April 4, 2023 • 47 mins
Welcome to Openly Spoken where we have real and authentic conversations about self love, sexuality, relationships, and more. In this episode, we go deep into the realms of darkness with my guest LaVina D'Anjolell LaVina is a Soul Embodiment Mentor, a certified Breath work Facilitator, and a Sexual Shamanic Practitioner. Her path has led her through many initiatory trainings in the realms of spirituality, sacred sexual healing, and shamanism. She has facilitated transformational experiences for countless souls through her 1:1 mentorship, group ceremonies, and private healing sessions.LaVina is devoted to supporting humans in the remembrance of their divine nature and return to wholeness.We talked about:
- Integrating the dark
- dismantling from what we learned was "bad" // dismantling from what we learned from our yoga practices
- the taboo of sexuality, death, eating meat and more.
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If death isn't, if there's not space to really fully look and acknowledge death, then the eating
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of meat, it's kind of like, okay, well, I'm just doing this thing. There's, but to bridge that gap,
to actually welcome me and recognize the life and death cycle and then that it's being,
it's fueling my body and nourishing my body. It's actually so sacred.
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Hello, my name is Celia. I am the host of Openly Spoken and I am so excited to share this conversation
I had in October of last year with Lavina, who is my guest today. So Lavina is a soul embodiment
mentor, a breathwork facilitator, and a sexual shamanic practitioner. Lavina's offerings are
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designed to empower women in reclaiming their sovereignty, connecting to their innermost truth,
and to embody a life of pure pleasure, passion, and freedom. Her path has led her through many
initiatory trainings in the realms of spirituality, sacred sexual healing, and shamanism.
She has facilitated transformational experiences for countless souls through her one-on-one
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mentorship, group ceremonies, and private healing sessions. Lavina is devoted to supporting healing
humans in the remembrance of their divine nature and their return to wholeness. In this episode,
we went deep. We went and talked about things that most people would just want to ignore.
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We talked about the realms of darkness and shadow and dismantling ourselves from what we've learned
in yoga, because we both, Livian and I both share the similarity that our kind of like spiritual
awakening started with yoga and personal development started with yoga. And then eventually,
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you know, years down the line or even decades, those like morals and teachings had to be
dismantled. You'll see what I mean about that when you watch the episode. And if you enjoy this
episode, go ahead and take a look at the caption below or the show notes below, and you will see
links to find Lavina online and you will see any links that she's shared to freebies or any offerings.
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So I highly recommend to be in her world. She's such an inspiring human and I'm so excited to
share this episode. Welcome to Openly Spoken, the podcast to help you show up, speak out,
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and be seen. Here you'll get to eavesdrop on connected women's conversations about self love,
confidence, healing, relationships, creativity, and more. I'm your host, Celia Antonio, and I am
your guide to getting you grounded into your body, feeling your full spectrum of emotion,
and expanding your fullest self expression. I also pop in here from time to time with solo
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episodes where I give you tips, tricks, and resources like meditations, visualizations,
and all the things to get you grounded, to get you to feel, to get you to alchemize,
and to get you to expand and express yourself fully. I'm so grateful that you're here and I
invite you to now put your hands on your heart, take a deep breath, set a tone for how you want
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to be as you show up for this podcast, take what resonates in this podcast, leave out what doesn't
resonate, and take some time to reflect and to contemplate. And if there's anything in the
podcast you want to chat about, you can always reach out to me on Instagram at self express,
babe. Thank you so much for being here. Now let's get started.
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Talking about like not being triggered by certain words, and I think it's so,
it's interesting to notice those like moments and then like what that dives us into because
we're curious and we're like, ooh, okay. If this word doesn't trigger me and it has to do with my
body and sexuality, like, look, let me do this thing over here that's talking about sexuality
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and let me just like see what happens. Is that what happened? It led me to like Leila Martin and
who's the woman that wrote the book called Pussy? I forget her name. Pussy a Reclamation. Yeah,
yeah, I read that, like all these, and it's just like, it's amazing the huge doors and doors that
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open and the shifts that you get. And then you like see something that was once like kind of
traumatizing or triggering in a whole new light. And that's that.
Yeah, it's like the portal, Arjoni is a portal. So as there's a greater acceptance and connection
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to the root, to this sacred space, the doors are literally opening. Like the temple doors.
I'd love to hear about your shift moment because you mentioned that you remembered when you had
that shift of like, oh, pussy does not that word pussy doesn't trigger me.
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Yeah, it was actually recently about cock. Okay. Okay. Yeah, like I was just with my girlfriend and
we were just watching the sweetest thing. Just this is okay. Not last night, the night before.
This was just two days ago. And I forget exactly what our exchange was. But I was like,
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I said something and came back and use the word cock like it just came out of my mouth. And I
remember having a thought, Oh, did that feel uncomfortable for her to hear me saying that word?
Just it was like a passing thought. Oh, was that uncomfortable for her? Wow, this is something that
now feels natural for me to express in this way because of the healing that I've done with the
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masculine and yeah, and just end in sexuality. You know, it's not derogatory or gross or shameful.
It's this sacred wand that I love to worship.
Yeah. Yeah. So that was just two days ago that I was that I had it was something similar, right?
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Like just, wow, this isn't. Yeah, it used to feel like it had to be kind of like only in a sexual,
maybe performative, or it has this raunchy essence about it. But I feel that
something that Tantra has brought me into is welcoming a grander spectrum, the full spectrum.
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And it's this integration of the sacred and the profane. You know, it's like emerging of opposites,
letting it all be here. And yeah, it's all divine.
I love that. I don't know too much about Tantra. So that's cool to know that it's like emerging of
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those two. And I don't even know where to start with like asking you more about it.
You don't have to. You don't have to. I mean, because
I feel the essence that I've received from entering the realms of Tantra has really just,
my spiritual path has evolved over the years. And I remember initially learning things that were more
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designed for the people who have space to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to,
to meditate all day, you know, the monks that would be up in a cave. And in that, the theory is like,
I am not this, I am not this, I am not this, I'm not this. Right. And in entering this realm
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of spirituality, it's like, I am this, I am this, I am this, I am this, I am the light, I am the dark,
I am the masculine, I am the feminine, I am spirit, I am matter, I am sacred, I am profane,
you know, I have the capacity to be everything because all that is, is, you know, I'm part of
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duality and I'm part of wholeness. Mm hmm. I love that. Yeah. I am wholeness. I am part of duality
and I am wholeness. Yeah. It's, it's interesting to how like, I think from what I remember from
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one of your master classes you had, that you kind of like started on this path with yoga.
