September 19, 2025 • 16 mins
Vulnerability rarely makes an appearance in expat podcasts about Thailand, but in this raw solo episode, I pull back the curtain on both my mental health struggles and the financial reality of creating independent content. While I genuinely love my life in Pattaya and remain grateful for every sunrise I witness here, I've recently found myself battling low energy days that have affected my ability to maintain our regular podcast schedule.
After two years of production, I'm finally addressing something that's been weighing on me - I haven't been fully honest with you. Despite occasionally implying that listener support funds our equipment and studio time, the truth is everything comes out of my pocket. With just two financial supporters, we don't even cover basic hosting costs. This admission represents my rejection of the "fake it till you make it" mentality that pervades online content creation. While I can continue funding everything myself for several more months, there will eventually be a limit to what I can sustain without additional support.
Beyond finances, this episode explores something universally relevant regardless of where you live - the importance of mental health and supportive relationships. I share my personal strategies for navigating difficult periods, emphasizing how crucial it is to surround yourself with people who genuinely care about your wellbeing. From my experience, reaching out when you're struggling isn't met with judgment but with respect and support. If you're feeling down, whether in Thailand or anywhere else, remember that tomorrow might be better - and there have been countless times in my life where pushing through difficult periods led to complete transformations just months later. I'm taking next week off to recharge, but I'll be back soon with more authentic conversations about the Thailand you don't see in travel brochures. If you value what we're building here, please consider supporting us through Patreon, or even just leaving a comment or like to let me know you're listening.
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Speaker 1 (00:01):
Hello everyone and welcome back to my DIY podcast.
I'm Mike and today I'm doingsomething weird, something
different.
So I'm doing.
First of all, it's a soloepisode and it's going to be
kind of a short episode.
Don't worry, I'm not announcingthat we are quitting the
podcast or taking a long breakor something like that.
(00:26):
We would take a break for oneweek, so next week there will be
no episode.
The reason for that is me.
Lately I've been a little bitdown mentally, not like
depressed or something, but Ifind it very hard to do
(00:48):
everything I do I need to do inorder to make sure that we have
new guests and the episodes arerunning.
And it's not because I'm nothappy where, with where the
podcast is right now.
I am.
I am kind of happy.
(01:09):
I think we grew substantiallyand like I mean subscriber wise
and stuff like that.
But there are other things thatmake me feel like I'm not as
happy.
No, let me rephrase that I amhappy.
(01:30):
I'm happy to do that.
I think I have a very importantmessage that I do try to make
sure we reach our listeners, notonly about the fun and the sexy
parts and everything in Pattaya, but more about how important
(01:52):
it is to actually appreciateeverything here.
I got actually a very nicecomment the other day.
Someone told me that it'srefreshing to see a podcaster in
Pattaya which is an expat orwhatever, like a foreigner, that
is actually happy to be therehere, sorry, and not complaining
(02:13):
all the time how the Thais arelike that, that I love Thai
people, you know that, and I'mnot complaining about the prices
and everything.
I just like showing there is anincrease or decrease.
It's okay, but I do happy.
Every day I wake up here I'mhappy, but it doesn't mean that
(02:34):
sometime, like you know, likeeveryone, sometimes you're up,
sometimes you are down, and Iactually did something that made
me.
How would I explain that?
I did something that actuallymade me feel like I'm not honest
with you guys.
So all my life people told meyou have to fake it till you
(02:58):
make it.
You know that bullshit phrase.
I fucking hate it and I neverdid it before.
Really I have never done itbefore and I I thought it's
stupid and I didn't believe inthat and I still don't believe
in that.
I think it's always best to behonest to yourself first and to
other about where are youstanding, in any font or
(03:20):
whatever.
But one thing I did.
It was that I was telling youguys that, thanks to your
support, we are able to do thatin a studio or getting more
equipment or everything.
And that was kind of a lie,because everything that we are
doing in this podcast is comingout of my own pocket.
