January 13, 2024 • 36 mins
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As the frost of the holiday season thaws, I find myself reflecting on the joys and challenges that come with it, all while drawing inspiration from the late Kobe Bryant's "Mamba Mentality."
Battling seasonal blues is no easy feat, but this year I discovered an unexpected delight in the Christmas chaos and the warmth that proactive mental health care can provide to family gatherings. The magic of the holidays truly hit home as I watched my son's heartwarming reaction to unwrapping his dream present on Christmas morning—a moment that captures the essence of the season's enchantment.
Transitioning from festive revelry to the nitty-gritty of clean-up, I let you in on a genius organizational hack: a garage turned holiday storage haven.
There's nothing quite like the thrill in children's eyes when the holidays are upon us, and my son Kj's excitement was a reminder of that pure joy.
In this episode, we not only recount those precious family anecdotes but also nostalgic evolution of fashion and its influence on our personal identity and style. And not to be overlooked, I beam with pride as I talk about my son's academic achievements, knowing full well that the balance between mischief and education is what helps him thrive.
We also tackle the mental gymnastics that can help anyone overcome procrastination, offering a psychological toolkit to help you face down those daunting tasks. It's an episode brimming with heartfelt stories, wisdom, and growth, leaving you inspired to step into the new year with confidence and style.
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Speaker 1 (00:32):
Thank you for tuning in to permission to speak freely
.
Podcast, first episode of 20 24.
Mamba mentality Kobe, kobe, butwe're a Mamba mentality.
So tell me, lalo, it's been aminute man, how are you feeling
(00:52):
this 2024?
I'm feeling good, man.
I'm feeling generally good.
I could be better and I will bebetter.
I was.
I was telling my wife a few daysago, about a week ago, as much
as we talked about like havingthat seasonal depression or
(01:16):
myself being kind of a grincharound the Christmas holiday, I
was having a little like alittle Christmas regression.
Like my tree is still upBecause I, you know, I'm fine
now, but like the kids and shit,opening the gifts in the
(01:36):
morning and just having that,you know like the work schedules
a little different, more socelebrating and you know saying
then the new year hit and it'skind of like back to our regular
schedule programs.
Oh fuck, what happens to thelights, the lights with the
sweaters and shit?
You know, sam, it's justdifferent, you know.
So I was having a little, alittle Christmas regression, if
(01:57):
that's the right term for that,just what I decided to call it.
Like man, I can't wait for nextChristmas, which is very odd
for me because I mean I can'twait to do this shit.
Oh, you know, sam, can't waitto do this shit.
Over my wife and I, we didn'tbreak the bank too much so it
really didn't feel like I fuck,I was other shit to do that.
(02:19):
But, um, but generally good man,starting off, the 2024 strong
man, how about yourself, man, 20Kobe.
Well, it sounds like with you,real quick, the Grinch heart, it
grew like a three times large.
Got me, man, they got me, hey,man.
But that's a beautiful thingthat you was able to recognize
(02:41):
that with yourself.
Not be a Grinch.
Yeah, really get, really show alevel of I guess the word I'll
call it is.
You were very proactive toyourself.
Yeah for sure, got ahead of itbefore you had to put the fire
out and, yeah, which is whichgoes towards, if you remember,
(03:06):
man with goes towards a quarterof ours man, that we generally
live by, and it's one of them isprotect the queen at all costs,
even from yourself at times,and what you did was protect
your family from yourself and noone like hey, you legitimately
(03:27):
need to cut it shut Christmas.
Yeah, beat the fuck out thatChristmas tree.
You know what I'm saying?
I almost smacked it over acouple of times early December,
like I'm just still on this oneFuck the tree is not going to be
over and pick it up before thegirl see.
And it remind me we was kids.
It's the first time.
First or second few times I saythe first few times my wife,
(03:50):
nessa, had met my mother.
So my mother, nessa, came overto my mother house you stand on
Concordia and my mother we hadall these gifts up on the there,
like my siblings were stillliving there and everything.
So they had the gifts for thefamily, each other and stuff up
under there.
And it was my mama was just madat whatever I know when you go
(04:10):
with it.
I was there and you were.
You been around a lot of time.
I've been around a minute.
It was some shit for me underthat tree, for real.
That's where I get the ideafrom.
Yeah, it was like hey man, shejust got so mad and he started
trying to book the tree.
I'll be spiking in the month soI can get it man.
I get it on like differentpeople got different reasons for
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sure, hey man, hey man, I ain'treally trippin on the house.
Yeah, definitely, it was like,and I decided every Christmas
maybe next year I'm going to beI'm revert back and fuck
Christmas.
You know what I'm saying.
I guess it depends on where Iam in the mental space, what's
going on, but I'll tell you whatman that morning.
Just you know.
(04:54):
We know why we celebrateChristmas, but you know, when it
comes down to Christmas morning, like it's for them, kids For
sure, you know what I'm saying.
And at the end, man seeing allof them, you know, opening their
gifts and being excited, youknow what I mean.
And my son, man low here, wesaved his big gift for last on
(05:17):
purpose, because we knew he wasgoing to have a shit when he saw
this.
Fuck it man.
So while he had some stuff toopen and got some shoes, clothes
, all this cooler game, that'swhat's up.
Thanks dad, thanks grandma.
And while his other siblingsare opening things, I can see it
in his eyes kind of like he,kind of like uh, like from the
(05:39):
color purple, anything for mehe's got like, anything else for
me, that's all mine.
You got like nine things.
I knew exactly when I gave himthat one, the last one, like oh
no.
As soon as he ripped back thatfirst strip of paper.
He saw the logo, my man ran outof the room, came back, my boy
(06:01):
man, he, he a crier like hispops, like I cry like a
motherfucker.
He didn't want to fight andchoke shit out of somebody.
You know what I'm saying.
It depends on the situation.
But he get emotional because hegot this thing that it's
fucking meta quest Oculus heads.
That's what the fuck he beenwanting.
Oh yeah, it's a big time.
Yeah, yeah, that's what hewanted, man, the shit.
I'll tell you about it.
(06:21):
But, uh, but he ain't evenfinished opening the rest of the
paper, man, he just went crazy,oh my gosh, and like that was
his, his kid, like, oh man, likethese shoes, nice, but they got
this one.
The fuck I really want, got theOculus for show man.
So he, he cried, he fuckingmaking me cry.
(06:43):
Give me a big old.
I call it a miles my rallies.
Huh, you know the way milesaround the hug is pops in the
movie and shit.
He gave me a big miles myrallies, huh, man, and it's like
up.
That that's.
That's.
That's why we here, man, that'swhat Christmas about, man.
You know, some kids justenjoying opening the yeah, it's
(07:03):
dope man, shit, I spent allmorning being a dad making sure
the paper and shit, putting shittogether.
We got, we got some more tripleA batteries.
Yeah, that need double level totriple A.
I need full triple A.
Hey, pick up all this paper,put that in that box, all the
paper going this box.
I didn't open up my shit tolike 3 pm Word Word Like where,
just forgot, like just soimmersed in being a dad, sorry,
(07:28):
I got my gift just in seeingthat they enjoy their day
Christmas man, so wanted toshare that with y'all Freedom
speakers.
You're getting to hear fathersreal life dads like real life
fathers at work handling shitwithin the household for the
kids.
(07:49):
Okay, this isn't.
We came by the house, droppedoff some stuff.
We put on matching pajamas forone day for the year.
This, this, this is not.
It's not that y'all we, we, notthat you know what I'm saying.