Is that right? Yeah. Okay, me too. And I remember in, in yoga teacher training, there was,
there was a yama about like abstaining from sex. Yeah. Oh my gosh. That just gave me chills and
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I felt almost my heart skip a beat and a clog come into my throat. It was just like, you know?
Because yeah, that's what's taught in widespread across spirituality and as
the collective consciousness seems to be evolving, maybe it's just the bubble that I see myself in,
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but I see it happening. You know, yoga is, it's just everywhere, right? And it's just,
it feels like these things are really, their tendrils are expanding across a wider spread
of people are having access to this. And there's not a lot about sacred sexuality. If anything,
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it's like sex is being still suppressed and shut down and shamed. So yeah, that abstinence was,
and then how could guilt not be there? It's like, okay, I'm not a spiritual person. If I have
desires, my desires cause suffering. Yeah. It's like release all desires, but like I'm human.
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My desires are divine, divine inspiration. That's, I feel like my work is very focused on
illuminating desires and moving with them. You also bring to mind something that like I'm going
through currently with this piece of like, I'm human and like my desires causing suffering and
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guilt and shame. I'm currently dismantling my like, so when I was like 16, I became vegetarian
and I didn't become vegan until I was in yoga teacher training because it was like required for
our training. And it was an immersive, it was like an immersive, or they were like, do this.
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It was like a do it while you're in the training and it was a six month long training. Like I did
a, I did a training that was on weekends and was longer because I felt like doing a few days wasn't
enough to integrate and soak it in. Yeah. Yeah. I love this. Yeah. So I did that and
during the pandemic, I started consuming more eggs and more fish. And like now what I'm going
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through now is I'm like learning more about the womb and I recently got my IUD taken out and
I'm like realizing that like, oh, I think my body needs like more animal products. And then I'm
thinking about like the things that I'm going to be doing in the future. And I'm like, I'm going to
be doing more animal products. And then I'm thinking about like the suffering and all this stuff I like
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learned in my yoga practice. And it's just like both that the like food choices and the sexuality
are like things that like need to be dismantled, you know, from like when you start from the path
of yoga, there's like, like it's just interesting how there's like, there's even limiting constructs
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and conditioning within something that is so beautiful. Yeah. Wow. That even chills and
thinking about that animal earth matter. This is the darker more dense, it's more dense. And
that's part of what is pushed away. I think it's the density, the darkness. Yeah. As if it's wrong
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or bad. Yeah. Yeah. And so you, you have the forever access to embodied liberation. And I have
a bonus masterclass and they're called seeing in the dark. Yeah, it's this really, really powerful
teaching that I learned through the International School of Temple Arts, ISTA changed my life. And
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it's about recognizing our full spectrum again, the light, the dark, the masculine, the feminine,
and the cross sections of each of them. And then the void space, the nothingness, and also the
everythingness. And in inquiring, if we were to maybe survey across 100 people, what comes to
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mind or what do you feel when you think of the dark? And maybe I'll just ask you, like, what comes
to mind when you think of darkness? What kind of words, what emotions, what comes up? I think of
like loss, like losing a loved one, going through a breakup, or even like depression, sadness, I think
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of sadness mostly. Okay, yeah. And then would you qual, would you, if you were to qualify that,
like desirable undesirable, or, you know, like cat is jumping in the bag. I was gonna say,
do you have a cat? Yes, Ziggy. I hope he makes an appearance. But yeah, so if you were to qualify
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those things that come up with darkness, what would you say? I mean, I would say it's undesirable
because that's how, like, I was taught. But at this point in my life, when I feel something that's
like making me sad, I'm like, oh, okay, like, I'm just gonna fully like be like romantically sad and
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like allow myself to cry. And because through it, it's like, huge things are gonna open up. Like my
last huge thing like that was in 2019, when I had a relationship that ended things. And it was,
it was my first time not being the one to end the relationship. So it was like my first time getting
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dumped. And it was so hard. It sucked. But at the same time, it was the most beautiful experience
I've ever been through. I'm so grateful. Right. That's awesome. That sounds like,
is it loud? Can you hear it? I can stop him. He's just climbing into a paper bag. Yeah, so that
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sounds like an initiation. You know, this welcoming, I think I might have to move the bag.
Standing over it. He's about to pounce on it. One sec. Oh, I hear him meowing.
You hear his meow? Yeah, I did. He's like, let me outside. Okay.
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So depression, sadness, death. So death. Yeah, death is definitely
coming into that realm of darkness. And like, but death is a part of life. Yeah. Yeah. And the first
time I ever heard that, it was like, that is a part of life. Life doesn't end. Life is eternal.
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Life is all it is. And death is a part of it. Is like, whoa. Yeah. So there's, I feel there's such a,
there's a lot of fear in the darkness. And so it gets pushed into the unconscious. It gets pushed
and down and suppressed and repressed rather than welcomed, integrated and expressed as, as feels
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fit. And oh, he's, he knows not to go on counters too. It's okay. It's okay. He's, he's, he's drawing
my attention because he really wants to go out and I'm trying to train him. Look at him.
Make an appearance. He's real cute. Oh my God. This is great. I love it.
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Anyone listening to the, just the audio, you have to go to, to YouTube to see what we're laughing at.
We've got a really cute kitty here who's claiming to be the star of the show.
Okay. So I don't even need to show that, but coming back to the dark. So yeah, it's often
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suppressed and there's been a total shift in my experience in welcoming the darkness and reclaiming
the darkness as raw primal carnal power. It's like, it's so powerful, you know, like Kali energy,
the dark feminine or this serpentine essence. Right. And, and also the dark masculine and
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something that was one of the most, it was like, I really was able to heal something that was stored
as trauma as in the realm of me being the victim of all my past relationships, being toxic,
where I was manipulated and emotionally abused. And it was just really, really toxic.
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And all the healing that I'd done around that, I was still holding myself as the victim of those
scenarios. You know, I was the innocent one in a way, and I was, yeah. So through this teaching
of it's called the cross or four alters, which is the light, the dark, the masculine and feminine.
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And in reclaiming my dark masculine, I had an experience where my physical body was in
excruciating pain. I was doing some emotional release because of something that was connected
to a sexual experience with my partner, something came up and then he was like, well, why don't you
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go into some emotional release? So I started to do a pillow pound, but I had tucked my head in a
certain way and it was, I, I got a ping in my neck and it shot all the way down my back. And it was
some of the most excruciating pain I could, it was on the nerve. I pulled a muscle and I was like,
Oh, Oh my goodness. I couldn't move my neck. And there were other situations that added to the
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intensity of it. It was my friend's bachelorette party. I had invested hundreds of dollars to go
to that. Couldn't go, felt the scarcity. It was just, everything was piling up. There was fear,
there was scarcity, there was shame around sexuality. So it was all of these energies.