(03:43):
Right now.
We don't have.
We have, I'll be honest, wehave like two supporters.
That's it, and of course, it'snot enough for anything like
like.
It doesn't even like cover thecost of the.
So when you're doing a podcast,there is something that call
like a podcast host.
(04:04):
You're uploading everythingthere and give you some editing
tools and then it's likedistributing it all over the
place.
So it doesn't even cover thiscost, which is the basic thing
that I paid.
I'm paying it like for alreadytwo years and now with the
studio and the equipment forexample, this excellent
(04:28):
microphone, by the way, I'mshooting it from from my phone
right now.
This is why it's not, it willmight not be as good quality as
normally we are providing you inthe studio, but the studio cost
the, the equipment that webring um.
I'm not paying for guests.
I'm against that.
I think, like when I'm givinglike the stage for the platform
(04:51):
for other people to tell theirstory.
I think I shouldn't pay thembecause it's elevating both of
us in some way not only mebecause, for example, some of
the girls some way not only me,because, for example, some of
the girls, uh, they have theirown like only friends, or
twitter or sorry, x or whatever,and like they have their own
(05:13):
followers and new people mightsee them through my podcast.
And the opposite way, like ifthey post it on their twitter,
maybe new people will know aboutmy podcast.
And this way I'm not paying formy guests yet.
It's something that in thefuture, if we might be able to
(05:35):
generate enough money, we wouldbring like high priority guests.
I hope so, of course.
Then it might be collaborationor I have to pay for that.
But again, that's not importantright now.
What important, what'simportant for me right now, is
to tell you guys that I lie toyou.
Your support is not enoughright now in order to keep this
(05:59):
podcast going.
I'm still paying it out of myown pocket.
It's not that a lot of money.
Again, we are in thailand andthings are cheaper.
I will not get into the prices,but it's much cheaper than
doing the in the US, so I havevery good deal with the studio
in order to do it there and Itry to buy things like equipment
(06:24):
when it on sale and basicallythat's it.
But this is something that I didwant to say to you guys that,
yes, we do need your supportvery much and it's not it's not
me begging you.
Okay, that's important for meto tell you.
(06:46):
But if you do think that thecontent we provide for you and
for us we are enjoying that aswell is good and it's something
that you are enjoying weekly andyou want to continue, enjoy
that, eventually I will not haveenough money to to keep
creating that.
(07:06):
It's not in the next week or inthe next month.
I can go few more months, evenmore than that, but for my own
pocket, but there will be alimit for that, of course.
So if it the it is somethingthat you want to see going on
and growing in the future, ifyou can, any donation will be
(07:30):
tremendous for us.
You will not be you.
You can't believe how muchbecause we do enjoy that doing
the podcast and we do enjoy youguys, because I'm not doing it
only for me.
I'm doing it because I knowthere are other people that
interested in pattaya, inthailand in general, in ladyboys
(07:54):
and ladies in the bar scene, inthe nightlife scene.
That like, for example, thereason I started this podcast
after I did it with my ex-wifeand I the reason I continue with
that, because I was actuallylooking for a podcast that doing
something like this, thattalking about those kind of
(08:14):
subject subjects, but therewasn't any, and this is also
what gave me the confidence oflike, okay, I'm going through
with this, I will try it, andyou guys proved me as listeners,
of course, that there isaudience for that.
It's not a huge audience and weare still growing monthly by
(08:38):
actually a sub I cannot speaknow a big number, okay, and I'm
happy with that and, as I toldyou.
So that's about that.
But I want to to talk againabout what I started talking in
the beginning of the episode.
I want to talk about mentalstates that some people are in
(09:00):
for me, like, as I told you, I'mnot depressed, I'm not in any
sort of danger of harming myselfor something, but I just have
like low days, like low energydays, and I try to do as much
stuff as I can that make me feelbetter, like listening to music
(09:23):
, go eat in a nice restaurant,meet people that I love and I
care about and care about mealso.
