletop and give some
inspiration and advice to ourlisteners and then kind of going
back to the first originalthing that you said about you
shifting from modeling throughCOVID, kind of being forced to
strip away from it and dive moreinto music and the EDM scene.
Now, talking and hearing aboutall of these beautiful things
that have happened, I feel likeor what is your thought process
or any advice that you can giveto people that are kind of like
(33:16):
feeling like if something getsstripped away for them or they
get fired from a job or theyhave a breakup happen, and like
feeling hopeless, like givingthem that, that spark to just
like this is for a reason likeyou don't even know is any
advice that you can give.
Speaker 3 (33:29):
I will.
I will say, like that, thatexperience for me specifically,
like trying to come to peacewith something that I wanted so
bad, which was being a model,and uh, I, I wasn't able to
really look at what washappening and I was depressed,
like it was not what I wassupposed to be doing.
I was not happy.
It was just that you know voicethat was like you worked so
(33:53):
hard for this, you've alwayswanted this.
Don't step away from it.
You have been doing this foryears and even though you don't
like it, like don't run awayfrom it because you try.
You like got here.
Finally you got what you wantedand it really was just the
universe was like I'm rippingyou out of this because you're
not supposed to be here rightnow.
There's so many other thingsthat you're supposed to be doing
(34:15):
, and that really is when I dovestraight and working on music,
like so it really was meant tolike open my life in a different
way, but just in a much betterway, where I was actually
fulfilled, actually happy.
So just know that, like thereare bigger and better things
(34:35):
coming, like with every doorthat closes, as long as you
leave the door open forsomething else to happen, it
will come.
So, and, honestly speaking tomyself right now, like I, I like
towards the end of last year,like life kind of, you know,
fell apart but also was tryingto fall into place, like things
are still trying to fall intoplace for me and I'm just
(34:56):
allowing them to happen and eventhough some of them were not so
good uh, things have been hardI am just still trying to
believe and, you know, workingon things that can possibly
happen.
I'm opening new doors formyself.
I am just still trying tobelieve and, you know, working
on things that can possiblyhappen.
I'm opening new doors formyself.
I am not big things coming sooncoming soon they're actually
like I just got reached out toyesterday, yeah, by somebody
(35:17):
that, like, I've always wantedto work with yeah, I'm really
excited to do that so it justtakes time.
Speaker 2 (35:23):
As someone that's been watching Lexi through this
process, I will say like ittakes a different kind of
strength to go through as muchas she did.
I mean part in career change,moving to a new city, finding
your placement in a place thatyou always wanted to be but are
still new to.
But then also, like throughoutthe time that has been spent of
(35:43):
her getting kind of acclimatedhere from an outside, it's nice
to see things finally fallinginto place.
Like throughout the time thathas been spent of her getting
kind of acclimated here from anoutside, it's nice to see things
finally falling into place andthe world aligning for her in
this city.
Speaker 3 (35:55):
As summer approaches, it's like we're right there.
I just need the sun.
I need the sun.
That's really what I've beenmissing for my life, 100% yeah.
Speaker 1 (36:01):
No, it really is just like as long as you can keep
the faith up and you're notmaking every single rejection or
like redirection, like the mostdevastated thing, Sit and cry
about it for a week but then getback up and figure out what
else you're going to do.
Speaker 2 (36:14):
Also heavy emphasis on it's OK to cry.
Speaker 3 (36:18):
Oh, I be crying, we be crying.
I'm crying, taylor, as you mecry, we cry, we cry, we crash
out, we crash out.
Speaker 2 (36:28):
We have a day, but then that's the biggest thing is
, although, like, lexi will havesuch like an off day, but then
she'll come back and be like,okay, but this is just my sign
for me to relock in even better.
Yeah, and so it's cool to seethat like motivation to grow as
an individual.
No matter how hard it gets,she's always OK.
I'm not happy with myself rightnow, but heavy emphasis on the
(36:52):
but I will tomorrow and I got it.