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And so I, I had, I had to let go of all of my responsibilities and be completely still.
So then I started to zoom into the sensation in my neck and I was moving very slowly to reach the
peak of intensity, the peak of the pain and doing it slowly so that I could breathe through it and
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maintain ease in my nervous system, but going to the peak of intensity of the pain and watching it.
So I'm turning my head really slowly and it's like surging down my back and there's heat and I'm
watching all of the sensation, you know, the pings, electricity surging out. I'm just turning as far
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as I can to where it's like, Whoa, whoo, okay. This is so intense. And as I was holding presence
with the intensity of pain, I started getting flashes of these memories from these past
relationships. And I wasn't thinking of that initially. It was the pain and going to that
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peak of intensity that brought these, these stories to my, the forefront of my awareness. Right.
So I saw a flash of when I was 16 years old and I'm high,
he's knocking everything off. Look at this face. He's like, are you gonna,
you're gonna let me out? He's like looking straight to the camera. Like, yeah, that's right.
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I knocked that over.
He's a part of it. It's all medicine too. It's like, yeah, what can I be present?
Hold it all. You know, cause in sharing a story like this too, there could be easily distractions.
Yeah. So I see this flash of when I'm 16 years old, hiding under my first boyfriend's sister's
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bed, naked, and his dad had come home and was opening the door. It was one of the most intense
experiences of my life at that time. You know, and so that memory was, it's been stored in my body.
So I turned to that peak of intensity with my neck. I saw the flash of it and rather than being the
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victim and feeling like, oh, whatever, whatever stories could have been paired with that, I was
like, this is mine. And when there are bigger emotions or pain or trauma or certain things
that hold that darker energy, it's not something that we just need to shower with light or
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breathe through it and be peace. And it's like, no, I'm going to fucking eat this. I'm going to
devour it and consume it. You know, it's like, it's a whole different energy in order to integrate
certain aspects of ourselves. So I started to go like, like drinking it in through a straw. And I
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actually could see that time space pulling into me and going down into my route, into my sacral and
root centers. It's like, I was calling that back, reclaiming that power. And then more pieces started
to show up. So each of these moments that were held as memories of me being the victim from the
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distorted or immature dark masculine, I reclaimed it as my own so that I could then embody the
mature and integrated dark masculine. So it's like, because it was in the unconscious, I was
for a decade of my life, attracting these patterned relationships of manipulation and lying and
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cheating and drug abuse and things like that. But I was really just searching for the dark masculine.
I wanted it because it was completely unknown to me. My unconscious was calling that into my field
so that I could integrate it as my own power. Yeah. Yeah. It's so beautiful and interesting how
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like what we go through is like what we need. Always. For our spiritual evolution. Always.
Always. Thank you for sharing that. Yeah. Yeah. Thanks for listening. Come here.
Get him in your property. Oh, hi Ziggy. Ziggy is, have some dark masculine pictures.
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Yeah, right. He's a big kitty.
He's a big boy. Yeah. Yeah. I think what's interesting too about how both this death piece
and sexuality piece are so oppressed and hidden behind closed doors or touched up.
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When someone dies, they put makeup on their body and all this stuff. So there's this oppression of
it. And at the same time, I feel like as a collective, there's this craving and this wanting
of wanting to work on that because there's such an obsession with death and with sexuality.
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There's so many true crime shows that are really popular and even things like zombie shows and
like all these things, or it's like all this death and stuff and like people love it. Yep.
Yes. And it's all externalized. It's like a longing to have this part be seen because it's not
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welcomed internally. Not to say that there's anything wrong with wanting to see or to
experience it, but yeah, because of the suppression internally, it just gets projected externally.
Yeah. And I think the meat piece, the death, and there's kind of just...
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If there's not space to really fully look and acknowledge death, then the eating of meat,
it's kind of like, okay, well, I'm just doing this thing. But to bridge that gap, to actually
welcome meat and recognize the life and the death cycle and that it's fueling my body and nourishing
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my body, it's actually so sacred. And this is what humans were doing in the beginning of
starting to evolve. Humans were eating meat. And it's also different areas. People's heritage is
from a different area. So it's like, there's no one size fits all. What really feels true.
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And if there's guilt or shame, then that's a nice place to look. How can I zoom into where there's
guilt or shame and see what's actually being asked? What's actually being asked me maybe to
be there for the moment of the animal dying, to actually witness life leaving its eyes and to offer
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reverence and wow, now I get to welcome this into my body and giving thanks to the spirit that was
willing to move on to offer its body. Yeah. Yeah. Because I resonate with that as well,
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because I didn't eat meat for maybe 10, eight or 10 years. And recently, and it was in the same,
yeah, yeah. In that same timeframe of integrating these darker pieces that I started to open to
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eating meat again. What came up when you were talking about, I want to be able to speak. So
I want to be able to speak and also not hold back the tears. What always comes up for me, for some
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reason is I have this weird connection and love for cows. And that was what that was.
What came up for me when you were talking about seeing the life leave their eyes and stuff, I was
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just like, no, I don't want to do that. But this is such juicy stuff to sit with, because
we're animals too. And this piece of being compassionate, the best analogy I can come up
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for it with is if you have a cat, you have a cat, for example, if you feed your cat a vegan diet,
is that compassionate? Right.
No, it's not. Yeah. So it's amazing that this is the first time I cried on the podcast. Thank you.
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Happy anniversary. Take a big whole new layer.
Right. Wow, that's so sweet.
I love it. Thank you. For some reason, cows come up for me. That's the one animal that I'm just
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having a really hard time with. As of now, the belief I have is that I'm not a cow. I'm not a
one animal that I'm just having a really hard time with. As of now, the belief I have now is
I will never eat cow ever. And dairy, my body doesn't do well with. But I will admit, it smells
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really good. If I smell someone else having a burger or a steak, I'm like, wow, that smells
delicious. And then again, there's that separation with our food. We don't call it cow. We call it
beef. Or we don't call things that they are, except for chicken. For some reason,
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we still call it chicken. And that's probably the one that's the most integrated.
Yeah. I don't have a problem with... I've had it a few times this year.
Yeah. And my body has a hard time digesting it, obviously, because it's been such a long time. I
probably need to get some papaya enzymes or something for the next time. And even turkey,
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we call turkey turkey. We don't have... So interesting.
Yeah. I didn't even think about that until just now. And I wonder if for me, if that's why I don't
have such a hard time accepting eating birds. Right. Duck. Duck as well.
Duck, I don't know if I would eat it. They're so cute.
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So cute. And that's again, for each person. Maybe you just... That feeling with cows, maybe
that's just how it is for you. Yeah.
