Love Stories, Faith Influences, and Candid Reflections

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Join us on this emotional rollercoaster as we navigate the intricate dynamics of relationships, reflecting on Hollywood power couple, Will Smith and Jada Pinkett Smith's love story. 

We also dive into our personal lives, reminiscing about family traditions, the upcoming holiday season, and the enduring influence of our grandmother. As mentors, brothers, and entrepreneurs, we discuss our roles in providing guidance and support during challenging times. 

In the spirit of introspection, we also explore our religious beliefs and personal goals, sharing experiences with astrology and the lessons we've learned from different faiths. Tune in for an honest discussion about the impact of religion, the solace it brings, and how it has shaped our understanding of a higher power. 

Rounding off our chat, we share some hard-learned advice for our younger selves, emphasizing the need to safeguard personal space, focus on education, and nurture personal dreams. Be a part of our candid conversation, filled with relatable stories, wisdom, and a hearty dose of laughs!

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Episode Transcript

Speaker 1 (00:00):
Freedom, freedom, freedom, freedom.
Speak, speak us.
I like that.
Hit it one more time Freedom,freedom, freedom, freedom,
freedom.
Speak us.

(00:21):
Hey, hey, hey, welcome toanother episode of Permission to
Speak Freely.
I am your host, chief Ali, andI'm here with my brilliant,
brilliant, brilliant bro host.
Ah, introduce yourself for thepeople.
I am Layla, the most.
What's happening?
Y'all?
What's going on?
It's been a little minute.

(00:42):
It has bro, it has it has.
It's been almost two weeks, notlike 11 days.
Close.
Yeah, I can get with that, Ican get with that man, but long,
long for us.
Oh, yeah, for sure, for sure.
We like to make sure we get inhere and we doing what we set
out to do for the people, by thepeople, because of the people,

(01:05):
with the people.
So 11, so 11 days is definitelya wild man, but it's, but it's.
It's always good to be in here.
You know, doing what we do.
We do this shit a lot.
It's just not always on there,yeah, yeah, and catching each
other is pretty difficult attimes, man, because we wear a

(01:27):
lot of different hats and forpeople out there who don't know,
you know, we're family man,we're business man, we're
entrepreneurs, big brothers,little brothers, cousins, ogs
now, especially with the, the,the, the.
Was that the passing of thetorch?
We we sitting in those seatsnow.
So you know, it can get alittle busy trying to make time,

(01:48):
but we do make the time.
We make the time and that's themain thing.
And we keep the main thing.
The main thing.
Yes, sir, yes sir, as a quotethat I used to use, and I still
use it sometimes too.
Man, whatever is important toyou would not be neglected.
I'm really good at quotessometimes that make me feel like
inspirational Dr Savvy.

(02:09):
Yeah, and I just want to share.
Yeah, it's important, it'simportant to say, it's important
to say some say some shit.
Oh, social media.
I, if I say something real,wise or clever, I might get like
five or six people it's like myhardcore fans, hardcore shit
who like fuck with me, y'allain't shit.
But if I put up my kids, Imight get like a few hundred
likes Bruh, that shit, wild ashell.

(02:30):
That make me say, hey, man,these, they ain't this shit for
y'all.
I love my kids.
It's my pain, but, but, butit's me for real, it's my life.
We be hating on our kids like amother.
My life, my life, my life, mylife In the sunshine.
That's shit.
So, man, let me, I want to getinto something real quick, man.
I wanted to share this with you.

(02:50):
Man, I went through somethingthis weekend that I never went
through before and it hurt myfeeling.
What was that?
What was that?
Um, I was.
I was attacked on social mediathis past weekend, like attack.
Like I was cyber bullied.

(03:10):
Who who then went off andwhooped time from my space as my
cyber ass?
But, yeah, I was.
I was bullied on social mediathis past weekend.
Um, you won't believe by who DoI get a guess?

(03:30):
You get it, I do your thing.
One word sounds like a group ofpeople and sounds like hey, no
man's, I want the public schoolbro.
So you're going to have to kindof ride with hey, no man's, hey

(03:50):
, no man's.
I don't know, I don't know.
I was attacked by J Cole fansLike like legitimate, fucking,
full on attack, like I'm aboutto delete my social media.

(04:10):
It wasn't that bad man, it wasactually kind of weird man.
It's kind of like man, he'smotherfuckers.
It's we.
Y'all ain't got nothing else todo with this, all right, all
right.
So let me tell you whathappened, man.
Um, someone made a graphic.
You know the no role model song.

(04:31):
You know what I'm saying.
And he got the line on there Um, I want a real love.
Dark skinned and Viv.
Love that Jada and that willlove.
And we all know what's beengoing on with them as of late.
Um, but the caption on thisthing is said this line didn't

(04:52):
age well, and I kind of startthinking, like that song, like
nine, 10 years old Remember thatwas on 2014 for his heels dry.
It was nine years ago.
It don't feel like it becausethat shit come on and we still

(05:13):
you're still Bump, but that'stimeless music.
Yeah, it's time to use it, youknow.
So I'm like what I typed waswhat I commented.
Rather, was it actually aged?
Pretty well, but I get it.
That's what I said.
It actually aged pretty well,but I get it.
I get the current event, orwhat's going on with willing

(05:35):
Jada, I understand.
However, nine years is prettyfucking good.
Okay, almost any relationship.
So typically, when people usethe phrase that didn't age well,
it's usually like a day, a week, for example, maybe, even,

(05:55):
maybe for the summer.
Yeah, maybe even for the summer.
Well, yeah, for real.
So if someone was to saysomething up the rounds had a
big win this past Sunday, right,and on Saturday, someone man
nine is about to beat the shitout of the vows Nigga, they
can't do shit.
Christian Catherine nigga, theycan't.
Who's gonna stop bossa who?

(06:15):
And the next day we know whathappened.
That didn't age well.
Yeah, they had to snatch thatup at zero.
Take that down.
That's an example.
Give me that.
That's an example of somethingthat didn't age well.
In closer context, in 2008, oneof my favorite rappers, ice Cube

(06:35):
.
He had an album come out calledRaw Footage.
If you've never checked out RawFootage, go check out that
album.
I believe on the cover of thatalbum my man had the Afro At the
fro At the fro, the fro fromwhat's?
The movie he did with KikiPoynter, higher Learning?
He did the Higher Learning.
We didn't have it in that onetoo.
But is that era?
Afro Ice Cube, afro CenturyCube?

(06:57):
Yeah, we were talking with thenation.
We were learning from them.
The movie he did with KikiPoynter, long shots she was
quarterback.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, he had thefro like, hey, I'm doing the
movie in the album at the sametime.
We just stuck with the fro forthe album.
On this album, Cube has a songcalled it Takes a Nation Okay,

(07:18):
it takes a nation of niggas tohold us back.
I love that song.
Okay, on that song, cube saysdon't get me to quote me here.
I'm going to fuck up the line.
I'm heaven sent.
I know what I represent theonly rapper on a fist fight to
president.
Oh, it's hard.

(07:40):
I remember that.
It's hard.
Now, this shit came out in 2008.
In the fall of 2008,.
Who was elected president?
Was that Obama?
Barack Obama Now, listen, whenhe said that line, he's clearly
talking about Lil Bush.

(08:01):
He talking about Lil Bush, yeah.
However, in a few months, hey,obama, he president now, but
this song still not.
That line didn't age well, andlet's, of course, you know I
just want to fight Barack Obama,which you know I'm pretty sure.
Oh Shay, don't want them hands.

(08:22):
Shout out to oh Shay, though.
Shout out to him oh Shay Jr,yeah, the whole family,
everybody.
Oh, west Coast For sure, lovey'all.
I'm just Something that didn'tage well.
It's been just going on thedecade.
No role model.
It's going on a decade since JCole wanted that J In that wheel

(08:47):
.
Look, that's shit.
That aged pretty well.
I get the kind of understand thepost and maybe it's my fault.
I'm being a little.
Why you, you, you, you beingtoo literal?
Relax, you, calm down, I'm a.
That lasted quite a while.

(09:07):
Well, I'm a numbers guy, so Idon't know, I don't know this
guy, I don't think that youtripping, but from recent kind,
they got on my ass and we wetried not to go into this.
We're gonna make it funny,we're gonna just buy that
comment.
You don't get it.
You're not a rapper.
I'm like what the fuck?
I want tomatoes and me and shit.
They got a lot of free time, alot of free time.