And yeah, I'm trying, butsometimes that's not enough and
I find myself, like, as Elliealways says, like rotting in my
room for a few days, and that'sokay if it happens to you.
(09:44):
First of all, accept it.
Some days are not good, someweeks are not good, hell heck.
Some years sometimes are notgood, and it's okay.
The the key for that is to keepfighting, to keep going, and I
really think it's not the firsttime it happened to me, it's not
(10:08):
the second and it sure is notthe last time it happens to me.
So I just remind myself alwayslike, hey, tomorrow might be
better, tomorrow might be better, tomorrow might be better every
day Well, every day before I goto sleep, and some days be
better.
Tomorrow might be better Everyday.
Well, every day before I go tosleep, and some days are better.
And luckily, I found people thatI love here that care about me
(10:31):
and I care about them, and wesurrender surrounding each other
and we make sure that wheneversomeone is down, the other
people help him, and I'm notonly talking about Scott and
Michelle.
I'm talking about people thatyou don't know because they
(10:51):
refuse, sadly, to come on thepodcast.
Some of them are Thai people,some of them are foreigners,
some of them are even from mycountry, and I'm happy for that,
and this is the point I want totalk about mainly Make sure and
(11:14):
sometimes it's not easy, butmake sure you have people that
you love and they love you backaround you.
It's so important.
If you suffer from, I will justsay, mental instability but I
think no one really suffer fromthat, everyone have that.
Like, as I said, some days aregood, some days are bad, but
(11:34):
make sure that the people thatare near you and you see them
and you talk with them normallyare people that you like and
they like you and you havecommon interest and you are
friends.
That I will always make surethat when I'm reaching the edge,
(12:06):
I will grab one of my friendsand I will tell him hey, I'm
down, I need your help, like,just talk with me or let's go
somewhere or do something that Ilike or we like as friends, and
it helps.
It helps and I encourageeveryone of everyone in the
world actually, but right nowI'm talking to people that
(12:29):
actually listen.
If you feel down, reach out tosomeone and just tell them don't
be shy, don't, don't think theywill judge you badly.
The the opposite is the theactually actual, actual truth.
They will judge you badly.
The opposite is the actualtruth.
They will respect it.
Reach to them.
Reach them and say hey, buddyor girlfriend or whatever, it
(12:50):
doesn't matter, I need your help, I'm down, let's do something.
And I'm glad.
I'm glad that I'm in a point inmy life that I can understand
that.
I understand how big of a poweris that and how important it is
.
And I'm thankful for my friendsand my listeners and my family,
(13:16):
of course, and everyone that Ilove and loves me back.
Yeah, I know it's funny, butbut yeah, some people actually
love me back.
So I'm joking.
But again, this is the pointthat I want to get through.
This is not about Pattaya.
This is not about Thailand, isabout about men, mental health
(13:41):
or just, in general, people'smental health.
It's okay to be down.
Really, it is okay to be down.
It is okay to have bad days.
Elevate yourself, use otherpeople in a good way, ask them
to help you and be okay.
Don't give up, because givingup is not the answer.
Be okay, don't give up becausegiving up is not the answer.
(14:04):
Like, if I think how many timesI was, I was very down in my
life and I almost gave up andthen, like a month later or a
year later, my life was likecompletely changed and I was
happy.
And again I am happy.
Now, don't get me wrong, I amhappy.
I feel like I'm repeatingmyself, so I don't want to go
(14:29):
there.
But again I will just say thankyou guys for listening.
I'm taking a week off, only oneweek.
So next Friday or Saturdaythere will not be an episode, so
we will come back after thatand, um, that's it.
So thank you.
(14:50):
And if you can, as I said, evena like or subscribe.
Subscribe, even a like orsubscribe is a lot.
But if, if you can and I reallywe really need it in order to
make sure this podcast will stayin high quality and in a studio
and bring you the best gueststhat we can, please go to the
(15:11):
Patreon, go to the Buzzsprout.