This this man really went intothe garage and got his
screwdriver.
Yeah, I had to.
Phillips flatheads Sometimes getthe little hex head toys.
(08:11):
Sometimes get the little leapfrog joint.
Oh, my damn, motherfucker, theoverland.
Who, who's stealing this shit?
Who hurt leap frog?
We taking them niggas?
I don't, bro, I'm stealing thatshit.
We at that place now where it'slike, damn, I gotta go, I gotta
get to the metric system, handsand shit for these toys and
shit, but I need an Allen wrench.
But it's, it's, it's all love,man, it's all love.
So on our end I'm gonna answeryour question, man, because kind
(08:38):
of just dug in with you alittle bit like, hey, man, I
want to be immersed in whatreally went on over there.
So, with us, man, we actually Ilove that my wife loves
Christmas and I love that I getto be all the different things
that I am within my side of thefamily, her side of the family,
(08:59):
and us blending our families.
For years, yeah, and this yearher family pretty much was the
family that was in there likedominating the household, and I
and I love it and I and what Imean I love it is they are in
there dominating, going, they'rethe majority family there.
They're the ones in there thatare that's what the kids,
(09:23):
they're the ones in there that'sdancing, they're the ones in
there just doing a lot ofbeautiful things, man, and I
thought I think that was cooland I get to be the man in there
and I get to love how my wifegets to decorate.
Remember we actually got a, sowe packing up holiday stuff and
(09:44):
we it looked like somebody gotput out because of how much
stuff is in there.
Like I went to Home Depot,shout out to Home Depot.
I went to Home Depot and I gota metal racking set five tier
metal racking set just to beable to help organize this stuff
(10:08):
.
Okay, this claimer, this is nota negative.
I really like how my garagelook.
I'm going to take a picture andput it on social media and show
you You're going to be like Ican do one more of these.
However, the primary reason itwas used is to help organize
most of her decor for decoratingfor the holiday.
(10:29):
Remember she got she had 14, 15trees.
Last time I checked A lot ofthose are tucked away on that,
on that metal racking in thegarage, but it's about eight or
nine trees lingering in thehouse, small enough to fit
probably in a large two by threetote maybe and I'm only
learning the sizes ofmeasurements and I know a lot of
them go by gallons too.
Yeah, because I've been havinga look and see and readjust the
(10:49):
measurements of how I'm puttingthis, putting this shelf
together.
We're going to get the biggestones on the bottom.
Yeah, put these light shit upthe top because if it falls it's
going to fuck you up.
Yeah, with no heavy shit in thetop stock, but just one of
those of helping my babyorganize.
What I get to see like this iswhere my regression with
Christmas comes in, because Ilove kicking it during the
(11:10):
holidays.
I'm a party animal, I'm afamily person.
I love to kick it.
Then you got clean it, but I donot like to clean up.
Yeah, the fucking, the heavyclean, the leftover, like I.
I, I as an adult do not likecleaning anymore as a grown up
(11:32):
than I did as a kid.
Yeah, I graduated from cleaningup, bro, I know how to do that.
Like so, when I have to reallyclean up After like some cleanup
, cleanup.
It made me sit back andreadjust and think about
everything that I already do.
I'm a man.
I pay for this shit.
I help set up.
I paid for the house, my ownsecurity.
(11:52):
I'm about to sweep like a man.
What the fuck hold up?
I'm like I'm not sweeping, Itake the trash out.
I, you know that type, but I'mnot about to sweep my, but I
Take out the trash with the shitin it, though, what is in there
, but it's.
(12:13):
It's one of those man.
So my regression would it come?
So during the whole event,where I'm up, I'm live, I'm
party and I'm having fun, gocheck out our social medias at
permission.
The number two underscores speakfreely podcast.
I was able to have fun with thefamily, get the drink, get to
Laugh.
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The kids was able to open theirgifts.
Kaja got pretty much everythingthat he wanted, everything that
he posted on social media, onour Facebook and Instagram page.
He got everything on thereexcept, think, one or two things
.
But the man didn't need a wantfor nothing.
(12:53):
For real.
This was shit.
This was all a want list.
He get to wear the white one,so, so he got was on.
So tell him the story thatfreedom speakers.
Have you ever had your momentwhere you got your fresh white
(13:13):
kicks?
You got you some, and I comefrom an air Okay where you got
you a fresh, bright, white, fairpair of bricks, air Force one.
Some low tops of me or hot tops,depending on where you was at
there was started off me, butthe Mears was the.
You couldn't go wrong with themeans.
Low top only became real flywhen soja boy came and add the
(13:36):
colors and stuff At least for myI was in the sixth grade.
No, I had my first pair of lowsin the sixth grade.
I was in the night for 10.
So what went out?
Yet, those boy with long.
And I'm in the sixth grade.
He's so about now.
That's too early, that's too sothere, yeah, so in 2003, 2004,
(14:02):
the meds was, was in.
Yeah, the low tops became Hot.
When that win them, lean withit, rock with it, you think
about baby.
You think about baby the night,oh, yeah, so to wear the low
top, baby, that's when theybecame popular.
But when you had a pair ofall-white bricks, that was low
top, it was like the church,something like what, if you
could, you could pass becausethe problem.
(14:25):
That became popular when niggaswas wearing a blazer with the
Stripe shirt and the collarshirt, jeans, yeah, you were
Wearing pro models hold, hold.
That was hold, outfit, hold andusher.
Yeah, then they Stupid as bigas belt, buckle pants and I was
(14:46):
like seventh grade.
So, men, my son, he had hisface.
Now I remember going through myface and get my new clothes
after income tax cleared for thefamily.
Yeah, I knew Chris, most of thetime.
(15:07):
That's when most black familiesat least the air I grew up in,
as when you usually got New shitis when your parents could
afford to just be like all right, you got a little extra, get
you one or two little things.
So it's my son's turn to sit inthis seat now, man.
So and on his Christmas list heasked for a couple Nike fits.
(15:29):
He wanted a couple of Nike techoutfits and he wanted to pair
all white bricks.
He wanted to shoot other.
I think I'm up here, george,but just tighten up his outfit
is get his game a little bit sohe can go to school and feel
good along with look good, andhe makes.
He's an AB student.
(15:49):
That's one of the things Ialways want to say.
Like he's an AB student man, hehe disrupt as much as he
learned.
So it kind of balances out tome as a parent, but I get it.
So the day after Christmas hewants to go to the park, fresh
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fly Fitted from head to toe.
Oh, my mom, oh my god, I looklike man, I look good.
He was gonna wear that shit totake the garbage out, not, not a
nigga want to run airs.
(16:30):
I'm gonna go outside first.
It's only one day like that.
I'm not an outside person.
Now he got a brother, nigga.
Look handsome, all black, nice,as Nike, nike tech.
And nigga didn't like justregular Nike, it had to be Nike
tech.
Okay, that's all the nays atthe Apple store.
(16:54):
Yeah, I'm like bro, nike, y'allniggas better be in shape with
all these sweatsuits on man,yeah, but, and Norfolk, I'm like
okay.
Then I just got in.
He was time to get him some newkicks.
Man got him to all white bricks, got him Another pair of
Jordans, some mid-tops like blueand black George, but something
that he likes them style, andhe kind of being trying to be
(17:15):
not shillon.
Well, like that you don't haveto spend all his money.
I'm like I fucking know.
Thanks for reminding me, sir.
However, I do want you to lookgood, man.
This is where you don't andthis is one of the things I try
to note to especially him rightnow where he's learning money.