You know? And maybe it's even... Yeah, I feel like there is this piece of becoming all of it
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and merging, merging in a way, and allowing eating to be that depth of ceremony as often as possible.
I remember reading... It was one of Ram Dass's books.
I'm forgetting the title right now, but he was sharing how people reach Samadhi through eating.
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You know, taking minimal 20 to 30 bites per bite and being so present with it and seeing that whole,
everything that led up to it being right here in front of us. And then to bring
life into our bodies is life merging with life. And it can be... Everything can be a spiritual
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experience. So if there is that desire and such a strong connection to the animal, then maybe
that becomes a ritual in itself to go to a farm, a local farm where there...
There's actually a farm here where they do cow hugging therapy.
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Wow. And do they not use their cows for meat or do they also?
No, I think it's like a rescue farm. It's called the Gentle Barn.
That's so cute. It's called the Gentle Barn.
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So maybe that's a fun one too. It's like that. And then also if there was a
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desire to eat that meat, then to experience the closeness in close proximity going to a farm where
it is the place where they have cows for... But they're just doing it ethically. There are farms
that love their cows and also their cows come to... I mean, then we can eat them too. It is wild.
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This is a deep topic. This could be really triggering for a lot of people. Yeah.
Yeah, for sure. But that's great too. Triggers are so great. They're so illuminating.
Yeah. The trigger's like, hey, there's something over here that there's some darkness here for you
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to sit with. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Sometimes it's like, hey, here's a way of being that someone is being
that you don't allow yourself to be for some reason. Right. That's what I think the darkness
is so often confused or blended with the shadow. And when things are in the shadow, that's where
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the toxicity comes from or the distortion. And once the shadow is integrated, then the darkness
just actually becomes power, like sacred rage. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Sacred rage is so beautiful.
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I have a client who has a son who's like three. Yeah. And we did sacred rage together and she
does it with her son now. That's amazing. All that testosterone in his little body, it really helps him.
Yeah. Oh my gosh. Emotional release tools. Game changer. Have ways to move big energy
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so it doesn't get stuck or frozen or lodged. Just keep the life force flowing.
I want to move into, I have a few questions that I like to ask at the end, everyone. The first one is
what does self-love mean to you? Oh, self-love means seeing myself,
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stepping outside of myself to really see myself and to listen, to welcome all parts of myself.
Yeah. When I say listen, it's like, what is my body communicating? And to listen and then to follow
through, to give myself that self-love. Seeing myself listening, following through with that
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inner guidance. Yeah. And also loving all, loving all being that that is the self in truth.
So it's self-love, loving the individual self as a gateway to remembering the truth of who I am.
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Yeah. Beautiful. And what makes you feel the most grounded?
Oh, this is fun. Dance. I get pretty high from dance though. It makes me feel the most embodied.
When I feel embodied, I feel that I am clear and centered and grounded. So yeah, I feel like dance.
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Yeah. And being in nature, of course. Just like watching how the elements express themselves
as a reminder of my nature. Yeah. And then my most favorite question.
What's it gonna be? What's your favorite part about being a woman?
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The first thing that came through was about radiance. Just welcoming and embracing my
radiance and my emotionality, my bigness, my expression.
These feel like qualities of the divine feminine that I've done a lot of work to really
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step into, to land in confidence and empowerment. And so yeah, just the ability to be my fullest
self and allow that radiance to be magnetic, to trust in my essence to be enough.
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Yeah. That feels good.
And then for everyone listening, I want to give you space to talk about your work,
what you offer and where people can find you. Thank you. Yeah. My name is Lavina.
My handle on Instagram is lavina.embodied. And embodied, embodiment feels like a core piece of
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my work, soul embodiment. I'm a soul embodiment mentor, which for me means really tapping into
the divine essence of the one soul of who we are, source, great spirit, love, and how that essence
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can really fully land in the temple body, in this temple that is our home. So yeah, our spirit
landing fully in every part of our body and our being and being a walking embodiment of
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the eternal one. So soul embodiment, and I am also a sexual shamanic practitioner.
So I just graduated the ISTA practitioner training and I've been offering sexual shamanic
bodywork sessions and it's also working with energy and different tools, emotional release.
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And this is a skillful use of sexual energy and activating pleasure in the body for healing,
expansion, transformation, manifestation, amplification of desires. And yeah, just
actualizing our desires. So that's been so, so amazing. We're tapping into like,
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true magic, sexual energy is life force. It is creation. It's how we came to exist.
And so working with that energy is just so, so, so powerful and so sacred. And it feels like
in coming into this, I'm returning. I feel like I've tapped into these ancient codes
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like from ancient Egypt, goddess Isis and her lineage and this sexual sorcery.
It's really, really powerful. So that feels really alive right now. And I'm offering in-person
sessions. I'm currently based in just outside of Philadelphia in the United States. And I also
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travel going to Guatemala, around La Guatitlan in just two weeks to offer my first woman's gathering
an eight day immersive experience called the Shakti experience. That's November 5th to the 12th,
which I don't think this will be out before then, right?
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No.
So next year, next year.
But maybe it'll be happening again and maybe there'll be a wait list in the show notes.
Yeah. Yeah. Seriously. We feel it. It's happening. We're probably going to book
same space. It's called Arco Isis. Yeah. It's so, so beautiful.
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And yeah, I am open to one-on-one work. I also love offering group containers. And most of my
offerings are on my Instagram, which is lavena.embodied. Yeah, that feels full.
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I'll share this too. It is transforming. So I birthed a mentorship called the awaken and
embody mentorship. And this is going to be evolving into a six month mastermind that is
a school because I do feel that there are a lot of coaches in the industry that may have gone to
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to learn about coaching, but haven't really learned so many tools to hold their clients
in a really deep way. So I want to offer tools, right? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
I've been in a space like that where it's like,
float out of your body and out of the emotions. Yeah. And look at what's below you. And I'm like,
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but I want to cry. Yeah. Yeah. There's a lot of bypassing. Yeah. And I'm all about like going
right into all that stuff, like digging into it. Almost to a fall. I think it can be a lot for
people in my field, but I'm like, that's what I'm here for. I'm here for the real deal.
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There's something in the field that's creating a block. Then let's just look at it. Let's go
into it. There's nothing to run from nowhere else to be than here. So yeah. So that will be evolving
into a six month mastermind. That's essentially a school for those who want to develop. Of course,
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it'll be a deep journey for the individual and it'll offer tools to then share, to hold space
for others in a really powerful way. Yeah. Thank you so much for being here today. This was so
beautiful. So beautiful. Yeah. Thank you so much. I'm like sad that it's been an hour. I know that
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was fast. We just came right in and posted. Yeah. Well, I would love to stay connected. You're
amazing. And yeah, so are you. I find you very inspiring. Thank you so much. Thank you. You're
so welcome. Thank you for tuning in to this episode of Openly Spoken. I know that there's
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If death isn't, if there's not space to really fully look and acknowledge death, then the eating
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of meat, it's kind of like, okay, well, I'm just doing this thing. There's, but to bridge that gap,
to actually welcome me and recognize the life and death cycle and then that it's being,
it's fueling my body and nourishing my body. It's actually so sacred.