The Patreon is better in myopinion.
It's much easier.
Also, the payment there.
Help us get this podcast movingforward to the next level.
Okay, and again, I appreciateeven every comment that you
leave me.
I try to make sure that youguys know that.
(15:33):
So the guys that did left mecomments and I answered again.
Thank you for doing that, andevery like is very important.
And that's it, guys.
So you know it was a short one.
I love you, I really do.
I love you guys.
Thank you, guys, and girls, bythe way.
Yeah, thank you, and hopefullyin two weeks everything will be
(15:59):
much brighter and more colorfuland my face will not be like
that.
I might smile again.
So thank you, guys, and I seeyou next time.
Bye, bye.
Hello everyone and welcome back to my DIY podcast.
I'm Mike and today I'm doingsomething weird, something
different.
So I'm doing.
First of all, it's a soloepisode and it's going to be
kind of a short episode.
Don't worry, I'm not announcingthat we are quitting the
podcast or taking a long breakor something like that.
(00:26):
We would take a break for oneweek, so next week there will be
no episode.
The reason for that is me.
Lately I've been a little bitdown mentally, not like
depressed or something, but Ifind it very hard to do
(00:48):
everything I do I need to do inorder to make sure that we have
new guests and the episodes arerunning.
And it's not because I'm nothappy where, with where the
podcast is right now.
I am.
I am kind of happy.
(01:09):
I think we grew substantiallyand like I mean subscriber wise
and stuff like that.
But there are other things thatmake me feel like I'm not as
happy.
No, let me rephrase that I amhappy.
(01:30):
I'm happy to do that.
I think I have a very importantmessage that I do try to make
sure we reach our listeners, notonly about the fun and the sexy
parts and everything in Pattaya, but more about how important
(01:52):
it is to actually appreciateeverything here.
I got actually a very nicecomment the other day.
Someone told me that it'srefreshing to see a podcaster in
Pattaya which is an expat orwhatever, like a foreigner, that
is actually happy to be therehere, sorry, and not complaining
(02:13):
all the time how the Thais arelike that, that I love Thai
people, you know that, and I'mnot complaining about the prices
and everything.
I just like showing there is anincrease or decrease.
It's okay, but I do happy.
Every day I wake up here I'mhappy, but it doesn't mean that
(02:34):
sometime, like you know, likeeveryone, sometimes you're up,
sometimes you are down, and Iactually did something that made
me.
How would I explain that?
I did something that actuallymade me feel like I'm not honest
with you guys.
So all my life people told meyou have to fake it till you
(02:58):
make it.
You know that bullshit phrase.
I fucking hate it and I neverdid it before.
Really I have never done itbefore and I I thought it's
stupid and I didn't believe inthat and I still don't believe
in that.
I think it's always best to behonest to yourself first and to
other about where are youstanding, in any font or
(03:20):
whatever.
But one thing I did.
It was that I was telling youguys that, thanks to your
support, we are able to do thatin a studio or getting more
equipment or everything.
And that was kind of a lie,because everything that we are
doing in this podcast is comingout of my own pocket.
(03:43):
Right now.
We don't have.
We have, I'll be honest, wehave like two supporters.
That's it, and of course, it'snot enough for anything like
like.
It doesn't even like cover thecost of the.
So when you're doing a podcast,there is something that call
like a podcast host.
(04:04):
You're uploading everythingthere and give you some editing
tools and then it's likedistributing it all over the
place.
So it doesn't even cover thiscost, which is the basic thing
that I paid.
I'm paying it like for alreadytwo years and now with the
studio and the equipment forexample, this excellent
(04:28):
microphone, by the way, I'mshooting it from from my phone
right now.
This is why it's not, it willmight not be as good quality as
normally we are providing you inthe studio, but the studio cost
the, the equipment that webring um.
I'm not paying for guests.
