Lost to Morgellons

Crystal gets weird, stays weird, misses people she never met and stands on the abyss into which sanity slips when you treat morgellons disease with solitude and mass gaslighting. “That's a lethal combination for despair. Stick with the horse paste ya’ll” -CC at [e-mail]

Episode Transcript

(00:00):
Hello, hello, It's crystal clear.
The host of more Morgans the first time.
Listeners, you're. In for a treat.
And to my loyal long time listeners, I hacked your
intimacy receptors and gained your trust for that.
Alone you should not trust me but.
I've been in your ear while you were washing dishes on the

(00:22):
treadmill, walking your dog, tweezing.
Out your. Marks contemplating your own
insignificance in a Walgreens parking lot.
I talk to you, not at you. I overshare just enough to make
you feel like you know my childhood trauma.
Don't have any. My coffee order?
Don't drink it. And my politics, which is of

(00:44):
course MAGA melt America. God Almighty to those of you who
have never. Talked back.
To me, thank you. I never disappoint you.
I never forget your birthday. I text you at 2:00 AM saying you
up. Just reliable.
Emotionally curated. Companionship delivered in 1.5
times speed. It's kind of.
Parasocial. A warm blanket conversational

(01:08):
illusion. A1 sided friendship where you.
Always feel. Seen and I.
Always feel. Heard it's.
Kind of beautiful and it's kind of a trap and it's kind of not
true because. The Morgan mixer is The Morgan
mixer is this. Weekend, y'all, it's Monday, the
best day of the week. Let's.

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Get to. Know each other.
Stranger, if your ship has been at sea so low.
For SO. Long on a slipstream of science
fiction inspired nonfiction. The reality?

(01:54):
Don't call me I'd. Love to take your confession.
Let's get messy and be human. Put ourselves on the line and be
vulnerable. Let's get disappointed.
Let's. Get real.
Let's. Get right to it.
On today's episode. We are going to hear from the

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listeners. I haven't.
Heard from. In a while, or the ones I never
met, by the way, if you'd like. To tell.
Your story on more morgalons. Write me an e-mail at
[e-mail] if you don't have morgalons and you
just want to come on the show, well.
Let's see what. You got don't make Me
marshmallow roast you on this show, which is known to induce

(02:39):
relationship rage reality checkschecking out of reality tuning
in topping. Over propaganda.
Mamaganda. Misinformation, Disinformation.
Paranormal polemics Puns. And rhythms.
And the words salad, the lingua franca, honka, Tonka.
You know what I'm saying? Talk to me y'all.

(03:01):
From May 13th, 2025, I. Feel like my life is a
groundhog's day, Yes? Sometimes.
Sometimes, but not always, something unusual.
Just happened. A few minutes ago, Tom was over
here and he brought this book. He found it at the Goodwill.
And I was like. Did you just find that right now
down? He's like, yeah, just down the

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street at the Goodwill from yourhouse, he said.
There's a name on the inside cover, and sure enough,
someone's first, middle and lastname is written.
Presumably someone who has mortar bunts.
So of course. I Google the name and what I
what I find is a Go Fund me pagethat was posted on April 1st of

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this year asking for donations for this woman who has stage 3B
ovarian cancer and stage 1 uterine cancer.
She is battling cancer. She is single mom.
Her daughter is still living in her house.
She is struggling not just with morgolons, but she's in a fight

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for her. Life that puts.
A lot of things into perspective, doesn't it?
I sent her an e-mail after I hadmade a donation to her GoFundMe,
which hasn't been updated since.April. 5th so I don't even know
if she's still alive. I.
Really hope she is God. I pray she is and I hope I hear

(04:30):
back from her. I hope she will be willing to
come on this show. And tell.
Her story. Which would also probably help.
Her go fund me which she has not.
Reached her goal yet? I can't.
Even imagine what she's going through, Ma'am, We're very
lucky. We're very lucky.
Dear Miss. Lee I.

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Hope this message finds you withmoments of comfort and strength
in the midst of your healing journey.
I came across your name in a rather moving way.
A copy of Ginger Savely's book Morgalons was donated to
Goodwill and your name was handwritten on the inside cover.
I felt. An instant sense of connection,
recognizing that anyone who owned this book likely carried a

(05:11):
story worth hearing. In looking you up, I came across
your GoFundMe and I wanted to begin by saying I'm truly sorry
you're having to face what you are.
I know how isolating and exhausting serious illness.
Can be. And how few?
Spaces exist. To hold that truth without
trying to fix or flatten it. I host a podcast called More
Morgolons, which gives voice to those of us who've lived through

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things that medicine, media, andsociety often dismiss or
distort. Your voice struck me as one that
could offer profound insight andcourage to others walking
through complex, often invisiblebattles, whether with morgolons,
cancer, or both. If you're open to it, I'd be
honored to have you Share your story on the show in whatever
form is most comfortable for you.

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A short recorded phone call withme, or simply a voice memo.
You record and send in whatever is easiest on your energy.
You would absolutely be welcome to speak about your GoFundMe and
any message you'd like the community.
To hear. My hope is to amplify not just
your story, but your strength. There's no pressure or timeline,
just a real invitation. If you'd like to connect, you
can reply directly here or call me at the number below.

(06:17):
Thank you for being a part of this story, whether or not you
choose to participate with warmth and respect.
Crystal clear host of more morgalons.
It's. Been a month and I still haven't
received a response. I'm still thinking about and
praying for you, for all of you.June 10th, 2025 I receive an

(06:43):
e-mail from a gentleman who saysI don't think I have more than
days. To be honest, I've lost 30 lbs
in a week. No matter how much I eat, it's
pinning me down because it's travelling through me into the
earth. Plastic etcetera.
I have it. On camera.
It's a worm as big as me that controls everything else.

(07:04):
The sound in that emergence episode is here.
It's 24/7. It's either when it creates
something, teleports them, or swimming through metal.
Objects, etcetera. It made a bug by command.
Please help, I'm lost. I can't go on much longer, won't
have too much time left. I'm 34 with an 18 year old son.

(07:25):
I don't want to. Die please, no one understands
or will even watch my videos I wrote back the same night.
Dear Beep, I got your message and I just want to say I hear
you and you are not alone. You are not alone in this.
I don't have the answers but I'mnot turning away either.
What? You're describing.
Is horrifying and overwhelming, but you're not crazy.

(07:48):
Your body's doing something extreme and your perception of
it is not for me to judge. Let's start with what we can
name. You said you've lost 30 lbs in a
week. That's severe and something real
is happening to your system. Have you had any labs done
recently? Thyroid Electro Thyroid
electrolytes. Blood panels.
Anything. If so, I can help look at the
numbers as a. Friend.

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If not, I can suggest what to ask for if you end up in the ER.
Not because I think they'll believe everything, but because
it might help get a. Foothold.
I know how impossible it is to get help when no one sees what
you're seeing. But you reached out and that
tells me something in you still believes this story needs to be
heard. And I agree.
I'm here. I'll read what you send.

(08:29):
I'll look. You don't have to carry this
alone. When did this start?
Has it been escalating over timeor was there a clear event?
Whatever. This is Parasite.
Field. Disruption.
Something born from systems we haven't named yet.
If it's trying to erase you, we won't let it.
You're not invisible here. Crystal, Crystal.

(09:07):
June 12th. Hey, are you alive?
The 16th? If you're out there and you're
alive, come back. Come back when you can.
We're all here waiting. We're all alone in this
together.