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Hello, my name is Celia. I am the host of Openly Spoken and I am so excited to share this conversation
I had in October of last year with Lavina, who is my guest today. So Lavina is a soul embodiment
mentor, a breathwork facilitator, and a sexual shamanic practitioner. Lavina's offerings are
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designed to empower women in reclaiming their sovereignty, connecting to their innermost truth,
and to embody a life of pure pleasure, passion, and freedom. Her path has led her through many
initiatory trainings in the realms of spirituality, sacred sexual healing, and shamanism.
She has facilitated transformational experiences for countless souls through her one-on-one
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mentorship, group ceremonies, and private healing sessions. Lavina is devoted to supporting healing
humans in the remembrance of their divine nature and their return to wholeness. In this episode,
we went deep. We went and talked about things that most people would just want to ignore.
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We talked about the realms of darkness and shadow and dismantling ourselves from what we've learned
in yoga, because we both, Livian and I both share the similarity that our kind of like spiritual
awakening started with yoga and personal development started with yoga. And then eventually,
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you know, years down the line or even decades, those like morals and teachings had to be
dismantled. You'll see what I mean about that when you watch the episode. And if you enjoy this
episode, go ahead and take a look at the caption below or the show notes below, and you will see
links to find Lavina online and you will see any links that she's shared to freebies or any offerings.
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So I highly recommend to be in her world. She's such an inspiring human and I'm so excited to
share this episode. Welcome to Openly Spoken, the podcast to help you show up, speak out,
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and be seen. Here you'll get to eavesdrop on connected women's conversations about self love,
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your guide to getting you grounded into your body, feeling your full spectrum of emotion,
and expanding your fullest self expression. I also pop in here from time to time with solo
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episodes where I give you tips, tricks, and resources like meditations, visualizations,
and all the things to get you grounded, to get you to feel, to get you to alchemize,
and to get you to expand and express yourself fully. I'm so grateful that you're here and I
invite you to now put your hands on your heart, take a deep breath, set a tone for how you want
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to be as you show up for this podcast, take what resonates in this podcast, leave out what doesn't
resonate, and take some time to reflect and to contemplate. And if there's anything in the
podcast you want to chat about, you can always reach out to me on Instagram at self express,
babe. Thank you so much for being here. Now let's get started.
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Talking about like not being triggered by certain words, and I think it's so,
it's interesting to notice those like moments and then like what that dives us into because
we're curious and we're like, ooh, okay. If this word doesn't trigger me and it has to do with my
body and sexuality, like, look, let me do this thing over here that's talking about sexuality
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and let me just like see what happens. Is that what happened? It led me to like Leila Martin and
who's the woman that wrote the book called Pussy? I forget her name. Pussy a Reclamation. Yeah,
yeah, I read that, like all these, and it's just like, it's amazing the huge doors and doors that
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open and the shifts that you get. And then you like see something that was once like kind of
traumatizing or triggering in a whole new light. And that's that.
Yeah, it's like the portal, Arjoni is a portal. So as there's a greater acceptance and connection
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to the root, to this sacred space, the doors are literally opening. Like the temple doors.
I'd love to hear about your shift moment because you mentioned that you remembered when you had
that shift of like, oh, pussy does not that word pussy doesn't trigger me.
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Yeah, it was actually recently about cock. Okay. Okay. Yeah, like I was just with my girlfriend and
we were just watching the sweetest thing. Just this is okay. Not last night, the night before.
This was just two days ago. And I forget exactly what our exchange was. But I was like,
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I said something and came back and use the word cock like it just came out of my mouth. And I
remember having a thought, Oh, did that feel uncomfortable for her to hear me saying that word?
Just it was like a passing thought. Oh, was that uncomfortable for her? Wow, this is something that
now feels natural for me to express in this way because of the healing that I've done with the
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masculine and yeah, and just end in sexuality. You know, it's not derogatory or gross or shameful.
It's this sacred wand that I love to worship.
Yeah. Yeah. So that was just two days ago that I was that I had it was something similar, right?
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Like just, wow, this isn't. Yeah, it used to feel like it had to be kind of like only in a sexual,
maybe performative, or it has this raunchy essence about it. But I feel that
something that Tantra has brought me into is welcoming a grander spectrum, the full spectrum.
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And it's this integration of the sacred and the profane. You know, it's like emerging of opposites,
letting it all be here. And yeah, it's all divine.
I love that. I don't know too much about Tantra. So that's cool to know that it's like emerging of
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those two. And I don't even know where to start with like asking you more about it.
You don't have to. You don't have to. I mean, because
I feel the essence that I've received from entering the realms of Tantra has really just,
my spiritual path has evolved over the years. And I remember initially learning things that were more
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designed for the people who have space to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to,
to meditate all day, you know, the monks that would be up in a cave. And in that, the theory is like,
I am not this, I am not this, I am not this, I'm not this. Right. And in entering this realm
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of spirituality, it's like, I am this, I am this, I am this, I am this, I am the light, I am the dark,
I am the masculine, I am the feminine, I am spirit, I am matter, I am sacred, I am profane,
you know, I have the capacity to be everything because all that is, is, you know, I'm part of
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duality and I'm part of wholeness. Mm hmm. I love that. Yeah. I am wholeness. I am part of duality
and I am wholeness. Yeah. It's, it's interesting to how like, I think from what I remember from
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one of your master classes you had, that you kind of like started on this path with yoga.
Is that right? Yeah. Okay, me too. And I remember in, in yoga teacher training, there was,
there was a yama about like abstaining from sex. Yeah. Oh my gosh. That just gave me chills and
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I felt almost my heart skip a beat and a clog come into my throat. It was just like, you know?
Because yeah, that's what's taught in widespread across spirituality and as
the collective consciousness seems to be evolving, maybe it's just the bubble that I see myself in,
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but I see it happening. You know, yoga is, it's just everywhere, right? And it's just,
it feels like these things are really, their tendrils are expanding across a wider spread
of people are having access to this. And there's not a lot about sacred sexuality. If anything,
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it's like sex is being still suppressed and shut down and shamed. So yeah, that abstinence was,
and then how could guilt not be there? It's like, okay, I'm not a spiritual person. If I have
desires, my desires cause suffering. Yeah. It's like release all desires, but like I'm human.