(09:28):
Like what the fuck, what do Ido?
I'm part of this group onsocial media.
Now, this is cold on cold crime.
Okay, I like that.
I'm a J Cole fan myself.
However, I was attacked byfellow J Cole fans.
Your own clan, my own people.
Okay, we together.
Friday night.

(09:50):
Somebody live at 2016 for asale drive.
Yeah, don't age miles.
Somebody leaving this stuff,this bullshit.
But that's what.
That's what happened to me, man.
They got on my ass, people, andI only put one comment after.
Like, the one guy was like,clearly, you don't get it.
I'm kind of like, okay, andafter that they just came in

(10:10):
droves, attacking me Attackingmy family no, not my family, but
you know, it got kind of.
It went evil.
What the fuck?
It's been 10 years.
Speaking of 10 years, excuse me, I'm a numbers guy.
All right, people Numbersfigures.
We tried our best to stay awayfrom this topic, but it's funny,

(10:33):
especially because my bro hasgot attack and I don't like that
shit.
I got to come to his defense.
Help me.
All right, so I'm a numbers guy.
Numbers Numbers prove the truth.
That line was what about nine?
10 years ago, 2014.
Jada said in recent news andI'll take it back for a second

(10:57):
have you read wheels memoir?
He stated it first in his book.
Like they were separated.
They just couldn't make herhappy.
That's kind of where he startedpushing his social media stuff.
Like it's not my responsibilityto be a birthday.
He started going off on.
So that was 2016.
Two years after that line itmight not age well.

(11:19):
It might not age well.
Well, just because if theywould have never came to fuck
out a said name, they would haveissues.
Perhaps Niggah would haveclearly kind of been like you
don't know, it's specky, ain'the?
You don't know.
Well, she clearly was like sheain't met Will Smith ever in her
life.
That shit was fucked.

(11:40):
All the memes was hilarious.
Jada Pinkett actually revealsJada Pinkett.
Smith actually revealed shenever met Will Smith, never met
Will Smith, never met Will Smith.
What the fuck you get the Smithname from?
I seen somebody call her JadaPinkett.
I've seen a Smith with ShakurLike this ain't, this, ain't
right.
My life man, this ain't right.
I'm saying away from all JadaPinkett slander.

(12:04):
I'm definitely staying awayfrom all Will Smith slander.
That's my guy.
They call him my man's.
A cuck out here they call ifyou don't know what a cuck is,
look it up Urban dictionary.
They get man, they y'all goingtoo crazy.
And you know, like you said man, we said we're gonna stay away
from it, but it's funny.
But fuck it, man, it's funny,man, fuck it.

(12:25):
It's what's going on right now.
But you know, let that familybe what they're gonna be.
I actually think the whole youknow outside of the whole
Tupac's whole made shit, she all.
Right, daddy, you're going alittle crazy, you're going down,
relax.
But I think that what they'redoing as a couple is, um, it's

(12:52):
kind of, it's kind of beautiful.
It's kind of beautiful becauseif they found their self in a
space where, hey, we're notbeing the best we can be for
each other right now.
Let's separate.
However, I still love you, Istill love what we have, I still

(13:19):
love what we are to each other.
Beyond, or maybe I should sayoutside of husband and wife,
they can remain friends.
I think that's dope, I thinkthat's a uh, I think that's a
beautiful thing to try.

(13:40):
Yeah, um, I think that showscharacter way more than what
they possibly have to show injust Hollywood the character of
themselves, of um being exposedor exposing themselves, and
hopefully we use it as ateaching lesson of hey, man,

(14:01):
it's okay to model, show theirrelationship or how they handle
things or raise their children,but keep in mind, like man,
they're clearly in front of theworld exercising their
relationship, of how they handlethings, and they show you like
they're not perfect.
They're not perfect.
You're still okay to look atthem, of what they built and
what they've connected.
And even, uh, he, just just asa fan of them both, I kind of

(14:24):
look at her like you know asmuch as she's healing man, she
still is hurt.
You know what I'm saying.
She's still hurt.
Um, and I think that will is astrong guy to continuously um,
you know, understanding here hiswoman constantly speak about
another man, how he affected herlife, which could be difficult.
Man, I could only imagine, like, bitch, what the fuck?

(14:46):
Yeah, like you say one, the A,the guy I saw, you, you got, you
got to use listening to, to, to, to me, against the word.
I'm in the basement.
The other day I heard you, you,you, if you keep playing, it's
going to be your two apocalypse,it's going to be the end of you
, bitch, you keep playing, hey,back to the memes.
But one of them said, when youcan't kill her because she just

(15:09):
going to go be with two people,yeah, man, I saw that when the
world just had that little dreamface, they had the I am legend
face.
You can't win, I can't, I can't, willard cannot win.
But I, you know, in shorternews of that man, I feel that,
uh, the healthy note of it ismany, they're exercising their
love and relationship.

(15:30):
Yeah, uh, they're exposing thatthey aren't perfect but they
are willing to.
They're showing like they're atruck, yeah, in a way that a lot
of us, include me.
I don't think I'm, I don'tthink I could do that shit.
I guess you can either be withme or you ain't, yeah, yeah, but

(15:50):
they, they found an avenue thatapparently is working or not
working for them, whatever it isCause, when her book came out,
I saw the video and all the kidswas there and we was there,
just as supportive as ever, evenput a statement out or like a
note.
You know that made that, made Jto blush.
I saw you, you cheekbones.

(16:11):
I sent you a boy.
Yeah, I love all that.
Don't hit me, please, don't hitme.
You can hit me, yeah, yeah, Iain't got shit to say.
We'll say what he said.
I mean, I'm proud of you.
Whatever, I love you.

(16:32):
Congratulations on the on thebook.
You know, now go get some Merloand relax and J to just start
chuckling.
That's why I can't divorce thatman.
You know they're like as fuckedup as that sounds is beautiful,
isn't that?
At the same time, yeah, that'swhy I just can't shake this

(16:53):
nigga.
I always gotta say some cute ass, cute ass, shit, like.
It reminds me a little bit ofthat, that sizzling line in that
slime you out song with her andDrake.
She was like I think it's cutethat you lame.
I think she probably just thinkit's cute that he lame, like,
but I don't think he lame, butjust like man, he we're gonna
slap shit off to it.

(17:13):
I don't think we'll smite lameat all.
Man, I fuck with will, but Imean it like he viewed his lame
cause he's correct.
Yeah, and that's how I go.
Like nigga, he says the rightthing, he does the right thing.
I'm gonna square like amotherfucker, yeah, and I'll be
that too, taking a nap on amotherfucking yacht where my
phone don't do nothing.
Ah, bitch, straight up, I don'tgive a fuck.

(17:34):
I'm out here living my my best,you said.
Somebody said what I can't hearhim over catching these
motherfucking Alaskan swear,whatever the fuck they catch up
here.
I'm out here catchingmotherfucking bass, bitch, like
I can't hear.
I'm out here fishing with therubber overalls on nigga water
up to my motherfucking back,eating fucking crayon ocean

(17:56):
crayon berries and shit.
They be walking around yaning.
I'm out in France stomping ongrapes, making wine and shit,
eating cheese and crackers whatpeople don't know what the fuck
they saying, which is just soundcool as fuck.
Sivante.
I said Mr Barso.
I said see, black ass cheese,nigga Weesh.

(18:20):
So I'll tell you this man, I'llbe Will Smith of anything,
straight, with all the rumorsand negative and bullshit that's
been circulating.
Man, I feel like he and Jada,and I think even people that's
been in the industry that long,keep in mind them, being
entertainers is a part ofbusiness, their relationship,

(18:41):
top notch entertainers, mostdefinitely.
Man, you can model that, howyou can steal dysfunction and be
you can steal dysfunction andyou can be operable.
Yeah, keep it in mind.
As we mentioned before, formost people, almost definitely
men I only can really speak fora man.
Marriage isn't.
We don't normally marry forlove.
That's really not what we do.

(19:03):
Marriage is more of the businessagreement of oh, you rocking
with me, you believing this, yougonna help me.
Okay, you got, you can assistwith this.
We got some goals.
Okay, children, house travel.
You know business, we got apartner.
We union and it in More than wejust shuffling the deck with
people temporarily.