I'm against that.
I think, like when I'm givinglike the stage for the platform
(04:51):
for other people to tell theirstory.
I think I shouldn't pay thembecause it's elevating both of
us in some way not only mebecause, for example, some of
the girls some way not only me,because, for example, some of
the girls, uh, they have theirown like only friends, or
twitter or sorry, x or whatever,and like they have their own
(05:13):
followers and new people mightsee them through my podcast.
And the opposite way, like ifthey post it on their twitter,
maybe new people will know aboutmy podcast.
And this way I'm not paying formy guests yet.
It's something that in thefuture, if we might be able to
(05:35):
generate enough money, we wouldbring like high priority guests.
I hope so, of course.
Then it might be collaborationor I have to pay for that.
But again, that's not importantright now.
What important, what'simportant for me right now, is
to tell you guys that I lie toyou.
Your support is not enoughright now in order to keep this
(05:59):
podcast going.
I'm still paying it out of myown pocket.
It's not that a lot of money.
Again, we are in thailand andthings are cheaper.
I will not get into the prices,but it's much cheaper than
doing the in the US, so I havevery good deal with the studio
in order to do it there and Itry to buy things like equipment
(06:24):
when it on sale and basicallythat's it.
But this is something that I didwant to say to you guys that,
yes, we do need your supportvery much and it's not it's not
me begging you.
Okay, that's important for meto tell you.
(06:46):
But if you do think that thecontent we provide for you and
for us we are enjoying that aswell is good and it's something
that you are enjoying weekly andyou want to continue, enjoy
that, eventually I will not haveenough money to to keep
creating that.
(07:06):
It's not in the next week or inthe next month.
I can go few more months, evenmore than that, but for my own
pocket, but there will be alimit for that, of course.
So if it the it is somethingthat you want to see going on
and growing in the future, ifyou can, any donation will be
(07:30):
tremendous for us.
You will not be you.
You can't believe how muchbecause we do enjoy that doing
the podcast and we do enjoy youguys, because I'm not doing it
only for me.
I'm doing it because I knowthere are other people that
interested in pattaya, inthailand in general, in ladyboys
(07:54):
and ladies in the bar scene, inthe nightlife scene.
That like, for example, thereason I started this podcast
after I did it with my ex-wifeand I the reason I continue with
that, because I was actuallylooking for a podcast that doing
something like this, thattalking about those kind of
(08:14):
subject subjects, but therewasn't any, and this is also
what gave me the confidence oflike, okay, I'm going through
with this, I will try it, andyou guys proved me as listeners,
of course, that there isaudience for that.
It's not a huge audience and weare still growing monthly by
(08:38):
actually a sub I cannot speaknow a big number, okay, and I'm
happy with that and, as I toldyou.
So that's about that.
But I want to to talk againabout what I started talking in
the beginning of the episode.
I want to talk about mentalstates that some people are in
(09:00):
for me, like, as I told you, I'mnot depressed, I'm not in any
sort of danger of harming myselfor something, but I just have
like low days, like low energydays, and I try to do as much
stuff as I can that make me feelbetter, like listening to music
(09:23):
, go eat in a nice restaurant,meet people that I love and I
care about and care about mealso.
And yeah, I'm trying, butsometimes that's not enough and
I find myself, like, as Elliealways says, like rotting in my
room for a few days, and that'sokay if it happens to you.
(09:44):
First of all, accept it.
Some days are not good, someweeks are not good, hell heck.
Some years sometimes are notgood, and it's okay.
The the key for that is to keepfighting, to keep going, and I
really think it's not the firsttime it happened to me, it's not
(10:08):
the second and it sure is notthe last time it happens to me.
So I just remind myself alwayslike, hey, tomorrow might be
better, tomorrow might be better, tomorrow might be better every
day Well, every day before I goto sleep, and some days be
better.
Tomorrow might be better Everyday.
Well, every day before I go tosleep, and some days are better.