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My desires are divine, divine inspiration. That's, I feel like my work is very focused on
illuminating desires and moving with them. You also bring to mind something that like I'm going
through currently with this piece of like, I'm human and like my desires causing suffering and
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guilt and shame. I'm currently dismantling my like, so when I was like 16, I became vegetarian
and I didn't become vegan until I was in yoga teacher training because it was like required for
our training. And it was an immersive, it was like an immersive, or they were like, do this.
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It was like a do it while you're in the training and it was a six month long training. Like I did
a, I did a training that was on weekends and was longer because I felt like doing a few days wasn't
enough to integrate and soak it in. Yeah. Yeah. I love this. Yeah. So I did that and
during the pandemic, I started consuming more eggs and more fish. And like now what I'm going
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through now is I'm like learning more about the womb and I recently got my IUD taken out and
I'm like realizing that like, oh, I think my body needs like more animal products. And then I'm
thinking about like the things that I'm going to be doing in the future. And I'm like, I'm going to
be doing more animal products. And then I'm thinking about like the suffering and all this stuff I like
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learned in my yoga practice. And it's just like both that the like food choices and the sexuality
are like things that like need to be dismantled, you know, from like when you start from the path
of yoga, there's like, like it's just interesting how there's like, there's even limiting constructs
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and conditioning within something that is so beautiful. Yeah. Wow. That even chills and
thinking about that animal earth matter. This is the darker more dense, it's more dense. And
that's part of what is pushed away. I think it's the density, the darkness. Yeah. As if it's wrong
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or bad. Yeah. Yeah. And so you, you have the forever access to embodied liberation. And I have
a bonus masterclass and they're called seeing in the dark. Yeah, it's this really, really powerful
teaching that I learned through the International School of Temple Arts, ISTA changed my life. And
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it's about recognizing our full spectrum again, the light, the dark, the masculine, the feminine,
and the cross sections of each of them. And then the void space, the nothingness, and also the
everythingness. And in inquiring, if we were to maybe survey across 100 people, what comes to
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mind or what do you feel when you think of the dark? And maybe I'll just ask you, like, what comes
to mind when you think of darkness? What kind of words, what emotions, what comes up? I think of
like loss, like losing a loved one, going through a breakup, or even like depression, sadness, I think
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of sadness mostly. Okay, yeah. And then would you qual, would you, if you were to qualify that,
like desirable undesirable, or, you know, like cat is jumping in the bag. I was gonna say,
do you have a cat? Yes, Ziggy. I hope he makes an appearance. But yeah, so if you were to qualify
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those things that come up with darkness, what would you say? I mean, I would say it's undesirable
because that's how, like, I was taught. But at this point in my life, when I feel something that's
like making me sad, I'm like, oh, okay, like, I'm just gonna fully like be like romantically sad and
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like allow myself to cry. And because through it, it's like, huge things are gonna open up. Like my
last huge thing like that was in 2019, when I had a relationship that ended things. And it was,
it was my first time not being the one to end the relationship. So it was like my first time getting
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dumped. And it was so hard. It sucked. But at the same time, it was the most beautiful experience
I've ever been through. I'm so grateful. Right. That's awesome. That sounds like,
is it loud? Can you hear it? I can stop him. He's just climbing into a paper bag. Yeah, so that
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sounds like an initiation. You know, this welcoming, I think I might have to move the bag.
Standing over it. He's about to pounce on it. One sec. Oh, I hear him meowing.
You hear his meow? Yeah, I did. He's like, let me outside. Okay.
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So depression, sadness, death. So death. Yeah, death is definitely
coming into that realm of darkness. And like, but death is a part of life. Yeah. Yeah. And the first
time I ever heard that, it was like, that is a part of life. Life doesn't end. Life is eternal.
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Life is all it is. And death is a part of it. Is like, whoa. Yeah. So there's, I feel there's such a,
there's a lot of fear in the darkness. And so it gets pushed into the unconscious. It gets pushed
and down and suppressed and repressed rather than welcomed, integrated and expressed as, as feels
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fit. And oh, he's, he knows not to go on counters too. It's okay. It's okay. He's, he's, he's drawing
my attention because he really wants to go out and I'm trying to train him. Look at him.
Make an appearance. He's real cute. Oh my God. This is great. I love it.
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Anyone listening to the, just the audio, you have to go to, to YouTube to see what we're laughing at.
We've got a really cute kitty here who's claiming to be the star of the show.
Okay. So I don't even need to show that, but coming back to the dark. So yeah, it's often
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suppressed and there's been a total shift in my experience in welcoming the darkness and reclaiming
the darkness as raw primal carnal power. It's like, it's so powerful, you know, like Kali energy,
the dark feminine or this serpentine essence. Right. And, and also the dark masculine and
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something that was one of the most, it was like, I really was able to heal something that was stored
as trauma as in the realm of me being the victim of all my past relationships, being toxic,
where I was manipulated and emotionally abused. And it was just really, really toxic.
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And all the healing that I'd done around that, I was still holding myself as the victim of those
scenarios. You know, I was the innocent one in a way, and I was, yeah. So through this teaching
of it's called the cross or four alters, which is the light, the dark, the masculine and feminine.
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And in reclaiming my dark masculine, I had an experience where my physical body was in
excruciating pain. I was doing some emotional release because of something that was connected
to a sexual experience with my partner, something came up and then he was like, well, why don't you
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go into some emotional release? So I started to do a pillow pound, but I had tucked my head in a
certain way and it was, I, I got a ping in my neck and it shot all the way down my back. And it was
some of the most excruciating pain I could, it was on the nerve. I pulled a muscle and I was like,
Oh, Oh my goodness. I couldn't move my neck. And there were other situations that added to the
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intensity of it. It was my friend's bachelorette party. I had invested hundreds of dollars to go
to that. Couldn't go, felt the scarcity. It was just, everything was piling up. There was fear,
there was scarcity, there was shame around sexuality. So it was all of these energies.
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And so I, I had, I had to let go of all of my responsibilities and be completely still.
So then I started to zoom into the sensation in my neck and I was moving very slowly to reach the
peak of intensity, the peak of the pain and doing it slowly so that I could breathe through it and
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maintain ease in my nervous system, but going to the peak of intensity of the pain and watching it.
So I'm turning my head really slowly and it's like surging down my back and there's heat and I'm
watching all of the sensation, you know, the pings, electricity surging out. I'm just turning as far
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as I can to where it's like, Whoa, whoo, okay. This is so intense. And as I was holding presence
with the intensity of pain, I started getting flashes of these memories from these past
relationships. And I wasn't thinking of that initially. It was the pain and going to that
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peak of intensity that brought these, these stories to my, the forefront of my awareness. Right.