That's not none of your concern.
Right now, with your parents, Idon't want you to feel no
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pressure about what mommy anddaddy pockets are you that ain't
.
You should worry about yourallowance.
Thank you, that comes withchores.
Yeah, you know, yo, yo pocketslocus, something dirty, but I
got dressed so we go back into.
He comes out the next day afterChristmas.
Keep in mind we live inCleveland, ohio, freedom
Speakers.
It didn't really snow none thisyear, I was really snow.
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So this man goes out and, likefall weather, fly and handsome,
looking lean as fuck with thisfresh, crispy black ass, nike
tech, with the all-white bricks,with the hood pulled over his
head, and he come right to thegarage.
You look like Molly from Fridayafter, but he looking good.
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I'm proud in this moment oflike he looking good.
He trying on his feet when helike we can, ready to go to the
park, I don't need to.
Hey man, I hear right there,buddy, what I do.
So I'm like hey man, you can goto the park, most definitely
man, but you, you can't, youcan't wear that right now, and
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you should have just saw thelook of this spare on his face.
Oh, what a word is it?
Look cool at the park.
I would have where it look cool.
I'm like hey, man, you gotother stuff to look cool at the
park, you ain't got to wear that.
So just having to be a dadBecause ultimately and he may
hear this yeah, you can go tothe park and look cool.
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However, just as much as youtrying to look cool, putting on
the fresh fruit with theall-white ones, like that,
you're kind of a goofy as helltoo.
It's kind of like that ain'tnecessary man at all.
So I don't know the kids get ityet.
When I had to be a dad and justprotect him from being the
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coolest fool at the park, if youwill, I had to give him a
Remnant story of myself.
Okay, once he changes outfitand put on something that was
more, we were more easy for himto destroy like a man you could.
That's cool, you could do that.
That ain't no, no, no issue.
I give him the story of when Iwas a kid, in middle school,
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platinum Fubu was the shit andmy mother was able to get me a
pair of Air Force ones white lowtop, mm-hmm, and a blue
Platinum Fubu shirt fat-out,we're the dish.
I wore Platinum off thatmotherfucker, till it became
sterling silver and it wasn't aprecious metal, no more.
And that was not platinum, ohman.
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But it was my favorite shirt.
It was my favorite shirt and Iwore once or twice probably a
week just on some like a man.
My wardrobe was based on what myparent can afford, like most
kids.
You know I'm saying my bad.
I was.
I wasn't the flyest guy, but Iprobably was smarter than most.
I stand on that.
Yeah, I knew that was smarterthan most.
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Yeah, so we're really counts,really, man.
But that being said, when hecame back out, he felt, you know
, a little bit more at ease andI gave him a story of like, hey,
when I was a kid, I got theplatinum Fubu shirt and I kept
wearing it and I kept wearing itand I kept wearing it because
it Was my favorite shirt and Ikept wearing it.
Prematurely, I was inWashington, wasn't fly, no more.
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What I don't want, didn't wanthim to do and I explained to him
is make that same mistake.
I'm like man, you don't go backto school and said a seventh,
eighth, whatever the date was,and this is the second day the
year you want to be one.
Even the second day, okay, okay, day after this, the day after
you just snatch tags on it's theday after Christmas.
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I'm making sure I'm getting,I'm making sure I ain't putting
it after New Year.
So I'm like this is the dayafter Christmas.
You fly.
It's like the second day ofbreak, yeah.
So I'm like, hey, man, youwearing that today.
You know it's gonna probably bewashed one or two times before
you get to school and then it'snot gonna be as new.
No, no, black ain't gonna beblack and like it would, mm-hmm,
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it's not gonna be crisp, butI'm like you gonna go look good
at the park for just a fewpeople to see.
Yeah, when you get to school,that's when you really that's,
that's when you crack him.
So he kind of getting that, youknow it make is making sense.
He's feeling like, well, youright, okay, you right.
So he was, I cannot.
We're like the jacket aroundthe house.
He's like this what he just youknow he's, I Don't want to
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simmer down his.
I'm giving him game like, okay,man, you got blue one.
Yeah, you got the whole fit thejacket and the pants.
I'm like you got a blue one,you got a red one, you got a
black one.
I'm like you got a cream.
When I think of whatever, I'mlike, hey, you got a different
game member, a dad week.
Oh, I'm a bird.
You got four outfits whichreally like eight was, really
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could be like 10 or 12.
You play right Every littlea-lad one of them.
Jackets go with everyone in thepants, everyone.
Steve Harvey with the suit,yeah, but it's like hey, man,
you can't mention match bro.
So he feeling good now someonethat when he couldn't, he
couldn't wait to break thesilence once he Was time for
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school.
This is when I knew it was likea is my time.
Okay.
So freedom speakers, when Iwalked into my son's room and I
got a chance to just do my myprep work as a father Checking,
make you straight, man, you'regoing back to school tomorrow.
I got your haircut.
Brush your teeth, man, get somein some pubes now.
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You got some deodorant on.
My mom got you some cologne andsome new drawers and stuff for
Christmas, man, I'm like so.
So now Let me see what youwearing.
This.
Now was the time, big dog.
Yeah, that shit laid out on bed.
Oh yeah, I figured I would wearthis one like Monday with my
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white shoes.
Thank you for showing me how toclean off my shoes.
Rp John with spoon coordinate,baby.
But I felt like it was my turn.
I felt like I'm passing thetorch.
Yeah, he's showing me what hewearing Like.
He felt good about him, man.
He got Monday through Thursdayall mapped out and that's just
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the Nike tech.
Yeah, wifey got him like somegap sweat okay, and Just meant
Gift giving is like what shedoes.
He still ain't ran out ofoutfits.
No, I don't know, but I seenhim with red twice.
That's his color.
I think it was a red with a redzipper, then it was a red or
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like a black zipper, cuz Tikigot even one.
They ain't gonna know.
Yeah To them is key is not Killthem.
The key got the tech.
Go in the breakfast room withthese.
So you sure lay on purpose.
So everybody's seeing when hewalking, so bruh.
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So that's when I told him, likethe man when he walked through,
you come through, bruh.
You got to be the first one atthe bus stop, all right, or last
, that's the dramatics, last onelay.
So Just I felt good passing thetorch.
I showed him how to wipebecause he did wear the Air
Force is he wanted to wear them?
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So I'm like we had a rainy,misty Christmas season.
I know he got the little mud onthe bottom and it creeped up on
the soul a little bit.
I know exactly gave him anotherstory because he, mom, was like
I was KJ washing shoestrings forhis white bricks, his white
shoes.
I'm like, see, when I was a kidI Would have to, you know, take
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a mile wash and put them insome bleach, put them in some.
There I might do one day.
I Got hit.
Then I will go to the dollars,though, and shoe strings was
like cheap enough to steal, noconviction, no conviction.
You know, just a Didn't gain aweight on me and you can't go
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back.
It was fully stocked all thetime.
So we would go with still shoestrings, sometimes all white, or
when the shoes started gettinglike you got to be careful with
stealing white shoe, because ifyou put some fresh white shoe
strings in some two month oldwhite shoes, mm-hmm, you got a
cool white.
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So this led into we start doingthe fat boy, oh shit strings
with playing in the shoes, justto be like.
I got the blue, got the bluewith these laces, I got my
Iceberg shirt, that, whateveryou was, whatever was the
iceberg, though with the card onjeans, yeah, the tass man man.
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But Make it what lever Avericksjacket, fucking fat form.