(19:24):
You know what I'm saying, so Ican look at them and say, hey,
man, on the level of business,they know they've been in their
business and at the peak, we'vebeen at the peak of this shit.
Jada, long time Been at thepeak of news.
Yeah, she's been at the peak ofnews.
You know what I'm saying news,no, she's been at the peak of
news.
You gotta say like that whatwas the last hang on?

(19:45):
Now?
You got me thinking like Jadahad got the Hawthorne show, then
she got Gotham for like theCaesar.
Oh, she was on Gotham for likea Caesar, yeah.
And you know, they say TV islike we're the money, we're the
money, money.
Yet you know that's what they,that's what they say.
I don't fucking know.
I'd love to find out.

(20:06):
Shout out Cheese.
Shout out to you, lena Waithe,I'll be on the show.
Yeah, I'm from the Midwest.
I drove to Chicago, it's onlyfive hours from time.
Leave in Ohio, we can come, wecan come to Ohio County, baby, I
can come, just walk down thestreet and just get me in there,
like I can walk real good andnot look at the camera.

(20:28):
No, man, I'm talking shit, man,but um, what?
But I'll be, I'll be Will, andI feel like still, they've been
in their careers long enough.
Where man, it's, it's like, leteight to 10 days go by and,
trust me, this shit dies down.
And then there's somebody elseon the fire, man, what's, what's

(20:49):
dude name?
Uncle, uncle Schwertl.
He do the.
The end of the year wrap up.
Oh, yeah, yeah, they gonna bein that you know what I'm saying
.
Like, if you go back and justlisten to the wrap up from last
year 2022 wrap up you kind oflike I forgot that shit happened
.
You know what I'm saying andyou know something.
Something gonna be new in a fewdays.

(21:09):
Yeah, somebody gonna take thecake.
Yeah, if you motherfucking takethe cake, you motherfucking
take the cake.
You know what I'm saying.
What was, what was last month'sthing?
I don't fucking know, but justin recent, you know Kreshyn and
Blueface.
You know Kiki and Usher go backto July.
Fucking.
See, you just forget.
I don't even think you likethat important, see, right, yeah

(21:34):
.
So I say this man, through allof that that Will and Jada going
through, man, still look at itas a teaching lesson.
And what brings me to the pointof through all of that, man,
keep your family close.
All right people, all rightfreedom speakers and we talking
directly to y'all man, keep yourfamily close, especially at
this time of year where you knowit's easy to fall out over.

(21:57):
Who made the potato salad?
Who ain't take their shoes offat the door?
Who bad ass kids in hererunning around breaking shit?
I totally get it, man, causeall that normally happens at my
house.
We have the house for theholidays, home for the holidays
Hallmark.
It sells, but you know we, sowe host that man.

(22:21):
But you need your family closeand our families have been
taking some L's, man, just onlosing loved ones and that we're
going to use.
Take that L on losing a lovedone, not a, not a loss, but it's
just a lesson of.
The time is valuable and youwant to spend it with your, your
family and your people and thelittle petty nonsense and

(22:43):
bullshit is never worth it.
It don't fucking matter.
At the end of the day it doesnot matter.
It's if you are angry atsomebody, you allow them to put
a spell on you of something youpossibly don't deserve.
You are the master of your ownreality.
You can push that shit back offas they try to push it on you.

(23:06):
It's you, with some deflection,some.
A good defense.
A good offense is a greatdefense.
You can't, you can't touch me.
How you harming me.
I ain't even got to strike you.
I get out your whole head.
Wait, try again, motherfucker.
But that being said, family islove, man, Cherish that time,

(23:28):
especially with the children,especially with your, your
seniors.
That's a.
And if you sit in the middle ofthat, like we do right now, we
sit in the middle of that.
We are ain't the gatekeepers atthis time.
Our matriarchs of the familyare being called home, so
someone has to step up to beable to leave the next
generation.

(23:49):
So, buster Rom, some leaders ofthe new school, and I know me
and my team we willing to acceptthat challenge.
We already been footing thebill.
Might as well go ahead and signthe check on that.
Do you sign your name?
Yeah for sure, man for sure.
I'm glad you touched on thatman that remind me of.
I've said in recent episodes anddefinitely in recent

(24:14):
conversations between you and I,over the last few years, I've
become.
I've become not the oldersibling to my older siblings,
but I've become even being.
I got two older siblings, mybrother and my sister, six years
and three years older than me.

(24:34):
I've become a mentor, even tomy older siblings.
They'll come to me for advice,just to talk.
You know what I mean littleguidance.
Hey, what do you think aboutthis?
What do you think about that?
Like it's happened, especiallywith my younger brothers from my
but this has been happeningwith my older siblings my

(24:56):
sister's having a baby, shoutout to the new life coming into
the world.
My sister's having a baby.
It's actually due the day afterChristmas and my wife is helping
a lot with the baby showerthat's going on coming up soon

(25:18):
and, um, I'm helping to.
I'm against some chicken tobring the chicken through and
help set up.
And you know, I consider myselfa Chocolate tier.
Believe it or not, I can meltsome chocolate, dice and
chocolate.
You know saying dip some shit,drizzle some shit.

(25:38):
You know that's that's, youknow that's that shit I've been
doing, you know.
So I'm gonna be doing my thingtoo.
But, um, so the shower startsat three o'clock Saturday, in
which I intend on spending sometime with you and your family
that morning and and making myway into spending time with my

(26:00):
sister and and her and her andher boyfriend's family, who
actually just experienced atragedy in their family as well.
Um, peace and blessings to them.
Yeah, absolutely, send them.
You know prayer warriors theirway.
Yeah, prayers are uplifting,absolutely, absolutely.

(26:20):
So my wife is like a who.
The shower started three, butyou know it's looking setting up
around one.
So I tell my wife I say, oh, socheck this out, baby.
Um, ohio State.

(26:47):
Come on that new Ohio State,come on that new.
And we got a big game this weekfor sure.
We got, we got Penn State.
You know saying OH To themotherfucker, oh, all, right,
now Let me.
But, uh, you know this is thisbig shit.

(27:07):
You know I'm saying so.
I'm like hey, look here, man, IGame be over by 3 30,.
You know saying boo, I need youto set up, I need you to carry
the water.
I say you know what, babe, IGot you.
Okay, I'm your man.
I'm not gonna let you be outthere carrying motherfucking
cases of water by yourself.
I'm gonna send my muscle.

(27:30):
I got two sons, they can carrysome shit for sure.
I need you Cases water, thestate need me.
Baby, oh, oh, oh, oh, I need tocheer.
Don't put the ice in the coolertill you get there.
Okay, that way it's a lotlighter.
You get shit.
You know saying take the waterback and carry three, four at a

(27:53):
time.
Yeah, don't, don't stressyourself out with easy and get
steps in anyway.
You know what I mean.
I don't play around with myfootball now.
If this week was last week andwe playing a Purdue team or
something like that, hey, I, I'm, I got you, you know, saying
now I'm fully capable of, youknow, watching this shit on my
phone.

(28:13):
Bringing another device, Ibring a little 32 inch smart TV
in that pitch we're gonna be madI'm out, this motherfucker up
in this party.
So, for real, got some boat.
Yeah, we don't get it.
You ain't getting that depositback.
I don't mind the TV in thismonth, but uh, but yeah.
But you know I don't fuckaround with my football man.
So I'm trying to, you know, I'mtrying to explore every avenue I

(28:36):
can, but like I look here, youknow It'll be halftime, about
130.
You know I'm saying, you know,30 minutes a halftime.
I drive there and I'm a, I willbe of minimal use.
I will be listening, watchingthis fucking game.
You know, yeah, like don't.
You can't separate you fromthat man.
You ain't gonna get it.
All right, sis, you're notgonna get his full attention if

(28:58):
you trying to put him to work,If his attention is already.
He had the schedule since earlythis year.
For real, I had the schedulesince At least a year and a half
ago.
I knew what I was doing Onmotherfucking October 21st.
So this year don't look goodand next year don't look that
out at all.
Put it down, sorry, sorry, butyou know I just kind of feel

(29:20):
like, hey, you know, like what?
What about what I want?
What about me Say that shit,man.
But I Watching the game, butI'm trying to navigate this shit

