Morgellons Is Not A Mystery

Crystal lays out a clear path to settle the morgellons debate once and for all. “It’s not a delusion if you’re really grand.” -CC

Episode Transcript

(00:00):
You know, it's wild. If I were dead, if they found my
body face down in a drainage ditch covered in micro glitter,
they send in the full forensic squad, spectrometers scanning
electron microscopes, chain of custody glitter catalogs from
the FBI's obscure materials archive.

(00:21):
But I'm alive. I'm alive and I've got the same
glitter in my hair and my skin and instead of CSI I get CPTSC
and a referral to psych. Welcome to more morgolons.
The only place where being too alive makes you unreliable and
your skin is more suspicious than a crime scene.

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I'm crystal clear. You know, I've said it before
and I'll say it again. Glitter is one of the most
forensically valuable substanceson earth.
It's small, it sticks to everything, it can't be washed
out, and it's manufactured in thousands of unique
combinations, different shapes, sizes, polymers, colors,
layering patterns. Glitter is trace evidence gold.

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They've used it in real murder trials to link victims to cars,
the suspects to crime scenes. A single flake of red glitter in
a trunk can put someone away forlife.
But when you and me find glitterembedded in our skin, maybe
blue, maybe green, maybe gold, maybe silver, maybe with a weird

(01:26):
reflective cap on top, when we find it it it's probably just a
textile fiber, or worse and morelikely, it's dilution of
parasitosis. So why when people like me and
people like you, people with chronic skin eruptions, fibers,
and yes, glitter show up to doctors, we don't get a lab

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report? Why do we get laughed out of
clinics while murderers get microscope confirmed particle
analysis? If glitter is good enough for
court, why isn't it good enough for medicine?
Maybe it's because murder doesn't threaten the scientific
worldview. But morgalons?
That's messy, That's subversive,that's controversial.
That's contested. That's unproven.

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But it's unproven because they refuse to investigate.
If it's glitter, then it can be subjected to technical analysis
for your transmation infrared spectroscopy that's used to
identify the polymer type and glitter.

(02:32):
It's common in labs with forensic spectroscopy
capabilities. Trust me, it would be used
probably in a murder investigation if that was what
the evidence came down to. Solving the case depended upon
also scanning electron microscopy with energy
dispersive spectroscopy to imagesurface morphology and detecting
metal based additives or coatings in glitter.

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It's important for distinguishing between batches
and manufacturers. Yes, there's only a few
manufacturers of glitter. There's also micro
spectrophotometry. This could analyze the glitter's
color layer by layer without destroying the sample.
It's useful in side by side comparisons so we can determine
definitively whether or not Morgellon's glitter is just

(03:16):
craft glitter from greeting cards, as as some have
suggested. I'm talking about you, Charles E
Holman Foundation. And you know, that's pretty much
the symptom of the larger issue here.
If the Charles E Holman Foundation, the supposed
advocacy group for Morgellon's patients, is dismissing the

(03:37):
presence of glitter as Christmascard glitter, fuck, I don't even
know. Well, that's the problem.
Because if nobody in the official discourse wants to
admit glitter, then nobody is going to admit that this is not
some mystical forever unknowableenigma.

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It's only unsolvable if you refuse to run controlled
experiments, keep pretending you're null model is already
proven, and burn all your credibility budget on quote
mental illness narratives instead of materials analysis.
What we've got is the perfect misdirection trap.

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They imply it's an undecidable subjective phenomena.
You can't prove every behavior of every system.
But in reality, this isn't everysystem.
It's a finite physical sample sitting on a slide in your
living room. That's testable.
That's falsifiable. That's science.
We're not talking about predicting an arbitrary Turing

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machines behavior. We're talking about we have
object X. We can heat it, light it, ZAP
it, scan it. We can tell if it's keratin,
polymer, or hybrid in under an hour.
With the right kit, we can repeat that enough times to rule
out cosmetic and Christmas card glitter excuses.
The only reason that morgues feels unsolvable is because the

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right kind of instrumental access is kept scarce and
narrative pressure discourages anyone from touching it.
That's an institutional problem,not a scientific one.
If you ran real, controlled, transparent tests and they came
back all normal, the whole thingcollapses into a treatable
psychiatric frame. I think all of us would line up
for the fucking Seroquel and theRisperdal if they did that.

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But they haven't. They don't run those tests, or
if they do, they use junk protocols.
Scrape skin with tape. Look under lomag light scope,
ignore sample handling, cross contamination with lint,
cosmetics, etcetera. They report consistent with
textile fibers without publishing Spectra or raw
imagery, and it keeps the data locked in an institutional vault

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where no one can audit it. That's why the controversy drags
on. Not because the questions
unanswerable, but because it's never been answered in a way
that's both scientifically validand socially trustworthy.
You guys, I understand that we could have a genuine resolution
pathway. It might look something like

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this. Like you take 2 hypotheses and
put them head to head. Hypothesis #1 All samples are
normal keratin, hair, environmental lint, and cosmetic
and Christmas card glitter. Hypothesis 2.
One or more samples contain atypical composite materials
like polymers or engineered biofilms.

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So then what we would do to testthe first hypothesis and the
second hypothesis would be a blind collection and handling.
So we split the samples between patient provided and control the
healthy donors matched environment.
And then we get the independent lab techs and they can handle
labeling double-blind to the analyst.