They don't know it's doing it.
Sean John, what rocker where?
So I'm breaking down just likea.
You know butters as boo?
(26:46):
Yeah, we know.
Like you were hikers, you hadsome.
Yeah, I had a white Mr Allen 25, that's the same thing.
What's the return policy onthese bitches, man?
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But just I felt good giving himthe game, that's solid, showing
him how to like watch the shoes,yeah, but just like it's, I
need to watch my mother fuckingshoes.
Hey, bro, I used to be big onlike washing my ones and shit.
Like I legit I'm notexaggerating, bro like every day
I was watching my mother one bymy mother was good with one day
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.
Look, he's like man, it's notfun, always got keep some fresh
ones, like not a guy had evenjust for a minute.
But I go home every day.
I'm talking pull the laces outme, wash the tongue on the
behind the tongue.
You take them laces out andsome of the time be clean Some
dirty that's how you get them alittle dirtlos March, yeah, and
you got to make sure you putyour laces in back like the same
(27:53):
way.
You know, I'm saying like Iremember watching the the last
day in special the 98 bulls, andthey was talking about how
Michael Jordan made show hisshoe strings was perfectly alive
.
Look, he's so particular abouthis shoes.
Nigga, that was me and I ain'tno Michael drill was doing that
shit.
I make.
Show my shit, lacing my shit.
Your greatness.
Hey, we could do that.
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Yeah, yeah, yeah, but Solid man, thanks for sharing that.
Hey, that was dope.
Hey, man, thank you that.
That that was like the highlightto me of my Christmas is just
not only coaching, not, yeah,not only just the gift giving,
because I, we do that all yearround of just like a you growing
here you go.
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It ain't a gift, is taking careof you.
But him getting the on this onthis particular day think how
you want on holidays but just onthis particular day he received
what he won't.
He got extra gang he, helearned some patience, mm-hmm,
you know I'm saying and thenkilled them.
For the first week and a halfof school you still got three
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sweaters.
He ain't rocked it, he got allthe stuff he don't like that.
He ain't worried.
Put that title, kill him withthe title neck, wait till it's
cold.
Why didn't make the shirt?
But I did put December on there.
I thought I think I put it toohigh, but I'm gonna make you
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another.
Hey, you got any.
You got any resolutions for thefor 2024.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, man, one ofthe things that I truly want to
do is actually stick to this.
Man, this is very therapeuticto me.
Oh, the pot.
Permission to speak for you,for your, for our fans, man, for
the listeners, for people who,um, who actually Get pissed with
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us when they see us in publichey, because we ain't put out no
content.
Thank y'all for holding usaccountable, thank you, thank
you.
So don't want to let y'all down,want to give you something to
give you this audio crack.
When I give you this, give youwe ever to speak on behalf of
you, for you, for ourselves.
Boo-foo by us.
Fuck, you shout out to how hotmovie for that shit was just on
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other days.
I love that movie, man, but yougot to watch that movie and
watch the commentary with RedMeff talking about they did on
the DVD, on the DVD, but thekids didn't even know what
Divotus was.
Man, I told you I about the CDs, right, man?
Oh, my goodness, I know that,not to mention the DVD, I can't.
I can't remember time.
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Last time I seen one of my kidspop a disk in some, yeah, in
popping this, no more.
They open an apps, apps withstreaming was live.
That's it.
It's so much that we lose, justnot man.
That's that's why I'm mad.
So, speaking to losing, thatgoes into another just
resolution.
Man of my own, hold myselfaccountable for the things that
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I want to do and notprocrastinate.
Yeah, losing time.
Just I lost a lot of people intwenty twenty three.
That meant something to me, forsure, and I buried myself in
work and in crafts and in tasks,not to think about it, not to
grieve, not to mourn.
However, I pulled from theirenergy to keep going of how dare
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I am tired, in the prime of mylife, when these people made it
to the third and fourth quarterof theirs and I'm only in the
second year, that's man that I,my ancestors, who didn't get a
day off, who was possibly slavesor just had a really shitty
boss and just needed it, tookwhatever because they needed a
(31:34):
job.
That's up to you.
Know how dare I'm tired?
Yeah, I could take a break,though Like, don't get me wrong,
like I'm not too tired to do it, but like, hey, I need to be
able to take as many breaks asnecessary.
However, I know of myself whatwould I?
Procrastinate it?
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And when you lose something iswhen you know how you gauge how
much time in between you didn'treally fucked off.
Yeah, me seeing myself of like,hey, I've made a whole lot of
marks, but when I get to look atall the other shit that still
need to be done, it's like, hey,I could have done more and I
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found me beat myself up aboutthat shit.
When it's like other peoplearound me to be like, oh, no, no
, no, you already doing enough,yeah, doing more, but me still
knowing my potential, I'malready riding this prom way.
I'm just tapping into what mypotential of?
How much more can I be at this,like compartmentalizing
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different things.
Like I could be better at notprocrastinating.
I could be better at my timemanagement I'm already good at
this shit, but it's like, howmuch better can I be for sure?
So let me ask you this what iswhat is trying to think of?
How to say this?
What do you learn from that?
Like, what can you do?
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Let's just say next time to say, ok, hey, next time I'm going
to do this to make sure.
Like, where are you punchingtime?
So then, when it comes down toto it the way you like, ah, yeah
, I did my thing, like what'sthe?
What's the move?
You have to get organized anddisciplined with yourself.
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You have this have a vision ofyour end goal, of where you want
to see yourself at.
This is why you may see in TVshows or movies sitcoms that
they'll put a picture of like abody and then like their face on
it, like their goals.
You had the Rocky joint.
The Rocky joint, you had amirror up.
You had a mirror over Rocky'sface.
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So when you look in the mirror,like you, you, you, the dying
style, you the black style, yeah, yeah, yeah For sure.
Some people might say that, butthat was a mental.
That's a mental thing for mebecause it really all starts in
your mind.
Man, that is everything thatyou see was an idea that
somebody eventually made adecision and then stuck to it,
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yeah, for sure.
So Me knowing how I need tocompartmentalize certain things
for myself, just because Ihandle so much that the whole
load can overwhelm me if I thinkabout it in its entirety, Me
just saying, ok, let me my formyself in the morning, my
breakdown I get up between Threeand five before is like a sweet
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spot.
I'll do some work on mycomputer, I'll stretch, but I'll
break down like four to fourthirty.
I'm gonna do this from four.
Thirty to five.
I'm gonna do that from five tosix.
I'm gonna do this from six tothis.
I'm gonna give my kids a blah,blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
But I kind of break it down sothat it doesn't overwhelm me of
knowing like I'm being.
I'm being mentally drained bysomething I ain't even done yet.
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At the end of the day, yeah,and I will catch myself going
and I will catch myself doingthat, just thinking about
everything, and I almost kind ofget paralyzed.
Yeah, that shit can't happen.
And then I do nothing, yep, andthat'd be like that mental
exhaustion Like, if you know,you know, I'm gonna say some
simple like cutting the grass orshoveling the snow.
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You're doing something now, butas soon as something else is put
on your plate, it's kind oflike ah, it's like I wasn't even
tired before this task wasadded to my list, but now just
thinking about doing that shitis kind of like, fuck man, I
just I want to sit down, I'mgonna sleep the trick that I use
for that because I find myselfdoing that, knowing cutting the
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grass is one of them with thegroundskeepers on our ship.