(29:40):
like hey, nah, the goddamn game, this is big shit.
Now you know what I mean forsure.
Ohio State, penn State,undefeated clash of.
You know I'm saying the big 10Titans.
You know I'm saying like, let'sgo, let's make this shit happen
.
Ohio State now looking is asPromising that we, as we've
looked in the recent years.
We got some tightening up to doand this is a big fucking test

(30:04):
and I don't want to miss it.
Not at all, man, not at all.
And Not not just only with ushanging out with each other.
We, we use sports as a, as aunison with our boys, man, so
when we bring them around and weget to explain to them what's
going on, the offense, thedefense, uh, get the really kind
of.
The rivals, yeah, push thatthat, that information of like a

(30:26):
you, we, we, what to park say,I ride on my fucking enemy.
Man, I don't got no love for myenemies, not all.
So hey, if they treating youlike an enemy, don't you show
them no love, a thousand percent.
Don't you show them no love andno sympathy, no mercy, bro,
nothing I'm like you can.
You can give them my honorabledeath, just from warrior to

(30:50):
warrior, and look them in theeye and say some real poetic to
him.
You Go out brave, and whetheryou're bonnet, what if my best?
But here here now, this endswhat Thanos tells Tony Farewell

(31:12):
to you.
Your story will be told and Ihope the gods show you some
justice.
Insane.
I hope they remember you, likeyou, that nick.
Learn my respects.
I hope they remember.
Yeah, told him, like you know,my respect.
Curse with knowledge.

(31:35):
We're about to get out again.
Yeah, yeah, more of the shit.
Man, I want to watch thisgoddamn game.
Baby, I love you.
I'll see you at three o'clock.
I know I'm Sampson out, goingout there.
I'm gonna be carrying water andshit.
I'm up with an earbud in my ear, that's okay.
I'm gonna end up droppingtogether.
Let's go.
What happened?

(31:56):
Oh, um, oh, uh.
It's all squirrel.
I was rushing the kids.
They was taking too long.
Yeah, okay, dad, but thatthat's something I'm dealing
with.
Man, motherfucker, um, yeah, andI'm trying to make this shit
happen for her sister.
I mean it's my sister, but Idon't know, I ain't one, I ain't

(32:17):
no biology major.
I mean I'm just saying, but Iwas sitting there like yeah,
y'all, both two of y'all cameout the same vagina cap this her
family's event.
So she helped put this shit bystrawberries and, goddamn um,
she bought the my baby.
She doing the.
Uh, are strawberries in season?

(32:38):
She wouldn't search it for you.
You know what that's a oh shit.
No, no, we're not doingstrawberries, I misspoke.
We doing motherfucking.
We drizzling rice crisps,treats Um, was that?
I know they going out of seasonchocolate pretzels and Shit
like that little devils, shitlike they get.

(33:00):
And that's something I enjoy andI can do that on Friday, okay,
but uh, on Friday says, don't,don't look forward to Saturday.
Y'all help me Get out this shit.
She don't need me, do she?
Freedom speakers, she don'tneed me just for that to carry a
couple goddamn cases of water.
You know, I'm saying we drivingall the way out there 30, 40
minutes just for a couple casesof water.

(33:20):
I'm sending the muscle, I'msending my boys.
You know what I mean.
Somebody else gonna be there.
I was gonna add shit On top ofthe fact.
Let me say this shit All right,she get home with some
groceries Last weekend or theweekend before, I can't remember
.
Okay, it's Saturday afternoonand you won't get.
You would never guess what Iwas doing, watching

(33:42):
motherfucking football.
And she calls me and she says,bae, come help me with the
groceries.
I say one second, it's 12seconds left on the goddamn
clock at this game.
Okay, and hang on, what a onesecond, one second.
Okay.
Now I tell her all the time hey, baby, you get home with the

(34:04):
groceries, you come to thismotherfucker house, sit your ass
down, I will take it from here.
Okay, now, if I need 12 secondsof a football game where
motherfucking field goal aboutto be kicked for the win, that
could translate to a good threeand a half minutes For minimum,
how the ice cream ain't gonnafucking melt.
And if it is, goddamn and grabthe ice cream, what's she doing?

(34:27):
I mean, we all do this.
She, she's, she start grabbingthe heaviest shit first.
Like I come in she carrying agoddamn motherfucking for milks
and I could have got the goddamntoilet tissue paper, ties and
shit.
You grabbing, grabbing all theheavy ass shit.
Like I'm supposed to feel bad.
Yeah, but say, doing that tomake you feel made you sit Shut

(34:50):
up.
Why are you doing that?
You be moving shit.
When I hear you don't say butthen I gotta come to the baby
shower to move the water andshit, no, you bad.
So I was gonna ask whether, beany other men there, such as,
like big cousins, uncles, didthe man, the baby daddy, exactly
he could carry the water.
He should be one, two, it'sgonna be a man you used to carry

(35:12):
water because when her waterbreak you get one or more Strong
black women in the vicinity.
Y'all can move mountains, movewater.
Man, move that water.
The cooler guy wheels.
Okay, I'm gonna fucking handlewho carrying in that that heavy
ass pan of baked beans.

(35:32):
Yeah, man, all that shit, I'mjust a dolly.
There Should be a handy dollyat every party facility to move
shit right.
Speakers Say man, come on, y'alldon't need me for this, not
while Ohio State it's playingPenn State at home.
Might I add oh, age game I tothe oh, come on.

(35:57):
Nah, she's on, I'll take thisshit seriously.
Man, same dude, but I digress.
Freedom speakers, y'all, let meknow in my trip of art.
Hey, let me know, I ain't gonnabe mad If I'm bugging out fire.
Come on low.
You know you gotta go help withthe shower and shit.
I hear you, but fuck yourespectfully.
You know I want to watch mygame and plus, you know,

(36:19):
depending on how I go, hey, man,if we getting our ass, whoop,
come half time.
If we whooping on them, comehalf time, hey, I take the drive
.
You know I'm saying I hook thelaptop up to the hot spot.
I had his shit on BrianO'Connor style in the whip.
You know what I mean.
But I got Got to watch my book.
I got to watch my book.

(36:41):
I got grit.
That's my, that's my man, rantman.
So I say this man, as we, we tapinto the end of the year, do
you have any plans or goals thatare year-ending before this
whole new year?
New resolution, new me.
Oh, my god, do you have anyjust goals that you working on

(37:04):
now?
I had one goal, um, not that Ihave one goal, but I have one
goal that Probably don'tnecessarily make sense for me to
add this time of year, a year,and that is to shed 10 pound Two
months, ten pounds, no timepound a week, something like

(37:27):
that.
Something like that in which Ican do like I lost 14 in four
weeks back in the spring, youknow.
So ten more pounds, two months,two and a half at this point,
um, that's something that I wantto do.
Personal go.
You know I got business goalsand shit obtaining clients in

(37:47):
the deal.
You know we need a van Likethat, you know.
But you know, just justpersonal goals.
That's somewhere like hey, thissomething I want to do For me.
I was actually talking to MikeyBecause he getting his workout
and shit on right now I'm saying, but I try, I got to stay off
the scale.
You know, saying I weigh inlike every 30 days or something,

(38:08):
but if I'm hopping on the scaleevery day, every two days, I'm
gonna get frustrated.
I only lost seven ounce.
Like did you take a shit?
No, yeah, like I drunk a gallonof water and all that shit way.
You know there's no Balancingin your in your gut.
Like make this wait less, butuh, but that's that's a goal

(38:32):
that I have and that's that'sreally like my big personal goal
right now.
Big personal goal.
Share that 10 pounds into theyear.
But you know we get to.
We get to cooking ThanksgivingCripple, couple birthdays in
there.
Oh, we just people.
Jesus birthday in there.
Yeah, you know, he out there.

(38:52):
Jesus, jesus, where is one ofthem?
Then the other Jesus then whythey be having Jesus in the fish
.
It'll be like a Pisces.
We have to talk about them.
Another day of astrology indifferent cameras.
I mean calendars and shit.
We never noticed that like theygot Jesus, they got the cross

(39:12):
and the little fish we haven'ton the ball.
Oh, you're right, I'm on theback of the cars and shit.
As a kid I used to be like ohthey, is that what that is?
I thought that was like a.
Is that a cross post?
It feels to be like Don't quoteme cuz I want nobody who.

(39:33):
I don't like Dr Umar checkingme Like a super hotel type of
person, but I do study a littlebit.
But if I understand that at thetime it was supposed to be, it
was all these astrology calendardifferent things.
Jesus wasn't really like, itwasn't December, it was like
February.
Because that's what like,didn't like, that's when.