Speaker 3 (36:55):
So I will say like if you follow me on Instagram.
I have been opening up like alot lately about my recent, just
struggles and just like what?
like very minimally, not likeopening up too much because I
like I don't need to, you know,say everything, but, like with
the job change, I did open upabout that a little bit.
I've been going through a lotof skin troubles, personal
(37:16):
troubles, um, and I I justrecently put out a video just of
like talking to the girls thatare like just like me in the
sense of they're so open andgiving and loving towards
everybody else, and just likekeeping that positive
perspective even though theworld is fucked yeah like just
still deciding to wake up everyday and be positive and just try
(37:39):
your best and still love otherpeople, not turn into just like
a big menace, like it really ishard to like
keep that from happening whenthings are going wrong, and like
I have had a lot of stress puton me, like as the last couple
months, like moving to a newcity and never having done that
before, like it has beenstressful and very uncomfortable
(37:59):
.
So I I've been doing my bestbut like it's, it still is hard,
um, but I just wanted to be rawand real and open up about just
I am going through some shitright now for real and I, but
I'm still making the best of itand I still there is light at
the end of the tunnel, like I amagain.
Like things come up, like I gota cool opportunity yesterday and
(38:21):
I'm really excited to diveheadfirst into that, and I do
think that, like things, willyou know, fall into place.
But like for some reason,decided to like knock off my car
mirror two days ago and I'mlike what's up?
Speaker 1 (38:37):
so funny.
It was like I'm really about tocrash out right now so hard it
was so funny.
Speaker 2 (38:42):
No wait, lexi did yeet off her car mirror, and it
was so funny because we watchedit happen.
I was literally watching herdead in the face when it
happened.
Well, no, she was lookingbehind her like she was driving
the way she should have.
But our parking garage hasthese cement ass beams like
spaces are sometimes very skinnyand we have tandem parking, so
(39:05):
Lexi parks in front of me and Ipark behind her.
But we were just quicklyrunning into the house.
Both of us had to leave, so sheparked in the spot right next
to us, which is a tight squeeze,and we're all laughing, yapping
, having a moment and literallywas about to deliver cookies to
my friend.
Yeah, like she was doing thecutest thing made homemade
cookies, was like I'm gonna godrop them off to them because in
case they're having a bad day,like so, empath, I'm having a
(39:27):
bad day and then we're looking,we're like okay, bye, bye.
All of a sudden you hear andit's her freaking car mirror
scraping the cement, bendingfully backwards.
She's like mirror popped out.
Speaker 3 (39:49):
She's like how could I pull in, but I can't even pull
out?
Yeah, that makes no sense.
And then, parallel parking atone of my friend's house hit a
fucking car same night samenight she said blink so it was
emphasis on like lexi has thesethings happen, but then, for
instance last night, a beautifulopportunity opened up and
showed itself.
Speaker 2 (40:04):
So it's like give and take going into this festival
season.
I think that there's going tobe so many cool opportunities
that present for you, given theplate that you're being served
right now and it's giving it'sserving it's hopefully
thanksgiving dinner sweetpotatoes, sweet potatoes, the
gravy oh, don't even get mestarted like.
(40:29):
That is the manifestation I'mputting into the world for
Lexi's summer.
When it comes to the music, thevibes, the opportunities, just
everything.
I feel like this is going to beyour summer new city, new vibes
, big smiles and I just want toknow, like for you this summer,
our kind of say all like, whatis your goal for the summer?
Speaker 3 (40:51):
Be happy.
Speaker 2 (40:52):
Hey, that's 10 out of 10.
Be happy.
Speaker 3 (40:54):
Just like I.
Really I thrive during thesummer, the warmer months.
I am ready to be outside.
When I lived in Indiana, I wasnever outside because there was
just nothing to do.
Speaker 2 (41:04):
We got a balcony.