Well, what mentally tricks meout of doing or getting into
certain tasks is if there is atask that I know I need to do
and I don't want to do it, I tryto think of or look around at
another task that's worse thanthat, that I still need to do,
(35:47):
and it makes me say, like thistask ain't that bad, I'd rather
do this, that shit, then thisone.
Like, fuck that task, I'll dothis one.
So that helps me mentallyreally.
Just unlike I still need to doit.
It's just, man, I can't keepprocrastinating the time because
now I add interest and tax toit.
It doesn't sit well for me, orwho dependent on me, to do it.
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Yeah, so beautifully said man.
Beautifully said man.
Freedom speakers, thank you fortuning in.
We out.
Thank you for tuning in to permission to speak freely
.
Podcast, first episode of 20 24.
Mamba mentality Kobe, kobe, butwe're a Mamba mentality.
So tell me, lalo, it's been aminute man, how are you feeling
(00:52):
this 2024?
I'm feeling good, man.
I'm feeling generally good.
I could be better and I will bebetter.
I was.
I was telling my wife a few daysago, about a week ago, as much
as we talked about like havingthat seasonal depression or
(01:16):
myself being kind of a grincharound the Christmas holiday, I
was having a little like alittle Christmas regression.
Like my tree is still upBecause I, you know, I'm fine
now, but like the kids and shit,opening the gifts in the
(01:36):
morning and just having that,you know like the work schedules
a little different, more socelebrating and you know saying
then the new year hit and it'skind of like back to our regular
schedule programs.
Oh fuck, what happens to thelights, the lights with the
sweaters and shit?
You know, sam, it's justdifferent, you know.
So I was having a little, alittle Christmas regression, if
(01:57):
that's the right term for that,just what I decided to call it.
Like man, I can't wait for nextChristmas, which is very odd
for me because I mean I can'twait to do this shit.
Oh, you know, sam, can't waitto do this shit.
Over my wife and I, we didn'tbreak the bank too much so it
really didn't feel like I fuck,I was other shit to do that.
(02:19):
But, um, but generally good man,starting off, the 2024 strong
man, how about yourself, man, 20Kobe.
Well, it sounds like with you,real quick, the Grinch heart, it
grew like a three times large.
Got me, man, they got me, hey,man.
But that's a beautiful thingthat you was able to recognize
(02:41):
that with yourself.
Not be a Grinch.
Yeah, really get, really show alevel of I guess the word I'll
call it is.
You were very proactive toyourself.
Yeah for sure, got ahead of itbefore you had to put the fire
out and, yeah, which is whichgoes towards, if you remember,
(03:06):
man with goes towards a quarterof ours man, that we generally
live by, and it's one of them isprotect the queen at all costs,
even from yourself at times,and what you did was protect
your family from yourself and noone like hey, you legitimately
(03:27):
need to cut it shut Christmas.
Yeah, beat the fuck out thatChristmas tree.
You know what I'm saying?
I almost smacked it over acouple of times early December,
like I'm just still on this oneFuck the tree is not going to be
over and pick it up before thegirl see.
And it remind me we was kids.
It's the first time.
First or second few times I saythe first few times my wife,
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nessa, had met my mother.
So my mother, nessa, came overto my mother house you stand on
Concordia and my mother we hadall these gifts up on the there,
like my siblings were stillliving there and everything.
So they had the gifts for thefamily, each other and stuff up
under there.
And it was my mama was just madat whatever I know when you go
(04:10):
with it.
I was there and you were.
You been around a lot of time.
I've been around a minute.
It was some shit for me underthat tree, for real.
That's where I get the ideafrom.
Yeah, it was like hey man, shejust got so mad and he started
trying to book the tree.
I'll be spiking in the month soI can get it man.
I get it on like differentpeople got different reasons for
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sure, hey man, hey man, I ain'treally trippin on the house.
Yeah, definitely, it was like,and I decided every Christmas
maybe next year I'm going to beI'm revert back and fuck
Christmas.
You know what I'm saying.
I guess it depends on where Iam in the mental space, what's
going on, but I'll tell you whatman that morning.
Just you know.
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We know why we celebrateChristmas, but you know, when it
comes down to Christmas morning, like it's for them, kids For
sure, you know what I'm saying.
And at the end, man seeing allof them, you know, opening their
gifts and being excited, youknow what I mean.
And my son, man low here, wesaved his big gift for last on
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purpose, because we knew he wasgoing to have a shit when he saw
this.
Fuck it man.
So while he had some stuff toopen and got some shoes, clothes
, all this cooler game, that'swhat's up.
Thanks dad, thanks grandma.
And while his other siblingsare opening things, I can see it
in his eyes kind of like he,kind of like uh, like from the
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color purple, anything for mehe's got like, anything else for
me, that's all mine.
You got like nine things.
I knew exactly when I gave himthat one, the last one, like oh
no.
As soon as he ripped back thatfirst strip of paper.
He saw the logo, my man ran outof the room, came back, my boy
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man, he, he a crier like hispops, like I cry like a
motherfucker.
He didn't want to fight andchoke shit out of somebody.
You know what I'm saying.
It depends on the situation.
But he get emotional because hegot this thing that it's
fucking meta quest Oculus heads.
That's what the fuck he beenwanting.
Oh yeah, it's a big time.
Yeah, yeah, that's what hewanted, man, the shit.
I'll tell you about it.
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But, uh, but he ain't evenfinished opening the rest of the
paper, man, he just went crazy,oh my gosh, and like that was
his, his kid, like, oh man, likethese shoes, nice, but they got
this one.
The fuck I really want, got theOculus for show man.
So he, he cried, he fuckingmaking me cry.
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Give me a big old.
I call it a miles my rallies.
Huh, you know the way milesaround the hug is pops in the
movie and shit.
He gave me a big miles myrallies, huh, man, and it's like
up.
That that's.
That's.
That's why we here, man, that'swhat Christmas about, man.
You know, some kids justenjoying opening the yeah, it's
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dope man, shit, I spent allmorning being a dad making sure
the paper and shit, putting shittogether.
We got, we got some more tripleA batteries.
Yeah, that need double level totriple A.
I need full triple A.
Hey, pick up all this paper,put that in that box, all the
paper going this box.
I didn't open up my shit tolike 3 pm Word Word Like where,
just forgot, like just soimmersed in being a dad, sorry,
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I got my gift just in seeingthat they enjoy their day
Christmas man, so wanted toshare that with y'all Freedom
speakers.
You're getting to hear fathersreal life dads like real life
fathers at work handling shitwithin the household for the
kids.
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Okay, this isn't.
We came by the house, droppedoff some stuff.
We put on matching pajamas forone day for the year.
This, this, this is not.
It's not that y'all we, we, notthat you know what I'm saying.
This this man really went intothe garage and got his
screwdriver.
Yeah, I had to.
Phillips flatheads Sometimes getthe little hex head toys.
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Sometimes get the little leapfrog joint.
Oh, my damn, motherfucker, theoverland.
Who, who's stealing this shit?
Who hurt leap frog?
We taking them niggas?
I don't, bro, I'm stealing thatshit.
We at that place now where it'slike, damn, I gotta go, I gotta
get to the metric system, handsand shit for these toys and
shit, but I need an Allen wrench.
But it's, it's, it's all love,man, it's all love.
So on our end I'm gonna answeryour question, man, because kind
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of just dug in with you alittle bit like, hey, man, I
want to be immersed in whatreally went on over there.
So, with us, man, we actually Ilove that my wife loves
Christmas and I love that I getto be all the different things
that I am within my side of thefamily, her side of the family,
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and us blending our families.