(39:53):
Oh, these season where they putniggas on crosses, yeah,
wouldn't actually astrology oflike December 23rd, 24th, 25th
is actually the shortest anddarkest days of the year.
I think the shortest days ofthe year and then after that the
Sun starts to rise Again.
So it's supposed to be like thedeath of one season the
beginning of another.

(40:14):
Don't quote me, man.
I watched some YouTube videosand read a few books.
Why should we?
A lot of books would watch thefew things that were more modern
, that kind of explained it in aform of astrology, which are
all different astrology comparedto religion, to all these
different things or culturesthey are to just a.
There are different styles ofhow things were kind of
interpreted, or the perceptions,teachers, of people and just

(40:36):
kind of their views, of shit,you know, and they're following
like, yeah, he was right, yeah,I got you, but I do.
When I asked, though, cuz youkind of got me thinking like I
know exactly what you're talkingabout people put it on the back
Of a car, a little emblem type,hang it, hang it from the
mirror.
Yeah, yeah, like, I know it'sshaped like a fish, but is it a
fit?
It's supposed to be like a fish, like, if I'm please fact check

(40:57):
me.
I was like, yeah, we can putcars in the fish.
Well, you know, the world iscivilization.
You're saying symbolic, likeevery, everything is a symbol.
Yeah, I don't mean somerepresentation, but you know,
freedom, please, freedomspeakers.
If I'm incorrect, dr Umar, ifI'm incorrect, well, give me

(41:18):
strong Christ, he'll correct me.
But you know Technique, correctme, let me know, I'm willing to
.
You know, accept it.
We learn no saying teach me I'm.
I'm a student as well.
Hey, we just go, even Trying tomake some things.
Hey, I say that proudly to my,my wife and her family.

(41:42):
Well, they're our family, butthere's, they're like.
They're like heavily stillreligious, compared to us, like
they go within, they don't go.
You know what I'm saying, butto us, like Brad, I'm freedom
speakers.
I believe in God, okay, andwe're gonna talk about death for
a little bit and I'm gonnabring it full circle.

(42:02):
I Believe in God, but I don'tbelieve Fully in the Bible,
because it was made by a man whowas imperfect.
I don't feel like and we kindof got on this conversation just
through A monarch in our familypassing over, and the
conversation came about.
If you want to be buried or youwant to be cremated, yeah, and

(42:23):
as a person like me, I want tobe cremated.
Go ahead, burn me on the, putme in the ozone layer, whatever
I'll say like, burn my bottombut keep top.
Yeah, put you on like the frontlawn, looking like the nigger
from by.
Why what?
Yeah, but man, so lovely, Imight mention you know, cream

(42:47):
made me have a party in my lifeand my celebration, you know.
Just say that man like, enjoyme, you want to be stuffed at
your service?
No, I like a taxidermist.
Yeah, I'd be sitting out there.
No, no man.
So we start talking about thatand that's.
The elders in the family waslike you don't want to get

(43:08):
buried, you don't?
You, god says you must getburied about my blood.
It was ashes to ashes, just theback to the earth, which you
came and shall fly.
Rest in peace to that dog.

(43:29):
God damn it.
He was choking the fuck andright shit out there.
Hey, he tried to make that fly.
You have to launch no dub likethat.
Hey, I'm a fucking flat on thegirl harder than my foot, oh
shit.
So we did.

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The debate came up with aconversation turned to the
argument of kind of who wasright, the world, what way was
right?
And it was the Monarchs, stillthe older monarchs of the family
in the younger generation.
The younger generation feltlike they wanted to get
creamated.
The elders in the family feltthat it was very disrespectful

(44:15):
and so didn't it start.
They start going into like soyou saying God is land?
Oh.
You saying God's wrong, thatwas the good what it is.
Are you saying the God's wrong?
Huh.
Are you saying the Bible it'swrong?
You saying that your Lord JesusChrist is wrong?
And I Wasn't part taste, parttaking in this?
Yeah, that will is gone, but Iwas not partaking in this

(44:41):
Conversation, but I did have myy'all just start liking me again
Because I'm prone to cuss amotherfucker the fuck out
Sometimes.
I'm prone to not letting youbully me or say sly shit and
feel like I don't know it.
I normally let shit slide offmy back too much, but as I even
teach him my boy now, man, aFormer, protecting yourself is

(45:04):
fighting back man, not lettingsomebody just do whatever the
hell they want to do to you, man.
But they got to be able to knowthe difference between cuz I'm
on the same page of kind of whatyou want, man.
Like the Bible was very old,it's, it's got to be Okay,
because that Bible has beentranslated Again and again and

(45:25):
again and again and again andagain from Hebrew, this language
, that language that creed fromArabic, from Jude, from this.
It's like, yeah, this is someshit in here.
Somebody spring of some shit inhere over the time that
wouldn't God ain't say that partright, and we know this.
Okay, the church knows this.

(45:46):
It's some pages in our Biblemissing, oh for sure, oh For
sure.
And as a person who, during atragic time in my life, in my
early 20s man, I was reading theBible, waiting for something to
happen, just kind of waitingfor something to happen, and
freedom speakers I'm, I'm notFor me to not be for something I

(46:09):
could still support somethingand not be affiliated with it.
Okay, so I support religion forpeople who need it, for people
who like it.
That's what they grew up on.
But as a person who doesn'tpractice it as much, I had to
live it and go through it to say, hey, no, that's not for me.
Yeah, my nose is, and turned upat it or anything that I
haven't Live to, went through tobe able to have the experience,

(46:30):
and say, hey, you know, this isthe pros and cons.
Yeah, I find comfort.
I find comfort in the religionI grew up with.
You know, baptist Christian, myhusband Baptist Church, he's
40th and Whitley pull up.
My mother actually just, Iguess you can say, rejoin the
church.
This past Sunday, what's it aTuesday?

(46:55):
She told me yesterday becauseshe made like a post on Facebook
.
Jesus is real, like Heart,mommy, heart, care, scroll my
heart is, picture this ass ofthis beautiful woman.
Do yeah, but um, but yes, youjoin the church, man, in which

(47:19):
you know that.
That war my heart.
It make me feel good.
You know what I mean.
I want to.
You know we're returned to myhome church and things like that
.
You know what I mean.
But I, I grew up, you know wegrew up in that place.
Oh, yeah, for sure I mean so,like I find a lot of comfort in
gospel music, you know I'msaying, and I think it more so,

(47:42):
connects me to my family evenmore, even, sometimes maybe even
more than the religion itself.
You know what I mean, because Igo sit out at my grandmother's
grave, my grandmother andgrandfather's grave, and Play
gospel music because I knowthat's the stuff she wants.
Listen to.
Straight enough, straight, no,I am straight enough, sorry,
grandma, straight, no, I'm gonnaget you here.

(48:04):
I'm gonna want to tell agrandma story real quick, but
Sorry, I know you just joinedthe church, but I'm gonna tell
this story.
My grandma, sweetest lady Toever walk this earth, shouts out
to all your other sweet ladiesY'all ain't had nothing on my
grandma, my sweet, you go tograndma, my house, you getting.
Just do yourself a favor andjust grab a cookie, a piece of

(48:29):
that pound cake that's in there.
Get something, cuz she ain'tgonna let you leak.
I'll get you something.
I got it.
Well, I got some.
I got some.
Just get something for her.
Take something with you on yourtrap.
You know my grandmother inthere and you got a couple of my
cousins around.

(48:50):
My uncle Lawrence was there, mymama was there, my brothers and
sisters there, and my grandmawent to telling this story of oh
, how my mama told her she waspregnant With my either, with my
sister of my brother, with me.
All right, I'm gonna my baby,I'm a baby.
It was one of them.
But uh, she say my mama.

(49:13):
Mama, it must have been myolder brother.
Mama, I'm pregnant.
She needs my mama name.
She'll am.
Middle name Denise, call theniece.
And my grandma, neeson, how did,how did you get preg?

(49:34):
I don't know, don't know.
I know how you got.
Yeah, you done fucking gotpregnant, like, oh, and we
fucking, we laughing in shit inmy goofy either what you say,
grandma, what you tell her, whatyou say, hey, my mama, like,

(49:59):
I'm like what I hear.
What you did, grandma, you didmy.
You know she was doing we'refast in these streets but, uh,
we're probably mommy for joiningthe church.
But no man, I missed that lady.
Man, we talked about thisepisode or two ago, man.