Speaker 3 (41:11):
I am oh, oh, my gosh, we have the most gorgeous patio
, like we're gonna have, we'regonna grill out there, yeah,
friends over and just like, havea great time.
I'm ready for it to be a like Idid all the travel, all of the
festivals I, you know, wenteverywhere last year.
I really had the mostincredible summer.
But I'm ready to settle downand actually enjoy nature, being
in a new city, meeting newpeople.
Like just I want to go to thepark and I want to read a book.
Speaker 2 (41:34):
Yeah.
Speaker 3 (41:35):
And I want to just vibe out, listen to music, I
want to hang out with my friends, I want to just like have a
great summer and just like behappy and be peaceful, like I
just want to be peaceful.
Speaker 2 (41:45):
I also want to share like kind of fun fact about Lexi
and I as roommates.
Is we low-key kind of moved intogether not really knowing each
.
Oh yeah, we met each other onceit's been so fun yeah, like it's
been the ultimate vibe, so justto share with those listeners.
Like y'all, we rock and roll itout and Lexi is really freaking
cool.
So if you haven't checked outher music, I think you're cool.
(42:09):
Oh, that's done repping theshirt.
But I think that if you guyshaven't listened to her music
yet, definitely check it out,because there's going to be so
much more coming and the best isyet to come, baby oh, that's
the other thing too.
Speaker 3 (42:22):
this summer I do want to just like dive heavy into
music, but but overall just behappy and I think that kind of
comes with it.
I do want to be writing a lotmore.
I am I used to be one of thosepeople that was just like oh,
I'll let the opportunities cometo me, because they always have
to be completely honest.
But, I do realize I do have tobe like.
You know what I?
Speaker 2 (42:43):
want this to happen.
I'm making it happen, yeah.
Speaker 3 (42:44):
Let me ask for it, even if I get rejected, whatever
, let me ask for the opportunity.
If it doesn't come, somebodyelse will give me the
opportunity.
Speaker 2 (42:51):
Yeah.
Speaker 3 (42:51):
Some other opportunity will come, another
plan will fall into place solike I really am, like I've been
reaching out to people, likewanting to work with them.
I'm like hopefully it just goeswell.
Speaker 2 (43:05):
The worst, they say, is no.
Yeah, and then maybe next timeyeah.
Speaker 1 (43:12):
I'm here to confirm that, yeah, this year is very
big with Virgo career Career,career career, career, career
career.
Through collab througheverything as long as you are
not letting yourself bedepressed for too long and
letting yourself do it for twodays and get back up and keep
going.
Yeah, you're going to have noproblem, absolutely.
(43:33):
It's written in the stars,sweetie.
Speaker 2 (43:35):
Yes, ma'am.
Speaker 1 (43:36):
Before we go, it's been so nice officially, kind of
like talking to you.
Of course I've met her here.
Speaker 2 (43:41):
Yeah, guys, Kayla is overemphasizing.
They've definitely hung out.
We've met.
Kayla is overemphasizing.
They've definitely hung out atthe house like a baby chat.
Speaker 1 (43:47):
It's very well.
Also as, as she just said, likeyou guys barely really like
moved in before.
No, and it's not it's not youknow and like that's not an
offense to either.
Speaker 2 (43:57):
No, you know, but we both did it on a whim.
Speaker 1 (44:00):
It's like, I feel it, it's like meeting someone
else's friend, you know.
Yeah, also in your house aswell.
Yeah.
Speaker 2 (44:05):
Like there's boundaries.
Speaker 1 (44:06):
Do I talk too much?
Do I?
Am I opening up too quick?
Speaker 2 (44:10):
Yeah, it's like it's scary Making friends.
Speaker 1 (44:14):
as an adult I was knowing you were going through
it a couple months ago, becauseI was too yeah.
Speaker 2 (44:18):
Well, and it's hard as an adult in general to like
make new friends, friends.
I think we all kind ofunderestimate the awkwardness
and like the oh my gosh, likewhy am I nervous?