For years, yeah, and this yearher family pretty much was the
family that was in there likedominating the household, and I
and I love it and I and what Imean I love it is they are in
there dominating, going, they'rethe majority family there.
They're the ones in there thatare that's what the kids,
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they're the ones in there that'sdancing, they're the ones in
there just doing a lot ofbeautiful things, man, and I
thought I think that was cooland I get to be the man in there
and I get to love how my wifegets to decorate.
Remember we actually got a, sowe packing up holiday stuff and
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we it looked like somebody gotput out because of how much
stuff is in there.
Like I went to Home Depot,shout out to Home Depot.
I went to Home Depot and I gota metal racking set five tier
metal racking set just to beable to help organize this stuff
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.
Okay, this claimer, this is nota negative.
I really like how my garagelook.
I'm going to take a picture andput it on social media and show
you You're going to be like Ican do one more of these.
However, the primary reason itwas used is to help organize
most of her decor for decoratingfor the holiday.
(10:29):
Remember she got she had 14, 15trees.
Last time I checked A lot ofthose are tucked away on that,
on that metal racking in thegarage, but it's about eight or
nine trees lingering in thehouse, small enough to fit
probably in a large two by threetote maybe and I'm only
learning the sizes ofmeasurements and I know a lot of
them go by gallons too.
Yeah, because I've been havinga look and see and readjust the
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measurements of how I'm puttingthis, putting this shelf
together.
We're going to get the biggestones on the bottom.
Yeah, put these light shit upthe top because if it falls it's
going to fuck you up.
Yeah, with no heavy shit in thetop stock, but just one of
those of helping my babyorganize.
What I get to see like this iswhere my regression with
Christmas comes in, because Ilove kicking it during the
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holidays.
I'm a party animal, I'm afamily person.
I love to kick it.
Then you got clean it, but I donot like to clean up.
Yeah, the fucking, the heavyclean, the leftover, like I.
I, I as an adult do not likecleaning anymore as a grown up
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than I did as a kid.
Yeah, I graduated from cleaningup, bro, I know how to do that.
Like so, when I have to reallyclean up After like some cleanup
, cleanup.
It made me sit back andreadjust and think about
everything that I already do.
I'm a man.
I pay for this shit.
I help set up.
I paid for the house, my ownsecurity.
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I'm about to sweep like a man.
What the fuck hold up?
I'm like I'm not sweeping, Itake the trash out.
I, you know that type, but I'mnot about to sweep my, but I
Take out the trash with the shitin it, though, what is in there
, but it's.
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It's one of those man.
So my regression would it come?
So during the whole event,where I'm up, I'm live, I'm
party and I'm having fun, gocheck out our social medias at
permission.
The number two underscores speakfreely podcast.
I was able to have fun with thefamily, get the drink, get to
Laugh.
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The kids was able to open theirgifts.
Kaja got pretty much everythingthat he wanted, everything that
he posted on social media, onour Facebook and Instagram page.
He got everything on thereexcept, think, one or two things
.
But the man didn't need a wantfor nothing.
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For real.
This was shit.
This was all a want list.
He get to wear the white one,so, so he got was on.
So tell him the story thatfreedom speakers.
Have you ever had your momentwhere you got your fresh white
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kicks?
You got you some, and I comefrom an air Okay where you got
you a fresh, bright, white, fairpair of bricks, air Force one.
Some low tops of me or hot tops,depending on where you was at
there was started off me, butthe Mears was the.
You couldn't go wrong with themeans.
Low top only became real flywhen soja boy came and add the
(13:36):
colors and stuff At least for myI was in the sixth grade.
No, I had my first pair of lowsin the sixth grade.
I was in the night for 10.
So what went out?
Yet, those boy with long.
And I'm in the sixth grade.
He's so about now.
That's too early, that's too sothere, yeah, so in 2003, 2004,
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the meds was, was in.
Yeah, the low tops became Hot.
When that win them, lean withit, rock with it, you think
about baby.
You think about baby the night,oh, yeah, so to wear the low
top, baby, that's when theybecame popular.
But when you had a pair ofall-white bricks, that was low
top, it was like the church,something like what, if you
could, you could pass becausethe problem.
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That became popular when niggaswas wearing a blazer with the
Stripe shirt and the collarshirt, jeans, yeah, you were
Wearing pro models hold, hold.
That was hold, outfit, hold andusher.
Yeah, then they Stupid as bigas belt, buckle pants and I was
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like seventh grade.
So, men, my son, he had hisface.
Now I remember going through myface and get my new clothes
after income tax cleared for thefamily.
Yeah, I knew Chris, most of thetime.
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That's when most black familiesat least the air I grew up in,
as when you usually got New shitis when your parents could
afford to just be like all right, you got a little extra, get
you one or two little things.
So it's my son's turn to sit inthis seat now, man.
So and on his Christmas list heasked for a couple Nike fits.
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He wanted a couple of Nike techoutfits and he wanted to pair
all white bricks.
He wanted to shoot other.
I think I'm up here, george,but just tighten up his outfit
is get his game a little bit sohe can go to school and feel
good along with look good, andhe makes.
He's an AB student.
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That's one of the things Ialways want to say.
Like he's an AB student man, hehe disrupt as much as he
learned.
So it kind of balances out tome as a parent, but I get it.
So the day after Christmas hewants to go to the park, fresh
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fly Fitted from head to toe.
Oh, my mom, oh my god, I looklike man, I look good.
He was gonna wear that shit totake the garbage out, not, not a
nigga want to run airs.
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I'm gonna go outside first.
It's only one day like that.
I'm not an outside person.
Now he got a brother, nigga.
Look handsome, all black, nice,as Nike, nike tech.
And nigga didn't like justregular Nike, it had to be Nike
tech.
Okay, that's all the nays atthe Apple store.
(16:54):
Yeah, I'm like bro, nike, y'allniggas better be in shape with
all these sweatsuits on man,yeah, but, and Norfolk, I'm like
okay.
Then I just got in.
He was time to get him some newkicks.
Man got him to all white bricks, got him Another pair of
Jordans, some mid-tops like blueand black George, but something
that he likes them style, andhe kind of being trying to be
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not shillon.
Well, like that you don't haveto spend all his money.
I'm like I fucking know.
Thanks for reminding me, sir.
However, I do want you to lookgood, man.
This is where you don't andthis is one of the things I try
to note to especially him rightnow where he's learning money.
That's not none of your concern.
Right now, with your parents, Idon't want you to feel no
(17:37):
pressure about what mommy anddaddy pockets are you that ain't
.
You should worry about yourallowance.
Thank you, that comes withchores.
Yeah, you know, yo, yo pocketslocus, something dirty, but I
got dressed so we go back into.
He comes out the next day afterChristmas.
Keep in mind we live inCleveland, ohio, freedom
Speakers.
It didn't really snow none thisyear, I was really snow.
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So this man goes out and, likefall weather, fly and handsome,
looking lean as fuck with thisfresh, crispy black ass, nike
tech, with the all-white bricks,with the hood pulled over his
head, and he come right to thegarage.
You look like Molly from Fridayafter, but he looking good.
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I'm proud in this moment oflike he looking good.
He trying on his feet when helike we can, ready to go to the
park, I don't need to.
Hey man, I hear right there,buddy, what I do.
So I'm like hey man, you can goto the park, most definitely
man, but you, you can't, youcan't wear that right now, and
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you should have just saw thelook of this spare on his face.
Oh, what a word is it?