(50:21):
But the holidays is coming, man,you know, and that's when I get
real in my, in my grandma.
I'm a spirit.
I end up saying the type ofshit she used to, stuff she used
to say I caught me tapping intothat, that paw, paw energy, and
I want to be like, I want to beso for my kids.
I'm dad all day, man.
I want to make sure that I'mthere.

(50:41):
But even when I'm speaking tothem, I had it and it felt real
Little house with a prayer, butlike black.
Yeah, it was.
I got on the boys aboutsomething.
I'm like, yeah, you boys got toget, do this and do that and
make sure this is done.
All right, now go ahead andclean up this room so I can cook
something and put something onyour stomach.

(51:01):
Yeah, put some on your stomach.
Yeah, I caught me saying thatwalking out, hit my little shit.
Yeah, I'm about to startgrowing grain.
Put something on your stomach.
Or, grandma, you say that youput some.
Use the words like supper.
You know I'm saying yeah, justyou know.
Look over yonder, stop all thatracket In the fucking yonder.

(51:26):
Yeah, look on top, would sayman, I want to grow old like
that.
Yeah, I want to.
Are we gonna be like that whenwe go?

(51:48):
Though I Was like that downhome kind of shit too.
You know the man's being fromAlabama, and you know like and I
fully intend on it just thelanguage, the lingo yeah, keep
that shit alive.
You know that's how we keepgranny alive, by using that shit
, you know I mean.
Shout out to granny straight up.
I haven't got you.

(52:08):
Grandma, I'm gonna down.
Bless she's Franklin.
Like a mother.
Oh, I don't know that shirt forthis.

(52:41):
Shout out to grandma and leave amemorial church on 105s, when
we grew up and then we went tofire.
Leave a church that's on thehundred thirty first in Shaw, or
a hundred twenty-eight fromShaw.
We went over there.
Um, I remember, I remember as akid, going to church with my
mother, with my grandmother,with my, my siblings, and when
we went to Leave a memorial on105 across the street from, I

(53:05):
wanted to say it was like beingin.
Or a Kim's wings yeah, rightthere, and you had to buy the
guy.
The old band of gas stationneeds to do the barbecue and
shit.
Hmm, we go right up the service, be right over there.
They know y'all in there.
Oh my, can I get the sauce?
So we'll grab some wings, we'llkick it, we'll have fun.
We we've trying to flirt withthe church girls.

(53:27):
It's only right them thewhite-ass stockings in the baby
doll shoes Looking horrible.
Ankles yeah, she playedbasketball, 20s by her.
She got a big brother.
Look at her.
Can they run it?
But I remember that just as ashorty, with the family enjoying
that.
And we are going to church.

(53:48):
We be late.
Latest fuck Related to heck.
I mean like we'll be late,sorry, sorry, great.
I like tardy, late and I'lljust remember.
You open up them, pew doors andit smells.
It's like 30 or 40 differentcologne, perfume, man,
cigarettes.

(54:08):
We Make me a this much.
Mike was cooking man, youexcuse me.
Hey, girl, what's up?
I like your hair.
Yeah, that bitch, that's amighty fine hat.
I hope I can see the Lord infront of this bitch I Used to.

(54:32):
We're going there.
You have got my mommy's everasthma attack anytime we go
instead, open them to doors.
And the perfume White diamond,my man, white diamond, that was
the one at Macy's White diamondand then red door.
Think Donna Karen had red dooror something.

(54:53):
Those were the two that shewould say my mama be like, oh oh
Just, she likes not supposed totaste.
I can taste it and is ironic asthat sounds.
I Am my mother's child, yeah,and as I got older that shit

(55:13):
makes sense.
We're.
It's kind of how, as unique asthis may sound, it's like you
ain't probably ever taste piss.
But piss gotta smell the Shithow.
You know they all connected.
Emt niggas know through meshows bro, yeah, I ain't got to

(55:35):
eat a bowl of shit to be likeShit.
This already we ain't got afine.
So the nutrients is gone, yeah,so questions, in any nutrients
left in shit I'll have you got aaxe, a RP dick Gregory, a
Gregor's book.
Be a bill now somebody.
What's the other guy to be?
But I'll tell your story.

(55:58):
Your polar ice caps are notmilled.
Oh, oh, I think so, was notNeil deGrasse?
Neil deGrasse, yeah, that's mygod.
So he.
He is Degrees, neil deGrasse,the grass.
But shout out to him, man, youextremely smart bro.
I like watching how you breakshit down and make it simply

(56:21):
fine and remind me of myself.
It just you know, just supersmart, fucking facts for no
reason to say.
Somebody asked you and you justbrandish how dumb these smarts,
you fucking.
The United States Space station.
It's only about that far fromthe Earth's surface, that much
so it's.
It's not Out of space what wethink it is, it's just outside

(56:44):
of orbit, just enough to get thesignals across the planet.
So you know, the United States,if, see if we, if the ball of
this pin is planet Earth, thisentire table is the universe.
That's how small we are.
We've had signals go up withcompany and the place will
probably never discover theseplaces.
Neil deGrasse, my dog, my dog,super great fucking spark type

(57:08):
of person we got to use a first,middle and last name as respect
, though just not to not justdisrespect his intelligence man,
but one of those type ofingenious kind of guys, man.
So To take it back for a minute, when, when we was kids, we
were going to the church.
We again there singing, and atthis point Time, and I could, as

(57:31):
a process, until me now we usedto join a lot of churches.
We used to join a lot of churchto make up your mind, because
we went to as a kid, you justhad to go.
We went to Leave Memorial 105was that file in with church on
like a man.
He's 128 for sure.

(57:51):
Then we went to greater faith onlike a hundred forty.
Yeah, they got like a hundredforty.
Second hundred forty.
Third is same clear, orsomething like that, or I can't
remember, but I remember Goingthere as a kid and we would.
We would Shout out to all theJesus lovers I love Jesus to.

(58:11):
My knees has been for Jesus,paul, but meaning I pray you,
jesus.
I really I prayed to God Jesusas a kid.
He's just getting you healthy,though I prayed to him as well
and I feel like religion iscomforting.
That's all I want to go to deepoff on it.
I prayed to it as well.
But what one thing I do want tosay about is I have studying

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and learning in myself.
I still believe in principalvalues of it, the teachings of
it, of well.
I have nothing negative to sayabout it.
But some of the things that Ido take away with me and the
other thing you know, leave forpeople who need them.
You know.
But one of the things I didtake away from me man is a
Higher being, a higher power, ahigher source.

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You can argue the names andtranslations under different
sons and moons.
We lived under different peoplehierarchy, remember.
The winners are right.
The history book.
So whoever given us these bookswon.
You know I'm saying keep thatin mind.
They won.
We were not.
We didn't have a choice.
You know what I'm saying.
We were indoctrinated asmelanated and brown copper
people.

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We were indoctrinated bysomeone else's religions and
guys and restrict of our.
So we can go about that anotherway.
They share a term of how yourmost religions were given to.
But, that being said, I do wantto say that fine comfort and
whatever it is that soothes you,if it's family, if it's friends
, if it is religion, if it ismusic man, if it's getting a

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massage no design washing typeshit unless it's consensual.
You know that happens.
People do that for a living.
So you can be mad at your mamaabout the extra 35 out.
Yeah, 100, if you know, youknow I ain't a professional
player, but I heard you know$100 in numbers.
But yeah, you know just otherthings that help you relax, man.

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You know things of that nature.
So I promote church, being oneof those men.
I remember going, beingcomforted.
I remember being involved withthe singing in church, mama
having a saying my baby sister.
She would be right up there ata church clapping her hands and
happy we joining.
Every other month we joined anew church.
I'm like what's wrong with thisguy?

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What's going on?
But as I got older I had tounderstand that it was more than
just one guy per name thatpeople were praying to.
And even in your certaintranslations of the Bible keep
in mind, man, it's a differenttime in literature it wasn't
stated just God, one guy.

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You will hear God say oh, wepray to the gods.
Or even hear God say I'm ajealous guy, like what, how many
other are there?
You wanted only wise, youfucking jealous money.
Sorry, grandma, but God made me.
I'm talking to God.
So you know, I'm just me someasses, my God.