So I saw a flash of when I was 16 years old and I'm high,
he's knocking everything off. Look at this face. He's like, are you gonna,
you're gonna let me out? He's like looking straight to the camera. Like, yeah, that's right.
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I knocked that over.
He's a part of it. It's all medicine too. It's like, yeah, what can I be present?
Hold it all. You know, cause in sharing a story like this too, there could be easily distractions.
Yeah. So I see this flash of when I'm 16 years old, hiding under my first boyfriend's sister's
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bed, naked, and his dad had come home and was opening the door. It was one of the most intense
experiences of my life at that time. You know, and so that memory was, it's been stored in my body.
So I turned to that peak of intensity with my neck. I saw the flash of it and rather than being the
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victim and feeling like, oh, whatever, whatever stories could have been paired with that, I was
like, this is mine. And when there are bigger emotions or pain or trauma or certain things
that hold that darker energy, it's not something that we just need to shower with light or
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breathe through it and be peace. And it's like, no, I'm going to fucking eat this. I'm going to
devour it and consume it. You know, it's like, it's a whole different energy in order to integrate
certain aspects of ourselves. So I started to go like, like drinking it in through a straw. And I
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actually could see that time space pulling into me and going down into my route, into my sacral and
root centers. It's like, I was calling that back, reclaiming that power. And then more pieces started
to show up. So each of these moments that were held as memories of me being the victim from the
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distorted or immature dark masculine, I reclaimed it as my own so that I could then embody the
mature and integrated dark masculine. So it's like, because it was in the unconscious, I was
for a decade of my life, attracting these patterned relationships of manipulation and lying and
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cheating and drug abuse and things like that. But I was really just searching for the dark masculine.
I wanted it because it was completely unknown to me. My unconscious was calling that into my field
so that I could integrate it as my own power. Yeah. Yeah. It's so beautiful and interesting how
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like what we go through is like what we need. Always. For our spiritual evolution. Always.
Always. Thank you for sharing that. Yeah. Yeah. Thanks for listening. Come here.
Get him in your property. Oh, hi Ziggy. Ziggy is, have some dark masculine pictures.
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Yeah, right. He's a big kitty.
He's a big boy. Yeah. Yeah. I think what's interesting too about how both this death piece
and sexuality piece are so oppressed and hidden behind closed doors or touched up.
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When someone dies, they put makeup on their body and all this stuff. So there's this oppression of
it. And at the same time, I feel like as a collective, there's this craving and this wanting
of wanting to work on that because there's such an obsession with death and with sexuality.
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There's so many true crime shows that are really popular and even things like zombie shows and
like all these things, or it's like all this death and stuff and like people love it. Yep.
Yes. And it's all externalized. It's like a longing to have this part be seen because it's not
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welcomed internally. Not to say that there's anything wrong with wanting to see or to
experience it, but yeah, because of the suppression internally, it just gets projected externally.
Yeah. And I think the meat piece, the death, and there's kind of just...
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If there's not space to really fully look and acknowledge death, then the eating of meat,
it's kind of like, okay, well, I'm just doing this thing. But to bridge that gap, to actually
welcome meat and recognize the life and the death cycle and that it's fueling my body and nourishing
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my body, it's actually so sacred. And this is what humans were doing in the beginning of
starting to evolve. Humans were eating meat. And it's also different areas. People's heritage is
from a different area. So it's like, there's no one size fits all. What really feels true.
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And if there's guilt or shame, then that's a nice place to look. How can I zoom into where there's
guilt or shame and see what's actually being asked? What's actually being asked me maybe to
be there for the moment of the animal dying, to actually witness life leaving its eyes and to offer
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reverence and wow, now I get to welcome this into my body and giving thanks to the spirit that was
willing to move on to offer its body. Yeah. Yeah. Because I resonate with that as well,
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because I didn't eat meat for maybe 10, eight or 10 years. And recently, and it was in the same,
yeah, yeah. In that same timeframe of integrating these darker pieces that I started to open to
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eating meat again. What came up when you were talking about, I want to be able to speak. So
I want to be able to speak and also not hold back the tears. What always comes up for me, for some
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reason is I have this weird connection and love for cows. And that was what that was.
What came up for me when you were talking about seeing the life leave their eyes and stuff, I was
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just like, no, I don't want to do that. But this is such juicy stuff to sit with, because
we're animals too. And this piece of being compassionate, the best analogy I can come up
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for it with is if you have a cat, you have a cat, for example, if you feed your cat a vegan diet,
is that compassionate? Right.
No, it's not. Yeah. So it's amazing that this is the first time I cried on the podcast. Thank you.
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Happy anniversary. Take a big whole new layer.
Right. Wow, that's so sweet.
I love it. Thank you. For some reason, cows come up for me. That's the one animal that I'm just
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having a really hard time with. As of now, the belief I have is that I'm not a cow. I'm not a
one animal that I'm just having a really hard time with. As of now, the belief I have now is
I will never eat cow ever. And dairy, my body doesn't do well with. But I will admit, it smells
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really good. If I smell someone else having a burger or a steak, I'm like, wow, that smells
delicious. And then again, there's that separation with our food. We don't call it cow. We call it
beef. Or we don't call things that they are, except for chicken. For some reason,
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we still call it chicken. And that's probably the one that's the most integrated.
Yeah. I don't have a problem with... I've had it a few times this year.
Yeah. And my body has a hard time digesting it, obviously, because it's been such a long time. I
probably need to get some papaya enzymes or something for the next time. And even turkey,
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we call turkey turkey. We don't have... So interesting.
Yeah. I didn't even think about that until just now. And I wonder if for me, if that's why I don't
have such a hard time accepting eating birds. Right. Duck. Duck as well.
Duck, I don't know if I would eat it. They're so cute.
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So cute. And that's again, for each person. Maybe you just... That feeling with cows, maybe
that's just how it is for you. Yeah.
You know? And maybe it's even... Yeah, I feel like there is this piece of becoming all of it
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and merging, merging in a way, and allowing eating to be that depth of ceremony as often as possible.
I remember reading... It was one of Ram Dass's books.
I'm forgetting the title right now, but he was sharing how people reach Samadhi through eating.
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You know, taking minimal 20 to 30 bites per bite and being so present with it and seeing that whole,
everything that led up to it being right here in front of us. And then to bring
life into our bodies is life merging with life. And it can be... Everything can be a spiritual
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experience. So if there is that desire and such a strong connection to the animal, then maybe
that becomes a ritual in itself to go to a farm, a local farm where there...
There's actually a farm here where they do cow hugging therapy.
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Wow. And do they not use their cows for meat or do they also?