And luckily, I found people thatI love here that care about me
(10:31):
and I care about them, and wesurrender surrounding each other
and we make sure that wheneversomeone is down, the other
people help him, and I'm notonly talking about Scott and
Michelle.
I'm talking about people thatyou don't know because they
(10:51):
refuse, sadly, to come on thepodcast.
Some of them are Thai people,some of them are foreigners,
some of them are even from mycountry, and I'm happy for that,
and this is the point I want totalk about mainly Make sure and
(11:14):
sometimes it's not easy, butmake sure you have people that
you love and they love you backaround you.
It's so important.
If you suffer from, I will justsay, mental instability but I
think no one really suffer fromthat, everyone have that.
Like, as I said, some days aregood, some days are bad, but
(11:34):
make sure that the people thatare near you and you see them
and you talk with them normallyare people that you like and
they like you and you havecommon interest and you are
friends.
That I will always make surethat when I'm reaching the edge,
(12:06):
I will grab one of my friendsand I will tell him hey, I'm
down, I need your help, like,just talk with me or let's go
somewhere or do something that Ilike or we like as friends, and
it helps.
It helps and I encourageeveryone of everyone in the
world actually, but right nowI'm talking to people that
(12:29):
actually listen.
If you feel down, reach out tosomeone and just tell them don't
be shy, don't, don't think theywill judge you badly.
The the opposite is the theactually actual, actual truth.
They will judge you badly.
The opposite is the actualtruth.
They will respect it.
Reach to them.
Reach them and say hey, buddyor girlfriend or whatever, it
(12:50):
doesn't matter, I need your help, I'm down, let's do something.
And I'm glad.
I'm glad that I'm in a point inmy life that I can understand
that.
I understand how big of a poweris that and how important it is
.
And I'm thankful for my friendsand my listeners and my family,
(13:16):
of course, and everyone that Ilove and loves me back.
Yeah, I know it's funny, butbut yeah, some people actually
love me back.
So I'm joking.
But again, this is the pointthat I want to get through.
This is not about Pattaya.
This is not about Thailand, isabout about men, mental health
(13:41):
or just, in general, people'smental health.
It's okay to be down.
Really, it is okay to be down.
It is okay to have bad days.
Elevate yourself, use otherpeople in a good way, ask them
to help you and be okay.
Don't give up, because givingup is not the answer.
Be okay, don't give up becausegiving up is not the answer.
(14:04):
Like, if I think how many timesI was, I was very down in my
life and I almost gave up andthen, like a month later or a
year later, my life was likecompletely changed and I was
happy.
And again I am happy.
Now, don't get me wrong, I amhappy.
I feel like I'm repeatingmyself, so I don't want to go
(14:29):
there.
But again I will just say thankyou guys for listening.
I'm taking a week off, only oneweek.
So next Friday or Saturdaythere will not be an episode, so
we will come back after thatand, um, that's it.
So thank you.
(14:50):
And if you can, as I said, evena like or subscribe.
Subscribe, even a like orsubscribe is a lot.
But if, if you can and I reallywe really need it in order to
make sure this podcast will stayin high quality and in a studio
and bring you the best gueststhat we can, please go to the
(15:11):
Patreon, go to the Buzzsprout.
The Patreon is better in myopinion.
It's much easier.
Also, the payment there.
Help us get this podcast movingforward to the next level.
Okay, and again, I appreciateeven every comment that you
leave me.
I try to make sure that youguys know that.
(15:33):
So the guys that did left mecomments and I answered again.
Thank you for doing that, andevery like is very important.
And that's it, guys.
So you know it was a short one.
I love you, I really do.
I love you guys.
Thank you, guys, and girls, bythe way.
Yeah, thank you, and hopefullyin two weeks everything will be
(15:59):
much brighter and more colorfuland my face will not be like
that.
I might smile again.
So thank you, guys, and I seeyou next time.
Bye, bye.
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