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So it just had you pondering, asan adult, of your own knowledge
of things, even certain thingsthat make me question certain
scriptures that, like, Iremember with the church, and I
learned more reading the Bibleon my own when I was homeless,
in my crown, waiting forsomething to happen, thinking
that's how religion work, theyare just, I just pray so hard.

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Oh God, I'm showing up on time,I'm pressing my pants, I'm
asking for forgiveness for shit.
I knew I shouldn't have beendoing it, but it's like you know
, you know, you know, you know,you know Lord and it's with him
like, still that learned lessonmoney, yeah.
So, that being said, man, I hadto expand my information more

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than just Christianity.
I studied Islam, I studiedMuslim, I studied Judaism,
buddhism.
I'm really on Buddha right now,like, but I've studied a lot to
know like a Buddha is the onethat comforts me, not just in
the religion or the practice,but just on the just the simple
of I am.
I'm trying to really be at peace.
Yeah, that's, that's a masteryof myself, man.

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So freedom speakers, just alittle bit of information that I
like to give to people aboutmyself, that I'm learning still
about myself, just in this placeof mastery in my life.
I make a good living, but I'mnot living a good life fully.
I'm not having enough, I'm notadventurous, I'm not testing

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myself, I'm not having enoughexperiences, man.
So I'm discovering and findingmyself in this place, in this
role, where I'm needing more ina healthy way, more attention in
a healthy way, more healthyexperiences, and you know me
putting myself in these, inthese places.
I need that, that excitement,that love, man, and I need to

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surround myself with adventurouspeople who are seekers, who are
hunters or who are looking forcertain things, who want to live
life in a certain way.
So you know, with that beingsaid, one of the hugest, hugest
things to me that's important tome, man, is trying to live your
life to the fullest, notburning any bait daylight.
That's a kind of a lot ofthings that we say to each other

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man of like let's not burndaylight, let's try to get out
here, get ahead of these things.
So, man, one day, like weworking so hard, so that one day
we got to work so hard, we getto take off this time and get to
do this and do that, man and Ifound me in that place man just
like, growing, discovering,needing more transition,
especially at this time of theyear where you know family is

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close.
I need to pull it from thatenergy in a healthy way.
You know what I'm saying.
I need to.
I need to feel respected, needto feel loved.
I need to feel seen, taken careof.
I need to make sure I'm passingon great habits and traditions
to my children A lot of thingsthat religion generally teaches
you are a lot of this selfmastery level of things, man.
So what I want you to take awayfrom this man is don't take your

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time for granted.
Don't take your life forgranted.
Get moving on those projects,heal from those relationships
with people, even be the biggerperson and step forward and put
in show in your own mastery howyou do not allow anything that
they do to affect your zen.
Okay, this is where I'm at nowmyself and I'm practicing and

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I'm not.
I'm not all the way there, butI'm in there.
I'm in there of how can I stillstay respectfully calm in a
situation and in, and not allowmy emotions to get the best of
me or let this person know thattheir words or actions are

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affecting me in a negative,especially when the person is
addressing you negatively.
I'll simply put up all day long.
You glorify me off a real year.
I got you baby yeah, but onsome you attacking me, man, I
dip and dies that shit as muchas I need to, and as a master at
it, I'm not about to sit hereand go rounds with you.

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It's one of those swift moves.
You are amateur at best, butprotecting yourself is still a
level of peace, man.
It shows that I care aboutmyself enough to not allow you
to harm me.
I can dodge and move all daylong for you trying to hit me,

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but eventually, man, I'm gonnago on the offense.
But take away from this.
This is the season where you letthings go, and it's healthy to
let things go.
We are in a giving season, butthe best gift can be a good buy.
Give them a good buy.

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I can't do this, which is not.
It's not healthy.
This is in our season.
I got to move.
But it's healthy, man.
It's a healthy relationship tohave with yourself.
I can't keep doing it, so Ican't accept that, or I need new
, and religion is supposed tokind of help you with that.
But one of the things I can saythat I learned from religion is

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with a reset button.
I didn't learn that in church,like how to find a reset button,
I didn't learn how to cope withanxiety or depression.
I was told that I just pray allmy shit away, and sometimes you
just can't pray all that shitaway.
You got to really work.
You got to really put the workin within yourself.

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So take this time to work onyou.
People, freedom speakers, takethis time to so search yourself,
see who really aligns with youinto your new season.
We might have to mourn thatrelationship this time of the
year.
A lot of things go, a lot ofthings die.
This death has to happen, sothe living keeps living.

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The dead feed the living.
You get to watch a lot ofNational Geographic and there's
scavengers they eat their shit.
There's people who hunt andthen they the lions hunt the
buffalo, they eat them up.
The hyenas come and the voterscome, then the dung beetles eat
and they take the dung and makebabies and other.
This is the universe.

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I saw that shit this pastweekend.
I was watching AnimalGeographic.
But that being said, ma'am, asdifficult as it may be, learn to
let that shit go.
Your family is important to you, people are important to you
and life is important.
Life is important.
The last thing I want to haveis a beef with somebody that I

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love, because that shit'sdifficult.
I've been experiencing deathrecently in 2023, very close to
myself and my family, and itjust makes me value life a
little bit more, not even justfor my sake, because my
relationship with death is a lotdifferent than I get to view it
through other people'sperception To me.

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I don't rush it, I don't wantit to come, but I have.
How much work can I get donebefore my number is called With
other people who I care for, whoI get to hear their plans, I
get to see what they're tryingto do and then they're taken
away.
That affects me to be like amen, they say no, he wasn't ready.

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One of those, but legitimately,amen, when ready man.
My man has some goals, has someplans, he has family and
children.
What lesson is to be taught inthis or to be gained in this
Kind of difficult to gain?
But through all things, throughall things, you still thank God

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for sure.
So that's one of the ones Itake with me like through all
things, man, and try to find alesson, not just be so held bent
on what this person did or thatperson did.
Knowing like the Bible is agreater story ever told.
Greatest book ever written.
Best seller for many years hadto take it off.

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It's loose.
I remember stealing the Biblefrom my hotel room.
I was younger.
It's ironic.
Yeah, I stole that whole room.
You ready to find out?
You weren't supposed to do that.
Sorry, lord.
You knew my 11 arrangements andyou allowed that window to be

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open for us to take thatmattress and drawers and doors
out of there To my new home.
Thank you, lord.
The Bible should be free anyway.
I took that Bible.
I needed to read it.
Well, it was actually in thenice thing.
Yeah for sure.
And they stopped doing that.
By the way, for real, I checkevery time I go to a hotel.

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I haven't seen one in quitesome time.
The world has changed.
Do you feel like they shouldhave taken God out of the school
?
I think you can't take God outof the school.
You can only take the publicconversation out of the school.
You know what I mean.
They can't teach the curriculumper se, like Jesus class is.

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First, folks would say you knowthey stopped saying Jesus on
the radio, at least FM radio.
Stop saying Jesus on TV.
They'll say God, but notparticularly a specific religion
of Jesus in which we know theHoly Bible, the Jesus book.
You know and read, write.

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Yeah, that's what Jesus saidRead letter version.
So, yeah, you can't take Godout of the schools.
However, I do feel that Iunderstand why.
However, I feel like a lot ofkids these days not having not
only just Jesus but a religionof accountability that they're

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being raised with.
And now you end up with youknow and you can see.
You can see the way the youngis just changing.
You see what's going on incertain, in just inner cities
across the country, and it'slike man, you can grow up the
way we grew up.
We grew up in these same areas,however, as us having some
accountability that we still gota hold in our right hand while

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we're doing the bullshit we'redoing.
You know what I'm saying, butstill, right there, we got the
light and we know what we'redoing and what people are taking
in.
It's wrong.
We can feel that shit.
Yeah, I know I ain't supposedto be doing that shit, but Just
the last time, mr Love, I toldyou Beams, it's just that last
time.
Yeah, that was my shit.
Oh, I thought you was going.

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That Trace song that shit's thelast time.
That shit.
Right there.
I went to the cold.
That's my shit, boy, but thisis my last time, because I chose
this slavery as a shit too.
But yeah, you know, man can takeGod out of the school.
You know what I mean.