Look cool at the park.
I would have where it look cool.
I'm like hey, man, you gotother stuff to look cool at the
park, you ain't got to wear that.
So just having to be a dadBecause ultimately and he may
hear this yeah, you can go tothe park and look cool.
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However, just as much as youtrying to look cool, putting on
the fresh fruit with theall-white ones, like that,
you're kind of a goofy as helltoo.
It's kind of like that ain'tnecessary man at all.
So I don't know the kids get ityet.
When I had to be a dad and justprotect him from being the
(19:29):
coolest fool at the park, if youwill, I had to give him a
Remnant story of myself.
Okay, once he changes outfitand put on something that was
more, we were more easy for himto destroy like a man you could.
That's cool, you could do that.
That ain't no, no, no issue.
I give him the story of when Iwas a kid, in middle school,
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platinum Fubu was the shit andmy mother was able to get me a
pair of Air Force ones white lowtop, mm-hmm, and a blue
Platinum Fubu shirt fat-out,we're the dish.
I wore Platinum off thatmotherfucker, till it became
sterling silver and it wasn't aprecious metal, no more.
And that was not platinum, ohman.
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But it was my favorite shirt.
It was my favorite shirt and Iwore once or twice probably a
week just on some like a man.
My wardrobe was based on what myparent can afford, like most
kids.
You know I'm saying my bad.
I was.
I wasn't the flyest guy, but Iprobably was smarter than most.
I stand on that.
Yeah, I knew that was smarterthan most.
(20:33):
Yeah, so we're really counts,really, man.
But that being said, when hecame back out, he felt, you know
, a little bit more at ease andI gave him a story of like, hey,
when I was a kid, I got theplatinum Fubu shirt and I kept
wearing it and I kept wearing itand I kept wearing it because
it Was my favorite shirt and Ikept wearing it.
Prematurely, I was inWashington, wasn't fly, no more.
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What I don't want, didn't wanthim to do and I explained to him
is make that same mistake.
I'm like man, you don't go backto school and said a seventh,
eighth, whatever the date was,and this is the second day the
year you want to be one.
Even the second day, okay, okay, day after this, the day after
you just snatch tags on it's theday after Christmas.
(21:16):
I'm making sure I'm getting,I'm making sure I ain't putting
it after New Year.
So I'm like this is the dayafter Christmas.
You fly.
It's like the second day ofbreak, yeah.
So I'm like, hey, man, youwearing that today.
You know it's gonna probably bewashed one or two times before
you get to school and then it'snot gonna be as new.
No, no, black ain't gonna beblack and like it would, mm-hmm,
(21:37):
it's not gonna be crisp, butI'm like you gonna go look good
at the park for just a fewpeople to see.
Yeah, when you get to school,that's when you really that's,
that's when you crack him.
So he kind of getting that, youknow it make is making sense.
He's feeling like, well, youright, okay, you right.
So he was, I cannot.
We're like the jacket aroundthe house.
He's like this what he just youknow he's, I Don't want to
(22:04):
simmer down his.
I'm giving him game like, okay,man, you got blue one.
Yeah, you got the whole fit thejacket and the pants.
I'm like you got a blue one,you got a red one, you got a
black one.
I'm like you got a cream.
When I think of whatever, I'mlike, hey, you got a different
game member, a dad week.
Oh, I'm a bird.
You got four outfits whichreally like eight was, really
(22:28):
could be like 10 or 12.
You play right Every littlea-lad one of them.
Jackets go with everyone in thepants, everyone.
Steve Harvey with the suit,yeah, but it's like hey, man,
you can't mention match bro.
So he feeling good now someonethat when he couldn't, he
couldn't wait to break thesilence once he Was time for
(22:50):
school.
This is when I knew it was likea is my time.
Okay.
So freedom speakers, when Iwalked into my son's room and I
got a chance to just do my myprep work as a father Checking,
make you straight, man, you'regoing back to school tomorrow.
I got your haircut.
Brush your teeth, man, get somein some pubes now.
(23:12):
You got some deodorant on.
My mom got you some cologne andsome new drawers and stuff for
Christmas, man, I'm like so.
So now Let me see what youwearing.
This.
Now was the time, big dog.
Yeah, that shit laid out on bed.
Oh yeah, I figured I would wearthis one like Monday with my
(23:35):
white shoes.
Thank you for showing me how toclean off my shoes.
Rp John with spoon coordinate,baby.
But I felt like it was my turn.
I felt like I'm passing thetorch.
Yeah, he's showing me what hewearing Like.
He felt good about him, man.
He got Monday through Thursdayall mapped out and that's just
(23:56):
the Nike tech.
Yeah, wifey got him like somegap sweat okay, and Just meant
Gift giving is like what shedoes.
He still ain't ran out ofoutfits.
No, I don't know, but I seenhim with red twice.
That's his color.
I think it was a red with a redzipper, then it was a red or
(24:17):
like a black zipper, cuz Tikigot even one.
They ain't gonna know.
Yeah To them is key is not Killthem.
The key got the tech.
Go in the breakfast room withthese.
So you sure lay on purpose.
So everybody's seeing when hewalking, so bruh.
(24:38):
So that's when I told him, likethe man when he walked through,
you come through, bruh.
You got to be the first one atthe bus stop, all right, or last
, that's the dramatics, last onelay.
So Just I felt good passing thetorch.
I showed him how to wipebecause he did wear the Air
Force is he wanted to wear them?
(24:59):
So I'm like we had a rainy,misty Christmas season.
I know he got the little mud onthe bottom and it creeped up on
the soul a little bit.
I know exactly gave him anotherstory because he, mom, was like
I was KJ washing shoestrings forhis white bricks, his white
shoes.
I'm like, see, when I was a kidI Would have to, you know, take
(25:22):
a mile wash and put them insome bleach, put them in some.
There I might do one day.
I Got hit.
Then I will go to the dollars,though, and shoe strings was
like cheap enough to steal, noconviction, no conviction.
You know, just a Didn't gain aweight on me and you can't go
(25:43):
back.
It was fully stocked all thetime.
So we would go with still shoestrings, sometimes all white, or
when the shoes started gettinglike you got to be careful with
stealing white shoe, because ifyou put some fresh white shoe
strings in some two month oldwhite shoes, mm-hmm, you got a
cool white.
(26:04):
So this led into we start doingthe fat boy, oh shit strings
with playing in the shoes, justto be like.
I got the blue, got the bluewith these laces, I got my
Iceberg shirt, that, whateveryou was, whatever was the
iceberg, though with the card onjeans, yeah, the tass man man.
(26:26):
But Make it what lever Avericksjacket, fucking fat form.
They don't know it's doing it.
Sean John, what rocker where?
So I'm breaking down just likea.
You know butters as boo?
(26:46):
Yeah, we know.
Like you were hikers, you hadsome.
Yeah, I had a white Mr Allen 25, that's the same thing.
What's the return policy onthese bitches, man?
(27:10):
But just I felt good giving himthe game, that's solid, showing
him how to like watch the shoes,yeah, but just like it's, I
need to watch my mother fuckingshoes.
Hey, bro, I used to be big onlike washing my ones and shit.
Like I legit I'm notexaggerating, bro like every day
I was watching my mother one bymy mother was good with one day
(27:32):
.
Look, he's like man, it's notfun, always got keep some fresh
ones, like not a guy had evenjust for a minute.
But I go home every day.
I'm talking pull the laces outme, wash the tongue on the
behind the tongue.