No, I think it's like a rescue farm. It's called the Gentle Barn.
That's so cute. It's called the Gentle Barn.
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So maybe that's a fun one too. It's like that. And then also if there was a
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desire to eat that meat, then to experience the closeness in close proximity going to a farm where
it is the place where they have cows for... But they're just doing it ethically. There are farms
that love their cows and also their cows come to... I mean, then we can eat them too. It is wild.
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This is a deep topic. This could be really triggering for a lot of people. Yeah.
Yeah, for sure. But that's great too. Triggers are so great. They're so illuminating.
Yeah. The trigger's like, hey, there's something over here that there's some darkness here for you
(36:08):
to sit with. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Sometimes it's like, hey, here's a way of being that someone is being
that you don't allow yourself to be for some reason. Right. That's what I think the darkness
is so often confused or blended with the shadow. And when things are in the shadow, that's where
(36:29):
the toxicity comes from or the distortion. And once the shadow is integrated, then the darkness
just actually becomes power, like sacred rage. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Sacred rage is so beautiful.
(36:53):
I have a client who has a son who's like three. Yeah. And we did sacred rage together and she
does it with her son now. That's amazing. All that testosterone in his little body, it really helps him.
Yeah. Oh my gosh. Emotional release tools. Game changer. Have ways to move big energy
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so it doesn't get stuck or frozen or lodged. Just keep the life force flowing.
I want to move into, I have a few questions that I like to ask at the end, everyone. The first one is
what does self-love mean to you? Oh, self-love means seeing myself,
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stepping outside of myself to really see myself and to listen, to welcome all parts of myself.
Yeah. When I say listen, it's like, what is my body communicating? And to listen and then to follow
through, to give myself that self-love. Seeing myself listening, following through with that
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inner guidance. Yeah. And also loving all, loving all being that that is the self in truth.
So it's self-love, loving the individual self as a gateway to remembering the truth of who I am.
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Yeah. Beautiful. And what makes you feel the most grounded?
Oh, this is fun. Dance. I get pretty high from dance though. It makes me feel the most embodied.
When I feel embodied, I feel that I am clear and centered and grounded. So yeah, I feel like dance.
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Yeah. And being in nature, of course. Just like watching how the elements express themselves
as a reminder of my nature. Yeah. And then my most favorite question.
What's it gonna be? What's your favorite part about being a woman?
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The first thing that came through was about radiance. Just welcoming and embracing my
radiance and my emotionality, my bigness, my expression.
These feel like qualities of the divine feminine that I've done a lot of work to really
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step into, to land in confidence and empowerment. And so yeah, just the ability to be my fullest
self and allow that radiance to be magnetic, to trust in my essence to be enough.
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Yeah. That feels good.
And then for everyone listening, I want to give you space to talk about your work,
what you offer and where people can find you. Thank you. Yeah. My name is Lavina.
My handle on Instagram is lavina.embodied. And embodied, embodiment feels like a core piece of
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my work, soul embodiment. I'm a soul embodiment mentor, which for me means really tapping into
the divine essence of the one soul of who we are, source, great spirit, love, and how that essence
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can really fully land in the temple body, in this temple that is our home. So yeah, our spirit
landing fully in every part of our body and our being and being a walking embodiment of
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the eternal one. So soul embodiment, and I am also a sexual shamanic practitioner.
So I just graduated the ISTA practitioner training and I've been offering sexual shamanic
bodywork sessions and it's also working with energy and different tools, emotional release.
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And this is a skillful use of sexual energy and activating pleasure in the body for healing,
expansion, transformation, manifestation, amplification of desires. And yeah, just
actualizing our desires. So that's been so, so amazing. We're tapping into like,
(42:33):
true magic, sexual energy is life force. It is creation. It's how we came to exist.
And so working with that energy is just so, so, so powerful and so sacred. And it feels like
in coming into this, I'm returning. I feel like I've tapped into these ancient codes
(43:01):
like from ancient Egypt, goddess Isis and her lineage and this sexual sorcery.
It's really, really powerful. So that feels really alive right now. And I'm offering in-person
sessions. I'm currently based in just outside of Philadelphia in the United States. And I also
(43:26):
travel going to Guatemala, around La Guatitlan in just two weeks to offer my first woman's gathering
an eight day immersive experience called the Shakti experience. That's November 5th to the 12th,
which I don't think this will be out before then, right?
(43:49):
No.
So next year, next year.
But maybe it'll be happening again and maybe there'll be a wait list in the show notes.
Yeah. Yeah. Seriously. We feel it. It's happening. We're probably going to book
same space. It's called Arco Isis. Yeah. It's so, so beautiful.
(44:10):
And yeah, I am open to one-on-one work. I also love offering group containers. And most of my
offerings are on my Instagram, which is lavena.embodied. Yeah, that feels full.
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I'll share this too. It is transforming. So I birthed a mentorship called the awaken and
embody mentorship. And this is going to be evolving into a six month mastermind that is
a school because I do feel that there are a lot of coaches in the industry that may have gone to
(44:58):
to learn about coaching, but haven't really learned so many tools to hold their clients
in a really deep way. So I want to offer tools, right? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
I've been in a space like that where it's like,
float out of your body and out of the emotions. Yeah. And look at what's below you. And I'm like,
(45:22):
but I want to cry. Yeah. Yeah. There's a lot of bypassing. Yeah. And I'm all about like going
right into all that stuff, like digging into it. Almost to a fall. I think it can be a lot for
people in my field, but I'm like, that's what I'm here for. I'm here for the real deal.
(45:42):
There's something in the field that's creating a block. Then let's just look at it. Let's go
into it. There's nothing to run from nowhere else to be than here. So yeah. So that will be evolving
into a six month mastermind. That's essentially a school for those who want to develop. Of course,
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it'll be a deep journey for the individual and it'll offer tools to then share, to hold space
for others in a really powerful way. Yeah. Thank you so much for being here today. This was so
beautiful. So beautiful. Yeah. Thank you so much. I'm like sad that it's been an hour. I know that
(46:26):
was fast. We just came right in and posted. Yeah. Well, I would love to stay connected. You're
amazing. And yeah, so are you. I find you very inspiring. Thank you so much. Thank you. You're
so welcome. Thank you for tuning in to this episode of Openly Spoken. I know that there's
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an abundance of content online, so I really appreciate you giving me your ears today.
If this episode shifted something for you, please share this with a friend and slash or write us a
podcast review if you're listening to this on iTunes so that more people can find this. If
anything shifted for you from this episode that you want to have a conversation about, I would
(47:22):
love to hear from you. Just send me a DM over on Instagram at self express babe. And that is in the
show notes. Thanks again for tuning in and I'll see you next time.
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