Like I'm a 10 year old kidagain, like are they gonna like?
Speaker 3 (44:30):
me.
Am I gonna you're like?
Why did I say that yeah?
Speaker 2 (44:33):
really like it's funny now because we I'm sure we
had those moments in thebeginning where it was like
about each other, and now we'reto each other like wait, did I
just say the wrong thing?
Like oh my god, like wait, howdo I look today?
Is there something in my tooth?
And I'm like you're good,you're good now.
We're like making lemon gingershots every week, being on our
wellness shit.
It's so funny because we'vealso throughout the time because
(44:53):
, like Kayla's my best friend,who's also Virgo queen, and then
now my roommates are Virgo I'mlike, oh my gosh, the energy is
just always there, like thecomedy and everything is so in
sync and I knew it would be finebecause of you.
But it's so funny because I'mlike, oh my gosh, I just have
these two people that are likemy core people right now, but
they're so like we're all justcomedians.
Speaker 3 (45:13):
We are.
We're the funniest people onearth, like literally.
But it's so funny it will bereally really, really hard for
me to find a husband, that'sfunnier than I am.
Speaker 2 (45:28):
It's emphasis on the dark humor as well, like we all.
No, you won't are you serious?
Speaker 1 (45:30):
look at you.
They're gonna not be funnierthan you.
Speaker 2 (45:31):
You're gonna always about let me look at you.
You're always gonna be thefunniest.
I know what I look like.
Is somebody gonna match myfreak?
Speaker 1 (45:39):
but are you funnier than me?
Speaker 2 (45:42):
no, they can't be funnier than you.
That's just not possible,exactly like they can be almost
there, but it you.
Speaker 1 (45:45):
That's just not possible.
Speaker 2 (45:46):
Exactly Like they can be almost there, but it's not
going to work.
I'm going to be honest theoddball, goofball energy like
it's unmatched.
I mean same with you.
We'll just be saying the mostcrazy things and I'm like it's
the unspokenness of like noteven having to explain it.
Yeah, yeah, absolutely.
One hundred percent spokennessof, like not even having to
(46:06):
explain it.
Yeah, yeah, absolutely 100percent.
Speaker 1 (46:07):
Yeah, awesome, well, it's been so awesome getting to
know you before we go.
Do you have anything that wedidn't ask, that you feel
compelled to share?
Speaker 3 (46:14):
or anything you want to share be, happy, y'all stay
happy don't crash out and if youdo, only for a If you do do it
in the supervision of yourroommate, so that you don't
actually crash out.
Speaker 2 (46:30):
No, for real, Like crash out within reason,
tastefully, yeah, mindfullycrash out.
Speaker 3 (46:35):
Like, do your good cry, Do your good cry, and then
go get a matcha and then have abetter day.
Speaker 2 (46:42):
Yeah.
Speaker 1 (46:43):
In pure mindful mayhem fashion.
Speaker 2 (46:46):
Yeah, yeah literally be chaotic, but like tastefully,
you know.
So thank you so much, lexi, forbeing our first guest thank you
guys for having me.
Speaker 3 (46:57):
I had so much fun yeah, I love yapping.
We love a good yap that's whyyou guys are having a podcast
professionally at first.
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I’m Jay Shetty host of On Purpose the worlds #1 Mental Health podcast and I’m so grateful you found us. I started this podcast 5 years ago to invite you into conversations and workshops that are designed to help make you happier, healthier and more healed. I believe that when you (yes you) feel seen, heard and understood you’re able to deal with relationship struggles, work challenges and life’s ups and downs with more ease and grace. I interview experts, celebrities, thought leaders and athletes so that we can grow our mindset, build better habits and uncover a side of them we’ve never seen before. New episodes every Monday and Friday. Your support means the world to me and I don’t take it for granted — click the follow button and leave a review to help us spread the love with On Purpose. I can’t wait for you to listen to your first or 500th episode!
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