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And then a multi modal analysis like light microscopy, polarized
scanning electron microscope, the ramen testing DNA, protein,
say possibly every result will be cross referenced with control
and then open publication. All Spectra, images, chain of

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custody logs released and were all formed.
Anybody that wants to can reanalyze, no cherry picking.
So then once you have the research decision logic, if all
Morgalon samples match controls,that's strong evidence for the
mental health treatment pivot. And then if any Morgalon sample
diverges, then there needs to bea physical etiology work up and

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then escalate it to the relevantagencies.
So if the powers that be actually followed this process
and everything came back normal,I think the majority of us
reasonable people would accept that outcome and shift towards
psychiatric care because it would be based on trustworthy,
reproducible data instead of dismissive hand waving.

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But they haven't done that. And until they do, I'm going to
trust me and I'm going to trust you.
We didn't imaginate these physical objects that we find in
and around us. This is not an unsolvable
mystery on stuff that works dot health.
There's like almost 3000 people on the morgalons disease page

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contributing data and information that is then
analyzed by an AI. And there's a really interesting
chart on their website that shows that the peak incident of
onset for morgalons is really right around the age of 40, but
definitely between 35 and 45. People can get it at all ages,

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but it is a very distinct graph that shows that the incidence
arises and peaks around the age of 40.
My demographic listener stats also support this data.
Y'all are my cohort. Kind of old but still sexy.
So the morgalon's onset peaking around age 40 is kind of weird

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for a primary psychotic disorder.
Classic schizophrenia peaks in like early 20s for men and late
20s early 30s for women. Late onset psychosis over 40 is
rare and often it's like secondary to something else.
You know like metabolic issues, infections, neurodegeneration or
drugs, medication side effects. Also what about the geographic

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and temporal clusters? There have been multiple
documented localized spikes and morgolons reports.
You know like Northern California mid 2000s.
What? The common mainstream
explanation of monosymptomatic delusional disorder?
Yeah, the one where we believe the same glitter appears

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spontaneously in unrelated adults across multiple states
because humans are imaginative little monkeys.
They claim it is a fixed false belief and that the fibers,
hair, glitter, all that shit aremisperceptions or contaminants.
But what that model has to explain and it really doesn't is
for instance things like the agepeak.
Also that model does not explainthe clusters.

(10:24):
I mean you'd need mass psychogenic illness without a
closed environment and with highly specific shared details.
Also would have to explain the acute onset like delusional
disorder. Usually creeps not slams us.
We were fine one day, the next day there was fucking black
specks everywhere. The rapid waves that suggests a
trigger, and also the cross sensory congruence.

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Like many of us report nearly identical visual, tactile
features and we have pictures that match.
It's kind of odd for idiosyncratic delusions.
So if they wanted to show us once and for all that we were
all nuts, then they should. Absolutely test it.

(11:12):
Test your hypothesis, prove it. They would be predicting that
objective materials testing willmatch controls.
So if they test the morgolons they will match controls for
like keratin, lint, cosmetic pigments.
The symptoms should not track light, humidity, electromagnetic
waves or chemistry in any reproducible ways, and

(11:33):
psychiatric treatment alone should resolve symptoms without
material changes. And they haven't done that.
They haven't done that. They could at least try to prove
that it was secondary psychosis from a shared trigger.
You know, like a physical irritant agent.
I don't know biofilm polymer, composite, micro, nano

(11:56):
particulates. In fact something generates real
stimuli and visible artifacts downstream anxiety, psychosis
can occur in a subset you know that would fit better midlife
onset, threshold accumulation orlife stage exposures.
Clusters could be related to supply chain, environmental, you
know, exposure or like the care setting or something being

(12:17):
linked. The acute onset could be, you
know, there could be trigger events like we remodeled the
house or we, you know, changed our, the products we use or
whatever. And also the phenotype
specificity like the similar materials, similar reports that

(12:39):
would be explained by again, a physical irritant agent
generating the real experience of mortal lines.
Yeah, basically any theory is stronger than delusional
parocytosis. And your theory, no matter what
it is, can be tested. If you never test, you're never

(13:03):
wrong. Also, you never have to buy an
FTIR spectrometer, which apparently cost as much as a
starter home in Tampa. Listen, all I'm saying to you
guys is that this is not a permanent mystery.
I don't know how. I don't know who, I don't know
when, but I do know why? Because we deserve to know what

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is in our bodies and our environments that we call
morgalons, that we have picturesof and that those pictures match
each other's and we're strangersand we've never met.
And you live in New Zealand and I live in Atlanta.
Shit like that. We're not crazy.
This isn't an unknowable mysterynever to be solved.
Oh, it will be solved. And when it is, we will be

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toasting champagne with our class action lawyers, or we'll
be wearing tinfoil hats in the lap, still refusing to believe
what scientific proof has established.
I don't think that's going to bethe case, you guys.
I think that the mystery is going to be solved and we will

(14:11):
be vindicated after all these years of denial and defamation.
Until then, please know that this too shall pass.
Not the morgalons, just the being freaked out about
morgalons thing. It's possible.
Look at me now. I'm obsessed with real estate.
I don't give a fuck about morgalons.
I carry them everywhere I go. Pack your bags, morgues.

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We're moving. All right.
Thanks for listening and stay tuned.
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