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But you know, keeping us fromtalking about God in the school,
talking about Jesus in theschool, talking about our lie in
the school Sure, they can dothat.
You can make it a rule.
You know what I mean.
But you know the world ischanging, you know, and they're
looking good.
There's a war going on rightnow.

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Another one, you know what I'msaying.
Another one, you know what Imean Over in Israel.
But it's.
Is it Israel or Palestine?
Don't give me the lie.
Israel and Canada?
No, it ain't Canada.
You finished that up, boys.
Yeah, I was going to take themover, but yeah, they.

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But for now, you know things ischanging, man.
You know we've had some eventsgoing on around here in our
backyard.
You know what I'm saying.
We put Israel on pause, putChicago on pause.
Right here in Cleveland, there'sa lot of shit going on to where
you see life, man, these kidsneed God, they need that elder

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in their life.
You know what I'm saying theone that's going to be hey, what
?
Come sit down, come sit by me,don't you move.
You stay right there and don'tmove till I say so.
You know what I'm saying.
But they ain't got the OG likewe did, yeah.
Yeah, you know what I'm sayingand I don't even want to pin us
as no old dudes.

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You know what I'm saying.
But I do feel like ourgeneration is like that.
It's like that last generationof having that down home, big
mama raising you know what Imean and whooping with the
switch type shit you know what Imean and then put something on
your stomach and help you sleep,yeah, and get your ass beat for

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doing some shit.
I don't get you something toeat, but yeah.
But I agree with you, man, andI feel like you know, religion
gives that.
It gives, like I said, there'sa style, it's a teaching, gives
you an option that you knowright or wrong, accountability.
You could debate all day longwhat religion is or for you know
, I look at it as it's an optionor a way to live your life, and

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it seems like everyone is onsome path to better themselves.
You just using the style ofBuddha, you using the style of
Islam, using the style ofChristianity to be able to get
to a better place or a betterself, if you will make yourself
better.
So I take all of that man andunderstand like the children
lack love and empathy andsympathy and they lack caring

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for things, caring about lifethey don't talk about any of
this week, just valuing life.
Man, life is being taken leftand right over, regardless of
what is over, because itshouldn't happen, but just
stupid ass shit, dumb shit, forno reason, none, it's like just

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cut it.
It's like these littlemotherfuckers, just because they
felt like it.
You know what I'm saying?
Yeah, I mean just man, I don'tknow man.
It's actually heartbreakingReckless, reckless, with these
guns and shit.
You know what I mean?
Shouldn't have, I don't knowman, it makes me feel like

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whoever taught us to hateourselves, that shit working.
They went in like amotherfucker, that shit.
They laughed for the ass offand it's sad because we can and
possibly will be putting thatcategory of written off or lame,
because we value life, we valuefamily relationship.

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They don't wanna hear that shit, not at all.
But not understanding man, andthis is.
I think this is the downfall ofit is, though I am more upright
, or I try to be.
I got my weak moments and shitthat I fall victim to.
I ain't perfect.
However, none of this creditsme on how I protect myself.

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You know, just because I valuelife don't mean I see, I value
life so much because Iunderstand depth.
It's why I give you a pass,like hey, bro, I like being here
and you threatening me beinghere, so I need to protect me
being here because, hey, it'sniggas that love me.
Motherfucker might not miss you.
You might not be missed.

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Motherfuckers need me for theshow, so I'm gonna make it home
and you gonna go to the cornersoffice if you fuck with me.
Yeah, yeah, but not that good.
Like I say, man, I ain't neverbeen one to start no shit, but I
ain't gonna take no shitneither.
That ain't gonna happen.
I tell KJ there's a quote weuse too as well like amen, the

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man who won't take no shit is abad motherfucker too.
Yeah, all right, I ain't got tobe no gang affiliated type
motherfucker, but I just I standup for myself Straight up.
Don't do that to me please.
You're a bad motherfucker too.
Respect him Straight up, man.
So, man, if you can give amessage to your old self 10
years ago.
What would it be?

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Can't say that, I'll tell youoff here.
But a message to my youngerself Do better in school.
If I could go back to my veryfirst day of seventh grade, I

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would like to start right thereand I would like to talk to him
specifically.
What?
12, 13 years old you rightthere, don't worry about the
nine of them.
Don't worry about the girls andshit.
They gonna come.
Don't worry about the cool shitand trying to hang with, do you

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, because you just rage routes.
Stay on the right path.
Like my uncle told me years agoman, stay on the right road.
Let's that down home shit.
Stay on the right road.
And I would tell my seventhgrade self that exact same thing
Stay on the right road.

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Focus, focus, focus, focus.
Razor sharp.
On school, my mother told me atad bit too late, too late.
Treat your credit like gold,and I did for a little bit.
But it's not being educated asin our community they don't put

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this in the school.
They teach us a bunch of shitwe don't necessarily need to
know.
Teach about finance more andtaxes more, and you know what
I'm saying.
Retirement more that shit ismoney.
It is money.
But I would definitely do yourthing in school.
Yeah, man, you know what I'msaying.
You ain't gonna miss out on nochicks trying to be smart.

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Ok, they love a smart mother.
Eventually they do.
Smart guy, you know what I'msaying.
But, and treat your money right.
Treat your money right.
Treat your credit right.
You know what I'm saying.
So that way, when you hit yourthirties or shit, when you in
your 20s, you could be doingshit like you.

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You know what I'm saying.
When you get 30s, you bossing itup like you 40.
How old is your age?
I'm 32.
Oh shit, I thought she was like45 years.
I'm 32, but I kick it like I'm23.
Yeah, for real, you know whatI'm saying and I behave like I'm
45.
You know what I mean?
So I'm 36 and feel retired likeI'm 63.

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Yeah, I'll be, I'll be razorsharp in school.
Man, could that man?
I'll be telling my son now man,this shit too, this shit, easy,
I'll be, I'll be pulling theline from a mob man.
I wish all I had to do now wasmy own word Naked, some homework
.
I mean, I were reading.
That's it.
When I shit man, I read shit on.

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That Big guy can't straight up.
Man, I'll be this shit easy dude.
This shit is easy.
Focus on it.
You know what I'm sayingBecause you need this, although
a lot of the shit in there islike, I mean, go ahead, learn
the lives.
You know what I'm saying,christopher Columbus and all
them niggas.
We learn the truth later, butput the right answer that they

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want you to say.
I tell you the real shit whenyou get home.
You know what I'm saying, butfor me, man, focus, focus, focus
, focus.
Raise the sharp light school,get your credit light gold, you
know, and I still marry theperson I married.
That's for damn show.
What about you, man, if youcould talk to your younger self?
Man, kind of the way I put it,man, could you pin point or era

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in your life?
It's like I want to talk tothat young man right there at
that age.
What age would that be and whatwould you say?
I'll probably go to the 10 yearmark, my part, 10 years old,
yeah, not 10 years old, but likejust 10 years in the past.
From now, ok, I go to when I'm26.
The message that I get at 26year old me is man, feed them

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desires that you got, mm.
Hmm, feed them earlier.
You'll be a lot more well off.
If I didn't stunt myself, Ididn't like mute myself like I
did at the time, I feel like I'dhave been a lot more hungry, a
lot more ambitious, I would havedone a lot more.

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I would have had my hand in alot more than then what I'm
trying to get my hands in now.
If I really would have pushedand really like, fared that fire
that I had.
And I'll say, man, don't doubtyourself, stay hungry, stay
thirsty, stay great, stayambitious, stay moving forward
with your vision and yourknowledge.

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Man, you have a A profit in atype of mindset.
Man, you have an anointed typeof energy.
Do not let others shun you onwhat you think and you feel
about yourself.
Man, keep powering forward,keep pushing forward.
They are looking at you, asRandy Dukes told me.
So I mean they.
They are looking at you, everylast one of them.

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It's like I had told you, man,like, a few months back man,
like you, do you, the man ofyour family now, and you don't
get to fucking choose?
Not at all.
I inherited that.
Yeah, you don't get to chooseLike.
Hey, you know it's on you now.
They're going to need you.
You know what I'm saying.
So, of course, be strong foryou, but be strong for them.

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You know it's a hell of aresponsibility.
Yeah, I got juice now.
Got the juice now, man,straight up, man.
Hey, after that it ain't.
It ain't nothing much left tobe said.
Freedom speakers, thank you allso much for joining us for
another episode of permission tospeak freely.
Be sure to catch us next time.

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Oh peace.