You take them laces out andsome of the time be clean Some
dirty that's how you get them alittle dirtlos March, yeah, and
you got to make sure you putyour laces in back like the same
(27:53):
way.
You know, I'm saying like Iremember watching the the last
day in special the 98 bulls, andthey was talking about how
Michael Jordan made show hisshoe strings was perfectly alive
.
Look, he's so particular abouthis shoes.
Nigga, that was me and I ain'tno Michael drill was doing that
shit.
I make.
Show my shit, lacing my shit.
Your greatness.
Hey, we could do that.
(28:13):
Yeah, yeah, yeah, but Solid man, thanks for sharing that.
Hey, that was dope.
Hey, man, thank you that.
That that was like the highlightto me of my Christmas is just
not only coaching, not, yeah,not only just the gift giving,
because I, we do that all yearround of just like a you growing
here you go.
(28:34):
It ain't a gift, is taking careof you.
But him getting the on this onthis particular day think how
you want on holidays but just onthis particular day he received
what he won't.
He got extra gang he, helearned some patience, mm-hmm,
you know I'm saying and thenkilled them.
For the first week and a halfof school you still got three
(28:59):
sweaters.
He ain't rocked it, he got allthe stuff he don't like that.
He ain't worried.
Put that title, kill him withthe title neck, wait till it's
cold.
Why didn't make the shirt?
But I did put December on there.
I thought I think I put it toohigh, but I'm gonna make you
(29:20):
another.
Hey, you got any.
You got any resolutions for thefor 2024.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, man, one ofthe things that I truly want to
do is actually stick to this.
Man, this is very therapeuticto me.
Oh, the pot.
Permission to speak for you,for your, for our fans, man, for
the listeners, for people who,um, who actually Get pissed with
(29:42):
us when they see us in publichey, because we ain't put out no
content.
Thank y'all for holding usaccountable, thank you, thank
you.
So don't want to let y'all down,want to give you something to
give you this audio crack.
When I give you this, give youwe ever to speak on behalf of
you, for you, for ourselves.
Boo-foo by us.
Fuck, you shout out to how hotmovie for that shit was just on
(30:06):
other days.
I love that movie, man, but yougot to watch that movie and
watch the commentary with RedMeff talking about they did on
the DVD, on the DVD, but thekids didn't even know what
Divotus was.
Man, I told you I about the CDs, right, man?
Oh, my goodness, I know that,not to mention the DVD, I can't.
I can't remember time.
(30:27):
Last time I seen one of my kidspop a disk in some, yeah, in
popping this, no more.
They open an apps, apps withstreaming was live.
That's it.
It's so much that we lose, justnot man.
That's that's why I'm mad.
So, speaking to losing, thatgoes into another just
resolution.
Man of my own, hold myselfaccountable for the things that
(30:51):
I want to do and notprocrastinate.
Yeah, losing time.
Just I lost a lot of people intwenty twenty three.
That meant something to me, forsure, and I buried myself in
work and in crafts and in tasks,not to think about it, not to
grieve, not to mourn.
However, I pulled from theirenergy to keep going of how dare
(31:14):
I am tired, in the prime of mylife, when these people made it
to the third and fourth quarterof theirs and I'm only in the
second year, that's man that I,my ancestors, who didn't get a
day off, who was possibly slavesor just had a really shitty
boss and just needed it, tookwhatever because they needed a
(31:34):
job.
That's up to you.
Know how dare I'm tired?
Yeah, I could take a break,though Like, don't get me wrong,
like I'm not too tired to do it, but like, hey, I need to be
able to take as many breaks asnecessary.
However, I know of myself whatwould I?
Procrastinate it?
(31:54):
And when you lose something iswhen you know how you gauge how
much time in between you didn'treally fucked off.
Yeah, me seeing myself of like,hey, I've made a whole lot of
marks, but when I get to look atall the other shit that still
need to be done, it's like, hey,I could have done more and I
(32:14):
found me beat myself up aboutthat shit.
When it's like other peoplearound me to be like, oh, no, no
, no, you already doing enough,yeah, doing more, but me still
knowing my potential, I'malready riding this prom way.
I'm just tapping into what mypotential of?
How much more can I be at this,like compartmentalizing
(32:35):
different things.
Like I could be better at notprocrastinating.
I could be better at my timemanagement I'm already good at
this shit, but it's like, howmuch better can I be for sure?
So let me ask you this what iswhat is trying to think of?
How to say this?
What do you learn from that?
Like, what can you do?
(32:56):
Let's just say next time to say, ok, hey, next time I'm going
to do this to make sure.
Like, where are you punchingtime?
So then, when it comes down toto it the way you like, ah, yeah
, I did my thing, like what'sthe?
What's the move?
You have to get organized anddisciplined with yourself.
(33:17):
You have this have a vision ofyour end goal, of where you want
to see yourself at.
This is why you may see in TVshows or movies sitcoms that
they'll put a picture of like abody and then like their face on
it, like their goals.
You had the Rocky joint.
The Rocky joint, you had amirror up.
You had a mirror over Rocky'sface.
(33:37):
So when you look in the mirror,like you, you, you, the dying
style, you the black style, yeah, yeah, yeah For sure.
Some people might say that, butthat was a mental.
That's a mental thing for mebecause it really all starts in
your mind.
Man, that is everything thatyou see was an idea that
somebody eventually made adecision and then stuck to it,
(33:59):
yeah, for sure.
So Me knowing how I need tocompartmentalize certain things
for myself, just because Ihandle so much that the whole
load can overwhelm me if I thinkabout it in its entirety, Me
just saying, ok, let me my formyself in the morning, my
breakdown I get up between Threeand five before is like a sweet
(34:22):
spot.
I'll do some work on mycomputer, I'll stretch, but I'll
break down like four to fourthirty.
I'm gonna do this from four.
Thirty to five.
I'm gonna do that from five tosix.
I'm gonna do this from six tothis.
I'm gonna give my kids a blah,blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
But I kind of break it down sothat it doesn't overwhelm me of
knowing like I'm being.
I'm being mentally drained bysomething I ain't even done yet.
(34:44):
At the end of the day, yeah,and I will catch myself going
and I will catch myself doingthat, just thinking about
everything, and I almost kind ofget paralyzed.
Yeah, that shit can't happen.
And then I do nothing, yep, andthat'd be like that mental
exhaustion Like, if you know,you know, I'm gonna say some
simple like cutting the grass orshoveling the snow.
(35:04):
You're doing something now, butas soon as something else is put
on your plate, it's kind oflike ah, it's like I wasn't even
tired before this task wasadded to my list, but now just
thinking about doing that shitis kind of like, fuck man, I
just I want to sit down, I'mgonna sleep the trick that I use
for that because I find myselfdoing that, knowing cutting the
(35:27):
grass is one of them with thegroundskeepers on our ship.
Well, what mentally tricks meout of doing or getting into
certain tasks is if there is atask that I know I need to do
and I don't want to do it, I tryto think of or look around at
another task that's worse thanthat, that I still need to do,
(35:47):
and it makes me say, like thistask ain't that bad, I'd rather
do this, that shit, then thisone.
Like, fuck that task, I'll dothis one.
So that helps me mentallyreally.
Just unlike I still need to doit.
It's just, man, I can't keepprocrastinating the time because
now I add interest and tax toit.
It doesn't sit well for me, orwho dependent on me, to do it.
(36:08):
Yeah, so beautifully said man.
Beautifully said man.
Freedom speakers, thank you fortuning in.
We out.
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